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thecoolerliauditore · 7 months ago

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Pls tell me about Scott's views on women in general pls I'm begging you

o7 and I'm sorry

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fyi, the post itself isn't NSFW, but I'll be getting all gender theory in this bitch so I'll be referencing a lot of things and putting in pictures of naked ppl sometimes. maybe skip this one if you don't like that

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Disclaimers

An explanation for the tweet up there

I usually don't write these because I assume the people on my blog have enough sense to realise when I'm talking about the characters vs the CCs or are comfortable enough being a little confused, but I feel the need to extra-clarify here and expand on how I specifically view C vs CC because I think it differs a little from the average person.

To me, C and CC are two separate entities but not entirely disconnected. What differs (e.g. the exclusion of irl relationships -- their wives, kids, etc.) is poignant enough to severely detach them from the people they originated from, at least in my eyes, but there's also the fact that these are not scripted characters, just creators being themselves with a hint of behind the scenes drama-adding and improv thrown in.

For example, CC Pearl is a car nerd. So I assume her character is too.

This is where I state very clearly that yes, a lot of these thoughts come from things I've seen on Scott's twitter, which is undoubtedly the CC and not the C. However I, to me, am still talking about the C because any observations/judgments I could make on actual irl youtuber CC guy Scott Major would be tabloid at best and slightly invasive at worst. I'm seeing these statements within the context of "the death game guy would say this too and I'm writing this based on that", not "this is the inner psychological workings of the youtuber because I, as a fan, can totally tell".

TLDR I don't consider this post RPF but you might. This is a little more RPF-y than my usual stuff. If you don't rock with it we cool.

Everyone is weird about women, and that's okay

One short-hand I've used in the past to talk about Scott and women is just by saying that he's "weird about women" which I'm sure isn't exclusive to him.

(shitpost I made awhile back)

I see a lot of people now who love "villains" and "evil" but when it comes to any traits resembling real life evil (e.g. misogyny in this case) they suddenly become insecure. Just a couple of days back a saw a post on twitter essentially asking for permission to continue liking CC Scott in spite of the "bad things" he did.

And I think, in order to present an analysis like this, I must address that mindset first.

This is not a judgment on Scott's morality, nor is it trying to dissuade you from liking him. This is not saying that he is any more misogynistic than any other player in the series. This is just me pointing out Scott's attitude towards women and what I read it as, nothing less or more.

The feelings that me pointing these things out - be they apathy, disgust, anger or, what I would hope to see most, interest - are your own. I'm not here to tell anyone how to feel and never will try to police that on my blog.

Scott's Relationships with Women

aka. oh yeah this is about minecraft.

Scott and Cleo || "Yeah, you can kill me."

Scott and Cleo's alliance is arguably the strongest in the entire series, spanning through all five seasons and remaining unbroken with no (serious) drama attached. You'd expect from this that they two have a very settled and stable understanding of eachother, yet this isn't a case.

Their power dynamic shifts dramatically from one season to the next.

3L's initial Widows Alliance began on fairly equal footing, built on the mutual agreement that they were waiting for their respective partners to die. Both understood they were eachothers' "plan B" and felt comfortable in that arrangement.

Come LL, Cleo does what she couldn't in 3L, and initiates that plan, going to Scott after her last alliance, the fairy fort, fell apart. Scott requests nothing from her in return.

DL is the longest the two spent as eachothers main ally. Cleo is the one who initially proposes teaming up to spite their "cheating" soulmates and Scott agrees. Cleo admits to Martyn in private that she's aware she's taking advantage of Scott (which I've always interpreted as her talking about all seasons, not just DL). Due to the time they spend together, it's here where it becomes apparent that their initial assumptions during 3L were not entirely accurate, as Scott shows a level of gameplay competency much higher than Cleo's (e.g. teaching her how to axe-crit) but despite this Scott never berates her or thinks any less of her value as his ally.

LimL is probably this pairing at their most unhinged, as Scott, despite once again asking for nothing (or very little -- I'll be honest I'm a bit fuzzy on this) in return from Cleo, allows them and their allies to butcher him repeatedly for time. He gives more time to the Clockers than he does to Martyn, his closest ally that season. Despite this, Scott is never ever considered as a "family member" by the Clockers, despite them giving that title to even temporary allies (like the Bad Boys being their cousins) -- even Martyn gets a title with Scott completely unattached.

SL is relatively more chill, but shows that the two inevitably end up teaming together even despite their oath to avoid eachother that season.

The point being -- again and again, we see Scott literally and metaphorically making sacrifices for Cleo, with the only real transaction he requires from her being that she continues having his back when times get rough. This is despite that he's aware she isn't any more capable than he is and the fact that so far it has only been Cleo in rough times (LL, LimL and SL) and never Scott.

Speaking from a purely transactional perspective, Scott is not getting a bargain here -- and even Cleo seems acutely aware of it, judging by her comment during DL as well as the way she tends to speak of her survival capabilities very lowly in general ("rubbish pvp skills and spiffy one-liners"). I'm speaking in this sense because I've seen discussions in the past about the transactional way Scott views relationships but rarely does Cleo get brought up.

This is at stark contrast to how he treats Jimmy, whose predicted death was what spurred on Scott and Cleo's alliance in the first place.

Scott assumes Jimmy is "incompetent", where he assumes Cleo is capable. When Jimmy messes up, he reprimands him, when Cleo struggles to crit him, he patiently teaches her. When LL begins, Scott's first instinct was to look at Jimmy's lives and note that he was "useless to (him)", but holds no objections to Cleo joining his alliance despite her already having enemies being a potential liability. In SL, he jokes about how Cleo and him being allied is a given and pretty much expected of them, whereas in LimL he explicitly requests from Jimmy a recognition that he still cares ("say love you back!") before he will help him.

Scott and Gem || "You HAVE TO kill me, Gem,"

In SL, Gem settles in very easily in a leadership position within Gem and the Scotts due to her trying to live up to her reputation but also due to Scott and Impulse's more laid back, passive playstyles.

Both Scott and Impulse let Gem kill them for extra health this season, although Scott is arguably much more subservient than Impulse is, with him not only insisting that she kill him in the final episode but also not fighting back (and only yelling for her to stop) when she starts hitting him with a sword during the episode where her task was to literally kill everyone on the server.

Once again comparing her to Jimmy, Scott in 3L had a tendency to brush aside Jimmy's concerns over alliances (e.g. Jimmy questioning if they could trust Cleo) while in SL Scott runs his plans by Gem (and Pearl and Impulse) in terms of who he wanted to team up with (specifically excluding Joel from the potential mounders alliance) implying he held her opinion in some form of regard.

Before this becomes less of an analysis of Scott's treatment of men vs women and more of Scott's treatment of Jimmy vs everyone else, I think it's notable enough to mention that he and Martyn also lacked this sort of communication in LimL. He would inform Martyn of his plans, but rarely was it ever framed as a request.

SL almost feels as if Scott has slid Gem into the slot he had previously designated for Cleo in 3L (his girlboss ally) as he provides her and pretty much forces onto her by the end the acts of service he'd become accustomed to performing for Cleo.

Scott and Lizzie || "You killed her! I don't.. I don't know what to even say!"

Relatively shorter section because this is the one woman he hasn't teamed with, but there's still some interesting stuff I wanted to touch on.

In LL, one of the first thing Scott does is yell at Pearl to revenge-kill Joel for boogey-killing him. Pearl does as she's told and Joel's wet miserable pathetic LL life gets worse from there.

Several episodes later, the roles are reversed -- Lizzie lies to both of them and manages to isolate and boogey-kill Pearl. Scott, instead of reacting with the anger he had for Joel, is almost in a state of shock as he asks Lizzie to let him down so he could collect Pearl's belongings. He doesn't act aggressively towards Lizzie at all, with his most antagonizing act against her being to lie about his intentions when giving her a wither skull.

In SL, he's the only one aware of her early permadeath, but keeps quiet about it almost as if he's in a state of shock akin to when he saw Lizzie kill Pearl in LL. It's not until the others have noticed when he finally brings it up.

Scott and Pearl || "Tilly death do us 'part"

I wrote a whole post just for their relationship alone so for the sake of my sanity I'll be leaving this here.

So now I get to dedicate this section to the meat of this post -- how the way Scott treats women in general impacts his relationship with Pearl and how I view his heel-turn on her as seeping with relevance to Pearl's perceived gender.

In all three of the previous sections, the running theme is that Scott is 1. kinder and more patient with women, regardless of their competency and 2. someone who likes to be in a supporting role to women, occasionally aiding them more than he aids himself and his closer male allies (e.g. Jimmy and Martyn). As shown with Cleo, he assumes that girls have it together, but even if they don't it's not a big deal. When a girl's actions are truly disastrous, such as with Lizzie's, he goes into a state of shock and doesn't really react, preferring to swallow it down and not acknowledge it.

With the amount of times he sacrifices himself, I don't think it's a reach to say that Scott values his own life less than he values the lives of his (female) allies. This specific point actually does extend to his male allies too, shown when he's happy when Martyn literally backstabs him in LimL, but just as with the Martyn post where I point out his victim status-ing doesn't end at only women but includes all the women, Scott has pedastal-ed all the women he's teamed with.

Lizzie is, once again, the exception here due to his limited interactions with her. However that's actually somewhat patched over if you look at adjacent series (such as x-life) where he definitely shows her a level of admiration and respect.

Back to Scott and Pearl.

Their relationship during LL is very standard of how Scott treats women. While the power dynamic between them is obviously more caused by the initial life trade agreement, I don't think it's a far reach to say that Scott is somewhat comfortable in the arrangement.

However, this is also the first thing that sets their relationship apart from Scott with Cleo or Gem -- Pearl is the one making sacrifices, not Scott. She is the one "sacrificing" her lives to him, just in a more non-violent way as allowed by the season's mechanics.

When viewed through this lens, Scott trying to make it up to her and wanting his effort acknowledged makes even more sense. This is suddenly uncharted waters for him. His assuming that Pearl doesn't value him as a person goes hand in hand with him valuing himself less than her.

What Scott has with Cleo or Gem, situations where the other party is clearly uncomfortable with how he treats himself (Gem) or actively aware they are taking advantage of him (Cleo), is equalized to him because he is inherently worth less. What he has with Pearl, on the other hand, looks more equal to most people (lives vs labour) but is wildly imbalanced to him.

It's one of the many factors I see going into Scott's weird decision to abandon her in DL.

An Interlude, Before We Get to DL

La Pieta, Michelangelo

So this has been a lot of words so far and some of you might be wondering at this point: why say Scott is "weird" about women when so far this has been describing how he values women more, is kinder to them, is more patient with them, etc.? How is any of this behaviour remotely misogynistic?

And I would feel horrible if I forced you to read through all of my DL thoughts before I clarified this -- Scott is not your classic wifebeater "women are lesser" misogynist, Scott is someone who subscribes to misogynistic schools of thought and probably considers himself an ally to women, when in reality his beliefs are still rooted in dehumanizing them and these beliefs end up harming the women around him as well as himself.

After all, seeing women are your superiors is still not seeing them as your equals.

I know it's a bit of a meme on this blog at this point. But. Sigmund Freud identified what we know refer to as the "madonna/whore complex", which he described as a pattern of behaviour in men who separated women into being madonnas (pure, holy and admirable) and whores (debased, sexual, deviant). We'll be focusing on the former, the madonna, as it is more relevant to Scott's character.

Freud proposed that the madonna figure was something men projected onto women as a replacement for maternal love. These women are sacred and untouchable, literally as the projection of the maternal role onto them also makes it so that the sufferer cannot feel any sexual attraction towards her (keep this in mind for later).

Scott projects the madonna figure onto his female compatriots -- they are to be protected, served and supported. They are goddesses, queens, but they are never human. The madonna role in of itself is not inherently harmful to the woman, as seen with Cleo who takes control and advantage of it. However, it is enforced, as seen with Gem who at first revels in the superiority but almost breaks down when Scott offers him up as her sacrificial lamb one last time.

I linked this Utena AMV awhile back when vaguely talking about Scott and women, and this was the point I was alluding to.

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Girls are beautiful and pure. They don't spit on the street, they don't piss on the street, they don't build hierarchies -- they subvert all the expectations of masculinity that I hate having to deal with. They are my escape.

But what about the girls who do spit on the street? The girls who piss on seats? Who build social hierarchies, who size up their competition?

The girls Scott interacts with are all painfully human. Cleo weaponizes his beliefs and take advantage of him. Scott is smart enough to know and accept this. Gem's playing into a role she has been assigned into by not only Scott but everyone around her. Scott supports the character she plays. Lizzie reflects traits he hates in Joel and Jimmy, but for her, he looks the other way.

Are they "demons", as the song says, or are they no longer girls at all?

(demons, gods, but never humans)

Weaponized Femininity and Women In Total Control of Themselves ;)

Hylas and the Nymphs, John William Waterhouse

Historically, weaponized femininity I'd argue is one of the oldest tropes in storytelling. Whether it's nymphs or sirens or witches or succubi or even more roundabout cases like Helen of Troy, there's countless stories of men's sexual attraction to women leading them to disaster.

One way to view these stories is to see them as warnings, don't let womens allure be the end of you.

There's a lot of good writing done on the femme fatale trope both in the context of weaponizing femininity and as a sexist way to argue against victims of sexual assault, as these stories often say that men who experience attraction to these "evil" women no longer have agency over their own actions.

Look at the painting above, for example - is it the nymphs who are responsible for drowning Hylas, or is Hylas climbing into the lake of his own accord?

Despite the fact we all know sirens, nymphs and succubi aren't real, the belief that men will simply lose control of themselves when encountering a particularly alluring woman persists to the modern consciousness. That there's something inherently dangerous about women and attraction to them.

(this is not 100% applicable to Ninja saying he won't stream with women, but it's the real life example I felt most comfortable putting in here)

Now, let's combine this with what's been said so far -- let's say you don't hate women. You love women, in fact, and you hate the way men treat women. You hate men, in fact.

Yet, you still believe in this inherent power women hold by being female and the loss of agency that men experience when attracted to them -- how disgusting.

It quickly becomes easily to not only demonize men for sullying the holiness of women, but also men, masculinity and attraction to women as a whole.

(apologies for using twt discourse in the meta post but this flew by my TL and i had to grab the irl example of mens non-violent attraction to women being used to frame them as misogynistic before the stupid app refreshed and i lose everything forever)

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"To Venner" is a student film exploring a world set within this belief, where all the women have vanished and the men have become monstrous figures as a result of their pent up sexual frustration. fyi this is one of my favourite student films (and ive watched a bunch), but I do think its messaging is worth breaking down (especially its juxtaposition of dirty horrible monstrous sexuality vs pure and beautiful romantic love)

NOTE: this film is super graphic, lots of violence and nudity. have fun. or not

I admit this section is a bit hard to gauge as everyone in the series is gay as fuck. The closest in-series example I can think of is Scott reacting to Martyn's antics in DL with a sort of indigence but otherwise I can't really think of an example of a man expressing attraction to a woman at all, let alone one Scott reacted to. However, I do think it's still worth talking about because it opens up some interesting trains of thought in regard to Scott and Pearl.

For Scott, he himself has never been part of the picture. He's gay, after all, which gives him an edge over the bad straight men who objectify and assault women. Likewise, there's little evidence to suggest he finds the expectations of masculinity frustrating, but I don't think it's too far a reach considering how common of an experience that is for gay men and his adapting of more feminine mannerisms.

Double Life and Corruption

As mentioned in my previously linked post about Scott and Pearl's relationship, I do think Scott experiences what he would name as attraction towards Pearl, so my writing will reflect that.

Pearl is. ahem. not like other girls.

Not actually. But to Scott, she probably isn't like other girls.

She remains unaware of his different standards for her (how could she when she had nothing to compare them to), she acts out, sometimes violently, against Scott's urging (such as when she stole from Scar's wagon). She maintains their already irregular dynamic, and while she appreciates his care for her, she never quite falls into seeing him as a source of subservience the way Cleo or Gem do.

At the end of LL, right before the 1v1v1v1, she monologues to herself that she no longer has to feel bad for killing Scott. Which, in turn, implies she expected Scott to give it his all against her as well.

She entirely fails to embody the madonna with her immature naivete and her questionable morals. She is unpredictable, she doesn't take what she is owed, she is a monster in a lot of ways.

Scott, too, is a monster, to himself, for how he feels about her.

The very foundations of your understanding of yourself being ripped apart aside, let's rewind to the madonna/whore complex. To sexualise the madonna is to corrupt her and make a monster of yourself. Suddenly, you are no better than the men around you, the ones you've grown to hate. Suddenly, you are the grotesque figures in films like To Venner. You are Hylas and she is the nymph. And you are so stupid. Your worldview crumbles around its flawed foundations.

Scott is, however, immune to this corruption. This is a theme that appears in Empires as well, but throughout the traffic series he's prided himself on being loyal and kind and good. His monologue leading up to LL's 1v1v1v1 summarizes it quite well.

He can't let himself or anyone else see this side of him, but the energy needs to go somewhere. To defy fate, abandon your soulmate, is to admit you had a fate in the first place, is to acknowledge that she was your soulmate in the first place.

I've previously talked about how fate and romance are very ingrained in Scott's belief system, if it was anyone else it would've been amazing. He could've been like Bdubs and Impulse or Ren and Bigb, diving into domestic life and performative romance with a stranger. Or the world could've made his happy ending from 3L real, as he got to be Jimmy's husband all over again. I think it says something that he accepts Cleo as a "soulmate" before Pearl.

So what do you do with all that energy and tension, clearly apparent to yourself and everyone else, when you can't let them observe your feelings?

You project them.

Shout-outs to @/legally-allowed-to-slime for pointing out Pearl's comment early on in DL that she "feels like (she's) been broken up with" confirms she never saw Scott in a romantic sense. The "crazy ex-girlfriend" and "this is why I'm gay" comments really did come out of thin air, or perhaps insecurity.

Pearl is the crazy one. She's insane, because she wants me. She wants to be with me, so she does all this crazy stuff. She's lost control of herself because she wants me. She's disgusting.

I mentioned before that Scott is not your classic misogynist, but this is where the gears start turning. Scott's views of Pearl echo that of other players, most prominently Ren and Martyn, that Pearl has been overcome with some sort of corruption. She has become the witch, the demoness, the whore, in their eyes. Scott does not want to be the same as these men and I think his overcorrecting his behaviour in SL makes sense when you view it from this angle, but for now he has to rely on more traditional misogyny in order to navigate this new obstacle.

"Corruption" also implies that she had to have been pure (or at least pure-er) beforehand, something Scott personally knows is not true, but it falls in line with defaulting women to being "madonnas".

This is a Scott post but. shout outs to Ren for being all of this about Pearl but without the complexity of Scott like he literally accuses Pearl of seducing Bigb what the fuck man.

Pearl is, of course, none of that. But she plays into the role of being the witch much better than she fared playing into the role of the madonna.

Sidenote: I know I'm looking at this from a Scott/Pearl POV but I do feel like you can omit Scott's attraction if you look at it from a purely "pearl not performing to standards of femininity I expect and she makes me realise I don't view women as a whole as human which makes me feel weird so now we have to do this" POV. Like idk I think the exact reason he abandoned Pearl is going to be lost on everyone forever so any analysis I could perform is going to suffer at least a little bit of making-shit-up-itis.

I do also think there's something to be said about Pearl being pushed until she performed a role, any role and generally failing at Being A Girl tm but that's another post i think. yknow shes um. a bit. 🏳️‍⚧️ (but also very much not at the same time idk that's gonna need its own post)

anyway yeah uh the minecraft movie looks crazy huh

#asks #random thoughts

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kevin-the-bruyne · 1 month ago

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If people get upset that you're not posting about FK they need to get a grip. I'm sorry to be so blunt but there it is. If you or anyone isn't feeling it anymore for whatever reason, or if you're still feeling it but just getting excited over something else, that is fine. I know this sounds mean and I like the FK delulu stuff as much as anyone but it's dumb to be upset about it.

Like I think we're all aware you're not gonna stop posting about Khaoting at least. Come on. It's not the end of the world if you for whatever reason don't ship him as much with First anymore. And getting bothered by talking about another ship independent of them is weird. They might be monogamous but you don't have to be 🤣

I ship khaotung so hard with first is the funny thing about this. first's place in khaotung's life is near equivalent to that of his mothers. I've been obsessing over this hug for days, totally unable to forget about it, it is imprinted behind my eyelids.

LIKE!!!!!

That's not husband wife or a boring romantic dynamic thats just straight up Pocahontas with her weeping willow grandmother like good for them coming in strong with the Disney ride or die dynamics. They are Ariel and Flounder, Mushu and Cricket. There are two men's hands on that boy and he's still trying to climb first!!!! Like damn son I'm sorry that First's ribcage doesn't open up so you can climb inside, I agree that god made a Very Serious Design Flaw when he made First opaque so that Khaotung can't spend all his free time staring at his heart beating.

Does First live in Khaotung's house? How the fuck should I know??? The only thing I know for sure is that if First wanted to be a fish, Khaotung would be the aquarium - does this mean they want to get married????? idkkkkk? I got bigger problems than obsess about who Khaotung will get married to. [for example: who will *I* get married to??? I've had two back to back LTR duds in my 20s so I'm not feeling very hopeful atm]

But I'm interested in everyone's viewpoint. The point is that there's a little bit of RPF for everyone to enjoy here. If you don't enjoy RPF why are you here and if you do but my content is still stressing you out - how is that even possible just scroll down to a different post in the delulu circus tag??

I ask for people to tell me what they're interested in so I do get a lot of opinions on what I post more or less for the entirety of circus posting - good and bad. Sometimes the bad is not that nice but at least it's in alignment with the kind of things I post. And I really don't care about WHAT people think of my clowning. If people hate it I'll stop posting it if they enjoy it I'll keep posting it. But I'm always clowning on my own time regardless.

But the people in my inbox this past week are so angry and I feel so bad for them. I am starting to think there is a contingent of users or one very passionately disapproving user who blames me for Joongkhao's popularity (at least on Tumblr) and like???? idk???? many people told me they like Joongkhao because of me so??? maybe they are like 10% right even????? No one puts me on a pedestal like an angry anon let me tell you.

But most of it's not even about me? Nothing that people have come into my inbox yelling at me for this past week are things I actually say???? Like I wish I knew WHAT was going on with that person that sent me A PARAGRAPH of anger in response to this post. I can't believe anyone can be THIS mad about my antisocial son making a friend 😭😭😭

Everything is fake!! Anguish over fandom is pointless!!!! I do realize that there will be anguish in fandom with or without me. But man I do feel really bad when I've made a joke about Khaotung wishing Joong on his birthday and it just ruins someone's day. It wasn't even that good a joke, if someone is going to ruin their day at least let it be a Grade A circus post 🤧

I operate on a belief that khaotung's gay love for his every friend should be a vehicle for peace and love on planet earth 😔 I think I'll be fine eventually and resume my regular clown-assery. I really just haven't paid any attention to fandom since December and I think I'm just in a little bit of shock over how starkly different everything is.

#nani answers #fk delulu circus #NO MORE fk tags on my posts jfc

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darwinquark · 6 months ago

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Okay the Halloween chapter had me foaming at the mouth. Another masterpiece. You never miss! I love when third parties like Anne get introduced in the mix just to create tension between J and V. Like girl was flirting so bad but all Jughead seemed to notice or care about was Veronica eek I love it. Please gimme more party scenes I beg. I actually live for Veronica quite literally bringing him to his knees like atta girl you go ahead and get what you want 😭

Also what jeronica/colemila fics from @thefudge do you recommend?? I'm invested now

ah, so glad you liked it! the party atmosphere was def a departure so v happy it worked for you. and yeah lol Jughead's two main modes are being a little bitch or being Veronica's bitch and that's just where we've landed these days.

as for jeronica/colemila fics by @thefudge, WHERE TO BEGIN!

first of all, I am utterly obsessed with her cursed colemila series in all of its unflinching oozy toxic glory. Cole is human sleaze in this and Cami makes horrible decisions and the two of them just keep metastasizing in each other and it's honestly romantic in how unromantic it is

kiss and (don't) tell - the classic, the OG, the primordial fix-it/what if fic when Betty and Archie kissed and everyone was obsessed with the idea of Jughead and Veronica leveling the playing field with a kiss of their own (and then...)

bakunin and broccoli - the fact of the matter is I would die for Seymour Lodge-Jones and he'd definitely let me. this my actual canon of them as elitist parents who are sickeningly in love and dote on their sociopath son when they're not too busy annoying him with how horny they are

teen idle - a darker take on high school writer Jughead with big stalker vibes but I live for the tension of him swearing he studies her because he hates her but also obsessing over her in this very carnal way

barrels - another post-Barchie fix-it/what if fic where Jughead and Veronica go on an impulsive road trip after the cheating reveal and it's really sweet and poignant and more than the writers would ever give them in canon

honestly, I could keep going and end up recommending all of them because flo is genuinely such an inventive, fearless, and exquisite writer and I feel like I learn something about writing every time I read anything of hers, but I'll lock those down as my faves. she's prolific beyond belief though and has so many other fics, so if what you're after is her more cursed stuff, I'd say look beyond the riverdale scope to her more recent works (in particular her Paul/Irulan fic which deservedly blew up the Dune fandom and her most recent Taylor Swift RPF which made me go 'jesus CHRIST' out loud at least five times. she's also got Amelia/Andrew RPF which I've yet to read but is on my list because I'm sure it's wretched and spits in the face of all that calculated chemistry).

#reply #jeronica #fic recs

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keep everything inside rpf spaces (LOCK UR MF AO3 FICS!! i am so serious abt it) & don’t reshare anything of mine off tumblr. i unforch work in communications for a living & all the power to you all but i’d genuinely rather die than use twitter for rpf

comments, prompts & dms do make my day while also making it a hundred times easier to publish fic -> so if there's anything you'd like to see, just interact directly. let’s all move on from the passive consumption of content in 2025 tysmmm✌️

can ask for discord if u want a proper yap, i’m not often on there but i should really start using it as a grounding mechanism during race weekends so i stop ruining the vibe in all my groupchats

#watch me rebrand this every time i add a new fic because it keeps getting longer #the image used to be a placeholder but i decided to keep it #still the truest read my friends gave me & the best go-by for anyone browsing this

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I agree with your post about hermit fans in regard to things being very popular. I’ve seen more people being angry and annoyed about scarian in the last six months than people celebrating it. Not tagging shipping is shit but it’s better than harassing people. I don’t know what was put in the water but something changed drastically and I’m glad I’m not the only one who’s seen it.

IT'S FUCKING INSANE! This fandom used to be so positive and welcoming and overall way more pleasant than some... other MCYT fandoms, but now??? I can't log on without seeing untagged negative interpretations in the main tags, can't express an opinion without getting anons calling me heterosexual sympathizers and hoping that I die, everyone has turned their back on everything that used to make this fandom really... fun? Like, I don't tag ON MY BLOG, but usually I don't maintag my shipping posts, and if I do, I tag the ship name so people can filter it.... I don't maintag duo names. What the fuck happened to make everyone so- miserable. Anons are probably going to be permanently off for me, too many people comfortable with their opinions and not comfortable with mine and desperately needing to tell me that.

And like- look. I get not liking interpretations. Personally I'm not a fan of the Double Life cheating arc because of how abusive and out of character people made Grian be, and I had to avoid ao3 for a bit because of that and filter the fucking tags. Same thing with found family dynamics. Just because you don't like something doesn't make it "overrated and popular" and just because you don't like something doesn't make it immoral or unethical either!!! People have to make everything a moral standpoint nowadays and it's really exhausting-

But that's a tirade. All over all the confessions blogs there's "scarian is overrated" despite Grian having nearly 10mil subscribers and most of them being on YouTube and considering all the hermits friends or family truthing them. Yes, there is more shipping than before- that's because Hermitcraft season 8 made it very obvious that the people on the SMP and the people IRL are very different, and it's no longer considered RPF. None of the real hermits died via moon explosion, ZombieCleo often says she's doing "lore", they make different skins, even GRIAN acknowledges that he's acting and playing a part with the permit office. Despite all that, there's STILL wars on shipping and people insisting that we're shipping real people, I fought this war on the DSMP side of things and it's SO TIRING.

DND podcast listeners, do you ship the people playing the characters? NO!!!!! Unless you do, in which case, have fun with that. I don't really care about RPF and I filtered the tags for it a long time ago, so maybe they do do that.

Every other day I see "Third life is overrated" "Last life is overrated" (LAST LIFE IS OFTEN THE LEAST FAVORITE SEASON I SEE PEOPLE SAY!), "the life series is overrated" "the cactus ring is fucking stupid" "they left the desert but we didn't" "no, THIS interpretation of scarian is bad and wrong" and like... guys. Guys. Fandom is supposed to be fun. It is not supposed to be a full time job. It is not supposed to be moral or ethical and you shouldn't feel the need to police shit. Jesus Christ, every other month there's a new fad that tumblr users flock to and once it's over everyone goes "EWWW THAT WAS LAME AND OVERRATED AND I NEVER LIKED IT ANYWAY" like.... I promise you cannibalism as an allegory for love is not mainstream you are just on Tumblr.

Like Good God. If it's so bad here go to Twitter. I'm sick of all the complaining and misery and hatred and I miss when things were fun- people are so scared of being cliche that they don't want to write things that they enjoy. Where are the coffee shop aus???? Where are the fun silly things??? Where are the 100k grimdark fics with worldbuilding??? Wheres the 500k fics that aren't even about the same characters anymore but that we love just the same??? Where are the forums and people talking to each other in comments and meeting each other that way??? Where are the roleplay servers?????? What are you all doing??????

People are scared of being judged. They want to do what everyone else is doing. They don't want to be cringe or cliche and every day I see a "cringe culture is dead" post and then someone making fun of another part of fandom, an antithesis to their previous statement. They don't want to be late to things, either. Who cares if Last Life was a couple years ago? Draw the fanart anyway!

I'm scared. Maybe I'm just old, but every post I see I notice that I get maybe a 10th in reblogs of what I do in likes, and I don't even post my art or fics to this site. Every post is like that. More and more people only like posts and they die, unseen, by everyone. More and more people misuse archive of our own's functions, treating it like it has some algorithm, when it doesn't, and it never has and hopefully never will. I see fic reuploads to "gain traction" (not how it works) and people reaching out to find RP partners (breaking TOS) and all sorts of other shit on both sites and it fucking horrifies me. I'm not even that old- I'm eighteen, and I can already tell how fandom has changed for the worst for everyone. Fandom used to be a community. Not consumption.

It's just... sad. Old fandom had PLENTY of fucking problems, and we have problems here too, but at least the positives outweighed the negatives. It's so... mean here, now. Even the happy things are mean-spirited. People treat it as if certain people have invaded this fandom space, spreading horrible opinions and ruining it for everyone, but the truth is is that shipping is always going to be a thing. It's a foundation of fandom- fandom started with housewives in the 1950s writing Star Trek fanfiction. You can never get rid of shipping. You can just interact with what you want to interact with and leave others to mind their own business.

#sorry i kind of went on a rant i think i needed to get that out of my system #sort of went on several tirades but im SO FUCKING GLAD ITS NOT JUST ME #OTHER PEOPLE CAN SEE IT. WHAT IS UP WITH EVERYONE LATELY.#ugh.... thanmk u for the ask :3333 #jamies bad posts #jamie answers asks #grimaussiewitch #jamies serious posts #discourse

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futurewdclandonorris · 1 year ago

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Thank you for the tag @starlightiing ♥ you did tag my main, but I'll answer here since it's f1 related ♥

Who is your favorite driver?

LANDO NORRIS (I love when people make assumptions of who my favorite driver is when I tell them I like/watch f1 and they are NEVER right and then I get to say Lando all proudly)

Do you have other favorite drivers?

George Russell, Oscar Piastri (I like a bunch more of others, but these two are like the ones I'd die and kill for and serve for their crimes)

Who is your least favorite driver?

Lance Stroll :/

Do you pull for drivers or do you like teams as well?

I like teams as well!

If you like teams, what team do you pull for?

MERCEDES (I might have to start pulling for McLaren too now that they have finally given my Lando a win and end my anti campaign (this saddens me deeply 😔))

How long have you been into F1?

I've made my first contacts with f1 on September 25th 2022 but only started getting into it on September 27th 2022 and the first race I've watched was on October 2nd 2022 and here I am ever since then, I've never felt more at home

What got you into F1?

OMG STORY TIME!!!!!!! Okay no, I feel like I've already told it too many times already. I'll keep it short and just say my cousin got me into it

Do you enjoy Fanfic/RPF?

I grew up on fanfics and rpf so yes!

How do you view new fans?

I have no problem unless you come from the chicken shop date then please don't talk to me :)

If you could take over as team principal for any team, who would it be and why?

I wouldn't necessarily like to be a team principal, but maybe McLaren (I CAN FIX THEM!!!)

Are your friends and family into F1 as well?

Not really, but some of my relatives are

Are you open to talking to other fans/making friends?

Yes! Always!! I feel like I only talk to a small amount of you when I actually fancy a lot of you, but I'm scared to text first 🥹

Tagging: @lewlew44 @prettiest-at-the-party @ginsengi @mclarenhoney @mdblktwnk @honkyscats @youraveragef1obsessedgirl @feralnando @thesunkeptrising @vivvangel @thef1diary @norstappenvibes @on-sinkingships @ynbabe @vellicora @linnebae @scuderiascarerari @wht-am-i-doin @black-fireproofs @biropen @motorsportmusing @maaxverstappen @pastry-cult @mlee-02 @wtfisakilometer2 @jupiter-je-taime @leclerxnorris @geooooooorge @scuderiasillygirl @usersewis @kiwi-lawson @norrisleclercf1 @inchidentally @keysmashhhhhhhh @lewislcver @interlagostrack @formulahuh @fandomchaosposts @sof1shticated Oh my god I feel like I've never tagged this many people 💀 please feel free to ignore

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lesbiandarvey · 4 months ago

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I try so hard not to tinhat and ship real people (I tell myself the characters in the show are fair game lol) but it’s really, really hard not to feel like Winters was deeply in love with Nix and maybe just didn’t see it for what it was because of the times or just deep denial and comphet. Like, the poor dude, he sounds so head over heels, ride-or-die for Lewis. It kind of breaks my heart for them 😭

(not saying that men can’t just have super deep connections that aren’t romantic of course. Just that like everything I read about them feels More idk)

I spend way to much time internally thinking about Them and the second hand yearning vibes they give me 🤡

All that to say I love that others dig this stuff up and get the vibes too lol

YEAH SAME. LIKE SAME

like on the one hand as you said talking about the hbo characters is not rpf its something far different. be what we hear and know about the real men makes me raise my eyebrows and yeah like. yeah exactly

and like obviously major disclaimer its none of our business and their relationship no matter what it was, was build on mutual love and adoration and respect, regardless of whether or not it included a romantic aspect

now that we've got that out of the way i will say yeah. like i have wondered if they had Something. some kind of affair or relationship that worked during the war cus it was Over There it was wartime they could rationalize it in their heads as its okay if this happens because we're 4000 miles from home and across an ocean. and then it just doesnt translate back home yknow they have to be Real Men again they have to go Back to the way it was. i have wondered if thats what happened.

(i will say though i think if it was More i dont think it went unspoken. they were in a war when they could die anytime they wouldnt let that go unspoken. plus the knife story. what was goin on there was that an engagement present.)

and it seems like, according to their letters they reconnected sometime in the 80s(?) so the story has a good ending. and theyre remembered together yknow. the whole point of the story of easy company—whether it's the reunions the men attended for decades afterwards, or steven ambroses book, or the hbo show about them is its about memory its about legacy and how are you remembered. and theyre remembered together. theyre remembered as being together yknow that is the important thing

#okay also. okay this gets a bit skeevy cus im talking about their real wives.#but my theory is that. or at least a theory ive entertained. is that if they were together #nixon married wife no2 (eileen? irene?) in 1945/46? and thought they could just keep doing what they were doing behind her back #he asked dick to come back with him to new jersey! the first day dick was back nix took him to see his mother in the hospital! he needed #him around..... and maybe it worked for a while but then dick fell in love got married moved to pennslyvania and thats when it ended #(i think dick moved to pennslyvania before nix moved to california) and that was the end #anyway thank you for this always fun to talk about this<33 #amanda.mail #ww2 rpf

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ray935sworld · 4 months ago

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Hi, wonderful ray. How are you? How are you doing?👻

To be honest, this is probably the worst couple of days I've had in a year lately, I feel dead (I hope you're not that bad ><)

I genuinely like the way you write, but as it's easy to see, I'm only in love with rosquez, they have amazing chemistry and an incredible bond. And what would you think? gangster au!

THEY'RE MADE FOR THIS.

It was sooo exciting. It will be so difficult when the problems start (or whatever is meant by "loyalty and trust seem to waver..."). Vale bluntly says that he laid the world at Marc’s feet, God, if it comes to betrayal, it's scary to even imagine what this dangerous man will do. It's going to be like the end of the world.

The idea of an idealist Marс who is ready to even kill to make the world a better place and his brother's happiness seems so real. He loves Alex so much, I think Marc is really ready to do anything for him. Well, and Vale, a cunning dangerous man with his own interest, who couldn't help but notice Marc (honestly, who would have done anything else at all) and immediately becomes fascinated by him - oh, great.

So please continue, I will die if I don't get a next chapter.

Thank you for reading my other essay,

A thousand kisses to you and your writing 💖

P.S., As a wonderful @calia23 already said AGAIN (absolutely incredible, how did you do that?)

«You have killed Luca...». WHY? My poor baby, why?! Who will be the voice of reality in Vale's head when things go bad? I'm suffering so much.

Another thousand kisses 💕)

Hey my dear 👻, I hope you know that you just changed my today's rpf plans. You're getting some fluffy rosquez later to help cheer you up. I'm so sorry to hear you're having a hard time. I really hope you're going to get better soon.

And THANK YOU! Oh I'm so happy the gangster AU cheered you up a little bit!

And I have like 2 major plot ideas. Originally I wanted to put them in 2 parts but I think they'd be so much better intervened and would make more sense in terms of logic and story telling. And trust me the 2nd one will be a shock so beside @afiations who gave me the world setting I haven't told anyone about that because I NEED to see rawr reaction from my favorites (love all of you <3)

And honestly I just love the power dynamics. It was so exciting to write Vale's view/ emotions so I can't wait to explore that part of the dynamic some more.

And yes I killed Luca. RIP to the little buddy. I will not apologize for that. Wasn't a gun to the head situation but I had to

All the thousands kisses to you to cheer you up!!! 💕

#👻#👻 anon #gangster au

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leothil · 11 months ago

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Truth or Dare Tag Game

The lovely @mistmarauder tagged me in this, and I thank her for the distraction as I'm desperately trying to make time go by until I can leave the office!

Which friends/mutuals would you call to hide a body?

@clusterbuck because she's close by and probably has good ideas. @bibibuck because she's proclaimed her willingness to die for me several times. 😌

How many user subscriptions do you have on Ao3?

I am subscribed to 74 works and authors on Ao3 :P

Do you have a crush on someone? OR If you're with someone, tell us one thing you love about them.

Not actively, no.

What does the last DM/text you sent say?

Term ends last week of may

List the three friends/mutuals with the best takes.

@hattalove @glorious-spoon @bibibuck

Share one of your favorite fics of all time.

a good day to be by @hetrez. Literally life-changing for me, because I picked up a new hobby because of it.

List three of your favorite content creators.

@eddiediaaz @captain-hen @bilosan

Write one thing you love about yourself.

I've learned to do it scared, and I've gotten so many wonderful experiences out of that little piece of courage!

Which fandom of yours (past or present) has the best fics?

I've actually not read for many fandoms, believe it or not. So even though there's a lot of bad stuff too, most of my favourite fics come from 9-1-1.

Which creation of your own are you the most proud of?

I think my post on introduction to tv ratings still is a pretty good guide for people who don't know what the numbers mean (even though showbuzzdaily has stopped reporting ratings, RIP they were my favourite site 😭). The post I wrote about giving positive comments on articles about bi Buck also got a lot of attention, and I was really happy to see that it actually seemed to have gotten people to do so!

Have you ever read RPF?

Oh yes!

Tag the mutual(s)/friend(s) most likely to get away with murder.

@capseycartwright because she has the right kind of Connections

Tag the mutual(s)/friend(s) who know(s) the most about you.

@clusterbuck has seen me first thing in the morning, which I don't think any other mutual has been subjected to.

Now tag some friends to play!

All aforementioned people, and in addition @buckactuallys @oatflatwhite @messyhairdiaz @tripleaxeldiaz @onward--upward

@ellelans @elvensorceress @dancing-mylife-away @transboybuckley @shitouttabuck

@burnthatbridge @thatsveryood @bewitchedbewilderedbisexual @eddiebabygirldiaz @henswilsons

#tag games

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dangerpronebuddie · 11 months ago

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Truth or Dare Tag Game

Tagged by @tizniz 🩵

Which friends/ mutuals would you call to hide a body?

Tanis, Saturn, Nolan, Ro, Bazza, and Anna

How many user subscriptions do you have on ao3?

129. It's shocking. Thanks y'all 🥰

Do you have a crush on someone? OR if you're with someone, tell us one thing you love about them.

I do not. Not anymore (that ship sailed and sank thanks). If fandom crushes count, then Eddie Diaz (whatta man).

What does the last DM/ text you sent say?

Are we wrong? Most likely

Do we care? Not a bit

Is Tommy so far back on the back burner he's ice cold? Most definitely

List the three friends/ mutuals with the best takes.

@lover-of-mine metas are ALWAYS worth a read. Her brain is incredible.

@steadfastsaturnsrings thoughts are amazing as well.

@loveyourownsmiilee's speculations are fantastic too.

Share one of your favorite fics of all time.

Oh damn. Just one??? No. I'll share 3:

The Hunter vs Prey series by @tizniz 😘

We didn't happen the way we were supposed to (where do we go now?) by @lover-of-mine 🩷

stuck now so long, we just got the start wrong by @daffi-990 💚

List three of your favorite content creators.

@lover-of-mine's content is OUTSTANDING (and I'll link my favorite video here)

@ronordmann's covers are always SO beautiful 😍😍😍

@loveyouanyway's edits are gorgeous!!! (Guilty As Sin edit my most beloved)

Write one thing you love about yourself.

Do I gotta? Eh, fine. I do love my creativity. I look at my fics or my art projects and I think "damn, I made that?"

Which fandom of yours (past or present) has the best fics?

9-1-1 hands down.

Which creation of your own are you most proud of?

My Danger Prone Diaz series 🥰 I love every fic in the series, but I have to say The Pain Is UnBEARable is a favorite.

Apart from that series though, Oh What A Way To Die has some of my favorite lines in it and I adore it.

Have you ever read RPF?

Nope.

Tag the mutual(s)/ friend(s) most likely to get away with murder.

Pretty much any of y'all that write whump. I feel like we'd all have a good chance lol.

Tag the mutual(s)/ friend(s) who know(s) the most about you.

@13shadesofanni 🩷🩷🩷

Now tag some friends to play!

@13shadesofanni @lover-of-mine @monsterrae1 @tizniz @loveyouanyway

@ronordmann @steadfastsaturnsrings @daffi-990 @wikiangela @kitteneddiediaz

@inell @exhuastedpigeon @theotherbuckley @hippolotamus @diazsdimples @thekristen999 @loveyourownsmiilee and anyone who wants to 🥰🩷

#tag game #this was a lot of fun

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whatstruthgottodowithit · 2 years ago

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HALLOWEEN CHALLENGE 2023

Here’s a masterlist of all the Fics I have wrote/will write for my Halloween challenge. The aim was to post a fic a day for 10 days between 21st - 31st of October. All are song fics and not necessarily Halloween-themed. I’ll be updating the list as I go. Hope you like them🧡

Day One // Tennessee Orange

Fandom: Elvis Presley, RPF Pairing: Elvis Presley x Reader Rating: Teen Word Count: 2407 Summary: I met somebody, he’s got blue eyes. Song Link AO3 LINK

Day Two // Die From A Broken Heart

Fandom: Elvis Presley, RPF Pairing: Elvis Presley x Reader Rating: Teen Word Count: 1837 Summary: Was it ever really real if he don't feel like I feel? Song Link AO3 LINK

Day Three // Pieces

Fandom: Supernatural Pairing: Dean Winchester x Reader Rating: Teen Word Count: 1494 Summary: Baby, please release me, let my heart rest in pieces. Song Link AO3 LINK

Day Four // Southern Boy

Fandom: RPF Pairing: Austin Butler x Reader Rating: Explicit Word Count: 1455 Summary: Ain't nothing in the whole wide world like a southern boy. Song Link AO3 LINK

Day Five // Stay With Me

Fandom: Daisy Jones x The Six Pairing: Daisy Jones x Reader Rating: Mature Word Count: 1399 Summary: Guess it’s true I’m no good at a one-night stand. Song Link AO3 LINK

Day Six // Good 4 U

Fandom: Daisy Jones x The Six Pairing: Graham Dunne x Original Female Character Rating: Mature Word Count: 4793 Summary: Maybe I'm too emotional or maybe you never cared at all. Song Link AO3 LINK

Day Seven // I'd Lie

Fandom: RPF Pairing: Austin Butler x Reader Rating: Teen Word Count: 3271 Summary: And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie. Song Link AO3 LINK

Day Eight // You Ain’t Woman Enough

Fandom: Elvis Presley, RPF Pairing: Elvis Presley x Reader Rating: Mature Word Count: 4106 Summary: You’ve come to tell me something, you say I ought to know. Song Link AO3 LINK

Day Nine // It Hurts Me

Fandom: Elvis Presley, RPF Pairing: Elvis Presley x Reader, Jerry Schilling x Reader Rating: Mature Word Count: 7849 Summary: It hurts me to see him treat you, the way that he does. Song Link AO3 LINK

Day Ten // Jess' Dad

Fandom: Gilmore Girls Pairing: Jess Mariano x Reader Rating: Teen Word Count: 2426 Summary: You know I really like Jess a lot but… Song Link AO3 LINK

Day Eleven // Little Bird

Fandom: Elvis Presley, RPF Pairing: Elvis Presley x Addison Goodwin Rating: Mature Word Count: 4553 Summary: Walked down the aisle, breakin' my heart, lay down my pride, I know I gotta let you go. Song Link AO3 LINK

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alexluvsskittlez · 21 days ago

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introductory post!!

hi hello! welcome to the digital diary of an idiot band obsessed emo teen!!

my name is Alex! I am an artist, animator, content creator, va, amateur writer, and aspiring singer!!

I am 15 years old!!

my pronouns are he/they

I'm audhd and dyscalculic

I am genderfluid, ace, pan, demiromatic, and poly

my special interests are Paramore and my ocs (Paramore since 2021, and my ocs since 2015)

my current hyperfixations are Emily Armstrong and fall out boy (both started in October and December of 2024)

I usually tag my posts with "shut up alex" "alex draws", "freaky alex" "alex crashes out 4k", or "alex suffers"

BYF

I am unbelievably annoying about my spintrests and hyperfixations. you mention them once and I will NEVER shut up about it.

I am mentally ill COUGH

I have a very weird, unhinged, and brainrotted sense of humor. if i say something wrong please let me know.

I'm an rpf FREAK and I use it as a coping mechanism, I am respectful about it though so please for the love of god don't get mad at me for drawing Hayley Williams and Emily Armstrong making out I'm just trying to survive💔💔💔

I am also an age regressor, I don't usually post about it because it's very personal but I may occasionally reblog stuff related to it. (also there's a HUGE difference between agere and ageplay. DO YOUR RESEARCH PEOPLE.)

I don't care about most online discourse so please leave me out of it.

please don't try to bring me into any drama either.

I am Emily Armstrong's #1 defender until the day I die. if i come across a hate post about her on your blog you're getting blocked. sorry not sorry.

and FINALLY: I'm an insane parasocial fangirl about my favorite bands (as you can probably tell already.) yes I WILL pick up and hold that grown ass woman, yes I WILL call that grown ass man my baby BECAUSE HE IS.

music I listen to

warning, this is a lot.

Paramore, pierce the veil, linkin park, fall out boy, sws, mcr, Hayley Williams, vylet pony, pinkshift, meet me @ the altar, silverstien, green day, bring me the horizon, p!atd, la dispute, lemon demon, sunny day real estate, Will Wood and the tapeworms, Will Wood, asking Alexandria, not enough space, get scared, the used, Owl city, mitski, Florence + the machine, stomach book, she wants revenge, Weezer, picture me broken, rites of spring, hot milk, stand atlantic, halfnoise, dead sara, isles & glaciers, dead by sunrise, fort minor, black veil brides, system of a down, korn, limp Bizkit, silly goose, cobra starship, the academy is..., never shout never, ajr, merchant ships, moon walker, swing kids, title fight, charli xcx, tyler the creator, halsey, Shawn Mendes, dot dot curve, dazey and the scouts, bbno$, bullet for my valentine, noahfinnce, marianas trench, twenty one pilots, Broadway homestuck, marina, Brittney Spears, nirvana, the front bottoms, scary kids scaring kids, alesana, evanescence, mom jeans, Imogen Heap, blink-182, chappel roan, fem&m, femtanyl, the cure, kreayshawn, the offspring, sublime, weird al yankovic, modern baseball, foxszn, 3drinkz, newgrounds death rugby, yellow card, american football, C418, boygenius, Avril Lavigne, nickasuar, millionaires, Kesha, s3rl, 3oh!3, attack attack, brokencyde, waterparks, and tally hall.

favorite shows and movies

shows: madoka magica, smiling friends, steven universe, gravity falls, murder drones, arcane, inside job, the owl house, amphibia, toopy and binoo, my little pony, pelswick, clone high, the amazing digital circus, spooky month, invader zim, mtv's downtown, and the ghost and molly mcgee. (and ig lptv counts as well?)

movies: the final riot, madoka magica: rebellion, steven universe the movie, both of the spiderverse movies, both of the lego movies, both of the inside out movies, the lego batman movie, the toopy and binoo movie, mean girls, juno, mlp the movie, the mario movie, and the tamagotchi movie.

favorite video games

minecraft, nintendogs, splatoon 2, fnaf, roblox, regretevator, mario kart, super smash bros, castle cats, pjsekai, kingdom hearts re:coded, baldi's basics, doki doki literature club, and class of 09 (excluding the flipside FUCK that game.)

favorite youtubers

Kurtis Conner, Danny Gonzalez, Drew Gooden, funkyfrogbait, bredrawz, markiplier, flamingo, stariaat, dantdm, sinjin drowning, lovleylor, jaiden animations, cybernoop, and probably a lot more. (I watch a lot of youtubers lmao)

misc interests

fandom related: laika's comet, homestuck, warrior cats, spaced out (my friend's ocs), tamagotchis/other digital pets, the mean girls musical, be more chill, the book of mormon, wicked, and Hamilton.

non fandom related: alternative subcultures/fashion, a lot of stuff throughout the 2010s, old animation memes, space/astronomy, collecting physical media (mostly cds), and animals (ESPECIALLY CATS)

DNI

basic dni stuff, most things that end with a "phile", under 12, darkshippers, zionists, anti furry/therian, anti Paramore, anti Emily Armstrong, Jamie Bennington supporters, and people who belive the "Chester was murdered" conspiracy.

anti rpf people are on thin ice but just a warning. i post a lot about it. objectum people are also on thin ice. I'm sorry but I'm not entirely sure how to feel about you guys./lh

also if you are over 18, you are allowed to interact with my blog. but keep in mind that I am still a minor.

my other socials

instagram: _thekillerandthefinalgirl_

doodle ig acc: allweknowisalex

tiktok: fucking HACKED 🖕🖕🖕

youtube: alexluvsskittlez

airbuds: paramorenumber1fan

stats.fm: deadsarajoshi

last.fm: allweknowisalex

ao3: find it yourself

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lunar-years · 2 years ago

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T! From your latest ask game post.

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending? **

i'm very certain i've rambled on about most (all?) of these before, lol. But here is my truth:

General character stuff -

Jewish Roy Kent!! The O'Sullivan-Kent's are mixed faith

Roy and his sister were perhaps close when they were very small but not so much once Roy moved to Sunderland. They didn't reconnect until around the time she got pregnant with Phoebe, then became incredibly incredibly close during her contentious divorce, when Roy was the first and best person to show up for her.

Keeley's parents are divorced. also she definitely has major mommy issues and i think that's under-explored!

Jamie's dad came back into his life when he was pre-teen (i don't have an exact age but to me it was somewhere between like. the ages of nine to twelve). Old enough to already be putting himself on the football map, locally (enough for James to have taken notice, anyway) but young enough for James to have made the very deep impression on him and to hold the type of influence over him we see reflected on the show.

Simon came into the picture several years later when Jamie was an older teenager (16-17) and he and Georgie didn't get married until Jamie was playing (semi-)professionally

i feel sooooo strongly that he hasn't told a soul about that trip to Amsterdam until he tells Roy in s3. i know some people think he would have told his mum and i respect that but also. i couldn't disagree more, lol.

speaking of mummy, I also think the closeness we see them have in s3 is somewhat of a recent development. They were definitely that close when Jamie was young, but as is typical with having an abusive parent, I don't see how his relationship with his dad wouldn't have tainted his bond with his mum. To me there is a lot of things that were left unsaid between them, on both sides, for a long time, and I think the s1 bonfire scene really reflects that strain. not to say they were totally estranged, but I do think there were a few very rough years in there where jamie barely talked to her. and they reconnected around the time of the break between s1 & s2 when Jamie was back with Man City. now they're extremely extremely close.

jamie works with kids once he retires from football!! i'm not too particular as to what capacity but perhaps my favorite is that he coaches youth football at the Academy level. Like, maybe the U15s or U16s. young teenagers whose lives he can make a real difference in. just...jamie getting to be the mentor and influence for them in the way he wishes he had at that age. ahhhh.

ot3 stuff:

ot3 all have strained (at best) relationships with their parents, but in completely different ways. they all adore Georgie and Simon though and love making time to visit Manchester

they do NOT have kids ❌ Miss Keeley Jones is not EVER willingly getting pregnant i can tell you that much for damn sure

i'm ride or die ot3 and this is kind of irrelevant in a poly scenario but re: marriage none of them would change their last names i firmly believe this

look. it's not that jamie and keeley CAN'T cook. but if roy is willing to make them the majority of their meals. and do it better than either of them ever could. who are they to stop him?? (lowkey keeley's cooking IS tragic though, lol)

simon teaches roy how to bake. then they force Georgie, Jamie and Keeley to "judge" their creations as if they were competing on bakeoff. this is like. an ongoing event. there are multiple occasions, maybe once a year or something, and roy and simon spend weeks planning what they're going to do for it every time.

i think they keep their relationship a secret until Jamie retires. of course there is a thriving in-verse rpf community, lmao.

perhaps controversially i don't think they'd tell the whole team. I love it in blissful and happy and fluffy fics though :) And obviously, i think roy and jamie love the team very much, but i still think they'd only explicitly tell like, rebecca, the coaches, and then Jamie would tell his closest few friends on the team. everyone else kind of figures it out over time, though, they aren't as subtle as they think they are, but it's not really talked about? it's more like an open secret.

they have a closed poly relationship because at the end of the day they are all possessive and none of them are open to sharing with anyone but each other, lol. also like. even keeping up with two partners can be a logistical nightmare. who would have the time for more? keeley runs the calendars.

sex: Roy and Keeley switch. Jamie is mostly a sub but willing to try basically everything and anything once. also what they get up to is generally very kinky and very sex positive and most importantly they have LOTS of fun <333 the details of that would take up another 12 paragraphs but you know. i think the fandom is mostly in agreement with this lmao.

** maybe not so much ~die defending~ because if people have different opinions i definitely do not care, y'all do you. but these are the ones that are so tried and true in MY brain that if i read a different opinion or a fic featuring a contradicting viewpoint... It doesn't matter how much i enjoy it or even love it... I am still filing that away as an AU in my brain even though it's like, totally NOT 😂

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