#idkkkkk i feel weird about this now like

[skin-slave]

Thank you @serenity-the-firefly !!!

Ok, so it goes something like this...

I've decided that hair comes in blond and brunette. Red hair obv exists, but it's only around 1% of the population. So instead of making a red category, I split them up and shove them into blond or brunette, depending on how I see them. I'm making more work for myself, trying to convince ppl that they aren't redheads, bc my system of "how hair grows" doesn't include all of the ways that hair grows.

If you're blond or brunette, awesome! (Not sarcasm, genuinely awesome.) You're recognized, even if I don't fix the problem. You will always see others who look like you in media. There are hair products specifically for you. Your hair color will never be a problem. If you don't wanna think about it, you don't have to.

But what about the redheads? Do they matter? They aren't recognized. They aren't represented. They have to use things that are made for someone else, while pretending to be someone else. They will have problems bc of their hair color. They can't afford to not think about it, bc they have to deal with those problems.

Let's say I add a red category. When redheads move from where I stuck them into the red category, have the other categories lost anything? (Remember, the redheads were never actually blond or brunette.) If someone is strawberry blonde and moves back and forth between categories, who's harmed? If someone dyes their hair red, who's harmed? If some reds are more natural shades and some are Manic Panic, who's harmed?

"But they're so rare." They're less rare than you think. But, more importantly, why does that matter? Does a demographic need to have a certain amount of ppl to deserve equity?

"But then we have to make products for them." Yes. We already do that for blondes and brunettes. It's equal treatment. (Think of irl store shelves. Does having shampoo for other types of hair keep you from buying shampoo? Would not having those products make it easier for you, or harder for others? If you ran a beauty company, would offering more products, and therefore having a larger customer base, be better or worse?)

"But it opens a floodgate and it gets too complicated." Ok. That's fair. Maybe I make a bunch of categories. Black, blue, grey, white, pink, thinning, bald, different textures and lengths. Maybe that's too complicated to put on paperwork. The next question is, does that need to be on paperwork? Unless someone is working directly with your hair, in which case they need more info than one word, do they need that info at all? Is the complexity better addressed by having 2 categories - which we know is wasteful and harms some ppl - or by rethinking how we use the categories?

"But it's new and I don't like it." There we go. That's not an unreasonable thought. But, the thing is, it isn't new. It's never been cut and dried. I put a lot of effort into trying to make it look that way, but you've always lived with redheads. They just keep being born, bc it's a natural human variation. Acknowledging that they are who they are doesn't change or devalue your hair. It'll take some getting used to. But it'll be so worth it. Even if you don't feel personally invested in the wellbeing of redheads, it means I can put the energy I used to fight them into other things that you do care about.

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Sorry that's so long. I don't always go that deep. But I find it's a helpful analogy sometimes. Idk 🤷‍♀️ I guess it speaks to me bc ppl don't think of red hair as a deformity. Gender diversity isn't a deformity either. They're both just less common ways humans exist, no less natural or normal than the more common ways.

(Also, I try not to get too into the vagaries of gender fuckery, bc it's a lot to pile on, but adding in "unnatural" hair colors hints at it. Yeah, there are gonna be some ppl who are doing it way different for whatever reason. But it only matters as much as gender itself matters. And that only matters when it has to, or when the person wants it to.)

I know this is prob a dumbass thing to be happy about kinda, but I had a long debate over gender yesterday with a conservative Christian bro, and at the end he said I made good points and he disagrees, but will consider what I said. Like 🥹 did I just throw a starfish closer to the water

[itsalwaysdark]

also im so sick of the acne like its so annoying and its such bullshit bc im not on t anymoreee i havent been for months so can we wrap it up I know my hormones r all over the place bc i was on and off t so willynilly for a while but now i have been off t for like. literally a year atp i think. so we should be settled and that means acne you may leave

[neverendingford]

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[nikethestatue]

Everytime there’s discourse or fandom drama it always make me resent sjm/Bloomsbury a little bit more cause let’s be real, this shit would still be around but wouldn’t be near as bad if they would just fucking announce something anything. They don’t even have to give a specific date but the more they are silent and the longer it goes on the more I feel the fandom eat itself and sjm dig herself into a hole that frankly, is probably past due climbing out of. No matter what ship she goes with now, even if it’s ACOMAF level, it’s gonna be a shit show. This’ll be her second release after getting BIG big and after how shit HOFAS was I feel like the hole Bloomsbury/sjm dug themselves by keeping quiet will halt her upward momentum. She’ll always be popular and have her fan following but if she doesn’t deliver on the next book she’ll be quickly eclipsed if not already by other authors her show is already losing momentum from the popularity of the series and as others discover other books than hers with authors being more open people will just move on idkkkkk I don’t expect a book a year or for her to churn them out but it really feels like she just don’t give a fuck anymore or Bloomsbury is trying to capitalize on a “twilight” strategy with Team this and team that but it’s backfiring

I don't blame her and BB for the assholes in the fandom. She wouldn't be able to help that even if they announced the book. If people want to pick fights, they will, regardless of anything she or BB do.

I mean, even AFTER the book is written, I am quite sure there will be a bunch of naysayers. Look at Nessian--it's been years, but people are saying that they have a fake bond and she belongs with Eris and Cassian will die. So I mean, you can't cure stupid sometimes.

As for her popularity--yeah, it's a weird gamble they are taking. Not sure what the deal is. Unless we are for some super major shock that no one expects and it will blow all of our minds, I don't know why certain things about the book cannot be shared.

At the same time, I think being in the fandom warps our perception. It's important to remember that. BB is a company with lots of moving parts--do they really care that some fans on Reddit or IG want to know who the next FMC will be? I doubt it. I think the way they see it, they delivered a book this year, only 5 months ago and like, what else do you want?! We aren't going to get books and announcements every 2 months. I think in their minds, there is no pressure.

[tildeathiwillwrite]

Storms I love when a bunch of little things going wrong gang up on me and ruin my evening

First it's like okay my calves are sore af from yesterday so it's unpleasant to walk up slopes and stairs

And then I fuck up the bread I made for the halloween party today where it didn't rise properly so the texture is weird

and then we get to said party on time but everyone else is like an hour late

and normally i love hanging out with this group of people they're my irl friends i love them but the vibes were off tonight idk what it was

and then I agree to play ghosts in the graveyard with them and nearly sprain my ankle round 1 and in round 2 i fall off a slope which i did not know was there until i fell down it onto fucking concrete

so then i'm in more pain so i just quit (the tears are already there the pain wasn't even that bad but idkkkkk)

(it was like 3 feet. I didn't fall that far and i scraped the side of my hand and landed on my hip and thigh. nothing was broken, i wasn't bleeding, that pain was gone in like ten minutes but some bruising might be there tomorrow)

then more people get there even later and it's fine for a while but then i start thinking of leaving bc it's getting late and the person i carpooled with has to get up for work tomorrow

i'm having a really fun conversation with this one person who came later and then a couple of the initial group joins us and is like hey we're gonna play mafia wanna join?

and i'm like we should leave soon but we can do one round

so i get up to go but??? no one else moves??? and then I go to where mafia is gonna be and there's one other person and nobody else comes for like five minutes

finally they show up but they're all chatty and i gently suggest mafia several times

every time i am ignored by everyone except the person i carpooled with

either that or nobody heard me but stilllllll

and nobody else even brings up mafia until fifteen minutes later when i finally am like okay we literally gotta go

proceed to be all noooo let's play now

seriously it's a 45 minute drive home for me and another 30 for my carpool buddy we gotta GO

and i feel kinda bad bc i was seriously at the end of my rope by then but i was definitely a lot ruder than i should have been

i probably should apologize but rn i'm still too upset to even think about it without tears welling up so i might just wait and see if anyone reaches out first until i've gotten over it enough to formulate a genuine apology

seriously i love these people but idkkkkk what was going on

honestly at the end of the day it's probably spiritual warfare so i should probably do something about that but anioveiomvaoemviaomviomavoembiambioemb

thank God for my carpool buddy who recognized that i was getting upset and had my back for getting us to actually leave

[horrorfolk]

i think my life would be better if I didn't mind they/them being used on me but it quite honestly feels like an insult sometimes when people assume those are my pronouns or they think I look weird and androgynous so they default to those. I know I am weird and androgynous but it's just annoying to have to be like no I'm just.. a man. when I have put so much effort into passing and going stealth. and for sure even tho I'm just a man I have some weird nonbinary feelings as well. bc I'm trans and being "binary trans" doesn't mean u don't have a complicated relationship with gender or experience a bit of gender queerness. I mean I identified and lived as a lesbian for several years of my life so ofc a part of that is ingrained in me. idk, I kind of wish more people would look at gender as something you do rather than something you innately are. I don't think I innately am anything. I think I used to live as a girl and now I live as a man. maybe that makes me nonbinary or maybe that just makes me a normal person. idk. a lot of the trans narratives that have been popularized by the media are just so unrelatable to me I almost don't consider myself the same thing as them. I don't think I transitioned bc I was a boy born into a girl's body I think I transitioned bc I'd just rather live as a man and so I am. of course I also have debilitating dysphoria but yk. I don't think I was "born this way" and I didn't show any signs as a child or even give my gender a second thought until I was older. I got a taste of female puberty and was like nah I'd rather opt out of this whole woman thing. so I did. and now I'm a man. it's that simple to me idk.

but yeah if I liked he/they I think it would make my life better bc then I wouldn't be like. dysphoric and offended when ppl would default to they for me simply bc I have green hair. I don't even dress femininely almost ever it's just the hair I think lmao. or bc my name is gender neutral. I guess I am androgynous in the face also. I do not have a chiseled jawline although I do have a mustache and it is pretty dark now. idkkkkk man

I've lived so many lives already in just this one that idk how to classify myself anymore. I've been every letter of the LGBT and dated/fucked someone of every gender and sexuality lmao. but I still think it's kinda annoying when ppl deny my masculinity or maleness upon seeing me and default to they/them when I Try So Hard to pass. obviously it's not their fault, they've been told it's rude to assume anyone's pronouns and I am fully self aware of the way I look and come off. I almost feel like I can't even correct people when they call me they bc I know they're just trying to be.. nice or something. like how would I even go about correcting that, "thanks for the consideration but I am in fact just a man" ???

I think in terms of gender identity I can get behind the vibes of he/they being used for me in theory, but in practice it makes me feel like a freak. it's like a glaring neon sign that's like, you look WEIRD and idk what you are bc you're WEIRD. I know this shit wouldn't happen if I was cis and presented exactly the same as I do now. I feel extremely vulnerable and almost outed when people call me they. like it tells everyone in the room that I'm Different. and despite the fact I dye my hair crazy colors and have 7 facial piercings and stretched ears I actually do not want to stick out. I just love the alternative look. but I don't want attention drawn to me. I don't want people to look at or talk to me. it's a struggle I've had my entire life. id much rather blend in than stand out but literally everybody knows who I am and my name bc I just have an appearance that is so jarring. ugh.

I even had my instructor for some reason "correct" himself on my pronouns, he literally got it right the first time then went "er, they-" like ??? come on man. when have I ever told anyone I want to go by they here??? is the mustache not enough?? do I have to grow out my patchy ass stubble as well??? for a split second sometimes I think about going by he/they and then I am called they in real life and cringe so hard. rahhh.

[moedollita]

idk what i want and it kinda scares me . i want to feel something else but like the only other feelings im capable of experiencing are bad and will make me suffer . i cant cope with anything well when i feel like shit i just fall into things i shouldnt do just for thr quick dopamine so i can distract myself and not think . if it were a year ago i could distract nyself by binge eating but i cant even do that now because i'd feel like shit afterwards . binge eating was honestly my only effective coping mechanism . i could just go home and eat something and i wouldnt have to think about anything in particular . i feel like im constantly dissociating at school and when im not dissociating i jusf feel like shit . literally the only things i enjoy are the things that temporarily take away my ability to just think about shit

i think i might have both bpd and avpd or anxious avoidant personality attachment style whatever . they conflict with eachother and it constantly feels like im in a limbo and that i never feel happy with what i have . im horribly lonely when im alone abd i just want someone to talk to but when i have someone im suffering so hard and im ao paranoid and i dont know if they love me wnough and i just want them to leave me alone because they make me feel so bad . i feel like im just not built for friendships at all , i dont think friendships contain a strong enough connection for me to ever feel truly safe with them . i feel like most people just seek out friendships so they can get emotionally jerked off and not actually want to have genuine conversations or connectuons with the other person , i probably do that too . ive only ever had one friendship that didnt turn out like shit and we're still very surface level with eachother wmotionally i feel weird even telling her thag i like girls . i dont understand how other people can have friends that genuinely like them . i need someone who loves me and i need someone to love , i need someone to have an actual feeling of romantic love towards me like i do towards them not just ' like ' . and i dont think im fucking entitled or selfish for wanting that btw or that i need to hit my ugw before i deserve that . im so sixk of people telling me that they ' like ' me and then not wanting to actually fucking listen to me or do shit with me . i srsly dont understand how people tell me they like me and not want to do anything with me . like ok so you dont want to call . you dont want to hang out . you dont even want to play a game with me well what is the fucking point lol . and im not an ai bot you can just ignore and then feed your journal entry of a message into so i can generate some sort of response ACTUALLY FUCKING TALK TO ME holy shit . if you dont like me you can just leave and buy a diary because i guarantee if you start pulling that bullshit on me i seriously will not care enough to continue the friendship jdjdjcidnbdiiwncjeiwkvnjdkdm hekdkvidifjhelwkfkkfkekfkvkkkfffjdjdjdoeofjeiwkdcnjsjaksncjdjwkdkjdjejd is there anyone in this world that actually cares for other people im so sick of people manipulatinf me / not caring about me / being an asshole to me / wanting ro ruin me or just getting close cuz they want to fuck me omg kys kus kys kys kys it feels like thats all what anyone wants . its so hard to make friends . maybe i should turn full NEET and sever contacrs with everyone cuz it feels like everyone inherently hates or wants ti manipulate eachother . BUT IM SO FUCKING OINELY AND I WANT TO TALK TO PEOPLE ifigjjejwwowfkjgkdovkfisisidkfjjssikchcjdjskicjvididjvjfjdjjcicjdfjfjcjjdidifnfjdifjvjdjdjcicidkdbfjcidkjdifjfjfjdjdjfjfjsjdkfnncjfjfnddfjfidnndhfjcjdndncjcjjsndncjdjjdjfbcbdjjdjfncncjdjdjsoaidhfjcidksjgfjcjwbufkdjsijfndichsjdgwbajhxbckfiriwikcjcjeicjnfnefjf i dont even mnow if anything j say is actually true . indont know if people stop caring about me or if im the one who leaves . idkkkkk idkkkkkkkkkkkk i wish j was an adult so i could just drive somewhere like to the store and just chill instead of writing some gay ass blog post the morning before school this is so stupiddddd bye bc i literwlly have nothing wrong with me im just hotwiring my brain to think i have bpd and avpd im just a pathetic eprson

[wygolvillage]

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[dittolicous]

genuinely getting sick of submas sexyman/bald combo joke posts becuz i already hated sexyman jokes cuz it always feels like when girls really like characters ohoohoo look at these dumb girls taking this average looking character and making HAWT CONTENT for them, so hilarious! =\ meanwhile no one bats an eye male gaze favorites

and now they're combining it with jokes about people finding bald Ingo weird like LOL THEIR SEXYMAN IS BAAALD which is soooo unfunny bcuz 1) being bald ain't a flaw, you can be bald and hot as hell so why exactly is that funny? and 2) completely misses the point that the vast majority of us arent upset about his hair but the idea that he's been freaking separated from his family, friends, and home for over a decade

plus idk but the longer fans have time to build headcanon and ideas and share them throughout their community, the more ingrained it becomes into the content. this isn't just PLA fans, we're talking submas fans who have been around for 12 years. that's 12 years of fanon build up with little canon information to work on. OF COURSE being given canon that shakes that up hardcore would be shocking

idkkkkk I just wanna make silly train men post without being hit in the face with poorly executed 'jokes' (srsly consider what ur jokes imply when done at a large scale)

bluh sorry just got off my Easter shift and it was hellllll I'm so tired n grumpy

[subtextread]

I’m in the middle of a Golden Deer playthrough of FE3H and here are my random thoughts

- I thought I would miss the Black Eagles, but I’m enjoying getting to know the members of this house!

- HILDA I LOVE YOU. I love all of them, but a girl who goes “ugh do i have to get all sweaty and gross” and then mows down everyone in her path with an axe is not a trope i am immune to lol and it’s really well-executed because she is just so tanky

- i love playing with raphael! i didn’t super enjoy using caspar as a brawler, so this feels new to me.

- byleth is my only swordsperson so i started using catherine too but idkkkkk she’s great and all but idk

- this is me and his battalion when claude got to that class where he counters by shooting an arrow upside down:

- i was like yes i will endgame seteth finally but timeskip claude my beloved. maybe i’ll save seteth for uhhhh dimitri’s house. blue lions?

- i feel like i should use this opportunity to see rhea’s supports but it feels fucking weird lol - trying to pretend everything is new and i know nothing like the blank slate byleth issssss haha. except i tried too hard and picked an answer that had sothis get mad inexplicably so my bad there. we’re mostly just having a lot of tea times lol

- I definitely should’ve always played on hard mode - i am enjoying the slower pace and strategy more. I think I can handle maddening next but idk that last battle was rough even on normal lol

- all of marianne’s support convos are soooo nice - just a bunch of friends caring about her!!!!! lovely. I’m trying to use her as my main healer but i did recruit Linhardt like right away because I just love that dude lol. He’s just hanging out as an adjutant doing nothing right now lol but his support convos with marianne!!!!!! so sweet

- it’s just kinda cool having a distance-heavy crew with lots of mages and archers. I think claude being an archer is the biggest shift in this playthrough because black eagles was a lot of byleth and edelgard at the front and ferdinand moving around. I recruited ferdinand too, but he’s not incorporating very well yet, so i might bench him. I was just so used to using him so much last time. sylvain was my dark knight last time so maybe i’ll swap him in. honestly, ideally, I don’t even want to use any of the black eagles yet just so i can get to know the golden deer house better but there was already an additional deployment slot (maybe because of my ng+ professor level?) so i just put ferdinand in there. maybe i’ll try cyril or something but i feel weird about this entire child 😭 oh i just checked and he’s only one year younger than sithy. okkkkk lol

[dracosaurusrex]

The Unraveling

Part 2 to Notebook!

Summary: Where house rivalry begins to crumble and attraction begins to bloom

Pairing: Draco Malfoy x Gryffindor!reader

A/N: I just want to say thank you so much to all those who’ve shown support for the notebook! I didn’t really expect much from it, but it makes me so happy to know that it was enjoyable :) It seems that there will be another part to this, so I’ll definitely be brainstorming. Hopefully this one is just as good as the first. Once again, feedback is very much appreciated!

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Prior to meeting you, Draco only knew you by face--small glimpses of your face, that is. Your name had been thrown around here and there, but it was never enough to conjure any thought or interest within him. You were merely another student at Hogwarts who so happened to be in Gryffindor. Nothing more, nothing less. It was never in his mind that he’d ever become so intrigued by your presence, making the boy recall the first assignment you’d ever work on together.

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The duration of your transfiguration class was coming to a close, and by now everyone was chattering amongst their friends, allowing the information that had been taught to slip away. McGonagall drew their attention once more for a final announcement.

“Before you leave today, I will be partnering you up for a group assignment: An essay on vanishing charms. Please listen for your names! Once I call you, you may go!”

The professor was going through her list swiftly. You faced Ginny in hopes that you’d be paired up with her, however that was dashed when McGonagall associated her name with Seamus’s. A frown was plastered on your face, ‘Damn. Who could my partner be?’

“Draco Malfoy, you’ll be working with Y/N Y/L/N.” You immediately felt your mood fall even more. With disappointment, you slung your bag over your shoulder, stood up, and took a brief glance at your partner before making your way to the door. You didn’t know what to expect out of this experience. You were aware of the boy through the eyes of your friends, but you never actually engaged with him before. Because of this, your first impression of him leaned towards the more negative side.

You weren’t thinking about anything except getting to your next class until you heard a shout, “Y/L/N! Library! Lunch!” Turning to the boy, you signalled an “ok” and gave a forced smile before walking away again. Draco stared at your figure as it grew further and further away down the hallway.

“Blaise, do you know anything about Y/L/N? She has quite the attitude doesn’t she?” He asked, slightly annoyed with your nonchalant behavior.

“Oh her? Pretty sure she’s friends with Potter and his bunch. Also known for being bloody good in transfiguration and DADA within our year. What’s it to you?” 

Draco shrugged, “Never heard of her before. We’re paired for this essay.”

“Are you bothered that she's not giving you much attention as her other friends?” Blaise retorted while Draco scowled in response.

“I’ve got to be really desperate to want attention from someone like her.” 

He made his way to his own class with Blaise following him shortly. He was confused by how indifferent you were to his presence. If you were really a part of the Gryffindor bunch, then surely you would have the same views as them when it came to him...right? Deciding to assume so, he continued on with his day without giving it too much thought.

You were released from your class a little earlier before lunch started, so you made your way to the library, hoping to get started right away on the research. Once you got there, you were met with an empty hall and the scent of old books--a comforting scent, really. 

You weaved your way through countless shelves until you found yourself in the reference section. With your focus concentrated on your essay topic, you selected books you thought would be useful. Unknowingly, you’ve begun to accumulate a stack of books, so much so that you weren’t aware of the presence of a particular platinum-haired boy. 

Draco cleared his throat, “You really think we’re going to need all that?” The suddenness of the occasion made you jump and stumble backwards as you held your hand over your chest.

“Merlin, Draco! Give me a warning, won’t you?” You closed your eyes. You were so startled at the moment that you didn’t realize how easy it was for you to say his name. You made a mental note to watch yourself more carefully. To your surprise, however, the boy let out a light chuckle (oddly enough, he liked the way it sounded from you). When you looked up at him, you couldn’t help but notice how warm he looked. It was different from his usual demeanor, but you welcomed it, giving a slight smile.

“Well we can’t get any work done if you plan to keep sitting there, Y/L/N” Scratch that. There he was.

“Well maybe if you helped me carry these books instead of standing there, we’d get to a table faster.” You said sarcastically. You handed him two of the texts and stood up with the rest. It didn’t occur to you how close he was until your eyes were met with his due to the small proximity. ‘Silver, how pretty’. The both of you felt a weird heat flush against your cheeks, a slight skip in heartbeat, and a certain difference in the air around you. To abolish the awkwardness you cleared your throat and apologized, starting to look for a table that was available. You settled for one that was near the window. The sunlight that shined through it looked really beautiful from afar.

Without any hesitation, the two of you settled. Draco sat himself in the seat next to yours, while placing the books in the space in front of him. You imitated his actions and went to work right away. Once you opened the covers, you were absorbed into your own world. With a piece of parchment resting beside you, you took your quill and began taking your notes on pieces of information that you felt were important. You were so concentrated that you didn’t notice the gaze that the boy had fixed on you.

Draco had only known you through brief passings in the hallways. He’d known you as a classmate, as a Gryffindor. But today--with the way the sunlight was casted on your hair and facial features--this was the first time he actually noticed you. The sight of your focused expression was enhanced by the way the sun illuminated your cheeks, how it graced your eyelids, even the way it softly landed on your lips. You looked ethereal, beautiful, far beyond than he expected. That moment was only for his eyes. He took a mental picture of it.

He also took notice of the way your hair was falling in front of you. He then mindlessly reached out to you and tucked the strand of hair behind your ear, making your eyes go wide. A blush threatened to spread across your cheeks again. 

It took Draco a second before realizing what he had just done. Keeping in mind his reputation, he straightened up, struggling to string words together.

“Don’t get me wrong Y/L/N. That random strand was itching to be pulled back.” He turned his attention to the book in front of him. 

“Ah...thanks. I guess.” Your hand gripped your quill a little tighter as you tried to process what the heck just happened as well as why you were getting so impacted by his actions. Both of your hearts were pounding now. 

Perhaps it was because of the fact that the way he acted just now didn’t seem like the same person who would mercilessly bully others, let alone your friends. No. Instead, he was warm, and it shocked you. You definitely did not expect this from him. In fact, you wanted to question why he was acting like this, but you knew that deep in your heart you actually liked it yourself. Coming to the conclusion that the question was just a waste of energy, you shoved it in the back of your mind.

A few more minutes of writing had passed, and you took a look at the parchment, proud of the progress you’ve made so far. Out of nowhere, your stomach let out a huge growl, inducing a smirk coming from Draco. 

“It seems that someone’s hungry.”

“Well what do you expect? It’s lunch and I haven’t eaten all day. I was kind of looking forward to the menu today, y’know?” You cradled your stomach, trying to shush it from making any more noise. The way your lips formed into a pout made the boy’s heart flip. He thought to himself, ‘What the hell is going on with me?’

Suddenly remembering the cookie he snagged from breakfast that morning, he took out the small form of sustenance and chucked it to you.

“There. Hope you like chocolate chip.” This topped it for you. You were practically stunned by how sweet this boy was at this very moment.

Without thinking you asked him anyway, “Why are you being so nice to me? I’m not really familiar to this side of you.” 

He glanced at you and plainly stated, “You’re weird that’s why.” 

‘Well gee, thanks.’ You thought. You rolled your eyes and smiled at his kind gestures. It was awkward and clumsy, but it slowly untangled the first impressions you had of the boy. You decided to tease him because of this.

“Draco Malfoy, soft? I’m not used to it, but I think it suits you.” You said smiling at him. It was different from the forced smile you gave earlier. He never would admit it, but at that instance he felt the desire to keep that smile in his life. 

“Don’t get too used to it, Gryffindork.”

“You have my word, Slytherin.” You raised your right hand before unwrapping the cookie and breaking it in half. “Here, you must’ve been waiting to eat it.” You said, offering his piece to him. He took it with a small smile, and you two basked in the moment.

There was a first for everything, and without giving the scene any more thought, the both of you had begun noticing one another from that point on.

part 1

A/N: So, what’d you think?? My goal for this chapter was to portray Draco in a way that was slightly closer to his portrayal in the movie. I personally feel like if he wants to show kindness then he would. Maybe not in the way that is typical, but rather in his own Draco kind of way. IDKKKKK aha. Well I hope you enjoyed!

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How old were you when you had your first crush? The first crush I had that wasn’t a celebrity or a teacher was when I was 12. If you're a girl, how old were you when you started your period? It was a month after I turned 10. By that time I was just entering Grade 4 and when we were asked who had already gotten theirs, only a handful of hands shot up haha. I was an early bird for sure. What is your worst period story? Pretty obvious TMI warning here. Happened last December. I was visiting a photo studio to test if they were going to be suitable for my college batch’s grad shoot and unfortunately my period started in the middle of the trip. Even more unfortunately the trip was all the way in fucking BINANGONAN, which meant I couldn’t have access to napkins for the entire drive. I had to cross my legs real tight to avoid any leakage but at the time we got to the studio, my crotch area was soaked nonetheless. I had to ask for napkins from the studio staff, but thank god they were the nicest people ever and didn’t hesitate to hand me one. Does anyone else know who your first crush was besides you? Gabie knows. I think she’s the only one who knows, but I also think Pia asked me at one point too, so maybe her as well. What was your most embarrassing moment? I have at least one everyday.

What are your worst cramps like? Leg cramps that wake me up at 4 AM, without a doubt. Those always end me in tears no matter how old I am. What is the most physically painful thing you have ever experienced? Either my foot infection back in ‘09 or the toothache I had a few months back. I had no idea a TOOTH could send me crying almost every night or wake me up in the middle of the night just from being so painful. Oh and the time I ripped my ear piercing off. What are you allergic to? I’m not allergic to anything... at least I haven’t encountered anything I turned out to be allergic to. Have you ever wanted to be someone else? I’ve never seriously wanted to be a particular person, but I’ve found myself fantasizing about if I were richer. Have you ever been jealous of someone? Sure. Have you ever been jealous of a friend? Yeah. Just mostly high school stuff though, like the time Erk kept getting Gabie away from me and I got super fed up about it at one point that I stopped talking to Gab for like a month lmao. Do you feel shy around someone when you are first getting to know them? Yeah of course. Aren’t most of us? Do you feel shy around a crush? I get both shy and distant. What color hair did your first crush have? Black. Do you ever cry in public unwillingly, or are you able to hold it in? I’m able to hold it in because I hate making a scene. I just keep swallowing the lump in my throat and try to blink less. Do you throw up involuntarily when you have to, or can you swallow it down? I also can swallow it down as long as I have to. But if I really need to throw up I run to the nearest toilet. What's one near-embarrassing moment you had? Uhh idk. If I can tell something is going to be embarrassing I usually already feel pretty embarrassed about it, regardless if I’m saved from the embarrassment or not. Do you ever call yourself stupid? Yeah. Just yesterday BoJack Horseman’s “You’re a stupid piece of shit" kept replaying in my head all afternoon and evening. What was the name of your first imaginary friend? Katrina. She was my first and last. What's one weird habit you have? When I get my usual drink at Starbucks, my first sip has to be a long one and I usually savor it by closing my eyes and letting out a contented sigh haha. Only then can I start working.  Are you more of an open or a private person? I’m a bit of both, if that makes sense? I keep my shit private when they aren’t being raised, but when someone asks me about them I have no problem being an open book. Do you wish you could be more open with others? No, I already am. Do you feel ashamed? Not permanently lmao, but I feel it every now and then. Do you get embarrassed easily? Yes. Do you have regrets? Some. Have you ever fallen asleep in class? Never. I feel like – aside from being disrespectful – it’s an embarrassing thing to happen, especially if you’re caught and get scolded for it, so I make it a point not to let it happen to me. What was the hardest thing you've ever had to forgive? [Big trigger warning: Domestic violence] The day my grandpa said sorry to each of us in the family for beating up my baby cousin in a drunken stupor. After that he left the house for the week, presumably out of shame, then he came back to ask for forgiveness from each of us. I was desensitized to all of the violence I’ve seen at that point, so my 9 year old self gave him a shrug. Is there anyone you hate? No, not hate. Is there anything or anyone you're angry at, that you haven't forgiven yet? I don’t plan on forgiving my deadbeat uncle or my brother anytime soon. List five of your biggest bullies. A lot of people bullied me for my name and looks when I was younger, but they’re all irrelevant in my life now and I’ve forgotten all of them save for two – Kaira (who’s my friend now) and Sophia (who I don’t like just as much as when I was 4). Have you ever plotted revenge against someone? I’ve fantasized about revenge but never plotted anything. Have you ever done anything to get revenge against someone? Nope. ^If so, do you regret it, and did you apologize later? Have you ever had a friend crush (i.e., you really wanted to be their friend)? Yeah I remember being like this with Macy. She’s changed quite a bit these days and we don’t talk anymore, which I find sad considering what we’ve gone through in the last couple of years. What is the greatest longing of your heart? Money. The rest of my desires - happiness, contentment, the material things I want - comes after I have money lol. Who was your first love? Gabie. What was the last thing someone said that warmed your heart? Chesca said something very sweet to me and it was something I needed to hear, but explaining it would need too much background context so suffice it to say, she reassured me when I needed it most. Do you pray regularly? Nope. ^If so, to whom? Do you love Jesus? What church do you go to? I’m not religious but my mom is, and she drags the entire family to church every Sunday. That said we go to a specific parish within our area, because that’s what we’re a part of. What denomination is your church (if you go)? Catholic. What was the first year you voted in a presidential election? 2016. How old were you when the year changed to 2000? At exactly January 1? I was a year old, but I was turning 2 that year. Have you ever been afraid of the world ending? Not really, but it certainly has felt like the end of the world these days. This is the kind of shit you only ever get to read about in textbooks, so it’s feeling a little surreal. Do you enjoy public speaking? If I’m prepared for it and/or I enjoy what it is I have to talk about. What food makes you gag? Pineapple, raisins, or ice cream with nuts. Who was your first celebrity crush? Ashley Tisdale when she was Maddie in Suite Life of Zack & Cody. I also lowkey liked the mom, hahaha. What show did you want to be on when you were younger? Hi-5 when I was extremely younger; the kiddie crowds looked so lit 😩 Hahaha but when I got a bit older, I wanted to be in Legends of the Hidden Temple or be one of the people splashed with slime at the Nickelodeon Kids’ Choice Awards. Looking at my answer I could now tell I was definitely a Nickelodeon kid. What was your childhood dream? To be an astronaut, to be a wrestler, and to have a big house with a swimming pool. Did you ever fulfill your childhood dream? I have 0/3 achieved, but it’s okay. My wants have mostly changed. What is your dream now? I still want a big house with a pool for sure lmao, but I mostly just dream of having enough money all my life and never having to worry about finances or having to ask people. What is your passion? History has always been my biggest one. Are you living your dream? Not yet. Do you receive insults or compliments more? Compliments, but that’s because I don’t let myself thrive in an environment where I’d get insults more because yanno, self-care? Lol. What is unfair about your life? Bad past presidents and how it’s led our country to be in the miserable state it’s in today, whereas I have to see other countries flourish in their unbelievably competent governments and see how these countries have public parks, libraries, playgrounds, etc. I don’t know what I did in my past life to have to end up in the Philippines hahahahaha, but here we are today. What about your life would you change? I wish my dog can stay with me forever. Did you write love poems when you were younger? Nope. Who are you jealous of and why? I’m not really feeling jealousy at the moment. When someone hurts you, do you start to feel jealous of them? No? Why would that happen? Name five people you know who have everything handed to them. Idkkkkk. I don’t wanna namedrop anyone for something like this lol. Name one person you know who is spoiled rotten. Boomers? Name one person you know who seems stuck-up. I know someone but I’m not naming him on here lmao. Name a church that just wants money. All of them? LOL at least all the Catholic ones, I can’t speak for the other denominations. What is your least favorite chore? I really hate folding clothes. Have you ever had an account of yours hacked? Yeah but like by a virus or something, not a person. Have you ever been a victim of police misconduct? Nah. But traffic enforcers have been incredibly rude to me before. Do you keep a diary? This one. What color is the diary you are currently using? It doesn’t really come with a color... Do you actually write "Dear Diary"? Only in the diaries I kept as a kid, because it’s what I saw in cartoons. When was the last time you wrote and sent someone a letter? December. I included a handwritten letter in my Christmas gifts for Gab. Do you write in cursive or print more? Print. Have you ever self-harmed? Duh.

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21 Questions

I was tagged by @goodtobealunatic - thanks darling ♥

1. Nickname(s): None, mostly. My housemate Emily likes to call me “hun” but that has nothing to do with my name haha

2. Zodiac Sign: Leo

3. Height: 173 cm

4. Hogwarts House: Proud to be a Hufflepuff (according to Pottermore and I do feel it describes me perfectly) 

5. Last thing I googled: Let me check... it was the exact meaning of the phrase “to speak out of turn” 

6. Favorite musicians/artists: Oh dear. Those “favourite [insert thing] questions” make me really anxious because I am not one of those people who can name favourites... I either honestly don’t have a favourite because I never thought much about it or because I like so many things or because the minute someone asks the question, I forget everything I have ever watched, read or listened to... uh... let me think... this is in no particular order... Radiohead, Evanescence, Simon & Garfunkel, Guns’n’Roses, Aerosmith, Hans Zimmer, Blackmore’s Night, fun., Erutan,... lots more probably. I don’t really listen to music by artist/band. Mostly, I just listen to whatever inspires me or whatever I find that I like at the moment...

7. Song stuck in my head: For days it’s been “Hasa Diga Eebowai” from The Book of Mormon because I recently went to see it in London and I loved it! 

8. Following: 225

9. Followers: 86

10. Do you get asks: Barely, but please feel free to ask me anything! ♥

11. Amount of sleep you typically get: Depends on what is currently happening in my life. At the moment, I have nothing to really get up for, so I sleep way too much and way too long. I don’t even know how long.

12. Lucky number: 7, as I have three of them in my date of birth :)

13. What’re you wearing rn: A random musical shirt, joggers and comfy socks with Satan on them hahaha

14. Dream job: Writer-Director. I would love to write and direct my own films one day.

15. Dream trip: Inter-rail across Europe. 

16. Instrument(s): I used to play the flute and the piano but I cannot play either anymore. Now my instrument is my voice. I sing instead.

17. Language(s): English and German, both fluent.

18. Favorite book(s): Another favourites question. Asdfghjkl Idk really? “Wicked” has always been among my favourites and so has “Rebecca”, recently I also really enjoyed “A Gentleman’s Guide to Vice and Virtue”. I will also always love Roald Dahl’s “The Witches”.

19. Favorite song(s): Idkkkkk

20. Random fact: I used to run around the garden/my room, telling stories to myself and doing all the voices of all the different characters. And I found out in an interview that David Tennant used to do that too and it makes me feel oddly proud and not so alone with my weirdness in this world.

21. Aesthetic(s): Flowers, vintage interior design, also abandoned/broken buildings, the eerie beauty of decay, nature (mainly forests and cornfields), also anything gothic (clothing, architecture), candles, the colours pink and mint green, vintage bikes, records... so many things!

Tagging: @joi-in-the-tardis @julibellule @intergalactic-garbage @wordstothewisereaders @notquitefurioso @ironically-uncool and anyone else who fancies doing this :)

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was freddie mercury not bi tho?

I think trying to discuss this is rly tricky and it’s hard trying to talk about it without like idk overstepping boundaries or trying to confine someone into one particular box when they arent here to speak for themselves. That being said lmao I mean…..no…. I think it’s a bit naive to call a man bisexual because they had a relationship with a woman in the early 1970s and then only ever slept with and had relationships with men after that. Like Freddie and Mary’s relationship ended essentially bc Freddie was sleeping with and dating men whilst they were together, he came out to Mary and she supported and stuck by him and they remained friends but he never pined after her and it makes me mad that bohrap implied that he did. If you read anything written by any of Freddie’s close friends they say time and time again that Mary became sort of like a sister to Freddie and he gave her a job and a flat and they supported and confided in eachother but there was never any weird jealousy or pining from Freddie in regards to Mary. Imo it’s very obvious that they dated at a time where he was coming to terms with his sexuality and figuring himself out whilst there was so much societal pressure to be straight and to have relationships with women. Like i think ppl really forget this was the 70′s and Freddie was also trying to make it an industry that was wildly homophobic and remained homophobic throughout his entire life and career. There’s an off record quote from an interview in 1987 where he’s asked about his relationship w Jim hutton and Freddie says ‘we have to be careful about this… put it this way, I’m so happy with the person I’m living with at the moment’ to which the interviewer says ‘are you happy for me to say thats a male relationship?’ and Freddie says ‘no you mustnt say that. just relationship.’ Like he was verryyy aware that although he could get away with being camp and toying w the idea of presenting himself as not being straight, at the end of the day if he were to be upfront and outright about having relationships with men it could have ruined his career. Goin back 2 my original point lmao there are loads and loads of books interviews n quotes out there that come from Freddie’s family, friends and himself describing him as gay and not being interested in sleeping w or dating women, his friend thor Arnold who he spent like 11 years with has said that Freddie ‘loved being gay’ and that he’d never seen him ‘look twice’ at a woman the way he did with men. Peter freestone his personal assistant and best friend wrote an indepth memoir about their years together and spoke in detail about the men that Freddie had relationships w over the years but never mentioned or implied him having any kind of sexual or romantic relationships w women. His bandmates, his friends, Jim, Mary, his parents, his sister and Freddie himself all refer to him as a gay man..  A direct quote from him is ‘I’m gay, Mary was my last woman’ and ofc the famous ‘I’m gay as a daffodil my dear’ quote. Likeeee idk I just think it doesn’t reflect who Freddie was properly to call him bisexual when it’s pretty clear that he wasn’t interested in having sexual relationships with women. I think its damaging to imply that if a man has had a relationship with a woman in the past then that means he can’t be gay and must be bisexual. Idkkkkk like I completely understand bi ppl wanting representation and I also understand that the 70s/80s were a very different time and that bisexual was a relatively new and misunderstood term and ppl didn’t talk about sexuality w the same understanding and nuance that they do now. I get that it would have been easier and more simple for those who knew him to refer to him as gay like an umbrella term, but I think when u combine that w the context of him just.......not having sexual relationships w women then I don’t see why it should be something thats so heavily disputed. At the end of the day I feel like Freddie wd prob be rolling his eyes reading all this #discourse bc he prolly didn’t a give a fuck and just did whatever he wanted to do and was completely himself and just lived his life in the way he wanted to do to the best of his abilities

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99 Question Tag

okay okay I know i got tagged to do this like a month ago on my main blog by @santonicababy iM SORRY LIN ILY BUT THIS WAS SO DAMN LONG

1) DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR CLOSET DOORS OPEN OR CLOSED

I sleep in the room where everybodies closets are and they all gotta be closed goddamn do you know how spooky it is to even have one open during the night

2) DO YOU TAKE THE SHAMPOOS AND CONDITIONER BOTTLES FROM HOTELS

my parents do, but alas I don't use them in case they have silicones or sulphates in them because I got a whole lotta curls to protect

3)DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR SHEETS TUCKED IN OR OUT?

if this refers to the sheet protecting the mattress, then my answer is in because how the fuck would you be able to sleep with that moving around???

4) HAVE YOU STOLEN A STREET SIGN BEFORE

NO SORRY IM BORING

5)DO YOU LIKE TO USE POST IT NOTES

heck yeah, but for random shit

6) DO YOU EVER CUT OUT COUPONS BUT THEN NEVER USE THEM

nee my parents are fancy fuckers who use the coupons on their phone (our local supermarket has a damn app skskksksk)

7) WOULD YOU RATHER BE ATTACKED BY A BIG BEAR OR A SWARM OF BEES

a bear because its one giant son of a bitch and not millions of tiny motherfuckers and also I've never been stung by a bee and intend to keep it that way because majority of my family seem to be allergic

8) DO YOU HAVE FRECKLES

nope! I have a couple beauty spots on my hands and face but thats kinda it

9) DO YOU ALWAYS SMILE FOR PICTURES

not really but if I've been told to smile then its 200% dead inside

10) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE

i find many things annoying

11)DO YOU EVER COUNT YOUR STEPS WHEN YOU WALK

only when i go up and down stairs, but i also try to make sure i step with each foot equally (if that makes sense) and i step on only certain colour tiles when im bored

12) HAVE YOU EVER PEED IN THE WOODS

the real question is have i ever been in the woods? both answers are no

13) HAVE YOU EVER POOPED IN THE WOODS

refer to question 12

14)ummmm idk what this question is meant to be curse you Lin

15)DO YOU CHEW YOUR PENS AND PENCILS

nope, the idea weirds me out

16) HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU SLEPT WITH THIS WEEK

none, this week and in general

17) WHAT SIZE IS YOUR BED

one person and a long yet smol doggo size

18) WHAT IS YOUR SONG OF THE WEEK

Eddie from the Rocky Horror Picture Show has been stuck in my head for the whole week so yeah i guess that

19)IS IT OKAY FOR GUYS TO WEAR PINK

HeLL YEAH DUDE HAVE YOU SEEN RAMI MALEK IN PINK

SKSKSKSKS END MY LIFE

but yeah, anyone can wear anything they want to wear (although a suit made out of meat might not be wise)

20) DO YOU STILL WATCH CARTOONS

dudeeeee scooby doo and tom and jerry are my jam I watch them on the regular (among other things)

21)WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVOURITE MOVIE

uhhm idkkkkk I tend to repress bad movies sksksk

22)WHERE WOULD YOU BURY HIDDEN TREASURE IF YOU HAD SOME

idk shove it in the closet ig at least it will be hidden behind my sexuality

23)WHAT DO YOU DRINK WITH DINNER

I usually only drink before or after but ig water??? cooldrink if I'm in a restaurant

24)WHAT DO YOU DIP A CHICKEN NUGGET IN

depends on the nug

25)WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE FOOD

How dare you assume i only have one favourite

tbh it depends cos i love pizza and pasta and stuff but then i cannot live with my granny's curries ksksmks

26) WHAT MOVIES COULD YOU WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND STILL LOVE

borhap, sing street, rhps, the natm movies, the harry potter movies, any mcu movies

27)LAST PERSON YOU KISSED/KISSED YOU

ahhahahahahahha bold of you to assume anyone wants to do that

28) WERE YOU EVER A BOY/GIRL SCOUT

nope but I was a catrobat which is basically my preschools acrobatics team that was actually really terrible

29)WOULD YOU EVER STRIP OR POSE NUDE IN A MAGAZINE

nahh m8

30) WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A LETTER TO SOMEONE ON PAPER

this week for a transactional task at school (It was in Afrikaans and I got a C skskskks)

31)CAN YOU CHANGE THE OIL IN A CAR

omg no

32)EVER GOTTEN A SPEEDING TICKET

not old enough to drive!

33)EVER RAN OUT OF GAS

my parents never have for as long as i can remember

34)WHATS YOUR FAVOURITE KINDA SANDWHICH

cheese because I am actually John Deacon

35)BEST THING TO EAT FOR BREAKFAST

MUFFINS!!!!

36)WHAT IS YOUR USUAL BEDTIME

school nights its 11pm otherwise i dont have one lol

37)ARE YOU LAZY

YES BUT MY LAZINESS MAKES ME ANXIOUS OOF

38)WHEN YOU WERE A KID WHAT DID YOU DRESS UP AS FOR HALLOWEEN

we dont celebrate that here but i rly want to it seems fun!

39)WHAT IS YOUR CHINESE ASTROLOGICAL SIGN

Ram, which is really cool because im an Aries, so I'm sheep squared

40)HOW MANY LANGUAGES CAN YOU SPEAK

English, Afrikaans (at a basic highschool level), I could speak very vERY basic isiZulu when I was younger but I'm not sure about now, I know a bit of French and Telugu, and I'm gonna start learning Hindi soon!!

41) DO YOU HAVE ANY MAGAZINE SUBSCRIPTIONS

nee

42) WHICH ARE BETTER, LEGOS OR LINCOLN LOGS

i didn't play much with legos and i have no idea what the second one is rip

43)ARE YOU STUBBORN

to an extent

44)WHO IS BETTER, LENO OR LETTERMAN

I kept reading Leno as Lenin ffs

45)EVER WATCH SOAP OPERAS

I watch them occasionally with my granny, but I don't keep up with them very well (Kasamh Se is my shit tho)

46)ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS

no, im afraid of falling in general tho

47) DO YOU SING IN THE CAR

My dad and I bop frequently to Never Gonna Give You Up in the car, and also classic bollywood songs (we have even learnt the choreography for some)

48)DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER

i perform

49) DO YOU DANCE IN THE CAR

well theres not exactly much space

50)EVER USED A GUN

nope

51)LAST TIME YOU GOT A PORTRAIT TAKEN BY A PHOTOGRAPHER

not sure

52)DO YOU THINK MUSICALS ARE CHEESY

most are but thats why i like them

53) IS CHRISTMAS STRESSFUL

we don't celebrate because we're not Christian (we still eat a lot and exchange presents tho), but it can get stressful if we have to visit extended family, mostly because my extended family loves to insult everything about me so thats great!

54)EVER EAT A PIEROGI

not i good sir

55) FAVOURITE TYPE OF FRUIT PIE

never had one, it doesnt appeal to me

56) OCCUPATIONS YOU WANTED TO BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID

a vet

57)DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS

i am a ghost

58)EVER HAD A DEJA-VU FEELING

not that i remember

59)DO YOU TAKE A VITAMIN DAILY

yes, I take a multi vitamin, a vitamin D pill because I'm vitamin D deficient, and im not sure if this is a vitamin or not but i take evening primrose oil so that im not outwardly a bitch due to pms

60)DO YOU WEAR SLIPPERS

i wear slipper socks, because my doggo got jealous of my doggie slippers and murdered them in cold blood

61)DO YOU WEAR A BATH ROBE

i have one and rarely use it because i forget it exists

62)WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED

a random shirt and pants, though ive been known to kick pants off (ive been doing that since birth), occasionally i manage to get the matching pj set

63)WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CONCERT

ive unfortunately never been to a concert before

64)WALMART TARGET OR KMART

ive never seen any of these stores in my country

65)NIKE OR ADIDAS

i own neither

66) CHEETOS OR FRITOS

neither

67)PEANUTS OR SUNFLOWER SEEDS

Peanuts because thats my doggos name!

68) EVER HEARD OF THE GROUP TRES BIEN

no sorry

69)EVER TAKE DANCE LESSONS

i went to a bhangra class for about a year, and we performed for our parents at the end of that year (i was in one of the few groups that didnt have to dance in lehengas thank goodness)

70)IS THERE A PROFESSION YOU PICTURE

YOUR FUTURE SPOUSE DOING

probably something creative, but I don't mind as long as they're happy with what they're doing and its not harming others!

71)CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE

yep

72)EVER WON A SPELLING BEE

never entered one, having to spell out loud makes me anxious

73)HAVE YOU EVER CRIED BECAUSE YOU WERE SO HAPPY

i think so

74)OWN ANY RECORD ALBUMS

nope

75)OWN A RECORD PLAYER

i wish

76)DO YOU REGULARLY BURN INCENSE

my granny burns incense while I'm at school because my mom and i both get really sick when its just been lit and the smell is strong. Going to the temple is a damn nightmare because of it

77)EVER BEEN IN LOVE

no, too busy fangirling

78)WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE IN CONCERT

oof a long list

Queen, Twenty One Pilots, Waterparks, Frank Iero and the Future Violents (ffs fronk stop changin the name), Panic! at the Disco...to name a few

79)WHAT WAS THE LAST CONCERT YOU SAW

refer to question 63

80)HOT TEA OR COLD TEA

both

81)TEA OR COFFEE

coffee

82)SUGAR COOKIES OR SNICKERDOODLES

sugar cookies

83)CAN YOU SWIM WELL

i wouldn't drown, but im no professional either

84)CAN YOU HOLD YOUR BREATH WITHOUT HOLDING YOUR NOSE

im doing it right now

85)ARE YOU PATIENT

eh

86)DJ OR BAND AT A WEDDING

I've only ever been to Hindi,Tamil and Telugu weddings and lemme tell you 90% of the time bands flop at those weddings because they can't sing the classics without failing miserably, so DJs are generally better. However, in that case, if a band can perform those songs, then I'd prefer a band ig

87)EVER WON A CONTEST

yep, a couple of reading contests

88)HAVE YOU EVER HAD PLASTIC SURGERY

nope, not planning on it

89)WHICH ARE BETTER, BLACK OR GREEN OLIVES

dont like olives rip

90)CAN YOU KNIT OR CROCHET

i can knit!

in fact, my friends and i are so cool that we're in our schools knitting club (which besides myself, @grandfunnyemopainter and @imjustabruh , only has 2 other members)

91)BEST ROOM FOR A FIREPLACE

lounge or study/library

92)DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED

i guess, its not on my goal list tho

93)IF MARRIED, HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN MARRIED

no

94)WHO WAS YOUR HIGHSCHOOL CRUSH

currently in highschool, and in love with the borhap cast, sebastian stan, stephanie beatriz and band members (theres more but yeah)

95)DO YOU CRY AND THROW A FIT UNTIL YOU GET YOUR OWN WAY

nope, i have only two ways to deal, be a total pushover or a total bitch

96)DO YOU HAVE KIDS

nope

97)DO YOU WANT KIDS

kind of undecided, but i do want more pets

98)WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOUR

Dark Blue

99)DO YOU MISS ANYONE RIGHT NOW

my dog, shes been ignoring me for about four hours now because I stayed at school for an extra hour (for knitting club!)

@softspaceboibrian @roger-taylor-owns-my-wigg @im-inlovewithmycar do it cowards

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Welcome to the 99

oh hey it’s the YA/B99 crossover that I was up til 1 AM talking about with @jewishsuperfam. I want to Write this but also feel like if I post it on here I will Trick my brain into thinking it’s not a real fic.

Which it isn’t since I can’t promise updates or a hard and fast timeline just know that I have Too Many Ideas about it

this is dedicated to Stephanie Beatriz who dressed up as America Chavez for Halloween, what a Gift

this takes place in like....idkkkkk season two????

It’a a Monday morning briefing which means that the only person even remotely paying attention is Santiago.

Captain Holt saying the phrase “pilot program” perks up a few ears and the word “Avengers” has everyone straightening in their seats, even Rosa, who goes from her typical relaxed feet-on-the-table position to feet-flat-on-the-floor-let’s-get-ready-to-fight in a matter of seconds. It might be noteworthy except for the fact that Captain Holt is saying that they’re going to get to work with freakin’ Avengers. 

“Oh my god,” Jake hisses to Boyle. “I think Rosa was an Avenger. Look how freaked out she got.”

“Peralta,” Holt says in the tone he reserves solely for Jake. “Is there something you’d like to add?”

“Uh. No sir. Just that I’m suuuuper excited!”

Holt gives him a Look before turning to the rest of the detectives. “As I said, this is a pilot program, spearheaded by Captain Steve Rogers to try and foster feelings of safety and trust between civilians and the superpowered community. The group we will be working with isn’t as high profile as the Avengers, nor will they be here all the time--though I believe Detective Boyle and Sergeant Jeffords have worked with at least one of their number on occasion--ah, here they are!”

They are a handful of people who all appear to be in their mid to late twenties. Three of them are still wearing their sunglasses inside and they honestly look more like a group of people who partied too hard over the weekend and are still hungover.

“Coffee,” the woman at the front of the pack croaks. “I need coffee.”

She looks familiar but Jake can’t place her. She is elbowed by a guy with dark floppy hair that is equally familiar and unplaceable.

She clears her throat and strides to the front of the room, hand outstretched. “You must be Captain Holt. It’s nice to finally meet you.” Now that she isn’t croaking for coffee like some sort of hungover monster, she sounds a lot like...a hungover monster who needs coffee. “Sorry we’re late. We just got off of a flight from--” Dark FloppyHair elbows her in the back and she continues with “destinations unknown. It was a red eye.” She looks like she’s thinking very hard about taking off her sunglasses before deciding against it. “We were called in to...engage a hostile...and this individual had a sonic weapon.”

This gets her a lot of blank stares.

“Look, it was a weird weapon and a lot of us look like we got hit by trucks. That had arms. That held baseball bats, that they then used to beat us with.”

She pulls off her sunglasses with what looks like a lot of effort, prompting a disgusted, pained “ew” from the collective 99. 

“Hit by a car that had arms that beat you isn’t how I would have described anything but somehow, it is a perfect description,” Jake admits once she puts on her sunglasses again. “Hit by a bloodshot machine would have worked too, I think.”

“Oh nice!” 

Holt clears his throat. “Ah. Yes. Why don’t you introduce yourselves?”

“Right! Well, I’m Hawkeye,” the woman says, gesturing with the cup of coffee Dark FloppyHair got her. “This is Wiccan--” (”Wiccan,” Jake scoffs to Charles. “His name is Dark FloppyHair.”) “--the guy with the white hair is Speed, like the drug--(”Thanks, Hawkeye, exactly what I wanted you to say in a room full of cops.”)--the big guy is Hulkling, no relation, and the tiny pocket person who is...sitting on that man’s shoulder...is Stature,” she finishes with a sigh.

“You can’t call me a pocket person, I’m not even wearing the suit!” Stature takes offense, even though she is a super teeny blonde lady who has somehow seated herself on the Sarge’s shoulder, Gina looking on with envy.

Hawkeye decides to ignore this remark. “This isn’t all of us, it’s like...half of us? But we won’t all be working with you at the same time, and this is the group that will probably be here the most.”

Her red-rimmed eyes are invisible behind her mirrored purple sunglasses but Jake thinks she’s staring at Rosa, who shifts in her chair. Almost like she’s nervous which is impossible because Rosa doesn’t get nervous. Rosa doesn’t even sweat.

“Thank you...Hawkeye,” Holt nods and gestures towards a chair. She sits and leans back, putting her feet up on the table just like Rosa does.

Jake smacks Charles in the arm. “Look!”

“As I said, I am Captain Holt. The man Stature is sitting on is Sergeant Terry Jeffords. Detectives Scully and Hitchcock are....nevermind. And we have Detectives Amy Santiago, Charles Boyle, Jake Peralta, and Rosa Diaz.”

Hawkeye and Rosa are definitely having a stare-off. 

“Detective Diaz?” Hawkeye finally says. 

“Yes, do you know her?” Holt asks.

“Never met her.”