#idk. idk. hate that im in the i know enough to think this is not that good but not enough to fix it stage of writing lmaooo
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STEPHANIE
Gojo is your physics tutor and you’re sort of in love with him
Textfic, fluff, Highschool!au
(art Creds to @/eldritcheaven on twitter!)
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September 16th
5:38 pm
You: hiyaaa :D
You: is this Gojos number? Shoko says u can tutor me 😙
Gojo: whats the tutoring for
You: uh school?
Gojo: I mean what subject..?
You: OH LMAO
You: physics :((
Gojo: okay
Gojo: who r u again
You: Y/N
Gojo: okay meet me at the library Thursday after school
You: okayyy see u there 😁
September 18th
6:40 pm
You: gojo how am I gonna finish all this work BY MONDAY
Gojo: that’s three days
Gojo: this is easy stuff
You: FOR YOU
You: I have cheerleading until seven tomorrow night and Saturday
Gojo: okay..
Gojo: that’s my problem how?
You: okay just say u hate me
Gojo: I hate you
You: whatever
September 21st
1:06 am
You: IM DONE!
You: r u impressed
Gojo: no
You: wtf
Gojo: bring it to me at lunch so I can grade it
You: okayyyy
You: goodnight 🩷
Seen
September 21st
1:40 pm
You: GOJO WHERE R U
Gojo: in the library
You: why aren’t u in the cafeteria
Gojo: because it’s too noisy
Gojo: I can’t read in there
You: ha ha nerddd
Gojo: shut up and hurry up.
You: Okayyyy okay
You: Can u see me 🤔
Gojo: no the bright orange cheerleading costume is really hard to miss
You: 😒
You: So is the bone white hair and glasses
Gojo: hurry up
September 21st
8:12 pm
Gojo: ur so shit at physics
You: Uhm okay
You: thanks? 😭
Gojo: im sorry that was rude
Gojo: fear not that’s why I’m here
You: okay
Gojo: don’t worry it’s nothing my genius can’t fix
You: try not brag challenge fail
Gojo: you free tomorrow?
You: I should be yeah
Gojo: okay come to the library after school
You: can’t wait… 😔
September 22nd
4:06pm
You: Gojo
You: GOJO
Gojo: you are literally in front of me speak
You: nk the librarian is looking at me 😓
Gojo: okay so what
You: don’t look so annoyed at me
Gojo: im not annoyed at u
You: okay fine
You: do u have a highlighter
Gojo: …
You: DONT ROLL UR EYES AT ME
Gojo: there is LITERALLY ONE RIGHT IN FRONT OF U
You: omg ur first caps lock 🙁🩷 I’m so proud
Gojo: stop laughing
You: I’m sorry u look so angry over a highlighter..
You: and I can see you smiling too 😒
Gojo: shut up.
September 23rd
7:06 pm
You: Nerdjo I have a question
Gojo: never call me that
You: 😒😒okay.. can I ask u a question now
Gojo: if it’s about the work I gave u just wait until Friday
You: UTS NOT
Gojo: oh
Gojo: okay what
You: would you rather only drink water for the rest of ur life or be allowed to drink anything you like but it always has to have a drop of pee in it
Gojo: where is the pee coming from
You: You don’t know..
Gojo: is it healthy pee
Gojo: because if not then idk what’s in it and I could contract a disease like typhoid or smth
Gojo: and also utis and that’s painful enough as is without me drinking to catch it
Gojo: also how much is a drop
Gojo: is it a ratio thing? So every 1% of any drink I drink is pee or is it always a drop
Gojo: because in that case I can just drink a lot of smth and the pee will cancelled out
You: wtf
Gojo: sorry I’m rambling
You: No.. don’t apologise.. U have opened my eyes
You: I never thought of it like that
You: Also do u think it would like make my drink yellow..
You: Cause that’s GEROOSS
You: voice note elapsed: 00:40
Gojo: voice note elapsed 1:02
September 24th
2:06 pm
You: IM SO EMBARASSED
You: Walk of shame to my seat in my cheerleading outfit god TAKE ME
Gojo: ha ha ha
Gojo: don’t be late next time
You: Shut up
You: I hate Yaga and he hates me
Gojo: he loves me
You: yeah cause ur good at physics and I’m poo at it
Gojo: better focus then
You: okay
September 24th
2:20pm
You: Gojo
You: Gojo
You: NERDJO!!
Gojo: stop texting me
You: move u bag from the chair next to u
Gojo: what???
You: MOVE IT
You: I’m coming to sit next to you
Gojo: tf why
You: the guy next to me won’t shut up
You: and I need ur nerd aura to make me smarter
Gojo: ur so stupid
Gojo: hurry up then
You: WOPPEE OMW
September 25th
1:06 am
You: Gojo r u awake
Gojo: we have school tmrw go to sleep
You: U R 😏
Gojo: freak
Gojo: what do u want
You: I’m bored
You: And I’m confused on question three on the history hw 😓
Gojo: okay..
Gojo: ask me tomorrow
You: Or I can call u rn an u can help me..?
Gojo: .
You: PLEEEEAAAAAAAAAAASE 🙏
Gojo: you have ten minutes
You: YAY
Gojo and Y/N
25/9/2024 Time elapsed: 30:07
September 25th
11:05 am
You: GOJOOOO
You: Can I sit with u in econ today 😏
Gojo: what do u need help with now
You: Uhmmm I don’t need help
You: I just wanna sit with u..
Gojo: oh
Gojo: okay
You: YIPPEEEE
September 26th
12:21 pm
Gojo: YOU WATCH ANIME??????
You: WHY R U YELLING 😭😭
You: Yes… it’s my deep dark secret don’t tell anyone 😔
Gojo: okay with the sasuke keyring on ur bag…
You: LOL
You: how did you even see it where r u..
Gojo: stalking you in the corridors watch out
You: Okay Joe from you
Gojo: ur living ur own Netflix series rn 🩷
You: EMOJIS???
You: Who r u and where’s Gojo gone??!?££?
You: Whats ur favourite anime
Gojo: voice note elapsed: 1:34
September 28th
2:06 am
Gojo: do u think time travel is real
Gojo: or like will be real in the future
Gojo: I feel it could be because like we just advance in technology more and more as time goes by
Gojo: like if u said FaceTime would be a think in 1920 they’d probably hang u
Gojo: there was that Stephen hawking thing he did with like the party invite but
Gojo: if I was from the future I wouldn’t time travel just to prove him right like u just have an ego now
Gojo: food for thought 🩷
September 28th
7:21 am
You: SORRY I WAS AT PRAVTISE and U messaged me at like one am?)
You: But I thinking about you the whole time
Gojo: awwwww youre making me blush
You: SHURRUP
You: i was thinking about ur question not u
Gojo: same thing kinda
You: enough
You: voice note elapsed: 00:54
Gojo: girl u r not Snow White dinosaurs will eat u
You: We will find out when I time travel to the Jurassic era and kiss one
September 29th
3:37 PM
Gojo: why do u keep staring at me do ur work
You: Cause i have a question for u but im shy..🥺🥺
Gojo: EW cringe
Gojo: just ask me
You: You keep looking at me with those bombastic blue eyes im nervous
Gojo: ur so dramatic
You: DONT LAUGH AT ME
Gojo: so text me then
You: okay….
You: We have a pep rally soon can u come
Gojo: was that it..
You: YES
Gojo: girl im coming anyway geto is playing
You: UR FRIENDS WITH GETO???
Gojo: hes my best friend
You: Wait thats true ur always together
You: You know allll the girls on my team have a phat crush on him🤧
Gojo: mhm
Gojo: and are you one of those girls?
You: Nah hes not my type
Gojo: and what is ur type
You: Boys with bombastic blue eyes😏
You: R U BLUSHINGGGG
Gojo: shut up and do ur work
September 30th
9:45 pm
Gojo: ar eu home
You: Yeah why..
Gojo: play roblox with me
You: LOL
You: How’d u know im a gaymer..
Gojo: hoe u is not a gaymer
You: HEY
You: ill have u know im plat on overwatch..?
Gojo: wait actually
You: Actually
Gojo: ….
Gojo: HOP ON OW
You: Uhm sorry i cant im doing the hw my annoying tutor sent me
Gojo: im sure ur sexy smoking hot tutor will let u off this time
You: YAY
Gojo and Y/N
30/9/2024 Time elapsed: 3:46:07
October 1st
12:34 pm
Gojo: pep rally in five days
Gojo: r u nervous
You: Gojo texting me in school..?
Gojo: dont change the subject sweetheart
You: POO
You: Im scared yeah
You: I always am before a game tho
You: Like what if my shirt slips when I’m flipping and i flash my bra
Gojo: the game will get ten times better?
You: HEY
Gojo: JOKUNG IM JOKING
You: As an apology take me out for lunch today 😙
Gojo: ugh fine
You: XD
October 2nd:
2:07 pm
You: WHERE R U
You: GOJO
Gojo: me and geto went out for lunch
You: COME BACK NOW
Gojo: are you okay????
You: YES I WANNA GIVE U A HUG AND A KISS
Gojo: are you having a stroke??
You: SHOKO GAVE ME THE KEYRING
You: A LITTLE NARUTO TO MATCH MY SASUKEEE
You: THANK U SM
Gojo: ur welcome
You: 😁😁😁
You: Bring me back a coke
Gojo: ugh fine
Gojo: do i still get that hug and kiss
You: hmmm I’ll see
October 3rd:
10:21 am
You: image attachment
You: LOOK LOOK LOOK
Gojo: WELL DONE
You: A BBBBBB
You: IN PHYSICSS WHO AM I
Gojo: WELL DONE
You: Thanks for the tutoring🤤
Gojo: wait im the goat
You: hoe EYE am the goat..?
Gojo: i guess it was a team effort
You: Yeah duh
Gojo: good job sweetheart
You: 😁😁😁😁
October 3rd:
9:06 pm
You: ik we had plans but let me come home then we can play
You: Practise ran so late sorry pookie
Gojo: wait ur at school rn??
You: Yes….. kms shortly😔
Gojo: how r u getting home?
You: Walking
Gojo: girl..?
You: My parents r working and i cant drive leave me ALONE
Gojo: wait im coming to get u
You: You dont need to do that gojo
Gojo: i do im omw
You: OKay
You: Btw i like ur new glasses
Gojo: u noticed?
Gojo: stop staring at me all the time omg..
You: I cant help it
You: i love u and all four of ur bombastic blue eys
Gojo: not picking u up anymore
You: IM SORRRY🙏🙏🙏🙏
You: PLZ COME MY KNIGHT IN SHINING GLASSES
You: PLEASEEEE
Gojo: ughhh fineee
Gojo: just because u begged so nicely
You: ahahahah SHUT UP
October 3rd
10:15 pm
Gojo: r u home
You: u literally just watched me walk through my door
Gojo: so..
Gojo: what if someone took u from inside
You: Ur right hoe…
Gojo: im always right
You: Yeah yeah freaking nerd
Gojo: dont hate me cause u aint me
Gojo: ima graduate cum laude in the future
You: Why u talkign about cum u freak
Gojo: shut up
You: cum laude more like cum load 🤣🤣
Gojo: i hate u
You: LMAOOO
You: Ik ur laughng rn
You: Call me
Gojo: say please
You: Please call me four eyes🤞
Gojo and Y/N
03/10/2024 Time elapsed: 4:20:07
October 4th
3:47 am
Gojo: omg did I tell you
Gojo: I was reading this essay on behavioural psychology and it was talking about how like the concept of territoriality in humans it’s so interesting
Gojo: it’s related to how primates make their space
Gojo: not like actually of course nobody is peeing anywhere
Gojo: it’s also related to quantum physics in an weird way
Gojo: voice note elapsed: 2:12
October 4th
7:54 am
You: Whatever you say gorgeous 🙏🙏🙏
You: THATS COOL THO A
You: I got like a quarter of what u said but icloveee psychology
You: I wanna study it at university
You: my fav part is attachment and like child development and stuff
You: so ur next rant topic is going to be about that thanks 🩷
Gojo: did u actually listen to all that
Gojo: sorry I get carried away
You: Duh I listened and don’t apologise or ill shoot u
Gojo: thanks 🩷
Gojo: i bought u a coffee
You: YAYY
You: I’ll meet u at the entrance
October 5th
1:07 am
Gojo and Y/N
05/10/2024 Time elapsed: 2:39:07
Gojo: good luck for tomorrow
You: Thank u 😁
You: I’m gonna need it…
Gojo: shut up ur gonna do fine
Gojo: I’ll cheer u on from the stands
You: YAY
October 6th
3:54 pm
Gojo: get off ur phone and lock in
You: I CANT FIND U
Gojo: I’m like the third row from the bottom
Gojo: next to Shoko
You: I SEE U
You: I recognise those bombastic blue eyes anywhere🩷🩷🩷🩷
Gojo: awww is that big smile all for me
You: Shut it
You: Are those big flowers all for me??? 😁
Gojo: no they’re for the huzz
You: What if I kill you?
Gojo: plz don’t
Gojo: they are for u
You: Ur such a nerd
You: Thank u 😏
You: Ur coming to getos after right??
Gojo: yes
You: Good
Gojo: but
You: Butbwhat
Gojo: we could hang out instead
Gojo: just me and you
You: Are u asking me out on a date gojo????
Gojo: yeah kinda
You: I can see u blushing from over here
You: DONT TURN AROUJD
You: Ofc I’d rather hang out with u
You: See u after the rally😙😙😙😙
Gojo: good luck
Gojo: u look pretty in ur uniform
You: Thwnk u 😁😁😁
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NERDJJO ONE CHANCE PLEASEEEE ��🤞🤞😓🥺 these text fics r so fun to write oh my sigma..
guys I know Gojo was kinda mean at first but he thought u were using him for his smarts… also idk I headcanon that he’s not as energetic as he is canonically.. like u think hes always bragging and dry but hes actually just itching to tell u facts about quantum physics
I HOOE U ALL ENJOYED 🩷 as always drop any asks in my inbox !!!!
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Hi!! Your Cherik is so good and gorgeous 🤩🤩 If you don't mind wanna try to draw some Fall of X Cherik please?
thank you so much !!
i have a couple of ideas relating to the fall of x period specifically since theres. A Lot i wanna play with, so i hope this lil thing may be a satisfactory start :]]
and the obligatory bonus:
#xmen#xmen comics#fall of x#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#erik magnus lehnsherr#max eisenhardt#professor x#magneto#snap sketches#for clarity on of this tag ramble im calling magneto max OK ok#sorry it took me a while to answer- ive been busy this week !#but yah like i said theres a lot of Fall Of X moments i wanna poke at#one i really wanted to doodle around was max's time with the shadow king from Resurrection of Magneto#the third issue is prob my fave in general if im so tbh .... but i wont prattle bout that ill go back to my previous prattle#i dont think i have a comic in mind prob just a doodle with shadow charles....#i mean if im devious enough i can def turn it into a comic but for now i just know i wanna do something with that#honestly even this moment i might revisit when i have more time to draw something. a lil better#i dont hate this its a sound start- but i THINK i wanna draw a smooch. a lil kiss. idk we'll see#cause im cheeky like that. 'will this be the last time i see you' 'girl idk we can kiss about it though' etc etc#god not to get off topic but im so curious what will happen with these two ... but thats for a diff post i guess#honestly if you guys have any runs i should read lemme know !! i just finished way of x and bar that ive just been reading the 60s issues#i have a couple on my list i wanna check out but im always excited to look into recs if yall think theyre worth it !!#but ya. thats all from me for now#my time is so finite this week i hope i can draw these sillies again soon .. i have a lot of ideas i fear#maybe i can sneak in one more doodle tonight ... <- doubtful
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mira !!! :]
#isat#in stars and time#isat mirabelle#isat spoilers#<- due to act 3 optional content !#the img might be being chewed due to weird canvas size oops ah well#one of these miras is not like the other#one of these miras doesnt belong ASFASFSDAFA#a majority of these are based on things mentioned / that happen in the house cuz i thought itd be fun to draw :D#so like the wilting plant is from gardening room dialogue#the poster with ppl holding hands and sparkly eyes is (i think??) from some SAPSAPSAAP dialogue in one of the first rooms#i tried looking around ISAT to see if it's also in there too but couldnt find it so uh correct me if im wrong if thats NOT an exclusive LOL#side note the 2 in the poster are some old nuz ocs isatified ASDFASFA#funnily enough tho they are from 2 different games if they actually ever met they would hate each others guts i think. hmm...#however both are also the most qualified to help with promotional stuff so theres that ASDFAFA#mira looking at her bonding proposals is sorta on the tin but#the fact that she has like right next to her while she sleeps in her dresser makes me :(#cuz to me it potrays how much theyve been weighing over her cuz of how close shes been keeping them with her vs putting them on a bookshelf#or something idk if that makes sense i dont have proper words atm#but uhhh moving on chalkboard is from one of the optional events#which i think is! important!!! i dont think ive seen many ppl talk about it but!! yeah!#however i too do not have words on it atm but!!! yeah!!!! moving on for now!#the 'mira' that is really just the change god is ofc from the change god event :]#aaand ofc the iconic finish from mira towards the king#and then some misc miras with swords for funsies tbh ASFAFA#but yeah! i like mira a lot actually but as with many things i do not currently have many words to properly articulate *why*#all i know in my heart of hearts is that she is near and dear and special to me personally#one day. one day i will be able to gather my thoughts in a cohesive manner but that day. is not today!#anyway tag talk over :]
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It's a time-honoured tradition- every time Sam comes across Izzy (and Ed) in their travels, he asks Izzy to marry him. And every time, Izzy turns him down.
At this point, Sam is asking more for the sake of it than any belief Izzy will ever say yes, a remnant of childhood dedication touched with 30 years of heartbreak and regret- though even now, a small part of him still holds out hope. Sam's promises have only got more extravagant over the years, from a job as his first mate, to a captaincy, a fleet at his command, a whole fucking island if that's what Izzy wants- but he knows it isn't though, not really. If Izzy was ever going to agree to marry him, to leave his life and go with Sam, it wouldn't be for anything Sam could offer him. Izzy never did care for flashy shows of wealth, for a ship or to be captain. The only thing that ever mattered to him was loyalty given, and loyalty shown in return.
It all comes to a head after Stede left and came back, after Izzy lost a toe, lost his leg. Sam hasn't seen him since before things with Ed started to really slide off the rails, before stress permanently set into the lines of Izzy’s face. So, when he sees a dishevelled man with a hoof for a leg in a no-name port, he doesn't even consider the idea that he might know him. It's only when he turns towards him, and Sam catches a glance at those oh too familiar tattoos, he realises this is Izzy, his Izzy, that stands before him.
Knowing Izzy's discomfort with pity, he doesn't treat him any differently than he would in years gone by, positioning himself in Izzy's line of sight before approaching and sweeping him up into a bone crushing hug.
“Israel-goddamn-Hands!” he exclaims, as Izzy grumbles back a begrudging “Samuel-fucking-Bellamy”, a tradition almost as old as their friendship itself. Izzy might not hug him back, but he can’t keep the corner of his mouth from twitching, just for a second.
(If Sam holds Izzy a little tighter and a little longer than usual, well. That's his business)
By the time Sam lets go, most of the crew has appeared in the town square, drawn in by the commotion. They may have given Izzy his leg and welcomed him as one of them, but still there’s an underlying tension, with nobody quite ready to set aside everything that happened before the Kraken. Seeing him cosying up to an unknown man sets everyone on edge, unsure whether to come to their first mate’s aid, or to assume that they've been betrayed once again.
When Ed sees that the yelling was Sam, his hand goes tense where it's held in Stede's. He knows the routine, has seen it more times than he can count, but as he watches them part he realises that this is the first time in a long time he's unsure of what Izzy's response will be.
Knowing that something’s different, knowing that Izzy's feeling vulnerable already, Sam doesn't go for the same flashy proposal he’s been giving for years. He doesn't promise Izzy the world, he doesn't cause a scene (or, any more of a scene than he already has, anyway). He looks at the fractured man in front of him, takes his face in his hands, and says the exact same thing to him he said when they were little more than boys. “Israel, I have to ask you. I know what you'll say, but I have to try. Come with me. Marry me and sail away with me. I'll keep you safe”
And Izzy… hesitates. He glances over at Ed, at Stede, and says to Sam “...We’re staying in port for a week. Ask me again then”
That's the moment Sam knows there is something deeply, horribly, wrong. He's not just looking at an Izzy who got seriously injured in a fight and is struggling to cope, this is something so much bigger than that- and that Ed has something to do with it. Izzy wouldn't even be considering leaving if he didn't. Whether it was negligence or something more sinister, Sam doesn't yet know, but he intends to find out.
#i feel like the little paragraph about the crew is real clunky and out of place but i wanted some kind of establishment of where those#dynamics are at. its important that the crew is something for izzy to consider in his decision; but also that their relationship isnt so#solid he would stay for them alone; yknow?#im sorta aiming for a s2e5 era but like. early in those themes. he cant be all sorted yet i need him to be struggling#anyway this is part of a much larger scenario in my head that im never ever doing anything with but i wrote THIS bit in a daze in like. jun#and i got thinking about it again and i think?? it holds its own as a 'hey think about THIS' snippet. idk you decide#youre welcome to interpret this as solo bellhands but in my head it Has morphed into sam/izzy/ed/stede#because i cant not put edizzy in things any more. izzy has two hands#i also think the comedy potential of one of your boyfriends HATING your other boyfriend is gold. 10/10 dynamic#stede is mostly along for the ride in this but also i think they need him#aaaaand. the sam/ed bracket i think can only be closed in exceptional circumstances. i think they 'hate' each other too much#...which is WHY someones getting kidnapped!!! yay#anyway its all irrelevant because ill never write it out. i can do silly chill things but thatll require work#nyxtalks#ofmd#our flag means death#izzy hands#israel hands#sam bellamy#bellhands#i wanna also say. the general concept of repeated sam proposals has been floating around my head forever#it used to be a more silly thing like i referenced at the start but. s2 gave me angsty feelings i guess#i cant not have izzy have feelings for ed right now which inherently adds layers to Any bellhands scenarios i think.#but yeah. its a Classic Bellhands vibe for me. sam seeing izzy at sea or on shore and asking him to marry him (again)#i like to do this with jackie too. i think i just want that man to be obnoxiously desired#(theres also layers of my personal hornigold era lore built into this but i hope it holds up without u knowing it. tldr. sam lost izzy by#being an idiot n fumbling the bag. thats what matters. izzy went with ed and sams been trying to fix it ever since)#i probably should have readmore'd this but i didnt think it was Quite long enough. or had a good break point. sorry <3
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I hate the stretch lines in the front of Curly's uniform because that means the devs rushed to make a model in like a month or so and thought "They gotta at least know he has huge knockers, gotta know he's got back pain." Cause like what is the thematic importance of his tits having overhang?
What responsibility is that representing? Breast reduction? It shows an inherent greed in his character due to the excess and heshouldletmeholdone and that he clearly is blinded cause if he tries to look down his damn ladder all he's seeing is his own cleavage.
#this is my curly slander post ig#disclaimer i need you to understand i see all fictional men i like as like butches Curly is no exception#but like they didnt need to add that many polygons to his chest like its unnessary and honestly a little mean he already has so many things#to handle and you expect him to hold those boys up like that just aint right this is like something so stupid but i know you can tell im#having strong feelings about it cause like what was the point why did they survive the fucking crash it has to be a injoke at this point#with the devs it shouldnt make me this mad im turning into a misandrist but only towards large chested men#mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#shitpost#suggestive#ig because this is just about his chest but like also they made him objectively pretty for no reason like yeah like ideal man and work ig#but they went over the extra mile like i have a right to be mad they did that much for a model we see canonically for like two seconds its#crazy actually how little we see of curly pre crash because we also lose his physical movements to help characterize him the way we see#body language with the other characters and how it gives way to their struggles and personalities and sentiments in certain moments#like all he does and how he emotes is stifled by the fact we always play as him until the last moments where he takes over to try and save#the ship and crew and even right before that the scene is so wrought with tension we cant tell what that look he gave Jimmy meant due to#the limitations of the models and how stiff Curly is like was it fear acceptance denial we dont know enought about how he acts himself#to tell and then everything else is charaterized by what Jimmy had done to where we dont really just get to see Curly as himself like Anya#and Swansea and Daisuke we have no idea how theyd act in a regular moment outside of a few glimpses and even then it is them doing#their jobs like grrrr we hate an unreliable narrator but also its the fact jimmy clearly does not interact with them or try to outside of#his position as copilot and then captain harkening back to the entire capitlist view of utility and how he views all of them as useless eve#Curly which fandom tangent the fandom also tends to do to Curly as they base every trait on what they think he failed to do as Captain#between Jimmy and Anya when the QnAs kinda make him out to be a rather open and willing person but still someone who isnt like a push over#just thinking of QnA three where it mentions hes very open to trying new things and you need to be an open minded person to open urself up#to failure like that and ig this is just the weird view that Curly needs to learn that or that theres redemption he needs personality wise#verses healing and learning from trauma like idk its the idea that people assume he did abosultely nothing when the games points out direct#and throught parallels he was taking actions its just wasnt enough and an over focus on absolute inaction vs ineffective methods used to#tackle the issues and themes the game grapples with plus wanting someone to take the blame and have to make it up to Anya even tho#i think it would mean nothing from Curly because she saw his efforts and would be disappointed it wasnt enough but the idea she would#disregard the attempts or not acknoweldge Jimmy as the epicenter compared ot Curly is weird and too focused on someone
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one thing i love about sz/sz is the clear distinction of themes and the way both of them view each other and just mixing it all. I can enjoy my fair share of possessive zoro when it comes to zs but it's more about thinking about how his devotion towards the rest of the crew (pre relationship) fuels his feelings towards sanji and the need to make sure he knows how important he is for him, how he would follow him anywhere sanji wants. Zoro would do anything as long as it made sanji happy imo (it can totally turn a little bit weird, we are talking about ZOSAN of all people. Zoro would definitely say some insane shit like cutting his chest open and giving sanji his own heart in case he is hungry or something like that)
And don't get me started with sanji's need to make sure zoro feels loved all the time, not just with food, but through quality time (no matter how little it is, his free time would definitely be reserved for zoro) he would think his actions are his way of saying "i understand how lonely you must have felt" after kuina and his years as a pirate hunter which later on turns into a "i want to give you a piece of what zeff and the rest of the baratie staff gave me". Sanji would be SO sweet with zoro once in a established relationship, and zoro would feel a kind of love he never knew existed, and that realization alone is enough for him to bow to never let anything bad happen to sanji, not because he thinks sanji is weak but simply because its what he deserves. Seeing sanji happy makes zoro happier
#one piece#op zosan#op#zosan#sanzo#idk where this came from#but like... so many stuff w possessive zoro and weak? sanji. im fine with it as i said but i hate when people think thats all there is wthe#also a friend sent me a message a while back saying 'i just want to see zoro being LOVED and i know sanji can do that' and my goddd#that message alone was enough to fuel this view of them#im a definitely sz/zs enjoyer. More is always better#but its difficult to find good zs sometimes. Kudos to anyone writing/depicting zs with a very devoted and goofy zoro#text
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If skz ballads have a million fans, then I am one of them. If skz ballads have ten fans, then I am one of them. If skz ballads have only one fan, then that is me. If skz ballads have no fans, then that means I am no longer on earth.
#i love their loud rah rah music its literally what got me into them#but fuck i dont think their lil ballads get enough love i love a good gay ol lil ballad#also i see ppl doing the 'western kpop fans hate ballads so thats why they barely do them'#firstly- who give A FUCK about what western kpop fans think#if i want western pop i'll go seek it out#but also so many times people dont even know what a ballad is its so funny#they'll be like well this is a ballad and i'll be like. Thats christmas evel what are you talkin about#but also remember like idk 16 months ago when lino said he wanted to be included in vocalracha too#WHERE TF IS THAT SONG#im still waiting Thank you#you could say im.... waiting for us#no that doesnt work but whatever
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college … wasted on the youth (me)
#didnt help that 2/4 yrs was covid telezoom but man.. MANNN#forgetting how impossible it is to pursue rhe degree plan u actually want (advising hell) i feel like . theres just#so many diff things i want to learn now Knowing that im more solidified in my interests and who i am and what i would be interested in doing#and like.😭RGAAAAAQH TEARING MYHAIR OUTTT every other week i have a night where im sititng there like damn i couldve been sm1 completely dif#dgmw i still rly enjoy some of the upper div classes i Did take but what if i took x and liked it more or minored in y and it led me to z#bc i do feel rly set in where i am rn which . i DO ! like it but im never gna be in that environment where u have the flexibility to explore#ykwim . i wish i had taken physics and calc srsly . i always thought i hated that shit but i like it. i like it quite a lot actually😟#or more geology .. urrghh.. sprinkle in sme extra art history . no bc thats what actu pissed me off ab school#i rmbr wanting to dual major and they straight up told me no i cant . but then i was like maybe an arts major bio minor when i wanted to do#science illustration but sry we dont offer bio minor . ok bio major arh or studio art minor . no sry not enough open spots we rly only#reserve it for when we have extra openings post admission❤️#and then even late into sophomore year u would still be last in registration so all the cool classes would be closed#and then bc of covid half that shit was cancelled bc they couldnt transfer labs online (rip comparative vertebrate anatomy)#and then by senior yr an additional collection of classes were unavailable bc u dont have the prereqs bc the prereqs were cancelled during#covid and u dont have enough semesters left to actually take it . like it was gen such an awful experience so ik why i couldnt ever do what#i wanted but .😭 AND LIKE the classes i DID enjoy like genomics or molecular genetics were closed by registration and i had to email and beg#for access . thts crazy .literally crazy .#anyways . i think i want 2 start reading textbooks bc i think thats the closest ill get LMAOO#i remember seeing my coworker read a textbook for fun one time and idk why i just didnt understand why bc it seemed so dry but i Get it now#like yeah .. u knew what was up ..#sad too that like . i could theoretically audit a course but i Work..during the day .. so sad . so sad#guys wht if i just said yes to grad school (<the devil talking.dont agree)
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#rafayel is such a complex character bro and i wish he was treated as such more often#im not the characterization police and im not against babygirlifying him as a treat#but sometimes i just get tired#and amongst all the rejoicing that l&ds is ‘finally getting a yandere’ i keep thinking like#rafayel has had major yandere potential this whole time#he was whole ass stalking mc#he gave her his heart and then was going to CUT IT BACK OUT#like that is so deliciously dark. he’s not a full blown yandere in canon but the POTENTIAL#the narrative door is wide open#idk i just find his inner turmoil to be the foundation of his character and i don’t see it in enough fandom depictions of him#he’s so angry. he feels so much betrayal. he hates humans at his very core. and yet he LOVES MC SO DEEPLY.#he’s so smart. he’s a criminal mastermind and an assassin. revenge and mc are all he’s really living for.#he’s manipulative as hell !!!!! he’s tender and passionate only because he’s endured lifetimes of pain. idk#but also let people have fun let people make him subby and clingy and babygirl it’s fine it’s fun#ALSO i think xavier has yandere potential too but i don’t know him well enough to defend that so it’s an aside comment#anyways let me shut up and just write the fics i wish to see in the world#l&ds spoilers
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i need to start hating other characters besides just scott apparently. does anyone have suggestions
#Sorry i dont. care enough about the other guys.#I mean I do i rlly do but like. not enough to feel comfortable saying i’d hit them with my car#I get to say I’d hit scott with my car because i’ve thought about him for 15000 billion years and#am cursed to the scott favorite blorbo hell dimension#I cant start doing this with like. idk. bdubs. I dont know him like that#I could hit bdubs with my car recreationally like for fun. I think he’d flatten like a pancake and then stand up just fine#bree barks so fucking loud#On an actual note: ive given a lot of thought to why cscott gets hated specifically and it’s actually really fascinating#theyre of course just theories though I’d need like. more personal testimonies to back them up.#since i think im an outlier in the “i relate to 3l jimmy so of course I’d hate 3l scott specifically” department and therefore dont have—#extremely relevant personal insight on the topic#also usual disclaimer that when i say i hate scott i also love scott he’s my favorite etc etc
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gonna vent for a sec but im so tired of this "don't wanna be an inconvenience", people pleasing shit ngl.....do people who do this know that they just come off as really rude and like... it just feels insulting each time
#idk it's so upsetting and discouraging im really tired of it#like bro.... everyone can see what you're doing and#you doing it just communicates that you think im a fucking awful person#if im going to be fine with like someone... putting themselves down for the sake of others#or denying help because thay dont want to be an inconvenience#it just feels rude#if you don't think that i genuinely want to help you#if you think that I'm just fucking pretending or whatever then why are you even here I don't want#a friend who thinks these thoughts about me xd#like#how many times do i have to assure someone#i just feel like shit#it really just feels so shittyyyyyyy#comeonnnnn#people can SEE you people pleasing and doing all that shit#and everybody fucking hates it#it just makes me super uncomfortable and i know it also makes other ppl i know very uncomfortable also#on one hand I don't wanna mention anything to this person because trauma is trauma what the fuck am i#supposed to do about that its just a trauma response but god i have feelings too#i want that person to also consider me because it feels so awful it just taints every single interaction#because it makes me feel like they think im some awful person who's going to be fine#with them carrying all their stuff even though i offered like 5 times and them just pushing themselves aside so i have space#even though im offering to share#AURGHH#it feels so bad#i feel like this every time i spend time with this person or any other person who does this that i know enough to like#recognize the behavior#idk im just tired I can't be putting all my effort#into reassuring every single step it's just sucking all fun out of everything we do together it just feels like shit whatever
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#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it#it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper#provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the#interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after#50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked#his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it#he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from#when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has#his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever#but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how#we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe#cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna#back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed#practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence#we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one#who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted#to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say#goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art.#you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea?#if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa#the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding#his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.
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I’m not deep enough in the yttd fandom to really know if this is a controversial take to have but. I think soushin is interesting. I don’t think this in a “omg wow they’re soooo in love and I want them to be together” way, not at all lol. But I think to act like it’s impossible to see a romantic/sexual aspect of their relationship is really fucking stupid. I try to refrain from acting like there’s a solid truth to their relationship cuz the game isn’t finished yet so there’s always the likelihood that we’ll get more information later, but the thing that always gets me is when ai shin mentions that hiyori claimed to be an older student at his school but he later learned that wasn’t true. It sounds so eerily like a grooming story and the way we see human shin retreating into himself In reaction to that hits really hard, like he’s embarrassed it ever happened
Then there’s stuff like the detail that hiyori would always take pictures of shin without consent and would hang them up, or the fact that hiyori kept a personal shin ai for himself that he had control over, or the way that maple is supposed to parallel shin. It all just sounds like they had a relationship that blurred the lines a lot in a way that was very uncomfortable for shin. Moments like the shin ai sobbing and Hiyori saying “no don’t be like that show me your cool side shin!” and shin reacting to that, it’s like hiyori is trying to praise shin while hurting him. Seems way too much like a common occurrence
I think also (but maybe im just projecting) that shin is pretty queer coded in a lot of ways (hot springs scene, soft-natured personality that he tries to smother, his relationship with hiyori paralleling a romantic one, etc) and I think this plays into his relationship with hiyori a lot. Because of gender roles and toxic masculinity bullshit, i really doubt shins soft personality was allowed to fly under the radar for most people, so he was isolated a lot. Hiyori probably made him feel special at first with the way he seemed to like this about shin, but it becomes pretty clear that hiyori loves to fawn over shin and treat him like a cute baby and really only loves shins personality cuz he sees it as easy to take advantage of. I think it’s really easy to imagine a scenario where shin is a closeted teenager who finally has someone he feels he can confide in and hiyori blurs the lines between romantic and platonic a lot and shin latches onto this because he wants to feel like he can be loved by another boy and thinks this is his only shot. It’s way too common and all the pieces just fit right into place, you know? And I’m aware of the line where shin says hiyori is like an older brother to him but imo I think these two things can actually perfectly coexist cuz again, theres blurring of lines going on cuz this is an abusive relationship and feelings are being toyed with constantly
Basically all this to say, I very much think it’s likely that there was a romantic and sexual aspect to this relationship going on. I wouldn’t say they were labeling themselves as boyfriends or anything, more like it was a vague mess that hiyori refused to elaborate on. I don’t ship these two cuz I think it’s pretty clear shin wants out of this relationship, but I think inherently being mad someone wants to explore the idea of them having this kinda relationship is really ignorant and is only gonna result in only shallow ass takes about abusive relationships being allowed
#yttd#shin tsukimi#sou hiyori#i feel like ive made myself way too clear here lol i just want to speak my truth 😩#maybe no one cares but just from what ive seen ppl have been like IF YOU MAKE ANYTHING RESEMBLING ROMANCE FOR THESE TWO YOURE EVILLLL#like its annoying when ppl make completely ooc shit trying to make this pairing cute cuz idk they want boys to kiss#but to act like no one can pick up on something more to their relationship like this is fucking stupid#im not saying their relationship couldnt be strictly platonic and still abusive cuz thats not true at all#im just saying hey. lets ease up a bit and allow some damn nuance#side note i hate when ppl write hiyori as comically evil in the relationship like yeah hes creepy as fuck but like#these two were close enough to be practically living together and shin kept his scarf and everything#and this is the game arguing everyone is capable of good so like. i think hiyori had normal moments too lol#ldk it just irks me when ppl write abuse as like some black and white perfect victim/evil abuser shit cuz thats unrealistic and boring#and we dont know everything that went down between these two but sometimes shin is getting brutalized a lil too much in these fics#maybe im wrong maybe he was getting strapped to the electric chair every night lol
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ah yes dungeon meshi, the manga where an autistic man gets repeatedly bullied by people he thinks are his friends and not a single person supports him
#dont get me wrong i am enjoying this manga#but i'm failing to see how this is some great amazing autistic rep#like yeah laios is obviously autistic#and the struggles he has due to his autism are VERY relatable#but it's deeply uncomfortable that even the people closest to him are routinely awful to him#specifically for his autistic traits#and their bullying is almost always a joke#not a single person defends him#literally senshi is the only character that's never been cruel to him#well and farlyn but lbr she's also autistic and also has been in like half a chapter that ive read so far#maybe ive just not read far enough or not seen enough posts#but im not understanding why the fandom are treating it like amazing autistic rep and how it understands us so well#you could argue that the narrative tends to support laios's methods and way of thinking#but nothing else does#the scene with shuro was fucking awful to read tbh#'you're so annoying because you're autistic. how dare you think im your friend when you should have just guessed that i hated you'#and not a single person defends laios#or calls shuro out on what a fucking horrific way of treating a party member that is#like i dont know MAYBE you could have just said 'hey i don't really want to be friends'#maybe you could COMMUNICATE.#but no it's the autistic man who's the problem. for the crime of.... being too nice.#i don't have a problem with the scene.#i have a problem with the fact that shuro is framed as reasonable here. instead of utterly fucking vile.#i have a problem with none of the other characters sticking up for laios.#dungeon meshi#maybe ppl will start treating him better#i would like to continue reading#but if he continues getting bullied in EVERY fucking chapter as a 'joke' then idk man
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Or even better, you can become a YouTuber. That way you can edit your streams or just ramble non-stop about lore for shit you like
oh i fear that'd involve listening to my voice and i'd rather die than do that
#snap chats#there's no sound i hate more in the world than my own voice. that and forks scraping against plates but anyways#the idea's always sounded fun to me and im a firm believer you shouldnt let small things like hating your voice stop you#so who knows ... youd have to shoot me to get serious lore review videos out of me tho LMAO#i am NOT intelligente nor organized enough for that. im just a silly man on the internet#in any case i did used to post stream vods to my youtube. and then i deleted all of theme vjEAKJAEKVJ#at least with vods i could just post them since Theyre Vods theyre meant to be unedited and not reviewed and whatever#i did think of editing streams down so its not just like three hours of dead air and then SOMETHING mildly interesting happening#idk. maybe ill try recording a rivals vid tomorrow or something#see the idea of streaming just might be awkward if i want to look at chat tho since i only have one monitor buuut i do have a phone#and my tablet or whatever. i used to use my phone as a Slightly Better webcam than my cpu's built-in one but anyway#im putting too much thought into something im probably not gonna even do vJLKVJAELKJ#i like thinking ... cause again i just think itd be fun and silly and fun ..#OH WELL
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