#if I can get one more thing done on my RP blog I'm letting myself try to write something here

[blackbutler-readerinsertsandjunk]

tonight on ‘song lyrics that fuck me up, especially when applied to certain characters’

I’m drunk on your voice, high on the moment I’d fall for you twice, if that’s what you wanted

[b0njourbeach]

Woah what happened with that twst rp blog? If you don't mind sharing of course

–✒📃

I do believe my public statement might have made it a bigger deal than I had intended. It was supposed to be a quick "Cut and Done", nothing more but I don't mind explaining the situation.

I'm not certain how accurate this is, but I do believe I talked about having Twst rps all over my feed and "not wanting to block them" - It's that exact same person. I know their main, I know their sideblogs, at least the Rp ones. They like my memes with their Main, so I didn't want to cut them off of something they seem to enjoy, just because their sideblogs are bothersome.

Thanks to my Anons, I was somewhat able to keep them off of my Feed ever since - Unfortunately they're all over the Character tag though and it's hard to look at 'This character only' and not 'Twst Rp'. As some might know: If you blog a tag or content, you still see the post - It's just censored.

I used to rp on here myself for a while, as some might know. I also admit on using the official characters tag - I didn't think that it would be that big of a deal. That was, until I saw a post about how the Twst rps are clogging up the canon characters tags, so I immediately stopped doing it.

So I thought to myself "Okay, maybe they don't know that just like I didn't. I'll give them a heads up and surely the problem is solved", but apparently, I might have been too naive to think that would solve it.

Maybe I should've shown that I'm not so unfamiliar to the mod because I, for once in my life, used the Anon feature (because I had no need for any possible drama resulting out of it).

That might've been on me. Maybe I simply assumed too heavily that people are understanding. Maybe I misunderstood something, misinterpreted something.

I do not know.

If you wish to use the canon character tag to reach more people (although I'm fairly certain you're not getting more interaction through it - If, at all, you might get some more likes but that's it. You don't get magically 500+ more asks because if people want to rp, they will explicitly seek out the rp or so I believe - And Rp accounts simply exist by interacting, not liking. But again, that might be only my thinking), go ahead. Clog up the tag, I do not care because I do not need to subject myself to things that bother me, I know how to block people and since I don't know the Mod personally, I shall not feel bad either.

My own peace is more worth than having such childish discussions with a fellow adult. Maybe it might have been petty on my side, I do not know - It may also have been the final drop that caused the barrel to overflow because well, I wasn't unfamiliar with that person (For purposes of 'avoiding unnecessary drama', I will not explain further what I exactly mean with the last sentence).

And don't get me wrong: I adore Twst rps, they're most of the time real funny to observe (Love it whenever I get "exposed" by someone sharing my silly edits with Rp accounts. Makes my day every time). But know your limits as a human being.

All I'm saying is: If you can't stand someone or what they're doing or if you think something they're doing is wrong - Let them know it's wrong, in a polite manner. If they don't feel like changing, your best choice is to simply block them. Save yourself some time and nerves instead of getting all worked up over something that can be fixed with a few taps on your device.

Don't blindly point at a person and call them stupid - Tell them how to improve their behavior. If they choose to not do it, turn the other way and live your life.

Moral of the story: I learned how healthy "block" can actually be for your own peace.

[pharisee-son]

About me.

I'm new here and still figuring out Tumblr. But someone helped me out, and I realized Tumblr is actually a pretty decent platform. I liked it, and I appreciated its vibe. Maybe this is the right place for me—a little corner of the internet to call my own.

I'd like to share my drawings, lore, and photos here. To connect with people, find other SCP fans, and maybe finally write some roleplay. I hope that someone will appreciate what I create—it would encourage me to keep going. I also want to learn new things, work on my insecurities, and interact with people online just like I do in real life.

The lore I’m building revolves around the “Old Reality,” a project I’ve been working on for 4–5 years. It’s a part of the SCP universe, and the main character of this story is my persona, Dr. D. Patch. It’s my copying mechanism. Because of that, it can be potentially triggering, containing psychological horror, religious and sexual trauma, toxic relationships, gore, body horror, and other heavy themes. My goal isn’t to romanticize these topics—that’s not healthy. I’ll be sharing parts of my work here, and I don’t mind answering polite questions about it.

(Remember that cringe culture is dead!)

On this platform, Tumblr I think I'll just be myself, sometimes RP as my persona. Do arty stuff, make friends - shits and giggles. And sometimes be more serious - learn to draw better, help others if they want it. This blog is "My Diary".

When talking to me, approach with respect. Treat me as a person with thoughts and feelings. Don’t trigger me intentionally. Honesty and questions mean everything to me, and the words "please", "thank you", "sorry" are basic manners, even if it’s just the internet.

If you think I'm problematic/doing something wrong - tell me about it in a polite way + what I can change. I don't intend to hurt anyone with my behavior or be mean. Additionally, being aggressive, unforgiving towards me is a huge trigger for me, so try to avoid it (If it affected me, I'll just be very quiet.).

My profile is a safe space for people of all religions, races, queer, MOGAI, alterhumans, systems, and agere. If I don’t understand something, you’re welcome to explain it to me.

However, toxic individuals such as; misandrists, misogynists, all kinds of incels, "nice guys" & "nice girls" , TERFs, transmedicalists, fatphobes, homo-/trans-/-intersex/queer-/xenophobes, bigots, racists, fascists, religious extremists, fanatics, or anyone pushing hateful ideologies are not welcome here. The same goes for people who are judgmental, edgy, aggressive, mean, or who come here to complain, harass, or insult without offering constructive criticism (when I specifically ask for it).

I primarily speak Polish, but this blog will be in English. I use a translator and might make mistakes since I’m still learning. My DMs are open—feel free to invite me to servers, share your art, lore, or just chat. You can even vent and treat me as a friend. I consider myself quite sociable and enjoy conversations. I don’t ghost or block people without giving a reason first. I’m most active on Discord, and my username there is: “pharisee_son.”

Oh, and my commissions are open. I mostly draw for Polish clients (I’m not sure how to accept payment from abroad). My prices are affordable, and I let the buyer decide the value of my work. I’m also open to art trades with anyone. I mainly draw character designs, references, redesigns, or corrections. However, I struggle with poses and perspective. Still, I’m good at rendering, coloring, and coming up with ideas. I can draw different types of characters, though elderly ones might be more challenging for me. I have no issues drawing furries. Please don’t ask me to draw fetish art, but gore is okay. During a commission, I need to stay in constant contact and will ask many questions. You’ll send me references and guide me on how you want the work done. This helps me feel more confident, and you’ll get what you’re looking for. I’m not a professional artist.

I use he/him pronouns, my chosen name is Dante, and I’m a trans man. I’m 18 years old. I’ve never used substances and am generally against them. I live in the countryside with my beloved aunt, and I spend my days working on the farm or pursuing my hobbies. My fashion style leans towards punk, and my room is filled with a collection of taxidermy, dried plants, and old books. The bad things that happened to me in the past are behind me now, and I’m trying to enjoy life. I am in recovery. As for my diagnoses, oh golly, I don’t know, but – my medical records are a mess (Medical neglect).

I am here thanks to @banesberry-anomoly :D

Last update: 30.12.2024

[despairforme]

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

[ Oh man this post got long (and surprisingly serious) fjfjfjffjjf I wrote this 2 days ahead of time because I was so excited about it ahahaha --- I'm wishing you all a wonderful 2024!!!!!

2023 was a year of surprising development for me. I don't know if it's because I'm getting older, or if I'm simply moving into a different mindset. I loved this year! It was awesome, and I'm so happy to see that I've written MORE for Nnoitra this year than I did in 2022 ( even though my overall word-count went down from 290 000 to 280 000 ). I can't say I completed many of my goals ( or any of them LOL ). I had lots of goals for 2023, but I was unable to complete them. The past few months, especially, have brought forth big changes in my creative flow and focus.

I've realized that I need to change my priorities, to better fit my new mindset.

Roleplaying is no longer going to be my main focus. In the past, whenever I've wanted to write, I've always focused on finishing drafts, asks ect. I've mostly written on here, since that's what I prefer. Or, rather - what I used to prefer. This is not to say I don't have muse for Nnoitra, because I always feel inspired for him. What's changed are my priorities. I've come to the conclusion that what's important to me is creating stories. Since Nnoitra's story ( main verse ) has become so stagnant, it feels less important to me. I know I can drive the story on, push it forward and thus find it important once more, but - I don't want to do that. I want to create my own, original stories instead. Becoming a professional writer has always been my dream, and that's simply not possible to do when I'm prioritizing rping. Roleplaying is going to have to take the backseat.

--- That being said, I'm absolutely not quitting! I can't imagine myself not writing for Nnoitra, so I'll be writing on here like before, and I'll even try to be more consistent. An enemy of mine in 2023 has been procrastination. One of my goals for 2024 is to conquer this, so that I can be more efficient with my time. I think that by dedicating less time to roleplay, I'll be more efficient when I do sit down and write for my muses. My activity the past few months have been spotty, so I'd love to get into a better flow.

2024 GOALS:

FOCUS ON PERSONAL PROJECTS. I have a lot of them. Two (three?) book projects, two long OC-centered fanfictions.

WRITE FANDOM PROJECTS. I have a lot of ideas for fanfictions, and I want to make the time to write them. Some are long, some are short. Getting feedback on my stories has always been a great feeling, and fanfiction is the best way to get that serotonin.

CHANGE MY WRITING HABITS. My habits are bad. They lead to a ton of procrastination and wasted time. I want to be more structured when it comes to my writing time (and my time in general, but especially my writing time). I want to stick to schedules, word-count goals, page goals ect. Conquering procrastination is going to be key.

CONSISTENT RP POSTING. Even though I won't be focusing on roleplaying, I still intend to do it regularly and get replies and asks out in a more timely manner. I'll probably set off some time in the evening to get replies done, and have some fun on the dash when others are online. I'll try to be consistent across my blogs, not just on Nnoitra.

CREATE THINGS THAT ARE PHYSICAL. I've come to realize that I love things that translate to the real world. Not just words on a screen, or a digital artwork, but things that you can touch. It's why I've absolutely fallen in love with watercolor painting. I'm going to try to print some of my writing work so that I have physical copies. I'm also going to print my art so that I can hold it in real life.

FIND A SHIP FOR NNOITRA. It's been so long since I wrote a ship for him, and I need it back in my life. I've been looking for a ship for him the whole time, but I need to put more effort in, and let him interact with more characters, as well as continue to develop the relationships he does have ( in case one of them turns romantic? ). I'd love for 2024 to be the year Nnoitra falls in love again.

I am SUPER excited for 2024! I love new years and fresh starts, and I feel so incredibly inspired by the changes in my mindset. I feel like I've been stuck for a good while with rping. Don't get me wrong, I've loved every second of it, and I've learnt so much about writing - and met the most amazing people. It's just that it's time for a change. Time for me to create other kinds of stories. I thought that things were aligned for me to write books last year, but I really didn't have the right mindset - but now I do! I'm hyped!! Hope you're ALL going to have the most amazing 2024 guys!! ]

[andalasia]

hellos. dusting off my old sideblog to throw up this request bc that feels like a good idea. i've responded to a couple other searches, so i'm realistically not looking to take on too many more. little bit about me, i'm a 29 man, live in the central timezone [ i think technically it's cdt bc it's currently july... but don't quote me on that ], used to consider myself a reader reader but me and the books have been beefing these past few months so that isn't occurring as frequently. maybe because i've been giving rp more attention. i've been rping since at least 2009, but most of that has was on forums like proboards/invisionfree/jcink. i have only recently really been a discord rp girlie

really only looking for m/m plots at this time. mayhaps one day i will go back to doing hetero ships, but for the time being that's not really something that interests me. i don't have a robust collection of muses that i pull out of rotation, that's just never been how i rp... if you see a guy on my main blog [ blakegallo ] the odds are that i would use them as a face. because i cut my teeth on forums i do typically only use actors, musicians, and the occasional model as faces; i typically steer clear of people who social media people. it's really just a matter of personal preference. i am willing to consider a fandom based rp, but would prefer something that is more oc x oc.

as far as preferences go i do write in the third person past tense. i don't really have any interest in breaking the discord message character limit for replies. i would never do a one liner, but a nice well developed paragraph or two is usually good enough for me. i like there to be something to respond to and get a nice back and forth going. i've seen a lot in my decade plus in the rp community and i've definitely done responses that are what the girlies call novella length now and that's just not something i'm super invested in returning to at this time. i don't have any interest in rping in dms, i think that things are just more organized in a private server. i also prefer for new threads to be individual channels just because i find that easier to scroll back through than one general channel, but that's me. i am a tupperbox girlie... and so i do have a slight preference for using them. it's not a requirement by any means, i have more 1x1s that don't use them currently than do, but just throwing that out there. i also find that doing something mumu is just easier for me with the tupperbot, but we can make it work if you aren't for it.

as a sidenote, i also do really love text threads. in my time perusing the the tags i'm not sure if this common because so many of the requests i see are for the novella level girlies. but sometimes i might have time for some quick banter between our characters. i also find that characters texting leads to where a next thread should go. as a vibes girlie i just like letting the characters sort things out sometimes than us as muns going back and forth figuring out where the plot should take them next.

plotting for me tends to be more organic. i really don't like to get too far ahead of ourselves. to me it's like writing a romance novel, we know these characters are eventually going to get together, but the journey to that destination can be whatever we make for it. so the ups and downs and angst along the way is what makes it fun. obviously i'm all for tossing ideas back and forth about how we think we should handle something or where we should go next, but i don't really have any interest in outlining the whole journey and then just hitting the beats.

so please be 21+, 25+ honestly would be even better and like this if you're interested. i might read the occasional high fantasy book, but that's not a thing i am all that interested in. i might be up for something vaguely paranormal, but i'm really more a regular person writer. give me the lives and the rich and famous or mess happening in suburbia... i'll reach out from my main blog in tumblr dms and we can go from there if we think it could be a good fit.

[discord-and-the-blog-of-chaos]

When Worlds Collide

As the camera starts out staticky, you can hear a dark chuckle. Once the static clears out, a rather strange, mixmatched, dragon-like creatures comes into view.

"Hello, everypony! Should I say everyone. Allow me to introduce myself. I'm Discord, spirit of chaos and disharmony!"

"Originally, I wasn't scheduled to make my Tumblr debut until much later, but a certain mod informed me that desperate times call for desperate measures. Something on the line of... 'notifications'?"

"Though as exciting as it is for me to show my face early, my only complaint would be the fact that I have to SHARE this blog with others. But I suppose this will have to do for now. Perhaps if things go well here, I'll be able to have my own personal blog down the line..."

"With that being said, let's get this show on the road! I've been sent here to summon several muses here that I'm sure you'll be happy to see! After all; a lot of them are people you've met before I assume?"

And with that, Discord snapped his fingers. Just like that, tons of people(and one pony), appear. They look around in confusion before turning to face the odd creature that was before them.

“UwaaaaaaAAAAAAHHH!!!”

The spikey-haired boy ran into hiding. Oddly enough, two of them looked and dressed exactly like him. One went after the more timid version to check of him, while the other had bandages, all over his torso, arms and legs(I have no sprites for that one! T_T)

"W-what that f&ck is that?!?!"

'Kyaaaaaaah! It's a monster!'

"I'm going to assume that this is the creature who brought us here. But... why?"

Discord was rather disappointed by certain reactions as he turned away.

"A simple 'thank you' would've sufficed! But I suppose most of you aren't much a fourth-wall breakers now aren't you...? How rude! To think I actually did this to help you all on your current predicament-"

Before the draconaquus could finish his sentence, a certain pink pony zoomed in and gave him a super tight hug from behind.

"GYAAAAAGH!!!"

"Discord! Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you sooooooo much for bringing us all together! I'm so happy to finally be able meet all my neighbors at once! I thought it going to take like... foreeeverrr to meet a few of them at a time! And I SO thank our mod a bejillion times for this too! And that best part is... you now get to be a part of this too! This is the best! Decision! EVERRRRRRRR!!!"

"C-can someone... please give us a promo... before Pinkie Pie... breaks me in half...?"

(Hello everyone. Mod Princess here. So basically, this is a chaos blog mashing @ask-timid-makoto-naegi, @danganronpa-v3-demo-au, @your-pink-party-pony, and @sole-survivor-makoto-naegi altogether. This is being done due to the recent changes on tumblr regarding the notifications. I figured that I'd have some fun and add Discord from MLP into the blog as well.

So this is what's going to happen from here on out. Every event and starter I decide to do regarding any of my other blogs are going to start off here from now on. You also can also RP on the chaos blog if you'd like. It will just require me to use other blogs to respond depending one which of my muse(s) you are interacting with. I will also be using this blog for any and all RPs that I didn't get notified on.

Aster recommends this to me as an alternative option to constantly pinging, and so far it seems to have worked after @unofficialuserluser tested it out. So now I'm giving it a go. Fingers crossed this continues to work!

Edit 5/5/2023 - Okay so I wasn’t informed until like… just now the the problem has been fixed. REALLY wish someone would’ve told me this sooner before I went ahead and made this blog. Nonetheless, it’s here and people are already interacting. So I’ll need to figure out an alternative. If you still want to interact, go ahead and do so.

@unofficialuser(anyone you want), @werewolf-makoto-naegi @slimemakotonaegi @ask-ghost-boys @yui-samidare-reborn (anyone you want), @japanese-ultimateautism @special-encounters (surprise me), @laylayeh @tobys-multiverse-official @lre123 @ask-ultimate-personas @ask-the-ultimate-matchmaker @alizachan @coldwisped

As always, anyone who isn't tagged can also interact

[snnynatural]

NAME lumi

PRONOUNS she/her

MOST ACTIVE MUSES sonny always on both her blogs (this and @snnydcys), second would be kate ( @greatcstarcher ), third is minah considering i am trying to keep her active with her being my very first spn oc and she deserves all da love! ( @antiqsvchotic ), my spn multi is very low ( @thel0re ).

EXPERIENCE / HOW MANY YEARS i don't even know. i will tell you one thing...i should not have been rping in the beginning stages since i was 13. how does one rp on youtube at that time?? ALL THE QUESTIONS!

FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT ooof.... depends on the mood. i would say with angst you will get longer replies from me cause OOOP. with fluff, i cry cause like... it is so nice to have fluffy shit and cry about it. now smut... i have to be comfy with the mun. otherwise i'm more eh.

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES always depends on my mood. i prefer medium to long replies because it gives me something to work with. now when it comes to starters? i always start with one liners because i can never think of anything with my dumb dumb brain.

PET PEEVES oh boy.. prepare for a rant! god modding. don't do it, please just don't. superiority. i'm sorry, but we are all here to write our silly little muses. especially with canon characters.. yes, there will be many same characters but each one should be treated with love. no one is better than the other. allow people to write freely. don't make each other feel like you can't be on this hellsite or force them out. it genuinely stresses me out whenever i see it. ship hating. just because you are not a fan of the ship doesn't mean you're allowed to make others feel bad about it. let people ship who they want to ship and let them write their little characters. (unless it's any form of incest or stepcest then i will nope out of this conversation). spamming. i've been in a scenario where i was pressured to respond fast, being spammed every single second, and it was non stop to the point i didn't want to write. allow people to breathe and to get to you on their own time. whitewashing. as a poc, please don't do it. if you are unsure, never be afraid to ask! but don't belittle someone for reaching out to you to tell you that it is whitewashing. as long as both parties are being respectful. if someone is whitewashing, do not attack immediately. just give a little nudge and let them know. ignoring female muses. as writer of only female muses, it gets disheartening. especially when the female muse is oc and poc. love your female muses like you love your male muses. they deserve recognition. fc collecting/muse collecting. my friends have fallen victim to this and watching them feel crushed?? not okay with me. no one is a collection. everyone deserves to have fun. not having a conversation. with this hellsite, it's hard to tell certain tones. it's childish to not have a conversation. as much as it's scary, have it. you never know how freeing it could be. --- i can go on and on but we don't have all day

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE honestly? i think in a way. we both tend to spread ourselves too thin and give our all to everyone. if we're also adding canon sonny, same applies along with being treated poorly while also expecting things to be done for everyone. even when we're tired or in the worst possible mood, we still try to help in any way we can. idk other similarities, but sonny is def my comfort character and i can see some of myself in her.

TIME TO WRITE currently, it's been hard with how my mental health is going. when i write, it's usually because i'm in the mood. i do not force myself to write if i genuinely can't. so i write when i want and not when i don't want.

tagged by @kindofuneven <3

tagging youuuuuuuu

[stillresolved]

RP BASICS: About the Mun!

Name / Alias: Ferre! Are you over 18?

Yes (& would prefer to write with those over 18) / No

WRITING.

Are you selective about who you write with?

No (anyone) / Semi (most people) / Yes (some people) / Highly (few people) / Private (mutuals only).

Are you selective about who you follow?

No (anyone) / Semi (most people) / Yes (some people) / Highly (few people).

If your muse is canon, how much do you adhere to canon?

Not at all / A little / Some / Mostly / Strictly / Not Applicable.

the nice thing about picking up minor/supporting characters is that you more or less have a blank slate....honestly i applaud ppl who do like, major canon characters i PERSONALLY....get very stiff in my writing when i feel like i have to stick to what i think the author of the character pictured them to be like ;-;

What post lengths do you write?

One-Liners / Single-Para / Multi-Para / Novella / All of the aforementioned.

Do you use icons and/or GIFS?

No / Gifs / Icons / Yes / Sometimes.

if i don't have my hard drive and/or my partner decides to forego the icons, i will too <3

Do you write on other platforms?

No / Yes

What level of plots do you write?

Unplotted/ Open-Ended Plots / Semi-Plotted / Fully Plotted Epics / All of the mentioned

while i do love plotting and have a few partners whom i have done extensive plotting, i have noticed that, i really really have to click with a partner before we can get into extensive plotting....for the most part, i prefer plotted dynamics which gives more flexibility in letting the muses really...be who they want to be in relation to the other.

How quickly do you usually respond to threads?

Very Slow (more than a month) /Slow (3-4 weeks) / Average (1-2 weeks) / Fast (less than one week) / Very Fast (less than three days)

( make that 'snail-paced (more than two months)' :'D i have a life outside and i don't intend on changing that )

What types of themes do you like?

Adventure / Romance / Fluff / Angst/ Violence / Tragedy / Domestic / Family / All of the aforementioned

( again this really depends on the partner...whatever works, works for me! )

WHAT GENRES DO YOU LIKE? ( Feel free to add!)

High Fantasy / Supernatural / Science Fiction / Historical / Horror / Comedy / Romantic / Drama / Action / Smut / Adventure / Espionage / All of the aforementioned

Are there any themes you're uncomfortable writing on your blog? (Not triggers)

No / Yes / Sometimes

i'll put it like this; there are themes i would prefer to explore in my own writing rather than in rp threads simply because i have more control of what point i want to get across than in an rp thread. one exception can be with partners i am close to and trust.

Do you have any triggers? How do you request it tagged?

nah, but i can be iffy when it comes to people who write about SA extensively....and while everyone's experience is different, i've seen some portrayals where it just...leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

SHIPPING.

What types of relationships are you open to?

Romantic / Platonic / Familial / Enemies / All of the aforementioned

this is where i'm going to lose some people. yes, in all technicalities i am open to all kinds of relationships. HOWEVER, i would prefer to only write purely antagonistic/toxic dynamics with those i have very good ooc communication with. it has been in MY experience that antagonistic relationships stress me out (i've always been this way, when i see conflict in tv shows and in fiction, i usually need to pause for a moment/take a mini break just so i can prepare myself)- and when there is little to no ooc communication, outside of plotting, i get very uncomfortable as i cannot tell what the other mun is thinking. especially in an rpc where more often than not you'll get muns who identify a bit TOO closely to their muses, i can't help but wonder if that's what the other mun actually thinks of my muse and of me.

i know this makes me look, uh, very sensitive, but again it's been in my experience, that if there isn't any ooc communication or just reassurance that the mun is separate from the muse (even just talking in the tags helps), the thread...sours. fast.

What types of pre-established relationships are you open to?

Romantic / Platonic / Familial / All of the aforementioned

Do you have OTPs?

No / Chemistry Only / Yes /

both platonic and romantic bby~

Do you have NOTPS?

No / Yes / can you have one for your oc?

interesting question....bc if i had a notp for my ocs i just...wouldn't?? write stuff for them?

What is your muse's sexual orientation?

Heterosexual / Heteroflexible / Bisexual / Pansexual / Homoflexible / Homosexual / Demisexual / Sapiosexual / Asexual / Still trying to figure it out

they're all over the place! will say though, 2024 seems to be the year for wlw ships for me <3 <3 <3

What is your muse's romantic orientation?

Heteroromantic/ Heteroflexible / Biromantic / Homoflexible / Homoromantic / Panromantic / Demiromantic / Sapioromantic / Aromantic / Still trying to figure it out / Depends on the muse you're asking.

again, depends on the muse. this year though again, feels like it's been the year of lesbian relationships :DDDD

Are you comfortable writing smut?

No / VERY Selectively / Yes

i used to write shitty smut, i'm still shit at it, and i don't get the inspo often so i think at this point, i'm just hanging my hat up...it can still be a treat once in a while. i can do drabbles though but again, i think there has to be character development to it.

How early in a relationship do you ship romantically?

Autoship / During plotting / After a couple IC interactions / Several IC interactions / Slow burn / Plot dependent / Never / If it happens it happens

self-explanatory!! these days if there isn't strong chemistry (and usually it's clear from the beginning) then i'd rather not pursue it.

Are you open to toxic ships?

No / Selectively / Yes / I am not sure

uh....depends on the partner, again i really think i would need a strong ooc relationship before starting one.

Are you open to problematic ships?

No / Selectively / Yes / I am not sure

are we talking about taboo relationships? then no.

Are you open to polyshipping?

No / Selectively / Yes / I am not sure

Are you an exclusive shipper?

Never / Sometimes / Yes / I would be open to discuss it

i do!! have muses who are in exclusive ships <3 and i wouldn't change them for the world <3

Does crack shipping ever happen?

Nope / Yes / depends

if it happens it's going to become serious i'm sorry :'D

Tagged by: stole it :) Tagging: if you're reading this you <3

[agoobersretreat]

Alrighty, let's answer some personal asks in a big blowout post! Maybe even a two-parter, let's see...?

Oh, yeah. Definitely a two-parter! Here's the first part, actually personal stuff about me!

So, if you can believe this, I followed an artist that I looked up to on dA (deviantART(Long before it went to super-shit)) and migrated over here to see what it was like. I mostly made a blog to follow them closely and look around at other things, too.

Looked for my favorite home fandom of Pokémon and found the entire budding days of the PokéRPC and hopped right in. Of course, I didn't have a Pokémon OC to use...at the time. I did have one, but I thought this was a new beginning and I thought I could use a new OC to make and use and be unique in the community, so why not?

And from there...it only got better. Sure, lots of bumps along and I'm pretty sure I weirded out that artist cuz I was a little too AuDHD and they didn't know how to react to me being me, but yeeeeaaah. Glad it turned out as well as it did, for what it was.

13+ slutty and vorny years. Been here through many of the old Tumblr events and posts when they actually happened, ya know? Scary thinking about that actually, hrrrm. But yeah. ,':3c

Do you all? Cuz he could use some more birthday company. I kid, I kid!

Miq's/my birthday is easy. It's August 13th, so that was pretty recent~! And, as someone I like a lot and look up to says, "30's are now in-demand~!"

So, I was coming back to Tumblr after deciding I was going to be done. Didn't last...even a few months, I think? Poor coping mechanisms or other healthy vents dried up, I believe.

I was ready to come back and Taylor was really one of the only people who knew for sure, back then. Probably for the better. Wasn't sure what to do for my new url and nickname, though.

Went to go see a movie with friends, while I was thinking about it in the back of my mind. Went to get my favorite theater candy, looking down at the box. 'Goobers.' And then it clicked.

'I'm a Goofy Goober... I'm a Goober...Goober!'

And there we go. I did my best to change all my old stuff to Goober and then go forward from there. Didn't plan to RP again, honestly. Just post and follow my friends and people I was interested in and sometimes send in asks for fun as an anon or just myself.

And then the RP bug bit me hard again. If I had known, I wouldn't have made my personal blog the main blog again like last time. I never learn lol.

But yeah, now ya know! More or less.

[moved-mainblog]

Heads Up

I know this is a long post and I'm sorry for that but please read through it all.

After some very triggering things that happened here that led into a very very bad nightmare and almost in an anxiety attack, which both I didn't had in a very long time. I decided to do some things a bit differntly around here. It's getting harder and harder for me to come on this blog without feeling bad about certain things. And I tried to ignore it, tried to see the positive things that happened here and still happen that clearly overweight the negative things. But it's starting to get harder and harder up to the point where I don't want to come online here at all anymore. And I finally realized that's why I have been feeling so emotional latley.

So I decided to make a new blog for my RP blogs which I will only use for RP's, character building and all of that stuff. OOC stuff still will happen but not in the way it did here. This means from this new blog I won't be making any kind of feel good messages or what ever but only stuff that belongs to RP's. Which doesn't mean I won't give supportive coments or messages anymore if I see you (my mutuals) posting something. But I try not to do them anymore for people I'm not mutuals with or more like I try not to talk much with people that I'm not mutuals with.

My problem is I have a really strong helper syndrome. When I see something or someone I feel like I have to do something. Like I have to make everything better and fix things etc. even if I don't really know that person. It's almost like a compulsion for me and something that didn't always ended well because sometimes I just didn't saw where to stop before it was to late. I thought I had learned to keep this under controll but it seems like I didn't as much as I thought. It started to get really hard for me to differentiate between helping and overstepping and also in differentiating between people I'm really friends with and people I'm not really friends with. For me it's the problem as soon as we wrote a few messages together where you have been nice to me I immediately see you as my friend even if we are still strangers to eachother. I have trouble in realizing who is really my friend and who was just nice because not everyone is a bad person who wants to hurt me. I'm just so used of people being mean to me and hurting me that my brain instantly says oh you're nice that means we're friends now. In addition to that, I have a problem expressing myself correctly even in my own language and the language barrier here on tumblr isn't helping either because English is not my first language so it often happened that I was trying to say or ask something but did it in a completley wrong way so it came off completley differently than I intended. All of this has made me do things that I regret and wish had never happened like it did because I harmed people even if this was never my intention. In germany we say "Gut gemeint ist nicht gleich gut gemacht" Translated, it means something like: "Well-intentioned does not equal well-done".

It started to get really hard for me to realize there's only so much I can or should do and that it's not my job "to save the world". Through this behaviour I hurted people while trying to help others which I never wanted to happen. I tried to move on from this but there are other things like hate asks that reminds me everyday of what happened and how I hurted people I never meant to hurt. I know my behaviour isn't fair to you, to the people I hurt but also not to myself and I'm trying my best to not let that happen again. Don't get me wrong this is no ones fault and completley a me problem. A problem that I'm trying my hardest to fix and keep under controll with seperating my blogs, and as hard as this is for me, with also sometimes just looking away when I see something. I need to learn not to react to everything I see.

I know my helper syndorm is a really big problem and something that I need to to keep under controll before it starts to get everyone elses problem because this is the last thing I want but I can't do this if I'm using one blog for everything where I'm doing my rps but also my feel good stuff. I was thinking of just redoing this blog. But As I know myself this would only help for a while before everything starts again so I decided to start completley from the beginning with separating my blogs.

I'll still be doing my side blogs again like I did here so this won't change. It's just a preference for me to get some structure as I don't find tagging really helpfull and I know I won't be able to handle so many main blogs. And I'll be doing an extra blog for my feel good stuff. So if you want to see them follow this blog or tell me to put you on my taglist if you don't want to follow but still want to see them. Also as long as I don't have my syndrome under controll I will be doing personal supportive stuff only for my mutuals. I'm so sorry for everyone who isn't in a good place and has a hard tim. I really wish I could help everyone and make everything better for you. But I know I can't do this even if my helper syndrome says I need to do this. This doesn't mean if I post a general feel good post that you can't tag your people in it. Feel free to do this but I'll be only tagging the people I have the premission from to do so or people I'm mutuals with and they haven't explicit said they don't want this. I won't be tagging everyone I've been talking to here to avoid overstepping again.

For now I won't be mutuals only but this is only regarding rps and plotting. Everything else depending ooc talk I will only do with mutuals I know for a while and who I have on discord (I'll make an exception if you don't have a discord but only if we talked about this). With non mutuals I will only write through rps and the only ooc talk that will happen between us is also regarded to our rp.

I also want to deeply apologize to everyone that I might have hurt, overstepped or made you uncomfortable or mad with my behaviour. I want you to know this was never my intention and I'm so so sorry. I promise I'm trying everything to get better with this.

I know things need to change not only for the people around me but also for myself. And this is exactly what is going to happen from now on. Now that I'm aware that my helper syndrome is still as strong as it is I can be more careful and thoughtful of how I handle and approach things to ensure that something like this won't happen again. And maybe it also helps you understanding me better and why I sometimes do things that I do.

I'm tagging everyone here that I would love to keep interacting with but I completley understand if you don't want anymore after reading all of this. Just know I don't ask anyone of you to change anything about how you are doing things around here. It's me and only me who has to change and I'm willing to do that.

So yeah please just write me a DM or for those who have my discord you can write me there too and let me know if you still want to keep contact or not.

For now I won't be answering to rps as long as I don't know if you want to keep going or not. As soon as I have your answeres I'll be answering again and transfer our threads over to the new blog when I have everything set up.

Again I'm so sorry for not realizing this earlier but I was so sure I had this under controll. But maybe some of you are willing to make a fresh start together with me.

PS: Please know not everything I did and said was because of my helper syndrome. It's really important to me that you know that I really truly love you all and when I said I'm here for you if you need someone to talk I meant it and when I said I'm happy to help I meant this too. It's only about drawing the line between people I'm friends with and people I'm not and people I just got to know and realizing I'm overstepping while trying to help before I do.

If there is anything you didn't understood feel free to ask me.

@antvnger @brooklynbred @spideymn @silently-judgingyou @kyber-infinitygems @skallagrimulfhedinn @azuresrp @vekovoysoldat @notgonnabesubtle @stripesofbrooklyn @askmyocsandrpwiththem @grimmusings @sah1x1s

For everyone who has multiple blogs, I only tagged one blog of you but ofc this is also regarded to your other characters you are playing as. I just tagged one so it won't be too much.

[44-mr-midnight-44]

Fandoms: Chonny's Charming Chaos Compendium, Animator Vs. Animation, Hollow Knight, Rain World, SCP, Ultimate Chicken Horse, FNaF, Undertale, Centaurworld, Spore, Dungeons & Dragons, Pokémon, Phighting

I don't answer asks asking for money. Please don't send me them.

PLEASE DON'T REBLOG SPAM ONE POST (REBLOGGING A BUNCH OF MY POSTS IS FINE) OR LIKE SPAM!!!

If you're gonna spam me to show love, pls go down the posts on my blog and reblog as many as you can (if you add comments in the tags I will sob with joy /pos)!!!

PLEASE DO NOT TAG ME IN CHONNY JASH/CCCC CONTENT!!!

I get why this is not common knowledge as I only really said it in my Discord server but PLS. DO NOT. I have to be in a mood to handle CCCC content and I get really uncomfortable really easily because of it and it can ruin my mood if it's already bad enough. Thank you.

Mias World fans I'd prefer not to interact with but so long as you don't ship Lychael or Kyer (if you do then HARD DNI, I literally don't care what your reasoning is) you probably can, especially if you're not really into it anymore.

DNI if you ship characters with abusive dynamics. I did not go through horrific situations with people who should've protected me just for some creep on the internet to treat it like a quirky yaoi dynamic. The only exception to this is if it's done to cope and not portrayed in a positive light.

If you're here to cringe at my content, then all I really say is my friend, we don't have to fight. I consider myself a nice friend. We could probably be friends. I'm a good engager, I can match people's energy well even if I don't quite understand the subject. I'm fine with disagreeing on people and seldom make a big deal out of differing beliefs, heck, I'm even friends with a few conservatives. I'm sure we could learn a lot from each other, maybe I could even show you that it's ok to be weird sometimes. Perhaps you just need the change in perspective that I had.

Alright, important "stuff I want people to see instantly on my blog" things out of the way. More under the cut, including:

♡ My other blogs (kin blog, "weird stuff" (SFW) blog, Heart RP blog, hero-villain blog, etc.)

♡ Information about yours truly (about me, hobbies, some neat fun facts, yk yk)

♡ Boundaries

♡ Some useful information, just in-general

♡ Userboxes, cos what good Tumblr blog doesn't have em?

If you're one of the many, many otherkin/otherkin-adjacent/"weird stuff" I followed, my accounts for those will be under this cut. I hope to form a community with you all. :)

"Weird Stuff" Blog (SFW Vore/Tickling, etc.) - DM

Crossover AU Loredump blog - @traumabasin (inactive… for now)

Kin/Venting Blog - @thehearteccentric

Heart RP blog - @heartchonnyjash

Hero Villain/Whump blog - @elsewherereflective (probably shadowbanned idk no one sees my posts 😭)

Extended About Me…

Góðan daginn! I'm AXYER, Chimney, or Heart! AXYER's more of a stage name I prefer to be called if we're not too familiar with each other, Chimney's just a general name, and Heart is more of a friendly name if we're talking more casually. I also go by Axon if we're VERY close, please ask before calling me that!

I am a being birthed by the madness of Entropy that looms on urban towers in the scintillating moonlight dedicated to my resentment of everyone around me. You'd think the God of Moon and Emotion would get a lot more done with this power. You'd be mistaken.

I love psychology, like a lot. I consider myself to be at the point where I even know ✨🔍👁️ Forbidden Knowledge 👁️🔎✨. I'll let you figure out what that means. 😉

My most fondest corners of psychology would be trauma responses, child psychology + child development, behavioural psychology, and the effects of internalisations and conditioning. I'm veeeeery well-versed in mental illness but I don't consider it one of my primary psych interests. I know most about anxiety disorders!

I'm also VERY VERY big into writing!!! I absolutely LOVE fiction, and I think it's a very vital thing for a lot of people's happiness. Fiction is magical, and I think it's beautiful how much it can shape people and their sense of what makes them happy. I LOVE crossover AUs, like, REAAAAAAALLY REALLY love crossover AUs, like, basically every single one of my main stories are crossover AUs, like the kind where five-hundred different fandoms exist in one big town together.

I also love zoology, sociology, astronomy, biomes, modern Iceland/Icelandic culture, winter/night aesthetics, fashion, trains, photography, coding (I'm just starting, though!), and a few more my busy brain can't afford me to think of right now. My main interests in psychology are trauma responses and my main interest in writing is character-writing and worldbuilding!

I consider myself an honest person, and I really don't like lying to people. I try not to be blunt but it slips out sometimes, and I really dislike sugarcoating things. If you need honesty, I want to give you honesty! I don't think people can properly change if they're not given a right step in the right direction, so I try to be as honest as can be. If I don't feel like I can be honest with you, often times that's a bad sign in our friendship. Honesty is a big thing to me!

I find that getting immersed in a good story is very healthy for the soul, just as long as you don't wade too deep that you can't pull yourself out. My dreams are to bring my silly, self-indulgent stories to the world and help people get lost in them, too, even if for only a little bit. Nothing brings me more joy than the idea of helping people get lost somewhere they feel safe, if not thrilled from the drama rather than poisoned.

If you're interested in any of my stories, I'd be happy to share a bit about them!

The primary ones would be:

-Pillow Club, a very self-indulgent AU where fictional characters from all sorts of worlds beyond the perceivable multiverse live inside of modern rural Iceland, with a lot of supernatural worldbuilding but ultimately restricted to urban fantasy. The main cast lives within the Pillow Club, a big, apartment complex-esque building where characters live for free at the cost of stricter living conditions, run by a certain well-known rabbit serial killer man with a lot of secrets. It's intended to have similar stakes to a more exaggerated, supernatural slice-of-life version of reality; there's no overarching goal, characters go about things as they do and conflicts and goals change as life happens. The main protagonists are all from niche to semi-niche stories, namely my AUs of the such.

-Untitled Chonny Jash AU (yes that's the actual AU name), a Chonny's Charming Chaos Compendium AU in-which Cameron (Whole), a severely tormented child, suddenly has two bizarre animal-like creatures split off for him after becoming emancipated at only (roughly) thirteen. The two ids, Heart, an angelic, purple id with a boisterous and friendly disposition, and Mind, a robotic, shark-like blue id with a much more reserved, awkward, and stoic (yet well-meaning) personality come to be Cameron's only joy in life, and he raises the two the best he can (which thankfully, they age extremely fast) and they're one happy family, until Cameron loses his humanity and becomes an id as well. Heart and Mind not only face hurt from Cameron's family, but soon, Cameron himself; now Soul.

-And finally Elsewhere Reflective, which you may learn about on my superhero account. :)

In-case you can't tell, I have a knack for extreme canon-divergence. It's just how I roll.

As for DNI? Well, DNIs aren't exactly… known for their effectiveness. All I'll say is if you're a com-shipper, I'm blocking you, you're mean and you make me extremely uncomfortable and I don't want to fight you. I do also tend to block for whatever reason, if you simply make me uncomfortable I'll block you. No hard feelings.

Oh also Jashshippers. Jashshippers get out, like now, like, right now.

I'm also a (Villain) Heart fictionkin! I'm not comfortable with other Heart fictionkins (or any type of Heart identifier, really, even if it's only one of your identities), so I apologise.

Anyway, I am EXTREMELY tired! So long, and thanks for stopping by to read! I'm sure we can get along even if we don't agree on much, I'm not the type who likes to argue. And if you don't want to be friends, that's fine too. It's just nice seeing ya stop by. :) (hey guess what past Axon, I'm updating this, you're welcome.) (hey guess what past and past past Axon, I did it again) (hey guess what you three, I'm editin it again)

DISCLAIMER: If you ever end up identify as Heart or anyone from Mias World (Heart copinglinks/fictionhearted/synpaths thin ice, but omitted from this), there's like a ninety-nine point-nine percent chance I will block you unless we're already super duper close. No hard feelings! My widdle stoopid brain can't handle it is all.

More added as I went back to this post:

As mentioned and implied several times now, I HATE arguing and I am TERRIBLE with conflict. I'm willing to debate so long as you're polite about it and can agree to disagree (without insulting myself or my intelligence, Shae), but generally speaking I don't like to fight people and am an extremely sensitive person.

Here's the things I absolutely will not discuss:

-My stance on DID/OSDD, there's a lotta misinformation and disagreement on a lotta things on it so I'm just not comfy talkin about it m'ny'alright? I'll say two things: it's a real disorder and anyone who accuses people of faking things are losers.

-Trashtalking, I dealt with it enough at my old house and have dealt with it enough in the past at an all-girls highschool and I do not condone it whatsoever. I'm fine if you need to vent or you're just telling me an interesting conflict in a friend group (that I am NOT apart of!!!!!! Do NOT make me your rumour person knucklehead!!!!!) but I draw the line at genuinely insulting people and spreading rumours!

-My stance on the USA election. Another "you can't win" situation. Please leave me out of most politics in-general, I try to avoid that on this blog as I want my blog to be something I can look back on and not feel stressed about. Yes, I hate Trump.

-Tumblr controversy. I try my very hardest to be nice to everyone regardless on if I like them or not and if you let me know they're not cool, I'll distance myself, but please don't try to go after me if I'm still nice to them. I'm quite literally nice to everyone lest you REALLY hurt me, which only a select few people have and even then none of them are allowed on this blog.

Tumblr hate asks are open you will get a free kitty video 😌

@nkgrimmie kys

Tags…

(I can't guarantee there's content for all of these yet)

#axyer psychology moment - I talk about psychology.

#untitled chonny jash au - I talk about Chonny Jash AU (that also belongs to nkgrimmie) where Heart and Mind are sort of aliens who love to argue for fun and also Soul sucks.

#pillow club - I talk about my extremely multifandom crossover AU that takes place in the middle of nowhere in Iceland. Do you like tired depressed scrawny men? Do you like characters from completely different universe having relationships you'd never thought of but now you're curious about? Do you like a lengthy plot-line following complex trauma arcs? Do you like extreme canon-divergence? Do you like robot dilfs? Then stay tuned. (Update: you will probably only find this on @traumabasin)

#important - Anything that's important.

#axyer eats a canvas - Art (if I remember this tag exists).

#axyer stories - I tell stories.

#axyer rant - I rant about something. Be prepared, I am an extremely passionate person and am usually wrong about at least one thing; please correct me. But politely.

#happy hour - Happy little enjoyable things. :)

#*unfurls scroll* hmmhm yes - I figured I needed a reblog tag, so here it is!

#cool people things - Reblogs/interactions/whatever with my homies.

#extremely cool people - Reblogs/interactions/whatever with a ROACH.

#laughter is truly in my pants - This post made me laugh.

#the blues and greens - Favourite posts.

#embracing this harmony - All-time favourite posts.

[aintitfierce]

GET TO KNOW YOUR ADMIN !!

NAME -- masha

PRONOUNS -- she/her, but they/them or it/its could be nice. i won't kick up a fuss to he/him, either, but it does give me a brief pause

PREFERRED COMMS -- lies down probably IMs here, unfortunately. i have 'not getting out of this chair-itis' rip also my computer (not the laptop) is like 15 years old and dying a slow death so i can't open more than a single tab and maybe my pictures folder without everything slowing to the speed of molasses on a cold day

HOWEVER, i have gotten over myself a little bit and i do have an active discord now. so i've been thinking about moving some stuff there

NAME OF MUSE -- vanya, but he prefers pretty vanya or anything similarly Fawning. he has a noticeable, unexplained fondness for being referred to as the nondescript 'creature' as well

EXPERIENCE IN RP -- my first experience with RP was in the gaiaonline forums as a teenager lmAO. i used to scrounge around in the forums for any literary magical school-based RPs. then i kinda fell away from it once i left the site. i didn't pick it back up again until after i'd been on tumblr for a few months in 2013-2014 or so, stumbled into the kung fu panda fandom and made a friend who got me into RPing canon characters through skype ghfhiieo then i opened up an ask blog in june 2014 which very quickly morphed into just a RP blog instead and the rest is history

BEST EXPERIENCES -- back on gaia i joined a roleplay which was taking place in some school for people with super powers (i was in a lot of those as u might have guessed, they were my favorites lmao). me and one other person were the only ones awake and active at one point and it was just a rapid fire interaction between our muses for a couple pages, after which we laughed at The Shenanigans bc we were pretty sure our two characters had just become the comic relief of the entire thread and wondered how the other players were going to react when they inevitably came back

honestly i just remember it being a ton of fun. that style of RP is so incredibly foreign to me now, but nostalgic

PET PEEVES / DEALBREAKERS -- i had to take a long time to think about this, and i think the number one thing that gets to me is infomodding. i very much prefer having a running tally of what our muses each know about each other and more importantly what they Don't. i wrote with someone once who would occasionally consider what they knew about my muse to be fair game for their muse to know as well, without any reasoning for how they'd know this information or when they found it out

additionally, the only other thing i can think of that does get to me pretty badly is related to pacing. like i mention below, i like interactions that feel relatively real and natural, and sometimes that means letting the conversation unfold on its own and allowing awkward silences and lulls to play out to their conclusions. it drives me a little crazy when i'm just getting comfortable in a conversational thread but my writing partner is instead evidently feeling Bored with the small talk, so they inject some drama or some other bombshell to Liven It Up and get the action rolling orz usually has killed the thread for me in the past

MUSE PREFERENCE ( FLUFF, ANGST, SMUT ) -- out of these three probably angst, but i rarely RP it bc i don't feel that i'm very good at it. also idk how Seriously people could pretty vanya angst lmao

i've done so little actual RPing with him (my own fault, tbh) that i don't really know what my preference is with him yet. him being captured by big jack bc there were rumors about him being Powerful And Rare has probably been one of my favorite interactions so far. i admittedly do enjoy writing more antagonistic interactions more than i do friendlier ones

PLOT OR MEMES -- my Natural State is that of a pantser, to be completely honest, but there's a special place in my heart for plotted threads. i do enjoy laying out the basics and then letting it go with a check-in every now and again when one of us is running out juice or Unsure about anything

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES -- either or. i'm no good at one-liners, and i struggle with novella length (condensing my partner's response into something i can reply to while being careful to keep the story Moving takes a lot of brainpower for me). i do however love replies and threads and partners, perhaps, who are okay with letting some parts of the conversation Drop and potentially come back into play later. i like that sense of continuity, where it feels like a real or natural interaction two people might have with lulls in the conversation and callbacks

BEST TIME TO WRITE -- at this point i have no clue wheezes

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE? -- lord i hope not lmao

[varietales]

Talk about your favorite ship! | Favorite character to rp?

mun meme // accepting

This turned into a massive ramble oops...

Favourite ship (i'm letting myself do 3 RP ones from across my blogs)!

Lisanna x Sting with @aitheros. It lives in my head and heart rent free, I’m so soft for them. We have had so many good and precious interactions with them and plotted much more too! They are such a lovely pair and bring out the best in each other, I adore their softness and the way they can relax around each other so beautifully and understand each other. They’ve both been through a lot, and the plot we’ve done for them has added to that and I’m forever excited about the things we can do within the plot and outside of it too. They’re also AU gold honestly. And I can’t even think about Lisanna without Sting coming to mind now. I can’t express how much I adore them, and Mandy is an incredible writer (im forever in awe of the description and imagery and use of metaphors, absolutely stunning every time, not to mention the dialogue and everything else too) so I’m always feeling super lucky to get to write with her! Her Sting is just CHEFS KISS (its also his bday today and I remember this bc I love him so much, he is the sunshine in my life). So yes 10/10 I adore them.

Rogue x Mary with @killrate. We started writing these babes together way back in like 2016, so it has been A Long Journey and it’s been so good. Beautiful example of awkward friends to secret lovers. With Mary being an ex-cultist and criminal and all, and Rogue being a famous mage, we get this Delicious plot of them keeping their relationship secret. The Yearning and Drama and all that goodness. And we also have an angsty breakup era planned which is gonna kill me but I also love it. In their happy era, they are so beautiful, so cute and adoring and flirty and fun but deep too and the feelings are so real and get me every time. He just adores her so much and is the absolute softness for her. I’m weak, send help. Plus as well as being one of the coolest people ever, Fae has such wonderful writing, its always so fun, so well done and full of personality, and a delight to read!!!

Gray x Evergreen with @lucentaire. At first glance, one might think Huh that’s a weird pair, but the more you think about it, the more it makes sense. They have a lot in common in terms of hobbies/interests, the way they think and even act sometimes, and a lot more. I love these two (and Jana’s specific portrayal) for the way they have this beautiful…idk exactly, like understanding or acceptance of each other, that’s growing with each interaction. They’re really starting to Get each other and it brings a certain peace and its lovely. I love seeing them begin to open up to each other, and I love the hints of feelings creeping in, and I love the teasing that happens from time to time between them as well as from their friends, its just all So Good. When I think about them, I just get this really warm sense of peace and I love it. I also have to say Jana is an amazing writer, her words always flow so well, and she has this gift of sneaking in little references to other characters/muses or little anecdotes from a muse’s past or family that just really Add a little something and make her muses feel so real and rounded. An absolute inspiration every time. And anytime i'm writing anything about Evergreen in general, I have to actively stop myself from writing 'Rena' instead, she's just so deep in my brain.

Favourite character to RP!

I have so many muses and have written so many more in the past, so it’s tricky to pin down a favourite! They all have their differences, and my fave can change based on mood as well. That being said, the first one that came to mind was Lisia (Pokemon)! She was my most active (basically Only) muse for about 8 or 9 months (which is sadly impressive for me) back in 2018. I’m not sure if its nostalgia that I’m holding onto, but I had a lot of fun with her. The RPC was fun and active and I had some really cool things going (and then things went Bad). I put in a Lot of work with Lisia, writing heeeaps of hcs and so she’s a muse that I really adore. She’s just a gorgeous gal with a gorgeous heart. I haven’t been able to get her going again since then but I’ve been thinking about her lately and might give her blog a clean up. I say that every so often tho and never do it, plus I can never manage to get her active again. But anyway, outside of her, I think I would say Lisanna is one of my faves to write! Coincidentally (or not), Lisanna and Lisia are very similar personalities. I enjoy their bubbly, cute personalities, and the way they can become teasing menaces when they want to be, particularly when they get close to someone. They also have this great potential for depth and deep and meaningful convos and angst. They’ve been through a lot and are still So Kind and I think I just find that sort of character comforting. On the complete other hand, I also really get a kick out of writing Macbeth, and my other old fave that’s just come to mind is an og muse of mine, Siegrain, which again, was once upon a time a Most Active muse of mine that I somehow can never get going again. But I did love that sassy blue haired bastard...

I suppose I could have said which muse on This blog is a fave to rp, but i haven't really gotten things going for each muse yet so we'll have to wait and see!

[teriyakichop]

You're seriously becoming unhinged. Reading your posts, even scanning through from the beginning when it all started shows a downward path and unraveling coming from you. In all seriousness, with no sarcasm or ill-will, get some help. You're putting on display someone in a downward spiral, holy fuck. It's not cute, you aren't getting any sort of clout or giving off any vibes other than: help me.

All seriousness? Ok. Let's be serious about this. Before I reply to you, I just want to say that the ONLY reason why I am replying to you is because you took the time to message me directly and speak to me like a human being, while also being stern. I can respect that. I don't know what your interpretation of what "unhinged" is, but I assure you that I am mentally stable, and sound. Do I get angry? Of course. It's human to get angry. But I don't stay angry. My anger rises and falls just like everyone else. What you're seeing from me is Exhaustion. I'm tired. I'm exhausted. Now, maintaining all of this while I am tired, THAT is unhealthy. I can definitely agree to that. Keep in mind also, that what you're seeing is a path of one person talking to a bunch of other people who are A, speaking about too many unnecessary subjects into the subject matter, B, twisting my words into statements that I never said, and C, demonizing me about a situation that they don't understand. People have the impression that I am not competent to handle the situation with Xyzis and the alleged pedophile accusations, while ALSO refusing to seek what it was that I've actually done in relation to the pedophile accusations. I am not a machine, and I am not sugar spice and everything nice. I understand that some people want me to be, but I'm not. At the same time, I'm fully capable of knowing right from wrong, justice from injustice. And I don't need anyone's opinions on whether or not I am "deranged" or "unhinged." All I asked was for people to approach me like a human being and ask questions, request information, things like that. INSTEAD, because Wyrmguard and other propaganda blogs SENSATIONALIZE situations and circumstances, people refuse to see the actual truth, and make their decision based on how hyped the situation has become. That's why I said, the fireworks happened, and the Wyrmguard people didn't see it. But it did happen, and the people that saw it, are VERY happy. Now I have people volunteering information to me to make even more fireworks, and some people want to make fireworks of their own.

This Pedophile situation caused an entire underground movement to form, and everyday I see people drawing their lines in the sand and picking a side. Hell, there are people who HATE me with a passion, and they're giving me information on the guilds with DNIs against my guild, just because they want the injustice to stop. This movement has been a long time coming, and the Pedophile accusations, and the demonizing of ME was the straw that broke the camel's back for A LOT of people. YOU may not see it, but behind the scenes, I've help a lot of people over the years. I funded hundreds of thousands of gold to struggling guilds. I've donated free WoW monthly gametime. I've arranged RP meet and greets in the most random of places and players enjoyed the RP events I've hosted. I geared myself for heroics just so that I can help other players get AotC achievements before the season ended. And I cannot even begin to tell you how many MOG runs I've done for players, especially where the weapon "Taeshalach" dropped for so many players, and even when it dropped for me, and even when I wanted it, I open trade and give it to someone else. I have a very solid and positive history with many players who are sick and tired of the Wyrmguard tumblr, SCA, SLP, Grand Alliance, Warcraft Conquest, and the other groups. And this pedophile situation, along with the accusation that I am "Defending" the accused pedophile, was the spark they needed to throw the gauntlet. Trust me. I'm not crazy, or deranged, or unhinged, or anything like that. I am a guild leader. And as a guild leader, I get attention from countless players. Those that love me, those that hate me, those that plot against me, those that want to plot with me...and it is all exhausting. Don't get me wrong. I can see from your perspective how things look, and how I appear to be deranged and unhinged. But again, keep in mind, there's only ONE of me, while there is a bunch of players speaking to me all at once, coming at me from different angles. I went on Wyrmguard and counted 11 posts about me alone in the week, 3 to 4 posts a day about me. I'm banned so I can't respond to all of that, and even if I wasn't banned, there's too many people to respond to. My perspective is WAY different from yours, and I just want you to keep that in mind. And for the last time, I'm mentally fine. Tired? yes. Exhausted? Absolutely. Unhinged and/or deranged? No. Now, with EVERYTHING I said, ask yourself this: Does Yuliyrel sound like an unhinged person, with a reply like this? I'd like to know your answer, as your answer will define everything. <3

[crystalflygeo]

Wait a second! I knew I've seen you around! Crys!

Also, holy heck in a handbasket. Why are you also not an EBG participant? I've seen you on a couple blogs, notably, Meirin's and Dresvi's, and I really enjoy your shenanigans.

I like how you take things in unexpected directions. I thought the whole idea of bringing the Adepti in as players in Meirin's blog was such an amazing choice. You have a lot of talent in writing different sorts of characters, and I like it a lot.

I also like how you can find a way into blog arcs. With the way you write, you're flexible enough to push the writers on the other end just enough to get them to open up into the lore they have. I remember you pushing Elzer in Dresvi's blog just enough to drop little tidbits about the general lore and the fire situation that's apparently going on in there.

Also, do not get me started on how entertaining it is to watch you start up shenanigans in Meirin's tea house. It's so much fun to read your shenanigans.

I never know what I'm gonna get when I see you as an asker, and that makes it fun.

Like with Risu, I hope that you do end up being an EBG participant. I'm honestly amazed by how much mastery you have for different character voices. But even if you don't, it's been fun watching you cause a lot of fun shenanigans. I hope you continue to cause all the chaos.

There's only one day left, so I look forward to seeing what other shenanigans you get up to.

✌️

sfcvgsahvcajshcbsakn AYOOOOOOOOOO WHAT I'M HONORED PLS???

ANON WHO ARE YOU LET ME HUG YOU RN THANK YOUUUUU Again I did briefly consider it but I was just coming back from a trip for vacations, starting back work again, had other stuff going on stressing me also I genuinely don't think I have the brainpower to make a plotted EBG lmao

Also I feel like idk for something like this I'd like to establish some more lore about my OC/avatar? hehe. A lot of wonderful friends (most notably @meimeimeirin @floraldresvi @moraxsthrone and @localplaguenurse) have been really inspiring me to write more and kinda... open up more? feel more comfortable with myself in my blog? bc I always had this idea of being kinda "anon" and be a little removed from my own posts and writing, but they've given me courage to be myself and have fun and do what I want and that includes selfshipping which I never really... did much? But it's so much fun! It's so fun to RP, to share silly little headcanons and ideas, to express your love and happiness for characters, and share that supporting others too and making them happy! Anyway wow I got sappy. Point is, I do hope to kind of... introduce myself/my OC and be a little more "me" about my bias if that makes sense? because that is what the ebg is all about (I think?) that funny and weird "hey this person who loves X character is now forced to get out of their comfort zone and simp for Z instead lmao"

pls I had forgotten how much fun RPing could be I feel like I haven't done so in yeeeears and I still think I'm rusty scvgasjbvcjhak but I used to love it and I do love to write

EBG has been so much fun! Even as a spectator, and I sure hope to participate someday but pls literally all of this was so sweet schajbckas I am not worthy of that much praise aaaaaaaaaaa

I AM VERY PROUD AND HAPPY WITH MY SHENANIGANS AT RIN'S TEAHOUSE HAHAHAHAHA and knowing I gave her some good laughs and she has also been enjoying it's all worth it

ty anon this has been an experience, but also to know people see me like this just... pls Imma cry, I'm thankful to be so loved <3

[harper-collins]

Hello Everyone,

I come to you with news about both my mental health and the state of my writing;

First off, I probably won't be posting anything of my own for a while here. Maybe an update for a book if it happens, but not anything outrageous. It's more of a quiet one for me as I have somehow gotten to one of the worst points in my life.

I won't give too much information, but I'm currently off work and taking time for myself, and I realised I should probably do something about my writing, whether it's just finishing it off awkwardly or explaining.

I don't want to give any of my stories an unfinished ending, and I really do love them all, even if I may not be super into their respective fandoms anymore; this includes all 7 projects. (ohmygod)

I've been working on my book semi-regularly, but as it's still in the basics, I won't share anything until I've built it up more. I know I say that a lot (whether you guys hear it or not), but taking on a project the way I have done is exciting and scary.

That said, here is the list of things I will be taking from now until I decide I can either handle multiple things again or finish them.

Rewriting An Eternity To Wait

Proceeding to finish the last few chapters of An Eternity To Wait.

Finish Mission: Return Home

Finish Experiment Gone Wrong...?

Write more or finish Scar in Yandere High School (RP) (as there is only one at the moment and it's a very bare project I started on a whim)

Finish Trapped in 'Dreams'

Rewrite the rest of The Twins, The Triangle And The Magic

Finish The Twins, The Triangle And The Magic

Add or Finish Billdip Cards Against Humanity

Full focus on my book, maybe write oneshots etc

To explain, The start is simple, the least amount to do in the projects goes first (AETW, M: RH), and then finishing some long-term projects (EGW?, Scar in YHS), and then T4ATM is put essentially in the back due to the pure size of the project. I plan on it being longer than the HP books, meaning it will probably take years to complete.

I have no doubt that T4ATM will signify the end of my fanfic writing (or at least series writing). I will then focus on my book, which has its own blog. These should be primarily easy considering that I have started all of these projects, and for all, apart from like two, I have plans ready for them. All I need to do is write them.

I can't say how long this will take, and I do apologise to anyone who's been wanting an update of others etc., but I'm just so fucked that this is probably the only way I'm going to get over this heap of self-inflicted work that I want to finish.

Of course, if the entire idea of making a oneshot inspires me (this includes the oneshot series I have), then I will probably write that, but then I will go back to the list. If anything changes in the list, I will let you know.

Thanks to anyone who cared to read this; it means a lot. I hope anyone who likes my projects will wait for them to be finished or just read them as they come out, but once I get my hands on something, I will do my best to sink my teeth into it and only that instead of going around in circles.

Thanks, cya.