#Failure after failure ans I cant fix it.
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The weekend isn't enough I've literally been passing out on the bus.
#ive had a teacher encourage us to protest cause my school is so big. Like a very small town level of big.#may it be that I dont eat or sleep or drink water or water based things?#Maybe but like.#School is draining my energy to be a person.#Failure after failure ans I cant fix it.#Ugh#I need years of sleep#or just time to myself#Every minute of my day is overtaken with assignments and worrying#I already have enough to deal with.#I cant keep doing this and yet limitations do not bind me.#Sigj#I know I keep sayinf “Ill reach my limit and snap one day” but im a liar#Sadly Im infinately adaptable to any situation no matter the gravity.#I just keep living like the specter I am.#Odd how living feels most like death. I imagine death is quite beautiful.#In another life I would be a poet. To bad my understanding of whatever composition is is nonecistany#Would be fun to dabble in poetry. How many things are you allowed to do?#Cause I write and draw and I want to learn music so I think learning poetry would be excessive.#And I dislike the formats#Haiku are to short.#Sonnets are actual hell on my brain I nearly killed someone trying to write one#Sigh.#If only random musings could get mw somewhere.#i feel so joyless#manic's joyless rants#Please dont tell me how being positive would help me I will straight up kill you#Positive thinking evades me and always has faking a smile and acting happy is not a thing I have energy for.
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