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the new chapter of soano ohmygodddd!!! It was soooo good, I was waiting for ages to read itđđ she's too funny lmaoo
hii anon!
so happy you enjoyed it! i apologise for the wait (especially if you were here reading from 2023 when the updates just randomly paused for so long âšď¸). canât promise scheduled updates cuz everyone knows by now how slow i am (sorryyy!!).
funny is the goal, and when ppl reiterate it to me, no matter how many times iâve heard it, i always eat it up âcause it means my mission has been accomplished đĽš
ty for leaving a message, it motivates me to get off my ass and write, you have no ideaa ml <3
#ugh i love everyone here#iâm enjoying myself a little too much here#if you are a critic#get off my property iâm not a professional âšď¸#this anon was so nice#ily#ily anon :)))#ilysfm
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I wish we had more female characters like Eleanor Shellstrop. One of the most unlikable people you've ever met. Read a Buzzfeed article on most rude things you can do on a daily basis and decided to use that as a list of goals. Makes everyone's day worse just by being there. Dropped a margarita mix on the ground and tried to pick it up, only to get hit by a row of shopping carts which pushed her into the road where she was hit by a boner pill delivery truck, killing her instantly. Cannot keep a romantic partner despite being bisexual. Had a terrible childhood but will die before she gets therapy. Best employee at a scam company. Just the worst but also can't help but root for her to improve.
Absolute loser. Girl-failure. Bad at almost everything. Literally perfect female character.
#eleanor shellstrop#you know i was thinking about how we hold female characters to such high standards#and severely criticize bitchy female characters while praising asshole male characters#and then i remembered eleanor and realized that she is the perfect example of how to write an asshole woman that the audience likes#the worse she is the more i'm drawn to her (and honestly same for tahani)#we need more cringe-fail women who nobody likes (for good reason)#the good place#female characters#writing women#girl failure#girl loser#she's so mean#i love her#my favorite#fucking asshole#iconic#the good place eleanor#tgp#tgp eleanor#kristen bell
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rules for thee and not for me
#sorry the t/rf thing was like an actual roach infestation so I made a new post and deleted the old one and turned off reblogs#but I didn't want you to be without the og comic so here you go guys#nice fresh and clean#old tags ->#funnies#btw you're allowed to watch the silly sisters and the giggle brothers just keep your morals consistent istg#its very embarrassing when you criticize someone for enjoying something from a problematic creator#whilst openly being a fan of another thing with an awful creator and defending them because you like that thing#really weird hill to die on
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The people against bows becoming a trendy fashion accessory has annoyed me sooo much lately. Saw a tiktok that was like âif you get uncomfortable with us saying wearing bows infantilizes women and supports the patriarchy, it just means youâre uncomfortable with us pointing out youâve been engaging in a harmful trend/behavior đâ aaaaaAAAAAAH people online are allergic to nuance
#and their response to âjust let people have funâ#was just âyou donât want to think critically about this to avoiding facing the truthâ#itâs so weird how tiktok KNOWS which opinions will get on my nerves
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Baffled.
#personal#not art#like how do you arrive at this conclusion#what beliefs?#the man may be a total grouch but if thereâs one thing he HATES itâs Japanese nationalism#Japanese nationalists famously HATE his work especially the wind rises which criticizes imperial Japan and calls out the invasion of China#donât ask for context on the first part of the tag Iâm not answering
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"That is an amazing D&D choice." (x)
#critical role#tlovm#the legend of vox machina#critteredit#criticalroleedit#tlovmedit#mine#*my gifs#*my tlovm#*my critical role gifs#tlovm spoilers#cr#c1 spoilers#percy x vex#percival de rolo#percival fredrickstein von musel klossowski de rolo iii#vex'ahlia#perc'ahlia#i love them they're so special to me#laura bailey the genius you are#there's so much more i wanna gif from these three episodes because !!!!! but i also need to sleep lmao
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me: i sure hope the crows are not gonna be solely depicted in veilguard as a brave force who 'fight for all' when they are at their core a criminal organization who is known to buy children to indoctrinate them and turn them into assassins, by putting them in overcrowded warehouses and making them fight for scrapes in order not to starve, to later torture those who reach adulthood to finish their initiations and kill them anyways if they dare to try getting out
bioware: i cooka da pizza
#sorry i'm still not over this#i want to like teia and viago but everytime they say something like âthe crows rule antiva!â i'm like âmaybe they shouldn'tâ#but rook can only say âyayyy cool viva the crowsâ so.#i mean i kinda get the thing they were going for#but when you know zevran. yeah no sorry#each time a crow says 'he was one of our own we protect our own' i'm rolling my eyes like shut uuuup#bioware critical#dragon age#dav#veilguard spoilers#datv#dragon age veilguard#datv spoilers#da:tv#da:tv spoilers#wave posts
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"ummm the global strike was called on such short notice we need more time to plan ahead this just isn't gonna work it feels like slacktivism :///" hmm lets try to figure out why a palestinian journalist in gaza who has been documenting her own genocide for the past hundred fucking days called for a global strike on short notice during a livestream while the hospital she was sheltering in was being attacked and she believed she was going to be killed that night. lets think about it. lets put our thinking caps on. lets sit down in our thinking chair and think think think
#i saw someone call it slacktivism and i genuinely wonder if they're allergic to critical thinking#like. do you hear how tone deaf you sound. i do not think you do#mine#free palestine#bisan owda#wizard bisan#free gaza#palestine#global strike
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Time After Time
Logan Howlett/Wolverine x AFAB!reader (no pronouns/gendered language).
Explicit content (18+)
Word count: 15.2k never let me near him again
Tags/warnings: age-gap due to loganâs mutation (readerâs age not specified), mutant!reader, unprotected sex, teasing, friends to lovers, explicit language, dry humping, storm cameos, fluff, domesticity, the claws come out when heâs close (đď¸đď¸), detailed descriptions & scenes of nightmares/trauma/PTSD/panic attacks, one (1) ass smack, alcohol consumption, vomiting, biting/marking, angst, soft!logan, creampie, groping/touching, use of âbabyâ once, aftercare, yearning (kindly let me know if anything was missed!).
Summary: 4 times you end up in Loganâs bed, and the 1 time he does something about it.
Notes: this falls somewhere in between âwhich could mean nothingâ and âwe can fix each otherâ 𫡠(written with a mix of X1 & X2 logan!)
Your heart, despite always being alive and beating, sometimes wakes up before you.
You can feel it before your eyes even have a chance to open. It jolts your sleep-ridden body and collapses your lungs without giving your brain a chance to fight against it. Muscles and limbs feel lifeless and detached from your body, shaking from the sleep that your heart knows wasnât completely dreamless.
You kick the blankets off of yourself and sit up in a panic, trying to regain some control of your sudden erratic breaths while bringing a lethargic hand to your heaving chest in hopes to ground yourself. It never works.
Maybe your ribs are shrinking and squeezing your lungs, making you delirious from the lack of oxygen, but you know thatâs not the case. Your heart feels like itâs being squeezed and broken into a million tiny pieces.
No part of your body feels real, yet you keep your hand on your chest as firmly as you can, trying to focus on controlling the pounding of your heart thatâs working so hard with each beat that it hurts.Â
âFuck. Fuck,â you choke out, feeling the tears finally breach and roll down your cheeks as your nervous system catches up to whatâs happening.
 Panic. Itâs all panic.
You canât do anything but sit there and let the tears hit the freshly-washed fitted sheet on your bed. So you let it happen. Nothing can stop it.
Trauma is such a fickle thing. One moment youâre fine, and then the next, your heart is screaming at you and forcing your body to process something at 4 a.m. on a random Friday when all you wanted was some goddamn sleep.
There is no choice. Your mind doesnât give you one.
The tremors subside slowly after a few minutes, giving you the feeling back to your arms and legs, albeit minimal.
You slide to sit at the edge of your bed, resting an elbow on your thigh and setting your chin into your palm with a defeated, yet shaky, huff.Â
You look to your window and see that the sun hasnât even started to rise yet. Youâll be up for the rest of the foreseeable morning, but thereâs not much to do so early besides wander aimlessly and thinkâŚthen think some more.Â
Youâre confident the professor isnât even awake at this hour, which says enough about your state. You would typically go visit Storm for some comfort, but sheâs been gone fuck-knows-where with Hank and Scott until Sunday at the latest. Thanks, Charles.
A questionable, and probably manic, decision comes to mind. One thatâs only two doors down, one over from Storm.
Your impulsive feet make up your mind for you. The cold hardwood floor shocking you further into consciousness as if your heart didnât do a good enough job.
You tiptoe a couple steps down the hall, forcing yourself to turn and face the large wooden door when you reach it. You just stand there staring at it, unknocking, analyzing the wood grains, suddenly very interested in what type of wood it is and what stain was used toâ
âUh. Are you okay?â
You refocus your eyes onto the man now standing in front of you in the doorway, adorning a barely-zipped school hoodie and black sweats.
âHuh?â You blink a few times, disoriented.
Logan quirks a brow, looking you up and down cautiously. âAre you okay?â He asks again, offering a look of concernâor maybe confusionâthat you havenât seen often. A look thatâs never needed to be directed towards you.
You come back to yourself. âButâIâŚdidnât knock,â you respond, looking equally as confused as him as you point to the door.Â
He leans against the edge of the door, face softening. âI could smell you before you passed Stormâs room,â he clarifies, a hint of reluctance in his tone. Oh.Â
You feel like a child who has just gained awareness, all too conscious of your situation.
âYouâreâŚawake?â Is all you manage despite probably needing to say much more than that to explain just why exactly youâre standing outside Loganâs room at 4 a.m.
âSo are you,â he counters with a curious look. âSo let me ask again. Are you okay?â He locks his eyes on yours, probably in hopes to understand why the fuck youâre outside his room at 4 a.m.
âIâm not sure how to answer that,â you say, and itâs the truth.Â
You should probably be embarrassed. You show up at Loganâs door unannounced, dressed in a flimsy shirt and matching sweatsâthanks, Charlesâthat canât fully hide the remaining quivers throughout your body.
Logan pulls his lips together at your admission. You can almost see the wheels turning in his head trying to figure you out.
âCanât sleep?â He questions, but he knows heâs right.
âYeah.â You donât know why youâre making it Loganâs problem, though. Sure, he happens to be awake, but maybe this is all too personal to push on the guy whoâs seemingly all pride and no solicitude most of the time.
Itâs not that heâs not a good, nice guy, but you donât know how you would define your relationship, or lack of.
You know each other well enough from existing in the same space over the past couple months, being part of the same âteamâ, but itâs nothing to call a close friendship like you and Storm. Heâs a bit of a rare species in the mansion, not really lingering around.
He cocks his head in a half shrug, the soft points in his hair broken by sleep shake gently with the movement.
âI donât think I can help you,â he says wearily. âIâm no better. Clearly.â He gestures between you, drawing attention to the fact that youâre both awake. The helpless cannot help the helpless.
âOhâno, Iâm not looking for help. I think Iâm beyond that at this point,â you laugh but stop yourself short when Logan doesnât follow. Tough crowd.
âI, uh, donât actually know what Iâm looking for,â you offer.
You knit your brows together in thought, still wondering why the fuck youâre here. Comfort? Entertainment? Some other unknown third thing?
âIâm not really used to Storm being gone for so long,â you admit. âI just feelâŚall over the place, I guess.â
Logan considers your vulnerability for a beat, eyes flicking to yours. âI can hear you sometimes,â he says, a knowingâalmost sympatheticâlook on his face. âWe have the same problem.â
You go cold, any expression you had on your face sliding away. You wish the floor could swallow you right now. You know things have been getting worse recently, but you didnât think anyone could hear that fact. Maybe it shouldnât come as a surprise from someone who could smell you from down the hallway.
He steps back, pulling his door open further. An invitation.
You donât move right away. Could this be a false awakening? Youâre not sure what you expected when you came to his door, but you also didnât expect him to open it without you knocking, so you have to suspend disbelief for now. You figured heâd offer a few words of advice and dismiss you, or maybe even tell you to fuck off, but he opened his door wider for you. But you didnât exactly think any of it through in the first place anyway.
You force your feet to carry you into Loganâs room. Itâs not much different from yours; scarce belongings, minimal decor, a small work desk, brown curtains that are drawn back, and a bed.Â
âWere you, uhâŚsleeping before I came?â You sit on the unmade bed, nothing noticeably different from it compared to yours.
He shuts the door quietly, moving to the small desk across the room and filing some scattered papers together neatly.
âTrying to,â he says, keeping his gaze on the desk.
Fucking duh. âSorry if I disturbed you,â you wince to yourself.Â
You see him briefly shake his head at your unnecessary apology. âI had to get up anyway.â His voice is still gravelly from sleep.
It feels like youâre invading his space. But he invited you in. How many others have had the opportunity to be in here? Probably too many. Thereâs nothing to make this special.
âIâm fucking exhausted,â you sigh, flopping back on his bed defeated. Simply overwhelmed with the uncontrollable repercussions of your mutation.
âTry to sleep. If you want,â he offers, moving to the edge of the bed. âItâs easier said than done, but I have to meet with Charles in an hour.â Itâs gruff, but heâs sincere. Â
Maybe the professor is awake after all.
You roll your head to the side to look at him. Was he really offering for you to stay in his bed?
âOh, wowâŚuh, sure.â It comes off as more of a question, but he quirks his brows in acknowledgment, turning back to the desk and collecting a handful of other miscellaneous papers.
âI have to head downstairs and take care of some things. Stay as long as you need,â he says, zipping his sweater the rest of the way up. Thank God in heaven.
A shy âthanksâ is all you manage as you situate yourself on the bed.
Is this fucking weird? You could name a handful of others in the mansion right this second that would kill without hesitation to be where you are. Theyâd probably kill you specifically to get it. Itâs not much of a secret that Logan is the subject of almost all studentsâ desires. He knows it, too.Â
âSee you later,â he adds, his lips forming the slightest hint of a caring smile as he sees himself out. You throw one back before the door clicks shut.
Should you be offended that he didnât stay? That he left so quickly? No, no, he canât. He couldnât. Charles is expecting him. The timing is just horrid. But now youâre justâŚaloneâŚin Loganâs room, expected to sleep because of a random act of kindness in his heart.
Lying in his bed instead of yours is an odd sensation. The sheets and mattress are exactly the same, the pillows are just as fluffy, yet it feels unalike.Â
You flop your head on his pillow, tugging the blankets up to your chin. Your fingers graze something by your hip as you settle in, making you push the blanket back down. Leaning over, you see three puncture marks in the mattress, fraying the bedsheet material into feather-soft strands around the deep holes.
Your eyes widen, remembering his words before he invited you in: âWe have the same problem.â
Part of your heart fractures for the second time today. Your eyes cross over to the other side of you, seeing a matching set of holes just below the pillow. Itâs suddenly easy to understand why no one besides him has been seen coming and going from this room in a while. One day, things just seemed to change.Â
Maybe his act of kindness was an act of mercy. Trauma will always find you, and it will make sure you feel it until you either destroy it or it destroys you.
Even the Wolverine isnât an exception.Â
ââââ â ââââ
The gold liquid is gone from the glass as quickly as it was poured.
Your throat clenches and protests the swallow as you try to suppress the urge to gag. You gently set the shot glass back on the counter, watching Storm chase with a piece of lime that does nothing to help the puckered face she makes from the tequila.Â
âNo more, no more. I canât.â Your arms anchor you to the counter to stop yourself from swaying too much.
Storm nods, still fighting off the sourness with furrowed brows and a scrunched nose. You giggle at her when she quickly screws the cap back on the bottle, sliding it out of reach.
âYouâre a bad influence,â she scolds as she wipes her mouth with the back of her hand.
âNoâIâm under the influence,â you counter, a playful smile on your lips. âThereâs a difference. You still have your own free will.â
Storm rolls her eyes so hard you only see the whites of them. âWe have training tomorrow,â she slurs. âCharles will not be happy if we show up half-conscious.â She rounds the counter to you, grabbing your shoulders for stability, and you do the same.
âHeâll be lucky if we show up at all,â you mumble.Â
The dim kitchen lighting embraces the two of you, the rest of the mansion blanketed in darkness with everyone fast asleepâlike you both should be.
You close your eyes with a roll of your neck, more giggles falling through your lips as you clumsily grab onto Storm and rock and sway together for a moment, the alcohol quickly catching up to your motor skills. It feels like youâre spinning through time and space, and youâd be lying if you said it didnât feel fucking euphoric. At this rate, neither of you will be able to make it back to your rooms.
âAm I interrupting something?â
You lose a bit of your balance as you try to find the resonant voice, eyes shooting open. Storm unintentionally startles and stumbles away from you, white hair also jumping from the excitement.
You grab onto the counter again, sucking in a deep breath. âFuck, donât do that,â you growl through your teeth, a hand on your chest as you try to calm yourself.
âDonât do what? Come to the shared kitchen to grab a drink?â Logan huffs a laugh, an amused smile creeps to his lips as he takes in your drunk and shaken state from the entryway.
âDoesnât anyone sleep in this place?â He mumbles to himself.
âAnd with that, Iâm done for the night,â Storm chuckles, fixing her hair. âIâll see you tomorrow.â Her eyes lock intensely on yours, index finger firmly poking the middle of your chest to make her point for you to show up to training very clear.
âSee you, Logan,â she dismisses, stumbling as she passes him.
Logan shakes his head, still smiling. He steps to the fridge, opening the double doors and plucking a bottle of soda from the bottom shelf. No alcohol is readily available in the communal fridge because, after all, youâre all in a school full of kids, so Storm had to get creative; Scott will be missing a rather large bottle from the now not-so-secret stash in his room.
As the alcohol continues to settle in you, you feel more and more lightheaded as it brings you to a new level of euphoria again. You only know this because watching Logan pop the cap of his drink with mindless ease feels a little more exciting than it would be if you were sober. But youâre not sober, and thatâs the problem.
âNot gonna follow Storm?â He asks, taking a generous sip from the bottle as he casually places his free hand on the counter to lean on across from you.
A tight smile forms, mostly to yourself. âI donât think I can make it down the hall,â you laugh in embarrassment. Maybe that last shot was one too many, and itâs not even fully done working its magic yet.
Logan raises a brow. âWant some help?â Thereâs no judgement in his tone like you expect. Then again, you donât know what the fuck to expect from him.
Your already half-closed eyes, blurry and unfocused, meet his hazel ones in interest. Another favour?
Itâs been two weeks since he let you sleep off the nightmares in his bed. Two weeks since you learned heâs burdened with them, too. You traced the holes in the mattress over and over before you eventually fell asleep, wondering whatâor whoâcould have hurt him so badly. He plays it off cool; you wouldnât suspect anything from talking to him. The same could probably be said about you.
âI didnât know wolverineâs were chivalrous,â you tease.
The yellow hue of the lights dance over the quaffed points in his hair, making them appear sharper than usual. You would never admit it, especially to him, but you adore them. They give him an absurd amount of character that youâd expect a guy like him to not care about.Â
Youâre not exactly complaining about the fitting grey tank-top he has on either.
âNot overly,â he plays along, taking another mouthful of the fizzy drink. âI like to think Iâm special,â he says quieter.
âMaybe you are,â you say as you try and straighten yourself to see if you can stand unassisted.
The world tilts as you stand to your full height, eyes rolling into your head from the wave of dizziness. âWow, okay,â you say to yourself, squeezing your eyes shut to stop the spinning. How many shots did you have again?
A warm hand presses between your shoulders. âWoah, nice and easy. Nice and easy.â Logan appears by your side to steady you, other hand grabbing your elbow to pull you straight. You wobble in his grip, letting him guide your useless, alcohol-ridden body.
His hand on your back rubs a few small, comforting circles as you work to regain your bearings. He watches your expressions intently, looking for the right moment to get you moving back to your room safe and sound.
Your arm crosses over your body out of instinct to grab the hand he has on your elbow for extra support.
âAre you okay?â He asks. He seems to ask you that a lot.
You lean into him, your shoulder to his chest, and you can feel the blackout creeping up on you like humidity from a thunderstormâitâs usually too late to do anything once you notice it.Â
âI drank a lot,â you laugh deeply, rolling your head onto his shoulder to look up at him.
He looks so much more delicate under the ambient lightsâhis usual defined features have shifted and melted him into someone that doesnât look like they should be a feared animal out in the world.
Logan all but cradles you, that same look of concern crossing his features from the night you went to his door. The only difference is that youâve had a generous amount of tequilaâand are currently being kept alert by the hot touch of his hands. Thatâs new.
âCan you walk?â He holds your squinty eye contact, probably searching for any signs of a coherent thought behind the blissful expression on your face. âOr will I have to carry you?â He muses, a hint of a smile crosses his lips as his hand moves up to gently rub over your shoulders.Â
Drunk you likes the sound of anything relating to Logan keeping his hands on you right now. You wonder what sober you would think.
âIâm not gonna tell you no, but it feels like Iâm floating in a bubble that wonât stop spinning,â you hum as you let the sensation consume your senses. âI might fly away.â You dip your head back off of his shoulder in amusement as you laugh again.Â
âYeah, youâre fucked up,â he mumbles lovingly. Just like anyone else whoâs concerned for your well-being would.Â
âHey, kitty catâIâm perfectly buzzed,â you emphasize the teasing nickname, narrowing your eyes at him sternly as you bring your gaze back to his in defence.
ââKitty catâ? Really?â He snorts. âI think youâre past your bedtime by three drinks,â he remarks back with equal levity.
âThen take me to bed if youâre so concerned,â you sigh dramatically, going limp in his arms to make your point.Â
Truthfully, youâre probably past your bedtime by five shots. But he doesnât need to know that. You just know that you canât control your limbs like you were able to ten minutes ago.
âMaybe I will.â You donât see it, but he does his quick little eye roll that youâve seen pointed towards Scott too many times.Â
He slides the hand on your elbow down to the backs of your knees, pulling you up off the floor and into his chest as you fall into the arm that was rubbing your back.Â
Oh, so itâs gonna be like that.Â
An excitedâor maybe shockedânoise escapes your mouth as he adjusts you in his arms. You extend your right arm up and over his shoulder to hug his neck and keep yourself stable.
The trip to your room isnât one that should take long, but each sway from Loganâs steps goes straight to your stomach in waves of queasiness. It feels like forever before you feel him bend awkwardly to turn your doorknob.
Youâre fighting to keep yourself conscious the entire time, not wanting to regret missing the feeling of being in his arms.
The room is only lit by the silver moonlight creeping through the window. Itâs hard to distinguish anything through your bleary eyes besides Loganâs look of determination to get you in your bed.
He leans down, shuffling you out of his arms and onto the mattress as swiftly as possible. The care of it all pokes at your heart.Â
He silently goes around each corner of the bed adjusting the blankets. It may be dark, but the moonlight highlights the peaks of his shoulders as he moves. Your eyes might be involuntarily half-shut, but that doesnât stop you from staring.
Youâre now probably no better than every other mutant in this school.
âLogan,â you start before you can fully process the foolish thing youâre about to say next.
He rounds the bed back to the side youâre huddled on, looking down on you. âYeah?â The subtle jingle of his dog tag pierces the quiet thatâs lingering in the room.
You part your lips to speak but the words die in your throat. Theyâre replaced by a flood of saliva that has you sitting up at a speed that shouldnât be possible for someone as intoxicated as you. You cover your mouth with your hand, feeling your stomach churning and finally rejecting the tequila.Â
You suddenly feel very awake.
âHey, hey.â Logan squats down in front of you with his already permanently-furrowed brows pinched closer together than youâve ever seen before, a hand coming to your shoulder in concern. âWhatââ
âBathroom,â you mumble through your palm, eyes rolling shut at the nausea.Â
He doesnât say another word. He pulls you to your feet by your arms, walking behind you fiercely with his hands gripping your shoulders to guide you to the small bathroom across the room. Â
You push the door open, falling to your knees in the darkness over the toilet as the mistakes from the night expel themselves from your body through rounds of coughing and gagging. He lingers in the doorway, keeping an eye on you but still giving you privacy.
âFuck,â you cough, resting your warm forehead on your hand as you slump against the toilet. That definitely sobered you up fast.
Exhaustion hits you like a truck. âLoganâŚâ you croak from your crumpled position on the tile floor.Â
He steps in, bending down again to reach your height. You can barely make out the shadow of him in the fading moonlight.
âJustâŚhelp me back to bed,â you groan, reaching for his arm as you use the toilet seat to push yourself the rest of the way up. You stumble against him as you try to make it back through the doorway.
He guides you to the bed the same way he did to the bathroomâsteering you from behind.
âIâm gonna get you some water,â he says as you settle back into bed, head hitting the pillow with a quiet thud. âEven though you did this to yourself.â
âFuck off,â you groan.
You close your eyes, hearing his footsteps fade back toward the bathroom. You hear the tap run for a couple seconds before heâs next to you again, sitting on the edge of the bed. âDrink. All of it,â he says firmly, holding the cup out to you.
You sit back up slowly, no doubt lethargic, an unimpressed look on your face that earns you a raised brow that tells you thereâs no room to object.
You finish the cup in four mouthfuls, handing it back to him. âThanks.â
You fall back onto the pillow, no longer feeling like youâre travelling through space and time.
The clothes youâre in are close enough to pyjamas. Thereâs no sense in undressing in front of Logan, especially with what you were about to say to him before you were rudely interrupted by the consequences of your own actions.
He returns the cup to the bathroom and you pull the blanket over your waist as you hopefully settle in for the rest of the night. You owe him big time for this. The thought of just how exactly youâll manage that fills you with anxiety.
You turn on your side, fingers sliding over the mattress with the movement. They graze familiar strands of feather-soft fabric by the pillow.
This is Loganâs room. Are you just that drunk that you couldnât tell the difference when he brought you in? Or are your rooms just that similar to each other?
You dip a finger in one of the three holes, hearing the bathroom door click shut as Logan makes his way back.Â
âWhy am I in your bed?â You see him rustling through some drawers of clothing by the small desk, but he stops when you finish your question.
âYou canât take care of yourself tonight,â he says. âYouâre too drunk.â He pulls the grey tank-top off, stuffing it in one of the drawers and shutting it.
You sit up at that, head still foggy and tipsy, watching him move to the foot of the bed across from you. You try to focus your eyes on anything but his bare chest and the dark hair that adorns it and trails down past the waistband of his sweats. His hair is somehow even more wild from mindlessly pulling the tank-top over his head.
âAh. I was gonna ask you to stay anyway,â you reveal, almost whispering the bold confession.
You were planning to ask before the tequila decided to make another appearance, but maybe doing it this way isnât so bad either. He did all the heavy-lifting.
A modest, tight-lipped smile graces his lips. âI think you still have some tequila to sleep off.â
Whether or not you still have some shots in your system, what you feel and want right now is real. Itâs not influenced by anything besides some mild andronitis created by the fact that you share a common struggle.
âIs itâŚsafe? To share a bed?â The most coherent thought youâve had all night makes him stiffen from your sudden nervous tone. Your body could easily replace the mattress and become a new home for the deep punctures.Â
Your eyelids have been fighting against being pulled shut by alcohol-induced drowsiness, yet your eyes are wider than theyâve been all night in this moment.
Youâre sat right in the middle of the bed and Logan comes around to the right, sitting on the edge of the mattress to come down to your level.
âYouâre just gonna have to trust me.â His eyes are imploring and apologetic all at once. He understands the prospect of even having you here in the first place.
You nod, sliding over to the left to give him more room.Â
Logan wouldnât put you in harms way, you reason with yourself. He wouldnât risk potentially killing someone, especially a fellow mutant, if he wasnât absolutely sure of his mental state. But you also donât really know his demons.
You roll onto your right side, tugging the blanket up to your chin in comfort. âWhy havenât you been given a new mattress?â You ask as he turns to face you in the same position, his half of the blanket resting at his hip.
The bed dips significantly on his side, almost encouraging you to roll over against him.
âForgot to ask,â he says quietly, running his right hand through his hair to push the shorter strands off his forehead.
From his tone you can decipher that he actually means âcanât be bothered.â Itâs a devastating thing to imagine just how many he goes through, anyway. He probably doesnât see the point in replacing something that will inevitably have the same fate as the others.
There has to be less than an arms length between you two. Itâs a surreal situation to be in considering what you thought you knew about him. A recluse. Standoffish. Maybe itâs all a fluke and the alcohol is severely fucking with your perception of whatâs actually happening.
âThanks for everything,â you whisper as if someone else will overhear.
âGet some sleep,â he insists, rolling onto his back. You do the same.
You stare at the blank ceiling for a while, noticing the exact moment Logan falls asleep; his breathing grows slow and his body runs even hotter than before.Â
You think about how he could wake at any moment, claws accidentally sliding right through your stomach from a nightmare or two. You imagine all the others that have been in your positionâif they felt scared, if they even knew.Â
He asked you to trust him, and that should be enough.Â
There is a body full of secrets and hurt sleeping undisturbed next to you with the ability to withstand and regenerate from any physical injury, yet thereâs something that hasnât allowed the same to be done for his mind.Â
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The bright amber sun hits your closed eyes through the window, making you roll your head away onto the other side of the cool pillow.
You want more sleep. Your head feels like a bag of bricks and your body feels like it got beat with them.
You stretch a leg out, gently grazing something solid with your foot. Your eyes shoot open, the night coming back to you as you drift into consciousness. Logan.Â
You shoot up, bouncing a little from the momentum.
Logan startles next to you, clearly interrupted from a deep sleep. âWhat the fuckâŚâ he groans, rubbing a hand over his face, not seeming interested in making a move to sit up with you.
âWhat time is it?â Your eyes bounce around the room looking for a clock.
He grunts, reaching for a watch on the nightstand. âSeven-forty.â
You needed to be in the Danger Room for 7 oâclock.
âFuck!â You rip the blanket off, almost tripping as you run to the bathroom.
Logan also wants to roll back over and go back to sleep, but he knows he wonât be able to. He doesnât work like that. So he just lays there, listening to you swear and make a mess of his bathroom as the clattering of fuck-knows-what fills the room.Â
The surprise of how well he slept makes him feel uneasy. Although it definitely wasnât eight hours, it was uninterrupted. He doesnât want to credit that to you, though. He wants to believe that heâs getting better overall, and maybe he is, so he canât offer you any flattery in his mind.
Another distant âfuckâ escapes the bathroom, pulling him out of his thoughts. You exit a few minutes later, as refreshed and presentable as you could get yourself, and the sight of Logan still in bed makes something in you ache for another moment of feeling him care and tend to you. Maybe thatâs your hangover talking.
âThanks again. Iâll see you around,â you say hurriedly, offering an apologetic smile as you turn the doorknob to leave.
âGood luck with Charles.â Itâs a genuine advisory. Fuck. Youâll be so incredibly lucky if he doesnât give you more than a stern lecture in front of everyone.
You take a deep breath in and slip out of Loganâs room. Thereâs not a single cut, mark, or scratch on you, just like he promised.
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âI was told itâll take a day to fix,â Storm explains with a shrug. âYouâll have to find somewhere or someone to room with until tomorrow. Jean already offered to have me stay with her.â A contrite look passes over her face.
You stand outside your rooms, staring in at the remnants of the mess caused by two terrakinetic kids fucking around in the courtyard when they werenât supposed to be. They somehow managed to throw, or launch, sizeable tree branches right through each of your windows. Of course it wasnât on purpose, but the Danger Room exists for a reasonâto avoid mishaps like this.Â
Shards of glass and fragments of wood splatter your floors. The branches are hanging half-way out both of your windows, caught on the window sills and bobbing in the evening summer wind. The kids are extremely fortunate that neither of you were in your rooms when it happened.
âItâs fine. Itâs just one night,â you sigh, rubbing your eyes in frustration. You donât love how quickly your mind picks out who to go to. Itâs already nearing 11 p.m., so you have to work fast.Â
Storm squeezes your shoulder in comfort. âThe living room is always free,â she suggests with a remorseful smile.
But you donât want the living room. Stiff couches mixed with students clamouring and passing by at the crack of dawn isnât exactly a recipe for a good nights rest. As if you usually get one, anyway.
âNot a fucking chance,â you laugh. âIâll be fine,â you say again, dismissing her worries. You wish her goodnight when she steps by you to head towards Jeanâs room at the very end of the hall.
You glare at the mess in your room, not daring to step in. The amount of shattered glass everywhere makes the floor look like a body of water from the reflections of the pale moonlight bouncing and refracting off of the jagged shards.
âFuck,â you spit through your teeth, solely to yourself.
Not even a full week after Logan saw you at your worst, youâre going to go back and ask for the left side of his bed. Shameless.
You donât have much of a choice; youâre not comfortable having it be anyone else. Itâs only because Logan saw you at your worst that you feel heâs the most logical choice. Already having shared a bed with him this week may also have some weight in your decision. Â
You take the few self-assured steps to his room, once again standing in front of his door. This time you feel more confident in approaching the Wolverine in his den.
You knock three times, the piercing sound echoing through the hall.
âYou start to miss me or what?â A bare chest enters your view. You note the dog tag hanging from his neck again before you find his unyielding gaze full of ambiguity, wondering why youâre here. Again.
You blink at him slowly in hilarity. âHa, funny. Can I stay with you tonight?â You ask flatly, not thrilled with the situation, but not completely displeased with being here now. âMy windowââ
âI know what happened,â he interrupts. âFigured youâd go for the couch in the living room.â He looks at you more pointedly with teasing suspicion.Â
âI think you know no one would ever willingly choose to sleep out there,â you reason, running a hand over your face in both shame and defeat.
He makes a face that tells you âtouchĂŠâ and you smirk in satisfaction. âIf you donât mind giving up half of your bed again, I would really appreciate it. I promise Iâm not trying to make this a habit,â you sigh. Spending the night in Loganâs bed three times in the past month has to be a record for anyone recently.Â
âI donât think it would be a bad habit,â he argues. Oh. âCâmon.â He gives a jerk of his head to allow you in, his tufts of his hair bristling with the quick movement.
âThanks,â you squeak. He wants you here?Â
He shuts the door behind you, following you to the bed thatâs clearly already had him in it. The blanket rests in waves on the mattress that remind you of just how human Logan is despite his reputation and image.
âDo you have an early morning?â You ask, slipping under the blanket.
âNo. Charles was feeling nice for once,â he raises his tone sarcastically to rag on Charlesâ judgement, which has clearly been a much needed one before now.
âNot an early bird?â You roll onto your right side like last time, facing him as he settles on his back with a deep breath. The bed sinks in again where he lays, your body wanting to give in to the laws of gravity and fall into him.
âFuck no,â he laughs lightly, eyes crinkling around the corners. Itâs self-deprecating, but itâs still a genuine laugh. The condescension from it lingers in the air, all directed at himself in a way that tells you heâs thinking about how inconceivably fucked up he is.
The last time he had a decent sleep was when you were drunk in his bed a few days ago.
âPeople like us donât usually get the pleasure of a full eight hours,â he notes, sliding his gaze to yours for a fraction of a second.
He props an arm behind his head, the other resting on his chest and idly twisting the dog tag between his fingers. You watch the thin piece of steel slide and flip easily, the chain tinkling with every movement.
People like us.
âYou mean mutants,â you state. You see his jaw tense in what little light there is from the half-moon tonight.
You see his brows pull together. âYeah.â He has a point.
You think about the mutants you know, how they all have some horrific story about their gifts or family, or both. How they either were shamed by society or experimented on like rats.Â
The scenarios are endless. If you can think of it, some mutant has probably lived it.
Your heart sinks to the bottom of your stomach. You and Logan are not isolated or special cases, but youâve already shared a moment of vulnerability with him when you came to his door all those weeks ago seeking solace for the same thing he fights with: the inescapable ability of remembering.
You pull the blanket tighter against you. âI donât think youâll hurt me.âÂ
He turns his head to you, confusion written on his face. âWhat?â He stops toying with the dog tag.
âYour claws. I trust you.â You didnât feel like you were in immediate danger that first night, but you want to reassure him anyway. Or maybe youâre reassuring yourself.Â
He hasnât had to say a single word for you to know his nightmares trigger something instinctive and combative thatâs been hardwired into his DNA. In this case, itâs his claws needing to find a home in his mattresses, where another body could potentially lay one night. Like yours is right now.
You noticed the lack of holes in this mattress when you first got to the bed. Maybe you mentioning them last time was enough for him to finally request a new one.
Logan knows he shouldnât make promises he doesnât know heâll be able to keep, but he wants to keep you here tonight, so he improvises. He abandons the dog tag between his fingers completely, turning onto his side and reaching to find your hand under the blanket. You meet him halfway, sliding your fingers between his as your palms lay flat on the bed.
A smile tugs at your lips for a moment. He watches your interlinked fingers, observing the size difference, wondering if he really just did thatâand why.Â
You assume itâs his way of saying âthank youâ for your trust when you probably shouldnât be putting that much into him.
âDoes it hurt?â You whisper, pulling your fingers out from his just enough to caress the divets between his knuckles that conceal the claws.
He knows what youâre asking. âEvery time.â He softly pushes his fingers back into yours, squeezing a little.Â
Thereâs a deadly stillness in the room despite his window being cracked. You both know youâre one in the same in a way, and thatâs a connection that Logan hasnât let himself experience. Not everyone likes looking in a mirror.
To be truly seen by someone, wholly, without judgement or fear, is what he deserves.Â
âWhat are you?â He asks, rubbing his index finger back and forth along the top of your hand. âTelekinetic? Psychic?â His curious voice grows quiet, hazel eyes fascinated with you and your lack of a physical mutation, at least nothing that he can see.
It never occurred to you that he didnât know your mutation, or that youâve never told him. It was never needed, but it seems unfair that you know about his when he wasnât the one who told you.
âHa, close.â Your eyes twinkle as you notice how intently heâs listening. âPsychometric,â you correct, watching his forehead crease.
âSounds like math,â he quips, readjusting his head on the pillow. Heâs close enough that you can feel the heat heâs putting off.
You laugh quietly. âNo, itâs extrasensory perception. It lets me see the history of any object or person I touch, but only if I accept the energy,â you explain.
You watch his eyes narrow and you know what heâs thinking, so you quickly interject as he begins to pull his hand out from yours. âI need to touch a pulse point to be able to see anything,â you reassure, feeling his fingers slide back against yours. âThe heart remembers everything,â you clarify.
The catch? The personâs memories and past stay with you after you see them. Itâs become hard to distinguish what memories are yours or someone elseâs. They all become intertwined. Good or bad, violent or gentle. You see it all, and then itâs part of you. Forever.
âI havenât looked. I promise.âÂ
âGood. You donât need to see that shit,â he huffs, eyes wandering over your face. He isnât sure what heâs looking for, but heâs a little startled for the first time in a while.
âIâm sure Iâve seen it all,â you state. Itâs probably not far off from the truth. Your gift came when you were all too young, and plenty of time has passed since then for you to rack up this amount of damage from near-strangers and their lives.
âNo, you havenât.â A sure expression passes over him, shaking his head as best as he can against the pillow.Â
âThen Iâll count myself lucky,â you say softly. You have no idea what Logan has experienced, but his demeanor makes you want to stay curious. Not everything needs to be known, and youâre definitely not entitled to it.
A faint smile appears on his lips, then itâs gone just as quick. âGet some sleep,â he rasps. He turns onto his back and his hand abandons yours.Â
Itâs a complete repeat of last time.
Something twinges in your heart, and you donât like it. What exactly had you expected from Logan? Heâs just doing you a courtesy by letting you stay here for the night. Nothing more. And thatâs what you should expect: nothing.
The hum of crickets outside eventually lulls you into a dead sleep. Itâs heavy and deep, not a single muscle twitching in your body. Logan breathes steadily next to you, a hand on his chest as the occasional snore fills the air.
From above you two might look like youâre transient, only here in this moment for a short time. And, realistically, you are.Â
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Logan was no where to be seen by the time you woke up, and you made quick work to get out of his room. It always feel wrong to be in someoneâs space when they arenât there.
Just like Storm said, the windows in your rooms were fixed the next day. It looks as though nothing even happened.
âThank fuck,â you mumble to yourself as you step back into your room.
If you ever have to spend another night in Loganâs bed, you might as well wear a shirt that says âyes, weâre fucking!â, even if it isnât true. You could deny it all you want, but it wonât stop what students would say. Nothing gets past them, even if itâs behind a closed door.
ââââ â ââââ
âAre you fucking Logan?â
You almost swallow your tongue. âSorry?â Your brows shoot up in surprise, eyes round in disbelief.
âAre you guys sleeping together?â Storm casually asks as she flicks through the T.V. channels, glancing over to you from her spot on the couch.
Youâre sat comfortably in an arm chair, suddenly no longer caring what channel she decides on. âWhy would you think that?â Technically you were sleeping together, but not like that. It may never happen again, no matter how badly you want it to.
âThings travel fast around here,â she deflects with a cheeky smile. âAnd, you know, Logan isâŚLogan.â She shrugs.
You donât even know what to say to that. Is there a right or wrong answer?
âIt wasnât like that,â you grumble. âHe was doing me a favour. As a friend.â It hasnât even been a full day since he let you stay with him while pieces of your window laid on your floor, and people are already convinced youâre fucking.Â
You havenât even managed a chaste kiss, despite how much as you want to, never mind his dick being balls deep in you.
âRight.â She emphasizes the word, not convinced. Or just pushing your buttons because she can.Â
You roll your eyes. âIf anything was happening, youâd be the first to know,â you point out.Â
She looks back over to you. âI know,â she says with another, more sincere, smile. âYou two would be cute, though.âÂ
You give her some side-eye, not quite sure if you disagree entirely with that statement. Whatever happens, happens. Logan is not something you can control or influence. He does whatâand whoâhe wants, when he wants.Â
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A bolt of lightening strikes you. You gasp, then release a choked cry, eyes flying open as you claw at your chest in terror.
Your throat tightens and you break out in a cold sweat as you sit up. The soft blanket around you feels constricting. Sporadic and short breaths make you heave as your body registers the horrors in your subconscious.Â
There was never any lighting. Thatâs just what the pain feels like.
The muscles in your shoulders and neck tense from your panicked state as your heart struggles to keep a normal rhythm. You yank the blanket off, feeling weak from fear and the onset of tremors. Your whole body gives up on itself as you sob through broken exhales. Your legs have gone cold, lungs shrinking inch by inch with every passing minute.Â
You crawl to the edge of your bed, wanting to just get out and leaveâthe blanket. The bed. The room. Most of all, you want to escape your own mind.
You sink onto the floor when a foot touches the ground, and you realize walking isnât in the cards right now. Youâre shaking too badly to be able to physically move. All your strength is gone, robbed by your memories.
Balmy tears paint your face in determination, making sure no part of you is left untouched by this spell.
You screw your eyes shut, tears still slipping out with ease anyway. Leaning your back against the bed-frame, you curl into yourself and wrap your arms around your knees on the chilled hardwood.
You try to focus on your breathing to at least slow your heart down to a pace that doesnât hurt.
Wounded cries rip their way out of you, interrupting the breaths you try to steady. A hand touches your arm and you yelp like an injured dog, flailing at the contact as your arms swing out from around your knees in shock.
âHey, hey, itâs me. Itâs me.â Strong hands quickly wrap around each of your wrists to stop your arms from thrashing.
You try to focus your eyes, blurred and stinging from tears, on the person kneeling closely in front of you.
âL-LoganâŚâ you whisper, balling your fists to try and expel the shakes.
He looks like someone who shouldnât be able to be concerned about another person, yet the look on his face scares you. Brows pinched together in worry, eyes frantic, lips parted from heavy breaths. All because of you.
âItâs just me,â he hushes your cries. His thumbs stroke the undersides of your wrists tenderly, no doubt feeling your racing pulse.Â
You feel disoriented. âWhâŚhowâŚâÂ
âI heard you,â he explains, watching you process everything. He drops your wrists when some recognition passes over your face.
âWhat do you need?â He follows your gaze as it wanders around the room, trying to keep you from spiralling further.
You look at him for a moment. Heâs got his white tank-top on, the black sweats, and an intense need to help you written all over him. Fresh tears burn your cheeks as you come back into reality.
âI want it to fucking stop,â you weep, head falling into your hands in shame.
You donât want him to see you like this, even though itâs a commonality between you two. Itâs too intimate. Youâd take him seeing you blackout drunk everyday of the year over this.
Then you do remember that it has stopped. Each time in Loganâs bed. There was silence. Peace. For the whole night. For both of you.
âTell me what you need,â he says firmly, angling his head down to keep your eyes on him, desperately wanting an answer.
âYou.â You suck in an agonizing breath to try and collect yourself.
He doesnât flinch like you expect him to. If anything, his eyes become more pensive, clearly considering something. Then he shakes his head in wariness.
âCâmon. Letâs get you out of here,â he breathes, voice barely above a whisper. The only sound echoing in the room is your wobbly breathes, your body jerking with each one as you enter the aftermath and begin to go slack.
An arm slides behind your back, his hand grabbing ahold of your side while he pulls your legs over his other arm, picking you up off the floor.
He cradles you against him just like he did when you were drunk, carrying you out of your room.
He left your door open when he came in, and you hope no students heard or saw anything. He tilts to grab the doorknob, shutting it without a sound.
You wipe and rub at your eyes as Logan takes a few steps down the hall, quickly getting to where he needs to go when you feel him lean for his doorknob.
Youâre sure a few rogue, leftover tears fall onto his shirt before he manages to sit on his bed lightly, you still curled tightly in his arms.Â
His hand pushes on your back for you to sit upright on his lap. âFace me,â he encourages, holding onto your sides as you twist around, bending your legs to slide over his thighs and straddle him loosely.Â
You look down at him, he looks up at you, feeling the quivers in your body dissipate as you melt further into his lap. A fondness crosses over both of your tired faces. He rests his arms over your thighs, warm hands linking behind your back as you do the same around his neck.Â
Itâs nothing provocative or seductive. All you can feel is the care and concern rolling off of him in suffocating waves. He wants you to feel safe, and if that means overrunning your senses with his presence, then thatâs what heâll do.
âGot anything to say?â He murmurs, the fallen strands of hair around the edges of his forehead bristle with each move of his head. The rest of his hair fails to fully resemble the cat-like ears he had earlier in the day.Â
What does he want to hear?Â
You let your head hang a little, your nose almost brushing his. âI have nothing to say,â you assert, fidgeting with the chain of his dog tag at the nape of his neck.Â
You donât necessarily feel embarrassed about him seeing you in such a helpless state, but you donât want to simply unload your shit on him. So, in turn, you have nothing to say.
âBullshit.â He almost rolls his eyes. Thereâs no real threat of him forcing you to say anything behind it. He wonât pry, but he doesnât believe you.
An offended look overcomes your face, and you almost pull away. You donât want to feel the humiliation of elaborating on just why exactly you said you needed him in this moment out of everything else.Â
âI justâŚâ You roll your lips together in thought, measuring the words you could say but wonât. âWant to sleep. Here,â you sigh. âI donât wanna go back.â You deflate in his arms, voice wobbly.Â
Itâs already who-knows what time, and you need to pacify your wired nervous system; Logan simply holding you has already helped with that more than you want to admit.
His mouth quirks up briefly at that. âWhat happened to not wanting to make that a habit?â His eyes soften as his arms retract from around your sides, letting you slip easily onto his bed from his lap in a moment of calm, or relief.
Habit, if not resisted, soon becomes necessity.
âSpecial circumstances,â you reason, already pulling the blanket over you while he keeps his place at the edge of the bed, observing you with amusement.
âSeems like you get into those a lot,â he notes, pushing himself off the mattress.
He steps around to the other sideâhis designated spotâand slips the tank-top off, letting it drop to the floor. Youâre not trying to be a freak, but you watch the whole thing.
The flex of his arms and shoulders are out of your mind as fast as they entered as you watch him hook his thumbs in the waistband of his sweats and pull them downright in front of you, not even turning around or to the side to try and conceal himself.
Your eyes widen, then you reel in your thoughts before they get lost at sea. No one who is sane fucking sleeps in sweatpants. Duh.
But didnât he the last two times? Itâs hard for you to remember, but youâd certainly recall if you were face-to-face with the outline of his diâ
âItâs rude to stare, yâknow.â Logan pulls his lips together, interrupting your thoughts. You try to not eyeball the bulge too hard, but it basically looked at you first.Â
The snug briefs do little to hide anything. They hide nothing, actually.
You almost scoff, but the playfulness in his tone tells you he couldnât give a shit. He probably likes it anyway. From what you know, he definitely does.
âOh, yeah, like youâve ever cared about modesty,â you throw back, averting your gaze to the ceiling anyway.
Itâs not that he runs around the mansion naked, but he definitely isnât shy about what he looks like or against showing some skin. Youâve seen and heard enough over the past few months.
You hear a stifled chuckle as he joins you under the blanket without a retort. He knows youâre right. Heâs just glad youâre a little lively and alert.
âWill you be okay for the rest of the night?â He brings both hands behind his head on the pillow, propping himself up a little.
âI should be fine,â you say confidently. âThe challenge will be getting back to sleep.â You laugh in exasperation.Â
Itâs always hard to calm down and get back to a place of tranquility after everything has settled with your mind. Youâre pumped full of adrenaline and thereâs not much that can curb something that persistent flowing through your body.
You havenât found anything to help with it. Yet.Â
âThereâs not many people thatâll understand what you go through,â he starts, voice rough with fatigue. âBut I do.â
You look to him, sliding an arm under your pillow as you turn on your side. âHow do youâŚhelp it.â Youâre not sure if you phrased that right. It feels crude to reduce something so complex to the likes of a common cold that has an array of over-the-counter solutions.Â
âYou donât. It just has to run its course.â He looks to you, wanting to see your reaction.Â
It wasnât meant to be hurtful or insensitive, but heâs not going to lie to you and say that things can only get better and that the worst is over. Especially for mutants, thatâs not always true.
Although you donât know what Logan lives with every day and sleeps with every night, you do know that his capacity for empathy is still intact. Here you are in his bed after all, seeing and indulging in a side of him that many never will.Â
You sigh lightly. âWeâre quite the pair.âÂ
A comfortable half-smirk slips over his lips. âI think weâre just fucked up insomniacs,â he suggests with a breathy exhale thatâs close enough to a laugh.
You wish you could slide a thumb over the pulse in his wrist and see whatâs haunting him, just to understand what happened to the Wolverine, but youâve learned that doing so usually isnât worth the price youâll pay after. If whatâs in his head is horrific enough to cause him to go through a couple mattresses a month, then it wonât do you any good either.
âI sleep pretty good with you,â you offer, seeing how he raises a brow in doubt almost instantly.
He sleeps well with you, too. It kind of rattled him when he noticed a pattern of uninterrupted nights and you being by his side. Not a single mattress ruined on those nights.
âTry not to knee me in the stomach tonight,â he deflects with ease. He takes his hands out from behind his head, sliding his left arm under the pillow as he turns over onto his side and closes his eyes. Facing you.
You mentally smack yourself. Multiple times. You didnât think you drifted that much when you slept.Â
âNo promises,â you mutter. You catch a small shake of his head before you let yourself join him in unconsciousness as you mirror each others lonely bodies.
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Your eyes acheâto open, to move, to touch. Enough crying will do that to you.Your eyelids are heavy, but thereâs something else weighing down on you.Â
A tired groan crawls from your throat as you try to place yourself for a moment. The morning sun is just beginning to shine too brightly for your liking, and you squish your face deeper into the pillow.
Youâre still tipsy with sleep, lying flat on your stomach, but thereâs something dense and hot resting over your back.Â
You prop yourself up on your forearms, giving yourself a minute to wake up. You twist your hips around to sit yourself up, feeling the thing on your back slide down to your waist.Â
The blanket pools around your hips, and you feel a hand reflexively squeeze over the meat of your hip in disapproval of your moving. Something in you clenches at the sensation of something invading the area with ease. A spot reserved for intimacy.
Your head quirks to your right, seeing Logan on his stomach with his right arm thrown over your midsection.Â
You blink in surprise, staring at his sleeping body. His hair is sticking up every which way, his head half-off the pillow, his side of the blanket not even covering the curve of his ass anymore. Itâs endearing to see the Wolverine in such a normal, human state.
But if someone were to walk in, it would look like you two spent the whole night fucking. A lot. That wakes you up a little more.
You peek over at the nightstand behind him and see the time blinking on his watch. Itâs already 8 a.m.Â
You rest a hand over his shoulder to gently guide his arm off of you, but you stop yourself. Instead, you lightly trace your fingers down his shoulders and upper back a couple times, occasionally scratching softly over the ridges of muscle.
A shiver quickly rolls through his upper body, but your touch doesnât fully wake him. He knows itâs just you.
Itâs the least you can do for him as a thanks for recovering your broken body from the floor of your room and bringing you here when he didnât necessarily have to.
It almost feels like instinct to offer comforting gestures to him. Thereâs something inside you that just pulls to him. You want to be the one that can give him comfort and help him put himself back together.Â
You want to be the only one.
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Thereâs a shadow thatâs been following you around the mansion.Â
As soon as you stepped out of Loganâs room that morning a few days ago, it started.Â
This shadow likes to be nosy about what youâre doing. This shadow likes to be in your space. This shadow wants to be in your space. And he is.
No one has seen Logan out around the mansion this much, including you, and thatâs how you noticed heâs basically been attached to your hip ever since he decided your back was a comfortable armrest.Â
Heâs always just there, like a stray cat begging for food or affection. There to entertain you, banter with you, indulge you, in any way he can, including now as you trail back inside the mansion well behind Storm from an evening walkabout in the garden.
âNo smoking in the courtyard,â you sing as you pass him carelessly, not even offering a glance to him in interest.Â
You like playing this game. Whatever it is. Constantly poking and prodding at each other to see what you can do to get the other to break in some way, no matter how slight.Â
Your heart flutters and flips every time; maybe from the thrill of it all, maybe from the arousal you get from the tension. You hope he feels everything, too.
He turns his head to watch you cross into the entryway. âBlow me,â he throws back playfully through a thick puff of smoke, leaning against the brick wall with a cigar pinched between two fingers.
You suppress a chuckle, keeping your unwavering pace. âYeah, you wish!â You yell over your shoulder. You know he hears you. He wouldnât let himself miss it.
Logan smirks and shakes his head in amusement, always impressed with your quick rebuttals that occasionally tent his jeans. He takes one last drag out of spite before following your footsteps inside.Â
You have become, by definition, friendsâŚin a way. Even if you sorely cross the line into other territory more often than not. Sexual innuendos and friendly flirting can only go on for so long before the underlying intentions and meaning reflects real desires.Â
Itâs evolved into more than just borrowing his bed a couple times or helping each other out. Itâs surpassed the fear of whatever habit you were afraid of forming from doing so. Itâs become a dependency to get that adrenaline high from simply riling each other up.
You have an assumption that if you were to end up in Loganâs bed again, somehow, there will be a point of no return that youâll be faced with. There arenât many more excuses that can be used for explaining to yourselves why youâre together in bed before you have to recognize the truth.
That platonic line is being stretched too thin, and youâre not sure how much farther it can go.
ââââ â ââââ
âHowâve you been sleeping?â
âFine. You?â
âCould be better.â Logan hides his smirk, but you can hear it in his voice.
You narrow your eyes skeptically as he fishes around in the fruit bowl sitting in the middle of the kitchen island.
âHow so?â You ask. Your legs swing leisurely as you sit upon the chilled countertop on his left, idly waiting for Storm to show up and go with you to training.
A smug, tight-lipped grin flashes across his face, a green apple rolling around in his palms before he puts it back. âYou could be there,â he provokes, his eyes bright.
Itâs your turn to raise a brow at him, but you canât stop your smile. âOh?â
He turns to you, tenderly grabbing the tops of your thighs and parting them slightly to stand between your legs.
This isnât the first time heâs done this, and he knows it rouses you in all the right ways. But, neither of you will do anything about it. Not even a brief kiss.
âCome on,â he goads, planting his hands down next to your hips, bringing himself in closer as he bears his weight on his arms. âYou scratch my back, Iâll scratch yours.â He sways his head side to side to emphasize his point.
Fuck. Thatâs good.Â
That may be exactly what you did for him, but itâs now a figure of speech for something else entirely. Itâs almost impossible to argue against either way, as if you want to. This is what youâve been patiently waiting for.Â
You put your hands over his as you lean back a little to put some distance between you. âHow sweet,â you hum.
His eyes flick from yours to your lips one too many times before you continue. âYou start to miss me?â You tease as you lean forward again, echoing what he said to you the night your window got smashed in.
âSmart-ass,â he mutters as you laugh quietly. The tips of your noses barely graze each other as he steps in closer again. Youâre almost at the same height like this.Â
âSave me the left side,â you advise, bringing your hands to his shoulders as you fondle his white t-shirt between your fingers. Youâre so close, and heâs already so warm against you just like this.
âAlways do.â
ââââ
You want to rip your heart out of your chest from how hard itâs pounding against your ribs. Itâs almost throwing you forward with each heavy beat.
Three resounding knocks fill the hallway as you shuffle on your feet, waiting for Logan to open the door.
It feels like youâre doing something bad. Something parents would warn their kids against. Something greatly envied.
Everything inside you feels on fire. Your thoughts, desires, anxiety, all jumbling together into one distorted state of mind and body.
âAh, welcome back.â His sarcastic tone makes your face go hot. A satisfied smirk crosses his lips as he runs a hand through his shaggy, unstyled hair.Â
You shake your head, pursing your lips. âKnock it off.â You gently shove at his bare chest. Misbehaviour already. But are you really surprised?
Logan grabs your wrist, delicately guiding you into his room. âYou enjoy it,â he says lowly, quickly shutting the door as soon as youâre in.Â
âMaybe,â you hum in response, pulling away from his grasp and seeking out your side of the bed. Logan follows closely behind, giving your ass a light smack in encouragement before he cuts away to his side while you jolt in shock, a stunned look on your face as you whip your head around to him across the bed.
âOh, really?â You scoff. Heâs biting back a smile, not moving until he knows what youâll do next. Heâs never gone that far before.
âIâm sorry, that was rudeâhow can I make it up to you?â He almost chokes on a laugh, pulling his dog tag back and forth along the chain while he considers you.
This Logan is very different from the one you were met with the first night he let you in his space. This one is attentive and exuberant, yet he hasnât given you much up until this point right now. Youâve gotten way too comfortable with him without even doing anything to you.Â
In this moment, he isnât the brooding, animalistic Wolverine many see him as. Heâs just Loganâfor you.Â
You watch him carefully, easing yourself onto the bed. âGet in the fucking bed,â you slap his side of the mattress with a thump of your palm. âAnd do what you promised earlier,â you stare pointedly at him.
He owes you that âyou scratch my back, Iâll scratch yoursâ favour he decided to pull out to get you here.Â
âMm, alright, alright,â he surrenders, a look of amusement still on his face as he kneels onto the bed. âI thought of a pretty good idea for it,â he says softly, crawling to sit next to you on top of the blanket as the bed-frame creaks with the added weight.
Your shoulders almost brush against each other. You shift, turning your body fully toward him. âOh? Whâwoah!â
You squeal when his strong hands latch onto your sides, lifting you just enough to pull you over his legs to plant you on his lap. He leans back against the headboard, pulling on your thighs so you straddle him tightly.Â
He looks devilish when you catch his gaze again, and you know whatâs coming. Whatâs been coming. Your hands find their places on his shoulders, warm and taut, as his hands hold your hips.Â
The bond between you will culminate tonight. It will be wrapped in a blanket and trapped between two alike souls that lie heart-to-heart in the dead of night. It will be perpetual.
The heat of him between your legs makes you restless. Itâs just you, him, and the darkness in the quiet room youâve become too familiar with.
âLoganâŚâ you trail off bashfully when you feel something firm through his sweats poke against your cunt. It clearly doesnât take much to excite him.
âHm?â He takes you in for a split second, hands running from your hips up to your chest leisurely with a sharp inhale, not yet completely bothered by the fact that you have a shirt on.Â
You suck in a shaky breath when your hips accidentally shift over his bulge from his hands pushing and pulling over you.
âWhatâs the idea?â Your voice wavers.
You know what it is. He knows that. You just want to hear him say it and fill the silence.
âSomething Iâve wanted for a while,â he murmurs, eyes hyper-focused on you.Â
Your fingers dance their way to the sides of his neck, brushing along the supple skin while you feel muscles and tendons flex with every slight movement. You subtly press the pad of your index finger against the pulse point right under his jaw, just to ground yourself and truly feel that Logan is there in front of you.Â
His pulse is steady but hard, much like yours, and the prickle of energy festering against the finger almost makes it go numb from not accepting it into your body.Â
âShow me, then.â You smile sweetly, leaning in closer while you tilt his head up with the hand under his jaw, your finger slipping from his pulse and caressing over the dense, coarse hair along his cheek.
Your noses bump while your lips part in anticipation. His eyes flutter as he falls into you and frantically claims your mouth in an unbreakable kiss.
The first kiss. Nothing could tear him from you in this moment.
Your hands cradle his cheeks, keeping him from pulling off too far. His hands scratch and paw at your back, trying to find a way to somehow get you closer against him.
Itâs all a little messy, your lips mostly just mashing together without any rhyme or reason, but neither of you care. You only care about how electrifying it feels to finally have Logan and feel how perfectly connected you are together after all these nights. You go together like a key and its lock.
âLogan,â you pant when his mouth releases yours for a fraction of a breath. The seconds between kisses dwindle the more you take from each other.
Your thighs tense as he pulls half an inch away just to reconnect more crazed as his lips lock over your bottom one aimlessly. Something deep inside you trembles and aches.
He grunts, accidentally sucking the tip of your tongue briefly before slotting his lips back over yours in an apology. âHold on,â he mumbles in a rush against your parted lips. He knows what youâre askingâor trying to ask. He snakes an arm up along your spine and wraps the other around your waist.
Then the world is tilting.
He drops you on your back on the bed from his lap, hovering over you as he distracts you with harsh but pleasing kisses and wet bites along your neck, settling his hips heavily between your thighs. You squirm and feel how bolts of arousal are making your cunt pulse involuntarily.Â
Logan groans. âFuckâI can smell it. I smell you.â He slowly grinds his hips into yours almost reflexively. He squeezes his eyes shut, and you tip your chin up to press a chaste kiss to his slick lips.Â
âTasteâŚif you want to,â you propose, lightly scratching up and down his shoulders and arms, only enough to leave faint red lines for a couple seconds.
Loganâs eyes almost roll into the back of his head before he gives it a small shake, a conflicted look overtaking his face. âOf course I fucking want to, butâfuckânext time. I promise.â He swallows whatever you were going to say with a deep kiss that has you nearly shaking when he sucks on your bottom lip.Â
âLetâs just take things easy,â he says roughly, bearing his weight on his left arm while he tries to get your sleep shorts and underwear off.
A promise of a next time makes your brain go fuzzy like static.
âIâll hold you to it, then,â you resolve, lifting your hips as much as you can for him to lean back and pull away to wrestle your clothes the rest of the way down your legs, discarding them just as quickly.
âI hope you will,â he breathes through a small laugh as he shuffles on his knees. He doesnât want to completely overwhelm you and scare you off, he just wants to enjoy you in a simple way that wonât entirely ruin you for tomorrow.
He doesnât know what you can or cannot handle, but heâs going to find out.
The fresh air in the room brushes cooly against your wet cunt. Itâs a nice contrast to how fiery your whole body feels, but Logan feels even warmer than you somehow. Maybe wolverineâs just run hot.
His sweats have ridden down his hips from his desperate grinding against you, and the dangerous cut of his v-line grows more and more narrow as the waistband teases the reveal of whatâs underneath.
You watch himâpalming his dick once as your knees sway side-to-side in waiting. His thumbs hook under the stretchy fabric, working what remains of his clothes down his sturdy thighs.
âItâs rude to stare.â He pops a brow, a smug, arrogant grin quirking his lips.
You push yourself to sit up, considerably shorter than him in this position as he stands on his knees, and walk two fingers up his toned stomach to his chest, avoiding the hard cock between you.Â
He looks at you with curiosity until your hand grabs his dog tag in a fist, pulling it towards you. âThen stop showing me your dick,â you say as he leans in to your pulling a little to not have the chain break away.
You knew the night Logan dropped his pants in front of you and let you eye-up his bulge would come back to haunt you. But itâs alluring. Big. Curves a little to the left, barely noticeable. A respectable amount of hair decorates the space between his bellybutton and the base of his cock.
He gives in to the tension on the chain, falling back to the mattress with you and trapping you between his arms as his cock rests heavy on your clit.
âHow about I find somewhere to put it?â His smile pushes a whole new wave of arousal from you.
âIt would be a damn shame if you didnât,â you say against his mouth, giving your hips a roll just to tease him before hugging his waist tightly with your knees.
âGood.â He gives you a strong kiss with a small grunt, running his hands over your sides under your shirt. The movement pushes it up, up, up, until you have no choice but to stretch your arms out above you and let him slide it off between more thoughtless kisses, leaving you entirely bare.
He lets you breathe for a moment, dipping his head to bite and suck marks along your collarbones messily. You squeeze around his hips harder, trying to get him to give you something other than his scratchy cheeks rubbing against your skin and the chilled steel of the dog tag dragging over your chest.
The tip of his cock falls and catches over your clit when he moves lower, licking and sucking over your chest like a starved animal finding food for the first time in a week. You gasp from the mixed sensations.
âCâmon, kitty cat, you can do all this while inside m-me,â you say breathily, fingers digging into his shoulders to stop yourself from trembling too much.Â
Logan bites over a nipple before pulling himself back up to look at you. âIs that a promise?â He says lowly, that stupid smirk gracing his face again.
âTry it and find out,â you demand, enjoying the sting of the deeper bites blooming on your torso.
He purses his lips, shifting his weight back onto his knees to grab ahold of his cock to angle and guide it in.
âHm, guess no lube is needed,â he muses when he gets a look at your cunt, sparing you a glance through his lashes.
You roll your eyes shut when your whole body lights up red-hot. âJesus fucking Christ, Logan,â you slap a hand over your eyes as you grimace. You donât want to be that aware of your naked self right now.
He suppresses whatever expression was about to cross his face when his cock notches itself between your soaked folds, teasing your hole with the blunt tip. His brows pinch together and you forget the embarrassment from his crude remark.
But he leaves his cock like that, on the precipice of sliding the rest of the way in with a snap of his hips. Instead, he carefully uncurls his upper body to crawl his way back up to you while holding his hips deathly still.
âAlright, stay with me,â he whispers against your neck when you moan, pressing a tender kiss to your rabid pulse in reassurance.Â
âO-okay,â you sigh, running a hand through his hair and tugging at the roots while the other squeezes around his arm as best as it can. Youâre not even really sure what heâs saying. Â
He kisses up your cheek and over to your lips again. You try to keep up with his quick mouth, licking and sucking whatever part you can get ahold of, but youâve become lost in the feeling of him all over you.Â
Heâs in your mouth, on your chest, against your stomach, nudging your cunt. Everywhere.
He slips his tongue over yours, securing your lips together at the same time he pushes his cock in halfway. Now you understand what he was saying.Â
The lightheadedness from being filled, even just a bit, almost makes you lose yourself. The stretch makes your stomach drop, your legs shake, and your mouth fall open with a whine.Â
âA-ahâfuck. Fuck, Logan,â you whimper, fisting his hair with both hands to stop yourself from falling apart.
He groans, either at the grip you have on his hair or how good your cunt feels already, and runs a hand up your left thigh in comfort as you squeeze around his hips tighter to draw him in.Â
âJust a bit more,â he soothes, trying to resist the urge to slide into you in one fell swoop. It would be so easy to just let his hips fall into yours and fill your cunt.
Another heated kiss, another few inches. He works his cock into you the rest of the way with ease. You guess the lube thing wasnât really a joke. His hungry, needy kisses may have also helped with that.
You choke on your gasps, not wanting to get too loud, and Logan does the same. He tries to muffle both of your moans with his mouth, attempting to form complete kisses, but it just turns into you panting against each other as he finally bottoms out, hitting his end.Â
Your legs relax around his waist as he deftly rocks his hips in small thrusts to get you familiar with his size, his small grunts filling the air each time you swallow him whole.
You let out a deep breath, dropping your hands back to his tense shoulders. He lines your jaw with soft kisses, fisting the blanket in his hands beside your head.
âFuck. Already feels too good,â he moans, pressing into you harder and unintentionally rubbing himself over your tender clit.
You smile, squirming while he works down your neck again. âBest of luck,â you huff, amused at the fact that he might not last as long as he wants to.
He brings his face back to yours, a completely blissful expression controlling his features, but thereâs still some mischief in his hazel eyes. âOh? Yeah?â
You hold each otherâs gaze, both equally dazed and overwhelmed, and he draws his hips back and pushes into your wet cunt with a complete, strong thrust. The sound of his pelvis hitting against the backs of your thighs makes him laugh in pleasure and satisfaction when you instantly roll your eyes and head back.
Your cunt quivers, gripping him tight, and then itâs Loganâs turn to lose composure. He drops his head to your chest, managing a few deep breaths as he slowly pulls out halfway just to push right back into you, over and over.Â
Itâs a pace that isnât quite pure, mindless fucking, but itâs also not somewhere near earnest love-making. Itâs something that feels specifically curated for you. Something that feels measured and sincere.Â
The strength of his thighs hitting against yours pushes you up the mattress a few inches, and you donât know whether to gasp or moan. He reaches somewhere deep inside you, and you know he can feel that, too.
A helpless groan slips through Loganâs lips. âWhere have you fucking been, huh?â He muses through shaky breaths, the determined plunge of his cock hitting something that makes your muscles tense throughout your body.Â
Your fingers tangle in the hair at the base of his neck, keeping him close. âTwo doors down,â you giggle, understanding thatâs not quite what he was asking.
âFucking smart-ass,â he grumbles, silencing any further rebuttals with a wet kiss. You donât think you could manage much more of a conversation even if you wanted to.
The silence is quickly filled with obscene sounds that only seem to leave you wetter and Logan throbbing. You can hear your bodies connecting through your gasping for air and his choked moans, and you can feel the mess youâre making all over him. Itâs smeared along the inside of your thighs from how deep heâs been hitting. The squelching only seems to make him fuck into you harder.
Something inside you starts to grow tight and wind up in your core, making you repeatedly clench around him while his cock strokes all the right spots inside you as he makes sure heâs fucking himself in to the base. He doesnât deprive you of anything.Â
He drops his head to your neck, wedging his face in to latch onto the spot right where your neck starts to slope into your shoulder. The dense muscle there gives him something to basically chew on, sinking his teeth in as deep as he can without drawing blood.
âH-hah, Logan,â you whine, tilting your head into the side of his and squirming from the pleasant sting.
You feel his arm move beside you, then you hear the sound of tearing fabric as he gives a particularly brutal snap of his hips, followed by a deep groan against your skin.
You can barely form any thoughts, but you can guess what just happened. If he pulled his hand back, three long, slim holes would probably be where his knuckles are right now.
âFu-uck, Logan, you just got t-this mattress,â you laugh a little, your words choppy from how hard heâs driving into you now.
He draws back from your neck, seeing your half-lidded eyes trying to focus on him. âCanât always control it,â he reasons, giving you two short, fleeting kisses as you hear his claws retract from the innocent mattress.Â
You see the double-edged sword. You can guess that thatâs the same explanation he would probably use for the nightmares. It can go either way, and now youâve seen both sides.
âItâs okay,â you say in a hushed tone. You cradle his face, and he rests his forehead against yours. âKeep goingâŚkeep going,â you coax, face scrunching from your nearing orgasm.
You can feel it in your toes, your stomach, your shouldersâyouâre tightening up everywhere, and he can undoubtedly feel it in your cunt as you pulse around him. It grips him just right for a couple seconds before relaxing completely and leaving him to chase for more.
âKeep squeezing me like that and youâll get whatever you want,â he offers, fighting to maintain his steady pace for both your sakes.
You almost whine, knowing whatever your body does is beyond your control at this point.
âJustâinside.â You canât even string together a full sentence anymore, but the urgency and stress on the last word makes Loganâs ears perk up.
He presses a soft kiss to your clammy forehead in acknowledgment, the muscles in his arms straining and flexing as he grabs ahold of his own orgasm after a particularly inviting flutter of your walls.
Youâre both walking the line, teetering on the edge of utter euphoria, and you know nothing will be the same after. You donât want it to be. You hope it isnât.
He reaches an arm back, sliding his hand up your thigh again and slotting it behind the bend in your knee. He pushes forwardâonly slightlyâbringing your leg closer to your stomach to stretch you open for him.
His cock brushes over something new. Something that makes you bite your tongue. The angle lets him fit perfectly against you, not hindered by the flesh of your thigh stopping his hips.
You want to cry from how good it all feels. You want to be suspended in this feeling forever. You want Logan toâ
âFocus, baby. Focus on me,â he coos, bringing you back to reality. He holds the side of your head with his other hand affectionately. âCome onâŚcome on, I know youâre almost there,â he encourages with a quick kiss that goes straight to your stomach.
The burn in your thigh from the stretch canât overpower the sparks of your orgasm, and Logan just fanned the flames with a few little words.
You come with a broken sob, convulsing around his cock while he fucks you through it, submitting to his own orgasm only seconds after with deep, shaky breaths as he empties himself inside your cunt.
He doesnât pull out or pull away. He relaxes on top of you, sweaty and sticky with cum, and he places the barest whisper of a kiss on your chin, your parted lips, your nose, and then your forehead.Â
Your ears ring from your orgasm, eyes still slightly out of focus. Your body trembles from your muscles finally releasing the tension theyâve been caught up in.Â
You desperately suck in air, trying to calm your pounding heart, and you just lie there and let Logan walk your body through a cool-down. Soft kisses. Soft touches. Soft looks. Between sweat, cum, and whatever else.
He rocks a little on his knees, weak from his release, and carefully pulls out of you with a huff as he caresses your stomach and thighs appreciatively to wind you down. You get a good look at him. Not a scratch. His hair tells a story, thoughâone where heâs completely possessed by bliss.Â
You probably look like you survived an animal attack.
âAre we even?â Logan says through a kiss against your stomach.
A mindless laugh crawls from your throat, caught up in the feeling of his hands rubbing circles over your hips. âI think I still owe you,â you argue, resting your hands over his as they travel smoothly up your side.
Youâll find a way to make everything up to him. Including the sex. The scale is now tipping to his side too much. All the nights spent in his bed, what heâs done for you, what youâve done for each other, may just be immeasurable, but that wonât stop you from finding a way to get him back for it all.Â
âWeâll figure it out,â he mumbles, snaking back up your body and pressing himself against you. Face-to-face. Chest-to-chest.Â
You mindfully run your hands over the sides of his head, trying to tame his hair and style it back to how it was earlier in the night. It doesnât work. He enjoys it anyway.
âDo I have the pleasure of staying here tonight?â You ask rhetorically, enjoying the warmth of him on top of you against the brisk air creeping in from the cracked window.
Logan blinks. âYou can stay every night.âÂ
A loving smile springs over your face. This may be the beginning of the end to your troubles and worries. Â
Youâmaybe foolishlyâtrust him. You trust that he wonât accidentally bury his claws in your side during the night, but youâve had impressive luck with that up until this point. The only thing you can do now is continue to push that luck.
Healing isnât linear, and you canât expect someone to fix you, but everyone finds their thing at some point.Â
You slither your hand down to his neck, index finger grazing over his pulse again. You feel the energy biting against you.
Your lips graze over his, tempting him to give you a slow, deep kiss. âCan I have the left side?â Rhetorical, again.
Logan chuckles against your mouth. âAlways.â
#did my best to appease readers from the criticism iâve seen about logan fics so. lol#logan howlett x you#logan howlett x reader#wolverine x reader#wolverine x you#logan howlett smut#wolverine smut#xmen x reader#xmen x you#xmen smut#hugh jackman x reader#hugh jackman x you#marvel smut#the wolverine x reader#x men x reader#logan howlett fluff#wolverine fanfiction
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Misc Chateau Shorthalt screengrabs because OH man, look at how happy they all are!!!!!
#tumblr fucking hated me putting this together idk why#its done with my tlovm bullshit KNTKRNHTRNHN#ok guess it's time to get some sleep then#man. this romp full of joy and references is just what i needed this week. and you can tell the animators had fun#tlovm spoilers#cr spoilers#critical role#tlovm#the legend of vox machina#tlovm s3#tlovm liveblog#vox machina#allura v
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I need to know how Aabria reacted in the crowd to seeing Sam become the monster I think we all want to be, or be with
#fuck in a very asexual way in my case#charisma-based minotaur??? sam you beautiful man#critical role#critical role spoilers#cr spoilers#bells hells#sam riegel#aabria iyengar
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Ah, a character with floaty hair and a fun color scheme? I'm in.
#dorian storm#critical role#bell's hells#critical role campaign 3#pentapoda drew this#I'm 36k into a fic based on episode 33#you could say im a little behind the main crowd#also terrified to be perceived by a new fandom#but it's too late#I'm entranced by robbie's hair (real and imagined) and liam's sad halfling voice
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I think that one thing people fail to understand is that unsolicited literary criticism coming from an online stranger who is reading with no knowledge of what the authors intended goal is, is not going to be received the same as say: the authors beta reader or friends who know what the authors intended goal and has the sufficient knowledge and input to help the author reach that desired outcome.
"But I'm only trying to be helpful" How do I know you have the knowledge and literary skill for you to be able to actaully do that when we don't know each other and you are essentially a stranger to me? Are you applying this criticism based out of personal biased experience and desire to see the story or characterization be driven in another direction or tweaked, or do you know the author's intentions for the character? If the story is incomplete, are you basing your criticism of a character on the incomplete narration with only partial information available of them or are you building up a report until the story's completion? Did the author provide you with the information needed to make a fully informed criticism?
Have you discussed with the author what their plans are or are you assuming them based off the narration, especially if the narration is proven or implied to be unreliable or missing key points of the plot? Are you unbiased enough to help them reach their desired outcome for the characters and story regardless of your personal feelings towards the characters/antagonists and setting? Can you handle being told your specific input isn't wanted because you're a reader and/or have no written anything relating to their genre or topic? Do you understand and respect that the author's personal experiences might influence their writing and make it different than how you would have done it personally? Do you understand if an author only wants input from a specific demographic relating to their story?
If it's for fanfiction or other hobby media, are you holding a free hobby to a professional standard? Are you trying to give criticism because you feel like the author has produced 'subpar job performance' of their fic? Are you viewing their work as a personal intimate outlet or something that must conform with mass media? Are you applying rules and guidelines when the fic is shared for simple sharing sake? Is your criticism worded appropriately and focused on the parts where the author has requested input on rather than a general dismissal and or disapproval?
Have you put yourself in a place where you assumed you have the input needed for the story to evolve better, or have you asked what the author needs and what they're having trouble with? Can you handle having your criticism rejected if the author decides their story doesn't need the change and not take it as a personal offense against your character? Are you crossing that boundary because you think you are doing the author a favor? Are you trying to be helpful, or do you just want to be?
I think sometimes when people hear authors go 'please don't give me unsolicited writing advice or criticism' they automatically chalk it up to 'this author doesn't want ANY constructive feedback on their stuff at all' and not "i already have trusted individuals who will help me with my writing goals and- hey i don't know you like that, please stop acting so overly familiar with me'
#small rant brought to you by: listened to my younger sibling's friend be very upset today because an original story she wrote gets bashed#the story itself is fine maybe a little fast paced but overall she was happy with it's progress#and there is this one dude who keeps trying to tell her that her story needs to go another direction to 'make sense' and it changes the end#after she's repeatedly explained she's happy with the outcome and does not want to expand on that plot point any further#dude says she's 'unreceptive to criticism' no dude you're just being a dick#constructive criticism helps the AUTHOR reach THEIR intended goal#not steer the story in the direction a reader wants to see it go#sara shush#pls don't reblog with any 'but i take unsolicited criticism all the time' this isnt about you. your boundary is not other people's boundary
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"May I simply hold you?"
The sweetest slow-burn boys are finally in each other's arms. đŤ đŤ đŤ
My entire social media feed is EXPLODING with these, I'll just throw mine onto the pile. XD
#jenny dolfen#critical role#critical role fanart#procreate art#bells hells#orym of the air ashari#digital watercolor#critical role spoilers#orym#dorian storm#dorym#when you look up âslow burnâ in the dictionary there's a picture of them
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vox machina memes part 2
#i love them so much guys you donât understand#critical role#vox machina#legend of vox machina#the legend of vox machina#vox machina memes#critical role memes#vax'ildan#shaun gilmore#vex'ahlia#percival de rolo#percahlia#percy x vex#scanlan shorthalt#pike trickfoot#grog strongjaw
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