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fallinfl0wers · 3 years ago

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love stories with some genshin boys i thought of while listening to my playlists

includes: aether (210 words), xiao (261 words), scaramouche (277 words) and albedo (307)

warnings (?): spoilers of ‘we will be reunited’, english is not my native language and uhh idk what else, idk really know what these are, headcanons ?? snippets ?? also not beta read and not edited.

it’s long so uhhh i’ll add a cut somewhere

anyway enjoy!! ...whatever this is i guess

Aether

Falling in love with Aether is like a fun adventure. He, being always the center of attention and the protagonist no matter where he goes, is a free spirited, kind and hardworking man.

Throughout your time travelling and being in a relationship together, you’ll find that your relationship with the Honorary Knight is one of sweet kisses under the sunlight; innocent handholding while thinking up of what to make for dinner tonight; of easily talked out arguments and finding ways to compromise; of softly pushing each other to become a better version of themselves and, most of all, of supporting and having each other’s backs no matter what.

And when Aether confronts the Abyss Princess face to face for the first time and his world comes crashing down on him, this trait of your relationship shines like no other, as you hold him in your arms after everything was over during the night, Paimon sleeping soundly next to the both of you inside your improvised campsite.

“Even though I’m not sure what -or who- I should believe anymore, I... I know I want to see this journey to the end, and I want you to be there with me for it. Let’s be together until the last moment and beyond.”

Songs:

Snow Fairy - Funkist

Snowing, be honest with yourself and smile When two people are getting closer, time overlaps Fairy, where are you going I will gather all the light and shine it on your tomorrow

Still Lonely - SEVENTEEN

This cursed popularity. Why won’t it leave me? But why am I getting lonelier The early morning chill makes me feel Even lonelier today I feel completely empty, as if I’m empty

Kanpeki Gu~ no ne - Watarirouka Hashiritai

I'm at a loss for words, with this and that, I'm totally in love with you Someday, I want do the same to you: Watch you flounder, At a loss for words right back to me!

Side by Side - The8 from SEVENTEEN

I want to hold hands with you but I don't know what to do what to do oh baby I want to give all my heart to you but You still don't know what's in my heart

Hope - Namie Amuro

At the end of this blue, wide world there's a place I want to aim at with you We chose this long ago for eternity

Xiao

Falling in love with Xiao is like living a bittersweet dream. The Vigilant Yaksha is far from human, or so he says, and thus is out of touch with the way we mortals experience feelings, both the negative and positive ones.

Your relationship with him is one of compassion, mutual understanding, appreciation and patience. So, so much patience. Of intertwined pinkies and soft stolen glances, of shy smiles and comfortable silence sometimes filled with your voice chatting time away and his short responses to your talks.

I mentioned patience. He knows you’re making an enormous effort to try and understand him and be patient with him and his slow learning process of how relationships work, so it’s only fair that he makes a true effort to understand you and your feelings.

Xiao is well aware that he could hurt you without wanting to, be it with his blunt phrasing of his thoughts or his Karmic Debt, as much as he is aware that you will eventually pass away and leave him behind to go somewhere he can’t follow, and that undeniable truth haunts him every second of every day he gets to spend with you. And still, he wishes and wants and does cherish each and every warm, kind feeling he gets every single second you’re together nonetheless.

“I might not know what to make of these new feelings you gave me. But I’ll learn. I promise I’ll learn, so please... don’t go, not yet. Let me treasure you and carve you into my memory for as long as I can.”

Songs:

Euphoria - BTS

I don't know what this emotion is Perhaps this is also the inside of a dream A dream is the blue mirage of the desert Deep inside of me, a priori I become happy to the point of being unable to breathe The surroundings, bit by bit, become clearer

Fallin’ Flower - SEVENTEEN

While flower blooms and falls, scars cure and buds shoot We are living our first and last moment So I won’t take you for granted Because you loved me as I am

Fear - SEVENTEEN

Get out my mind I can't handle it, I'm afraid of myself The truth has me tied up My heart is tainted I'm afraid it'll eventually change you too

The Truth Untold - BTS, Steve Aoki

It’s my fate Don’t smile to me Light on me Because I can’t get closer to you There’s no name you can call me

You know that I can’t Show you me Give you me I can’t show you a ruined part of myself Once again I put a mask on and go to see you But I still want you

Tiny Light - Akari Kitō

Because you colored my unchanging monochromatic days Even the blurred darkness gained meaning

Still, hidden in this heart, these feelings of preciousness so strong that they hurt I just want to convey these feelings to only you before they disappear someday

Scaramouche

Falling in love with Scaramouche is like constantly playing a game. He’s strict, demanding, disagreeable, and widely disliked by enemies and allies alike. Still, he has a heart too; and he holds desires and hopes deep inside of it, although most of them are fueled by the unchanging curiosity he has towards the world around him, curiosity to know what he can get out of whatever the world wants to throw at him.

You were no exception to that rule, at first.

When he met you he wanted to get something from you. And you knew it from the start, just as he knew that you knew. And that didn’t change anything, at first.

Your relationship with him is one of dangerously playful, yet still light-hearted games of seduction, teasing and deceit; of secret kisses exchanged in expensive private rooms in restaurants or the cozy warmth of your home, of an unspoken shared respect and, most of all, complete, mutual devotion.

You know Scaramouche is not a good man. He has done many, many unspeakable things in his life as one of the Eleven, and he knows he’s far from being the perfect charming prince you could aim for, but he will never let you go. Because behind those hardened walls of egocentrism and pride, you saw what no one else bothered to see. You saw him, not the role he was playing, you saw him and fell in love with him.

“To be honest, I don’t think I could find anyone else who understands me as much as you do. And no, I’m not saying this because I want something, give me some more credit, geez...”

Songs:

soldier game - µ’s

You'll come with me, yes? You've grown curious about my touch, yes? Then it's already love Since you're someone I must meet in battle someday, That might just be your reason It's soldier game Though we've met again, I'm soldier heart

Kowareyasuki - Guilty Kiss

Just stop it already and show your heart only to me I love your eyes that are about to cry And your defenseless, clumsy way of living too (...) The hesitation you convey makes my chest hurt Some people just don't know what such kindness is But then I discover the truth When we got together, you don't have to endure anymore Right now, show your grief only to me I like that you think too much The complete opposite of me

Shhh - SEVENTEEN

Don't think of all these as your mere illusion They're not lies that follow the moment No one can underestimate it, my feelings are an ignition 'Cause I'm always the same Me and you, we got hurt by the lies that we won't ever work But it's fate

(...)

So I can cover you from danger A consented dedication

(...)

It's as natural as breathing An everlasting dedication

Good to me - SEVENTEEN

Yeah, when you were making that sign in my heart It was a long time since my firewall broke down Pass with the password What in the world do you know about me? Are my deep feelings seen by you?

Hiraishin - Keyakizaka46

(To trust is to be betrayed, to open one’s heart is to get hurt So to avoid being struck by lightning-like sorrow…)

Which side am I picking? Ah, these values are hard to handle That’s why I won’t stop watching over you Positive positive positive You should just be yourself… I can forgive whatever absurdities you pull off I’ll support you without being noticed Even when you get nitpicked I’ll be your companion Let us now promise to live an unremarkable life hereafter What we have here is the lightning rod of love

Albedo

Falling in love with Albedo is a fairy tale-like experience for both of you. His attention had always been focused on his research, everything else fading into the background save for a few exceptions, until you came around. You, who stole all his attention by just existing.

As an alchemist, he’s naturally the curious type. He wanted to know what about it had caught his attention, what was so special about you that had him clinging to your every word and movement every time you interacted with him. Still, human relationships are hard for him, and he figured you might go away the second he started to feel burnt out from your interactions. But you didn’t. Instead, you stayed. You stayed and took interest on what he did, asked questions, gave your insight, and dragged him to sleep when he needed a break. In exchange, he did the same for you.

Your relationship with Albedo is like one of those awkwardly sweet first time crushes. Of carefully calculated movements, dates and compliments, of soft kisses on lips, hands and cheeks, of mutual support, understanding and mature compromising and commitment.

The Kreideprinz, like everyone else, has his own fears and insecurities, especially regarding his... nature, but he does his best not to let them affect the relationship he has with you. Each moment spent by your side, even when he’s not actively doing any research, is considered perfectly spent, meaningful time.

“A long time ago, I was tasked with finding out the meaning of this world. Though I have directed my efforts and resources to looking for the answer through alchemy, ever since we met I... think, I’ve found an unexpected conclusion to said issue. While it’s likely that this is not the answer expected from me, I’m positive that, at least personally, I finally have the answer.”

Songs:

Futari Saison - Keyakizaka46

In the wind blowing through the city’s streets, even though I caught whiff of something’s scent, I had no interest in looking back

In a 1m radius around me, I formed an invisible barrier to another world And yet, you took someone like me out of it

What made you do that?

Home - SEVENTEEN

What can I do? Without you I’m just an old robot, my heart stops and it’s always cold What can we do? Without me You’ll struggle just as much, so what can we do?

Baby, I want to cherish our warmth So no one can come between us

Flower - SEVENTEEN

You taught me, you showed me You’re my only reason If you can forever remember me I can get hurt, I can get hurt

My heart that’s engraved with your light Makes me stronger Give me your sharp thorns Cause you’re my flower

Oh my! - SEVENTEEN

Sorry for repeating the same thing But this is all I can try using hard words But my true feeling is this, every everything

(...)

How about you? Is it hard for you to sleep because of me too? If you keep making my heart flutter What do I do?

Naze koi wo shite konakattan darou? - Sakurazaka46

Why hadn't I fallen in love? I've been making fun of it all this time I mean everyone keeps saying 'I love you' just like cats in heat But after falling in love I realized what people live for To meet, to love, to the point of nothing but... I'm not myself, I want to find my true self.

#xiao x reader #aether x reader #scaramouche x reader #albedo x reader #genshin x reader #genshin x y/n #genshin impact headcanon #genshin imagines #genshin impact imagines #first post yay #why is albedo's so long tho he's not even my favorite out of them lol #melodywritings #fluff #genshin impact x reader #melwritesgenshin

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ghostnebula · 4 years ago

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okay self indulgent ask about waterpolo bc i played it and it doesn't even have to be about waterpolo specifically i just desperately need hc's about richie being a waterpolo player and eddie being a swimmer and they hate each other for stupid unknown reasons until they're showering off in the lockerrooms one day uwu

90% of what “goes down” is that Eddie actually sees Richie naked for the first time, because he stayed later than usual (swim practice ends before water polo) to get some extra laps in, even though the rest of the team has already gone home. And Richie’s one of the stragglers from the water polo team, like always, so he’s pretty much just getting into the shower as all his teammates are packing up and filing out.

Eddie’s a huge slut anyway, and he owns it, because this is college and he’s finally free from his shithole hometown and his mother’s influence, which means he has had the sexual awakening of the century, and fully embraced the fact that he is gayer than a rainbow. So he knows what the fuck he is talking about when he says Richie Tozier is hung. Like, he knew it was big, but seriously, what the fuck? And how the fuck is that fair? That guy is annoying as shit. How come the guy who makes Eddie want to rip his own hair out gets to have such a nice dick? It’s not like Eddie’s ever going to want to fuck him.

(Oh wait, shit, don’t think about fucking him)

And maybe he shouldn’t have looked, but you know what? Curiosity may have killed the cat, but satisfaction-- (no!)

The other 10% of what goes down is that by the time Eddie’s laid out his toiletries all neatly and pulled his stupid little shower shoes on, it’s just the two of them in the locker room, and Trashmouth hasn’t said anything to him yet but he always does, doesn’t he? He’s always got some jibe or remark or witty (shitty) nickname and he keeps calling Eddie “Wheezy” ever since he had a panic attack during practice that one time and he’s always so fucking smug, and he’s stupidly pretty for being such a dorky-looking creature, and Eddie wishes he would fuck him-- what, no--

No, Trashmouth isn’t teasing him or calling his ass juicy or anything else that makes Eddie burn with lust hatred. He’s just singing Africa to himself because he’s a fucking dork, after all, and not someone all cool and suave like he pretends to be, and then Africa is sounding strangely close, and Eddie looks up from scrubbing himself down with lavender soap to find Richie’s moved to a showerhead much closer to him, and while Eddie stares he winks.

Eddie goes back to scrubbing himself faster, because he does not want to get roped into a conversation with this fucking guy, no thank you, not Stupidly Hot Trashmouth Tozier and his... his fucking horse cock, no way. Except then there are hands on his shoulders and he’s being crowded against the wall, and, holy fuck, is Richie actually hard against him? Is that what’s pressing up against his back? (What the fuck else could it be?) “You stick around just to spend some quality time with me?” Richie asks, right in his ear, as his hands slips from Eddie’s shoulders and trail down his sides to settle on his hips.

“No,” Eddie says, then, “Get the fuck off me,” in a much quieter voice, with little, if any, conviction.

Eddie can hear the fake little pout as Richie says, “Aw, you don’t want that, pretty baby.” A shudder rips through Eddie at the nickname, but, no, that must just be the cold from the tiles he’s pressed bodily against, the very same thing that’s making his nipples harden (there’s no excuse for his dick; he’s going to try to ignore that). “You know, I heard a sweet little rumour about you. You think I can hitch a ride?”

“Fuck you,” Eddie says, because the alternative is a desperate, whiny yes, as Richie leans back enough to slot his dick right against Eddie’s ass and thrust forward a couple times, slow, just to make an already very clear point that much clearer.

“I’m trying, baby doll.” Richie grabs the hand that Eddie’s trying to use to make a show out of the pretense of pushing him away, and slams it into the tiles above his head. He takes hold of the other for good measure and holds them both there in one hand while he uses the other to hold Eddie’s hips in place and rock against him. “But you gotta cooperate.”

Eddie whines, mostly because he doesn’t know what the fuck else to do. He hates this guy’s guts. Doesn’t he? He’s goofy and annoying and hot and funny and a slut (but that’s hypocritical) and he has no respect for personal space or boundaries, and he’s rude when he isn’t being annoying, and maybe Eddie saw him feeding some of the stray cats on campus a few times, but that’s unsanitary, honestly, and not at all charming, and there are so many rumours flying around about the Manwhore Trashmouth he doesn’t even know what to believe (except the ones about his dick -- those are definitely true). But he’s a shitty, annoying person, and that alone should cancel out anything else, so no, Eddie is not fucking attracted to him and no, he doesn’t want to fuck him.

Richie kisses the back of his neck, lingering for a moment before peppering more kisses all across his shoulders, which are bent up at an awkward angle as Richie pins his arms above his head. Then his teeth are digging into his skin and Eddie makes a noise halfway to a scream, jerking against the wall so hard he’s sure there will be bruises all down his front tomorrow. “That’s good, kitten. That’s good. Just let me take care of you.”

Eddie abandons all pretenses and reminds him, a little dazed, “But we need--”

“Lube?” Richie twists away from him for a moment, leans down and lets go of his wrists (but Eddie keeps them there, and he’ll tell himself it’s because he just forgot in the moment) and then he’s tapping Eddie’s side with a plastic bottle. “I brought mine over. I come prepared.” And then he laughs to himself a little and Eddie’s fucking dumbfounded, because he cannot believe this is happening right now. He can’t believe he’s about to fuck the guy he has refused to be attracted to for the duration of his college career, right here in the dirty fucking locker room showers, and he’s just... letting it happen.

He should, at the very least, tell Richie they need a condom, too, if he’s going to just let this virtual stranger fuck him like this, but he just... doesn’t. There’s nothing about not using a condom that’s appealing to him. Nothing at all. It must just slip his mind.

Richie pushes Eddie out from under the spray of water, dragging him along the wall, and once he’s rubbed some lube on his fingers he grabs Eddie’s wrists again to keep him in place as he fingers him, and frankly it’s just fucking ridiculous that his fingers are big, too, and Eddie hates that he’s so attracted to this asshole, and that he wants this so fucking bad he thinks he would actually die if Richie were to stop right now. Richie tells him how good he is in the same breath he calls him a slut and a bitch, and then calls him his “pretty baby” while telling him he shouldn’t be so tight for someone who supposedly spreads his legs to anyone looking for a hole to fuck. He bites all over his throat and sucks hickeys anywhere he can reach, while he digs his fingers right into his prostate until Eddie’s trying to rip his hands from Richie’s grip, and then keeps going until there are tears streaming down his face, and his cock is so hard where it’s trapped between Eddie’s stomach and the wall that it hurts. He thinks he might be close to coming when Richie finally slips his fingers out of him and then, because he’s a fucking asshole, he smears what’s left of the lube across Eddie’s cheek.

“Oh, shut the fuck up. We’re in a shower, you can wash it off after,” he snaps when Eddie starts spitting expletives at him. “You’re being fucking ungrateful, kitten. Maybe I should just leave you here to finish this up on your own.”

Eddie shuts up real fast, and Richie’s laughing at him, low and cruel, as he trembles where he stands. The feeling of the laughter rattles through him where they’re pressed together, back to chest, and Eddie’s pretty sure Richie pinning him against the wall is the only reason he’s still upright, because his legs have gone weak and he’s lightheaded. But he has to move, and when Eddie starts slipping down the wall as he shifts back, Richie just laughs louder, catching him around the waist and pausing to lick from the base of his throat to his jaw when Eddie tumbles back into him. “You losing touch there, or what?”

Eddie murmurs something that he hopes to be an affirmative, because he’s maybe a little numb everywhere and maybe a little dizzy and all he wants right now is for Richie to just fucking rail him. He wants to forget his own name. He wants Richie to add to the bite marks and hickeys already littering his neck and his shoulders. He wants him to come inside him and just leave it there. Another wave of dizziness overcomes him. “Please...” is all he manages, and then he’s being shoved face-first into the wall again, Richie still holding him up around the waist, and the head of his cock is pressing to his hole and he’s saying, “please” again, while Richie tells him in a voice warm with mirth, “Don’t you worry, kitten, I’m gonna give you exactly what you want.”

#itskitschyrichie #ask #reddie #minors dni #inappropriate #cw dub con #water polo au

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eduardo-andale-lets-go · 4 years ago

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Alright we gotta accept that we’ve entered a new phase of the fandom and we aint getting the same traction as before, but we’re ALIVE and we’RE GONNA KEEP IT THAT WAY OKAY.

And ONE WAY to do that is to support creators. I’ve seen the rec lists and I think I need to update it with some new good ones. Obviously these aren’t the only ones but these are the immediate fics that I remember because they’re 1) SO fUcking Good and 2) the most recent that I’ve read.

Absolutely nobody asked for this but its here now so you have to deal with that by reading all of this. Suffice to say, if anyone has fic recs please don’t be afraid to add them as I will be updating this as I see fit.

1. Baby, I’m Counting On You by PuddingTown

Summary: When Richie Tozier breezes back into his hometown of Derry, Maine, he’s expecting to see familiar faces. Of course, he’s not expecting to see an old flame chasing around a baby. With a million questions, nowhere to go, and a help wanted ad for a nannying job, he finds himself at the doorstep of Eddie Kaspbrak.

Comment: this is a 119k long fic of sweet, sweet longing and domestic bliss doused with simmering angst. You will LOVE this repentant Richie in that he actually does work for it (lesson!), and its not the darkest fic out there cause—BABY! THERE’S A BABY IN HERE AND STEVIE IS THE BEST BABY CHARACTER OUT THERE OKAY! SO IF YOU WANT SOME CUTE BABY FICS HERE IT IS, ITS HERE, ITS HERE ALL YOU GOTTA DO IS CLICK AND READ AND LOVE IT!

Its also celebrity/singer Richie and drag queen/mechanic eddie and if that aint enough for ya I don’t know what else.

Status: Complete!

2. Toucha Toucha Toucha Touch Me by Mere_Mortifer » @mere-mortifer

Summary: “Who the fuck are you?” Eddie exclaims before he can stop himself, and the man turns to face him with a shriek. "I have a dog, you know? He’s like half wolf or something, if you don’t get the fuck out my apartment I’ll tell him to attack!” The man, incredibly, laughs again, this time less hysterical and more plainly awkward. “Yeah, uh, about that…”

Or: Eddie brings a stray dog home. Turns out, it's a werewolf.

Comment: this is an 11k fic of nothing but good pacing, gOOD smut, and great characterization! And please, do not worry, Richie is human when they have sex here or else I wouldn’t have clicked xD

Status: One shot

3. Predicament Bondage by dgalerab » @dgalerab

Summary: When Richie is cast in an irreverent sexually charged comedy, Bev suggests he do "research" with Eddie, a professional Dom.

Only problem is: Richie's still in the closet.

Comment: alRIGHT. THIs one I’ve been so excited for every chapter. Its not done yet but the updates are pretty reliable. The sexual tension, the professional dom eddie, the sweet, soft Richie—its all so good.

Status: Ongoing

4. greetings from stardust by hippieluna @hippieluna

Summary: A few days ago just an ounce of Richie's attention was almost too much to bear. Now, he feels engulfed in it — hot tickling flames that spread from his chest to his fingers when their wrists touch between the seats of the car. It hurts when Richie looks at him and it hurts when he looks away. Funny how much clearer things get when there aren't any distractions.

Comment: ITS! A! ROAD! TRIP! FIC! FULL! OF! NOTHING! BUT! YEARNING! AND! SMUT! I’ve read many a kinky/hard core fics in my time here in the reddie tags, its been filthy, its been fun, but hippieluna writes sweet, fresh smut in a refreshing way! The pacing, the underlying tensions, the necessary misunderstandings, the understandable insecurities—its never boring nor annoying! The pining is so, so good. Sometimes, I could hear music just from the way hippieluna writes and it’s a fucking adventure alright! The sceneries, the mood—if this was a color, it would be if the setting sun, with all its orange and red and purple and pink were reflected in a clear lake. It. Beautiful. The way Eddie just sees Richie—ya’ll, if you want some fresh pining material here it is. Status: Completed!

5. come to me feathered and frayed by Lvslie»

Summary: “You are—free,” he continues, haltingly. His narrow chest is heaving. “Are you happy?”

The frightful, intimate acuity of the question undoes Richie’s volition—he’s disarmed. He stares into the other’s wide eyes, knowing his own to be just as revealing. At length, he swallows.

“No,” he admits instead, softly. “No, I am not.”

[Or; a late 19th century AU inspired by Maurice and Age of Innocence]

Comment: THIS! This took me so fucking long to read cause I had to acclimate my reading prowess. This one reads like classical books I swear to god, but like, so so so worth it. The imagery brings me to Italy, even though I don’t know most of the words cause ive never been to Italy and we don’t have those kinds of architecture but like going to google images and then reading it back- worth it for the mood that it gave me. If greetings from the stardust was the setting sun this one was like sitting in a greenhouse and seeing the reflected green all around. Like sitting on a turtle as it waddles through the water. Very calming, sometimes tumultuous in the repressed department, but somehow overall soothing. Maybe its because of the narrative voice, so if you love fancy and eloquent narratives this is the one for you!

Status: Completed!

6. i've lived and died a hundred times by bughead

Summary: In a rare moment of genuinity, Eddie whispers, “I feel like I’ve known you forever.”

Eddie and Richie's souls are connected, and they've met millions of times throughout history.

(or, some souls are just meant to meet, one way or another)

Comment: HO HO HO HO HO—HoooOOOOO. If I could HUG a fic—I WOULD SLAP IT FIRST, FEMALE MAIN CHARACTER IN A YA MOVIE STYLE, BEFORE HUGGING IT. Holy SHIT DUDE. Where do I START? Okay so first of all this is 6k, might be the shortest of my recs right now, but fucking hell did it pack a fucking punch. This has everything I LOVE and WANT in a fic! The mood is somber in that it deals with reincarnations and the wonders of connection. Richie and Eddie’s souls meet each other at various points in history and ive been making teary eyes the rest of the fic. Its just—if the last fic was a turtle on water, this one is floating in the sky, falling a couple miles and then floating again. It leaves you with some kind of feeling—a tug, a yearning (HA THIS WORD.) and a need for closure. And you—you get it, that closure, but it still leaves an impression. Like a warm hand on my elbow, kind of sweaty, large, but comforting. I loved this so much.

#IT #IT fic recs #richie tozier #eddie kaspbrak #fanfiction #reddie #will add more #please if you have new fic recs add it here #if you wanna promote your fic do it here too #we're all here to celebrate and support creators-- each other!#use this as a homebase for new fics cause by god the new fics dont get enough traction even if they deserve it #reblog this please im begging yall

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coeursetcolores · 4 years ago

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What I Would Add To/ Change About: Devil May Cry 5

Hello again! Today is March 8th! Two years ago, Devil May Cry 5 was released, over ten years after Devil May Cry 4. Such a long gap caused many to believe that Capcom abandoned the franchise, but to our surprise at the 2018 E3 conference, after years of silence and tentative hope brought by a picture of Reuben Langdon and Johnny Yong Bosch in mocap gear, the day we dreamed of happened: DMC was back!

Now here’s the million dollar question: Did Devil May Cry 5 live up to it’s fans’ expectations after all those years?

I’m pleased to say, YES!

To the whole collective fandom, this game was totally Smokin’ Sexy Stylish!

To me individually...

Well...

It wasn’t really what I’d thought it’d be.

This is all just my own personal opinion and if you disagree with me, that’s perfectly okay! If you’d like to talk about a point I made, please let me know, but please try to respect my opinion as I respect yours.

Fair warning, I won’t talk about online stuff. I’m not an online gamer, that’s just not me.

Well, with out further ado, let’s get started!

SPOILERS AHEAD!

Like the last time, I’d like to start with the positives before getting to the things I wasn’t 100% on board with.

Combat. It’s DMC, and it’s styling way past any other game that dare challenge it.

The music: Frustration is getting bigger! BANG, BANG, BANG! Pull my Devil Trigger!

NICO. I jut love that crazy chick. And yay! Nero has a friend!

The death screen changes were SO helpful. Giving an option to come back in the middle of a fight saved me so much time! As long as it stuck to in-game currency...

The backgrounds are so detailed, Redgrave City looks amazing! And I was really happy when they brought back that gorgeous gothic architecture for Sparda’s mansion!

Bosses are tough, but not to unfair levels. It really makes you feel awesome when you finally knock that last bit of health out.

I’ll never miss an opportunity to fight Vergil. One for having an opponent that doesn’t tower over you, two for his fights just being great as usual. And after everything he’s done, yeah, it feels good to beat the ever loving crap out of him.

Dante dance. I cannot do it justice.

Lady’s new outfit is so cool!

Patty! Call her back Dante!

MOTORCYCLE! BUZZSAWS!

Dante has officially embraced being a silver fox. I salute him.

LORE!!!!!!

NERO! NERO! NERO! BEST BOY, SPICY SON I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU PRECIOUS BLOODTHIRSTY SWEETHEART!

You can see just how much detail went into the game. From the blood tubes staining you to V decomposing, it’s astounding.

Nero got a Devil Trigger! And it’s GORGEOUS! ...I do miss his persona, though...

Seeing all our favorite demon hunters again! I missed these guys!

Okay, but before we get to what I wish they added, I want to say something.

I have a lot of issues with this game, but while I can blame some of that on the writing and design teams, a lot of it is also on me having spent years basically imagining the story that would be perfect for me and probably me only. So a lot of my problems may boil down to the game not matching my imaginary scenario, so take my suggestions with a grain of salt.

Now here are some things that could have possibly made me like the game more.

ADD:

MORE LADY AND TRISH. These women were screwed when it came to the plot and they could have done more, what the heck?! Maybe some scenes where they try to process what happened to them, have them distraught at having been used by Urizen to help him destroy the city and blame themselves. Have Lady blow up at Dante for not warning them about what was really going on, for letting them go in unprepared, let her tell him that the blood of the city is on their hands because he kept his mouth shut. Lady is a huge influence in his life, and I feel like this would really open his eyes to how much he messed up.

As for Trish, she knows better than anyone else that you can really screw up and hurt someone that cares about you. Maybe after everything goes down, she could be the one to encourage everyone that, “Yeah, we messed up big time. But sitting around here hating ourselves isn’t getting anything done. So get up, we’ve got a city to fix.” I feel like this could really show how human she’s gotten from being with Dante and the others. I think it’d make her look more multi-dimensional.

And how come Vergil can get a DLC when he was in the game even less than they were?! The women in these games deserve equal representation, Capcom’s DMC developers!

And as for Vergil, maybe make his deal less ambiguous? I mean, the whole “Is Vergil really redeemed?” debate is really bringing out the worst in people. Like yeah, keep it ambiguous to the characters, it makes sense for Vergil to not show something “weak” like remorse to others, but show it in a way that the player can easily interpret.

Give Vergil some missions to himself where he takes in exactly what he’s done. Have him see Redgrave City, where he was born, devastated, people he may have once known reduced to ashes and know this is all because of him. That just because he wanted to be stronger, he’s destroyed lives, because even if he had no intentions of doing so, the split went against his wishes and left him weak to see a tyrant slaughter countless people without any goal. Have him realize that even if that was unintentional, he still nearly almost ended humanity once before with a sound mind (Temen-ni-gru) so he can’t pretend he’s in the right and that he’s actually probably a disgrace to Sparda’s legacy. Have him run into a sobbing little boy crying that his mother was killed and he lost his brother, maybe in the ruins of the family home. Have Vergil look into a mirror and see Mundus, have him realize that he’s no better than the demon that killed his mother and imprisoned him for years. Have him hallucinate Sparda disowning him for going against everything Sparda believed in. Have him see Eva sadly tell him that she wanted to save him, but seeing what he’s become lament that she lost her life trying to save a monster. And when Dante tells him Nero’s his son, he freezes. He abandoned and maimed his own child, left him for his brother to care for. Dante sees this and doesn’t know what to do? Is Vergil...sorry? Can he take a chance on him this time?

Or leave him an unrepentant jerk that’s just upset he still can’t win and expressly tells Nero he’s only going to cut down the Qliphoth down so he can fight Nero again and because he doesn’t want to give up Yamato.

And for that matter, make V’s goal clearer to the player. Have him expressly state, when he’s by himself with his familiars with no one that he can manipulate around that:

A. He wants to stop Urizen and prevent anymore devastation as atonement for his crimes as Vergil and part of the reason he wants to merge again is that while he does want to fight Dante again, he deserves to die as Vergil or defeat Dante and fix his mistakes by himself, realizing that Dante’s been cleaning up his messes for years.

B: He wants his power back, his mind got stuck in the human half and he can’t stand how weak it is. Everyone is just a stepping stone for him to be stronger.

Actually have the characters react to the Qliphoth. Seriously, everyone is crazy apathetic to all the death and destruction that they failed to stop. Aren’t they supposed to be the “heroes?” The only character this would make sense for, ironically, the one who actually seems to remember it exists at the end, Nero. Yeah. Remember how he didn’t care about anything but Kyrie in 4? Remember how the developers said he would just walk away after Dante shot the pope if Kyrie wasn’t there? I’m not say he needed to stay apathetic, I’m just saying it doesn’t make sense for him to be the righteous character.

Have Dante at some point just look out at Redgrave and see that if he had told the others what was going on, maybe this wouldn’t have happened. “...This didn’t have to happen.” Have this weigh on him. He’ll still act goofy, but he realizes that his selfishness can have real consequences.

Have him realize that he really hurt Nero with what he said and that he used Nero’s trauma and insecurity against him in the heat of the moment and it’s causing a rift between him. When he’s alone, make him privately promise to make it up to him later and actually apologize at some point near the end. Dante should know from his experiences with Vergil that insecurity can lead someone down the wrong path and that if he doesn’t do something he could lose one of the few positive relationships he has.

Have Nico have at least one freak out at everything around her and realize that she might not be as ready for this as she thought. She hasn’t experienced something like this before like the others. Nero comforts her and it makes their friendship grow stronger.

When Nero starts talking about family, he should acknowledge that while he is related to Vergil, they’re not really a family yet until they actually work for it, and that he knows what a real family is like, the ones who adopted him and were there for him (Kyrie’s parents, Credo, Kyrie, Nico, Dante, Lady, Trish, etc.).

Make it clearer that Vergil isn’t forgiven for his crimes, but that they’re willing to give him a chance. His last one.

Alright, now for the overall changes.

CHANGE:

The entire ending. Instead of Dante going down with Vergil, Vergil stops him and tells him that his life is here, with people that haven’t hurt him like he has. Dante tries to protest, says he can’t leave Vergil free to do whatever, but Vergil gives a bittersweet smile and tells him he can’t stop him, but it’s obvious Vergil’s not going to do anything again. When Dante gets desperate and tells Vergil he can’t leave him again, Vergil tells Dante he’ll be back, once he’s cleaned up his own mess for once; he’s the older brother after all. With that, Vergil goes to fix his mistake.

Dante’s left behind by his brother again. Instead of brushing things under the table, Nero is furious with Dante for never telling him the truth about his family. Especially after he was left uncertain about the future and looked to Dante for guidance, Nero feels betrayed. Dante understands and apologizes. Nero’s too upset to accept and tells Dante he needs time to think before he’s ready to talk to him again. Instead of begging Nero to stay and keep a connection he desperately needs, Dante lets him go, realizing that if he wants to fix things, he needs to start learning how to talk about how he actually feels instead of covering things up and unintentionally hurting those he loves.

Vergil destroys the Qliphoth, but doesn’t leave the Underworld. Realizing just how much he’s sinned, starting all the way back to Temen-ni-gru, he resolves to not go back to the human world until he’s made himself one worthy of being a Son of Sparda, finally understanding what that really means. Descending into the Underworld, he won’t leave until he’s eliminated those that would harm the world his brother, father and son protect so hard. This could be the start of his own spin-off series that would focus more on the demon lore in the games and take place entirely in the Underworld with Vergil struggling to be a better person and take responsibility for his own actions. Devil May Cry: Atonement, maybe.

Nero heads back home with Nico but doesn’t read V’s book. Hurt from his betrayal, he puts it in a box and seals it up for Vergil’s maybe return. When Nico starts talking about how Agnus is the reason she’s alive, she also acknowledges that she already has a real father and family that love her and subtly (and stutteringly) implies Nero’s a part of that, cementing that Nero has a family that loves him and is there for him. Nero thanks her and the two descend into silence for a bit before they start mocking each other and end up laughing before Nico realizes Nero’s crying. When she starts freaking out, he explains that he’s scared he’s still not strong enough to protect them, but before Nico can say anything, the phone rings. Answering it, a voice says, “You don’t have to be.” Looking out front the two see Kyrie and Patty, decked out in hunting gear, a phone in Kyrie’s hand. Smiling at them, she says into it, “We’ll protect each other.” Running out of the van, Nero scoops Kyrie up in a hug. When Patty starts complaining about them ignoring her, Nico pulls her away and tells her not to interrupt. After a bit, the group looks out at the horizon and vow to fight together, not letting themselves fall to the bitterness that led to this mess. Seeing some demons approach and watching his crew get ready, Nero smiles before smirking and gets ready to throw down. “Let’s rock!” Devil May Cry: Forsaken.

Dante looks out over Redgrave from his childhood home, silently miserable. After a while, Lady and Trish come over and try to talk, but he cuts them off with an apology. Fully realizing how his inability to let other people in nearly got them all killed, he encourages them to leave so they don’t end up like that again. Stunned from Dante apologizing, the two are silent. Then Lady angrily asks, “What the hell?! Just how dumb are you?!” She tells him that yeah he really screwed up this time, but they’re not going anywhere! He’s an idiot, but he’s THEIR idiot, and they’re not leaving him alone. They need him and he needs them. Trish tells him that if he has time to mope, he has time to clean up the city. The girls begin to walk back to the city and tell him to hurry up. A genuine smile on his face, Dante looks to his family’s home one more time, sheds some tears and walks away, from his past to his new family. Devil May Cry 6 will pick up on what happens next.

If Resident Evil can have like 50 spin-offs, why can’t DMC?

Alternatively, I’m also open to the suggestion of Vergil being stuck as V for the rest of his life. Karmic punishment at it’s finest.

In all honestly, Vergil was really unnecessary to bring back. Like, just make him DLCs, his whole story is done. It just feels like fanservice and the writers banking on a popular character to bring in sales. I also feel like the game bends itself over backwards to please him (back to life, cheat coded to power, no more nightmares, gets to fight Dante whenever he wants, gets a son who wants his acknowledgement he didn’t have to raise, crimes are basically swept under the rug) while everyone else gets kind of screwed over (Dante has to leave his friends behind, Nero’s abandoned again, Lady and Trish are captured and get no screen time, V’s familiars are gone, millions are dead).

I think Urizen and V should have been their own things: I liked the idea of Urizen being the general of Mundus that attacked Dante’s house (his ACTUAL reason for fighting) and V being Mundus’ son who was abused and bonded with his henchmen who decided to become a devil hunter in vengeance for his mistreatment. I dunno, I feel bad V (who legitimately creeped me out) was just made into a convenient little redemption arc.

Nero’s character arc really should have been something else. I think he should have learned throughout the story to stop caring what others thought about him (a trait that should have been visible in 4 if it was going to be such a big deal in 5) and learn to trust his own strength. He should’ve realized that he doesn’t need to prove anything to Dante, he’s never going to be the same and he should be happy with who he is. Also, wanting Vergil’s acknowledgement doesn’t make sense. He may be his biological father, but literally the only things Nero knows about him is that he ripped his arm off, started the apocalypse, got millions killed, manipulated him and wants to kill the guy who was actually like a dad to him. Biological ties can only count for so much.

Alternatively, his arc could have been about becoming a more compassionate person. Like I said earlier, it’d make sense if he didn’t care about anyone other than Kyrie being in trouble. And remember when he tried to kill an armor he thought had a human in it in 4? Along with the seemingly human Agnus? Have Dante worried Nero might go down the wrong path. Have him tell Nero about Vergil WAY earlier (months after 4) and have Nero worried if he’ll turn out like that. Nero actually had more potential to be dark than Dante, and I feel like that in trying to make him look like a perfect hero in 5, they had to make Dante look worse (keeping secrets, ignoring suffering, etc.).

And instead of “deadweight,” Nero’s berserk button should have been Dante not telling him things. You know, like the Order? The group he worked for that tried to start the apocalypse in secret and nearly got him and his girlfriend killed along with actually killing his older bother? Yeah.

I do not like the hyperrealism. This is purely on me preferring more animesque art styles, but I always felt that not looking like actual humans helped the series’ fantastic elements shine.

Dante’s new outfit is just so...muted. It’s just boring. Dante’s supposed to be flashy, dang it! Give me back the chaps!

Nero’s hair is awful. It just looks terrible on him, I wanted him to have long, pretty hair. They should have just kept his trigger hair all throughout the game.

Also, Dante’s the hunk, give Nero back his soft, pretty boy face!

DON’T GET RID OF DEVIL BRINGER! I hated using the Devil Breakers, who wants breakable weapons in Devil May Cry?! What’s next, reloading ammo?! And if you can come back from being stabbed, shot, electrocuted, impaled, would it kill you to let Nero grow his demon arm back to keep his playstyle easier?! And if you needed a challenge, congratulations! Nero lost his Devil Trigger! WORK WITH THAT!

Please don’t get rid of Dante. I love Nero, but he can’t do the main protagonist role. This is Dante’s series and he needs to finish it. Sure, give Nero a spin-off or two, but let Dante finish the story; the “Sons of Sparda” storyline was just 3. Not the whole series. Vergil is an important figure in Dante’s story, but he’s not where it ends. Dante. And. Vergil’s. Lives. Do. Not. Revolve. Around. Each. Other. They just liked to fight each other and developed opposing ideals, but their overall goals ultimately didn’t really factor in the other.

The whole Vergil abandonment thing shouldn’t have happened along with his beating Dante obsession, it seriously weakened Vergil’s character. He started out as someone who wanted the power to defend himself and became so deluded that he was ready to disregard any moral limitation to get it and simply fought Dante to amuse himself while never letting it get in the way of his goals. And him blaming Dante and Eva and insisting that Dante had an easier life, while I can understand it, just makes him come across as a spoiled brat throwing a tantrum.

Let V’s familiars kill demons without him. That was just really annoying.

And that’s it. My dreams for Devil May Cry 5 and the reality were two very different things and honestly...I’m afraid I’m growing out of this series.

I’ll still post some content I want to get out, but I’m not sure I’ll be picking up the next one.

#What I Would Add to/Change About...#Devil May Cry 5 #Criticism #Praise #My Silly Personal Opinion

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rureikia · 4 years ago

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"Why me?"

"Because you're single and you're my life long best friend! Friends have each other's back, no?"

I stared at Sumiko and instantly shook my head to reject the idea, "Then I don't want my back anymore. I don't want to go."

"Ah (Y/N) please." She clasps her hands in a prayer pose.

A long, tired sigh escapes from my mouth, but she stays stubborn and chooses not to listen to my aspect of the situation, "Uwaaaah, Sumiko what do you not get? I do not go to those sort of events. Who do you think I am?"

Even after I had given her the belated answer she didn't like, Sumiko decided to lean on my work desk further and pulled a rare puppy-dog expression.

She's not actually like this, trust me. Sumiko is much more mature than me, but today she's extremely persistent in acting like a crazy aunt because of this silly little blind date thing.

"You're a bland person (Y/N), that's what I think. And you're literally only going as a substitute so you don't have to uh - date anyone," she explains, "Tag along, you might even enjoy yourself for once. You never have fun anymore, and it'll be like the old times!"

Her hopeful smile doesn't affect me, rather made my eyebrow twitch. Thus, I returned back to my computer screen and continued typing up work as a way to defocus my mind off her, "I don't know what you mean. Of course I have fun, I just don't really like blind dates."

"Goukon is fun though! And you're single."

Right, she doesn't need to mention that I'm single over and over again like that...

"Aha, but you said that I don't need to date anyone." I contemptuously reminded her.

Her expression changes from my words, "Oh, whoops... Yeah whatever! Well, the point is that our other girl can't make it, and we can't have one guy hanging 'cuz it'll be really awkward being the only partner-less one."

"Mm, I see."

"You know what? If you join, I'll even pay for all the stuff you order in the restaurant we're meeting at."

Oh actually, that's something I love to hear on an overworked Friday... Especially since I'm a person that will never be made out of money and buy luxuries.

This statement was the only part that caught my attention fully. Because it's free stuff. That particular free stuff being my hearty dinner for tonight.

I raised a brow as a sign of piqued interest, "Everything...? Are you sure? Really?"

"That includes drinks, yes..." Sumiko looks at me with a proud face, "Absolutely everything."

Smiling curiously I was beginning to consider accepting the offer, "Is there anything else?"

"What do you want?" She says.

For a second, I put a finger to my chin and looked up at the ceiling to hum a heavy brainstorm teasingly.

There was this one idea I had which was going to turn this into a sort of win-win situation for my remaining hours left here. And so I chuckled at Sumiko in this suspicious style whilst her smile instantly wiped off her face - a pensive expression replaced that smile.

Even when watching her quick shift of emotions, I kept beaming as my mind made the decision.

"Here." I said.

I had grabbed the four large piles of documents that were all 5cm thick.

Earlier, it was idly lying next to my computer, waiting for me to start on it. And now, I placed it in front of Sumiko, where she then gawked at me.

You know what made it better? That loud flop sound it made after being dropped.

"W-What?" She gasped.

"Haha, you can do my work."

With my clenched fist raised in front of my face, I furrow my brows in determination. She on the other hand glared at me with threatening intent.

"Thank you very much!" I said, "I'm very excited for this event now Amaya Sumiko! But take your time, do your best!"

"Why (Y/N) -!! You little rascal, you're taking advantage of this aren't you?!" She exhales heavily in disbelief through her mouth.

My chin moves to rest elegantly over on my two intertwined hands that were put up on the desk, "So, when is it? Tell me more, I'm so very excited for this. Is it after work? Seven? Eight? Or are we going wild and starting at nine? Which restaurant is it? "

"God. You're never funny when you do this." She pretends to throw the documents in my face, I however pretended to act scared by shielding myself with my arms. Afterwards, Sumiko continues, "I won't be the one picking the restaurant, but this other guy is gonna do it and he'll text us the location probably an hour before it starts at eight."

"Oh so in three hours to get work done?" I ask.

"...Yeah. I guess."

"Then you better get all that work done or else you'll be working overtime instead of going on dates haha."

She scowls at me and I grin with my teeth showing.

I soon observed her storm off to the opposite side of the office where her own work station was whilst I was still jokingly beaming behind her.

...

I went back to thinking of what could happen with me and the others over in that meetup. I think it won't go awfully too perfect for me, not that meaning I will be pessimistic about it. Ah I'll say it a bit clearer - what I mean is that I won't really be interested in finding someone there since I prefer to meet someone by chance and not choice.

Haha, to be honest... I haven't dated for a while or done anything like this. Well I haven't been in a stable relationship in general for a while. So I'm now kind of nervous...

I've been on a couple dates here and there but never actually got myself a significant other ever since my first real relationship. And it made me a little teary-eyed as I thought my first real boyfriend was probably also my... (sniffs)... Final...

I'd grow into an elderly person and not understand the concept of romantic love anymore as I haven't experienced it in absolute decades by then. Ultimately, I will live life as a lonely senior with dozens of pets to keep me company instead.

If you put yourself in a positive mindset, it sounded quite nice, living with animals until death. But I do not carry that positive mindset so it ended up not sounding very nice.

I did want to find someone before my parents send pictures of potential partners for me to meet and greet... In fact, they've already started - and no matter how many times I tell mom that I'm not interested at the moment, she persists.

Mom wants me to find someone, get married, live in a better house, be financially stable and add new children to the family tree one day, all that whatnot!

Of course, I know she's just worried about my future, but how am I supposed to find love if I basically forgot how it feels?

In addition, there was also this. My lack of feeling for romance is often what makes all the dates I've been on every blue moon, only be a date. Only one date, never another one again. I just can't seem to identify a sort of love with other people, and it makes me afraid about my future.

I guess another factor for my lack of dating experience may be due to my specifically high-level standards I have raised. Because ever since three years ago, I now tend to struggle to find a suitable partner that would make me feel as much emotions as my last one did.

After all, I can't lie to myself that me dating my ex-boyfriend was something I think during some of my nights, not that I wish to reunite of course. But I think about how it's a little strange that he's the one of the only people I'm not related to I've known for a large portion of my life and also the one I strived for more than my current career.

The most important thing to me is my job. But back then, the most important thing to me was him.

From the beginning of middle school, I've known him and I proceeded to get to know him at high school too. So in a way, we were childhood friends, right?

We lived in the same neighbourhood , him actually living right opposite me - we went to the exact same schools too, middle, high school and college. It was like we were meant to be or something haha!

Well... His name was Kita Shinsuke.

He's definitely the I'm-so-perfect-and-good-looking-but-don't-know-it kind of guy, if you get what I mean.

Kita was respected by so many people. He's responsible, always got excellent top tier grades, talks very polite Japanese, always was the teacher's favorite, was even captain of our high school's volleyball team and mentioning it once more, he was quite good looking too. For a bit, I kept having this stigma that his existence was simply unfair and unbelievable... He can do practically anything and wouldn't react that much as if he's some kind of snobby prince. But soon, when I observed him more, everything was done unintentionally and he was simply like that.

...

Often in stories, dramas or anything similar, two kids that live closeby, or have known each other since young are portrayed as something incredibly sweet. Most commonly called this concept of childhood sweethearts.

Two kids would routinely go to and from school together, possibly holding hands, picking sticks that look like magical wands from the ground, buying ice pops in the summer, blowing bubbles, they'd get told off by the elders, constantly spark up trouble together and they'd pet the stray cats etcetera, etcetera. These two would enjoy each other's presence obliviously not knowing what would develop in the future. Because once those kids grow up, only then would they realize what they share is a friendship that has actually been blooming into love.

I guess that's my summary of one of the examples of childhood sweethearts, but I have yet another one to mention!

Two kids in a love-hate scenario this time, to which I think is a little more complicated.

In this case, one party doesn't like the other at first. However, the other party would take somewhat interest whilst still not liking them too. So throughout time, these two will glare and click their tongues in irritation, not even batting an eye of respect at one another. And so their initial relationship therefore being rigid and competitive - but likewise, once they grow up and become more mature, they come to realize they're used to each other's presence so much that it's odd to not live without it! Suddenly they're like, (gasp) Oh!! It must be true love!!

Maybe if fate had given me a childhood sweetheart like that, I could walk around with hearts in my eyes like what you'd see in television shows.

But me and Kita weren't really like either of those.

We really and truly were just two separate lives that lived coincidentally close.

At my younger age, I'd be at home reading manga, watching Doraemon and singing the opening song for Cutie Honey Flash, as Kita would be doing all his homework, playing sports and helping around his house.

It was definitely during middle school. That's when I started to notice Kita a bit more. I mean to be fair, he went to the same school as me, we left at the same time and we also lived in the same area, who on earth wouldn't notice? And at some point, we were put in the same classes miraculously too.

He was for sure a very good boy. Always completed work to his full potential with that annoying photographic memory of his, often did lunchtime duties and was consistently showered compliments by the teachers! Gah! Wasn't fair!

He sat next to me in year 2 middle school which was probably the year I began liking him even more. Because I would turn my head and just see him and then my whole peripheral vision was also still just, him.

Kita and me never bickered at that time slot nor did we talk too much - come to think of it, I think it's either because I was too scared or because of his introvertedly noiseless attitude. Well, more or less I disliked arguing so I thought if I ever argued with a boy like Kita, it would end in the worst.

There was actually this one memorable time, still set in 2nd year middle school, where me and Kita were the ones chosen by the teacher to hand out the numbered vests for P.E. as everyone was going to join in for soccer. There were around 45 vests in total, Kita handed out a pathetic number of 6, then left to go play ball as the other boys asked him, subsequently leaving me behind to do the rest...

I was therefore running around angrily, trying to hand out all the remaining vests for everyone.

Funnily, the less vests I gradually had, the more I got angry since it reminded me how the one that handed the majority of these, were all me.

It was only when I finished handing them out and the teachers told us to find a partner to stretch with, I bumped into Kita again purely by accident.

Looking at him made me mad. At that second, I wish I had scolded or ranted to him or even thrown my numbered vest to his face to the very least, but we partnered up automatically and I had no time or build-up of confidence to do any of that. Instead, I just copied how he was stretching with a scornful face.

He was stretching with complete concentration adding onto this air of tranquility as if he forgot what he just did, and I was weakly doing the same whilst trying to keep my petty thoughts in check.

By the time I twisted my torso to do a different stretch, I glanced at Kita where he was doing a stretch with the opposite arm. And I stood there, watching him, with a slightly open-mouthed expression, similar to a fish.

I was baffled how he was wearing the same tattered and ugly green vest as everyone else in class and how he was wearing just our school's plain P.E clothes - yet somehow, the wind gently brushed his hair, the sunlight made his dark eyes brighter and I saw how he was noiselessly mouthing numbers to himself to count his seconds of stretching.

Similar to a movie, time stopped. Everything turned slo-mo and my heart had a strong twinge at the sight of him.

It was right then, that was the promising moment I fell for Kita.

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violetlunette · 5 years ago

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Why I don’t like Ross and Rachel as a couple from FRIENDS

Okay, I know I’m gonna get some hate for this, but I hope you’ll hear me out (or rather read me out). I’m also sorry if others have said this and said it better as I haven’t been able to find anything as of late. This is just a rant about a couple that I feel never should have gotten together. So if you like this these two together then I don’t think this is the post for you. And also, spoilers? (I mean doe it count if it’s an old show?)

First off let me say that I like both these characters and neither of them are bad people.

Ross is such a sweet, caring person who is always their for his friends and willing to help out; he bought Phoebe a bike (despite Phoebe always being the first to poke fun at him) and taught her to ride it, he walked his ex wife down the asile when her parents refused to even show up and convinced her to go through with the wedding when she had doubts, despite his heart breaking I might add. And when Joey expressed genuine feelings for Rachel he told Joey to go for it and he would get over his own feelings. He’s also very adorkable which I find very cute.

Rachel on the other hand is hard worker with some naivety and has the most character growth in the series. She’s also really cute, but able to stand up for herself and her child when she needs to. Rachel is also very smart—despite what others may think as she managed to go from having no money to being given a job offer in pair in a career known to tear people apart. (The Devil wears Prada anyone?)

So, yeah I like Ross and Rachel a lot--I just don’t like these two together. Why? Because they bring out the worse in each other and in turn make the other feel bad about themselves.

On Ross’ side his rampant jealousy goes too far. He’s possessive and even when they’re not together he believes that Rachel is HIS Rachel.

Now I understand why he’s this way; his wife left him because she fell in love with someone else—for a woman nonetheless. Ross thought they were happy and comfortable only to find out that this wasn’t the case at all. This has left him deep scars and trust issues, Ross even admitted that’s it’s hard to trust Rachel because Carol hurt him and he doesn’t want it to happen again. The problem however is he never learns to deal with this and as a result has possessive, clingy, and jealousy fueled streak in him that would make him dangerous in real life and unappealing on the show.

Ross has made several snide remarks about Rachel’s intelligence throughout the show even though she’s been shown to be quite intelligent. She may not be “Harvard,” but she manages to rise from a waitress to a manager in fashion industry with little to no experience. Yet despite this and the effort she put in Ross sees her achievements as unimportant and childish. He even makes her feel dumb just because she doesn’t understand things that most people wouldn’t ether.

Not to mention Ross is always putting Rachel’s jobs down.

When Chandler and Joey convince him to make a list he calls her “just a waitress” forgetting the fact that it was her FIRST job. It was literally her first step into the work world and she did the best she could with it. Yet that wasn’t good enough for him. He didn’t respect the fact she was working hard to make a life for herself. And those were his thoughts, not Joey and Chandler’s who just suggested he make a list to help him pick, Ross is the one who stated she was just a waitress.

Then when her perseverance pays off and she gets a career in field she loves (nothing short of a miracle even in the 90s) Ross shows no support or respect. On her first day of work at a job she EARNED by working hard and putting her heart into, Ross calls her repeatedly, sends gifts that crowd her work area and make it hard for her to do her job. Ross didn’t do this to be sweet or supportive, but to mark his “territory.” Why does he do this? Because Rachel reminded him that a guy helped her get the job and that she would be working with him.

Then when Rachel had to work on her anniversary Ross bulldozed his way in to her office with a picnic basket and made it impossible to do her job until she couldn’t handle it threw him out. Then when she returns home after finally finishing her work he doesn’t even apologize. In fact he doesn’t think he did anything wrong. He even calls her career “just a job” and “not important.” Those are his exact words to her face. This is despite the fact Rachel had told him everyday since she got the job how important it is to her and how much she loved it.

To Ross her career just “clothes” which is why he can’t understand why her job would be so important—if she wasn’t going there to see someone else. Due to his trust issues Ross had convinced himself that the reason she loved her job wasn’t due to the fact she loved working with something that interests her, but because she gets to see Mark. Ross—like so many others, sadly—couldn’t imagine a boy and girl just being friends, even though Rachel even points out she’s friends with Joey and Chandler while Ross himself is friends with Phoebe.

Because of this he decides to horn in on a lecture that Rachel wanted to see and while there Ross is rude, disruptive, and embarrassing. Give Rachel a little credit; as bored as she is with Ross’ job she at least managed to behave at the speeches and even stay awake. He doesn’t even apologize to her when they get back to the apartment and instead insults the lecture and the fact she’s interested in it.

Going back to the “picnic basket fiasco”--Even as she is telling him to his face why she loves what she she does and why she’s throwing her all into it he disregards every word she says and immediately brings up Mark. He wasn’t even apart of the conversation (or there at the time Ross butted it).

Which leads us to everyone’s favorite topic--I apologize, but we have to talk about “the break thing.” I know all FRIENDS fans are sick of this, but I’m doing a discussion on Ross and Rachel so I have to.

Clearly, what Rachel meant to say was, “I’m overwhelmed right now need some space to think for awhile so please leave me alone” which is understandable. Keep in mind that at this time Ross’ jealousy, possessiveness, and trust issues were making her miserable throughout the relationship. Also Ross had just got done demeaning her work and the efforts she put into it as well. It wasn’t unfair that she wanted time to think and clear her head.

However what she SAID was, “I think we should take a break from us.” That means you’re breaking up with the intent of getting back together, but you’re still breaking up—temporarily, but still—so technically Ross was within his rights to sleep with someone else.

However, the only reason Ross slept with the copy girl was to hurt Rachel because he thought Rachel was with Mark. Rachel on the other hand was just calling a friend to comfort her as everyone else was busy at the time; Monica and Phoebe were on a double date while Joey and Chandler were at the club. She wasn’t out to hurt anyone, she just wanted to talk to someone about her feelings. She wasn’t even thinking of Mark as a romantic partner, just a friend to help her get through a bad situation. Ross on the other hand wanted to “get even” with Rachel. I know he was vulnerable, depressed, and angry, but that doesn’t change the fact that he used a random girl he who never hurt him just to get back at his ex. (Fortunately she wasn’t emotionally hurt by this, but it was still a dick move.)

Also, let’s not forget that Ross pushed Rachel to the point where she wanted “a break.” He overwhelmed her, disregarded her interests, her career, and even her feelings because he was insecure with himself and their relationship. So when it comes to the break thing, Rachel does have the higher ground.

There’s also the fact that because Rachel was indifferent to him when she was in HIGH SCHOOL he co-founded a ‘I hate Rachel’ club and then spread a rumor that she was hermaphrodite cheerleader. Oh and let’s not forget how he handled their accidental marriage. To save his bruised ego he refused to get the annulment and then lied to her about it. Then he takes advantage of Rachel’s vulnerability when she’s leaving her apartment to get her to move in with him, even though she doesn’t know their married. Dick move Ross, dick moves all around.

But is this post about Ross bashing? No, not at all; yes Ross has flaws, but I like him a lot. A lot of his insecurity comes from his friends poking fun at a sore subject which includes his first wife ditching him for another woman with their son and a second marriage where he was willing to give up everything just for a chance to make it work.

In his first marriage Carol cheated on him when he thought everything was fine and they were happy together. Sorry Carol fans, but gay or not cheating is still cheating when you’re married. He loved Carol and she hurt him badly. Yet he can’t just get over it because every time he drops Ben off he has to see the woman who betrayed him with the “other” woman and see them living the dream life he always wanted and still wants. So I do understand Ross’ behavior. HOWEVER that doesn’t give it a free pass as he never admitted these issues or tried to get better.

Rachel has just as many flaws herself which becomes clearer after their break up. It was hard for Ross, but he eventually accepted that the relationship was over and tried to move on—which drove Rachel mad. Whenever Ross got a new date Rachel would become a jealous vamp. She would take steps to sabotage his relationship with the women even when the ladies did nothing to her—hell, most were even nice. An example is when Rachel convinced Bonnie to shave her head even though she never did anything to her, just to punish Ross and maybe break them up. She even backstabs Julie, and insults another girl just for flirting with Ross, and was even willing to ruin his wedding with Emily just because she decided she wanted him back. (Dr. House even called her out on this.)

To top it off she was always so vindictive towards him. She never got over the fact he “cheated” (YMMV) on her and wanted him to feel guilty about it forever. She wanted to punish him forever for that one action and makes it clear countless occasions she will never forget or forgive it. Hell, when they got back together after the beach episode Ross is willing to let the break thing go after talking to Joey and Chandler, however she just kept twisting the knife into him until he snapped. There’s also the fact she had to have him sign a piece of paper in the first place—most likely to use it in future arguments.

In fact, neither of them are willing to cave on the “were they on a break” even in the very last episode Ross brought it up (yes, I’m aware it was a joke, but still).

Some will argue that they learned their lesson, but no, they didn’t. When they move in together after Rachel has the baby Ross slips back into his possessive, jealous streak again by hiding messages from her and bringing strange women back to the apartment just to make her jealous. Fortunately they realized that all their old problems were still there and split--until the finale where they decided to get together despite all the stuff that broke them up still being there and never resolved.

Here’s where I give up on format and just blab and possibly repeat myself (sorry). Here are my main issues with the couple;

1: They have nothing in common. No, seriously; name one thing they both like. Not only do they not have any common interests, but it’s shown over, and over that they find the other’s interest boring and nonsensical. They don’t even try to enjoy or understand WHY the other person likes what they do. And yes, I understand that couple don’t have to always like the same thing, but they have to have SOMETHING in common.

2: They don’t respect each other. These two demean each other over and over again countless times. Ross make it clear that he doesn’t think Rachel is intelligent and Rachel is always calling him a geek and a loser. Which leads me to my next point;

3: They make the other feel bad about themselves. Rachel feels dumb around Ross and Ross feels like a nerd. Why would anyone be someone who makes them feel awful about themselves? Also...

4: They bring out the worst in each other. Yeah, think about Rachel and Ross’s worse traits—who brings these traits out the most? Each other.

In conclusion I think these two are terrible together because they never work on their issues; Ross is jealous, insecure, judgmental while Rachel is vindictive and unwilling to forgive Ross for the past, not to mention she’s hypocritical in and out of the relationship. They have NOTHING in common except for being easily jealous, they don’t respect each other or their interests, they make the other feel horrible about themselves and in the end they just bring out the worst in themselves as a couple.

In my opinion they’re better as friends and amiable exes. I DON’T think Rachel should have gotten on that plane in the end though because while he and Rachel shouldn’t be together, Ross deserved to be apart of his daughter’s life. Ross is not a bad father. While we don’t see them on screen a lot it’s been stated that Ross sees his son a lot and is fairly decent, minus the typical 90s thing of forcing gender norms, which he is always called out on. Whatever else Ross didn’t deserve to have his daughter taken to another country.

So yeah, those are my thoughts. If you like the pair, that’s fine. I just wanted to get all this out in a rant.

#anti roschel #anti ross and Rachel #friends #again sorry if i'm just repeating what others have said.#I love the tv show however

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oldtvandcomics · 5 years ago

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I've seen some posts going around about Crowley/Aziraphale being queerbaiting in the Good Omens series. I'm afraid I will regret writing this, but I have OPINIONS, said opinions being less about Good Omens and more about Tumblr not necessarily understanding the way audiovisuel storytelling and the queer community work, and maybe it's worth taking a moment to think closer about these things.

Spoilers for Good Omens (2019) and some allusions to the Discourse below the cut. Also, long post. You have been warned.

I probably should say here that I liked Good Omens, am myself aro ace, and am of the opinion that Crowley/Arizaphale is canon. So yes, personal bias exists, although I am going to do my best to be objective. Also, I haven't read the book yet, so am only going to be talking about the series.

(Ignoring hereby that they are supposed to be agender. It is a very good series, but they really, REALLY should have found a way to include that piece of information.)

This is a surprisingly complex question, that can be boiled down to three different problems: First, the way people analyze audiovisuel stories (in this case, television, but the argument also stands for movies), second, the term “queerbaiting” not being clear enough and also used too broadly, and third, people's still too narrow view of what is and isn't queer.

In this order, I am going to start with the way tv (and movies) work. It is the least controversial.

One of the things that I love about tv so much is just how complex and layered it is. There is what is directly said and shown to happen, but than there is the music, the acting, the costumes, locations, camera angles and editing, all of which have their own language and add something to how we will see a story. If you watch Good Omens, you'll notice that the exact nature of Crowley's and Aziraphale's relationship never is directly addressed or them confirmed to be queer. However, you will also notice the way they keep looking at each other, the fact that romantic music plays in the background for an awful lot of their scenes together, that they do and say things on a regular basis that goes further than the normal limits of a friendship, and the list goes on. This show is as clear about them loving each other very, very deeply as it possibly can be without directly talking about it.

This, of course, leads us to the question: What is and isn't text? What level of queercoding counts as representation? And this is where things get a little more complicated, because there IS NO clear line. People usually say that it doesn't count, unless the correct term is used. Which makes sense, given everybody's tendency to just... Idk, make a movie about somebody fighting his ex without ever telling us that he is, in fact, his ex, and than hope that they can get away with either the queer fans doing all the hard work of reading between the lines, or just write a couple of tweets about how they're totally gay and get credit for the representation.

Seriously, people, don't do that. If there is a way to use the terms, do it.

But there is a gray area. Welcome to Night Vale never labeled Cecil's orientation, yet we still know that he's gay. That scene they cut from Thor: Ragnarok of Valkyrie leaving the room of a woman? It never said that she was bi. I mean, I haven't seen it, but from what I know, I'd bet A LOT of money that, had they included it, people still would have complained about it not being clear enough. We still act as if including it would have confirmed Valkyrie's bisexuality. What about period pieces, set in times when certain labels didn't exist yet? And, finally, what if a relationship would actually benefit from being left vague and undefined?

There is no clear answer to this. It's a gray are, so feel free to just sit around and think about your own opinion on these things.

Which leads us to queerbaiting: Creators playing up the fact that they MIGHT have a queer character or relationship in their work for publicity, without ever planning to include it. It's a thing that happens both inside and outside of the story. In practice, this usually looks like putting in a lot of subtext between two same-sex characters, including suggestive scenes in the trailers, and going in interviews “well, they could be, it's an ongoing series, you'll just have to wait and see. ;) ”.

Queerbaiting is a VERY vague and very popular term, that is used very broadly, even in cases where it isn't exactly accurate. It is not exactly easy to tell what is actual queerbaiting, and what queercoding because Higher Powers wouldn't let the creators include openly queer characters in their work. Than there is of course the cases where queer characters are kind of there, but it's a blink-and-you-miss-it thing. I've heard the term “queercatching” used for that in a video. Also, queerbaiting is an accusation people like throwing around every time a show disappoints them by not making their OTP canon. (Stop doing that, PLEASE!)

In this context, it is understandably difficult to say if a certain ship is or isn't queerbaiting. However, I would argue that Crowley and Aziraphale are not. I haven't seen all the promotional things going on, so no idea how big of a selling point their relationship was. But I do know that everyone behind the scenes seems to agree that those two love each other very, very deeply, and the show itself isn't trying to hide it. On the contrary, it goes out of it's way to draw our attention to it. To anyone who is watching halfway attentively, it is going to be very, very clear that what those two have going on is NOT straight.

Which leads us to our final point: What is and isn't queer.

Oh dear. It is a topic that is still hotly debated within the community (at least on Tumblr), mostly by people trying to exclude certain orientations or keep other people from using certain terms.

Queer is an umbrella term used for members of the LGBT+ community, meaning “not straight”. It may refer to gender identity, romantic or sexual orientation, and things that don't quite belong in any of the boxes we have. The beauty of the term “queer” is exactly that it is so huge and so vague that it exceeds all boxes and definitions. A really handy thing to have, if you want people to know what you're talking about without needing to give them an hour-long vocabulary lesson first.

Please note here that so far, I have avoided using any labels for Crowley, Arizaphale, or their relationship. Please also not that while I did say that they love each other very deeply, I never used the word “romantic”.

Because here is the thing: I really don't think that they're gay. Or bi, or pan. Or anything else, really. They, and their relationship, like the term “queer”, fall outside of any predetermined categories. It is just, really, really, really clear that what's going on isn't heteronormative.

I have seen many aces being happy and feeling seen and seeing themselves in Crowley and Aziraphale in Good Omens. I've also seen many aros think the same thing. Because here is the beauty of it: We only know that they love each other more than anything else in the world. It is never said that that love is romantic.

I've also seen many allos completely miss this point.

Asexuality and aromanticism, as is to be expected from orientations that are defined by the lack of something, are still very invisible, both in RL and in fan circles. While we do have our own spaces and our own little community, mostly we are just there between our allo friends and... kind of stand and wait in a corner while they are busy with the sex and romance our society is constantly throwing at all of us. Being ace and/or aro is often confused with “being celibate”. We don't talk enough about what sexless or romanceless relationships could look like. No wonder so many people missed it when they saw one in Good Omens.

The queer community is STILL very strongly sexualized. And this is a problem, because while sexual attraction IS an important part of being queer, it is also not the only one. Queer people are still queer if they are not having sex. They are queer if they DON'T WANT TO have sex. They are queer if they don't enter romantic relationships. There is nothing straight about the close bonds aros can have with their friends. There is nothing straight about having a friend be the person you are emotionally closest to, close enough to openly beg them to run away together. Multiple times.

Queerplatonic or quasiplatonic relationships are the ones that are a bit difficult to define, because they are somewhere between “friendship” and “romantic relationship”. What they look like depends really on what the people involved want them to be like. Some live together, others don't. Some do things together that are usually considered to be romantic, others don't. Some kiss or have sex, others don't.

So far, I haven't really seen anybody really talk about the existence of queerplatonic relationships outside of ace and aro circles. And while I aggressively headcanon Sherlock Holmes and John Watson being queerplatonic, this was the first time that I've really seen an actual relationship onscreen that can be easily, or even best, read as being one.

But almost by definition, this means that it has to be vague, and subtle, and floating around somewhere around the lines separating friends from romantic partners. As such, I think that Good Omens did a really good job, giving us a relationship that is so obviously loving but also so beyond easy descriptions. However, this also means that it is easy to miss and end up feeling baited.

The problem is, I'm not sure that they COULD have done it better. Any explicit discussion about Crowley's and Aziraphale's relationship would have felt forced and out of place, and the term queerplatonic isn't enough known, they would have had to follow it up with an explanation of what that even is. And it isn't as if they could have made it any clearer how much they love each other as they did.

Some people say that they should have kissed onscreen.

Betty and Veronica in the Riverdale tv series kissed, and we all still know that it was only queerbaiting.

And isn't that, wouldn't that be, in the end, reducing queerness once more to the sexual bit in queer relationships?

I don't know. As I said, there is no clear answer, and in the end of the day, everyone is entitled to their own opinion.

I suppose, the best I can say is that what Good Omens did with Crowley and Aziraphale is very beautiful and well executed and also undoubtedly queer. It is, also, not enough. We still live in a time where we don't have much representation, and therefore all collectively jump on anything we can find. As long as this is the case, people will always be unsatisfied with everything. We need more. More explicit, more sexual, more romantic, yes, but also more quiet and subtle and undefined loving ones.

Anyway. I just had to write my opinion on this, because I REALLY didn't like what looked like a group of people dismissing a queer relationship because it wasn't sexual. This isn't even about Good Omens, not really, more about Tumblr being generally Tumblr and not seeing nuance and not thinking things through.

So... Please learn how to properly analyze audiovisual stories. Please be more careful and think a little before you start throwing around the term “queerbaiting”. And, please, PLEASE take a minute to think through if what you are doing isn't in fact sexualizing queer people and excluding parts of the community because of a too narrow definition of queerness.

And finally, PLEASE leave Gaiman alone. One, he has no obligation towards you whatsoever, and two, this was originally a thirty year old book that, three, he co-wrote with a now deceased friend. Being critical of media is one thing, and obviously, Good Omens isn't perfect. But... Just think about what you're doing before you do it, ok?

#good omens #crowley/aziraphale #my opinion #long post #queer representation #queerbaiting #queerplatonic ships #asexual #aromantic #aro / ace relationships #it's not many people who said it #and there are always some idiots who don't agree with me #in the end of the day #it's up to personal interpretations #but this is a bigger and more structural problem #and good omens just gave me such a good reason to talk about it

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dcvereux · 6 years ago

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* ╰ VICTORIA PEDRETTI┋have you met CLÉMENCE “EMMY” DEVEREUX ? she reminds me of a single star peeking through a cloudy sky, hesitant soft touches, a delicate golden pendant rested upon prominent collar bones, messy beds covered with half read books, windswept daisies dotted throughout a green meadow, soft velvet bows securing wild hair, stormy white capped seas, internal battles that seem never ending & smiles hidden behind fingers. a twenty year old ninth year hufflepuff, the intangible concept is known to be compassionate & observant, yet skeptical & reticent. that explains why they’re majoring in care of magical creatures. rumour has it, emmy is siding with the neutrals in the solemn war that blazes just beyond the horizon.

hey, hi, hello!!! i’m bronny, i’m 22 and from new zealand ( probably one of the worst timezones but ) and i’m so excited to be here?? i’ve missed playing my daughter emmy (also goes by clém but it’s mostly her family that calls her that, they ain’t a fan of the name emmy ) and i’m so happy to be here and writing her again!!!

anyway, you’re probably not here to listen to me rambling. you’re here for my smol slytherin turned hufflepuff kiddo. i won’t list everything here though because i have a full about page for her here with a bio up ( RIGHT HERE ) that has everything you need to know about her and even though it’s long it’ll really help you understand her!!

extras: this edit is really all that matters!!! there’s also a spotify playlist but you may need to @ me for that if you want to hear it bc i’m pretty sure last time i linked it on tumblr i got hacked, rip.

BUT I’LL GIVE YOU A LITTLE INSIGHT INTO HER PERSONALITY RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW:

basically she appears to be a very optimistic and positive and lowkey just like a lil ray of sunshine and for the most part it’s who she is?? only wants the best for people and tries her hardest to not judge no matter where the person comes from or who they are?? but underneath it all she’s actually quite a conflicted and lost person??

she’s grown up in a family that is somehow the complete opposite of her and even if she’s tried to keep a hold of who she is or at least who she wants to be, there’s no denying that there is a part of her that fits in with her family and it does come out every now and again bc listen….even if her parents love her, there’s no denying that they attempted to try and drag the more ‘slytherin’ side of her out more whenever they got the chance bc they can’t help but think she’s weak??

but when she’s upset or angry, the harder/darker side of her comes out?? she can almost do a 180 on her whole personality if something pushes her a little too far, like the light you can probably see in her features just switches off and she gets this darkness to her and will do and say whatever she needs to get herself out of the situation and she lowkey hates it. which is why she prefers to try and keep her emotions at bay the majority of time?? she kind of just needs to learn to figure out how to use that darker side of her for something good?? bc even though she feels as if she’s a true hufflepuff ( even if she still has her moments bc how can i be a hufflepuff when i have this darker side of me that would do anything to survive ), all her life she’s been brought up in a household full of slytherin’s and it’s all she’s known and quite a few of the most important people in her life are slytherin’s and all are death eaters/followers of voldemort and it pulls her bc…she’s loyal to a fault but she knows deep down she doesn’t agree with anything her family does but if she leaves them, it means she loses her family and she’s not sure if she’d be able to handle that??

basically voldemort rising and her family returning to his side makes it feel like her worst nightmare is coming true!!!! because she knows one day she’ll ended up having to decide between either the life she’d created for herself at hogwarts and abandon her family or chose her family and abandon her friends and possibly even who she truly is?? help her SHE’S JUST A TERRIFIED AND LOST KID, HELP HER BEFORE SHE DOES SOMETHING IDIOTIC ( someone just convince her to pick a side honestly ).

majoring in magizoology ( i’m just an idiot who put care of magical creatures instead of magizoology on her app ) which her parents aren’t the FONDEST of, they’d prefer if she was majoring in literally anything else and they haven’t been afraid of speaking their minds about it, but it was the first time she put her foot down for something she WANTED and she hasn’t been happier.

currently one of the neutrals but who knows what’s going to happen!!

WANTED CONNECTIONS:

any of the plots below can be expanded on or changed slightly!! so feel free to use them as a guide and we talk out any changes you’d possibly like to make!!

we come from the same side, i know you; it's always been the two of them. they were the shining light during the family gatherings and events growing up for emmy. they were the one person she could always count on no matter what and no matter how different they may appear at times they brought out the best in each other. the day emmy was sorted into hufflepuff, and them in slytherin, was something she'd been hoping and praying wouldn't happen—they were meant to be her rock and her theirs and as time went on, emmy always expected them to pull away from her like many had. but they never did. they'd always known she was different to many slytherins before they were even officially slytherins, nothing had changed for them and emmy couldn't be anymore grateful for them sticking by her side. losing them would have to be one of her worst nightmares, especially since danger has been brewing. they're the only person that truly knows her and she’d do anything for them no matter what. ( open to a slytherin )

offended that I walk the line; for all emmy’s life, they’ve been there by her side. maybe it was their families that first put them in front of each other but for the first 14 years of their lives they were deemed best friends. but the day emmy was sorted into hufflepuff was the day they began to lose each other. though emmy desperately tried to keep their friendship, it was impossible for them to wrap their heads around the fact emmy was a hufflepuff and beginning to show qualities they’d been taught to never display. with every passing year, emmy drifted further and further away from the life they were both meant to be mixed up in. it was obvious to them that emmy no longer held the same beliefs they and their families had and it’s a struggle for both of them to accept the fact that they no longer stand on the same side. ( open to a pureblood and/or slytherin )

to help me see myself clearer; meeting them was the first step in emmy slowly beginning to turn away from everything she knows. all her life she’d been taught to be one thing, act in a certain way. but meeting them made her rethink everything. they showed her that the way she was wired, the way she was different to her family, was okay. who she was, was okay. though in return, emmy showed them that the world wasn’t just black and white. she came from a world full of darkness but she still managed to let the light in. they both taught each other something they never thought was possible, nothing is straight forward. ( open to anyone but a slytherin )

so I wait at the gates of your fortress; they are the one person that showed her what it’s like to feel loved and truly cared about. they are the most important person in her life but emmy can’t even begin to think about getting them mixed up in the nightmare that is her family. she’s done everything in her power to keep them away from her family but as the threat and danger grows emmy wanted them nowhere near the world she may eventually be dragged into when the time comes to make a decision. after a year or so of dating, emmy broke things off. she left a lot of things unsaid and hardly gave them an explanation about why she was breaking up with them. all she gave them was a “it’s for the better, trust me, you deserve so much more than what I can give you,” as she left them standing by the great lake. but she couldn’t let them go completely, they’ve stayed friends but it’s almost impossible for them to be in the same room. it’s clear the two still love each other but emmy refuses to let them put themselves in the line of fire. ( open to anyone but a slytherin and/or a pureblood )

Emmy’s looser plot ideas can be found here!!

i’m all for plotting, so if you’re interested in any of the above plots or the looser plots on her connections page, just let me know by im-ing me ( i’m the worst, please don’t be afraid to do so, i’ll love you ) or giving this a little like!! i want to attempt to plot with you all!!! i also have discord, so if you’d rather plot there i’m up for that as well

i’m also in the process of developing another muse ( caoimhe “kiv” walsh , a northern irelander muggleborn, gryffindor order member ) but i’m making/waiting to see if anyone makes resources for the fc ( emma mackey ) i have in mind for her before i bring her on in officially!! if you’d like to know more about her...i....won’t pass up the chance to talk about my new emerging kid.

i think that’s enough rambling for now, i can’t wait to get started and write with you all and bring emmy to life again :’)

( p.s. i forgot to add, if anyone would rather plot on dis.cord, my # is bronny#0752 !! )

#solemnly:intros #。.✦ ☾ why are you like this bronny?「ooc」#i just woke JDVDJSIS

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firebirdsdaughter · 6 years ago

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Okay, so...

... Now that I have a clearer Raw I can pause...

LONG POST

Ryusoulger Episode 1 reactions! Aka, the episode that decided to come for my life.

In no particular order:

Okay, so maybe it’s a little ‘hm’ that Kou pilots the mech entirely on his own. But it’s not the first time anyone has piloted a mech alone--including non-Ranger allies. The first person who springs to mind is Commander Aya from Jetman. In GoGo V, the robot assistant Mint piloted the robot alone once. And besides, it’s only the first episode. We’ve got plenty of time for the others to get in there.

I’ll be honest. I knew the Masters were probably going to die. At the very least, I knew something bad was going to happen to them.

What I was NOT expecting was THAT.

Ryusoulger scores one for on-screen death and incineration.

First fight of the new Robo Suit Actor (I feel so bad I forget his name). Thank you for your service Kusaka Hideaki, I wish you all the best.

But let’s go back to the beginning!

Dramatic ceremony that apparently no one else is around to witness.

Wait, so if Mynasouls/Minusouls are already being made/Druidon already showing up, and just have never reached the tribe before... Does that mean Touwa and Banba have just been doing a really bang up job of fighting them off? I mean, I expect the stakes are raising sharply now, but... Could cause tension in the team if there’s a ‘the only reason you guys had a peaceful life for so long was us’ sort of thing.

Also, Kou having a little bit of prankster in him is super cute. Are you and Touwa going to get into prank wars that drive the others nuts?

Random fact I didn’t notice before? In the opening, when the others are flying all over the place and Banba is just sleeping? He’s holding two RyusoulKen. The boy is freaking holding his brother’s sword for him, that’s so cute.

I’ll see if I can’t use this video to get a shot of the pendant looking like it’s changing colours and put it at the bottom, okay?

It has since come to my attention by rewatching this that Mystery Scarf Person is standing next to a torch that looks similar to the ones used in the ceremony scene this episode, which could indicate that he is Gold. Or... Related to the tribe, at the very least.

But the most important question to ask as to whether he’s Gold... Does he has Chainsaw?

I am never going to get over that chainsaw thing.

Also looks like we may have Druidon we haven’t seen yet, which doesn’t surprise me. Tank dude is clearly going to be Kou’s rival, but maybe one of the other Druidon was responsible for what happened to Banba and/or Touwa’s Master? (assuming Touwa had one and wasn’t solely trained by his brother)

I’m loving that little shot where it’s Ui sitting alone and then the others come over to her and it looks like they’re encouraging her (well, Banba just stands in the back bc he’s a grump but also solidarity) and then they all look at the sky. I live for the implications that there’s going to be a theme of companionship in this series bc I LOVE FRIENDSHIP. I LOVE FOUND FAMILY. And given how they trio (and possibly the brothers, too) lost people so important to them at the start, I think they’re all gonna need it.

I like them cutting the logo free. I also like the way it looks like stained glass for a hot second before becoming the usual red and yellow.

Sentai mooks continue to be distracted by pretty lights and it remains their downfall.

Kou! Don’t break the camera!

Dan seems pretty fussed that Druidon showed up. But... If he knew that the other two had gone to fight them, shouldn’t he already know that?

Hey, look! There’re other people!

Aw! Kou is trying to be comforting!

And... Gets shoved into the mountain. I love these three.

Oh my gosh, he tries to tackle Ui, but she just bops away, I love her.

Well, we’ve found the source of the bananas.

I love Melt hiding the banana behind his back like it’s incriminating evidence...

I think Kou is looking to the other two for help here and they just abandon him. God, he’s so adorable, though, I just wanna pinch his cheeks.

Also that fraction of a second ‘I got myself into this’ face right before the cut to commercial. XD

WHY DOES HE HAVE A HAMMER? WHAT DOES THE HAMMER SAY?

The Masters are on a nature walk!

No, I’m kidding, they’re probably on patrol or something. But it looks like they’re on a nature walk.

Wouldn’t it be funny of one of the other Masters, if they exist, was played by the Ichimonji of the KR NEXT films? Is he even still acting?

Not the ankles!

Do the Masters have other names?

Why does Tank dude being in the temple cancel their transformations?

What I love about this fight is that Master Red and Kou are clearly worried about each other. Red yells for Kou when he’s thrown, and Kou tries to protect his mentor. It’s cute!

Until tragedy strikes.

Is Kou ever gonna be able to hear ‘Tata Soul’ again w/out thinking of this?

God... It was a gut punch when Red got hit by those slashes, but I was not expecting Pink and Blue to get fire breathed.

Also, yeah, there were better ways to do that, but that’s always true w/ diving saves. Maybe they didn’t thank they could pull them out of the way in time?

The complete silence was a good choice. IS this the same director responsible for that scene in Build where Misora tells the others Kazumi is dead? Bc this reminded me of that. If so... Man, you do ‘characters losing someone indescribably important to them’ very well.

I’m still not entirely convinced we’ve seen the last of them. Maybe only in flashbacks or as spirits, but you’re telling me you hired Sailor Moon, Tuxedo Mask/Kamen Rider Ibuki, and even an alternate version of Hongo Takeshi/some other dude from Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon (?) to kill them off in one episode? After those press announcements? Maybe they were trying to cover up what was gonna happen, but I’m not convinced. I mean, maybe their previous parts aren’t that big a deal, but it really seems like the went for a bit of name-recognition there... Are they gonna throw that away after one ep?

I will not deny I was emotionally encouraging Kou to get up and kick Tank dude’s ass right there. You can do it, sweetie!

Tank dude gives a speech while Mushroom creature is greatly distressed in the background.

See above for my feelings regarding Kou piloting the mech alone here.

Also the first time I watched I wasn’t thinking about that I was too busy crying.

Also I guess Tyramigo does talk, but... He seems fairly... Well, he doesn’t talk much. He’s got, like, two lines. I’d kind of like a serious, more ‘stern’ red rex. Hmm... Maybe the personalities of the Kishiryu reflect the predecessors’?

So here’s the jam. Doe you predecessor have to die for you to be the ‘true’ inheritor of the RyuSouls? Did Elder know this? If so... You dickwad.

Kou giving Tyramigo pets on the nose was super cute. I think I would kill for Tyramigo.

Also pretty sure I would kill for Kou, he’s very cute and now I love this actor.

Still very distracted by the way the Elder’s wig does not match his beard. What the hell, costuming?

So here’s my question. Do the special coloured Souls absorb the souls of the Ryusoulgers who die while tied to them? Are gonna have an ep where the team have to go ‘inside’ them or, like, summon the souls out of them, AtLA style? Are we gonna meet the original Ryusoulgers at some point?

Okay, but... The Elder uses the word ‘nakama’ when telling the trio about Touwa and Banba? At least, I think he does... Doesn’t that usually have ‘friendly’ connotations? Makes it seem like the two are less straight up ‘deserters’ and just... I dunno, went through the apparently necessary rite of passage of having your mentor/predecessor die before the others and were allowed to leave? I’m confused.

I don’t know why we needed to transform here, but I love the dancing mechs.

Also they did do a ‘three swords’ version of the ‘swords of justice’ thing. I am literally going to start crying--for very different reasons than this time--the first time all five of them do it together.

Still sad I didn’t get to see my boys in the preview, but at least I know they’re coming soon.

Also still can’t get a read on whether we’ll be hiding our identities this season. I kind of like it when they do do that, it adds another layer of tension to things, but it’s fine if they don’t, too.

Looks like Pink is gonna be yeeting her boys.

I’m liking this so far and I can’t wait for all my children to get together.

On the ED: I live for the dancing mechs. I could spend hours analysing everyone’s reaction to the cartoon Soul meteors. That was adorable. Still don’t know why Banba has different dance choreography, but it’s cute.

Digital french toast and pancakes for anyone who read all that.

All in all, I’m enjoying myself. I don’t usually cry at shows, but I just... I wasn’t expecting it to go that far. This is someone who directed some of Build, I suppose. I think we’re in for more agony.

And I love it. XD

Okay, so... (Ignore my boys screaming in the background please--not the most flattering picture of Banba I know, but leave him alone he’s sad DX)

So... It’s definitely just the way it disappears, but... The other three colour don’t do that? So either it was just a style choice bc there’s only two colours on this side and three on the other and I’m overanalysing, or...

Also. I. I just noticed the water bubbles. Or are those meant to be tears.

WHAT DOES ANY OF THIS MEAN BUILD MAN?

#Kishiryu Sentai Ryusoulger #Ryusoulger Spoilers #my precious Dino Children #wow what an opening #well I'm excited #ready to see where this goes #hope it keeps tearing my heart apart actually #I don't usually cry at tv shows #and I was expecting MOH (Mentor Occupational Hazard)#but...#I was not expecting it to be that rough #oof #...#......#.........#GIVE ME MORE #Birthday Sentai #Dino Dragon Knights And Their Cat #Long Post

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wewillsurvivethistoo · 7 years ago

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How to help when someone wants to commit suicide...

There is no easy way to do this. There is no list of instructions that if followed everything will magically work out. Every person who is considering suicide is doing it for a different reason because of events in their own life so not every technique will work and sometimes none of them will. This takes time, patience, flexibility, and heart to try and help.

Not everyone can do this. And that’s ok. There is no shame in it and it doesn’t make you a bad person. You do what you need to do to keep yourself safe. The best thing for you to do is to get them in contact with someone who can help them.

Don’t force yourself to be ok to help someone either. If you aren’t doing the best then don’t try to help them too. You need to focus on you. And only when you are at your 100% can you focus on other people. You are important so make sure to take care of yourself.

You can also just message people to help you as a back up, to give you support and help you decide what to say. Other people can also be used to step in and take your spot if you get overwhelmed.

Ok. So you are here and you’re doing this. The very first thing is not to panic. Yes it is scary, yes it is serious but you need to have a clear head. If you panic you could make it worse. So deep breaths. Get some water. Put on some calming music. You are going to be fine. Now it’s time to focus.

So there is no best thing to say. As I said before everyone is different and they need different reassurances. You have to read what they need by what they are saying and how they are acting. Try a couple things out. If it doesn’t seem to be helping them, don’t worry just try something else. There aren’t really any right responses. There are some wrong ones, but I’ll go over those later.

Ok so the first thing to see is if they are panicking or on the verge of having a panic attack. If they are, help them through that first. The best thing to do is count for them. I use the following pattern: In two three four. Out two three four. But if there is something else that you prefer feel free to use that too. I have made a post specifically for helping people through panic attacks so if you need it you can find it under the tag #how to help when.

Help them breathe until their breathing is evened out and they aren’t panicking more.

If you can, see how much they are willing to share about why they want to commit. If they are willing to open up a little bit it can help you understand the best way to help them. If they don’t want to tell you don’t push. You will just have to go a more generalized route and that’s ok.

If they do share take what they say and disprove it. If they don’t feel wanted or loved or needed it is your job to disprove that. Show them how they are the opposite of what they feel. Don’t skip over details. Every small comment helps. Don’t be afraid to get descriptive. Shower them in compliments. One thing to keep in mind though is while it is tempting to write page long responses you don’t really have a lot of time. You can take a minute or two to form your responses, that’s perfectly fine. Just be wary if you are taking five or six minutes to answer. Sometimes lots of short messages are better than one really long one.

If they don’t share then you have to go for a more generic approach. It just means you can’t get into specifics about what is troubling them. But you can always give general compliments and reassurances and those often help.

No matter what information you have some things that I have found that help are:

- You are safe

-You are loved

-You are wanted

-You are valid

-You are not alone

-I am here for you

Those are some good ones that can always be changed to fit the situation.There are also the more common things that everyone says that are worth mentioning, like: it will get better and you just have to be strong. Whether you use any of these or not is up to you and what you think what would help them the best.

As a side note about the more common sayings. Some of these can cause an adverse reaction. “It will get better” is very comforting to optimists, but for the people who are unsure of the future and who have a hard time believing, it can sound like an empty promise. “You just have to be strong” is attempting to bolster the person up. But, it can hurt people who have constantly been told they need to be strong, or if they don’t want to be strong anymore. If a person is saying that they are tired of life this is generally NOT a good one to use. Again, it is up to you and your judgement on what the person needs. Just be aware.

*If a person is reacting negatively to “You have to be strong” one possible way to help is to say something along the lines of: I will be strong for you, You don’t have to be strong, etc.*

Try to talk it out. Help them see their options. No matter what the situation is, there is always more than one option. Help them get an outsiders view and try to brainstorm up somethings that they might not have thought of before. Really just try to show them that they do not have to do this, there is a way to be better and there is always a way to change the situation for the better. Be calm and be comforting.

One good way that I have found is to have that person make a list of everything that they have to live for. It can be big stuff, it can be small stuff. For example it could be graduating from college or finishing a book. Movie releases, travel plans, promotions, holidays, basically anything and everything that the person could get excited for and look forward to. It could be something as small as eating the donut you just bought. It doesn’t matter. It all goes on the list. This can help a person see what they have to live for in a way that they can hold in their hands and it is not just some abstract idea. It can also serve as a reminder with them where ever they go. Encourage the person to keep the list and keep adding onto it. Those things on the list are their reasons to live.

See if they want to be distracted. If they do, talk to them about random stuff that would help take their mind off things. Steer clear of topics that would add emotional stress or anxiety to the person. Make small talk.

Encourage them to get some water and to eat something if they haven’t in a while. Water can help restore balance in the body if the person has been crying and can prevent dehydration. It takes a lot of water to actually hurt the body, so chances are the person should drink some. It can also help with queasiness and can calm a persons stomach down. Small sips of cool water are best for this.

If the person is hungry enough to eat a full meal that is good. If they aren’t, try to encourage them to have a small snack like crackers or an apple.

Get the person comfy. Tell them to shower if they want to. Get them to change into comfortable clothes. Go someplace warm and comfortable if they can. If they need to call off of work or school they can. Get the person to relax. Maybe suggest turning on the TV or putting on some soft music. You could suggest they make something comforting like hot chocolate, tea, or cookies. Help them get to a place where they can just relax.

See if they want to sleep. Sleep can help a person a whole bunch, especially if the person is stressed and sleep deprived. Sleep will allow for their brain to reset and will give them a fresh start so to speak. It can also help certain problems that were magnified become a little bit clearer.

If you are helping through the internet, see if there is someone in real life that they would want to get in touch with. A parent, friend, or therapist. Someone they want to let know. If the answer is no, again don’t push, accept the answer and move on.

If you feel like they might need more help than you can provide, send them a couple numbers to some hotlines. Make sure that the hotline matches the person and the hotline will help that person. Also make sure that the hotline goes to where the person is in. So check to see if there is one based in the same country or in the same region as the person. There is also one hotline that is activated by texts.

There is one last thing that I need to say. There is a possibility that they still commit suicide. Sometimes, people have already made up their minds and they don’t want help. If this happens please know, it is not your fault. You tried to help them. You did everything that you could. And that is all anyone can ask for. There is no you should have done this or could have said this. You did what you thought was right and it is not your fault. Sometimes there is nothing you can do. But you tried and that is what matters.

While many things vary on the situation there are some things that are not good no matter what. Here is a quick list of some things NOT to do:

Do not patronize this person. Do not say the person is too young to want to do this. Just because the person is contemplating suicide does not mean that they have been transformed into a three year old. Do not treat them like one. It is patronizing, rude, and counter productive. Don’t treat them like a child. Simple.

For the love of everything good in this word, do not guilt trip them. At All. EVER. I am dead serious about this. It might seem like a good idea, but it’s not. This includes, but is not limited to, things like: “You are gonna make all of these people so sad” “If you do that then I am going to hurt myself” “If you do this then you will mess up this thing for someone”. I could make a list that could take up an entire page of guilt trips that could be said, BUT SHOULD NOT. The person most likely feels guilty already so don’t make it worse.

Don’t make it about you. You are just as important as the other person, but right now they need support and they are the focus. Be wary of the amount and kind of “I” statements you use.

Don’t leave with no explanation. If you have to leave, then tell them and then go. Don’t just remember that you have to be somewhere and stop replying. Tat relays the message that you forgot them and don’t really care. If you have to go just explain why. If you are about to fall asleep, and you can’t wake yourself back up, then warn them that you are exhausted and might fall asleep.

Don’t make this seem like an inconvenience to you. Just don’t.

If the person is not sharing with everyone that they feel like this, do not do it. If they did not specifically tell you to make a post to publicize that they feel that way, do not do it. This is their thing to tell. Not yours. On a second point, they might not want everyone to know. So don’t tell people unless you are given explicit permission.

Don’t force them to talk about things they do not want to. Even if you are trying to help, some things are private and people do not want them shared. You have to respect that and do not push them.

You might have to accept that the person does not want your help. If you are not particularly close with that person, they might feel uncomfortable talking to you and would rather get help from someone that they are closer to. That is ok. It might be a hard thing to come to terms with, but it is what is best for them so it is what needs to be done.

Again, this is a really hard topic and there is no way to cover every single thing that might happen. Most of what I have written are generalizations and not every method will help every person. Some people might not be helped by this at all. You just have to think and try to help the person as best as you can. You got this. I believe in you.

I hope this helped you. If you have any questions, need any help, or have a suggestion for the next thing, feel free to send me a message and I will help you as best I can. Deep breaths. Stay safe darlin. We will stand strong together.

Love y’all, Eve 💜

#we will stand strong together #how to help when #suicide

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cowandcalf · 6 years ago

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Thanks for responding! In what way do you think they lost each other? They didn’t fit? It’s too much in the public eye? They didn’t want to come out? Can you elaborate?

Thank you, a lot, anon for your new ask which refers to your first ask that can be read here if anyone’s interested.

Okay, before I immerse in your ask and try to answer all your questions I’d like to add that I enter the realm of RPF material with my answer. Everything I’m going to write is pure interpretation and it’s the direct result of my wild imagination and my very own opinion. I don’t want to get my head chopped off because I write about a topic I actually have no facts to rely on. I don’t want to offend anyone. This is my personal opinion. I respect Alex and Scott deeply and I mean no harm with the way I answer this ask. So, please consider this explanation when you continue reading my answer. Thank you.

So, Nony, back to you and thanks again for your trust in me and your belief that I could add some wisdom and wild guesses to your questions. I love the guys very much and the most important thing for me is to know they are happy and well on a level where they’ve made peace with what happened. If you have a certain age there are experiences in life that can’t be undone, and they mark you for life, good or bad, they leave an imprint on your heart and a dent in your soul.

They fitted perfectly if you do not focus on social life, social opinion, and the unwritten laws they have to follow being a star and being constantly under the surveillance of the public eye. If I’d strip them bare of any moral codes, any sexual orientation tags, any prejudices which what they’ve grown up with – if I just focus on their love they had for each other and the sexual attraction, then yes: They fitted perfectly. That doesn’t mean that they are good a living a relationship over a longer period. Even if they’re soulmates and are meant for each other they’ll face difficulties and hurdles eventually the longer they’ll stay together. But still, they can live a happy and great relationship.

I’d say Alex deals way better with the fact being bisexual (I don’t know if he is, but if he was, he’d be okay.) Scott on the other hand – I don’t know that’s the thing I always trip over. Scott is attracted to men, I’m sure of that but if you are, as a man, attracted to guys you always get tagged being gay or being bi. And this doesn’t sit well with Scott. It’s a deeper thing, it’s an identity crises sort of a complicated thing with him and I’m convinced that Scott wouldn’t have wanted to come out at all. No way – because both are a womanizer, especially Scott, as if he has to convince himself about the fact that he loves women.

Both guys wouldn’t have wanted to come out. It has crossed their mind, yes. But it was never an option because there was too much at stake, for both.

Both guys are hunks. They are super attractive, a super catch for every good-looking, beautiful woman. They are alpha material, pure masculinity and it’s a necessity for both to fall in love with a woman. Both their careers would have caught a serious blow if they came out together as a couple. An impossible and intolerable situation. Maybe it was also a game, in the beginning, to fuel wild guesses about them being gay, about Steve and Danny falling for each other – a marketing move to win more viewers for the show.

They lost each other because Scott was the one withdrawing and pulling away because he couldn’t deal with the fact that he’s head over heels in love with a man. Scott couldn’t deal with the fact that he might ask himself if he’s gay.

Their love crashed at the expectation of the public and maybe also at the opinion of their friends and their family. It also might be a fact that there’s a condition in their contracts demanding only straight relationships. What the heck do I know about these things? I am sure they had a long, painful discussion about what to do. After the first heat and the intensity of this wildfire they felt for each other diminished, having sex and admitting feelings and this deep consuming love, they were able to think with clearer minds.

I go so far as to assume that maybe Alex was the one who was totally game for this relationship and Scott never really admitted his feelings. Maybe Alex was so hurt and so emotional destroyed over the fact that he never really reached Scott in a way where he could just overcome all his fears.

(Have you ever seen the movie ‘Free Fall’? It’s a German movie 'Freier Fall’ about two policemen falling in love. And one guy is married to a woman and has a kid and he struggles till the end to admit that he’s gay. Their love got wrecked having so many doubts and because of the way, the one guy got always pushed away.) That’s a scenario I can imagine could have happened between Alex and Scott.

So, to get back to your question, why they lost each other. They got caught up in the grinder of the morals run by society and all the expectations they had to fulfill as an actor and as a man. A gay relationship with a co-worker wasn’t allowed. And Alex lost Scott because Scott wasn’t ready for a relationship with a man. He couldn’t do it.

They had to find a way to fall out of love again. At least out of this consuming, wonderful and deep love that made it impossible to live their lives with someone else that wasn’t Alex or Scott.

This takes time and commitment, and this scars the heart for a lifetime. It’s possible though. Everyone who’s older knows what I’m talking about. Everyone experienced this love, that hurts so badly one will never be the same after that. And I also experienced that no matter what, no matter the circumstances, no matter how hard I tried, I had to learn that love is sometimes just not enough to overcome all the difficulties.

And I’m sure that happened to Alex and Scott. Wrong universe, wrong time, wrong society. As sad as it is, but they had to find a solution to shut their love down, to withdraw, to find a way to survive and to go on with the daily work in front of the cameras with each other.

I hope I answered all your questions, Nony and thank you again for your ask. Mahalo.

#anon ask #ask #mcdanno ask #answered

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evilback-wards · 7 years ago

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Love Hotel Extension [Kokichi Oma Oneshot]

Rating: 18+

Pairing: Oma Kokichi x Saihara Shuichi (Danganronpa V3)

Length: 2,255 words*

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*Note: Dialogue in italics comes directly from Kokichis Love Hotel Scene. I strongly recommend watching before diving in!

“You seem to be rather enjoying this…for a cornered criminal.”

…

“I really wanted your eyes on me…”

“Kokichi, wait! Wait!”

“Nee-heehee…that was pretty fun. See ya, Shuichi.”

The last few moments seemed to have passed by so quickly, my mouth couldn’t keep up with the more logical thoughts in my head. My feet somehow found the strength to stand, shifting my body back onto the bed. I needed to give Kokichi just as much attention as the others—he couldn’t run out. Everyone else had stayed. This wouldn’t be a fair ending for me or him.

“Wait—Kokichi, you’re wrong! My men have cornered yours, and if you leave this room well, you’re done for!” I spoke, words running out my mouth as I thought of them. While this wasn’t a lie, from the spiel Kokichi tried to tell me before, this could be twisted into one through his eyes. Maybe this is what he is looking for in his fantasy. A fantasy where I’d lie to him. A fantasy where I lie.

Silence. I watched as Kokichis’ hands paused just above the door handle. What did he have to say? Was this fantasy not over yet? Kokichi proceeded to take off his scarf, feeding it from his neck into his left hand.

“Ya’know, you’re a terrible liar. Someone oughta teach you a lesson on lying,” Kokichi said, laughing as he turned to face me again. Kokichi wore his usual scary face, but, something with his smile seemed off. Almost as if he was…nervous? His steps toward me felt a bit over-calculated, his ankle nearly buckling as he stepped on the uneven flooring that bordered the bed.

“W-What do you mean?” I replied, curious though thoroughly frightened for what Kokichi had in store. Kokichis’ mischievous grin was upon me once more. In a single swoop, Kokichi managed to blindfold me with his scarf, giggling throughout the entire sequence. What was his angle? The fabric of Kokichis scarf felt a bit more sheer than usual, a spiral of square knits making up the black-and-white scarf.

“I know what you want,” Kokichi teased, “don’t act stupid.” The scarf had obscured most of my vision, but I could still make out shadows. Kokichi appeared to be standing directly in front of me as I sat on the bed. I didn’t really know what to expect from here. Where was this going?

“Then what do I want?” I asked, trying to add a bit more sass to my role. If Kokichi wants this to run off the rails, I’ve had worse with others in the academy from my repressed memories. Besides, part of me, the part I smothered…really wants this. Even if that is hard to admit to myself.

I watched as shadows began to blur a bit, stretching and throwing off shadows from itself. Wait—was Kokichi…?

“W-What are you doing?” I asked, choking out the words as I blush grew on my cheeks. If he was doing what it looked like from my perspective, then things were…getting interesting.

“Giving you proof, of course,” Kokichi answered with his familiar snicker, more shadows being thrown off his figure, “I think its time for the *strip search*.” My blush became a deeper crimson, hands heading for the tied scarf around my eyes. My brain kept battling on whether I still wanted it on my face or not, though eventually Kokichi made up my mind for me. His hands grabbed mine, grunting.

“Pay attention to your prisoner, Shuichi!” Kokichi scolded as he squeezed my hands. Great – on top of being a liar, Kokichi was a terrible criminal. Or at least someone roleplaying as one—er—maybe being one? I couldn’t muster up the courage to say much, the fabric of the scarf blocking me visual cues beyond shadows. My lips quivered at the sensation of Kokichis’ fingers gently pulling me forward. Contrast to most things Kokichi had done during our time at the academy, this felt…delicate. Like Kokichi had been handling something he cherished. The pulling ended as I felt my middle finger contacted his chest.

I could feel my fingertips shiver against his skin, pressing in a bit to inspect for any “transmitters”. For a criminal, Kokichi seemed to be leading this investigation. Kokichi led me on a journey across his body, a few giggles filtering through his mouth as my fingers glided across certain areas. We started with what felt like his shoulder. It felt firm as my hand was gripped by the wrist, leering me over his neck and then his chest. We stayed on the upper portion of his body for a long time before he pushed my hands away for a few moments before inviting my touch back onto his skin, finger by finger. Starting with my pinky fingers and alternating between the left and right side of my hands, I was wondering how this had anything to do with the original topic. I could hear myself blurt out in exclamation as my middle fingers laying against his—oh t-those are soft! I felt Kokichi press my middle fingers in a bit deeper before gliding me across the remainder of his chest, hips, arms, hands, and any other place he seemed pleased for me to invade. From my touch, I noticed Kokichi had, out of convenience or vanity, kept his boxers on.

“Ah—r-right. I don’t feel any transmitters,” I said aloud, almost as if I expected a response of any sort. If Kokichi was Kokichi right now—and I myself…then what made this roleplay?

“Ding ding! That means you’re wrong and I caught you in a lie! So that means I can do whatever I want to you~” Kokichi said, his tone seeming to take more of seductive tone near the end. Eh—wasn’t he the one—who—and then—I could feel myself get competitive. I’m not sure where this feeling came from.

“That’s wrong! If you really wanted to take advantage, why did you undress yourself and not me?” I retorted, crossing my arms across my chest. This entire situation was unfair. I could hear Kokichi let out a loud, long laugh from his mouth. The laugh droned on and on, part of me thought humiliating me was Kokichis’ real fantasy.

The shadow emitting Kokichis voice swung further in, his features beginning to fill out the empty space in my mind. For his small stature, Kokichi was showing to be well—no, I shouldn’t be thinking these thoughts! This is supposed to be Kokichis’ fantasy, not mine.

Kokichi kept leaning closer until I could feel his breath on me. More silence. More tension. What was the point of this entire exchange, what in Kokichis mind got satisfied by playing mind games like these?

“Well, this is rare. No one has ever caught me this off beat. Guess that makes me a pretty crappy phantom thief huh? Guess, if I did the right things from here on out, there’d be an actual chance you’d let me go free?” Kokichi whispered, becoming sultrier by the letter. How was I to honestly complete this fantasy? Did Kokichi want the truth, or a lie—or was all of this just lies?

“No; there’s no leeway for anyone in justice Kokichi. Especially for liars like you. You get…” I drawled, trying to think of more lines. My mind froze when I saw Kokichis eyes for the first time in several minutes, staring directly into mine. I could feel his lips float over mine, his tongue circling his lips and (indirectly) licking my own lips. I quivered at the sensation, about to lean back, but then I saw it: Kokichis’ true lie.

Due to the closeness Kokichi had with me – compounded with the intensity of the color I had been seeing through the scarf, I caught the lie. I could…finally expose him. Now I was silent. I wanted the silence to weigh on him, I wanted his lie repository to run dry. I wanted to corner him again. Kokichis words from this point kept stumbling on each other, his sentencing starting with no clear end in sight. It was a pleasure to see a liar like Kokichi sputter his words. I matched his own vision the best I could, feeling Kokichi begin to crawl further on my lap. While our eyes didn’t break away during the movement, part of me believed, through the sheer black-and-white scarf, I could find the truth behind the “Ultimate Supreme Leader”.

Abruptly, I felt Kokichi push me down onto the bed again, with such force I felt the scarf slide up my face. Now, though only partly visible, I could put a clearer face on Kokichis’ nervous stammering. Kokichi didn’t want to have lying contest or to try and fluster me—he wanted someone to dominate him with lies.

“W-Well, what is it? This phantom thief is getting impatient!” Kokichi blurted out, perhaps the least scripted line I’ve heard him say. I smirked, pressing the scarf from my eyes to get a full view of the blushing Kokichi on my lap.

“I never saw a criminal so eager for punishment,” I responded, tracing an infinity symbol along the sides of Kokichis’ wrists, “Excited for the handcuffs that’ll be around your wrists?”

Kokichis eyes, seeming entranced, kept themselves on me as he gave a slow nod, his blush seeming to hit the tomato hue range. This is what I expected of Mius’ time with me here—but—I guess people can have fantasies that contradict their implied tones. I continued to trace the outline of infinity symbols along his wrists (I started to integrate the scarf in that, too), gradually working their way past his arms and up to his shoulders. As a finale, I threw the scarf around the back of Kokichis neck, pulling on either end of the scarf to propel myself closer to the face of my criminal. After doing my best to guestimate how Kokichi managed to wrap the scarf around his body, I placed my hands on the tops of Kokichis’ shoulders. I’m nearly positive we’d be knocked out soon, and soon this would only be a hazy memory for me. I hope that, even in this memory Kokichi would forget, I met his expectations as a play partner.

“Whatever the detective sees fit, I’ll do...maybe I’ll never leave, depending on your answer,” Kokichi retorts, bringing both of his hands underneath my shirt and pressing against my chest. I was certain my blush resurfaced, but I tried to keep the rest of my face stolid. I had to stay firm if I wanted to reel in Kokichi and make his fantasy of domination come true.

“I’m sure a criminal like you can only be redeemed by my ruling,” I teased, deciding to act a bit dangerously and pull at the only other remaining clothing on Kokichi. I could feel his boxers easily bend between my thumb and ring finger, teasing it half open before Kokichis’ face became engulfed in hot stimulation.

Our eyes had only connected a few times since his attempt to leave. At the beginning of this fantasy, it was a struggle to even grasp my character. Playing myself in Kokichis fantasy may have been a bit too meta for me but things about him were beginning to seem easier to understand. Underneath Kokichis puckered lips and scarlet face, I could feel him trembling. Deep within his pupils, I could find traces of fear. Along his wrinkled brow was doubt—maybe insecurity—features a detective like me can deduce a lot from. I felt like the months we’ve spent together were all catching up to me in my mind, as Kokichi kept blushing, lips puckered in tight, unable to speak a single word.

It took a few more seconds until, after what I could only coin as the sheer amount of surprise overloading Kokichi, he lay wilted in my arms. His hands rested around my waist. Slow, but pleasant-sounding exhales were released from Kokichi every now and then. I guess I narrowly saved another one of my classmates’ dark fantasies. A part of me smiled, knowing I would rest a bit easier than I had most nights.

I began to pull the covers over me and Kokichi, deciding against prying his hands away from me. Besides, if I remember Monokuma correctly, we’d wake up in our separate dorms. I’d allow Kokichi this solace to ease his mind of day-by-day troubles.

As I felt myself fall closer to sleep, I could feel Kokichis’ hands shift a bit. Was his overzealous pass out move a final trick of his? Either way, we were likely at the end of our time here. I could feel Kokichis face slowly dig from inside of my chest to just below my chin in a very few seconds.

“Disappointed I never broke out the cuffs,” I joked to him, smiling as I watched his sheepish face start to delve into the red hues. Kokichi shook his head, hesitating at first but then leaning in to give me a kiss. As my mind was clouded by another unexpected move by Kokichi, he pulled back as fast as he came onto me.

“That’s a freebie! Anyway, I guess we should get some rest. I'll think of a more exciting game for next time. Make sure you excite me too,” Kokichi said, his voice strained with a weary tone. I answered with a nod, falling asleep in Kokichis’ arms.

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trbl-will-find-me · 7 years ago

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Every Exit, An Entrance (17/?)

There are two (and only two) possibilities: either she led XCOM to victory and they are now engaged in a clean up operation of alien forces, or XCOM was overrun, clearing the way for an alien-controlled puppet government to seize control of the planet.

She’d really like to figure out which it is, but asking hardly seems the prudent option.

There are many situations that trainings and meetings and countless simulations have left her inadequately prepared to handle. The mass mind control of a group of military personnel, blunt force trauma to the back of the head from a particularly determined Muton, and her subsequent twenty year tenure as a computer of flesh and blood and grey matter are certainly on the list; however, it is still funerals that find her at the greatest loss.

Gunda’s partners, Ibrahim and Kehinde, are gracious in their grief, affording her a warmth she wishes they wouldn’t. I’m the reason she’s not here, she wants to say. I don’t deserve your kindness.

They gather with the her friends and family around a bonfire, and tell stories of the late sniper, of her jokes and her smile, of her optimism and hope, her belief that dawn was coming, that ADVENT could not stand forever. She meets a different Gunda that night, her ghost suffusing every memory brought back to life through its speaking. She meets Gunda the little girl who learned too late the dangers of bubble gum bubbles half the size of one’s face; Gunda the mother who still managed to make birthdays something to celebrate, even in the face of famine; Gunda the partner, who found ways to hold her family together even as they fled from one destroyed haven to another one likely to meet the same fate. She meets the woman who believed the greatest gift she could offer her son was a world without fear of death in the night, without starvation and with a little less want, with the chance to build a life free from the knowledge that someone, something, would always be watching.

She’s not sure if it makes burial the next day better or worse.

“Ma’am,” Krieger approaches her afterward. “Can I have a minute?”

“Of course,” she nods. “What’s up?”

“Ma’am … I think I’d like to stay here. They’re out a medical provider and I don’t know where they’d get one out here. I know you have Zaytsev and Tygan, and you’ll train someone else. You’ll find the right person. These people don’t have that luxury. And, besides,” she adds quietly. “I don’t think I’d be much use on the field these days. It just. It was so random. It came out of nowhere. I close my eyes and I see that thing, charging at her. It looks different every time. At first, it was just random faces, but it’s different now. Now, it’s people I know, people I knew. And the dream always ends the same. “

The Commander draws in a breath. “Selfishly, I hate to lose you. You’re a good medic, and you handle yourself well. But, at the same time, I see why that makes you so valuable here. If this is where you feel you belong, then this is where you should stay. We’ll make sure we add you onto our supply runs, and you know you can always radio. On the ship or off, you’re still one of us.“

“Thanks, ma’am. Should I---“ “I’ll handle Central. Go make whatever arrangements you need to.”

Watching Krieger head towards the ship, it dawns on her that she’s not actually sure where her second-in-command is.

Four days before Christmas, she finds herself in the conference room off the labs listening in mute panic as XCOM’s Chief Scientist and Engineer present their initial findings.

“Physically, the Pods bear more than an a passing resemblance to the MELD canisters we’ve previously encountered with the difference of several key components.”

The image on the screen changes to a cut-away of the device’s interior. “Inside, we have a self-sustaining source powering a receiver and transmitter.”

“The energy spikes…” Central says, quietly.

“Precisely.”

She feels as if someone has just poured ice down the back of her shirt. Sometimes, she hates being right.

“And the gas they emit?”

“Samples again indicate a strong similarity to the MELD compound,” Vahlen explains. “Once again, we detected a high concentration of cybernetic nanomachines, similar to, yet distinct from what we had previously seen. Given the similarities, however, I strongly suspect this compound too carries mutagenic properties.”

“Suspect?” Central asks.

“Despite the combined efforts of our teams,” Shen cuts in, “we were unable to produce a response from the machines. They seem to be in some kind of dormant state, unresponsive to any of the external stimuli we applied.”

The Commander runs a hand through her hair. “Could you speculate on their purpose?”

“Not without additional data and experiments,” Vahlen answers.

“And on its effect on those exposed?”

“Samples we tested yielded positive proof of presence in the blood of the exposed, though the concentration varied wildly for reasons as yet unknown.”

“Have you tested our people, Doctor?” Central asks.

“Not yet. I was about to ask for permission to do so.”

She nods. “I won’t order anyone, but you’re welcome to make the ask.”

“Commander, I---“

“Doctor, if you find your self at a loss for volunteers, I’ll revisit the decision.”

“Very well,” she says, her voice clipped.

“Doctor Shen,” Central pivots, looking to defuse the situation. “Any idea on what purpose the transmitter and receiver serve?”

“Communication, but between what is a mystery. Device to device, device to machine, device to an outside controller: it’s too early to say with any confidence.”

“Can it be disabled?”

“I suspect so, but would not recommend that route until we obtain a clearer sense of what purpose it serves.”

“Anything else to report?” “I would advise caution, Commander,” Shen says. “These Fog Pods don’t contain the self-destruct mechanisms we’ve come to expect with alien tech. If we learned anything about the invaders, it’s that they are nothing if not calculating.”

“In other words,” she sighs. “You don’t think this is coincidence?”

“I somehow doubt they were concerned with the preservation of life.”

“I tend to agree with that assessment. Get me a list of what other resources you’ll need to continue your work. I’ll do what I can to make it happen.”

“Thank you, Commander,” Shen says.

Vahlen merely nods.

“Please pass my thanks on to your teams as well. I know it’s been a hard journey for them, but we’re not done yet. Dismissed.”

She has always hated the sea. She does not like the beach, finds the roar of ocean waves unsettling, and despises the inescapability of sand, its pernicious ability to congregate in the areas she would rather went unmolested.

But Central? Central has always loved the ocean.

She’s not at all surprised to find him there on the shore, staring out towards the horizon.

“Hey,” she says. “I thought you hated the beach.”

“Always have, always will. But I had a feeling that if I wanted to talk to you, this was the best place to look.”

“Optimistic assessment.”

She shakes her head. “You wouldn’t miss a shot at the water. Couldn’t imagine that’d changed.”

He shrugs. “About the other night … what I said…”

“It was true.”

“You wouldn’t set the ship on fire.”

“I have something of a reputation.”

“Just didn’t want you to think I was looking for a fight.”

She shakes her head. “I didn’t take it like that.”

“Good.”

“I have news, though, you’re not gonna like it.”

“How does today get worse?”

“Krieger’s leaving.”

He pinches the bridge of his nose. “She and Gunda were close. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. I’ll do what I can about new blood.”

“I know you will,” she says, gently. “I don’t doubt that.”

His hand drops to his side. “Jesus. I thought this would be easier by now.”

“What? The war?”

“The war, the ship, you, me, everything. This wasn’t how I pictured it going. Half the time, you and I are still on eggshells with each other.” His shoulders droop, and he shakes his head. “I’m sorry, Regan. I’m just tired.”

It occurs to her that, despite the name and the face, the voice and the vernacular, she does not know the man in front of her at all. There is a twenty year chasm between the John Bradford she knew and the one who stands before her, twenty years of loss and hardship, twenty years of watching others die. She is still unsure of how to approach this man who dulls everything with a drink, who watches the world around him with hollow eyes.

But, she knows what she would have done for his counterpart.

It is a terrible idea. At best, it won’t work, and at worst, it will aggravate the situation. Life is not a movie, and feelings are not neatly wrapped up with a bow and they don’t include a troubleshooting guide for when everything’s fallen apart.

She is at a loss for a better course of action.

She rolls up onto her toes and wraps her arms around his neck, catching him in a hug. He freezes for a moment, shocked by the sudden contact, then settles into her, wrapping his arms around her waist.

Her home is gone, along with the people she once knew. She is weary and battered, and despite the best efforts of those around her, more alone than she has ever felt in her life. She doesn’t know what to do for the man in her arms, doesn’t know what to offer him. In truth, she doubts that anything would really help.

But he is her last link, her last living proof of the life that was once hers. She owes it to him to at least try.

He doesn’t let go.

“Merry Christmas, have a fucking bioweapon,” she groans.

They are in her office, picking at a container of fries.

“Nothing’s confirmed yet.”

This is not how she had envisioned her holiday season going.

“There’s no other explanation that makes sense.” She sighs. “I really thought we’d be home for Christmas.”

“You thought it’d be quick?”

“I never thought we’d be activated, honestly. Not for this, at least.”

“Hoping for the Gene Roddenberry variety of first contact?”

“Nah,” she shakes her head. “I never thought it’d be aliens at all.”

“What’d you think they’d pull us in on, then?”

“Terrorism, honestly,” she shrugs. “Isn’t that what everything eventually gets thrown toward?”

He lets out a quiet chuckle. “Fair. Where are your folks spending the holiday?”

“Rome. They’ve got a few more postings in them before they head back stateside. How about your mom?”

“Florida,” he says, dipping a fry into ketchup. “St. Augustine. With my aunt.”

“Got tired of Midwestern winters?”

“She always hated them, even when I was a kid.”

“Patient lady.”

“Didn’t have much of a choice.”

They’re quiet for a moment.

“I keep thinking about them, you know. My folks. Your mom. Everybody out there. They’ve got no idea this is coming.”

“Regan, even we don’t know what’s coming.”

“We should do something. Give them some kind of warning.”

“Until we know what those things do, we don’t have much of a warning to give.”

“But, if we could talk to the WHO, or some of the larger governmental health bodies, we’d at least have more hands on deck.”

“At best, we’d be ignored; at worst, we’d incite a panic. You really wanna see quarantine zones set up and people herded into them?”

She shakes her head. “No, I just … it’s been taunting us for months, and now it’s gonna taunt us some more. I’m tired of running to catch up. I’m tired of watching people die because I wasn’t fast enough.”

“Woah,” he says, wiping his hands on a napkin. “Last time I looked, you’re not the one running the labs. And again, last time I checked, they’re on the same round the clock shift schedule we are. We’re doing what we can.”

“But I wasn’t fast enough catching it.”

“You didn’t know what you were looking for.”

She shakes her head. “I didn’t have a clue. Now, we’re here.” “We’ve got time. Shen and Vahlen still have things to try. We’re not seeing panic in the streets.”

“Again.”

“Lizzie, you can’t let this eat you.”

“But I’m the one who was supposed to catch this. A bioweapon? Come on, John. It’s why I was brought on in the first place.”

“You didn’t have proof, and we didn’t have time to look into it. “

“And if we had?”

He shakes his head. “We’re not going there; we’re not gonna play ‘what if.’ I’m not going to let you beat yourself up for making the right call.”

“But, what if ---”

“Lizzie, you got us this far. No one here forgets that. You shouldn’t either.” He reaches for her hand, catching it in his, and interrupting her quest to bloody her cuticle. “We caught it. We’ll stop it.”

"Do you remember was it was like not to be living on edge?"

"Not anymore. But I've got pretty good company out here."

She smiles at him. "Yeah, me too."

#every exit an entrance #xcom #fic #commander/central

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attractivemanusa-blog · 6 years ago

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7 Reasons Why You’re NOT READY for a Relationship

Is she not ready for a relationship? Or are YOU not ready for a relationship?

Right now, there are over 3.5 billion women in the world. 2 billion of them are between 24-54 years old. Let’s assume half of them are single.

That leaves 1 billion women who – based on my experience – are actively looking to meet a man or are open to it. So why then are you struggling to meet ONE?

Why is it that you can’t find a girl?

Why do you go on dates and put in all this effort… but still aren’t getting anywhere?

There are 7 reasons why and Renee Slansky from The Attractive Man team is here to tell you what those 7 fatal reasons are, and exactly how to turn them around.

1: You don’t know what you want

If you are out there dating and trying to have a relationship and have absolutely no idea, or a really vague idea of what you want, then it’s going to be a very confusing process for everyone involved.

Think of love like a map. In order to set a course, you have to know where you are and where you want to get to. This is what gives you a point of direction to work towards.

If you don’t have a sense of direction, you’ll just aimlessly wander around from girl to girl and never actually get anywhere.

Here’s what I want you to do: I want you to sit down, grab a piece of paper and actually write down WHAT YOU WANT! List the top 5 qualities in your dream girl and dream relationship and then ask yourself, how can I make that a reality? Do you want a long-term or casual relationship? Because identifying what type of relationship you want will help you work out what qualities that girl will have that can give you that type of relationship.

Do you need to be more proactive? Do you need to do some work on yourself? Do you have any idea where this type of girl might hang out?

The clearer you are the more chances you’ll have of attracting her and recognizing her when she comes along.

2: You need to sort out your baggage

Let’s be adults now and understand that no one is coming to rescue us and that we are actually the common denominator in our lives. If you are struggling to hold a girl or find a girl then it could be because you need to sort your crap out!

A high value awesome woman isn’t going to put up with a guy that still lets his past get him down. Stop making excuses and do something about what you are bitter or angry about.

Having a great relationship is about being a great partner who doesn’t hold onto unnecessary destructive crap.

I want you to do something: I want you imagine grabbing a suitcase and load it up with 10 or 20 kgs of weight, then I want you to take it on every date with you and try to meet women…. pretty sure women are going to run a mile ….

Well that’s what having baggage is like…it repels the right people from our life and attracts the ones who also have unresolved baggage.

So here’s what you need to do to get rid of it: Write a list of all the people who hurt you, list what they did, speak forgiveness over them and yourself out loud for each person: which is something as simple as “I Rob… forgive you Jane for breaking my heart and hurting me in 2010, I release you and myself from this experience” .

Then burn that list. It might seem stupid, but hey I’m the coach and I actually know what works, so try it for me.

Remember you can’t correct what you aren’t willing to confront.

3: Choose commitment.

I will say this, you aren’t alone and it is more common for men to fear commitment than women, but just because you are in company doesn’t mean it’s going to justify your fears or that it’s good company!

It’s time to grow up and realise that commitment is not a prison sentence, it’s an opportunity to be loved wholly by someone and open your heart to another who can actually enhance it.

Statistically speaking, married men actually live longer and have less stress, because they understand that a problem shared is a problem halved!

There will always be risk involved but you get to choose how you respond to life. So, try and just take commitment in baby steps instead of being scared away from the big picture.

And ask yourself where does this fear come from, is there baggage from point number 2 you need to sort out?

4: You’re dating the wrong woman over and over again!

If you have a type that’s a great starting point, but just make sure it’s women who are also good for you.

You see you can’t choose who you are attracted to, but you can choose who to fall in love with. Not all women are money hungry, blood sucking, heartbreakers (shock horror I know!)

But you have to weed out the good from the bad and learn to identify them early on. Make sure when you are attracted to a woman that you are taking your time to get to know her, look at what she’s consistent in, and ask yourself if she has more than just looks and sexual attraction going for her.

One thing I get my clients to do is an ex mug line up …basically I want you to profile all your exs and previous dates and see what common qualities and similarities they all have. Then trace back what could be indications of these such as her looks, way to act, dress, her friends etc.

Then once you have an idea, you will be able to pick up on it before it’s too late!

5: You’re not making room for anyone in your life

If you want someone to fit in, then you have to make them feel like they have a place. I get it, you want to have all your ducks lined up in a row, but if you keep delaying because you don’t feel ready, you’ll keep missing out and losing more time.

It’s not about trying to squeeze her in when you finally have everything perfect, you can still have a relationship even while everything else is in progress.

So, here’s what I want you to do. I want you to set 1–2 nights a week free where you would eventually want to spend quality time with her. Right now, she’s not in your life, but it’s about getting prepared and in a positive routine to receive her. Dedicate these two nights to either proactively trying to get a date, by being social or interacting with women or doing something fun.

Next, I want you to clear a space in your bathroom for her… yep when she eventually comes you will already have a space for her to fit in! Also, this physical reminder will keep you accountable to what you want and need to do as well to get it.

6: Your standards are too high or too low

Guys, get to know what a healthy and realistic standard is. Stop guessing or basing it off your past experiences and get educated.

If your standards are too low you will always be disappointed and unfulfilled. But, if they are too high, then women will never feel like they can please you and you will end up alone. The two indications of a healthy relationship are peace and progress. If you don’t have either then you are either too high or too low!

7: You don’t have a clue about women!

Ok lastly this is a pretty big one. If you don’t know a thing about women then we aren’t going to feel like you add value to us. This is why you have to subscribe to our channel, because we literally give all the juicy details away.

Guys women aren’t that complicated. We teach you how to talk to them and woo them, so if you haven’t downloaded one of our escalation cheat sheets then do so now.

Here’s the thing, a lot of the time all we want is to feel like a priority, have some security and know that you think we are beautiful and valued. It’s that simple.

If you want to know how we tick you have to get inside our heads and hearts! Make the effort to invest getting to know how we tick, what we feel and want, because it’s actually going to be to your own advantage, plus you’ll make up for lost time and set yourself apart from every other man out there.

Well that was a lesson and a half and pretty darn good, so do me a favour and share it with a mate and give us a thumbs up!

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