#ildi thoughts

[ildi-dragonheart]

Rewatched frozen and frozen 2 last night and now my 10-year-old jelsa shipper self has reawakened

I'm gonna scream now

[girlthingmaddie]

Being caged 24/7 is so much better than I thought it'd be. It makes everything so much more intense !!! My owner ordered me to plug myself for a couple hours while on call with friends n whatever. I literally had to leave the call the grind into the plug because I got so horny, my mouth felt so empty I went rummaged around for my dildo just to suck on it. Spent around two hours like that, grinding into my chair and sucking, it was amazing, everything was electric. Even after I calmed down, I still spent another two hours plugged and ildy sucking just because it was exciting and pleasurable. It was so fucking hot to have to leave call, make excuses to go pleasure myself for hours o/////o

[karathespellbinder]

So. I have this fancy family tree software and I thought I might as well use it, but it was having technical difficulties (or maybe I was the problem?) so here is this super low-quality Mettlestone family tree. Since it's impossible to read, (I just wanted to have a picture in a post for once, lol) I guess just rely on the image description! rip

Basically, I have figured out as best as I can the order of the Mettlestone siblings so I put them in, added their spouses, and added their kids. Oscar isn't in there but like he's an adopted grandkid so that is a bit of an inaccuracy; I'm not sure where he would go though? It was very fun researching the books to find all the ages, though ultimately there was a mostly-in-age-order list in SLV that filled in all the gaps. Before I found that list, I had known that Isabelle, Carrie, and Franny were the three oldest, that Emma and Patrick were at the end, and that Sophy was also a younger child.

kinda crazy they had 12 kids. that's a lot. In case you are wondering, the reason Bronte only had 10 gifts to give but 11 aunts is because Maya & Lisbeth shared a gift!

Also it's really cute that Jacob and Ildi combined their last names to make Mettlestone. Very wholesome.

[frankenjoly]

thanks for tagging me @bunniezai @demolitionlovrsskk (don't mind being tagged twice, in fact that's how i remembered i forgot doing it the first time alsdkjf sorry) :3

1) Were you named after anyone?

claudia from interview with a vampire, bcs my mom thought she was cute in the movie (and i still haven't seen it even when i wanna, shame on me).

2) Last time you cried?

can't say for sure, but definitely not too long ago. i cry quite easily in general, and with fiction in particular.

3) Do you have children?

no, and i don't think i will.

4) Do you play sports?

i go to the gym for the dance activities or yoga, but that's pretty much it.

5) Do you use sarcasm?

yeah, when joking and so (aka when it's obvious i'm not being serious).

6) What's the first thing you notice about people?

dunno? maybe the eyes and if they seem nice.

7) What's your eye color?

greyish blue.

8) Scary movies or happy endings?

happy endings all the way. i'm picky with scary movies bcs jumpscares make me anxious alsjf.

9) Talents?

i think i write good (or at least it's one of the things i'm 100% confident about myself), and i'm kinda witty when it comes to making puns.

10) Where were you born?

i'm just gonna say spain, bcs, y'know.

11) What are your hobbies?

writing (both fics and rp), reading, videogames, watching shows/movies (mainly anime nowadays bcs god bless 20 min eps).

12) Do you have any pets?

nope.

13) How tall are you?

159 cm.

14) Favorite school subject?

biology, and also liked arts.

15) Dream job?

i wanna do science, preferably. but tbh, i can make do with anything that doesn't crush me and gives money and free time to live (i'm quite good at my current one but it's not for indefinitely).

No pressure tags: @ildi-dragonheart @noirewaves @zukkaoru @llilli64 @diary-ofamadwoman @fyodorkitkat @louisjamesmoriarty

[plusonthewater]

Half -time score, 22:43 - EGB

Having made the decision to press on, I thought that I would consider things more generally. We have made good progress, aided my Ildi and Paul getting the hang of the driving. Scrolling back in the blog, I see that we do have the same new-looking engine in the boat as we did three years ago. It is a pity that such expeditions don’t look likely for much longer, due to the underinvestment. My more…

[redhead-writes]

What I am gonna do Part 5

Summary: When everything has been ruined and fallen in rubles around you, or at least it seems so. When all hope has been lost and there is no way out of hell. Is there a way to end all this pain? Is there a way to shake off the dust and start building something new?

Can also read it on AO3.

Kazim never thought he would end up in jail, especially to be put here by his own daughter. He expected that from Seyran but Suna seemed to always take what he served her. It must be those Sönmez’s poisoning her mind. He was just doing his job as a father to have two perfect daughters. He has been here for a few days and tried to stay low. Kazim was lucky to be in a different jail from Ferit’s father. It was breakfast time. He sat down where he could hide but still see others moving around the hall. 

Suddenly this group of inmates were moving in his direction. Kazim could feel his heart beating faster and faster. This must be how the fear feels. 

“Are you Kazim Şanlı?” asked one of the bigger inmates who by the looks of it was the leader of this group. Could they already know why he is here? Could they be sent to him by Suna? No, his daughter wouldn't choose such brutal punishment. This already was his punishment from her. To sit in the cell for the rest of his life. She was righteous like that. 

“Who is asking?” Kazim answered it with a question of his own. It seemed to confirm it for the group. He was picked up by the scruff of his shirt like a kitten, pulling him in the hallway where there was a blind spot for cameras. The first hits came to his chest, not hard enough for him to bruise, but hard enough to stop his lungs from pulling the air in them, and then there were a few heavy handed slaps. It continued for some time till a man holding him up let him go. Kazim crumbled on the floor, pulling himself in embryo position to protect his chest from more hits. “This is welcome to hell from Suna’s friends!” triumphantly said the bigger man, ending it by spitting on Kazim. Kazim has never felt more violated. Knowledge that this was only the beginning put the fear of God in the man on the floor. “A man who hits women is no man at all.”

*****

It was a presentation of Kaya’s company and jewelry collection. New beginning for Sönmez family name. Suna couldn’t be more proud of her husband. It has been two weeks since she had left the clinic and she was in court to put the past behind her. There were more court hearings but inspector Demirci said it will be enough with this one and final hearing. Their case was air tight. 

“Penny for your thoughts?” said Kaya, making Suna jump a little. She had been too deep in her thoughts.

“I was just thinking how fast everything changed once again. Quite scary, if you ask me.”

“Don’t think about it today, Suna. Enjoy this party because this is also for you, darling.” Kaya told her, pressing a kiss to her forehead. That is when she noticed that he was wearing her made chain. Since she came out of the clinic, she has been restless with all the energy she didn’t know where to put. So Kaya had taken the matters in his own hands and patiently taught her how to make some jewelry pieces. Suna enjoyed just being able to focus on creating something beautiful. Her husband proudly wore every piece she created for men. Suna had made a bracelet for her mother in law. This time presenting Nükhet with it went so much better. She was wearing it today, too. Suna was wearing earrings and a pendant from this collection.

Jewelry making was the first step for Suna to find what she wants to do in the future. She always thought she would be a housewife like her mother but that never sat with her well. So with support from people around her, Suna started looking and going to different courses. Her choice fell on teaching kids languages. By next semester she will start university for it, but she could give individual lessons to doctor Ildis' daughter. She loved the feeling of passing knowledge down to the next generation. 

“This party ends and we will leave for our honeymoon. I will think about that.” said Suna, playing with the chain she had made. It was her latest work and showed the improvement she had made.

“Yes, finally we will have our honeymoon. We for sure deserve it. Just the two of us, ocean and cocktails.”

“Sounds amazing. I hope the happy hour will continue in our bedroom.” Suna voiced her thoughts, winking at her husband. 

“Suna! Don’t tease me before I have to go on stage.”

“Oops! I didn’t expect that I would have such an effect on you.”

“My dear wife, that is a lie. You know well what effect you have on me.” Kaya said, his eyes twinkling with fire. That was a promise of a good time when they finally reach their final destination. Someone called out Kayas name. “I have to get on stage but I need something from you before I go.”

“What do you need?”

“A good luck kiss.”

“I can do that.” Suna whispered, pressing a kiss to her husband's cheek. Kaya didn’t look impressed. “You just told me not to tease you. So get on that stage and then you will get a proper kiss.”

“You drive me insane, woman.”

“Pleasure is all mine, my husband.”

They both smirked at each other. The man again called Kaya and this time he left Suna, walking fastly to the stage. He looked so natural with all the attention on him. Kaya was basking in it. 

“Welcome to the opening of a new family owned jewelry business and collection. I want to say thank you to all the people that supported and put their trust into this business. I hope I and this brand live up to your expectations.” Kaya stated, taking a deep breath before continuing. “The name of this collection is “Survivors”. It is dedicated to two strongest women in my life - my mom and wife. They showed me each day how much strength women possess. It may be our male duty to protect women but we have to appreciate their inner strength that also protects us. Also half of the earnings from each sale will go to crisis centers for women that have been abused. That is all. Enjoy the rest of the evening!”

Suna had tears in her eyes. Someone squeezed the palm of her hand. She looked to the right to see it being her mother in law who also had shine in her eyes with unshed tears. Suna really could not explain how this trust and support has grown between her and Nünkhet and it seemed to come from both sides of her. Nünkhet was becoming the mother figure that Suna never had in Esme. Even the “evil” side didn’t throw snide comments at her anymore. It seems like Suna, by putting Korhans behind bars, had soothed the other side of her personality. More like Nünkhet didn’t need to be afraid anymore, so she didn’t need this strong front. 

She and Sehmuz would be joining her and Kaya on the third week of their honeymoon. Nünkhet had told Kaya about her end being near. Kaya had exploded, rushing out of the house. Suna had found him in the garden on his knees, his whole body shaking with sobs. She just sat next to him, rubbing his back up and down. That night, in the garden, under summer clear skies full with stars, Kaya opened up about his fears, about why he lashed out when there was the possibility of Suna leaving him. Suna saw her own reflection staring at her from the things he was telling her. So she opened up herself, telling all about the abuse and loneliness she endured, about the mind games that people played with her. There they came to the conclusion that they should have more talks like this, but also that Nünkhet deserves to live her last months being surrounded by her loved ones. Kaya told her how his mom had always wanted to road trip around Italy and France to try the best of foods. That is how Suna ended up planning this road trip for their family. 

“Are you two okay?” asked Sehmuz, who seemed to be worried about two women with tears in their eyes. Kaya also caught the question, who had made his way to them from the stage.

“Yes, just my son making us emotional with his speech tonight.”

“Good thing I am wearing waterproof mascara.” said Suna, trying to lighten the mood. It was evening to celebrate as Kaya himself had said. All four laughed and clinked the glasses. 

“To us!” affirmed Sehmuz, making them clink the glasses once again. “You, youngsters, can slip away and get ready for your flight. Me and your mother will hold the front for you.”

He didn’t need to say that twice to Kaya and Suna. They put down the glasses, and briskly walked to the door of the gallery where the event took place. Kaya turned to Suna and asked her: “Are you ready for this next phase with me?”

“As I wrote to you in the hospital, with you by my side, I can fight anyone and anything. It still stands. So, Kaya Sönmez, take me on this next journey of ours.”

“Your wish is my command, my dear wife.”

[wntw-virtuemoir-edition]

At least her nose is looking better in that pic. She sure is kinda acting suspect to me.

my first thought was that it was nose 3! i doubt it changed since her ildy appearance so…..its just the angle. or computer magic.

[notonelineff]

Lessons Lucifer Season 6 Left Me With:

Life on Earth doesn't matter when compared to eternity.

A child of a previous relationship isn't as important as a child of the partner you're currently with.

Trauma makes you who you are, and you shouldn't want to erase that.

Everyone is deserving the chance of redemption, no matter what they do.

Free will is an illusion. No matter how much you fight for it, we all end up following God's plan.

If you like your job enough, you won't regret abandoning your child and the woman you love for it.

A parent abandoning their child is acceptable, as long as it's the best thing for them.

God was right to do what he did. In fact, he was the one who made the sacrifice by abandoning Lucifer, because it was painful for him. Casting Lucifer into Hell to be a torturer, letting him grow to hate himself to the point he thinks he's a monster incapable of love, it was all for a reason.

[evanox]

That's the only frog I could find in my gallery, take it or leave it @crabbarts @mauve-days

[falcatrecon]

Kinktober day 21

nipple play/rimming Illinois & Yancy, afab

“Welcome home treasure, I’d like you to meet a friend of mine, just got off on parole.” You greeted Illinois in turn, walking past him to the living room. 

You stopped short in surprise. “Yancy?”

The man in question stood up from his seat on the couch with a grin. “So my little escapee is youses’ perfect treasure huh?” He came over to give you an enveloping hug. “Youse is why I sprung for parole. In point of fact, I was gonna ask ol’ Noisy here a favor to find youse.” He leaned back with a soft smile, letting a hand touch your cheek. “Looks like youse is doing just peachy though.”

Before he could get too melancholy though, Illinois stepped up and rested a hand on his shoulder with a grin. “So this is the jailbird you liked getting to sing? I was wondering.” 

Yancy managed to blush a bit before spinning around, his bravado on full force. “What’do’ya mean youse was wonderin?” 

He took a step back, running into you as Illinois stepped forward into his space. “You were a partner of mine once. Don’t you remember? I was wondering if my treasure was talking of the same singing I used to get.” His finger tucked under Yancy’s chin, getting him to look him in the eye as he grinned. “So I don’t think there’s a problem here do you?”

Yancy nearly retorted back, but your hands sliding up under his shirt stopped him cold. “Youse… youse is <i>serious</i>.” He relaxed under your hands once he realized he wasn’t being teased, even leaning into your touch. Illinois leaned forward to capture his lips in a kiss. You crowded closer, reaching past and hooking Illinois’ belt loops to tug them together.

Illinois chuckled. “Someone is eager.”

“I mean,” You tugged up on Yancy’s shirt, “We ought to show our jailbird a good time now that he’s out.”

“Our jailbird.” Illinois’ hands worked at Yancy’s belt and pants. He leaned forward to rumble in Yancy’s ear. “I like the sound of that.”

Yancy’s brain seemed to finally catch up, quickly working on Illinois’ buttons. “Youse two will be the death of me.” He grabbed another sharp kiss from Illinois as his fingers worked, your own hands skating around his stomach, sliding lower to tease at his hips. With a triumphant noise, Yancy managed to finish Illinois’ shirt. He reached out and wrapped his arms around Illinois’ body before leaning forward to flick a tongue across his nipple. He gasped at the touch, tugging against Yancy’s hold. Yancy chuckled before wrapping his lips around the aforementioned nub.

You kissed at Yancy’s shoulder as you watched Illinois’ face as he squirmed. You knew they were sensitive, but hadn’t quite concentrated solely on them yet. You ildy wondered just how long the two had been partners before Yancy got caught. Since Yancy’s hands were occupied on keeping Illinois in place, you reached around to work at Illi’s pants for him. Illinois’ hands were digging into Yancy’s shoulders and hair. You weren’t sure if he was trying to push him away or pull him closer. Finally you managed to get his pants open and lightly pushed Yancy’s hips closer, running a hand along both their shafts.

That got Yancy to back off with a whine, leaving Illinois trembling for a second before his grin returned. “Well now, forgot you knew my weak points.” His fingers ran through Yancy’s hair for a moment before he caught sight of you. “And someone is still dressed.”

You quickly found yourself hauled around between the two, both making quick work of your clothes. Yancy backed you up against Illinois, mouth soft along your neck and hands massaging your breasts. Illinois’ hands were busy at your waist, trailing downwards to tease your mound. You gasped softly and rolled your hips back against his dick. “I thought we were ganging up on Yancy.”

“Plans can change.” Illinois nipped at your ear. “It’s not our fault you’re so distracting.” He shifted his hold and you suddenly found yourself lifted, legs purposefully wrapped around Yancy’s hips. You had to grab at his neck to keep from falling. “Follow me.”

Yancy had to quickly catch you, but held you easily. He bounced you a moment to get a better hold before following after Illinois towards the bedroom. You purposefully rolled your hips, rubbing against his erection that was pressed up against your underside. He hissed softly in your ear. “No fair.” You grinned and were about to retort when you found yourself unceremoniously dumped onto the bed. “Youse in for it now.”

Your eyes caught Illinois stepping behind him and you couldn’t help a giggle. “Oh am I?”

It was Yancy’s turn to be cut off as he was pushed to the bed, catching himself on his elbows before he crashed into you. It left his face about breast height, which he promptly took advantage of. It was your turn to dig your hands into his hair as he lovingly sucked, sending those amazing tingles through your nerves.

Illinois dropped to his knees behind Yancy, massaging his ass. He left soft kisses, lips exploring Yancy’s balls. His tongue wandered higher, lightly pressing at that ring of muscle, getting Yancy to moan around your breast, nipping you slightly. His tongue pressed deeper as his hands worked their way between you, caressing the flesh he could touch. Yancy whined, pressing back against Illinois, redoubling his efforts on you, getting you to squirm underneath him.

Finally Illinois relented, leaving Yancy softly panting against your skin. You could hear a familiar pop of the lube bottle’s cap. You tugged Yancy closer, tilting your hips up pleadingly. Illinois held off his onslaught long enough for Yancy to pull you under him, pushing himself slow and deep inside you.

Illinois let the peace stand for only a second before his fingers began to press at Yancy’s entrance. His hips rocked forward, deeper into you as he moaned in your ear, Illinois slowly working him open. He tried his best to hold still, but you could feel him trembling. You purposefully squeezed your muscles around him, getting him to hiss softly. “God, I’m not gonna last under youse two.”

“You’re going to have to try if you want our treasure to feel good too.” Illinois kissed along his spine as he pressed his dick in, slowly filling Yancy. Yancy stopped moving for a moment, getting used to how you both felt around him and inside him. He tried an experimental roll of his hips, involuntarily whimpering. You rocked your hips, trying to coax him to move.

Illinois pushed himself forward, pushing Yancy deeper into you in turn. You nipped at Yancy’s shoulder as you met each of Illinois’ thrusts with your hips, Yancy trapped between you two. After a few bounces between you, Yancy finally managed to get his own rhythm under control, pushing back. Each thrust had both of them behind it, rough and deep, pushing you closer to the edge. You could feel that Yancy was so close and fighting it in the tight tension of his muscles. Illinois leaned close, wedging a hand between, thumb pressing wonderfully against your bundle of nerves. 

You cried out, fingers digging into Yancy’s back as you came around him. He finally let go of his control, shuddering as he slammed himself home into you, filling you with his warmth. You were both jostled into oversensitivity as Illinois still moved, chasing his own pleasure into Yancy’s tight muscle with a soft moan.

All three of you rested against each other for a long moment, reveling in the comfort of each other's warmth. It was you who gave in first, weakly shoving at Yancy. “You’re both heavy.”

Yancy snuggled his face into the crook of your neck. “Nope. Youse two wore me out. Can’t move.”

Illinois chuckled as he slowly slid out of Yancy, wringing one last whimper from the man. “Well then I guess I’ll have to help.” He reached around Yancy and hauled him up to his feet, this time getting you to gasp. He offered his hand out with a grin. “Y’all want a shower?”

[ildi-dragonheart]

the aroace urge to headcanon my favorite characters as somewhere within the aro/ace spectrums

[luciferloveschloe]

goodbye, lucifer (but not really!)

I cannot BELIEVE that I just watched the last episode of my favourite show.

I usually cram everything I have to in tags under gifsets I reblog, but for this final season I'll go through the pain of actually writing shit down. I'll try to keep it short, and I'll try not to ramble. (Edit: Did not accomplish that.)

what i loved

SCREAMS

God, soooooooo much!!

Deckerstar baby

Okay, so when Rory showed up in the trailer I was like "Ugh, another annoying angel? Meh." FORGIVE ME, my sweet murder child! Of all the things I thought they might do, a Deckerstar baby was DEAD LAST on my list. And a daughter no less, I just... When she says she's Lucifer's daughter, I was like *SCREAMS*, but when we learn she's Lucifer AND Chloe's daughter, I completely lost it. My boyfriend's on a trip with his friends this week and I'm sooo grateful for that, I made the weirdest, loudest, ugliest noises while watching this season, I ran around our apartment like a maniac, I squealed and laughed and cried and just generally lost my mind. But when she says that?? Oh my God. Also the way Lucifer reacted when Chloe shows him the pregnancy test? Straight outta fanfic.

Lucifer being a father

Oh my God?? I've always said he'd be the BEST father, and actually seeing it on screen... I love the parallel of him being ridiculously over the top with Rory at first, just like God and Lucifer in S5. The way he looks at her when he sees her playing the guitar? Their duet?? Instantly one of my favourite scenes. Them driving in the Corvette, their last day together, how he keeps her from killing Le Mec? Just murder me.

Established Deckerstar

All the hugs and kisses?? The declarations of love, the besotted looks, the absolute power couple we got? Their look from Maze and Eve's wedding, OH MY GOD???? Just, these two are so pretty and we got SO MUCH. Also, their scenes with Rory?? I just love them so much...

(More under the cut!)

Ella's storyline

I wanted a reveal for her so badly, and the way it turned out was brilliant! I loved her figuring it out for herself and calling everyone out lmao. I especially loved poor Carol returning to that room full of shocked people. They had some GREAT punchlines and gags this season, absolutely hilarious! I also love Lucifer's parting gift for her and that she finally found a good one with Carol.

Hugs, so many hugs!

That's it, that's the paragraph.

The Police storyline

As a white person who has literally never once had a problem with the police, I know this is not my place to say, but I think they did a good job? Not giving into the "a few bad apples" excuse but acknowledging that the whole system needs to change? I also really enjoyed the scenes with Amenadiel and Officer Harris, showing what policework could and should look like.

Maze and Eve's happily ever after

I'm so glad auntie Maze and auntie Eve got their happy ending! And that wedding was a bomb. Also, "You're my hell!", lmao.

Dan's ascend to heaven

First of, great to know his only torture was Belios' lack of table tennis skills. Secondly, how very fitting for the show that they didn't hand Dan his happy ending easily, that he fought and won it for himself. Him as a ghost and him as Le Mec was equally funny, and his talk with Trixie was just perfect, literally tears you guys.

Amenadiel becoming God

I mean, dude's perfect for the job! From the loyal, distant, obeying servant to a God who wants to work as a team with his siblings, who wants the Celestials to experience the human world, who hates injustice and loves fiercely? In this universe, I couldn't imagine anyone better suited to be God.

Nobody misses the case of the week

At least I don't! God, I wish they'd tried this out sooner.

The bittersweet ending

Let's preface this by saying I HATE bittersweet endings. Give me a happily ever after or else. And yet, and yet!! I think the ending they settled on is perfect. Would I have loved it if Lucifer had a life on earth with Chloe, Trixie and Rory? God, yes. Do I get emotional over him being alone in hell, again? Goddd, yes. But still. I so love that he found his calling in the end, that they reunited, and that he actually makes good on his promise from S5 to change the system. Also, I don't care if this is canon or fanon for now, but they totally spend time in heaven with Rory and visit earth whenever they like. And this would have been my ideal ending - them being free to go where they like, and I don't see why they shoudn't. It's definitely more satisfying than just traipsing off to heaven indefinitely, so I really, really loved that.

what i didn't (do feel free to skip this!)

Lucifer missing out on Chloe's life on earth and being alone in hell again. Chloe being left again.

Time travel shenanigans. I just finished Dark and that was enough of a mindfuck. Do not want to think about loops for this show, thank you very much.

Chloe felt a little too housewifey in the first episodes, but it thankfully didn't stay that way for long.

Lucifer and Chloe talking about keeping secrets for a whole episode, and then NOBODY TALKING ABOUT URIEL AND CANDY. I mean, ahhhhhhh! If you don't want to talk about it, then don't, but don't remind people of it constantly and then NOT discuss it. It drives me mad, honestly, how many times they referenced these storylines only to completely ignore them when there were opportunities to resolve them. Ahhh. That's what fic is for, I guess.

Adam. Like, why? Bye, dude.

what i'll keep with me

When someone I'd just met at my boyfriend's cousin's wedding in 2019 recommended this "funny, little show" to me that intrigued them because they were interested in finding their faith, I really didn't think I'd write all this three years later.

Lucifer is my third fandom, and it won't be my last, but it sure as hell - ha - will stay with me. I resonate so deeply with Lucifer as a character because he fights with the idea of God, fights with this concept of a benevolent father that everyone seems to believe in but never fit his experience. I come from a Christian family and studied theology, but somewhere along the lines I had to come to terms with the fact that the faith I had as a child and teenager didn't fit me anymore. I want to believe again, and maybe someday I will, but right now I don't know that. So Lucifer's journey with that meant a lot to me. I'd like to find what Ella did, I guess.

Although I never really thought Lucifer needed redemption, I loved the whole "anybody can be redeemed" message as well. And hell reform! Hell is such a weird, awful construct - speaking as the theology expert - bringing a bit of purgatory in in this universe is really fucking cool.

Also, I binged Lucifer when I was alone in hospital late at night. That experience alone I'll never forget.

So, I guess - thank you!! Thank you to the cast and crew, to the fans who campaigned for season four, to Ildy and Joe, to the writers and the directors and the people who brought lunch: Thank you so much for this incredible show. I'm not ready to say goodbye, not by a long shot, and I hope this fandom feels the same.

Yabba dabba do me, I love my stupid little show!!!

[mulderscully]

What did you think of Chloe leaving the LAPD? I thought it made sense for her character (she’s always been about helping people, which this allows her to do on a much larger scale, and at this point she’s both solved her father’s murder and gotten to see him again, which read as closure on that part of her life to me) and I’m really excited to see her outside the LAPD next season but I feel like that’s an unpopular opinion.

this is a can of worms.

one. i think people who are strongly against chloe leaving the lapd had the copaganda work on them a lil too much. they can't separate chloe from the job. and the job from being good. this is what is dangerous about cop shows and you gotta be aware of it when you watch them. i have actually become more uncomfy with the police aspect and HOPED she would quit and was so absolutely happy when she did bc this show has no more reason to be a cop show tbh.

two. i agree on everything you said. she wants to help. there are much better ways to help. she solved her father's murder which was why she became a cop. it's all good. she can find new things now.

three. people seem to dislike how chloe "quit for lucifer" but they aren't paying attention to how the whole point amongst all the couples is balance. penelope shares the deal she had with john about chasing dreams, then we see god follow mumlotte to her universe and be her consultant. it isn't forever. they'll find a balance. lucifer had been there for chloe in her job, so now it's her turn to support his dreams. she said herself it was her choice, that she wanted to, and lucifer said himself she was free to do whatever she wanted to as "mrs. god." and gave her multiple chances to change her mind which she did not.

but lastly, and this is s6 bts spoiler territory, it does seem like she and lucifer are still partners and working at the precinct for at least part of s6 so i am curious how that plays out. joe and ildy have said blm is a big part of s6 so it would be interesting imo for her to realize she should leave because cops are um: not as good as she thought behind her trauma googles and the system is corrupt. but that might be wishing too much 🥲

[frankenjoly]

Tag as many people as there are lines in your excerpt.

Tagged by @cursedvibes (thanks!!!).

I've been wanting to do an spy x family au for kunikidazai for long, and kunikidazai week on twitter next month gave me the final push (sorry not sorry for the big-ass bsd streak), sooo:

“Aww.” Kunikida was about to briefly comment on the kid's manners when Dazai cooed, and everything became forgotten for the time being. “What a cute duo you make. Are you happy, Atsushi-kun?” “Yeah!!! I'm very happy with my papa, yeah.” Atsushi instantly said, nodding just as quickly. “But sometimes it's lonely, just Papa and I…” In that position, even though he couldn't see the kid's face, Kunikida could bet he was pouting like when he thought he wasn't going to be allowed to eat dessert. “And I think Papa gets lonely too…”

Tagging (ofc with no pressure): @ildi-dragonheart @fyodorkitkat @bungoustraypups @psylunari @lettersfromn0where and whoever wanna do it :3

[plusonthewater]

Half -time score, 22:43 - EGB

Having made the decision to press on, I thought that I would consider things more generally. We have made good progress, aided my Ildi and Paul getting the hang of the driving. Scrolling back in the blog, I see that we do have the same new-looking engine in the boat as we did three years ago. It is a pity that such expeditions don’t look likely for much longer, due to the underinvestment. My more…

[redhead-writes]

What I am gonna do Part 4

Summary: When everything has been ruined and fallen in rubles around you, or at least it seems so. When all hope has been lost and there is no way out of hell. Is there a way to end all this pain? Is there a way to shake off the dust and start building something new?

Can also read it on AO3.

Suna was sitting in a car with inspector Demirci and Çan near doctor Ildis clinic where she had been staying for a month. She was getting better and the doctor was happy with her progress. Suna would leave this peaceful place in a few days. Kaya will come and get her. They had been calling each other while Kaya was in London. 

Çan’s phone was ringing. Of course, it was Kaya. He straight away gave the phone to Suna. She was the only one who would explain and calm down her husband. Their plan was daring, to say the least. They were going to use Suna as the bait. 

“Çan, Suna is missing.”

“Kaya.” Suna said softly, hearing her husband sigh in relief over the phone. 

“Suna?”

“I know, Kaya, but I have to do it. I have to put them all away behind the bars. They are coming after me. Me and you know that this is the only way.”

“Will you be safe, my water fairy?”

“I will do my best. Also the inspector and Çan will have my back. You do trust them to keep me safe?”

“I do but I wish to be there with you to have your back, too.”

“That is exactly why we are doing this now. I know how you can react to me being in danger.” Suna told Kaya who chuckled at that statement. He was a man, of course, he wanted to protect his wife. 

“Stay safe, my wife. I want to pick you up from the clinic and not the hospital.”

“I will do my best. I l..”

Kaya cut her off by saying: “No, don’t say it over the phone. I want to hear it when we are face to face.”

“Alright!” Suna answered in English. “See you in a few days.”

“See you!”

Suna gave the phone back to Çan. This conversation had made her rethink the plan. No, there is no going back. She wants to start a new life with Kaya without the past haunting them. This was the best and only way to go. 

“Are you ready, Suna? We need to set up the gazebo in the garden and wire you up.”

“I am ready. Let’s do this!” said Suna with all the conviction she had in her. There was no way back now. This had to be done. 

Inspector Demirci put a microphone on Suna while Çan worked on the gazebo. The additional policemen were hiding. She was safe and she could do it for herself. 

When everything was ready, Suna sat down on the bench in the gazebo. It was a nice summer day, reminding her of the Marmaris trip. They really should go on honeymoon after Kaya launches his jewelry collection. Suna shook her out of those thoughts. She was a woman on a mission. Soon enough there were steps coming closer to the gazebo. There was the forever trio of bad news - Seyran, Ferit and Abdini. Gosh, to think that she once wanted to be part of this clique. Seyran noticed her and started walking faster with a big smile on her face, shouting out: “Suna!”

Suna tried to smile back but it felt more like a grimace. She was also tracking the other two men who were looking around to see if someone was close by. They really thought that her sister would lure her back in hell, but no, Suna had learned the hard way what it meant to trust these people. Once Suna would have done everything for her sister but not anymore. She was living her own life.

“Suna, my sister. I thought I would never see you again.” Seyran said, rushing in her excitement. She sat in front of Suna to obscure her view of two other men and their movements. This was really their plan to kidnap her from a clinic with the best security in Turkey. Yes, they were outside but Suna there were cameras in this gazebo put there by the clinic and now additionally by the police.

“It wasn’t like you were looking for me that hard. It has been two months.” Suna spoke with quiet confidence, not letting her emotions get the best of her. She was remembering all that she learned in therapy. Stay calm and it will make the real villain rear its head. 

“I was, Suna. I really was, but they hid you so well for two months. Also the fake accusations that you put against Korhans and our parents have not made this situation easy on me or Ferit. But now we are ready to take you away and keep you safe from Sönmez’s. I don’t know how they brainwashed you so much in these two months. You will be in safe space and will soon enough call back all the charges, right?” Seyran spoke so full of hope that everything will go back to the old ways. Suna is just there to cater to her and Ferit’s needs, or be the one to receive all the abuse from their parents. For Suna it all felt like another lifetime, but fear gripped her for a moment at just the thought of being pushed back there.

“May I remind you, sister, you were the first one to make accusations against Şanli and Korhan families. Also I have my treatment plan that I have to finish. I am quite content here.”

“Suna, don’t be ridiculous. You don’t mean all those things. We will find you a better doctor that won’t brainwash you and make you go against your family. Soon enough you will be able to help us with another miracle.” Seyran said, trying to touch Suna’s stomach. Now she really could feel bile rising in her throat. 

“Don’t touch me!” hissed Suna, crossing arms over her stomach. “Did you ever ask me about this miracle you want? Did you ever think that maybe I don’t want this?

Seyran looked back at her with a confused look on her face and a bit of anger in her eyes because how dare Suna stand between what Seyran wants. 

“Suna, calm down. Of course, I thought about it.”

“Thought, you only thought about it, but never asked.”

“You have always helped me. This would have been another thing we shared. Like after a second failed marriage, you really thought that someone else would marry you again. I was giving you your best chance to become a mother. That is what you dreamed about.”

“I’m still married to Kaya. Our marriage hasn't failed like you all three wanted it to. Also, Seyran, if you really knew what my dream is, then it is creating a loving family. About that you for sure don’t know anything.”

“There, there, Suna, no need to be so rude to your sister and me. We are offering you such an amazing deal but you have to take after your husband and be difficult.”

“Better be difficult than cry baby. That is no deal you were offering me, it was simply you again wanting and Halis using all his power to give you what you want. Now there is no Halis anymore, your money can’t buy everything without a brain behind it. That you for sure lack.” 

That made Ferit walk fast forward to Suna and hold her up by the throat. Suna could feel less and less oxygen reaching her lungs. She had experienced this two months ago, this time surrounded by people she once believed were her most trusted companions. Suna wasn’t scared and stared back at Ferit, making the young men feel uncomfortable. Everyone backed down after he showed his violent side, except Kaya. She really was the perfect match for his cousin. 

“You once asked me, Ferit, who Kaya Sönmez is? The answer is the man I love and respect. The man you wanted to be in Halis eyes but never could be because of your own laziness and a way of thinking life needs to serve it all on the silver platter for you.”

“Shut up! Shut up!” shouted Ferit, squeezing Sunas airways even more, but she whispered: “Never!”

“Abdini, come shut her up with that sedative. Suna, here needs to learn a lesson on how to behave while talking to a man. Her husband seems to be doing a bad job.” uttered Ferit, letting Suna crumple on the floor of the gazebo. Suna breathed in slowly so as not to hurt her throat even more. She looked up to see Abdini standing over her with syrgin. All it made her laugh louder and louder with each passing second. Suna stood up, dusting off her pants and looked at the trio.

“She has gone mad. Those Sönmez’s have made her go mad.” muttered Seyran, burrowing in Ferits side like scared little animal. Once it would have made Suna’s instincts work over time but not anymore. She had her survival instincts up.

“What are you waiting for, Abdini? Put me down like the mad dog you think I am. Oh right, you are too much of a coward. Let me help you!” Suna said and walked closer to Abdini whose hand was shaking badly. Still he put the needle near her neck. Suna could feel it stabbing there but she didn’t move and didn’t show the fear. So much for the brave driver who once seemed like a prince in shining armor to her. “You all are fools.” 

That was the safe sentence for the police to storm the gazebo. Handcuffing all three people, and taking them away. Suna could hear Seyran still going on and on how Suna is the psycho one. 

“I hope this is enough to charge them.” whispered Suna who had started shaking, adrenaline leaving her. Çan put a blanket over her shoulders and Suna wrapped it around herself. 

“It is enough and with the evidence that Pelin also added to your ones. There is enough to charge all three of them.” Inspector Demirci told Suna, admiring the young woman's guts once again. She herself would not have been able to do it, to be honest, but this woman did it and successfully. 

Çan once again held out his phone to Suna. She took it with trembling fingers and whispered: “Kaya?”

“Suna, I had to make sure you are okay. Did it end as you planned?”

“It did.” Suna confirmed, but then it all hit her like a ton of bricks and the tears started to fall. Kaya could hear the hiccups of her wife. 

“Suna?” asked Kaya, getting worried over his wife's well being. She hadn’t cried so hard since the day when Suna told him the whole story about what happened in the month they were seperated. He hated that he was in London, so far away from Suna. 

“I am okay. It just hit me that this has ended in some sense. I know there is still court hearings but the torture has ended, and I won those demons.”

“You sure did, water fairy. You were your own savior in the story called your destiny. Now allow Çan to lead you back to the clinic. Get some rest.”

“I will. Come home sooner.”

“I will try.”

What Suna didn’t know, Kaya already was on his way to the airport in London. All the talks had been successful and with the rest Sehmuz could deal. He needed to be with his soul.

When Kaya got to the clinic, it was already late but the guards knew him, so he slipped in the clinic. He could find his wife's room in his sleep already. There was Çan by the door who looked surprised to see him there. 

“She will be happy to see you. I will leave now that you are here.”

“Thank you for protecting her!”

“It is my job.” With that Çan left to enjoy the summer night. Kaya walked in the room to see Suna asleep with the book still open in her lap. He carefully put the book on the nightstand, marking the page on which she stayed. There was a spot on the bed that Suna had left for him subconsciously. Kaya took off his shoes and took the spot, pulling Suna closer to himself and pressing a kiss to her halo. They were back again in the same position as they were in hospital. This time the future felt brighter than two months ago.