#if you don’t have me on ig already dm me but I’m not hard to find lmao

[rachiller]

Jokes & threats of tumblr keeling over and choking out its last breath aside, mutuals feel free to hmu on Instagram or whatever 😌 friendship is everything etc etc

[theonottsbxtch]

Secret Sister | OP81

in which lando has a secret sister and oscar falls hard and fast

oscar piastri x norris!reader

fc: sophia birlem

a/n: lol hello this is my first ever smau, everyone say thank you rianna. hope you enjoy this and if you have any requests lmk!

landonorris:

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happy 21st birthday to this gremlin, ig being your big brother is fun or whatever @/ynnorris

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userone: i’m sorry i beg your pardon what

usertwo: someone say sike rn

maxfewtrell: lando you’re going to break the internet with this post

userthree: a bit too late

userfour: YOU KNEW?!

ynnorris: guys i’ve been held captive for 21 years. dobby is free!

yourbestfriend: how long have you been waiting to say that?

ynnorris: 3 years

userfive: how did lando manage to pull this off for so long?!

oscarpiastri: you have a sister??

maxverstappen1: lando what?

usersix: it’s the way lando just hardlaunched that he had a sister for me 😭

alex_albon: I KNEW IT

georgerussell63 : i’m so sorry i never believed you

alex_albon: i was onto him back in 2019, you guys just thought i was delusional😞

userseven: moral of the story, always trust alex

ynnorris

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hello world. twenty first and graduation? now you guys know who the smartest norris is xx

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landonorris: you’re public for one day and you already start publicly bullying me wtf

userone: oh i like her already

usertwo: sorry did i just see she graduated in computer science? from edinburgh? we love an educated queen

yourbestfriend: world’s hottest programmer

ynnorris: get it on a top

yourbestfriend: yes ma’am

userthree: why did she have to wait until her 21st to post? i’m so confused 😭

userfour: maybe lando didnt want her to be in the limelight and now that she’s an adult she’s in control of it?

userthree: oh that makes sense

ynnorris: he just didn’t want people to know that his sister is 100x cooler than him

userfive: yn pls 😭😭😭

oscarpiastri: hello

ynnorris: hello

landonorris: not happening

usersix: oh no poor lando 😭

maxverstappen1: @/landonorris i refuse to believe she’s real, tell her to come to monaco with a birth certificate

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instagram - ynnorris

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just arrived to monaco and lan’s ditched me for max, give me recs x

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userone: i love that she thinks we’re rich enough to ever be in monaco

usertwo: the waterfront!

yourbestfriend: what happened to “we’ll go together”?

ynnorris: you chose your girlfriend over me 😁

yourbestfriend: she is quite literally graduating today

ynnorris: then don’t complain x

userthree: that’s a few too many suitcases no?

oscarpiastri: the vaundé bakery or the hiking trail

ynnorris: noted 🫡

userfour: something is going to happen between them two i’m calling it now

instagram dms

ynnorris

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i guess i understand why lando left gloomy london for this

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userone: where are the insta detectives, is that the bakery oscar recommended

usertwo: it is!

userthree: is that oscar?

oscarpiastri: no

userthree: oh no he’s experiencing his first heartbreak

landonorris: lol

userfour: foul

userfive: she’s living the dream

yourbestfriend: i miss u

ynnorris: come here, lando said i could invite anyone

landonorris: i did not.

ynnorris: do you want mum and dad to find out what happened to the clutch of their old fiesta?

landonorris: @/yourbestfriend what i meant to say is you’re more than welcome

usersix: she’s so effortlessly funny

imessage

ynnorris

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monaco over and out, see you soon 😉

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userone: is that oscar??

usertwo: god she is so pretty

userthree: i know oscar’s back when i see it

oscarpiastri: photo credits? 🙄

userfour: i knew it!

ynnorris: the photos are mediocre at best

oscarpiastri: take them down then, copyright 😤

ynnorris: big baby 😤

userfive: wait they’re so cute

maxfewtrell: oh yn

yourbestfriend: he’s going to kill you

landonorris: is that my balcony?

landonorris: answer the phone yn

ynnorris: no x

[dragon-queen21]

hello!!!! its been so long i apologize so ☹️ ive been fighting demons and going through story book worthy horrors, but its all okay!!!!

but for 📷 anons surprising comeback,

hear me out, its one piece time woah, little ace with the whitebeards. that kid would totally hid his regression for as long as he could, especially during the time before ace joined the crew. only to be found out either via a meltdown, or very shortly after he officially joined due to a slip up.

real nap time kid. a nap time is always inevitable with ace, whether it be because his narcolepsy or marco trying to push one because ace is getting wayy to fussy for this busy crew.

i also have the headcanon that his devil fruit is just out of control this boy is setting everything on fire, unlucky for the crew because, yknow, they live on a wooden ship.

i feel like hes has a pretty large range of ages he can regress too but normally stays pretty small. 1-3 maybe? definitely kinda kid to insist he can do everything by himself but then melts and gives up the moment hes shown some positive affection. give him a pacifier when its clear he wants one? so over for him. one of the chefs giving him a spill proof cup? knockout. pick him up when hes too small to properly walk himself? hes ran out of lives.

ouh the imagery of someone like marco or thatch holding a very very sleepy ace and ace having his fingers in his mouth and just the other person taking them out of his mouth and replacing them with a pacifier and everyones like woah! howd u do that without him having a tantrum and the person holding him is just like oh im just that good ig IM CRYING INYO MY PILLOW hes actually just a baby i cant even handle it

THE CREW CALLING BABY ACE LITTLE FLAME EVERY BODY SHUT UP AND LET ME COOK

i feel like ace id definitely a fussy baby though especially when he regresses older, ace has a lot of childhood trauma its bound to reflect in his behavior while regressed☹️☹️

okay im done brfore i make this longer than it already is, i hope you enjoy!! ive missed doin this so much omg☹️

📷

I was actually just thinking of you recently! It’s nice to hear from you. Though it’s not so nice to hear that you have been going through such a hard time. As someone who just got over a very hard couple of months I understand completely. Sending you a hug and I will pray in the name of Jesus for your strength and peace. If you ever want to reach out and dm me to vent or talk you can. No pressure of course <3

~~~

Okay one piece time hehe :3

~My vote is 100% for being found out due to a meltdown. Mostly because I like angst hehe >:3

“You need a nap!” “I do not.” “Well just come lay down for a moment. If you don’t fall asleep then you can get back up… Ace?” (Ace meanwhile already asleep)

“because, yknow, they live on a wooden ship.”

<- Pfft okay that made me laugh

~It’s like letting a child play with matches only you can’t take them away.

~Coping mechanism for Ace/ anxiety inducing for everyone else on board

~Oh no but why did I just think of the saddest thing ever is getting really frustrated and one of his stuffed animals or toys catches on fire. He would be devastated and probably hate himself for a long while.

“insist he can do everything by himself but then melts and gives up the moment hes shown some positive affection”

<- Awww that’s so cute!!

~Grumpiest affection starved baby. Insisting that he’s a lot older than he really is and it only takes a time bit of patience and coddling to get him to regress super small.

Marco: Yup I’m just the best caregiver ever isn’t that right bud? Ace meanwhile: (sleepy baby babbles)

~Sometimes he’s super small and he just cries and no one know how to comfort him because nothing seems to be wrong he’s just fussy and flinches away from people and overall is just miserable

Read these first while regressed and this absolutely made little me giddy. Thank you for sharing beloved I’ve missed getting to read all your thoughts <3

[zyafics]

https://www.tumblr.com/zyafics/765936652829032448/how-do-you-grow-on-here-your-seem-so-successful

This was me- 🥺

Thank youuu so much for some help.

Follow up question how do you get mutual maybe I’m just a little nervous to start talking to people. I have a couple of follows from some of my favorite writers but there’s no ‘friendship’ or anything.

Also about posting times how do I check analytics and how do I figure the best time post?

I love the aesthetic of yours and I of course am not gonna copy the gradient of your text but mine is all blue to match my blog theme maybe one day when I can sit I can redesign some of my initial posts and continue that with future.

Idk I tend to overthink and I am more of a quiet person who makes it hard in themselves to talk to people. I do over think numbers too. Maybe it’s because I started with a couple of blurbs and went straight into a series. I also compare myself to others work now. I don’t feel like mine is good enough. Even smut which can be so fun. I look at bigger blogs and how they write and it’s just so much better. I’ve been trying to come up with original creative ideas but idk right now. I’m waiting for a burst of creativity. And I see how much love others posts get too and all the asks that are responded to.

I’m not looking to be ‘tumblr famous’ I just want to contribute to an already amazing community with amazing work and I feel like I’m not there yet. Too hard on myself. But I wanna be like all the cool girls (including you!) who builds her own little community.

Also don’t worry about rambling bc look at what a mess I am. 🥲 and if that’s a photo of you on your pinned post you are soooo beautiful and if it’s not I bet you still are anyways. 💞

omg i was trying so hard to answer this ask but i couldn't some reason on my phone?? i'm back now tho, the laptop helps!

firstly, of course, i'm more than happy to help with any questions you—or any new writers—may have! for the follow-up question, typically, how i interact with other writers is i start by interacting with their works. tell them how much i enjoy their fics, drop an ask in their inbox, or sometimes DM them personally to talk to them. most of them are genuinely friendly! and i'm sure they more than love to talk about their fics or to hear from people who enjoy their fics!!

for the analytics, you usually have one when you click on your "activity" in your blog, and it takes you to this graph thing where it tells you about the interactions you get from your notes. if you hover your cursor over the graph, you'll see what notes you get at a certain time/day!

and don't think too much about the aesthetic, when i tell u, when i first started, my aesthetic was ugly, literally i went back and redid them, but if you go to old old reblogs, you'll see that it was very bare minimum. just have focus on your blog and fics rn and the aesthetic will def come slowly but surely!

and i completely understand. i'm actually a relatively quiet person on the internet because i hate bothering people. and i understand so deeply about comparing myself to other people's works because i absolutely look up/adore certain writers and i feel like i can never write such imaginative words compared to them. however, at the end of the day, it truly is just giving myself grace, allowing myself that space to dwell on my thoughts but not consume me, yk? also, sometimes creativity doesn't just outright find you, you have to seek it out! same with inspiration. for me, i can absolutely see a work for what it's worth based on the passion alone.

baby, don't be too hard on yourself. any work by writer is a contribution enough, because it means something to have someone so passionate, you go in your freetime to write about these characters. just have fun, at the end of the day, don't starve yourself for it, yk?

and omg no, i wish! that girl is not me! she's this viet ig influencer i follow because she just has such a unique vibe and i love it. thank you though!!

[bambiscottagecare]

I went out with some old coworkers today. I feel like without the emotion this could have been one hell of a kink post but it’s hard for me to want to spin this that way, so I’m posting here instead.

I found out that the person who was essentially my workplace bully (as cringe as that sounds) is in the middle of an active investigation because the district manager wants her fired. Multiple people have quit, including some new hires, several of the shift leads have either threatened to or have transferred, and apparently my name has floated around a bit. The DM actually wants to talk to me specifically but technically can’t because I don’t work there. I’ll gladly meet her at Applebee’s and spill over a shark bowl or some Sangria though. It feels really validating, though depressing. Not that it matters in the end because she’s still working there and my indeed inbox has cobwebs.

I would love to tell her about how she treated me like dog shit. About how she constantly made me feel worthless, and (sorry but I’m gonna use the word outside of kinkplay) retarded. Everything Idid felt wrong, and no matter what it was it never felt like I was good enough. I’d love to talk about how she always put me in lose-lose scenarios to prove a point, or how I’d have to give myself long pep talks before leaving. Or how I started smoking again after getting hired, because being stoned and bed rotting was what helped me unwind and relax. And despite posting about being a dumb bimbo I never wore makeup to work because I physically did not have it in me to put on a face for people that didn’t like me, and I sure as hell didn’t want to cry off my face that I worked so hard on. I actually barely even wear makeup anymore. I’m gonna lose platinum at Ulta and I’ve already lost rouge at Sephora. Kinda ironic considering part of the kink is makeup and being hyper feminine, huh? Speaking of…

When I come on here and talk about wanting to be degraded and called slurs and stuff that’s obviously in the context of kink. I sign up for it, quite literally. I consent to DM’s and mean reblogs. And if I’m not consenting, I’m not on tumblr because I’m not in that headspace. And if you’ve managed to cross a line even with that consent, I’ll just block you.

But…I haven’t had that problem. Truth is masochistic misogyny doms, in my experience, have been wonderful. They check in on you. Even if they’re not domming you and are just randos that come across your content. I KNOW that it’s not always that way. We all have horror stories it seems like. I just haven’t. I can tell you all about people like my former boss who come off as sweet and caring just to be the worst person ever, but in the 30 years that I’ve been alive and the 12ish where I’ve been either in this space or adjacent, I can count on one hand the bad experiences I’ve had with a self proclaimed Superior Male.

And I’d rather have the guy posting about how we’re (women) are all useless retards and not worth the shit in their toilet in my DM’s and in my life than the guy with the aesthetic Twitter account who always retweets anti-bullying psas anywhere near me.

Uh, thanks for coming to my ted talk ig, all four of you that follow this blog.

[goonmilk]

Viral

As 10 Million plus of you know, or may not know my ID photos recently went viral on the internet lol. My 2018 and 2024 IDs caused a frenzy of hilarious commentary on Twitter first and then IG this week. From “he’s a crackhead” to “the difference between doing weed and doing coke”, to “Thats what living in Maryland will do to you”. All quite hilarious to me and those who know me, but I’d like to give some background on the actual factuals.

Never done hard drugs in my fucking life! I was high on weed in the first ID photo in 2018 (clearly). Those that know me know I’ve been sober the last 8 months after choosing to quit smoking weed completely due to me raising my son and how much he mimics everything I do and being high around him just didn’t feel right. From being a heavy weed smoker for the past 15 years to quitting cold turkey, I am extremely proud that I don’t look like that first pic anymore.

Stress has nothing to do with the difference in photos, I am so much happier with life and my family and my accomplishments now in 2024 than I was in 2018. I’m married, own place, own car, family growing and healthy with a thriving business in photography, and loving my job im blessed to do every single day. I was more stressed in 2018 than ever with none of the aforementioned accomplishments.

My eyes change color, they’re a totally different shade lighter than the 2018 photo. My eyes change colors all the time from brown, to green, to hazel, to grey. My eyebrows have always been super thin. People telling me go to the doctor and get my thyroid checked and Im literally the healthiest I’ve been my entire life. Juicing, exercising when I can and eating my vegetables. I think I look healthier with smoother skin. My shocked expression is really due to not having my glasses on and the flash going off before I expected it to because theres no countdown just “turn and take the pic”, Boom.

I needed a shapeup my mustache do look wild lol. My locs are braided and pulling my hairline back further than what it is. 🤷🏾‍♂️

I like my before and after photos and glad I posted it and went Viral. One thing about me, Im probably the most self confident person you gonna run into so nothing someone who doesn’t know me can say thats gonna hurt my feelings or make me feel any less than what I already know I am. And I’m the last person you want to try to make fun of and put on blast cause Im just gonna use it to my advantage and put it on a T-shirt, you really cant pay for this type of Free Promotion. So thank you Twitter, Memezar, OnlyinDMV, DMVHoodzandNewz, you just turned my website views up and sent me more prospective clients. Thank you to everyone who sent it my way; Me, Ash and even my Mom have been receiving DMs and texts all week from concerned friends and family making sure I saw it lol. I appreciate everyone in the comments taking up for me and tagging me. The positive messages and love I received was really the biggest compliments ever. Trust me I saw it all and loved every second of this experience. T-shirts available in the Shop now!

Just another way to prove I’m G.etting O.ut O.f N.egative S.ituations #GOONS!

[benefits1986]

Dopamine & Lo-Fi Beats For Lunch

Last night, I napped at around 7 and woke up at midnight. I checked my phone and got a live update of ina’s final stats. 47/32 BP. Breathing is going down even when the oxygen tank’s pumping at a 10. Funny how I chose to stay home so that I won’t get details about her last two minutes, but, there it goes, again and again and again.  SEEN.  SEEN.  SEEN.  Typing...  SEEN.  Cursor blinking at me.  SEEN. SEEN.  I almost forgot to take a pee but my 37-year old bladder nudged me to get up and take a fast break.  SEEN.  SEEN.  SEEN.  Plugged in deep sleep PL on lo-fi to hopefully calm my numbness. Yes. I calm my numbness, because I’m still managing my PTSD 11 years back. I stared back at the friggin’ uncalled for live updates. UUAP ba ‘to, mhie? Ano na?  I tried scrolling through IG Harry Potter and shih tzu reels then went back on r/astralprojection and r/luciddream. Such a fail attempt. Turned up the volume of my supposedly soothing PL, but, no. My numbness is taking over.  DOPAMINE  The cocktail of my ina’s last weeks. Hello, dopamine! In my 8 years of taking care of mother dragon, never did I come across dopamine as a prescription. I slid a DM to my soul sister who is the half of my Polaris for anything palliative care concerns.  ME: So, dopa can be on IV?  HER: In SG, we do that too. Depends on the case of the patient and of course, the consent of the family.  ME: Can I get a dopa x sero x oxy cocktail even when I’m totes fine?  HER: ‘Yan ka na naman. OD girl na malala ang saltik.  ME: Just a curious question.  HER: I know you too well.  ME: I know me too well.  HER: How are you?  ME: Very sharp q right there.  HER: Hug.  ME: Oks. Usap tayo soon. Bwelo muna ako. HER: Mag-leave ka na.  ME: Tignan ko.  HER: Don’t tell me “work is your drug” era ka na naman?  SEEN. Twisted humor aside, dopamine really put my ina on a palaban meets happy high. She even managed to speak straight English at times. I joked na lang that I was teaching her some English millennial slang during my graveyard shift with her. Dopamine caused her too much energy that she was not able to sleep. When in pain, she shouted out AYOKO NA so many times. One second, she is still, the other she’s at whatever hallucination heaven she zooms in and out on.  Since I was interfacing with her doctors, I asked hard questions like, what’s the end state? We have 1 millennial doctor and 1 senior, so that replies kind of varied but, are in unison with the truth... my ina’s stage lights are going down once the full effect of dopamine is lifted. Most likely, coma then organ failure.  By the way, I was in the sidelines when the whole dopamine or no dopamine shebang was ongoing. But, that’s another story. Just want to put it out here, so I am super duper clear.  Dopamine, you little trickster, but, ‘wag ako. Tabi.  LO-FI (HEART)BEATS One of the tasks I give to her care team is to send me ina’s vital stats several times of the day plus a few more stuff. I know that she’s not gonna be better, but numbers make me see what I can try to troubleshoot, still.  Dad is amazed and annoyed everytime he sees me making calls and sending texts to ina’s doctors. Bashing and bleeding vibe siya for the past weeks since he tells me that I am but making my ina’s endgame a more painful one. To add salt to the already oozing wound, he also consoles me saying na anak nga ako ng nanay ko. Translation: Never say never. Ahoo. Ahoo. Ahoo. And syempre, all out sa giving kahit ubos na ubos na ako. :D OWEEMM. He told me that the more I troubleshoot, the more some family members will feel a fake sense of comfort that things are going better.  I chose to stay as silent as I can because, I know exactly what he means; however, I am lining up my ina’s best version of her endgame, the one that she deserves after 8 decades and 8 years of being with a family of over 60 people and counting.  Next stop: Inception x Dad Edition  I forced myself to share hidden stories about how I handled mother dragon’s grand finale. Damn. Damay na naman ako, but, doon tayo sa HEAL TOGETHER mindset. Honestly, I told dad na yes my control freak x empath mode is on a high, but, more importantly, I am guided by a single thing: WWMDD --what would mother dragon do? I said na what I’m doing for my ina is so basic kasi if mom was here and now, naku, tumabi kayong lahat. Siya na.  Because I’m trying to be a better hybrid version of mom and dad, I gradually stopped troubleshooting. Gah. Those tiny little details, those moments when I can alert people to a sharp left or a smack right. I need to let go. I need to take off my control freak baby pink bucket hat because no matter how hard I work my ass off, ina is going down.  It’s not about the pneumonia, bed sores, fever, or UTI. Her lymphoma reminds me of Cloudy With A Chance of Meatballs --’yung lumaki na sila ng hindi mo inaakala and nagtawag pa sila ng tropa. She can no longer swallow because the lump in her throat is getting bigger and bigger.  I told dad that this is his last two minutes to make worthwhile memories with ina. I didn’t force or mandate. I simply shared with him the crap that I’ve gone through but how I don’t regret any missed year I could have devoted to work or love life (LUH) because my timer is expiring sooner rather than later with mother dragon.  A little over a week, he packed his bags and said that he is coming home, para sa life. CHAR. And today, he called me and my brother with a smile on his teary eye. Dad said na tapos na. Pahinga na siya. Okay lang ako dito. Uminom na ako ng gamot. Bike ako ulit mamaya.  47/32.  Breathing is slowing.  Vital signs are on lo-fi.  4 last breaths.  And gone.  Forever.  12:25 am  March 23  All six children stayed with ina until her final game. Held her hands. Prayed with and for her. One of the most epic troubleshooting projects I’ve conceptualized, executed and optimized. EMS. But, in all honesty, the past weeks have been a totally life-changing... humbling, nakaka-isod ng kaibuturan and of course, with stories worth sharing. TEDTalks x MNL na pala ‘to.  I hope this time around, I would allow myself to feel instead of succumbing to doing. I hope that I choose to grieve even when my emotion spells numb all over. Even my LSS is Defy Gravity which is soooo weird and too problematic. Hindi ko matanggal sa sistema ko. I sincerely wish that this loss will be the beginning of something wonderful. Multiverse, ikaw na bahala.  Back to regular programming.  Not bad for a lunchbreak thought fart, noh? Sorrnuh lungs my dyslexia is on a high, too! :D 

[anchoeritic]

one of my older sisters has the same story, she even drop out high school to raise me bc my mother was a workaholic and my dad was not in the picture and as the younger one i can say i used to feel really guilty about that. i'm really glad you were able to go through that and see the positive things, but i just can't imagine all that, the worst part is when your parents try to act like parents but it's already too late.

STOOOP, you have giggling, you really have an effect on people, my rizzy girl. he's the cutest even if he grabs me by my scalp bc he really likes my red hair. fr, i completely understand how hard it's to try gave everything to your child and also be there for them but,,, overall don't leave your child taking care of another kid, instead try to acknowledge them about the situation and search ways, maybe. TODDLERS ARE ACTUALLY CUTE, they're adorable because they are so imaginative and shit, i just can't (the baby fever it's real) WHY YOUR NIECE CALLED YOU A BITCH???? WHAT WAS THE REASON, STOP JAJJDKAKD. the 13 year old was an experience, HE EVEN FOUND MY IG ACCOUNT, HOW?? leave me alone, boy, i'm not a minor and not straight

I ACTUALLY REALLY ENJOY TALKING TO YOU, you make people feel comfortable, my love. be careful because one of these days i'm gonna slip on ur dms. i also really like when u talk like, when u extend answering.

— ⚰️

effect on people?? not so much. i consider it: speaking my mind and thinking there are no consequences.. (spoiler: there are so many consequences). and that’s literally so adorable but that beeegs the question.. you got red hair? 🤭 i’m not saying red hair makes me go feral but red hair makes me go feral, ya knooooow.. just in case you wanted to know.. mhm..

but yeah, i don’t understand parents finding such shit solutions to a somewhat simple problem. why would you give the responsibility to another kid and expect them to raise it just fine?? makes me so fucking mad when i think about it. toddlers are easy to be around. yes, they cry… yes, they poop.. but other than that, they don’t mess around. also not the 13 year old finding you on instagram?? i’d shit myself bye. that’s kinda creepy.

i’m such a bore, i’m so sorry pls. i’m here as support for everyone and anyone, especially yoooou. you’re my girlfriend, though soooooo.. it’s a lil different.. xoxo

[chloeinletters]

Hi Chloe! I found your newsletter and I'm currently reading them. I really love your words, and of course that goes with your thoughts as well :) I'm looking forward to subscribing but can't right now because I just recently resigned from my full-time job and currently saving every penny that I can while I'm looking for work :(

Anyway, I wanted to ask how you started with your newsletter? I admire working artists like you, and you inspired me to start mine. My worry is that, I'm not really known anywhere. Only a few followers in IG and Tumblr and some of my friends know that I write. I wonder if i start a newsletter, if there will be anyone at all who would read it. Did you immediately start with a paid subscription? Or did you gather first a few more readers before doing so? I'm hoping I could turn my writing into a career and make some few good bucks, and this may be a good start. Thank you and I hope you won't stop writing!

First and foremost. Sorry this took me ages to answer. I procrastinated and my procrastination made me anxious.

Second, accessible art has gotten me through so much. If you feel comfortable enough to DM me on instagram your email I will comp you a subscription 🫶🏻

Finally, your question. I didn’t immediately have a large following nor did I start with paid subscribers. I did it about 6 months or so in because I had no $$ and I needed something just a little more than what I was getting. To pay literally for coffee just to alleviate that small pressure. I’m a perfect world I would have liked to wait another 6 months to do this or so. I wish I gave myself time to plan and work but it didn’t happen that way and I was making 80$ a week at that time.

When it comes to starting a newsletter you don’t need to be well known. I didn’t really have a lot of followers anywhere when I began. My first month I had 40 to 50 readers which were largely my moms friends, my friends, and my family. And like everyone else when I made chloeinletters in any regard I stared with 0 followers and worked up. My advice to you in regards to starting is making something you’d enjoy even if only five readers read it. Not to say it wouldn’t be discouraging but something that you would give equal courage, time, energy, and vulnerability to even if five people were reading it for the first year. I also think take the easy way because even the easy way can be hard. My newsletter came from: what can I give right now thay won’t deplete my already limited attention span, energy, and joy. I liked quotes and was already reading, I had scrap poems that I did nothing with, and I had about one thing to say a month. Thus my newsletter was born. It was not of great consequence for me to spend time with it. I was usually, by design? already doing the things I needed to make a newsletter just in my homework and in my head. If you’re working and doing this you have to have a gentle hand I think. At least for me I am easily discouraged by my own ambition.

The practical explanation for this is endless. For one thing consistency is the key to growing. And because readers know when you’re tired, lying, and half assing things. What they don’t know is how many other readers there are. So if you treat it as a minuscule unimportant number they will feel that this is not an important thing for you and thus be in no rush to connect and read your work. And if you enjoy making it and get excited to create you will want to do it each month every other week or however often you feel you can open yourself to others.

The truth is you can do it. You just have to do it the way you can do it. You have to decide to set a boundary on your desire to be big and famous and you have to want to do it. Regardless of how many people are reading. Obviously growing is ideal. Obviously the idea that many people would read your work is so fun but five people, five friends, is still five people reading it. Take joy in all numbers. They all hold weight.

Hope this helps my brain is a bit scattered. If you have any other questions feel free again to DM me. I reply quicker there. Promise!

[thatgirlsstory]

It’s fuck boy story time Tumblr.. read till the end, I need advice

At 12:05 am, I’m sitting at the bar with my friend Emily and my work email goes off. Stressing out, I get up and go outside to deal with this work fire. A cute boy is sitting on the patio enjoying a cigarette, he’s 6’4, blue eyes with long brown hair tucked behind his ears with 1 strand dangling in his face. He sensed my stress and asked if I would like one. I smiled, accepted and thanked him. There’s something so sexual about a boy lighting a cigarette for you… 15 minutes later, when I finished my email, I walked back inside and found the cute boy sitting next to the chair where I was sitting, his name is RJ btw. After some witty banter, i introduced RJ to my friend Emily and he introduced me to his friend Paul. The 4 of us had a great evening, the conversation was flowing and the shots were pouring.

There was clearly some sexual tension between me and RJ, but like always, I was playing hard to get. After what is about to happen next, I’ve been finding myself over analyzing that evening. Was he really into me? Maybe I was being too flirty. But no…. Regardless of how drunk I was, I was SURE he was more into me than I was into him. HE asked for my number HE asked for my ig, asked ME on a date, asked if he could walk ME to my car….

Anyways, moving on. It was past last call and the bartender turned on the lights. We made our way outside and shared a cigarette before going our separate ways. Emily opened her big mouth and it slipped out that I was driving. Don’t get me wrong, I never drink and drive, in fact I hate when people do it. But this was a spur of the moment drunk and I just couldn’t leave my car in a public parking lot down town toronto, overnight… regardless, not an excuse I know.. RJ looked at me and refused to let me drive. After going back and forth about wether or not I should drive, we landed on me driving but RJ had to walk us to the car and I had to call him when I got home. And if I didn’t call him, he would call Emily to make sure I was okay. He got Emily’s number, he already had my number and Instagram from earlier on in the night. We get to my car, Emily hops in and I go in to give RJ a hug. He grabs me by the hips and kisses me. Soft, romantic, passionate but not raunchy… we said our goodbyes, I hop in the car and like classic girls, Emily and i scream OMG THAT WAS SO CUTE!!!!

Ready for it? Buckle up!

Once I make it home, safe. I text RJ and let him know, we go back and forth over text a few times, saying how lovely it was to meet me and to chat tomorrow about setting up a date for next week. I had butterflies. Moments later Emily texts me a screenshot or her conversation with RJ. He texted her once I said I was home, and proceeded to tell Emily how hot she was and how he wanted to rip her clothes off. Emily, trying to be nice, she kindly turns him down, followed by a few “lols”. At this point he’s basically begging her to come over at 4 in the morning…. That’s when she sent me the screenshot. I go to RJ, as we’re still texting and say…. Um yeah maybe don’t ask me on a date and then slide into my friends DM’s? I was trying to be casual, after all we did JUST meet. But I felt rejected. The audacity of this man. Like you were hitting on me all night in front of Emily and his friend. It was clear Emily was trying to wing man me. We were best friends, and he knew that. Did he honestly think I wasn’t going to find out? That’s comical. He apologizes profusely and said, we were calling him hot and it went to his head. I told him, she was trying to wing man. She wanted him for me not for her… whatever. He said he felt awful and totally read to signals wrong blah blah blah. I went to bed

The next day, I wake up to a text from RJ apologizing again. I laughed it off and said, yeah it’s okay, that just means you’ll have to work even harder. Throwing in some flirty banter. We spend the day going back and forth, getting to know each other. I thought he was super sweet and I totally forgave him for the night before and I blamed it on the alcohol.

The NEXT day (aka 2 days later) I pick Emily up and we head to a coffee shop to do a fun work from home day together. I update her on RJ and she goes… yah I need to talk to you about that…. Sitting in my passenger seat, Emily proceeds to tell me how the day after and even that morning, RJ was still texting her saying how much he liked her and wanted to fuck her…. I was trying so hard to hold back my tears. I felt absolutely rejected. But not only was he saying all this to my friend but he was saying things to her he never even said to me. With her he was all raunchy and talking about sex, with me he was a gentleman and polite and wanted to take me on dates and said I was special…. This was all too much. Emily left him on read but I still felt absolutely awful.

After our work from home day together and I drop Emily off at home. I get a text from RJ, in which I left on read. I hated him

4:48- How’s your Friday goin??

4:49- You look really cute in Emily’s Ig story :)

5:15- Can you send me your work schedule for next week again pleaseee?

At this point, I had to say something, maybe I was too soft and polite. Tumblr… You tell me…

ME- 6:04- Thank you! So I’m pretty upset, obviously you must know Emily showed me your guys convo. I don’t blame you, she’s a total babe, and I’m sure her being married and untouchable probably makes her even more desirable, I get it. Shooting your shot when you’re drunk, I can just laugh it off. I’m not the jealous type, I’m pretty chill but still saying those things to Em, today and yesterday really hurt my feelings. I actually liked you, I thought you were a pretty rad guy and I was looking forward to getting to know you. But I’m not one to compete for men, even though she wouldn’t cheat on her husband, I somehow still feel like I’m competing. I’m 30, I’m not going to put myself in a position where I’m going to be upset over a man this early in the game. I think I’ll just bow out and let you try to shoot your shot with Emily or whoever.

HIM- 6:05- Nooo no please don’t do that. I am not going to go after Emily, it was just silly flirting and it was immature. There’s obviously no chance for a future there, it was dumb. I genuinely apologize, but I promise there is no competition. I’m not going to chase after her, it was dumb. Will you give me a chance??

6:06- Please? I liked meeting you and am very intrigued by you - I was being an idiot

6:10- I was acting like the exact thing I hate. I understand if you don’t want to see me again, I am really sorry though. I hope you’ll let me try to make it up to you though

As a hopeless romantic- We some how ended the conversation with me saying I would give him another chance but my guard is up and this must be one hell of a date for me to forget what happened… we briefly texted over the weekend while he was away with him family. A day next week for our “date” has not been locked in but he said he has plans for our date already in mind. I haven’t heard from him since mid day yesterday… which is fine, he was away with his family after all… but why am I constantly checking my phone to see if he texted me? Why am I thinking about him? Why did I give him another chance? Would he even follow through with this date, will I even hear from him again? This is all so fucked up. And it’s fucking with my mind…

TUMBLR I NEED YOUR HELP! Please reblog, the more advice and help I can get the better! Thank you 🥹

-t

[majesticbrownjawn]

Nervous

@soufcakmistress didn’t realize when she posted this that it would inspire me to write. Thanks boo. Here’s what happens when you so thick it makes Erik nervous...but not really cuz he doesn’t get nervous. 

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“I ain’t shy, you just so thick I’m a little nervous.”

“Really?”

He laughed at her shock at his statement. The look she gave him as she stared up at him in awe was cute as shit.

“Don’t worry, when I’m fucking you, all that nervous shit gon be out the window.”

“Excuse me?”

The trap music was loud, but not that loud.

“You heard me Thickums.” He leaned in close, his beard tickling the side of her neck when he spoke.

Y/N squeezed her legs together involuntarily, the weight of her thighs pressing against the sides of her clit, causing a soft moan to slip from her lips. He definitely heard it and now she was nervous.

Again.

As fate would have it, she’d seen Erik on Instagram before on multiple occasions. He gained notoriety after one the mother of one of his students posted him on IG with the caption, “My son’s teacher bout to have my ass bringing him an apple everyday!”

Another user found Erik’s profile, and BOOM, 40K followers overnight. It was no wonder though. Y/N had seen the photos of him in the school’s navy blue polo, muscles protruding from his sleeves.

But seeing him in person was almost too much. Your heart and other bits went thumpity-thump-thump when you spotted him at the house party two hours ago. You weren’t surprised to see the swarm of women around him or the fact that he was enjoying the attention.

“I feel like I’ve seen you somewhere before...were you at the brunch on 14th a couple weeks ago?”

“No. I don’t go to brunch often.”

“Too many niggas like me hassling you, huh?”

You bit back a smile as he glazed over your frame again. Yea, niggas hassled you, but they certainly didn’t look like him.

“You’re not hassling me.”

“Aight good. But for real tho, like damn… you just so—“

A woman plopped down next to you with a cup full of alcohol. She was drunk and desperate for the attention of the man sitting to your right. She leaned into you hard, so you leaned into Erik. The pads of your fingers to gripped his thigh for leverage. You couldn’t have anticipated brushing up against the tip of his firm, warm dick. Time stopped and you momentarily forgot about the freshly spilled tequila on your white t-shirt dress. Erik’s mouth hung slightly ajar, clearly turned on by your accidental groping. You didn’t read it that way though.

“I’m so sorry!”

You flew up from the couch and ran to the first door you could find. As you raced through the party, you’d decided as soon as your dress was dry, you’d head for the front door and straight to your car. The music was so loud and you were so frazzled that you couldn’t hear Erik behind you trying to tell you to slow down. You nearly slammed the door in his face when you found a random bedroom just behind the DJ booth.

“You move fast girl.” You jumped in surprise at the sound of his velvety voice.

He was stuck when you finally turned around, revealing the mess the woman on the couch made on you. The cotton fabric of your dress was saturated with tequila, giving Erik a vivid display of your mesh bra underneath. He could just barely see the outline of your deep brown areolas. You watched his eyes dilate as he zeroed in on your pebbled nipples. You felt vulnerable and exposed and turned on as he stood before you, speechless.

“Erik?”

“Yea, baby?” He slowly lifted his head to meet your eyes.

“Baby?” You giggled.

“Yea. You baby now…And, I don’t know your name. You dipped out before I could ask.”

“It’s Y/N.”

“Y/N, Y/N,” he repeated it like he was trying to etch it in his brain. “Why you run away?”

“I tend to do that when things get awkward. I’m sorry.”

“Shit ain’t get awkward until you took off.” He walked a few paces to lessen the space between you. “Don’t run away from me again. OK?”

His large hand gripped the side of your neck, his thumb caressing your jaw. He had to be the type of nigga that sprayed his colonge on his inner wrist. The sweet-spicy musk tempted you to turn your head and kiss the palm of his hand.  

“Umhm,” you nodded.

“Umhm, what?”

“I won’t run away from you again.”

“Good girl. Now, what were you going to say?”

He took a seat on the bed, keeping an eye on you like you’d still bolt at any second.

“Did I really make you nervous?”

He smiled so wide that the gold caps of his canines gleamed against the light in the room.

“Yea. I meant that shit. You perfect.” He reached out and pulled you in between his legs. “These thighs are what I noticed about you first.”

His hands slowly glazed over the back of your knees and upwards until he reached your thighs. He gripped them suddenly, making you gasp. His deep eyes grew dark with desire as he gazed up at you. The intensity in them made you want to look at anything but him.

“Hey…Y/N.”

“Hmm?”

“Look at me.”

Your eyes darted to his lips. They were so full and kissable.

“C’mere.”

You were already standing in between his legs staring down at the growing knot in his jeans.

“Sit down.”

You took a half step back to sit next to him on the bed, but his hand grabbing your ass signaled that wasn’t he meant by sit down. You carefully lifted your dress a bit and straddled his lap. It felt like you melted into his bulky frame. He gripped you so tight, it felt familiar. Safe.

“Imma be real witchu, Y/N.” Erik’s head was nestled in between your breasts, listening to your sporadic heartbeat. “I know where I know you from.”

You could barely hear him. His warm hands exploring your body clouded your senses. All you could do was feel.

“I asked Teddy to invite you tonight.”

You were surprised, but you were so relaxed that you didn’t react in the way you normally would.

“I DM’ed you like two years ago, but you never responded.”

All you could do was chuckle. You would have remembered him DMing you and you absolutely would have responded.

“You don’t believe me? Look—“

He tried to pull away from you to grab his phone from his pocket but, nah. You tightened your thighs around him, cementing yourself further in his lap. The heat of your pussy stilled him from moving further.

“So you already knew my name?” Your fingertips massaged his scalp. All he could do was hum in the affirmative. He allowed your hands to explore him as much as they wanted. Shoulders, arms, lips…

“Kiss me.” There was a hint of desperation in his voice that made you weak. The faint moan that slipped from him when your tongue entered his mouth made you weaker. The involuntary grind of your hips against his dick drove you crazy. You couldn’t get enough of the feeling of him pressing into you.

He leaned back with you still gyrating on him. Erik wanted to see more of you. You didn’t realize he slipped your dress over your head until you felt the pads of his fingers swiping back and forth across your nipples. You were so needy to cum now.

He drank you in, intoxicated by the look of you get getting off on his clothed dick.

“Erik,” you whispered. “Imma cum.”

Just the thought of his face between your legs, lapping up your pussy juices had you nutting all on his lap.

“Oh shit, oh shit….Fuuuuuuhhhhk.”

You whimpered into his mouth as you finished and he kissed you hungrily, suckling your lips.

“You feeling good as hell right now, huh?”

“Yes, nigga. What you think?” You laughed, looking down at the sticky puddle in Erik’s lap.

“I made a mess on you. I’m sorry—“

“I like that shit, Y/N. It lets me know how bad you want me…it’s good to know, especially since you was ignoring my DMs and shit.”

“Whatever. I know I would have talked to you if you DMed me.”

“You was with dude then.”

He was referring to your ex, Mark.

“I could tell you were a good girl so I figured you might not respond but it was worth a shot.”

“Would a good girl do what I just did with you?”

“Yea. Maybe with her man.”

You kissed him and smiled.

“Good thing I did it with you then. Wouldn’t want to ruin your opinion of me.”

Erik reached over and grabbed the dress from the other side of the bed and put it back on you.

“I love you so much, Y/N.”

“I love you too, Erik.”

“You ready to go home? I wanna be comfortable while I’m eating ya pussy. All this noise is too much.”

He held you close to him as you made your way back out into the crowd. You could faintly hear Teddy, Erik’s best friend yell, “Happy anniversary!” as you exited the party.  

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@harleycativy @queenflaws @theogbadbitch @goddessofthundathighs @syndrlla97 @soufcakmistress @mbakusprincess @supersizemeplz @therealmrsrhodes @toniilaney @raysunshine78 @19jammmy@killmonger-fics @just-peachee @trinityaneise​ @wawakanda-btch @ladymac82@just-peachee @ladymac82​ @suburbanblackhoe

[denpadokei]

LETS GOOOO MY GOHAN MUTUAL! I will now reblog this wonderful reblog with a list of points :))))) This might be very annoying sorry. It’s like this so if you wanna react to each bit you can like say what numbered point you’re talking about. Idm really. This is also public (not dm) in case other people wanna learn about it.

I gotta know who ben is 👀🤨 SORRY HAVE I MISSED SOMETHING IMPORTANT

Like I said I’m not letting myself interact with any of the new Gohan stuff because then I’ll get distracted and I need to get a big post about miku expo out on my main. I’m sorry T-T It’s sucks it sucks for me too but if I don’t do that I’ll feel like a personal failure. It’s funny because everything I say is usually too long or niche to get any notes. I try. It will definitely-hopefully-probably-reallyreally-should be out before the 6th/7th since that’s when the live happens right. yeah anyway that includes merely looking at the map and other things included in the gift box. (I opened it prematurely for motivation and so I could get pictures of melty in the snow). I already know it’s gonna be a whole thing. I probably won’t get too deep into making new actual theories until after Christmas, I’ve gotta sort out the horrors. That is if I make it out alive.

I think blue ending nova happens after futarino personally, like the last thing that happens before it died/turned red. Is that common knowledge-

I don’t believe the long-haired girl in blue ending nova (specifically atmosphere) is photon. My blue ending nova theory is batshut crazy compared to how I think most people gave interpreted it. I do believe photon and long knew each other, and were friends with ginga. That will also be what today’s post is about >:) I’m not sure how much of it I can still believe though, because of the map which I have seen briefly (just happy to know that Denpadokei and Pokapoka are their own places yay)

I think the railroad tracks are different, in the game (possibly mvs too) I think they’re both dream planets inspired by a real railway in the blue planet. Possibly the same one. I’ll get into it in the next post ig.

Envy phantom takes place on another planet I believe, like the “earth” in the map. Sorry if that was obvious or if you’re referring to something else I don’t know. I had a theory recently that most humans left on the blue planet migrated to that earth, the ones who didn’t died or were turned into other adults or something. I dunno it’s very new and still in the works.

What is the Neo Dream Cinema? Is it that Gohan movie with eteru where melty yells HANDOMEIDO GINGA DA and girl in white turns into a radio etc. Was that just a trailer for it? In gohan’s new instagram post it looks like there’s more footage of it, is there gonna be a more in the upcoming live? Where did that name for it even come from? Is this gonna be in Tina’s video card- sorry that’s a little too many questions and I’m pretty sure we’re all as confused as each other with this. Feel no obligation to respond to this in any amount of time or at all btw it’s all alright :))) I’m happy and nervous to have another person to talk about it all

HOLD ON IS THAT A FECJIMG ZERO TALKING CAnDLE (ignore this)

Thank you, it’s not that I feel unwelcome ig it’s that I started having Gohan theories and stuff before I was aware that there was a fandom in the first place, and a lot of my theories and interpretations are pretty different from what the rest of the fandom believes (blue ending nova specifically I’ll be honest). It was just me and myself ig. And I feel it’s kinda hard to make jokes and headcannons and what not together or something if things are as different as I’m worried they are. This isn’t a bad thing though, especially since this Neo Dream Cinema thing as well as the map has interestingly thrown a wrench in what we’ve all assumed for a long time, I think that goes for everyone a bit. For me, posting about it here while it’s just about to unfold with at least one other fan is a good practice for talking to other people about it (Great time to be a Gohan fan my god). I have seen the videos of random things that go on in the server and god it looks so fun but I also don’t understand any of the inside jokes yet- I WILL join at some point next year, I promise (TOOI NATSU NO JISANA KIOKU WA.?!?!?!?,,!.?.???!?.,,)

Just posted the first day! I will be more aesthetic tomorrow I promise.

Yeah so I’m hoping to start talking about fairy take galaxies soon I’ve just still gotta work on the mikuexpost for my main. If I listen to the album at all I’ll get too distracted finish it and I really need too. Hopefully it’ll be done by the 10th! That’s like the first and only realistic expectation I’ve set myself god I’m so lazy-

In the meantime expect old theories and stuff that have now been debunked. Oh dear Gohan fandom the map is absolutely crazy you do not wanna know (you do it’s not bad it’s just like HUH WHAT)

I hope no one beats me to it. I know someone already has but I’m pretty sure I’ll come up with some new different theories and stuff.

You might also see some bad art while I struggle to find filler in this period where I do not ket myself listen to the new album, and for when I get busy with Christmas presents and stuff- agh I’m stressed.

Please keep an eye out! I’ve been a Gohan fan for years and have NEVER properly interacted with the community, I have a feeling it thrives a little here. I’m currently too scared to join the big discord server-

[fortruthseekers]

REFRESHER ON MY INSIDER SOURCES: BTW, this is Purv aka @p-redux. This is my original Tumblr blog I’ve revived to archive past source info.

In 2014, I first posted my insider source info. I didn’t have a Tumblr blog, so I posted everything on my old Twitter account, all the details the sources gave me then. The fandom, especially shippers, went into an uproar because my source info sunk the ship. The SamCait ship had barely started sailing and I sunk it before it had made it out into open sea. Shippers have never forgiven me for that. Mea culpa, mea maxima culpa. 

Throughout the years, I’ve reiterated my source info, but summarized it because most people had already heard it, and I didn’t see a need to keep rehashing it. The more time past, the more it became clear Sam and Cait weren’t a couple, and that the info I had shared with the fandom AHEAD of time was true. Cait was seen with Tony a lot. And Sam was seen with different girlfriends or dates. But since I’m turning this account @fortruthseekers into an archive account, I’m going to post the original source DETAILS again, for newbies. This post is going to be LONG, very long, because I go into detail. Read it if you need a refresher on what I said previously about sources, or if you’ve never read the source details before. Click on Keep Reading to find the rest.

Okay, so about sources. REAL sources. I live in Los Angeles and used to be in the industry many years ago. As a result, I still know people in the industry. And just by living in L.A., you meet people who know celebs. In 2014, I got who I call “my original industry source” through a friend who knew I was watching Outlander. And she thought it would be cool for me to talk to this industry person who had Outlander connections. My friend put me in touch with her so we could talk about our common interest. Initially, me talking to the source was just to schmooze about insider info, I wasn’t planning to make it public or create a celebrity insider info account. But I was surprised about how much she knew. At the time many people, including myself, thought Sam and Cait were most likely a couple, when the source told me she knew for sure they weren’t, I was floored. Then after she told me all the details of her interactions with Sam, Cait, and some of the Outlander cast, and the fact that she was friends with one of Cait’s besties, I knew I’d hit a huge source of info. 

At first, the source didn’t want me to make the info public, she didn’t want to get in trouble, but she thought it was important that people knew the truth about whether or not Sam and Cait were a couple. She figured if they knew, then people wouldn’t get their hopes up and be disappointed when Sam and Cait became more famous, and would inevitably be seen with other people. As I said, that original industry source is good friends with one of Cait’s female best friends. And because she’s in the industry, she also had a connection to Sam through his talent agency. So, she had insider info on BOTH Cait and Sam. Jackpot.

Because I knew her full identity and knew I was talking to the real person on her real and blue check verified Twitter account, and my friend had introduced me to her, I could trust that her info was legit. She is also Instagram blue check verified and has made a name for herself in the industry. People would be shocked if they knew who she was. SHE is the one who told me 100% Sam and Cait were not dating and that 100% Sam is not gay.  At first, she didn’t want me to post things publicly, but I begged and she finally relented, as long I would swear I would keep her identity private and would leave out some identifying details. 

So, in 2014, I went public with all the details she told me. And through the years, EVERYTHING she told me turned out to be true. I didn’t have a Tumblr blog at the time, so all my source info was posted on my old Twitter account. I posted every detail of what she told me and I also posted some of her DMs with permission, and name blacked out. Unfortunately, all that is gone because I deleted my old Twitter account a long time ago. 

The main points were: Sam and Cait weren’t a couple and never have been. When I said to her that I knew actors were different than regular people, but that when I saw Sam and Cait talking about watching the wedding scene together, while drinking a bottle of wine, that there was no way they didn’t hook up at some point. She said she’s been around a lot of actors and said Sam and Cait are both natural flirts and very touchy-feely people, and she didn’t see anything out of of the ordinary in their interactions–she reminded me their behavior is the norm when promoting a show. 

She also said Sam isn’t gay per people she’s talked to who know him. She knew the director of Batman Live, the live show Sam starred in years ago. The director was a gay man, and when she asked him if Sam was gay, since he seemed too good to be true and was so good-looking, he said no. And he said he and other crew who were hoping Sam was gay were disappointed that he was straight. The director told her that the reason Sam didn’t seem to have much of a dating history, was because he had always been focused on his career and on working out. And that because he was traveling with the show, there wasn’t time for a committed relationship. Later, we found out that Sam had indeed been dating a woman named Katie Rebekah, but they broke up because she moved from London to Australia, and Sam started to tour with Batman Live. That’s the info I got in 2014. If Sam was gay, the gay director would have told my source and squeed about it.

This source used to work between New York and Los Angeles. She was in New York for one of her TV shows during the July 2014 premiere of Outlander and hung out with Cait and Cait’s bestie, as well as some of the other OL cast and crew. She also had some business meetings with Sam in NY. She confirmed Sam brought Amy Shiels as his “plus one” to the premiere and even skipped out on an unplanned event the cast was invited to because he “had a date.” When they saw him the next day and asked him how his date went, source said Sam replied “It was great!” Even though this source got info from Cait’s bestie…the bestie kept quiet about Cait and Tony, and simply said that Cait and Sam weren’t a couple….I found out about Tony from someone else...more on that later. 

This source did share some info about what Cait thought about Sam. She said that Cait cared about Sam as a costar and friend, and they got along very well.  But Cait said Sam was not her type, that Cait didn’t date actors, and that Cait referred to Sam as “a bro,” and that Cait was not into guys who spent so much time in the gym. She said Cait genuinely liked Sam as a person, but there was not more to it. And that Sam was just a big flirt, and that they were both trying to promote Outlander as much as possible because they knew it was their big break. 

This is also the source who told me that Cait’s friend, the one the source is friends with, didn’t particularly care for Sam. To be very clear: I don’t feel this way about Sam, Cait doesn’t feel this way about Sam, and my source doesn’t feel this way about Sam. In fact, my source said Sam “was lovely” to her and “a sweetheart.” But one of Cait’s besties, just ONE FRIEND–not plural, the friend said that she thought Sam “could be self-absorbed,” and “douchy.” ONE of Cait’s friends said this. No one else said this. And that was way back in 2014. I’m sure Sam has matured since then, as people tend to do as they get older. BTW Cait has a lot of close friends, some of which aren’t well known to fans. Reiterating: Cait doesn’t feel that way about Sam, the source didn’t feel this way about Sam, and I, Purv, don’t feel this way about Sam, nor have I said anything like that about Sam. 

Back to Sam being a natural flirt, remember, even Cait said “he could flirt with a lamppost.” Well, my source said that the times she saw Sam at business meetings, he was always very nice to her and would greet her with a big bear hug, tight enough that she could feel how hard his chest was. He would look down at her, right into her yes, hold her gaze, and smile big at her. And this was a woman he was not interested in romantically. He was just being friendly and sweet. Imagine how high the charm wattage is turned up for a woman he IS interested in. No wonder that Samshine has been hard to resist. This is also the source who said that Sam would always say goodbye to her by saying his now ubiquitous “Let’s get together for a wee dram when you’re in Scotland.” Of course, that “wee dram” never happened. I think that’s just Sam’s people pleasing qualities coming out, never wants to disappoint anyone. The source also said whenever he would text or e-mail her for business related stuff, he was always super enthusiastic and used a lot of exclamation points !!!!!!

Anyway, my original industry source “broke up” with me years ago because she didn’t want to chance anyone finding out who she was, as Outlander got bigger, and as she got bigger in the industry. I still sometimes look at her Twitter and IG all nostalgic, remembering when it all started...ah, memories...

My second major source was my Tony family source. My Tony source is someone from Glasgow who was friends with someone I’d known for awhile. My friend put me in contact with her. The Tony source approached me to tell me that she was shocked to find out a relative of hers (later found out it was her brother) had revealed “the lead actress from that new show Outlander is dating Tony McGill.” She was shocked because she and her family have known Tony and his family for years, all of them growing up in and around Glasgow. Her brother went to school with Tony and his brother, Joe. She then told me the whole backstory of Cait and Tony. She wanted me to keep the info to myself and she had no motivation or intention of making it public. But she finally agreed, after I gave my word that I would protect her identity and I have. 

What she shared with me in late 2014 is that her brother found out their friend, Tony was dating Caitriona Balfe. At the time she said they’d been dating for about 9-10 months, that’s why I always put the start of their relationship around March 2014. She was told that by December 2014, the relationship was “dead serious” between them and that Cait had spent Christmas 2014 in London with Tony and his dad. And then Tony had flown to Ireland with Cait to spend New Year’s Eve and New Year’s with her family and friends (we’ve all seen the pic and video on Donal Brophy’s IG). My source said that Cait and Tony had been friends for 9 years or so at the time (again, this was told to me in 2014) and had met years ago when Tony rented out a room to one of Cait’s friends. They hooked up briefly back then and then remained friends, until it turned romantic again around March 2014. The source said that she and her family knew Tony and his family from back in the day, and she told me what school Tony went to in Glasgow (something I haven’t and won’t make public). She said that Tony had moved from Glasgow years ago and had been living in London for awhile (again, this was told to me in 2014). Also, that he and his brother owned a bar/live music place in London, The Library in Islington (they later opened a second one, The Reading Room, which Cait posted from on IG) and a music production company. And that prior to that, Tony was the band manager for some Scottish bands, most notable, The Fratellis. She described Tony as “fun, clever and hysterically funny.” 

The Tony source came into the picture after I had my Twitter account up, where I was posting insider info given by my first source. I had already posted that Sam and Cait weren’t dating. This second source is the one that filled in the missing puzzle piece I didn’t know was missing and told me she knew WHO Cait was dating. I would have NEVER known the name Tony McGill associated with Cait if not for this source. He was on no one’s radar. And he wasn’t on social media. This source told me details only an insider would know. And I also had her full identity, so I knew she was legit as well. Then ‘lo and behold Tony started showing up places with Cait. There is NO way I would have known about Tony without this inside family source. No way. Of course after my source told me about him, I did look him up online and there was hardly any information about him. Never in a million years would I have linked Tony McGill with Cait on my own. And I mentioned Tony McGill way before he started showing up places with Cait. How could it be that I said sources told me Tony McGill is dating Cait, and then a man identified as Tony McGill is seen out and about with Cait? The only way I knew about Tony is because the source told me. 

Back in the day, when Cait and Tony weren’t yet living together yet, people wondered how they made their relationship work given the sometimes long distances? Well, when they first started dating around March 2014, Cait was filming Outlander Season 1, so Tony would go to Glasgow or Cait would go to London on weekends. Then when Season 1 wrapped and Cait went back to L.A. (where she had been living) in late Sept. 2014, Tony went to L.A. to visit her in October 2014 (both their birthdays are in October, Cait Oct. 4 and Tony Oct. 12, not Oct. 14 like some have said. Libra/Libra bond!). The Fratellis were also in L.A. Oct. 2014 and Tony helped them out with some business stuff, even though he was no longer managing them then. Then, as I’ve already stated, Cait and Tony spent time together Dec. 2014 and January 2015 for the holidays. Then Valentine’s Feb. 2015, Cait flew to London for the opening of Tony’s 2nd bar, The Reading Room. She posted a pic on IG. Then in April 2015, Tony flew to NY to join Cait for the premiere of the second half of Season 1. Eyewitness sources saw him sitting with Cait’s friends at the screening and then with Cait and her friends inside the after party. There was one PUBLIC pic on Twitter of Cait, Tony and Sam. And I and others have been shown private pics of Tony there. Many of us have seen them but we couldn’t make them public because they show the location where they were taken, thus identifying the source who took them, and she would get in trouble with her boss. After that, in May 2015, Cait went back to Glasgow to begin shooting OL Season 2, and this time, she brought her cat, Eddie with her. Per more than one source, Tony pretty much lived in Glasgow after that with Cait. One person who went to Tony’s bars in Glasgow and then reached out to me, said that she had asked about Tony and was told “he doesn’t come around much anymore because he moved back to Scotland.” They then moved into their new place in Glasgow, move out of that one and into a new one in Glasgow, and also have a place in London, and are now married and had their first son. THAT’s how Tony and Cait made it work.

My Tony source also parted ways with me, also due to fear of being found out. She didn’t formally break up with me, the way the original industry source did, she simply ghosted me. But I also see her pop up on Twitter or IG sometimes and get all wistful. Oh well...

After I posted the insider info from BOTH these sources, then people started to contact me with source info. They knew I was Anon and would keep them Anon--win/win. People who went to Hollywood parties, or premieres, or meet and greets, people who saw celebs at the market, or baseball games, or the beach, or at the gym, or walking down the street, or just happened to be at the right place at the right time, started sending me info. From all over the world, wherever Sam and Cait were. And if I could confirm it to be true, I would post it. If I couldn’t completely guarantee it, then I’d say it was speculation. And that’s what I still do. Granted, back in the day, I was somewhat naive, and did get burned and betrayed a few times. I admitted when that happened. I’m much more careful now. But for the most part, the MAJORITY of the info I’ve posted has been ACCURATE. People who have been here for years can corroborate that. I don’t post everything that is shared with me though. And because my sources are actual real humans, they can’t know everything or be everywhere…I don’t always get minute by minute info, that doesn’t mean I don’t have real sources.

As for me also being the first to let the fandom know that Sam was dating Abbie Salt in 2015...I had a couple of Abbie sources. One of them turned out to be super sketchy and once I figured that out, we parted ways. My Abbie sources approached me after I had already established my account as an insider info sharing account. The motivation was to debunk that Cody and Sam were still seeing each other since they no longer were, and Abbie had started seeing Sam. 

BTW: as an aside...I was also the one that, through an eyewitness source, told the fandom that Sam and Cody Kennedy had gone to the Matthew Morrison Halloween party in October 2014, and the source had seen them kissing while waiting for the valet to bring their car around. You don’t know the LENGTHS that Extreme Shippers went to to disprove my source. They even Google Earthed the driveway from the street to the valet and measured it trying to prove that my source could not have seen where Sam and Cody were waiting for their car. Hahahah omg. Except, my source wasn’t on the street, she was right next to them. After all the bullshit from ES, it’s a wonder I’m still here, but here I am...the strongest bitch you’ll ever meet. But I digress...

Anyhoo, back to Sam and Abbie. I had no idea Abbie Salt existed or that she had dated Sam before and was friends with him…until my Abbie source contacted me to tell me that Sam was no longer dating Cody Kennedy and had resumed dating Abbie Salt. Abbie met Sam years ago when her sister, actress, Charlotte Salt starred with Sam in “A Princess For Christmas,” they dated briefly then, and then rekindled their romance in early 2015. Cody Kennedy’s mom later confirmed this by posting publicly in response to a fan Sam and Cody had broken up because “Sam went back to his old girlfriend in London.” Abbie lives in London. Again…I was surprised because I had no idea…but all the info checked out and then whadda you know, Abbie started showing up in Glasgow…in Sam’s flat (IG pics since deleted)…in L.A. in February 2015 at the London hotel, West Hollywood seen and photographed by an eyewitness for Oscars Week parties (the pic is of Sam and the fan, taken by Abbie, fan said Abbie was super sweet)... n NY when he was there for the OL premiere April 2015 (she posted on her IG, since deleted the pics), in Miami when he was there (eyewitness and Miami source proof that they were in Miami together, and NO that was not me, it was a source) and in Barbados together (Barbados source confirmation, and NO that was not me, it was a source, and pics from Abbie and Sam Tweeted he had been in Barbados). After that, Abbie was in Glasgow and Sam in London, where Abbie lives, on several occasions…not to mention she was photographed as his date in Monte Carlo for the TV Film Festival. It couldn’t be a coincidence that the Abbie Salt sources told me about AHEAD of time, then started to spend all that time with Sam. I didn’t even know Abbie existed, how would I have ever known anything about her without sources?

I also told the fandom about Mackenzie Mauzy and Sam dating via a source who saw them in person, holding hands and leaving together at a Guns N Roses concert in Los Angeles April 1, 2016. A friend of someone I know in L.A. was there and recognized Sam. He told my friend that he’d seen “that Outlander dude, Sam Heughan holding hands with a blonde, leaving the Guns N Roses concert.” At first, I thought it may have been Cody Kennedy, but afterwards, sources came forth to confirm it was Mackenzie Mauzy. Later on, I was contacted by a different Mackenzie source and given more info, which I posted. That Mackenzie source ghosted me too because Mackenzie was probably asking questions as to who was doling out info.  Also, by sheer providence, a fan was in the stands at the Dodgers baseball game in June 2016 and sent me a video of Sam and Mackenzie at the game together. Another source sent me the video of Sam and Mackenzie leaving their hotel together at San Diego Comic Con. I’ll repost all that in the archives. And someone I’ve known for years on Tumblr and trust completely came forward to share that she found out Sam and Mackenzie had broken up from one of Mackenzie’s relatives who live near her. Again, that was also by chance. Life can indeed be stranger than fiction. The relative told her Mackenzie wanted to get married and have kids and Sam wasn’t ready for that yet, so they broke up. That source came forth and identified herself on Tumblr, so that also proves my source info was legit. 

In summary: I was the FIRST to let the fandom know Cait and Sam weren’t dating, Cait was dating Tony, and Sam was dating Abbie, and Sam was dating Mackenzie BEFORE anyone else knew. You can’t do ALL of that simply by scouring social media posts as haters would have you think. It’s just not possible. And reasonable people understand that.

Before Covid-19 hit, people who were attending industry events would contact me and say “Hey Purv, I’m going to the PCA, or the TCA, or the GoldenGlobes, or the Outlander Season premiere and after party, I’ll give you the scoop!” I’d say “Cool, thanks! Send pics or video and let me know what and who you see.” That’s it. No social media searches or data mining needed. There is no conspiracy involved. No one is “feeding” me info from Sam or Cait’s camps or non-shipper or shipper sides to propagate a certain “narrative.” It’s just different people, who are at the right place at the right time, or are privy to certain insider info, sharing it with me because they know I post info for fans who are into that. As I’ve said ad infinitum, I am quite simply THE MESSENGER.

Any questions, send me an Ask or a Direct Message on my MAIN account @p-redux  Thanks!

[literaphobe]

she-ra AU where everything’s the same except they all have phones and social media:

catra finding adora in ep2 and jumping out of the tank like “you didn’t call or text??? not even a single tweet? we lost our snap streak because of this!!!”

adora making callout posts for the horde and catra reblogs them ironically and adds weird shit like “uwu op hworde... evwil?🥺 hworde doing bwad thwings??🥺🥺”

catra Constantly sending adora anon hate except she’s saying shit like “yeah u look hot as she-ra but your tiara’s so stupid haha idiot”

them sliding into each other’s dms “hey send nudes” “if i send nudes will you defect from the horde” “maybe” “ok sending them now” “jk i’m not joining the rebellion” “CATRA >:(“ but then she still sends them 😔😔

catra and adora running into each other constantly and adora can’t figure out how catra does it but forgets that she didn’t turn off find my friend

catra posts thirst traps a lot on her IG and adora refuses to like any of her pictures after she joins the rebellion but she still has notifications on for catra... because reasons... so when she’s at princess prom she sees catra post this picture of her in That Suit and the caption’s something like “all dressed up with nowhere to go....😼” and then after she stares at the post for minutes adora sees catra walk in for real and goes apeshit

similarly to the area 51 event catra creates an event on facebook that’s like “they can’t stop all of us.... let’s storm bright moon” and adora and the rebellion freaks out and makes major preparations to keep their home secure only for no one from the horde to show up on the day itself

adora posts cute things on her IG sometimes like pictures of her with bow and glimmer, or she’ll post a picture with some cute girl she meets in the rebellion who’s giving her a kiss on the cheek and catra writes hate comments that get her blocked. catra ends up having to text adora “wait unblock me i need to tell you something” “ok fine unblocked” “bitch” after adora posts a cute selfie tho catra’s hate comments stop

in s4 adora unfollows catra because she nearly destroyed the world so catra changes her entire look and hair and it makes adora very angry because of course she still stalks catra on social media but she refuses to give catra the satisfaction of following her again so she vague posts A Lot on her spam twitter accounts about how “it’s not FAIR how can someone so evil be so HOT it’s clearly a scheme to distract me” and catra finds her spam account because adora didn’t set it to private and she retweets all of the thirst tweets and adora deactivates her spam account in embarrassment

when catra finally joins the rebellion catra and adora start interacting Very Heavily on social media we’re talking flirting on the timeline, liking each other’s posts and commenting 😍😍😍 and other lovey dovey bullshit on each other’s pictures and they even send each other anons that’s like “i’m too scared to come off anon but i think you’re really cute.... do you have a crush on anyone haha”

catra bursts into tears and considers leaving the rebellion when she sends adora her anon and she replies saying “yeah i do.... i have a crush on this girl but idk i don’t think she likes me back :(“, catra obviously thinks the girl adora has a crush on isn’t her so she thinks she doesn’t have a chance

after they start dating they decide to do the kiss your best friend challenge on tiktok for clout and they think it’ll be a fun way to announce their relationship but turns out everyone already knew and everyone thought they were dating even before they started dating so no one called them out for flirting with each other so hard all over their social media accounts

[volleychumps]

I frfr forgot if I requested earlier but Getting matching tattoos with Kenma maybe reader getting a controller and Kenma getting a mic. Cuz both are famous ig like he’s a famous YouTuber and she’s a singer but there relationship is private but they are seen in public as friends so like ppl peep both tattoos and start speculating. And they accidentally get exposed when she comes on his stream not knowing he’s live

I love this concept?? So much?? And it’s my first Kenma single work???

The Secret (Kenma Kozume x Reader)

The one in which you’re a famous singer dating the pro-gamer on the down low and accidentally expose it to the public

Warning(s): like a TINGE of nsfw themes like super light 

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“All done?” 

“It’s rare to see that you are.” 

You smile at the sight of your boyfriend leaning against the doorway of your in-home studio, humming contentedly as you slip your headphones off. As you turn off the recorder and fiddle with the buttons, Kenma approaches you tiredly, running a hand through his hair let loose out of it’s small bun. The red hoodie he was wearing was loose around his frame, the bags under his eyes signalling that the stream he had just finished up had been a long one as he unscrews the lid to a water bottle. 

“I heard you from the other room. Real pretty voice.” 

“Sure you weren’t scared your viewers would hear?” You tease, accepting the water as Kenma scoffs, rolling his eyes before you feel him approach you from the back. 

“Can we not just bask in this rare moment of freedom we both have? Please?” 

“You love gaming.” You protest, feeling Kenma push your hair to one side of your head to expose your neck.

“And you love singing, but it doesn’t make it any less tiring after hours on end.” 

You turn off your ring light as Kenma’s arms droop lazily around your waist, the gamer digging his face into your neck tiredly while breathing against your skin. Your fingers find one of his hands resting around your middle, stroking the ink on the skin of the side of his thumb with butterflies in your stomach at the sight of the simplistic microphone inked on his skin. 

“I still can’t believe we went through with it.” You whisper, feeling his lips curl a little against your skin. 

“How’s yours healing up?” Kenma murmurs into your neck, lifting his head slightly to catch your own hand and examine the tattoo of the controller on yours. You wince a little bit when he rubs his thumb over it distractedly, the skin still risen a little bit from how fresh it is. 

“Stinging. Yours?” 

“The pain is worth it.” 

“Shut up.” You laugh, turning to face him as Kenma clicks his tongue, murmuring something about how that wasn’t what he meant before you place a kiss on his temple sweetly. 

“Dinner? We can order in.” 

“Right. Like we can actually go out.” Kenma rolls his eyes as you nudge him slightly, feeling a twinge in your chest. The idea to keep it a secret had been your initial thought, but Kenma still agreed that the two of you needed to play your cards right for the sake of your careers. 

“You know it would be a hassle if our viewers knew. And since when do you ever want to go out?” 

“Have you not been on your phone? They’re already kind of on to us after someone digitally enhanced our recent photos to see our tattoos.” Kenma ignores your little jab at his indoor tendencies as he arches a brow. 

“What?” You blink, a surge of panic rushing through your chest as you go to grab your phone. “Already-?” 

“Hey.” Kenma tightens his hold on you, and you still as the setter places a quick kiss on the top of your head while attempting to ease your worries. “Let’s not freak out. Not now, at least. Just...hang with me?” 

You relax, Kenma’s rare words of affection making the panic replace with warmth as you turn in his hold, arms wrapping around his middle tightly as his clasp at the small of your back. The scent of him fills your nose as you mumble into his chest, a wave of tired washing over you as Kenma hides a small, relaxed smile into your hair. 

“Alright, love. Sushi okay?” 

“Order me ramen.”

“Right! My viewers sent me in some apple pie, I almost forgot- Kenma, wait for me!” 

“You should have said so sooner.” 

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The TV was still blaring on some random episode of a netflix series when you wake up, Kenma’s hoodie hanging around your groggy figure as you wake up warm yet alone, tiredly sitting up to switch off the TV. You blink once, and then twice again before smiling to yourself. 

Kenma had applied petroleum jelly to your tattoo for you, an open bottle of water already unscrewed and waiting on the clean living room table. 

The plates from dinner had already been taken and now laid on the drying rack along with the apple pie neatly put away in it’s box next to it. You had to hand it to him, Kenma made it hard for you to be annoyed about waking up alone. Wiping your eyes with the loose sleeve of your boyfriend’s hoodie, you check the time only for your eyes to widen a little bit. 

It was now nine in the morning, meaning that you had slept through the night without even realizing it. You sigh, going through your phone while still waking up before frowning at the influx of notifications and messages blowing up your device, the dms in particular being the most annoying. 

Are you dating Kenma Kozume?!

Back off, hoe. He belongs to his fans. 

Omg omg is my ship sailing??????

From: Asshole 

Are you two lovebirds trying to get found out?

You narrow your eyes, shooting a text back. 

-Kuroo, it’s too early for your bull. 

Listen lovely, it’s never too early. And matching tattoos? He wouldn’t get any with me:((

-Wonder why.

I’VE BEEN SHOT-

You snort before stretching tiredly, putting your phone down and wandering into your spacious bathroom to wash your face and brush your teeth, a giddy feeling in your stomach at the fact that Kenma was supposed to finish up his live in less than twenty minutes. However, you stall, gaping at the mirror in disbelief. 

A groan slips your lips as you raise a hand to your neck, eyeing the dark bruises littered up to your jaw as you hang your head and sigh. You couldn’t believe you had forgotten that Kenma had gotten a little carried away last night, your heated makeout session on the couch turning into a little something more, hence the hoodie you now adorned. 

You blush as you begin to remember, shaking your head of such thoughts before tying your hair up. Oh well, nothing some concealer and color corrector wouldn’t fix- maybe a scarf or two. You begin to make breakfast after clambering into the kitchen, a nutritious breakfast of soup and fish with rice being carefully plated onto a tray almost half an hour later. 

Hey, is Kenma done with his stream? 

You sip some soup, tasting it as you type away on your phone. 

-Should be, Kuroo- why? 

Oh, his fans were blowing up his comments asking about you and I’ve never seen the poor boy so flustered. Hug him, will you? 

-Bringing him breakfast now. 

I’m so glad he met you:’) 

-Buzz off:’)

You ignore the snarky response from Kuroo before lifting the tray, not even bothering to knock or say you were coming in as you push the door open to Kenma’s gaming room after ascending the stairs, figuring that the stream was supposed to end ten minutes ago- 

And oh boy did you wish you had knocked. 

You almost drop the tray, stilling at the sight of Kenma’s stream still ongoing, the cat-like boy pushing back from his monitor in shock as he whips his head to look at you from his gaming chair- 

You, his hoodie draped hanging off your figure with no pants underneath, simply exposing your bare legs and your hair tied back messily, a tray of breakfast in your hand that signalled you had spent the night together-

and not to mention the hickies ever so evident on your neck. 

“Y/N-” 

You squeak, stepping out of the door and slamming it shut behind you just as Kenma’s comments explode across the monitor. You were in for it now. 

The tray gets slowly lowered in front of the door before you make a mad dash to your shared bedroom, ignoring the now increased influx of notifications on your phone from Kenma’s hoodie pocket before throwing it across the room and face-planting onto your bed. 

How could you have been so careless?

Heat tinges your eyes as you muffle a scream into the sheets. 

What’s gonna happen now?

You flinch at the sound of someone else entering the room, refusing to look up from your spot as a familiar figure sits next to your teary one carefully. A feeling of guilt and wishing you could turn back time weighs on your chest as Kenma strokes a hand through your hair. 

“Don’t panic.” 

“Don’t panic?!” You sit up, Kenma eyeing you evenly as he watches frustrated tears brim your eyes. “I just walked into your live!” 

“I know, I was there.” 

“Kenma!” You whine, and surprise etches onto your features when Kenma stifles a laugh into his palm, looking off to the side before taking your hand in one of his carefully. The other one wipes moisture from your eyes as Kenma stops teasing you, looking at you seriously through golden irises. 

“We’d have to let them know eventually, you do know that- right? Or did you want to keep us a secret forever?”

“I know, but...” You sniff, Kenma using his finger to tilt your chin up slightly to tilt his head. 

“But?” 

“I don’t want to...ruin your career.” You finish quietly, and you gasp when you suddenly find yourself on your back, Kenma now looking at you with a hard edge to his eyes as he stares down at you from his position on top. 

“Well, isn’t this familiar-” your cracked voice tries to joke. 

“Shut up.” Kenma rolls his eyes before leaning down so his nose is almost touching yours. 

“Would I have gotten this ink permanently drawn onto my damn skin if I thought you’d ever ruin anything for me?” 

At your loss of words, Kenma sighs before taking one of your relaxed hands- the one with the controller on it- and bringing the side of your thumb to his lips so he can mumble against it. 

“And this? This tattoo of yours means that you’re mine. Didn’t we get these tattoos because we knew we’d reveal it anyway?” 

“Kenma, you’re speaking too much calm down-” 

“Y/N.” 

You stop with your antics as Kenma’s voice softens, eyeing you seriously. “Don’t you...want to be together?” 

“God, what kind of question is that?” You frown, lifting your hands to cup his face as you look up at his pretty features. “You know I do.” 

“Then I’m happy you walked into my stream.” Kenma turns his head into your touch to kiss your palm. “Because now all those damn pretty boys in your dms know you’re taken.”

“Kenma, they saw hickies.” 

“So?” 

“I can’t with you.” You roll your eyes before releasing a breathy laugh, glancing at the phone screen from the floor across the room as it turns off and on, lighting your screen up with notifciations. “I’m taking it the press is eating this up?” 

“Like a damn buffet.” Kenma sighs, lazily beginning to trace patters into your exposed thighs. “You know what I can eat up though?” 

“The breakfast you stepped over on your way to pursue me?” You blink innocently, laughing when Kenma shoots you a tired stare. 

“Sure. Let’s eat breakfast.” 

“Kenma-” You begin to whine, only for your boyfriend to kiss your lips in a chaste manner, lips lifting ever so slightly when you blink doe-eyed up at him in response. The phones become ignored as Kenma throws his behind him, the press now forgotten as two phones now blow up beside one another.

His thumb strokes yours as the ink on both of your skin traces over one another, the slight sting of the tattoos unnoticeable as Kenma’s hands slide further up his hoodie. 

“Use that pretty voice of yours and tell me what you want then, princess.” 

“I’m starting to think you did this on purpose.” You murmur against his lips as Kenma scoffs in the midst of trailing kisses down your neck. 

“There’s a reason my stream didn’t end when I told you it would, love.” 

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Hello!

You want to know about me?? Well color me absolutely flattered 🥰🥰🥰

I’m a plant dad, cat dad, highly competitive casual gamer. I would be twitch streaming regularly if I had a better gaming setup. Support my sw sites so I can buy an Xbox x lol (but also follow my sfw sites if that’s not your thing!)

What I post on Tumblr: Entirely sfw. I write 18+ because I do link my sw sites. I mostly post cat pics, plant pics, cute selfies, and reblog cute/funny things. Occasional text shit poster.

My sfw socials:

Tiktok: stupid videos ya know it’s tiktok.

Instagram: I’m super active there, posting stories every day.

YouTube: shorts and vids when I remember to post them.

Twitch: one day I will stream regularly… one day

Twitter: shit tweets and random pics. Naughtier tweets occasionally when I’m feeling randy.

Facebook: share my ig posts and reels there when I remember to

Now click keep reading if you want to hear about my nsfw pages:

You might look at my linktree and say ‘but Trent you have so many different naughty pages? I want to ask you which you prefer but also that’s awkward and talking to people is hard!!’

Well you’re in luck because I’m gonna tell you exactly the answers to those questions.

At the end of the day, whichever site you already use is the site I want you to subscribe on. If you don’t already regularly use a site and are thinking about subscribing, here is some more info on what you will find where.

Services I offer on all of my sites: Custom videos and pictures, written, audio, and video dick/pussy/booty ratings, and sexting on both OF sites. The rate for these services is discounted for paid subscribers.

Onlyfans: I have two pages! *important onlyfans note* there is a lot that is against tos on onlyfans like watersports, heavy bdsm, even weed isn’t allowed. I do post kinky stuff on my onlyfans but keep it 100% in line with OF TOS.

OF Free: Silly and sexy but mostly sfw posts every day. Different types of PPV available on the feed and in the DMs. It’s a fun time and there’s no commitment.

OF VIP: Full nude pictures and videos posted to the feed every day. I send PPV for less expensive than on my free page 1-2x a week but also include full length videos directly to my feed. This might seem annoying to some, but I enjoy doing a mix of ppv and full lengths to feed because I know what it’s like to find that one porn video that just hits different. I want people to be able to keep those videos even if they aren’t still subscribed to me. This is why I do limited and inexpensive PPV on my VIP OF page.

Fansly: A lot like OF, except their tos is slightly more lenient, and the subscription structure is tiered. I have one fansly page, which you can follow for free or subscribe to one of my three subscription tiers.

What you’ll find on each tier:

Free: Same as my OF Free, except you can see what I post on my subscription feeds with the option to unlock those individual posts. I know it’s so much more convenient!!

VIP: Same as my OF VIP feed except I do post some kink content available for ppv that I do not post on my OF.

Platinum: No PPV except for kink content (available for very cheap).

PP Platinum: No PPV. It’s all in the name lol

Manyvids:

There are three sections of my manyvids, and this site is probably the most different from the other subscription sites. You can subscribe to my VIP FanClub on manyvids and you will get the same feed you would get on my VIP OF or fansly.

Manyvids store features all my videos, including kink content not allowed on OF.

Something to note: I only make 60% of revenue from videos bought on manyvids, whereas I make 80% on onlyfans or fansly. If you already use manyvids please support me there, but if you don’t, please support me on OF or Fansly because I retain more earnings.

‘But Trent! You didn’t list the site I use :(‘

But wait there’s more!

I don’t advertise all of my sites because I like to just advertise my OF and Fansly. But I am on A TON of sites. Here are the links to all of them:

Pocketstars

Loyalfans

SextPanther

JustForFans

Thank you so much for your interest in supporting my work. I love creating content, both sfw and nsfw and appreciate your support wherever you decide to enjoy my content on the internet.

Xo