#ilovemyselfmore

[nic-because-gay]

On saying Goodbye to the woman who broke my heart, the woman who told me I loved her perfectly, the woman who said I did nothing wrong, yet who still chose another:

I was going to write you another novella this morning, but I am having a hard time finding the words. The words are not new, the feelings have already been aired.

You know what happened.

I was there; I remember...

maybe not specific words written,

but I remember the way it felt deep inside me as I lay in the darkness curled up with my pain.

Then, I found happiness,

with myself,

after you were gone from me,

while you were with her.

I remembered who I am. I started to love myself again how I once did, the same way I once loved you.

I fed my own soul.

I own my own happiness now.

You asked me to try again; but I don’t want to try again,

not now, and not then.

Now, you are hurting.

Now, you need to find your own strong.

Now, you need a friend.

Now, you need You.

Now, I will be your friend, but not your love(r).

I gave you my word that I would always be there for you, and I’m here. I’m here. I’ve always been here.

You have to take the time to heal yourself, or else you’ll end up bleeding on the innocents.

Now, I have her.

She feeds my soul.

She wants me to be the best version of me, for me. If working out every day is my form of therapy, she says, “Go do it and I know it’ll make you happy.” If my hands are calloused, she says, “That shows how dedicated you are to things you care about.” When I’m tired, she says, “Sleep now and call me for your first cup of coffee in the morning so I can hear you wake up.”

When I tell her about you, and how you’ve been talking to me again and how I still care about you and how a part of me will always love you, she says, “You love completely, that kind of love doesn’t go away, that’s the kind of heart worth protecting.”

When I need to go slow because I feel too much and I’m scared to fall again, she says, “Have all the space and time you need, I’m not going anywhere.”

She cares about me the same way I care about myself.

I don’t know how I feel about her yet, it’s too new,

but I know it makes my heart sing when I am the reason she smiles.

She is the echo that pings back to my sonar heart.

With you, I just keep breaking my own heart by loving you.

That’s not to say I regret anything.

But I know myself.

That is to say I won’t ever be able...

to forget,

to trust the same,

to trust enough...

to make it work, to not hold back and give my heart to you again.

A half hearted attempt on my part is not the relationship I want for myself, neither is that what you should want from me, nor is that anything that would last.

I don’t know that what I have with her will work, though I want to try; but I do know it WILL fail if I’m still dreaming

about what might have,

could have,

would have been

with us.

Ashley...

yes, I love you, my feelings haven’t changed;

I will forever remember that picture you sent, of the two lionesses walking down the road with their cub and feel a deep sadness inside my chest at what was once my dream for our forever.

But, no,

WE can not be;

for WE don’t exist in the same way we did before.

I am not the ME I was then

and You broke the US we once were.

I am both sorry and not sorry to write this. I am sorry because I never wanted to hurt you. But I am not sorry for loving myself and knowing that I deserve to be loved in a way that feeds my soul the same way I feed the souls of those I love.

[iamsoclaude]

Self love is the best love!!! MEN, we have to take care of our total body as well. Your feet have to be healthy also. So please, if not every month, at least every other month, go to a nail salon and get yourself a manicure and a pedicure!!! #iLoveMyselfMore (at The Nail Palace) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMDJR0UFAhxQmHRK_JTkxU5H9eVzWqHEMqCUiw0/?igshid=ui07gfujcs3t

[twerkonlucifer-blog]

"I'm scared that I need you more than you need me"

This sentence made me realise how unrelentless love could be. There was once a time where every waking breath was spent thanking the gods for sending you to me. You hurt me, you thought I was too vulnerable to let go. If I was to cut you out of my life completely, I would soon lose myself. However, during our time apart I got familiar with myself. Someone I haven't needed to confront because you silenced the raging storm that fills my core. She is a stronger version of me, she radiates light and contagious kindness. She's never who I thought I could be without you. There was once a time that we were in love, but I chose to love myself more.

[malhotravlogs]

“Peace of mind” As important as eating food and drinking water… #staypeaceful . . #ilovemyselfmore #selfcareindia #healthconcious #selfenergy #stayhomeideas #stayhome #stayhomechallenge #quarantinetimes #liveloveindia #coronacurfew #coronaindia #indiafightscorona #healthconcept #quotesforlifeandbeyond #mindsettherapy #coronavirusoutbreak⚠️ #coronaviruspandemic #homethings #youareamazing❤️ #inspireyourselfandothers https://www.instagram.com/p/B-tWkXogb_D/?igshid=p68cnhtx62ek

[sw33tdreamz87]

🗣🗣🗣That toxic shit is a no 🚫for me. I’m grown af. At this point in my life I just want to be happy with one solid person and make my money. That’s all. #itshardtofindloyalpeople #relationshipsarentthesameanymore #brokenheart💔 #ilovemyselfmore #phatboylover😘 #sw33tdreamz👑 #floridadime💎 #baecapricorn🤪 #notforeveryone🖤💙 #ijustwannabehappy #ijustwannaloveyouright #amiaskingfortoomuch (at Fort Lauderdale, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/B9YWNavhHvfxD3YIBJC1zlajSbvMkTOSRu3j1I0/?igshid=heaq6f5mhh9m

[mrsriddick5150-blog]

#ilovemyselfmore #selfcare #mentalhealthrecovery #physicalhealing #soulaligned #unblockedchakras #truefamilyandfriends https://www.instagram.com/p/B1T6N_-lo3KPRlWQwRnYcNPsuOyKaRSwgg5HCA0/?igshid=1k5uh6w34lley

[zennyartha-blog]

Ketika ngetes kamera, eh ada yang menyusup tiba-tiba. Ternyata ada ahlul tikung 😴 Baiklah 😪 #ZennyLife #ZennyWorld #ZenStory #VeryMe #ILoveMySelfMore #BestFriend #Smile #PicOfTheDay (di Jonas Photo)

[thelotusloveproject]

A wanna-be "suitor" told me I was mean today bc I called him out on his bull, then had the nerve to say "I hope your period ends soon." 😂😂😂😂😂😂 Consider it a continual flow if holding you accountable is apart of our exchange!! I swear I don't get it. As much as some men say they want a queen, I guess self respect is too much!!! #noCompromise #compromiseForWhat #beenThroughTooMuch #iLoveMyselfMore ••• #rp @iamoshun

[momentsdefineurlife]

Before I would never post pictures of me without makeup nor would I leave the house without makeup. One thing I have learned is ... I love myself with or without it. So if you love me, you will love me anyway as well! I am proud of who I am. You don't have to like me. ❤️💋 #proud #ilovemakeup #ilovemyselfmore #youdonthavetolikeme #prettytoughgirl #growing

[iamsoclaude]

MEN, we have to take care of our total body as well. Your feet have to be healthy also. So please, if not every month, at least every other month, go to a nail salon and get yourself a manicure and a pedicure!!! #iLoveMyselfMore (at The Nail Palace) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMDIQhvF4iIs60h7O_i-kO5tAC6VgRxY90Wuzc0/?igshid=1bnfivrteg5m

[trueheart79]

Don't compare everything, you would lose yourself! #beyourself #behappywhatyouhave #youarebeautiful #wearebeautifulpeople #namaste #dontcompareyourself #embrace #loveyourselfmore #ilovemyselfmore #beautifulfriends #onelove #mothernature #humanbeings #oneworld #lifeistooshort #dontshowoff

[skinnymagicwraps]

If you have a weight loss goal for 2017 these are our new packs. #newyearsresolution #skinnymagicwraps #ilovemyjob #commitdontquit #ilovemyselfmore #springbreak #florida

[antmutemorgan]

Authenticity. Self-love. Faith! ❤️💪 . 1. Love yourself always! 2. Create a plan and take beautiful action. 3. With God for you…no one can be against you! 4. Love yourself always! . #nycmotivation #nycspokenword #faithworksbylove #faithworkswonders #faithworks #startswithyou #authenticityfest #authenticityiskey #myspiritualjourney #spiritualityisajourneynotadestination #mybetterself #walkyourpath #ilovemyself❤ #ilovemyselfmore #ilovemyselffirst #yourhigherself #higherselfawakening #loveyourhigherself #findyourhigherself #findyourpassioninlife #spokenwordpoetry #spokenwordartist #lyricalpoet #lyricalpoetry #lyricalpoem #rhymingstories #motivationalmindset #spiritualawakeningindailylife #iampoetryoutloud #GettingBetter🤐💎 — view on Instagram https://ift.tt/KFf8Vji

[nemo-tilus]

Next Beat tomorrow at 6:00 PM 🎶🎹🐻💨 Channel youtube (fen x-records ) #tu #hiphop #future #rap #nt #abletonlive #beatmaker #musicmaker #cool #fun #friends #fl #flstudio #rap #trapmusic #kontakt #cloud #production #musicproducer #poptrap #amazing #real #nemotilus alias harcore teddy #inspired #news #music #citation #ilovemyselfmore (à France) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz04SaEITgz/?igshid=hh14zu34any8

[lilysjmes]

🎶🍴📺

🎶 - Top 5 favorite songs?i refuse to answer this bcs this changes everyday but i’m gonna say my top 2 rn - go flex by post malone & despacito by daddy yankee and fam 🍴 - Favorite food(s) to eat?pizza.📺 - Top 5 favorite TV shows?shadowhunters, b99, modern family, lucfier & jane the virgin

[jymtbear]

#squats #squatrack #lookatme #ilovethe mirror #ilovemyselfmore #lookatmeflexing monday gym goals...! — view on Instagram http://ift.tt/2CQnzqE