#if i can identify it i will post it for the bug mutuals

[millionsknives]

horrid magnificent beast the likes of which i have never seen just creached across my floor

[grunckle]

Void Worms as the Demiurge and Iterator Inverses (And also clearing up some things about the Qualia post)

So, I'm going to be going a bit more in depth on the Yaldaboath-Void Worm comparison I brought up in my previous post. Here's the post for anyone who didn't see it already:

I also just wanted to expand upon some things and maybe clear up some confusing parts that I didn't cover in the original post.

But first I'll give a quick explanation on what Yaldaboath (who I'll just be calling the Demiurge from now on) is before drawing the comparisons. The Demiurge is a being in Gnostic belief that created the material world. He is often identified as the god of the Old Testament, and is malicious and inferior to the True God called the Monad, who is above all else.

Of course this is very simplified and I'm leaving a lot out, but what you should take out of this is that he created the material world.

So back to void worms, they heavily resemble the Demiurge in a few ways. Visually, they both share a long, serpent-like body, and glowing "halos".

But beyond that, they indirectly share a few celestial motifs. The Demiurge gave birth to Archons who ruled over different, "celestial spheres." Celestial spheres are a concept in Rain World cosmology, as it's mentioned in the Deep Pink pearl.

"On regards of the (by spiritual splendor eternally graced) people of the Congregation of Never Dwindling Righteousness, we Wish to congratulate (o so thankfully) this Facility on its Loyal and Relished services, and to Offer our Hopes and Aspirations that the Fruitful and Mutually Satisfactory Cooperation may continue, for as long as the Stars stay fixed on their Celestial Spheres and/or the Cooperation continues to be Fruitful and Mutually Satisfactory."

But, even beyond that, they straight up appear visually in the depths through Guardian Halos.

And then Gnostic celestial spheres for comparison.

Void Worms are also described as "stars" within ancient dreams and our own.

Now, this is only a tangential relation to the Guardians who also reside in the Depths, but there is one more thing that I believe cement the Void Worm Demiurge theory that is much, much bigger in the context of Rain Worlds narrative.

Void Worms have a lot of iterator parallels, which lead me and others to believe that they act as a direct inverse to Iterators. Iterators usher beings to ascend past their mortal confines, and Void Worms trap beings in the material world like the Demiurge.

The first of which are just some design similarities between the two. They both have round heads with bug-like eyes, and they both have halos.

Next, the scenes in which we see iterators and the void sea are very reminiscent of each other. There are thousands of iterators above, and thousands of void worms below.

Void worms have 8 arms/tentacles, iterators cans have 8 legs.

But probably the most striking piece of evidence for this parallel is the music that plays atop the Wall and in the Void Sea. They share the same musical motif.

And, as a quick fun side note:

It's pretty common knowledge at this point that Void Worm skin is corn, but whats less common knowledge is that it's also made of fractal patterns and neurons.

Basically I think all this points to Void Worms being iterator inverses and working like the Demiurge, manifesting the material world and trapping beings within it.

Now, just to clear up some things about my previous post. I don't think the rot itself is made from the ancients' mutated brain matter, but rather the method in which both cabinet beasts and the rot are made are similar. They're both made by taking neural matter, (Five Pebbles's brain in the case of the rot and the Ancients' in the case of cabinet beasts) and mutating it into something else. Its more just a conceptual comparison than evidence the two are related.

Second is more about personal interpretation, but I don't really think that each Void Worm we see is manifesting it's own world. All together they act as the concept of the Demiurge, manifesting one universe. Perhaps they're not even conscious about it, and experience a divine realm similar to us while they swim around aimlessly in the Void Sea.

And finally, adding onto my last point, that's why I don't think the parallels give a lot of insight into how the cycles work, other than that by entrapping creatures in the physical world those creatures are also subjected to the cycle. I have my own cycle theory that I believe works a bit better that I might post later. But yeah I just wanted to clear that stuff up.

[murruspins]

Welcome to my blog!

Hello!! Welcome to murruspins :3!

This is a special interest blog, however it also kind of acts like a diary. I write down what I’m thinking or hyperfixating on, same goes with my regular interests! This blog will also have alot of alterhuman content, as it’s a big part of my identity!

About the owner of this blog…

My name is Murruyu! I’m a transfem enby, and would prefer if you used they/it/xe on me aswell as fem + neutral terms! If you don’t respect my pronouns, I’ll simply block you, no biggie! 🤍

My special interests are mcyt (hermitcraft & life series specifically), horror, metal music and bio! When I say bio and horror, I mean all aspects. I love horror games, movies, shows, etc. And I love all biology paths/subtypes! (Eg: wildlife bio, botany, palaeontology, and more!)

I’m the host of a minor bodied DID system, however I won’t get into that much on this blog, as this is my personal blog! However, I will talk about our physical disabilities because they impact my everyday life, and this is a diary blog after all! [I will mainly talk about my EDS and CFS]

As I said before.. I am an alterhuman! More specifically, here is a link to all my kintypes!

This list may be updated/edited in the future, but for now, these are all of my (known) kintypes! Some stronger than others. More specifically, I have a super strong connection to the feline clade, more so than my other kintypes. Obviously, due to being alterhuman, I do not identify as human. I instead identify as my kintypes, I may post about my alter-humanity frequently 🫶

I am ALWAYS looking for moots/friends!! Click here to see my interests + adult mutuals are okay, just no dms!

DNI/BYI

DNI:

• People who hate on ANY of my special interests. No offence, but you’re not welcome here, this is my safe space! [PS: being afraid of horror or animals is not the same as hating on them, if you have a phobia of something that’s completely fine! Just don’t insult my spintrest on my page 🤍]

• Anti alterhuman, Anti Age regression, Anti pet regression

• Endogenic systems, Profic/Proship/Darkship/anything that fits into that category.

• FURBY BLOGS!!!!! Furby centred blogs/Blogs with furbys as their theme/pfp dni. Moots r okay but please add a warning whenever you post them 😭🫶. I’m terrified of those little things.

BYI:

• I’m autistic, I need tonetags! If you’re going to ask anything, I’d appreciate you using tonetags so I can understand you better! :3

• Adults may not ask to be my friends, No offence, just for boundary and comfort reasons, I am a minor after all. Mutuals are fine!

• I generally do not engage in discourse, if that’s something you’d like to know before following! This blog is focused on being diary, alterhuman and interest themed!!

• This is my main blog! If I’m active, it’s probably here. But my side blogs are…

> @liostims , my stim blog

> @lovesicksyndicate , our sys blog

> @faunafeature , my animal info dump blog

… Please keep in mind many of these blogs may be inactive, as this is my main!

MOOT SPECIFIC:

• I would appreciate if you tag your posts to do with war, guns & etc to do with tw war or war. I grew up in a situation that causes these to be big triggers for me. Thank you 🫶

• If you post dead animal imagery PLEASE add a tw or cut off or SOMETHING. I know this is specific but I’ve had a moot do this before and it was actually insane. I admit I’m a bit sensitive but I still don’t want to see that

Finishing up/Extras…

. . . Emoji games!

How these games work; ask via the ask option, and write an emoji + any other info you’d like, and I’ll answer! Just a small game for fun!

🐾 , info dump about a random animal I’m fixating on at the time! (Please include if you don’t want a specific animal due to a fear, for example: bugs).

🐈 , song of the day! ask and I’ll give you a song that’s been stuck in my mind recently, or just a random song off my playlist!

🐍 , daily check in! I’ll give you a small rant about my day so far, and tell you how I’ve been recently! (I’ll try to keep it positive.)

"(Therian/biology/metal/anything related to my blog) culture is…" asks are also always appreciated!! I love seeing them, and I love interacting with people!!

Blog tags . . . !!

#murru mews 🐾 | my general tag! Diary entries!

#murru hisses 🐍 | vent posts

#murru’s asks : replies to my asks!

#murru’s rants : rants!! Either in response to the emoji games, or just to infodump :]

#murru’s playlist : anything to do with music!

#murru’s toybox : anything to do with my collections!! I collect a lot of things, so this tag will be full of things in my collection :]

#murru’s games : an additional tag, just for my emoji games!

PS: blog creation date.. Jan 30th 2024!

Thank you for reading !

. . . Enjoy your travels, dear friend!

[cattytheartcat]

Ok ik this is old drama, but it seems rlly important now

'Bug Enthusiast or pest enthusiast?' A thread documenting some disturbing content from Pitaya, who could possibly be IdolMantis.

First, I'd like to announce two things; first, don't FUCKING harass anyone involved, and DONT harass Idol himself despite his predatory behavior. I don't condone harassment, witch hunting nor death/suicide baiting. Second, this thread is for, specifically, this reblog chain with a mutual and myself because of some alarming anons talking about Idol and his dark past due to an accidental like/reblog.

This is going to become a thread, as there's a shit ass 10 image limit aughg-

Now, lets dive in. These are from a wayback machine archive, which I can provide links to at the end.

As you saw in the original reblog chain, IdolMantis seems to have had multiple names in the past. Raisinrat, UnicornMantis, Bugcore, Ackee, Pitaya, all these names seem to be connected to Idol himself. Now, Idol is STILL active to this day on Tumblr, Instagram, and Twitter, however he posts for his two web comic series; Monsters and Girls and Bugtopia.

As the two comics aren't anything harmful, they do involve quite alot of implied sexual content with mainly lesbian couples, some of which are drawn to look more androgynous or masculine. If you are under 18 I advise NOT to search out these comics, just to be safe. Idk I don't feel like minors should really get involved in that stuff but someone can correct me if needed. I do not know Idol's gender identity nor sexuality, and it doesn't seem like he's tryna sexualize lesbianism, so I won't speak further on these comics as its not my place to dictate what's good or bad rep.

However its good to keep these 2 comics in mind as we see what he used to be involved with.

The full callout was made by a Tumblr user titled AckeeLoveMail, which seems to be deactivated by now. The blog is pretty much a "critical" blog, or a callout blog, dedicated to a person named Pitaya, who used to have a blog named Bugcore. Bugcore has been archived, but no other info or images were archived correctly.

Remember, Idolomantises (IdolMantis) calls himself a "Bug Enthusiast" on Twitter. I don't know if these two pages are the same, though considering Idol's obsession with bugs... its an alarming possibility.

[Lol remember how we could customize our blogs]

Anyway, there's two main links here; the Bugcore blog link, and "The Callout". That link takes us here;

Notice how its said that he deletes posts and claims people just hate him for no reason.

Hmm....

Also, the beginning of the callout sounds familiar....

Lil offnote, but its said here that he identifies as non-binary. Currently he draws very sexual content of predominantly feminine identifying characters. Again I can't say much, but I do know that I've seen alot of people show concern on masculine ID'ing ppl consume or create content that sexualizes lesbian couples. Again, someone can correct me on that.

Anyway, second part of the callout.

The evidence:

This one is just... weird? Idk. Anyway bc of shitty image limit this is part 1 of... god knows how many posts.

[goblinbugthing]

Bugthing’s brand-new Pinned Intro Post!!!!!!

Hi! I’m Bug, I’m a mentally ill emo artist and fic author. This is where I put my nonsense for you internet ppl to look at.

I’m transmasc, currently identifying as xenogender, and I use he/xey/it/they pronouns. Mutuals, and only mutuals, can use my other neos, blood/bleed and gore/gory. I’m solian/mspec veldian, fictoromantic, and fictosexual. Please respect that!!

Currently, I’m into Hollow Knight, the Kirby series, A Hat in Time, Bug Fables, Cult of the Lamb, Rain World, and Fate/Zero. Do be warned, though, I can fall out of these fandoms at any time — my interests are almost always fluctuating.

This blog is safe for minorities! (e.g. disabled ppl, LGBTQ+ ppl, BIPOC, Palestinians, etc.)

I am a minor. Don’t be weird.

Other stuff under the cut!

(divider gif via @/animatedglittergraphics-n-more)

My asks are open! Feel free to ask me stuff about my hyperfixations, or whatever you wanna know about me, as long as it’s not too personal.

Commissions are open! You can support me by purchasing one. Ko-Fi linked below!

My other socials:

My YouTube channel (I don’t upload much)

My Wattpad I can’t link for some reason. My @ is koko-the-ann0yance on there (I hardly ever touch this one)

My AO3 (All my fics live here now)

My TikTok (Why do I have this? I couldn’t tell you.)

My $$app (Consider supporting me and my reckless spending addiction)

My Ko-Fi (Commissions & tips!)

My other blogs:

@princes-creations-askblog — An askblog specifically for my OCs.

@ask-emporianroyals-au — My AHiT AU askblog.

@kirby-souljourney-au — My Kirby AU blog.

@hollowknightinsanity — My HK sideblog.

@kokothedrag0n — My RP blog, where I act as my sona.

Current works:

Kirby: Soul Journey — My Kirby AU fanfiction, taking place after Kirby and the Forgotten Land. (Read on Tumblr / Read on Wattpad / Read on AO3) (To be rewritten)

Kirby: Soul Journey oneshots collection — A set of oneshots created for K:SJ. (Read on Tumblr / Read on Wattpad / Read on AO3) (To be rewritten)

Hollow Knight: Empty Promises — A set of fics created for my base Hollow Knight AU, Empty Promises. (Read on AO3 / Wattpad link to be added)

My tag key:

#buggie’s rambles — Text posts

#buggie’s randoms — Nonsense stuff! In other words, my homemade memes

#buggie’s doodles — Doodles and sketches

#buggie’s characters — OC stuff

#buggie’s creations — Proper artwork

#buggie’s creations (in the making) — Work-in-progress artworks

#buggie’s building paradise — All my Minecraft build stuff :3 (here’s a list of all the mods i use if you want em)

#buggie’s stories — My original writing

#buggie’s answers — My answered asks

#buggie’s polls — Self-explanatory. My polls

#buggie’s queue — The Very Rare Queued Posts (the only one unaffected by the name change)

#buggie’s stims — Stuff I stim to

#buggie’s sluttery — A tag I made specifically for my ace friends to block so they don’t get suggestive content on their dash. Also known as my hornyposting. Please block this tag if you don’t wanna see suggestive stuff!

#buggie irl — IRL pics of me, mostly just my gender euphoria

#saved 4 serotonin production — My comfort tag

#quicksave — Stuff I want to look at later

#important — Self-explanatory. Important stuff

#semi-important — I’m honestly not sure, just scroll through the tag if you want an idea, because I can’t describe it myself

#besties doodles — Art from my mutuals

#besties rambles — Ramblings from my mutuals

#other’s art (it’s awesome) — Other people’s awesome art

#other’s rambles (sick af) — Other people’s sick af rambles (I tend to forget to use this one…)

#bbg tag — Posts both by me and by other people about my F/Os

#images that describe my gender — My gender envy tag. Don’t question the stuff that’s in there.

I tag triggers with #cw (trigger).

I tag OCs with #oc: (oc).

If I make any new tags (or remember any ones I forgot), this section will be updated!

Also, please keep in mind that tumblr is a bit fucky and sometimes doesn’t show posts under tags for some reason! Some posts might have my old tags on them.

DNI list:

If any of these fit you, do not interact with my blog.

Pro//shippers

NSFW blogs (I scroll through every blog that follows me. I don’t wanna see that.)

TERFs

Transphobes, homophobes, racists, ableists, sexists, misogynists, antisemites, etc.

H//arry P//otter enjoyers (I fucking hate J.K. Row//ling and all her works.)

D//anganronpa-specific blogs (Very sorry — this is just a big trigger for me.)

People who support Israel’s genocide of Palestinians (Stay FAR away from me.)

People who ship The Knight/Ghost and the Grimmchild (I mean, you do you, but I don’t wanna. See that. Feels weird.)

A//I “art” supporters (this includes A//I generated anything. Text, music, images, ANYTHING. Go away.)

H//azbin fans (😐)

And I believe that’s it! Enjoy your time here :)

[lastoneout]

hi! who are some of your favorite blogs?

Hmm....I mean my first instinct is to just plug all of my mutuals but I feel like that's something people should be allowed to keep private if they want so I don't really feel comfortable doing that(also I would probably forget some people and that would make me feel bad), but aside from them I enjoy headspace-hotel's posts, they've really helped me recontextualize my relationship with nature and have actually inspired me to work on my fear of bugs? I also really enjoy gimmick blogs! Especially alphabetcompletionist, identifying-cars-in-posts, and reading-comp-posting, those ones are always delightful to have on my dash. dear-ao3, yamujiburo, and vaspider are also great for dashboard enrichment.

Uh, there's absolutely more but that's the ones I can think of off the top of my head!

[windkonig]

hi I'm michael!

welcome to my blog! I post stuff I like. you can find a list of that here

just bc I reblog it doesn't mean I've watched/played it, though. I try to tag most things, but sometimes my arm hurts.

my blog operates primarily on a queue that is usually set to post 25 times a day.

if you want, you can send in pictures of bugs/reptiles/amphibians you saw and I will do my best to identify them! be sure to give me a general location, as this is very important for ID purposes!

here's where you can find me!

@yeahponcho - for my pet lizards!

@doritobug - for arthropods!

@hatsune-michael - miku!

@surgat - gallery of my oc!

@hastebreak - FFXIV blog!

@neature-walk - I post bugs/reptiles/amphibians I found here!

twitter: https://twitter.com/HatsuneMichaels

last.fm: https://www.last.fm/user/windkonig

if you are a mutual of mine and we've had a friendly interaction before, feel free to message me for my discord!

[melodraca]

~ Introduction Post ~

(Via: Outofcontextanimash)

Hello there, and welcome to my blog! My name is Gabriel, and I've been on this site for way too long

Mutuals, new followers, etc. feel free to reply to this post and tell me about yourself, infodump, talk about ocs, etc. I'm always happy to chat!

One like on this post = one high-five

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Don't forget to kiss the mezuzah on your way in!

(Via: Frankfontainecalloutpost)

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Check out the links below to see my about, and to find me on other sites!

About Me

Linktr.ee

DeviantArt

Art Fight

Toyhou.se

Flight Rising

Twitter

Warriors Sideblog

(Mobile-friendly "About Me" under the cut)

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ABOUT

Hello, I’m Gabe! I’m a queer, Jewish hobbyist artist/writer with a ceaseless obsession for character creation. I’m a trans man, and I exclusively use he/him pronouns :)

I live in Canada with my roommate/best friend/RP partner/guy I bother, and my rancid little budgie Genji, whom I love terribly. I have a nasty habit of creating tons of characters and then never doing anything with them, kind of like a dead-beat father

Outside of art and character creation, I love dragons, video games, hiking, literature, film, paleontology, and animals/zoology. I’m currently in university, double majoring in English and biology!

Autism/ADHD/OCD/anxiety and physically disabled as well. I’m terrible at messaging people first, but I am always delighted to get messages <3 I’m awkward, but I love chatting. Also feel free to ask me to tag things!

On testosterone since July 25th, 2015

Post top surgery since October 26th, 2017

Post hysterectomy since August 6th, 2020

Currently on the wait-list for phalloplasty!

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HEADS-UP

This isn’t really a DNI or a BYF, but more of a heads-up about the kind of content I reblog and my general takes on things. I don’t engage in discourse on here, like ever, but I figured I should include this anyway

This is probably a given, but I block conservatives/terfs/bigots/etc. on sight

I identify as queer and I use the (reclaimed) f-slur pretty frequently. I don’t tag reclaimed slurs

I do tag triggers as thoroughly as I can (nsfw/nsft, blood, transphobia, etc.) Please let me know if I ever forget to tag a trigger!

On that note, I’m an adult, and I frequently reblog/discuss things with mature themes (mostly jokes tbh). I also swear a lot. This isn’t an nsfw blog or anything, but y'know

I’m a furry, and I reblog (sfw) furry art. I may be cringe, but at least I’m free :3

I love the horror genre, and I sometimes reblog horror stuff. I tag anything with blood, gore, injuries, or body horror, but I don’t ever reblog legitimate/intense gore

My general political take on things is that every human deserves basic human rights, and violence or bigotry of any kind (transphobia, racism, antisemitism, ableism, Islamophobia, misogyny, homophobia, etc. etc. etc.) is bad, actually

For my own mental health, I don’t answer inflammatory asks, or asks about topics I’m not comfortable with

Ask games are totally okay! I don’t really do “send this to 5 other people” type ask games, but I appreciate the sentiment nonetheless ^_^

Oh yeah. I should mention that I love MCYT (Minecraft YouTube), specifically Hermitcraft and the LifeSMP, and I post about it a lot, including shipping content. I feel like I need to clarify that I’m shipping the characters, not the Real Human Guys playing them. This is a super minor note, but like, y'know, just in case

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INTERESTS

Feel free to check out my top tags to see the topics and fandoms I enjoy! I’m trying to tag things more comprehensively, but sometimes I forget so please, like, bear with me <3 I frequently post…

Animals (birds, dogs, bugs, etc.)

Dragons :D

Photography and nature

Paleontology and biology

OCs and art

Jewish stuff

Whatever I find funny or interesting on my dash

Posts that give me an excuse to info-dump or ramble

Occasionally politics/social justice/current events

In terms of fandom, some of my favourite things are…

The Magnus Archives/Protocol

Minecraft and MCYT (Third Life/Hermitcraft mostly)

Pokemon

Fallout

The Elder Scrolls

Flight Rising

Breaking Bad

Dungeon Meshi

Severance

Baldur’s Gate 3

Fullmetal Alchemist

Jurassic Park/World

Nope (2022)

Avatar: The Last Airbender

Invincible

Fire Emblem (mostly Three Houses)

Infinity Train

Definitely more I’m forgetting right now

[buggiethedrag0n]

Haiii :3€ im making again hueh

Hellooooooooo!!!!!!!! My name’s Bug, I’m just some random Dragon-Angel kid that happens to work for a goddess. This is my blog where I post my nonsense and shenanigans abt my existence here or something :)

I’m transmasc, currently identifying as xenogender, and I use he/xey/it/they pronouns. I’m fictoromantic, fictosexual, and solian/mspec veldian!! If you don’t respect that then disrespectfully gtfo <3

My hyperfixations are Hollow Knight, Kirby, A Hat in Time, Bug Fables, Cult of the Lamb, Rain World, and Fate/Zero!! Sometimes I’ll post stuff related to those things, but mostly just my bullshit :3

This blog is safe for minorities! (e.g. disabled ppl, LGBTQ+ ppl, BIPOC, Palestinians, etc.)

Please don’t be weird in my inbox!!!! I mean, you can say fruity shit, I’m fine with hornyposting, but none about me please! It makes me uncomfy

Other stuff under the cut !!! <3

(dividers via @/animatedglittergraphics-n-more)

Asks r open!!!!! Ask me whatever as long as it isn’t like. Really gross or personal <3

My socials!!!

Youtube channel!!!

Wattpad acc!!!

AO3 acc!!!

TikTok acc!!!

$$app acc!!!

Ko-Fi acc!!!

My other blogs!!!

@goblinbugthing — main blog!!! (ooc)

@princes-creations-askblog — oc askblog!!!

@ask-emporianroyals-au — ahit au askblog!!!

@kirby-souljourney-au — kirby au blog!!!

@hollowknightinsanity — hk-specific sideblog!!!

My silly little fanfics!!

Kirby: Soul Journey — Kirby au fic, takes place after katfl, to be rewritten (Read on Tumblr / Read on Wattpad / Read on AO3)

Kirby: Soul Journey oneshots collection — self-explanatory, also to be rewritten (Read on Tumblr / Read on Wattpad / Read on AO3)

Hollow Knight: Empty Promises — HK au fics, currently only oneshots (Read on AO3 / Wattpad link to be added)

The tags!!!

#shut up boything — in-character posts

#imadge from the fucking guy — my art tag

#mod boything | ooc — out-of-character posts

#critter’s buddypals — posts featuring other OCs

#modguy’s friendos — my mutuals’ posts :3

#this just in: stupid fruit says something stupid and fruity — hornyposting tag (yeuh sorry this is gonna happen sometimes)

#creature reblogs — rbs

#boything answers your strange little questions — answered asks :)

#the fucking guy does his job (for once) — my original writing!!!

#boything asks you strange little questions — polls

#boything imagines — non-canon stuffs (e.g. mine n holly’s daughter moggie)

I tag triggers with #cw (trigger)

I tag OCs with #oc: (oc)

If I make any new tags, I’ll update this!!

DNI list:

Pr0shippers (gross!)

NSFW blogs (GROSS)

TERFs (fuck you. disrespectfully.)

Transphobes, homophobes, racists, ableists, sexists, misogynists, antisemites, etc.

H@rry p0tt3r enjoyers (go away.)

D@ng@nr0np@-specific blogs (big trigger. dont like)

Zionists (FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU)

People supporting Israel’s genocide of Palestinians (FUCK. YOU.)

Ppl who ship The Knight/Ghost and the Grimmchild with each other??? (idk i just dont like it.)

AI “””art””” hoes (disrespectfully, i hope you die)

H@zb1n fuckshits (😐)

Out of character stuff I wanna say

Hiiii mod here, I go by the same name as my sona

Also same pronouns, same sexuality, same gender identity, etc.

IRL, I AM A MINOR. My sona’s age kinda depends on which universe I decide to throw him into, but IRL, I am still under 18 and I do not want any gross stuff in my inbox, reblogs, comments, or anywhere else.

This is very much an RP blog! If you wanna send your own OCs at me so we can put them in Scenarios together, then totally go ahead and do that!!

Uh. I do think that’s all!!! Bai-bai!!!!!! <333

[sofd-maybe]

,

[unlikely-course]

The tl;drs of this very long post, which is about Gideon’s arc and her relationship to Harrow:

-Gideon’s arc in gtn is a corruption arc because tlt is not just goth but Gothic

-Gideon “forgives” Harrow because of Trauma and that’s definitely not the endpoint of how she feels about Harrow or their past

-The narrative knows what it’s doing

When Gideon says “For the Ninth!” as she dies, and thinks “this is the loyalty they always said I lacked, this is me making good” that’s not growth, that’s part of the tragedy of the moment. Like, the Ninth does not deserve her allegiance! It is, as Gideon was the first to remind us, rotten to the core. When she dies, it’s for Harrow, and her saying it’s for the Ninth does represent on some level that she’s come to new understanding about who Harrow is and how Harrow views herself *as* the Ninth, but like this is, I mean. Bad. Harrow herself does not deserve Gideon’s loyalty! Gideon gives it to her because it is a relief. Gideon is very good, yes, but the forgiveness is a response to trauma. The second Harrow shows even the slightest vulnerability or regard for Gideon, Gideon is eager to make amends because she has been starved for any positive association to others for her entire life, and Harrow was literally the only peer she ever had to associate with. She correctly identified that resistance to Ninth society was vital to her survival and selfhood, but also that shit is exhausting. That resistance is also partially formed by that society conveying to her: we have no place for you, we have no use for you as you are, and that makes you hateful to us.

Her response to Harrow and the cavalier role then is pretty classic! It is a relief to have a place, to be able to stop fighting, to give herself over to a structure sold to her as one in which she can support and be supported, to resolve the central conflict and most complicated relationship of her life. I maintain that you the reader are also supposed to feel initially relieved and even cheered by Gideon and Harrow growing closer and then gradually unsettled when Gideon embraces cavalierhood and the increasingly invasive demands of the trials, and has her mindset adjusted in increments toward sacrifice. To feel her thoughts turn in this direction is alarming! This is purposeful, and it is purposefully mixed in with good feelings, the same good feelings that Gideon is getting, to distract from and inoculate you against what is happening just as Gideon is inoculated against it.

In addition, Canaan House is a very particular crucible. This is not only the first time that Gideon has ever been bombarded with new people and experiences, but also the first time she’s faced these unknown external threats, which pushes her to unite with the familiar (Harrow) against them. Her past and present environments have made it so that the compassion she comes to feel for Harrow gets bound up in the idea of being loyal to her house, the ‘contract’ of her new role, and the positive interaction it gives her until the idea of her offering her life to Harrow is not simply necessary in the moment but good and right. Redeeming, even, when we as readers know she has nothing she needs redemption for. 

Gideon is so very angry when she comes to in htn, and it is not merely anger at those who have wronged Harrow or anger at Harrow for endangering herself. On the First, she made a simple deal: her life for relief from the emotional state she had to live it in. Forgiveness for some kind of peace. And when she wakes up that exchange is refuted. Gideon frames Harrow’s actions as a rejection of herself out of low self-esteem but also in an attempt to deal with unresolved anger she has towards Harrow, anger that cannot fit into the cavalier role she wants to embody, anger that she attempted to trade away but in actuality can’t. Because the role she was sold, the type of relationship the cavalier and necro is supposed to be, is ultimately false. It encompasses very real and deep relationships, as we have seen, but the framework uses these real elements to its own ends, the Empire’s ends, and despite its proclamations of mutual care the relationship is always at the cavalier’s expense.

This is what it means to say Gideon’s arc in gtn is a corruption arc. It’s not that she becomes “bad,” it’s that the corrupting forces of the narrative have reached out and altered her, worn her down, seduced her even. This is Gideon’s first contact with the wider Empire, in the seat and seed of its wretched power, and it has used her goodness, her capacity for connection (and yes for forgiveness as well!) against her to further ensnare her, to draw her in line with itself. And then she dies for it, as it demands! Wow. And the we have the other side of that, which is when Gideon says “For the Ninth!” she’s signaling to Harrow that she has come to value what Harrow values, just as Harrow herself, watching in horror, has come to realize her values are very fucked up.

And Harrow has indeed realized that by that time! Harrow really does travel such a distance in gtn, but this is largely obscured from us just the same as plot details are in the book, by the limits of Gideon’s perception. And let me be clear: this is a feature, not a bug. It is not a weakness. It is vital! Integral! To the above, and all it entails for Gideon as a character and the overall themes of the series, that Gideon forgive Harrow without Harrow having “earned” it or made real amends. The fact that she does conveys to us everything I’ve just been talking about!

Furthermore, this story is in conversation with a rather particular type of Christianity, but Gideon’s Jesus parallels are even more widely applicable. Forgiveness is kind of a whole theme with that guy, and the book is also plenty interested in what it costs for a human to forgive as divinely as scripture demands (to forgive as the bond demands, as the empire demands). In some ways there are good things that may come of it, sure, but it is not a purely redemptive force for the giver or receiver. It does not necessarily resolve.

I myself can’t say that I ship Gideon and Harrow in the way people traditionally think of shipping, nor as I have traditionally shipped other characters. Still, I reject the notion that that way of relating to each other is not a central part of the questions the book is asking. Like before, when I was talking about Gideon finding something to believe in in the way the adept/cavalier bond is sold to her—although we see that bond encompass many different types of relationships it is in Gideon and Harrow’s case speaking to how romantic love (much like that forgiveness!) is not immediately and entirely redemptive. I mean, Muir does say the series is about how love can be redemptive, but I think can be is the operative phrase here, in that it’s also first demonstrating the ways it’s not, or at least not always the way we think it will be--the limits and then the power. Trying to set that aspect of the relationship aside (like a “sisters” route or something similar) is a weak and queasy side-stepping of the issue.

Remember that interview where Muir says something along the lines of like, she didn’t write it as necessarily romantic but definitely homoerotic? Yeah. 

Despite all that I do want to make it clear that I hope Gideon and Harrow work it out in the end. Just don’t assume the narrative does not understand what working it out might entail. And who knows? I might have the read all wrong. Maybe Muir doesn’t understand what she’s doing. But I feel pretty compelled by the textual evidence.

[a-christmas-fruitcake]

hello friend could i ask you to tag for insectophobia or bugs tw on the bug posts u rb? they are very lovely but seeing them on my dash makes me a little uncomfortable. you are of course welcome to say no, but i would like to keep following you so i thought i might ask. have a lovely week!

I appreciate the ask and I'm gonna be real with you, anon

I'm an entomology guy. I've spent years of my life studying and filming and IDing mosquitoes, and I have a deep love for most arthropods--especially ones that I think are neat or pretty or weird. Most of the biology classes that I took in college were for animals without bones. I love these weird little creatures. I feel like even if I gave it the old college try there would be posts that slip through the cracks because sometimes I see a bug and reblog without thinking.

I mostly use tags for commentary unless I can steal someone else's tags that identify a media but I'm also on mobile 99.9% of the time so I barely tag at all.

I do appreciate you asking, and if you'd like I can try to reccomend some mutuals of mine that are similar but less bug-oriented for you!

[presidentroarie]

Ok, identifying yall as members of the gang from KotLC (extra notes at the end):

Neurodivergent and arachnophobic/don't like spiders: Fitz

Neurotypical and arachnophobic/hate spiders: Biana, Stina

Neurodivergent and indifferent to spiders: Sophie, Keefe, Marella

Neurotypical and indifferent to spiders: Maruca, Wylie, Amy

Neurodivergent and like spiders/think they're spiffy: Dex, Rayni, Jesni

Neurotypical and like spiders/think they're spiffy: Tam, Linh

Extra notes:

So this may not be super accurate, I didn't read Stellarlune but the vibe I get from the fandom about Rayni leads me to the assumption that she's very neurodivergent and thinks they're cool.

Jensi also gives me neurodivengency vibes of some sort, perhaps ADHD or ADD, and I feel like he would like spiders because he's a cinnamon roll and will befriend literally anything

I know they're all traumatized and have anxiety and depression so in their cases I tried not to use those as indicators of neurodivergent, though those are valid mental health issues.

Biana and Fitz not liking spiders isn't a rich kid thing or whatever, Fitz is scared of them because one time when he was three and his mom was very pregnant for Biana, he got bit by a pretty big spider at night and screamed and Alden came running but he didn't believe Fitz until morning when he came down from his room and had a giant welt on his neck and Fitz had spent that entire night in pain and got bit all over by even more spiders but his dad didnt believe him and probably wouldn't come back again and his mom could barely even leave the bed.

Biana doesn't like them because when she was 10, she found an old stuffed animal, but when she squeezed it, a bunch of spiders came out.

Stina just doesn't like the damn things because whenever she has to take stable duty and resupplying the hay there's always at least three of the creepy bitches hanging from a silky thread in the corner. They have a mutual agreement where they don't repel into her hair, and she won't murder them

I also 1000% believe that Fitz has severe OCD and have an entire post about it somewhere on this blog, I think a lot of it is in an ask to or from @synonymroll648 (love ya Lucas <3<3)

Speaking of Izzy, he has amazing takes about Sophie being autistic and Keefe being autistic and ADHD and I adore it so much it's cannon now, and I've always adored the idea of Sophie being dyslexic

Also, Marella gives me ADD vibes, so there she is

I think the three of them are all indifferent to them because it matches so well with Sophitz, Keefex and Marelinh

Like Dex likes spiders a lot. He admires most how they can make such intricate patterns that are also effective and strong using the lightest of materials. He always has a bunch of facts about them that he will infodump to anyone at any moment

Little break from the train of thought to say a thought I just had about this where while they're at Alluveterre Dex notices Fitz looks uncomfortable and rubs his neck everytime someone talks about spiders so he torments him about spiders and makes jokes about one being on his shoulder to make Fitz flip out and Fitz has enough of it and grumbles about going for a walk and Biana chews Dex out for being an ass and tells them the whole backstory for why Fitz doesn't like spiders and Dex feels bad and apologizes and they become buddies and Sophie wants to hit Alden next time she sees him because of it

Back to the thought, liking spiders is such a Tam and Linh thing, and not because they have the punk/goth/emo/etc. look going for them. A lot of people don't like spiders or think there's something wrong with them and that they're creepy. Tam and Linh can definitely relate to feeling like spiders compared to the other insects (yes I know spiders are arachnids, but Im making an analogy). They sympathize and enjoy spiders because they're different from the other bugs and they have a lot of good qualities when you get to understand them, just like our Song twins.

Sophie likes gardening (there's a post on it in here somewhere) so she thinks spiders are good for killing bad insects that eat her plants, but when Fitz calls her in the middle of the night she doesn't mind killing them for him and then staying with him and reassuring him for the rest of the night, and I really think that she should give him a Venus flytrap so that the spider carcasses don't go to waste

And Keefe and Marella's own partners (Dex and Linh respectively) like spiders, so Marella always hails Linh when she has a spider in her house so that Linh can collect it and talk about how beautiful it is, and Keefe listens to Dex ramble on about the awesomeness of spiders

By the way, Dex and Linh are such a MlM and WlW friendship. They have a lot of shared interests, especially about spiders, and usually Keefex and Marelimh double dates turn into Dex and Linh cooing over a spider in the kitchen while Marella and Keefe talk about their amazing partners and how one tiny arachnid instantly brightens their moods.

I really don't think Amy, Maruca, or Wylie really care. If they find one in their room, they keep it in a jar for a bit with holes in it to chill and then let it go outside. They just vibe with the spider and then let it go on with its life.

I think I explained everyone, but if you want more headcannons about it, lmk and I'll make another post/just reblog with more ideas!!

Poll Time: Which are you?

I promise, this does indeed have some relevance to KotLC, so stay tuned!

[spiderworries]

About (updated 12/12/21)

BLOG WARNINGS

Hi! I’m zoph! (you can also call me rose, or any other variation on “zophronia”). I’m a theatre student and sometimes a childcare worker.

I post about uhhhhh…..

General interests

-fallen london

-rusty lake

-tsv

-tma

-will wood

-clowns

-bugs

My askbox and dms are always open and I love to chat, you are welcome to randomly dm me. Mutuals can ask for my discord tag as well (you can ask if you’re not a mutual as well but no guarantees on if I’ll give it to you. )

I have a semi-maintained tagging system- original posts are tagged cranberryposting, rusty lake is lakeposting, fallen london is batposting, magnus archives is eyeposting, and silt verses is crabposting. Feel free to peruse or filter these as you wish.

If you play fl and want to add me, send an ask or a dm and I’ll send a calling card. I play sporadically, but I’m a legendary charisma and happy to be your patron.

I have a number of a old posts that still cycle around. If you followed me for emoji reviews, you’re going to be disappointed. I tried to make one recently and it was fun but I don’t have the time and energy to make those and they dont particularly fit my sense of humor anymore either. I’m glad that they still bring people joy, though :)

I mostly try to avoid discourse and I’m not going to put specific opinions on here other than the fact that I’m not an exclusionist. If you want to have a discussion or ask more specifics you’re welcome to.

Please dont ask for personal information that I have not already provided, I’m not going to give it to you. I’m happy to talk about my interests, beliefs, or most anything else, but not sharing identifying/personal information here is a deliberate choice.

I dont have a dni and I have too many followers/get too many notes to vet everyone I interact with/who interacts with me. If you see me interacting with someone shitty, please tell me-assume I genuinely didn’t know.

I think that’s it for now :)

[txdoroki]

welcome

greetings, y/n, i’m glad you’ve decided to take a look at our rules. they help keep the enchanted forest a safe, happy, and comfortable place.

-this blog is a mha and haikyuu (and a few other sources every now and then) writing blog, and although i do take requests it is not centered around them. if you bug me about writing your request with more than a simple “hey did you get it?”, i will delete the request.

-for more haikyuu/avatar writing — check out my retired other acc @kittysugawara

-to join my taglist fill this out pls and ty

-comment somewhere if you wish to be mutuals!

-do not bring up topics of religion

-DO NOT repost my work anywhere!

-if you don’t like my writing, don’t say anything. scroll and move on with your life.

-i include warnings on general things, like suicide, sexual content, and other things. please message me if there is a trigger you have that you’d like me to include in warnings, and i most definitely can!

-i’m just as human as you are, don’t be rude 

-please dont include me in your drama unless it has to do with me or you need advice.

-this is a purely sfw blog.

-i believe others can write what they want, so, do not come to me to complain about what others are doing. this includes dark content. i do NOT create dark content, but i think others can do what they want. i don’t bother them, they don’t bother me. it’s balanced.

-respect other people’s writings on my page, don’t compare mine to others (unless there is a problem with plagiarism)

-please do not say i’m better than you or something of that nature, although the intentions might be good i do not take it as a compliment! it’s pretty guilt trippy

dni if:

-you’re an antimasker/antivaxxer/homophobe/transphobe/racist/ableist/misogynist or just a shit person in general

-you send more than one person the same exact request

-you don’t believe mental health issues are real

-you blatantly ignore science

-you are below the age of 13. i do not think that children should be on tumblr, so please, for your own wellbeing, do not interact. i do not post nsfw stuff, it is just me being uncomfortable with someone below 13 interacting.

-you judge ppl for something you couldn’t even pull off

-you send anon hate (ง'̀-'́)ง

requesting guidelines

requests are opened as of 7/1/2021

disclaimer: i only do the requests i want to. if you bother me about writing yours, i’ll tell you to write it yourself and delete the request :)

rules

-i prefer if you add as much detail as necessary, it’s alright if it’s just an idea though.

-please identify if you would like a scenario or headcanons, as well as if you want angst, fluff comfort, crack, or whatever else!

-patience please!( ˘ ³˘)♥︎

-you can either request in a post i make SPECIFICALLY about requests (you can search the “taking requests” tag on my profile to find it) or do it in my asks area! i prefer it in the asks area, but either is fine

-for headcanons, you can request up to 5 characters. if you do more than 5, i will choose the 5 i want to do the most

-if you have constructive criticism don’t be rude about it

-usually requests aren’t fulfilled as fast as possible, and i only do the ones i have ideas for.

-do NOT send me the same request that you sent someone else, it’ll cause unnecessary drama with “stealing ideas” and it’s disrespectful anyways

the fandoms i take requests for are:

-my hero academia

-haikyuu

more to come

things you can request:

-matchups

-headcanons

-drabbles

-scenarios

-oneshots (usually 1-3k words)

-small things like a moodboard, songs theyd like, etc

-AUs

- fluff, crack, angst

things you can’t request

-nsfw (why? this is a sfw blog and i’m a minor)

-full fics (why? i do not have the time for that, and requests aren’t my blog’s main focus anyways)

-dark content ( why? it makes me uncomfy, and i’m a minor. while i respect writers who do write it, i will not be. do not ask me to write dark content.)

-character x character(why? this is a character x reader writing blog)

-poly relationships (why? i don’t think i’m educated on it enough to write)

-health issues (why? i wouldn’t want to say anything out of lack of knowledge!)

[dropofgoldensun]

tag game !

— tagged by: @luvdsc ◦ (thank you friend !!)

— tagging: @dreamystuffers @markleebee @euphoria-vmin7 ◦

TAG GAME #1: 10 songs, 10 people

rules: you can tell a lot about a person from the type of music they listen to. put your favorite playlist on shuffle and list the first ten songs. then tag ten people. no skipping!

playlist chosen: kpop

fun fact: this playlist is currently 536 songs long, i started it back in april 2018 and have been growing it ever since !! (i’m also quite surprised that all of these ten songs were ones that i listen to semi-often)

summer 127 — nct 127

hit — seventeen

here i am — taeyeon

long flight — taeyong

call me baby — exo

i got a boy — girls’ generation

icy — itzy

lion — (g)i-dle

nectar — wayv

ridin’ — nct dream

TAG GAME #2: fic writers ask game

Which new trope would you like to try writing?

cafe/bakery aus are really sweet, so i might do one of those !! it’ll likely be a timestamp but if i feel inspired enough i might turn it into a fic :) 💗

Which trope do you want to write again?

i’ve probably mentioned this before, but i loved the victorian au of ephemeral so much that i wanted to continue with a sequel !! perennial is one of my drafts, but i’m currently still planning it. for me, the victorian au is basically a combination of old royalty and modern rich aus, both of which i love 🤩 pretty dresses and fancy foods and secret lovers 💖🌸✨

Which draft are you most excited to post?

there’s a “watching nature documentaries with renjun” bullet point scenario that i’ve been working on for a while !! (but i still haven’t decided on a decent title hhhhh) it’s the closest to completion out of all my drafts (which,,, isn’t really that much) so it’ll probably be the first long fic of 2021 i’ll be posting 😊

Is there any new genre you want to explore?

not really, but i want to try doing a collab one of these days !! and i believe one of my mutuals has plans in-the-making for that... 💞

Do you have a favorite line in any of your drafts up to now?

rip excuse my bullet point formatting :’)

you: “i love bugs, that’s why i kill them”

renjun: “geez, glad you don’t love me”

Have you decided on any creative goals for 2021?

no, not really 😅 but now that college application season is over, i have more time to pursue my other interests, like writing :)

Describe your journey on this blog last year in three words! And three more words for what you hope for 2021!

2020: variety, inspiration, friendships

2021: experimentation, enjoyment, friendships

TAG GAME #3: aesthetic challenge

rules: to make your own moodboard go to pinterest and search:

favourite colour + aesthetic

favourite colour + outfit + aesthetic

favourite colour + shoes (choose one that goes with your style)

favourite colour + an accessory you like

type a word that identifies you + quote (choose one that goes with you)

favourite celebrity + favourite colour (if you don’t find anything then search favourite cartoon)

type your favourite hobby

favourite colour + aesthetic again

favourite colour + favourite word + aesthetic