#if u disagree then thats on u but im not hating on anything

[heirtotheempire]

As I read through the Ascendency trilogy, it is becoming more and more clear that the Chiss Ascendency is as hateful as the Empire. And it's odd how few people call that out. I think it is because Zahn does a fantastic job at hiding it through Chiss POV, but even then, the Chiss are still incredibly xenophobic and controlling. Yes, this includes Thrawn, he isn't the saint that so many people like to paint him as and frankly could be argued as worse.

I keep thinking about Ar'alani admitting she never saw non-Chiss as people. She is brilliant and kind, but only to other Chiss. We view her in a purely positive light because the POVs in these books are primarily Chiss, who agree with her. Of course her mindset is normal amongst Chiss, of course it isn't questioned, of course Ar'alani herself never questions it despite her experience off-world. It takes a direct and pretty personal interaction for her to think twice, and even then it is difficult for her to accept the humanity of a non-Chiss. They are lesser in her eyes. They are lesser in the eyes of most, if not all, of the Chiss.

It is fascinating, it really is. It's an interesting look into a xenophobic society without the initial hate from the reader. Because xenophobia is born out of misunderstanding and perpetuated systems of ignorance. If a similar situation was told but through the eyes of Imperial officers, fewer people would be willing to see the nuances. Because Empire=Bad and anyone associating with it is also Bad, right?

But, propaganda and cycles of ignorance are also to blame. Not every Imperial Officer was born hating aliens. Hell, even TARKIN started out incredibly sympathetic to alien species according to the canon novel by James Luceno. But his family taught him otherwise, just as the Chiss Ascendency teaches its own children see other species as lesser.

This mentality from the Ascendency is also seen in Thrawn: Treason with how Eli Vanto is treated simply for being human. The majority of officers hate his existence, insist he must prove himself (despite being at a lower rank than he was at when with the Empire), and are distrustful of him. Very similar to how Ronan treats Thrawn in the same novel.

This isn't, like, a call to love Chiss characters any less, but it's a bit odd to imply that Thrawn, or any other Chiss, would be against the Empire for the same reasons the Rebellion is. The Ascendency doesn't like the Empire because it could encroach on their rule, their space- not because it's xenophobic and oppresses too many people to count. The two systems are remarkably similar, which may be part of why Thrawn was inclined to help the Empire. It is familiar, and a system Thrawn himself has never opposed, even without taking Legends into account.

(SIDE NOTE: PLEASE DO NOT BRING UP SPOILERS FOR GREATER GOOD OR LESSER EVIL ON THIS POST. I AM STILL READING THOSE BOOKS AND WOULD LIKE TO ENJOY THEM SPOILER-FREE)

[mcytegg]

lifesteal double life au ^-^ !! basically what it says on the tin:

i put all of the lsers into a randomizer wheel and paired them off. in my mind its kind of just a one off event that takes place during s6, its like its own little arc that goes for at least two weeks, possibly a bit longer tho!!! and i have removed certain players simply bc i cannot realistically imagine them logging in even for day 1 of the event LMFAO.

ls mechanics are the same— you kill you (and ur soulmate) gain a heart, you die and you (and ur soulmate) lose a heart. ADDITIONALLY, i heavily fw the idea that if ur soulmate is banned, you Also get banned ^-^ even if ur on 20, your hearts simply drop on the ground after u die if ur banned bc it makes things ✨️interesting✨️ tho thats all i have so if anyone has any other ideas or disagrees w me then pls feel free to tell me all abt it bc im just saying shit LOL

anyways! soulmates will be under the cut :D

[the people who have been excluded are leo, mrcube, redd, spep, terry, and vortex @_@ im sorry to fans of them i just can nawt imagine them participating for even a day]

and. dear fucking LORD do we have some crazy match ups oh my god?? 😭😭 the balancing is fucking insane bc to me hearts are NOT given or taken away for any sort of balancing purposes, they have what they had before the event started yk? so soulmates taking care of each other and communicating is even MORE important than anything

and like theoretically people are still in the teams they had before the event, theres technically no rules saying u Need to dedicate urself to your soulmate but considering the type of server ls is, keeping ur soulmate close to u is very likely life or death. like esp for a pair like say...planet and minute bc anyone who has a bone to pick w minute could so easily farm a planetlord over it nd ban them both from the server so being able to protect ur soulmate is just as important as staying safe yourself yk?

its crazy bc u have teams that are definitely just fucking cooked like planet & minute (current 7 heart chungus) or like pangi & jepexx, but u also have teams that are hella fucking cracked in Theory like mapicc & subz bc theyre both cracked at pvp but i actually just dont know how well theyd work as a pair or if theyd EVEN work together or if theyd just do their own thing and expect the other to not die LMFAO.

like, its just so interesting to think abt soulmate dynamics and how this event would affect each preexisting teams. how loyal people would feel towards their soulmates & whether this would change things after the event in regards to Team loyalty and who would grow attached to their soulmates after the fact......or who would hate their soulmates, and who would become enemies bc of this event LOL

[sadieladyxo]

i just realized ive never actually done an introduction on here.. nobody really views my account anyway but idk im bored so

(a LOT) about me:

okay hi!! my name is sadie and some people call me dee, my pronouns are she/her

im 18

i LOVE jojos bizarre adventure SOOSOSOSOSOSO much ive been obsessed with it since i was like 12,, its literally my favorite thing in the world :] my favorite part is stone ocean

one of the reasons why i came back to tumblr was bc everyone is so mean and judgmental on other social apps, but here i feel like i can be myself, and i dont have to hide my personality like i usually do; thats what i love about this app,, ive literally never met a mean person on the jjba tumblr community because youre all so chill and kind :3

i never really fit in with people irl, i guess i could say my appearance doesnt match my personality at all, people act so surprised when i tell them about my interests. being a conventionally attractive basic blonde chick has its upsides but one of the downsides is that its nearly impossible for me to find friends. i dont fit in with the other basic girls because they all talk about boys and drama and all that lame stuff, and then the actually interesting people who share interests with me just assume im mean like the other basic blonde girls and avoid me :] i hope to make some new friends on here as ill probably be more active now

im also a radical feminist and im very passionate about womens rights! please dni if you disagree with feminism i dont want any filthy misogynists here

i dont really care what jojo characters you ship, i personally dont like most of the straight ships but i can deal with it lolol

im pretty laid back, i dont get offended easily at all. i dont really care about most things.. in other words im not as woke as most of the people on here, but i dont spread hate or anything…i just dont.. really care..? i hope this makes sense lolol im high af typing this

ok i think thats all,

if u actually read this far i love you so much

have a great day beautiful

oh and nobody asked but this is my cat

[hellonerf]

suicide is discouraged in the workplace

im not even gonna try to be coherent here. this is not an analysis post i am braindead. if i was a better artist makima wouldve been my muse when i was deep into chainsawman. actuallt she kind of was but i pussyed out

OK everyone here can subconsciously understand this connection. dont get too hung up on makima's strong motherhood theme and i just thought about what if ame was motherly and i couldn't kill myself right aftee thinking that as i have no means to it. that was a joke its late and im just me. i decided i wasnt a fan of motherly ame though so all suicidal thoughts erased. i am really chill now

old makima fanart i drew that im trying not to rip my hairs out over thinking about it with ame. also dont worry if this makes tou find my mainblog or main accounts whatever

actually theyre really different in many ways now that im looking at these. ame is so much of a son and makima is so much of a mother its like oppsoite spectrums. but thay makes the commonalities fun actuallt. i keep thinking about the movies and makima hating bad movies. ame is not an art kid by any means does he even care of the beauty of the world? i doubt it. but he likes bad movies and he likes cheap entertainment so who knows... they'd disagree on that. well i think makima's opinion on that was pretty extreme so i think most would disagree with her really

i could imagine ame going "Chainsawman. Doesn't spit." and smoking for the first time to look cool like in movies only to pathetically cough. thats their common trait... artifice... humans... but in a way that loops back to being Really Human i guess. holds a kind of arrogance and hubris that is so associated with humanity. it cant be anything else. ame should kill himself i think he should get moments of clarity and awareness and want to kill himself rqlly bad

both concepts of control. awesome. SUICIDE IS NOT ENDORSED IN THE WRKPLACE. ame goes to protestant church once or twice and sleeps because hes useless. makima is baptised and goes to local catholic churches not the cathedrals she supports the local christians.FUCK i just remembered the country mouse city mouse thing. ame is a liar and hates everything and loves everything and never feels content. i like to imagine him as a country mouse so fucking bad i want him to chill out one day and go to those middle of nowheres i know exist in america(can i shove cana in here and get away with it). why are they in the city if they are country mice? because..... you know..... you understand..... another w for eternal unhappiness (refer to title of this post)(suicide is discouraged in the workplace)

they are evil bosses i am the employee and when i ask for a break they gaze at me with a vacant stare and smile and i know in my heart they are viewing me like i am beneath them. i get scared and run away but truth is they didnt hear my request. they do not register individual people

if they met they would know immediately and viceversa. because everyone knows subconsciously because lying is futile and everything melts away. ame:i know a toxic boymom when i see one... okay im kidding makima is a toxic boymom if u push the chainsawman in ur head 🙂 ame as a kind of control devil works inmy head. i really believe ame was a polite child but demanding in many ways. sincerely wanting.

ame:gun devil i'll give you one year of the lifespans of the american people. in exchange i want you to kill makima—that is... the control devil (i never got around to drawing this)(ame and gun devil can you imagine)

or:gun devil i'll give you one year of the lifespans of the american people. in exchange i want you to kill alfred f jones—that is... the united states of america (paradox)

throughout all this i wanted to cite the best makima artist in the world ever but i'd feel bad if they wouldn't want to be associated with evil hetalia america blog. also i want to be normal and not cringe at being cringe just becayse i think makima was a thunderstrike of genius that i shouldn't taint. ame is a more flexible character to me for obvious reasons. this is how i'd shove ame into makima's role. but u couldn't put makima as ame. only one way. im okay with that. concept idea consensus words fear control blablabla u get the point i hate using words dont care sleepy now

[honeytonedhottie]

a few days ago i saw my full body in a mirror and it really de-motivated me bc not only did it look like none of my manifestations had been working, it looked like everything had gotten so much worse. I'd been using the law of affirmation & subliminal for like a couple months (I don't like to keep track of time) and I mostly avoided the mirror (bc I didn't really like looking at myself) and aart from some occasional stray thoughts all my thoughts were in line with my manifestions. And I just saw another post that was like if you say you don't have your results that's why you don't have them but I've known that for ages and I'm tired of getting the same persist answer when most of the time I'm doing just that

(so sorry for the rant im just frustrated)

hi anonie, im sorry to hear that so before i give u a law of assumption response im gonna give u a response from a place of advice ; i think, that for the sake of mental health and self love, u shouldn't manifest a change in ur appearance from a place of self-hate. ofc its your reality and u certainly CAN manifest from a place of hate but i think that its better for u in the long term when u manifest from a place of love.

with that being said, im not gonna give u the same persist answer that ur used to getting and i totally understand ur frustration. but lets analyze what you've been doing thus far ; avoiding the mirror, keeping ur thoughts in line, and listening to subliminals.

the mirror : if looking in the mirror triggers u or makes the 3d blatantly apparent then avoid that. but at some point ur gonna wanna look in the mirror again. this time, when looking in the mirror tell ur subconscious what YOU want it to reflect to you. this is something that i did when i was making appearance changes. i would look in the mirror and tell my subconscious what i wanted to see. cuz remember, YOUR SUBCONSCIOUS DOESNT HAVE EYES. it can't agree or disagree with you. if u tell ur subconscious enough times that ur body looks a certain way then it has NO CHOICE but to reflect that back to you. so maybe u can try doing that and see how that feels for you.

keeping thoughts in line : keep doing that. mental diet is amazing so just keep monitoring ur thoughts and making sure that ur ALWAYS thinking in the favorable (work on that self concept anonie)

subliminals : i like to listen to subliminals, not so much like a "method" but as a way to saturate my mind. so what i'd do is i'd make/or listen to a subliminal while saturating my mind with scripts that i've written, affirmations for a minimum of 10 minutes (thats just my preference) and that rly rly feels nice for me and works rly well when i wanna saturate so if u want, try that. and u can try listening to them while u sleep too so that it can enforce what u want onto ur subconscious while ur sleeping, and ur subconscious is wide open.

you can DO it anonie, you've got this and ur limitless and everything that u want is already yours and just remember that anything that u want is only one decision away. decide u have it and stand on business 🫶🏽

[krash-and-co]

hey krash, i wanted to reach out and say that i'm so sorry that you got such a hurtful reaction from one of the l&co servers for speaking up about something that genuinely needed to be addressed. i won't badmouth anyone in particular but this is not the first time this fandom has dogpiled someone over a misunderstanding, and when it happened to me i had severe anxiety over it for about a week even after it was resolved, and eventually left because of it. it left a pretty bad taste in my mouth for the fandom in general, so i mostly just stick to my small group of mutuals now lol. i wish this fandom truly was different from other fandoms, but this kind of thing is unfortunately inevitable once something reaches a certain level of popularity. but that certainly doesn't make it okay, and you didn't do anything to deserve the reaction you got. i hope you can feel peace about it soon, and i'm sorry again that it happened at all. 🫂

(please don't feel pressured to answer this if you'd rather the matter be left alone, i totally understand. i just wanted to send you an ask because i didn't know if you're comfortable with dms.)

hi im so sorry i forgot to answer!!! thank you so much this means so much to me. 💙💙💙 i read this for the first time when i was feeling pretty attacked and it really cheered me up <3

hmm other people have been telling me about how they got attacked in this fandom too. and maybe this shouldn't have surprised me as much as it did. but it's something fans never talk about and claim doesn’t exist, so i thought it didn’t. i was horribly fooled lol. as, uh, i am about to rant about; do you mind? u don’t have to read it, i won’t be offended, but halfway thru answering this ask it turned into a rant i wanted to release into the world lol, so sorry about that 😭😭😭

very important disclaimer!!! this is NOT about everyone. ABSOLUTELY NOT. most of you are absolutely amazing people, and i assure you if ur worried this is about you, it’s prob not lol

ANYWAYS!!!

im kind of feeling i was betrayed?? ig? i rlly believed everyone was so kind, and look what i know now. it genuinely seems like people are gaslighting themselves. how else do they only see our ‘harm?’ yeah, our fandom is known for being passionate, but saying we’re known for kindness is starting to make me sick. maybe we were, i know a lot of us still are, but throwing that out there in the middle of your hypocritical hate post seems like justification for the shit things people have been saying. you can say no wrong so long as you’re here. only people who don’t agree with you. so yeah, fuck krash and ljc and anyone else who doesn't agree!!! that totally shows how kind you are and how much you loved the fandom before we messed it up. nobodys visibly mad, cuz we're too scared to say shit!!!

i’ve seen too many examples of the contrary from the “victims,” wailing about how cruel we are the second they disagree with someone. (in a highly hypocritical manner, at that.) “everyone was so happy before this!” no, they weren’t, that’s why i brought it up. “stop bringing hate to this fandom! now let me fucking berate you!” do you even hear yourself? “nobody even cared before, we were all content!” we weren’t all content, we were just silent. it sometimes looks the same.

someone even declared they were leaving the fandom because ‘one person wanted to stop show saving efforts entirely because it traumatized them, and this is no longer a safe place.’ like, what? where did you even get that? for one, there were at least two of us posting together, and that’s just barely knowing anything about what’s happening. thats not even touching on how one of us (idk who the op of that post was talking about, it’s a 50/50 lol) made the fandom an unsafe place for our personal gain. what?

hella kind. hella safe on their part.

another said they saw only old fans agreeing about this so it’s just us being pissed about change. it’s us hating the show. me and ljc being upset about not being the only “big blogs” any more. our fandom is only for the elite, etc. fuck us. yet ljc is getting blackmailed. we’re getting hate replies. friends that try and help get attacked. misinformation spread. how did that even happen? we never once tried to hurt anyone; thank you to those who understand.

but to some, WE’RE the ones in the wrong.

do they SEE themselves? how hypocritical all of this is? or are their heads that far up in the ass of their petition and beloved fake idea of this fandom that they care about more than all of us?

now, this is where i add another “not everyone” message. not everyone is like this, this is not me saying i hate the petition or people who support it. hell, i signed the petition. twice. and once more from my mothers email.

i don’t regret the i love you posts i made, because i still do love this fandom, i am still absolutely here for the rest of yall. but DAMN if we weren’t hiding something under happy Save The Show, I Love Locknation! messages. perfectly smiling faces until they bite. i was surprised to see how many people did.

as if our previous problems weren’t enough, now it turned into this lol. no, that’s a lie, it didn’t. it already was, and i HATE THAT.

ig im kinda spoiled, i never really experienced hate like this from this fandom before. but now i know it happened BEFORE too, and that just pisses me off. it hurts coming from a group who says they love us. genuinely wacko (not the fun kind) behavior :[

i know this isn’t everyone’s experience, but it is mine, and enough others to make me wanna say this. and this is ofc me and @lucy-j-carlyle 's brand of hate, not yours. but it does happen and the constant chant that IT DOESN'T IT DOESNT IT DOESN'T isn't helping anyone. and now I know.

idk what im even saying anymore lol, sorry for ranting. what i mean to say is, thank you, and i wish things were better. and i love you kind people. im happy it’s most of you.

[judethswrld]

my last ask for now lol (anon talking about jude's parasocial hate)

i think jude has somewhat thick skin and im honestly glad.

bc if he truly cared about pleasing everybody he would have shaved that beard, thrown away those flares, burnt that hat and broken up with #her.

even if i am in the camp for all above (i want that beard and hat gone sooo bad) im sort of glad he hasn't listened bc it's literally his LIFEEE!

there are opinions about jude that honestly shock me. i genuinely don't believe a player at his career level (top but not yet a household name) has ever been scrutinized like this??

to make a short list, ive seen widespread constant negative discourse about:

him speaking proper sentences

him being a midfielder than can score

him being close and affectionate to teammates

him choosing to wear the clothes he wants to wear

him choosing the facial hair he wants to have

mind you he is 21!!!

people who have probably dated someone they shouldn't have in their early 20s are acting like all their ex's are perfect angels. people who need pinterest to form any outfit whatsoever are giving insight about someone building their personal style.

lowkey like can we all take a step back and realise this is someone discovering themselves and what they like (even if we dont agree) because he is literally 21!!

at 21 i tried soooo many new things and thats the only way i could find out what i liked and didn't like. if i had millions of people breathing down my neck and telling me what i should and shouldnt do, i would probably be like jude and completelyyy just tune it all out.

everything about jude right now is a work in process. he doesnt even have a set position unlike other footballers lol. im honestly just taking the journey as it goes and enjoying it atp <3

no bc everything u said was 100% correct i don’t even need to add on

but yea even tho we may disagree with some decisions he makes, im glad he’s not changing everything to try and please the fans and let them take control of everything he does yk. i do think sometimes he may be affected by some of the things people say (especially during the euros) but yea

he’s still super young i mean, it’s kinda a learning process for him.

him being criticized for speaking well is actually insane like he can’t do anything right in these people’s eyes 😭 along with him being affectionate with he’s teammates…like he’s literally ALWAYS been that way it’s not like he’s trying to “little bro” someone

and him getting criticized for SCORING is just so??? like are u serious 😭?

[dandyshucks]

i know that ppl are just trying to be nice and respond to my question but i asked smth on the new platform i've been trying out and i feel like ppl are getting mad 😭😭😭

i just asked about the site's etiquette regarding commenting on stranger's artwork (bc some ppl on tumblr seem to think that's weird. idk. i have complimented strangers artwork on tumblr before and had ppl act like i was being overly familiar when i was just... giving them a normal compliment.) and also asking if interacting with old pieces of art was seen as bad etiquette or not (instagram and twitter ppl freak tf out if u interact w old artwork and think ur "stalking" them, but on tumblr it is normal and fine).

but now ppl in the replies are getting like... weird towards me fdsjkl like theyre treating me like im some poor naive child ,,, bro i am just trying to grasp this website's culture. i KNOW its fucking weird for ppl to think its bad to interact w old art. i KNOW its stupid that other ppl think that. i just didn't want to say anything like that in the post though in case that WAS the site's culture and i'd alienate ppl by saying "hey are u guys here stupid or are u normal" like.... idk LOL

i just hate when ppl act like i'm dumb or naive for smth that i don't even think 😭😭 im glad that yall have not been on instagram where ppl act like youre a stalker if u interact with a post thats more than a week old but goddamn !! trust me i disagree w that line of thinking BLEASE

[just-antithings]

im a minor and i also hate plenty of stuff that falls under the category of like proshipper stuff or whatever but i really really dont think that anyone should be policing it or that you shouldnt be able to post it lmao. its my own job to filter out shit i dont like? the only thing that banning it does is make it so u CANT filter it out anymore and besides its NOT reality . people can and should engage w/ fiction HOWEVER they feel like. it doesnt really matter if that "horrible" fic is to cope w/ trauma or if they just wanted to write it thats not really anyone's business! it is genuinely super easy to just ignore things you dont like or that you think are morally wrong. fiction shouldnt be forced to follow the same rules as the real world , because thats fucking ridiculous. and even if someone does genuinely think that 'oh no thats terrible in real life so it must be terrible in fiction too!' (which- no) it just opens the door for anything that anyone disagrees w/ to be banned and helps minority groups be targeted.

anyway to boil down this whole paragraph: policing wjat people post on the internet is a very bad idea even if you dont like what they r posting.

.

[funkii-fox]

I dont understand people that intentionally get themselves into discourse or trigger themselves on purpose and stuff like that. Its like… do u have nothing better to do?

I have this friend on instagram and hes fun but DEAR. GOD. Hes so negative.

Today i got back from school, sweating as all hell and red faced due to the Texas heat, and i got onto instagram to chill out. “I wonder what my beloved mooties are up to.” And when i press on this guy’s story, its like 5 fucking stories of rants abt selfshippers that make ocs to ship w characters and draw the ocs into the anime style.

GET A LIIIIIIFFFFFEEEEE

You never have to like something if u truly dont like it, BUT HOLY FUCK. How do you get through life getting this fucking triggered over every small thing that people enjoy? This guy went on and on crying abt “ooo i hate women” “this character is gay so u cant self ship w them if ur a woman” “im such an edge lord” “these ocs are so bland” “mlm and wlw is superior” “dont make a male stone ocean oc” “women shouldn’t be into jojos bc its a masc anime” get a life. Touch some goddamn grass. Get off the internet.

Anyone can see that this guy is going ape shit over something only privileged ppl would, but it also hits a little too close when hes attacking selfshippers: my people. I dont usually do oc x canon nor do i draw my self shipping, but these people that hes losing his shit over are still my family. And so its like hes attacking me in a way. And the only reason he doesn’t find me cringe is bc i self ship through writing and do self insert. Like if i were just a little different, he would be directing his misogynistic rants towards me. Odd. It makes me wonder if he does think im cringe and look down on me but wont say it bc of our friendship

Best thing is: this guy has ocs. “Ooo but theyre actually cool” what if i disagree? Would i be justified in saying that his ocs are trash? No? Bc thats rude? 🧐 (sarcasm)

Even better: this guy claims to be an artist yet uses ai to make ocs. Like not to draw them but get an idea of the design. I told him hes not using ai ethically and he should know better but he doesn’t care. But if i used his art and put it in ai that would be messed up. Goofy behavior.

I originally bonded w this guy bc we both hate bruja arianna and the “fem trans masc” thing (And tbh i still do: this mockery of trans men needs to stop and cis women need to stop being weird abt trans guys in general). But he goes so fucking far in his hate. He stalks bruja ari just to make himself seethe and then does rants on his story. Like ??? Is ur life that boring?? U rlly have nothing else to do?? U couldn’t do anything else in the world?

And a nit pick: this guy constantly announces that hes horny and other horny stuff. And it comes across as so middle school. It feels like a 7th grader trying to be funny. Like dude, being horny is normal and all but no need to announce it to the world bc i promise no one cares.

This guy, that is my age (his birthday is literally in the same month) has the brain of an edgy middle schooler. And i just thank god that im not like that. His negativity gets me down as a mere witness, i cant imagine how negative the inside of his brain is

[wooahaes]

okay okay but what about park jeongwoo and adventure type love but make it enemies to lovers :o

oooh adventurer au... my love of uncharted is alive rn haha

fellow archaeology student jeongwoo who hates you because you're a know-it-all who sucks up to the professor and thats definitely why you're on this trip. you hate him for the exact same reasons. other students will say one of you started doing it more to retaliate against the other, but no one knows who started it first. the dig starts out pretty normal in ur humble opinion... until you and jeongwoo end up in the same space. you knock something over, it shatters, and before jeongwoo can say anything, you notice in the rubble. smoothing away the dust, it turns out to be some clue to some bigger treasure that you'd only ever heard rumors about. jeongwoo knows nothing about it, but listens to you as you tell him whats up. the two of you try to study it further, and its the first time the two of you have ever been chill around each other.

jeongwoo says you should tell your professor. you disagree and fully intend to go off on your own that night to look. and where one dummy goes, the other follows as jeongwoo takes his own packed bag and follows you out. he calls you dumb, but you've put the pieces together to take you further away from the city. jeongwoo saves u from a trap along the way, and you begrudgingly thank him, etc. eventually you come across Some sort of ruins, and the two of you push further on together. its dangerous as hell. ur both dumbasses.

you enter a chamber, blah blah, further hints to something farther away in another country. straight up. so you say you're going to keep following it. jeongwoo calls you an idiot because you almost died this time and he was terrified... and then outright says he's going with you. the two of you probs get kicked off the dig but at this point ur already making plans to find a way to travel where you need to go and ur profressor 100% notices the shift in dynamics. u still bicker, but ur way more chill around each other than before.

also something something the two of them having to slide along a ledge and jeongwoo holding reader against him, bracing them until they can get their footing again.

also im a bitch for dramatics so literally imagine one of them getting injured in the end and the other begging them to just hold on and eventually confessing in the hospital room once its all over... becoming a treasure hunting duo....

[piskinkk]

just remembered the reason i hate going to my russian pediatrician so much.

it’s not because of the shots or the vaccines.

it because of the stupid, rude, unethical shit she says. she is beyond unprofessional.

first, she started off with showing me a graph of my weight history. ofc i gained. i knew that already. i wanted to say please don’t, and i will next time for sure.

but she has been saying that i was overweight even when i was 125 pounds. what a joke…

she started to shame me for the amount of gain i weight, saying that it is literally unacceptable. what the fuck.

and then she spent 10 minutes brainwashing my dad about my brother’s diet, WHILE MY BROTHER IS STILL IN THE SAME ROOM HEARING ALL OF THAT.

thats fucking ridiculous. i don’t want my brother to have an eating disorder and regret every single thing he eats.

and ofc, my dad being my dad, he took everything she said very seriously and thought the tone she said it in was completely fine 👍🏻 but that’s because he is crazy about dieting and probably has an eating disorder too. he has been trying to lose weight his entire life…

then she started brainwashing me. and me being me, i took everything with a HUGE grain of salt. in fact, i didn’t listen to anything. i slowly blinked to everything she said, simply to show her that i disagree, but i’ll let her speak her stupid “doctor” formalities to me.

i’ve started to eat better and exercise. it’s never enough for her. it makes me wonder, maybe SHE has some kind of problem with her weight; so she just projects it on her patients…

anyways, i told her i probably have some kind of mental issue and that i was bullied for my weight. i didn’t want to sound like i’m self diagnosing, but honestly - i’m pretty sure i have an eating disorder. i overeat and then regret and then do it all again - is that not enough evidence? i hate myself and i have just started to feel a little more pretty and confident about my body but she just single-handedly destroyed it all.

any efforts i’ve been making to feel better about my gain weight - all just went down the drain.

she told me that i am of course “very beautiful” and would basically be even more beautiful if i lost weight.

im sure that isn’t all of the insensitive things she said to me. i’m sure there is more that i am probably so desensitized to.

she also said that she has had the same issue her whole life and still does.

no you do not. if you did - you would never be so unprofessional and rude about diets and overall weight gain. because you would understand exactly how it feels when someone, especially a professional, speaks of your weight gain in such a demeaning, degrading way.

and then to end it off, the nurse opened the door wide open while i was changing so everyone saw my huge tits in my black lacy bra 👍🏻 and i literally caught this other guy my age looking right at my chest 🥳👍🏻

i had to hold my tears the entire appointment.

and even my fucking dad kept making it worse. he just said the same exact things she said to me.

when i asked him to stay with me when getting my vaccine because i was a little scared he shamed me and embarrassed me and said i’m 18 - i shouldn’t have to ask him to do that.

even the nurse was like - it’s okay, she just doesn’t like it.

EVEN THE NURSE UNDERSTANDS THE STUPID IRRATIONAL FEARS. YEAH ITS SILLY BUT I HATE SHOTS. WHY CANF U J BE HERE?

god, is there just anyone in my family or surroundings that isn’t a blunt fucking asshole? beside my mom, is there anyone who is not rude and understands that you cannot be so straight up mean with certain things when talking to other people? anyone that understands that we all have our sensitive topics?

[ocdhuacheng]

1 and 24 for the ask meme please?

hiiiiiiii im gonna do the same as the last one and answer these for csm mp100 and tgcf, if u want smth else too lmk

the character everyone gets wrong

CSM: there are so many but the takes ive seen about the part 2 trio make my blood boil. no denji and asa are not incels yoshida is not some creepy predator theyre literally just teenagers leave them alone. god.

MP100: idk i feel like in general the mobbles fandom has more media literacy than others from what ive seen... but i dont like it when everyone makes serizawa into some uwu baby who cant do literally anything. yeah he has trauma and anxiety and autism but that doesnt make him like. incompetent. and i remember seeing some infantilization of mob that is pretty distasteful... kind of just the broader trend of people infantilizing autistic characters :/

TGCF: do i even need to say it. literally no one does hualian right except my beloved mutuals. i hate fanon hualian so fucking much its unreal. suave yaoi hands refrigerator hua cheng and uwu uwah cute scared blushy bunny xie lian make me gag

24. topic that brings up the most rancid discourse

CSM: people getting angry at other people calling himeno and makima groomers/pedophiles??? of all the things to be pissed about... also dudebros. just engaging with dudebros in general and people who are like hes just like me fr about denji bc they just think hes only a horny pervert and project their misogyny onto him. also people who hate asa have the worst takes ever. (theyre usually either dudebros or yoshiden shippers either way it sucks).

MP100: uh. i dont know have i ever even seen much discourse in the mob fandom? maybe just like. people trying to justify shipping mob with reigen or ritsu or whatever thats the only thing i can think of right now

TGCF: top bottom discourse. literally the most mind numbing thing ever. also adults who call everyone puriteens or whatever for not being into what theyre into and who think minors are attacking their rights by having opinions and think getting their followers to dogpile/harass kids is an appropriate response to them making fun of you or even just disagreeing with you. youre the adult here so act like it.

i feel like im probably forgetting some for this question maybe bc i just blocked it out idk but yea

anyway.

thanks for the ask :3

[canidfeline]

i hate being upset at you because it makes me feel like a liar but it feels as if you are fence-sitting just how you said you hate lily doing it

you defend tree from me and lily and then defend us from tree

tree openly disliked lily and said he hated me before me and lily even fucking did anything for no reason

none of this would have happened if tree didnt hate us for no reason

again you dont owe us anything and im not asking you to stop being friends with tree, i just want to be heard and i would like it if you could at least set the fucker straight or even me and lily if thats what you think is right but one thing i really fucking need to say (even if it seems like its me wanting you to stop being friends with tree, it isnt, i just need to say it) i would not be friends with someone who said they disliked lily and hated you

i would rather you be on his side rather than just be sitting on the fence because us disagreeing wont make us not best friends

to soften the blow and attempt at being funny: you hate femboys yet defend and are friend with one.

YOU. ARE. FRIENDS. WITH. A. FEMBOY KLEO BOWEN (on a more serious note its a bit hypocritical with you saying you hate femboys yet are friends with/defend one)

this was really hard to make all the nice things ive said have made it harder to be angry

just shows my love for you is greater than my hate for tree 🤗

im only being somewhat nice in the server bc of you i hope u know that

if u were not there I would be saying some very choice words

stressed about this to the point my bones are getting tired wtf man

ilyvm

also my next post is most likely going to be clones then winnie

[csueno]

I am going 👀 at the dnap antigone-ismene comparison

ANONIE DO U EVEN KNOW THE CAN OF WORMS YOUVE JUST OPENED. okay so listen LISTEN this is something i am SO passionate about. to me cdream is LITERALLY antigone. and his mirror is csapnap such as ismene is antigone's mirror. I have the play opened right beside me (the anne carson one and a less interpetrative spanish one) so allow me some mindless rambles:

in a way my logic for cdream being antigone is quite simple: she is stubborn. she is so so stubborn. she is a force to be reckoned with, she is set to a way and she will not see her plan not being done. no matter what it takes. and like i dont have to write how thats.. quite literally cdream. i guess something i really also love about antigone is how she stands herself against the law put before her -- she is smart but she is passionate, as a woman is (ancient greece moment) and this makes the other characters characterize her as irrational and in a way stupid. i look very fondly to the anne carson poem about her, asking how to translate (explain her). translation matter so MUCH to me so the way anne carson handles it matters the most

to quote Kreon you are autonomos a word made up of autos “self” and nomos “law” autonomy sounds like a kind of freedom but you aren’t interested in freedom your plan is to sew yourself into your own shroud using the tiniest of stitches

Autonomy sounds like a kind of freedom / but uou aren't interested in freedom is sooooooooo cdream to me. He cages himself, he builds a prison for an idea and then it slaps him back, yet he doesn't give up, he doesn't let his plan go sideways (it still does.)

the play opens with antigone and ismene; there is dream and george and sapnap at the beginning. she is not bad person THIS IS WHAT MAKES ME THIMNK CDREAM IS SO HER theyre not bad people theyre just So Fucking Stubborn and so like. stuck in whats fair? and if the world is not fair theyll MAKE IT FAIR.

and then you have ismene. her sister. shes introduced as a daugther and a sister (much like csapnap is a son and a brother). i disagree so much with the people that considere ismene a passive contrast to antigone, the fact that she is not going against creonte's law is NOT hwer being passive SHES STANDING UPRIGHT BUT RIGHT BESIDE THE WRONG SIDE JUST BECAUSE ITS THE LAW!!!!!! csapnap is a protector and a soldier before anything ELSE. he follows orders. he shields people, and whats right for him is very much whats like legal and allowed. he respects church prime peace. he might have fun killing pets and shit but that's never not allowed -- its just that at some point things are so tense that he's no longer /welcome to/ but its never in the rules of the server. he's the first to listen to cdream's command when he thinks he's following the law. we need to understand that law can mean a variety of things in a way ok im not making any fucking sense TO THEM AGAIN the conflict between the two sisters is that they dont see the rule the same way. antigone sees it as an offense, as an insult to her and her family not to follow the gods, as an affront to her beliefs. this is lmanberg And ccrimeboys "[KREON] HAS NO RIGHT TO DEPRIVE ME OF THOSE THAT ARE MINE" !!!!!!!!! meanwhile ismene wants peace wants reconciliation They Have Suffered Both So Much. if creonte (leader) wants not to bury this man, who is she to affront it? why shouldn't she try to make amends, to befriend people, to make a country of her own away from civilization with those she loves???

they are two sisters they are daughters of the same cursed parent (oideipus bad is something OKAY.)

Ismene: youre a person in love with the impossible Antigone: don’t say that or I’ll have to hate you

i think the ismene antigone tragedy fits cdreamnap so well because at the end of the day they disagree over how things were done. i dont think csapnap disagrees with cdream's fundamental ideas i think he hates his methods and i think cdream thinks csapnap would never understand them and to a degree knew he would try to stop him so he cut him before he could (i think a lot about ismene promising to keep antigone's plans quiet for her so she would not be found out even if she refused to help. i think about it all the time). and then dethronement happened

also to me kreon is both cwilbur and cawesam. duh.

[idkwhatimeis]

IM FUCKKED AAAAAH

Thats how my brain fells right now. I don't really feel insperation any more an i just dont care of living my best life, and that makes me disappointet in my self.

And im just existing with no energy to live, kind of suck from going to finding good human relationships and happiness and purpose in you life - to not giving a flying fuck about others or making meaning full relation ships because your scared of people abandoning u again.

Im not sure of what i what i want my life to be after this school year is over... I just so over living my current life and I JUT WANT TO SCAPE FOR ALL OF IT. Make i should actually try to live my on life instead of wishing to do it.... BUT MAN im so fucking scared of just living (tnks mom xoxo)

Its just that i always new were my life was suppose to be going, but now i dot want to now what my life is going to be like - and at the same time not knowing whats going to happen is one of my biggest anxiety triggers.

MY WAY OF THINKING IS SOOO CONTRADICTABLE AHHHHH, i hate it so much. I just have gotten to the point that i have tough so much that nothing makes sense anymore and i just so complicated i prefer not to think ANYTHING. I made living so complicated and i hate my self for it. Actually i hate my self SOOOOO much, so many mistakes i see and disagree with wet i still keep on making them. AND I HATE MY SELF FOR HATING MY SELF.

See im so contradictory that just nothing makes sense, theres little in my irl life that i enjoy ... im so drain and tiered of living in a meaningless and unenjoyable life.

How do i explain to my team-mates that i don't what to let them down but im so drained i can focus on anything or use my brain with out thinking of how much i hate my self for not being efficient enough (witch make me feel more self-loading). HOW DO I TELL OTHERS THAT I JUST DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING??

At the same time im like FUCKE IT i just let people be disappointed in me, but i know i cant take more rejection from others anymore, i can't be abandon again.. please.

I don't know what I want out of life or what i need, and thinking about it just hearts my brain. I don't want to think anymore, I just want to lay in the ground and look at the cloud in the shy.