#idk. thinking out loud here

[maximusboltaqon]

i kinda wish they kept exploring/expanded upon the idea that "madness" ran in the family. FF mentioned that ahura had bad days, and i know there's a few issues that depict bb having something when the tuning fork breaks (though i havent read these so i dont know what exact symptoms hes given)

i kinda wish there was more on agon with it. if illness really does have a genetic link with the boltagons, was he considered "mad" as well? was he able to hide it better? did it have any affect on his decision to expose bb and max to terrigen so early? could he possibly have been trying to prevent them from inheriting it?

some comics say maximus had signs from before bb was even let out. did agon and/or rydna know? did they do anything? oafk makes it seem like he only received any form of support after his parents died (and even that was practically nothing), and many comics don't show him getting any help at all.

was agon just ignoring it? trying to hide it? was it just another thing he told maximus to not speak about? did he receive any (placebo) medication himself?

[mochii-derogatory]

oh bartender! one Stanford era Sam winchester night of self discovery please !!! and yeah sure make it unrecognizable as spn fanart thank you

[xxplastic-cubexx]

was watching apocalypse with my brother and once the cerebro scene popped up he was like 'charles has a helmet like erik, only instead of keeping people out, he tries to reach out and connect with others' like guys i need to bash him with a rock

[giddlygoat]

as much as i want to see fiddleford recover and enter his much-deserved era of good mental and physical health, i also want to see the effects of his head trauma follow him forever. it’s important to me that while he heal and find a level of normalcy and peace, he never return to his old self.

kind of a side bar, but it’s relevant so: i also think there’s something to be said about old man mcgucket’s confidence. boldness? idk how to describe it. i wouldn’t say his paranoid tendencies have vanished, but for the most part he’s. breezier. part of it is the brain damage, and maybe part of it is genuine self-evolution in the right direction. but i think the obsessive mind-wiping just… broke that part of his brain. it’s like he’s no longer affected by fear in the same way. and i hope we see strong traces of that damage until the day he dies.

it’s important to me that fiddleford heal and emerge into self-awareness once more. it’s important to me that ford still look at him as very much the same person, despite all of the damage. but he’s also changed severely and irreversibly. i think of old man mcgucket as a much rawer version of fiddleford in that he holds less reservations and has no filter. he’s healing but he’s also broken, and those scars will forever be visible. and that’s important to me because it also changes ford and fiddleford’s dynamic a lot.

ok one last sidebar, then i’m done. when i say it changes their dynamic i mean it in the way that because fiddleford now wears his heart on his sleeve and ford himself is a bit wiser about relationships, there is less self-sabotaging going on between them. romance or friendship wise. and if nothing else, they both feel they’re getting too old for biting their tongues, so i imagine the discussions of certain difficult topics comes a bit easier now.

like, given that they’ve both made many catastrophically terrible decisions over their lives, they have a better perspective on life in general and have had time to reorient their previously fucked priorities. ford lives with a lot of shame for how he treated stan, dealing with the devil, and bringing about the end times. fiddleford lives with a lot of shame for how he treated emma-may and tate, starting a cult that ruined lives [especially his own], and not to mention the multiple death robot incidents. even though they both had good intentions or else thought their actions were justified at the time [mostly], it all collapsed on their heads because these actions were ridiculously stupid.

i think all of this is part of why the rekindling of their friendship happened so easily. fiddleford is eager to forgive ford and embrace him because he’s learned first-hand what grief and paranoia can drive a person to do, and so he feels the best thing he can do is accept his old friend back into his life, no questions asked. maybe ford will forever think he doesn’t deserve it, but he learns to accept mcgucket’s kindness and tries to learn from it. they’re both healing even if it’ll never be Backupsmore again. it’s still them, despite it all.

[fowlblue]

Thinking about that one reblog earlier and like… I guess I can see the idea of Fowl Senior being this cold and cruel crime lord pre-TAI who never spent real time with Artemis and never made an effort to be a father-

But what I think is more interesting is a Fowl Senior who’s first time meeting Artemis ended up with him weeping over his son because he had no idea how to protect him in such a dangerous world.

[midnightsncupsofcoffee]

sometimes it’s crazy to stomach that simon DID THAT. he got THE crown prince of sweden begging screaming n crying over him just to love him back.

“Are you angry with me?”

“I don’t want you to be angry with me”

“I don’t wanna lose you”

“you r the only one that i feel i can talk to”

“what can i do? please simon”

“august is next in line, i can be free from these n be with you”

Simon wtf man?! what type of black magic did u cast on wilhelm dudeeeeee he even threatened the royal court bc YOU WENT ON A DATE WITH A LOSER THAT WAS NOT HIM (wille here is a loser but a better loser, he is simon’s loser but he would never want ever to lose simon so he tried to be a keeper but oftentimes failed bc he is a loser… skwhksjwjshsjs ignore this) i mean… THE prince of sweden was willingly with all his body and heart gave up the throne for you… like… girl you got some serious game right there!!!

AND AFTER SIMON SAID

“i wanna be with you”

“i love you”

THE prince of sweden literally CAME OUT TO THE WORLD, istg at that time he just didn’t care abt anything anymore, he alr got what he needed which is simon n then just like that

“i was me in the video, it was me and simon. it was a moment that i don’t wnna share with the public, i was scared so i lied”

INSANITY

INSANITY

[useless-englandfacts]

one of the things i find most interesting about the protests in france at the moment is this idea that the british would supposedly never do such a thing, because it makes me think about how different this country might be if we taught history properly.

by which i mean instead of just teaching kids about kings and queens and world war two, we taught them about chartists and suffragettes (and not just the polite, middle-class suffragettes), the peterloo massacre, the poll tax riots, the peasants' revolt, the general strikes of 1842 and 1926, the bristol bus boycott, the brixton uprising... i could go on but you get the picture.

[sarafangirlart]

While Medea kills her children to avenge herself, Danaë raised and protected her child to avenge herself.

[rustedleopard]

It's interesting how much the Undertale Red & Yellow mod plays up Clover's whole "loud and proud cowboy-schtick" when, from what little dialogue you see from them in-game, they seem fairly quiet and don't have any obvious accent

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

Lol my neighbors knocked the power out

They were cutting down a tree and it fell on the lines connecting to their house

Hilariously its the same neighbors that had a tree fall on the lines the last time the power was out

[vigilskeep]

this is just me thinking through my own thoughts and not meant to be any kind of Definitive Take but man from a white perspective i’m not sure there’s any way for me to like usefully engage with the qunari as a concept... to actually in game portray the Other that christian-coded crusades have been led against—the qun literally unambiguously taking the role of islam in medieval europe—as inhuman animalistic and uniquely oppressive is such a hideous medieval perception of the world brought to life. medieval western europeans did believe there were not-quite-humans just off the border of the map, and it led to fucking terrible things. i don’t know how to deal with a fantasy that experiments with beliefs like that as actual in-world truth and always portrays the qun as ultimately antagonistic—sten as a companion who approves of the “evil” choices, hawke killing the arishok as an inevitable part of their “heroic” narrative, the iron bull’s “good” ending where he abandons the qun and is loyal to an andrastian army... i’m not saying there’s never been any nuance to the portrayal but it’s so fundamentally fucked as a basic concept that like i truly cannot figure out how anything redeemable could be made of it without tearing it out and rewriting the whole thing, and i do not have remotely the knowledge and awareness necessary to think of approaching that as a fan. all i really do is wash my hands of it and think very little abt the qunari. the idea that a qunari invasion might be an active plot in da4, played as a threat to our good andrastian thedas, fills me with, well, dread

[bigdumbbambieyes]

when i write, specifically about Billy, it’s not about redemption — it’s about healing, no matter how that looks

it can soft or it can be ugly, whatever he needs

and i believe Steve also needs a lot of healing from what he’s gone through and refuses to talk about (although we all know by now that it’s just bad writing in the show)

and bc they’re written as the ‘same person’, i often find that they balance each other out and it’s so cathartic for me to write them healing both each other and individually, together

and maybe it’s bc of that catharsis that i’m so deeply moved by them as characters and as a ship, bc they can be so real when i write them, in some ways they write themselves and i just get the pleasure of watching it unfold in my brain and down to my fingers on the keyboard 🥹

maybe it’s ‘not that deep’ but it is to me!!

[multi-lefaiye]

i think with all creative skills and hobbies, it's easy to think that you're not improving or not recognize your growth as a creator. when you're continually moving forward, it's hard sometimes to see how far you've come.

which is why i think it's super important to save your past work, even if just for yourself. it's important for other reasons, too, but if you're ever feeling down about what you're doing now... i think it can help to look back at where you were before and put it into perspective.

[g4rvez-r3id]

some of y’all can’t take constructive criticism and it shows 😬

[sendmyresignation]

also. continuing this thinking an hour later. i find it even more baffling because danger days is the period of time where they had arguably the most incisive and leveled questions about the process of making the record, like the nme article was awful but there were much greater opportunities by and large to actually talk about the record as a whole compared to the really paltry parade or revenge era interviews which were only ever insightful despite themselves.

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

HUH.