#if youve read this far tell me what you think abt this (only if you want to) and what you think i could improve on

[hyperfixated-homo]

not rlly that proud of this but. littol bloo sketch

[mazzystargirl]

ok living up to pinned post w some true confessions/dark secrets… so basically after i tried to kms in 2021 fall and went to the hospital i entered a really intense slut era and like started impulsively spending money and stuff too and i didnt have a job so i was like oh omg having a sugar daddy would work out really well for me and also i wanted to do things that would be like damaging or whatever idk why i did it rly. but anyway i engaged in some sugar baby behaviors. and then that winter break i went home from school and met up w some of my friends who ive known since i was a kid. now i have to give a little bit of context here cuz its important. so i have these 3 friends, one of whom ive known since i was 3 years old (N) and the other two since i was like 7 (S and J). and we all live in a very tight knit neighborhood/cultural community where mostly everyone knows everyone. and so my 3 friends parents know my parents. i guess you can see where this is going… but anyway i told them i had a sugar daddy or like it came up in conversation idk. and that was that. then literally the following AUGUSTTTT my mom comes to me and is like oh so some people in the neighborhood have been saying that you’ve been engaging in risky behaviors with older men and that youve been meeting them in hotels. so obviously i denied it very emphatically and tried to pry out who tf she heard that from and honestly i was like what like who could have even spread that and she said J’s mom told her and was lowkey rly cagey about it bc she didnt want to “break her daughter’s trust” and had asked other aunties about the situation like wtfff… and then i remembered i had mentioned to them over winter break so she must have fucking told her mommmm. i decided to assume best intent and chose to believe she was worried abt me and thats why she told her mom so i messaged her like hi did u tell ur mom abt this and i appreciate ur concern but i would have appreciated it if maybe u came to me directly and checked on me it would have been better and u lowkey hurt my feelings cuz now im stressed and anxious and don’t know whos saying what abt me etc etc. and then…

she fucking LIEDDDDD she said she didnt say anything to her mom AND that her mom didnt say anything to my mom!?? which i know is fucking bullshitttt 😭 like it makes 0 sense like if no one said anything is my mom just pulling shit out of the air and if she was how would she land straight on the money like that it just doesnt add up. so i was like um ok ?? uh have a good day. and decided to let it go and i lowkey don’t speak to her anymore and i told N and S that im not speaking to her but they can hang out w her if they want. and i forgot abt it.

but now i just moved back home after finishing school and its lowkey been eating away at me. it hurts me that she was my friend for 13 years and its all up in flames and i never got any closure or an apology or even her to admit or acknowledge the situation?? it hurts me to be at home worried abt what people are saying or thinking about me. i know i shouldnt care but what other people think of me bothers me. im not ashamed of myself and my choices but i don’t want other people to think less of me. i don’t want to reach out to her bc what if she doesn’t care at all about the situation ??? i don’t want to be like this has been eating at me forever and it really hurt me and her to be like what r u talking about i don’t think about you at all. she also just got into med school and im happy for her for real like glad shes doing well its just like. she hurt my feelings really bad :(

anyway if you read this far… what should i do 🥲 is the only path forward trying to let go… tbh i think i just need someone to validate my feelings like am i right to be hurt or is it all my fault and should i beg for forgiveness 😭 like my friend N got coffee w her a couple weeks ago and brought it up to me twice what does that even meannnn

[intertexts]

GMORNING !!!!! u know what time it is

EPISODE 8 TRIVIA:

- the big monster they fought in the beginning was called a Crawling Apocalypse which looks like this. terrifying !!!

- bizly really liked that william banished it. he was originally not gonna let him do that but then "i realized your character can do so little and that was cool so i said fuck it" we love william pity points he is such a loser and he rolls so terribly <3

- they start talking about one piece because grizzlys saying things abt how certain parts of dakota are inspired by luffy and bizly goes "ive never watched anime" which is the biggest lie in the world

- grizzly: "yknow we were about an hour into the episode before i realized wow i havent done anything productive yet"

condi: "you just hit on vyncents mom for like 20 minutes!!!!"

- and then they start talking about how dakota and chip (bizlys pc from riptide) would either be best friends or hate each other which is really funny bc there are now MULTIPLE what if crossover episodes where they meet and interact and thats exactly the dynamic . i love them

- condi wasnt expecting his dad to be dead, he thought theyd have to fight him

- he kind of hesitated taking the sword !! vyncent doesnt really know how to feel about using something that belonged to his father

- he wasnt entirely Present for the part where his dad betrayed the party, he was sort of fading in and out of consciousness so theres a chance he didnt actually get the full picture. condi knows this out of character and vyncent knows it in the back of his mind somewhere that his dad might not actually be fully evil but hes too angry to come to terms with that yet

- hes struggling a lot with the fact that his mom.doesnt know about the betrayal. he doesnt want to tell her because "its not his fathers pride at stake, its his mother's memory of him" and that makes me so . :(

- THE GREATS!!!!!!!! THE GREATS ARE HERE i love the greats. surely nothing bad is happening to them

- they have a couple theories as to whats going on with the greats:

-- condi: theyre in this state because vyncent took too long getting them back here out of his head

-- condi: they were killed when they got transported to the other world and there was no way to get them back completely

-- charlie: something happened in the time where vyncent was transported to prime and the greats had died, so someone did something to keep them alive by putting them in his head. maybe they could only be kept alive by being in vyncents head

- grizzly tries to insight check bizly irl to see if any of their theories are close so far. this does not work . he rolled a 17 btw

- none of them trust minerva they think she might be secretly working with the lich. bizly defends her by saying "shes also in the middle of basically an apocalypse i think shes allowed to be a little mean to you"

- le frog is the only french person ever. this is brought up with NO context no explanation

- bizly is sharing some of the thumbnail art from youtube because this was right around the time the first few episodes were being put up publically !! most of them are just the same as the official refs but the most important one is le frog bc im not actually sure if youve seen his offical design yet . also tide used to be white. we dont have to talk about white tide

- bizly says pd feels more like a DC comic than a Marvel comic. hes right about this

- charlie starts talking about marissa meyer books and this is important 2 me because the lunar chronicles was an extremely formative piece of media for me . she apparently has a book called renegades thats superhero themed and i have not read it yet but i put it on my list specifically because of this. wahoo!

tgis is SUCH good trivia for this ep thank u dude... ouagh. really solid meal here. i love these last couple episodes so much.. there's so much fun stuff happening here i'm enjoying all of the greats stuff & getting like a solid Vyncent Moment for a while.

i LOVE the william pity points its great! it WAS cool as fuck!! also i gain +5 hp every time a gm goes "who give a shit if this isn't technically how the game mechanics should work, it's fun for everyone at the table & makes for something cool and makes sense narratively."

that being said. i DID take SO MUCH PSYCHIC DAMAGE from how long dakota spent hitting on his fucking mom. Please. Please king !!! sob.

I ALSO WAS EXPECTING THEM TO FIGHT VYN'S DAD???? still not unconvinced that some lich undead bullshit isn't going to happen with that. god i'm so invested in figuring out what HAPPENED there... i love this type of murder mystery situation. & i also was genuinely unsure if he would take the sword or not!! really kind of an ohhh shit! moment when he did. imo. vyncent virion sol i love u.... also it's still INCREDIBLY funny 2 me that he's still in his normal clothes. i have not forgotten that he is just doin his fantasy bullshit thing in the just some guy drip. (<- i might have forgotten something but i've been assuming they no longer have/wear Official Hero Drip since they're no longer really sanctioned or on great terms w/ them? also i've been assuming that the episode-specific clothes & shit isn't really permanent... now that im thinking about it though please tell me wiwi hardcore blue flame black leather kickass spiky biker jacket remains. it's too cool for him. but. still.)

I LOVE THE GREATS SO MUCH... i hope nothing permanently bad happens to them :( i like them so dearly..... you know they r really solid folks because they spent a YEAR and change living in a teenager's brain & came out of the experience still bein so nice 2 him.... augh. also in general big fan of the system-adjacent bullshit :] i love it when theres. guy with guys in his head. etc. will b sad ab their departure but i hope they r OKAY and return 2 Being Alive & shit!! nervous laughter. also god i can't wait to find out what Actually Happened with them. hhrhrghghgghh.

THIS IS SO TRUE ALSO???? free my girl minerva she did nothing but have Literally Normal Reactions to TERRIBLE things happening!!!

I DON'T LIKE THAT LEFROG FACT. it raises the question of is he actually even french or like, is there even a point of reference for his behavior. like. What is going on there. Horrifying thank you!!!! also man this entire degree im working on would be useless! well. maybe prime quebec exists. somehow. independently of a hypothetical europe. HIS DESIGN IS SO FUN BTW. its so cute.. i WAS kind of imagining a mutant Big Real Fucking Frog situation but i think this is a lot more reasonable. also literally ignoring white tide I Do Not See it. It Does Not Exist.

ALSO. NOT GOING TO START TALKING AB COMICS FOR EVEN MORE PARAGRAPHS. BUT. he is so so so right. (<- dc comics guy with Opinions. well. technically im not even much of a dc guy im just a vertigo guy. but. still.) hghghghbhgh.

[olive-heathcliffe-notbps]

how DO alternates get attached, anyway? what does it even do other than make you not wanna kill people?

wish i knew bro it would make shit so much easier on me

but fr. its hard 2 really give a concrete answer bcuz us alts see attachment as like. taboo basically. if gabe catches you getting attached to a human it uh. its not pretty. other than the torture you get for disobeying Him you get like... exiled almost, or... whats the word He used once?

excommunicated. yeah  that one.

there have been studies on attachment though, i think the u.s... uh... well idr the exact name but it was some fancy shmancy government dept thats done a couple . havent read em though LOL

anyways. ig i can try to explain as best i can from my experience w attachment . n atlas can chime in if he wants too idk and uh . ill try to make it make sense (spoilers it probably still wont lmao). this isnt a definitive like... guide or anything im basically just posting general rambles abt what ive learned over my days lol

so. i think all alternates want to be loved, no matter how far down theyve buried that want. were conditioned from creation to think that gabriel is the only one who can love us, but He wont unless we follow His command to the letter. and what that translates to is killing humans senselessly . and not only that but like. us alts... we like violence. we want to kill. its integral to our beings. none of us can really be "nice" or "good" 24/7 and that uh ... tends to sound scary to the average person . so even if we did all collectively decide to turn against gabe and humans like... magically forgave us for killing and kidnapping thousands of people, its not like we could ever be "normal" members of society. its not like we could ever be loved. so no one really bothers trying.

anyways, from what i can tell, alternate attachment happens when that kinda barrier between humans and alts gets broken (at least from the alt's perspective), and it typically happens when an alt is in close proximity to its assigned victim for a long period of time. that time varies from alt to alt too, like it deffo took a lot longer for atlas to get attached to cesar than it did for me to get attached to mark. nd i could be wrong abt this but i also noticed like. the more a victim interacts w their alternate, even if theyre doing it in a threatened or scared way, the more likely it is for the alt to get attached. "taking an interest" in a specific human is the most telltale sign of attachment, to the point that the phrase is pretty much "slang" for it among alts .

also just to clear this up: while alternate attachment can be romantic, it absolutely doesnt have to be. not at all. id describe my attachment to mark as like. familial honestly. and sometimes there arent even human words to describe an alts attacemt. its a spectrum yk? so dont think any of this is inheritly romantic or some shit cuz ill beat you up

as for what it does. well .

you dont know when u first meet a human that youre gonna get attached. i certainly didnt  . so u just kinda do ur thing n shit, but sometimes it doesnt work and the human lives so ur like. okay ill try again . or maybe youre just doing a long job and ur learning all of ur victims habits n shit. and thats where it kinda begins

the first thing you notice is that like. even though its ur job to kill your human its like. its fun to keep them alive . yk  . you grow to like the sound of em screaming in terror , or them freezing up when they see you . whcih. yeah that sounds kinda fucked to you guys but . just bear w me okay  .

anyways. eventually it gets to the point where, even if youve been given several opportunities to kill your human, you dont take them cuz its just that fun to mess w em. this is kinda where the "taking an interest" thing comes in  too . and then THAT goes into "ok wait . do i rlly have to kill them eventually  ?? i dont want to do that theyre funny :(((("

eventually you realize that like. shit . i dont want this human to die at all. like. at ALL. to the point you'd fight off other threats just to keep them safe. and you get this just- rush of an emotion youve never felt before whenever youre around them. aand you realize. thats love. you feel love towards them, no matter what kind of love that is. its. it feels so wrong at first and- and you hate it, but it just feels so right to the point where you cant imagine feeling any other way about them.

and as you may have guessed. you start to see the human as your own. its kinda hard to really describe but,, it makes sense if you experience it. you need to protect them and love them and hold them so so close or else they might get away from you. and you change yourself so that you can be worthy of being loved back. its. ough its a crazy ass feeling for sure

this, uh,, doesnt come without problems thouugh. for one just cuz an alternates attached to a human doesnt mean the human necessarily likes them back. in fact its honestly really lucky that both me and atlas got attached to humans that actually didnt hate us. (for a while at least.) theres a fuck ton of rumors that get spread around of those who got attached and excommunicated, only for the human they were attached to kill themself because they couldnt live with an alt constantly following them around and trying to talk to them.

...i cant describe how lucky i am that mark came back.

not to mention you hafta constantly live in fear all the damn time cuz you could get discovered n tortured at any moment. its. its really shit but damn it if your human doesnt make it all worth it. damn it if you wouldnt endure any kind of danger just to stick with them. damn it if you dont want to comfort them and feel murderous rage whenever theyre sad and.

damn it if they arent yours.

[cometmystic]

hey!! i dont think youve posted abt this yet so… tell me abt your fav characters!!! :D

im about to ramble and expose some weakpoints on the internet so heres a cut !!! im gonna talk about the three that are in the forefront of my mind at the moment !! maybe this will change if you ask me in a months time,,, maybe not !!! mwah thank you for sending me asks sweetie

lots of history with this girl; soo i found out about her during my first mugen phase ? so like 11-13ish,, there was a genre of character that was modeled to play like smash bros characters, and in looking those up, i found one of this weird woman... hong meiling was her name ? she was related to this weird frog girl whose hat was evil and maybe the mcdonalds song girl ? whatever the case i needed to download her. and i couldnt because the download was down. this sent me uo the wall for several years and implanted her name into my brain,, up until i got into touhou proper thanks to you actually !!

so now im learning about the lore and the characters, and turns out theres more to this meiling than being elusive and pretty !!! so this gloomy, scary place behind one of the touhou worlds most significant battles is guarded by this friendly, easygoing redhead ? and shes fiercely loyal and protective of the mansion as well as gensoukyou, despite being employed by people who almost ate the world right up ? thats so wonderful !! shes so cool !!! and she takes care of flowers, and canonically doesnt like dodging bullets and tries catching them instead, and no one has any idea of what she is...!!!! theres so much to her !!! but most of all, the absolute tragedy of some of her mansionmates getting boatloads of development and lore, while shes,, basically in the same place she started in ? even flan did ! but meiling still gets depicted as just lazying about, despite that trait of hers being in favour of working in the scarlet devil mansion, which people fear and dont visit ? or rather used to... so she should have evolved along with it,, so that sadness also makes me even more attached to her in a way !!

i know shes not the most mistreated character in touhou or anything, far from it since shes a th6 girl and those get Everything and everyone sick of them but... idk !! id love to see more of her shine someday ouo

heres some sprite art i made of her

this character is a whisper in the wind. this character is a shadow in the wall of a cave. this character is the tree that falls with no one to hear. this character isnt real. this character is one of my favourites

like shes drenched, positively oozing with lore and content, and its all so utterly relevant and unique that i cant possibly talk about any of it because i cant be bothered to spoiler tag this,, but like,, reading between the lines of the fiction and uncovering lil things about her and what shes like was the most fun ive had during my dngnrnpa phase, to the point that,, here she is still !! at the tippy top !! and because of things youre intimately familiar with russell, you probably know shes probably gonna stay !! im very sentimental like that

and it wasnt even just lore either, her design kind of instantly drew me to her back when i was part of the original animes speculation circle and,, wow suddenly my sonas attire seems a little um,, familiar doesnt it : ...i promise i had other inspiations for ir too óuo;

heres some pixel art i made of her

finally this girl !! much like is the theme here, some lore to my meeting this one !!! this one predates even meiling, since i think i was 9 or 10,, see there was a broadcast channel here called animax, and its responsible for a lot of my taste even nowadays,, from the name you can guess it broadcast all sorts of dubbed anime all day long, most of which i absolutely should not have been watching at that age, like hellsing and gantz oops... well there was this other one which until like 4 years ago i only had the faintest recollection of,, i think there were demons in it or something,, mostly i remember being infatuated by the blonde girl

well 2018 comes around and the memory of this lady shoots straight into my brain in the middle of a call with you russell, which you might remember ! i describe to you what it looks like and tell you that i think a guy kills her and she has him help kill bad guys or else hell kill him right back ? and you, through intense googling, eventually are able to tell me it was called lunar legend tsukihime. woag ! lore unlocked

i wiki crawl for a while out of curiosity and find out that she has a fighting game that kinda rules, and that everyone hates the anime and you should read the visual novel instead and,, hey were making a visual novel at some point huh russell ? maybe i should study up on this tsukihime thing,, apparently its pretty influential,, and

obviously arcueid is ridiculously charming and fun, and every second with her is a mildly exciting, mildly creepy (fun way) delight, and its hard not to absolutely love her for that alone !! but also like,, much like the love for meiling started like a new phase in my life, arcueid did the same thing, in a very wonderful way ? a phase where were both really into this thing and talking about it so often and making so many new ideas about it together,, were playing higurashi currently and it feels like an extension of this, of her, and like,, its so special

i love what meeting arcueid again after 10 years did for me

heres some pixel art i made of her

and if you stuck with me for this long, heres a lil gift !! a lil happy ending for 13 year old me i suppose !!!

i found her after all ouo

[lagomorphics]

hi majora! your art is really cute, and I hope you don't mind if I ask about your process? I'm new to art and yours is an inspiration! I wanted to ask how you learned? and your process, because you seem to draw near daily! also any tips you might have for me? thank you!

HI ANON!!! ur very sweet thank u so much WAHH <33!!! idm being asked abt that at all!!

in terms of how i learnt; i've kinda always been drawing for as long as i can remember? been posting art online since around 2013-ish so i got a big big catalogue of stuff to look back on

but learning in specifics of like, how i learned to shade n draw bodies etc etc. i studied! theres a lot of resources out there that'll break down a lot of the 'basics', i dont have any i can name off the top of my head except for morpho; whole bunch of books about body types and anatomy.

im not really good at providing tips for how to learn (bad memory </3) but studying, drawing things over and over (i do with reference and then without, and try to draw in different angles/perspectives) is very useful!

ALSO VERY IMPORTANT: literally do not worry at all if what you draw the first time around looks wonky or "ugly". being negative towards yourself about your art only serves to stunt ur growth!! shakes you (and anyone reading this) by the shoulders. it can be very easy to slip into hating your art and not enjoying anything ur drawing. this is me telling u to try and draw something youve never drawn before. experiment. it may not look perfect or even "good" but it will refresh ur brain!!!!!

MY PROCESS...... oh man i really have been drawing pretty much daily huh? i do draw every day but its been a hot minute since ive been doing finished pieces haha

but basically what i do is; start with a few warm-up doodles! just anything to get me in the groove

then over the course of the day i slowly chip away at whatever pieces im working on (lined stuff will usually take me a few hours, rendered stuff takes a day or a few....)

i cannot really assist in like "so how do you draw?" because i honestly just go Lights Off Its Drawin Time! but i always do a rough sketch of an idea i have, refine the sketch, refine that sketch, and then if its rendered i'll make a palette for myself somewhere, but if its lined i'll start on the lineart and then fiddle around with colours.

i draw for fun, so if i dont like how somethings turning out, i'll stop drawing it. no use frustrating myself over a piece to the point of hating it!!

(this ones just forfun and just for me) i keep a small little doc full of notes about my own pieces! i like analysing stuff, and also enjoy talking about why i draw something in a specific way, so this is just a nice little thing for me to have fun with. also helps me avoid potentially slipping into "hate this. bad" mindset bc im specifically noting things that i Liked (i do obviously have a bit of chatter like "hmm i think i couldve drawn this better, i should keep that in mind" but its only when its helping myself. the jora does not talk bad about its art)

aaand then i do some cool-downs to get any last little doodles outta my head so i can relax in bed

in terms of tips? do stretches, walk around, TAKE BREAKS! draw at your own pace, and also Have Fun With It. experiment with different colours, limited palettes, different styles!

seriously though do make sure you take breaks and stretch im lookin you in the eye okay?

I HOPE THIS MADE SENSE AND IS HELPFUL IN A WAY i ramble. far too much. and im not the best at articulating my thoughts!! but i hope u have lots of fun drawing very cool stuff <333

[fkinavocado]

quite a while ago before any of the both movies were released and before all the dwd drama started youve mentioned that you're more excited to see mp.. whats your opinion now that youve seen both?

i honestly liked both movies. they've not blown me away but they were both entertaining and a nice watch. having seen both i can't make up my mind. i'm grateful to have seen him in both these roles. mpm is far superior plot wise etc but there is something to be said abt the cinematography of dwd also. all in all, they didn't disappoint as far as i'm concerned

acting wise, harry has a ways to go but he wasn't dragging down the movies either. he certainly brings an element of novelty to both films amongst such seasoned actors. i think he held his own but dunno if he's serious enough abt pursuing this further to actually delve deeper into acting lessons etc. dunno abt the marvel movies though. the bit from the eternals ending credits i felt fell really flat. if he does go through with it (and i think he kinda has to at this point) he'll need to do better i'm afraid 😅

I didn't really write a review for either of these two movies because it's all been said before and i'm not gonna sit here and pretend like i'm a connaiseur (like most of ppl on the internet nowadays do). i can only say that i enjoyed both for different reasons. dwd is certainly not a bad movie, anyone that shits on it seriously make my eyes roll. comparing it to 90% of the movies coming out these days i feel it's not a bad movie at all. honestly. and my policeman has its flaws too (less flaws lol) but it's a very different kind of movie. i feel like had i not read the book, the plot seems to move along a bit too rapidly and you can't really grasp the depth of the situation? or maybe i feel that way precisely because i've read it? i dunno

ok i'm rambling. bottom line, i'd like to see more of harry onscreen if he took it a tad more seriously and actually wanted to do it. i feel like he's not got the patience for filmmaking as he's kinda hinted at it himself. his forte are scenes where he communicates physically (and i don't only mean intimate scenes). he needs to work on his dialogue delivery, you can kinda tell he's preparing to say his line or that he already knows what's going to be said to him at times

[straighttohellbuddy]

me? thinking too much abt the worldbuilding for the fic and the in-universe fandom? MAYHAPS. anyways im worried that im posting too many snippets but the first part is done at 7k *unedited* and im starting part 2 first thing tomorrow. im getting back in the groove!!

ANYWAYS establishing the reader in their own right is always fun, i like writing a reader with an established and independent life, yanno?? at least for some of my fics. sometimes you just want short comfort, sometimes you want an epic semi-realistic wish fulfilment fic with decent worldbuilding. 

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ID: A Twitter thread consisting of ten Tweets from @y/ns_perfect_larynx.

@y/ns_perfect_larynx: i think the thing that gets me abt seeing y/n streaming again is that theyre the extreme example of a 'they're just like us' celebrity. like other celebrities on yt are kind of clueless abt fandoms, or they're just promoing their latest stuff /1 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: and don't get me wrong i love and adore and am proud of ytbers who make it big and dip, like troye, but you can't deny that his content isn't the same as it was 5 years ago. even so he knows his yt origins and respects them and we stan, ofc /2 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: BUT THIS MOTHERFUCKER, Y/N COMES ALONG like the minute the world shuts down from rona their camera starts up like its 2015, except half the people they wanna collab with for videos are just...... other famous musicians who theyre genuine friends w?? but you can tell that there's a weird disconnect /3 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: even for y/n, like when they were brainstorming video ideas at the end of their apartment tour - btw everyone saying they should have a bigger apartment cos they're successful, Shut Up You Don't Know Them - and they were saying how they could only do certain videos with /4 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: other yt folks because They Get It. idk its fascinating. also i LOVE that theyre unashamedly making videos for old trends that they liked but couldn't at the time because they were on tour or busy, they seem like they're having So Much Fun!! /5 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: everyone who knows them only for their music must be So Confused by half the fandom who Knows abt them from yt. but also, 14 yr old me didn't eagerly wait in the middle school library surrounded by my 14 yr old friends for their latest video to drop every tuesday at lunch /6 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: for a bunch of tiktok tweens to act like they were discovered in 2020 for their music alone. like YES sometimes i forget 2014's Y/N 'if i bleached my asshole for charity id do it tastefully' L/N and 2020's Y/N 'Multi-Grammy Award Nominated Artist' L/N are the same person /7 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: like their music is SO GOOD and if i could replace my soul with it i would, and that's what so many people know them for, but then they act all casual abt fanfic where most celebs are SO awkward and uncomfy, and i just remember that q&a vid where they talk abt writing fanfic /8 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: not for other ytbers, obviously, but the idea of a ytber  even Writing Fanfiction Just Like Us was so novel, and now each time I remember a Grammy Nominated Musician writes fanfics Just Like Us and tbh im a little winded. its a nightmare and a dream. /9 | @y/ns_perfect_larynx: y/n if youve read anything of mine im sorry. i was 14. i love u. everyone else if youve made it this far in the thread, stream HOW THE LIGHT GETS IN on spotify /10

[wokestraightpuffy]

Hallo, i hope you are alright and that my ask aren’t annoying but I wanted to ask do you have any c!puffy headcannons? —🤡

YOURE NOT ANNOYING AT ALL !!! NEVER THINK THAT ILU VERY MUCH. MUAH /p

as for c!puffy headcanons, i am not the best person to ever organize their thoughts properly but ill try my best >:’D

ahaha. this got. super complex and way too long and more of like an introspective study to puffy now instead of harmless fun headcanons so, uh. under read more <3 (also reminder this is all /rp and /dsmp)

* i like to think that she has a hero complex, but its a bit different since she never really sees herself as an ‘important’ part of the story, not the main character but a support one, hence ‘im fine with being the side character’ or how she’s said she doesnt care what happens to her and would gladly sacrifice(?) herself if there werent other people she had to protect. girl u need therapy urself <3

* though very open with how she feels and never afraid to say when someone/something is upsetting her, ‘opening up’ is still a whole mountain climb for her, apparently. like, she’d rant about the egg, get mad at the eggpire, let off some steam by committing arson or exploding stuff, she’ll rarely ever talk about how much the stuff that upset her actually HURT her. does that make sense? LIKE, she’ll lash out, she’ll get mad, she’ll take NO SHIT thrown at her face, but to show the kinda vulnerability of dealing with that? to cry about it talk about those feelings with someone? I think she’d rather eat her own foot lol

* adding onto the thing above, she doesnt necessarily actually realize this about herself. less of actively doing it and rather growing... used to the ‘cycle of violence’ in the smp as they call it. and the fact that rarely have people really asked, that no one’s actually available for that, w her losing her closest friends, bad and ant, sam being busy w the warden stuff... and niki. yeah. there’s foolish, but i doubt she’d ever see venting to someone she considers her son appealing

* also. puffy is just sometimes... really bad at conveying sadness. i think she’s a rare crier. id go as far to say that shes even more emotionally constipated than dream, lol (but maybe not while the guy’s in his prison arc) and that she’d be the type of person to tell you its okay to cry but beat herself up over something if she let a tear slip in a heated moment

* speaking of sadness. she’ll only ever actually Be Sad if she’s alone or with someone she doesnt necessarily care the opinions of. yknow how she mourned for tommy and blamed herself? those dialogue bits? yeah, those are only times shed actually be vulnerable

* puffy’s go to response to the egg and how its fucked up her relationship w her friends is pure fury. but, going off of her line about ‘failing bad and ant’ i like to think that she probably hates herself the most about it. THAT IS A STRONG WORD LOL BUT YEAH. she yells and curses and gets mad, but sometimes i wonder if the words she had spat before were more directed to herself

* THIS GIRL HAS SELF-IDENTITY PROBLEMS. CAN WE GET A HELL YEAH FOR THAT CHAT? outside of having no goddamn clue about where she came from, how she got here and who she even is, scrounging up a role for herself in a server with a war on the background and traumatized kids got her resignedly coerced into thinking that she is only a Parent. Only good enough when she’s actually doing something Useful for people. SO. when she finds that ship? of having a crew and having a curse? OF FINDING OUT SHE MIGHT HAVE/ HAVE HAD A MOM THATS WAITING FOR HER?  the sense of control she has on herself is absolutely crushed. shattered, and she’s left to pick up the pieces w no one to talk abt it with <3

* adding onto the above, it’s why the line ‘I’m supposed to be mama puffy. me.’ hurts me so much! so yes! please cry with me :D

* also to add more on the fact that she thinks she’s only worth something when she’s being useful, puffy literally contemplated leaving the server, thinking that it wouldnt matter leaving since no one really needs her anyway, since she’s failed so many people. bad and ant, tommy, dream. shes said how foolish can take care of himself on how tubbo and ranboo have each other, how she and niki have drifted so far away from each that it might as well be a break up.

HOOOOOOOOOO OBOY . anon youve really given me the perfect chance to ramble huh? sorry for the rather incomprehensible brainrot, here’s more lighthearted headcanons about puffy asdhfkd

* she cannot stand still sometimes. she always has to be doing something extra, walking when the prime path is right there? shed rather go through tedious little holes or hop and balance onto fences to get where shes going. she’ll mindlessly fix up the path when there are holes or mismatched wood, and one time went on a long, long LONG journey cleaning up the paths tommy purposely DESTROYED near lmanburg and even added cobblestone sidings which werent there before

* puffys a bit of a sentimental person. writing in her log to clear her thoughts sometimes and cared enough to try and preserve lmanburg with the glass sheet and trying to find possible surviving artifacts of history to respect it, even though she’s never been a part of it. its also why, when doomsday happened and lmanburg got permanently poofed, she began to appreciate the buildings that are still standing and began taking more pics 

* she’s not used to being... what do you call it, um, cared for? she’d deflect compliments sometimes, when shes having a particular bad day, like, she’d laugh nervously and change the subject, sometimes she’d outright deny it, most days she’d jokingly say ‘staphhh it’ and add a very genuine thanks. my point being is, do something for puffy that is mildly nice and she’d keep that moment in her heart forever. 

* also funny story regarding the above. u know how karl is notorious for stealing her materials? and how puffy was contemplating doing something in retaliation for them? karl says hi for once when she joins the server and she goes ‘alright fine youre safe for saying hi’ LOL THIS WAS PROBABLY A BIT META WISE but something about this implying that the bare minimum or LESS is enough to make puffy forgive someone is very sad and funny at the same time for me. girl really said ‘oh you said hi to me? thats nice all the crimes youve ever done towards me is now forgiven. <3’ (this is a bit of an exaggeration on my part, ofc, i just think its funny LMAO) 

* ironically, despite being the ‘captain’, whenever riding a boat with someone, she prefers being on the backseat and letting them drive. ig shes just there for the ride i suppose, her and her uber drivers :3

 * she either has a rather unhealthy obsession with baked potatoes or she just doesnt wanna waste eret’s massive potato farm

* idc what cc!puffy says is c!puffy will always and forever be 5′2″ in my HEART. u are the shortest member, u cannot change this <3

* shes really fond of animals/ neutral mobs. she often baby talks to them and they help boost her mood a lot when shes having a bad day :D

* up to this day, the little secret rooms she’s created around the server have all been yet to be discovered, unless the one under bad’s house has been found. she rarely ever really keeps tabs on them, and more often than not they are just collecting dust. she still visits sometimes and cleans them up ofc

* she still genuinely thinks dream can change. cc!puffy’s line about that, ‘i’m his last hope.’ really makes me think about this a lot. 

* ive seen people talk abt it a bit but the headcanon that puffy acts as the server mom to fill the ‘void’ of her missing her mom makes me cry at night /hj

* she really likes her rainbow onesie! i headcanon that eret gave her that along w the sunglasses, but she started wearing that less when she found her old captains uniform. shes never really said why, though, and nobody ever really bothered to ask

* god bless this woman but sometimes the server members get on her nerves sometimes so she goes out of her way to traverse along far away from the main community to maybe commit a few crimes. let off some steam. these take a few days but she always returns

i probably have a lot more hcs but i cant remember them >_> THIS IS A LOT ANYWAY. HOPE U ENJOYED MY BRAIN VOMIT. IF U READ THIS FAR ILU THANK U

if there are mistakes it is bc i am crying and cannot see my keyboard and also i am sleep deprived /hj

[in-a-cave-with]

can you make a list of every mavel comic you've ever read (good and bad) i just finished iron man (1998) and i thoroughly loved it with all its best and weird bits

GOOD™

iron man stuff:

tales of suspense (1963) – a classic. 100/10. would read several times

iron man vol 1 (1968) – i’m on, like, issue 20 out of 300 something but it’s also very very good! the drama..the action……..wig

iron man vol 3 (1998) – obv i know youve read this one anon but for anyone out there starting comics this one’s SUPER good, and also Love Is Stored In The Tonyru

iron man vol 4 (2005) – listen this comic. so great, so iconic. maya hansen! epic fights! director stark! good art except for, like, the 6 issues of execute program but execute program is such a good story arc that you wont even notice! 

iron man noir (2010) – INDIANA JONES AU TONY STARK, LITERALLY THE BEST CONCEPT MARVEL’S COME UP WITH. PEAK COMICS IRONFAM

iron man legacy (2010) – i enjoyed this one a lot! i’m kind of confused as to, like, what’s going on but it’s fun

iron man season one (2013) – ok so this is, like, a modern remake of tony’s origin story and it’s..kind of average imo but thats ok! bc you can just look at the very very pretty pictures

iron man fatal frontier (2013) – tony becomes governor of the moon and fights doom! also he takes down an ai with weaponized fanfiction somewhere in there. read this one with a .cbr reader

invincible iron man vol 2 (2015) – gonna maybe fuck around and rec bendis’ entire iron man run bc . the art is gorgeous and the story isn’t the strongest but tony’s characterization is v good 

international iron man (2016) – ok i dont remember what happens in this one but alex maleev’s art is literally god 

invincible iron man vol 3 (2016) – RIRI WILLIAMS!!!! AND ALSO AI TONY STARK (MY SON MY BOY WHOM I LOVE)!!!!

other stuff:

new avengers vol 1 (2005) – as i have said before. new avengers GOT the sauce. stevetony and caroljess on one team was too powerful so marvel had to break em up with civil war . also stop reading this comic when you get to civil war

civil war: casualties of war (2007) and civil war: the confession (2007) – these are both oneshot comics and also the Only Civil War Content You Need To Subject Yourself To

spider-man noir (2010) – a break from the avengers stuff to tell you that this comic is very brutal and also very good

secret invasion (2010) – ok avengers emh did it better™ but this is still very neat! also it’s pretty trippy so its got that going for it too

siege (2010) – i dont understand what’s going on but the art is very good. also the avengers get to beat up norman osborn’s bitch ass

avengers prime (2011) – apparently this is the “stevetony bible” and …honestly there isn’t anything i can say in objection to that

avengers vol 4 (2010) – this comic is SUPER fun. after the fear itself tie ins the art and story get pretty eugh though so be careful

fear itself (2012) – BEST BEST BEST!!! my favorite crossover event in comics, with cool art and a badass storyline

captain marvel vol 4 (2012) – can we get a yeehaw for CAROL DANVERS . hell yeah. this is her first run with the name captain marvel and it’s Very Good

avengers: the enemy within (2014) – captain marvel vol 4 ends on a cliffhanger and the storyline’s capped off here

avengers vol 5 (2013) – ok so *clown noises* i haven’t exactly finished it but…this is the One Was Life The Other Was Death comic and it’s super good from what ive read so far

hawkeye (2013) – matt fraction’s run! everyone and their dog wants you to read it and you absolutely should if you have not. not too sure abt the volume numbering but heres a link to download in TPBs, it’s volumes 1-4

captain marvel vol 5 (2014) – this is the volume featuring chewie (!!) and carol in outer space with the guardians of the galaxy (!!!). super fun in general, would read again

ms marvel (2014) – again i am VERY confused as to what the official issue/volume numbering is, but here’s a list of TPBs that collect pretty much every kamala khan comic pre 2019 (im gonna rec all of them bc kamala is a treasure)

doctor strange vol 3 (2015) – literally everything i want from a comic tbh, also chris bachalo’s art is amazing

marvel 1872 (2015) – no one actually calls this Stevetony Bible 2 but lbr it’s basically Stevetony Bible 2

all-new all-different avengers (2015) – BEST AVENGERS TEAM EVER. EVER. PLEASE BENDIS WHY DID YOU BREAK THIS TEAM UP IM SAD

the unbelievable gwenpool (2016) – oh god oh fuck it’s miss GWEN POOLE . this comic is super funny and also surprisingly heartfelt, plus the art is . mmm.

champions (2016) – the gen z superhero team, i love all of them so much. i can almost forgive marvel for ending anad avengers

hunt for wolverine: adamantium agenda (2018) – so this is, after 11 goddamn years, closure for the first civil war regarding tony and the new avengers that sided with steve. amazing.

the life of captain marvel (2018) – the carol origin retcon is…eh. but it’s still very good! think of it as carol’s international iron man

avengers: back to basics (2018) – kamala goes back in time and accidentally reveals tony’s secret identity and it’s the funniest fucking thing

captain marvel (2019) – the first issue is everyone bullying tony which sucks but DONT LET THAT GET YOU DOWN bc it’s, like, actually good and also tony appears more in later issues without getting bullied

war of realms (2019) – i guess it’s a marvel rule that all crossover comics having to do with asgard are Top Notch? anyway

loki (2019) – AMAZING loki shenanigans and also the REAL reason you needed to read war of realms tbh

ironheart (2019) – gosh i love riri williams so much she’s so GREAT and you should DEFINITELY READ THIS

QUESTIONABLE™:

invincible iron man vol 1 (2008) – matt fraction’s iron man run…it’s ..ok story wise? however the characterization is a lil off at times and the art is HORRIBLE

iron man vol 5 (2013) – ok so this comic is super weird ? because it’s nice that tony spends time out in space but also it confirms that he’s a furry apparently. pretty much the only truly average iron man comic

avengers vol 8 (2018) – okay so i really like the art and the story’s okay but there’s a bit where tony flirts w carol and it’s the most ooc thing ive ever seen and that’s enough to land it in the questionable category

tony stark: iron man (2018) – i debated over whether to put this here or in the Bad™ category BUT valerio schiti’s art is too beautiful and the rhodeytony content fuels me. also issues 12 and 13 (war of realms) written by gail simone are pretty good. unfortunately dan slott wrote the rest and it AINT IT CHIEF

gwenpool strikes back (2019) – it starts off strong in the first issue but goes downhill from there and tbh it’s not really respectful of the previous gwenpool run

magnificent ms marvel (2019) – ok listen i love kamala a lot but if theres gonna be a romance plot between her and bruno it’s the electric chair

BAD. AVOID AT ALL COSTS™

iron man vol 2 (1996) – just. don’t touch this. it’s a hot mess

civil war (2006) – i hate this. so much. it’s unreal. all you need to know is that steve was real close to killing tony in the end but surrendered when he saw that he no longer had the moral high ground. and also steve got assassinated right before he was going to be put on trial

mighty avengers (2007) – this comic had the potential to be SO good. unfortunately the artists for the actual avengers issues don’t respect women at all

superior iron man (2015) – they made tony evil and i could not be more angry with it. who even fucking wants to read this theres not even any emotional payoff for any of this

civil war ii (2016) – i would hit this stupid comic in the knees if i could. there is not a single c*vil w*r with rights. all you need to know is that carol put tony into a coma and it’s super ooc

iron man 2020 (2020) – listen i know this comic hasn’t come out yet but it has all the ingredients to be EVEN WORSE than superior iron man which is saying a lot.

this took way too much effort

[and-i-uh]

This isn’t negative but it kinda sounds like it;

You ever just feel like crying bc you have friends younger than you that are all going through the same or similar shit you went through at their age or some other time in ur life and you know all you can do is just sit there and offer love and support and advice that they just need to be able to let themselves have a breakdown bc sometimes thats really what you need and it goes way up from there,,, and you know they can’t understand that bc the epiphany only happens once youve had the breakdown but they wont let themselves have it and ugh. But also ur proud of them and urself for how far yallve come and its just i cant wait til you feel better and im here for you and hhhhh.

Literally my best friend was/is going through stuff a year after me,,, and like,,, i was just,,, omggg,,, im here for youuuuuuuuuu. And then you have a friend whos four years older than you and they see themselves in another friend thats having a hard time and you cant help but feel like,,, omg,,, im so happy to have older friends now,,, bc idk how to explain it. We all have shit to work through and we all go at our own pace (my pace by straykids starts playing) and ugh i both love and hate how the world works. I forgot how much i love life. And my friends. Which is hard to forget bc i think ant how much i love em every day.

But like.. thats an epiphany i had after that breakdown i had several years ago. The world works in its own way and i can see it and i just,,, i know everything will be okay even if i feel hopeless bc thats how it goes. And i just wish i could tell that to my friends, any age, but i know they need to figure that out. Also im still freaking out abt my crush. In many ways but its all positive. Also im just dumping all my sappy feelings here sorry if you read this mushy mess. Imma go grab my fifth popsicle and feel this shit out cause 🥺

[leonbastralle]

Yet Another Giant Reply Clusterfuck

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “be sure to kiss your fave vampire on christmas eve ♥”

Can u kill a vampire tho but then again this alternative look at this theyre so warm and cozy

u can, with fire

but also yes i do think this would b preferable once youve come to the conclusion that this fave vampire is ur fave vampire and u lov them with all ur heart

alfalfalegacy replied to your photoset “Conifer: And????? Charlotte: You were right! And…I too I suppose....”

BABY BEAN

wAIT AND SEEEEEEEE

vampcatsims replied to your photoset “be sure to kiss your fave vampire on christmas eve ♥”

daaawww

thank you ;_; i aww at these two every day tbh

monets-pixels replied to your photoset

a beauty

truuuuue ;_;

nekoi-sims replied to your photoset

Cue mirror butt song

AAAAA YOU SPEAK MY LANGUAGE i forgot abt mirror butt song i cry @ the good old times

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “C: Conifer Miracle? C: A…party? That’s very kind of you, Mr Lazurite,...”

👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀 

did u mean: 👩🏻 🔪 👩🏽 💀 😍 😭  (i tried)

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Don’t worry, she’s making Connie drink everything.”

Yes pls

the *coughs* baby *coughs* is safe dw

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Conifer: And????? Charlotte: You were right! And…I too I suppose....”

:’) BEAUTIFUL BEAN

beautiful bean (sg.), not to b confused with beautiful bean-s (pl.)

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Conifer: Okay, I’m not saying you need to quit your job but maybe you...”

👀👀👀👀👀👀

WTF MY EYEBROW WIGGLE SIGNATURE GIF IS GONE????

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Conifer: I’ve been thinking. About your job at the bar…you don’t HAVE...”

Bsndndjdjdj char let me hug u also 👀👀

;__________; more hugs for char 2k18

pixeldemographics replied to your post “1-10 for the oc qs for Shimmer? ❣”

Thats it im in lov with yet another miracle

sjfbakjsfnakjsfnaksjfnaksfjasd i cRY I WHIPPED THIS UP SUPER QUICK IM SHAME SHE DESERVES MOR THOUGHTS

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “Conifer: And????? Charlotte: You were right! And…I too I suppose....”

More like tiny terror

no spoilersssss

limericksims replied to your photoset “wellllllllll”

Yay! Babies!

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “wellllllllll”

YAY!!!!

absolutely!! we’ve waited far too long for Connie to get her shit together so xD

alfalfalegacy replied to your photoset “the world is cold but she makes it warm makes it home i want to kiss...”

Ahhhh this is so sweet

thank youuuuuuuuuu ;_; you can’t believe how worried i was this would turn out to be utter crap xD i’m so relieved ppl didn’t hate it

alfalfalegacy replied to your photoset “Conifer: I’ve been thinking. About your job at the bar…you don’t HAVE...”

Is this what I think it is??? ;)

alfalfalegacy replied to your photoset “Conifer: I’ve been thinking. About your job at the bar…you don’t HAVE...”

Nauseous?

is it even NOT what we think it is? XD

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “Conifer: Okay, I’m not saying you need to quit your job but maybe you...”

Yesyesyes

;) ;)

twinsimskeletons replied to your photoset “A light Ficus Friday today because of the long queue, but I was asked...”

And I got all that from a picture that I dreamed you had posted, I only realised you didn't post that when I came across this on the dash for a morning scroll... I think you tagged it ficus fam Friday or something

twinsimskeletons replied to your “A light Ficus Friday today because of the long queue, but I was asked...”

My dude I have to tell you right now even though I'm not st all caught up but I had a dream about ficus. Somehow he was an actor and playing a (I think) a villain, three others were the superheroes against him, one of which was someone dressed as wonder woman, another as a sort of futuristic looking dude. Don't remember the last. Anyway he met snow because snow had to replace one of the cast members feeling ill for some reason. Makes no sense...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THIS IS BEAUTIFUL I’M DYING I’M STILL NOT OVER THE FACT THAT SOMEONE DREAMED ABT MY CHILDREN???? and it wasn’t flame i can’t believe it :o that’s some next level au and i wish i had come up with it! ficus would DEFINITELY enjoy playing the villain in a movie because, spoilers- that’s exactly what he does irl. more spoilers: a ficus fam friday has been on my list of plans for a long time and i intend to do it very soon!

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “A light Ficus Friday today because of the long queue, but I was asked...”

I SCREAMED

AAAAAAAA RLY????

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “A light Ficus Friday today because of the long queue, but I was asked...”

(i just imagined explosion noises along with this post a+)

there is no fucking gif of the eyebrow on tumblr im smh-ing so hard but also...yes. yes.

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “A light Ficus Friday today because of the long queue, but I was asked...”

the willpower its taking me not to spoiler it all im in lov

tHANK YOU FOR NOT SPOILERING

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “A light Ficus Friday today because of the long queue, but I was asked...”

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I LOV I LOV SO MUCH IM SO PROUD OF THIS PRICKLY SON

ALSO THANK YOU FOR THIS TOO I CRY BEST PRICKLY SON

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Conifer: *whispers* Charlotte: Fuck, okay, you got me.”

i............ i need to process the info that connie is a tol girl im living so much for this

ajshfbajsbkasjbnkjsfbanksfjabsfkajsbfkajsfasd i cry???

melien replied to your photoset “Conifer: What I-  [cheers]”

❤❤❤❤❤

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Conifer: And so empty, too. My parents moved out last week. Charlotte:...”

ELEVEN

PROBABLY MORE

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Conifer: I just realised you’ve never been to this place. Charlotte:...”

im sure there are certain rooms of Interest ;) ;) ;)

u r a Filth

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Charlotte: AT LAAAAAAAAAAAST MY LOVE HAS COME ALOOOOONG MY LONELY DAYS...”

:')

i hope u dont mind me changing the song, all the ohh-ing in youre the one that i want looked a bit shit written down (also it had man in it)

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Conifer: What I-  [cheers]”

IM CLAPPING IM CRYING I LOVE THESE KIDS SO MUCH YAAAAASSS

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “[applause] C: Thank you. This means- C: Charlotte?”

yES GIRL YES SHE ISSS

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THANK I DIE AND I DIED SO MUCH FYI

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “Charlotte: AT LAAAAAAAAAAAST MY LOVE HAS COME ALOOOOONG MY LONELY DAYS...”

Omfg these NERDS

it’s a great song ok i love it

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “Charlotte: Connie. You’re such a fucking idiot. *wipes eyes* If that’s...”

My word vomiting babe I'm so proud of you

i added the word vomiting last minute and i’m glad i did because it’s so annie style and also you pointed it out things are good

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “[applause] C: Thank you. This means- C: Charlotte?”

YES CHARLOTTE

I CRYYYYYY

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “the world is cold but she makes it warm makes it home i want to kiss...”

Annie you're amazing

;_; fuck no please don’t do this to me

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “the world is cold but she makes it warm makes it home i want to kiss...”

Yess babe goooo

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “ her hair cascades down her shoulders and onto mine she laughs,...”

This is everything

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “ her hair cascades down her shoulders and onto mine she laughs,...”

IM YELLIN

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “C: Uh…hi. Hello. Today I’m here to…present a poem that I wrote for a...”

I BELIEVE IN YOU BABES

monets-pixels replied to your photoset

ME TOO

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “HoneyPop Bar, San Maraschino, 9 pm  ?: LAAAAAAAAAADIES GENTS AND...”

!!!!!!!!!!!! Aaaahhhh

asjkbfaskjfnakjsfnaksjfnaksfjanskfjasfsd let me tell you how great it was to see you react i can’t believe i did so good ;_; THANK YOU FOR SUPPORTING ME AND CONNIE TOO

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “the world is cold but she makes it warm makes it home i want to kiss...”

this is best

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “the world is cold but she makes it warm makes it home i want to kiss...”

this is so great

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “the world is cold but she makes it warm makes it home i want to kiss...”

"t<i>he truth is so much, yet / so little: her. / you." is another hell of a line and im going to ban u but also not</i>

fucc u dont repeat my lines i still cringe but also dont fucc u bc ajhsbfajshfbajfhbasfjahsbfas i die im forever at ur service basically

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “the world is cold but she makes it warm makes it home i want to kiss...”

THATS IT IM BROOMSTICKING U TO DO POETRY AGAIN

i cRY I CRY I STILL CRY FUCC

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “ her hair cascades down her shoulders and onto mine she laughs,...”

"i burn / (we burn so bright)" is one hell of a line i know i just told u this but u need it somewhere it wont go away in 1h

;____________________________________________; my stomach is everywhere tbh

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “ her hair cascades down her shoulders and onto mine she laughs,...”

FUCK U ANNIE this is great im dead :')

fuck you too were both dead its a gr8 way to b

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset

a bunch of catiis

the best audience

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “C: Uh…hi. Hello. Today I’m here to…present a poem that I wrote for a...”

you're doing amazing sweetie

dang......you got out the apostrophes it must be rly special (tbh reading this comment i had no idea if you were talking to connie or me)

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “C: Glade…she’s not here. G: So? Connie you WILL GO THE FUCK OUT THERE...”

gLADE THREATENED TO BROOMSTICC CONNIE IM LIVING SO MUCH THIS IS MORE THAN I COULD EVER HOPE FOR I LOV

I KNOW I KNOW IT WAS A RANDOM IDEA AND I LOVED IT TOO MUCH (glade too is such a meme child i cry this must b the forth)

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset

aaaaaaaaa baby

i know i cry she did this on her own and it was so perfect

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “HoneyPop Bar, San Maraschino, 9 pm  ?: LAAAAAAAAAADIES GENTS AND...”

I am this man this is me presenting this q of urs

its the willsmithing meme just reversed but also :,)

pixeldemographics replied to your post “looks like my queue is back today!”

were gonna hav words abt that negativity i know its gonna be beautiful SHUP UP

;________________; listen i hav a lot of thoughts abt that night and your support

pixeldemographics replied to your audio post “Bastille - Warmth”

fun fact this played while i was on the subway today and i thought abt u baby :')

aaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I KNOW I READ THIS DAYS AGO BUT IM STILL AAAAAAAING

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And who doesn't want hugs? I know I'm not the biggest fan of them, but if I really needed one, who cares who it's from.

WAIT WHAT????? YOU’RE NOT A FAN OF HUGS??? ;-; MY LIFE HAS BEEN A LIE

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I just had a really bad night, and a bad couple of days. It's still not too great but I'm feeling better mentally.

akjfnaksjfbnaksjfbasjfkasfd i hope you’re good these days ♥ haven’t seen you in a bit but i suppose you’re busy christmassing ;)

[lesbianakaashi-archived]

a while back i said i was going to write out all the reasons i don't like melanie martinez and her music. well, here it is. everything is under the cut, but beware, this includes ableism along with abuse, suicide, and csa/rape mentions. also, uncensored slurs. be safe!

ill be going by songs, starting w the crybaby album, because i don't have much to say about melly herself. thatll be at the end. this is HEAVILY opinion based, so take it all w a grain of salt. 

- crybaby is ok to me, nothing super terrible. 

- dollhouse is the first song i don't like; it presents nothing new, because the whole "abuse/other bad things wrapped in a cute package" thing isn't a new concept. i also don't like the line "i see things that nobody else sees" because yes, while crybaby is a character, shes not said to be psychotic or have hallucinations, and i feel like that line was just thrown in to make her sound "crazy".

- sippy cup is like dollhouses terrible older sibling tbh. within the first verse, we have an ableist slur and plastic surgery shaming. real nice. also "silly girl, with silly boys" just rubs me The Wrong Way(tm). then theres what sounds like romantiziation of eating disorders, which as far as I know, mel doesnt suffer from (if youve heard otherwise, please send me an ask abt it!) sippy cup is basically saying "bad is still bad even if its presented in a good way!!!!" and its just...not good. 

- i don't have any strong feelings about carousel. tbh, it has a nice tune and its actually one of the few decent songs on crybaby. 

- confession time: i LOVE alphabet boy. if i had to pick a melanie song to listen to, itd be alphabet boy. its really catchy and fun to sing (plus im a slut for alliteration,) and i don't have many personal complaints. though i do detest the whole "baby" theme she has, esp in this song. 

- soap is just...eh to me. i really don't like the causal suicide line as someone whos attempted So Many times, and the whole fake-deep thing just amounts to "i fucked up, i feel terrible". 

- training wheels is a CLUSTERFUCK. as i said, i hate the "baby" theme, when mixed with adult stuff. this song is undoubtably about sex and relationships, but shes using things kids can relate to and its just...feels bad, scoob. "i love everything you do, when you call me fucking dumb for the stupid shit i do" is a one-two punch of emotional abuse implications and a slur. its just...all around bad. 

- pity party is...decent. the "im laughing, im crying, it feels like im dying" lines are suspect to me, because they sound very bpd-ish and idk how i feel abt that. 

- tag youre it is just. BAD. mel herself had the ADACITY to say its supposed to be ~whimiscal~, such with crybaby being kidnapped by the "big bad wolf". that may be the story, but putting a song about your childlike character being kidnapped and implied to be raped? is so fucked up.

- milk and cookies is also fucking terrible. "im fucking crazy, need my perscription filled" nice job implying all csa survivors are crazy, melly babe. gg. 

- i dont have strong feelings abt pacify her. just that its some infantilizing bs as usual.

- mrs potato head is somewhat decent? i dont have strong feelings about it either 

- mad hatter, and i know everyone and their mom have said this, is an ableism filled fucker. from the first lines, when i first heard it, i thought it was a harmless alice in wonderland inspired song. cute! and then the next lines played. im gonna go line by line and say what implications/statements bother me. "now i'm peeling the skin off my face" as someone who has pretty severe skin picking issues, this rubs me the wrong way. its basically just there to make crybaby ~weird~ "'cause i really hate being safe" oh, bc safe is SUCH a bad thing to be? this is just a bad line. "the normal, they make me afraid, the crazies, they make me feel sane" holy ableism batman! the normal? like psychotic people arent ~normal~? also, i love (sarcasm) how she says "the crazies". mel, honey, you have no grounds to say that. "i'm nuts, baby, i'm mad / craziest friend that you've ever had / you think i'm psycho, you think i'm gone / tell the psychiatrist something is wrong" do you think mel even thought about how fucking assholeish and downright insensitive she sounds abt mental illness right here? because she sounds like she did one (1) google search about psychosis and wrote down everything she could. "oh, off the bend, entirely bonkers / you like me best when i'm off my rocker / tell you a secret, i'm not alarmed / do what if i'm crazy? the best people are" okay, so, im 99% sure mel is NOT psychotic in the fucking slightest. hey babe, youre not ~crazy~ and you dont get to appropriate our oft reclaimed slurs. this is just. so insensitive and fucked up. 

- cake isn't that bad. i find myself humming it a lot. 

- teddy bear is decent as well, kinda edgy tho. 

- now for the only one of her unreleased songs that bothers me: a million men. (major csa tw for that song) she wrote it after watching a documentuary about sex trafficking and csa, and while its not bad lyrically and a few lines are relatable to my csa survivor ass, but shes not a csa survivor, and i don't feel like she should have written and sang it. 

- my personal problem with melanie is that she has her "crybaby" image all the time. shes tweeted saying she broke her nail trying to open her sippy cup, she poses half naked in bibs with a pacifier, etc. it just feels wrong to me, as i had my childhood and innocence and childhood things torn from me and sexualized very early on in life. 

- so thats all! i may or may not update this if anything else comes up. thank you for reading this far. 

(please be aware that i do not hate melanie as a person, and that i don't wish her any ill will. i just have problems with things shes done. and i am not saying you need to drop her music completely; just be critical and use your brains. and be respectful if someone says it bothers them!)

[la-petite-marie]

So yesterday someone named @ragific decided to talk some nonsense on the yk tag, and now they are being extremely defensive and acting like “omg i’m a victim, a damsel in distress” and is calling me out because according to them, i was rude (and honestly i tried not to be but i’m done with bullshit n the tag). Oh, I’m also delusional, but aren’t we all?? Cause like i said before, what we know about them is from what we see on tv shows, vlive, fancams, etc etc.

Read at your own risk (but tbh this whole thing is ridiculous, we r all ridiculous so yeah...)

1. “And dont fucking tell me that Yoongi is always soft for Jk and that i need to stick to it because welcome to fanfics. Again its fictional. There are no defined answers and thats the beauty of it and if you cant grasp your head around it, I worry about you “ Again lemme just say what characterization means. ‘Characterization is a literary device that is used step by step in literature to highlight and explain the details about a character in a story.’ Now till here i get what you are saying but, “dont fucking tell me yoongi is always soft for jk and that i need to stick with it”, do you ever saw him actually not being soft with him tho? i mean, he is sassy at times, but with everyone that doesnt mean he is aggressive. but again, are you sure we r talking abt the same person?? oh wait do u, personally know him? im sorry, really, you TOTALLY RIGHT! omg. but anyways... “again it’s fictional” oh you dont say, i mean i should have got it when i wen to look for fanfic right? RIGHT?? but what do i know, honestly. I Besides, as far as i know he’s a real person, a human being, and if you want to characterize him in another way you tag it, but i clearly dont need to say it to you, cause you’re the master on it.

2. I have an idea on how fanfic stories works, but thanks for your input :) “Youve just passed judgement which is something you yourself stated you dont like.” what i meant and what my gfs trying to tell you was that the way you expressed yourself seemed off cause we all (and by we all, i mean me and my gfs) understood you said that yoongi was aggressive, as in whole body and language aggressive, which he is not, or never showed to be. Again, i wasn’t trying to be rude, i just EXPRESSED myself saying i didnt agreed with it, you were the one being rude to baah, when she clearly wasn’t so don’t try to act all innocent in here.

3. I may not be korean, but i’m well aware of some things about its culture and its places and people. I also know that people from both Busan and Daegu are expected to act a bit more colder than people from other cities, places. But again, the way you tried to convey yourself was that made me disagree with you, cause again, you didnt expressed yourself in a way we totally understood you. Yoongi speaks very aggressively and subtitles do not convey that. “Because I can respect people’s differences when it comes to information they come across.” I mean i get it, but imo i still think it wrong write them in a TOTAL different way, as in so ooc, that you don’t know who that person really is (idk how to explin myself, nor how to express myself rip). Yeah i get that, freedom of writing, and sometimes you want to change a few things abt them cause it’s the way you want it to be, but sometimes people really take it as a real thing, that’s where i have a problem, they (fans) think they r that way and start to talk abt it as if it’s really real and that’s not it. They are human like us, a living and breathing human being, you are supposed to be respectful of that person, cause you if are writing about them, so i’m 100% sure they would want it to be authentic and if it’s not, it’s ok, but don’t think they are that way, cause they are not.

4. You really are trying to teach me about shipping lmao cute. “Being a shipper isnt a title. You dont go to school for it and get a diploma out of it.” Omg i never knew *gasps* bitch please i’ve ranted before about the shit this fandom does and says. It’s like you’re trying to teach me about life. Nice try, but i can’t handle it :) Also I’m not trying to dictate or govern you I just expressed my disagreement with your post.  Im’ well aware people have diffenrent opinions, but that’s not what I was and am tryig to say to you, and honestly I’m tired to try and explain it, ause you’re clearly don’t get it. And yeah i know i don’t own the tag, lmao because if i did it would be free of bullshit and it would be all rainbows and sunshine, cause that’s what yk is about. If you want drama and go @ me then do it, but it would be nice with you didn’t tag yk on it, cause now you’re calling me out is there, and honestly again i don’t mind ppl going @ me, but just don’t mention yk te way you do, cause we already have other ships there that are not yk, so the less bullshit and drama on it, the better. “If you are going to be a baby about it then thats on you and I have zero sympathy for you.” The only one being a baby about this whole thing is you, who are acting like a victim, when you’re not honey, sorry to inform this to you, but yes I was rude, but you weren’t any better than me so pls sit down.

5. I have to agree with you there, “If you dont like then dont read.” Amen. Praise the Lord. “You giving yourself that entitled attitude is like me saying Ive known kpop for longer so you dont know shit.” lmao ok sure jan. And gotta agree with you on the “fucking stupid”, this whole drama and discussion (or whatver the hell this is) is fucking stupid.

And to end, come @ me all you want, but if you are doing another post after this pls use yk instead of the whole ship name, i’m sure other peaceful and nice shippers would appreciate it. 

Anyways, have a nice day ;)

[coffeecapricorn]

March 1 2019

Hey.

It’s the first day of the month we broke up. I’ve been feeling all sorts of anxiety about this month for like a month now. I just read your horoscope and it basically told me that you and meg will get back together and that hopefully both of you will have learned a lesson from why you broke up. As much as I HOPE that’s not true, I realize that I have no idea, or control over what happens in your life. So I’m just wishing you happiness this month. This month was sad and stressful last year and I know you’ve been stressed and sad and all sorts of stuff has happened to you this year so I hope this month just brings you happiness. Anyways I wanted to just talk to you about all my ~feelings~ so I was on ft w kay yesterday basically just talking abt how she only knew me with a boyfriend at first and the whole first car ride up we were talking abt both of our weddings and how I was SO sure about you. It’s weird now bc I don’t have a boyfriend but I don’t want one. I only want you and if it’s not you it’s just not the same. I have to get over that I know. It’s been too long. But I honestly do believe that your gut feeling is always right and my guts just telling me not to date just to date. It is weird bc Kay was telling me about how she asked Shane how he felt at like every point during their break. She mentioned when we drove up to see you guys after we were all broken up and how he was feeling like he still wanted her. It was just so weird to hear and think back to that bc she has him but I don’t have you. I’m spending st patty’s day with them. Shane has a big party every year so I’m going over there. It’s kind of weird that I’ve been in his hometown house and you never have. How I’ve cried in front of him. It’s just all still so surreal to me. I’m upset that you won’t be there bc we all had these plans last year. And this year I’ve done those things. I went to freedom fest. I’ve seen Shane’s family’a shop. I spent my summer on LI w Kayla. I spent new years with them. It feels wrong to do things without you but also so right. Like I don’t NEED you to do those things. These are my friends not yours. And I’m thankful to you for introducing me to them but I feel like they are mine, not yours. So yeah we were just talking about how it’s weird I don’t have a boyfriend bc that’s how I know her and Shane is still there so I SHOULD have you. But honestly I am so happy right now. I’m at peace. I don’t worry about anyone cheating, I’m not upset that you’re far away, I’m not here actively missing you. I feel calm, at peace. I can do things, harmless things, but things you wouldn’t be okay with me doing without feeling guilty. Fulfilling things. I’m happy. I know I would be happy with you. Which is why I want you. But I also know I’d be in a contestant state of missing you, worry, anxiety. I would have all those feelings. I’m worried if we got back together it would delete all the growth and progress I’ve made this year. I have no idea what I’m even saying and I’m probably not making any sense at all. It’s just a hard month for me bc it’s bringing back all the memories of you leaving which is just hard for me not to compare this year to last. I do miss you a lot. My head is so confused and jumbled right now. I think reading your horoscope just really messed me up bc for the past 2 weeks I’ve been in my head making up scenarios of us getting back together. Fuck im sorry I’m literally not making any sense. I just miss u and hope that when you come home we talk or something even just as friends. I miss having you in my life. Even those 3 years before we dated, just you being in my life. You’ve been such a big part of everything. I was thinking yesterday how we started dating when I was 16 and I couldn’t even drive and you took me out to practice parallel parking. Like you were just always there. And now you’re just not. And now it’s the month you left. Okay I’m rambling I just miss you. Love you, talk soon.