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Having an utterly miserable night where you lay in bed for hours thinking if you dont open your eyes every 5 minutes you're going to die is generally not paired well with having a dream about someone dying and experiencing a years long purgatory sort of space until finally having to accept their passing on but at least it was cool
#ill try to write about it later#i still feel like im going to die any second but ill be fine (they are terrified)#what a way to start a morning
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sometimes you gotta lure your overly-studious ravenclaw gf into spending time with you đ„° đ ( from 'Every Teardrop is a Waterfall' by Kat_12739 on ao3, GO READ IT!!! the first story is about seb falling sick and still pushing himself/not admitting he's sick until he ends up in the hospital, the second story is about the birth of seb and clora's daughter and seb's reaction to clora almost dying in childbirth, and the third is about dealing with a fussy newborn lewisđđ„čTHEY'RE SO GOOD AND SWEET AND SOMEWHAT SAD (not to mention beautifully written) so go check it out!!đđ )
#READ SO I CAN YAP TO SOMEONE ABOUT THEMđđ©đ#the seb sickfic made me realize how much i needed barely functioning and sick seb (but him still trying to be tough)#theres also a part that cracked me up bc at one point seb is so sick he cant even see straight but he just thinks to himself:#eh its fine.... ill just ask ominis how HE functions without vision laterđ€· LMFAO#so stubborn...JUST LET CLORA TAKE CARE OF YOU MFERđ€șđ€șđ€ș#defs gonna be drawing more from it especially sick seb LMAO but also seb having a tea party with celesteđ„čđ„č#hogwarts legacy#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x oc#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian x mc#hogwarts legacy fanfiction#sebastian sallow fanfiction#hphl#choccyart#also i was never planning on writing anything about clora giving birth or abt the kids so to be able to read it WAS AMAZING#THERES A PART WHERE SEB IS HOLDING CELESTE AND CRYING AT CLORAS BEDSIDE THAT I NEED TO DRAWđđ#LIKE SRSLY seb being conflicted and not even wanting to HOLD celeste bc he doesnt know if clora is alive or not... IT WAS SO SAD BUT GOOD#i honestly dont know what seb would do if clora died in childbirth tbh.......i could honestly see him resenting celeste#esp since she looks so much like clorađđ#LETS JUST NOT THINK ABOUT IT!đđ#(still thinking about it)#like this line in the fic: âSebastian hesitated; if this was Cloraâs last gift to him he wasnât sure he wanted it.â#đđđITS SO GOOD UGHHHHHđ TY AGAIN FOR WRITING THESEđIM SO TOUCHEDDDđđ
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personal happiness or what the fuck ever
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#xmen#xmen comics#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#jeans here too but ssh#snap sketches#i havent posted anything in what feels like forever and i GUESS i have to remind people i do draw sometimes. whatever.#aka in my brain i have at LEAST a five-page doujin where this gets incredibly nsft but i dont have TIME for that these days do i#so for now we get just. these scribbles. ill be able to make something exemplary again someday i swear <- optimistic#i think im going to close my comms off for the rest of december once i get through the batch i have now#which ... doesnt sound hard since the amount i have will probably take me to the end of december anyway đ#i just need everyone to believe me i have better visions for yaoifying issue 309 .... the opportunity is right there...#like wdym the dream sequence is gon end on a panel of erik's eyes as he reinforces the idea charles needs happiness like scott and jean's..#call up your ex. right now charles.#what got me peeved about this issue is i have no idea what color eriks outfit could be vjaeLVKEJARK its like.#is he wearing a lab coat over a suit .... i think thats the intention ... or maybe it is a trench coat....#idk shit for me to figure out if i ever get the time to explore this thing again#LIKE UGH IM SCREAMING i have Such Visions that i dont have time to execute and theyre killing me#maybe ill just write them down idfk <- trying to write fanfiction ends even worse for me than trying to draw#anyways. im gonna drive myself mad good night everyone#i have to go to a christmas party tomorrow night. later tonight. whatever.#BYE
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against all odds (to wait for you is all i can do) â part two
alexia putellas x photojournalist!reader
warnings: implied sexual content
(a/n in the tags) [parts: one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve]
word count: 2.5k
You werenât sure what woke you at first but when you opened your eyes, you found the brilliant, early morning light that streamed through a crack in the curtains. Groaning, you rubbed the sleep from your eyes, not missing the unmistakable rustling of clothes somewhere at the foot of the bed.Â
Peeking over the sheets to the source of the sound, you found Ale working to put her pants back on, her bare back to you. You propped yourself against the headboard as you watched on, biting your lip at how Aleâs tattoos deliciously shifted over her rippling muscles. She picked something up from the floor before she turned towards the bed and you caught sight of the darkening marks on her neck and chest. When she saw you looking at her, she smiled, a little bashful, which you returned in kind.
âWhat time is it?â You cringed at how you croaked out the words.
âEarly. You should go back to sleep.â Ale said, putting her bra on as she kept your gaze.
You hummed. âI could say the same for you.â
Ignoring what she said you sat up on the bed, allowing the sheets to slide down and settle by your waist as you stretched. Aleâs eyes wandered to your chest which, you supposed, bore the same marks you could see on hers, and you relished the attention. Once she found your eyes again, you sent her a knowing smirk before you left the bed, headed to the closet where you grabbed the nearest fresh shirt you had, and tossed it to Ale.Â
Without even looking at the shirt, she caught it with ease. You raised your brow, both in question and in wonder. In response, Ale just smiled innocently at you. Ale pulled the shirt over her head, hiding the marks from view, then she moved towards you, her eyes dark and shining with intent.
Your body remembered last nightâs endeavours before you did: every nerve in your skin lit up in anticipation for Aleâs touch, a fuse waiting for a spark. She laced an arm around your waist and pulled you flush to her front with a strength that left you breathless, her clothed body firm against your bare flesh. Without your heels she almost towered over you that you had to stand on your toes to wrap your arms around her neck. You closed your eyes when you felt the words she spoke against your temple.
âAs much as Iâd love to stay, I have to go.â
You sighed, unable to hide your disappointment. But what did you expect? You knew what you were getting into last nightâyou knew this was meant to only be a one-time thing. Besides, you were never one for relationships anyway; all your dalliances were brief and fleeting, ending before they ever got serious. Still, something about Ale pulled you to her, a force that compelled a desire to get to know her. The logical part of you already accepted the fact that youâd probably never see her again after this, but a small part of you wanted to rebel and resist that fate.Â
Unsurprisingly, logic won out.
âI shouldnât keep you, then,â you whispered against her collarbone. Ale shivered and that made you smile: itâs good to know you werenât the only one still feeling the effects from the previous night.
âYouâre not making this easy,â she whined and you laughed.Â
âAlright, alright. I guess itâs time for me to let you go.â
There was a moment of silence but not an uncomfortable one. You looked at her, soaked in how her features caught the morning light, how her fair hazel eyes almost appeared like twin golden suns. You were tempted to kiss her lips then but you settled for a chaste one on her cheek instead. âKeep the shirt, to remember me by and⊠a thank you for last night. It was wonderful.â
âI had a good time, too,â she hummed, a small smile on her lips.Â
You returned her smile, and then you gently pushed her away as you took a step back. âGo, Ale.â
Ale stood there for a moment more, took one last look at you, gave you one last smile and she was out of the bedroom. When you heard the front door shut, you sighed again as something akin to regret settled in your bones. Maybe you shouldâve at least asked for her numberâŠ
âSo⊠did you have fun?â A deep voice filtered through the speaker before you saw the familiar mop of blonde hair and blue eyes on your screen. You rolled your eyes at his dry tone but you smiled nonetheless.
âOh hi, Derek, Iâm doing fine! Thank you for asking!â
Derek gave you an unimpressed look. âCome on. I need details cause that club was exclusive for a reason. So, did you hook up with someone?â
âDude, stop! Thatâs soââ you shook your head, a palm over your face. You swore if he wasnât family you wouldâve⊠you breathed through your nose. âThank you for the pass and everything but Iâm not obligated to tell you shit.â
âFine, I see how it is. Just âcause Iâm not there youâre keeping secrets from me now, huh?â He raised an exaggerated eyebrow.Â
âThen maybe you shouldâve come here with me,â you retorted with faux annoyance. âWhatâs the point of you owning a house in Barcelona if youâre not going to use it? Itâs literally rotting here! The fact that you havenât even put any personal things in here is criminal!â
âAnd let this agency burn down to the ground while both of us are away? Pfft, yeah, right!â Derek scoffed. âYou know itâs either you or me who can keep watch around here. Besides, the house can wait and youâre using it now, right? So, a win-win in my book.â
He was right but you werenât about to tell him that so you opted to change the topic. âHow are things on your end anyway?â
âChaotic, as usual. And it doesnât help weâre now down twoâactually, three including youâof our best in the Spot News department.â
At that, you sat up from the couch, alarm and dread filled your body and you brought the phone closer to you. âOh my god, did something happen?âÂ
Derek sighed heavily, his demeanour clouded over as he pinched the bridge of his nose. âIt was Jones and Gildaâtheyâre stable, donât worry!âthey got caught in a flash flood on the way to the base at their area. Sick with some minor injuries, Jones more so than Gilda, but thankfully theyâre both okay.â
At that, you breathed out in relief. You were well acquainted with the dangers that came with your job but you could never get used to how quickly a situation could get from bad to worse. The mere thought was enough to turn your hands cold.Â
âWhen did this happen?â
âEarly morning today in our timezone.â
âOh, fuck. Derek, why didnât you call me?!â
âDude, youâre on leave. And itâs not that I didnât want to let you know, I just wasnât about to wake you up in the middle of the night to give you this headache. Iâm just about done with the paperworks anyway.â A moment silence, then Derek sighed. âYou really chose the worst time to go on leave. You know, I had to send Jersey to start covering Spot.â
âNot my fault you authorised it. I was happy to wait another month, remember? Wait, so if Jersey is doing Spot, whoâs doing Sports?â
âI know, I know, donât remind me âcause Iâm already regretting it. And no oneâs doing it. Spot coverage is more important butââ
ââwe get a decent sum from Sports, too,â you finished for him. You did some quick estimation in your head: a month or two without Sports could prove costly, too great of a sum to let go. You hummed, rubbing your chin, but it didnât take you long to realise that you could help out, your mind immediately fleeted to your conversation with Ale and her suggestion.
âIâll cover it, Derek.â
âNo. Youâre supposed to be enjoying your leaveââ
âDerek.â You fixed a stern gaze at him, the one you knew that he knew meant your mind was made up. Then you proceeded to reassure him that it was fine, and then you told him about your plan. âAlright, then, Iâll leave the press passes to you.â
âIâll e-mail them to you once I get âem, most likely by tonight your time. IââÂ
âDerek, you got to seeââ Another voice filtered through the speaker while you watched as Derek turned his head to the side and held his hand up to whoever it was before returning his focus back to you.
âOkay, as much as Iâd love to keep talking to you, Robert just brought me a huge stack of paper so Iâm going to bail.âÂ
âAlright. Have fun, you. Talk to you later.â
âHa ha, very funny. But seriously, thank you.â
âNo worries. Kiss Mom for me when you see her.â
âI will. Love you, sis.â
âI love you, too.â
After calling Jones and Gilda to ask about their condition and to send them your well wishes, you decided to spend the rest of your day at the nearby square and the beach. A day as good as this wasnât meant to be wasted by staying inside so you grabbed several rolls of film and your beloved Leica camera before heading out.Â
It was already late afternoon when you found yourself trudging along the shoreline of one of Barcelonaâs beaches, appreciating the orange-tinged skies and how the gulls called from above. When you looked to the horizon, you found a mother and her little daughter paddle-boarding just a hundred meters from the shore. You could see almost no details in the shadows of their silhouette but the large setting sun framed them in such a way that you felt to take a shot of the moment. So you adjusted your aperture accordingly, pressed the viewfinder against your brow, lined up your shot, and pressed the shutter.
âI thought you looked familiar⊠And I was right.â
Your thumb froze over the advance lever when you heard someone speak from somewhere behind you. That voice⊠could it be?
You whipped your head over your shoulder and found none other than Ale standing there. She was wearing a pair of jean shorts, a white opened blouse that put her toned abs and Nike sports bra on display, loose hair slightly damp, with a leash in one hand that lead to a small, fluffy dog. She also had on a pair of black wraparound sunglasses that she moved to the top of her head, revealing her hazel eyes that captivated your gaze immediately.
You could hardly believe your eyes and your luck; you already accepted her fleeting presence in your life but to meet her again in a city as big as Barcelona without any means of contact⊠that surely was nothing short of a miracle.
âAle, hi! IâI never thought Iâd see you again,â you said after you finally found your voice but as soon as the words left your mouth, your cheeks warmed. What were you supposed to say to a one night stand in this situation, especially when you clearly wanted it to happen again?
âMe neither. I should thank Nala for dragging me out here.â Ale grinned as she glanced down at her dog by her feet. You crooned as you bent down, then you offered your hand first and only after Nala licked your knuckles did you proceed to pet her.
âThank you, Nala, for taking your owner for a walk.â At that, a hearty laugh came from Ale which caused Nala, who seemed to be overjoyed by the sound of her ownerâs delight, to yip and wag her tail. And just as quickly as she had, she seemed to get bored and began to bound forward, urging Ale to move as well so you stood up, brushed the sand from your palms, and fell in step with her.Â
For a moment, the space between you was filled by the sound of the waves, the sound of the shifting sand beneath your feet, and the ever-bustling noise from the city. Then you recalled your conversation with Derek this morning.
âI thought about what you said, about covering womenâs football. Iâm going to be given a press pass for a match, not sure which one theyâll give me, though. But do you know of any big matches coming up?â
âReally? Thatâs great! Do you have any particular team in mind orâŠ?â
âResearch is still on my to-do list so no, not really. Iâm all ears for suggestions, though.â
âI see. Well, there is this match coming up: Real Madrid and Barcelona. Since you donât know, thereâs rivalry between the two teams so any match between them tends to get crowded. You should come watch.âÂ
âThat sounds like a good one. I hope thatâs what theyâll get me into. Will you be there?â
âI hope so, too. And yes, Iâll be there.â As she said this, her eyes shone with a glint not dissimilar to what you saw in them the night you met. Her lips tilted to the side, closed but quirked at the corners like she was holding in a laugh. If it werenât already clear that night, it was nowâyou were definitely missing something here.
âWhat?â You asked, confused. What was she not telling you? But at the question, Ale only let out a small giggle, grinning as she did so.
âNothing, nothing,â she said, shaking her head. You didnât believe her but you let it slide one more time and the fact that she looked so distracting didnât help either.
She had her head turned to you, her loose hair framed her face and strands fluttered in the cool, ocean breeze. You had to tilt your head up slightly to meet her eyes and, without any bidding, memories from that night and the morning after filtered through your mind: the way she held you against her, the way you wanted her to stay⊠maybe you should ask her if she was free tonight.
ââwhat do you have in mind?â
You blinked. âWhat?â
Ale threw her head back, letting out another hearty laugh before she looked at you and you saw amusement swimming in her eyes. Then, she continued with a smirk, âyou asked if I was free tonight. I said yes. Or⊠was I not meant to hear that?â
Your ears and cheeks burnt while you internally cursed your slippery tongue. That was smooth. Real smooth. âUmmmâŠâ
You woke the next morning with a delicious soreness between your thighs, a pleasant reminder of the way Ale ravished you last night. Similar to the first morning after, you heard the rustling of clothes being put on. But before you could fully open your eyes, warmth from Aleâs lips branded the skin on your shoulder.Â
âI have to go. See you next time?â Ale murmured softly. You shifted slightly to the side and you saw how the sunlight behind her gilded her hair with an amber halo and made her eyes appear like molten gold.Â
Brushing a loose strand behind her ear, you hummed in confirmation and pressed your forehead sleepily against the sharp line of her jaw, closing your eyes as you did so and you whispered, âyou know where to find me.â
#ap11#not proofread#mine#my writing#a/n: introduced some fictional characters here for plot purposes and there'll be more later on (i hope that wont put off some people)#i tried not to info-dump but not really sure if i succeeded lol#also i find it difficult to write smut and its even harder without talking about feelings so nothing yet folks im so sorry#and idk when the next part will come out cause its one of the parts that arent fleshed out but ill try to finish it by next week#just a reminder: im tweaking minor details as i go so the most accurate copy of all the parts will be on my ao3 (@thesunisatangerine)#apologies for any grammar and spelling mistakes ill work on em later#woso x reader#alexia putellas x reader
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ooooo timkon w âCan you just hold me?â or âYou look like you need a hug." for the ficlet thing :3
Kon's hair is a frizzy mess.
That's the first red flag. Kon is ridiculously vain when he wants to be, with a whole hair care shower routine, silken pillowcases, and an array of curl creams and whatnot that he had to explain to Tim twice before any of it stuck in his head properly. Tim teases him for it now and then, but he knows it's because Kon doesn't like people seeing him at anything but his best. Kon got too used to being picked apart on camera for that.
So the fact that his hair is unkempt and mussed as he lets himself in from the balcony is... concerning.
Even more concerning is the way he barely even looks at Tim before he throws himself at the bed, flopping face-down with an oof. The balcony door closes itself behind him like an afterthought, and he heaves a huge, melancholy sigh.
"Kon?" Tim pushes away from his desk, trotting over to the bedside. Kon's legs are sticking off, and Tim shakes his head fondly as he reaches down to tug Kon's boots off. "Long day, huh?"
The first boot comes off in his hands; the second follows almost instantaneously. Kon lifts his head from the duvet to give him a slightly sheepish look over his shoulder, apologetic, before he drops his face back down with a thump.
"I'm tired," he mumbles. And he sounds like it. There isn't even a hint of a smile in his voice.
Tim crawls onto the bed next to him, rests his hand comfortingly at the small of his back. "What happened?"
Kon hisses out another sigh into the duvet. "Someone tried toâand don't get your knickers in a twist, I'm fineâbut someone tried to dissect me today. Again."
Alarm jolts through Tim's whole body; his hands immediately start roaming Kon's torso, probing for wounds. "What?! Are you hurtâ"
"I just said, I'm fine, Rob." Kon sounds a little wry as he rolls onto his back. "Jeez. What happened to your listening skills?"
He catches one of Tim's wrists and holds it to his chest, over his heart; Tim can see the sliver of an incision, cut right into the center of the S-shield emblazoned on his chest. He can't tell if it cut the skin beneath or not, but at least he doesn't see any blood.
The tiny smile on Kon's face fades, and Tim softens, studying him. Now that he can look properly, he can see the telltale signs that Kon cried, earlier; his cheeks are a little blotchy, his eyes slightly reddened. An eyelash is stuck to the delicate skin just below his eye.
"Some... ugh. They were some, like, Cadmus-wannabes. Total bozos, though. They had a red sun lamp, but no metagene suppressant, so." Kon shrugs, discontented. "They didn't even use the energy restraints like that time with Amanda Spence, likeâc'mon, at least do your basic research if you're gonna try to vivisect a guy, right?" He snorts humorlessly. "I got out fine, took it down, called the S.C.U., it's whatever. I'm just... I'm so tired, Tim," and his voice cracks on Tim's name.
"Kon," he murmurs, leaning down. He presses their foreheads together, his chest aching. He'll have to check the news, find out from reports who exactly was behind this, because... it shouldn't matter, since it's already taken care of, but something inside him burns at the thought that anyone, anywhere, could put such a bone-deep sorrow into Kon's eyes.
"I'm so tired of people acting like I'mâlike I'm not a person just 'cuz I hatched outta some stupid tube in a lab." Kon's eyes are too bright. He squeezes them shut and takes a shaky breath. "Likeâwhat do I gotta do, y'know? How do you justâhow do you even get through to people who're so convinced clones aren't people? I'm a person, too! I just... I..."
Tim very briefly debates the ethics of breaking into Stryker's just so he can hit someone with his staff. Or his car.
"I'm... really sorry you had to deal with that," he says instead, lamely. It's cold comfort, and awkward, andâ
And it makes Kon laugh, watery but real. He blinks his teary-bright eyes up at Tim, brushes a gloved hand to his cheek. "You're mad as hell right now, aren't you?"
Tim smiles ruefully and presses his lips to Kon's jaw. "You caught me." Another kiss, to the corner of Kon's mouth. "I justâI hate that I can't do anything to fix this kinda thing for you. You don't deserve it."
"Mm." Kon takes a second to collect himself, swallows hard, and breathes out slowly. "You do more than you realize, I think. Can you justâcan you just hold me? For a little while?"
Tim flops down on top of him immediately, wraps his arms around his head and neck, and smushes his face into Kon's hair. It would probably be more comfortable if they were side-by-side and facing each other, but the advantage of this position is thatâ
Kon laughs again, soft and fond. His voice is still a little thick, but he's smiling now. "Is that comfy for you...?"
"Kinda." Tim kisses his temple, too. "You smell like smoke."
"Mmf, sorry." Kon sighs again. "And I got it all over the bed now, too, huh..."
"S'okay. We can just grab a different blanket later." Tim scrunches his fingers through Kon's hair until they hit a tangle. "...Want me to wash your hair for you?"
Kon's arms tighten around him, and suddenly he seems like he needs a moment before he can respond. Tim doesn't rush him.
"Yeah," Kon croaks out after a moment, his voice suspiciously wet. "Yeah, Robbie. I'd like that a lot."
#rimi writes#emmothman#timkon#yet another ficlet for the ''this got kind of long and maybe it should go on ao3 instead but idk'' pile. 964 words. awkward length đ#oh well maybe ill come back to the concept for a proper fic later bc i DO constantly think abt kons bedrock belief in his own humanity--#--even in the face of constant and sometimes extreme dehumanization#hi. im still thinking about clone baby guardian arc and amanda spence trying to kill kon on the dissection table#like i know its a comic but also exsanguination w/o co2 or other anesthesia is like. extremely illegal to do to MICE#<- worked in a lab where we handled animals#and just thinking abt that vs how dehumanized kon gets in there. man!!!!!!#anyways uhhhhh tag ramble over. bye#tim#kon
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Soooooooooo I finished the weapons :D
I don't have much ideas for what to write in here so imma just drop the designs and continue suffering in school skkskskksk
First we gooooot
Bear Axe 2
@beartitled (apologies for the puns I couldn't help myself)
Then we have the comically large hammer
Le Bonker 1000
@insomniphic I'm kinda curious to see how would you lift ot ngl
And then we have the last weapon for Captain! :D
Captain's Staff
@braisedhoney
The staff was the most fun to draw tbh
Also I was this đ€ close to fully shading the axe and the staff lmao
Anyway time for me to skedadle back into my cave before COL finds me /silly
- CR2868
#hmmmm what do i write in tags- eh imma just drop something and maybe add some later#hhhhhhh brain empty >:[[#fun fact: the staff was the most pain in the ass to make cuz i couldn't figure out how it would look and then when i figured it out it was#very fun to colour so imma probably draw few other weapons with this kind of hardlight blade#also very pretty#hmmm i dont have much time and i dont want to risk that tumblr is gonna post this twice-#tags speedrun time#i need sleep#my art#amari art#digital art#artists on tumblr#weapon#hive#now that i think about it ill try to doodle some hive sona shenanigans cuz why not#though i didnt draw anything for my Narrator lmao#also i was thinking about drawing attack variations for the weapons so i might doodle it later if brain won't go empty lol#hhhhhhh time for me to suffer again-#i hope yall like the weapons
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Shapes and Strange Ciphers AU: Need a hand? Pt. 1
SaSC by me
Shapes and Pines by @/void-dude
Next Part
Bill and Ford
While exploring one of Gravity Fallsâ caves, Bill stumbled upon a wall covered in ancient text. Bill recorded his findings and translated the writing to reveal an incantation to summon an oval-shaped entity. Bill hesitated to try the summoning but felt he couldn't miss the opportunity to push past his plateau and continue his research. So he read the incantation aloud.
Later that day, Bill experienced an extraordinary dream. While floating through an infinite cosmos filled with books and scrolls, Bill was greeted by the creature pictured on the cave walls. A yellow, oval-shaped being with one eye and glasses at its centerâpart of its form appeared chipped away. The entity, underwhelmingly named Stanford, told Bill that he was there to help expand his research by acting as a âmentorâ.
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Bill, though wary in the beginning, grew to trust his new friend. Ford shared his knowledge of Bill's world and the oddities that resided in itâthough never enough to satisfy the man. He would always leave Bill with a tease of new information, promising to teach him more later on. Like a fishing lure, Ford would use his extensive knowledge to reel Bill in and keep him close.
Ford also fed into Bill's narcissism, telling him that he was special and different from those who had summoned Ford in the past. This gave Bill the love and attention he so desperately craved, inflating his ego just enough to keep him happy and obedient. Before long, Bill was completely wrapped around Ford's finger, hanging on his mentor's every word, utterly infatuated. Ford believed Bill was ready for the next phase of his plan, but he had to be sure.
To test Billâs commitment, Ford asked Bill to remove his lazy eye, reasoning that it was only holding him back and that doing so would prove Bill was serious about expanding his knowledge. Bill's lazy eyeâsomething he was teased for while growing up, but also something that he and Tad had bonded overâwas an innate part of his identity. But Bill didn't hesitate.
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A few months later, Ford revealed that it was nearly time for him to leave, explaining to Bill that he didn't have anything else to teach him, and soon there would be no point in staying. Bill was caught off guard and desperate to keep his Mentor close. He frantically searched for an excuse to have Ford stay, telling him that he still has so much more to learn, not just about his world, but about Fordâs too. Billâs desperation grew, overtaking his mind in hopeless pleas. Donât leave me. Please. Please donât leave me alone. Not again.
Seeing Bill's anguish over his leaving, Ford relented before offering a solution. He explained that it wouldnât matter if he talked about the makings of his world because Bill couldnât experience it for himselfâunless he could. Ford admitted to knowing a way for Bill to explore not just Fordâs world, but countless others, hinting that he could also continue as Billâs mentorâif Bill was fully prepared to expand his research. Bill jumped at the opportunity, swearing that he was ready. Ford revealed his plan: Bill needed to create a portal that would open a gateway to other worlds, allowing him to explore beyond the limits of his dimension.
Bill was eager to create the portal, especially since he could work on calculations with Ford. However, they still needed to gather materials and build the machine. After realizing that it would take far too long to do on his own, Bill called his old college friendsâsome lent him supplies, while others traveled to Gravity Falls to help him build. But Ford was not happy. He chose Bill to do the work, not his bumbling group of âfriendsâ with their useless degrees. What infuriated him the most wasnât that Bill had gone over his head, but that he was rightâthings were progressing much faster with their help. But this didnât matter to Ford. He already knew the sting of trusting the wrong person, so he wanted them gone.
Ford couldnât outright tell Bill to kick his friend out, so he restored to planting subtle doubts in Bill's mind, suggesting that his friends might sabotage their work. Bill, initially confused, tried to reassure Ford that there was nothing to worry about. However, Ford persisted, slowly dripping poison into Billâs mind. Slowly, Bill began to believe him. He started double-checking his friendsâ work, scrutinizing the materials they brought, and analyzing their actions. Ford's words gnawed at Bill until he was on the brink of sending away his friends. It was only after Ford confided in Bill, sharing how trusting the wrong person had cost him everything, that Bill was fully convinced.
One by one, Bill began dismissing his friends with various excuses, though it was clear that he simply didn't want them around anymore. Over time, they watched Bill twist into someone they barely recognizedâcold and distant, treating them less like friends and more like subordinates. Some tried convincing Bill to let them stay, but he wouldn't budge. He told them they were no longer needed and that he couldnât risk their shoddy work jeopardizing his project. In the end, Bill all but called them stupid before severing ties and destroying his friendships. Â
However, one friend, Jheselbraum, stayed behind. She sensed something was off and wanted to keep an eye on Bill, making sure he was safe. Jheselbraum would stop by Bill's home to check on him and hang out, and while he enjoyed her visits, Ford would always convince him to send her away. Eventually, Bill banned her from coming over, insisting he needed to focus on finishing his project and couldnât afford any distractions. But Jheselbraum persisted, calling daily to check on Bill until she finally convinced him to let her at least drop off food.
Every time she visited, Bill was either locked away in the basement or gone from the house entirely. On the rare occasions she saw him, Jheselbraum noticed how worn down he lookedâbecoming more decrepit with each passing day. She tried talking to him, but he either ignored her or brushed her off, insisting he was fine and too busy with his project to worry about his appearance. The more she tried reaching out to help him, the further away he felt, like an ever-widening chasm. She could scream and still, he wouldnât hear her, her voice swallowed by the void between them. Even when standing in the same room, Jheselbraum couldnât help but feel they were miles apart, and it frustrated her.
It wasnât long before Jheselbraum reached her breaking point. One day, she noticed a trail of blood leading to the basement and found Bill crumpled on the floor. She managed to get him out of the basement and into her car, wanting to take him to the hospital. But during the drive, Bill woke up and demanded she take him back home. He insisted he was fine and that a hospital visit would only waste more of his time. Jheselbraum tried reasoning with him but Bill rolled his eyes and muttered, âI knew youâd get in the way.â
Jheselbraum went silent, and her grip tightened on the steering wheel. She turned the car around, helped Bill back into his house, and placed him in a chair. She patched up his wound in continued silence. When she finished, she stood up, looked Bill in the eye, and told him that she was done. She wouldnât be dropping off food or visiting anymore. She was through with him. However, Jheselbraum couldnât bring herself to leave Gravity Falls completely. She was angry, but a feeling in her gut wouldnât allow her to leave. Something was wrong. Though she couldnât pinpoint what, she knew she had to stayâlingering around places she thought Bill might go, hoping to catch a glimpse of him. Her actions more akin to monitoring a suspicious than simply looking out for old friend.
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Now that Bill was alone, Ford concentrated his manipulation into pushing Bill further into isolation. He used Jheselbraum's leaving as proof that Bill couldnât trust anyoneâexcept for Ford. Yet, Bill began second guessing himself, more importantly, Bill geban second guessing Ford.
Bill tried his best to remain focused on building the portal, but doubt gnawed at the edges of his mind, festering until he couldnât ignore it any longer. What exactly was Ford planning to do with the portal? Bill hated the thoughtâhated that he was question his mentorâbut he couldnât help it.
As soon as this doubt bubbled to the surface of Bills mind, Ford new instantly. Ford attempted to reassure bill, emphasizing that the portal was more beneficial for him than it was for Ford, stressing that his only concern was Bills success. However, this reassurance didnât fully take hold, and Ford knew it.
Bill continued to build the portal, doubt still lingering in his mind. He didn't want to believe that his mentor had ulterior motives. Desperately, he clung to their friendship like a life raft in a vast, empty seaâthough one of his own making. He wanted to believe Ford, to trust that their partnership was genuine. But as time passed, his doubts only deepened, and he bagan to long for his old friends.
Before Bill could act on his feelings, Ford intervened with further manipulation, choosing to have a âheart-to-heartâ. He reminded Bill of their previous conversation about how trusting the wrong person had cost Ford everything. This time, he revealed that it was his brother who he had misplaced his trust in, leading to the loss of his family and his dimensionâeverything. Ford claimed that his journey for knowledge was meant to help others, serving as a way to overcome his past.
Ford also admitted that he had lied to Bill in the past, but not out of malice. He confessed that he was ashamed of his limited understanding of Billâs dimension. Having always prided himself on his vast wealth of knowledge, Ford felt inadequate and uncertain about to teaching Bill. He explained that he feared Bill would take advantage of his naivetyâjust like his brother had. However, over the course of their partnership, Ford had come to genuinely trust Bill and was happy to call him a true friend.
Moved by Fordâs supposed vulnerability, Bill apologized to for doubting him, realizing that he had been wrong. Fordâs manipulation had work. Sensing the shift in Bills mind, Ford seized the moment to reveal a new ability: the power to control someone's body through their mind. He asked if he could try it on Bill. More trusting of his mentor than ever before, Bill admently agreed.
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Weeks passed, Bill and Ford settled into a routine. When Bill was awake, he worked on the portal. But when he was asleep, Ford took control of his body and did the work to keep Bill aliveâensuring he ate, drank, and rested. Of course, Ford would also work on little side projects. Using the schematics of a former interdimensional follower, he created a tool that could erase memories, hiding it from Bill. Ford knew it was only a matter of time before one of Bill's pests would try to interfere, and he wanted to be prepared. It didnât take long before he was proven right.
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#gravity falls#bill cipher#stanford pines#shapes and pines au#tad strange#stanley pines#sascau#writing#4/8 posts#sorry it took so long#I realized that posting the entire thing would be too long#plus it would take me longer to finish#so here's a part 1 leaving on a cliff hanger#ill try to get part 2 out a quick as possible I swear!#there is only 1 lore comment but part 2 will have a big one about Jheselbraum#plus a small one about Bill#I might add a little more to Fiddleford later#Anywho thanks for taking the time to read the mess#have a great day or night!
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I really love hope is a thing with feathers and I also really LOVE the hope as a sewer rat poem too but I wish it was not explicity written as "well actually" against Dickinson asgvsjnk. The imagery is SO GOOD but this whole vibe of "my metaphor is better than your metaphor" kinda sours it for me
#i dont like the patronizing usage of ''Emily'' like theyre explaining something to a child#admittedly dickinson has been dead for over a century so its probably huge deal to talk about her flippantly in terms of poetry#this is just me personally. how i feel about it#i dont like her being namedropped like that#it has this energy of ''haha lemme school this bitch''#when the poem itself was never supposed to see the light of day. she never consented to it being published. girl was 5 years in the grave#it feels like making fun of somebodys diary#i also dont like how it kinda makes fun of dickinson's imagery of hope as something ''beautiful delicate'' thing#i always interpreted as it is told. a little bird. i pictured a fat fluffy thing like the ones i see outside my window#ive known them to be stubborn and mischivious#when we leave out seeds on the lawn the little ones are always bullied away by the crows and magpies#but they keep trying. theyll attempt to sneak over and peck away before the crows notice them#they ARE optimistic and resilient little things. tougher than they look#so i always found the metaphor apt#sewer rat also fits just as well. but i think it depends on the angle from how youre looking at it#so i dont like this vibe of ''it should be more RAW it should be UGLIER'' cuz even tho i love that style of writing#it just feels like unnecessary one-upping here#especially considering dickinson was severely depressed and tons of her poems reflect it#god forbid she dabble around with the occasional light hearted poem about seeing hope as a silly little bird#asgsjsnk sorry im not trying to make a statement or anything. ill delete this later probably
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For Old Time's Sake
(part 1) (part 2) (part 3)
âItâll take a few days to ease the pain,â Skat says with a light smile. âA few weeks to heal entirely.â
Skatâs homeâor so the prince assumesâis nothing like heâs used to. Wooden floors, slatted roof, bed of straw. Is this really how the majority live? How the hell do they do this? As much as the thought of home makes him sick, he does miss his luxurious quilts.
âThank you,â the prince says not entirely genuinely. If the old knight has a time frame on his recovery, his chances of slipping away unnoticed are slim. Unfairly so. âI appreciate you not trying to sell me or anything.â
Skat laughs, the sound flattened by the dull walls. A laugh like that probably echoed in the walls of the castle, back in the day. âI still have to hold Gvette off yet,â he says brightly. He unrolls a slice of bandage, popping a bottle open from the bedside table. âSheâll warm up to you, though, Iâve no doubt.â
Gvette disappeared into the woods yesterday to wash the princeâs bloodstained clothes. Not voluntarily, mindâSkat had had to ask her to help several times before she begrudgingly grabbed them and made a show of dragging them along the floor on the way out.
The prince tries and fails to hold back a wince as Skat goes about carefully changing the bandage. The clean fabric, cooled by whatever the healing stuff is from that bottle, is what he imagines heaven must feel like. The old knight sighs in relief as he tosses the old bandage into the bin.
âCanât help but ask, if you donât mind it,â he starts slowly, âwhyâd you leave?â
The prince rolls the edge of the blanket between his fingers, his gaze fixed on the way it waves back and forth under his control like the ocean. âWhy did you?â
Thereâs a moment of silence where the prince risks glancing up at Skat. He gives the boy a blank stare, blinking absently, before breaking into another laugh.
âYeah, aâight, touchĂ©.â He shakes his head, adjusting idly on his little bedside stool. âDonât think youâd like my answer much, though.â
âI doubt you'd like mine either.â
âWell,â the man says with a grin, âhow abouts thisâIâll tell you mine if you tell me yours. I assume weâre somewhat in the same boat to both be out here, huh?â
It makes sense. Whyever the old man is out here canât be too different from the prince, right? They both ran from the throne. Both escaped into the wilderness. Bothâ well, whether Skat ended up in a bear trap as well is a mystery.
âIâll admit, your father made some poor choices,â he continues. He snivels shortly, dropping his gaze to the floor by the bed. âI couldnât find it within myself to support a king I didnât share beliefs with. They were big differences tooâit wasnât just a disagreement on the colour of the curtains. I couldnât work knowing that what I did brought about terrible things.â
The king isnât known for his kindness. His entire family isnât. The prince knows this the best of anyone.
âThatâs me,â Skat says with a deep sigh, like itâs a relief to be off his chest. âYour turn, kid.â
The prince opens his mouth, but words refuse to come out. It feels like heâs confessing some great sin to a priestâtoo much to the wrong person. Easy information to put in the wrong hands.
âItâs aâight lad,â the old knight adds after a moment. His voice is soft, gentle. âI wonât tell a soul.â
That feeling, that lingering itâs dangerous to show dissent still rings at the back of the princeâs mind. But the man wonât tell anyone. Of course he wonât. Theyâre a world away from the dangers of the palace here.
So the prince sucks in a deep breath, steels his nerves, and recounts his story.
(next part)
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#creative writing#writblr#writing#writers on tumblr#writing community#fantasci writing#fantasy writing#for old times sake#hey friends! long time no see!#i honestly wasnt expecting to be posting again this soon but phew!#so yall know how i left on the pretense of burnout. well. turns out i was on the brink of burnout and i ACTUALLY hit it about 4 days later#cause i thought oh! ill dedicate the time id have spent on tumblr to my book :)#a foolish mistake on my part. i tried to fix something i was in a bit of a hole with and i just got more and more frustrated with it#unti now ive had to take a few days away from THAT as well to come off the ceiling a bit lmao#and ironically i thought writing to publish is too much. lets do something more fun#and here we are#(and funnily enough the moment i stopped trying to force it half the fixes came to me immediately. fancy that)#tldr: have more than one project. having one project will kill you if it can
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Odypen definitely and equivalently adore each other BUT I weirdly can't see them as the type to actually say "I Love you".
They still definitely vocalize their love for each other but it's more so in "My Joy", and "Extraordinary Woman", "Strange Woman/Man", etc. And very cheesy lines (both say some cheesy shit in the Odyssey, and he definitely does in the Iliad as well. "Joy like a drowning sailor seeing land" bit???)
I could see "I adore you" but even then, that's probably during very specific moments but the actual "I love you"??? I just typed it just now for fic shit and... It weirdly just didn't feel right and I don't know why. đ
Idk maybe it's kind of because I see them as over the top in ways, they love wordplay and riddles and I think they'd almost think "...That's not good enough >:( " about it??? I don't know???đ
#I wrote this last night. I'll do the asks I got later. don't worry! :D#I am the cheese god remember?đ
#I think these two would try to âout-cheeseâ each other and whoever is left speechless first loses#âI would forget my own name before I would ever forget youâ bullshit. CHEESY#And yes. âI sleep in our nest with you or outside on the dirtâ stupidity >:D#I plan for Odysseus as a beggar to ask why she waits so long. As he's been gone a longer amount of time than the time they had together#(Simply asking as reassurance. He knows his answer. Calypso asked him. but what about Penelope?) but she gets mad at the#âBeggarâ and pities him as he must be telling the truth about having a miserable life if he never got the chance to know such devotion#How what they have could never be sullied by#something as trivial as distance and years. How the years with him were the best in her life. Only made better by their son.#'My dear Joy made songs and poems about love a reality as that was simply the life we shared. Even separated our 'song' will always echo#no matter how long it's been. I'LL make sure it always does. And I know he's doing the same... That strange man used to say that#even if he died his corpse would drag itself back to us before he'd ever give up.'#...I'm not one for 'odyssey zombie au' but when I first heard it yeah. :'D Came up with this back then#âHis eyes as hard as flint or horn-â Bullshit! The sad lil fuck is hiding sobs with coughs and telling her to keep away for fear of her#catching whatever âillnessâ he has. The nice thing about being disguised as old means sickly old man works.#...#I'm noticing that Odysseus has a lot of silly oneliners while I write Penelope with a shit ton of set up :'D#They are so silly and I love them so much#...I wrote a lot :'D#Mad rambles#shot by odysseus#my headcanons#odypen#yahoo!!!#sometimes I wonder if I should tag this with more things but I don't want to taint the regular tags with my bullshit :'D I KNOW I'm insane
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guess who's back, guess who's back? me and i brought more arranged marriage AU writing. the last post was this one.
this post is shorter and features Asmo and Luci this time. Cause i needed to get some complaining Asmo in here. Anyways thanks for reading, hope you like it :] (and happy early birthday to Asmo!!! đđ sorry for putting u in situations lmao)
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"Asmodeus stop hanging off me."
Lucifer tries to pull his brother off, but he doesn't budge. Asmodeus who was currently kneeling next to his study chair, continue to hold on to his arm with surprising strength.
"But you have to help me! Pleaseeeee!"
Lucifer lets out a deep sigh, continuing his work and looking through documents as if Asmodeus isn't there. "I already told you, Father's word was final."
"But-But there has to be a way to talk him out of this! And you're the only one he might listen to!"
"Trust me, the one suggestion I made was completely rejected. He's completely resolute about this marriage."
"Then make another suggestion!"
"Can you at least meet MC first before you throw a tantrum like a child? From what we've seen they're polite and mostly keep to themselves. So getting along with them should be easy for you as long as you don't do anything foolish."
"HmmmâŠthey sound kinda boring."
Lucifer pinches the bridge of his nose. He could feel a migraine coming on. "Behave when you actual meet them Asmo."
Asmodeus huffs and finally releases his older brother and instead begins pacing in front of his desk.
"But why does it have to be me? I know I'm a catch, but last time I checked, other people in this family weren't married!"
"I already explained this. Father expects you to be more involved in the socioeconomic affairs of the family. Which you've managed to avoid for years."
"Pssh but am I the only one though?"
Lucifer doesn't even bother answering him.
Asmodeus looks off to the side. Maybe he wasn't that involved in the more "serious" aspects that kept their family on top, but at least he went to all the important social events unlike Leviathan. That must count for something.
Though the idea of Leviathan getting married was definitely something he couldn't see happening any time soon. It might overload him. Only recently did his older brother start showing his face in public consistentlyâŠ.and it would be nice to see Levi fall in love naturally one day. Maybe he could convince him to go out on the town with him⊠Baby steps, baby steps.
Mammon was already married (surprisingly). Which much to his dismay, really cut a lot into their nights out. Though he would never admit it to his face.
Lucifer and Satan could probably avoid marriage if they wanted to, considering all they do.
All that left was Beelzebub and Belphegor. Shoveling off marriage to his younger siblings didn't feel right though.
Asmodeus visibly deflated. He sighs and flops down in the chair in front of Lucifer's desk. Even though he was doing this, he already knew it was over before it even began. It didn't stop him though. In fact, he had complained to Lucifer the day before.
And the day before that.
He'd cried to Satan and even bothered Mammon, who gave him terrible marriage "advice" that he made sure to tune out.
But it wasn't like him to not be at least a little persistent and complain when things weren't going his way!
And this was something worth complaining about. Him getting married? There's certain things marriage entailed right? Wouldn't he be expected to stop with his current lifestyle? Partying and playing around? Sharing his beautiful existence with the world? It just wasn't right!
He wouldn't do it, especially for a stranger.
Asmodeus crosses his arms. "âŠ.Are you sure I can't get out of this?"
"Asmo for the love of God. Father was serious about getting in this family's good graces, and this is a sure-fire way to do so. As you said so humbly, out of everyone here you're the most practical choice. And even if one of your brothers were picked instead, who says it won't be you the next time?"
Asmodeus's frown deepens. If he wanted to continue living such a comfortable life, he couldn't really just go against Father either. Even if he was okay with giving it all up, it was too scary.
"Meet them first. Now can you go find someone else to whine to. I'm busy."
Guess that was the end if the today's discussion.
#see i didnt forget about the AU#im just really deeply involved in the story im reading rn#if u follow me u probably saw the posts of me going on about it...#im over here using several translators to read this amazing story o(--(#good thing is that my motivation to learn korean past just the characters rose a bit#honestly its a miracle i had a moment of lucidity and managed to finish this writing up#ill be back later with more...i have to make mc and asmo hold hands and shit#obey me asmodeus#obey me asmodeus x reader#obey me asmodeus x mc#my writing#obey me nightbringer#sorry for any grammar issues#i think it should be good but im trying to learn not to over edit my writing cause it makes writing less fun#and i dont got that energy i used to back in my jojo days#someones bday is comin up....#his name starts with A#and ends with SMODEUS#i most likely wont post any more writing before his bday#so happy bday bb!!!! đ„°đ lol#how old is he? like 1 million or something?#heh im kidding
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#thinking of dinosaurs and troodontids were my favorite dinosaurs as a child#when younger i had a real full troodontid tooth fossil that meant a lot to me#for a time we lived within a few kilometers of hadrosaur sites and troodontid sites#while wider general area had many sites of recovery for the big celebrities like tyrannosaur and multiple dromaeosaurs#at that time troodontids were kinda infamous for i think the depiction in some childrens field guides and dino books#which depicted like a fantasy speculative humanoid troodontid based on 1980s model at Canadian Museum of Nature in ottawa#anyway would visit a small local paleo center a lot and woman in her 70s or 80s ran the counter of their center and rock shop#one day she asked me what my fave dino was and i said troodon so she pulled out the tooth and just gifted it to me#in little black case size of ring box with padding and transparent plastic viewing cover kinda like laminate for displaying a trading card#tooth got stolen from out my vehicle while giving some people a ride while at university before i got too poor for tuition#later during first year of pandemic owner of my storage unit died and new property owners threw away everything i ever owned#i was homeless anyway lost job due to early pandemic closures and had to allocate any money to insulin and other prescrip meds#but wouldve found a way to save my things if the new owners had contacted me#they threw out photoalbums y backpacking gear y books y musical instruments y clothes y artwork y camera y all family keepsakes#and all childhood treasures like souvenirs and gifts and school awards and writing portfolios and all the little memories#which i was always sentimental about as child#from earliest age my room looked like a natural history museum with plants and maps and library of field guides#and rocks and field trip keepsakes and all kinds of little animal figurines and mother had painted room in forest greens and browns#to feel like a forest and among the succulent plants and a globe sat the troodon tooth#parents passed when i was a child#never near any family and were always moving never got to settle into proper stable place then father passed after long sad illness#and mother put in so much effort but she passed few years later and i could not take care of myself or my remaining material possessions#and so im still quite hurt having nothing whatsoever remaining of my childhood or school friends or mother or life generally#and when trying to process grief my thoughts often come back to the troodontid tooth as a focal point a distillation of what was lost#even when young i knew it was advised not to become too connected to material physical possessions#but still there are some small little trinkets in our lives that seem to hold so much meaning and i tortured myself for losing that tooth#thinking about troodon reminds me of childhood
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why am i so interested in south american cultures and history. and why do i keep stopping myself from learning about them
#no cuz i have a fucking interest in it and its unexplainable idk where it came form#i literally live on a whole other continent way away from south america#i never been to anywhere in south america#i do not have a drop of latinx blood on me i have absolutely no connections to the damn place#but yet i am so interested in whatever the fuck incas aztecs and mayans were doin#about past history and current history#and current countries NOT TO MENTION THEYRE SOOOOO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL GOD#i saw a vlog about brazil and never wanted to visit a country more in my life like holy shit#also i was obsessed with sottr mainly cuz of the focus on the latino civilizations#but from little research ive done it was quite stereotypical and blending the civilisation even tho theyre very different#but okay anyway#i HAVE the interest and yet i dont go let myself research ???? like i literally tell myself no????? no ill do that later ?????????#i have very poor memory retention okay so ig that makes me demotivated but STILLWOUWHABFJ#i remember watching some vids on the topics and trying to learn the damn differences BUT I REMEMBER FUCKING NOTHINGGGGGG#i can barely remember what i have learned in math last (4 weeks ago) like jesus cmon...................#i want to learn but i can barely remember anything FFLOR FUCKS SAKEEEKSGXVAJ#but still I dint think that's a reason for me denying myself and self sabotaging myself here ?????#i guess cuz im not taking it as much of a priority compared to the subjects im doing it + art + art history#which i also fucking suck at btw i am constantly trying to learn sm for art history and i remember. barely anything !!!#i remember i had to relearn the events and everything of ww2 like around 6-7 times and im not joking here#cuz i would not remember anything and now i remmeber it vaguely enough to be able to know some basic facts but no dates or smaller events#ok god my memory retention is shit i think i actually gotta be concerned about that shit#anyway i just wanted to rant except i have absolutely no information or facts to offer whatsoever#rumaiq rambles#writing this whislt listening to a Argentina 70s top playlist and there is absolutely no bad song. i love them all. and that is very rare#especially for me i am picky as fuck with my playlists and music#idk what the conclusion of this is i dont think there is one
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whatever og text i had in mind for this post about ko shibasaki looking like sayama in this movie is completely cancelled on account of utsumi (this character)'s first name being kaoru and i only found this out cause i was looking up her name just to be sure when making this post
like jesus christ i legally have to make this post now
#snap chats#they literally never say her first name in the movie. i think lol LIKE WHEN I FOUND OUT I WAS JUST 'NO FUCKING WAY'#i do have to be tbh and say her face /is/ a little more round than sayama's#and its absolutely predominantly because of how her bangs and wardrobe are so close to sayama's that i think she look like her#BUT I CAAAANT THE WHOLE MOVIE I WAS JUST THINKIN ABOUT SAYAMA... i miss her...#OH RIGHT THE MOVIE THOUGH noooo fuck you this movie was so good it actually made me want to write a summary for it LMAOOO#LIKE I LIKE WRITING SUMMARIES BUT IVE JUST BEEN SO LAZY ABOUT IT WITH THE PAST FEW THINGS IVE SEEN BUT GOD.#ignore the fact i finished this movie two hours ago i was too busy fiddling with a card holder kit but. ill make a post about that next--#THIS MOVIE THOUGH NOOOOO IT WAS SO GOOD //SCREAMS AND YELLS AND DESTROYS A SNOWGLOBE//#god the part where ishigami and yukawa are walking by the homeless and it just lingers on an empty spot.. LIKE I THOUGHT I WAS WACK#CAUSE I WAS LIKE 'hang on wasnt there a guy there last scene' and obviously there was since the shot lingered right#BUUUUTT WHEN IT WAS REVEALED DOWN THE LINE SHUT UPPP I LITERALLY YELLED IM SO GLAD. my roommates arent home..#on god i thought the movie was gonna end with utsumi and fukawa's convo from the beginning#and i was gonna make a gaf about how fukawa was acting irrationally because he was too in love LMAOOO#BUT THEN IT KEPT GOING AND. im so glad it did. ishigami valid tbh#id also cover up and take blame for AND ACTUALLY commit murder for a girl if she said hi to me and made me lunch while i was trying to kms#while fukawa and ishigami were talkin that first night tho i just thought of after the rain.. lol... maybe the mangaka was inspo'd by that.#anyway. this movie was great. it reminded me of sherlock but if it was directed well and actually let you solve the mystery too#CAUSE WHILE I WAS WATCHING THERE WERE POINTS WHERE I TOO WAS JUST 'hang on' AND I JUST POCKETED THE INFO FOR LATER#i kicked and screamed when ishigami was talking abut how he formats his tests LIKE I SAID 'oh you fucking slipped'#when ishigami called and told her he had a white envelope in there bitch i knew it was gonna be the stalker letter i YELLED#LIKE I LIKE HOW THE MOVIE SETS THINGS UP SO ABUNDANTLY. IT'S FUN SEEING IT FIT IN THE MOVIE LATER ON#the twist of there being two bodies was so fun tho cause at the start of the movie i was sure two murders happened the same night#so when it was played off as just one i was like Oh. Ok. im still stumped on how he snuck a body out of the apartment#but yk what one detail is like. whatever in comparison to the rest of the movie being fun to watch#god im running out of tags POINT IS. PLEAAASE watch this movie if you got two hours#ive left some minor warnings on my Watchlist doc but there's nothing. TOO extreme ??#i mean there's an aforementioned suicide attempt but aside from that it's nothing too grotesque. for an rgg fan ig#ok bye i have to ramble about the card holder i got <3
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do you write fic on ao3?
unfortunately for everyone involved i do!
#ask#and if youre wondering about my handle i write on anon so its doesnt particularly matter (shrugs)#and also i think its pretty easy to figure out which fics ive written because i want to makeout mad sloppy style with an em dash#anyways (waves offhandely) it doesnt really matter much because i have like posted an ss on here before so you know#its not like im trying to hide it like eh#but also because of my disposition that would put a tranced rabbit to shame i dont exactly yell it from the hilltops either#the moral of the story is if you ask me what im working on ill yap about it maybe like post an excerpt#and months later youll find something posted on anon and youll be like oh! so they finally posted it!#so to spare you all (lies on my tummy like we're at a sleepover and giggles) you wanna hear what im working on#haha of course you do youre a prisoner in my yap box#and i want an excuse to talk about it hidden in the tags so people skim over it and not read it <3#SO the earliest wip is from like early october about a magical realism au because i rewatched lwa as i usually do and well theres this one#ep about a magical animal if you will... and you can kinda guess what it is from that lol its sashaforsyekky#because the dreaded @/tungpin infected me with the brainworms about this trio specifically#and it really is ekky going đ„ș at whatever sashaforsy have (persumably) got going on woe is him its at 5k rn but uh ive stalled progress#because puppyekky has consumed my every thought which leads me to my second wip that ive been labouring over since the start of october#that also just broke 5k and not even remotely done lol whoops but its puppy ekky in a team environment with a heavy emphasis on the euros#rn there are scenes scrabbled out with sasha (multiple) mikksy luosty lundy and forsy. i know i have an idea for bobby.#and really lets see where the muse takes us i have vague ideas that are mmmhmm but we'll see when we get there!#the third one isnt the most likely to get finished but uh it is sashamaffhew global series stuff because it stemmed from#âit really is funny that sasha is treating the finland trip like he knocked up a girl#and is trying to make her meet his parents so it doesnt feel like a shotgun wedding when he you know marries her to take responsibilityâ#and i just think a maffhew pov with that thought in mind because of the whole touchy at e11even thing is funny to me like think mundane#slice of life oh i feel like im being wined and dined i hope i dont fuck it up jfc i think im fucking it up oh god this feels romantic#anyways it feels remotely ooc to me and it really was more of like a writing break from the wips stated above so (shrugs)#might not see the light of day but its 2k as of now so i do feel its a shame if i dont /try/ to finish it you know? its just low priority#anyways thats my writing check in and i am a prisoner to my own mind i will go insane haha these wont be published anytime soon#because i am slow and get distracted soooo easily so you know <3
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guys im sooo fucking sick of these annoying longlegs fans crawling all of my post. People online lack reading comprehension so bad and have to jump through hoops to try and make me think the incredibly influential and famous actor nic cage saying something transphobic about the character HE portrayed in the film isnt as important as the writers intention. The writers can intend whatever they want it doesnt change the impact and Ive seen and heard the impact and Ive seen these fans harass trans women who spoke about longlegs being trans misogynistic while others turn around and try to claim IM transphobic (very funny this is how i know theyâve never seen my account before) for having historical context and knowledge of the horror genres intensely engrained transphobia.
It sucks because the post was mainly about longlegs being a drop in the bucket of horror and i spend only one page really focused on the movie itself and the rest focused on the rise of transphobia in the US and horrors historic ties with other examples like Buffalo Bill.
#I cant really do anything to change these peoples minds they feel so embolden to spout the same arguments ive seen a hundred times#this is the last time ill talk abt this and i will now just be hashtag protecting my peace i care a lot about this conversation and it hurt#that what i thought was a very tame criticism has become people ignoring the entire point of my post. Since when did longlegs discourse#become more important than the overall trend of transphobic horror and the rise of anti transness in the US#this was made for my schools paper longlegs was a HOOK because thats how you write a journalistic comic. I may delete this post later too#im reallt trying to sort my thoughts cuz this situation sucks bc its not actual conversations just people telling me to shut up calling me#transphobic and dumb like i wanna have a conversation!!!
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