#if you want to vent and rant my ask is open af

[beachesgetpeaches]

I can't deal with the two extremes at this point. I've seen some act like Matty is a godsend that never did anything wrong, because it was all an "act". I've seen the other side act like he murdered someone.

There is a middle ground. He might just be an immature asshole that made shitty edgy jokes. He wouldn't be the first. He won't be the last.

More than anything, and this is just my opinion, I feel like a lot (not all) of Swifties are upset, not because of what he said or did, but because he makes Taylor look bad and it calls her activism into question. Some of them seem to think liking an activist makes them an activist or morally superior.

This is probably all over the place, but that's kind of how I feel. Matty is an ass, as always. But Taylor was never an unproblematic champion of marginalized communities.

I think at this point, fans might just need to accept that maybe they aren't amazing people, and maybe it's okay to just like their music or...stop buying it. Taylor breaking up with Matty tomorrow won't make her a better person.

Sorry, that was longer than I meant it to be.

I actually love that my ask can be a place to vent and share opinions so no apologies needed for the length. But I agree, there are two extremes which kind of just seem to feed each other... and it's not constructive at all.

It also means that if you say something that disagrees with one extreme you are likely to be treated as the other. Though in this case I've gotta admit that I've seen more of it from the "hate matty" side than the defend side - though this could just be the side of the internet I am in.

And with that kind of mindset it means that people who are in the middle (which I think is the closest to the truth, not to idk pat myself on the head or anything) and recognise that Matty has fucked up, and that we should criticise some of his actions, while also maintaining that he is not actually racist/antisemitic/islamophobic/thedevil/etc... those people are being ignored. Or worse, they just get bunched with the other extreme side and called racists, white-feminists, and yknow the rest.

Not to mention that I do think Matty in his statement to New Yorker was onto something with how he said "let me get as close to X as possible, so you can see how good I am"... kind of like, look at me calling out what everyone else is calling out to prove how moral and good and worthy I am. When, in fact, all of those reactions are doing nothing because ultimately Matty (in this case) is actually not a racist, has stood for things that need standing up for, and is actually not actively harming people. Beyond hurting feelings of people online (?).

(and I guess here I understand the wish from some fans that he addresses things or apologises, but I can't speak on t1975 fandom account since I have not been a part of it for the many years they have been active)

Either way, to me it seems that people still have not learned to listen/read for themselves instead of reiterating the things they read without forming their own opinion.

@yallcantread has made a few really well written, well documented posts about this specific topic, which I would encourage people to read through.

[makeste]

I saw this take on twitter about Hana & Kacchan having “reverse parallels” and since they both have apologised to Tenko/Deku (but one was more or less sincere and the other was absolutely sincere) and they said that, while Hana moved away from Tenko, Kacchan ran to catch Deku. There was also more to the thread abt Kacchan & Hana’s differences. They were sorta trying to argue that this is a clue that Hori intends for Bkdk to be sibling-like/brotherly. As a bkdk shipped, I’ve accepted that it makes sense.. cause it’s an established fact that Tenko & Deku parallel each other. Tenko having his own “Kacchan” makes sense. Tho yes I am a little sad since I’ve held a little bit of hope for romantic bkdk becoming canon. I just wanted to ask your opinion if Hana was really meant to foil Kacchan or was it just a reach?

okay so I have a couple responses to this.

1. while it's true that Horikoshi has woven a lot of deliberate parallels between Deku and Tenko's characters, that doesn't mean every single thing about their lives and every single person they interact with is a part of those parallels. which is to say that no, I don't really think Hana and Kacchan are meant to mirror each other in any kind of significant way. Hana's apology to Tenko was under completely different circumstances than Kacchan's apology to Deku; I really don't see any connection between the two situations. you might as well be trying to compare Hana to Endeavor, or Deku, or Hawks, or Aizawa, or any other character who's apologized to anyone over the course of the story.

2. please pardon the forthcoming rant, anon -- and I hope you know that none of this is aimed at you in particular -- but for me personally, this whole obsession with ships becoming canon is one of the most exasperating types of discourse there is. like, don't get me wrong, I totally understand people wanting to see their favorite ships validated by the author, and not to mention there's also the issue of having more LGBTQ+ representation. but speaking as someone whose own orientation (aromantic) has almost no representation in fiction whatsoever, it gets frustrating to see so many people dismiss non-romantic relationships as being an inferior type of ship, to the extent that calling a relationship "sibling-like" is now a commonly-used attack in ship wars. so many people view romance as this completely transformative element, to the point where two characters can literally tick every other box on the intimate personal relationship checklist, and none of it will matter to some people unless they actually confess their love and kiss.

and again, I'm not saying I don't understand it, especially since queerbating is a thing. it's one thing if a writer is genuinely just trying to portray a close friendship, especially in series where romance isn't really a focus. but it's another thing entirely if a writer is deliberately hinting at a romance in a blatant bid to attract a larger queer audience, while all the while having no intention whatsoever of having those hints lead anywhere. the issue, I guess, is that it's not always easy to tell which scenarios are the former, and which are the latter. and of course, you also have people who think that the former is a type of cop-out as well, because the thing is that romance is always viewed as the default. so for a lot of people, allosexual and alloromantic relationships are the only ones that get considered as far as representation goes.

but you know what, I'm just gonna say it; even knowing where people are coming from, it's still discouraging to know that so many people are so dismissive of aro and ace relationships that the thought of a favorite ship not becoming romantic in canon is considered a profound disappointment. and it's even more discouraging that the thought of a rival ship becoming canon is considered such an existential threat to some that they will literally use "oh, they're just like siblings" as an argument against the ship, rather than a point in favor of. because siblings are a downgrade. friendship is a downgrade. any kind of close relationship that isn't inherently romantic or sexual in nature is less important, and that's just how it is.

so yeah, that's kind of a pet peeve, ngl. especially since the truth is I actually do think Bakugou and Deku's relationship is very akin to siblings. and so I do sometimes get weary of not being able to just outright say that without having to first pepper the statement with all kinds of disclaimers so that people don't think I'm invalidating the ship. I feel like I have to walk on eggshells if I ever want to talk about their relationship in terms that I can personally relate to.

but I mean, here's how I look at it. they've known each other since they were small children. they call each other exclusively (or almost exclusively) by childhood nicknames. they have an openness and an unspoken, almost taken-for-granted trust in each other to the point where they'll share closely guarded secrets ("I got my quirk from someone else") and personal vulnerabilities ("why was I the one who ended All Might?") with barely a second's hesitation which they would never share with anyone else. they have a comfortable little bickering type of rapport ("I'm getting stronger"; "well I'll just have to get even stronger then"; "you'll never surpass me"; "we'll see about that") which they can fall into with ease and which looks weird af to outsiders, but is "normal" to them and something they're both grateful to have.

they're so intimately familiar with each other's personality and behaviors that they can predict them with perfect accuracy. they're so in tune with each other that they can whip up elaborate coordinated attacks right on the spot in perfect sync. their admiration for each other is so strong that they each think of the other as being the epitome of winning and saving, respectively. their mental images of each other are so vivid that they subconsciously mimic each other's speech patterns whenever they start falling into a particularly strong Win or Save mindset themselves. they take no small amount of pride in showing off for each other. they go apeshit any time the other is in danger or hurt. and each of them would literally die for the other if it ever came to that.

all of that is already canon. on just about every metric imaginable except for "now kiss", the two of them already have a canon intimacy that rivals just about every other great relationship out there. and so to say that none of it actually counts unless there's an actual love confession involved frankly just boggles me. again, maybe it's because I have no personal vested interest in romance myself, though. I'm literally just not wired that way, and so I'm really not the best person to vent to when it comes to these kinds of concerns.

but look, no matter what happens from here on out, these two care about each other on a very deep and personal level. they're going to continue to be a part of each other's lives no matter what. and each of them, no matter what, will continue to occupy a space in each other's lives that no other person can fill, regardless of how we or Horikoshi or anyone else choose to label and define that space. and so in my book, that's already a win.

anyways, apologies again for the impromptu rant. again, this wasn't particularly directed at you in any way; if anything it's mostly just a generic response to the constant shipping discourse in this and every other fandom, and a more detailed explanation for why I personally don't like to get involved in it. this is just one of the myriad reasons why I try my best to stay very far away from BnHA twitter lol.

[1111jenx]

First of all, I won't ask this on anon so i can leave you the option of blocking me if needed. I also apologize if my energy is negative or toxic- I'm trying to contain it and be positive but its taking a while. But, I just need to vent I guess? Like I said, I don't expect you to answer this or even be my therapist or give me advice but I thought you might understand my point of view or at least tell me I'm wrong or something?

I hate having fixed energy in my chart. I appreciate and even love at times my aspects. Like- yes my chiron/lilith/Pluto in 4th makes it hard for me to trust and love people but in its own way- it transforms me and protects me. And yes, having Leo rising and moon with my Taurus Sun is exhausting at times but they make me unique and personable. And while I dislike how sexualized my Scorpio Mars is as a demi aroace- I'm aware it makes me fiercely loyal over my loved ones. But, at times like these where I'm feeling betrayed is where I hate it.

Because seeing my ex happy and smiling with his new girl- someone I work in the same dept with and see often- barley a month after we broke up due to him "not being in a right place" makes me want to scream and punch a wall. Especially, when hes ignoring me like I don't even matter. Like, me kissing him when I never kissed anyone before doesn't matter. Like, opening up about my uncle and my triggers doesn't matter. And im trying to be professional but I honestly can't.

And I know this is the universe's way of teaching me a lesson and giving me a better person but I'm tired. I'm tired of always working and being self aware and trying to be understanding when in reality I just want to go ape shit.

And I don't know- I just need to let it go but I can't. I honestly can't. I tried moving to another shift but he moved to my new shift too and now I have to continue to see him and his girl being fucking happy together for my whole shift when before I only had to deal with it for an hour or two. I have to see him smile at her like he did at me and I hate him so so much. I can't hate her but him? I fucking despise. Especially for making me feel this way.

Again, I apologize for the long, incoherent rant. And I apologize for my energy. Feel free to block me, delete this message or just yell at me. I'll go stress bake now.

Hi baby,

Don't feel bad whatsoever for ranting to me. My inbox is lengthy af and even though I'm a lazyass, I'll always be here if you need to vent. I heard some psychic told me once that people tend to come to me when they're at a critical moment of their life and at first I'm like tf I'm not paramedics😀 but when I think about it, I enjoy it so much more than I realized. So don't worry, your local Cancer/Leo dominant do not feel burdened with your issues nor will she block you for being honest with your feelings. I think there's always beauty in honesty and intimacy. And this honest to god asks made me think about that.

I think about the theme of love more than I should these days and the idea of it simply fascinate me. To love is also to give in, to surrender. Letting someone into your world and open up your darkest drawers probably was not easy at all for you. And it hurts more that when they're done, they leave without ever making it clear for you. I can see why it is the thoughts aftermaths that will make you rage. But the thing is, it was never about you in the first place. Your ex probably had a reason for his actions & while we can't guess his intentions, his actions reflect just that. Dating someone only a month after breaking up with you, sure, that's obviously not mf ideal. But this also shows me that, he never deserves someone that feels so much as you do in the first place.

Feelings are complicated always. Love and hate intertwined create something so powerful and become much darker than one can comprehend. However, I think at the end, I want you to feel for yourself more than you ever feel for him or for the situation. You give me someone who feels a lot but struggle to express it. Rage, anger, passion or pain. Those are all valid feelings baby. That anger thats lurking inside you, is going to do nothing but make you feel more for him, someone who never deserve that much of energy in the first place. Ofcourse, the time you two shared together is something personal and a stranger like me won't be able to understand. But as your local fixed dominant mutual, I tell you to trust me.

Fixed dominant never stop feeling once we do. It is constant and it may take years to actually let go of all those feels. But I found out that the only way to help is to let it out. And you're doing just that my love. I think you're pretty brave actually. Being so open to admit those darker feelings and thoughts are something very scorpionic in my opinion. But its also the beauty of your Leo placement. We roar. We don't speak.

Never apologize for being honest with yourself or to others. Honesty is something I value deeply and seeing people proudly presenting it is simply beautiful. I know where you're coming from when you mention the universe's plan for you. But hang in their for me. Pick yourself up from the ground and fight these battles for me. Know that you're not alone and I'm sending you better vibes and light. Know that the better days are yet to come and there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. You telling me how you wanna punch a wall make me giggle because that's exactly what I would do when I'm emotional and lost control LOL. We Leo Risings do need help haha. I'm jk but you understand what I'm tryna say right love? I'm sorry for all the thing that happened to you and please know that you're not alone this world. Whether or not you feel like it, whether or not you feel like people are trying to convince you it is true. I appreciate your energy and I can tell, one day someone will be able to love you and treasure everything that makes you you intuitively. The universe is mysterious yet its also very clear, sometimes, as painful as it is, there are always more that what meets the eyes.

I hope you're having a good day boo. I'm sorry for answering you so late. I hope after that baking session you feel much better. I'm always here if you want to talk🤎

love,

saint jenx🪐

[savage-rhi]

if you feel like it can you write smth for my baby khaio + higgs with this prompt 🥺👉👈 “I can’t believe you talked me into this.” have a nice day jay and hopefully u get to refresh yourself somehow its hot af here in croatia aswell im dying

@nemodoren Once again it is swamp night in my neck of the woods but I am doing awesome! My pants may be glued to my skin, but I am dandy! Please don’t die. Not without me my person xD lol. I hope you like this hon! Thanks for waiting on it! 💙

Spurts of laughter filled throughout the terminal as Khaio ran, leading the way while Higgs trailed behind. Khaio was ecstatic, his whole body brimmed with energy all the while Higgs was cautious, nonetheless, he was becoming more playful by the second. Khaio had that sort of effect on Higgs, and he knew when to take advantage of it especially when Higgs was having an off day. 

“I can’t believe you talked me into this,” Higgs said, catching his breath when Khaio finally stopped and began to climb up a ladder near the entrance. He looked down briefly and smiled at Higgs, giving a careless shrug. 

“You didn’t have to tag along, y’know?” Khaio said in his defense. His sarcasm clearly evident.

Higgs shook his head up at his associate, adjusting his hat before he began to make the trek up the ladder. Murmured curses escaped his lips, wishing he had time to go to his quarters to change out of his porter uniform. Alas, Khaio’s enthusiasm ensnared Higgs and then some. Even if he wanted to say no, Higgs didn’t have the heart to deny the request. He hadn’t seen him ages.

Since they first met, Higgs had been wary of him. Khaio had his moments were he kept to himself, but when the planets aligned, he seemed to be livelier. More so than anyone who lived in the city limits that Higgs had encountered. The shift in personality once upon a time had put Higgs off. Given how he grew up and the kinds of people he encountered during his youth, Higgs didn’t have a lot of friends. He didn’t want to take a risk with anybody, regardless of his altruism to help the community out. In his experience being a porter, friends were nothing but trouble. God forbid they die on the job too. There was something about Khaio that lifted Higgs’s shields, and as much as his curiosity baited him to pursue further, Higgs was afraid of getting hurt. He was too stubborn to admit it to anyone but himself. 

“Bout’ time you showed up!” Khaio said as he watched Higgs reach the top. He extended a hand when Higgs got close, watching as the porter hesitated before grabbing a hold of Khaio’s arm while being hoisted up. 

“Mind tellin’ me what the hell you brought me up here for?” Higgs chuckled, crossing his arms as he felt a cool breeze hit the back of his neck. Goosebumps began to trail down his skin. Even with the porter uniform, Higgs felt exposed to the elements. Nonetheless, it was kind of nice considering how sweaty he was. 

“I gotcha some things! While you were gone, I did some trading with folks here and there and bada-bing!” Khaio said happily, walking over to a vent sticking out of the rooftop of the terminal. He gently kicked at a loose spot, taking off a panel that revealed a bag. 

Higgs watched as Khaio looked through the contents before smirking, giving the bag a friendly toss towards Higgs. His eyes widened, leaning forward to catch it nearly falling flat on his face. 

“Jesus!” Higgs exclaimed while Khaio laughed. 

“I might be Jesus in your eyes after you see what I got!” Khaio said teasingly. 

Higgs chuckled, rolling his eyes. “Whatever.”

He began to rummage through, his fingers being careful while he pulled out the contents one by one from the bag. To say Higgs was astounded was an understatement. Khaio had gone through the trouble of getting Higgs old Egyptian history books he hadn’t seen before along with a few packs of music CDs that existed before the Death Stranding. Higgs recalled ranting about his passions to Khaio but never thought he had been truly listening during their conversation in the past. 

Higgs stopped to briefly look at Khaio, noticing the smug look he had on his face.

“Alright, alright, maybe you surprised me a little bit,” Higgs admitted.

“It gets better!” Khaio said, gesturing for him to continue. 

Higgs sighed, then located the final item. He picked up the small package and brought it to his eyes so he could read over the inscription. Once that and the pungent smell emitting from the box kicked in, Higgs’s jaw dropped.

“No way!” Higgs exclaimed.

“Yeah, way!” Khaio laughed.

“No fuckin’ way!”

“Yeah, fuckin’ way!” 

Higgs enthusiastically began to open the box, revealing the bundle of fifty cigarettes. They weren’t just any brand either. The potent scent of marijuana infiltrated his nose like an old friend and he couldn’t help but laugh like a schoolboy. It had been ages.

“Damn. Ya’ll know if the community police caught ya with this your ass would be deep-sixed, right?” Higgs asked, furrowing his brows as Khaio approached and took one of the cigs out of the box, keeping his gaze on Higgs while putting the end of one in his mouth. 

“Do you think I give a shit?” Khaio snorted. “It’s not like you’re one with a clean track record.”

“Touche’,” Higgs laughed, taking a cig for himself. He sat the bag and contents on the ground and leaned towards Khaio when offered a lighter. The two of them silently puffed, enjoying the texture and taste of the smoke. Eventually, Khaio and Higgs leaned upon the balcony of the terminal’s roof and looked outward at the vast terrain. It was a full moon tonight, and they could easily make out rock formations that had character. 

“You didn’t have to go through the trouble of doing all this, you know?” Higgs said after letting out an exhale. 

Khaio was thankful it was dark out. Higgs couldn’t see how Khaio’s face flushed with pink from hearing how genuine he had sound from the turn of events. 

“Contrary to what you might think, I do care about you,” Khaio said, swallowing as the words left his lips. He had been wanting to say it for a long time but didn’t expect his mouth to run away with him. 

Higgs turned his head, gazing over Khaio. He could feel the corners of his lips form into a smile. His eyes sincere as he took in the emotions that sprung up suddenly, along with the pleasant buzz behind his eyes. Maybe he could take a risk. Maybe Khaio was worth it. Maybe. 

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[imaginesmylife]

Could I ask what it would be like to be best friends with the dragon slayers?

imagine-fairytail-dorks answered: Natsu: I mean what do i even say here… if you watch fairy tail and his interactions with Lucy…yeah. expect him to invade your house / dorm constantly and he totally peeks inside your furniture’s drawers- ‘ I must unveil the deep dark secrets of ___’s room! ‘ dragging you off to missions out of nowhere like you could be going shopping or taking a bath, it doesn’t matter to him if it’s day or night, you’re COMING. totally draws on your face while you sleep (again this is cannon) - do not play monopoly with HIM. I REPEAT DO NOT. THERE WILL BE PIECES MISSING AND DISAPPEARING EVERYTIME likes to steal food from your fridge a lot “ NATSU, YOU HAVE YOUR OWN FOOD! “ “ but yours is better. “ you feeling down? he will not promise to listen to a long hour rant, unless its really tragical, but he will probably open his arms like ‘ ya wanna hug ? ‘ makes silly hairdos to your hair on purpose and laughs it off.

Gajeel: sleepovers in which he will probably help you so much with the meals, like # secret master chef gajeel at your service steals food from your plate when you’re not watching and thinks he’s fooling you but really he isn’t. Okay but he’s that guy who if you need help on really weird occasions he won’t mind helping you out: “ Gajeel, i forgot my towel can you hand it over? “ “ Gajeel, you mind going downstairs to get me some pads / tampons? I just noticed i ran out of them…. “ “ Gajeel, we’re out of pasta, please make a quick run to the mini! “ the old ladies are chuckling at him and it pisses him off a bit but he feels …manly? to be able to help you? like so blessed so moved # this is what a man is! - quoting elfman. poking you randomly while you’re watching tv or reading books, specially if he’s bored like “ gajeel …” “ shh, weren’t you watching it?” he’s really clueless on how to comfort others in times of need, so all he’s going to do is listen to your problems without saying a word if he can’t find a way to better them, and /or open his arms weirdly for you to receive the hugging . him being salty about others with you like “ uhhh i can’t tolerate that fake arse. “ “ me too , mate. wish they’d just get a vase thrown at their heads. “ #saltmates fist bump

Wendy: Tea sessions with her and Charle reading club time!!!!! doing intricate hairdos to each other and SLEEPOVERS !!!!! 1! !!! 1 !! ranting about your life  … specially boys if you want wendy to turn red like a tomato “ Wendy, stop being so flustered over this! “ “ I can’t help it, Charle… “ light sparring sessions if you wanted to, specially since she needs to be on pair with her dragon slayer friends cooking sessions shopping downtown on fridays. telling each other bedtime stories to sleep one of the best at comforting people, will do anything to help you, and feel bad if they can’t. cuddling sessions and sad disney movies are a must.

Laxus: Beware the raijinshuu will probably be after you too. either jelly or anxious lots and lots of indirect jokes, innuendos or puns like “ ya know what’s up right in the morning? “ “ hOE DON’T DO IT.” He actually gives pretty good input on stuff - he could go with you to stores and be like: “ no that pattern doesn’t suit your figure that well, you have wide hips so it will only make you looked even larger than usual. “ “ look i don’t want to influence you but… this earphones brand is better, it’s durable, the sound is great, and it can allow you so many more functions blahblahblah… “ Not even the raijinshuu know about this side of him but he must always pet the wandering animals in the streets and feed them if he can like AWWWWWW ANIMALS !!!! 111 !!! 1 !!1! Shares food with you no problems. he’s just chill countering your sarcasm with his sarcasm and vice-versa “ Do i seem amused to you? “ “ hmmmm in a scale of  1 to 10? “ “ hahahaha. very funny. “ “ you’re welcome. “ B) surprisingly affectonate when others are out of it - his hugs might crush you a bit tho but he does not mean it - can’t measure his strength tbh “ Laxus…. you’re .crushing me.. can’t breathe, and my boobs – “ “ OH SORRY. “

Sting: Walking in unnanounced on accident sometimes inside your room and being like ‘ OH SHIT SORRY! but nice ass by the way. “  cue a finger gunning at you while he walks out and tries to play it cool but you’re throwing objects at him randomly “ STING, YOU IDIOT! “ “ i guess you can say he STINGS. “ - Rufus “…Frosch thinks so too! “ ba-dum-tss. Watching a movie in a mess of limbs and legs while you share blankets and fighting over the last popcorn / chips /cookies like “ STING, NO THAT ONE’S MINE! “ “ FIRST COME FIRST SERVE ~. “ an d he just casually grabs it and yep they’re gone. he’s faster than you anyways # gdit sting “ unless you wanna take it out of my mouth now? “ “ eww no, keep it. “ # not sure if win or hurt - Sting you must have at least a sleepover once a week or month. he will probably be really deep questioning things in life before you go to bed # phylosophical sting hour ‘ why is the color blue called like that? why is the sky full of stars (coldplay reference badumtss) ? why couldn’t it be full of cheetos? i mean, why are they even like that? starts don’t look like what we draw even it’s jsut a whole mass of galaxy inside another massive rock thing, but from here it seems so small,… i feel like an ant. “ “ how much deep do you think the ocean is? “ # help him. Sting would be that guy that if he were best friends, specially with a girl, would probably go like: ‘ please unveil the darkest secrets of your gender to me, because seriously i don’t get most of you, i’m confused af. ‘ with such a very serious face you end up laughing. “ I’m not joking, ___ . “ staring contests in which he always loses because he starts snorting at something anytime: “ what is it this time, Sting. “ “ your clock…pfft, it’s making  a very..pffft– weird figure in the wall ! “ if you feeling down he’s all up for cuddling session. of course,he will try to the best of his ability to help you with your problems but he prefers to firstly focus on you and spoil you.

Rogue: more mature than Sting but still a bit salty also good at giving remarks like Laxus be it at shopping or life decisions, but sometimes he comes out too strong.. “ Huh, okay Rogue.. Okay. “ “ JUST DO IT, ____. Really– “ he secretly collects candy every time he can, he has a hidden stash of candy in his bedroom- sting once found it and almost died. # do not unleash the kraken probably offers himself as poison taster to each of your recipes and vice versa “ HMm it’s good but what if we added—” “ Rogue, no the last time we improvised it ended as a disaster. “ searching for warmth, he will accidentally inch towards you like in a chase if you’re sleeping over at his room; kick him away or you’ll end up on the floor. (!!!) (THIS IS BASED on a true story) he is a roomcon lover don’t even tell it to the guildmates. he would never hear the end of it. “ NO, JACK! JAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!!!! “ good at consoling people but slightly awkward since he’s unused to it - he’ll pat you your back weirdly #save him.

Erik / Cobra he’s that guy who’s making snarky remarks at everything and anything around him # so salty will turn to you in a joke and be very inoportune and nosy like: “ so what pattern is it today? hello kitty? bows? hearts? stripes? or is it plain?” ERIK NO. he’s very protective of you though like no kid – if you ever trade him for someone lese, like let’s say you were supposed to have lunch with him at the tuesdays and you went off somewhere instead and cancelled it. he’s hurt and ONTO YOU . no escape. throws food at you while you’re distracted - be it a popcorn , a candy, a chip…. but he pretends he’s innocent likes to invade your room once in a while but is at least more respectful than the other dragon slayers…. sometimes he’s deep af though like he might just vent about life indirectly: “ if you could what would you’ve changed about your life , ____ ? “ protect him gives really nice hugs to be honest will beat the crap out of anyone who makes you sad tbh.

Source:  imagine-fairytail-dorks

[magnolia-penn]

Aizawa.Exe

Just a drabble that ended up being waaaay too long.

Warnings: Swearing, Mentions of sex, Shitty writing

Under the cut cuz it’s long af

Life has never quite gone your way. There would be high moments that came with teaching high schoolers that strove to become heroes but the loneliness was unbearable. Living in Japan away from your family and friends left a hole in your heart that only got deeper after every failed date or hookup.

You had often joked about your high standards with your colleagues at UA, even to the point of openly wishing for a Build Your Own Boyfriend website. Everyone had laughed but continued to reprimand you for having your standards too high.

It was on your walk home that the ad had first caught your attention.

“Are your standards too high?” The smooth female advert cut through your epic jam session. “Well, do we have a solution for you.”

The advertisement had listed off a website that would allow you to custom order an intelligent robot that would learn and grow to your needs.

You blew it off as clickbait and skipped the ad as soon as you could. You finished your walk home and promptly took a shower. A certain ash blond in your heroics class had chased another student into the forest and you had to chase the both of them down.

As you settled into your nightly routine, you found it hard to keep your mind from wandering back to the ad, imagining the sort of man you’d order.

‘He’d have to be at least six feet tall and handsome as the devil. Hmm, punctual and unafraid to sleep until noon with a sense of humor.’

You continued to play with that idea through the evening and into your slumber, dreaming of what he might look like and how he would feel.

The next morning, you were awoken by a very flustered and excited Nemuri, who let herself in again.

“Y/N! Y/N! Y/N! HAVE YOU SEEN THIS!” The R rated hero shoved her phone into your face before you had even opened your eyes to process what was going on.

Her web browser was open to the website you heard about yesterday.

“YOU CAN CUSTOM ORDER A ROBOT BISHIE BOYFRIEND! THEY EVEN HAVE A COLONEL SANDERS!”

“Nem, you’re an absolute horndog and you don’t need a bishie boyfriend Colonel Sanders. What time is it?” You pulled some hair that had stuck you face via drool from your mouth and stretched.

“ITS 5:45 AM!”

“NEMURI WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!”

You wrestled her into your guest bedroom and pushed an old wardrobe infront of the door to keep her in while you finished getting your beauty sleep.

When 7:00 rolled around, you released your friend and listened to her rant about the website over breakfast.

“Just look at it, Y/N. Please~” You swiped her phone from her hand and scrolles through the other tabs that held customization screens.

“Oh lord.” They had an entire tab for just his manhood.

“Pretty great, huh?”

The idea of customizing a boyfriend almost seemed taboo to you.

“It sounds like it could be clickbait or a way to steal your credit card information.” You returned her phone and turned to the stove to flip the egg you were cooking.

“Uh huh. And what if I told its not?” Nemuri pushes her chest against your back.

“Get off me, and how?” You gently pushed her away from you.

“I ordered one. He came last week.” The smirk she gave proved she was not kidding. “He’s absolutely perfect. After classes today, you can come and see him.”

She really did it? Strangely enough, you’re not surprised she did that.

“Wait, what about Snipe?” You thought everything was going smooth between them.

“Well, our relationship just was kind of a blur between dating and friends with benefits. Our sex was more chill and relaxed then it ever was actually passionate.” Nemuri reached into a cabinet and grabbed a plate.

You nodded in understanding. The majority of your dates ended up in friendships then actual relationships.

“And when I heard the ad for the boyfriend builder, he told me to get one. He said, and I quote, ‘You should get him. He’d make a better relationship. But if y'all ever need a real fuck, you know where to find me,’. AND I DID!”

Nemuri danced around with her egg on a plate before she sat down.

“Have you done anything with it yet?” You sat across from her and tilted your head in curiosity.

“Oh yes. We’ve been on dates and Hizashi is the absolute sweetest. I can’t wait to ravage him.”

“Hizashi?” It had a name?

She nodded. “The website has a name generator that you can use. They base their names off of the set personality. It chose Hizashi Yamada.”

“He sounds sweet.”

“Yep! He’s really loud though. They grow with you, so it’s understandable.”

You almost choked on your egg hearing that. “They’re practically sentient?!”

Nemuri nodded and quickly finished her egg. She washed her plate and announced that she had to go get ready for school. You followed her words and proceeded to get dressed. You lay everything out in the evening, so it didn’t take long to get ready. 

As you ran a comb through your hair, you opened the website on your phone. Deciding that there isn’t much to lose, you began to fill the order form out.

Six feet tall, Long Dark Hair, Just Enough Stubble To Be Sexy. The list went on. You managed to fill it out just in time to leave.

The daily trek to UA was as boring as ever, until you heard an strange noise. An animal in distress. Choosing that you’d rather be late to work then leave an animal hurt in the streets, you followed the noise. It lead to deep in an alley not far off your route.

You sifted through some garbage bags until you found the source of the noise. It was a mother cat with two little kittens. They were sickly thin and clearly struggling to survive. 

Evaluating your options, you came to the conclusion that instead of wasting more time to bring them to the vet all the way across town, you used your quirk to convince the mama cat to let you pick her and her babies up and quickly called up Recovery Girl to cash in a favor she owed you.

She agreed to help the cats and keep them in her office until the end of the day so you could take them home. Rushing to her office and then to your class left you breathless and dead on the floor in front of your students.

“Um, Miss. L/n? Are you alright?” Your problem student, Izuku Midoriya, asked.

“DANDY! JUST DANDY!” You yelled through the muffle of your hair and the floor. “I saved three cats from right outside my house, which is a half an hour walk from here, ran here, ran to Recovery Girl’s office, then up two flights of stairs to get here. I’m pooped.”

You got up and brushed yourself off. After apologizing to your class, you read off the daily announcements. You handed out graded papers and assisted students where they needed it until it was time for their first class of the day.

Using your free time, you stopped in to actually chat with Recovery Girl and check on the cats.

“They were malnourished and most likely wouldn’t of survived another day out there. Both kittens are sick but should recover swiftly, and the mom is already up and walking.” She explained.

“Have you figured out their genders?” You planned on keeping them and wished to find names for them as soon as possible.

“Ones a girl and the other is a boy. Are you going to keep them?”

You shook your head yes and squatted down to pet the mama who came up for some love. “I like the name Kayuma for the mother, but I still need some time for the babies. Maybe I’ll ask my class.”

Recovery Girl agreed and wrote some notes on the cats. You picked Kayuma up and pulled your phone from your pocket. You wanted to get a picture with your new cat, but your attention was pulled to a notification that went unnoticed.

Your order has been shipped! The package should arrive by 4pm!

“It’s already been shipped?” You wondered out loud.

“What’s been shipped?” You jumped at the new voice. Toshinori Yagi.

“Ah, some pet supplies for the cats. I ordered some after reading the announcements.” Technically not a lie because you really did.

“Oh! Already thinking about the newest additions to your family, how lovely.” Toshinori put a hand on your shoulder and gave a reassuring squeeze. “If you ever need any help or a cat-sitter, you can always ask me. My master loved cats so I know a thing or two.”

“Thanks for the offer, Tosh. You’ll be the first I call.”

The bell rung signaling the start of lunch and had the three of you scrambling to prepare for the second half of the day.

A few brief meetings and some class prep later, the day had finally ended. You sent out a quick email to your students asking about names for the cats and packed up your stuff, ready to go home and meet your new boyfriend.

“Hey! Y/n! Wait up!” Nemuri bounced up to you and clung to your arm. “Are you going to come over tonight?”

“Um…. No. I have the cats and I have to get everything ready for them.” You rubbed the back of your neck sheepishly, hoping she wouldn’t catch on.

“Uh huh. How about Hizashi and I come by to meet your new boy?” Nemuri placed her hand on her hip knowing full well that you weren’t paying attention to what she said.

“Oh yes, that would be lovely.” It took a bit before you processed what she said. “NEMURI, WAIT! THE CATS! I THOUGHT YOU MEANT THE CATS!”

“NOPE! WE’RE COMING OVER!” Nemuri skipped away before you could get a word in otherwise, leaving you alone and quite exasperated.

You picked up the cats and trekked home, a feat easier said than done with three now energetic cats in your arms. You pushed the door of your house open with your foot. 

Sighing, you let the cats roam for a bit as you set up the litter box and feeders from previous pets. It was almost four and the nerves were getting to you. Watching the new kittens romp around the living room while Kayuma lied on a pillow by the heating vent.

‘I hope my bot likes cats. I want so many.’ You didn’t get much time to think about your new boyfriend due to Nemuri and Hizashi bursting in at exactly four.

“WHERE IS HEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!” Nemuri squealed as soon as she entered the living room.

“Hey! He hasn’t arrived yet. Do you see a large crate?” Hizashi placed a hand on her shoulder to keep her from pouncing on you. “I apologize for her, she’s terribly excited.”

“Oh yeah, I know. She’s literally vibrating with excitement. I don’t think she’s calmed down since high school.” You stood from the couch where you had placed yourself in preparation for her outburst. “My name is Y/n Y/L. Nem sings praises of your name.”

“I’m Hizashi Yamada. She speaks about you quite often.” He extended his hand and you took it.

Your eyes widened at the warmth of his hand. You weren’t expecting him to feel so…

“Real? Is that what you were thinking?” Hizashi’s words startled you from your thoughts. “It’s always that look when people know I’m a robot.”

“I hope I didn’t offend you! I just wasn’t expecting it.”

“Nah, it’s fine. Better to get the shock over with me then with him.” Hizashi pointed to the door a second before a knock resonated through off of the front door. 

You walked to the door and opened it up. A beautiful woman was standing next to a six-foot large wooden crate. She resembled Nemuri.

“Hello! My name is Kiara! Thank you for ordering a Boyfriend! May we come in?” You nodded and open the door wider.

She picked up the crate with a trolley and rolled it into the house. She wheeled it into the living room and stopped in surprise when she saw Nemuri and Hizashi.

“Well, hello! How have you two been faring?” She set the crate down and stepped up to Hizashi. “You’re looking good.”

“We’ve been fine. How about you?” Hizashi responded.

“Oh, you know, delivering joy and boyfriends. My life and passion.” Kiara patted his shoulder and turned back to you. “Hizashi is probably one of my best. I’m so proud he got placed with my amazing cousin.”

Nemuri blushed and buried her face in Hizashi’s neck.

“Do you… Do you make them all?” You looked to the crate and to Hizashi.

“Yep! I hand make all of them! My quirk makes it super easy to finish quickly!” She clapped her hands together and her expression turned serious. “But enough about me. It’s now about you and your future!”

She quickly walked over to the crate and pulled the front off, revealing your new bot.

No, Boyfriend.

He was everything you imagined him to be. He was just right. He was perfect. He was…

NAKED

You quickly moved to throw a blanket over him while Nemuri cackled like a witch.

“Hah! You should’ve seen the look on your face! Oh, I should’ve gotten a picture!”

“YOU NEVER METIONED THAT THEY COME NAKED!”

“i DIDN’T FEEL THE NEED TOO!”

With that exchange, the two pro heroes pounced on each other in fight of friendly anger. With the attention on them, no one noticed the man in the crate open his eyes to the harsh light of the world. 

He looked down and noticed the blanket draped haphazardly across his body before readjusting it around his waist and stepping out of his container. 

A brief glance around with apathetic eyes shown that the room he was in was loud and obnoxious. Two people stood idly by as another two women fought on the floor. He padded up to the group undetected and observed the others in the room. With every attempt to tear his attention away from your form, the pull to you was overpowering.

Everything about you was mesmerizing. From your H/c hair to the gentle pull of your clothing around your curves. He was enthralled, absolutely enchanted.

“What the fuck is going on here. You two are squealing like pigs in the slaughter.” His mouth moved on its own, bringing the attention to him.

The look in our eyes is something that he’ll treasure forever. It was sweet and full of excitement and love. How he knew this, the answer never came to him, but he knew it was love and all he wanted was to see that look on your face forever.

“Oh! He’s awake! How are you feeling?” The woman in the business suit asked.

“Tired.” As much as he tried, he could not pry his eyes away from you. “Yet, I feel so full of energy.”

The only other male nodded. “Yep. When I first woke up, I felt like that.”

He cast his gaze to the male for as long as he could before his eyes trailed back to you. He smirked and took a step closer to you.

“Are you like us?”

You shook your head ‘no’, “Sadly, I am not. But I promise to love you like we are the same.”

“What’s his name?” The bluette asked suddenly. “Didja get one picked out from the site or did you have one in mind?”

With their eyes on you, it hit you like a truck when you realized that not only did you not have a name picked out for him, you forgot to click the enabler for the name generator.

“Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit,”  you dragged out. “I was so busy with classes and the cats that I forgot. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhh. I’m a shitty girlfriend.”

“Cats?” He asked.

“Yeah. Three cats. They’re around here somewhere.” You flopped dramatically onto your couch and buried your face in your arms.

“Well, we could help. I made him and I know Hizashi’s creative. Not too sure about Midnight though.” Kiara suggested.

“Thanks Kiara. Nem, don’t take any offense to that. She doesn’t know you the way I do.” You peeked at your friends through your hair and noticed that your boyfriend has disappeared. Probably to find the cats.

“She’s right though.” Hizashi snickered.

Nemuri tackled him to the ground and all you could do was watch while they wrestled on the ground.

Suddenly, a knock at the door made you all jump.

“Shit, who is that?” You cursed before standing to get to the door when you heard it open.

A faint, “Um, hello sir. Is Y/n home?” was heard and then some shuffling. Toshinori.

“You’re fucked.” Nemuri said from the floor.

“Yeah, no shit.”

Not a second later, Toshinori followed him into the room where you all were. Thankfully he had found some clothes.

“Hey, Tosh~” You tried to say as casual as you could. “What brings you to this part of town?”

“Y/n, I live down the street from you and you left your papers back at U.A.” Toshinori held up the stack of paper you were certain you grabbed. “And I think you might have mine.”

“Oh yep! Probably. I was so frazzled and excited about the cats I must’ve grabbed the wrong stack. Here, come with me. They’re still in my bag.” You lead Toshinori into the hall where your bag was.

“The cats or him?” He asked and you choked on air. 

“W-wait. You’ve got the wrong idea.”

“Uh huh. And what of that giant crate in your living room? It looks suspiciously like the one Nemuri threw out when she met her boyfriend.” He cocked an eyebrow at you. 

“Ugh. You’re a dumbass but you’re too smart.” You looked around despite the fact everyone in the house already knew. “He’s a bot I ordered.”

“Do you like him?” He asked.

“Huh? I’m not sure.” You pulled your bag off of the hook and started rifling through it. “I’m definitely attracted to him, but feelings will take time.” 

“Yet I can see the empathy in your eyes. There is some infatuation there.” 

��LEAVE ME ALONE! STOP BEING SMART!” You found the papers and checked to see if they were his. “Here. Do you want to meet him? I was going to have everyone stay for dinner to get to know each other.”

Toshinori nodded and quickly tucked his papers in his bag.

You walked back into the living room and the sight made your heart swell. All three of the cats had curled up on his lap while he sat on the couch between Kiara and Hizashi as Nemuri brushed his hair. They were quietly chatting about the cats that paused when we came in.

“Didja get it all figured out?” Nemuri asked.

“Yep. And you’re all staying for dinner. No questions.” You crossed your arms. “And we have a big problem. His name.”

“Oh. We handled that already.” Hizashi said. “Nem emailed your class asking about real names for the cats and then we gathered the responses and let him choose.”

“And?”

“Shota Aizawa.”

That name sent fuzzy feelings through you. It sounded perfect to you.

“Shota Aizawa.” You repeated. It rolled off the tongue beautifully.

“That’s my name. Don’t wear it out. I just got it.” Shota quipped.

Nemuri coughed to hide a laugh and spit out her two-cents, “She’ll definitely be wearing it out tonight.”

You chucked a decorative pillow at her and went for the tackle.

As the two of you wrestled on the floor and the other three attempted to pry you two apart, Shota couldn’t help but to smile at the new family he was gifted.

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Penpals? Chapter 2

Chapter 2: 

November, 2017 

After about 2 weeks of preparation (waiting for a paycheck) Arizona had almost everything ready for her box. All she had to do was write the letter. 

*Dear Jinho, I don’t have words to express how grateful I am for everything you sent me. I actually feel bad because I don’t send as much. But here are a few of my favorite things from America. I really hope you like them. The SNSD mug? I use it everyday for my morning coffee. (she printed out a photo of the mug on her side table) The tea is incredible! Jinho, everything is incredible and I can’t thank you enough! 

By the way, how are you? How is South Korea? I hope you’re doing ok as well as your friends. I am ok, just a little bit stressed with school. Our final exams are in about a month and believe me I am not ready. Oh! I haven’t introduced myself. As you already know my name is Arizona, I am 20 years old and I am a music major in college. That’s something we have in common, music. I wanted to become a music major because I would love to be a music teacher in a university. I feel like my acquired skills would be exploited there. I really don’t know what to say about myself. My favorite colors are moss green and beige. I cannot write with normal ballpoint pens. I know. It’s weird. Fountain pens are a blessing and they are the best thing in the world.*

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Bang Chan was in his room working on some mixtapes when he heard Jisung yell. 

“YA! We got a package for Bang Jinho. Who is Bang Jinho?”

Bang Chan threw his laptop on his bed and almost slipped on the wood floor, running to where Jisung was.   

“Nae goesida!” It’s mine! He said. He yanked the… box? A box? And ran to his room, locking the door behind him, leaning on it as if one of his band mates were to break it down. It has happened before... 

He clutched his chest regaining his breath. He took a seat on the floor and curiously examined the box, it had the typical shipping label. He didn’t spare a minute so he opened the box with his bare hands. Inside the box were a variety of American sweets. He found a mug with the american flag on it, post-its of the american flag… There were a lot of things with the american flag. Very.. touristy. Still, he thought it was cute. He saw a light blue envelope and grabbed it. It was time to read what she said. 

Dear Jinho…

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*I have no siblings, sadly. I am an only child so I grew up alone sometimes. But that’s ok. I don’t mind being alone sometimes. I find comfort in being alone. Oh! I listened to the songs you sent me. Ok, let me gather my thoughts. 

Likey: It’s so catchy and I watched the video as well and now I can’t stop doing the hand movements from the beginning! My best friend Nick, laughs and teases me because I will do it without realizing it. I will have to check out more of Twice’s music, they seem very promising. 

You Are by Got7: I have heard of them but never got into their music yet. This was until you told me to listen to this song. I like this song. It’s has a beautiful melody. I like how it builds up and I didn’t expect the chorus to sound like that! I know kpop involves a lot of rapping but that “IT’S A BEAUTIFUL SKYYY” Dude. That buildup. Wow. 

Matryoshka: I don’t even know where to begin. Who are these people?? I mean, I downloaded Soundcloud because you mentioned it and I was blown away. They are amazing! The first rapper has such a chill flow. It’s like he’s not trying but it sounds good either way! The second one? He’s good, too good. And the third one? Oh Lord. I really hate you right now. Who the hell has that type of voice? I figured it was him who accentuated the MAAAAAAAATRYOSHKA. And wow, just wow. Thank you for showing me these amazing rappers. I have to look into them more! 

Lastly, Be Lazy. I have like 2 things to say. THE BASS. THE BASS. Thank you. I like them so much. THE BASS.*

The letter was two pages long and Chan enjoyed reading all of it. She seemed like a very animated person. She seemed to be happy about the simplest things and that weirdly made him smile. 

FAST FORWARD TO DEBUT ERA. Chan and Arizona have exchanged a few letters (shipping time and Chan’s schedule). But they became great friends in the short amount of time they’ve corresponded to each other. They kept trading on songs, Chan loved or dislikes the ones she sent and same went for her. In future v-lives, he would play some of the songs he told her to listen to. But, one thing was for sure. Chan converted Arizona into a newer generation K-pop lover. Chan told her that 3racha were actually part of a survival show that basically consisted of working hard to be able to debut together. He also never told her that he was Bang Chan. But, he did tell her that he was working hard in order to get a job as a backup dancer for idol groups.  

March:  Chan to Arizona (They just debuted)

*Zo, I am so happy! I GOT THE JOB! I wish I could tell you all about it but I can’t!*

Arizona to Chan

*No way! Jinho that is amazing! I am so happy for you! I know how much you worked for this! Whenever you get to dance on stage let me know so I can watch you.* Chan sighed as he read her response. She will see him, but she won’t know who he is.  

Fastforward

Months go by and Stray Kids have won multiple rookie awards. Thanks to Chan, Arizona has gone head over heels for them. She will rant about them in her letters and fangirl with him.

*Jinho… I know I sent you your letter and you probably received it yesterday or a few days ago but this is an emergency. SKZ DROPPED ANOTHER VIDEO!  BTW, You have to see the street version of  Insomnia. THEY WERE IN THE US I MEAN WHAT THE HELL! This is why I hate being a college student. No money. And, 10 days later they release the street version of Question? Do they want to kill me. Changbin and Hyunjin body rolling killed me! They all killed me. I really can’t thank you enough for introducing me to them. #PROUDSTAY*

For the release of their album I Am Who, Chan sent her an album. He wanted it to be autographed but he couldn’t explain how he made that possible. Either way she has his handwriting in paper so that counts? The boys knew about her, not much but they did know he was corresponding with a girl from America. Either way, she has his handwriting. Arizona in return, sent him an ASAP Rocky album! That made Chan very very happy. 

Life suddenly was brighter for Arizona. She always had a hard time seeing the bright side in life and being positive was extra effort. But corresponding with Chan helped her breathe with ease. He was her escape room. She could tell him everything and she knew that he wouldn’t judge her. He would always offer words of comfort and advice. There were times where she would vent about how hard her classes were or how her  mental health deteriorates day by day.  Chan wasn’t bothered by this. He wished for her to be happy and free in her own mind. He would occasionally send her various letters in the span of a few days or less. He knew she wasn’t expecting it and he hoped it made her smile, which it did. 

They were so used to corresponding to each other that friendship slowly and silently became something else. Arizona once debated about it but she brushed it off. It can’t be possible and it won’t be. Letters were romantic and that is the stigma that is around it and that’s all. There is nothing more to it. Chan thought of her constantly when he wasn’t busy with producing, practicing or anything related to the group. He knew he liked her, did he have the opportunity to ask for a picture? He did. But he didn’t ask. He would feel obliged to send her one of himself and he couldn’t do that. It was enough with lying about his job. 

FEBRUARY - 2019 

“I am soooooooo tired.” Arizona complained as she walked into the same coffee shop she frequented with Nick over the course of their college years. Both were seniors now, graduating in May! 

“All nighter?” Nick asked? She just nodded and smiled at the barista giving her their order. 

“You’re a master procrastinator. What were you doing?”

“Working on my senior project and portfolio.” She mumbles taking a seat and resting her head on the table. Nick didn’t miss how she avoided his eyes. 

“And probably writing J’s letter right?” Arizona looked up at her best friend and smiled. It was true, she was working on less than 2 hours of sleep, writing the letter and working on her project. “Zozo, you like him don’t you.” It wasn’t a question. It was an affirmation. 

“Nick, stop.” She wasn’t ready to face this topic yet. Like him? Pff. She’s never seen him before. “We’ve never met and probably never will. Ok? Drop it.”

“You don’t have to like or love his looks.” Arizona knew that and she knew what danger she was in of falling harder and faster for Jihno. She just wasn’t ready for it. 

Arizona arrived home after her evening lessons and collapsed on the couch. She was just dozing off when her mom threw some papers on her stomach. “You have mail” She said. The sleepy girl sat up and flipped through the envelopes. Phone bill, student loan information, a postcard?  

“Australia? I don’t know anyone in Australia.” She turned the postcard around and smiled when she recognized the handwriting. 

*Hey Zo, sorry this is going to be short. But, I am in aussie visiting family. I won’t be able to read any of your letters until I get home but I will write! Just make sure to send your responses  to my normal address. I am so happy to see my family again, I actually came with a few of my friends and we are just touring around. I also heard Stray Kids are going to be here! I’ll see if I can go to their concert or spot them at the touristy sites. If I do, I’ll send photos. Take care. 

Jinho.*

Her heart fluttered. He knew how much she loved Stray Kids that he would even look for them for her! The days flew by and she received an envelope. It contained a post-it and multiple photos. The note said, ‘Found them.’ The photos were of Stray Kids near the Sydney Opera House. Wait, he found them? The photos seemed to be taken from afar and the boys were with cameras? Filming a video? Arizona died right there. He went all the way to find them, take their picture, develop them and send them to her. 

Chan’s Perspective

Chan asked his manager to take photographs of them as they filmed and as if they were fans who spotted them. Manager Kim (let’s say that’s his name) agreed without asking for a reason. Chan quickly developed them and sent them before going back to South Korea. He was dying to tell her who he was. After all, he was her bias. Not that it made any difference. Sadly he still couldn’t, Stray Kids were going to be extremely busy in the next month and he feared not to have time to write so he made sure he had conversations planned out so she wouldn’t feel lonely. He also had the feeling that this comeback was going to be important for their careers. 

His last letter ended with; ‘Zo, I won’t be able to write as much because I will be dancing for a group for their comeback so we will be very busy practicing. But, I will try to write as much as possible. Don’t miss me.” 

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Hey guys this was more of a filler chapter. I hope you get an idea of how the story is going to go.  There will hopefully be two more chapters, I still don’t know how I will space them out. Next chapter is going to be about the Miroh and Yellow Wood era. Arizona also graduates college and there is a big surprise that will lead to the last chapter. 

Playlist?

Adios - Everglow

Teeth - 5 Seconds of Summer

Wanna Go Back - Day6 

Mirror - Stray Kids

These are the pictures Chan sends to Arizona.

[reverse-winx]

Once she found out. Im sorry for the long ass rant I just wanted to vent.

*~* (continued) addressed in the show which is really dumb. Ether way Bloom shouldn’t have openly flirted and kissed Andy while she was dating Sky(see episode 4,6,18). Next I want to talk about StellaxBrandon. So Mitzy kisses Brandon on the cheek and Stella gets upset and accused him of cheating. Now what I don’t understand is how this couple, who openly flirted with other people as a fun game (see season 2 episode 8) suddenly one of them can’t at least listen to both sides of the situation.

*~* (continued) And Finally....MusaxRiven..xJason. This couple is annoying. Now Riven was in the wrong for getting bitchy with Andy and his crew, however you can understand his anger toward Jason. You’re not supposed to be on a first name bases with your boss, whom you just met. Further more after Musa and Riven break up her dumbass thinks that Jason had a thing for her even though he was engaged to someone else. But what really GRINDS MY GEARS is that she wanted to go crawling back to Riven

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I feel like I’m missing chunks of this rant and I have no idea where they are.  Regardless, I also have been displeased by how relationships were handled in the show.  However, because I’m a happy ace who, while not aro, is not yet interested in a romantic relationship, I’ve got no idea how I can write realistic relationships.  But I’ll try to make the Reversed relationships reasonable, and I’m relying on my readers (and my extensive if inaccurate fiction- and fanfiction-based understanding) to keep me honest! TBH I’m bad with emotions in general, so I’m really gonna need your help when the relationships come in to play.  I know that there are lots of ranges in relationships such as sexual intimacy, non-sexual physical intimacy, emotional intimacy, and all sorts of other things, from cuteness to seriously messed up stuff, but I’ve experienced none of it, so HELP.

Anyhow, my emotional and relationship constipation aside, here are my ideas for the Reversed relationships.

Bloom and Sky - tbh I never liked this couple as much as some of the others. Sky gets possessive and I can’t stand that, and Bloom can be pretty nasty to Diaspro (not that Diaspro isn’t asking for it half the time in the show). My goal with this relationship is really to underscore the difference between a commoner-raised, liberal-minded girl and a noble-raised, more conservative boy, and how the two sides can balance each other out.  I want sweetness, awkwardness, cultural disconnect, and all sorts of other things.

Stella and Brandon - I always found these guys pretty wholesome in the classic seasons (1-4), even if Stella was a bit much a lot of the time. In Reversed, however, Stella is sharp AF and just plays blond ditz. So expect both cuteness and intellectual conversations. If I were to give my Stella a Hogwarts house, she’d be Slytherin all the way, while Brandon would be a Hufflepuff. His loyalty and chill is the perfect balance for her determination and drive. I also want them to have a healthy open relationship, where they can flirt and sleep with whoever, or even bring home someone to share, while still knowing that they are the only two for each other.

Aisha and ? - I’m only really familiar with classic (5 made me sad, 6 I didn’t watch all the way through even though I wanted to, and 7 I couldn’t even try), so... yeah.  Despite her tough exterior, Aisha is actually quite insecure, so whoever she’s with will have to work to get her to be emotionally open.  However, this girl will take care of and support her partner with her life, and she’ll grow to let her heart be vulnerable eventually.

Flora and Helia - these two have historically been my favorite couple!  It may be because my aesthetic is pretty boys and Helia is very much my type.  Anyhow, these two will be super wholesome and emotionally supportive, and this will all be in the face of Flora being one half cold-blooded killer and one half supportive potioneer, while Helia is a pacifist.  I guess they’ll go through some trials and tribulations in coming to terms with who they are as people, but it’ll end up good for them, I promise!

Tecna and Timmy - I always found these guys blah in classic, and I want them to be completely not that in this. I imagine Timmy as getting over his awkward quickly with my Tecna, who just does not have a concept of what awkward is.  He’ll teach her what he knows about interaction, and she’ll teach him directness and confidence.  Anyhow, my inspiration for my Tecna was Sherlock from the recent BBC show, so Timmy will grow to be the John that tempers and complements her.

Musa and Riven - I’ve historically had problems with this relationship because Riven is generally an ass in canon.  I mean, if I’m remembering right he did mature a bit from 1 to 4, but then ownership changed and in 5 and 6 he was back to being annoying.  Anyway, there will be none of that Reversed.  My Riven doesn’t start respecting women, that’s for sure, but my Musa is no teary-eyed pushover either.  They’ll be a slow burn, starting as friends because both have backgrounds that don’t let them trust enough to jump into a relationship.  They’ll earn each other’s respect and start caring about each other more deeply, and then they’ll be in a relationship without even noticing the dynamic change or making it official.

[ssironstrange]

about me

so because i haven’t done one of these since i hit like.. 100 followers? and i don’t feel like digging through my shit to reblog it again, and i’ve gotten a few personal asks...

i go by moki. a select few of you know my real name and i don’t mind yall using it when talking to me one on one, but moki has been my moniker for the last 20 years give or take and i highly prefer it.

i’ll be 30 in october (and high-key freaking out about it. rip.)

i really, honestly, truly do not care what pronouns you use for me. the closest thing i identify as is genderfluid. i’m biologically female and present that way most of the time just because i’m 1. lazy 2. live in one of the most conservative states in america and 3. extra lazy and just don’t want to Deal With It. but personally i feel pretty androgynous so whatever you feel comfortable calling me is fine by me.

i’ve never known wtf to say my sexuality is so i just file it under generic queerness. consenting human adult who is not related to me is my sexuality. there you go. i’m also polyamorous with a non-poly s/o and we’ve been together for 9 years. with that in mind please don’t get all weird with me. i’ve yet to have that problem but hey, never know.

i’m super open minded. very few things are off limits for me to talk about. tmi doesn’t exist with me. i’ll talk to you about weird sex stuff, i really don’t care. i’ll talk to you about mental illness. i’ll talk to you about your daily boring life. i don’t judge and i will always try to be supportive in whatever way i can. if you need to vent just hit me up. don’t even need to ask. just rant and bitch at my dms as much as you need to!

i have pretty severe ADD and it was only diagnosed a couple of years ago and it’s been a royal fucking bitch trying to treat it. i was doing pretty well on adderall but i built up a tolerance and can’t go any higher with it. on vyvanse now and i really don’t like it. probably won’t be switching to anything else anytime soon though. going through med changes is just so exhausting. and expensive. so, yanno, sometimes i can be spacey af while other times so fucking hyperfocused on something i can’t shut up about it. 

also went from your basic general depression to severe major depression in the span of like 2 years and tbh i’m still very slowly crawling my way out of it. fucking ironically tumblr has really helped with that LOL i spent my entire life around toxic, abusive, and negative environments so those are like the last thing i ever want to be. thus, i try to stay pretty positive. i cope with humor, too. so yeah, despite my cheerfulness and joking i’m usually pretty down.

got that hella bad anxiety on top of it all. most of mine is social anxiety, but in general i’m a pretty fuckin anxious person. coupled with my add my mind can be a terribly loud place sometimes. those two also give me some baaaaad insomnia every once in a while.

and like all that wasn’t bad enough, i’ve also got pcos and all the wonderful imbalances that come with it.

i never get enough sleep. my usual is 5 hours a night. about once a month i’ll sleep for like 20 hours straight. super not healthy but i can’t help it always. tired is my state of existence. 

i’ve been in various medical fields for like... 8ish years. jobless currently as of last week but w/e i’ll find something soon i’m sure.

i have 4 cats. i love cats. i’m that person that cries when they talk about how much they love cats. i’m wearing a cat shirt right now. in cat pj pants. with two cats sleeping next to me. i fucking love cats. kittens are my weakness. had 5 cats, but in january we very suddenly lost one of them to either viral meningitis or brain tumor (most likely tumor since the others didn’t get sick. i didn’t want an autopsy done) and tbh i’m still not over it. i honest to fucking god love them like my children, more than i love most other people. it felt like a part of me died with him and i miss him so much every damn day.

i’ve been told i come off as confidant on here?? lmao thats so far from the truth. i have so little confidence. what i do have is an enormous lack of fucks to give about a lot of things - one of the only perks of getting older i’ve found. i’m quiet and weird and super self-conscious and awkward and i legit only have like 2 irl friends bc i don’t make them easily. i don’t like talking - like with my voice. i’d for real be mute if i could.

music is super important to me. theres only a handful of genres i don’t like. i’m basically listening to it constantly.

anyway, there you go. some stuff about me. enjoy i guess?

[busanbunnie]

♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

♡ - @supernovce

When I followed you on your old blog, I didn’t contact you much because I was too in awe by your talent but now I want to make a change in that! You’re amazing and have such incredible writing! I adore following you, it genuinely makes me happy! You seem like a proper sweetheart and I hope we can speak more soon and write together!!

♡ - @pvlchritudine

I just want to say that even though you go through difficult times, I’m always gonna be here for you! you’re such a wonderful person and the sweetest! I adore our ship so much and your patience with me with my slowpoke butt means the world! Hyunshik and Hana are the cutest things! And our lil Hana’s, I love them so much!! Keep smiling, okay? You’re strong, beautiful inside and out and you’re so loved!!

♡ - @cheiian

our interactions are the most precious of things, whether they be snapchat messages or even actual threads, they never fail to make me smile! Your time traveller and my brat are so cute and I love how they interact with one another. You’re so lovely as well and I find it so easy to speak to you as a mun. Just thank you for being an absolute gem and making my experience a good one.

♡ - @perenniter

I am SO happy that I finally get to write with you after the longest time of wishing to do so!! You’re so lovely and I’m super excited about our thread even though it’s gonna be angsty af. I’M READY!! Honestly though, your writing is absolutely beautiful and I adore your muses, I’m honoured to even be followed by you, nevermind getting to actually write with you?! Ahhh, you’re a star!

♡ - @thevictoryofthepeople

thank you for sending all these hearts in you lovely person!! Omg, our muses crack me up so much! I love how you write Geryon and his bond with Hana. You’re such a lovely person and I’m so happy I followed you because I love seeing you on the dash! You’re such a gem to this community and I hope we get the chance to write more in the future.

♡ - @fvkup

You’re amazing honey!! Your writing floors me and I adore your character! I can see so much development is gonna happen between our two babs and I genuinely can’t wait! I get super excited when I see your replies and see you on the dash!! I truly admire you as a roleplayer, never forget that!!

♡ - @pvxoi

The sweetest peach of them all, omg! You’re so lovely and you’ve made my time here a happy and comfortable one. I adore all of our threads and you’re genuinely so amazing! I read what you said about Hana and I couldn’t help but tear up! Thank you so much for being so kind and generous! You’re wonderful and I never want you to forget that!!

♡ - @jaebbongi

You were one of the first people to interact with me and welcome me into this fandom and I can’t thank you enough for the kindness and support you have shown me. For the longest time I was so close to deleting but when we started interacting, I felt happy. I’m truly grateful that even after all this time, you still send me memes and I always get super happy when I see you on the dash! 

♡ - @rcdxiu

Your muse is truly beautiful. I adore the backstory, the aesthetic and the work you have put into him. It really shows throughout your writing and just your blog in general. I’m a sucker for a good vampire muse (hah, get it? omg i’m gonna shut up now) super excited to get writing with you properly though! it’s gonna be amazing! Let’s get this ball rollin’!

♡ - @nvpch

I know you’ve been busy with college and sick lately but I just want you to know that if you ever need to vent or rant to me about something, my askbox or IM is always open!! You’re so lovely and I don’t ever want you to feel like you’re alone, okay? Keep your chin up always and just know that I adore your blog and I would love to write properly with you soon when you have a bit more free time!! (:

♡ - @anvmone

we’ve been following one another from the dawn of time it feels like–just seeing you on the dash always makes me happy. You radiate this soothing energy and your munchkin ooc tag absolutely kills me, you’re such a cutie!! your writing is so beautifully stunning and I could literally sit and read for hours!! I always want to write more with you but I always get so scared to ask because you’re amazing!! Just know that I love you and I’m waving my support and love flag over here in the corner!

[a-writing-blog-for-all-fandoms]

Of Baymax and Kisses (Tony Stark x Reader)

BEFORE I BEGIN, LET ME RANT/VENT:

The American education system is so fucked up beyond words, especially college tuition cause it makes me feel so helpless and a lot of my friends actually resorted to finding sugar daddies to pay off their tuition (I have nothing against it) but I really, honest to God, hate how we (college students) all feel like we have to resort to trying to get a sugar daddy to help or drop out of college in general cause we can’t afford to go anymore. 

Please continue to support me by buying me a coffee/spreading the word about my Buy Me A Coffee page, https://www.buymeacoffee.com/96Gp3b42v I am hoping to hit at least half the number of coffees (1000 coffees) I need by the end of this week, thank you all so much! I fucking hate having to ask this of people, but I feel like this is a better and safer option than trying to find a sugar daddy (especially since I’m ugly af).

THANK YOU GUYS! REQUESTS AND ASKS ARE OPEN!

“OH MY GOD! YOU REALLY BUILT ME AN ACTUAL BAYMAX?!” you screeched at the sight of the familiar marshmallow robot from your favorite animated movie. Squealing excitedly, you darted forward and hugged the Baymax while Tony laughed at your adorableness, answering with fond eyes “Of course I did. My baby wanted a Baymax and so, she shall have a Baymax. He is coded to follow only your commands.”

“Thank you, Tony.” you grinned at your dork of a boyfriend, letting go of Baymax to hug Tony instead. You had been whining about wanting a caretaker robot like Baymax for the longest time, especially because you knew that the robot would be able to take care of your boyfriend when you were unable to after battles and such. 

The last straw had been when the Avengers were in a battle with Dr. Doom and Tony was almost knocked unconscious by one of Dr. Doom’s bots of destruction. You had pitched the most unholiest of all fits and tantrums in history, even making Natasha slightly unnerved and you even succeeded in making the nefarious Dr. Doom, Director Fury, and Coulson afraid of you, until Bruce had finally offered to draw up the blueprints and schematics to create a caretaker robot for each member of the team in order to appease to your anger.

You were only 5 feet tall, but you were goddamn scary when you were pissed. The first time the team saw you that pissed off was when someone decided to drink all the coffee in the Tower, which lead to you glaring at them with evil eyes until Tony finally went out and got you 4 extra-large cups of your favorite coffee from Starbucks. Then the battle with Dr. Doom was the second time they had ever seen you that pissed off. 

““For a tiny woman, you sure are scary.” Clint had commented, only to raise his hands in a peaceful gesture when you turned to glare at him.

“So what are you planning on doing with Baymax, babe?” Tony asked, kissing you. You shrugged nonchalantly in response to him, but you already knew what your first command was going to be.

Yeah, Tony found that out the hard way when he got a paper cut and Baymax had fussed over him like a mother would for her baby, making you cackle at the look on his face.

[bryanllamado]

ATM with Bryan | 23

We’re finally doing this thing… again. Welcome to ‘how to be bryan.’– the reflections and musings of a young professional on a pursuit to educate and live purposefully. What about that intro, though? Haha! Just trying to open this entry in a different manner this time. It has been 3 weeks since I last wrote and published an entry here, and I took some time off from updating the blog to *sort of* absorb the fact that the new year has come. Well, the year started just fine, but there hasn’t been any obvious change if we were to compare it to the previous one.

To those of you who have been reading the blog for years now (and have been here before my hiatus), you may have stumbled upon this ‘ATM with Bryan’ series where I talk about my currentlys. The last time I have written a volume under this series was in 2018, after the 1st semester of my last year in college. Now, I have been off of school for a year and a half now, and a couple of years older. Isn’t that insane? Time flies so fast, indeed. But we’re not here for that, so I’m giving you a list of my ‘at the moments.’

C U R R E N T L Y

Reading

Worlds of You by Beau Taplin. This is Taplin’s second collection of poetry, first published in 2017. (I know) I am years late, and only learned about this during the ECQ after I asked my IG friends to suggest poetry books for me to read. On another matter, it’s also one of my goals this year to read more (poetry) books because I don’t think my schedule can cater novels. *bleeds in metaphor and imagery*

Writing

the 23rd volume of ATM with Bryan, alongside some songs and poems. Just like what I mentioned in my past entries, I’m ~trying~ to go back to my roots. I’m looking forward to rolling out content for the Valentine’s Day which includes *insert a list of planned online gimmicks* and then some. I just feel like now is the perfect time for us to spread love and actually do so.

Listening

to Spotify’s Hallyu Boy Bands playlist. Isn’t it surprising? Well, the old Bryan that you know is gone. *face palm* To my defense (in case you’re confused AF), I’ve always had a diverse taste in music and it just happened that a few weeks ago, I was listening to a random K-Pop playlist when I heard TXT’s CROWN and the chorus just stuck in my head. I knew I had to give in and listen so yeah. #justified lol

Thinking

about how to handle my finances better during this time of the year. This is one of the constant conversation pieces now that I’m a young adult. I started 2020 on a bad note financially by splurging on unnecessary stuff and not realizing that a ~no work, no pay policy~ pretty much exists. I don’t want to make the same mistakes again, but the thing is, I don’t even have money to spend in the first place. So why bother? *insert GCash number*

Smelling

the alcohol scent from my hands. Here’s a reminder for you all to STILL sanitize and follow the minimum health standards. *winks*

Wishing

for motivation to finish all my assigned tasks and activities this week. I’ve always been an intrinsically motivated person as I do things out of love and passion, but the old Bryan is gone. Haha! Not that I don’t love what I do now, I need extrinsic motivation now more than ever, and I think I’d appreciate it in material manifestations. Long story short, hindi talaga sapat ang love lang! *sighs*

Hoping

to be more organized and to have more storage space in my room. I’ve been watching a lot of lifestyle vlogs recently and I’ve seen some creative ways on how to maximize your space. I also hope to declutter my stuff and get rid of the ones that no longer serve my goals and interests for the New Year. The bad thing about it is that I’m sooo sentimental. I don’t just throw my stuff away– not even coffee receipts and movie tickets from years back.

Wearing

a red pambahay shirt and a pair of swimming shorts.

Loving

my new set of fave Starbucks drinks! Oh God, I can’t stress enough about how addicted I’ve been to some SB drinks these past few weeks. My top three drinks (on the menu) at the moment were Iced Caramel Macchiato, Iced Chai Tea Latte, and Iced Hibiscus Tea with Pomegranate Pearls, and off the menu, I love the Barista Drink, Pink Drink, and Tiktok Drink. I can def write a whole entry about this but yeah. #coffee_forever_and_ever

Wanting

to meet up with my friends who I haven’t seen in a while. I just thought of this now, and while I have internet friends who I can converse with to vent out and rant, I’d also love to catch up with my friends. Zoom meetings are not enough! Good conversations would be better over good food, so to my friends out there, baka naman. I would need money first, though!

Needing

a new phone or tablet. I was supposed to gift myself a new phone last year but due to money matters and delays, I did not meet my expected budget. Quite frankly, this isn’t an immediate concern as my current phone is still very functional, but for me to fully multi-task and maximize productivity, I need a separate phone for gaming, video editing, and file management.

Feeling

bombarded and mentally overwhelmed. I’m grateful for the work and endeavor that I have right now, but now is also the time when I want to pursue artistic and creative pursuits– just like this blog. I want to work on my passion projects, but the guilt eats me up when I try to set my professional tasks aside. I’ve felt so overwhelmed at times that I end up not doing anything. #jokesonme

Clicking

through some podcasts episodes. I think I’ll write an entry about this soon, so watch out for that. I’ve been consuming a lot of audio content in the form of podcasts, for I have grown tired of the current YouTuber culture of pranks, click bait, and nonsense content. Praise the heavens for podcasts! I have discovered a lot of local podcasters and met people through the podcast community– like the AWJP x SOS Fam.

This is where the entry ends for today.

Please check out the other entries on the blog and if you have any requests or any topics you want me to write about, feel free to send me a message.

Till the next entry!

Bry. x 012320

[i-smell-kyouten]

Little KYOUTEN rant.

[Warning: it's long af.]

For real, this will take you at least 15 minutes to read. I hope I won't be a bother if I ask you to read this. No rush.

So, here it goes. I'm going to show you the importance that is KyouTen for me and for a lot of IE's followers. Even nonshippers, I dare to say.

But first, let me tell you a few things about this blog.

I can't really remember when I created "i-smell-kyouten" (that didn't have this name at first, but has lots of transformations. One of them was "kyoucchan to tecchan to sakkabooru" and I was really proud of that url, you can't even imagine) was probably more than 5 years ago. I don't really want to go look it up right now, as I'm in need of venting about the things I've wanted to say for a long time, ever since the finale of IEGalaxy.

(Pardon my English, I've improved a lot these years but I still struggle with it, I hope it is still comprehensible.)

This blog was born for the sole purpose of publishing my works and occasionally talk about my favourite anime and fictional characters. Sometimes I spent my time making new memes (I still remember the kirino-candy one during chrono stone!era; never forget.), but all in all, I wasn't supposed to invest a lot of my time (url) on social networks.

But then KyouTen happened.

I'll be honest with y'all, I didn't fall in love with them at first. It was just an enjoyable show, with cute kids playing one of the sports I liked the most, but that was it. Then the backstory of Tsurugi happened and my wig was violently snatched.

And you know what? It looked cliche at first, but it worked.

That's the point on IE. Something can seem cliche, but it still sticks in your mind, no matter what. This happened with the first match Tsurugi plays with Raimon.

Yes, the one in which the other team threatened to break Tenma's legs. Oooh, and Tsurugi lost it there. It IS because of his brother's momentary conditions of course, but something in my mind told me that Tsurugi KNEW that Tenma didn't deserve that kind of treatment. Above all the fact that Tenma GENUINELY LOVES SOCCER, like he did when he was little. And how Yuuichi still does, even after having his legs immobilized.

First conclusion: Tsurugi actually cares for Tenma's wellbeing, even if he doesn't really know him.

The anime shows that he kind of distances himself from everything, like he knew he show a side of him he didn't have to (of course even helping Rain in win the matcj; it was all a mistake); it all brings to him to worry about Yuuichi's future.

Hence, we have Tenma following Tsurugi and ending up in the hospital where Kyousuke was going to.

(From here, the "you. Me. Bed. Now." Gif was one of the greatest things ever.)

I have really shattered memories from now on, and I'll probably miss some steps. Anyway, going forward after some matches, Yuuichi finding out about the deal Kyousuke made with Fifth Sector and big bro scolding Tsurugi, all of this brought the latter to open up more to people.

With people, we mean Matsukaze Tenma. The one who him "the path of true soccer".

(TSURUGI KYOUSUKE 2K12)

Can you believe it's already 5 years since that confession? What I do believe is that Tsurugi was soooo sincere about it, he talked with such a relaxed expression and voice that I don't know how can I fall more in love with a voice if not with this one (Oohara-san, I see you there, shout out to you my man.)

And that's where I was going. The Fire Tornado Double Drive.

I don't even need to say more. That's the hissatsu even my brother considers the gayest but most powerful ever.

(He even used it the most in Strikers. He isn't a fan of yaoi. As in, he thinks that I find every kind of friendship between boys as gay. And him saying that that hissatsu is the gayest thing he ever saw says a lot, I think.)

That hissatsu represents their efforts, blood, sweat, tears, feelings, worries; everything about that special technique represents THEM. It's their special attack. An upgrade of their beloved Gouenji's famous technique.

And the scene where they perform that new hissatsu is so SATISFYING that you can't help but watch it a thousand, infinite times because it's THAT good.

So, do you remember after the match, they win, Tenma has the trophy in his hands and talks about how Soccer must be happy right now and Kariya is a partypooper? From whom does Tenma find support for his words?

Tsurugi.

This is kind of a resume of the first season. But you can guess from here that TENMA and TSURUGI were destined to meet.

Think about a world without Tenma. Would Tsurugi still return form his old self?

No.

Then, what if Tsurugi weren't with Tenma? Would he enjoy soccer as much as he did with his presence? I seriously think not.

They complement each other.

They love each other.

No matter what kind of love, because LOVE is important in any kind of form.

But Tenma is part of Tsurugi's being, and vice versa.

Chrono Stone? Oh. Don't let me start. @linabigface has made lots of posts about the game that tells you exactly what I am talking about. I don't even need to rant about it.

Galaxy? Will sum it up in a sentence.

Tsurugi is whipped for Tenma.

Need an explanation? Fine.

Since episode one, Tsurugi can't seem to not call Tenma's name at least once per episode. I remember there is a very good video in nico that counted the times Tsurugi called Tenma and it surpassed the 50 times, if I'm not mistaken.

He's scared about Tenma when he knocks out for a moment, when he falls on the ground.

(again, oohara's job here is fantastic.)

He even separates "Guys..." with "Tenma". (The episode in which he comes to know the truth and he's watching the distance. I really don't remember what was happening actually, I'm so sorry this is the sign I'm finally getting old!)

He only smiles when there's Tenma around? TSURUGI SMILES?! Can you see the contradiction?

Do we have to talk about the last match? Please, I actually don't want to. It brings me moments in which I honestly cried for hours because I couldn't believe what my eyes were seeing. But the battle was epic. And both of them be brought out their Spirits at the same time, it HAS to mean something.

Their souls are so in sync that they bring the best from each other.

The photo they take in the ending is a true blessing and I'll never forget about it. Not only Tsurugi is genuinely smiling, but both the boys lean on each other with such comfortable expressions, like THEY LOATHE THE CONTACT.

(Moments I didn't mention but have a special spot in my heart:

-Tenma discovering the Tsurugi that was traveling with them is a fake. He falls on the ground BREATHLESS (game version). Thank you Terasaki-san, for being such a skilled voice actor.

- Tenma finally meets Tsurugi again on the field, but the latter wears the opposite team's uniform. He smirks as if he's enjoying the thing. (He's just really happy to play against Tenma, like a true soccer maniac). Hence, Tenma asking himself if he did something wrong and existential crisis.

-"We've always been friends!" -Matsukaze Tenma

-Both crying out each other's names. It's not a secret that I saved that as a ringtone.)

All this ranting was useful to tell you a specific thing.

You can't forget of KyouTen so easily. Not when it was part of your childhood. When you kept on drawing, reading, writing about them everyday of your life. And never regret it.

I'm so happy that the fandom, and the KyouTen fandom specifically, is still intact. Even more, it's GROWING. Thanks to Ares, to Hino's continuous work and love for this series, we still have ways to remember of the boys, we hope to watch them one last time.

(Let's be honest, I don't think I'm the only one that, after knowing about the multiple universe that is Ares, started thinking about the cast of Go making an appearance, at least in the future.)

Back to the original topic.

KyouTen is what brought a lot of people together. Even non shippers acknowledge their relationship. Is THAT powerful, that truthful, that pure, that honest, genuine, that makes people look up to them at least one time. They make people curious about them.

I've already said this, but kyouten are SOULMATES. There's no other way to describe them.

(And they have an unofficial child. Yeah, I didn't forget about you, Kyouma.)

I think it's time to end this post. For those you have read this all through the end, thank you for being with me and I hope I've made you resurface some of the lost precious memories you had with Kyousuke and Tenma. I hope I didn't bored you and made this a good 15 minutes reading.

To make this a little interesting, and because I AM interested about your opinions, tell me what you think about KyouTen, go in depth if you want!

See you next time!

[21tailsofwoe]

Well, since you asked me for all, Imma do the same XD... (If you don't wanna do all, then just 3,19,26,43,56... and if possible maybe 1? :D )

lol i knew asking all of that from you was gonna come bite me in the ass. i’m gonna try and answer all of them. *takes in deep breath* 

let’s begin.

get to know me, pick some numbers.

1. selfie

Neither do I like selfies, nor do I like my face (the latter is mainly the reason for the former) so here’s a pic of my cockatiel instead

His name is Cookie and he’s the spawn of satan.

2. what would you name your future kids?

My first-born will be called Naruto Naruto and my second-born will be called Hououin Kyouma.

I honestly haven’t given much thought to this fjgsdhgdjfhs

3. do you miss anyone?

My will to live. Itachi.

4. what are you looking forward to?

Finishing all of my WIPs lmao. They’re just sitting there. Waiting…

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?

I make myself smile all the time hahahaha

hahaha

hah

I need friends

6. is it hard for you to get over someone?

Not really. 

7. what was your life like last year?

Extremely depressing tbh

8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?

Yeah, a lot of times.

9. who did you last see in person?

My cousin sister.

10. are you good at hiding your feelings?

Very.

11. are you listening to music right now?

If my screaming Cockatiel counts as music then yeah I’m listening to music.

12. what is something you want right now?

My assignment to complete itself on its own pls.

13. how do you feel right now?

a’ight.

14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?

Last December LOL.

15. personality description

I seem shy at first but once approached, I am one of the coolest people you’ll ever meet. Okay, not the coolest, but like somewhere between cool and yeah-i-think-i-can-stand-your-presence-for-more-than-two-seconds. I am sarcastic to a fault and I have the weirdest sense of humour. I never ‘like’ anything, I become fully obsessed with it. I am sort of a perfectionist, so that keeps me from doing stuff. I am kind of an introvert, but I do love meeting new people and visiting new places.

16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t?

Yeah I want to tell my bird to SHUT THE FUCK UP, but I can’t ‘cause he has a bird-brain and he doesn’t understand shit. (but i love him so much)

17. opinion on insecurities.

Ooh boy I’ve had a lot of insecurities in the past (and still may have some) but like none of that is real and sometimes it happens to be all in your head and it doesn’t really matter what others might think of those insecurities when they see you. All you need is some fake-confidence to carry yourself around, and before you know it, that confidence becomes real very and you start to accept the things you don’t really have control over. Insecurities mean shit.

Too hipster for you?

18. do you miss how things were a year ago?

Absolutely not.

19. have you ever been to New York?

Haha I wish.

20. what is your favourite song at the moment?

All the Naruto and Naruto Shippuden opening songs. I’ll Be Good by Jaymes Young

21. age and birthday?

do I have to?? and 24th Jan.

22. description of crush.

Tall-ish, Dark, long hair. Really talented and was super smart as a kid. Has eye bags. Killed his entire family, slaughtered innocents, and tortured and manipulated his younger brother. Was a member of a criminal organisation. Thought like a Hokage at the age of seven. A work of art.

23. fear(s)

Oh boy do heights freak me out.

24. height

5′8″

25. role model

Don’t really have one.

26. idol(s)

him…

don’t really have one 

27. things i hate

I won’t be saying any names but Donald Trump, if you’re reading this…

28. i’ll love you if…

you fit the description in answer 22 above.

29. favourite film(s)

Koe no Katachi (changed my life tbh), the Star Wars series, that latest Tom Holland superhero movie idk if you’ve heard of it :\, Dead Poets’ Society, all Marvel movies except the second Avengers movie  which sadly doesn’t exist :(, and Chris Nolan’s Dark Knight trilogy. I am not much of a movie person tbh.

30. favourite tv show(s)

not to be the epitome of mainstream cringe culture but Supernatural, Doctor Who, and Sherlock lmao. Also, I absolutely love Brooklyn Nine-Nine, Friends, Breaking Bad, the first two and the only seasons of Arrow (the rest don’t exist for me sorry jfskdjh), Daredevil, and there must be more that I’m missing but for now I’m gonna stop here.

31. 3 random facts

— As a kid, I thought every animal was a car. A dog? Weird cat. A cow? Big, fat cat. A fish? Cat that can breath under water.

— I am super bad at playing the piano even though I’ve been learning* it for years.

— I have always been fascinated by stars, for as long as I can remember.

* : In this context, the word “learning” refers to going for classes for a month and then dropping it for a year, and then starting classes again just to give up, and then looking up tutorials on YouTube just to cry over the piano keys because you suck so much.

32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?

Girls. But I find it easier to befriend guys for some reason.

33. something you want to learn

The fucking piano.

34. most embarrassing moment

Not gonna say much except these few words: first time periods, school, white uniform skirt, seniors.

35. favourite subject

Physics and Economics.

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?

Have a paper published, have a book published, and just learn about stuff. Idk, any stuff.

37. favourite actor/actress

I have had only one favourite actor since I was a child and that’s Will Smith.

38. favourite comedian(s)

I don’t really know many comedians, but I really like Russell Peters. He’s hilarious af.

39. favourite sport(s)

Volleyball (thanks to a certain anime), basketball (even though I gave up the sport), and lawn tennis (even though I have hardly played this).

40. favourite memory

Don’t know her.

41. relationship status

Don’t know her either.

42. favourite book(s)

Any and all Dan Brown books, any and all Stephen King books (even though I’ve read like three of his books lmao), the Harry Potter series, books by Murakami.

43. favourite song ever

Don’t really have one. My favourites keep changing over time.

44. age you get mistaken for

Never had anyone do that so I wouldn’t know.

45. how you found out about your idol

My brother told me about this never-ending show about ninjas running around in colourful clothes and I was like K. Little did I know that I was gonna meet…him…

46. what my last text message says

“lol no way”

47. turn ons

Refer to answer number 26. 

48. turn offs

It’s called the ending of a never-ending series about ninja running around in colourful clothes

49. where i want to be right now

Up in the mountains or some shit.

50. favourite picture of your idol

51. starsign

Aquarius

52. something i’m talented at

Procrastination. 

53. 5 things that make me happy

Anime, books, writing (not on laptops or phones or computers, but like, writing), hanging out with me friends, shitposting on Tumblr

54. something thats worrying me at the moment

This assignment that’s due tomorrow. 

55. tumblr friends

ooh ooh ooh there’s the mutuals I love talking to and ranting with aka @fineillsignup, @thefewthemerrier, @teenagetreepatrol, @narusakuloverforever, @obsessed-lass and then there are the mutuals whose ship(s) I don’t agree with but they’re literally one of the most awesome people I’ve met on this @sasukeuchihayas, @mycherryqueen. Then there are the mutuals I don’t “talk” to but we always like/reblog/comment on each other’s stuff and send each other asks sometimes like @uzumakura, @winter-serenade, @asiantwinkies. There’s @hanaita who is too good for this world. And then, of course, there is you @mirai-no-yume sending me asks and have nothing but the nicest things to say. 

56. favourite food(s)

Starts with piz ends with za.

57. favourite animal(s)

Any animal except this screeching monster in front of me (jk cookie ily 2)

58. description of my best friend

Pure, hilarious, one of the most emotionally strong people I know, living embodiment of a shitpost, I would give up everything for her tbh (well, maybe not everything that’s a stretch. maybe like, one or two things. or maybe half a thing.)

59. why i joined tumblr

Really frustrated with the Naruto ending so I needed a place to vent. 

60. ask me anything you want

Yeah, whatever. I’m tired now.

[taeguboi]

Mtl to date someone's 10 years older/younger

BTS MTL to date someone 10 years older

Hey there, thanks for requesting! In [square brackets] is age as I’d work it out, and (round brackets) are the Korean age they (their partner) would roughly be. Full notes at the bottom of the MTL. All of this is just in my opinion!

Suga [33-34] (35) -- Likely

Suga would like to come home after a long day to someone more emotionally mature, (which arguably comes with age,) someone who would understand if he’s had a hard day and doesn’t want to talk but someone is also a good listener when he’s in the mood to rant and vent about his day. I feel like ‘wise’ is a key word/trait that he would seek in a partner.

I guess also sexually, Suga could potentially have a better chemistry with someone older, more experienced, I get the feeling that although he might not have time to fuck often, when he does, he’s in extra demand for his needs to be met and I guess an older person would know how to fulfill them.

Arguments could potentially be much more heated than an older person with the other members and their respective older partners, possibly about his insecurities, not always feeling man enough for her/him maybe because of the age difference, but this would be the main thing (or one of the main things,) that make that relationship bond solid once there has been some resolve.

He would always want to treat him/her like a prince/ss, always going that extra mile to make sure the relationship with him is just as, if not more, fulfilling than a relationship with someone nearer their age.

Jungkook [29-30] (31) -- Quite Likely

I’m pretty sure Jungkook likes noonas, and although this might change over time, I think at present, Jungkook would love an older partner. Similarly to what I’m going to explain with Rap Monster below, Jungkook, as someone who is essentially still a teenager [at least, he is in English age, so he’s still 19 to me,] I find that younger boys generally like to chase after more sophisticated girls that have more experienced in life... Though in Jungkook’s case, he would like a love interest can make the first move because I believe he is still quite shy in that sense.

I really cannot even begin to figure out the type of person Jungkook is likely to be under the sheets [like he seriously confuses me because one minute he’s this cute lil bun that gives of a vibe which says he needs to be looked after, but the next he’s ROOD af and looks like he wants to devour you and bang you over the kitchen counter lol help]... Maybe bedroom roles would be quite neutral, not one dominating the other, but he would definitely love to watch his older partner ride him on top of him and he’d feel turned on by how grown up it feels, I reckon.

Arguments? Probably not that many, actually. But he could possibly feel a bit insecure about touring away, just that small voice wondering if his partner would get fed up of not having him around and go for someone nearer their age instead.

As long as Jungkook’s older partner allows him to act as the man of the relationship when he needs to, and understands that he’s still learning and has much to do, then this would be a good pairing.

Rap Monster [32-33] (34) -- Quite Likely

The two sides of Rap Monster would both come out very strong in a relationship with someone older; there’s cute, squishy, baby Joonie who just wants to cuddle and appreciates his partner looking after him, but then there’s JOONTM who wants to look after his partner if they’ve had a long day at work. In comparison to other members, Rap Mon would be more comfortable being able to talk to older people, in my opinion because he’s probably more likely transcend any societal expectations.

With someone older, somehow Rap Monster would feel more open about trying out new things in the bedroom and being honest about what he likes. He would love the experience their partner has behind them and it’s a turn on in itself that they are older than him yes that’s a thing I’ve dated younger people who have said this to me lmao... anyway - Sometimes, he’d like him/her to show him what they’re made of and take complete control and he’d lay underneath them in such awe and admiration, but other days, the age gap is forgotten and he wants to pound them in the bed, making them unable to walk afterwards so he can serve of them hand and foot afterwards.

Disagreement and arguments would be quite easily solved because he knows when to take a step back and let you have space and what to say when he comes back. He’d definitely swallow his pride when necessary, like “this is stupid babe... I don’t wanna lose you over something as petty as this”.

Rap Monster would be so proud with his older partner. Their opinion would matter on everything but he would try to act like that’s not the case in fear that he would come on too dependent or something similar. He’d love to be a complete dork for him/her to cheer them up, maybe even making them cringe as they laugh because whatever he has just done is purposely immature, even for someone his age. He would embrace the age gap, not allowing other people’s opinions affect the nature of the relationship.

V [31-32] (33) - Neither Likely or Unlikely

I think V would prefer someone nearer to his age, but having said this, it could definitely work out well because if V falls for someone, that age gap wouldn’t matter because love is love. However, although I list him above Jin, I do think V might also be quite a traditional person too and would ideally like for the girl/guy to be similar to his own age. [So I place them equally in this aspect, rather than one after the other].

In this bedroom, he would be his/her lil baby, bringing out the submissive side in him. The chemistry in bed may not be as strong at first, but it would develop over time after discovering each others likes and dislikes

In arguments though, his personality would take a turn because of the emotion that comes out if he has to raise his voice. So whilst his older partner would usually have the control, he would make them weak with just the look in his eyes when he’s upset with him/her.

He’d be so precious though, like a lil cuddly koala when he needs comfort, feeling safer with an older person to look after him and they might act as a calming presence over him whether he’s a little too hyper or if there’s a not so good day around. As long as the guy/girl can still manage to ‘become more charming by the day’ and has a lot of aegyo, and is very patient, then it could work out well.

Jin [34-35] (36) -- Neither Likely or Unlikely

Whilst I think Jin would go more for someone a few years younger or his age, I can also see him falling for someone older, but I think the person in question would definitely need to have developed certain skills with ages such as being a good cook, being able to look after him. He would be very confident about getting the guy/girl not only because of his outstanding looks, but also because he has quite a mature state of mind from all these years of looking after his band members.

In the bedroom, Jin would be such a switch with an older partner, letting himself be looked after at the end of those extra shattering days, but being allowed to completely take over if he’s upset or mad about something [probably the best post-argument sex ever tbh, maybe even during a lighter argument / disagreement]

Arguments would be possibly quite immature, “Fine! Run along to someone older, but I bet they won’t be anywhere near as handsome as me!” like, I think at times he would get a bit cocky because he’s got someone older, but he’d be brought right back down to earth if there’s ever a chance of him/her walking away. And also maybe sometimes he would consider acting a little destructive concerning the relationship if a disagreement arises, the idea in the back of his head being ‘I knew this wasn’t a good idea; that age difference was never going to work... maybe there’s a reason for tradition and stereotypes,’ but again, I don’t think he’d really want to let go if angst does come up.

No matter what Jin is doing, he would not forget about him/her. If he’s on tour, he’d find the best gift he could possibly give them, deep down wondering whether he’s actually good enough for him/her and if they’ve ever considered going with someone older. Possibly buys gifts to try and compensate for this worry, but also tries to put aside that state of mind about age affecting bond, roles, maturity, etc, and would look after him/her equally to his partner looking after him.

J-Hope [32-33] (34) -- Less Likely

I don’t think I can ever stop using this gif I’m so lame for Hobi’s smile

I think J-Hope would like a younger partner who he can look after and I guess typically, this means he would have his eye on someone younger by up to a few years. But again, I don’t think this means he’d reject the idea, it’d just be maybe out of his comfort zone. 

With someone 10 years older, I don’t think there would be much bedroom chemistry, the refined and specific needs and likes of someone older not exactly quite matching his need to explore new ideas, because I do think he would be quite an experimental person. He’d want to put in a lot of effort to make sure every bit of ground has been covered and also because he seems to be the type that is all about new experiences that he can look back upon and talk about / reminisce upon in the future.

The angst in a relationship like this would be that it just feels off, and cannot really be explained, resulting in a mutual decision to break it off.

He’d rather be the older boyfriend that his partner’s friends get jealous about because he’s seen as suave and mature and sophisticated, etc, rather than be the younger boyfriend that gets asked all the questions about being in a relationship with someone older. 

Jimin [31-32] (33) -- Unlikely

It’s not that I think Jimin would completely reject the idea of dating someone older, but I don’t think it’s something he could do, really. Like, he might give it a go if he thinks they’re really something special, but my perspective says he’s rather insecure and needs to be the older one in the relationship.

I think Jimin needs to be the man of the relationship and that age would be a dependent factor as to whether he can be that, or not. Therefore, the idea of dating someone older is something he would be somewhat skeptical about.

Quite angsty time, sorry not sorry - Being with an older person would probably cause many arguments concerning his insecurities, both in and out of the bedroom. I don’t think he wants to be called ‘cute’ just because he’s looking after his older partner and I would say he’d be sensitive to even playful teasing. For example, I sometimes get the feeling that some of his members’ teasing comments get to him more than he might admit or show on camera? Anyway, I just don’t see it lasting because I know that if I were older than Jimin, I would want to call him my baby all the time, and squish his little cheeks together and I know that could feel quite emasculating.

Like J-Hope, Jimin would want a younger person to look after and use that age as an excuse to watch over her, keep her safe, act manly, etc. Whereas, say Suga, would like a wise, more experienced partner, I think Jimin would like to be that wise and more experienced partner instead.

I’ve gone for older because at most, we’d be talking Korean age 16 [14-15 yrs over here in England] and that’d mean Jungkook with an 11 year old [9-10]... so I guess I finally found a boundary haha. But if it gets requested to do one also for MTL to date someone younger, then I’ll probably do it. Doing both in the same post would have taken up WAY too much space anyway!

I’ve done the MTL with explanation as to why I think this is the case and included different aspects, a little mention of nsfw topics, I hope that’s alright, and thank you for requesting! This came out MUCH longer than I expected hahahaha because for those in the upper half of the list, I’ve done like 4 sections each: general, smut/nsfw mentions, angst, fluff.

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Hi I am just coming across from your friends Steph blog. She was saying you write fic too but sometimes on your own and I just wondered if you had something new soon because she sort of hinted that you both do? And if you're working on things can you share what they may be, what plot or plots you have in mind I'm interested to read some please :)

ashasdghuiasdhuasdi ok under the cut you’ll get a big ass babble on everything i ever wrote and will ever write in my life ever (so far anyway)

HELLO LOVELY HOW YOU DOING THANKS FOR COMING BY you came through my girl steph???? hullo there feel very welcomed mi casa es su casa on the left we have lame memes on the right a complete mess and down here a list of my writings. 

so yup! we both write, together and not-as-together-but-still-together (which normal people would call solo projects). right at this moment right now in the moment as we speak now... we’re actually finishing one more chapter of m&w which i believe you already know of? so yeah we have this big baby as our project together and others to come and liotr as well.

about the solo stuff tho:

i actually sort of have a pwp sideblog? lol because 1 i have no shame 2 i have too many porn plotbunnies 3 sometimes i really need to procrastinate and what better way than to write a pwp?? so yeah. it doesn’t have as many fics as it should but now that i’ve finished my hell of a thesis i intend to write more! also, it actually is a prompt blog so if you or anyone want to ask a specific prompt u can totally drop by!

speaking of, from said blog came my first solo-project (which....is really a solo project, if u read it u will catch my drift) called butterflies (from that hudson taylor song?? if you choose to read it try with the song on! it ain’t smutty but it’s pining af and it’s a great song overall just give it a go haha)!!

now, this is everything i have published so far. HOWEVER 

i’ve got.............like......3 projects underway?

1st is a larcel college au?? it is about 70% finished and i hope soon enough i’ll get to publish it!!! it will be like a 5 things + 1 of sorts called “you can’t blame gravity (for falling in love)” which is an AMAZING title my girl steph gave it (see what i mean when it’s never solo haha)

2nd i’ve got a catwoman!au because i’m lame and i totally LIVED when harry said he’d be catwoman so yup 3rd chapter in from this baby as well (although i think this one will be long af) and tbh about the plot......i guess i’ll just say this? it really is in the beginning still so yeah it’s a catwoman au (named universe #28 because lol ALSO IF YOU KNOW SOME DC FAN OUT THERE SEND THEM MY WAY i need to proper vent about dc worldbuilding)

3rd tbh i said 3 but i’ll open up and say i have like a dozen. so far i’ve got 5 pages of a pride and prejudice college au, 10 pages of growing together of sorts abo, 15 pages of a gift for my girl steph (don’t tell her) and like about 10 plot bunnies written down that nobody, not even me, knows when they will come alive.

i know. tell me i’m a screwed up mess, that i never listen, listen (to steph when she tells me to FOCUS ON ONE OF THOSE but u see what’s the fun in that)

so i guess that’s it?????? it ain’t much and i’m a hell of a procrastinator but that’s it i guess. god only knows when i’ll be able to finish all these babies waiting to be born

now like if u want a tease or smth i can show u? i dunno mate i think i ranted my ass off here haha sorry i know i talk too much i’m abrasive i’ll shut up now (:

hope i answered your question to your satisfaction? and come by whenever you want! tbh i’m like super excited to post both larcel and catwoman soon but i honest to god have no idea when i’ll finish those so yeah (if u want i can show u a tease steph only knows that for someone who isn’t writing as much as they should i won’t stop talking about those two anyway haha so u kno hmu)