#if there’s anyone Swansea does not seem to care much for it would be curly

[coconutcows]

“Anya told Swansea and he did NOTHING!!1!1!!!”

Has it occured to you that Anya and Swansea had a conversation of which we did not see 99% of??? That the only bit we actually heard is Anya saying “No, I understand that’s how it has to be…” which could refer to any number of things??? And that it’s implied she’s feeling some relief after this conversation as Jimmy points out she’s been crying and she barely seems to have noticed, coupled with the fact she says quite easily that she’s fine to give Curly his meds, it just slipped her mind.

Swansea may have offered to do something and Anya said no, or he may have told her to let him know if she’s uncomfortable or changes her mind or Jimmy tries something again or whatever but We. Don’t. Know.

I just get tired of seeing people act like Swansea didn’t care about Anya at all. No, he isn’t the sweet cuddly father figure he’s sometimes made out to be, but being a grumpy ass old man doesn’t keep him from being caring. He bitches about his kids but the devs say he goes to their apartments to fix things and check on them. Different people care in different ways.

There’s plenty of moments that imply her and Swansea have a half decent relationship. He’s the one she talked to post crash. Her and Swansea stand and sit together at the birthday and I believe if you talk to them she teases about how he likes the terrible cake. When he argues against opening the cargo hold she has no problem speaking back to him. Personally I think she freaks out so bad when he starts drinking the mouthwash because of his sobriety history, which she probably cares about.

“He didn’t help open the medical door” they never mentioned Anya or any risk. What Jimmy and Daisuke said 100% came across as just trying to get into Utility.

“He didn’t try to help Anya when they got in!” There was one person who was clearly unresponsive and one person who was in a critical condition. Basic first aid is to help the person who has a better chance at survival.

“He never mentioned Anya in his speech to Jimmy, only saving Daisuke!” In his speech to Daisuke he says ‘stick the kid with a bunch of sadsack adults’ clearly referring to all the Tulpar Crew. Yeah maybe he just meant surviving the crash, but maybe Swansea also meant saving him from wasting his potential in a dead end job had everything not gone to shit. It was too late for him to do anything for Anya in every way. Jimmy had attacked her months before, doing something after the fact wouldn’t help with what’d been done. They got into medical too late when she’d overdosed. And potential wise he probably did see her as a smart kid who applied and failed to get into medical school year after year, haul after haul, and watched her fall into her dead end job as a nurse on a long haul space freighter.

I think he did care about Anya. But we’ll never know because he wasn’t a direct enough part of her story.

[chimaeray]

Mouthwashing thoughts assembled from my Discord messages with a friend while we both go apeshit about it

Spoilers this is your only warning because I will be getting RIGHT into it. Things are not organized super well it's all braindump baby. CW for game topics including sexual assault, torture, and general misery.

Jimmy's so certain everyone is or should be like him that he can't imagine anyone actually caring about other people. From Anya asking for any help and care whatsoever being a nuisance to him, to Swansea keeping watch at the utility room just trying to keep Daisuke safe and put him in that cryopod once everyone else was too far gone. This is unfathomable to Jimmy, who's first instinct upon learning they were all getting terminated was to belittle and shame everyone as a way to guilt Curly further. Of course including Curly himself, who was struggling (kind of having a midlife crisis) and putting on airs to keep everyone else calm and okay for this one last job. Jimmy is so sure of himself being able to fix things like Curly does, and figuring out how they can "both be heroes in this," that he makes a dying man eat his own flesh and then freezes him under the idea that this is GOOD and RIGHT. He doesn't care about the misery and pain Curly is in at this point. At first he seemed happy Curly was helpless and incapable. He seems to take satisfaction in volunteering to force-feed those painkillers, after he ridicules Anya first. He's so sure Curly should be grateful and thank him for all of this. He can't take responsibility even when he kills himself, all he does is reassure himself he did the best he could at every moment and fixed it all in the end. Curly will be miserable for the rest of the life he may or may not have. Jimmy got his, alright. Curly was feeling unsatisfied with his life, so isn't this better now? Curly says he doesn't want his life to feel like something he has to escape, but now his own mutilated body is the prison. While he watches and hears everyone else die, and he can't even try to fix it anymore. He missed his chance to do anything about Jimmy before it was too late. And when Jimmy says he can still fix this, make sure they survive and will be okay, Curly wheezes and laughs at him.

My take on Curly is that he did his best by and large, but he valued his relationship with Jimmy and trying to salvage it more than he should have especially when Anya told him she was raped. He is still a man in a place of power that didn't want to rock the boat too much, and that ended up enabling someone that would rather implode the whole fucking thing. After everything Anya still chose to die with him. She loved him(in the very least platonic but I know romantic was teased), still felt safest with him, and wanted to keep them both safe from Jimmy. So she locked them into a room together to die, quietly, away from him. Even if that made Curly witness as she overdosed and died. She had the gun hidden away with them, out of Jimmy's reach. Until Jimmy manipulates Daisuke into crawling up that vent, sentencing a young and hopeful man to a miserably painful death. Jimmy doesn't even respect Anya's authority and capability as the nurse (at all) enough to have listened when she said the mouthwash would be too sugary to use as an antiseptic. He still pours it onto Daisuke's wounds, because his short-sighted selfishness used up the entirety of the last bottle of antiseptic they had to poison Swansea.

(Daisuke is literally in an osha training video that's like "If you know it's dangerous don't do it! Even if a supervisor says so!")

By the end Jimmy only feels guilty for some of it. He knows he sentenced them all to a miserable death but he only feels guilty for Daisuke, and then Curly to a point. He doesn't really regret Swansea that much, it seems mostly like he's bothered he got caught (Swansea even tries leveling with him, to some extent--somewhere between a confessional and a final reach to see if he can be reached at all). He only worries about what having to deal with a baby might mean for him, but he doesn't give a shit about Anya at all. She's a non-issue in his mind, just some pathetic and poor girl that couldn't even get through schooling. He's only worried about the fact that a baby means he'd have to be responsible for it, and whatever discipline may come from the last remains of the company for sexually assaulting the nurse. Her suffering matters so little to him, if at all even considering he smears her entirely out of his perception while looking for antiseptic.

He's such an unreliable asshole he can't even confront himself, he has to use Curly and Polle as his conscience in his hallucinations.

The party scene is so intense. What a way to illustrate how off the deep end he is and it feels deserved. It's not just used to show he's insane and trying to cope by pretending they're all alive. It's everything he wanted. Praise, adoration, respect. Part of what I think is very interesting is he refuses to admit they're fully gone, but he doesn't necessarily deny their appearances. He isn't fixing them to look normal in his hallucinations, it's still their dead bodies he's propped up in chairs around him. Like a really weird coping mechanism to assure himself that its fine, he did it, he did a good job. Now he just needs to eat and celebrate with everyone! They just need to eat a little bit of Curly, get through one more meal, it'll be okay!

[verdantwyrm]

Ugh, there's this recent Mouthwashing fic I saw on AO3 that's a time travel fix it AU where the premise is that Anya, Daisuke and Swansea get sent back to the past to try to stop Jimmy, but Curly keeps on ruining their plans. Like the description of the fic is, "5 Times Curly prioritized Jimmy, and 1 time it didn't matter." The fic is also tagged "Curly Bashing," and "Enabler Curly. " *Sigh* I'm so tired of this shit. The most annoying thing is that the fic is tagged "Parent Swansea," and "Protective Swansea." Are people forgetting he didn't do much to help Anya in her situation either? It seemed to me the only person he really cared about on that ship was Daisuke.

I took a quick peek at that fic and was very disappointed. I'm very tired of seeing people try to write out Swansea to be this amazing dad who cares, and it is true, while he does care, he doesn't view Daisuke or Anya as his kids, especially not Anya. Someone he's pretty abrasive towards in general.

This obsession to make someone the "hero" of the story when it's intentional that there isn't one, that the whole point of the game is that they're all flawed and that alone doesn't define who they are as people, that your worst moments don't make you unsalvageable.

Constantly trying to fit Curly or Jimmy into these finite boxes of "Good" or "Evil" takes away from what they actually did vs. what people want them to do. People of course want a hero that is strong, brave, courageous and someone that can stand up for themselves, subconsciously implementing these characteristics and traits onto characters that very obviously inhabit the traits that of a victim of psychological, emotional and physical abuse creates this expectation of a perfect victim, that if this character doesn't match to the exact expectation that you set in your head, they're no longer valid or worthy of victimhood and the 'safety' that comes with it, and worse they're an 'enabler' of their abusers because of their hesitance to end the cycle.

Constantly 'bashing' Curly is not going to fix anything, it's not going to unape Anya, it's not going to fix the system, it's not going to punish Jimmy, it's not going to prove to anyone that you were capable of understanding the game from a 'deeper' perspective, all this does is continue this cycle of people not caring about victims unless they fit their exact standards of how a victim should react.

Curly isn't a perfect victim, neither is Anya. They both had their moments of weakness, their lowest. And much like them, Jimmy also had his moments of strength, and his highest. Our worst moments don't make us monsters, but our best don't make us saints.

Swansea isn't this, all loving godfather to two fully grown adults who are more than capable of taking care of themselves. He would not kill Jimmy, he would not attack him or threaten him, and he especially wouldn't for Daisuke's or Anya's sake. In the final moments, what was he doing? Playing pretend hero when it was already too far gone. He had way more opportunity and chances to do something about Jimmy than Curly ever could.

He cared about Daisuke because he was young and had his whole life threatened and taken from him in such a short instance, it doesn't take a remorseful, depressed alcoholic to see that.

[ask-postcrash-curly]

Oh! I do apologize for the confusion. "Kind Words" is only a nickname, of course; it is how I first introduced myself to Curly. At the time, it was all that I wished to provide for him... some kind words. My name is Robin. Perhaps I should explain myself, if you would allow me. (Ah, and it would be so kind if you could relay this to Anya, as well. I did not get the chance to tell her as much when I spoke to her before. There was such precious little time, and I was... in a bit of a state. But I digress.)

By no means am I trying to proclaim prominence over Curly's birth mother. I know that I am not her, nor has it ever been my intention to "replace" her. (Oh, but I do not even know her name. How inconsiderate of me.) Regardless, I have come to love and care for Curly as one of my own, and I have taken on the responsibility of caring for him once he returns home... should his family be unable to. Perhaps this seems like a strange arrangement, yes? Heh! It is only fitting for the strange and lovely little family known as the Warblers. (Oh, dear. Kestrel just got through again the other night. I wonder if he can...?)

Still, it is good to hear that you all are well and recovering after that horrendous week. He will be so glad to hear of it. It has been—... It has been quite a harrowing time for Curly, needless to say. No, no, they have not told him anything at all. As I have mentioned, they ignore him and his pain. They insult him, they have yelled at him and caused him terrible fright! They have performed some kind of procedure that not one of us can determine the reasons for— aside from the appalling thought that they merely wished to silence him. And he is still very much lucid and aware, so terribly aware of everything happening around and to him. He has been in the dark, completely isolated for weeks, with only us to provide companionship. (And unfortunately, not all of us are as kind to him as myself. Some of the ones here like to torment him so. Do let Anya know, that is why he could not keep down the soup...)

It breaks my heart, as a mother of two, what little consideration he has had to suffer. It breaks even more knowing that he feels he must endure it because he is powerless to put a stop to it. Something must be done.

I am begging you, and Anya. I know that she has been trying. I do not— unfortunately I do not have any answers myself. Perhaps there are higher personnel you can report his atrocious nurses to, if they are refusing to let you see him. We are... we are clearly here now, speaking to you, for a reason. We do not "jump minds" willingly; I assure you that if we had such the ability we would have come to you long ago. (And I would have stayed behind with him. I cannot bear the thought of him being alone and terrified again. I cannot...)

Oh, and... please, do tell Anya that I said "thank you" to her. Truly. For saving my precious Grant Curly's life. For saving all of you. I am... horribly, horribly sorry that she had no choice in what happened to Jimmy. I prayed fervently that it would not have to come to that. But for his life, or all of yours... Thank you too, Mr. Swansea. I know that you tried to stop him, too, and it nearly cost you everything. I am nothing but grateful to the both of you.

(Ah, and one last thing! Pardon me if I — or anyone else, for that matter — begin to sound repetitive. We are working with a touch of delay on our ends! With Curly it is not as noticeable, since he does not require much in the way of "catching up." Anya can attest to having experienced the same bombardment. No getting around it, I am afraid! Hah.)

...Weird nickname, but all right. I've heard about you from plenty of the other voices by now. ...Yeah, hold on.

(Ey. Daisuke. You headed back to the room? ...No, you're not fucking going gambling. I don't care if you're old enough. Try and use that little noggin. You're lucky at board games, not— Claw machines aren't gambling, you goddamn idiot. Fine. Knock yerself out. ...Anya, one of 'em wants to talk to you. The kind words one.)

...All right, we're in the room.

Right, uh... She says she ain't trying to take over for his birth mother. So I guess the woman ain't dead after all. (Anya says, "Oh.") Good. Says she plans to take care of him if his family can't. ...Why couldn't they? No, that's me askin' that.

Hah. I was barely conscious for most of it, but what I can remember? Definitely horrendous. What do you think? The time between Jimbo's last stand and our rescuers. ...Anya doesn't want to think about it. Okay, yeah, our dear nurses—not you, the ones on here—are ignoring Curly, insulting, yelling, scarin' him... I told you— Well, I don't know, Anya, I ain't in there either. ...Anyway. Curly's lonely, big shock there, but he's got these fuckass voices, but some of 'em are assholes and— Huh? She said to tell you that's why he couldn't keep down the soup. What's that supposed to mean...? Wait, wait. One of 'em said somethin' about, uh, meat makin' him upchuck. You think—? Yeah. Shit.

...

She wants us to try and do somethin' about it. Says the voices are in my noggin for a reason. Wants us to report the nurses, or somethin'. Don't know how we'd go about that, though. Well, what are we supposed to say, then? "Hey, doc, your patient's got travelin' hallucinations that jumped to me and reported your nurses as pieces of shit"? Hah! That's what I thought. I don't like it either. We'd have to get in there, and the doctors ain't budgin'.

...She says to tell you thank you for savin' Curly. ...For saving all of us. (Anya says thank you and she was only doing her job.) And she's, uh... Sorry you had no choice in killin' Jimmy. She didn't want it to come to that. ...Anya says thank you. What, me? ...Thanks. Ain't no hero, though.

(Wouldn't you believe it, I've heard that one before too.)

[askhatchetfieldhigh]

what mouthwashing character i would assign all of you to

anya : grace

idk anya is responsible and rational and she has a lot of hope that everyone can survive on the ship. even if anya doesn’t have a canon religion i have a feeling she would be catholic and heavily confide in mama mary. anya usually has to do things herself (before the crash and after bcus she has to take care of captain curly) much like grace. grace can’t really rely on anyone but herself instances being bailey in working boys giving her the gun (even though *he’s* the cop), her parents refuse to help her through her adolescence where she experiences *natural* feelings, and the Jerrys at camp idontwannabang who don’t protect the children at their own camp. (grace is a little more outgoing than anya but that’s because anya was assaulted and always seemed afraid after that very very traumatic incident.)

daisuke : ruth

daisuke. honestly was gonna assign richie bcus of the obvious Japanese name but i’m trying to assign them by personality and not just for fun. anyways, daisuke seems cheery and outgoing on the outside (ruth isn’t *that* extroverted but she’s energetic most of the time) but he feels like he’s a failure. so does ruth because she wants to be seen. to not be ignored. ruth and daisuke both handle a lot of verbal abuse too sometimes. with daisuke getting it from swansea and also by being called a slacker once (most likely more than once) by his own mom. and ruth just being verbally abused by.. honestly everyone. she’s trying. he’s trying. they both are and they both have their own release and way to relax. ruth acts in shows, daisuke… drinks mouthwash. (ruth doesn’t fit *too well* with daisuke but they seemed like the fit the most with each other.)

swansea : steph

steph felt like the obvious choice. both being sarcastic and mostly being weirded out a little by everyone in their perspective group. despite that, both swansea and steph really care about everyone. having a tough exterior but being extremely selfless and caring on the inside. i mean, swansea was guarding the utility room and saving the only remaining pod for daisuke. so he could live, and steph for willing to sacrifice pete for everyone else in this town. and also risking her life and future by evading the fucking law. (okay, to be fair pete and grace also did that but no one is perfect okay! I can’t psycho analyze every character ever, c’mon.)

jimmy : max

this was a little hard. i felt that max wasn’t a perfect match but.. i can make this work. a reason why i honestly thought they were kinda similar is because they are both *extremely fucking deranged.* but they kill for different reasons. jimmy kills for his own happy ending. max kills for the fuck of it, or ‘for the greater good’ since wiping out every nerd is best for everyone. but one of the things that also sets them apart is that jimmy thinks he’s the hero. max fully knows that he’s a bad person. a villain. (i guess they both have god/superiority complex’s too.)

i’m sorry peter and richie you guys are nothing like curly or any other character. genuinely can’t think of a reason you guys would be assigned with curly 😭

(OOC: anyways thanks for reading me rave on and on about my favorite little indie game hyperfixation, idek if you know what mouthwash is please watch it before responding if u have the time. gl on ur theatre show btw)

11/14/2024

I don't do horror anything... so I have no idea what any of this is...

~ Grace Chasity 🙏

LETS GO I LOVE DAISUKE SO MUCH YESS!!!

-- Ruth!

I like Mouthwashing, so I'll take it.

> Steph

FUCK YEAHHH

- MAX

that's okay... I haven't heard of mouthwasking anyways, heh.

**Peter Spankoffski

I mean... I could be curly for funnies 😏

~~ Richie

OOC: Hey dude!! Thanks for this rant!! I do enjoy mouth washing, so this was fun to read!! Thanks sm <33

[livestock-and-bibles]

VERY curious about ur mouthwashing thoughts but also it’s been a while since ive seen the game so ive gotta rewatch a playthru augh

There’s a couple of reasons as to why I don’t have much interest in the game!!

1. Gameplay

I honestly cannot stand this new trend of horror games that are just the player talking to people, walking around, occasionally finding an object. I dislike this in the game Bad Parenting also. I’m like. Why does this have to be game? There’s no gameplays so what’s the point? I think it would’ve been more enjoyable as a novel or an animated series with the graphics it already has! It would be very striking. So yeah I find the actual gameplay very dull. Also the controls look really wonky from when I watched gameplay of it

2. Characters

I found myself not really caring too deeply about anyone? Like Curly is okay I guess, I like his design and the disability theming but his actual personality is so meh to me. Jimmy has potential but it never really explains why is inferiority complex is so deep so I’m just like ??? Barely any of the characters ever get and of their backstory or family life discussed except for Daisuke and Swansea but even then it’s very little (but those two are my favourite characters and I have very little criticism for them lol. They carried the game). I have so much hatred in my heart for the way they wrote Anya. It just feels so misogynistic to me. Like ofc the only woman on the crew has the rape as backstory + pregnancy plot. I’ve never seen that before /s. I’m just so tired of that being the only plot line women get in horror media. I understand the pregnancy is supposed to parallel with Curly’s disability but it’s still a very tired trope. Also her design is clearly ripped off of Wendy Torrance from The Shining lmao. There’s also a lot of other design elements that are kind of ripped off from Evangelion (the text on screen resembles the the title cards, Curly post accident resembles an Eva, etc.) so I just don’t really care about most of the characters and their relationships except for Daisuke and Swansea, and they don’t get enough screen time anyway lol

3. Plot

Most of the base plot is pretty good and interesting. It’s a solid premise. But I feel as though it’s kind of meandering until you get to the big twists. I was just watching like. When are we getting to the meat of the story. I do like the dual / non linear narrative, that’s always fun. Definitely some enjoyment was lost just bc I saw spoilers online, but I think a game is pretty weak if it’s enjoyment is completely lost because of spoilers, like I replay The Dark Descent all the time even though I know the ending because the story is that strong and the gameplay is fun. That’s where the game kind of suffers because the gameplay is so weak. Also I think the ending was kind of dragged out. I was watching the playthrough and I was just sitting there like. When will this be over. I get it Jimmy is terrible. We do not need five more scenes about this. There are some really fun moments though, like when he eats Curly’s leg or when Swansea mercy kills Daisuke (That’s always a trope I love) Though those are the only scenes I can remember where I was genuinely enjoying the game.

Overall I feel that the game was more style over substance, and a lot of it just wasn’t really my cup of tea when it comes to games. Don’t even get me started on how the fandoms seems to ignore Swansea (an old fat guy) and Daisuke (the only person of colour). Like y’all’s ageism, fatphobia, and racism is really showing guys. I see how y’all favour the white, conventionally attractive characters over these two,

I really wanted to enjoy the game. I really did. But alas. It just wasn’t really my vibe when it comes to horror games and I can be picky so it’s not to say that my opinion is the only correct one, it’s just how I feel. It was mainly the gameplay that I had a problem with, I just can’t get into walking simulator games lol

[animalsmadeoutofglass]

Erm

I don’t usually post my writing here but I thought I’d try posting something

Spoilers for Mouthwashing

Warning for: mentions of death, blood, panic, being drunk (in mention. Not moment.), Jimmy (I feel the need to put a warning as a joke but also as a genuine warning for anyone who played, felt triggered by the subtext and couldn’t finish or did and couldn’t stomach his behaviour.)

Please take care of your mental health first.

IM SORRY IF THIS IS REALLY EDGY OR OUT OF CHARACTER IM TRYING 😭😭😭

🌺

Daisuke’s pov.

It aches in my shoulder so much worse than I thought it would in the vent after I first felt it. The jokes didn’t seem to work at all this time and the results were even worse than I was hoping for. I can’t think and my head feels like it’s full of foam. I can’t focus. I can’t focus on really much of anything. Jimmy says something about being able to fix things again and to hold on, to not move. What else am I to do? I can’t even get a word in, can I? It all comes out like I’m drunk again on mouthwash. I can hear Swansea reply, he’s not happy. Hah.. of course he’s not. He’s probably furious because of that drink we gave him. I wish we hadn’t. There had to have been a better way, right?

She’s gone. Anya. I saw her; sitting there, lifeless with blood flowing down from her nose while Curly’s breathing seemed so much more intensified. I can’t even try to joke about this. Am I going to die? What about my mom? My home? My life back on Earth? Did I even have a real life? A real future? God, it hurts so much. The foam is filling up more and more in my head. My words aren’t even words when I talk anymore, are they?

Why does it have to hurt so much? Why did Jimmy think this would be a good idea? Why did I listen? I trusted him because I thought it would save Anya. I try to speak again, but I think Swansea tells me to be quiet. He sounds… sad. Quieter. He’s thinking. He’s got the axe and he’s watching over me while I lay and wait. Maybe I’ll be able to just.. take a nap and they’ll find a way to fix this. Even when they use mouthwash to try to disinfect my wounds, it just hurts. I can’t do anything but cry and let out some sort of sound. I can’t tell if Jimmy gave up or if he’s still ‘thinking’.

“Close your eyes, Daisuke.”

Yeah. That sounds nice. I can do that. Close my eyes and wait. Swansea kind of felt like a dad anyways. Maybe he’ll help.

I’m scared. I just wanted to go home. I thought all of us would be okay.

I just—

[phosphosuppmain]

I was writing this in the tags but I fear it's too long and important for that.

FUCK YES I NEED MORE PEOPLE TO BE AWARE OF HOW VIOLENTLY COMPLICIT CURLY IS IN ALL THIS. yes of course he's also a victim of Jimmy but if ANYONE ELSE (maybe not Daisuke-) was in his position THEY WOULD HAVE TAKEN FUCKING ACTION AGAINST HIM.

Curly knows what Jimmy did. He knows how wrong it is. And what does he do? Well Jimmy is STILL part of the crew, STILL co-pilot, STILL in the same room as Anya, stood beside her like nothing is wrong. Curly did nothing.

Don't get me wrong I am a massive fan of Curly for real but I DESPERATELY NEED PEOPLE TO KNOW HE IS NOT A GOOD PERSON.

Ok apologies for the excessive all caps lemme get serious a moment- if I can I'm on a bus and shaking and freezing cold. Anyway.

Curly has had every opportunity to take appropriate action against Jimmy but he hasn't, he also had the opportunity at the BEGINNING of their journey to not let Daisuke be on the ship. Daisuke didn't want to be there, the ship was built to cater for 4 not 5, all signs point to Daisuke Shouldn't Be There. But he is. Why? His parents wanted him to... But why do they have more say?

I feel it's because Curly is a fucking chronic people pleaser. Which me too babes but I'm not letting evil people get away with evil deeds. He wants to make everyone happy, but that's not possible in this situation. He makes Jimmy happy by letting him continue to be rotten and sacrifices Anya's happiness because she Seems Fine. It's only when she comes to him and tells him she's pregnant that he wants to take action against Jimmy- and even then Jimmy is the one who takes action because Curly is too much of a wuss to do anything. He doesn't want to hurt anyone.

And in not wanting to hurt anyone, everyone in the ship except him dies.

Of course he might die in the cryo pod, if nobody finds him or his injuries kill him or whatever but he's got a solid 20 years for someone to find him. And considering there was like a year or two or whatever left until the ship was meant to arrive at its destination it's likely someone would send a search party. And considering how much Anya cared for him it's unlikely he would die from his injuries- or else he would already be dead.

From memory there isn't overly much going on between Curly and Swansea but again I'm freezing my tits off in a crowded bus so do not take my memory to be good in this moment ahsbsh- BUT I do wanna touch on Swansea because he's so fucking well written it makes me cry.. I think with all his faults Swansea is the most merciful of the crew members. Including his lost sobriety and rage and constant axe wielding- he's a great red herring fo sho- ANYWAY he's a better man than everyone else on the ship and uh I hate the fact that the fandom neglects him quite a bit yet kinda idolises Curly Ty for coming to my ted talk I need a blanket and some food effective immediately.

I love the way that Mouthwashing uses Jimmy and Curly taking turns as the perspective character to make their actions not just parallel to each other, but hopelessly, disgustingly inseperable. The clear picture it paints us of how Curly enables Jimmy and how Jimmy guilts Curly into further enabling him. They both avoid responsibility when it really counts-- Curly through shows of appeasement and Jimmy through shifting the blame to someone else.

[ask-postcrash-curly]

Hello, sweet pea. Kind Words. Heh! ♡

How are you feeling, dear...? Any more comfortable now? I do hope so, after how harrowing a time being, ah, onboarded was for you... but I have faith that you are in good hands from here on out. (Not that Anya's were not, of course! But I agree that she does deserve some well-earned and long overdue rest. You all do.) As am I certain that Swansea and Daisuke are doing just as well as they can be. I can only imagine Anya must be fretting over them just as much as you are — surely she will stop by soon to give you an update. Perhaps all they need is a bit of time to recuperate, first.

Please, don't apologize for — you did not upset me, sweetheart. Yes, it does hurt my heart more than anything to hear you terrified and in pain, always, but that is not your doing. Above all else, I am just so overwhelmed with relief and gratitude that you are all finally, finally safe — after all of this terror and tribulation and heartbreak. Sometimes it seemed as if it would never end...

Oh, but my Grant Curly! I do not know whether to be cross with you or beg for forgiveness. Perhaps I will have to cope with both! Enough of the "real son" and "obligation" speak, I beg of you, I cannot take it anymore. I love you, darling, do you understand me? You are my son and I love you no matter what! Forever and always! Yes, because I wished to, because I wanted to! I have said it before and I will say it a thousand times more, if I must! I would not be here now if I did not intend to be here forever! I want to share my stories with you, I want you to be safe and sound in my arms, I want to tell you about all of the birds, and I don't want you to ever stop calling me "Mum"! Because I love you with all of my heart and soul, I almost cannot bear the weight of it! And that is just the same as I feel for Kestrel! I simply do not care what anyone else has to say about it, that is legitimate enough for me! Phew...

Forgive me for getting so worked up again, I - I could not get through to you after we last spoke, before the rescue ship docked. I do not know how Kestrel was able to, but he has felt terrible this entire time over it, too. He is quite antsy to speak with you again about it, but I told him to wait until you are ready. Regardless, the last thing either of us wished for was for you to spend any amount of time feeling as though we wanted nothing to do with you anymore. Especially while you were so afraid... it could not be any further from the truth, my love. Please, forgive me. I am so heartbroken by this promise that I cannot keep, no matter how hard I try... but if it is the price I must pay for the starlings to pave your way back home, to safety, then...

... You know, I had such the strange dream the other night, as well... I do not recall much of it now, but perhaps that is for the best... I do remember that it was quite distressing at first, though I just could not wake myself from it. I thought I had heard you calling me again, like before. And then... I felt like we were flying, you and I. How I had wished in the moment for that feeling to last forever. I would like to believe that... this means good things ahead, yes? The worst is... surely behind us, now. It must be.

Anyhow, I do not wish to worry you any more with the strange things that go on in my head, dear. You must still be exhausted. Please, do try and get some rest if you are able to. I must see to it that I can perhaps reach out to Anya again...? Then she will be able to inform your care providers about the pills and the lights situation. I do hope this works...

Oh, and — I love you, dear. I just wished to tell you again, in case your poor, silly head has already forgotten. I love you.

Hello!!

A bit. The light's still killing me, but apparently they... didn't mean to leave it on constantly? Meant to turn it off at night, probably. I guess they still have a day-night cycle on here. Anyways, the light's off now, thank fuck. One of them's sitting in here to watch me, I think. But he fell asleep. S'kinda nice. Can listen to the ship moving. Still not feeling... great. But better. (Of course, yeah. She's been through enough. That's surely why she hasn't come by. Just... resting.) Yeah... yeah. Surely. Right, yeah, of course. Just have to be patient. At least I'll be able to tell when time passes now, yeah?

Okay, but technically— yeah, fine. I'm s... I mean, thank you.

What— why?! ...Ah. Okay... okay... Mhm. Yeah, mhm... yeah...

thank you...

No, uh, that's— It's okay. Not your fault. Not Kestrel's either. Tell him we... we can talk whenever he wants, okay? And that the, uh, "we don't hate you" thing helped. No, you don't have to ask for any sort of forgiveness, all right? Didn't do anything wrong. It's just me and my bullshit. Not you, never you. Sorry, what promise...?

So you didn't hear me, then. Yeah, about that dream... You kinda, uh, projected the whole of it into my head. Hahah. Probably was me you heard calling, actually... I'd like to believe good things are ahead too. I really would.

Hey, no, you can keep telling me strange things. I don't mind it. Yeah, I'm... 'resting.' Staring at the ceiling. Can't fall asleep with the pain for more than a few minutes, but that's all right. Just enjoying the dark while it lasts. ...God, yeah, that'd be a big help if you can. If you manage it, please ask her about the others, too. So that you can pass it along to me.

I— I love you too. Thank you... so much, Mum.