#illumi centric

[bungeepuppet]

i forgot that i made all these translations MONTHS ago with the old hxh alphabet translator! sharing here in case anyone else has use for some hisoillu-centric terms 🤪🤪

“Hisoka Morou” (ヒソカ・モロウ) (”Hisoka Morow”)

“Irumi Zorudikku” (イルミ・ゾルディック) (”Illumi Zoldyck”)

“Hisoiru” (ヒソイル) (”Hisoillu”)

“Banjīgamu” (バンジーガム) (”Bungee Gum”)

“Hari” or “Harijin” (針) or (針人) (“Needle” or “Needle people”)

and if you want to try your hand at translating stuff into the hxh alpha, you can do so [HERE]! (with the above key for assistance) >:3c 💖✨

[ao3feed-leopika]

Nocturne in A-Flat Major

Nocturne in A-Flat Major Link to fic: https://ift.tt/tN0mL8z by honeybee_exe Killua despises royalty, for a while. Until the day he doesn't. [Gon treats his subjects like people. His subjects, unfortunately, have no idea what he looks like. Chaos ensues.] Words: 2574, Chapters: 2/?, Language: English Fandoms: Hunter X Hunter Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death Categories: M/M, Multi Characters: Gon Freecs, Killua Zoldyck, Leorio Paladiknight, Kurapika (Hunter X Hunter), Mito Freecs, Ging Freecs, Illumi Zoldyck, Alluka Zoldyck (mentioned), Zoldyck Family (Hunter X Hunter) Relationships: Gon Freecs/Killua Zoldyck, Kurapika/Leorio Paladiknight, Other Relationship Tags to Be Added, Gon Freecs & Killua Zoldyck, Alluka Zoldyck & Killua Zoldyck Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Royalty, Gon is a king, Mito dies, sorry - Freeform, Minor Character Death, War, fast burn romance, Strangers to Lovers, Friends to Lovers, leorio and kurapika in a qpr, Based on a Tumblr Post, loosely, Aged-Up Gon Freecs/Killua Zoldyck, Embarrassed Killua Zoldyck, Gon Freecs Loves Killua Zoldyck, Killua Zoldyck Loves Gon Freecs, Gay, i mean duh - Freeform, Killua Zoldyck-centric, Killua Zoldyck Needs a Hug, Serious Injuries, Trauma, Doctor Leorio Paladiknight, kurapika is a guard captain, Other Additional Tags to Be Added via AO3 works tagged 'Kurapika/Leorio Paladiknight' https://ift.tt/8UaOb0i September 24, 2024 at 02:17PM

[bwabys-scenarios]

Hi, I hope you're doing well. Sorry to ask this, but i love the series so much, so my question is Are you going to finish reunited?

Yes I’m doing great!!

I do plan on finishing Reunited, it just might take a while. I get more motivated when the chapters do well, but lately they’ve barely been getting 20 notes.

Other than note based motivation making it longer, I plan on it being a relatively long series. It’ll span over the entire anime, with some arcs changing to be Illumi and Reader centric. For example the heavens arena arc will be Illumi teaching Reader nen and them getting comfortable around each other, then Reader will accompany Gon’s group to York New, with her of course having behind the scenes moments with other characters.

Whenever the chapters are more episode heavy, I have to watch the anime and transcribe some parts so that also takes time.

I really want to write more, so you may have noticed my account becoming active again! I wanna try and shoot for 1-3 parts or Reunited weekly, but that all depends on my motivation.

All in all, expect a new part of Reunited within the next few days! I plan on it being over 50 parts, depending on how long I make them. I may start doing longer chapters after they get through the Hunter exam👀👀👀

Always feel free to ask about Reunited, I love talking about it!! And suggestions on what you want to see in the series is welcome, just know I’m not going the Yandere route with illumi(unless y’all want a little Yandere bad ending as a special treat).

[oakantony]

hey emanthony I love your hxh fics some much I have a random question that you can totally ignore if you dont feel like answering 😄 I've noticed that killua is usually away in your fics like in your last fic he was on a boarding school and in your other fics he is just mentioned but doesnt have a major role except for the sharpest knife though he was still more like plot device there imo, do you try to avoid writing him because he is arguably the most popular hxh character and you prefer not to deal with the unnecessary fandom drama that writing a fic about him might cause? Which is totally fine if thats the reason, your fics are still amazing with killua involve but I was just curious.

I have MANY thoughts and I'm preemptively sorry for the wall of text that's about to happen. ily, though, here's the TLDR: it's honestly mostly logistical issues that have caused me to avoid inserting Killua into stories.

tbh if I didn't want fandom drama I wouldn't have written that opening for The Youngest Child. That shit was risky af. I still marvel that I haven't gotten e-flayed over it and sometimes I consider removing the story entirely because I have anxieties. (Obviously Chrollo and Kalluto's tryst at the beginning is not meant to be some hot aspirational kink-thing [you do you if you're into that]--the intention has always been to show how far Chrollo had fallen, socially, and how Kalluto has been placed in a dangerous position his entire life without parental figures to care for his well-being [enter: Gon, our knight in sun-shining armor.]) But we're not here to talk about that, so I'll stop lmao.

I've gotten a few questions about Killua throughout the years, ranging from people wondering if I hate him (I love him; I have him as a tattoo) or if I'm just not confident writing him (I'm not confident writing anything, ever), and really it's mostly just logistical. I actually would love to do a Killua-centric story one day, but I haven't had time (though I'm constantly trying to figure out how to write more and faster so I can write more fic. I legit have a pretty fleshed out story in my mind featuring Killua Zoldyck x Shouto Todoroki, which sounds WILD, and it is wild, but I also think I could make it work).

When I say logistical, it's like... We can use The Youngest Child as an example. Obviously Killua being absent is one of the main plot points, but if we pretend instead that his parents decided Kalluto was a better heir, the story doesn't change much... Except that I now have another big personality to contend with. Killua is, without exception, a main character. If he's there, he's going to be there, you know? He'd have to have a whole subplot of his own (which I'll touch on more in a second). The Youngest Child would likely be double in length. Maybe even triple, because I'd have to explain him and Gon's relationship from the onset, too. That would take my idea for a novella-length story and turn it into a full on novel. Which is fine, but as previously mentioned... Time. I can either knock out a story with Kalluto, Gon, the Troupe, Illumi, Hisoka, and the Zoldycks (that's already a wild list to write concisely) in ~20k words, or I can add Killua and watch it bloat up to like, 50k at the least.

There's also an element to writing Killua that I'm not sure a lot of people realize is actually a lengthy subject to cover, and that's his responsibility to his family. Even as a side character, there's so much to address. His story ends (both in the manga and in the anime) with him rescuing his sister, running away, and presumably keeping her safe from Zoldyck influence. But what about the other kids? Maybe we can write off Illumi; he's fully grown, and abused Killua deeply enough that Killua could dismiss him as a victim of their upbringing. But what about Milluki, who's openly derided and dismissed by their parents? What about Kalluto, a small costumed doll handed over to a genocidal gang? Is Kalluto not worthy of saving? We know Kalluto loves Killua; we never see Killua think of Kalluto at all. Does that mean Killua doesn't love his other brothers? Does that mean he doesn't think they suffer? Obviously Alluka needed rescued, that's not in question. But any canon-compliant fic that includes Killua has to answer this question (and many of them do not, and I don't blame them): does he care about his family at all?

(The answer, imho, is yes, but Killua is so afraid of his past and his parents and his role as heir that it paralyzes him similar to the ways we saw him paralyzed trying to fight for Gon in the Chimera Arc.)

That's why it's hard to include him in fics. That's honestly probably why Togashi hasn't included him in the manga in 11 years. There're so many loose ends. It's a nightmare to tie up neatly so that other characters and their stories can shine. I mentioned it before, but he's got some of the biggest main character energy of any fictional character ever made (this is a compliment). His capacity for love, violence, humor, poise, intelligence... He's really remarkable. He's going to outshine anyone if he gets involved. Illumi's whole arc in The Longest Job was learning some of the things that Killua's been capable of his whole life. If Killua was there, Illumi probably would have seen even more pathetic than he already was. Which maybe isn't a bad thing, lol.

Anyway. I should write a Killua fic one day. Lemme just finish...uh...man, idek. I have like 6 WIPs at the moment. I'm gonna go lay down.

[thatphantomtroupelady]

~An Escape~

---------------|Prompt 1: Wishes|--------------

Ingredients: killua-centric, Zoldyck style abuse, canon-typical violence (altho more detailed bc it's written), angst, hurt without comfort, PTSD, nightmares, feelings without plot

Characters: Killua, Illumi, Milluki

Summary: Long after his attempt at running away from the Zoldyck mansion, Killua continues to suffer from terrifying nightmares

Word Count: 0.5k

"What can you even want?" Milluki pants out.

Killua slowly blinks, his head spinning with each agonising hit from the whip. He clenches his pale scarred hands into fists, the clinking of the chains matching the tremors in his body. The words don't sink until moments later, when another hit lands diagonally across his cheek. He can barely see with his left eye now, cheek swelled up with the multitude of calculated hits on the same spot, a steady stream of blood dripping onto the dirty floor from the fresh source. What can he want? What is that even supposed to mean?

As if in answer to his thoughts, Milluki yells again. "You have everything. You're the entire fucking family's favourite fucking child. And yet..." He pauses, as if unsure whether to continue his tantrum verbally or physically. Tantrum. Killua snorts. The term fits his older brother only too well.

Milluki's eyes widen. Before Killua has time to register the sudden change, a pale muscular hand emerges from behind-- one he knows only too well-- locking its fingers iron-tight on his throat. Killua gags, struggling to breathe. Struggling to keep himself sane. Struggling to break out of his chains and run. Run. Because that's the only way of escape he knows.

Jet-black locks brush against his swollen cheek, and Illumi steps out from the wall behind him, wrist twisting at odd angles to accommodate the painful grip on his throat. In a moment, their eyes are locked. Fearful blue against empty black.

"And yet, Killua..." Illumi too pauses, but this one is devoid of any possibe attempts at humour. This one is calculated, meant to draw out his suffering. "... you dare run away from your responsibilities? Run away from... home?"

Home? The word tastes bitter on his tongue as he absentmindedly echoes it back. "This is not home."

"Oh but it is." Illumi's eyes widen, not in fear-- but, warning; as if to capture every inch of his terror. "This is the only place you belong, Killua. And so..." A hollow smirk mangles his features. "... this is the one place you cannot run away from."

Killua loses his ability to speak. To think. To breathe. To retain any sense of his self.

And he wakes up, fists whiter than the sheets they clutch, body covered in a layer of cold sweat. But also, he doesn't. Because his mind is still there. Still there in the haunted mansion-- the place where he spends nearly every single one of his nights. Because Illumi is right. He can't run away.

And that's the one thing he has always wished for. To be able to run away. To finally be able to live in the moment. To escape.

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[jimjimcherie]

My Illumi Zoldyck Headcanons

Once again, because I accidentally deleted my post, and now I have to rewrite it from memory alone.

If you don't sympathize with dear Illumi, then you probably shouldn't read this because this is about to be me being soft, sad, and protective as fuck over my babie Illu.

So... these are headcanons that have been building up since I started Hunter x Hunter 14 years ago, back when I was 9 and I had the biggest crush on Illumi and Hisoka (yes, they creeped me out, but I still had a big phat crush).

I've been watching HxH reactions the past two months and I don't understand how people feel so bad for Killua and Alluka for what they went through but don't realize the other children went through the same, and how Illumi probably went through worse to turn out like he is. I refuse to believe Illumi was born as a perfect, obedient, murder doll.

So what I believe in:

• Illumi was heir for, at least, 10 years until Killua was born and Zeno and Silva saw more Zoldyck in a newborn baby than in sweet Illumi, who had too much Meteor City slums in his blood. I refuse to believe that Killua was chosen as heir solely on "potential" alone, what kind of potential does a baby have? Illumi was too dark for Zeno's taste.

• Dear Illumi was an only child for five years until Milluki was born. He had no one to comfort him, no brothers to rely on. He was basically a test child for Zeno and Silva, Kikyo probably didn't have much say on Illumi's upbringing. He was tortured, beaten, and punished until all was left was a perfect submissive and obedient murder doll.

• How many childish things were denied to him? Were his soft toys taken from him when he was dropped in Heaven's Arena and Milluki was born? Did he come back to a bedroom that was as alien as the new toddler in the house? Did he miss his plushies and his baby blanket? Did he come to a room that suddenly was bigger than him? Was all the softness taken from Illumi, and instead given heaviness in return? Was he smacked for crying? Did Silva break every bone in his little fingers when he tried to hold hands after he turned six?

• Did the butlers ever try to help Illumi like they did Killua? Did they turn a blind eye to the quiet child with the big black eyes? Was Tsubone's dislike for Kikyo-sama so great that it extended to lonely, sweet Ilumi who resembled his mother with his dark hair and dark eyes? Did she see so much Meteor Slums in him that she decided he wasn't worth more than trash? Did she ignore him when sweet Illumi's lip trembled and his eyes shone like onyx with unshed tears because it was better for him to "cry it out", or did she go to Silva to inform him, until all the tears were beaten out of Illumi again and again until he learnt to jam needles into the back of his head so he couldn't feel anything anymore?

• Ten years old Illumi who would play with five years old Milluki, who would look at him warmly and would make Illumi's lips twitch into what he no longer remembered was a smile. Illumi who snuck candies and snacks that weren't even poisoned to Millu after his training, who would get him soft toys, and games to play with, until Silva decided Illumi was too soft and spoiling Milluki too much and made him take over Milluki's torture training. Milluki who loved his "kind aniki" even after he stopped bringing him treats, even when he would whip him because Illumi came back bruised like a plum the first time he ever refused to do something. Illumi who later on gave Killua chocobos, and brought dolls and makeup for Kalluto who had a penchant for girls things, because no one had ever thought of bending the rules for Illumi even if they all did for his brothers.

• Did he go through training none of the other children went through? Was he forced through "seduction training" at the tender age of thirteen? Small, delicate Illumi with bite marks on his small neck and rope burn on his wrists, did Silva think it was too much after Illumi was so averse to touch and his eyes were so blank they seemed to swallow all the light? Did Kikyo say no more, not the other children, Illumi is the only one I will give to you to break? Did they ever notice the way Illumi's mind would wander, leaving behind a corpse? Illumi, so eager-to-please and wanting so bad to be loved by a father that didn't like him, that he would ask for seconds when he slapped him, that would press his forehead to the ground in forgiveness when he killed one of his special tutors before they even touched him?

• Illumi who is half out of his mind with fear all the time because which punishment will it be this time? What did his brothers do now, that Illumi has to take the blame for? What transgression did Illumi make this time? What will Kikyo take offense at now that the only thing that will calm her is raking her talons through her eldest's skin? Illumi takes job after job after job, because he loves his family so much but Kukuroo mountain is the setting to almost all his nightmares. Illumi who is so terrified because he takes punishment for mistakes he didn't even commit that he does not allow space for imperfection in his brothers because he doesn't want them to be punished too.

• Illumi, age fourteen, not even blinking as he was told he was no longer heir, Killua age four grabbing at his mother's skirt as his aniki bowed at his father's feet apologizing for not being good enough. Illumi understood the decision, he was not special, he could tell, no one had ever bothered with him as a child, the butlers never bent the rules for him like they did for Killua, his parents were not lenient with him like they were with Killua, and grandfather Zeno did not spoil. Illumi wasn't even jealous, he understood he was not special, he had been a weird, stupid, and ugly child, he wouldn't have looked at himself either. So he takes care and loves Killua over anything else because that's what he was told to do. That was his new purpose.

• He's fifteen and at a job when he meets Hisoka Morow. Illumi doesn't know it yet, but the man with golden eyes is the only one that will go back for him always, even when he doesn't ask, even when he doesn't want him to, Illumi can't have friends but he wishes for Hisoka, wishes he could have him.

• Sweet Illumi at age eighteen breaks under Hisoka in a way he has never done before, breaks in a way so vulnerable, so soft, he cries through it, and god, Illumi has never felt this loved before.

• Illumi is twenty two and coming back to the mansion on Kukuroo mountain after a job when he's informed Killua ran away. It's not fair, Illumi thinks. It's not fair because now it's Illumi who's being punished for his selfish little brother. Milluki is angry, Killua stabbed him, and didn't even think of the consequences of his actions, Killua never does. Killua never saw how bruised and bleeding Illumi came back every time any of them broke a rule.

• Illumi brings Killua back but Gon comes back for Killua, and Killua comes back for Alluka.

• Illumi is twenty three finishing a job with Kalluto when their youngest informs him he's not going back with him. Illumi feels rage and betrayal, another selfish little brother. Another one he doesn't fight because Illumi isn't skilled enough not to kill him. Kalluto leaves and Illumi is terrified, because he failed to bring back another of his mother's sons, and the punishment won't be pretty, slaps will not suffice this time.

• Illumi never thought leaving was an option, and it's not fair, because no one ever came back for him, or Milluki, or Kalluto, but at least their youngest was smart enough to leave and join the Ryodan, who would never let anyone come for their youngest spider. Illumi who came back time and time again to this awful house because he loved his family and wanted to keep everyone together. None of his brothers had loved Illumi enough to notice he was as afraid and lonely as all of them.

• Illumi is twenty four when he leaves the horrible mansion on Kukuroo Mountain to live with Hisoka Morow, who loves him. His mother cries, his father doesn't care, Zeno is happy as long as Kikyo is upset, and Milluki... Milluki is internally grateful the clown dared to take the eldest Zoldyck away.

And one of my favorite headcanons:

• Hisoka Morow, Glam Gas city born, a nobody magician with a taste for violence and blood, met Illumi Zoldyck at nineteen years old and knew he had to keep the fifteen year old murder doll. He knew at first glance there was no one more beautiful, and no one worth more than dear, sweet Illumi. Hisoka would keep his sweetheart even if he had to fight all the Zoldycks and their butlers, he would even kill them all, if Illumi didn't love them. It took Hisoka almost a decade to take him away from the dreadful house with eyes on the walls and torture chambers, but they both found a love so great it made all the suffering worth it.

So these were my headcanons that were only reinforced by okayantigone on AO3. Her fanfics are masterpieces, and I wish they got way more attention that they have. I recommend my absolute favorites HisoIllu stories: children running through, asbestos in the walls, the home that awaits you, and yesterday's cherry pits. Three of those are Illumi centric and one is Hisoka centrict.

Hope you like my post ♡

⭐のへの💧

[lavenderangelic]

some hisoillu vibes.....but we’re keeping it illumi-centric

[stainlesssulfur]

No, I’m not sorry for posting this much as a beginner.

I don’t watch a lot of anime. I half watch some. But anime fanfics? Yes please. 

There are some ships I might write about besides Kokonui in Tokyo Revengers, obviously. Some ships make more sense than others but you know, ships don’t always make... sense? Can I say that? Anyways, ships I do support:

Kakucho x Ran

Rindo x Sanzu 

Baji x Chifuyu x Kazutora 

Shinichiro x Wakasa 

These are the mains + Kokonui, obviously. 

Then there’s Yuri on Ice:

Yuuri x Victor (the most obvious thing on this earth, thanks)

Otabek x Yuri (self explanatory??)

And Haikyuu.

(I don’t write a lot for Haikyuu cuz I only finished one season but Haikyuu centric Tiktok...)

There are others but... but I mainly focus on those I mentioned. 

I usually don’t write reader x character or Bonten x reader, I hate that. I don’t like harems but polyamory is fine to me. Like Bajifuyutora. 

That’s it I guess. 

Oh and there’s Illumi x Hisoka but I’ve never considered writing for them before.

hehe

[ao3feed-killugon]

Nandemonaiya

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2ScZT9p

by cafeaulater

Gon Freecss is a high schooler on Tofua’amotu, a small island in the middle of nowhere. He’s always felt like he was missing something, or someone. He wonders who or what it could be. His father maybe? One day, he inexplicably begins to have vivid dreams that he is a boy named Killua Zoldyck, who lives in a mansion and goes to school in York New City, a big city on the mainland. When he wakes, he’s back in his home. As his Aunt Mito and his friends at school tell him how strange he acted the day before, he begins to put it together - he and Killua are switching places when they sleep! They agree to work together until this strange phenomenon comes to an end. Gon did not anticipate, however, the strong bond he begins to feel with the strange boy from York New. He finds that he doesn’t really want it to end… Gon has so many questions, and he must find the answers in the limited time he has. Why is Killua’s body always so painful to be in? Why are they switching places? And what will he do when the switching stops, possibly never able to see Killua again? Maybe it really was all just a dream that he will learn to stop chasing…

((A Killugon ‘Your Name’ au))

Words: 2523, Chapters: 1/11, Language: English

Fandoms: Hunter X Hunter

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Categories: Gen, M/M

Characters: Gon Freecs, Killua Zoldyck, Kurapika (Hunter X Hunter), Leorio Paladiknight, Mito Freecs, Biscuit Krueger, Ikalgo (Hunter X Hunter), Knuckle Bine, Shoot McMahon, Palm Siberia, Meleoron (Hunter X Hunter), Alluka Zoldyck, Illumi Zoldyck, Knov (Hunter x Hunter)

Relationships: Gon Freecs/Killua Zoldyck, Gon Freecs & Killua Zoldyck, Kurapika & Leorio Paladiknight, Kurapika/Leorio Paladiknight, Gon Freecs & Kurapika & Leorio Paladiknight

Additional Tags: Your Name AU, Inspired by Kimi no Na wa. | Your Name., Dream Magic, killugon/gonkillu centric, but leopika is alive and well in this fic, Canon-Typical Violence, it will be marked in the chapters, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Please Don't Hate Me, hxhbb2021

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2ScZT9p

[halfelven]

your writing is gorgeous. oh my god. just caught up to “selfish” in one sitting. i saw you took requests—i was wondering you would be up to write a killua/gon centric hurt/comfort fic (gon comforting killua) along the same lines/themes of selfish? at any point during or post canon. or honestly anything focused on them; i love your take on their RS. thank you !! 💘

thank you 💙💙💙💙💙💙

this takes place during Gon and Killua’s stay on Whale Island (and is heavily influenced by the 99 anime)

on the strangest sea

Killua had not known that nights were meant to be this gentle. That you would shut your eyes at night and wake in the morning, and no one would have attacked you. He breathes in the warm air. It smells of many plants. His fingers creep along the side of his mattress where he lies on the floor. He feels between the softness of it and the hardness of the wooden floor. He stares out the window. The sky is clear, and the half-moon sets low in the sky. Everything is warm except for the breeze coming off the sea, and the coolness of it is a comfort after the heat of the day.

He watches Gon sleep. He’s played games Gon will never know. Threat of life and threat of death and everything else that he can make sound dramatic when he stares someone down saying, ‘I could kill you, you know.’

Gon’s hair fluffs out in the breeze. His lashes flutter as his eyes move beneath closed eyelids. Killua finds it easier to sleep in the day than in the night. In the night, everything is more of a threat. Maybe that’s because it’s the easiest time to kill someone: as they lie asleep in their bed.

He won’t want to kill Gon someday. He won’t. He won’t. He closes his hand into a fist. He could stab his nails through his skin, right through his hand. He laughs a little, out loud, accidentally, and Gon stirs. Killua shuts up because he doesn’t want Gon to wake. He looks so peaceful sleeping, and it makes him jealous in a way that travels through his stomach and spreads out into his limbs, all anger and pain with nothing to level it.

Except that he wants Gon to be happy and peaceful and sleep through the night. And the jealousy eases, enough that he can get up and creep downstairs, slipping into the kitchen, which lies blue in the night, and eat food by the handfuls to fill his stomach with something that is not jealousy.

He’ll never want to kill Gon. He doesn’t care about strength in that way his father or mother or Illumi does. It’s all a brush with something that he didn’t want, so he left. And he was taken back, but Gon came to steal him away. And he doesn’t know how to look at Gon when he thinks of that, because Gon wanted him bad enough that he came and he’d die trying.

And then Gon says, ‘Killua,’ gently behind him and Killua can’t turn around because suddenly his throat is closed, and he forgets how to breathe, and the room is brushed over with an illumination that is the moonlight caught in his tears, and if he turns, Gon will see it all, so he stumbles forward and catches his hand against a knife that slices the heel of his palm. He doesn’t cry out. He feels the blood seep out from the cut, and he turns, holding his hand up, and Gon is blue and blurred by his tears, but they fall when Gon runs to him.

‘Killua!’

‘I cut my hand,’ Killua says even though Gon can see it, but it’s a good excuse for why he’s crying, though he wants to jump up and scream out, Why did you get this! Why did you leave? Why did you risk this all? For your father? For me?

Gon turns on the light, chasing the blue out past the windows to the quiet of the night. Now there is yellow light and red blood on the wooden counter, and it’s going to stain.

Gon shoves on the tap and pulls Killua’s hand beneath the running water. It stings, and Killua shivers because the water is cold, and he’s trying to pull himself together even though he doesn’t know what it is he has to prove to Gon. Gon’s hands are warm on him, on his wrist, on his bare arm.

Gon says, ‘we have to wash it,’ as he’s washing it. He stares up at Killua, and his big hazel eyes are trembling with the shaken light of the kitchen as a moth swerves around the lamp, knocking shadows around both of them.

Killua nods.

‘It’s not bad,’ Gon says. He crosses the kitchen for a box in one of the cupboards. He takes Killua’s hand from beneath the water and pats it dry.

‘Hold.’

Killua holds the clean cloth against the cut. His blood stays beneath his fingers, but there is still his blood on the counter. He has left a dark pool of it with a little stream towards the edge of the counter where the blood starts to drip onto the floor. Will he always leave blood behind?

Gon takes out a brown bottle and wets a cotton ball. He moves the cloth and dabs the wound. It’s hydrogen peroxide, and it stings, but Killua does not move. He watches Gon as Gon focuses on the cut on his skin. It’s just one cut. Just one. He’s had so much worse. Gon’s had so much worse.

But Gon cradles his hand like it’s the only wound Killua’s ever had, and the worst thing that could have happened.

He whispers, ‘Poor Killua.’ And then, ‘but it will be okay!’ And he wraps up the wound and smiles, and his eyes glitter dark as the moth bangs against the lamp on the ceiling. Then he bends his hand and kisses Killua’s hand ‘chuu!’ over the bandages.

‘Thanks,’ Killua mumbles, not daring to look at him. He sits in place as Gon wipes up his blood from the counter, from the floor. It will stain, but he does not look at it. If he were Mito, he would rip the Hunter License to pieces. If he were Ging, he would never leave. He can’t imagine what it is like to be Gon. He steals a glance at Gon as Gon dabs at the stain on the counter. ‘Sorry.’

‘Mm?’ Gon looks over at him.

Killua shakes his head, looks down at his hands again.

Gon washes the knife in the sink. Killua sits with his hands held in his lap. He watches the blue of the night outside. The moth hits the lamp. It doesn’t give up. It will kill itself trying.

‘Okay,’ Gon says. ‘Are you still hungry?’

Killua shakes his head.

‘Do you want water?’

Killua nods.

Gon gets him water. Killua drinks it slowly. Gon stands beside him, and he touches Killua’s hair.

‘It doesn’t hurt,’ Killua says. ‘It doesn’t hurt me.’ He looks up at Gon.

‘I know,’ Gon says. He fixes a bit of Killua’s hair, and Killua looks down again and sucks his breath in through his teeth so he won’t cry.

Gon switches the light off. The kitchen turns blue again. The moth stops dying. Gon takes Killua by the arm, and Killua leaves his glass on the table and follows Gon silent up the stairs.

He follows Gon to his bed and gets in without asking, and Gon gets in next to him, and they both fit. Gon presses his forehead to Killua’s forehead. Killua smiles. He can see out the window better from Gon’s bed. It’s a bit snug, against the tree that grows through Gon’s house. A cool wind comes in through the window, playing with the wind chimes.

‘Mmm, come here,’ Gon whispers. He shifts higher in the bed and tucks Killua’s head beneath his chin. Killua freezes a moment, and Gon follows, staying still until Killua puts his arms around Gon. Only then does Gon put his arms around Killua. He strokes Killua’s hair and back. Killua closes his eyes.

‘It’s like I have some mortal wound,’ he whispers. ‘And I’m dying in your arms on the battlefield.’

‘What are your last words?’ Gon whispers.

I love you.

‘I don’t know,’ Killua says. ‘Something brave.’

‘It doesn’t hurt?’

‘Yeah.’

‘Do I die too?’

‘No!’

‘Then how do I live?’

They fall into silence. The waves of the sea are growing stronger as the tide comes in. They break over the rocks.

‘Because,’ Killua says.

‘Because what?’

‘Because you have to go home.’

‘Have to go home why?’

‘Have to tell everyone I died and how much I’ll miss them.’

Gon holds Killua tighter.

‘It’s a bad story.’

‘Why?’

‘Because it isn’t happy.’ Gon’s breath comes out a little huff. ‘I don’t live without you.’

‘I’m just saying you’re dramatic,’ Killua says.  

‘You are,’ Gon says. ‘And we both die.’

‘On the battlefield?’

‘Mhm.’

‘What are your last words?’

‘I love you.’

Killua smiles. He sucks on his lip. He can’t move. Gon’s holding him too tightly.

‘When do our families find out?’ Gon says.

Never.

‘They get a letter. Two weeks later.’ Killua breathes in the scent of Gon’s skin. ‘This isn’t a happy story either.’

‘But it’s better than yours,’ Gon says.

Killua feels a tear fall from his cheek onto Gon’s chest. There’s no way Gon doesn’t feel it. Gon doesn’t say a word though. He rubs Killua’s back.

‘And we take our last breaths together.’ Gon’s voice is very low.

‘Okay.’

‘Killua?’

‘Yeah?’

‘I’m glad it’s just a story.’

‘Yeah.’

Gon kisses Killua’s hair, very quietly, like he isn’t sure if Killua can feel it or if he’s supposed to. Killua pretends he didn’t notice.

He listens to the wind. It sings through the leaves. Gon hums with it. He belongs here. Killua looks up at him, but he can’t see anything but the curve of Gon’s neck, blue in the moonlight.  

Killua presses closer. Gently Gon holds him.

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buying a multi-artist illumi-centric doujin just for it to have illumi x silva in it

[ao3feed-leopika]

Your Eyes Match Mine and it Scares Me

Your Eyes Match Mine and it Scares Me Link to fic: https://ift.tt/3AXJu4d by The5thPlanet Living in a world where one of your eyes turns the color of your soulmates at the age of ten, Killua has to live through it. Killua's original eye color is a nice, slightly muted, electric blue. He's grown to love the color. He loved just looking in the mirror, looking straight into his own, beautiful eyes. But, when he turned ten, that changed. One of them was now a sweet, honey-brown color, it was honestly kinda pretty. At first, he didn't mind it too much, but, of course, his brother, Illumi, had to go and ruin that for him. He mentally abused him over it, calling him a weakling, anything to make Killua feel bad. Finally, at the age of twelve, he was sick of it. Words: 3730, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Series: Part 3 of KilluGon Soulmate Au's !Not connected to each other! Fandoms: Hunter X Hunter Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: M/M Characters: Gon Freecs, Killua Zoldyck, Leorio Paladiknight, Illumi Zoldyck, Milluki Zoldyck, Kikyou Zoldyck, Hisoka (Hunter X Hunter), Beans (Hunter X Hunter), Satotz (Hunter X Hunter) Relationships: Gon Freecs/Killua Zoldyck, Kurapika/Leorio Paladiknight Additional Tags: Warning: Zoldyck Family (Hunter X Hunter), Canon-Typical Violence, nothing too bad dw, Killua-Typical Judgement, i promise i don't hate Leorio, Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Soulmate-Identifying Marks, Killua doesn't know proper manners, or how things work in the outside world, Fight me on it, Cussing, Nonbinary Satotz, don't ask me how I got that head-cannon I have no fucking clue, I was rewatching the show while writing this, Kinda wanna continue this ngl, we'll see if I have the motivation, only if you guys want more, Rated For Violence, and cussing, Hurt No Comfort, Abuse, it's the Zoldyck family what do you expect?, def not accurate but idc at this point, killua-centric, the fact that there's Leorio/Kurapika but Kurapika isn't even in the fic, it's there if you squint your eyes, Illumi has a soulmate too <3, Can you guess who it is? via AO3 works tagged 'Kurapika/Leorio Paladiknight' https://ift.tt/f7QRmXC January 05, 2024 at 05:50PM

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Fics I’ve Written!

Heyo! Welcome to the masterpost for all my fics! These are sorted by fandom (alphabetical) & range from angsty to fluff! Happy reading! (Note: fics marked 🔥 are explicit/18+)

Arcane: League of Legends

Indulgent Pleasures - 🔥 Jayce/Viktor, 3.3k words, pwp, friends to lovers, fluff and smut

to hold (and to be held) - <1k words, grief/mourning, post-canon

Avatar | The Way of Water:

all her children (in her heart) - 2.3k words, Spider-centric, character study, found family

Kuroshitsuji | Black Butler:

In These Walls - Ciel & R!Ciel & Tanaka, 1.1k, instrospective, angst

Death Note:

Objectively? A Bad Idea - 🔥 9.2k words, L/Light, hate sex, frottage, Kinktober 2023 collection

DRAMAtical Murder:

let there be hotel complaints (in that kind of love) - 🔥 5.1k words, Aoba/Koujaku, gags, heartbeat, handholding, Kinktober 2023 collection

Hades (Video Game):

Death (and all his lovers) - 🔥 5.7k words, MegThanZag, face-sitting, pwp, cunilingus, Kinktober 2023 collection

Hannibal (NBC):

angel of small death (and the murder scene) - 🔥 Will/Hannibal, 3.1k words, pwp, oral sex, post-canon

Homestuck:

Species-Specific Differences - 🔥 2k words, DaveKat, oral sex, deepthroating, Kinktober 2023 collection

Hunter x Hunter:

better dig two - Hisoka/Illumi, 1.2k words, angst, major character death, suicide

Kill la Kill:

space girl (earth girl) - Ryuuko/Mako, 1.3k words, post-canon, sleepy cuddles, fluff, pre-first date

Monster High:

The Many Oddities of Monsters - Platonic & romantic relationships, friendship, oneshot collection

Ouran High School Host Club

Too Little, Too Late - multiple relationships, ongoing, angst, unrequited love, feelings realization, LGBTQ+ themes

PROMARE:

A Home by Any Other Name - Galo/Lio, 1.8k words, fluff, post-canon, friends to lovers

Galolio Week 2023 Collection! - 7 days of our favorite idiots being in love 🩷💙

Sk8 the Infinity:

lover’s lane - Joe/Cherry, 1.2k words, pre-canon, fluff

Look at You - 🔥 Joe/Cherry, 1.5k words, pwp, semi-public sex, established relationship

Home for Christmas - Joe/Cherry, <1k words, Xmas morning fluff, established relationship

After Hours - 🔥 Joe/Cherry, 5.6k words, pwp, established relationship, oral sex

The Little Mermaid:

An Unsurprising Development - <1k words, Ariel/Eric, character study, introspective

TMNT (2012):

ghosts (old conversations) - <1k words, angst, siblings, Leo-centric

They Just Don’t Get It - 5.5k words, Karai & Leo-Centric, sibling dynamics, coming out, LGBTQ+ themes

Venom (Marvel Movies):

give it ‘till I beg (give me some more) - 🔥 Eddie Brock/Venom, 5.5k words, pwp, first time

Welcome to Night Vale:

Cecilos Week 2023 Collection - marriage proposals, first meetings, domestic bliss, vanilla extract, & other cute & wholesome fluffy prompts!!

Yuri!!! on Ice:

5 Vacations in Domestic Bliss (and one that feels like coming home) - 4k words, Viktor/Yuuri, post-canon, domestic fluff, part of the Remembering YOI Fic Exchange 2024

Avatar: The Way of Water :

all her children (in her heart): - family-centric, 2.3k words, angst, character death, character study

[narrators-journal]

81 followers reward suggestions

I just realized this blog is up to 81 fucking followers. Holy shit, yall really just love Illumi huh?

Either way! I want to do something for this blog, but I don’t have experience with rewards I can achieve in writing, I’ve only really had to do this for my art-centric twitter lol. So! Here’s what I shall do.

If there’s anything you guys want to see from me, from some just pure smut to just a fic centered around a specific character. Since I don’t exactly know how this works, send your suggestions through the comments, send an ask, or a dm. Either way I’ll find em and keep track of them. And when I feel enough time has passed, I’ll take the suggestions, check which one is either most repeated or I’ll take the suggestions and make a separate poll to widdle down which one to do!

This doesn’t have any fandom restrictions either, just know that if the fandom you request from isn’t on my list here it’ll take longer to get the reward out as I’d have to do the ever dreaded research. However! That shouldn’t stop you from requesting whoever you think would be the most fun to see me portrayal!

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TW// ED fanfic masterlist

aThese are all of the best fics about ed i’ve read in my six or so years on ao3, most of them are pretty triggering but they get the job done ya know.

Les Misérables 

·  Pylades Fasting - Enjolras/Grantaire (7/10) not really that angsty so it isn’t higher but it is angst with a happy ending if that’s what you’re looking for.

·  Becoming a Ghost - Enjolras/Grantaire (8/10) depiction of ed’s is realistic and I probably read this at least once a month to break me out of a binge cycle.

·  J'ai oublié (I forgot) - Enjolras/Grantaire (7/10) sad, really sad. but very triggering so that’s good. ·using Enjolras’ dedication to start restricting again, very smart I am· 

·  just keep your head above - Enjolras/Grantaire (6/10) montparnasse is babie so thats good. eng messes up again and tarie has to deal with the fall out. when does he not

Bandom

·  Mad as a Hatter (Thin as a Dime) - Ryan Ross/Brendon Urie (9/10) gods this fic always manages to make me not binge and restrict, honestly I’d give it a 10/10 if they didn’t make brendon to be such a saviour. 

JoJo no Kimyou na Bouken| JoJo’s Bizzar Adventure

·  Rent-to-own Sanity - Giorno centric (8/10) recently read it and gosh is it good, characterization is on point and istg i may have fallen a lil bit more in love with him.

·  spiraling - Giorno centric (7/10) takes place after the events of golden wind so it may not make sense unless you’ve finished it. ed is mentioned but it isn’t really the whole point of the fic, still good though, still good enough to make me restrict anyways.

·  Appetite of A people pleaser - Fugo centric (8/10) extremely angsty, everybody lives nobody dies so abbacchio stans are in luck, although fugo stans are gonna have their hearts ripped out of them. depiction of ed’s is extremely realistic therefore extremely triggering to me which is kinda good lmao /srs

·  In Memory of the Past and What Comes After - Trish centric (7/10) my bby goes through so much in this fic.... tw//sh though, like kinda graphic if im remembering right.

Shingeki no Kyojin| Attack on Titan

·  Corp de Ballet - Erin and Mikasa centric (7/10) wlw and mlm, great for motivation esp. if you’re involved in the hell that is ballet.

·  Mikasa Ackerman - Mikasa/Annie (6/10) didn’t really like the plot but back it did the trick in getting me out of b/p cycles.

Hunter x Hunter

·  FREAK - Illumi/Hisoka (9/10) really good, absolutely very very good. there is smut so if yall don’t like it i suggest yall skip this one even though it is very effective in making me feel bad about myself.

Naruto

·  a long hard twenty-year summer vacation - Ino/Sakura (8/10) modern setting, really really really good 

·  I Want To Be - Ino/Sakura (9/10) tw//sh 

·  What We Did To Me - Genma/Raido (6/10) really well written but ed isn’t really the main focus. 

Boku no Hero Academia| My Hero Academia

·  Blessed - Tamaki centric (8/10) not that triggering tbh but a really good read

·  Problems - Shinsou/Izuku (8/10) this one hits a lil too close to home with the bullying and ed but its so freaking good.

·  A Bowl of Oatmeal - Dabi/Shigaraki (7/10) tw//child abuse 

·  acid and iron - Izuku centric (8/10) best dad award goes to aizawa 

·  What’s Wrong With Me? - Jirou/Momo (9/10) wlw power couple nothing else to say but gosh is this fic good

·  Disarm - Dabi centric (10/10) found family trope has my knees weak with want 

Stranger Things

·  Sleepovers - Nancy/Robin (9/10) gods i wish that were me 

·  empty walls can't hear you scream, can't see you languish - Steve centric (8/10) steve is a mess, robin is a BAMF and ed’s still suck ass

·  La Sylphide - Billy/Steve (9/10) Ballet AU so you know its gonna be angsty and ed heavy

Batman

·  Off Beat - Dick and Tim centric (8/10) another ballet au.

Haikyuu!!

·  Trust - Kageyama centric (7/10) tw//sh

·  O - Kageyama centric (7/10) not very accurate but good enough ya know

·  defiance - Tsukishima centric (8/10) giraffe is in denial about the whole ed thing

(ill update this when i have the time to read more fanfics, but currently skls kicking my ass so imma head out)