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rules: post the first lines of your 10 most recently published AO3 stories. if you have less than 10 fics posted, post the first lines of all your fics.
I was not tagged in this at all but everyone is doing it and I’m having intense FOMO so now I’m doing it too.
i can’t let go when something’s broken (it’s all i know and it’s all i want now) (T, WIP, 4/5)
Steve Harrington wakes up like he does every day, alone in his big bed with fluffy white sheets, weak sunlight streaming through the blinds on his windows.
it’s christmas (this is gonna be a nightmare) (T, Complete, 1/1)
Steve hears keys jingling in the lock at the front door. He’s sitting in the living room, staring at the blank screen of his laptop.
it had to be you. (M, WIP, 3/7)
“Steve, don’t be like that,” Dustin says, sighing. “Just… be cool, okay? He’s a cool dude.”
oh my, love is a lie (shit my friends say to get me by) (M, WIP, 1/4)
Steve’s not sure how he allowed himself to be talked into throwing a party for a bunch of stray undergrads, but that’s exactly what’s happened.
when i don’t touch you it’s a mistake in any life, in each place and forever. (M, Complete, 12/12)
Eddie feels pain. Burning, slicing pain. His hands are sticky, wet. He tries to lift his arm, but can’t. His limbs are made of cement, buried in sand.
i make up things that i would never say (i say them very quietly) (M, Complete, 1/1)
“So what do you think?” Eddie lifts his gaze from his guitar to look at where Steve is lounging across Eddie’s unmade bed. Steve takes a hit from the joint they’re sharing, exhales, then leans forward to place the joint between Eddie’s lips before responding.
sorry about the blood in your mouth (i wish it was mine) (M, Complete, 10/10
Eddie Munson learned, when he was twenty years old, that monsters were real.
i'm such a fool for you (you got me wrapped around your finger) (T, Complete, 1/1)
“So…” Steve starts, then trails off. He’s in the driver’s seat of his car parked outside Family Video, Robin next to him in the passenger’s seat. They’ve just closed the store for the night and Robin’s pulled down the visor to reapply her mascara before Steve drops her off at some band geek party. He clears his throat. “So I think I might have, like, a stupid massive dumb crush.” Robin doesn’t even look over at him. “On Eddie.”
i swear that i'm not thinkin’ ‘bout you all the time (just today, yesterday, everyday, and tomorrow night) (T, Complete, 1/1)
There was infinite darkness and then, suddenly, there was an immense amount of pain.
#ok I did more than the first sentence#technically it says first line so#what I've learned is I'm terrible at first lines lol wow no hook whatsoever#oh well#steddie#steddie fic#steddie fics#tag game#tag game that I was not tagged in lololololol#if u want to do this take this as ur sign and just do it!
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Jason only resorts to his emergency signal when he's 0.1 seconds away from death and only when he's 100% reaching raw desperation levels of survival
BUT he also uses it when he's faced with the most mild of inconveniences, so the batfam are always stressed when they get his panic signal because is he about to fucking die or was he just locked out of the family Netflix account?
And obviously they can't take ANY chances, so it's always a 50/50 on whether the night ends with the fam huddled in the medbay of the cave, or whether all of them are fully costumed, weapons sharpened and ready to throw hands in Jason's apartment and Jason's just casually lounging on his couch like "Oh hey guys, I'm out of flour, can one of you run to get some?" with the most annoying shit-eating grin you've ever seen.
#imagine being a gothamite and watching each and every one of the batfamily single file entering and exiting a random flat#and batman's just fucking lugging 5 bags of flour like the world's fate is dependent on the delivery of those 5 bags of flour#ofc he only pulls the joke emergency signal when he KNOWS the fam have their own plans at that exact moment.#just to mildy annoy them#tim: i had a DATE and i dropped EVERYTHING to save your ass#and ur tellin me u just wanted someone to hold a flashlight while you repair your SINK??#jason: so what im hearin is that your date is more important than your poor dead brother? i see how it is.#this is just jason's way of spending time with his family because he's too shy to just ask upfront#bruce might seem annoyed but deep down he's always glad jason is doing well and takes it as a sign that Jason just wants to see them#jason todd#red hood#batman#bruce wayne#batfam#batfamily#batkids#batbros#dc#crack#fanatical posting
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Has Raven/Jersey ever broken a bone?
alright, *cracks knuckles*
this one goes out to sickfic princess ana and whumpwhiz rp.
*blows a kiss to the heavens bc they're angels* MWAH!
but aaaaany-knee-ways:
...it's interesting, actually.
( or at least, it is to me, darling. )
because of how he's written, you'd think probably think, 'oh, but nina! jerseykyle gets in all these fights. he's all big and tough and strong! he prolly breaks bones all the time!" and that's precisely IT, my dear!
jersey breaks bones;
he does not get his bones broken.
EVER.
and i suppose that's because he is a seasoned fighter. ergo, he knows how to throw a wicked punch, where exactly on your body it will hurt or humiliate you the most -- probably a combination of the two if he's feeling particularly pissed that day ( everyday ) -- how many times to do it, where you're vulnerable, sees everyone as a possible adversary and thus, weaponizes the moment he sees you, surveys you, sizes you up, indicates what kind of threat you are and…
Promptly Neutralizes You.
he takes all these precautions, runs all these tedious, elaborate tests and intense, premeditated processes of elimination ( literally ), not just because he does not like losing, which he doesn't...but because he literally can't. simply put: he does not know how to lose or get hit.
see, jersey does not cope with pain very well. mentally or physically. that's why he inflicts pain, because he is secretly scared of feeling it.
on the outside, he is a harsh, frightening, impenetrable, menacing thing covered in barbs and wires and armed heavily, because on the inside he is extremely fragile and should even the smallest chink in his armor form, his entire fierce façade will shatter into smithereens.
he does not like to get hurt, to feel weak, to feel unpleasant and horrible things, so he does everything in his power to be powerful so that he will never feel powerless. it's why he learned how to fight, it wasn't to hit people, it was to avoid being hit by other people. it was a defense mechanism because of how often he got bullied and how weak he constantly was from swimming out against the current of all his chronic illnesses. a lot of people would just let go of that short stick that life gave them and drown, but not kyle. not my baby. no, his life belongs to him. so he sharpened that stick into the shiv...
stuck it straight through the gut of life,
— and made god beg for HIS mercy.
but yes, it's all a perfectly placed show. because my boy, scary and frightening as he may be swinging those freckled fists of fury...
is a fucking WUSS.
who has not broken a lot of bones actually! not his anyways! because when he does lose a fight, he is a sore fucking loser indeed because he's suddenly hit with all this pain that he does not know how to endure or deal with and literally is such a baby and a princess, omg.
i /swear/ that WHOLE divorce whumpshot para and the one of him barfighting is him acting really tough and cool, but hes really like hooly shit, this sucks so fkn Bad, i hate this, i want my mOM!! :'(
riiiiiiiiiip, lmaooooo.
spoiler alert: jersey kyle is dainty and spoiled. he is a champion complainer and if gets a papercut...
you will hear about it.
trust.
conversely, however...lead singer ravenstan,
is very Quiet about pain.
ravenstan knows pain like the back of his hands, he, unfortunately, has had hands on him his entire life and where kyle learned to kick and claw and bite, stan just...internalized and endured all that pain.
he isn't brutal or vicious, he is kind and forgiving, he does not hurt things even if they are hurting him and has been hurt so much that being hurt is as easy as breathing to him…which is horrible because he has asthma and a lot of smoke-related respiratory damage.
but yeah, i actually ( god, i love you ravenstan ) want to scream because where jersey is hard outside and soft inside, raven is soft outside and hard inside and is extremely good at being hurt, ( a child weaned on pain thinks hurt is a comfort, rip ), will take pretty much anything you throw at him and because he literally does not want to inconvenience you...will not even indicate that he's hurt to you.
like he is very passionate about protecting and taking care of other people, but he does not care at all about himself or what happens to him, so if you're hurt, he is on his hands and knees, comforting you, placating you, doing whatever he can to help you...and he might have three bullets in his back, you wouldn't know until he started bleeding through his clothes and fell over. that man is a fucking TANK, guys.
the universe has tried to kill ravenstan...several tries.
( suicide tw, he has also tried a couple times </3 )
no such luck.
it helps that he actually has a surprising amount of off-hand medical knowledge because sharon transferred a lot of it onto him during stan's childhood when she was patching him up because he was a fkn disaster child who tracked mud and blood into her house 25/8, spent three days in a tree and took a hockey puck to the face.
i genuinely think that a large part of why stan was able to survive and endure a lot of the horrors he had was because sharon scolding him in spanish and teaching him stuff literally saved his fucking life.
but yeah, ravenstan is my selfless, accident prone king. he is such a mess, pilots his body so carelessly that it is legitimately frightening. he is constantly covered in bruises he doesn't remember getting, scratches he didn't even notice, does dumb shit and gets hurt and like literally can’t tell he's hurt until he is like abt to pass out.
tldr: rave gets hurt often and has broken a lot of bones.
usually because he's doing stupid, heroic shit.
for example, i am not sure how it got broken, i like to think it was at a concert or an event and he SAVED SOMEONE from something falling or what have you and broke the fuck out of his arm. so his arm was in a cast ( i need it to be hot pink ) and he was super bummed out and felt hella bad because he had a meet and greet and couldn't sign autographs so he just let everyone else...
give him Their autograph instead.
so no one got a personally signed picture of raven of crimson dawn, but much cooler, imo, was that they all personally signed his cast.
my eyes are leaking, lmao. branch in my eyeeee. ;-;
gods...sweet...sweet angel. uGh.
THIS IS SO LONG, BUT I HOPE THIS ANSWERS YOUR QUESTION! idk why i got so invested in this, omg, but thank you for asking and being curious and thank you all for being so lovely and asking me things. it means a lot to me that you care and know i adore you.
-uncle nina, jerseykyle inflictor of angst pain
( and major wuss ) >.>
#sorry idk why i just decided to go the hell off#i hope this makes sense#can u tell my writer girl brain likes to make u think something#and then do the opposite#or like have my love interests foil each other#and do opposites attract things#idk its very delicious to me i'm sorry i hope it tastes good to you i hope this was the answer that you wanted haha#but no believe it or not baby...jerseykyle do not be getting hurt because he really cant like he is fucking BABY#he is so baby like in my para he is being such a baby like if he gets a splinter he is going to be so annoying about it#but sweet ravenstanley marsh is always hurt and autopilots hurt and so he doesnt fear pain bc he just...is pain idk#and is so clumsy goddamn like oh my god that man is always getting hurt kyle is actually constantly fussing over him#and he is like i am fine i am good like stan u have to take your inhaler and ur meds and you didnt tie ur freaking docs#and u almost ate shit n cracked ur head open on the cabinet#ravenstan vc like BUT DID I DIE!!! BUT DID I DIE THO#smhhhhhhh everyone signing his cast was v cute tho i love him like he really is the peoples punk rock prince hes a qt#idk one day ill figure out sharon's backstory one day but stan did inherit all his gentle healing energies from her ily rm!sharon
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So after our ermmmmm turbulent first relationship-turned-situationship of 2 years w our ex highschool best friend our longest lasting relationship is <24hrs total and still managed to end w the person saying I'm terrible???? Fuck.
Tough thing is, I did my damn best but every time I explain this shit it'll ALWAYS sound like I'm leaving something out that I did wrong; but I was always the one apologizing even growing up I always had to apologize, is there just something about me that makes my actions more severe? Why do I have to feel guilty over people who never cared to actually know me? Did I not work hard enough to be "known"? I only ever wanted to see them happy and I thought I expressed that.
Why do people think that it's ok to try and gaslight me just so they don't have to admit fault? I know she blocked me and I said I respected that, only for her to try to tell me that I didn't care. Well I admit fault when it's mine, but the minute I ask the same of the other person they just act like I want to be "right." Well am I wrong for wanting to be CONSIDERED? For wanting my perspective acknowledged the way I take theirs into account?
Plenty of people find others that care for them like that. Why do people stop caring about what I need just because I act independent? I don't even ask for much. I had to stop myself from asking for "basic kindness" when she asked me what I wanted in a partner at the risk of sounding pathetic, but I guess I don't even get that. I just upset motherfuckers one way or another, I don't even have to do anything but be myself.
Is it something you really do earn? Something I have yet to lower myself to deserve? I want someone to be fucking honest with me, allow me to be honest as well, and not abandon me for it. Someone needs to tell me what the fuck I'm doing wrong. Is everyone I'm close with just going to freak out and run the other way the SECOND I mess up, just because I normally don't? Because I try so hard not to, I'm just expected not to? Not an ounce or effort of forgiveness that makes me give people chance after chance even when they hurt me?
Don't lie about me.
It's ok for everyone else but not for me.
Why? Hey,
why can't I just get it right?
#vent#i guess#tagging in case ppl don't want to see that shit but I'm rlly all right#just confused out of my mind#like this girl i met up w blocked ME from texting#only to come insult me a week later#after i told her I was ok with her decision just confused#like why even pick a fight#if i didn't deserve that why did it happen (terrible mindset to have but I'm 21 a whole adult i shouldn't have even tried to start#a relationship with her but i did i just idk if I didn't want a partner i wouldn't have)#I don want it to happen again#we just miss having that person we could or thought we could trust w anything#we wanted to build that again idk#she shoulda just left me blocked why come back to blalme me when i tried so hard#blitz helluva boss irl speedrun any % (kill us nowwwww /j)#i think were gonna take a look at in-system relationships for now i cannot do this lmao#we're gonna bounce back quick it's just a WEIRD FUCKIN SITUATION#but like. lore idk here you go#LORE LMAO UR SO MELODRAMATIC#<---- me @ me#except “i” never liked her so get owned chez#i don't have to sign off shit what r u a cop
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I had the worst dream last night that I had had a daughter at some point in the recent past and of necessity gave her up (I am far from the financial situation for raising a child and I don't even have the support of a partner, so that part is realistic). And I was just so wracked with guilt because I didn't even remember her name or who she was living with now. I felt so inadequate as a human being for not being involved in my child's life. And if I had to guess I had this dream because I was thinking a lot about abortion rights yesterday and how frankly they alone should be enough of a reason to go out and vote against Republicans. Like if you can't take a stand against people who are pro-forced birth, I don't wanna hear any excuse about it at all. It's some out-of-touch nonsense which reeks or either ignorance or privilege. Because if that were your own trauma-preventing medical procedure being legislated away, would you just let others get away with it being low on their list of priorities? Would you feel like those people still care about you or are your allies? The pro-life camp actively ignores cases where abortion is necessary to save the life of the pregnant person and/or the fetus has no chance of surviving to be born. They also constantly act like you can "just" put your child up for adoption, which to me is a much more terrifying and guilt-inducing idea than terminating a pregnancy. Idk. I just feel like family planning is as essential a human right as any other and yet it's constantly demonized on the right and still somehow trivialized as a "women's issue" from the center and left, from people who don't feel "personally affected"
#i can't stress enough that no medical procedure should ever be on the desk of any politician ever#it makes me incredibly heartbroken because it's a basic human right#if someone cannot or is not willing to be pregnant they should never ever ever have to justify that#or go through the humiliation of proving themselves THE EXCEPTION to a fundamentally unjust law.#abortion cw#probably should've put that sooner my bad#also when i say it comes from ignorance or privilege im not saying it's only amab people#who trivialize abortion rights as an issue. often a lot of ppl w uteruses just sincerely cannot or do not#picture themselves in the dire situation of a pregnancy they cannot bring to term.#again it just makes me want to cry because it's just so personal for people who have to go through it#a lot of ppl about a lot of things just think 'oh itll never happen to me' and adjust their apathy accordingly#(not to get sidetracked but that attitude drove me INSANE in the covid era)#but at the same time regardless of how unenthused some ppl w uteruses are about abortion access#the fact it's a political issue at all is still a sign we live in a (cis) patriarchy#but again a lot of ppl who are hypothetically my allies are quite milquetoast w their feminism#i most likely have been ruminating on this topic bc it's a big concern in my governor's race right now#(kelly ayotte is very much not pro choice no matter what she pretends)#but i also did see some nonsense 'dont vote' take recently that was like 'blah blah blah if u can't give up access to ur abortion rights#ur being selfish blah blah blah' im trying not to make a bigger deal of one nonsense person than i should#and blow that person out of proportion in their significance but jesus. what a ghoulish and evil thing to say
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ABOVE ALL THINGS
SUFFERING,
GLORIFIED
#one of my fave shirts#went to a park today and it was so nice!#finished shooting my first roll of film <3#lyrics are from an unreleased song 'in hell there are no hands'#i want to start uploading more of my photography#i think i overdid it today#i'm in a lot more pain now#it was so fun though#such a nice day#my brain is scrambled so just imagine these things all connect together lol#me#did i ever make an outfit tag#i don't remember#oh well#southern gothic#the urge to tag in the modest fashion tags to start to filter out the terfs but also not wanting terfs to interact lol#big sign like !!! QUEER FORMER SEX WORKER I DRESS THIS WAY TO SPITE GOD NOT PLEASE HIM !!!#lmao#modest fashion#modest dress#if u dress modest and ur not a terf /swerf hiiiiii <3#and just for the record i don't think dressing modestly for religious reasons is bad#far from it i think it's great do what you want & what you feel called to#i just think the idea that there's a moral biological imperative for ALL people/afab/women/etc is shitty to enforce#yk?#anyway these tags got away from me lol#i need to take a nap
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HI HI MAC. I JUST WATCHED THE NEW GEMINI VIDEO (was going 2 watch it this morning but i forgor 💀) HOLYYYY SHIT i am so creeped out EAUGH it was so good. creepy faces fuck me up AUGHHH. many thoughts head full. also i apparently love drawing characters as teru vash plush bc i started drawing teru vash and then realized oh iam just. drawing patton. so then i drew el woowoo 2 keep him company!! holds out my hands and places these guys in ur palm <3
OH FUCK LITTLE GUYS...... ohbtheyre so perfect. squeezing them like stress balls. <3333
UGH THE GEMINI HOME VIDEO. GOD. I KNOW. i rewatched it like 3 times this morning. that bit after it says the deal is broken with the body that gets progressively more shriveled up made me feel soooo fucking crawly. also the comeback of the jack dialogue. fuck yes. jack do you see me... i have become something else... im still in here dont leave me you bastards..... god that bit was so cool. the face jn the window at the end was what absolutely broke me last night tho like holy fuck thay shit gets me so bad
#patton doing the little.... dog peace sign pose. hell yes#i want to shove patton in vash in the same room for like 3 hours and see what happens . theyd fucking break down i think#BACK TO GHE THO LIKE. UGHRGGHH. THE MOUTH MOVING. THE SILENCE. IT FUCKS ME UP#reminded me of the bit a few episodes ago where they find the deep root disease victim in their house and its just like.#an exposed nervous system sitting in a chair. and they get closer and the eye moves.#like thays the kind of shit that freezes me to my BONES. makes all the blood drain out of my face. u know. its so freaky#ITS THE SAME REASON WHY AMIGARA FAULT GETS ME SO BAD. SMTH THAT USED TO BE HUMAN SHAPED GETTING ALL STRETCHED OUT AND CONTORTED AND WEIRD.#FUCKED UP#I LOVE IT#ghe is soooo fucking good dude#asks#friends!!!#anachronistic-falsehood#hows ur night whiskey i hope ur night is good. i love ur art so much its sooo cute#im like. dying for my vash plushie to come in the mail. i wanna caryy him around in my comfot backpack.#i wanna take him on vacation with me and show him the ocean.#theyre supposed 2 be like. either manufactured or shipped in june right????????#it would b a MIRACLE if vash plushie showed up before my birthday. epic present 4 me#we ordered from the same website ri ght???? did u get urs from meccha japan.#i dont remember what the shipping details said and i cannot find them without signing in or making an account smh#anyway. i am rabling. i want vash plushie#hi
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wip wednesday :D
tagged by @mrs-theirin; tysm quill!! tagging @arklay @steelport @aartyom @malefiicarum @rosebarsoap @kirnet @shadowglens @narshadda @lavinet @druidgroves @swordcoasts @calenhads @brujah @nuclearstorms @florbelles @shepardgf @devilbrakers @jillvalcntines @morvaris @kymal @risingsh0t @solasan @lvllns @rosykims @aelyosos and you!!!!
have a depressing oddly interpreted take on the taint affecting alistair and rowena ��
The taint came for his hands first.
A side effect of days spent clutching a sword and shield no doubt. His veins went fast, running black and blue overnight. He didn't like looking at them, but Rowena traced them over every night. Hardened bones were next. Protruding metacarpals and thinned knuckles and a noticeable creak in the mornings. Then the pain began. The ache. Days where his joints stiffened to stone, where a grasp clenched too tight refused to come undone, where splaying fingers to their fullest extent proved too much.
Rowena often caught him staring at his hands in the corner of her eye. Busy hands, curious hands, hands made to fidget and gesture and move above all else, now immobile. His worry token went untouched for months, as did many of the things he loved to hold. Flowers in the garden. The mabari's paws. Rowena.
There was a time when Alistair couldn't keep his hands off of her. Affection of the physical kind was a bright and shiny concept and it took time for him to adjust. Rowena could touch him anywhere, after all. It came easy to her, the affection, the initiation. His cheek, his chin, his collarbone--anywhere would do. Eventually, he came to reciprocate. Tentatively at first, as if asking for permission, but confidence came with the security of her affection. Touch became a comfort. A hand around her waist, on her jaw, in her hair. Anywhere would do.
It couldn't have been more different now. He shied away when she reached for his arm to hold, twitched when she kissed his neck in the mornings. Evening baths became sparser until they no longer existed at all, and this Rowena could hardly bear--facing this truth that the old rituals had died, so she clung to the last of them.
No amount of massage relieved the pain, but Rowena would be damned if she didn't try. Nightly, he let her take his hands in her own.
It was a relief each time to see that despite the Taint, Alistair's hands were still his own, broad and square-fingered and devastatingly gentle. Calloused on the underside and scarred by his earliest days with a blade, too young and eager to know any better. And those nights by the firelight, nights where she took his palm in her hands and massaged the ache away, she could see that Alistair's hands were still freckled, just barely. The sun could still shine on him and leave honeyed kisses against his skin and this was one thing the taint could never take. No darkspawn could take the sun.
The night she realized this, she wept silently. She'd stopped him before he could speak, pressed his freckled hand to her cheek before he could pull away, and whispered, "Bathe with me."
Months later, the taint came for her.
For Rowena, it was her vision and it was swift. [reduntant fix this queen lol]
#in my universe the taint wastes away the physical thing you rely on the most#eventually everything is corrupted but it's always your most used ability first#so chronic pain takes alistair's hands and near blindness comes for rowena#spoiler alert unless in da4 they somehow resolve the cure for the calling rowena dies first <3 teehee#SO anyways alistair becomes a lil distant not because he's like. being cold with her. but because like#the insecurity of touch returned. the hesitation. asking if this is okay because of the unspoken recognition that the end is on its way#and he really doesn't know how to deal with that. never knew how to prepare for that#when he cups her face and sees the darkened veins on his wrists and all he can think of is how they can't have this for much longer#that's just!! a lot to handle!! and he needs the reassurance but doesn't know how to communicate it because he lost the ability to ask#aka touch#the bathing part is especially difficult bc ofc evidence of the taint's corruption had spread beyond his hands atp#and he'd have to bare his whole body in front of her and that's like. so vulnerable. when ur dealing w all that#this is probably rlly obvious but sjhdjhfhdjfhjd#i like having aging being a significantly important thing in alistair and rowena’s relationship#the tragedy of it all#how gaining weight and wrinkles is so bittersweet#because on one hand they’re growing old together and god can u believe they made it here#but on the other it’s the telltale sign the calling is nearing and it’s just like#okay how much time do we have left. how much time do we have left. how much time do we have left.#how can we enjoy what we have when we want so much more. gray hair and children and arthritis. we’re so weary and we’re so young.#tag game#writing*#x: a soft epilogue#ch: rowena cousland
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deleted my twitter app (not account) bc i really can’t handle the intense no-nuance high-stakes takes right now. not that here is all that much better but it’s definitely less of a time sink
#i just.#ok.#i just think if ur gonna go scorched earth on prioritizing high minded ideals over outcomes ur not actually as morally pure as u think u r#and I also think if ur gonna do that u gotta say with ur CHEST the collateral damage you’ll sign onto#both by abstaining from concrete action now and by destroying infrastructure in the name of a brighter future#im not even gonna tell you ur wrong. but i want you to say who u think is worth sacrificing#i have awful news for you the folks who don’t make it thru the revolution are very rarely the rich and healthy and connected#it’s gonna be folks who are desperate enough to fight and folks who can’t handle more instability.#poor folks. sick folks. disabled folks. disenfranchised folks. unhoused folks.#you think you can build a functioning mutual aid network from scratch during a revolution serving tens of millions?#i know it’s a nice thought that the failures of US welfare programs are Just Capitalism. and that’s a huge chunk#but it’s also because IT IS DIFFICULT. and that’s WITH billions of dollars and a chokehold on the global supply chain#im not saying any of the options are good. but when u call for revolution u gotta acknowledge ur stealing from today for tomorrow#and look hard at the folks who stand to lose the most. say you’re fine with martyring them - whether or not they agree#I’ve got myself all worked up now and i wanna post about it. to maybe share some god damn perspective.#things are bad! things are not good. unsustainable trends abound. but wow for all ur whining online#about how everyone needs to know EVERYTHING about ALL ISSUES in EVERY CONFLICT or else you are EVIL#ur missing the forest for the trees my dude. takes are easy - policy is hard#get fucked. don’t get people killed.
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temptation, lust, freedom
#stream#yes i saw a dont feed the bird sign#but what’s it going to do ? swat at me ? no#i love pigeons so much#ALSKALKSLAKSLAKSLAKS i was on a date & i was taking these photos#anyway#i smoked weed literally 2x today: when i woke up & when he left#he’s so hot but he’s so weird#he’s just spanish#but he’s sooooo EASY to annoy ALSKALSKLAKSLAKSLAKSLA#i tease him like my bestie#also i was grabbing his ass the entire time like fully on the pier#AKSKALSKLAKSLAKSLAKSLAKSLA i was putting his water bottle in his back pocket bc i was carrying it (so i could feel his ass) & then he was#like WOW ur not even carrying it 🙄 but then i was like no it was bc i wanted to grope u ALSKALSKALKSLAKSLASLA#then i just continued to do it & it was phenomenal#he was like ‘are u just obsessed w ass’ like … yea ?#ALSKAKSKAKKSLAKSLAKSLAKAL#WHATS WRONG W THAT
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i wish i was using my ipad for actual fic writing but i’ve been doing psych notes since yesterday 😭
#signed rye#dont get me wrong i love what i study but we havent even started the chapters yet and some part of me wants to be prepared so bad#somehow it’s easier for me to take notes from a pdf textbook rather than a physical one#if ur reading the tags let me know what you do to study or what you listen to when u take notes#im currently listening to the tlou2 soundtrack because it’s just so calming and i love the instrumentals
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#sometimes u just gotta have a cringe fail weekend. is what i tell myself bc i let the fact that i forgot to check my new#email completely obliterate me. also i haven't been sleeping enough. also just the normal thoughts in my head#by which i mean the part of my brain that demands consequences for inattention by means of suffering. devine punishment.#which is irrational and annoying but knowing that doesnt seem to help. so ive just been laying here in the hopes i come unspooled and start#to disintegrate. which is annoying bc ive got stuff to do#specifically bc i am supposed to b a TA this semester. which is what i figured but also feared#so. thats gonna b a lot. tho not as much as my old school bc they dont make TAs do literally everything here apparently#but. itll b a lot. and also i have to finish signing up for classes. bc i didnt do that back in April by my brain was melting. also i have#to keep doing my job and dealing with my data. ugh. well. being a TA isnt so bad. i do like to help ppl learn even if im not very good at it#like. i struggle with thr talking to ppl part. like the transition of ny thoughts to something thst makes sense#oh well. hope i end up teaching something im not too unqualified for. i could do soils. Ecology. uhhh. maybe intro bio but i never even took#university level biology. i just skipped upper level courses. that's probably it. anything else would b a lotta faking it#ugh. im tired. i should go to sleep at 9pm. thr sun hasbt even set and i should sleep#tomorrow i have to get my shit together. but also i wanna email my new professor like hey bro like what do u want me to do???#like how do i start in this lab? when do we start talking. like just not to b pushy but whats thr procedure?#i like Structure but also its like weeks until the semester starts so we got time. im just a lil nuts#jesus. its gonna b an interesting semester. hopefully fun but uh it is sorta like taking a boat out when u can see big ominous clouds#like im sure ill b fine but also i might get dumped over into a watery grave. i just. i have a lot of papers to write#and its gonna b hard to b a student on top of that. partly bc what im gonna b doing now is almost completely unrelated#which is probably y ppl stick to the same track they stsrt on. that awkward moment when ppl ask u if ur gonna keep working with bi0crust#and ur like uhhhh no fuck that actually the work ive done in the past 4 years makes me hate myself✌️#so we r back at square 1. well not 1 bc its sorta related but its a pretty big reset#itll b fine once things start. its just thr anticipation that kills me#unrelated
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Different person than that anon from earlier but also recently questioning singlet status and
What do you mean singlets don't typically understand headspace/switching/etc intrinsically. I literally randomly found out about systems being a real thing from youtube and the explanation of how all of this works just clicked like yeah that makes sense
Between that and the weirdness I experience where a significant of the dreams I remember involve me not being *me* (usually still retaining knowledge of who i am, just like. Playing the role of someone else, because also most of my dreams are lucid in that I'm aware I'm asleep but I have very limited control over what happens) when thats apparently not as common of a thing as I thought....
Man I thought this was bc I grew up being a designated player 2 as the younger of a pair of video game obsessed siblings. You're telling me even more stuff I've brushed off could be signs of hidden plurality?
im sure theres a lot of singlets who understand those plural concepts easily, and who experience the same things u do, so its up to u to look into it and decide if u think ur experiences are related to plurality or not!
but for more context, part of why i brought that up in my response was because i remember back when i was actively kinning and so deeply linked to characters and expressing myself through them, i felt like i was often more closely kinning some guys at certain points than others, and it tended to change up. i dont remember what kinning communities called it, but looking back on it, i think my moments of "i feel like this kin most prominently right now and ive "switched" out from another one" were likely just yknow... headmate switches
so when i came to learn more about headmates switching out, the way i understood them so deeply and could personally relate my own experiences to was not just me being like "ohh yeah that makes sense in general", it was more of like "oh this is something i have no trouble imagining for myself, i can imagine what it feels like and the reasons for switching out all make sense to me personally"
part of why i brought it up is also because when i came out as plural, half my plural friends were like "i fucking KNEW u were too normal about systems to be a singlet" lol
on what u mentioned about ur dreams, i used to have more dreams where i was someone else or occasionally a character, but ironically ive never had any dreams where im a headmate of mine. that aspect of ur experience is up to u to determine the meaning of, and if u feel like its related to ur plurality then go for it!
#anon asks#kitty answers#ultimately though none of the experiences i brought up that i relate to my plurality are inherent signs of it#theres plenty of singlets who experienced ''kin switches'' and stuff. although if thats something u relate heavily to#i do recommend looking a little deeper into plurality#and theres plenty of singlets who express themselves more comfortably as characters or people that arent them#so if ur questioning whether ur plural or not definitely take those experiences into consideration#but i wouldnt say theyre inherent indicators of plurality#NOT trying to shoo u away from exploring it btw i just dont want people seeing what ive said and taking it at face value as like#''oh this is a plural thing???'' and run with it bc theres no harm in exploring but these are not strictly plural things
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everyone in this house better stop talking abt zodiac signs and other new age spiritual bullshit soon or else i'll go fucking mad
#STFU ABOUT ST4RS33DS IM NOT A DESCENDANT OF ALIENS IM JUST NEURODIVERGENT#here i am telling myself ''im very open abt other ppl's spiritual beliefs bc i understand the societal roles of religion''#turns out i am still a very skeptical bitch and im glad that in a skeptical bitch bc some of the shit my sister's saying is insane#im not lying there's insidous conspiracy shit in there i read the main article and it talked abt reptilians who want to take over the world#mew's shenanigans#every time my mom talks about leos it shaves off one minute out off my lifespan#''leos are this leos r like that so ur stepdad is being tempted by women'' what a totally rational conclusion that is definitely#not formed out of any stereotypes and overly general assumptions that sound accurate bc of confirmation bias!#congrats u fell into the trap of a cold reading!#u do realize when u say statements abt however a leo supposedly acts like u are attempting to describe ppl like#my skittish friend in a batshit situationship; dr4g q*een tr*xie m*ttel; and br*tish c*median l33 m4ck#who are completely different people#i only accept z*diac bullshit if it's funny but if ur going to spend 60$ of family money on an entire book abt a single z*diac sign#i will walk into the ocean#edit number two: um so that turned into an entire tag rant wow#mew's rambling
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i have a really awesome talent that lets me explain anything i want in as much detail as i can using as many words as possible but i make little to no sense and unnecessarily overexplain everything except the bits that actually need clarification because i dont want people to misunderstand me and then they misunderstand me anyway because of my weird unhelpful explanation. its ok tho im having fun!
#tyat last line is not a joke i do genuinely enjoy writing long rambles about random shit#as evidenced by my tags on like... every other post i reblog#but if u notice im taking forever 2 post something or the formatting is kind of strange or whatever: thats the reason. like. 90% of the time#muffin mumbles#im havingto stop myself from starting a ramble in here i will sum up my thinks quickly:#basically i just enjoy writing stuff and ive been finding lately that my site is the best place 2 put that!!#idk who needs to hear this but ur neocities doesnt have to have one theme or be cohesive in any way. u can make it be whatever u want....#world is your oyster. your clam. your... gameclam. idk. this is sky ''skyburger'' burger signing off..... peace ✌️
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One of my scary exes hit me up but it was the one I no longer have feelings for so that's lame
#i was all “uhhh why are u contacting me ur gf is still in ur pfp”#and he was all like i'M nOt aCTivE oN sOcIAL meDiA i DiDn't hAvE tIMe tO chAnge iT#i basically told him to go screw himself#but i do take this as a sign that if i want jake back it's probably just a matter of time#do i want him back?#EHhHHhhh????#anyway props to mike for being the first Skinny Little Asshole Musician With Big Nose#*brian wilson voice* god only knows where i'd be without u#lmao jk i've been sans mike for 6 years now and she's vibing
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