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purpleeivy · 5 months ago
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I've been watching Dimension 20 Fantasy High recently, and having now gotten to Junior Year.
First of all wow, it's amazing.
But the most impactful moment for me so far (I'm up to Stress Testers) was Kristen's phone call with Tracker.
I can't remember the exact quote, but it was roughly "I think on some level you believe you deserve things to be easy." and essentially Tracker forcing Kristen to confront the fact that she isn't willing to put effort into doing a lot of things, and if something is hard she just moves onto something else. This really heavily resonates with me, especially since Kristen is an ex-gifted kid with severe burnout and undiagnosed Adhd, and I just. That hurt so much lol. I relate to that so so deeply. I'm not healed/healthy yet, I will still take the easy path and run away or ignore it if things get hard because I don't know how to do anything else. I don't want to be like this, I want to put effort into things but I just. Don't know HOW to. Kristen never needed to work hard at her cleric stuff because she was literally Helio's chosen. She never had to work hard and then a part of her internalised that and led her to avoid anything that wasn't like that, so if she has to work hard at something she should just give up and move to something else. She literally killed YES! because it was too hard to find more followers and she wasn't able to stay devout because of her adhd/inattentiveness and flickering hyperfixations.
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esse-lunam · 18 days ago
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to my fellow US shifters: (gestures)
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lord-raccoon · 4 months ago
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finally experienced how weighted against neurodivergent people the world is today and had to hold in my feelings for three hours until my shift ended so i could finally cry from the knowledge of just how wide the gap is between me and my neurotypical coworkers (54% wide according to the employee evaluation)
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strangedisciple · 1 year ago
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sorry for being so. off today btw
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never-knows-best-yo · 11 hours ago
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It's definitely a 'crying while getting high and watching sailor moon' kind of night. Past two weeks have been shit. I wish I could quit my job, but I need the medical insurance. I'm so lonely, and I want to tell someone 'hey, I'm really miserable and alone', but that wouldn't fix anything. I guess the plus side is I haven't felt this horribly in a long time. The negative side is it feels like this deep pain will last forever and all of eternity. Yeah, I know I'm being dramatic, but I'm sad and scared and hate myself and miss people.
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dinosaurzzz · 4 months ago
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itd be so cool if i wasnt terminally online and could quit social media without looking back sometimes. sigh. instead i continue crawling back into this fucking cesspit.
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nvmbersix · 4 months ago
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ive finally been moved out of our house
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spaghetti-o-fficial · 5 months ago
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Life hack: get so wrapped up in your stress and problems that you disappear from online for a few days/weeks and then get stuff figured out bcuz you aren't online and then start talking to friends online again and remember why you're friends with them until you get stressed out again.
I'm doing great rn chat
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lone-is-papyrus · 6 months ago
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Not me crying my feelings out on my story and my close friends reaching out to make sure I'm ok
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inplateaus · 6 months ago
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ok sunday night guilty paranoid anxious feelings i see you
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bunnitine · 8 months ago
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itd be cool if i could go one night without getting overwhelmingly hopeless and bitter about the past present and future
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sprinklethetangerine · 1 year ago
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I was basically like... on drugs yesterday. I didn't mean to. It was a total accident.
You see, I have this prescribed medication for my anxiety. The therapist said not to use it unless I needed it, so we were like "cool" and I hadn't touched it all of summer break, even before, when I definitely needed it, I kinda forgot.
So it's been a while since I've even seen the pills, and when I woke up nauseous, my mom suggested I take my meds. I did. But I didn't just take one. I took two. Because I'm used to just taking 2 without a second thought, I didn't think about how exactly taking two of a powerful medication after such a long time without a single one would affect me.
So yeah. Yesterday, I was on drugs by accident. How was your day?
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lucabyte · 7 months ago
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i feel like people are sleeping on the occam's razor situation of how buckwild it is to outright accuse a guy of being a clone of your friend even if you DO have a lot of circumstantial evidence. there's other options is what im saying. they could just be like. a guy. that's a sensible deduction. you should explore that deduction. ignore my shirt that reads I <3 RED HERRINGS.
i still think odile has the correct theory on lock but she's smart enough to know it needs like... a real smoking gun to be able to bring it up without sounding insane.
anyway. (mirabelle voice) i know its rude to speculate but has anyone else noticed the grieving? they seem to be grieving. does anyone have any thoughts on the grieving? i have some thoughts on the grieving.
#[isabeau voice] am i insane or does sometimes loop talk like they might have killed their whole family. is that just me? just checking.#nille design highly inspired by @kiwibrain's since its the one that imprinted in my mind. liberties taken since i didnt look @ reference#anyway i have a lot more thoughts on this? i guess ill hide them in the tags...? scroll down i suppose.#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#isat act 6 spoilers#isat loop#isat siffrin#isat bonnie#isat nille#isat fanart#in stars and time fanart#doodlebyte#----------------------------------------------------------------------#anyway the extra thoughts. are literally just my general thoughts on postcanon. (and thus are the context for all of my postcanon doodles!)#which is i think nille joins the party before loop reappears for a start (either from a period of nonexistence or just wandering around)#and that like. i think the party should be able to integrate loop as a completely new person. because they are! the secrecy isn't great but#They and Siffrin shuffle into different ecological niches in the party (eg. i think sif is more squeamish after it all but loop isnt)#and while it's not *exactly* what Loop wanted they get that beggars can't be choosers. and its pretty good#(i am glossing over how i think loop's reappearence drags both them and siffrin into a massive behavioural backslide and is likely a bit#distressing to watch go down. cycle of argument -> lovebombing -> normalcy -> repeat. etc etc. but since they are no longer literally#stewing in the worst pressure cooker of all time they do resolve it via productive conversation on their own time. its fine)#the party well-meaningly tries to deduce things from loop's vagueries and are able to pin down the DEAD FAMILY vibe pretty quickly.#but eventually the question of their prior identity falls by the wayside because well! they're just their friend loop! (also change belief)#as for how The Truth Come Out... this is what i mean by The Isabeau Torment Nexus(tm). which is that i think... isiloop should almost occur#BEFORE isabeau knows who loop is. he's just genuinely charmed by them eventually and tries to close the open end of the polycule#which FREAKS LOOP THE FUCK OUT because thats just too genuinely sick and wrong. and obviously w emotions high its not a great confrontation#ANYWAY told u i had more thoughts. if i were normal itd be a text post but.
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catonthemountain · 17 days ago
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~Special Agent Dana Scully~
Hi X files fandom ?
I've been lurking around for a while since I started watching (I just got to season 8) and it's so cool to see such an old fandom be so active and so nice to newcomers
I don't feel like I fully did Scully justice, but I'll keep trying
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viarayy01-blog · 4 months ago
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can you even imagine what loop felt when siffrin said they were going to kill themself just to get through everything faster. In all of their loops, they never found that as an alternative. As something to even consider. The countless hours to days to months to years that they spent in their loops, the agonizingly long and painful road to even beat the king at all, and they never took the chance. How must if feel to look at this other version of yourself who’s made it so much farther than you ever had, so much faster than you ever could have, and watch them tell you that its still not fast enough. that its too tedious to slowly freeze in time or slip on a banana peel. that they have better things to do and the act of dying is taking away their precious time. and then have no power to stop him no matter how much they tried. because to siffrin, what’s the difference? hes dying either way. its just that this is faster. and more self destructive. and more mortifying for his allies to watch happen. just a quick slice to the throat and then their on their merry way. but to loop, its just another step towards giving up. another step towards wishing for what they did, to turn into what they did. do you think about this. do youthingk about t his-
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omppupiiras · 2 months ago
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my army....🥹 they're not perfect but they're special to me <3 can you tell which one was the first i made haha
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