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late to the party, but tada! tagging @ylangelegy by their request and also cos i stole it from them w their consent
what's the origin of your blog title? hana (wqnwoos) complimented my user—not sure if she was referring to heartepub or vivimvs, my main, but it was a shot of serotonin nonetheless LMAOOO—it feels a little on the nose, but epub is the ebook file format suffix + heart . so it's like this account is a lil ebook of my heart <3
favorite fandoms: i liked the hq fandom in the early 2020-2022 era (while i was still active in those spaces) ,, not in a lot of fandoms anymore tho, mostly for my mental health
OTP(s)/shipname: victuuri has a special place in my heart hehe . re: haikyuu, i love bokuaka but osaaka was my comfort ship esp w fiendishpal art on twitter (WHAT A TIME THAT WAS) ,,, also anne and wentworth (persuasion) my beloveds
favorite color: navy blue (hi tara haha), periwinkle, and that specific shade of red that's rich/slightly cool but not like red wine deep (kinda pomegranate ish)
favorite game: i am not a gamer (the most i got was finishing tekken 5 on ps4—i mained asuka) BUTTT i have fond memories of gamebox ;; i also like playing speed, bluff, pusoy dos, uno, and chess (not that I'm good)
song stuck in your head: sigh— would you fall in love with me again (got me so bad i downloaded fagles' translations of Iliad and odyssey)
weirdest habit/trait? bc i have friends who are v musical, i adopted their unconscious harmonizing w any music currently on—unfortunately i am very bad at it and so only do it when I'm alone
hobbies: cooking, reading, downloading jstor articles on niche subjects (and never quite getting to reading them); i also dive (both scuba and free) and my friend recently got me into bouldering
if you work, what's your profession? im a [graduating] student <3
if you could have any job you wish, what would it be? lit professor <//3, social sciences researcher, dive instructor / marinebiologist—OH AND i'd love to be paid to travel
something you're good at: cooking!
something you're bad at: high-maintenance organizing; my filing system is very simple bc anything more "organized" passing would just make me dump everything in a single place anyway
something you love: catching up w friends <3 bonus if i cook for them
something you could talk about for hours off the cuff: if spain had 3g's when colonizing, i have 3g's for long coversations—gender, ghibli, [ancient] greek [stories]
something you collect: i still have all the physical letters I've been given—catholic school ppl know but retreat letters hehe ;; also movie tickets, esp when going to watching indie/film fests
something you forget: i always forget my jacket and end up shivering when my classes are in those rooms w full blast air-conditioning </33
what's your love language? doing acts of service—not sure on what i like receiving (maybe I'm just not picky ,, and/or still icked bc my last almost-rel still makes me mad)
favorite movie/show: i think this is one of those q's where the answer can change on a given day (same w fave book); but for now, I'll say princess mononoke—comfort binges are the lotr trilogy and haikyuu. fave ph movie as of late is iti mapukpukaw, and i still think about magnifico and balangiga every now and again
favorite food: hot soup/stew. could be tomato-based, clear, puree, spiced, miso, jjigae, etc — idc, its a hug in a bowl <3
favorite animal: cats. but sea turtles have a special place in my heart cos seeing one on a dive is like a straight shot of serotonin
are you musical? i have band friends ++ my early education was in a school known for their music curriculum, and i did violin for a little—so a lil above average ig, but don't count on me to belt or be conversant in complex music theory
what were you like as a child? loved being the smartest in the room lol—also much more uptight and high strung
favorite subject at school? i liked everything, most of the time. i was part of the crowd that would be arguing solutions and/or doing last-minute tutoring on test days. in uni, though, my favorite was def my "stories and narratives" elective.
least favorite subject? i unfortunately disliked the service component of my senior high formation—it was nice to tutor kids, but i didn't get how our teacher could be perfectly gallant talking to girls in conversations but have the most twisted performance of masculinity while lecturing
what's your best character trait? i like to think I'm a good listener
what's your worst character trait? very aggressive "say yikes and move on" / conflict avoidant energy when someone does something hurtful to me
if you could change any detail of your day right now what would it be? i wish i woke up earlier sdfsfddsf
if you could travel in time who would you like to meet? the younger version of my mom or maternal grandmother—just to glimpse what it was like growing up in japan in the decades they did
recommend one of your favorite fanfics (spread the love): i wont ever shut up about kae's like real people do (proof). but i also love @/mingtinys noah's how flowers bloom and wither — i reblogged it on sarangcoups but i haven't yet here (i will soon), but please show noah love if you do read it!
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originally this was supposed to be my new years doodle but then i didn’t finish it for like 3 weeks after
#zelda#legend of zelda#tears of the kingdom#zelda tears of the kingdom#selfship#selfshipping#self insert x canon#oc x canon#link#zelda fanart#daeyumi art#daelink#<—btw this is the new tag for my selfshipping if u wanna mute or whatever#anyways ya it was supposed to be new years kiss lol but it’s super late so now there’s just clock town in the bg for no reason haha#but i decided to go ahead & do it clock town & fireworks like i originally planned anyways
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forever thinking about junah and del singing together.
#not ship but if u wanna see it that way go ahead#not sure if ill finish this I like it but do i like it Enough..#metaphor#metaphor refantazio#junah cygnus#juani cygnus#fidelio magnus
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i often get asked how to draw fat bodies, and my advice is to start by studying volumes and forms. before tackling full bodies, it is important to build a strong foundation. take a 3d shape (cube, sphere, whatever) and use it to learn how weight sits, moves, and interacts with gravity. in animation, we used the ball and sack bag test to study volume and weight, which also introduced principles like squash and stretch, spacing, and timing. as you get comfortable with these concepts, you can start applying them to drawing bodies. and as you get even more comfortable, you can begin to exaggerate your drawings.
even if you never plan to animate, studying cartooning can teach you a lot about volume, movement, and weight. all that good stuff.
there are so many great art books out there too. morpho by michel lauricella is a popular recommendation and a great reference to have on hand. i also love the animator's survival kit by richard williams (MY GOAT), anything by andrew loomis (THE GOAT), FORCE: dynamic life drawing by michael d. mattesi, and atlas of human anatomy for the artist by stephen rogers peck. there are plenty more, but these are the ones that come to mind.
i apply the same idea when drawing hard surfaces like vehicles, armor, and mecha. understanding perspective and form is important. i break down complex shapes into simpler ones, like cubes, cuboids, or cylinders. this makes it easier to visualize how they sit in space and how light interacts with them. studying the fundamentals of form, volume, and weight applies to almost anything you draw.
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY....get really really really really really super into golden kamuy and disco elysium. you will not regret it. here are my befores and afters...
#ive gotten this ask so many times so i will refer to ppl to this in the future haha#may make another post thats more thought out tho but this is just for now#i am a lil rusty and i need to go attend a life drawing class again someday lol#and if u just wanna jump right into drawing bodies go ahead#but try to understand volume and forms when u do#personally i like understanding how things work it makes learning easier
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[ OOC: hi folks :] wanted to swing by with a post abt blogs and such
i kinda struggle to manage lore that. happens outside of my blog thru multiple sources due to the fact my inbox tends to stay Busy™️.
in regards to people wanting to join in with canon blogs, i want to be polite when i say that it's .. gunna stress me out further. :(
nobody's fault, i am kinda picky w my lore (despite being about 85% accurate i Guess) and naturally bad at managing external sources and blogs, and having more other blogs popping up tends to make me worry about discrepancies with details and external plots and developments that i haven't "approved" of myself. it's why i keep to my own blog often as well </3 makes it a hell of a lot easier to manage things
from this point forward, i'm gunna have to (sadly) shut the door on people making More canon blogs for my blog— you can still send in cool anons, ofc :3 thats far easier !!! the actual dsmp failed to communicate and i do Nawt want that happening here (even on a far smaller scale LMAO)
i'm swamped with tryna write q as best as possible yet currently a bit too busy worrying to Actually write. so unless ive really set up stuff w you, i'll probably stick to my own anons / already set up blogs 2 interact with and such for the most part. big big sorry!! (feel free 2 ask for clarification on this btw)
i cherish u all bunches and i apologise if i come across mean or controlling, i just want rp to remain fun for my silly little brain. for the current ppl who have blogs as canon to my blog (still adjusting to that LOL) i also cherish u. thank u for being inspired !!! GRGRHRHRH CHEWIJG U ALL /POS ]
#ooc: the prophet talks#delegation — LN TEXTBOOK.#ask blog#to be completely transparent i can be a control freak Hhi i wanna apologise#bc. it sucks but i also dont want this to spiral out of my control into something bigger#and i am enjoying it !!!! but its also making me. uh. Pretty stressed at the idea of ppl biting off more than. i can chew or handle#if that makes sense so i'm gunna stick to writing here. this blog is already full steam ahead and i love anons#rather than sitting and worrying that a blog might set smthn up with someone else and its far from how my blog lore exists#TO CLARIFY. im not mad and i apologise if i am at all coming across dickish. i am just a Little stressed and strung out (busy yesterday)#(overthinking) etc#i do love u hoax and tubbo and tommy and ddd whoever else is out there.#AHYWAY. BYE. i think i need to go and Chill out for a few hours /silly#let it be said i feel like a prick. but i also know that me getting stressed is nawt good and i wanna ensure this blog#remains a groovy and relatively easy experience :3
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tommy armitage’s presence at the mutiny is So Funny to me because i mean of course he’s going where the marines go and of course he does Owe hickey for not snitching on him for silna’s kidnapping and of course an able body is an able body when you’re staging a mutiny. but also i find it hard to believe his big wet eyes and general pathetic coward’s demeanor didnt trigger hickey’s prey drive at literally every interaction
#yeah private armitage yeah go scout ahead. wanna give us a lil run while u do tho? no reason. dont look behind u#perhals i project bc i also want to grab him with my teeth and shake him until his spine snaps like a dog hes such a Funny Loser#experiences one instance of courage in his life (attempting to shoot hickey in ep10) and its like 90% bc he wanted that tozer cookie#and then manson immediately shoots his face off for it#‘sorry tom!’#tommy armitage#the terror
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some sugarduo for a silly dtiys im hosting in stinky bird app
#qsmp#qsmp philza#qsmp forever#sugarduo#caramelduo#aaaa if you also wanna do it here then idk go ahead n tag me lol idk u do u#my art
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Alright guys sorry about the identity crisis but I'm going back to my truest form for a bit because talking/thinking about star wars just feels SO RIGHT for me 🥺🥺 it's my natural state, so be ready for more star wars stuff!!
#jane journals#self insert talk#im just gonna go ahead and say it even tho ive mentioned it once or twice#my rex art has never ever been as popular as other art#like w utonium and even sportacus the art can exceed 100 notes easily whereas ppl dont respond the same to rex stuff#and while thats a little disappointing its not what self shipping is about in the end!!!#in the end its about our love and our story 🥺🥺💖💖#so im gonna do what i want ajfjgkg#anyways sportacus is still my babygirl!! i still love every f/o that goes on my list dont u worry 💖💖#i just wanna shift into rex mode for a bit ^^#this is just my natural state
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i think the reason why im so drawn to spirit tracks and pkmn scarvi is that having the legendary/princess as a companion rather than a goal that marks the games completion makes me feel satisfied the way i would after helping a friend
my brother always teases me about how I still havent finished botw after almost 7 years bc "id rather be out picking flowers" which i wont say is untrue. and yes i know Zeldas been holding off ganon for 100 years, yes i can get some sort of idea what her relationship with link was like by recalling memories and going through her diary. ive always loved botw for its unique storytelling and setting which makes it stand out, because it lets you get to know who you're saving.
but because theyre memories, it only works if theres something for the player to investigate that already happened. its retroactive (but effective nonetheless)
on the other hand, spirit tracks does something similar but instead of having the player try to piece together memories and interpret them as a spectator, you actually have an opportunity to get to know zelda yourself by talking to her and working together. besides making it a gameplay mechanic, giving the player control over how they interact with zelda makes it so much more personable.
and I find that making the goal feel personal instead of an obligation gives me more of a reason to work towards it. I know what kind of person botw zelda was but as the player, shes still very much a stranger to me. but spirit tracks zelda? thats my friend!!!! she invited me to go to the beach after we get her body back!!! i dont want to whip her to make her move faster thats mean :(
you know how hostage negotiators are trained to introduce themselves and get to know the person theyre negotiating with because its harder to hurt someone when you know what their favorite food is? its kinda like that, because it feels like im helping a friend than being told or led to do smth
and although i havent played scarvi myself, i feel an attachment to koraidon and miraidon even just watching playthrough clips because its like!! thats my weird scaly dog!! it loves sandwiches and we're friends!!! you know!!!!!!
#i dont normally write long posts like this but i think ive been trying to put this into words for a long time and it finally happened#my cloth mother spirit tracks zelda and my wire mother lttp zelda#ACTUALLY ANOTHER THING when i was a kid i always felt guilty when i had to catch the legendary at the end of the game#because to me it was like 'i know none of this is real but if i capture you and have you under my thumb am i robbing the world of something#normal thoughts for a 10 year old to have#when i talked to my brother abt this he was like 'i mean yeah the point is to dunk on the NPCs what were you expecting' and i mean i think#i get that its supposed to feel rewarding because the legendary is THE reward. but it doesnt feel right and i dislike he feeling of pushing#others down to get ahead. i guess u can argue sun/moon does smth similar where you have nebby with lillie#but lillie still ends up handing nebby over to the player and i STILL feel bad because im like shit man you raised that little guy#and koraidon/miraidon feels less like a reward but more like overpowered motorcycle lizard that is just so oupydog. and i love him#and in spirit tracks i went out of my way doing some of the side quests bc zelda asked nicely and honestly that was enough for me#i think all of this boils down to.. i feel very protective abt things i care abt so stories that give me a reason to care hits harder#this can also go the other way bc i CRIED when i finished links awakening because i KNEW every person and im responsible for#literally the end of their world. like. there was a family with 5 kids. marin loved singing and cared about me. she was my FRIEND#i just. ugh. i have too many feelings rn. i kinda wanna draw more spirit tracks link and zelda i think that wld make me feel better#yapping#diary#loz#pokemon
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#when i talked abt that more suggestive furry art the other day i failed to mention i hadnt actually. drawn it yet lmao#thats ok tho now we get to do this democratically#if u wanna go on anon and suggest what u might want them to be doing too go ahead lol#im gonna leave this poll running till abt 2:30 pst so get ur votes in now!!
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{ OOC } i'm bored so give this a like / reply to see how my muse would prepare hot chocolate (or drink of choice, just specify !) for your muse !! Please, specify muse !!
#{ starter call. ✦ }#{ not really bc you don't need to reply to these xD }#{ these are just headcanon posts and something fun for the holiday season xD }#{ also if you wanna go ahead and steal this idea for your own blog feel free to do so !! }#{ i just ask that you don't steal without giving something in return to be fair u-u }
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Okay swear this is the last time I'll pause but just gotta say I feel like Madoka Magica is something people who have never done drugs would say "we should watch this high" and then people who have regularly done drugs would say "do Not watch this high this is an example of a bad trip so u can watch it sober like one of those rollercoaster simulations but under no circumstances should you watch this high"
#ppl who hype a forced trippy trip r the worst i did lsd with some guy n it was his first time & he was like “lets watch some acid#trip videos on youtube & i was like. my guy u are not gonna enjoy that i promise you im not babysitting after each jumpscare#dont kill my vibe if u wanna watch a spiral optical illusion on shrooms go ahead but the point of the shrooms is to create your Own optical#illusion 😭#i vividly rmmbr on my 20th bday oing So many drugs that didnt rlly hit until i was in bed watching That 70s Show with my ex#n i was watching then asked her if this was like one of those “on purpose trippy episodes where they make the faces change shapes/colors” n#she was like .no babe this is a regular episode. relax. it was nice actually#good show to get high to def reccomend. the Show. Not Drugs. dont do those#that wad a tangent mkay back to the anime#madoka magica
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Could've left me just the way you found me, but you came and put your wings around me. You went out of your way, to fix what you didn't break.
This song is so incredibly Sam & Darlin' coded and no one can tell me otherwise.
[lots of lyrical analysis below the cut] [there's also a short little fanfic blurb of them stargazing down there too (this post got really out of hand lmao)]
For those not fully caught up, note that the following commentary contains various spoilers for Sam and Darlin's stories.
Note: Unfortunately this song is gendered, using the word 'girl' several times. Which sucks a little bit for immersion purposes, not only for keeping Darlin' gender-neutral, but also because I see this song as a duet between them, and Darlin' obviously wouldn't be addressing Sam with the word 'girl' either. So! As with most songs on their playlist, we're just gonna mentally omit any gendered terms we come across.
Side note: Frustratingly, this is one of those songs that didn't really even need to gender the subject in the first place. No part of the story or message is lost without it. But alas, many songs are like that, and so the playlist-makers of the world shall continue to suffer. [/lh]
Anyways, preamble's over. It's lyric time now yay!
Sam's Part
I was a ten-year train wreck
Technically for Sam I suppose it was 13 years, but ten is close enough (and 'ten' admittedly flows a lot better in the rhythm of the song than 'thirteen' would.) Anyways, we're not here to split hairs, (I have to remind myself), we're just here to point out similarities.
In Sam's Dec. '22 HBW, he says "For the last 13 years or so I haven't had to care too much about how I look. Seemed a little redundant after turnin', considerin' I didn't wanna be around much'a anybody anyway."
I think he's mentioned or alluded to that roughly 13 year period of time more than once, but that's the one I remember best so it's the example I'm using. There's still about 4 Sam audios I've yet to listen to as of making this post, so if I'm missing some Key Lore I'll edit this later. But for now, I don't think Sam has given many specifics on exactly how bad things got during that time. Luckily, 'train wreck' is a pretty broad and subjective term, so it easily covers any degree to which he may have fallen apart during those years.
It also feels like a very 'him' way of quickly brushing over the details of his past/his hurt, as he seems to tend to do with Darlin', (not all the time ofc but it's still something I've noticed) putting his own hurt on the backburner to prioritize and attend to theirs. Even outside of his dynamic with them, I think as a healer, it's something he learned to do. And now he does it with everyone. Put on a brave face, compartmentalize things and unpack them later, etc. I could go on and on but there'll be time for that in other posts I'm sure. For now, lets get back to the song at hand.
With a last-call longneck
Due to personal reasons, I've yet to decide if I want to HC him as having used alcohol as a coping mechanism during that time. I don't recall him having mentioned alcohol much, if at all, (maybe one mention of whiskey that I don't have time to find right now) so I don't think it's necessarily canon that he did, but it's certainly possible. My personal preferences aside, I'll admit it makes for some good additional angst. (And- self-indulgently- it makes some other songs on my playlist for them more fitting.) So, for the sake of this song, let's imagine that he did.
I was searchin', I'd been hurt real bad
This one feels pretty self-explanatory given what Alexis did, (and, if you wanna get even angstier with it, whatever his family did earlier on in his life) so there isn't much commentary to add on my end.
I HC that in spite of 'not wanting to be around anybody', he- like Darlin- still had a tiny part of himself buried deep down that was, in a way, 'searching' for someone to find solace in. (No this isn't me projecting onto them both haha what are you talking about-)
Movin' on, gettin' sidetracked One step forward and five back
This is generally applicable enough that I don't feel the need to give too much of a specific example. Anyone who's recovered or is recovering from trauma knows this non-linear, back-and-forth struggle well already, and I'm sure he was no stranger to it.
If I were to give some examples though, I could point to Darlin's (and subsequently, Sam's) encounter with Alexis at the summit, or the shit that Quinn dredged up about Fredrick and threw at Sam in the interrogation room. Those are both more recent examples and I imagine these lines of the song to be coming from a place of him prior to meeting Darlin', but still, they're some instances where I'm sure he felt like the past was pulling him back in. I'm sure that there's been many throughout those 13 years that we were never witness to.
Not your fault, I was scared to fall
This line reminds me of their 'Cuddles and Confessions' audio. I don't think he ever explicitly said he was 'scared' per se, so afaik there's no specific line I can quote, but in that and every audio prior, he was obviously hesitant to admit, perhaps even to himself, that he was gradually falling for them. Even after the initial confession, there's certain limits of his (e.g. biting) that he carries for far longer, and some that I (and others) HC that he'll carry forever. So this line feels to me like him reassuring Darlin' that his reluctance isn't the fault of them, but his past.
Darlin's Part
You were the star in the pitch black Shine the way on the way back
We don't have any canon instances of them comparing Sam to a star, but I can see it being something they'd say (perhaps less poetically, but the sentiment would be there) one night while laying up on their roof watching the stars with him. Maybe they're dead-tired, talking nonsense with lidded eyes at the end of a long day, fighting sleep in favor of more time spent with him.
"What- what're you pointin' at Darlin'?"
Their hazy focus is trained on the brightest star visible in their line of sight, arm stretched out to the sky above them. "That really bright one, to the... to the left."
Sam does his best to follow their less-than-specific directions of 'to the left', their pointed finger doing little to help given the difference in perspective. Luckily, after all these years, he knows this stretch of night sky like the back of his hand, so it isn't hard to locate the brightest one. Ghosting his fingers up along their arm, he takes their hand in his and brings it back down to earth. "Okay, yeah, I see it now. What about it though?"
"That's you." They say, matter-of-factly.
"That's me?" He questions, humor in his tone.
"Mhm." They nod with finality, blinking slow.
Sam considers the odd statement for a moment before gently correcting them. "I'm uh, I'm pretty sure that's Sirius, actually."
They scoff. "I am being serious."
Sam stifles a laugh into their hair. "No- no I mean- like... what's another name for it... Oh! It's also called the Dog Star."
"C'mon Sam, at least call it the Wolf Star if you're trying to turn this around on me..."
He shakes his head and readies himself to explain further, but they cut him off before he can start. "But no- no, this one isn't about me. That's you."
He decides to play along, finding something endearing in their overtired nonsense. "Okay... then would'ja be so kind as to explain to this confused old man just how, or why that star is me?"
Their frown is audible in their voice as they latch onto the wrong part of his sentence. "You're not old, Sam. ...Do I need to tell Asher to kick the jokes down a notch?"
He smiles at their over-protectivity. "There'll be no need for that, now. Was just a joke, darlin', I promise."
They huff, but thankfully shift focus back to the prior topic. "It's... I dunno. It's just you, Sam. It's... bright. Light. Something warm, out there in the cold dark. Standing out amongst all the rest. Calling to me, stealing my attention. I... I didn't come out here looking for it, but there it is. ...There you were. In the dark. The only bright thing I'd seen in... fuck, in years. Years of chasing fleeting warmth, tripping over myself in the pitch black, falling into... places 'n people I shouldn't have. You were the light in that darkness. Even there, surrounded by the ghost of him. You outshone it. Your warmth didn't hurt. I didn't have to squint when I looked at you. You weren't the blinding sun. You were the brightest star I'd ever seen. You guided me back home."
In the back of their mind, they recall something they once heard, something about light, and time, and distance. Space. Something about... how you can see a star that's already burnt out, because it's light hasn't reached earth yet. The ghost of a star that's already died. Only still perceptible thanks to time, and distance.
They remember Sam's words, once whispered to them on this very roof.
"Whatever your choice is... I'm not gonna live forever. I made that decision a long time ago."
They think about dead stars.
They think about time.
"...-lin'? Darlin'?" Sam's calloused hand slides up their forearm, pulling them out of their thoughts. "There you are. Think I lost ya' for a minute there... you good?"
They look up at Sam, concern creasing his features, shadows cast across his face from the light of the dying stars above him.
They reach out, pulling him down into them. Burying their face into his collar, Sam's concern grows when he feels it saturate with tears. A human might struggle to hear their words, muffled against the thick fabric, but his hearing catches it just fine.
"Don't burn out too quick. Please. I still need you here. I don't- I don't wanna be left in the dark again. Please, please Sam. Don't leave me here. I'm not selfish enough to ask you for forever, but please. Not yet. Not yet. Not yet."
.......Whoopsies! Really, genuinely didn't mean to improv an entire scene there, good god. Also didn't mean to swerve hard into angst at the end but uh. that's what came out! so I'm rolling with it lmao. Aaanyways let's move on, it's getting late and this is a song analysis post, not a fic.
Out of nowhere, answered all my prayers
'Out of nowhere' reminds me of Sam's words from the same HBW video I referenced earlier. "You came into my life like a damn wreckin' ball. There was no preparing for that, clothing or otherwise." While those were Sam's words, not Darlin's, I still feel like they feel similarly to how suddenly Sam came into their life as well. (Not in a bad way, mind you!)
[the significance of 'answered all my prayers' edges into my own personal more headcanon-y/personal/OC-ified Darlin' territory, so we can just gloss over this one for the sake of at least attempting to keep this more universally applicable]
Picked up the towel that I threw in Took in a heart that was ruined
Again, largely self-explanatory I feel. (*proceeds to explain anyways*) I imagine that Darlin' was at the point of throwing in the towel, hellbent on a solo-mission to find Quinn regardless of the danger it posed to them. I doubt they were looking toward the future anymore, (to reference Sam,) fully willing to throw themself at their problems until they really did break.
The specific use of 'ruined' hits hard here, because after everything they went through with Quinn, and especially after he recounted it all to Sam in that interrogation room, I imagine that they really, truly did feel ruined.
Showed me the past ain't a tattoo Loved me even when you didn't have to
These lines in particular make me sick with emotion every time I hear this song, because I feel like they hit the nail on the head for how Darlin' feels.
I'll be here citing various quotes all night that I feel showcase that sentiment, but we don't have time for that! So instead I'm just pointing to the entirety of 'Quinn's Aftermath' video, and leaving you with this single quote from it.
"Everything that he said reflects nothin' on you, and everything on him."
Equally Applicable Lines
And I don't know why Why you saw something in me, baby But you saw right through All the pain, and you came and saved me Yeah, I know you didn't leave me lonely Weren't the one that put the heartbreak on me Picked up the pieces It wasn't the mess that you made Could've left me just the way you found me But you came and put your wings around me You went out of your way To fix what you didn't break
Again, I think these lines are all pretty self-explanatory, and are just as accurate coming from either one of them. To me, at least, their entire dynamic is that they saved each other, in their own ways.
(But I will admit, the final verses about 'going out of your way to fix what you didn't break' are definitely conjuring up memories of Sam in the early days, literally going out of his way to visit and heal Darlin' after their fight with the two vamps. In general, his continued/repeated healing of them after they once again hurt themselves is the very literal definition of fixing what he didn't break.
But! While we may have more blatant examples of Sam being 'the fixer' so to speak, I think he'd argue that Darlin' has done plenty fixing of their own. Physical wounds aren't the only things that need healing, after all.)
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[shameless self-promo of my Sam & Darlin' playlist for those few of u interested enough to make it to the very end of this wall of text. if u liked this then u might like some of the other songs on there soooo maybe go check it out and maybe perhaps give it a follow so i can get a little serotonin boost or dopamine or whatever the chemical is that's released when Number Go Up. ...okay that's it i hope u enjoyed my fixation-induced ramblings! thank u and goodnight]
#redacted audio#redacted sam#redacted darlin#redacted playlists#redacted asmr#redactedverse#music stuff#Spotify#Seven's Blorbo Songs#<- starting a dedicated tag for these kinda posts bc i feel like there will be. Many more#gotta go dig up the few i've made in the past and retroactively tag them. they weren't as Involved as this one but i'll still include 'em#good fucking god this post got long. i started it at like 2pm and now it's almost 8. i've been locked in on blorbo analysis for 6 hours#don't ask why it took That long to make this post okay i am. very slow. but i had a good time so it's all good#there's like 10 other things i needed to spend my free time on today but this post Demanded to be made asap so here we are#i've been stewing on this song for several days since i found it and i literally had to make this post to get it out of my system#i was gonna make One Big Post to discuss the entire playlist at once but it's got 80+ songs on it by now...#and i like to Yap if u cannot tell so it literally wouldn't even all Fit in a single post. so i'll probably just do individual songs#or maybe a few per post if they all fit a certain theme and aren't enough to justify their own post#anyways i. am so very very very in love with Sam. if you. cannot tell. from the entirety of this post. and the state of my blog#about halfway thru this post i realized i perhaps should've just written a songfic but those take so much more effort and time#and i'm already editing two that'll come out later this month. with two more in the wings. so i can't afford to start another#(not Redacted fics btw sorry but in spite of the little drabble i did on this post i'm actually scared to write for this fandom)#i don't feel confident enough not to mischaracterize them. plus i'm already juggling more than i can handle anyways#anyways the drabble + this post in general probably isn't very good lmao i Should like. draft it and edit it tomorrow with fresh eyes#but i wanna go ahead and send it out into the world and just let it be. it's not that big of a deal
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NEW CORA UPDATE @saetiate ??? I loveeeee
also how have you been? how's life?
sending more love bc yes. 🩷🩷🩷
HIII ZEPH <33 I HOPE you are having a good weekend !! YES CORA URL UPDATE !! he (sae) has taken over my life soo unfortunately... HAHAHA
i have been ok!! i am tryna be more productive and Do More but unfortunately the blue lock brainrot is getting to me HAHA I THINK I AM getting it out of my system tho and will hopefully be able to focus more on my irl life this upcoming week!!
how have you been, friend? did u do anything particularly interesting this weekend or have anything going on this week? <33
sending you love right back <33 you are so sweet for popping into my inbox like this hehe, i appreciate you so dearly!!
#no pressure to respond as always but i always wanna hear about u and what's going on w u !!#my life is nawt very exciting HAHA i work and apply for jobs and write and eat dinner out sometimes and that's it#BUT i'd love to hear about your life lovely!!!#take care this week <33 i am hoping u have a most wonderful week ahead#also if u want me to use ur zephyr instead of calling u just zeph u can also lmk no hard feelings !!#message in a bottle: ask#cora rb#cora talking#executive dysfunction kicks my ass sometimes RIP T^T i wish i had 100% focus all the time to do everything
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genuine question. when does toxic yuri become abusive. where is the line drawn and why is one ok but the other bad
#moon.txt#imo some of yall use the whole 'toxic yuri' trend to ship straight up abusive/manipulative stuff...#and if u wanna do that go ahead! but dont lie about it and try to twist it into something its not while trying to make yrself seem better#than ppl who “like REAL abuse”
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watching Lost without any Ben content is like doing fuckn homework.
#lost#benjamin linus#tags are for me#im struggling through season 1#and there's so many eps before i see him chronologically#i skipped ahead to watch him in season 2#but i also had no idea what the fuck was going on because Lost Lore cannot be simply grasped through dialogue#it's shit u gotta be there for#ugh#i wanna watch Saw rn#but if i do then i'll be no closer to Ben#ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#i just want to see the poor little meow meow#fucking hell#i will watch Lost but it will be begrudgingly#and I will only be paying attention to John Locke while i draw
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