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[lunajay33]

Why Me? Part.2

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Summary: Bella and Y/n are twins but when Bella and Renee moved away you stayed with Charlie always growing closer with the people around La push, but when Bella comes back it’s like everything is flipped around, Bella becomes distant obsessed with the cullens, you find solace with the guys at the beach but things change after the first year and suddenly you’re all alone, will anyone come back, will Paul your best friend, your forever crush come save you from depression

Pairing: Paul Lahote x f!reader

Warnings: Depression

Part.1

•Masterlist•

Song Suggestion: Heartbeat by Nessa Barrett

Hopping down from the wolf I make my way closer to the house but before I can enter strong warm arms wrap around me I know who it is instantly

“Paul” I choke out before crumbling to the ground in tears for the second time this night , the cold ground meeting my knees his arms still secure around my hips hind chest pressing against my back hearing his cries along with mine

“Why did you leave me” I scream letting myself feel everything I’ve gone through the last month

“I’m so sorry Angel, please give me a chance to explain”

“But you hurt me so badly” my cries settling a bit seeing Sam and Emily come out the house worried

“Please I’ll do anything please” he was begging and he never begged, I nodded warily, he picked me up effortlessly and brought me into the house setting me back on the couch Emily and Sam lingering near obviously knowing what’s going on

“Is this normal Sam? For the bond to cause her these emotions to such an extent?” Paul asked from over his shoulder as he was kneeled infront of me his hands never leaving mine

“The bond can cause despair when separated but to this extent for her to be physically ill must mean you have a much deeper connection than just the bond, you can’t leave her again Paul we don’t know what could happen” the talked like I wasn’t right here and they made no sense

“What’re you guys talking about, you said you’d explain”

“I will but…….y/n how could you try to kill yourself, that would’ve devastated everyone, to lose the most precious being to walk this town”

“It was too much Paul, with you gone and Bella being preoccupied by Edward and Jacob with Bella I was alone and it just grew the pit in my heart” I sighed feeling the emotions of the day finally drain me

“Never again, I’ll never leave but what I’m going to tell you is gonna be a lot”

He told me everything, how he and Sam were wolves how it ran in their blood and only came out when vampires appeared, their truce with the cullens how I had to keep everything a secret, but most of all how I was Paul’s imprint and why he had to stay away to protect me

Everything suddenly made sense but it didn’t make it hurt any less

“Are you okay Angel?” Paul asked after the long pause that lingered in the air

I sucked in a quick sharp breath just registering everything

“But what now, will I get better, what about us what’re we now?”

“You’ll get better in time as long as we keep seeing eachother, and like I said I’ll be anything you need, your best friend, your protector, your boyfriend”

“I wanna be with you Paul, I can’t lie about it anymore, it’s always been you since day one” his warm hand caressed my cheek making some of the pain go away

“I knew it would always be you, but you have to promise to never do what you almost did tonight, even though I hate those blood suckers I’m glad he saved you in time, cause I’m never letting you go again” his head pressed against mine our lips so close

“I love you Paul”

“I love you too always”

Get home at 12 am felt different, my conscience was clear once again, me and Paul stand in the back yard as he walked me home I guess, I rode on his back as he walked in his wolf form, it was all crazy really, my best friend a shapeshifting wolf

“Can you stay the night maybe? I just don’t want you to go just yet” i ask fiddling with his fingers

“You go up to your room open the window I’ll be up”

I ran up the stairs as lightly as I could in hope to not disturb dad or Bella who was probably accompanied by Edward, then being vampires didn’t scare me atleast not them they were nice especially alice Jasper and Emmett

I flipped on my lamp and opened the window looking down to see Paul quickly climbing up the house and right through the window

“So you’re super human too”

“Still got your humour” he smiles as he huffs spreading out in my bed like usual when he comes over

Changing into pajamas and joining him in bed, it wasn’t weird we’ve been doing this kind of thing since kids

“I’ve missed this” I sighed curling up into his radiating warmth compared to the cold sheets that replaced him when he was gone

“You have no idea how much I wanted to come to you every night and make sure you were okay, it killed to have to stay away from my mate, my best friend” he sighed running his hands through my hair

“You’ll be here when I wake up right?” Worried he’ll be gone and this was all just a dream

“Always”

And he was for the rest of my life he was there every morning

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[unfriendlies]

garam wasn't sure when exactly he fell asleep, he just knew that he was holding onto angel's shirt as if his life depended on it. by the time he'd woken up, the sunlight was just barely flooding into the room. a ray decided to shine specifically on his face through a small gap between the curtains, rude. before his eyes opened, he reached out to the spot where angel had laid, thinking he would still find the man laying there. but no matter how far over he patted around, the space was indeed empty. garam was disappointed but only because he hoped that he would be the one to wake up first so he could surprise angel with breakfast in bed. it would have been both an act to show his gratitude for what angel has done for him and a starting point for a long line of apologies he knew needed to be made. getting out of bed would have been more difficult for him if only the sun wasn't shining in his face, the man managed to pull himself out of bed and sleepily made his way down the hallway with the intentions of getting water from the kitchen before scrounging around for tylenol. what he wasn't expecting was to find angel with another man in the kitchen. he'd only caught half of what the other man said before angel spoke. garam stopped in his tracks the moment once his name was noted, wishing he would have just been a few seconds slower so he wouldn't have walked in to this point of their conversation. garam just stood there staring at the two men in the kitchen, his brain not functioning as quickly as he wanted it to which left him silent for a moment. "i'm guessing i wasn't supposed to hear that." he stated, his attention diverting as his eyes sort of just drifted away. garam was used to people talking about him behind his back, that sort of judgment came with the the job he chose for himself. being popular on the internet wasn't always good because, with fans, you had your haters, too. it just wasn't something he had to deal with in person. even if angel was defending him, the two men were still talking about him with the other man speaking ill of him. he sucked air through his teeth, unable to stop himself from feeling awkward. "should i just go home?" garam whispered, pulling at the sleeves of his shirt to tuck his hands inside. it was the only thing he could do to make himself appear smaller, as if he wanted less of himself visible, as if that would make him feel safer. "maybe he can stay with you, surely he's not using you for anything." he didn't understand how darius thought he was using angel for anything, it made him wonder what exactly angel had been telling the other man. angel wouldn't make things up, garam was certain of that. but he must have said something, maybe garam did or said something last night that would give angel the wrong impression. his heart began to race, each breath taken quickened as he wracked his brain, trying to think back on everything he said or did last night.

Every muscle in Angel’s body tensed when the man asked if he could hold him. Not knowing how to respond, he simply nodded. However, his body betrayed him as his hands began to shake. The dark-haired man felt he could barely breathe at the thought of someone holding him. Ever since that night, he had worked hard to control every situation. He took a leave of absence from his job and avoided crowded places or being alone with anyone he didn’t trust. But he trusted Garam. Or so he thought. Every touch brought him back to that night—the clammy hands that had grabbed at him, the nails digging into his skin. Angel had been so focused on making Garam feel okay that he was pushing down every emotion within himself. He tried to swallow the lump in his throat but ended up gagging. His hands slapped over his mouth as his face twisted in distress. Angel could never see Garam as selfish; he cherished the man so much that, in his mind, Garam could do no wrong—even to Angel's own detriment. He took deep breaths to calm himself, each exhale shaky and unsteady. He didn’t move, watching Garam as he lowered his hands and whispered an apology. Angel gave another tight-lipped smile. Pretending he was okay was becoming second true to time. It was easier than the alternative. After a moment, Angel managed to regain his composure and shifted closer to Garam. He didn’t touch him, allowing Garam to initiate contact. His mind raced as he replayed their entire night, and he felt regret for sending his friend away. Having a buffer here would have made everything easier. Someone to tell him if he was making the right decisions. Angel closed his eyes feeling slight dizziness. He chalked it up to the alcohol but before he knew it he was asleep. He hadn’t slept since that night. Drinking until he eventually passed out. Awoken by his content night terrors. But tonight the night terrors held him in his dream state. Sweating and muttering in his sleep. Eventually, he managed to wake himself up, jumping up. His body felt as if it was stuck there. Even as his eyes opened his body betrayed him and did not move. As his body finally moved he glanced over at Garam in his bed. He stared blankly for a moment before the alcohol the night before hit him. The pounding in his head pushed a groan to fall from his lips as he grabbed his phone and shuffled to the bathroom. It was early, too early as he glanced out the window to see barely any light shining through. He grabbed some medication he had stored away and tossed them in his mouth. Angel leaned down as he turned on the facet and drank the pills down. The night before was sort of a blur but the pieces were there. The first person in his mind was Darius, texting to ask him to escort them to Garam’s place. To his surprise, the man was awake as his phone chimed almost immediately. Squeezing his phone he let out a sigh of relief as the man said he was on his way now. His new friend’s comfort had been needed during this time. But the guilt still ate away at him. He knew how the other man felt. However, not being able to lean on his best friend he needed someone. Before he knew it he was in the kitchen cooking with the other man as he was lectured about letting Garam sleep in his room. “Angel, I’m not saying you shouldn’t be there for your best friend. I think your feelings for him are clouding what’s really going on here. He’s using you” Darius had his arms crossed leaning against the counter as the man cooked. Angel was quiet over the stove. His face was blank as the man spoke. All he could say was, “Garam wouldn’t do that”

[f1amour]

🍮 with carlos sainz with the prompt “i guess ill just pick up my stuff later”

❝ i guess i’ll just pick up my stuff later — carlos sainz ❞

pairing | carlos sainz x reader

content warnings | angst, no happy ending

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the differences in your careers wasn’t the deal breaker. not the small age gap of you being 25 and him just turning 30, not the long distance, and not the many other things you both tried to come up with as an explanation why this was happening. you just…weren’t in it anymore.

“so this is it? after four years you just want to…break up?” carlos asks in disbelief as you sit next to him in the living room of your shared apartment. “i…i’m so sorry carlos. i just can’t keep staying in this relationship when i—.”

“when you don’t love me?” he asks, the question makes your heart break because that was far from the truth. “i do love you, carlos. i love you so much that i need to walk away because it’s best for us. i need something more in my life not someone else. i feel like i’m stuck in my own life and that is not your fault. i just need to find out who i really want to be; i want to figure out what i’m meant to do in this life.” you try your best explaining why you have decided to break up with him.

“we can do that together, amor. i can—.”

“no, carlos. i love that you want to help me but…i have to do this on my own. i know it doesn’t make sense…i don’t even understand some of it i-i-i just need to do this. i’m so sorry,” you finally break, you wanted to be tough. you wanted to rip the bandaid off and thought it would be easy. but looking into his big somber brown eyes, this would be anything but easy.

“don’t cry, it’s okay. i don’t understand either but i’m gonna support you either way even if you aren’t in my life. it may not make sense right now but maybe along the way it will…and i know you’ll achieve great things. it’s okay to be confused right now and if you ever change your mind i’m gonna be waiting for you,” his encouraging words end with hope on his end regarding your relationship.

you sigh wiping his tears away that he didn’t notice he had, “you are too good for me. don’t wait for me please because i can’t give you hope on something that may never happen.” you stand up and grab your bag but his hand holds onto yours.

“amor, yn please…just if you ever need anything. anything at all, you call me?” he begs, you nod kissing his cheek before walking to the door.

“i guess i’ll just pick up my stuff later.” your eyes meet his, tears fill both your eyes and you wanna run back to his arms and live the cliche happy ending but you didn’t want that. there was so much you want to go explore and find yourself. you want to figure out what you truly want…so why wasn’t carlos the first thing on your mind when you thought that? you wanted carlos so why walk away?

with one last look you give him a brief smile that did not meet your eyes, “goodbye, carlos.”

[pinata-candy]

Blows my little lore kazoo <33 Here’s my star hc family tree and silly star forms of everyone! Plus the original chart from 2019 when I first had this stupid idea for them all to be related which has since just. Dominated my personal star lore. It was supposed to be a fun au idea and then it got out of control the drama was just too much fun <33 More details under the cut about everyone!

- So first I gotta talk about dark stars real quick, in my lore they are a species of star and not just one guy

- Darkstars can not have parents, they are created from the shadow of millennium stars

- essentially what happens is when a millennium star is born, a Darkstar is created in its shadow to help maintain balance between light and dark forces of the universe. They are as pure light magic and as pure dark magic as any stars can possibly get.

- The Darkstar who begins the whole family tree IS the dark star from Bowsers inside story, his real name is Aludra. The Millennium star who he was created with is Prankstar, his real name is Capella

-THEY ARE NOT RELATED. I just wanna say that hear the deal with dark and millennium stars is less like a ‘these beings are twins’ thing and more like a ‘you are cosmically tied to this being by the strings of fate’ deal

-Without getting into Aludra and Capella’s complicated lore and more into the messed up lore of the history of dark and millennium stars, TLDR: Aludra was the star’s leader and Capella was his jester. They were in a secret relationship while Aludra was married to another star (the marriage had been arranged by the council)

- Aludra and his wife have 3 biological kids: Boomer (yes, the boss from mario rpg), Eldstar, and Smithy

- side note: star children are not made through. Yknow. They are made through a magic wishing ritual it is very easy and you don’t even have to see the other parent for it to happen. Also Eldstar and Smithy, those are not their birth names, they are titles earned later on, lots of higher stars have them

-Aludra also raises the next darkstar born, her name is Umbriel and Capella raises her corresponding millennium star, his name is Vesper. They are largely unimportant rn but just. That’s who they are

-Aludra is sealed away, his children fight for the throne, the Eldstar wins

-He then gets married to Mamar and has his four sons: Skolar, Kalmar, Muskular, and Klevar (again, I promise those are titles not their birth names)

-Lady Misstar wanted in on the high life and so started pretty much dating all of his sons at once, girl wanted the benefits of dating what are essentially star princes, good for her

-Fuck around and find out though, she has Twink pretty much on accident

-Star law says that stars are not allowed to have children with one another unless they’re married (a law made by Aludra to try and stop the overpopulation problem). but Klevar does not want to marry her

- so she does what any gaslight gatekeep girlboss would do, she lies to the stupidest of the children and says it’s his and she marries Muskular instead.

- he’s just happy to have a kid, he knows that ain’t his boy but he’s happy :]

-Twink is sent down to Starborn valley for his younger years just like any other star, no special treatment for him

-BACK TO THE SMITHY SIDE OF THINGS and oh this is where it gets complicated and ridiculous truly

- after his brother takes the throne, Smithy goes to him and has the idea of making vessels for stars, big metal bodies to keep everyone safe as stars are vulnerable little things. I mean just look at them

-Eldstar approves and they make the factory

- at first the factory is filled with volunteer stars who want to help but as progress is slow, they leave, Smithy is spiraling into madness

- well the factory needs workers, Eldstar starts letting his brother use children to work there

- Smithy has hundreds of kids with hundreds of other stars, he also takes orphaned stars to work the factory. Most die.

-They also serve as the star’s army, conquering more land and defending the haven

-He also forces his brother Boomer and his son to help him. Boomer’s son, Punchinello, would eventually flee the factory and hide on earth, settling in there

- Geno is one of his kids, he’s part of the latest and last group of kids. He’s towards the middle of the group

-Geno also flees the factory after realizing his father is out of his mind. He flees in one of his father’s wooden prototypes and dumps it on earth before hiding in space

-The Eldstar eventually finally realizes this has gone too far and tells Smithy to shut down the factory program, which Smithy retaliates by destroying the star road

-SMRPG happens. Smithy and his kids go to jail, they were bad

-at this point in personal lore/lore with my buddy, they are out of jail and the kids are all living together and patching things up

-there is also another darkstar, that’s Nebula, poor Yarid has been raising the damned thing

-also Yarid’s boyfriend. Yeah, we made him up sort of on accident. We had a list of canon characters. And we were gonna give him a boyfriend from those. Then we made Misha on accident and their interactions were nice so he got the role instead. Twas an fun surprise

-I think that’s mostly everything other than talking about Estelle, Castor, and Constella

-but essentially they were told by the higher stars. Oh hey, do you want a kid? We’ll let you have one without getting married, just for you because you are so special but don’t tell anyone they’ll get jealous :)) and then took their kids and put them in the factory

- also yes, all five of the axems were born at the same time, it was a terrible surprise. Their father had a meltdown. And they really did just name them each a color

-Also Trickstar is not on the star chart bc his title is a lie he is a comet not a star

-I THINK THATS EVERYTHING. HOPEFULLY

[puppyeared]

act 4 :(

@chipper-smol and i came to a realization

[sorunort]

(You are bound to the Universe's will the same way the moon is bound to this planet, the same way the planet is bound to the sun, the same way a puppet is bound it's strings!!!!!!)

top ten pieces of dialogue ive screencapped because of how normal it is and how normal it made me feel

[bisexualcherdegre]

D:BH Rarepairsweek 7 | @dbhrarepairs

Day 4 - Kara/Luther

[girlivealwaysbean]

it's not sinking in that today might be the last day in my house and town for many months to come

[hella1975]

i cannot stand the aot fandom this is not a new take at all they are universally intolerable but oh my dayssss u are FORBIDDEN from making ANY take about the show it's actually insane to watch. 'aot is perfect' no show is perfect. 'tell me you didnt get the show 😂🫵' people have different opinions/interpretations about things. 'eren is a good guy they could never make me hate him' i think there's actually 4 seasons and two movies explicitely using him as a tool to show that no one is 'good' or 'evil' they are only trying to survive. hello. the fandom r all so far up aot's ass that they actually discredit its writing in the process and it would be laughable if it wasn't so frustrating

[phagodyke]

the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍

[spaciebabie]

does any other demiromantic (or arosepc doesnt rlly matter) feel like. extremely awful when they experience romantic attraction or is that just me.

[marurumai]

hi uhm lmanburg tommy from ctubbo pov hahahdjdjdhd im going insane

[camzverse]

i could probably like or even love william afton if he made any fucking sense to me as a character

[unexpectedbrickattack]

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[puppyeared]

axolotl

[natsmagi]

tbh maybe this is a hot take but i really dont get why people insist on having one person in natsumugi be this Super Toxic one and the other a victim. the easiest conclusion to draw is natsume being the bad guy and tsumugi the victim due to natsume getting physical and berating him at times but far too commonly do i see people insist that its the other way around and that tsumugi is actually the super toxic one and natsume just lets tsumugi emotionally manipulate him and thats ?? so weird to me ??? both of these are so weird to me ???

i can ofc see where theyre coming from. both natsume and tsumugi have plenty of issues going on in their heads. i feel like natsumes situation is more commonly understood as him simply just being difficult though and not being the best at managing his emotions, and with tsumugi i get it because he doesnt really have much of a moral compass. he doesnt quite understand peoples feelings and it results in him doing pretty fucked up things at times, but to then frame him as someone who would be abusive?? that doesnt sit right with me

tsumugi may not understand peoples emotions and be apathetic to the struggles people are going through, but its clear to anyone that that man has good intentions at the end of the day. at WORST he may get overbearingly controlling, but its never in a "you cant do x y z" way, its in a "i signed us up for this job opportunity because i thought it sounded nice and didnt speak it through with you beforehand and now we have to do it" way. had this been 2nd year tsumugi maybe he wouldve been far more desperate and even manipulative to an extent because he was in such a dark place, but current day tsumugi is actively trying to understand people better. hes trying to learn how to feel. in wonder game he even outright said that natsume taught him pain and everything else. his growth is clear

i cannot see tsumugi taking advantage of natsume in a genuinely destructive way with modern day ntmg. again, maybe during the earlier !-era stuff he could be more destructive, but natsume also does a relatively good job keeping tsumugi in his place during that time too, with him getting physical and all. its only in !!-era where tsumugi doesnt really mind it and can even make playful jokes about it because theyve Had this development in their relationship. theyve moved Past many of their toxic attributes, and theyve finally grown to understand one another. this is also when tsumugi can have a more "dominating" role in their relationship, since natsume has come to trust him to this extent, but tsumugi wouldnt take advantage of that. again; theyve now grown very close and understanding of one another. theyll have banters such as tsumugi wanting natsume to do something like idk. wear a dress. to which natsume will reply with kys but again. in !!-era this is banter and tsumugi wouldnt actually force natsume to do something he doesnt want to. theyre just very comfortable with each other now

i also really hate the position natsume gets put in with all of this. so often he is already hyperfeminized by the fandom for no reason whatsoever (which is especially fucked up considering how much he canonically hates being seen as a girl), and by making tsumugi this manipulative and abusive partner youre stripping natsume of even more autonomy and framing him as powerless. naively in love with a man thats hurting him. and that doesnt sit right with me either!! natsume does have a big heart and he has endured more than he probably should, but to think natsume would just take it ??? natsume has BACKBONE. if tsumugi upsets him he will either 1. get really mad at him or 2. start ignoring tsumugi alltogether. hes not just gonna put up with it. and tsumugi will notice this change in demeanor. ask if hes done something wrong. he may not understand what it was he did but he never intends on hurting natsume and would genuinely want to resolve it. tsumugi isnt stubborn in this regard, if he fucks up he wants to fix it. and natsume isnt a damsel in distress, why do you want him to be a helpless maiden so bad ??

theres alot of nuance to all of this and im obviously not gonna tackle every single element of their relationship and this is just an overview but TL;DR ntmg are both awful and have many faults and their relationship has gotten incredibly unhealthy at times but the point is theyre growing PAST that. maybe sometimes these toxic traits of theirs will resurface, but that does not make one the abuser and the other the victim. theyre just two fucked up people in love, standing as equals and learning to understand one another. stop framing one as evil