#idkkkk just feeling some type of way?

[youjustwaitsunshine]

random pic for tag diary (made these from kneadable eraser)

[rexscanonwife]

And by the way just to add some like...angst to my sea beast s/i I guess 😂 I was thinking about the research I did into old selkie folk tales and how they typically tend to go and how it applies to my s/i with Batterbie stealing her coat.

1. She did it when she was still just a child and had lost her whole family, so she probably holds that over her head by saying she's lucky to have had a place to stay and food to eat at ALL and 2. That she could have it...a LOT worse 😬

[mangoposts]

y'all ever wonder if matt, nick, or chris have ever been horny? idk its just for some reason they dont seem like the type but for some reason realistically it feels like they dont, but ik everyone gets horny and its normal but IDKKKK I CANT EXPLAIN ITTT 😭😭

also how do you think they would be when their horny? like do you think one of them watches porn? or do you think they get off or whatever 💗

Oh trust me, these men have been horny PLENTY of times LMFAOO They’re young men and it’s apart of life so yanno it’s chill

For Nick, i think he tries his best to ignore it at first. Nick doesn’t strike me as the type of person to get turned on very easily so when he does he’s a little annoyed at the fact he has to take care of it 😭. He definitely would prefer to get off later at night before bed when he’s comfortable and already kind of tired, he ALSO strikes me as the type to watch clips of porn on social media the way some of us do 😭 Like on twitter. I feel like it doesn’t take him very long to cum, he just gets off to release tension and relax more, once he does he’s out like a light

For Matt, he’s somewhat similar to nick, he likes getting off to release stress and help him relax. DEFINITELY gets off in the shower or right after one. Getting off is veryyy important to Matt i think, he likes to take his time with it and actually enjoy himself instead of quickly getting rid of the feeling the way Nick might. He’s very imaginative for sure, very desperate too, so i don’t see him watching porn all that often unless he really has time on his hands. Once he’s the slightest bit horny he’s all fidgety until he’s able to be alone and then he just really indulges in it. I could see it being self care for him 😭

For Chris, the second he’s horny he is taking care of it. Unlike Nick, He strikes me as the type to get horny from the smallest things like a sexual post on instagram or seeing someone he likes in something sexy. He’d get straight up irritated if he’s not able to be alone to finish himself off for a second 😭 He’s very classic, hand him a bottle of lotion, some tissues and pornhub he’s good to go. He’s like Matt where he likes to take his time with himself, but if he’s reallyyy turned on he’ll make himself cum as quick as possible while watching something

[pongnosis]

ponggggggg bestie do you think yassen names his guns. DO YOU THINK ROSS NAMES HIS KNIVES. i think yassen would be a little averse to the whole naming thing considering hunter told him not to refer to his victims by names because it made them human. i feel like he would internalize that and think of his guns as mere weapons, as convenience, as tools and nothing more but still i'm sort of curious because some part of me also thinks he could name them. idk. he was petty enough to become an assassin just to spite him and the fact that he has a fav gun??? [it was a beretta right?] but this is also somewhat a useful tip. idkkkk im sleepy and feeling rambly and im making it your problem. also i bet gordon gives them the goofiest or the most poetic names. no in between. man's got a sense of humour but also has that shitton of history ping-ponging [heh] around in his head. anyways i think i'll go & try to catch some sleep. byeee <3

I think the only sentimental thing Yassen might have is the Fer de Lance, and that's one hundred percent headcanon, given that she might as well be a charter (or SCORPIA-owned) based on the information we got on her in Eagle Strike (look, I like ships, don't ship-shame!). I just really like the idea of Yassen having one thing that is his, and the unwelcoming looks of her, the tinted glass in the windows, and the name all seem like something he'd like. Everything else, especially his weapons, I think he has a very pragmatic approach to. They're something to be used and discarded if necessary, chosen based on the needs of the operation, and little else.

… except the Grach. I HAVE OPINIONS ON THIS ONE.

So. SO. Eagle Strike, page 49 in my version (Walker Books 2015 edition, from the box set, so who knows what the line originally said, but I've only ever seen the Grach referenced in fandom): "The gun was a Grach MP-443, black, with a short muzzle and a ribbed stock. It was Russian, of course, new army issue."

This is yet another enty in "Why Timelines Are, Like, Vibes Man", the ongoing saga by Ahorz.

The Grach MP-443 (wiki link) was developed in the nineties but didn't enter service until 2003, and while it was adopted as the standard sidearm, this did by no means happen immediately. It took YEARS for mass production to really start. For years after, there were - and still are - other Russian guns that were in far more common use and much easier to get a hold of for Yassen, who would presumably want to replace his gun fairly regularly to avoid inconvenient evidence.

Ignoring the timeline issue of exactly what year the books are set in (and whether the Grach was even in actual production by then), it seems like a very deliberate choice by Yassen. The Grach is not the best gun out there. It's not the most reliable, not the easiest one to find, not the most common (and more anonymous). It was, however, the new standard sidearm for the Russian military - the country that took everything from Yassen - and going out of his way to choose a weapon that most of the Russian military still hadn't been issued, one after the other to discard of when they became evidence, seems just like the sort of deliberately petty move he would like. A subtle 'fuck you' to his former home.

ALSO. I agree, Ross absolutely names his favourite knives. He'll rant about the bad ones if you get him going, but his favourite, most perfect knives, those get the adoring names. He's so the type to have an original V-42 stiletto in beautiful condition that he's named Rose.

[lipslover]

rafe x barry (longggg) head-canons !!

barry often online orders fast food for dinner, which is most of the time some sort pizza. similar to the olive theory, this could be called the pepperoni theory.. rafe loves pepperoni, but barry claims he “hates it”. he picks his off and gives them to rafe, always. little to rafes knowledge; barry does indeed like pepperoni, he just enjoys rafes amusement a little more.

rafe has a hand kink. during sex he practically begs barry to wrap his hands around his throat, to let him suck on his fingers, to grasp at his hair, etc.. barry didn’t notice this, however, for the longest time. though when he did, he made sure he got his use out of it.

rafe and barry have very much different music tastes. rafe is more into stuff like the neighborhood or arctic monkeys, meanwhile barry is into tyler the creator or eminem; so when driving to any given location you could imagine the yelps.

at night when barry is trying to sleep in the comfort of his bed, rafe blurts out the most absurd things from beside him. stupid things like would you still love me if i was a caterpillar or do you ever think about the side effects of cocaine. its something that barry love/hates about their relationship; the way rafes brain works, the way barry can almost hear the gears in rafes head shifting.

rafe is always taking pictures of barry, mainly when hes not looking. he has an online photo album just for pictures of his lover. whether barrys back is turned or not, rafe obsesses over the pictures and looks over them every now and then (which is more often than not).

they have really stupid arguments that last weeks, stuff like who would survive underwater longer or who loves the other one more. rafe is always the one to ask the silly questions, yet barry is always the one to get the last word in.

rafe rants about whatever or whoever for as long as barry lets him, before cutting him off of course. barry often wonders how anyone could talk so much without running out of air. he just sits there and smiles stupidly while rafe talks about wanting to murder ward, or sarah, or rose, or topper, or kelce, or anyone that has wronged him in the past 24 hours; and barry just sits and listens.

barry is the first to get up in the morning, and can surprisingly cook (to a limit of four things). most mornings its eggs and toast, as it is arguably the easiest breakfast to make. rafe wakes up soon after, once he no longer feels barrys warmth, and crawls out to the kitchen. he makes noise purposely, to not startle barry, as his back is turned towards him. he hugs him from the waist behind and nuzzles his nose into barrys neck, while placing small kisses. ‘mornin’ country club.’

the first person to suspect that rafe and barry were anything BUT drug dealer and drug buyer, was jj. his father dragged him to barrys shitty trailer to buy the usuals. though when they walked in, rafe was following barry around the place like a puppy dog, talking about nonsense, when barry clearing was not paying attention. to jj it seemed as if rafe was.. more softer? more happy maybe. but what he knew was he had to text the P4L group chat about this asap. (this hc was inspired by a prompt wrote by hartigays. i really like this idea and may or may not make a little one-shot type of thing out of it..)

i might make a part two of this tomorrow idkkkk

[snowyroads]

Baby mama I got another random thought for you!! Ok so like what about fake dating prank for Joe’Marr? I have two ideas:

a) Joe decides to be mischievous and pranks their friend group from the team by acting like him and Tee (I just think their friendship is sweet) have been dating cause he wants to see if his friends believe them. And Tee gets into it like A LOT. Like the way he treats Joe and the shit he’s gonna say is gonna have you kicking your feet and blushing and probably make you want him ngl). Ja’Marr gets BIG mad cause he either 1) confided in tee about his feelings for Joe or 2) he doesn’t even know his feelings he just doesn’t like that his best friend didn’t tell him he was gay and dating their other friend (I like this one better lol and it would be unreasonable and they would fight like psychically and it would be funny)

b) Joe and Ja’Marr decide to prank their friends (and low key the media team cause Joe HATES their asses) by acting like they’re dating but none of the players notice cause they low key thought they were dating since LSU and they believe them but it spreads and freaks out the cheerleaders and the janitors and the MEDIA TEAM and eventually the front office freaks out BIG TIME but it was just a prank bro 🤣 (more feelings realization type shit like a)

and then I thought about something where Ja’Marr is on twitch and Joe happens to come over but he doesn’t realize Ja’Marr is on twitch and Ja’Marr forgets too cause it’s Joe and he deserves all the attention 😌. Soooooooo someone might accidentally say some out of pocket shit (honestly it would be Ja’Marr but make it insane out of context lol) and the chat clips it and it goes trending on twitter which could lead to some other interesting plot line that I haven’t thought through yet but I was hoping you could help me or just figure it out lol cause you’re so amazing😁

That’s literally it. That’s the ask. I’m not good at writing fanfic but you are so that’s my idea vomit for today love 😘🤣

omg baby, your brain is just soooo beautiful!!!!🥹🥹💗💗💗

literally love every single idea!!!! I LOVE A GOOD FAKE DATING TROPE 🤭🤭🤭 i LOVE the addition of Tee too because honestly all three of them like!????

and for the streaming one (im thinking some dirty thoughts…🌚) as in one of them says some outta pocket shit, that makes the other horny and Ja’marr ends stream early and sex in the gaming chair😼 ORRRR we do a real risqué one and have Joe underneath Ja’marr’s desk as he streams and yk…😼😼 and maybe he’s on a call w Tee and he’s like “wtf???” so Ja’marr HAS TO stay quiet 😵‍💫IDKKKK😭😭

but these ideas are AMAZING!!!💗💗💗💗 TYSM my love!!!🥹🥹🥹💗💗

[katyaromanoffpetrova]

Ok so in your AU world, if there was a plot about school, who would the women be stereotyped as? I love to read stories where Nat is the stoner or the captain of the team but I feel like Kat is wayyy to quicker to be the nerd type idkkkk probably just nat’s favourite lil cheerleader on the side line like YUP THAT’S MY GIRLFRIEND GUYS

Or they’re both the captain of their own different schools teams and it’s enemies to lovers🤩

Sooooo I maaayyy have started that story once 😁 I had this high school AU in my head and I just wrote down some small scenes from it, but never fully committed because I lost interest.

Basically, Nat was the popular cool girl. Head cheerleader, obviously gorgeous, boys chasing her everywhere she went. And Kat was the new girl who just moved from Russia. She was shy, "nerdy", and just very... normal. Not fitting in, not standing out.

And in this story, Kat has a family secret. Her family didn't randomly move from Russia to the US. They fled. And as the story would progress, and Nat and Kat got closer, Nat would find out that secret the hard way.

But I stopped writing it bc I realized I could satiate my high school/college ideas by writing about Maya :)

[sourwower]

hi, why do you hc langa as black? no hate to your art btw its amazing and i love the star theme 🌹

i didnt even know i had gotten this i am so sorry 😭😭😭😭😭 and this is such a beautiful wonderful question…

idk honestly i just see most of my favorite characters as black but when i start thinking deeply about why i hc both of them as such it kinda makes me emotional but it might sound weird forgive me for the incoming word vomit

langa being black without anything about his character being changed is just so genius when you think about it. growing up and being friends with different black boys, you can notice a common denominator is that theyre emotionally suppressed in some way lol. so seeing langa in this way where his emotions get to be thoroughly explored, ADDITIONALLY about the feelings for another guy possibly just kinda touches my heart idkkkk :,) langa is monotone but still so expressive, funny, adored, cool, sensitive, soft, caring, selfish, and trying to figure out himself and the bonds he has between his passion/his friends. i feel like there isnt a black character quite like him, so i just made him black LOL. long story short applying an intersection between my life, his blackness and queerness just makes me so happy.

i feel like its hard for a black character to exist in shows and NOT follow the same archetype or personality type. its like this overlaying blanket stopping most of them from being a /person/ outside of being black (in the generational trauma kinda way). but then also if theyre queer they arent allowed to be queer in a black way ? 🤦🏽‍♀️??? or if they look cool theyre usually a side-sideSIDEEEE character. i dont know guys… maybe im crazy. but its so refreshing to see my faves fit my vision while just still being themself. black characters can be anything and anyone and also still be black. it brings this type of representation to the people i love most in this world

Theres a plethora of other reasons too like i just tend to hc alot of blue characters darkskin (LOL), hes a skater (and gay)and its just cooler if hes black idk 🤷🏽‍♀️….what kickstarted all of this was seeing like 2 black edits/drawings on pinterest and i havent seen anyone else that i dont already know do more since ToT

i wish i couldve explained it better sorry asker but long story short i just feel it in my balls

[montammil]

Disclaimer: I'm not trying to tell you what to do! I just was thinking about this and you from what I have gathered don't mind me blowing up your ask box even with good fucking lord that's a lot of words type of asks.

We got a Marshie drunk 🫗...what about a drunk sad open to vulnerability Nathan 😖 what if his auntie got him tipsy to talk about how his father's been treating him?

(The angry trying to be stoic ones from what I have gathered from my experiences seeing others be the drunk ones, that are the really sad ones.)

And comes to the conclusion that she'll easily manipulate Nathan into accepting his recapture (which kinda works...but obviously he needs a few sessions talks! 🤪👆) #"therapy"

And then she cusses and beats the ever-loving dog shit outta Lawrence but subtly in a way that doesn't prevent him from doing too much. (You mentioned she hates physical violence but that's apparently all he understands.)

Nothing she couldn't have him act as if old age is catching him early!

Idkkkkkkk....feeling like it's a good idea🍶

Auntie wouldn't be allowed to watch him again but what if what if what if...It's her fucking house and she can do whatever in the hell she wantssssss ahhhh, Idk I was just inspired to write it down and share it with you.

Idkkkk ahhh, I was thinking abt. how to get me some Nathan up in my fics & I think I found it

I feel like it's a good idea too!! Charlotte backstabbing Lawrence is something I might write in the future!!

[maknaesdancersrappers]

i had to take a nap bc this chapter actually tired me out and made me feel sick 😭😭😭 YOUR WRITING IS SOOO GOOD like can we just take a sec to praise you? to be able to make your audience feel the same genuine feelings as your character is just mind blowing like you’re really THAT girl 💅🏾👏🏾👏🏾

idkkkk jae is looking v sus i cant deny that but i went through the playlist you put together for devoted and analyzed some of the songs to see if i could come up with a theory and honestly i still don’t think jae is gonna hurt y/n….

hEAR ME OUT !! dr. jeon legit said while y/n is the trigger she’s also the solution and you’ve made it very clear that no matter what jae will never hurt her…at least physically. he’s def done some things he shouldn’t have and i wouldn’t be surprised if the wedding is put on pause but i think they’ll find their way back to each other or some type of understanding like in college.

when y/n was chatting to jae’s mom she said something along the lines of how she’ll stay forever + in an open forum ask she said the only reason she would leave him is if he were to kill someone…which to our knowledge he hasn’t sooooo🤷🏽‍♀️

#teamjae until the end !!!

also got my eyes on kun….one of the songs on the playlist really gave me the vibes he’s still in love with y/n so now he’s on the suspect list for sure bc there’s no way he’s just gonna let her go like that? especially now that she knows the truth + she knows that he technically didn’t leave her willingly…what if he thinks this is his way back into her life?

this fic is just tooooo good and i’m v happy to have you back :) 🫶🏾🫶🏾

girl istg ur one of the best readers to have bc u just deep dive into every fic and dissect everything like i imagine u like this:

AHAHAHAHHAAH

i luv u for it!!!! thank u so much bb and im glad to be back here uwu

[starfxkrinc]

Yeah valid point but I also feel Ike she only name dropped because in all honesty you and Hannah are the main leaders of the convo and she probably just wanted to I guess provide examples

bling anon

i feel like again she coulda did that without naming us examples rlly didnt need to be provided and then pinning the post like idkkkk im allowed to feel some type of way abt that especially since me and hannah are such a minority in this way of viewing their relationship we coulda like. been blocked.

[starsdailyjournal]

Journaling for my mental health as an epic scene girl (not clickbait) Day 1!

Today (sunday) I woke up at like 12:44 am or pm idkkkk but it was when the sun was up and like my dad had asked me to call him and since I have like ptsd I tweaked out but I brushed my teeth first because like I'm trying to get myself into the routine of doing that now. Anyway I called him and he just wanted me to like make my sister breakfast and put the food we made in the fridge but like he rlly freaked me out by just texting me "Call me when you wake up.". And he said he was getting us pizza which is now one of my least favorite things to hear from him (because of the c-a-l-o-r-i-e-s and because I'm really bad at expressing grattitude to him since we are sorta close (he is my bio dad I've known him all my life its complicated). But anyway I made my lil sister (10 yr old nerd) an awesome omelet with mozerela and sausage slices AND a cheese crust idk how to explain it basically I put cheese in a pan after I made the omelet and when it was still melty and not hard I put the omelet I already made on it and the I folded the whole thing when the cheese was cooked!! I bet it was yummy idk tho but anyway after that I scammed someone on adopt me (l-o-l) for like an fr panda, r sloth and nfr or nr hydra they got 20k rh diamonds tho soooo yk its fine!!! I was gonna scam sum more but like I got stuck trying to figure out how to use razer cortex (because royale high is so laggy on this dumb laptop) and I was stuck on that for hours legit untile dinner!! but while I was stuck on that my dad came home and gave me some chocolate which was nice but it also sucked because I CANT express grattitude its rlly hard for me bc I'm too grateful that I feel like if I tried to put into words the gratuity I feel I would spaz. BUT anyway I haven't eaten the chcolate yet (also its dark chocolate and if u dont fw dark chcolate ur ai generated) but I did eat 2 slices of this rlly oily garlic pizza for dinner just now! it was gross and I lowk cant stand that it's in my system (iykyk) but I can't do nun abt it BUT I am starting my fast rn and it should last this whole week!! So that'll make up for this but erm IDK ahhahahaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't like talking abt eating but this is an honest journal... Should I add TWs?? Bc I rlly dont wanna I be sleepy at night which is when I'll be typing these out. Omgeee also like I've wanted to go back to being quarantine level chronically online 4ever now bc I love doing that in the summer but my dad has parental controls on all my stuff (including this laptop) so I cant go on disboard n stuff to find online friends to give me entertainment n stuff!!!!!!!!!!!!! but I FOUND A WAY YALL!! I'm just gonna be ROBLOX chronically online tho I am a robloxian already (since 2018) I want to be one of those ppl who are always on it yk (thats why I was scamming today n trynna unlag royale high) SOOO when I'm not studying I'm gonna be scamming and trading in royale high and adopt me!!! Maybe I'll try n make sum friends but rn I'm focused on the games I'm already planning on getting my dp from starpets n I have a decent halo + ltbs on rh n all my dream stuff besides 1 set n 2 accesories!! so like I'm prettyyy good but I wanna get REALLY good like those ppl who have 5 owls and 8 parrots lolz! And I literally love roblox and everyone who plays it (besides anyone with brainrot humor ironic or unironic idc) everyone else are so cool!!! So like yea and I have 30 dollars that I'm prob gonna use on robux I might try n get headless bc my mom pays me to do computer science courses and my dad pays me half of whatever my mom pays me!! Honestly I feel like journaling is sm fun rn i love talking but nobody ever listens screaming into the cyber void is so fun!!! Also I'm gonna likeeeee eat my chocolate after I shower rn probs and then my fast starts!!! ALSO omg halloween is coming up!! I'm def gonna be a vampire! If anyone enjoyed my journal tell me what your gonna be for halloween!! Omg if my journal/blog gets big I would call the ppl who read it bats!! that would be sosososo cooool ANYWAY FOLLOW ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

[alexxxx-ithymia]

I think I have a crush (and I’m hesitant to call it that because I don’t wanna get my hopes up) and this is the only place I can talk about it because he’s in all of my close friends lists everywhere else

And I still think Vanessa isn’t fully on board with it so I can’t talk to her about it either. I tried the other day and she didn’t seem as interested as she is in anything else I usually share with her. It’s not like he’s a bad guy because she thinks of him like her little brother. I think she’s wary of the fact that I’m such a sensitive, lover girl and he’s had to do a lot of emotional growth over the past couple years and she’s VERY protective of me

But yeah, I think I have a crush on Sam and we’ve been friends for years. Our whole foundation is built on hyping each other up and making each other blush and it’s really cute. We have a very on and off flirtatious type of relationship and we’ve brought up going on a date for years but we live in different states now and he was in a toxic relationship before so it never happened. The other day he told me to let him know when I’d be in nyc again and he’ll clear his schedule for me and omgggg 🥰🥰🥰 That made me feel some type of way (in a good way) So I told him I love a man of his word because he still wants to take me out all these years later and he hearted that message. Another day, I complimented his outfit and he told me to stop rizzing him up and I told him he hasn’t even see me try yet. So he said he’s waiting for it and I told him I can’t have him falling in love over 900 miles away. He hearted the message and said that’s something he would say. And just idkkkk I love this banter and I’m all giggly and I feel like a teenager again

But also, I’m so annoyed because me?? Being all giddy over a man??? Me anticipating a man’s attention??? 🤮

Pero like, I can’t stop thinking about him and the potential this could have when I move to his state. (I’m moving for work, not for him. He’s just a bonus) But again, I don’t wanna get my hopes up because we’re adults and shit happens. Especially because he almost got into a relationship recently but it fell through. I have to keep telling myself to just let things happen and enjoy this for what it is

[solarisrenbeth]

yeah i don’t remember exactly what the other bidder(s) said but it’s smth creepy + more overtly inappropriate/predatory like ‘i want every inch of them too *wink wonk*’ (to which M does have some kind of threatening/possessive response that i don’t remember) but yeah 😬

tbh i think it was a case of m*shka’s [insert sexual innuendo line here] approach to M that seems to come up sometimes—esp in scenario asks or in Big Plot Scenes where LI-dependent responses are sort of frankensteined in to an otherwise fixed scene, if that makes sense

(rambly thoughts under the cut bc this got me on a tangent lol 🙃💃)

like, that entire Big Romantic Public Rescue moment just doesn’t make sense for M the way it does for A or even N, for example. the M romance has such a different vibe from the others so the writing works way way way better in branching scenes that are actually catered to their personality/dynamic (which can obvs be said for all the routes but esp for M i feel like).

idk i understand why it’s necessary to have those types of like. checkpoint (? i can’t find the right word lol) moments in interactive narratives to prevent them from just branching infinitely but i do think there are ways to accomplish that without forcing characters to act ooc just to fit a scene. like, if the scene always needs someone to burst in and pretend to buy the MC as a distraction but it doesn’t make sense for a particular LI, it could be the best friend who bursts in while the LI sneaks around to free the MC or smth. or it’s always A since they’re the leader but it only has the romantic narration/dialogue if you’re on their route.

idkkkk i just feel like it would solve so much of the disjointedness (+ terribly timed jokes/innuendos 💀) in the book if some of these scenes were molded to fit the character(s) rather than forcing a character to fit the scene no matter the context 💆‍♀️

the 'every inch of them' line is the sex slave joke 😬

Lol update: I've apparently misremembered that scene horribly 😅

I interpreted that line as … not that sexual??? Based on the context?? And more like, "I want all of them, the whole package" type thing. But my memory is faulty from going through Book 3 so quickly that it's very likely it was a misinterpretation.

For any anons who were wondering… I guess there's nothing that explicitly says M wants the Detective as his sex slave?? And instead it's kind of inappropriate innuendo??

I have to replay to really be able to comment on it further! Thanks for the heads up though anon. Big yikes!!

[marchiveeee]

Rating the "relationship material" type of MCL's LI: platonic, sexual or romantic (my Candy's version)

Feel free to do yours too, and tell me if you do, I love to read this kind of stuff (I hope you enjoy as well)!!!! If you're asexual, you can just ignore the "sexual" option; and if you're aromantic, you can ignore the romantic. And yes, this is an alternative version of MFK game, but we are not K anyone here, we're making friends!!!

Armin: platonic, but with a sexual twist, I'LL EXPLAIN. I see my Candy and Armin as besties, so they do have some kind of chemistry going on, but most of the times it seems as if she, Alexy and Armin were cousins. Maybe it would get to a sexual "level" if they were both drunk, or wanting to release some stress; I don't imagine it happening often tho..

Castiel: romantic! That's an old one... My Candy and Castiel have a lot in common and the way they built their friendship (IN MY HEADCANON) would've definitely lead to something more. They would be that kind of friends that people look at and say "you two make such a cute couple" (insert tomato Castiel and tomato my-Candy)

Eric: tbh I don't really know him and I don't know the relationship he'd have with my Candy bc I didn't play many episodes after the end of hsl. But from what I know, and from the spoilers I've seen, I don't think they would be close, Eric would be just someone she happens to know bc of a friend. And he's not her type.

Hyun: Oh god, definitely platonic! I see them as really close friends and that's it. They'd love each other as friends.

Kentin: platonic as well. She does think he's cute, and after his whole transformation she definitely thinks he's gotten hot, but the feeling of friendship is still there and I don't see much chemistry going on between them. (He's really hot tho, if I were talking about my terms of relationship material maybe that wouldn't be the case👀. Especially after Alternate Life, I've been interested in "van life" for some years)

Lysander: platonic again. Just like Hyun, my Candy sees Lys as a close friend and would definitely make some effort to keep in touch with him even after hsl BC I believe they have some interesting long conversations with each other. Maybe the fact he's Castiel's best friend influences the "platonic status," but still... I don't see them together. (If it was me tho.... Ok, that's not about me. Moving on)

Nathaniel: that's TOUGH!!!!!! But... In my Candy's pov... Idkkkk, maybe there's some attraction between them but idk if it would get to a friendship with benefits in HSL, probably later on it could happen... And if their "friendship with benefits" goes well, I definitely see them going for a relationship.

Priya: Idk Priya as a love interest very well (for the same reason as Eric), but it wouldn't be hard for them to go to the next level (sexual or romantic). I believe it's just like Nath, but in this case I can see it happening during hsl.

Rayan: Hmm... That's difficult too. I don't see my Candy studying Art History as a major, but I 100% see her as an Art enthusiast. SO... If I were to create a fic on my mind about them, they would probably meet in a museum/gallery/library and exchange numbers and from this it escalates to something else. Maybe they are still professor and student of the same University, but he's not her professor. I will stop here, bc I'm starting to have ideas and this is not the post for an entire fic kkkk IN CONCLUSION: They have the chemistry, but I'm not sure it's enough for my Candy and him to "click" at first.

[neowinestainedress]

MY HEART IS BROKENNNNNNN i dont think ive cried this much over a fic before. Holy fuck. Im- i- im speechless. The fact that even yn's mom and jaemin's mom and their family were so inconsiderate and just thinking abt jaemin, WTF IM SO SAD AND ANGRY LIKE SHUT UPPPP. yn really didnt deserve any of this, at moments when i was reading she gets the flowers like i would've just snapped at jaemin so hard like Idgaf. And honestly he doesn't deserve to be happy with his stupid ass fiance after putting her through that???? like fucking top 10 anime betrayals type shit.

Like he really doesn't deserve to be happy and idk if that's rude to day or whatever but that's how I feel. Like okay idc if he didn't mean to hurt her, but he did, fuck him.

I hope him and his fiance get a divorce and he is miserable forever. JSHDJD TOO MEAN? idk and idc.

AND YN :(((((( </////3 seeing her heal is honestly so hard to even imagine.

In some ways this story kinda reminded me of my situation but uh yeah.

For yn, idk what will happen with her. A happy ending is probably everyone would want, but I don't see it im sorry. i dont think yn gets a happy ending, I think idk......... she might die -? IDK IDKKKK but yeah amazing fic, you fucking annihilated my heart and I cried so much

I WARNED YOU (but still can i mend it with a virtual hug?)

Yeah, I want to fight both families so bad (and you'd be like WHY DO YOU WRITE IT??? because I'm the queen of pain and drama)

And honestly he doesn't deserve to be happy with his stupid ass fiance after putting her through that???? like fucking top 10 anime betrayals type shit.

No he definitely doesn't. It's not even the fact he doesn't love her but it's the way he acted about it. She was betrayed so much they grew up side by side, he knew how she would've taken it and still did it.

Like he really doesn't deserve to be happy and idk if that's rude to day or whatever but that's how I feel. Like okay idc if he didn't mean to hurt her, but he did, fuck him. I hope him and his fiance get a divorce and he is miserable forever. JSHDJD TOO MEAN? idk and idc.

No, no, you're right. I have to say that his 'i didn't mean it' in my mind was mostly like 'oh, we've been friends forever you can't be mad at me, right? you will understand this and forgive me somehow?' once again highlighting how in his mind she was still a best friend.

In some ways this story kinda reminded me of my situation but uh yeah.

every time one of you tells me this it breaks my heart like WHO IS HURTING YALL SO BAD I WILL FIGHT THEM

For yn, idk what will happen with her. A happy ending is probably everyone would want, but I don't see it im sorry. i dont think yn gets a happy ending, I think idk......... she might die -? IDK IDKKKK but yeah amazing fic, you fucking annihilated my heart and I cried so much

Spoiler: in the first draft the car accident was mortal... but then i changed it because i knew that if i killed her yall would've found me and killed me instead.

I answered here how it ends for me but i also get your point of you. she was suicidal, like, no playing around, so i totally understand why you don't see her ever getting up from this situation. For me, the situation gets so bad for her that she has to fight back because seeing everyone else thrive off her pain drives her insane and she's like 'fine, you had your fun, now it's my turn, and I'll get back everything i should've had in the first place.'

Thank you so much for this! I'm glad you enjoyed it even through the pain 💗💗