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Hey everyone! this is where the zebra is currently with the design.
It has knee braces!! I will most probably be drawing the zebra usually with them on, but it’s no requirement, for example if anyone else wants to draw the zebra :-]. I always like to make sure an animal design has official colors underneath any clothing and accessory anyway. I think this will be final! thank you everyone for your feedback!



As a reminder, aside from why the zebra was requested for this flag, this is also just a zebra with the disability pride flag on it. It’s just a deisgn to fit the flag, with input from other disabled people in our community. It doesn’t mean other animals can’t have designs with these colors, too! I don’t mean this design to be the only mascot for all disabled people. It’s just a silly series i do of pride animals, and at the time, during disability pride month, I wanted to see what everyone wanted me to start off with for this flag!
the goal with my pride animals is to take requests and make people feel happy and seen.. that’s all <:-)
#disability pride#pride animals#disability#disability pride flag#zebras#I’ve been a little stressed about this animal for the past week.. I will be honest with you#The zebra has many stripes and I wanted to try my best to make sure it wouldn’t cause issues like headaches or other things#also.. if]ve been working on this for a while now.. i want to call it done soon!#But now that this is finished#I will start designing stickers and pins to put on redbubble and also for me to print IRL!#thank you everyone! I’ve also learned more than whatbI already knew this week#Even if it was stressful it was fun to see everyone get so excited when I would show updates to the designs#Sorry for a long speech.. I am a very nervous person today#Excuse my typos! I’m a fast typer and tired from the day#ebonytailsart#Thank you yomcloud for giving me your feedback as well. I don’t have a lot of perspective on visual processing disorders and photensitivity#so it meant a lot to me#just like the other pride animals I am very open to making more animal designs for this flag! But I’d like to save it for the future instea#It’s a bit too soon at the moment. thank youuu
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leo leaving foolish a sign like all the others, leaving the most concrete out of all the messages, but no one comments on it. foolish, dead quiet after asking for a direct translation, as the others come in, take note of the sign, and then continue on to other topics. forever coming up, asking if this is anything new or “just another sign”. baghera and fit, the only ones asking if he’s okay, and he just brushes it off, because of course he would, it’s foolish, and it’s easy even though it’s entirely unconvincing and obviously a lie, because everyone else is talking over them anyway. etoiles not even checking in, just pulling him aside to accuse him of federation bullshit. everyone proceeding to talk about crimes in his tower, sitting right on the concrete trail. mouse in the cappy place, saying foolish doesn’t even care about leo, he doesn’t care that she’s gone, and foolish goes quiet for a full minute, until he can find some joke to latch onto and start deflecting again. I can’t take it anymore I’m at my limit.
did anyone other than foolish know the significance of the amethyst, and take note, like they did with the other eggs and their left behind items? or was it just him, alone later on, repeating always juntos to himself as he looks at the message again.
#jmgoing to be sick#everyone else gets condolences gets oh this is significant. he gets ‘just another sign’. just another sign just another sign just another s#does anyone else know what’s important to Leo? everyone else is like oh their beloved items I’m so sorry w Tallulah chayanne and Ramon but#with foolish and leo. god. foolish who is so severely misunderstood on the server. leo who was always so afraid she would just be brushed#aside not making friends. the odd egg out. what the fuck man#and Roier too. throw in the whole family. what’s up with this man I’m sick I’m tired#foolish going quiet when he’s upset. when he’s emotional. and everyone taking it as he doesn’t care. like what is this man#or nervous laughter before silence. like you’ve known him long enough to know it’s not because he’s actually amused!!! god!!!!!!!!!!!!#I’m just upset ok I’m upset I’m upset I’m upset#‘just another sign’ fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you#qsmp#mcyt#foolish gamers#q!foolish#q!leonarda#z speaks
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PSG ain’t ready for the doggs 💪🏻
#Joao is always on his phone 😂#who’s texting him I’m very nervous about that#Pedri better put that beard on the pitch because im tired#basically just cousins having a trip with their uncle#i miss you gavi 🤍#nah fdj is way too old to be with this group 😂#no matter what - we will always love those boys#gavi#pedri#joao felix#ronald araujo#robert lewandowski#fc barcelona
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finally in bed, about halfway unpacked. all my clothes r out at least, it’s mostly just getting tech set up + decorations that i have left. my head hurts (tired), my legs hurt (sore from squatting and lifting), and i really need to purchase both a mattress protector and a foam cover (uncomfortable), but hey i’m here
#marzi speaks#i’m really really tired and like. more than a little nervous#i feel like. i’m not ready. even though i am. even though i’ve done this before#i dunno. i’m scared i think#which. scared happens. i’ll probably call my parents tomorrow if i have time#my other roommate shows up tomorrow tho so we’ll see#i need to make a target run too. gotta get some essentials#like a shower curtain. and a bath mat. and towels. and maybe laundry detergent? i’m not sure what our sharing rules are yet#i dunno. i just feel….. weird. i feel weird and odd and it’s kind of uncomfortable. but i guess i shouldn’t be surprised. this is scary#i have to vaccuum and clean tomorrow too which i’m just. not looking forward to even tho it shouldn’t take long#i just like! don’t wanna! i’m really really tired#i’ll probably feel better in the morning?#it’s just. a lot of big days in a row and i don’t always have that kind of energy#sorry for the stressposting i’m just. ghhh. yanno
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I’m trying to clear out my drafts, so have the alternate version of this <3
Even on quiet days where Eddie should, theoretically, be able to take time to himself, he finds that it’s nearly impossible.
The guys had pulled him aside early on and explained hey, they were mostly cool with Steve, as long as he didn’t talk too much when he was around. Billy was almost completely out of the question. It was kind of an ultimatum, made in the privacy of Gareth’s garage one afternoon.
It’s them or us, is what Eddie took away from it.
Try as he might, Eddie has come to find out the hard way that he can’t keep his two worlds separated. His partners are sure to discover that his friends don’t like them even if he doesn’t say anything, and his friends are stubborn enough to stop inviting him out because of it.
He eventually stops trying so hard to convince Gareth, Jeff, and Grant that his partners are okay dudes, and that turns out to be the right decision.
Because apparently this shit has to happen organically.
As the movie wraps up on screen, Gareth stretches where he sits in the recliner, pausing with his arms in the air like he just realized there’s a lion stalking him. Eddie quirks a brow, confused, until he realizes.
About halfway through the second movie in their marathon, Billy had wandered in soundlessly. Settled beside Eddie on the loveseat and leaned into his side, welcomed with an arm around his shoulders, and promptly dozed off. In all honesty, Eddie kind of forgot that he was there.
He’s been cradling Billy like it’s second nature. Threading his fingers through his hair and scratching softly at his scalp, keeping him humming happily and hugging Eddie like he’s a body pillow.
“Dude,” Gareth hisses.
He dawns a look of tired frustration, and Eddie rolls his eyes.
“What? He’s not bothering you,” he whispers.
Grant and Jeff seem just as caught off guard as Gareth was a moment ago, but Eddie keeps coddling his lover anyway. Even when Gareth narrows his eyes.
“But this is our movie night.”
“I promise you, he hasn’t been watching.”
There’s a moment where nothing is said. The credits are rolling on the screen, and Eddie and Gareth just stare at one another for a long beat. Eddie wants him to say it.
He’s ruining it just by being here.
“Guys, c’mon,” Jeff intervenes. “Let’s just put in the next one, yeah?”
Grant nods enthusiastically, but all efforts of distraction go ignored. Gareth crosses his arms.
“It’s like you don’t like hanging out with just us anymore, man,” he grumbles.
A wave of clarity washes over Eddie in an instant, and he bites back on a smile.
He’s fucking jealous.
“So that’s what this is, huh?” Eddie muses.
“What?” Gareth snaps.
“Y’know, if you actually gave him a chance, you’d probably get along with him. He’s super easy. Easier than Steve, even.”
Grant sits forward at Eddie’s other side, peering around him to get a look at the sleeping blond.
“Steve is more approachable,” he concludes.
Out of the few times that Steve has been around during a game night or a movie marathon, he’s always been awkward. Maybe the guys don’t see it the way that Eddie does, but he tends to talk to them like he talks to Dustin. Lots of things like what’s up, big man are said and nodding is done when he doesn’t understand a reference or joke.
Maybe they think that Steve is just naturally easygoing.
It’s especially funny, because he just so happens to be the most nervous person that Eddie has ever met in his life. He hates being around Eddie’s friends as much as they hate being around him, if for no other reason than he isn’t quite sure how to act around them.
But they don’t need to know that.
“Nah, he just looks a little intimidating, that’s all,” Eddie says, still carding his fingers through Billy’s hair. “He’s a total teddy bear.”
Gareth barks out a laugh, his face paling a bit when Billy stirs at the noise. Clutches onto the front of Eddie’s shirt with an unforgiving grip as he shoves his face further into the crook of his neck.
After he falls still again, his fist relaxing, Eddie gently guides his hand away and smooths out the front of his shirt.
“He’s an aggressive cuddler,” he dismisses.
“Right,” Gareth huffs. “I’m sure he’s sweet to you, Munson, but I don’t really plan on testing the waters with it.”
“Do you really think that little of me?”
“What?”
Eddie presses his lips into a line and sighs. Looks down at Billy’s sleeping face, studying the faint sprinkle of freckles on the bridge of his nose.
“You think my taste in men is so terrible that I’d date any old piece of shit.” Eddie makes pointed eye contact with Gareth, who swallows thickly. “It never occurred to you that maybe, considering I like him, he can’t be all that bad?”
Gareth opens and closes his mouth, and huffs irritatedly after a moment.
“I’m just wary of his type is all.”
Now Eddie laughs, and subsequently deals with Billy clutching at his shirt as if to say keep it down again.
“See, now you’re just doing what the vast majority of people do to us,” Eddie muses. “Kind of hypocritical, no?”
The tv screen goes blank as Jeff removes the tape. He doesn’t reach for the next movie just yet, probably waiting to see how this conversation plays out first.
“In his defense,” he begins. “It’s usually guys like Hargrove that rag on us for being different, so you can’t really blame us for being wary of him.”
Gareth and Grant both nod in agreement. Eddie sighs.
“Fair enough. I’m telling you, though, he’s a sweetheart.”
“I’m gonna need some proof.”
All three of his friends stare at him expectantly. Eddie feels the end of this interaction rapidly approaching until an idea blossoms in his head, and he stops petting Billy’s hair. Lifts his arm up and rests it on the back of the sofa, depriving the blond of contact, and smirking deviously as he begins to stir.
If for no other reason than the guys all look like they’re ready to bolt.
Billy cracks his eyes open, sitting up just enough to peer up at Eddie’s face as he splays a hand against his sternum.
“Was I snoring?” he asks, voice groggy.
Rubs at Eddie’s chest with a heavy hand, looking like he’s fighting to stay conscious as he waits for an answer.
“No,” Eddie says, and resists the urge to chuckle.
Billy sighs. His eyelids are heavy, palm rubbing in circles as he thinks for a moment. Then his eyebrows are furrowing.
“‘M I bothering you?” His movements halt for a moment. “Should I go to the room?”
“No, no, baby, you’re not a bother,” Eddie coos.
Billy nods, but his lips press into a frown as he pouts. Begins rubbing at Eddie’s chest again.
“Then why’d you stop lovin’ on me?”
The question is so earnest and he looks so betrayed while asking it that Eddie can’t help but smile and open his arm around him again. Coaxes Billy back into his side where he’d been pressed before.
Once his face is tucked into Eddie’s neck again, he melts instantly. Slumps into the brunet and hums a happy noise when fingers push into his hair once again.
“I’m sorry, Bills, I’ll keep loving on you.”
Billy drapes his arms around him. Gives him a squeeze before his muscles are all going limp, and Eddie is left scratching softly at his scalp as his breath evens out.
As if having proven his point, Eddie fixes Gareth with a look.
“Teddy bear,” he whispers.
Maybe he should’ve let Billy’s actions speak for themselves a long time ago, because the air of fear is no longer present in the room. Simply because Billy is all but purring and snuggling as hard as he can into Eddie’s side like a clingy cat.
“Dunno why, but I thought he’d be the type to get pissed about being woken up,” Grant says quietly.
Eddie hums amusedly. Tilts his head against Billy’s and noses a kiss into his hair.
“He’s normally a little moody in the mornings,” Eddie says. Keeps his nose buried in blond curls as he breathes a dreamy sigh. “It’s nothing that pancakes and coffee with extra creamer and sugar can’t fix, though.”
For once, when Eddie glances over, Gareth doesn’t look beyond pissed off. His expression is more neutral now, and it stays that way even when a door closes somewhere beyond the kitchen.
Steve pads into the living room, rubbing one of his eyes with the heel of his palm, and comes to stand beside the couch. Spreads a smile when he spies the couple on the sofa.
“I was wondering where he went,” he muses.
“Were you not cuddling him good enough or something? He’s been in here for a while,” Eddie chuckles.
Steve puts his hands on his hips and tilts his head to the side.
“I think he just missed you.” He sits on the armrest and reaches over, gently tucking Billy’s hair behind his ear. “Kept feeling your side of the bed and grumbling when you weren’t there.”
The information has a pang of sadness piercing Eddie’s chest. He holds Billy tighter and squeezes a surprised little grunt out of him, but the blond is quick to reciprocate. Nuzzles his face harder into Eddie’s neck and leans more heavily into his side.
“Did you come out here to take him back?” Eddie asks.
He flushes a bit red when he hears the shake in his own voice. Steve spreads a sympathetic smile.
“I figured, since…” he trails off, gesturing loosely around the living room. “You’d, y’know, want the room to yourselves.”
Eddie pouts at the thought of his sleepy boyfriend getting taken away. Momentarily considers calling it quits for the night so he can go snuggle Billy in the comfort of their bed, until Gareth clears his throat.
“It’s alright if he stays, or whatever.”
All eyes snap to him, and he crosses his arms over his chest nonchalantly. Eddie bites back on a grin, especially when he looks around and doesn’t see that either Grant or Jeff protest the claim.
Steve sighs and stands up.
“You okay if he stays?” he asks.
“Mhmm,” Eddie hums. Keeps his eyes on Steve as he rounds the sofa and leans over the back of it, draping his arms around Eddie’s neck. “You can stay too, if you want.”
Slender fingers tilt his chin up, and they meet in a soft kiss. Only parting when their smiles ruin it.
“You’re such a good boyfriend,” Steve coos.
“Yeah?”
“Uh-huh.” Another kiss is planted on Eddie’s lips, and he can’t help but melt a little. “I’m gonna pass, though. Pretty sure you guys wouldn’t appreciate me snoring over the movie.”
Steve chuckles when Eddie pouts, leaning down to smudge a few kisses in Billy’s hair before he turns to pad out of the room.
“Goodnight, Stevie,” Eddie calls. “Love you.”
“Mm, love you, Stevie,” Billy grumbles.
In an instant, Steve is leaning over the back of the couch again and smothering them both in more hastily-placed kisses. Billy spreads a lazy smile and Eddie giggles until their lover ceases the affectionate burst.
“Hurry up and finish your movie night so I can cuddle with my boys,” Steve says.
Eddie hums when he’s given a squeeze for emphasis from Billy.
“Yes sir.”
#harringroveson#metalsandwich#steddilly#rewrite? ish#fluff#mild angst#billy hargrove#eddie munson#steve harrington#background corroded coffin guys#I didn’t think I’d post this version but I’m tired of seeing it sit in my drafts#so here it is! the same-ish ficlet again minus chubby Billy bc I was too nervous to add him in#my writing#ficlet#god i’m so tired
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The fun thing about having untreated narcolepsy is that on days like today where I haven’t gotten enough sleep at night for the last few weeks, I sometimes won’t notice I’ve just had a sleep attack until I am suddenly very confused by my extremely trippy train of thought about carnivorous horses & then realize that in the moment I had closed my eyes while scrolling tumblr, I had pretty much immediately started dreaming without my awareness of my thoughts shutting off.
#tbh despite my nervous system’s complete inability to properly sequence & execute sleep phases#I’m just glad don’t get sleep paralysis#or hypnagogic/hypnopompic hallucinations#that a good number of other narcoleptics wind up with when their brain messes up the order of sleep state changes & dreaming#like I’ve got plenty of borderline paranoia from my lifelong anxiety disorders thank you#don’t need to start seeing things while partially asleep as well#man there’s definitely potential for some sort of spirituality in how blurred the lines between waking & dreaming are for me#unfortunately the narcolepsy-induced chronic sleep deprivation leaves me way too tired to figure it out#narcolepsy#sleep disorder#astral rambles
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someone’s donated a vintage (my guess late 60s or 70s) rocking horse and not to be a child but i wanna buy it sooo baaadddd its so cute oh my god .. i have literally no where to put it but i’m obsessed
#it came in and my volunteers and i got all excited because its soo nice#it is in perfect condition too !!!#they all then told me to sit on it .. 🧍♀️ urm.#i did though lmaoooo wow. i had a little rock and yeah if i had one of those as a kid maybe id not be wanting this one while in my 20s ough#anyway. i’m beyond tired today but im actually having a really nice day !!!#my area manager is coming in in a few hours though because we’re having a ‘chat’ just us two#i’d normally be nervous but rn i feel good#and honestly i’ve been feeling .. a lot better.. i guess lately. i’ve been feeling pretty good… hmm. anyway
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It’s always fun when like. In the moment I’m sitting there like “damn I’m way overreacting to this. This situation isn’t actually that bad and I’m getting upset over nothing because I haven’t had enough food or water or rest”. But then once I’ve had some food and some space away from people and a nap and some water and some more food and some time of just being silly. And then I revisit what happened and I’m like “oh wait no that like actually genuinely sucked so so so bad holy fuck. How the fuck was I acting so normal because that was not a fucking normal situation”
#multiple cases of this today#I just thought I was grumpy cuz I was tired from being too nervous about presenting to get much sleep#but no like. genuinely that shit was fucked#I think. I do not want to try playing new jackbox games with people unless they let me watch other people play a round of it first#so I can understand what the hell is going on#and also. hearing a robot voice alternate between reading peoples guesses of ‘harry potter’ and ‘elprup you suck at this’ was uhhhhhh BAD#I can’t really do anything about the jerk in my group project whispering during Literally Every Other Presentation#(so constantly and so loudly that my teacher turned around and did a hand-slicing-throat gesture at her)#which was. mortifying to sit near. because I’m now associated with that behavior since we’re in the same group#but I Can do something about the game thing. which is at least something#idk I’m just. I’m sad. I napped so I can’t really go to bed and sleep this off#its 1am so I don’t wanna do much of anything in case it wrecks my sleep schedule#but if I lay down I’m worried I’m gonna start rotating this stuff over in my head#which doesn’t sound very fun
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Ok maybe a weird question but maybe not because I’m stressing about it now but
Do I come off as aloof? Or something like that?
Feel free to answer on anon if you feel more comfortable. I’m just out here stressing over my general affect again. 🥲
#general vibes#question#autistic things#sorry if this is random I just uh#someone said a thing that sounded like they thought I was like#’popular’ or something and they said they were too nervous to talk to me#and now I’m like: 😰#if I do give off that vibe I’m really sorry#I promise I don’t think I’m better than anyone 🥲#I’m very tired and in a lot of pain and very sick#so I think my#tone maybe gets flat?#or maybe it’s how I talk?#I don’t know#but feel free to let me know#and I’ll work on it
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what do we think abt the drivers starting around oscar…

#let’s just say i’m nervous#😀#seriously i’m gonna need some master overtaking from oscar#i’m too tired for this#f1#oscar piastri
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Thinking about that one post saying that Bad and Tubbo will have to take turns picking which green team player they want to take (like dodgeball)
Etoiles, Roier and Fit are prime targets given how good they are at PVP
Etoiles I could see being picked first by either, Tubbo having the extra weight of wanting to make it up to him
Roier is likely second, but I think Tubbo if given the opportunity wouldn’t go for Roier since he knows how much he means to Cellbit. This also applies to Philza picking Roier
Fit I could see ending up with Tubbo either way, unless Tubbo throws a curveball
Bagi and Forever are really dependant on who goes first. Philza is friends with Forever but he might be inclined to get Bagi for Cellbit given how much he puts his team forward and depending on how much he knows about their relationship. Tubbo also likes Forever and Bagi, tho I could see him letting Forever join the other team as a dig at Bad
I can see Philza going for Ironmouse, while Tubbo has to pick between Mike or Max
Both of them are fighting the entire time over who gets ElQuackity and begging the Eye to just yeet him off the island, before Philza decides it’s a fitting punishment for Soulfire
#qsmp#team soulfire#team bolas#qsmp theory#I probably missed some players but I’m too tired to check#will the teams be split? who knoooows#honestly I’d be kinda nervous about new members joining Blue#don’t really wanna watch Blue get attacked inside and out
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I know now what no angel knows - Epilogue: Easy On Your Own?
avatrice wings of desire/fallen angel au
Fandom: Warrior Nun
Ship: Ava Silva x Sister Beatrice
Rating: M
Word Count: 18k (sorry lmao)
Notes: The End!!!! No more!!!
#i am !!! so tired!!! so sleeeepy!!!#enjoy!!!#im nervous#warrior nun#avatrice#ava silva#sister beatrice#wings of desire au#ava x beatrice#warrior nun fanfic#avatrice fanfic#I’m too tired to fix the link just .. idk just find the epilogue I’m so TIRED#gnight#time to honk shoo mimimimimi
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btw mentor!miguel is very important to me. In my heart.
#I would gladly read any mentor apprentice dynamic over any kind of romance but that’s just me#I just value mentors a lot ig??#atsv#across the spiderverse#miguel o'hara#please I’d love to see more mentor Miguel stuff because with his personality I feel like he’d bounce off of other characters well enough#ESPECIALLY the dynamic between a character like him and an apprentice that’s super energetic and a little annoying#I would melt#also nervous apprentice h#Maybe I should start writing fanfic for myself but I’m too tired to I already have a warriors story in the works and I’m barely a chapter i#It’s been 6 months I need to get it over with smh
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not to SYS! on main but like comics Miguel reads just like Robyn and older leo to me it’s soooo weird
#more rob than anything else tbh mostly because of the very blase way of reacting to things#ironically i haven’t read much dick so I wonder if his uh voice would remind me of rob too#Chevys doing most of the heavy lifting with writing SYS! but I am the co-writer and creator and I wanna make their job easier yknow#also I’m autisming#teehee one day seeing rob up theee with the other blue vigilantes#‘but silver/cheri Miguel’s costume is black’ SHUT THE FUCK UP ITS BLUE TO ME#oh miggy. I need to hit him with a brick#I feel bad for like longtime fans of Miguel because I’ve been a fan off and on for years and I’m#already#tired of the mischaracterization from fans#and oh my god I’m tired of seeing his cervix#his box is all up n down the tl so much I can smell it#I think#I’m going to hell for that last sentence but the way#i was talking abt SYS… I’m still rlly excited for it even if I’m nervous you know#I fee somewhat confident in my ability to DRAW people#but to tell a story? nooope. sequential art scares me but that’s what practice is for#and all the art books I uh acquired#man why do I type exactly the way I talk I’m so annoying#why do I get weirdly self loathing so late at night get a job
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I was having a good day until some lady started telling me that I was holding my leash wrong when her dog wasn’t even on one! Then she started ignoring me and talking to my dog while saying things like “clearly I know more about dogs”.
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My mother kind of invited herself to visit me and stay in my tiny studio apartment for three days so I guess I won’t read fanfics or get on tumblr or acknowledge most of my life and relationships this week 🫠🫠🫠
#already started hiding things#she gets here in two dayssss#she is not above blatantly going through my belongings and I’m nervous#I have to clean everything too#luckily my apartment isn’t a mess I just need to do a little laundry mop and clean the shower#I was going to clean the shower and do laundry today but I’m so so tired#I don’t want to do this shit#fever’s vibe check#feverdreamsandlucidnightmares
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