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vinnayyyyyyy idk if anyone has asked you before but what are your post canon visions for all the surviving characters??
HIIII umm let me pull some thoughts out of my beautiful mind.
The only thing i have really ever ruminated on is the idea of Jacobi showing up at Minkowski’s house after disappearing off the face of the earth for several months and forcefully moving in on her couch. Minkowski who is in the process of trying to heal her relationship with her husband who thought she was fucking Dead and who is going through a Lot because that healing process comes with realizing just how much she has to tell him about what she Did up there and then Jacobi, one of the guys who was greatly impacted by the things Minkowski Did, shows up like hey lol. Im here to be your reoccurring sitcom side character.
i think Jacobi shows up to her place because he’s incredibly aimless without si-5 work and without Kepler to follow around like a lost dog. He absolutely guilts her into it because he Knows that she feels bad about Maxwell and i think his lost dog schtick really nails home how much hes lost and she feels responsible for his aimlessness on earth. And also in a weird way his anger towards Minkowski is also a memory of Maxwell and that all funnels together into a weird brain concoction of feelings that make him feel very Attached to Minkowski, even if he doesn’t like her.
Any other characters are a lot more vague in my mind. I have absolutely no clue what they would do with Hera and her supergiant supercomputer brain but through the power of “dont worry about it” maybe they just turn her into a home security system or something. I don’t think she’d like it but they don’t have much for other options.
I think a lot about Eiffel’s memory loss and. While i dont Like it. If i had to play in the space with it, i feel like Eiffel should regain those memories. And, playing into the fact that Doug Eiffel is a coward, i think it would be interesting if him regaining his memories on earth had to be an intentional process that he had to work through in order to gain those memories. Because then there is the possibility of him realizing more and more about who he is and having to wrestle with the idea of just taking the cowards way out and continuing to forget. Forget what happened, forget everything he did, forget why he was ever sent up to orbit wolf 359, and just move on as this new version of himself instead of having to address the person he is. Could be fun. Could be silly. I envision him and Hera wandering around his mindscape (dont ask me how they have the resources to jack her in there) and idk i think it could be interesting to play with the visuals of actively having to go find your memories in your mind.
lovelace…. Lovelace…… i want good things for her. I do not know if they would come to her easy back on earth. I feel she would be very restless. I think she would go hard into no-contact, no way to track her down, disappearing to a beach off the coast of nowhere for a while to decompress after four years of the torture labyrinth. I think that has mixed results and has the capacity to tip over into just pure isolation. After some time maybe she wraps back around to keep in touch with Eiffel to make sure he’s doing okay and then just keeping in touch with the others over time. But i think shes going to need a lot of support once she gets down there.
and this is all without really considering any Goddard related nonsense. I think a post-canon wolf 359 has the capacity to just delve into More Story Happening. I think Lovelace should plan to infiltrate Goddard futuristics to literally blow it up from the inside. That could be a fun spinoff series. But thats its own entire thought process and im just looking at this through a pov of “what if they were returning back to normal lives on earth”
#paragraphs BLAST.#asks :0]#wolf 359#yelling. screaming even :0]#No thoughts here about Pryce sorry I really don’t know …#Any thoughts I would have for her would definitely lean more into wolf 359 spinoff territory
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youll never guess who’s here to ramble about stickers and kayne,,, its me if you didnt guess
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I GOT MY STICKERSSASZASAASSSSSSSSSSSS HEHEHHE 💥💥💥💥 honestly fading out of both my will wood AND my mapevolent interests tbh, its very scary fr. somebody force me to catch up with malevolent lie to me and say there is kayne screentime in the recent episodes please i desperately need motivation.
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THIS POSTER. OHHH LORDDDDD. ITS SO GOOD?? LIKE ITS ACTUALLY STABBING ME IN MY KIDNEY WAY TOO MANY TIMES?? IT ALSO STABBED ME IN THE LUNGS AND NOW MY LUNGS ARE FILLING WITH GAY BLOOD?? like to this day im still embarrassed about my IMPROPER reaction when i first saw it and i have some defenses right, firstly i was at work when i first saw it and then i forgot about it for awhile then when i saw it i was like just insanely tired i think. BUT LORDDYYY HES SO GORGEOUS HELLOOOO man ive always wanted to be arthur real 💞 i mean id even trade for johns position aswell. hes sosososo <33 AND ALSO JUST EVERYTHING ABOUT IT?? IM LIKE SWALLOWING THE WEST SIDE AMERICA IM LITERALLY UNDOING THE WESTWARD EXPANSION FOR KAYNE RN 💞💞 ive also just heavily associated kayne with the tower and everytime i see someone talk anout the tower i start roasting the sun over a campfire. this is so epicsauce ive exploded over it everytime ive seen it in your lil top thing with you top posts and stuff ive exploded every time.
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WILL WOOOD HELLOOOOO i’ve actually always really loved these drawings so much infact when i first found your instagram page right after i stalked the entire thing you changed your pfp to that yellow will wood one and i rememeber telling my friend that i needed to see the full drawing NEOW. and then you posted it the next day fr. anyways im feeding the lions to the rats over these stickers /pos
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KAYNE KAYNE KANE (<- dcu reference??) KAYNE KAYNE KAYNE KAYNE KAYNE KAYNE KAYNE KAYNE KAYNEEE HELLO HIIHIHIHIHII EXPLODES EXPLODES EXPLODES HII. he could have me ngl, i just want to say i could totalllyy survive any obstacle he throws at me real. hes soooo <333 just wow yk just wow like i dont even have the words to explain my lpve for him besides that i will rob as many dinosaur museums as i can and i will preform some type of ritural to bring them all back to life and i will train them all to be apart of my army and then i will storm wherever they keep the nukes i know its somewhere around here and i will fly said nules to the moon and i will explode WITH the moon because i could not live any longer with how much my love for kayne fills up my mind he is all of my thoughts i will actually go boom. he is SO fine wowza 😍😍😍😍
anyways guess who now has a full time job (no longer half a part time) with no taxes to pay yet and the impulsiveness level of a 5 year old with adhd. expect poor decisions to come someday,, someday,,
If y’all’s reactions to your stickers aren’t like this then don’t EVEN with me 💥💥🤚🤚😤😤
real tho glad they made it and I hope the brainworms recover soon <3 also I fear for your bank account
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Ideas for South Asia ORV AU (fic? fan comic? daydream? Idk) that I need to get out of my system:
India be big so it doesn't make sense to only have a scenario in just the NCR. Initial scenarios will happen in all the metros (Delhi/NCR, Kolkata, Mumbai, Chennai) and Bengaluru (debating whether to include Hyderabad but that's too many cities in the south so I'll just drop it)
Wanna build a Ranveer Khan backstory but idk if Ranveer Khan will be my protag or if he'll just be a background famous celebrity character.
I had some vague ideas for a protag actually. A 17 yo girl whose brother leaves for Bengaluru a day before the start of the first scenario. She's in Patna (ahahaha not at all because that's my city whaaaaa) and the brother is now locked in B'lore with no communication. Then of course the internet explodes with rumors, media makes up bullshit, general national crisis, etc.
Girl needs to get to the scenario area for my plot to move forward or I'll just do a timeskip till the domes get unlocked we'll see
Some main characters would be incarnations of constellations that show up in og ORV during Demon King Selection and Great War of Saints and Demons. Some agree with their constellations, some are exploited against their will, some are like Selena Kim who think they're siding with a just cause only to be exploited along the way and end up questioning their whole stance. Will have multiple protags prolly and one would be the Selena Kim kind
Dokkaebi is a Korean term and I understand it makes sense for ORV to use it since it was clarified that there's a Korean language patch. Same with terms like Wenny man. I have a headcanon that different regions refer to them differently but respective language patches make up for any difference and discrepancies and I'm thinking of using "Parinda" for Dokkaebi instead. The word translates to winged creature and sure, dokkaebis don't have wings but they fluffy and float, no?
For scenarios like the Peace Land, where there's ppl from different domes participating, there'll be a regional split based on geographical proximity. Kolkata dome will go with the Dhaka dome. Bengaluru and Mumbai in one dome. Chennai and Colombo in one dome. Delhi/NCR and Islamabad in one dome. And of course, our countries beef over things and regional+historical conflicts will give fodder to drama during the scenario.
Some stories and epics I want to include: Jataka Tales, Mahabharat, Panchtantra, regional folk tales like Thakumar Jhuli or tales of Bhushundi Math, Akbar Birbal, etc. Even post modern stories like Malgudi Days and whatnot. Listen I have lived a life like KDJ with these stories creating who I am today and they are obviously gonna make it into an ORV AU I write okay
Protag's squad from Bihar goes to Journey to the West Remake scenario and rewrites it from the perspective of the "West" (India/Tianzhu).
I also wanna have one character that's a <Vedas> bootlicker suggest they turn it into Ramayan and have Sun Wukong become Hanuman and then their story tanks because Sun Wukong hates Hanuman (canon actually).
Nebulae other than the <Vedas>, some of which are collaborators of Vedas, some extremely against the Vedas, and some that are opportunistic and try to be on the winning side.
Split amongst the Vedas similar to the split within Olympus but it's a three-way split where there's a pro, anti, and independent (Surya went independent later on)
Phony incarnations who start cults based on their guesses about what the constellations want and get exploited like hell because all their knowledge and understanding of what the constellations want comes from modern media Sanghi bullshit. This happens in very early scenarios, people remaining in later scenarios are either smarter or opportunistic or adaptable or all of the above. Aka they know better than to make assumptions that won't benefit them in some way.
Vedas subsects based on existing Hindu denominations. Some, like Brahmasamaj or Aryasamaj want to go independent but are riding on the Vedas coattails or getting exploited, etc.
Incarnations and scenarios from some of my favourite parts of history — Pala Kingdom, Sufi and Bhakti movements, Maurya and pre-Maurya Magadh, Indus Valley civilization. Oh and Indus Valley scenario features Outer Gods or incarnations turning into Outer Gods cause how old and forgotten and misrepresented IVC is.
I want Sakyamuni and Nirvana to somehow show up but the jury's out on how. Yk how canon ORV mentions Buddha has different forms? It feels fitting to link Sakyamuni to a scenario set in the proximity of Lumbini (considering that's where the Sakyas ruled and that's why he's called that) but maybe his form changes if the scenario is close to other sites important in his life like Bodhgaya, Sarnath, Sanchi, etc?? We shall see. Protag IS from the region the actual Buddha wandered about so I have good reason to include a fair bit of Isle of Reincarnators crossover (maybe one of the locations is actually where the island physically is??? Gigantomachia could've happened in the actual Mount Olympus, no? I need to finish ORV to see if there's anything canon on this otherwise hc that actual places relevant to constellations serve as portals to scenarios they set up. Mechanics similar to how Demon Castle could be entered through the Seoul dome).
Tis all for now. Will probably get back to this once I finish reading ORV. I wanna be as canon compliant as possible and make this be sort of a "Meanwhile, in South Asia,..." kind of a deal. Stay tuned for more ✌️
#orv#orv spoilers#thoughts#long post#orv au#may or may not become an outlet for me to pour out my gripes of current events#yes i will be dunking on casteism capitalism and supremacist behaviour thank you for asking#if you mind that then dont tell me im not interested
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Sometimes I think about how Adrien, throughout the series, constantly grapples with his fear of abandonment. Gabriel conditioned him to believe that any love he receives is purely transactional, and that to earn affection he has to prove his utility. Adrien is constantly trying to prove his worth to his father for scraps of affection, and Chat Noir infamously crumbles on-screen any time he feels as though he is replaceable to Ladybug. It's a constant insecurity of his, like everyone will just dump him like a sack of potatoes the moment they find out how useless he is.
Meanwhile, all Marinette wants to is ensure that Adrien is happy. Because she loves him. She doesn't give two shits about how """useful""" he is. She holds him and tells him that she will never abandon him (both as Ladynoir and as Adrienette), and her fantasies are about saving him, not about him being "useful" to her. Throughout their relationship, Adrien is forced to disappoint Marinette constantly for reasons outside of his control (amok commands), and yet Marinette is still there for him.
At Adrien's lowest point, when he is forcibly torn away from everyone who had ever showed him genuine care, locked away in an all-white room and at his most "useless", right after disappointing Marinette and unable to even join the final battle or contribute in any way, she still saves him. She still loves him. Because he doesn't have to prove anything to her. Because he is loved and cherished for who he is, not for what he does, and that love is not conditional. Adrien's "happy ending" at the end of the first arc wasn't about him finally proving how useful he can be, because he never actually cared about being useful — he just saw it as the only means to feel loved and needed. Instead, in the end, he found out that he was loved and needed no matter what.
#ml s5 spoilers#ml s5 finale spoilers#idk im musing dont mind me#(as always this post isnt an invitation to tell me why You dont like the show. if that's the case then you can make your own post)#i think the ''what does this say about adrien's agency'' reading of the show is fair and an interesting perspective#but personally i find the ''what does this say about adrien's inherent worth as a person / how does this play into his fear of abandonment'#to also be a super valid way to read the series that is just as relevant to his character arc and i don't see people talking about enough#buggachatter
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i know astrology is fake but i'm not too keen on how a lot of people on this website seem to be clowning on it as a hobby a bit too hard. i swear the woman who thinks it's neat how she and her friends with the same sun sign are all similar isn't trying to say that you are who you are born as and there is nothing you can do to change it. it's a hobby. an interest. what happened to finding meaning and joy in the small things. does it affect you if someone enjoys tarot reading or crystals. does it make you upset someone has interests that they enjoy.
#im not saying astrology/tarot/crystals/etc. get clowned on so much bc theyre hobbies mostly enjoyed by women But....#i saw a post about some astrology study and made the mistake of opening the notes on that bad boy#not fun. and that reminded me of that old post that was basically like ''liking astrology is transphobic''#anyways idk maybe its just that my bestie is very much a ''crystal girl'' but like. stuff like that are such neat hobbies#she makes some cute little jars with pretty rocks and they make her feel better bc if you believe in something you can make it happen#when it comes to small things#like yeah if you pick up a stone that's like ''this can help you be more open with your emotions'' and you are like ''oh hell yea!''#ofc that will be on your mind and the item will be a constant reminder and actually help you with your goals#and its like. ok what really stuck with me was when i was talking with my bff and i was like ''i think all this stuff is interesting but i#feel bad bc i am superstitious and believe in some signs like lucky numbers but i know that logically its just. if i pick a lucky number of#i pay extra attention to it but i want to believe its lucky but i know how human brains work in that aspect''#and she was just like. ''so? those things dont have to exclude each other'' and it clicked#if i have a little tigers eye with me it does not make me feel more grounded magically#but if i decide (or believe) it's grounding then it will b bc it's a reminder for me to calm down#and stuff#like. ah idk how to put my thoughts into words#but i just think its unfair that a few rotten apples have ruined the perception of fun hobbies for a lot#not every astrology enjoyer is trying to sell you mlm essential oils or genuinely believe peoples entire lives are dictated upon the stars#or something#idk i just feel like these things are v misunderstood even tho im not personally like super into them myself#but ppl super mean about that stuff arent invited to look at my medieval themed fortune telling cards#idkk im sleepy and cant articulate my points someone else say this but better#leevi talks#im just saying. i dont think its bioessentialism to decide to believe you personally have a season for growth when the stars are in a#certain position or whatever
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who up seeing their disorder in a fictional character but feel like its not their place to put a name on it
#id have to be waterboarded before i can talk abt how i see a lot of my adhd and personality in mitsumi iwakura let alone post it#idk how to talk abt this without feeling like im talking over or invalidating ppls experiences relating with a character#someone was talking abt how ppl tie laios' autism to special interest and social difficulties but not much else which kinda flattens it#and then went into a respectful in depth analysis of other autistic behaviour that laios exhibits and it wasnt phrased meanly#its fascinating and important to me to hear someone explain a little bit abt traits that they recognized and often go overlooked#because it does help me learn more about it. but i think thats also where hesitancy kicks in when it comes to depicting it accurately#like i have adhd and some of my adhd symptoms overlap with autism (time blindness and pattern seeking behaviour) but that only means#it feels familiar to me even without having autism. on top of that traits arent always cleanly determined as being /caused/ by#a disorder. to understand my environment i compare it to something unrelated but similar to make it more familiar and for the longest time#i thought that was a personality thing and not an information processing thing since i loved playing pretend in my head as a kid#so if you make a character who experiences that hoping to reach people that also experience that and tell them its not weird or#smth youre making up like. thats the goal. ppl who dont get it arent expected to it just means it doesnt cater to them but it helps them#become familiar to it yk? since i dont have autism myself i dont feel confident i can depict it properly or explain it in my own words#but that doesnt mean im trying to dismiss it or try and cut it out completely.. ill just leave the floor open to someone who /can/#a lot of issues around fanon depictions are when smth is baselessly popularized or a characters personality and behavior is flattened#especially to fit them into a trending meme. its harmless and its supposed to be for fun but it gets tricky when you drag things that#need to be carefully explained beforehand or else it gets lost in translation. like that tweet abt 'hyperfixating' on cooking pasta#once it becomes popular language usually the original meaning is left out for the sake of simplifying it for everyone that when it#circles back theres a sort of hesitancy like. am i using it the way it was intended or am i unknowingly using the popularized version of it#actually thats probably why i felt wrongfooted during diagnosis bc it felt like i was misusing the words i heard to describe what i felt#i /know/ i see a lot of myself in mitsumi because our minds are always somewhere else and we tend to put good faith first and for me#that personal connection is enough. but idk it feels like its always gonna have to be 'palatable' first before i can talk abt it openly#mad respect to writers and creators who stick to their story even if theres the looming fear of ppl misinterpreting it and letting them#have it.. its been almost 2 weeks and i am so close to deleting that m3 dunmeshi drawing bc ppl keep saying chilchuck wouldnt have 200 HP#IT LITERALLY SAYS I MADE IT WHILE WATCHING EP 1. I USED EARTHBOUND LOGIC AND I WASNT EVEN TAKING IT SERIOUSLY CHILL#yapping
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What’s your opinion on the people that ship marceline and simon together?
Literally never thought about it until you asked. The opinions I have on ships aren't the opinions I have on the people that like them anyway. Did you ask because I'm an adoptee? I'm confused as to why my opinion would matter lol.
I think they probably self insert into that dynamic for comfort. A soft spoken older man who is endlessly supportive and gentle taking you away from your neglectful, brash father is alluring when you've never known a kind male figure of authority/have a complicated relationship w/ father figures. Idk, that's just my guess. Our brains are weird, shit's nuanced abt why we like things.
#i am a bastion of tunnel vision where any ship outside of my mains don't exist. sorry.#i dont go looking for stuff im not interested in so if you tell me people ship FP and uh idk Bryce I'd be like “oh worm?” and thats it tbh#im from the age of DLDR#so i mind my beeswax#asks
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Live streams are so weird. Like what do you mean I'm watching someone do that literally right now. This person is playing a game right now and talking. And these ones are racing at literal breakneck speed and these ones are just some states away from me occasionally if not in my state and these other ones are doing 24 hour endurance races and these people are talking about the weather like what. What do you mean I am getting an uncut view of this thing. This thing is happening actively at this moment simultaneously as to whatever I am doing right now.
#It's like that thing when you get an awareness for other people and like their conciousness and whole life and thoughts and things.#like I am so used to what is simply happening around me and around my house of course. And like out of sight out of mind.#It's so interesting to me to think like. some people are sleeping right now. some are just having dinner. some are.#some are ALSO watching the same live thing that I am doing right now. woa. Like I mean I KNOW that but like.#to properly sit and think about it and things. woa.#me when I do blogging on my blog.#this isnt even selfship related this is literally just me purely running my mouth.#should I make a tag for when I just talk about random non-selfship related things. Ive seen some people do that before.#And as you might tell from my blogs I like having little. organization/sorting if you can call it that.#I used to volunteer to untie the tangled earbuds and sort all the beads when I was younger cause it was just so good to me.#I think about doing that now sometimes still. Just mixing a bunch of things so I can sort them.#Like with M&Ms or skittles I have to eat the ones with the most colors first until there is one of every color left.#And if there is just like four colors left then I'll eat them all at once. but if there's a fair amount or they're like.#peanut m&ms and jt probably wouldnt be a good idea to cram those all in my mouth at once.#Then I just eat them one at a time.#I dont know if a tag for these things would even be of any use to anyone else other than me but I mean yknow.#all the more reason to just... why not.#todat has been a very chill relaxing day. So I'm just hanging out and feeling a little extra loose so im a bit extra talky right now.
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Not only have several of my former classmates gotten married, just found out that now one is having a kid?? 😭😭 just reiterating: i cant believe some people my age are doing that dklsldls. Where do they find time to work/study AND develop intricate crown prince rudolf headcanons once they do that
#married people and parents still have hobbies yadda yadda. you dont need to tell me that kslsld its a joke#its interesting how strong an emotional reaction of Otherness i have to these types of news dkkdld. like its always 'good for them but i#dont think i could ever want this'#i mean im not opposed to gay marriage in my future depending on how life plays out but i would not want to do it to 'settle down' i think#dont necessarily want a big house a garden a golden retriever or a car 😭#and def no kids#i guess its partly a reaction to kind of.... idk at a younger age more people are more 'restless' like me and then many change their minds#so its invalidating to be 'left alone' when you used to have allies who could relate to your life choices/wishes haha#i think being gay complicates this... i used to think it was a blessing for making it less of an expectation but actually turns out soooo#many girls on dating apps and online have or really want kids 😭 and i'm just like. good for you but this doesnt work for me#ugh anyway yeah. you guys better still be following me for rudolf posting when i'm 45 with a mortgage and an evil day job x#xD#you can take time off from your spouse and kids to log onto tumblr com and look at this shit 🥰🥰 for md ☺️#me*
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codecicle you put things on my screen that are so confusing and have no relevance to my interests but its you so i find it so very endearing. keep having so much fun and whimsy on tumblr dot com child :3
you have GOT to get on this horrible TV show dude you don't even understand. it's bad and has 0 redeemable qualities, literally my bread and butter rn. can't get enough of it
#i make yet anothet post just for me 👍#we have mail :]#you wanna watch house md. its sexist and racist and ableist and its written poorly and every episode makes you feel insane#its literally SOOO fucking good dude#im having fun and whimsy. my stupid little medical drama#this is so much more fun than greys anatomy. the romances are all psycho-competitive relationships#where they come up with new and interesting ways of gay sex. such as: bickering about diagnosis#and: looking a doctor in the eyes and telling him the different ways sex can kill a person#that scene wont leave my brain dude.#she just starts listing the different muscles you work out when having sex to him. at one point#after its already explained he looks at her and sees her professionally. but also cant get fucking her off his mind#she starts cornering him and explaining that core muscles are used. you feel like youre running a marathon#WHILE MAINTAINING EYE CONTACT. they dont even need 2 have sex shes gonna kill him just with the medical description#anyway i ❤️ house md. stereotypical pipeline from mcyt to this fuckin show man#/r ctntduo is exactly the same as every 'couple' in this show#<- couple in parenthesis. im not far enough 4 them 2 actually be together#and also whatevers wrong with them is MUCH funnier than romance
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what's the word for a best friend but like the kind that drains all your energy if you have to interact with them
#just got off the phone w my bsf of 5+ years and its like#you get me like no one else but idek who u are anymore and this relationship doesnt really serve me anymore#but thats not a reason to throw out 5+ years of just getting each other and that special connection we have#idk#phone call totally drained me and now im laying here upset like she said smth to me otp to hurt my feelings#she said smth to me the other day that triggered my ed#she thinks shes the only one with issues like im glad you can joke about your eating disorder but like bear in mind that i ALSO have one!#which you know about because it was something we bonded over when we met#and you dont know how my eating disorder is going because you dont listen when i talk. so i have stopped talking.#but it isnt going great! and when you brag about how skinny you are because of this or that#and complain about how you genuinely hate people who “lack the self control to be anorexic”#that harms me mentally#and you dont care because you arent joking#i recently got my christmas gift from her#which took a while to get me because she ordered it on christmas eve. and then kept forgetting to give it to me once it arrived#but she literally used the gift that she bought me and told me when she gave it to me like huh !!!#and i wasnt even upset about this when she told me because if she had asked i would have let her#but i told my mom and sister and they were soooo mad. and then i was like wait maybe thats weird#like i can understand that what she did was socially unacceptable but i didnt mind because it was her yk like thats my bsf. but now im upse#AND THE OTHER DAY i told her i dont read much fanfiction and she was like#well thats because you arent autistic so u dont know what its-#-like to be consumed by an interest/hyperfixation and have to consume every form of media associated with it#like YES I DO !!! all of my friends autistic or not think im autistic except for her#its this weird dynamic in her head where im the token neurotypical to her token autistic like idk if she just likes being the only autistic#but i feel like im so clearly autistic because idk how to mask. not that im trying to make this a “whos more autistic” contest but like#i think she likes being the manic pixie autistic chick and its so weird but im not diagnosed so im not gonna go to bat on that one w her#whenever i tell my roommate about things my bsf does my roommate is always like “im scared of her” or “real friends dont act like that”#and its always a reality check because i dont think twice when she treats me like that#but the people in my life are starting to hate her lowkey....#my mom was deadass like wow i dont think shes a good friend
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had a realization while driving and iwanted to crash the car. God
#i wont lie. the affair has been on the mind for some reason i cant even guess.#and i was literally thinking of how insane she was for looking me in the eye and telling me she thought me and him really#could have worked well in a relationship. i was thinking what even possesses you to say smth like that after i rejected him. and he cant#know but you and i know im blatantly interested in you. so. whats the game. and.....like i dont fucking know what it is.#it has occupied a large part of my mind. i do have a pretty good guess. happened to my buddy#a#i should kill myself
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sorry if you've already been asked this but what did you think about eiji in iw? like idk i feel like they were trying to recreate a masato and ichi moment without actually having any of the elements that made their relationship narratively compelling.
as a whole, i thought eiji was at least a nice 'how he wished things couldve been' for ichi in regards to masato, but still being independent enough from the masato comparison to stand on his own as a character (or at least as an antagonist. his actions wasn't what was reminding me he was a masato parallel, but more so ichi's insistence he help him). i think thats why ichi and eiji's relationship don't have the same 'elements' that make their relationship interesting like masato and ichi's
#iw spoilers#not really but lol#snap chats#like what made masato and ichi interesting was their family dynamic and how they were narrative foils to each other#eiji isn't supposed to be that. both in-universe and meta wise he's just meant to remind ichi of masato not wholly replace him#and not replace who masato was in ichi's life. just yk. trick him for a bit fJALKAJ#i mean sure you can still find their relationship uninteresting with that in mind so just to me i thought it was cute at the very least#at least in that you can see ichi trying his hardest to connect with eiji#like you can tell he just doesn't want history to repeat even if he's mostly projecting his fears onto eiji#and the situation is not. equivocal LMAO but i digress#i don't feel strongly about eiji one way or another- i mean i liked how it was easy to tell he was going to be an antagonist vjlKJAJ#i dont mind that kind of thing though. i like being able to pick up on things being Not Right with a character or situation#so it was neat seeing how that culminated. still confused on what he was blackmailing chitose with but i assume it's family related#sometimes i think about how beau says eiji and ebina were meant to be rgg feeling bad about killing aoki and it makes me chortle vjalkvjla#anyway thats the end of my eiji prattle. oh ps i like how he actually had a chair that doesnt look painful to sit in#veyr cringe he turned out Not to be disabled but listen if i start talking about masato's disability again im gonna lose my mind#as i frantically close my thirty tabs about lung diseases/conditions and lung transplants and patients' anecdotes post operation
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i really cant buy the headcanon that phoenix and edgeworth were romantically interested in each other as kids or that they were in love for the 15 or so years they didnt see each other, like it just doesnt make any sense or work at all. but i dont think this actually contradicts the way i think some of those scenes in the anime felt a bit romance coded, or like viewing phoenixs becoming a lawyer for edgeworth as like a romantic gesture? like it wasnt actually motivated by romantic feelings at all but the actual motivations and everything that happens ends up contributing towards a romantic storyline? (from a shipping perpesctive that is obviously)
#i dunno its just from what ive noticed from reading fanfic its like people dont really get the difference?#i mean that headcanon personally annoys me cause i think its stupid#but watching the anime like not saying the anime actually ships them but it does feel a bit romance coded sometimes#including those flashbacks#and see this isnt actually a revolutionary concept in the slightest its literally the most basic device in romance#but honestly im not sure some people in fandom actually understand how romance even works and think its literally just two#characters get together#i mean not taking the high horse here i might have thought that actually cause i was never really into it or read it or paid attention#but anyway as a story even an alternate reading of one not whats canon#like the idea of romance as a concept in fiction that tells a compelling story#its not just a literal like romance is happening thus they must have romantic feelings for eachother right now and the goal is get together#which is obvious i know i do really mean it i literally never paid attention to the genre#anyway back to ace attorney like the same thing actually in canon is the delites? like getting saved as a romantic gesture#despite not knowing each other#and also i think phoenixs actual motivation is a lot more interesting#not just how he was influenced by edgeworth in such a lasting way and like the concept of that sort of childhood friend you lose touch with#whos still that important cause of how they shaped your life and also just they were good friends like it was love for a former friend#but i also think the concept of edgeworth at that time in phoenixs mind like existed more than the real memory of the person?#and it seemed like he fixated on the idea of saving him because of the concept he represented as much as out of concern#yeah i know this has nothing to do with the post i just think the way a childhood friend who you idolise exists as a memory more than a rea#person and its actually a lot about you not them is really interesting#hm maybe shouldbe made a different post for all that#ace attorney
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Gnawing on my controller over the Destroy ending wrecking the relays but for some reason mysteriously it doesnt blow up the entire galaxy. Like. We did establish that damaging the realays caused solar system destroying explosions that is a thing we did.
Anyway I guess this is the type of stuff u get when u DONT TREAT YOUR STAFF RIGHT BIOWARE its fine im cool im chill.
#I FINISHED THE TRILOGY AGAIN AND I STILL HATE IT HERE#How dare this stupid game give me so many shrimp emotions Im just trying to live here#RIP Jack Shepard guess my war assets still werent high enough or something#I guess i wasnt super expecting him to live but anyway all my sheps live in the version that lives in my mind even Joanne who picked contro#also unrelated to this entire post but I am still mad about Control being the Illusive mans option because it /is/ the most interesting one#to me#because yknow of the themes about ai sapience and individuality and shit in addition to being the only option where u dont sacrifice edi et#not that i was able to save the geth this playthrough anyway but you see my point#also whos to say I dont take control of the reapers and tell them to destroy eachother. \(‘-‘)/#jo plays mass effect
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v1/zadkiel || gore :D (wip)
inspired by this post by @8o8o8o8o8
the aches could no longer go ignored.
zadkiel could feel it all, poking and prodding and digging into the deepest parts of himself that he was too scared to reach into. everything he had bottled up over the past few centuries, threatening to rip him apart from the inside out.
the last time he had ever unearthed those emotions was before he left heaven. too much now laid festering inside him, and he had to remove it.
zadkiel couldn't dare ask the prime souls to aid him; the work that needed to be done was far to visceral to expose them to it. gabriel was assuredly also out of the question, knowing many of the things trapped inside were brought about because of him.
which only left one.
they had taken v1 to a bathing pool in limbo, and brought along a basket, plastic mat and sharp blade. it watched them curiously as they set the items up, not moving from their place on the mat.
"so... angels have an odd function," zadkiel began explaining as he finished preparations. they sat down in front of v1, holding the knife in their hands. "we were made to serve diligently and without hesitation. humans would lose faith in us otherwise. in turn, we were told by Him that we cannot show strong emotions, lest we scare or deter those who believe in Him. Doing so does not come without its consequences, however."
unlike his usual methods, zadkiel disrobed himself properly instead of simply willing it away with his staff. the clutch on the knife grew tighter.
"in turn, these strong emotions, these thoughts that plagued the back of our minds... they physically manifest inside of us. they can take on many shapes, but its usually recommended to... clean them out, every so often, as to void the feelings quite literally killing you."
v1 silently looked down at the knife, and back to zadkiel. the angel took a deep, shuddering breath.
"v, i haven't done this in... far too long, and i'll need your help to properly clean myself of these feelings."
zadkiel pressed the knife into v1's hands, as if it had burnt their own to hold. v1 looked between the knife and the angel, before finally understanding what zadkiel was asking of it.
'you want me to...' its hand lingered for a moment, considering how to word its question. '...open you up?'
"quite literally, yes."
v1 quickly shook its head. 'no. i could hurt you.'
zadkiel scoffed quietly, "no worse than you do to gabe when you fight, right?"
'programming may hurt you. i do not want to hurt you.'
zadkiel sighed, a wobble to their lip. "v, please... i couldnt bear to ask minos and sisyphus, and i just... i just know gabriel will be the source of many of the objects you find. i couldnt bear to him to see how i felt about him while i was gone." he took v1's hands gently. "you're my best option... and im too scared to do it myself... i'm so sorry."
they both stared at each other silently, waiting for an answer. v1 could feel the shake in the angel's hands, see the tears welling behind their eyes: they were just as scared.
'you will stop me if i go too far. promise?'
zadkiel let out a pained sob, pulling v1 into a hug. "thank you. i'm so sorry. i will make up for this however you want, i promise."
zadkiel parted, laying himself down on the mat. v1 shifted themselves, hovering over the angel's body with the knife at hand.
'preferred cut?' it signed, slowly lowering the knife to zadkiel's chest
the angel took a deep breath. "i don't recall what humans would call the surgery type, or if it even was a type but... double door? directly through the middle and out the sides. you'll need access to all of it."
he smiled up at v1, tears in his eyes, and took the hand that held the knife, making it press the sharp blade against his skin. v1's wings flickered in agitation and concern, but zadkiel tried to soothe it by rubbing its other hand with a gentle touch.
"i'll be okay, i promise." zadkiel whispered, tone laced in anxiety. "angels are made to be resilient, y'know? i'll be right."
v1 could only quietly nod, and carefully press the blade into the skin.
#eden.docx#gore tag#im writing this before i sleep can you tell#anyways this idea has been rotating in my head for quite literally weeks. it haunts me with how intriguing of a concept it is lol#i hope you dont mind me making something based off your idea wkbdjebdjsj its the first thing thats ever gotten me interested in writing gore#this will more than likely be made a full thing after uni is done for the year
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