#if you talk to me about a hyperfixation i will never be quiet ever again

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Teacher’s Pet

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Pairing | Jonathan Crane x reader

Summary | After months of trying to earn your professor’s praise, he finally gives you an opportunity to prove you deserve it.

Warnings | Smut, dub con, blackmail, coercion, humiliation, anal, bondage, praise, creampie, degradation, inappropriate use of fear toxin.

Words | 6.2 k

Notes | Started this a million years ago. Finally got the motivation to finish it cause of @hllywdwhre ‘s fic that I proofread lol. Also ty to the post that gave me the fear toxin idea 🙏🏻

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In honor of the one year anniversary since the start of my Cillian hyperfixation <3

Dr. Crane was one of the most strict and unforgiving professors at Gotham University. He graded harshly, didn’t tolerate late or incomplete work, and no one would ever dare be late— if they were, they just wouldn’t show up because an absence was better than his response to tardiness. He didn’t have any favorite students, just some that he tolerated slightly more than the rest. That was what you hated the most. 

You’ve always been the favorite student for every single teacher you’ve had, whether they said it out loud or not. After the first couple of weeks, you figured he’d just be harder to crack than the rest. But after almost two months, you were starting to get frustrated. Nothing you did ever earned you any sort of praise. You were always early, always the first to turn in assignments, participated in class, paid attention— you were the perfect student. But he never seemed to recognize that. What made you snap was when he gave you a B on your latest essay. 

Lightly knocking on his office door, you tried to control your nerves and push down the nausea— You’ve never had to talk with a teacher about a grade before…

“Come in.” He called out. So you opened the door and hesitantly stepped inside. He glanced at you quickly, then did a double take once he realized it was you. “Close the door.” He said, resuming what he was doing. You took in a quiet, deep breath and closed the door before walking over and sitting on the chair across from his desk. 

“I’m assuming this is about your essay?” He asked, not even looking up from his work. 

“Yes.. You gave me a B, I was hoping to understand why.” You said tentatively. 

“Did you not read my notes?” Of course you did. But it still didn’t make any sense. 

“No, I did, but-” He finally looked up at you with a sigh. 

“Then you should understand why I gave you that grade.”

“This essay was practically perfect.” You argued, holding up the stapled together pieces of paper, marked up with red ink. 

“Clearly not if you got a B.” He raised his brows and you clenched your jaw, trying not to get too upset or emotional.

“Dr. Crane, I’ve aced every single test and assignment, I’d hardly say this is a fair grade.” You frowned. 

“Your argument was weak and biased.” Your lips parted in shock at the bluntness of his criticism. “And your previous assignments have no impact on my grading. If you’d like them to though, I’d be more than willing to grade them again to see if I missed anything.” 

“It- it wasn’t… I spent weeks on this.” 

“And yet… You still weren’t good enough for an A.” He said, making your stomach churn. Especially because he didn’t even say ‘your essay’ he just said ‘you.’ Looking down at the papers in your hands, you scanned them quickly as if it would magically give you the answer. “Review my notes for the next essay. Maybe you’ll do better.” 

“What is your problem with me?” You snapped, looking up at him again, watching his brows raise slightly. “Have I done something to offend you?” 

“I don’t tolerate entitled students who are used to being the teacher's pet. Whatever previous, unearned success and praise you're used to receiving is of no concern to me. It is not my fault if you came into this class expecting to be treated differently for doing the same thing as every other student.” 

“I- I’m not.. entitled. I just like my work and effort to be appreciated and not.. given a B.” 

“You want me to tell you that you’re such a good girl, turning in everything on time— as expected— and doing well on your assignments— as expected.” The faux praise, as well as the condescension that laced his voice, made your cheeks heat up instantly. 

“No, but,” 

“Then I think we’re done here.” 

The next day, you almost considered not going to class, but you’ve never had an absence on your record and you’re not about to start now. 

“We’re going to deviate from the lesson plan a little and talk about something else today; fear. Specifically, fear of rejection.” Your mouth dropped open at his words and if you had any doubts that this was because of your previous conversation, they quickly disappeared when he made eye contact with you.  

“There are a few different causes, can anyone give me an example?” This would’ve been the time where you raised your hand. But that apparently wasn’t necessary because he called on you anyway, making you freeze. 

“Um, I— I’m not sure.” You said nervously, sinking back into your chair a little. 

“There’s a perfect example right there; anxiety and social comparison. Too anxious and insecure to answer a simple question. Who else can give an example?” You stared at him with wide eyes that quickly started burning with tears. Now you felt even more stupid than you would’ve, had you just answered him and potentially gotten it wrong.

Class dragged on slowly. He talked more about causes, what it looks like, how it affects performance— especially in school— and various treatments. 

You couldn’t have been more relieved when he finally dismissed the class. You rushed to pack your things and stood up, quickly making your way to the exit. 

When he called your name though, you froze, praying you heard him wrong. “Stay back for a moment.” Your peers gave you sympathetic looks as you turned around and slowly made your way back over to his desk. 

“Yes, professor?” You asked, voice strained. 

“I hope you found today's lesson helpful.” You gritted your teeth and gave him a dry smile. 

“It was… inspiring, Dr. Crane.” You said plainly, trying to control your tone. His expression was only becoming more and more amused. 

“I’m glad. Though I didn’t see you taking notes.” That made you falter. 

“I- I was,”

“Great. Let me see them.” You looked away from him and shifted your weight awkwardly. 

“See them?” 

“Did you not understand?” Your face flushed with anger and embarrassment at his patronizing tone. 

“I did. I just wasn’t aware that notes were something you needed to see.” 

“If a student isn’t paying attention for the entirety of my class then, yes, notes are something I need to see.” You swallowed thickly, trying to come up with a response, and he watched you intently as he waited.  

“Look, professor, you’ve made your point, okay? I don’t think you need to continue humiliating me.” You said quietly, not looking at him. He let out a heavy breath through his nose and you watched in your peripheral vision as he took off his glasses, setting them down. He slowly rounded the desk and you couldn’t help it when you instinctively took a step back. 

“That’s a shame. I had hoped this lecture would’ve been helpful, but since you clearly weren’t paying attention, maybe I need to try another method.” 

“I- I was paying attention…” You muttered, keeping your head down. 

“Really? Then why don’t you tell me some of the ways one can overcome a fear of rejection.” He leaned back on his desk and crossed his arms over his chest. The feeling of his eyes on you almost made you shiver and you took a quiet, deep breath before lifting your head to look at him again. 

This is an easy enough question. You can probably figure out the answer if you just use critical thinking since he was correct about you not paying attention. 

“Um… cognitive behavioral therapy?” You waited and when he didn’t out right humiliate you, you assumed that was a right answer and continued. “Exposure therapy. Self esteem enhancement… Emotion regulation?” 

“Anything else?” 

“…You said “some.’” You muttered, briefly looking away from him again. 

“I did, didn’t I?” His tone made it clear that he didn’t care about what he previously said. 

“Um, I- I’m not sure…” 

“Feel free to use your notes.” 

Fuck. 

When you looked up and saw the almost smug expression on his face, you finally snapped. “I’m sorry, okay? I’m sorry that for one day, I couldn’t pay attention after you humiliated me in front of the entire class.” You spat, clenching your jaw as soon as you finished speaking. The longer he stayed silent, the more uncomfortable you became under his gaze, making you look away from him awkwardly. 

“Tell me why this shouldn’t affect your grade.” You knew his question was rhetorical, but you still tried to defend yourself. 

“Dr. Crane,” You started, but he raised his brows, silently warning you to not talk back. 

“I’ll see you later today during my office hours.” He said as he packed up his belongings. 

“But,” 

“Five pm.” He didn’t let you continue as he walked toward the door. All you could do was stand there and watch him leave. 

At 4:30 you paced around your dorm, debating what to do. At 4:35 you decided not to go. At 4:40 you changed your mind. At 4:50 you were pacing outside his office. At 4:55 you finally knocked, feeling like you could throw up at any second. He called out for you to enter, so you hesitantly opened the door and stepped inside. 

“Close the door and sit down.” He didn’t even look up from what he was working on. You closed the door quietly, then made your way over to the chair in front of his desk. You tried to sit there patiently, but he wasn’t saying anything. Your leg bounced incessantly as you picked at your cuticles, over thinking more and more with each tortuous second that dragged on. 

“Professor?” You finally asked. 

“You’re early. I told you to come at five and I need to finish this.” He still didn’t look up from whatever “this” was and you were quickly growing angrier. 

Was this some kind of mind fuck? Making you sit here, stewing in nerves that were only getting worse? You weren’t sure how much time had passed because you didn’t want to check your phone and give him another opportunity to chastise you. But after a while, he finally sighed and gathered the papers, setting them in a pile on the side of his desk. 

You forced yourself to stop bouncing your leg and place your palms flat on your thighs to keep from fidgeting, trying to exude confidence you were severely lacking. 

“I’ll admit, I’ve been struggling to decide what I should do with you.” Immediately your stomach churned, getting even more anxious. “I could have you removed from my class, but that would be a lot of paperwork.”

“Professor,” 

“I’m speaking.” He said harshly, making your mouth immediately close. “However, that does mean I’ll have to put up with this for another few months… So the paperwork might be worth the hassle.” You tried not to cry at the thought. You need this class to graduate— getting dropped from it will set you back a semester unless you add another course to your already heavy schedule for next semester. You waited, not sure if he was done talking or not. After another few seconds you decided to try again. 

“Please…” You said hesitantly, waiting for him to snap at you again. When he didn’t, you continued. “Please don’t drop me, professor. I need this class to graduate.” He stayed silent, eyes dragging over your body as you did your best not to squirm. He still hasn’t said anything… Is he going to drop you anyway? With tears in your eyes, you tried again, “Please… Please I- I’ll leave you alone— I won’t bother you about grades anymore, I swear, just please don’t drop me.” You all but whimpered, feeling even more pathetic now. 

He sighed and took off his glasses, then set them on his desk before leaning back in his chair a little, still studying you. 

“I’d still have to put up with you in class as well though.” 

“Please! I’ll sit in the back and not talk— I’ll do anything, just please don’t drop me.” You cried.

“Anything?” You stiffened a little at the dark expression that suddenly took over his face. Would you really do anything? You wouldn’t mind fucking him if that’s what he’s implying— despite his off putting personality, you’ve always been attracted to him.  

“Y-yes?” You said, unsure.  

“That didn’t sound very convincing and I’m not going to force you so I’ll just go through with the drop request,”

“No! I will— I’ll do anything… Please.” He continued studying you, probably trying to gauge if you were telling the truth or not. 

“Fine. We’ll call it an internship of sorts. You’ll come with me to Arkham Asylum every Friday and help me in whatever way I may need— no questions asked.” 

“I- I don’t know if I’m qualified for that.” 

“Good thing it’s not an actual internship then.” He sneered, the patronizing tone making you blush. 

“What will you have me do?” You asked quietly. 

“It’ll be easier to just show you instead. Give me your essay and after Friday if I’m satisfied with your performance, I’ll change the grade.” Your heart practically skipped a beat— all you have to do is go to Arkham with him for a day and you’ll get an A? You’d be stupid to say no. So you retrieved your essay from your bag and handed it to him. “Good. Six pm, do not be late. I’ll meet you in the main lobby to take you to my office.” He said sternly. 

Since you left his office, your heart has been pounding. You weren’t sure what to wear so you just decided on a skirt and blouse that were professional, but still mostly casual. After that, there wasn’t much else you could do. You were too anxious to focus on literally anything so you just sat at home, overthinking. Friday rolled around and you left at five, just in case anything happened, and arrived at 5:25. So you sat in your car, waiting anxiously and watching the clock on the dashboard. You were too scared to even listen to music. At 5:55 you decided to go in, worst case you’d just have to wait five minutes for him, but you figured it’d be better to be early— even after what happened during his office hours. 

It was only a minute before six when he showed up. The second he saw you, he gestured for you to follow, so you trailed after him on wobbly legs. When you arrived in his office, he closed the door and told you to sit in the chair across from him as he sat behind the desk. 

“I want to make sure that we’re on the same page and I have your consent for anything that happens here.” The way he worded that made you nervous, but you chalked it up to the fact that you were already overcome with anxiety.

“Yes.” You tried to sound sure of yourself, but you were having doubts. What would he make you do? Would it really be worth a better grade?

“Good. Take this.” He picked up a small paper cup from his desk with one pill inside and handed it to you. 

“…Why?”

“There are certain aerosol drugs that are administered to patients sometimes. That will keep them from affecting you.” He explained calmly, easing your nerves a bit. So you took it from him and swallowed it, waiting for what was next. “Follow me.” He stood up again, this time holding a briefcase, and you followed him out of his office. He led you down some hallways before stopping outside of a door and unlocking it, gesturing for you to walk in. 

There was a small table in the corner and two exam chairs with restraints on them, one of which had stirrups. Other than that the room was bare. The door closed loudly, making you jump and turn around. 

“Sit.” He ordered, walking over to the table and setting the briefcase down before walking toward you. 

“Why?” You asked skeptically. He just stood patiently and watched you. You suddenly got hit with a wave of dizziness and stumbled to the chair to sit down. The dizziness quickly turned into exhaustion and you could barely keep your eyes open. When you started falling forward, he quickly moved closer to catch you, then leaned you back against the chair. 

Your head hurt like hell and you forced your eyes open to find that you were now laying on the other exam chair, thankfully not with your legs in the stirrups, but with the restraints on your wrists. You don’t even remember falling asleep. 

“The effects should wear off soon. I apologize for using that, but I figured you wouldn’t willingly let me restrain you and I didn’t feel like fighting you.” 

“What… what was that?” You asked through a breath. You could slowly feel yourself getting less and less foggy. 

“A drug.” He said, in the most annoyed and patronizing tone you’ve heard from him so far. 

“Why?” You whimpered, closing your eyes again because they still felt so heavy. 

“If you’re going to ask stupid questions then I’m just going to gag you. I already answered that.” You heard some rustling noises and his footsteps, then a hand was running along your cheek, startling you and making you open your eyes. “You remember our agreement?” You nodded hesitantly. It felt like your heart was about to beat out of your chest with how hard and fast it was pounding. “Be a good little girl and if I’m satisfied, I won’t drop you. I might even change the grade of your essay.” You didn’t need the reminder, but the way he said the first part was making your stomach flutter. 

“I have to say,” he removed his hand from your cheek and moved down to place it on your leg, just above your knee, “I prefer the sluttier skirts you wear to class than this.” He teased the hem of your skirt with his fingers, making you tremble. “Next week wear something shorter. And a more flattering top.” You figured by ‘more flattering’ what he really meant was more revealing. All you could do to respond was nod. 

“Good. Let’s begin.” 

He reached for the zipper of your skirt on your hip, making you stiffen. 

“What the hell are you doing?” You asked, beginning to panic again, and he paused with a sigh. 

“If you don’t consent, that’s fine… There is still the matter of your seat in my class.” He said coyly. “If you want me to let you go, just say that. I’ll fill out the paperwork first thing Monday morning.” 

“No,” You choked out. “No.. please.” You felt like you were on the verge of a panic attack. He shushed you softly, staring at you with a teasing glint in his eyes. 

“Relax. If you consent to this, you’ll keep your seat in my class. That’s what you want, isn’t it?” You nodded, looking up at him with teary eyes. “Good girl… Now be quiet and let me do this.” His tone was significantly darker and all you could do was tremble as he unzipped your skirt, then pulled it down your body before discarding it on the floor. 

“I’ve been working on a new form of a drug.” You squeezed your eyes shut and let out a strangled whimper when he grabbed your leg and placed it in the stirrup, then used the restraints to keep it in place. “We’re going to try it together.” He grinned wolfishly and did the same to your other leg. 

You heard his footsteps as he walked across the room for something, then back over to you, now wearing a latex glove on his right hand, holding a small bottle in the other. 

“Remember, you can withdraw consent at any time…” You couldn’t though. Because you would be dropped from his class and set back months. 

His hand landed on your thigh, making you jump a little, and he started slowly dragging it up. Once he was close enough, he brushed his thumb over your clothed mound, forcing a quiet sob from you.  

“You probably thought this was going to go in a very different direction, didn’t you?” He asked teasingly, making you blush. Truthfully, you didn’t put much thought into your undergarments because you were too busy worrying about your actual clothes and what he was going to make you do. You cried out when he suddenly ripped the lace off your body, feeling the burn of the fabric pulling too hard against your skin. “Ready?” He asked, almost eagerly. 

You saw now that the bottle was a clear liquid and when he squirted it onto his fingers, you assumed it was lube. As soon as his finger brushed your asshole, you stiffened. 

“Wait!” You rushed out, chest heaving as your heart pounded in your chest. “I- I’ve never…” 

“You’ve never done anal?” You almost thought he was going to give you sympathy. “Good.” You couldn’t even get another word out before he was pushing a finger in, making you tense up as you whimpered in discomfort. “Tell me when you start to feel it.” 

“Feel what?” You said through a breath, trying to relax around the intrusion. Even though it wasn’t as bad as you were expecting, your heart was pounding even harder and faster in your chest, and your breathing grew ragged. “Dr. Crane,” You whimpered, suddenly a million times more anxious than only a moment ago. 

“Already?” He checked his watch, “That was fast. Tell me what you’re feeling.”

“Anxious.” You said quickly, letting out a strangled whimper when he forced another finger inside. “M-my heart is pounding and it feels hard to breathe.” 

“That’s good… Anything else?” 

“My hands are clammy… and it feels like I'm sweating a little.” 

“No visual or auditory hallucinations?” 

“What?” You choked out, eyes widening. “W-why would I have that??”

“The drug we’re testing is my fear toxin. It’s a hallucinogenic that targets the amygdala and releases stress hormones, causing a fear response in the brain.” He explained, only making you feel worse. “So far I’ve tested it two ways; administered intravenously and in aerosol form.” 

“I don’t understand..” You said quietly, trying to calm your breathing a little. He let out an exaggerated sigh and forced a third finger inside you. 

“I guess I should really expect you to.” He almost sounded.. disappointed. The realization made the twist in your stomach even worse. “Let me dumb it down for you. In its most potent form, it causes visual and auditory hallucinations of the subject’s worst fear.” If you weren’t currently on the verge of a panic attack with three fingers in your ass, you probably would’ve rolled your eyes at his tone. 

“Now I’m testing it via rectal administration. The concentration is about the same, but the effects shouldn’t be as strong. At least, that’s my theory.” His fingers continued fucking you slowly, occassionally spreading apart to open you up more. Despite the amount of anxiety you were currently feeling, you could just barely feel your growing arousal.  

“W-why would you want the drug in this form?” You asked, gasping for air between words. 

“I’m a doctor. Why wouldn’t I experiment?” He asked rhetorically. You bit your lip and squeezed your eyes shut, trying to focus on the anxiety rather than the arousal, but it was only becoming more difficult. A choked moan escaped you when he suddenly dragged a bare finger through your folds, spreading the evidence of your arousal. “Are you enjoying this?” His voice sounded unnervingly clinical. 

In response, you bit down harder on your lip and shook your head, denying it. You could practically feel his eyes on you, studying you closely. 

“I knew you’d be perfect for this.” He suddenly said, and you bit back a moan because he almost sounded proud. “You’re just pathetic enough and desperate for my approval to willingly become my little lab rat, and now look at you… Leaking onto my hand as I finger your ass.” He chuckled wryly. A dark blush took over your face and you whined quietly, but the flutter in your stomach was unmistakable. “I bet you want my cock also… Don’t you?” 

You let out a choked sob and turned your head, trying uselessly to hide yourself. When he suddenly pulled his fingers out, you whimpered quietly at the sudden loss. 

“Look at me.” He demanded, in a tone that left no room for argument. As if you were in a trance, you turned to face him and opened your eyes. “You want to keep your seat in my class?” He removed the glove and tossed it aside, then worked on unbuckling his belt and opening his pants. 

“Yes.” You whispered shakily. 

“And you’re willing to let me fuck your ass to ensure that happens?” He pulled his already half hard cock out and started stroking slowly as you gaped at it. How was that supposed to fit inside you?

“I- I’ve never..”

“It’s a yes or no question.” He sighed impatiently. “I fuck your ass or you leave and I fill out the form Monday morning.” 

“I… I’m scared.” You whimpered, looking nervously between his face and his cock. 

“That’s the whole point, darling.” Right. Because he was testing his fear toxin. You blushed furiously at the new pet name. “You have three seconds before I fuck you, then fill out the form anyway.” 

Your stomach dropped at the threat and when he raised his brows, you blurted out, “Yes.” Tears were brimming in your eyes and he stepped closer, but didn’t line up yet. He just used his free hand to gently rub your thigh. 

“Yes, what?” Your bottom lip began trembling when you realized what he wanted from you. “Say it. Beg your professor for it.”

“I- I want…” You let out a strangled sob and squeezed your eyes shut again, making his hand stop moving on your thigh to grip tightly in a silent warning. “I want you to fuck my ass… Please, Dr. Crane.” You whimpered. You’ve never felt more humiliated, but at the same time… you were only becoming more aroused. Your cunt ached to be filled, and your clit was practically throbbing.

“Good girl.” When you let out a choked moan at the sudden praise, he chuckled quietly. “Open your eyes. I want you to watch.” He demanded, lining up. Only after your eyes fluttered open, did he finally apply some pressure, entering you with little difficulty. 

“Fuck- You’re so tight.” He hissed, moving his hand to your other thigh and squeezing almost painfully. Your breath and all of your sounds were caught in your throat as he pushed in deeper, not stopping until his hips were flush with your ass. “Tell me how it feels.” He said breathily, not moving yet. 

“Big.” You whimpered, barely able to get the word out. 

“Does it hurt?” You shook your head, trying to steady your breathing, but the overwhelming feeling of being stretched as well as the anxiety still weighing heavy on your chest made it feel almost impossible. “You look like you’re on the verge of a panic attack.” He sounded uncharacteristically dulcet.

When he reached for your shirt and unbuttoned it to expose your bra, your breathing picked up even more as your heart started pounding even harder in your chest. He pulled your bra down below your breasts and groped you eagerly, showing little regard for your pleasure with his rough, almost painful touch. 

“Your heart’s beating so fast. Is my little lab rat still scared?” He cooed, very obviously mocking you. 

“Professor..” You whimpered, staring up at him with glossy eyes as you struggled to cope with all of the overwhelming feelings, both physically and emotionally. He shushed you softly and brought his hands back down to rub your thighs, trying to soothe you. 

“I’m going to fuck you, and you’re going to take it.” He said plainly. “You try to resist at all and I’ll keep fucking you until I finish, then you won’t have to bother showing up to class on Monday. Do you understand?” 

You nodded reluctantly and he moved his hands to grip the tops of your thighs. He slowly dragged his hips back, then forward again, forcing you to feel every inch of his cock stretching you open. It didn’t… hurt. But it definitely wasn’t the most pleasurable thing you’ve ever experienced. 

When he suddenly sped up, you cried out and squeezed your eyes shut, trying to focus on taking deep breaths. He was grunting and moaning quietly with each thrust, clearly enjoying this far more than you, and you couldn’t help but open your eyes again to watch him. His grip tightened on your thighs, making you whimper, and you watched his mouth fall open in a silent moan as he closed his eyes. 

“Fuck…” He said breathily, letting out a low groan before opening his eyes again. “I didn’t account for transdermal administration” He almost sounded amused again, but you could barely focus on his words. “The effects are far less than what you’re feeling, I’d assume. It almost feels like adrenaline, rather than fear. Next time we’ll try it intravaginally to see if your reaction is the same or more like mine.” 

You almost forgot that this wasn’t a one and done. You have to let your professor do what he wants with you every week for the rest of the semester…

“And I think I’ll try the other forms of delivery on you as well. Not so much for an experiment… I just want to fuck you while you’re hallucinating your greatest fears.” His lips curled up into a small smirk at the thought of that. “I can’t wait to hear you scream and cry for me.” He cooed, but his tone was far from comforting and your anxiety was only getting worse as he continued sharing his future plans for you. 

He started bucking into you rapidly and his sounds got louder, clearly getting closer to his release. You could even feel yourself just barely starting to inch toward the edge. Your moans caught his attention and a pleased look took over his face. 

“You like this, don’t you?” You let out a choked moan and bit your lip, trying to quiet your sounds. “It’s either that or misattribution of arousal... but that seems less likely.” Even though you knew his guess was correct, you were still going to convince yourself that it was misattribution of arousal instead because that was far less humiliating. When he started rubbing your clit, any chance you had of keeping quiet was gone instantly. His moans got louder too when your body tensed up, tightening around his cock. 

“Oh god— Dr. Crane, please.” You sobbed, feeling the arousal steadily taking over the anxiety that had settled in your stomach. 

“What do you want?” Now that he asked, you realized that you don’t even know what you want. You wanted the overwhelming anxiety and stretch to stop… but the thought of him pulling out and ending this almost brought tears of desperation to your eyes. His fingers sped up on your clit and your back arched off of the exam chair as an involuntary mewl escaped you. 

“Please let me come.” You whimpered pathetically and he let out a quiet chuckle in response to your brazenness. 

“How curious…” He murmured, gaze dragging all over your body. “I’ll admit, I figured some part of you would enjoy getting to please me, but I never imagined it’d be to this extent.” He said amusedly and your blush darkened in response. “You want to come?”

You were nodding eagerly before he could even finish. “Please.” 

“How about this— I'll raise the grade on your essay… or I’ll let you come.” You could see the barest hint of a smirk on his lips and you let out a frustrated sob, squeezing your eyes shut. “Well?”

“Dr. Crane…” You whimpered, bottom lip trembling as you tried not to cry. When you opened your eyes and stared up at him through the tears, his smirk widened. “Please..” 

“Should I choose for you?” 

“No…” You sobbed, looking away from him and biting your lip. The whole point of this was so he’d change the grade… You can’t give in to the pleasure now that you’re so close to finally getting what you came here for. “I- I want you to change my grade.” Your voice was barely a whisper. As soon as he got your answer, he removed his hand from your clit to grab the top of your thigh again, bucking into you rapidly as he chased his orgasm. 

“We’re going to have a lot of fun together, my little lab rat.” He was clearly satisfied with your choice and while part of you was almost crying from frustration… another part couldn’t help but revel in the fact that you pleased him, even if it was at the expense of your own pleasure. 

His hips snapped into you rapidly, the force of it almost pushing you up the exam chair, but the restraints on your legs kept you mostly in place. As he focused on his impending orgasm, you were practically mesmerized. He looked so… pretty. The pleasure in his expression was obvious and there was a faint blush on his cheeks. His normally pale blue eyes were darker as he took you in, studying every tiny reaction to his ministrations. 

When he suddenly pushed forward all the way and stayed there, you let out a whine of displeasure, knowing whatever pleasure you might’ve been feeling before was about to disappear. But the choked moan he let out as he closed his eyes made you almost forget all about it. His hips bucked forward sporadically as his cock twitched inside you with each rope of come that shot out, filling you up.  

Finally his sounds quieted into heavy breathing and his body went still. You waited anxiously for what was next, not sure what to expect. Opening his eyes again, he watched as he slowly dragged his hips back until his cock slipped free, forcing out a quiet hiss from him and a whimper from you at the sensitivity. 

“Push it out.” His voice was raspy and still thick with arousal. When you pushed his come out, he let out a low groan as he watched, bending down a little to get a closer look. “Good girl.” He cooed, making you whine as the words went straight to your cunt that was still aching with need. 

“You can remain here until the effects wear off. I want to see how long that takes.” He said, almost clinically, while checking his watch. Your eyes stayed on him as he tucked his cock back in his pants before collecting the lube and discarded glove. 

“Are you going to let me go?” Your voice was quiet and timid as submission still heavily clouded your mind. He looked over at you again, almost surprised by your voice. He glanced at the restraints before dragging his gaze all over your body for a moment. Finally, he smirked a little and went back to what he was doing. 

“Soon.” You sighed in response and stayed quiet. As you breathed deeply, trying to ignore the arousal still lingering in your stomach, you noticed that the anxious feeling was starting to subside a little. Your heart was still beating rapidly, but now it was hard to tell if it was from fear, adrenaline, or your own unsatisfied arousal. 

“I think it’s wearing off.” You told him and he checked his watch again. 

“What are you feeling?” He finally walked back over to you and stared at your face with an almost impressive level of professionalism, given the circumstances. 

“My heart is still pounding, but my breathing is better. And I don’t feel very nauseous either.” 

“Next week I want to test this again so I have a control group to compare these results to. It’ll be the same thing, but I won’t finger you for as long and I won’t fuck you until after it wears off.” He reached out and gently grabbed your chin, angling your face up to look at him as he stepped closer. “Of course… that’s assuming you still want to keep your spot in my class…” He trailed off, making the statement sound like a question instead. 

“I do.” You said quickly. Especially after this… you were desperate to stay enrolled in his class, but you were also— as much as you didn’t want to admit it— desperate for more after he gave you this small taste. 

“Good girl.” Your cheeks heated up instantly and he patted one with his hand before stepping back again. “Keep being my little lab rat and I have no doubt you’ll pass my class… maybe even with the grade you think you deserve.” 

[sincapjelly]

OK SO LET'S TALK MY JAYA SON OC, enteeeer... Jamie! Full name, Jaemin. He is the older child of Jay and Nya, and he inherited Nya's water element. He has a younger sister, Rosie, who is the master of lightning, but more about her later. Right now I wanna talk a bit about Jamie!

Firstly, the name Jamie, was actually a placeholder name, but I'm probably never going to change it. I thought naming him Jamie was cheesy, but it grew on me so here we are, he is Jamie now!

So Jamie, he is the new master of water, he unlocked his true potential shortly before a new team was starting to form. Unlike our other main character, Liann, Jamie was more or less involved with the monastery due to his uncle, Kai, still having his element and being involved with Sora, Arin and Wyldfyre, who currently are the care takers of the monastery. So Jamie is another character who is trained by his parents, and he was used to the terms of ninja.

Jamie also becomes the co-leader of the new team alongside Liann. Before and during their first mission, Liann's more socially awkward and introverted nature, which is something she shares with Jamie, causes Jamie to think she is not very fond of him. But later they talk it out, and solve their issues with the power of ✨️communication✨️, which also in the story shows how they were raised and how they learned to solve problems from their families. I love Jaya and Geode so much, they are exellent parents.

Ok sorry, not drifting from the topic. Jamie gets his "always thinks of the worst outcome" habit from Jay, but he mixes it with Nya's "ok but calm down, let's think about a way out" so he is the smart/brain leader. He always considers every outcome, and in the beginning this makes him be scared of acting fast, because he feels the need to calculate every situation, but he manages to overcome this and starts using his ability to see the next few steps perfectly in his leaderships.

He is also the oldest of the team, same age with Liann, younger by a few months.

He is a very skilled ice skater! This is also a callback to Jay's skating skills! I love when characters carry traits from their family, this is also something I used with Liann, which I'll again, talk more in detail later!

He did unlock his true potential before the events of the first mission arc, but not really. What I mean is, Jamie fully overcame his fears of doing the wrong move during the mission, and finally unlocked his real true potential, using everything his powers offer for the first time ever. He learns that sometimes doing the non-perfect move is better than doing nothing, and he can't always be aware of everything. He can fix what he breaks later, one step at a time.

He is more like Nya in terms of being introverted and less of a yapper, though he has his moments of yapping too. His sister Rosie is a bigger yapper but lacks the passion Jamie has. She is just naturally sweet and friendly. While Jamie has Jay's hyperfixations mixed with Nya's usually calmer and more quiet nature, Rosie has the outgoing and talkative attitude, but her thing isn't the more brain/technical stuff like Jamie.

Despite people trying to put Jamie against his co-leader, Jamie is confident in himself. Which again, something he learned from his parents, mostly from Jay's experiences of feeling insecure. He knows how strong he is, and despite Liann lookinh like the more poster ninja, Jamie knows he is irreplacable and essential to the team.

You see, Liann is a more emotional decision maker. She has to act, she has to help, she can't stop to think about her steps. She needs Jamie to ground her, needs him to stay calm. But at the same time, Jamie needs Liann's fast thinking in combat and ability to be brave in scary situations to start acting himself. They balance each other, which is why they are not a "we need them both in but let's make one more interesting and overshadow the other" ridiculousy, but a great match to lead, both having something the other is not very strong in or even lack.

Oh I was almost finishing this ✨️ted talk✨️ without mentioning his looks! He has the light brown hair from Jay, maybe even a little lighter than his because ✨️LIBBER'S GENES ENTER✨️ and mixes Jay's brown hair with her blonde. He has a mole on the side of his nose, and has a slightly tan skin, mixing Jay and Nya's skin colors. He is not that tall, let's say he is avarage. Liann, in comparison, is slightly taller than him. He also has a few iconic moles around his body too. Mostly the ones on his arms and a few small ones on his neck are the ones you easily notice. Though I doubt this works in a Lego format... ANYWAY!

Ok I don't know what else, I might add later!

[ditzydreamsss]

Ditzy's Council Headcanons :D

Charlie/Grizzly/Bizly/Condi !

Present me here: I NEVER POSTED THIS???? I completely forgot about it sobbb

hyperfixation's dead but i still hold them in my arms gently

please excuse the first few all just being about sex. i sincerely apologize for my past self's actions okie bye

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-- Charlie, Grizzly, and Bizly are the horny ones (there's some other way to word this but I can't think of anything else).

-- Condi's asexual. He's fine with it happening around him but doesn't want to be included in sex. Doesn't get the appeal.

-- In terms of power dynamics, I think Charlie would be top. Grizzly & Bizly both being switch. And Condi in his room regretting everything as the walls start shaking.

-- Condi would be loud(er) when he's with the rest of the boys, but he would be quiet(er) when outside with strangers/just other people in general, or during serious moments.

-- [Cat Bizly's from this other post] Bizly likes having cat ears and tail sometimes. Grizzly caught him staring at a mirror once and has been the #1 Cat Boy Bizly (also known as "Kibby") supporter ever since. I love kibby sm-

-- There was this one night the fuck trio (I. CAN'T call them that. I can't but it's the first thing that popped into my head) trio got so loud in the other room Condi physically got up and slammed his hand on the door. The trio on the other side absolutely lost it.

-- Everyone has a soft spot for Bizly.

-- Grizzly and Bizly were together first. Then Grizzly was like, "Uh, Bizly I think I like Charlie but we-" Then Bizly called Charlie and bluntly said, "You up to polyamory?" Then Charlie and Condi got together then the puzzle completed itself.

-- Charlie and Bizly and Grizzly are all into each other. Grizzly and Charlie loves Condi and vise versa. Condi and Bizly took some time, but they're good now :D Sometimes they feel like bros and sometimes they want to romantically cuddle.

-- Charlie's constantly showing PDA to his lovers. But he always, no matter what, asks if he can kiss though. Even if it ruins the moment (it doesn't).

-- Grizzly's fine with PDA. Bizly's also fine, though he prefers it when the place in empty. Condi doesn't really like PDA that much but if it'll make his beloveds happy, he'll do it. No kisses though.

-- They added their own bedrooms in Molympus but usually, they bring their pillows and blankets to the throne room and sleep in a big cuddle pile.

-- Grizzly and Bizly do be making out every corner. Oh and Charlie too.

-- This is after fallen arc. I love that hc so much im making that canon. idk they like, made out or something. Then everything was fine again.

-- Grizzly has abandonment issues. He sometimes just. Can't face Charlie. He clings onto Bizly when it's more active. Condi, if Bizly isn't there. Or just alone in his room, hugging Bizly's blue sweater he leaves behind when he goes out. Drowning in lava that isn't there. If it's really bad, Bizly teleports them out into the mortal world, goes to the comfort room and cuddles until Grizzly falls asleep. Clinging onto him like a lifeline.

-- The comfort room is a room made of blue stuff. Not a speck of red.

-- Grizzly’s the anime guy. Bizly’s the listener. Bizly doesn't really understand the fuck Grizzly's talking about but he sits it through for him. Bizly will sit through an hour and a half long rant about this anime he doesn't even know the name of (though he's probably gonna be distracted staring at Grizzly's face the entire time. "Adorable when passionate")

-- Meanwhile, Charlie's actually trying to learn the anime. Asking questions and stuff.

-- Condi probably knows the anime. Grizzly and Condi exchange headcanons often. Randomly barging into each other's rooms after knocking 10 times and half yelling "Have you watched the new episode yet??"

-- Grizzly will sometimes make this wing cocoon thing if he gets overwhelmed.

-- Hey guys, Bizly has trauma too. If someone genuinely accuses him, and pushes it too far, he will cry. Alone. In his room. And he gets uncomfy now as the butt of the joke. The most random, small things can trigger stuff, especially when Bizly’s tired. He flinches when there’s a sudden loud noise. Reacts way more than a god with so many senses should.

-- Cat Bizly. Dog Grizzly. Do they go into space? Sometimes. They can actually turn into the animal. Bizly is a blue cat, Grizzly is a pug. Not sure about puppy grizz but pretty solid on cat biz.

-- Grizzly is overprotective over Bizly. Vise versa. They will literally hiss/growl.

-- Charlie’s usually the big dipper. Gribzly can be both but after the fallen arc, Bizly became small (BIZLY PEQUENO). Condi’s small for Charlie and big for Gribzly. [Listen, we have to shorten some terms. Like removing the “dipper”.]

-- Gribzly. Condicicle. Yes. (They’re still all gay for each other, it’s just those pairs are closer to each other.)

-- Grizzly laughs at almost every single one of Charlie’s jokes. Condi comes right after. Then there’s Bizly, deadpanning. Or making his own joke, while Grizzly’s dying in the background.

-- Too many times people walked into a Gribzly make out session.

-- So despite everything I said about gribzly and charlie, grizzly really does love Charlie. Vise versa. They're usually holding hands when they're out. Usually always. Like, they're both so clingy.

-- They need therapy desperately. I forgot if I said this before. Between Charlie and Ted, I think the council's kind of fucked relationship will pop up in casual conversation at some point in the podcast. They cut it out, but off camera Ted asks if Charlie wants him to help, and offers to therapy the bois.

-- Condi sometimes uses they/he or they/them, depends on the time.

-- I just want to make everyone, even Schlatt, all respectful with identities. Like Schlatt might have teamed up with someone but that someone turns out to be homophobic and even though Schlatt's winning, the ram man's gonna pulverize the homophobe right there if that teammate doesn't apologize/fix their mistake.

-- Bizly or Charlie sometimes walks into Condi and Grizzly clinging to each other as they cry about anime. Bizly slowly closes the door while Charlie asks what's wrong. Depends on how severe the damage is, whether they respond or not.

-- They know the future has changed for them, especially Charlie and Condi, mostly Condi. Charlie sometimes gets nightmares of a swarm of zombies pushing him into lava, a chess game with a ghost, but only thinks those are weird nightmares. Condi knows more. He tries to ignore what the Code is trying to tell him, that this isn’t right and isn’t real.

-- Clinginess meter: past maximum. All of them.

-- Bizly (sometimes) has blue-ish black cat ears.

-- Grizzly has the doggo ears and tail.

-- Charlie can literally turn into slime, right on the spot. It's kinda disturbing so he doesn't do it (or tries to not) in front of other people. It's terrifying, really, seeing him melt.

-- Charlie in my hc looks pretty much the same with his minecraft skin except he has a green cape thing and looks a bit more powerful.

-- Condi is a dragon hyrbid thing. (i got it from here)

-- Oh and also, Bizly's glasses does this small robot eyes screen thing (that is not a good description uhh). Like his sunglasses are like a small screen and theres eyes and shows his emotions. Like fallen biz (HELP ITS JUST. PERMANENTLY MADE A HOME IN MY BRAIN).

-- So this au hc thing. Fallen arc, fallen au canon to here. I guess Charlie and Condi went to the nether (jumped into the pit) bc condi was like ":(" and then the squad fought each other. Bizly was genuinely ready to kill Charlie. Charlie's like "Are- are you hissing??" Cause cat. And then Charlie repents, apologizes, regrets, but that doesn't work until Condi: "im sorry :(" then they're suddenly all gay for each other again and happily ever after.

-- this means they never killed the dragon. dragon and condi are good friends.

-- dragon actually trusts condi enough (i mean, technically, condi created the dragon so) anyways trusts him enough to give him her only egg. The squad needs to raise the dragon and bonds and stuff.

-- idk baeby dragon's name. help /gen

-- Condi casually covering baeby's ears as the bedroom shakes at night the other side of the wall-

-- Baeby keeps trying to eat Charlie's slimes. rip.

Charlie: Condi. baeby's trying to eat me. Condi: Wh- Charlie: My slimes :(

-- they get it sorted out (no they don't, the council doesn't do shit, they're too busy making out). slimes combine into one big slime and assert dominance. they get along now.

-- There's a reason why "pudding" will never be added to minecraft. Yeah. The council literally destroyed the existence of it.

-- Grizzly is a sucker for headpats. Literally melts in your arms. I mean he'll probably growl if it's not his lovers.

-- Charlie can just fly, no wings (for being so close to the Code, he gets free stuff ig).

-- the Code is what makes up the world. it's not exactly alive, nor sentient, but it's like. not dead either.

-- Condi can just naturally fly too. He has enough power to make new worlds, he can do a lil bit of floating. He kind of borrow's the Void's power and manipulates it to apply it to himself to float. His wings are for decoration/intimidation/battle purposes.

-- Bizly and Grizzly both have the angel wings, Bizly's being more blue and Grizzly's being red and grey.

-- When the teacher is late, Grizzly would be the one in the corner watching anime with Condi, weebs gathering and making a small circle around them.

-- Grizzly writes and reads fanfics. The little (big) pile of notebooks hidden in that one corner of him room is one thing he'll never let anyone look through (besides maybe Condi).

-- Wait hold onto these thoughts. I have an au idea-

-- When Bizly feels a really strong emotion, his glasses change red like when he was fallen.

-- Order the council says ily the most: charlie, gribzly tied (make up with cuddles / physical affection), condi (make up with shows of trust)

-- Charlie's really soft to Bizly when they're alone.

-- Bizly acts embarrassed and pushes Charlie away in public but he loves his affection.

sorry if I repeat any of the same stuff, there's way too much and I'm not looking for it

-- The group runs out of food. What do they do?

~~ Grizzly's too busy binging anime to be hungry. Condi's with Grizzly and eating snacks instead of actual food.

~~ Charlie cooks food with help of his slimes.

~~ Bizly doesn't realize Charlie's cooking food and orders takeout.

~~ The trio's eating when Bizly walks into the room to see that they already have food. L.

-- DID I EVER TELL YOU ABOUT HOW FRICKING CLINGY THEY ALL ARE??

-- what if condi just sneezed one day after the council got their powers but instead of mucus he left behind a small split in the air leading to another dimension. and he was like "whatthefuck but also.. what?? the fuck??"

-- back to the dragon, im thinking of the name Pigstep? cause thats the name of the disc that was playing at the end of To The End.

[hyugaruma]

WOOHOO MATCHUPS!! ok uhh for my personality i would say i'm an extroverted introvert, if that makes any sense? i don't mind hanging out around people, i enjoy hanging out around people i like, but sometimes my social meter can go down reaaaal fast. i don't like socialising that much, but if i need to or want to i can converse pretty well (i guess). im quite blunt, im not afraid to say what i think needs to be said, as i feel that hiding things only leads to more problems. i know when things don't need to be said and when to keep my mouth shut tho. i usually balance out the people i'm hanging out with: if they're all quiet introverts im the talkative social one, if they're all loud and chaotic im the quiet one with common sense. idk why i do it its just easier to balance things out, it comes naturally to me. I'm also usually the protective one of the group, if someone looks at my friends funny i'll be the first one to glare back, or shield my friends from them. heck i'll even pick a fight if i need to, come at me bro. when it comes to standing up for others, all my shyness and social awkwardness goes out of the window lmao. i can also be a bit too sensitive at times, my emotions are quite strong, leading me to cry even though i definitely do not feel the need to 💀. it's humiliating honestly but i just ignore it and act like there's no tears at all. other than that i can usually push my emotions to the side and think logically, the best i can in that situation anyways

for my interests and hobbies, i like gaming and consuming fictional media, mostly manga and anime, although i don't mind other genres as well. my current hyperfixations are high&low (duh) and tokyo revengers, so u can kinda see a theme going on huh... i'm also a huge music enjoyer, i can listen to anything (except for love ballads. idk why i just can't rlly stand listening to them), but my fav genres are pop, kpop, and jpop. I'm also an actor! I'm aiming to get into the entertainment industry in the future, although my parents want me to take a more "solid" degree first just so i'm able to support myself financially (they're not wrong honestly). i think i'm pretty good at acting teehee (i'm rlly good at lying too :P).

there are many things i dislike, so many that i can't even think of any, but i guess the most important ones are discrimination like homophobia/transphobia, sexism, racism, etc. ik it seems like a no brainer, but i absolutely cannot accept a partner who does any of these. it's not that hard to be a decent human being. ive already mentioned most of the things i like up there, but others include cats, plushies, kuromi, food (i LOVE food. small stomach tho), and many more that i again cannot think of.

i hope this is enough info, lowkey feel like ive overshared so apologies for that, i've never done a matchup before 😅 thank you so much!

p.s. i love ur writing, i'm glad there's still writers like you who keep the community alive <3 thank u for all ur hard work! and sorry again for writing so much T-T

tysm for requesting, and also for the kind words :-)) and don’t apologize, more is always better for me to work with!!

I match you with… Miyauchi “Binzo” Kouzou!

Binzo prefers people who are honest and upfront about their feelings and thoughts, and doesn’t really believe in sugarcoating things, so he would like that in a partner as well. Also, if you ever picked a fight with some asshole in front of Binzo, he’d fall in love with you all over again, like holy crap he would be all heart-eyes emoji over it. Maybe unpopular opinion here, but I see Binzo as being an introverted extrovert type, so I can see the two of you balancing each other out well. Binzo is all for good action plots so he’ll definitely be down to binge some Tokyo Rev with you. Also, this dude eats like a horse (do horses eat a lot? idk), so if you like food he’ll probably take you out to eat, like, all the time.

Alternate Matches: Odajima Yuken, Tettsu

[anulithots]

i hath returned (I'm the one who asked about the difference between friendship and QPR)!

So... again if this is intrusive don't answer, but... I ❤️ listening to ppl ramble about their friends/partners and now I suppose I can add qp crushes to the list, cause I actually self destructed reading your posts about them....

Going the long way to ask if you would mind rambling more cause it's very sweet

/not forced

HELLO HELLO!!!! <3 <3 <3

youuu readd thoseee holy herbbsss /pos. Lkjalkfjaksldfadsf.asdkf.

THANk you for the ask but also... by the end of this I'm going to make it too obvious who I'm having a queer platonic crush on but IT"S OKAY... they only follow me and... umm... I don't know if they reciprocate... it's fine if they don't but also I'm too shy to ask...

aksdfjksa

In the eternal words of Norma Khan from dead end, 'her details make me happy'

(and that honestly made crushes make a whole lot more sense in my head. Queer platonic included. Autistic representation is important so that I can understand how the world works actually /hj

No but actually Extraordinary attorney Woo had the autistic MC describe her crush as 'thinking about them along with whales (her hyperfixation) and I was like... oh.

BECAUSE THAT'S DEFINETLY WHAT'S GOING ON RIGHT NOW. NEVER BEFORE HAS A REAL PHYSICAL PERSON SPENT THIS MUCH TIME IN MY HEADSPACE AND IT'S WONDEROUS ACTUALLY.)

Okay time to RANT heheh.

So this morning in fact, I made attempts at jokes in my strange sense of humor. None of my family laughed or even thought it was funny. The reason I did that? Even though I knew none of them ever liked my sillies? Because I talked to ✨the person✨ and they not only thought they were silly, but went along with the puedo-roleplay absolute ridiculousness? ANother person on this planet shares my sense of humor and i never thought that was possible ever ever ever.

And they are Hilarious and wondeorus and has the most dramatic sense of humor ever and I love it so much so much and

SO if I make a dark/self-depricating joke then others usually respond with discomfort or reassurance. Which never felt liek the right repsonse and I wondered why I kept asking them only for ✨the person✨ to laugh at it and tell me how silly I was in a silly tone and I think my heart burst.

OH and there's this little Prince quote that's like 'once you love someone you'll see them everywhere because everything will remind you of them' AND YES. HOLY HERBS YES. Sees something from a shared hyper fixation? A neurodivergence thing? Somethign from one of thier hyperfixations and it's like 'oh they would love that' and THEY DO and I can send them all sorts of random things and it's completely okay and

OH AND ALSO THEY HAVE REALLY GOOD LIKE MORALS AND THINGS AND WAY OF PRHASING THAT AND.... IDK.. why I find that so wonderous but IT IS.

Like we'd be chatting about a hyperfixation and it'd morph into a discussion on philosophy/society/suches and such and I LOVE THOSE. ANd ✨the person✨ has such nice way of phrasing those? AMazing points and it's a DISSUCSSION. BEFORE I'VE ONLY EVER INFODUMPED OR BEEN QUIET AND LISTENED BUT THIS? THIs? Back and forth disscussion? It's happiness sparkle explosion inducing.

(Also they don't mind if I vent and it's okay and they say things that make me feel a lot better and kadfjasdfjsakdf)

now I want to say a thing but it's... way too hyperspecific... hmmm... Okay I feel like I can be myself with this person. All my weird questions and comments have responses that are halrious and wonderous and it's okay if it fades into silence and it's okay to get distracted and say random things and it's okay to say sappy things kafjkasd

Also also the way their personality is. Just... hmmm how to describe.... like they act in a way that feels so genuine and.. endearing? I suppose that's the right word. Probably the right word. The way they describe situations like thunder or ladybugs or their favorite games in an overdramatic way or the way they'll say what they think and it's the truth and it's their truth. The way they like things to be semi-the same and the stories they tell and the way the write and the ideas they have. The way their mind works and they way they express those ideas and their mannerisms, what they struggle with and thier greatest strenghts is sooo wonderous and it makes me very happy to talk to them and just.... gah I wish I could know them better and be with them more often but alas.

The obligatory keyboard smash: aklfasldkfjasldkjfkdsaj klasjfklasdfj

hmmm perhaps that's enough for now /pos

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE ASK!!

[layla-kurayami52]

Your Annoying Tumblr Mutual strikes yet again !!

I'm gonna ask you a few questions :> (these are all so random lmao) (as always, feel free to ignore ^^^)

﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌

✰ how long have you been on tumblr?

✰ how did you come up with your url/username?

✰ what’s your phone’s lock screen?

✰ do you have any piercings//tattoos? (any you’d like to get?)

✰ do you wear glasses//contacts?

✰ has anyone ever told you you have a "celebrity look-alike"? if yes, who?

✰ best compliment you’ve ever gotten?

✰ are you a collector of anything in particular? If yes, what?

✰ I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD REST OF YOUR DAY AND TREAT YOURSELF AND I APPRECIATE YOU AND YES OKAY BYE FOR NOW <3

thank you for this @stvrlighhttt 💕

• i think since 2017-ish? i have south park and diabolik lovers hyperfixation at that time. i changed blog quiet often and was under the name blue for a while.

• i was heartbroken lolol.. don't know what else to explain it

• it was makima from chainsaw man

• not really unless we're talking about normal piercings for your ear. love to get tattoos/piercings more though but it is expensive here

• no, tbh i should

• not really, i don't care much about celebrities anyway

• that i was a person that generates calm comforting aura? mostly people that never sees me irl that says this bc i got that rbf and irls think i look unapproachable

• it was purely coincidental but i collect anime keychains! everytime i get a new hyperfixation on certain characters i'll buy the chibi keychains of it lol

• I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY TOO MY FRIEND 💕

[ithinkabouttzu]

I'm 5"9, with shoulder length curly hair, I have white skin and blue eyes. I am born in June and a Cancer. I'm a little on the chubbier side and very insecure about it.

For personality stuff I am the responsible, mom friend who everybody seeks advice from. I'm quiet and reserved towards people whom I don't yet know and can tend to be shy, but once I get to know that person I can be quite the loyal and passionate friend. My love language is a mixture between acts of service and physical touch.

For things I like I am VERY passionate about reading and writing. I also can get quite hyperfixated on things that interest me in the slightest. So if a person is willing to listen, I could go on for ages, rambling about anything and everything that coincides within that topic. I guess another thing to add on is I like learning languages. I'm currently learning French and had an attempt at Ukranian and Japanese in the past few years.

I'm sorry, but it's hard coming up with things about me, so I hope this is enough 🥺🥺

Thanks in advance <333

Thank you for your request sweetheart! 🩵

I ship you with…

Eugene Roe!

Song recommendation: Cornelia Street - Taylor Swift

- Okay, so I think you and him would have SUCH great chemistry together, like you and him just have this natural romantic energy towards each other and it’s great

- When he first met you he would look at you like you are the best thing he’s ever seen, you’d see him staring at you and you’d just be like “is he okay?” LOOOL

- He thinks it’s so cute when he comes up to you and you get a little shy, I mean he would never admit it to you, but he thinks it’s adorable whenever you get shy around him

- Through out the night he could tell you were getting more and more comfortable with you and he would feel so happy with you getting closer to him omg

- Hed end up asking you out for dinner by the end of the night, he hasn’t felt that good talking to someone in a longgg time, and even just meeting you and seeing how beautiful you are inside and out, he just has to ask you

- He would be so sweet planning out a date for you guys, like asking you what all your favorite things are, food, hobbies, sports, whatever you like doing, and that day he will make sure you guys do all of the stuff you like doing! He’s so thoughtful when it comes to date nights

- Both of you are the responsible couple for sureee, like you guys are the parents of the friend group and can always calm a group down when they get a little too crazy LOL

- I think he’d definitely be interested in the things you are really into if you tell him about it, he’s always got an open mind when it comes to learning about new things, so if you ever want to talk to someone about something you’ve gotten fixated on please tell him bc he is happy to hear 🤣

- He enjoys seeing you on how passionate you are for reading and writing, like he thinks it’s so fascinating how you can sit and write down 1000 words in just one sitting, it’s honestly super impressive to him

- And you know multiple languages? You honestly can’t get any cooler to him, if you ever start speaking around the house, or he sees you practicing, he will come up to you so quick and ask you how to say a word in that language, or just watch you study on it quietly, trying to learn some of it too! If anything just tell him all of the sweet pet names and cuss words in the language too and he’ll be fine 🤣

- He hates when you ever get insecure about your weight or your body in general, he will remind you over and over and over again how gorgeous you are to him and how much he loves you AND your curves. Like he can’t get enough of them tbh

- He loves seeing how passionate you can get for the people you love, like it literally makes his heart beat for you so much faster, and he just loves you so much omg, both of you have that same passion for loved ones and that’s also a reason why I think you guys would be so good together

- He thinks your blue eyes are so beautiful, like he could stare into them for hours if he wanted to, you are just so gorgeous to him in general

- Both of your love languages are acts of service so I think you guys would be so loving and caring in a relationship with each other, like helping the other out when they need it, and just being a good help to the other person, but y’all are just a good healthy couple fr

- When any couple needs some sort of advice, or if any of your friends or his need some type of relationship advice they definitely come to you guys, like y’all would be the OG couple in a friend group for sure and people would think of y’all when they think of a great relationship

- Ugh let me tell you how he loves playing with your curly hair (only if you let him ofc) But if he does, just stroking his fingers through your hair he will get so sleepy so quick, it’s just so calming and relaxing for him to do

- He can also be a big sucker for physical touch too, holding and snuggling up to you once the days over, one thing you’ll notice is that he gets extra touchy and cuddly when he’s sad or he’s had a bad day, he gets so soft around you 🥹

- Overall you guys would be the perfect significant other to one another. Like y’all just blend out so well together you can’t really explain it, both of you enjoy being with each other so much and he can’t wait to spend so much more time with you.

[bones-and-bondage]

About the Person

Hello. I uh, I am bad at these things so here's the stuff I think people might want to know if they are interacting with me.

Kysis or kysis-the-bard has been my fandom related name for years upon years. I don't have access to my fanfic account anymore, but that started my fandom writing years and years ago.

He/They Transmasc Polyam Demisexual with a strong Gay leaning.

35 but feel older than dirt. If you are under 18, please do not interact. I discuss a lot of adult themes and fucked up shit.

D&D 2nd Edition is what I've got the most experience with but I'm starting to learn and pick up 5E... as far as D&D goes. I've got a lot more time put into Deadlands Classic and had a stable in person table for years. I've also played a good amount of Shadowrun and Vampire the Masquerade (which is what my current game is).

FFXIV is my current MMO, though I don't have much time to play or RP like I used to. I sank the most time into The Secret World back in the day. I've done my time in WoW and GW2 but know jack squat about them nor do I really care.

I've been drawing since I could hold a sketchbook, since my mother unit thrust one into my hands. She's a traditional artist, traditionally trained under a famous painter, and was always judgmental AF of everything I did. I am currently using my hyperfixation on BG3 to help me get over all my past issues with drawing and start enjoying it again-- also to learn how to do digital art, since I never really put in the effort to learn it before.

Writing used to be my entire life. I got my BA in it. I was working on getting my MFA when a series of horrible events led to me moving an entire state over, changing my entire career path, and uh, not writing for many, many years. I'm trying to get back into writing again. I've missed it a lot, but I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to enjoy it like I used to.

My main employment is in the medical field, but on the side I run an occult shop and craft things used in various occult practices. I didn't grow up in Christianity, nor do I ever intend to enter it, so don't bother. This does effect how I handle polytheistic fictional environments a lot.

I've spent over 20 minutes dead at this point in my life, if you combine all the times I've experienced it over the last 35 years. Honestly, the chronic migraines I have as a trophy are not nearly as bad as it could have been, but sometimes I just can't get shit done, so never expect regular updates or for me to keep on a regular schedule.

My OCs I'll be posting about the most:

Zaelis, the Dark Urge, Baldur's Gate 3. He is a Deathstalker of Bhaal, which officially in game I tend to build him as a Gloomstalker Ranger (6)/Rogue Assassin (3)/Fighter Champion (3), however I write him also as a Cleric of Bhaal.

Doctor Lazzaro Cosimo Giovanni, Vampire the Masquerade (v20), Clan Giovanni. He worked as a medical examiner in Venice for years before he was shipped off to Madrid in a powerplay by his Sire, whom he despises. He spends more time talking to the dead than he does talking to other kindred and it shows.

Astreux Voeviere de Durendaire, FFXIV. A quiet and reserved ex-inquisitor, hiding from his past rather than reconciling with what he did during the Dragonsong War.

[daisyishedwig]

Darren Criss songs I think you should hear

These are all songs I personally have saved on my laptop and phone that I've collected over the years by ripping them off of youtube. Some of them I've had since 2011 so I cannot guarantee that they are still available.

@vistars was specifically curious about this and then I got hyperfixated on it and did more than just his original but unreleased songs. I also shared fun facts and my personal opinion on lots of the songs. Below a cut because, just like Darren, I talk a lot.

Original songs without studio recordings

Another Love Affair (Performed once at Market Days in Chicago and never performed again, but there are dozens of recordings of it on youtube, so take your pick.)

Any of Those Things (Performed on the Listen Up tour in 2013 and not performed since. Not sure which specific show I have the recording of, but there are lots of recordings from lots of shows so you might have to search for the best quality)

Categories (There is a really old recording of Darren performing this pre-Glee, so he’s largely being ignored and theres a lot of chatter over him, but I think it’s cute to see how far he’s come. He also performed it once on the Listen Up tour, so you might be able to find a better audio quality there)

High School Rock Out (Written when he was in high school, he used to perform it pretty regularly, but not so much in recent years. I usually recommend recordings from Joe’s Pub but there should be multiple recordings of it you can choose from)

The Muse (The first recording of this to exist was on some sort of student talk show at UMich, but then he also performed it at the Homework Release Party in 2017. I have them both saved, but the latter is probably “better” but the first has a lot of nostalgia)

Once Upon a Time (I fucking love this song, if there’s one song on this list I say you /have/ to listen to, it’s this one. Performed on the Listen Up Tour, same as Any of Those Things)

Pheremones (Same as Any of Those Things)

Picture Perfect (Sam as Any of Those Things)

Sophomore (A classic high school Darren song that he used to perform all the time but just doesn’t anymore, this song makes me so giddy and gets me so pumped, you have no idea)

Stutter (I recommend to version of this songs, because it’s probably my favorite Darren song even to this day. So, one is from Market Days in Chicago, it’s the easiest to find one with good quality audio and Darren also goes and has a little drum solo that’s really fun. The other one is from Joe’s Pub in 2011, there used to be a really good audio version of this but I /cannot/ find it anymore, but lesser quality ones do still exist. I love this one specifically because there’s this part where everything gets really quiet and it’s just Darren singing and then it builds and gets really intense and it just scratches my brain super well)

Words (From the Listen Up tour, same as Any of Those Things. This is the song I most think Darren would record if is ever allowed to (Pretty sure there’s weird legal issues around most of the Listen Up songs) because he did use a snippet of it in a medley during the Australia tour. Also just a fantastic song)

Original songs with studio recordings but I prefer a live version of it

Don’t You (From the Human EP but I really like the live performance from the Homework Release Party in LA in 2017)

Human (From the Human EP, same as Don’t You)

I Don’t Mind (He performed this for the first time as a bonus song on the Listen Up tour. I don’t necessarily prefer this version, but I have a lot of nostalgia for it since we didn’t get a studio recording for another four years)

Jealousy (From the Human EP, same as Don’t You)

Not Alone (From the Human EP, same as Don’t You. But also, Darren did record a fully orchestrated version at one point, but for legal reasons was not able to release it normally. So instead he sold tshirts and sweaters with Not Alone lyrics on them and sent the song out as a “free gift”. I don’t know if anyone has uploaded this version to youtube, but if you can get your hands on it, it is very good)

Sami (From the Human EP, same as Don’t You)

Covers of songs performed live that I highly recommend

Cabaret from Cabaret (Performed at Elsie Fest multiple years, I personally think 2016’s is the best, but you can search around if you like. For anything coming from Elsie Fest, I highly recommend looking up Jenn the Broadway nerd, she always has the best audio quality)

Color with Todrick Hall (Performed at Elsie Fest in 2016)

Drive It Like You Stole It from Sing Street (Performed at Elsie Fest in 2016)

Falling Slowly with Lea Michele (Performed on the LMDC tour in 2018, performed at every stop so there will be lots of options to choose from)

Frank Sinatra Medley with Michael Feinstein (Performed at a New Years celebration, but I forget what year, really fun little mashup though)

If I Were a Rich Man from Fiddler on the Roof (He did this series of performances in 2016 (I think) with Seth Rudetsky and he performed this a couple of different times during those.)

Middle of a Moment from James and the Giant Peach (I think this was performed at some sort of UMich event, but I’m not sure. There was once a fan recording of it, but now I’m pretty sure the only version that exists is one where he’s noticeably been autotuned. Still cute, but not quite as live as I would like)

Midnight Radio from Hedwig and the Angry Inch (Performed at Elsie Fest in 2019 with Lena Hall and John Cameron Mitchell, I was there, I cried, and I will forever have extreme nostalgia for this performance)

Opening Doors from Merrily We Roll Along (Performed this with Jeremy Jordan and America Ferrera for Six by Sondheim many years ago. Not a live performance, but also not available to purchase or listen outside of youtube and HBO)

Part of This World from The Little Mermaid (He’s sung this a lot, the specific version I recommend is from a performance at Joe’s Pub in 2011. There’s this weird audio glitch at one point that makes him sound like he’s underwater for a little bit and his response to it is really cute)

Proud of Your Boy from Aladdin (He performs this on a special feature for the special edition of Aladdin that was released a while back. But you can also find it on youtube)

Sincerely Me from Dear Evan Hansen (Performed at Elsie Fest in 2018 with Grant Gustin and Will Roland)

Teenage Dream by Katy Perry (Darren has his own arrangement of Teenage Dream that he’s been performing since 2013 and it is an absolutely stunning arrangement. My favorite recording of it is from Elsie Fest in 2016)

Unconditionally by ???? (Performed with Mia Phirrman at Trevor Live on year)

Wait For It from Hamilton (Performed at Elsie Fest in 2019)

Waving Through A Window from Dear Evan Hansen (Performed at Elsie Fest in 2019)

Your Song by Elton John (I have no idea where he was when he sang this, but it appears to be a party and he’s just jamming at a piano and if feels very chill and Darren)

Starkid things

Goin’ Back to Hogwarts from A Very Potter Musical (Specifically the version performed at Azkatraz in 2009. This was the first time Darren ever heard fans singing his lyrics back at him and he gets so emotional it’s so sweet)

I Still Think from Little White Lie (Can be found on spotify, I just really want to make sure everyone knows this song exists because I adore it)

It’s Over Now from Little White Lie (Someone took the version from the album that was pitched to sound like Nick Lang was singing an pitched it back down to be recognizably Darren’s voice, can be found on youtube)

Status Quo from Starship (Performed on the Apocalyptour, you can find a lot of fan recordings of this and other songs he sang on both Apocalyptour and Space Tour but there’s also a really nice profession recording of specifically this song on youtube. Also, if you haven’t watched the Space Tour version of Goin’ Back to Hogwarts from the night Darren was there, you need to because it’s fucking adorable)

To Have a Home from A Very Potter Sequel (I have a really strong soft spot from this song, so anytime he performs it live I have to listen. My favorite is from the Homework Release Party in 2017)

We Don’t Wanna Be Sued (When AVPM (then called HP the Musical) was first posted on youtube, Starkid faced the possibility of being sued for copyright infringement. So they removed it, edited it, and reuploaded it later once they’d gotten everything figured out. In the meantime, they posted a video explanation of why the show was gone, and at the end, Darren came in and sang a song)

[masterjedilenawrites]

Hi, wondering if you're still doing the blind date thing? My name is Revan, I use they/them pronouns, and I'm an INTP-T and an 8w7. I love loud techno music, small shiny objects, archery, and talking philosophy with people. I'm more into a person's brain than their physical appearance.

I'm tall (just a hair under 6ft) and pretty curvy. I don't like people very much, so I prefer to stick to myself, though if I find a person I actually like, you can not shut me up about whatever my current hyperfixation is.

I like women. All women. Women pretty. Especially evil women, though I don't care either way.

Ooh hoo hoo, I think I have just the woman for you, though I've needed some time to convince her to try this out. Hopefully the wait was worth it.

Your date is...

✨Asajj Ventress!✨

Asajj is both gorgeous and wickedly smart. She'll strut into the restaurant to meet you with swaying hips and her head held high. Her face, however, will sport a kind of grimace and her eyes will be narrowed in suspicion. She will never be caught dead admitting it, but I know for a fact this will be the first date she's ever gone on. She does't know what to expect and that secretly terrifies her.

If you picked a quiet table in the back, and maybe prepped the waiter ahead of time to not bother you guys as much, she'll be more at ease. Launch into some conversation about philosophy or your experiences with archery/anything athletic, and she'll be distracted enough from her cynical thoughts to maybe even have a good time. She also wouldn't mind if you took the date elsewhere, maybe to an actual archery range or to a club with some beats to vibe out to. Conversations bore her after a while so she'll appreciate being able to do an activity together.

This may have been an unconventional date, and you may have wondered at times whether her snarky comments were a sign that she didn't like you or if she was just struggling with her insecurities. It won't be until you are saying goodbye that she honestly tells you she'd like to do this again sometime. It will likely take several dates to see her easygoing side, the one that is just a bit softer, not as uptight, and that likes to please and will be comfortable enough to be doted on in return.

✨

Want to be set up on a blind date with a Star Wars character?

[altruistic-meme]

I’ve been stalking your page ever since finishing the latest chapter of (why is there) joy in this poison and FINALLY SOMEONE WHO IS OBSESSED WITH YR AND AFTG.

It’s funny seeing crossovers between fandoms and I like to keep my blog quiet between my many indulgences and hyperfixations but omg!!! I’ve loved both of these series for so long and to see some one as joyed about them as me is so neat!

in all honesty I came here to gush about your writing, how I really enjoy what you made and continue to make for the aftg universe! the way you write Andrew specifically is so unique and defiently made me re-read his lines and certain chapters because they’re just that GOOD! And to see a relationship between Kevin and Neil that’s so near and dear- is so refreshing- I love how much love they have for each other! And DONT GET ME STARTED ON THE ANDREIL MOMENTS!! Ugh the trust those two already have and continue to show each other in such a short amount of time (truly a feat for sir “walls” Andrew Minyard) has me on the edge of my seat for every and all chapters! And who isn’t a slut for sassy Neil really. That kid could trash talk anyone into the ground and I’d be applauding him the entire time!

Thank you truly for the lovely fic weather you choose to continue it or not, I have been blessed either way and definitely will check out your other fics! I’ve got my eye on I’ve Got You, Brother its seem like such a fantastic concept and you’ve got to love some older brother bonding!

Anyway- sorry for my rambling, just thought I’d come and sing your praises and if you see me lurking in your mentions here and comments on Ao3 from now on, don’t mind me!

hi omg ;;; i hope you know this got neither lost nor ignored, ive just been thinking about it nonstop for the last 2 weeks and have wanted to keep it close and easy to reread so i could cry over it

bc um basically AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ya know?

this is so so so incredibly sweet of you!!!!!! like i said ive reread this so many times in the last 2 weeks bc it's just. i cant form words even now, rereading it to reply.

YES aftg and yr are both SO good and im always glad to find more people who like them both!! (and there are a few of us out there! i am certainly not innocent of convincing more than one of my yr friends to read aftg and i will never apologize 😌) but they are both such big big parts of me now <3

thank you so so much for reading (wit)jitp!!! ;;;;; that fic means so so much to me and i swear to you i have no plans of abandoning it, ive just been kind of hitting walls in writing (though slowly ive been finding cracks, and hopefully i can convince the walls to crumble) but i have too many plans to give up now >:] there's still so much in store. you barely even know Nathaniel's plans 😩

SOBBING AGAIN OVER THE PARAGRAPH HERE BTW i am truly awestruck bc i was so so nervous about writing Andrew bc he's such a hard character for me to understand, and to hear your thoughts on him was so amazing for my self-esteem!! (it is also the easiest way to make me scream and cry, to compliment my characterization, since im almost always worried about it but i digress skdhg)

Kevin and Nathaniel's relationship is also something that i could scream for hours about but let me say it has been AMAZING seeing how many people love their love for each other and i will forever be ecstatic to hear it ;;;; and Andrew and Nathaniel!!! two very traumatized boys finding trust in each other bc they both have the same values and can find common ground (and comfort!) with each other where no one else will. ;;;;

also we stan a sassy Neil, you are SO RIGHT literally who wouldn't be a slut for sassy Neil. he deserves more sass, imho.

also omg thank you for giving my other fics a look, too ;;; I've Got You, Brother is definitely a good choice for some brotherly bonding, that's the main focus of the story after all :] (though im debating some ideas which won't feature Wille at all, we'll see how it goes) i definitely need to work on that one as well >>

you never need to apologize for rambling btw!! i love rambles :D (as you can probably tell bc i also rambled... a lot, whoops) but always feel free to send me asks or messages with any and all of your thoughts <3

thank you so so so so so much for this, and for reading my stories, and for being an amazing person!!

[fishstikart]

I LOVE SONIC ADVENTURE

**What the thing I like is:**

Sonic adventure 1 for the Dreamcast

Not any of the ports, they all make the game worse

I like all the games that came before it, but sa1 is what I’ve really connected with

**Why I like it:**

-so first of all, I’ve been playing every sonic game in release date order. So I have the context of the entire series to this point. Where the creators were at, the state of the industry at the time, and the evolution of the gameplay. It added a lot to my experience of this game

- It came out in 1999 and was a technical breakthrough! At the time 3D games were new tech so everyone was working in a brand new medium and just seeing what worked. And for Sonic, 3D had never looked this good or played so well.

-becuase of this, the game feels kinda like a showcase of what sega can do with 3D. They tried a bunch of stuff and did amazing with all of it! Back in the 90’s sega was always pushing the industry forward and this game was their biggest leap yet

-so yeah like I said this game is just really fun and diverse. You can play as 6 different characters that are all really interesting and fun. The sonic levels are the best, they’re all cool, fast, fun, and cinematic. And then you can play a bunch of the same levels as the other characters but they control so different it might as well be totally new!

-the game also has a really good story. Each character is doing their own thing and we get to see the parts where they overlap. So many of them, when you play the first time as sonic, make no sense but then you finally unlock the new character and everything gets way cooler.

Again, they were showing everything they can do with the new medium. Sonic’s story is cool and fun and cinematic. And E-102”y”’s story is the saddest thing I’ve ever seen. And again tail’s story is such a sweet coming of age story! They’re all so incredible

-the atmosphere is amazing. The Dreamcast can do such specific things with lighting and they use it so well. There are gorgeous sunsets, quiet nights, cloudy days, it never ends. There are so many areas that are nice to just sit back and soak in. Especially since the music goes harder than anything I’ve ever heard. The game will do anything for the vibes.

-one of the most impressive things to me is that it still feels like a classic sonic game just in 3D. Like Sonic has always been trying to tell stories and be cinematic they just were able to go hard with this game. And Sonic has always had multiple playable characters they just went crazy with it in this game. Same with atmosphere, and gameplay and music. It’s all still what makes sonic sonic just in 3D and with the most love they could put into it.

-you can also tell how much the people working on Sonic love this world. Not only becuase of the love put into the entire game. But there’s a lot of funny and cute pictures of the team having so much fun behind the seens

-I really like the message of this game too. Or at least the one I got from it. When other things tell me to “be myself” I kinda roll my eyes, but in this game they dont shove it in your face they just show it to you. Each of the characters is cool and awesome because of the things that make them different. Playing the game I could literally feel how their differences are their strengths. 3 of the characters have stories about learning to be more independent cool people! “You are cool and powerful! Be yourself at any cost!”

-this game just never stops giving. I keep finding out new things about it. There’s so many clever details and hidden treats to find.

I could keep talking but this is the best I can put it into words rn.

**How much I like it:**

MORE THAN ANYTHING

This hyperfixation isn’t just about The little blue man, it’s about everything he respresents!

This is literally the perfect game. Unification of every element to make an experience like no other.

I’ve always wanted the things I make to feel like this game.

I want to make beautiful things, but even if I never do it’s okay becuase Sonic Adventure exists. ^-^

[whisperfeather]

‘Hange, I’ll give you permission to talk to the girl. But under no circumstances are you to scare her. Keep things professional.’

Hange sat back down in their office with a bit stupid grin on their face.

A human from outside the walls, and they would get to meet her! It was like a dream come true for the titan hyperfixation scientist.

They took out a paper and some ink to start writing down on a little slip of paper; wanting to diligently track what would go down.

‘6:23 AM: I am currently writing this from my desk. I want to have a sheet of paper or two in order to write down and document all of my findings! We have as of yesterday found a human being that claims to have survived amongst titans! This could really help humanity, and we can learn so much about the titans!! I know my official meeting with this girl is hours from now but I can’t get my mind off of it. After all, a good scientist is always thinking, preparing for their next big piece of work!’

It was safe to say Hange didn’t sleep the night before out of pure excitement; which wasn’t out of character for them. And even so, they weren’t tired at all that day.

‘9:57 AM: the meeting is about to happen in just minutes! I just can’t wait to meet this special specimen!’

‘10:05 AM: I was honestly expecting a more.. intimidating appearance? But nothing ever ends up how you expect in this line of work, so it’s no big deal. I’ve already gotten her name down. I'm not exactly sure how much she will be willing to share, so I’ll just have to write down what I’m able to get!’

‘10:30 AM: she finally spoke! Her voice is very quiet, it fits her name perfectly! This girl claims her name is ‘Whisper Feather’ which I already knew. It is a strange name but nothing in this situation actually makes much sense. After that she went quiet again. But she’s giving me little nods! I’ve gotten some nods to my questions. What I’ve gotten so far from her is that she doesn’t exactly know the amount of time she has lived and isn’t sure about her exact age. She does know her whole life was spent outside the walls, and has no knowledge of what the walls even are. This is truly something new, considering the only other documented case of a human outside the walls was Grisha Jegar, and even he knew what the walls were and how dangerous titans are! I have to assume she can’t be quarillated with him in any way, though it’s a good thought to keep in mind.’

“So, Whisper. You claim you lived with a titan, correct?”

The frail girl gave Hange a nod but nothing else, staying silent as her good eye remained focused on the floor. She seemed fearful, her body language tense. Hange quickly scribbled down it seemed as if she felt intimidated and or scared of people. It made the scientist wonder what she has been through.

“Wonderful! Do you have any clear memory of this titan? Is it what caused your scars?”

That question quickly caught the young girls attention as she snapped her head up to look right back at Hange with wide eyes.

“W.. What..? Why would Mara hurt me like that..? She would never..”

Whisper seemed distraught by the mention of someone even thinking this ‘Mara’ titan could cause her harm. Which was something Hange also quickly noted down.

‘10:45 AM: I think I found some sort of breakthrough! Whisper won’t talk much about anything unless it has to do with this ‘Mara’ titan. It seems like a good starting point. Though I want to pry about her scar and also the fact that titans are known for hurting people, I don’t want to scare her off or shut her down. So for now, I will stay open minded. I'm sure Levi will have all of that scolding and teaching down for her anyways. Whisper told me vague things, such as ‘16 meters’ ‘blonde’ and ‘skinny’ which isn’t too much to go off of. But it really is something considering how little she speaks. It’s hard to keep myself professional right now, this whole thing is so exciting! But the commander gave me specific instructions to not scare her.. so I have to hold my feelings in for now. I'm sure Molbit will listen to my rambles once I’m done.’

‘11:06 AM: my session with Whisper Feather ended not too long ago. I wasn’t able to get much more out of the girl but by god did I get more than enough! Hopefully she liked me, because me and her are going to be working together a lot from now on.’

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‘8:34 PM: I wanted to go check up on how Whisper was settling in for the night. She had to be kept hidden away from others in an isolated room in order to keep others safe and keep her existence hidden. I peeked in a bit ago only to find her curled up on her bed, clinging onto the pillow. It seemed like she was crying and it takes no genius to tell she’s in a horrible headspace currently. I went to try and talk to her but she was unresponsive. I hope she gets some rest.’

[mcrcki]

Was that [GRACE VAN DIEN]? Oh no no, that was just [ELAIN ARCHERON], a [CANON CHARACTER] from [A COURT OF THORNS AND ROSES]. They are [TWENTY TWO] years old, use [SHE/HER], and [ARE] aware that they are not actually from Washington DC. Too bad they can’t stray from this city for long.

how long has your character been here -

a little over six months. elain is not someone who handles big changes well, so this has been ?? a lot but she has started to settle in thanks to the help of her family

what is your character’s job -

she helps run a bakery!

where has your character been pulled from in their fandom -

elain is pulled from the end of a court of silver flames!

has any magic affected your character -

nope! elain is the same elain as always, honestly, she’s been changed enough from magic she is not looking to get her memories or anything else messed with again, thank you so much!!!

other notes -

damn do i love a soft vibe tragic backstory bitch, this time in faerie form! so original!! anyways, elain is my angel and i don’t want to hear anything bad about her ever thank you so much goodnight – pls enjoy me info dumping the current hyperfixation

elain is the middle child of the archeron family, having always been closer to her older sister nesta in comparison to her younger sister feyre. their mother always claimed elain was going to marry for her looks and for love, her family constantly putting a lot of weight into her appearance for that

she’s always found some sort of peace and quiet in gardening however, though her love of baking didn’t come till later. tending to her garden was one of the few things that elain still had control over, when everything else in the archeron life was falling apart

she and her father are the only ones who are affected by tamlin’s glamour once he takes feyre to prythian.

this girl is just so kind, she is sad over the death of a like great aunt that literally never existed but she is still bummed about it

just wanted to travel the world and see flower festivals with feyre and enjoy their lives together and then so much shit goes wrong so fucking fast !!!!! so–

ok at this point im going into spoilers for a court of mist and fury and beyond so anyone reading don’t read on !! all you gotta know is this is a sweet summer child and i would die for her

during acomaf elain is engaged to a human boy, the son of a lord who just absolutely hates faeries. homeboy is like a doomsday prepper but for faeries invading the mortal lands. so ofc when feyre comes back with just a whole fucking group of faeries, elain is understandably a little worried and she doesn’t want it to get back to her fiancé. she stuck around for the meeting though and honestly good for her, she is loyal as hell and we love her for that

and then she’s just kinda gone until the end of that book when she and nesta are fucking kidnapped and forcibly made into faeries by being thrown into the cauldron by the king of hybern, to literally just prove a fucking point, to make it clear that it can do that!!! (there is so much more during these scenes that i dont want to explain bc again spoilers but damn the end of that book is a nightmare of drama)

anyways, elain is tossed into the cauldron like a sack of potatoes and just dumped onto the fucking floor, having gone through possibly the most traumatic thing anyone could really go through and light of my life, dumb bitch #1 lucien really looks at her and goes “you’re my mate” like my love, some tact. time and place

i love lucien don’t get me wrong , just that line in the midst of everything?? what a time

mor takes the sisters away from hybern, hides them up (i think up at their cottage???) , when feyre goes back to the spring court with tamlin. enter the poor way all of prythian handles trauma –

(literally is no one in all of this faerie or human lands a fucking therapist , pls can we get the sisters to talk to ANYONE)

ok a court of wings and ruin – elain has gone almost completely nonverbal with grief and ptsd and very poor adjustments!!! except for some weird freaky cryptic comments that everyone just looks at her like “ok honey let’s go back to bed”

she has not accepted her change into fae, and spends like weeks just crying and talking about her upcoming wedding to greyson. like genuinely, all i want to do is hug this woman she needs a good hug. esp cause, while again i love him, lucien is not helping matters like at all. he’s doing so much, and it’s just.. buddy pls some space (i would love a lucien tho so they can maybe one day talk about their shit together)

either way, elain is finally starting to talk a little bit, but again it’s that cryptic shit, that after a few weeks of it, the only person who seems to actually understand what’s going on is azriel! shoutout to you az! cause surprise, the cauldron made my girl a seer!!! and she is so afraid !!!!

anyways, she starts to kind snap out of it once there is a name for what’s going on, once people start realizing that she isn’t like.. out of it, just seeing the future. she starts to bake with nuala and cerridwen– the two maids rhys employees. literally that is one of the biggest things that pulls elain out of this mess of grief that’s in her mind. it’s still her solace even now, baking is where things make sense for her. she loves gardening, but there is something about baking that just clears her mind like nothing else.

eventually the inner circle makes their way to greyson and his family’s estate for the express purpose of trying to get them to agree to take in human refugees in the upcoming war. they glamour elain so that she still appears human but my boy jurian is out here being a bigger gossip than the suriel and already told them everything. greyson like screams in elain’s face to end their engagement (and i became a nesta stan in that moment ty for slapping the shit out of that boy)

losing greyson for good really set elain back off on the bad path of nonverbal constant crying. she barely leaves the war tents, only moves outside of them when the camp has to move, and is just going through a terrible heartbreak like pls can she catch a singular break!!!!!

she sure fucking cant!! bc she gets kidnapped by the cauldron and taken into the heart of hybern’s camp almost immediately after!!!!!!!!!!! again shoutout to azriel for just jumping right in for that rescue mission with feyre , you’re a superstar.

so war happens , elain stays mostly out of it thank god, she is not a fighter. but i will die on the hill that she deserves recognition for killing the king of hybern!! ik nesta cut off his head but elain is the reason nesta was still alive!!!!! to do it!!!!! she is the person who stabbed him first!!!!!! and she deserves that title just as much as her sister!!!!!!!

elain and her sisters lose their father in the fight, and while elain is in mourning , she goes to visit the memorial spot that feyre had created for him quite often. but she returns to velaris with her friends, her new family and is honestly, pretty well adjusted by the end of it, like she’s really coming out of this on the other side doing pretty well all things considered.

for the novella – elain’s visions are mostly gone, she is adjusting well, honestly she’s just vibing, baking and hanging out with the twins, there’s a lot of like innerworkings of her relationships between lucien and azriel and pls don’t ask me who i ship her with i simply do not know and would rather her just be happy with no man before she gets stuck in something for centuries

ok final bit i promise i know my intros are always disgustingly long but a court of silver flames!!!! this is where i’m pulling elain from

the last thing that elain remembers from home is feyre and rhys telling the inner circle that they’re expecting, and her fight with nesta at the house. she remembers nesta snapping at her over their father’s death, when elain wanted nothing more than to just check on her sister, to make sure she was adjusting well. she left the house crying, having thought the training with cassian was supposed to be helping nesta but, she is more skeptical than ever.

here in dc, elain is definitely going to be like, relieved to find people that she knows, will be settling in with her bakery once she is .. adjusted. she doesn’t handle change super well so it’s gonna take some time before she feels confident in the city but i cannot wait until we are at that point

update as of 12/12/23 :

elain has drunkenly eloped with a certain fox boy fae :)) she and lucien have accepted their bond and now are living in some fairytale bliss for a little while before reality crashes down around them, considering the absolute fucking nightmare her family has found themselves in

connections :

✩ friends!!

honestly please just be her friend , she is such a kind soul and will look after you and be the sweetest person, i just think she would do really well with a group of friends that like lift her up and are more high energy than her, just good vibes

✩ employees

once she opens her bakery, she’s gonna need people to come work for her so :)))

✩ maybe someone she could nanny for

i think while she is getting used to the city and settling in she might try to pick up some odd jobs here and there before she settles into owning a whole bakery and i think she’d like the idea of helping people like that

✩ someone to help her adjust

like a guide to dc kinda vibe, someone that can explain the modern world, help her out so she doesn’t feel like she is burdening her family by having them have to like walk her through all of this

✩ trauma bonding buddies

someone wanna talk about their issues with her and provide a safe space so she can finally talk about her own shit!! thanks sm !!!

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Alright here's a Rise request for you! (Bc I also am hyperfixating rn lol)

So movie Casey is from the future right? How would the turtles/April react to him revealing that reader (their crush who they haven't confessed to yet) is their spouse in the future? (also slight angst bc reader is most likely gone which Casey might reveal later)

A/n: You guys are coming up with such great prompts! And I will get to all of them this just took so long for me to write because I kinda procrastinated.

I also couldn't think of anything for April so I skipped her but I'll add her in once I think of something so don't worry.

Genre: One-shots, Fluff, A tiny bit of crack

The air seemed tense, nobody moved from their spots in the tank, nobody dared to speak. Your gaze was fixated on the road ahead, Krang tentacles had been wrapped around any possible surface, there was no place safe, everything had been overtaken. You felt yourself slowly begin to loosen your muscles, taking in a deep breath as you realized you’d been holding your breath through the whole drive.

No doubt there was worry clouding everyone's mind, leaving a tense feeling of bitterness. You didn’t blame them at all. But still it was so strange seeing all of them so upset, scared, and even angry. You wanted to do something for them, just to get their minds off everything. There was no harm in trying to lighten the mood a bit right? Well at least what you decided 

You thought for a moment, could you say? You didn’t want to come off as insensitive, like you weren’t taking the situation seriously. What was something that would distract them for a couple of seconds? Then it came to you, you smiled as you began to speak up.

“So Casey, you're from the future right?” you asked the grin still present on your face.

Casey turned to you his focused expression shifted to one of confusion as he quirked an eyebrow at you not really sure where you were taking this.

“Well I was just curious. Could you tell me a little bit about the future?” you asked, glancing at Casey. This didn’t seem to spark too much curiosity amoungst the brothers though, much to your dismay. That was until Casey started speaking. 

Leo

“Well after you get married to Master Leo…”

Your eyes grow wide, you nearly gave yourself whiplash from how fast you turned to face the black haired male beside you. “What?” you said with a slight bit of urgency.

“When do we get married?” Leo pipes up from the back genuinely curious.  

“I didn’t actually get to ask, before well…” Casey trails off his face contouring into a sour expression as he shifts his gaze back to the road ahead of him. 

The tank goes silent for a moment before Casey speaks up again. 

“Well, I can still tell you what he did tell me.” Casey grins. 

“Master Leo used to always gush about you whenever he had the chance, talking about how sweet you were. Especially how cute you were.” Casey added 

 Leo feels his face begin to heat up as a dorky smile spreads across his face. You and him? Married? Sure he’d flirt with you here and then but he never thought he’d actually ever have the chance to ask you out.

You giggled as you could hear Donnie groaning in the backseat as Mikey began to coo at Leo lightly teasing him.

You looked back and for a split second you’d looked Leo in the eyes. You immediately looked away feeling extremely embarrassed considering everything that Casey had just told you. The tank suddenly came to a stop, and everyone went silent.

One by one everyone began exiting the tank. You took a deep breath as you began to walk out, that was before a firm hand on your shoulder pulled you back causing you to let out a quiet yelp.

You were suddenly turned around to meet Leo’s uncharacteristically stern gaze. “Is something wrong?” you ask immediately concerned for the blue clad turtle. 

Leo's head dropped for a second before he sighed, bringing it back up to look at you with his signature smile on his face. “I don’t know what’s going to happen out there but I want you to stay safe.” he said his voice firm as he spoke. Suddenly you felt yourself being pulled into Leo as your lips were met with his cold ones.

Your eyes widened for a moment before you closed them leaning into Leo's embrace. Before he pulled away. Offering you his trademark smile before walking out of the tank. Leaving you there face bright red.

Donnie

“Once you guys got married…” Casey was cut off as Leo spoke up from the back.

“Wait wait, hold up. You're telling me, my baby brother Donnie.”

“We’re the same age Nardo…” Leo clasped a hand over Donnie's mouth to silence his protest as Leo continued his teasing as Donnie pushed his blue brother off of him.

“Actually managed to ask someone out? I didn’t know you had any sort of romantic charm.” Leo grinned as he continued pestering his already humiliated brother. 

Casey spoke up.“He actually ends up being the one flustered by his S/o.” Casey states bluntly. Leo bursts out laughing, deciding to take another jab at his twin as Mikey jumps in too, teaming up against his purple brother. Much to Donnie's dismay. “Aw, come one Leo cut Donnie some slack.” Raph said

This was not how he planned to confess to you at all. Shrinked up, in the back of a hot smelly tank surrounded by his ignorant brothers. He was imagining something more romantic.

You and him, sitting on a rooftop looking down at all of the lights and people. And then Donnie would confess to you. Not like this, nothing like this.

Meanwhile you were still struggling to grasp Casey's blunt response. Sure Donnie had always treated you with a special kindness he didn’t treat anyone else with, and yeah sure he would ask you to stay with him at night to keep him company while he worked on something, it didn’t really mean anything when he would constantly compliment you on your skills and talents. Oh. Oh. 

How could you be so dense? All of the signs were pointing to the fact that Donnie had a crush on you, how could you not see it?

You spoke over Leo and Mikeys teasing remarks. Hoping to comfort Donnie just a little bit.

“Well I think it’s sweet Donnie.” you spoke sincerely as the purple turtle felt himself wanting to shrink away from all of this tournament. You let a stupid grin spread across your face as your mind drifts to a domestic future with Donnie. As you shifted into living out this sudden fantasy.

Your daydream was broken as the breaks of the tank were slammed on. “We're here.” Casey said, opening the door to the tank. As he and his brothers began to walk out Donnie called to you. 

You turned around now facing Donnie as he continued to desperately avoid your gaze. You smiled at him.

“Yeah Donnie?” you asked as Donnie took a deep breath in before speaking. 

“I wanted to apologize on behalf of my brothers.” he spoke firmly as he finally gained the courage to meet your gaze. You smiled leaning up to peck him on the cheek as you took his hand leading him out of the tank. “Come on, we're going to fall behind the others!” you said dragging the flustered brother behind you. 

Mikey

“Well, You and Mikey get married a couple years after all of this happens.” Casey says with ease. You can hear Mikey gasp from the back. As his face lights up with joy. 

Leaning over to Casey with a glimmer in his eyes as he begins to shower poor Casey questions.

“Really?! Me and Y/n?” he exclaims happily not even trying to hide the fact this new revelation has the orange turtle captivated. 

Casey chuckles as he takes a glance at Mikey before continuing.

“Yeah, you and Y/n.” he states again as Mikeys face lights up with joy you can’t help but beam with excitement as well. 

“When do we get married?” you asked curiously, Casey turns to face you humming in thought before he answers your question. 

“I think in the middle of October,” he says. Mikey hasn’t finished his celebration as he continued to dance around in the back.

You laugh at his antics before he turns to you, pulling you up from your seat to dance with him. He takes your hands in his and with a laugh he spins you around pretending to dip you as he pulls you back up. You giggled as he struggled to pull you back up.

Donnie pretends to gag from behind you as Leo rolls his eyes playfully, as he watches you two dance happily. 

“Can you believe we're going to get married?!” Mikey exclaimed his smile growing as he spoke 

You shook your head playfully. You hear Raph chuckle at his little brother as he walks out of the tank.

“Alright lover boy, time to go.” Donnie said, pushing past you as he exited the tank. 

“You're just jealous Dee!” Mikey retorted, sticking his tongue out as he rested his hands on his hips. 

“Yeah yeah.” Leo says walking out as Casey follows. You smile as Mikey takes your hand confidently as he turns to you grinning. 

“Come on! Future spouse.” you chuckled following him out of the tank. 

Raph

“You and Raph get married a little after…all of this.” he pauses before continuing waving his hand around to emphasize what he was talking about. Your eyes widened at the mention of Ralph's name. You hear Raph cough awkwardly from the back, before he speaks up shyly.

“Me and Y/n?” he asks, unsure of what he had just heard.

Casey nodded in reply. You could feel yourself trying to avoid Raphs gaze as you fixated your vision on the road outside. It was obvious you and Raph were very shy about this new information. You hear Leo whisper something to Raph before Raph's face was covered in a crimson red, his mask practically disappearing on his face before he turned to his brother quietly scolding him. 

“Oh Y/n, There's something Raphs been dying to tell you.” Leo cooed from the back seat as you turned around in confusion. Raph turned to Leo again, his brows furrowed together.

“Shut up Leo!” said hitting his brother lightly as the blue turtle continued to laugh. 

“Oh come on Raph you know you want to.” Mikey jumped in teasing his brother as Raph's face grew red again in embarrassment. 

“Not you too Mikey!” he groaned, putting his head in his hands. You giggled softly at the sight.  

Raph was always so sweet to you, always treating you with kindness and respect, you're sure that if he had something to tell you it wouldn’t be as big a deal as Mikey and Leo were making it out to be. 

You walked back to Raph crouching down as you softly removed his hands from his face. 

“Raph, you can tell me anything, I won’t freak out I promise.” you smiled reassuringly as he looked away embarrassed. Raph sighed.

“Okay here it goes. Y/n will you go out with me?” now it was your turn to be embarrassed you looked away. Before nodding softly, turning back to Raph with a shaky smile. 

“I’d love to.” Raph’s eyes widened as Leo and Mikey cheered in the background.

“Can I kiss you?” Raph asked meekly, avoiding your eyes. You nodded shyly. 

Raph gently cupped your face before giving you a quick peck on the lips. Leaving you both embarrassed as hell.

As the tank came to a stop Raph rose up offering you a hand which you gladly took.

“Alright guys let's go.” Raph said as a confident smiled spread across his face