#if: fhr

[amlovelies]

an interlude

fandom: fhr pairing: julia ortega/f!sidestep (cynthia basri) warnings: retri spoilers, but no real warnings, canon typical stuff words: 483 read on ao3

this has been sitting in my drafts forever as part of a large thing (and me trying to write smut) which is never going to happen, but I like this part so might as well share it here. this isn't cyn's canon but still.

Fate certainly has a sense of humor. After so many years of pining, so many years not allowing yourself to cross that line with her

You keep waiting for the disgust to show on her face, for the shock to wear off for the knowledge to settle in. You aren’t human, you never have been.

It hasn’t happened, if anything her attentions have grown more heated, her kiss lingering in a way which leaves little doubts about what she is thinking. What you are thinking too.

It’s hard not to remember that night. Hard not to replay it while you try to hold sleep and the nightmares at bay.

No more secrets inscribed on your skin to keep you apart, just the casts on your legs.

You should have known Ortega would find a way to get creative.

Her kiss starts out gentle, holding her weight off you making sure not to put undue pressure on your abused limbs,

Her lips soft and plush against yours, pulling back to look into your eyes as she brushes your hair back from your forehead.

The smile on her face is fragile, and you have to close your eyes. A pair of feather-light kisses to your eyelids and her fingers trace familiar paths on your face. A pattern you would remember anywhere, you would feel it sometimes back at the farm, the phantom touch of her thumb on your cheek, and for the briefest of moments the oppressive static of the dampeners morphed into something comforting. The illusion never lasted, fading away in the face of the stark solitude of your cell, of your existence.

You’re afraid to open your eyes now. Afraid that this will all shatter and this will all have been a dream that her love will be nothing but a foolish dream. You close them tighter, trying to keep the tears which threaten at bay.

“Did I hurt you?” Concern evident in her voice as her weight shifts to move away from you.

That’s enough to get you to open your eyes, to reach out and pull her back, not ready for her to leave your side again, not with the memories so close on the horizon.

“You didn’t hurt me.”

“Are you sure?” she hesitates before she retakes her position on the edge of the bed, hands hovering over you instead of touching, like you might break at any moment, she isn’t totally wrong.

“I never thought . . . you shouldn’t . . . “ the words escape you. “I never thought I could have this.” You finally admit. Honesty. More than you usually give but you’re already at her mercy so what does a little more vulnerability cost?

“Neither did I.” She leans forward, her forehead pressed against yours, your breaths mingling, as her fingers lace between your own. You’re not sure how long you stay like that, letting her breathe pull you back to the present. It feels like only a moment, it feels like seven years

[kidhellion]

the core

[honeyglas]

You wish this moment could last forever.

[hadrassians]

beautiful woman who lives in my steam library

[outerjersey]

And now you're doing it again.

But things will be different this time.

[quiddling]

very kissable

[unicornconnor]

BABE ORTEGA

[godshaper]

sidestep reborn. the suit might be new, but the name was always hers.

[bastardnoodle]

i'm on my knees begging for a healing montage. i crave hurt/comfort like a hotdog yearns for relish and mustard

[ianthedebonair]

✨ MAGICAL VILLAIN TRANSFORMATION ✨

[astrovvitches]

ortega....

[amlovelies]

playing fhr at last and by GOD am i enjoying being the wet black cat gf to julia’s working dog also-gf.

It's an excellent dynamic! One thing I love about fhr is how different the dynamics can be be depending on your choices, just makes it feel so vivid and responsive

[kidhellion]

t4t yuri save me... save me t4t yuri

[honeyglas]

Something’s in the rear view mirror.

[antarees-8]

Fallen Hero Sidestep Phobetor

Call me a casualty The cost of catastrophe The damage, damage, damage is done Call me, call me another one

[limepigeon]

It's finally here!! Coming Home: A Fallen Hero Fanzine is the joint work of 30 incredible contributors and one editor, culminating in a 70+ pages long zine filled with artwork and writing! I am beyond proud of the work and effort we all put into this, it turned out to be a lot bigger than I initially thought but the result has blown me away! I have learnt a lot while organising this project which I am very grateful for. Thank you to all contributors who made this possible! And with that, I am very excited to finally be able to share it with you! Coming Home: A Fallen Hero Fanzine (2024) - Link to PDF

List of contributors: Wednesday (he/they) - crowshuh.tumblr.com Borf (she/her) - no socials Capricule (she/her) - Linktr.ee/capricule Sam (they/them) - seawardboundsammy.tumblr.com / Sandcloud27 (AO3) Allen "Chocolate Dreams" (ne/nem, it/its, they/them) - allens-chocolate-dreams.tumblr.com Beem (she/they) - callmebeem.tumblr.com Bookish (they/them) - silvery-bluish.tumblr.com Mo (he/they) - mosartandjunk.tumblr.com Wenrys "Echo" (they/them) - echoesofwinter.tumblr.com / EchoesOfWinter (twitter) Gingham (he/him) - glamgingham.tumblr.com Chainchaser (he/him) - chainchaser.tumblr.com Pulp (he/they) - sidesteppostinghours.tumblr.com Sal (he/him) - steelh4ze.tumblr.com Lori (they/them) - disastersteps.tumblr.com Jackal "Cigs" (he/they) - cigarettesandinevitablebetrayal.tumblr.com / Knockoff_Indulgences (AO3) Godshaper - godshaper.tumblr.com / Godshaper (twitter) Westealtoys (she/her) - westealtoys.tumblr.com Wonda (she/her) - wonda-fhr.tumblr.com Karo "HarbingersEcho" (he/him) - harbingersecho.tumblr.com Ripley (it/its) - asthecrowrambles.tumblr.com Ellie (he/him) - hawkepockets.tumblr.com Kalee (she/her) - bigfreckledears.tumblr.com Hen (he/they) - side-stepping.tumblr.com Isobel "Iggy" (she/her) - iggydabirdkid.tumblr.com / iggys_artstuff (IG) Idle (he/him) - idlenight.tumblr.com Dogueteeth (they/them) - dogueteeth.tumblr.com Phopho (he/him) - phosilli.tumblr.com / phosilli (IG) Aedan "Kidhellion" (he/him) - kidhellion.tumblr.com Shark "SixLeggedBoar" (he/they) - sexleggedboar.tumblr.com Cassie "Calnexin" (she/her) - calnexin.tumblr.com Tom "Lime" (they/them) - limepigeon.tumblr.com The print-at-home PDF will come later this year! Coming Home: A Fallen Hero Fanzine (2024) is a free, non-profit fan project based on the interactive fiction series Fallen Hero (2018). Fallen Hero (2018) is written by Malin Rydén and published by Hosted Games, it can be found at Choice of Games and Steam.

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@crowshuh @capricule @seawardboundsammy @allens-chocolate-dreams @callmebeem @silvery-bluish @mosartandjunk @echoesofwinter @glamgingham @chainchaser @sidesteppostinghours @steelh4ze @disastersteps @cigarettesandinevitablebetrayal @godshaper @westealtoys @wonda-fhr @harbingersecho @asthecrowrambles @hawkepockets @bigfreckledears @side-stepping @iggydabirdkid @idlenight @dogueteeth @phosilli @kidhellion @sixleggedboar @calnexin Contributors, feel free to upload your zine artwork to your own socials and tag me or use tag fallen hero fanzine 2024 so I can find it and reblog it! 💛