#if i was good at writing id write a 100k+ word fanfiction of the whole trilogy from her perspective

[ducktollers]

every time i see someone online say they want mary jane watson in spiderman 4 even though michelle jones watson already exists i get so mad that i cook enough of my neurons to lose a year off my life

[kawaiibarty]

the phantom's game

wow okay, this fic has A LOT of lore. if you don't want to read a fic with a plot full of Plot and Slow Burn then this isn't the fic for you. alternatively, if you're looking for a fic that reads like it should be shoved in the recesses of a dingy library then this might be the fic for you?

masterlist

the fic:

the phantom's game will be incredibly slow in the beginning because it's basically remus just getting his footing in the world of literature and it's building up to the main plot.

this fic will also be written in three parts (but it will be put all together as one fic in case you want to download it or whatever, it also makes reading easier i think) or at least that's the aim. it may end up being more than three (maybe four MAYBE) and the word count aim is around 100k to 120k words. ideally the fic was to have around 40/50 chapters but as of now im really uncertain about the length (even though i know how it ends lol) because, and im such a nerd for this, but i ended up doing some math about fic chapter length compared to the original work and so far ive gathered that for every 1 chapter in the original work i have 2 chapters for my fic and an additional 1.5k words. it took me forever to work that out please clap. counting words in a book is hard.

and also

i feel like it's a testament to the dedication im putting into this fic 😔

the point of view might change from third to first person after part one, which may be a bit confusing so im putting a pin in this idea for now as im not even close to part two (let me know what you think about this!)

characters/relationships

this fic is written from the perspective of remus lupin and the main pairing is wolfstar (remus/sirius). main characters are remus, leo ferox (from the fanfiction all the young dudes), and sirius black. other characters are barty crouch jr, lily evans and her father who is an oc; maurice evans and other characters will be added as i write because i cba to actually flesh it out rn (and also i dont want to spoil). there are also minor relationships that are discussed.

trigger warnings/content warnings:

there are quite a few things that happen in this fic that id like to forewarn you of should you decide to read it. there are discussions of abusive parents, substance abuse and violence. in one of the chapters there will be some dubious consent, drugging, there will be descriptions of murder and violence as well as discussions around mental illness and homophobia. discussions/mentions of suicide!!!!

i will be adding on as the fic goes because i know there is stuff that ive missed.

why am i doing this???

i largely wrote this fic because i got high on meds and some other stuff it was wacko and i had absolutely nothing to do. id completely given up in trying to recover my old zombie apocalypse fic (it's a long story) and i really wanted something that i was familiar with not just because i liked the complex and the idea but because i knew it. iykwim?

it's based on a book i read when i was fifteen that got me out of the second largest reading slump in my life and basically catapulted me into the genre of fantasy realism and the whole dark/chaotic academia scene. i also decided that i would continue writing it after my beta @thestrawberryapologist showed interest in it.

another reason why i continued it rather than trying to piece together a nonexistent zombie apocalypse fic was because i have recommended this book COUNTLESS times but it seems no one i recommended it to seemed to like it.

so this is me saying, very passive aggressively, that the plot IS GOOD :(

i smashed the original book in like 2 days and ive been thinking about it for four years straight. i haven't even gotten to reading the other parts of the series because im still hooked on how THIS specific one was written.

its also a really fun (and for me) a new look into the characters because ive really never written anything this detailed before. the plot is a rollercoaster and you HAVE to stay on your toes with the the original work and i would really really like to reflect that onto my writing.

this is also the first time since i was 15/16 that ive properly attempted anything full length with the means to actually finish it off.

when is it going to be finished?

that's a good question. and one i don't know the answer to. it took me 2 months to get to chapter 4 so... it may take a year or two or 6 months dude but it's gonna be long and it's gonna be full

please don't be shy to ask me about it (though that doesn't mean im inclined to spoil it — which i won't!)

[himboskywalker]

Seeing as we’re a good portion into December with only a couple weeks left of this truly abysmal year and in the meantime that you guys are waiting for an update from me,I thought I would give you guys a favorites 2020 list.Older works tend to take the spotlight in fandom favs so I compiled a list of some of my absolute favorites that were either entirely written or finished this year.Please note there are many many other wonderful fics written this year that I adored,and this is not a mark of lack of merit,but merely a compilation of top hits for me.

Obikin Fics 

Symposium by Intermundia--16,900 words--Rated E--Molly has written probably her own Odyssey worth of fanfiction this year and while technically everything she’s written would go on my favorites list,I can’t exactly have her entire portfolio as my list.But Symposium was her first work for the ship and is still my favorite of hers,for her loving discussion of Plato,and the alien/historical metaphors, as well as some good ol’ dom/sub dynamics.The whole fic is an absolute scream and I can’t believe it was only written in April for how many times I’ve come back to it.

Moment’s Silence (Common Tongue) by Gwendolyn (storiesofchaos)--8,164 words--Rated E--I’m a little biased on this one since it was literally written for me but seriously,Gwen reached into my brain and pulled every wire I have working.But this fic checks every box I have for Obikin,Anakin’s desperation and lack of control,Obi-Wan’s service dom vibes,dom/sub dynamics, and cock warming,honestly it’s like you guys get a personal scan of my brain.But Gwen did such a gorgeous job with the prompt and then some,and between the unbelievably hot Id pleasing sex,it delivers such love and care and intimacy as well,it’s everything I love about this ship wrapped up in 8k!

Come Down From Your Holy Mountain by Jotunblood--138,362 words--Rated M--When I think about this fic I revert to inarticulate noises and vague bisexual hand gestures.This was one of those stories I’m terribly glad I let be 3/4 written before I nosed near it because Sonny has the amazing ability to leave you breathless from the emotional intensity and tension of the story.This fic will wreck you in the best of ways,and is one of the few I literally cried while reading.It’s tender,and heartfelt, and as delicate as a spring bloom,all wrapped up in some absolutely gorgeous world building and prose.I am neither huge on post-Mustafar or bottom Obi-Wan stories,but for Sonny I make the ultimate exception.

Through a Glass,Darkly by glimmerglanger--49,383 words--Rated M--I’m a huge fan of anything glimmer conceives and is one of my few exceptions that I actively seek out their work when I know they almost exclusively write bottom Obi-Wan.And oh how fun of a dynamic this story is,with both Jedi Obikin and Sith Obikin,all mixed up from a mirror verse to canon.It’s a scream of a combination and goes to show you can have your cake and eat it too with both good and bad Obikin,and offers such a lovely combination of pining,longing,and desperation. This fic has such an intriguing premise and plays with it so well,but I also love glimmer’s writing for their Obi-Wan,who is every bit as tender and gentle as I imagine him.

Needing/Getting by chapstickaddict--134,784 words--Rated E (WIP)--This is another one I was desperately and I mean desperately glad I let get several chapters in before I started reading,it was bad enough staying up till 5am,100k deep only to be like AND?!?!YOU MEAN I HAVE TO WAIT NOW?!?!I am absolutely obsessed with this fic for many reasons,the force philosophy and prose,the truly gorgeous metaphors to describe the force and their minds.I adore this story too for the twins and Ahsoka and how wonderfully they weave into the tale,and Padme too in her own ways,which offers a rare but greatly appreciated story where she has true agency,even in death.But even beyond the beautiful prose and gorgeous descriptions of the force,I love this story for the electric chemistry between the two,even as Sith and Jedi.I love it for how effortless they fall into each other’s gravitational pulls,and how dynamic and wonderful it is to read them interact and fall in love.

Carrier by JSwander--3,366 words--Rated E--*Chanting* Egg kink-egg kink! But really this fic was birthed from the Obikin discord’s absolute obsession with oviposition/egg kink and Jesus Christ did Jo write it masterfully.This fic is not only unbelievably and scorchingly hot and just yanks at every string in my brain,but it’s also a wonderful combination of sexy and loving,which is my absolute favorite combo.Because sure Obi-Wan is capable of holding Anakin down and egging him speechless,but he’s tender about it,and it’s so beautifully written and everything I’ve ever wanted.

deep dive by amidnightlove--5,821 words--Rated E--And speaking of eggs lets throw in some shameless mermaid kink which had me all kinds of bent out of shape.This fic had no right to send me into the stratosphere like it did,but it was the perfect combination of mermaid kink,ovipositing,breeding kink,and that wonderful golden thread of loving/tenderness in Obikin fics that lights my brain up like a pinball machine.What it can be hot and they can almost cry during sex over having babies?!

hilt by Luckee--5,506 words--Rated E--This is one of those fics with such a seemingly cracky premise but Luckee literally always delivers and I worship everything she writes so of course I had to go and fall in love with it.Don’t be fooled by how ‘Oh Anakin’ the summary is,because this fic will tear your heart out and make you pine and hurt alongside him.It’s hot when it shouldn’t be,and when it’s not supposed to be hot you’re in tears from having every heartstring wound tight from yearning and desperation.Double whammy to every braincell I have for Anakin’s desperation combined with Obi-Wan’s service top vibes and gentle care AND suprise cockwarming.

Good Form by Ranianke--4,425 words--Rated E--(WIP)This fic *shakes fist* was a personal attack against my well being and hit so many of my kinks and Ids I felt called out reading it.But really I was promised filthy,shameless porn,and was delivered something more,because there is some astoundingly gorgeous writing in this to be a pornshot,with one of my all time favorite sequences for the pairing where Anakin seeks to reach perfection for Obi-Wan.It’s gorgeous, strangely moving and touching,beautiful to read,not to mention incredibly and wonderfully hot.

A Just Punishment by Achrya (Daiako)--8,482 words--Rated E--This fic hit so many things for me and really leans in on my shameless love for public humiliation for Anakin.Achrya really blends a lot of my favorite elements for the pair,Dom/Sub,Alpha/Omega,with some public discipline in the form of spanking,as well as some good ol’ fashioned embarrassment from being aroused in the first place.It does an excellent job playing with a lot of my favorite tropes,and ones we don’t see very often for this pairing,and it’s done so smartly and has just drawn me back to it time and time again.

Anakin/Padme/Obi-Wan

Charting Constellations Unseen by glimmerglanger--18,364 words--Rated E--This fic is just such a gorgeous slow burn of the triad slowly working through their feelings and finding one-another. I really enjoy long,ardous slow burns for this pairing,mostly because while I do love to ship it,I also think Anakin would have a lot to personally work through to reach an accord.Glimmer does such a wonderful job with this,and as I always love in their writing,doesn’t leave Padme out and writes her with such arresting sharpness and agency.

Exposure Therapy by Septemberist--10,183 words--Rated E--This fic does just...so many astounding things in 10k.Sure it’s incredibly,and I do mean incredibly hot.But it’s also a gorgeous and just wonderful character analysis of Anakin and illustrates him working through his jealousy and darker character traits,it also has him balancing on the breaking point while we are given a gorgeous scene of just Padme and Obi-Wan.It’s beautifully written,doesn’t feel like 10k at all for how you burn through it,and is such a deeply mesmerizing view of the characters,as well as being a deeply satisfying and ID pleasing threesome scene.This fic had me laid out on the floor feeling like I’d been clocked with a cinderblock,and takes me out every time I’ve reread it.

like a heathen (clung to homily) by jenmishe--13,486 words--Rated E--I love this fic not just for how extremely hot it is,but also for how truly funny and endearing of a read it is.Padme is such a fun and dynamic character in this story while Anakin is such a flaming disasterous mess,and it certainly doesn’t feel like 13k for how fast you delightedly burn through it.It’s sexy,it’s fun,but also it’s really heartfelt and a wonderful look at not just Anakin and Obi-Wan’s relationship, but Anakin and Padme’s as well.This fic,aside from the sexy times,gives me the warm fuzzies for how fun and playful a read it is.

Other Ships

Separate Ways by Pepper Prints (The Mandalorian/Luke Skywalker) 80,920 words--Rated E--I need you guys,and I mean really need,you to understand how much I fucking love this fic.This fic came highly recommended to me and Din/Luke wasn’t a ship that had crossed my mind,but let me tell you,it lives RENT FREE in my brain at all times now.This fic,is absolutely gorgeous and I turned around and reread it the day after I initially read it.The characterization for both Luke and Din is one of my absolute favorites and it’s a thousand kinds of arresting and endearing. I didn’t sleep the night I read it.I literally cried my eyes out and it’s not even sad,it’s just that loving and intimate and tender.This fic kicked me between the eyes and held me at gunpoint in a backstreet alley and now I don’t want anything else for these characters.The only thing I’ll say as a caveat for this story is that I do have some disagreements with how the Jedi are written,but I also think it’s easily written into Luke’s perception of them and how they are conceived after their demise.But that is not a hinderance of the fic’s worth,merely a sidenote for you guys with similar opinions of the Jedi as me.But I need every person I know to consume this fic so I can scream about it with others,because I don’t know if I’ve ever reached a finale scene in a fic and been so ready to have a full mental breakdown from the FEELS.

Sitrep: Tango Uniform by kaasknot (Bly/Aayla Secura)--8,143 words--Rated E-- I love this ship so so much and it honestly hurts my feelings there’s not more fics for it. (I say when I haven’t written anything for it yet.)I love the dynamic of Blyla and I really love the character voice that has developed for Bly within fandom and in fanfiction specifically. It’s incredibly fun and dynamic,and this fic is both wonderfully sexy and extremely funny.It’s bubbly and wonderfully gripping to read,with a good measure of situational humiliation to be absolutely delightful to me.

Flotsam and Jetsam by glimmerglanger (Cody/Obi-Wan)--53,831 words--Rated E (WIP)--I love all of glimmer’s Codywan fics,and theirs is probably my favorite for the ship,but this fic in particular has just clobbered me over the head with a brick.I am an absolute sucker for mermaid aus,why do you guys always gotta give me more kinks huh?But glimmer always does such a wonderful job of combining such intense pining for this pairing that I love.This fic is heartfelt and just breaks my soul in half from how wounded and scarred Obi-Wan is.It’s gorgeously written,a wonderful examination of Obi-Wan’s character,as well as a super fun and beautiful take on the mermaid trope.It’s ridiculously hot and just such a dynamic and enthralling read.

like a dark horse made of air by blackkat (John Antilles/Rex)--68,611 words--Rated E (WIP)-- Wondering who the hell John Antilles is?So did I,and after you look him up and give this fic a read you will be 100% ready to adopt this man.Blackkat is literally the only writer for this ship,be the change you want to see in the world,and it’s one you’ve never even conceived of but is all kinds of dynamic and interesting.This entire story’s premise is incredibly enthralling and is a great combination of time travel, excellent characterization of the clones,as well as a super super cool examination of the Jedi Order,but not just the main characters we see from the films.It also features a lot of Aayla,which is what drew me to the fic in the first place,with wonderful spotlights for characters like Quinlan Vos and Cody and Bly.

[kommakina]

my take on what makes literature good (this is just a rant i am so sorry)

before anything i would like to state that i have no degree, no expertise, no nothing. i am literally just a high school student so like take what i say lightly dudes, it’s all just a relative opinion anyways. this is just 1k of my opinions and thoughts ig.

i am going to start this off by saying that the best story i have ever read in my life is a 100,000 word bts fanfic. you can dislike their music, them as people, i don’t care, thats your right and your opinion that you’re entitled to. i’m not trying to change that. but the reason i say that is because, lets be honest here, fanfiction? a lot of the time it’s written by 13 year olds who haven’t learned the difference between you’re and your. no shade to those 13 year olds, though. i’ve been there, and i’m no grammatical saint either, but typically, fanfiction as a whole is a bit looked down upon because of this idealism that it’s all just shitty 1k first-person bullshit. contrary to the societal idea of what fanfiction is (because it is shitty a lot of the time), there’s still that golden story every once and awhile. for me, that golden staple was up we go. 

I feel like they, the author, encompassed a lot of feelings that i, myself, was feeling at the time at which i had read it. it described that feeling of being sad but having nothing to be sad about, that feeling of loneliness in a room full of people, hopelessness in a world full of answers. this 100k bts fanfiction put into words emotions that i didn’t even realize other people could have. it helped me to sit and reflect on my own life a little, think of what could make me happy, what could make me grow and flourish. the writing style in of itself was absolutely spectacular in capturing the essence of the story and these feelings, and even with the disregard of the craftsmanship of  the storyline, its foreshadowing, ect. ect., it’s still a beautiful story. yet even still, i find myself hesitant to tell people about my love and appreciation of this story because i’m scared of what they would think when they found out that i think so highly of a story that societally shouldn’t be good in any means. 

that thought process isn’t at all fair to the creators of these stories (btw here’s the link to up we go, fan of bts or not, i still highly recommend it - https://archiveofourown.org/works/12297168/chapters/27954360 ). they poured their hearts out into the creation of these works, and will never get the recognition they so deserve in the world of literature beyond tumblr posts and twitter threads. 

this is just going to move me on into literally the best page turner i’ve ever read didn’t even fucking have pages. it was a 200k fanfic, once again. the songbird and the sea. best fucking plot line and universe creation since tolkienism. i literally read it at every moment i could, even when i reread it for the tenth time, i still can never put it down. it brings the beauty of life and hardships to life in an exciting way- the kind of exciting thats hard to find in a book. it really was a story that held your hand through it’s pages, despite its coding. (odd place to put it but once again here’s the story, bts fan or not, high recommendation - https://archiveofourown.org/works/10795731/chapters/23946774 )

i haven’t been able to find a single printed book that brings me as much joy and emotion as these books, and i’ve read plenty of classics in my time. and then there were none, the odyssey, pride and prejudice, shakespeare sonnets, edgar allan poe, ect. ect.. i’ve read some of the most popular novels in modern history like twilight, harry potter, the fault in our stars, scythe, all of these books- but none of them have ever brought me as much emotion and happiness as two fanfictions i found on ao3. that kind of thinking kinda leads on into - who decided these books were good? what decided they were the grounding for movie franchieses that make more money in a year than yemen and panama’s national incomes combined? 

really my question here is this, and i highly recommend you sit and recollect on this yourself, please add your own thoughts, id love to hear them, but- 

what makes literature good aside from a societal view?

honorable mentions of fanfiction authors that make me happy-

fruitily on ao3 - https://archiveofourown.org/users/fruitily/pseuds/fruitily

their twitter - https://twitter.com/fruitilys

notyoongs on ao3 - https://archiveofourown.org/users/notyoongs/pseuds/notyoongs

their twitter - https://twitter.com/tododucks

arobeebee on ao3 (has a lot of nsfw stuffies on there but also has more wholesome stuff so yeah take that as you will) - https://archiveofourown.org/users/Arobeebee/pseuds/Arobeebee\

her twitter (is a nsfw twitter im sorry i dont know if she has another one this was all i could find) - https://twitter.com/arobeebee

MENTIONED LINKS:

Oh_Hey_Tae on ao3 (up we go) - https://archiveofourown.org/users/Oh_Hey_Tae/pseuds/Oh_Hey_Tae

their twitter - https://twitter.com/oh_hey_tae

maia_archives on ao3 (the songbird and the sea) - https://archiveofourown.org/users/maia_archives/pseuds/maia_archives

i cant find any of their socials im so sorry lol