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Has anyone wrote a fic where eddie finds out buck is spider-man after an accident that causes him to lose half his mask and eddie just happens to be there responding to a call?
#911 fandom#if no one has ILL WRITE IT MYSELF#BUT if someone diddd please send me a link#im losing my mind over spider man buck#HES SO REAL TO MEEEEEE#*falls over*
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“You know, I think you'd get along far better with someone like me than with Kalim.” “And what's wrong with that? I like the authentic Jamil much more, as a matter of fact.”
“You carry yourself like a goody-two-shoes, laughing off conflict with a flippant word or two. To twisted individuals like myself and Jamil...Ah, I mean, to calculating individuals, those remarks are like barbs digging under our skin.”
“Yes, I'm lucky...to have you for a partner, Jamil!”
#I could write an whole essay and then some on then#But like#esp on how Azul is the only one who really knows and deals with Jamil’s true self#Jamil has to be polite and nice with people#But he doesn’t have to be with azul#And-#i need to stop myself rn#Anyways#please please please dig into this there is a fuck ton of symbolism and details and PLEASE#PLEASEEEEE#IVE GOT SO MANY DETAILS IN IT#AND SPECIFIC THINGS#ILL ELABORATE IF YOU WANT#azujami#jamiazu#ashenviper#azul x jamil#jamil x azul#Jamil viper#azul ashengrotto#twst azul#twst jamil#twst#twisted wonderland#disney twst#disney twisted wonderland
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based on how i approach plotting ive come to the conclusion that even if i were morally and logically okay with becoming kira i would get the death note and think "okay, im going to make sure i come up with the perfect plan so i can't get caught", spend several months on it, refuse to execute it because it's not foolproof yet, and simply never get around to it. if ethics and reason didn't stop me from becoming kira then sheer procrastination would do the trick
#rookposting#lets track my major wips right now#p5 palace fic chapter 10 which im working on intermittently but stalled on again because of action sequences#death note canon divergence longfic which has two chapters written and more than 60 pages of planning#most of which is me cancelling my own evil plans out because im playing brain chess eith myself as L and light simultaneously#and death note ace attorney au which went from 'ill do one scene for fun' to 'this is a two day trial casefic'#'which will be interactive'#'and potentially playable '#i also need t o finish writing my job application.s. for fandom: my career#oh fuck and also redacted projects 1 2 and 3#3 being the one i just took on because im not BUSY ENOUGh
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I really like kafhoshi ... it good.... Ther s so much potential and so much material to work with AND YET THERES LIKE NOTHING!!!!! *Rolls up my sleeves* gotta do everything myself in this damn house...
#kafhoshi#kafka x hoshina#kafka/hoshina#jk jk i will not be doing everything. bc i cannot write. and i dont mean im not great at it i like have a legit mental block#ill draw tho!!!!!!!!! i will draw!!!!!!!!#i just think about... how theyre conpeting for the same spot (tho hoshina already has that spot hes fighting to keep it)#and how hoshina was the one to vouch for kafka to be passed as a cadet (partially due to suspicion of him but still)#and also indirectly says that part of why he did that/keeps him around is because he's a stubborn guy who never gives up and that reminds -#him of himself (bc hes been told to give up his whole life too and he still hasnt. theyre both stubborn bastards)#and that hes been ''taken in by his charm'' (along with everyone else cus everyone cant help but love him)#and also they canonically train together sometimes. alone. together. come on man thats such an easy target to make it gay#just have someone pin the other person to a surface while sparring and have there be Tension and Energy there. easy.#just come onnnnnnn if you dont have ideas ASK ME#ASK ME FOR IDEAS. ESPECIALLY FOR WRITING CUS I CANT DO THAT MYSELF I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD THO
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im feral about vox whump guys
#i love him#i love alastor too but for some reason i just cant read about him too much#i think i see too much of myself in alastor to want to read him lol#you hate something that hits too close to home#does that make sense#abyway if anyone has good radiostatic vox whump fic recs#do let me know#hazbin hotel#hazbin vox#radiostatic#one of these days ill make art!! and maybe even. gasp. write something!!
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They say you can tell a lot bout an artist by the way they draw themselves how do you draw yourself spitzy if you don’t mind me asking?
i have had limr one lther person ask me to draw myself so bere !!! me .. im just a happy jolly gay girl honestly with a los4r fashion sense im nkt too special i am literally rvery gay girl whos a loser boyfriend
#going to writr little facts aboit myself whatever#my handwriting is actually shit it takes me likr so long to write the dialogur#becaude i keep on wroting it teerrible#my college has asled me to write with a laptop for exams#they literally camt read it#i refuse to ise a laptip idont care i fucking HATE typing on laptops#i also never take off my coat#it was omce lime 30 degrees celsiys on emgland and i was MELTING#woth my coat on becauze i refuse to take that shit off#i likr rock congs !!! honestly any song with shouting ill like#i limr sex songs also !! my playlost has likr 3000 songs and most of those songs are just moaning#also hige fan of britney spears i knoe the lyrocs to ALL HER SONGS i mean EVRRY SINGLE ONE i know the lyrics#by heart
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No One Knows Idea
No One Knows AU where Sam and Tucker are there but Danny is sent to the ghost zone thus they think he's dead, call his parents down, they panic and get depressed cause their invention killed their son and give up ghost hunting and get depressed. After a few months Danny gets back to amity by using Vlad's portal (He moved to try to comfort Maddie and murder Jack) but he's stuck as phantom and like fights ghosts but he isn't all witty cause the poor teen has been pretty much alone and lost for months and is sure he is full-dead. Also he eventually finds his parents in their new state, Jazz is a mess and her grades are down the sewer (she no longer cares) and her relation with her parents are... yeah. Sam and Tucker are still friends but rarely hang out w each other cause it's just not the same without Danny.
Forgot to mention there's like, so much blood where Danny was and maybe even a few organs and that's why they think he's dead? He's half-dead now anyways he'll live.
#writing ideas#danny phantom#danny phantom angst#no one knows#danny phantom au#someone give me ao3 and ill write this myself#this has been in my brain for months#like before the graphic novel came out#i think its interesting but might be a mess
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theres this specific scene rattling around in my brain abt my pre-sburb universe focusing on bro and mom (rox/roxanne) when they were teens and young adults in the 80s-90s and its really burning a hole in my psyche but i genuinely don't think many ppl who'd read it would understand what im going for in good faith lol
#t#its gotta do with internalized transphobia and detransitioning. also mspec roxy#if masc roxy has no fans then I've been murdered bluh bluh yall know the drill#talkin to myself with this one#also very much an intersex dirk fic in tandem#lots of messy feelings and rox hurting dirk laterally again but in the prescratch tl#maybe ill write it anyway
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Absolutely devasted realizing that one of my favorite fanfiction authors has deleted both their profile and their works from both Ao3 and ff.net 😭 I feel sick thinking about never getting to read some of those stories ever again so this is a reminder to everyone to download your favorite stories from Ao3.
And to 8yearkeenler, thank you for sharing several 100k words with us, even if it wasn't forever. I meant every single comment I ever left saying how much I loved your writing and story lines. You are one of my favorite writers and I truly hope to get to read your writing again one day ❤️
#no one talk to me#im grieving. throwing up. crying in the club#i truly feel a little sick. its like a good friend has died#there were stories i hadnt finished reading yet and i only have one or two downloaded#idk that i will ever forgive myself for not downloading more or leaving comments on literally every chapter#😭😭😭#8yearkeenler#i guess ill never get to finish reading all 265 chapters of Random Keenler#ao3#fanfiction#commenting#writing
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every time i see someone online say they want mary jane watson in spiderman 4 even though michelle jones watson already exists i get so mad that i cook enough of my neurons to lose a year off my life
#x#theres so many bad takes out there but brooooooooo that one just makes me mad#if michelle jones has no fans then i am dead. the disrespect to my girl is off the charts#‘well i didnt like this version of mj. now they can write her out. and they should bring in another girl named mj. so peter can replace her#with a girl. of the same name’ like are u stupid. thats so stupid#disrespect to michelle jones aside i cant get over how dumb that would be as a plot. like that would make peter look like a huge dick#like Man im so sad that i lost my mj watson. wait nevermind heres another mj watson and this time shes white with red hair. like dude#u have to be fucking joking#michelle jones if nobody got u i got u#if i was good at writing id write a 100k+ word fanfiction of the whole trilogy from her perspective#and fill in all the parts of her life behind the scenes cuz rhe movies didnt#bless rhe movies for creating her but curse the movies for giving her basically nothing. cruel. ill do it myself (if only i could)
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A question.
We're in a situation where there is no more Fao and Finn.
Shiv has left, taking Fao and Ely (epoch's, but too much to talk to both of us), and leaving all our fics frozen still.
As mentioned previously, you can find shiv on ao3, but all of my work has only ever been on here.
Would people be interested in a rewritten situation where the Daniels etc remain (but without Fao obv)? Fao left in prev works but removed from future? Leaving the blog frozen with no changes or additions? Completely new characters on a new blog that has zero to do with the boys?
If anyone has any tips etc, they'd be appreciated.
#ev posts#faofinn breakup#this isn't how i expectedly the blog to go ngl#but i also didn't expect to be split up either tbh#we've got five years of writing every single day behind us#but now I'm not allowed to even message every day#hell even any week#shout out to mental illness for ruining my life again#ironically enough it wasn’t my depression that broke the straw#but i did try and off myself the same day shiv broke up with me lmao#and not a week has gone by without a tragedy#I've had too many deaths in the family#and three prealerts#two resus stays#and another three admissions#and not one of them was for my bloody mental health#it's literally a broken heart#they've actually genuinely considered it and it blows my tiny medical mind.
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//bear shifter seb//short comic
As a bear, Sebastian has periods where he doesn't remember he is human. Sometimes he wakes up covered in blood. He can change at will but he can't seem to suppress the change, to force it down. If he waits for too long, the outcome will get worse, days, sometimes a full week gone from his memory. The anxiety of checking the news after waking up naked, smelling of pine needles. The bear pelt he changes into always makes its way into his field of vision sooner or later and sometimes when he puts it on he finds himself consciouly letting go of his memories, fanning the flames of instinct to take over. On those occasions, he isn't scared of losing himself anymore, it's like he was always meant to be a bear, like the man's life was a bad dream. He cries when no fur covers his weak, naked body anymore, sometimes out of relief, sometimes mourning the loss.
#sebastian vettel#f1 art#tw blood#so proud of myself for finishing this!#so in my head bear shifter seb isn't set in lika a magic universe or anything like shifters are super rare to the point of mythical#however he also isn't really a shifter it's more like hes a berserker like germanic? mythology#as in like warrior who turns into a bear/has bear rage/whatever#it runs in his family#also theres a thing i started writing about mick coming across bear seb in the woods i think maybe ill post that one day
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thinking about them and banging my head against the wall again whats new. they are making me so emo. god. what the fuck
#ann plays fates#theyre like all i can think about rn#its that time of the year#i mean i think about them both constantly separately but its always when september comes#do i get hit with the laslow/nyx rarepair brainrot i think#that just lasts through fall and winter#not that im complaining. i think eventually i will have posted the entire fucking conversation#i cant help it. each part gives me a segment of dialogue to be ill about#i have ‘but with burdens so heavy dont you think we can lean on eachother a bit?’ on my wall#ROMANCE. TO ME (girl who is aroace)#also underrated thing about them i like how nyx flirts back#its more prevalent in their A support but shes so fun with him even beyond the bonding over traumatic pasts#i think with laslow he does a lot of flirting right bc hes laslow but a lot of the time its like#no ones matching his energy#i was gonna say match his freak but i dont think he has any freak if im so real with u#if he does its buried beneath five metric tons of shame and embarrassment#and i like how his… laslow-ness kinda gives nyx space to let loose if that makes sense#like he can match her maturity because he. you know. all of that#but hes still young and so she can find a little bit of reprieve from it all in his attitude and blah blah blah#if that makes sense#they r just so perfect. TO ME#ive only ever written and posted one thing for them but i have like five million (like six) things in my drafts i need to get back#into writing. rarepair hell gotta feed myself#also that was like two years ago it kinda sucks a bit but thats fine its called growth#i just miss them. i dont really have the brainpower to play fates but i have enough to think about them#i mean i played a little but ive mostly just been doing dumb shit with the class system and not rly playing the game#we’ll get to it#im supposed to be sleeping
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Jesus H Christopher, Pia. Your writing load is insane.
Maybe you should cut back on how many chapters you release for certain stories? Like Stain and Palma (since these stories dont equal income) until UtB the other Underline stories are almost done. Just a thought
Because I feel burnt out just by thinking of writing that much, so I can only imagine how you feel. Please take care of yourself
Hi anon,
TL;DR: My brain is stupid, which is why I can't do this, even though it makes sense and is logical.
Unfortunately the fanfiction is what often makes the original fiction possible, or more enjoyable.
If I lock myself down into too much schedule and rigidity, or if I only focus on writing for money, I actually start to hate writing, even if I love the stories. There is nothing like 'will this earn money, do people like this, would people pay, what if they all decide to stop paying for this, why would they pay for this, would I pay for this, how much would people pay for this, is there any incentive for them to pay for this, actually if I wrote a ton of different tropes maybe I'd make more for this, but that's depressing, but I need the money, shit what do I do, what if I lose my income, what if it all stops tomorrow, I need to write more, I need to write more, I need to write more' that is actually very exhausting and makes writing not much fun at all.
And to deliberately break out of that headspace as much as possible, I write fanfiction. Because that headspace (the one I wrote about above), on its own, even if I'm only writing two stories, can and has led to burnout and depressive episodes. I don't recommend it.
In a way, one of the reasons I can write so many stories right now (ADHD meds aside) is that I am letting myself break out and just have fun with fanfiction, and remember that my original writing is meant to be fun too. But without fanfiction, I lose sight of that very quickly.
Fanfiction means that when an original story chapter does super badly, generally there are still excited comments elsewhere that keep me going. That's how I survived The Ice Plague, and that story would never have been completed without fanfiction, because that was my worst performer of any story I've ever written. It also means if a lot of subscribers leave at once, I don't feel like The Worst Writer In The World. So having fanfiction behind me was like...a literal safety net or my security blanket.
If I have to discard my security blankets or use them less often in order to keep writing the original stuff, I might as well just stop entirely, because my longest hiatuses from Patreon (i.e. one lasted 1.5 years, many have lasted 4-6 months) have been when I'm mostly just writing original fiction, and am not writing much fanfiction, or not deliberately finding time for it, and finally get so stressed out re: money I literally have to stop. I'm on a (partial) Disability Pension.
A long time ago some professional people told me I probably shouldn't be working at all because of my mental illnesses and then paid me money because of the severity of those mental illnesses. My dumbass brain be pretty fragile, actually, and keeps chugging away because I make bad business decisions and write stuff I enjoy instead of writing to market, or doing rapid release, or releasing more novels (or novels). Writing does ironically help when I'm stressed, but not when I'm stressed about making money because of writing.
I will cut at my income before I cut at my love of this job, and unfortunately fanfiction keeps me going in this job, which means I can't really cut at that first.
(Also from a business perspective, it's actually a very good funnel to the original stuff and then subscription. Most of you wouldn't be here if you hadn't read one of my fanfics first and then gave the original stuff a try - I try not to think about that too much because I need fanfic to not be about money, but the fact is, I would not have this career without fanfic).
I do have plans to take two weeks off in January from posting chapters (I can still post rewards in the second half of January) and that's not too far away.
And the reality is that I probably would have kept going okay if real life hadn't imploded on top of everything like the world's worst bukkake party.
#asks and answers#personal#pia on writing#i am not a smart business owner#i'm an emotional fragile mentally ill one#who has to make decisions that keep me wanting to do this job#because at the end of the day#my severe treatment-resistant mental illnesses#do not do well with the pressure of making money#and feeling like a failure#so i need to actually do things that aren't about money at all#to remind myself that i don't need to have a breakdown#over never making a minimum wage#(i'm getting closer though which is probably why this burnout came on)#(i've been pushing a lot harder than normal because... well... i'd like to make#an average income one day)#(i may not be smart enough or well enough to do that)#(but i will keep trying)#i just have to keep trying as someone with a very broken mind#who copes with that brokenness through working hard#breaks are stressful and i have to think hard about what's best
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The weekend isn't enough I've literally been passing out on the bus.
#ive had a teacher encourage us to protest cause my school is so big. Like a very small town level of big.#may it be that I dont eat or sleep or drink water or water based things?#Maybe but like.#School is draining my energy to be a person.#Failure after failure ans I cant fix it.#Ugh#I need years of sleep#or just time to myself#Every minute of my day is overtaken with assignments and worrying#I already have enough to deal with.#I cant keep doing this and yet limitations do not bind me.#Sigj#I know I keep sayinf “Ill reach my limit and snap one day” but im a liar#Sadly Im infinately adaptable to any situation no matter the gravity.#I just keep living like the specter I am.#Odd how living feels most like death. I imagine death is quite beautiful.#In another life I would be a poet. To bad my understanding of whatever composition is is nonecistany#Would be fun to dabble in poetry. How many things are you allowed to do?#Cause I write and draw and I want to learn music so I think learning poetry would be excessive.#And I dislike the formats#Haiku are to short.#Sonnets are actual hell on my brain I nearly killed someone trying to write one#Sigh.#If only random musings could get mw somewhere.#i feel so joyless#manic's joyless rants#Please dont tell me how being positive would help me I will straight up kill you#Positive thinking evades me and always has faking a smile and acting happy is not a thing I have energy for.
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Boy King Seb :D
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#thank you to Grace for the idea of making his chivarly collar red bull instead <33333#he was gonna have both collars but then making that one made me suffer so no not today#this was a lot of fun but also made me suffer. but i keep looking at it and being like AAAHHHHH BABY!!! BABY BOY!!!!!!!#can you believe i tried to do this in one night? i cant#i stopped and came back to it and was like 'no way you could do this in one sitting at 1 am'#this is kinda the ascended form of that very first sketch i made for this au! concentrated boy king sebby!!!#i say to myself i need to take a break from drawing complicated things but youll prob see a nando version of this in less than a week ;;;#okay about the drawing(i wrote good tags and then tumblr deleted them so these are a bit inferior AGH):#this is typical pouty seb but is also referenced off a specific pic from AD 2009(beloved)#its very important to me how emotionally open Seb is. im not sure the specific context of this. maybe after a triumph?#but instead of being that typical stoic serious detached kind of ruler; i like him being openly emotional(think AD 2010)#its important as well for his dichotomy with nando and how they choose to portray themselves#seb is very assured in himself and his rule vs. nando who is more insecure and bitter about his#so nando takes strides to portray himself in that more stoic calculating way bcs he feels like it helps him legitimize himself better#whereas seb has absolutely no care for outward public image and shows how he feels and is loved for it(nando hates it but loves it)#not that nando cant be fun and whimsical!! but to me he always seems a bit more mysterious; like i can never tell his true thoughts tbh#anyways i feel like ill finish 10 more drawings before i end up posting the lore pt 2 LMAO#its just a lot harder to organize and layout compared to part 1 which was just an explanation#pt2 would be a mix of more world building/characterization/anecdotes ive talked about with mutuals(LOVE YOU GUYS!!!)#i have a *lot* of ideas (gotta whip out my notes app every once in a while to write down stuff abt it) just hard to put into a coherent pos#sebastian vettel#f1#formula 1#f1 art#formula 1 art#f1 fanart#formula 1 fanart#catie.art.#*ill prob make a process post later if anyone is curious!! its fun to write abt my process and influences and such#boy king au
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