#if yall couldnt tell who this post was about

[erythristicbones]

i do think it's really funny that JDK as a project started out with Jonas as the main focus and everything else secondary, but then I put my repurposed old edgy OC i adored when I was 12 in it.......and now I'm just like "what if she gets to be super important too? What if she's just as integral to the story?" bc i have no self control

[risingsunresistance]

twitter is entering their "rts > likes" phase now that likes are private after they spent years calling us ungrateful for being demotivated by ratios lmao

[queenerdloser]

reading posts where people are giving permission for everyone to read old fics is so wild 2 me bc i have never once stopped to consider when a fic is written. half the time i dont even look at the posted date for fics. never in my mind has consideration about when a fic was written stopped me from commenting or dropping kudos on a fic. yall really over here inventing things to be worried about online, huh. i have enough anxiety in real life, i don’t need to make up more reasons to be anxious online. 

[mx-paint]

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[san8ny]

Thinking about..Ex-girlfriend Ellie <3

[an: not an original trope, i cringed everytime i attempted to proof read so i couldnt..srry]

Ex-Girlfriend Ellie who scoffs when you’re mentioned at all, but is all fucking ears, tilting her head back and giving the person a side eye,

“I mean..you can continue, not like I care at all but like, it’s rude to interrupt someone so..”

Ex-Girlfriend Ellie who’s once paid some instagram tarot reader a good 10 bucks to see if yall were compatible despite not believing in it before,

Ex-Girlfriend Ellie who’s bitterly venmo requesting her money back when the girl says no,

“Shit isnt even real, you scammed me gimme it back bruh”

Ex-Girlfriend Ellie who’s definitely got a fake account to keep tabs on you, which might look, to the average eye, some middle aged woman who posts her food and her kids, with some biblical verses in her bio— when it’s ellie with some google found, random ass photos of people

“Im so fuckin smart..” she geeks, pumping her fist when you accept her follow request

Ex-Girlfriend Ellie who’s looking down at her phone dumbfounded when she’s blocked on the account thr next day, throwing her hands in the air—forgetting just who she learnt that trick from..

Ex-Girlfriend Ellie who’s even more confused when her door is knocked, you on the other side, phone in-hand with the same account pulled up,

“Er..that’s not me?..” She says awkwardly, scratching the back of her neck as she leans on her doorframe.

Ex-Girlfriend Ellie who cries dramatically and is on her knees when you tell her with a strict finger to leave her alone, practically groveling at your feet in pure anguish as she pleads!

“P-please! You don— you don’t understand! You can’t!”

Ex-Girlfriend Ellie who hiccups, eyes puffy with long lashes coated in tears as she wraps her arms around your calves—only you could ever have her in this state! I mean, look at how distraught she is at the sheer idea of possibly leaving you alone forever!

She doesn’t care in the slightest if the neighbors hit her with a noise complaint.

Ex-Girlfriend Ellie who soon enough has you on her bed, in a warm mating press, breathy moans of never having you leave her side, telling you she’d rather die than ever have anyone else fill your shoes as your sloppy cunts kiss, wet noises echoing off the drywalls of ellie’s cheap apartment,

“C—cum! Cum, nee— need you so..o—oh! Oh, my god? Loveyousomuch, loveyousomuch”

Ex-Girlfriend Ellie who’s an utter loser, pathetically feeling tears well up again as the idea of you getting up and taking your stuff after this hits— so she takes you for another round, this time with her 8inch strap.

It’s a disgusting mess, really.

Ex Girlfriend Ellie who you’ve got a twitchy mess as you use her so deliciously, quickly becoming overstimulated once more when she realizes she’s orgasmed like 5 times already; Milky fluids all over thighs as she ruts into you— fucking a mixture of your cums back into you with whats gathered around her strap.

Ex-Girlfriend Ellie is pretty much in another word from the pleasure, mouth ajar as her moans leave in pants— begging for a kiss as her rosey tits bounce a bit against you

“Ple—uh, uh! Please, just ‘wan a kiss, c—can’t, uhm!— can’t reach yo—ou!” She whines tiredly, her sweaty upper body leaning forward on your back, littering sloppy kisses all over you, cmon..give her a kiss :(

Ex-Girlfriend Ellie who you eventually give into, giving a chaste kiss to, but she doesn’t return the same one back— instead, opting to swipe her tongue around and suckle your blush coloured tongue, bobbing her head up and down while the saliva gathers on her tastebuds, excess dribbling down her chin and splattering somewhere on the already ruined bedsheets,

“F—wuckin’ wa—ah..’wan you all..”

Ex-Girlfriend Ellie who watches you sleep while she lazily licks at your worn-out pussy, humming as she probes a finger on the engorged clit— giggling when you sleepily swat a hand down to push her head away, but she’s latched on.

Ex-Girlfriend Ellie who, even if you move a thousand miles away from, will always be there because she’s yours.

[nyancrimew]

i think a cute thing about how people use tumblr is that i start to recognize random followers of mine just from the tags they use on reblogging, like i couldnt tell u who it is, but whenever i post something and it gets reblogged with '#things i didnt do' i smile cuz im like Hell Yea they liked this particular post, and i have that for so many of yalls personal rb tags

[judeslove]

accidental - or maybe not

pairing - jude bellingham x fem!messi!reader genre - smau warnings - swearing, google translate spanish summary - you and jude had hidden your relationship successfully for two years, but an accidentaly posted picture ruins it, or was it accidental after all? face claim - pink pantheress a/n - im gonna be honest this is just a filler post as i havent posted the second part of my series .. FORGIVE ME

ynmessi miami, florida

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ynmessi thank you miami for being the opening of my tour 🩷🌴.

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leomessi estoy muy orgullosa de ti (so proud of you)

↪️ ynmessi 😋😋🫶

antonelaroccuzzo puedes dejar de hacer música tan buena que los niños la tienen en repetición todo el tiempo lol 😫 (can you stop making so good music the kids have it on repeat all the time)

↪️ ynmessi jajaja gracias 🙏

messironaldo107 you are ruining messis legacy

↪️ ynmessi ok noob

↪️ fan1 ATEEE

↪️ user1 the glazing 💀💀

georginagio hermosa 😍😍 (beautiful)

↪️ ynmessi hihi gracias 🫶🫶

user2 marry me please

user3 who is she? why does her name say messi??

↪️ user4 shes messis daughter, a singer

↪️ user3 you didn’t tell her name 🤦‍♂️

↪️ user4 my bad, thought you could see it from her username

fan2 GORGEOUS 😍 IM SO SAD I COULDNT BE THEREE

↪️ ynmessi 🫶🫶

tolami_benson absolutely gorg xx ❤️❤️ liked by creator

↪️ ynmessi you 😫😫💍💍

yourbff mi radio está rota por escuchar demasiado tu canción (my radio is broken from listening to your song too much)

↪️ ynmessi JAJAJAJJAJAJSKS

user5 can you come to kosovo

↪️ ynmessi maybe lol

user6 GIRLLLL YOU NEED TO COME TO CONNECTICUT WERE STARVINGG😫 liked by creator

↪️ user6 OMMGGGG SHE LIKED

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leomessi miami, florida

(lets just pretend our yn is in the family pic aswell)

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leomessi sí, también vamos de vacaciones en familia (yes, we still go on family vacations aswell)

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ynmessi NOOO PAPÁ POR QUÉ ELEGISTE ESA FOTO (NOOO DAD WHY DID YOU CHOOSE THAT PICTURE)

↪️ leomessi qué quieres decir (what do you mean)

↪️ ynmessi me veo raro 😣😣 (i look weird😣😣)

↪️ leomessi eres famoso acostúmbrate (you’re famous get used to it)

antonelaroccuzzo 💍🌴👩‍👩‍👦‍👦👫.

↪️ leomessi jajaja creativo (hahaha creative)

cristiano 🙌

↪️ leomessi 😉

↪️ user7 yo you guys gay or what

ronaldofan1 ronaldos better

↪️ leomessi ☕️☕️

user8 finished

user9 why yn lowkey fine

↪️ judebellingham how are yall noticing just now [this comment has been deleted]

angeldimariajm 🤩🤩🤩 liked by creator

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antonelaroccuzzo posted a story

[this story has been deleted]

user10 hello?? why is no one talking about this???

user11 oop exposed

user12 YN AND JUDE BELLINGHAM OH MY GOODNESS

user13 beautiful couple

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deuxmoi

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deuxmoi artist and daughter of world famous footballer lionel messi, yn messi has been seen with another famous footballer, jude bellingham on antonela roccuzzo‘s now deleted instagram story.

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user14 you should delete this, invasion of privacy

↪️ user15 mate that’s how the internet works

user16 NOOO MY JUDE😣😣💔💔

↪️ user17 💀💀💀💀

user18 can they confirm this ship it‘s cute

↪️ user19 FORREAALLL

user20 why is this necessary to post again?

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judebellingham

liked by ynmessi, leomessi and 10.372.941 others

judebellingham it’s true, we’ve been dating for 2 years LOL 😝 #ilovemygf ynmessi

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ynmessi HAHAHAHAHAH

↪️ judebellingham HAHAHHAHAHA

↪️ user21 i dont think theyre ok

leomessi 🫡🫡 liked by creator

antonelaroccuzzo oops 😅😉 (definitivamente un accidente) (definitely an accident)

↪️ judebellingham KNEW IT

↪️ ynmessi MAMÁ???? (mom????)

user22 2 YEARS??

user23 WE ARE SO DUMB

user24 COUPLE OF THE YEAR EVERYONE CHEER

user25 the couple we didn’t know we needed but got anyways

fan3 i’m still waiting for the album ..😔😔

↪️ judebellingham me too girl me too

↪️ fan3 oh my gosh?

[grapesrsogood]

PART TWO OF PET AND PICKLE but now its Pet and Pickle and Barista and Love :3

All the listeners are referred to as women, the first one is gender neutral but i couldnt help myself with this one T^T

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Pet and Pickle deciding on one of their sleepovers that they need to expand their friendship group.

Pickle saying she could look into her childhood best friend, Barista, so she does and finds that she was taken in by a gang. Pickle doesn’t give up though and contacts the gang lord, explaining the situation and Warden finds it so amusing that he allows it (and with the knowledge of who Issac is and knowing he’s trustable)

Pet contacting her emergeny contact, who just so happens to be Dontis, asking if he know anyone who would be interested in their friendship group, Dontis asking Love and Love agreeing, they dont ask Xanthus though since he definitely would have to threaten them or what not.

Their stupid little group chat that took way too much effort to create talks daily and about literally EVERYTHING.

The texts consist mostly of “goodnight pookies :D”s and “good morning besties :3”s.

All of them agreeing to meet up in a park for a picnic together, they tell their partners that it’ll be a cute date in a pretty park but in reality its a massive fuck off picnic where the girls wrestle and make flower chains, laughing about random things.

The guys are just so confused about how this even happened, Issac being the awkward little shit he is, Xanthus angrily staring at everyone except for Love, Elias trying to start conversation and trying to ease the tension but inevitably fails and Asirel with his thumb and forefinger pinching the bridge of his nose the whole time, how the hell did they end up here.

The girls becoming best friends immediately and playing random stupid little games like duck duck goose, hide ‘n’ seek and tag whilst the guys dont understand the how they can be so trusting and have so much fun with people they’ve known for maybe a month.

The girls would all kill for eachother and are so close that they form a pact where if any of them are in trouble then the others would come rescue them no matter what.

They call themselves the bestfriend squad, the guys hate it.

They have frequent sleepovers but have to rent out places because none of the guys trust the others enough to go to their own houses.

Matching pj’s all the way. DUH

They dress up for halloween together, they give each other gifts, they NEED to throw birthday parties for each other and god forbid they find out its any of they guys birthdays.

They have created their own little family in a matter of weeks and their favourite days are when Dontis comes over too and they all get piggy back rides. :3

Two words. CUDDLE PILE >v<

Talking about how they all met and they’re all horrified to hear about each others.

“Yeah, Xanthus cornered me in an ally, i stabbed him and then he drank my blood. I love him so much” :)

“…. HE DID WHAT?!”

“Yeah, Issac kinda just picked me up in an alleyway and took me home”

“SO HE KIDNAPPED YOU?!”

“Oh, Elias saved my life when a rival gang blew up the coffee shop i was working at”

“Sweet but YOUR WORKPLACE EXPLODED?!

“Asirel bought me”

“What the actual fuck”

Thats basically how that went.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

BUT let me know if yall want more because i love them :3

This writing style is one of my favs and is the easiest but it also means the posts are fairly short most of the time :(

You can find part 1 here

And part 3 here

Find masterlist here

BAIIIIII :D

[marriedtomoneymartin]

emily engstler x popsinger!gf headcannons

warnings: nswf but there will be a warning beforehand

summary: kay writes about emily having a singer gf bc she feels so moved.

swf:

the edits of you two go insane

“you know how to ball, i know aristotle” THEY GO FERAL

whenever you’re at her games, the camera’s always on you

like it shows you when you’re doing absolutely nothing it will just show you on the big screen

if you make a song about her, its on REPEAT

like those interviews about “whats your pregame song?” and it will be the song you wrote about her

always promotes your music

if you just realeased an album/single, her insta story will just be “go stream ____ because i have the best gf”

whenever you have an event she’s always in awe at your outfit

like you just finished getting ready for an award show and she’s just like “do you have to go? cant i just have you to myself for the night”

always either front row at your shows or backstage with you

you always point and smile at her while you’re singing

when you’re trying to write new music, she’ll sit with you while you fiddle with your instrument

while you’re trying get inspo she’ll lay down and listen to the music and your soft hums

practically just another one of your fanbase fans

always agreeing with your fans in the comments of any of your posts

y’all hardlaunched in one of your mv’s and she always watches it

she’s not even looking at herself

will always take candid photos of you and your fans go crazy over them

the fans will be like “everyone thank emily for feeding us”

nswf content below!!

nswf:

so much praise during it after you win an award

“you deserve it, ma” and “im so proud of you, let me show you”

will slowly take off your dress and heels and just goes super slow

“em, stop teasing” “im not, i just want to take in your beautiful body”

whenever she’s your plus one somewhere, she’s whispering in your ear all night

“you look so sexy in the dress, ma?” and “how much do you like this dress? deciding if i should rip it off or not later”

the way she looks during a game always turns you on

“you looked so hot while you were playing em” you moan out, “yea? tell me more,” she says while kissing your body

whenever someone ships you with anyone else, she’s pissed. then yall fuck

“they couldnt make you feel this good, huh?” while youre a moaning and whining mess

in conclusion, shes like your biggest fan

a/n:

this was fun

keep sending requests bc i dont have ideas!!

look at my masterlist if you don’t know who i write for

[mrpersikdream]

Okay, so i cant post on tiktok for ✨️russia✨️ reasons, and i dont know where else to put this but tumblr, so here we go

I have an idea on how to help families (and their dogs!!!) In Palestine

(❤️TLDR: read text in bold. Repost to tiktok if you can, please)

So we all know and love @ weratedogs on twitter (and most recently on tiktok).

They are a nice little acount with millions of subscribers on all their platforms. They regulary fundraise for dogs all over the world, but i couldnt help but notice the lack of speaking up on Palestinian gen0cide, and we dont tolerate that.

So basically my plan was to try and reach out to them and make them highlight a couple gofundmes that help doggos in Gaza and their families. Like, there are families with dogs there, there are kind people, bless their hearts, who still run shelters in theese conditions, and they need help too!!!

Like, i dont see a problem there. This would be intact with the theme of their profile - helping dogs in need. If they got a family with together their puppy out that would make for such a heartwarming story and make dog of the year! I see it as totaly doable.

But I cant make it alone. We need to all contact them in dms and via e-mail with messages and gofundme links, to the point where it would be impossible to ignore is anymore.

Contacting them is easy!

You could dm them on twitter, tiktok, wherever, or, i suggest, we all contact them via E-mail using their website:

I already DMed on tiktok and sent an E-Mail. Heres what i wrote. You can copy and paste if you dont wanna come up with your own:

Hey! I really love your profile and everything that you do for puppies and dogs, you seem like a really nice person. In the light of recent events i couldnt help but notice your lack of acknouledgement of the wая in Ра1еsт1ие.

I would love to bring to your attention that there are thousands of dogs in Gаза who need our help and thousands of families who have dogs who need money to get out. I found at leas 5 gofundmes just by searching "gаза dogs" on gofundme . com. You raise money for puppies in need all the time, and dogs and most importantly their owners in Ра1еsтiие need our help now more than ever.

Im sure you care for all the innocent lives lost there, but might be scared of public backlash. I assure you, whatever small thing you do would count. Even though the best time to speak out was months ago, second best time is NOW.

Here is one popular foundraiser i found on gofundme, but there are many, many more, less popular ones. If you speak about them that can make ALL the difference to those doggos

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-the-sulala-animal-rescue-in-gaza?qid=e7e0be6b60e9067a01da3aea85cfd66d

Thank you so much for your concideration

Now, I am not naive, and i know that it might turn out that @ weratedogs os a terrible person and just does not care, or worst, a z10n1st or something. But thats not the point right now. All that mattsrs is that we come together and try our best to convince them to advertise those gofundmes to their millions of followers, or tell stories of Pаlestinian doggos and their owners who are stuck in a terrible situation right now.

Thank you so much for staying this far and

REPOST TO TIKTOK IF YOU CAN!!!!

I cant post to international tiktok from Russia with my cracked version, so, please, if you have tiktok, TELL THEM MY IDEA and lets raid @ weratesogs' dms!!!!!

Love yall!!!! No freedom untill we are all free✊️

[romanarose]

Life update if anyone cares.

I only post this bc i was posting my depressing shit for months and a lot of people were reaching out in concern <3

cw sever depression, self harm, suicide, csa, SA, all the bad. but also lots of good <3

TLDR: Despite a god-awful semester, i got all a's and b's

Everyone thats been following me the last few months has seem my personal posts about how fucking awful things have been for me.

I've dealt with fact I can no longer deny that what happened to me was CSA, despite being on a milder side of things. That sparked an absolutely spiral. I didnt sleep for months which made things worse. School, I got an F on a midterm and i NEVER get F's on writing assignments.

Work had its complications and i quit and then rescinded that quit two days later. I was so constantly depressed in my dorm my roommate literally told me i needed to go to the basketball game with them bc i was sitting in a depression hovel none stop. I only went to services twice this whole time, one shabbat and once for Rosh Hoshannah.

I burned the ever living fuck out of my fingers, yall remember that one? lol.

In novemeber i had relapsed so severely on self harm i thought i had accidentally killed myself. I should've called 911. I thought I was bleeding out and/or going into shock. I then worked myself up more by going down pages of the internet about medical shook and people dying from it. that did not help my heart rate. I couldn't stand, I couldnt see straight for a while.

I could not afford an ambulance or a hospital stay as i am uninsured and only ork 25 hours a week. not a lot of money.

All this happened and I didn't miss work. This is not a brag, this is me not being able to makegood choices for myself.

Finally, thanksgiving break hit. Thank fucking god. I WANTED to use those 4 days of absolutely nothing to get to my TWO BIG RESEARCH PAPERS I HADNT STRTED YET but alas, I was SICK. I was so sick, in fact, and so hoped up on cough medicine for 3 days i was incomprehensible.

I was so physically ill, i couldnt even think about how mentally ill i was. I slept and slept and slept. And by the time sunday hit, I felt so recharged.

My failed midterm was so bad and so not me my professsor reached out to me. Im close with him (in a v appropriate way lol, hes a bruce springsteen fan too) and i felt comfortable telling him essentially that for a few months there things were severe, and I really should've gone in for a 72 hour hold multiple times and i was not safe. through a few lines of resources, I ended up back in therapy bc my school added a new therapist that is a woman (i stopped going last year bc i didnt like seeing a man)

I like my new therapist.

Anway, in about 2 weeks I wrote 2 12 page research papers, 2 book report papers, 1 science paper did 2 presentations, took 2 finals, wrote 2 more finals with essay questions, and at the end of it all, not only did I not fail any classes...

I GOT ALL A'S AND B'S! Which means my gpa is still high enough to renew my scholarship for my last year

I am so fucking proud of myself for accomplishing all this despite suffering so fucking badly. I havnt felt pain like that in years, just agony.

I had a down turn again over christmas bc my siblings were literally ass, upto and including making fun of me for not ating (i am multiple accounts of sexual trauma from several people, so im scared of dating), making fun of my eating, and my sister slapping me and my older brother hitting me. Was a bad time. But for right now, im in the place im staying for break (all january) im back at my old day care and they love me, and olive garden at this store has been going great

Im hoping next semester to be better, im hopful at least

Anyway, thank you so much to everyone who has supported my writing has supported me through these times. It makes me happy that i came her to share my silly little moon knight x reader series, not really intending on writing a whole lot, but next thing i know, i have friends and a lil community. so thank you <3

[yourfavhoesblog]

Tsukishima x Bttm! Male reader

*college au + NSFW

YALL I ACCIDENTALLY CLICKED POST THAT WAS SO EMBARRASSING 😭😭

Pov Tsukishima and you both have finals coming up. So you both decide to study in the libary afterschool at the back behind the bookshelves however, some things got a bit messy...

The library was a quiet and comfortable place, with rows of bookshelves towering high above your head. The air was filled with the faint smell of old books, mixed with the faint fragrance of fresh coffee from the nearby cafe. You could hear the soft rustle of papers, as people whispered to one another as they worked on their studies. The atmosphere was peaceful, yet there was a sense of productivity in the air, as people came and went, working on their studies or discussing their work. This was a space where creativity could easily blossom and thrive

You sat in the library, surrounded by rows and rows of bookshelves. You had been focusing on studying for your upcoming exams, but your attention was now drawn to the sound of Tsukishima's voice, who was sitting next to you behind the bookshelves at the back.

"You're not going to pass this exam with those grades," he said with a shrug, his lips curling into a small smile. "If you don't shape up soon, I might have to start tutoring you."

You felt your face flush with embarrassment as Tsukishima continued to lecture you, but you couldn't argue with his assessment. Your grades in math had been slipping lately, and you knew you needed to do better.

"I know I've been slacking," you admitted, your voice lowers. "But I'll do whatever it takes to turn it around."

Tsukishima looked at you, his gaze intense. "Good," he said,

his voice softens."I expect to see some improvement by the next exam."

With that, he leaned towards your face.

"How about we make a deal for you to ace your tests?"

You seemed desperate at this point and needed some help or else your parents wouldve beat your ass if they found out that their son is slipping in grades after all his hardwork to get into collage.

"Ugh, fine what is it?"

Tsukishima glanced at your books.

"If your able to follow my orders until the test day, then ill help you study"

You smiled as you thought how bad could this be its a win win situation. But you were dead wrong

NSFW FROM THIS POINT.

Tsukishima held you still with his lengthy arm holding you tightly on your chair.

"Soo, whats the answer?"

You were trembling clinging onto him struggling to mutter a single word out.

"Mhmmm.. 1-12.6?"

"Wrong"

The blonde man caressed the base of your dick, making sure he doesnt touch the tip just yet.

You didnt feel satisfied you wanted something more then him rubbing your dick.

"If you wanna cum then tell me the right answer.

You squealed in response

"F-fine!"

You tried your best to ignore the tension between you and Tsukishima and the fact your squirming around in your chair trying to get rid of his tight grasp on your dick.

"456?"

You whimpered

"Correct"

You took a deep sigh letting go of his sweater.

"Let go of my dick, you perv"

Tsukishima gleamed a signature smirk.

"No i dont think i will, afterall you did answer it correctly so i should reward you"

Tsukishima looked down at your precum before entangling his fingers onto your cock. He pumped it up in a slow yet hard pace.

"Mhm Hah~"

All of a sudden he went even faster, pumping it at an unhuman pace.

"Next time, be a good boy and study. Or else i might punish you again"

With that your semen exploded onto his sweater and onto his finger. The tall man licked your fluids glancing at your messy state.

You couldnt really tell if it was a punishment or a reward.

[ovenstavern]

oh. my. goodness. its like 3am in my area and i just finished a nightlong binge on the manhwa, Secret Alliance by Creator Lero. if i had to put it into a genre, i’d say its a psychological thriller, and…

ho. ly. shit.

i was never a visual novel or “comics” person, but holy fuck. this blew me away. i discovered a tik tok about it, with the nutshell plot of “stalker crossdresses as a girl to stalk his object of attraction, who is afraid of men” and quickly gained an interest. but as i read further into the manhwa, it was so much more than that.

before i get into the details, i warn that the manhwa has dark topics such as stalking, obsession, attempted suicide, assault, sexual harassment, and trauma. the ramble (and spoilers) is gonna be below the cut. stay safe and healthy yall

okay. ho. ly. shit.

so, i don’t even know where to begin. the first few chapters introduce our main characters, eun sian and chae “yuri”. right off the bat, you quickly realize eun sian’s intense fear of men. you can already tell that she has some trauma with men, and as you continue to read, you find that her paranoid mother perpetuates and reinforces that fear; a helicopter parent to the extreme.

not only that, you can immediately detect that something isnt quite right with chae yuri (even before it was revealed he was a guy).

i dont really wanna explain the whole story in its entirety, as i believe its a story best experienced. but what i will go into is the amount of love that was poured into this story. it still astounds me

the characters are complex, and their personalities and actions are deeply rooted in the trauma that they went through. eun sian and chae yuri’s relationship is so toxic and wrought with manipulation and co-dependent, and it was written so well. it beautifully illustrates how two people that come from two different, but toxic households often can find themselves in a toxic relationship for the both of them, as they have no other reference for love.

and speaking of relationships, yujin’s and eun sian’s relationship makes me want to squeal and giggle and they’re just so cute!! i loveee at the beginning, yujin subverts our expectations and ends up being a playboy who loves the feeling of being wanted. it gives him sm room for development, and makes his relationship with eun sian so much sweeter.

yujin and eun sian make a deal that he helps her get over her fear of men, while eun sian helps yunjin get together with chae yuri. in the earliest stages of their relationship, you can tell that yujin was able to ground eun sian and reassure her when needed. even beneath his playboy exterior, his caring nature shone through, especially for her. meanwhile, eun sian makes yujin want to be better for her (and if you seen a very old post, you know how i feel about that). i loved their friendship at the beginning, and i loved their romance at the end. they’re so healthy for each other and im glad they got together in the end

and speaking of the ending?????? sjdkdndkddjjdksjdsknsnz. i loved it so. much. it was just so fulfilling. i won’t spoil it, but it touched my soul to its very core, and i couldnt think of a more satisfying note to leave it off of.

the depiction of trauma felt very realistic and well written too. eun sian’s breakdowns felt so well done, and not once did it feel like the story was calling her “crazy” or “hysterical” even if other characters told her that she was. and actually, all the relationships felt so realistic, its astounding.

and the character development was so… empowering. it was amazing to watch the moments eun sian take back the parts of herself that her abusers took, it was amazing to watch yujin transform from a playboy to a golden retriever boyfriend. i just… love love love!!

i do wish they delved into yujin’s backstory a lil more, gave hyunee (the best friend) a more influential role, and did some more with yunjin’s blackmail when he found out about chae yuri, but all in all, i loved it. i started reading at 11, and kept reading til 3. its an absolute page turner, and extreme kudos to the artist(s) and writer(s)! you have my respect

to those who want to read it, the sites i read the manhwa either has a subscription service, or an insane amount of porn ads and porn pop up browser tabs. just for viewer discretion. if it sounds like yall can deal, please read! you won’t regret it. ill definitely be revisiting this manhwa again and again. its that good

have a wonderful day yall! im finally gonna get some sleep

[girlipedee]

note to past acquaintances/friends

(writing this knowing no one included would ever know)

since about highschool or so ive had alot of people in my life, friends, classmates, ect that ive had some sort of problem with at one point or so, either from them to me or from me to them, ive burned alot of bridges with people when i had been most vulnerable. so i am forgiving past bullies and all that aswell as apologizing to them and others. ive moved on alot in my life and am doing amazing now with minor hiccups, ive grown enough where i feel i should address lingering tensions with people ive known (either people i still may see/end up talking to or people ive not seen in years and will never see again) i would like to say that anyone i really remember being negative to me or anything ive forgiven at this point and i really cant blame anyone? at the time i didnt understand being bullied but i hope those people are doing great in life now, few mentions, in my alternative highschool there was a kid that would stab me with pens,ect and throw text books at me or dump stuff on me for being trans and sticking up for a gay friend he was being homophobic to, i realized he must of had other problems which he needed help with and probably didnt receive, i did try to be nice alot back then but he still would be mean probably since its hard to reciprocate that and probably felt he couldnt be vulnerable or it was a bad thing, hope you are doing good dude also ill never get over that you could tell i was trans before i admitted it finally, best luck!!. there was a few others i cant really remember as much from that year i hope yall are good too. moving on to when i went back to public school before covid there was a few people i remember aswell but during covid at the start when i came out my friend group kinda freaked a bit and started avoiding me and saying weird stuff including a childhood friend, ive got no idea what they have been up to as ive not seen them even online since then, the others i see around sometimes one i see alot irl but ive walked past him and he has no idea its me at this point but he also didnt really say anything and was more of a bystander, but i wish you all good luck too, the last one i know you were going to school aswell as doing music stuff (also played drums on a handful of my songs) i hope thats good and i see you still have the car you loved driving around. past that friend group were a handful of people i met through my girlfriends circles, there were a handful of people that were just fake and transphobic but ive not seen any of them in ages too or even online but i forgive yall aswell an i know one of you actually came out as trans too after we had been hanging out a few times, i hope you are doing good dude, last friend group that fell out ive not seen since, there was someone who we had fallen out with mostly by me and i had smashed one of their guitars they gave me/ let me borrow, ive not seen you in a bit but i hope you are alright ive heard its been tough according to people that had known you and you didnt deserve any of that, if i ever have money or make it big lol ill buy you a new tele either like what you had or something if we ever talk again, also the post that got you kicked from school as a threat, we never reported you i knew it was just one of those edgy jokes and i tired to tell others we knew at the time but i know others reported it, youve said some weird stuff to be edgy and done some very questionable things but atleast i hope you are doing good anyways i cant be mad anymore its been like two years and i shouldnt hold a grudge personally but i can still have opinions about other things youve done to others, it just doesnt feel right to "hate" you over that anymore. a girl we were friends with after had made not the best comments and got upset when we had tried to say it made us uncomfortable as friends since it was negative and included us indirectly, im not mad at you and when that happened we weren't mad or anything and were just trying to help thinking you would understand and not take it personally at all,

[regina-cordium]

me? responding to a post i got tagged in? wild!

got tagged by @renninflight

Rules: always post the rules. answer the questions the person who tagged you has written and write eleven new ones. tag 11 new people and link them to your post. let them know you’ve tagged them

except. i never know who to tag for these. if u see this tagged ur it. ill put questions at the end

under cut, because as yall know im a Yapper

What's your favorite band/musician? (And tell me why! And if you've seen them live!)

I'm a Hozier girlie thru and thru. he was in boston in march AND HAD NOAH KAHN AND I COULDNT GO AND IM STILL SO DISAPPOINTED. A N D HE WAS AT BOSTON CALLING AND I C O U L D N ' T G O auuuuugh

What's something you're proud of?

i dont mean this in, like, a self deprecating way. but i honestly dont know what to say. i got dean's list a couple times in college. i won some kinda award and now my name is on a plaque in the english department, thats kinda dope (i, to this day, have no idea what it was for)

What's something you like about yourself?

i do tell my parents they overestimate how smart i am, but i will say i am p good with trivia/knowing random things. nothing better than getting most of a jeopardy board right (<- needs to go outside more)

What's something you would like to do, if money weren't an obstacle?

i would literally never leave school. i love learning things (see above)

What's something you do when you're anxious or stressed to calm down and relax?

listen to music, sometimes Very Loudly

Do you have a favorite author? (If so, who?)

im totally blanking, but i dont really think so? theres not really an author that i see and immediately go "oh i gotta read ALL of their stuff RIGHT NOW" yknow?

Do you have a favorite poet? (If so, who?)

emily dickinson. yes, i am gay, how'd you know?

Do you have a favorite artist? (You can probably guess the rest of this question!)

van gogh!!!!!!! i know its such a basic bitch answer, but i L O V E the impressionists

What's a movie or TV show that had a big impact on you? (Could be something you watched growing up, a movie you saw recently that made you emotional, something you've seen a lot, something you quote with friends and family, etc)

i would watch beauty and the beast on vhs CONSTANTLY growing up. tv show wise, definitely buffy and angel and charmed. watched them with ma growing up and they have absolutely shaped my interests since then. also, and i swear im not being sarcastic, supernatural. ma and i watched every goddamn episode together since the pilot and look at me now.

What's something you wish you could forget? (Could be something personal, or it could just be a gross or weird fact)

not to get Very Fucking Morbid, but my dad almost died when i was 12 and i'd super love to forget that, actually

What's something you'd like to change about the world?

I Cannot Emphasize Enough That You Should Care About Other People

okay here're my questions. if u got this far, u are doubly tagged. idk i never know who to tag.

Song you've had on repeat lately?

Favorite play/musical (or both!)?

Book/movie/show you think somebody should read/watch to understand you better?

What's your favorite poem?

What's immediately to your left?

Favorite dessert?

Somewhere you'd love to travel, if money/accommodations were no issue?

Tv show currently/last watched?

Do you think aliens are real?

Do you think ghosts are real?

Do you have overly specific requirements for a room when you're trying to sleep?

[cashmoneyyysstuff]

i’m thinking about starting my own fanfic page but i’m a musician and singer-songwriter so that’s the only experience i have in writing besides essays. i feel like i’ll get the hang of it tho 😭 any tips when it comes to starting off my page tho bc it really seems like something id be interested in since i love being creative and making up stuff lol, i just dk how to start with posts

hi ! super flattered you asked me for advice but bro,, when i tell you you really don't need any experience, just do it do it !!!!

when it came to starting up my page i didn't rlly do much because i figured nobody would even rlly bat an eye😭 mind you i started writing in november of 23 if im not wrong, but i had been on tumblr for yeaaaaaars before that, and i just randomly decided to slowly start posting stuff i thought and liked and BOOM!! few months later and honestly i couldn't be more thankful for the ppl who follow me cus what yall following lil ole me fa ????🤧💗

the best piece of advice i can give you just have fun with it ! thats what i do and im doin pretty alright ! theres no real way to start up your blog in my experience, i think im just very lucky that im okay enough at writing, but i think its better that i like doing it ! so honestly just pick a topic/ character (s) you enjoy writing for and go to town ! m'sure it'll work out for you !!

im so sorry i couldnt give you any more concrete tips :((( but i hope they still help out a lil bit, good luck on your writing journey !!!

much luv xxx