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Avatar au because WHY NOT.
Clips used are from Avatar the Last Airbender and The Legeng of Korra!!
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#idk why I have a strange sensation when I do these type of animations#a weird feeling that I’m tracing even tho I know the difference between tracing and using references#if anyone that studies animation or is an animator please tell me if this illegal LOL#trying to get to my animation collage has been so frustrating but I hope to get soon 😭#anyways BES IN AVATAR WORLD#we all know Mizu is an Avatar </3#mizu blue eye samurai#taigen#chiaki#avatar au
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i’m not a transandrophobia truther in the slightest don’t get me wrong, but i think some people on here really need to realize and comprehend the fact that cis women, way WAY more often than not, hold extremely significant social and political power over trans men the vast majority of the time in our day to day lives
#sorry not to get on this bullshit i just saw a related post when i opened this app lmao#and by some people i don’t mean anyone in particular im not vagueing anyone or any specific post#and i especially don’t mean any transfem calling out transmisogynistic transmascs either#but yeah i see a lot of implication that trans men are like. somehow significantly privileged over cis women#and ofc i don’t mean that transmascs are incapable of being misogynistic to cis women bc that’s far from the case#but i need someone to name a transmasc with significant political or social or financial power that’s working to set back women’s rights#versus the amount of cis women with any of the aforementioned privileges working to take away the rights of trans people#bc i can think of 4 of the latter just off the top of my head without trying really hard#and the only day to day instance i can think of where trans men would hold significant power over a cis woman is like..#a workplace environment where he completely passes as cis and absolutely no one knows he’s trans at all or even suspects it#but then again most if not all of that privilege would be stripped away the second anyone there found out he was trans#but yeah i really do think some people need to grapple with how they conceptualize gendered privilege and their own power in these dynamics#and how that’s reflected in the way they think about/interact with transmascs#are you disgusted with this random transmasc on tumblr because he’s a man (or vaguely adjacent) or because he’s trans. ykwim#and again i hate the whole transandrophobia thing i think it’s stupid as shit and redundant to put it lightly and briefly but#idk why transmascs that believe in it have become the new face of anti-feminism and MRA movements#and not like. the cis men who started both of those things and contribute to the vast majority of that type of rhetoric in every way#and also hold enough power to leverage those beliefs over both women and also transmascs tbh#i think some people are just repulsed by the idea of anyone willingly wanting to be a man bc they see it as the same as becoming a cis man#in terms of privilege. when in reality by being trans you’re knocked down in terms of power and privilege from all cis people anyways#but also. some people also need to realize that transmascs can also have trauma and complicated feelings about being a man and patriarchy#and more often than not we ARE traumatized by the way cis men (and women!!) have treated us#and grapple with our place in the world as a result. it’s not just as simple as becoming a cis man over night tbh!!#and again i’m not talking about transfems with any of this because the vast Vast majority of transfems understand this more than anyone#i’m mostly talking about cis women both irl and also just in the terminally online leftist sphere#and i also think i should be allowed to vent my grievances with the power cis women often do wield over me without being accused of being a#raging misogynist or MRA or whatever
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guys hear me out would painis cupcake pay taxes? Because he’s not like mega insane like ass pancakes I think he’d pay his taxes in my professional opinion.
#I also had a conversation with my friend about if he had to wear a suit why would he#We discussed for a very long while(6 minutes) and the discussion was very enlightening#Slowly turning painis into a functional human in society…#Except you know he eats people that isn’t really stuff normal people do#this is a joke btw#I think he would pay his taxes but if the tax people are rude to him he wouldn’t#I think it really depends#Does he even have any taxes to pay? Because he doesn’t have a job I assume so he doesn’t have any money#But theoretically if he’s like working for another freak and he’s getting paid or something#Idk guys I might be going a little bit bonkers… he’s helping me get out of art block at least#Oh I hope all these tags don’t accidentally show up in another tag that would be bad I’ve seen that happen#I’ve already typed so much though#It’d be funny if there was painis angst because I wouldn’t be able to take it seriously because his name is penis basically#Why am I only saying painis I’m going to tag him anyway#Painis cupcake#there#alright anyways painis cupcake angst would be fucking hilarious imo#My professional opinion#Mmhmmm I’m a professional in being stupid#My friends will call me spedpool on hallowen#I took 2 yardsticks in stem and I pretended to be said guy in the red suit I don’t want to tag him because I don’t want someone to#Find this unhinged rant about painis cupcake that got way off track woah#Ok continuing on the painis rant#I can’t draw him with pencil for some reason he looks so weird#I can draw soldeir just fine with pencil probably even better than online but whenever I try to draw painis he looks like a pile of dog shi#A moist pile the kind that would make steam if it’s cold outside#I feel like it he tried painis cupcake would really be a great functional citizen#Oh wow I wrote a lot my bad
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Remember. No Russian.
Some of you have never had to live through watching General Shepherd shoot and burn Ghost alive and it shows
You also never had to watch Soap die and see Price mourn over his body
When I tell y'all I was scarred. These were both over 10 years ago (MW2 was 2009 and MW3 was 2011) and I still feel the pain.
#i guarantee you cass that they’re not gonna do that mission again#which is dumb#cause it’s supposed to be shocking graphic and scaring#it’s a terrorist attack and your character participates so they can be Buddy Buddy with Makarov#i am curious at what they do instead for the remasters No Russian#considering the scene in mw2r with Mak it seems to be an airplane bombing instead but who knows#I don’t#im not ActivisionBlizzard#or InfinityWard#I’m just someone one the internet#idk why I’m even typing this anyway#I’m tired
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I should be asleep I’ll hate myself tomorrow, but while I’m preparing myself to go to sleep I remembered the dream I had last night and remembered that I thought in my dream that it would make a good story but now I don’t remember anything and I’m mad fbskndjd I haven’t write in so long, especially with characters that aren’t my long time ocs or fanfic it would have been good to think about something new but yeah 🥲
#i just remember there was 3 girls#and for once I don’t think I was one ??? I feel like I was mostly watching#i remember romance a lot of it ????#like evil vs good a lot also some powers maybe vampires ????? one girl I think ????#also what guy would they chose between 2 each but at the end it wasn’t the case I was only imagining one guy#now you will say but Alex that’s a lot you remember#a kiss and a school sitting is not enough to remember what was happening 😭 kfbskdns#I’ll try to remember more or take what I remember and have fun with it ckdbjxbdjd#anyway now I’m going to sleep I’m waking up in 4 hours 🤪#my dad better be in a good mood cause I probably won’t (period + lack of sleep is NOT a good mix kfbskdns)#he usually is on Sundays when we work together I think he put aside everything we usually fight about cause he has to pay me so if he makes#me cry I won’t be a good help fkdbdjd#also he already paid me in advance cause he wanted to#be sure he dosen’t use the money by accident ckbdjdjd#Idk what I’m doing with my calculation but I’m suppose to have 200$ a month but I feel like I never have enough money ????#cause I don’t have a lot left enough for my phone at least ????#(because it’s 50$ each Sunday)#oh wait now I rememeber Sowon’s food 😐 80 freaking dollars 😭#but at least I won’t have to buy one until like January maybe even February 😭#but she need this type of food or her stomach hurts :( (and something else that is nasty bdjsbs)#that’s why I start taking commissions to at least be sure to pay for pills if I get like one commission a month 💙#anyway good night !#alex.txt
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i try not to be too obnoxious about liking kids media but i will be honest my one thing that really gets on my nerves is when people compare shows like idk the owl house or whatever to shows like bluey or like talk about them as if they are similar. like yes i logically realize they are probably exaggerating in order to frame all cartoons as especially childish but it still makes me want to tear my hair out like do you know how wildly different the target demographics for these shows are!!! do you realize that preschool television is generally a whole different world from tv for older kids!!!!
#this is not to devalue preschool television either i think it’s awesome#i would love to work in preschool tv in theory but i don’t have the child development knowledge for that#anyway the point is these types of shows are doing very different things#and even if someone is exaggerating on purpose#talking about them in the same breath just makes me think oh okay you don’t actually know anything about children’s television#which is fine you don’t have to. obviously it is. it for everyone.#but to act like being a devoted fan of a show like. idk she ra. is so unfathomable to you that it would be like having a peppa pig blog#like i’m never gonna be one to say ‘it’s better than adult media blah blah blah’ that’s what i mean abt being obnoxious#but you can’t imagine it possibly having a compelling story or anything to get invested in?? why not???#i’m getting away from myself and trying to fit all my thoughts into one post#which i TOLD MYSELF i wouldn’t do#also btw if you do blog about preschool television more power to you. do whatever you want forever.#don’t go on rants about how bluey is objectively better than all media made for adults ever but like.#yeah man bluey is a fun and comforting show. enjoy it!#r.txt
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#I hate who I am when I start missing human contact and feeling lonely#I start missing someone who was awful to me simply because they were reliable in talking to me every day and at least sort of my friend#I start craving the connections that you see in media even though I know those types aren’t real#it seems like everyone else has more people and better people and closer people in their lives than me#it seems like everyone has best friends and partners that are closer to them and better for them#and idk it just feels like things are missing from my life#I have a partner but I can’t always talk to them when I need to because they can’t always handle a conversation#I have a best friend but he barely ever answers my calls and things feel distant between us lately#I have other friends but they’re not the kinds that I feel I could turn to for help when I’m lonely like this#I have my parents but neither of them are very good at comfort in these situations#and I just want to cry because I feel so completely by myself and I don’t know what to do anymore#I just want someone to talk to and who will listen to me when I need help and advice and be there for me#I’m starting to really miss the wrong people again even though I know I’m better without them in my life#but at least I could send them anything and get a response fairly soon when I needed to#at least for a while they were very close to me and i think that’s what I really miss most of all#just the closeness of another person since I don’t always feel that with other relationships these days#it’s times like these I wish I’d just killed myself at 16 so I wouldn’t have to keep dealing with this over and over forever#it’s times like these I wanna fade away#if I’m going to be alone anyway then why bother keeping others around at all? why not just break off and go be a hermit somewhere else?#but I can’t do that because I have too many responsibilities that I need to take care of#idk maybe I should just kill myself and get it over with#pretty sure I wasn’t supposed to make it this long in the first place#I mean I’m being facetious cause I’m not overly suicidal and I’m not actually going to do anything#just kinda wish I could in a weird sort of way#like missing the feeling of a blade slicing my skin since I stopped cutting a long time ago#just want more out of my relationships and from myself and from my life and idk how to get any of that#personal
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I truly feel like a dirtbagger. I’m so fucking dirty. Like just covered in it 24/7
#I don’t even dirtbag I sleep in my car 😭 BUT THERES SO MYCH DIRT#I wash myself off and then I’m immediately dirty again#my friend Kyra was in the TTI and in wilderness (in the same state I’m in rn actually) and there’s this thing called perma dirt#which is basically just being so dirty that the dirt doesn’t come off for like a long ass time#I think I’m getting there honestly#like I’m partially tanner but I’m sure some of it is also dirt lmao#doesn’t help that I just fucking tripped and went down HARD on my long run#scraped my knee and thigh and now my upper body is also caked in dirt#and neosporin and a little blood#yall I haven’t taken like an actual indoor plumbing type shower in a month#I HAVE washed myself with soap and whatever JUST TO BE CLEAR#but I have not washed my hair since April#which is why I keep it short#THERES NO FUCKING GYMS AROUND HERE the closest ones are in Vegas and I’m not even in Nevada#I could wash my hair tbh but I’m going to be indoors again on Thursday so I can hold out a little longer#it’s surprisingly not even that bad looking or feeling#it’s somehow feels both dry and dirty but I’ve had worse honestly#anyway I’m gonna go slather creek water on me#prolly filter it bc of my open wounds tho#yeah idk I’ve never been this dirty in my life but it’s kind of what I was going for/expectibg anywzy#car life#I imagine Keith was similar when he lived in the desert#which is also consequently where I am
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Wow! Me? Venting again????? Who could’ve guessed???
So I’ve realized that I’ve got a thing about bandaids, as in I need to ‘earn’ my bandaids. I don’t know where I got this false scarcity from but in my head I can’t just use a bandaid Willy-nilly it needs to be bad enough to deserve a bandaid, so I either leave my cuts uncovered, go deeper than I meant to, or do way more than I meant to, all because I need to earn my bandaids.
#self harm#me types ‘self’#tumblr: did you mean self love? no? you meant self care right? right??????#get fucked tumblr we angsty tonight#sh#tw sh#tw self harm#tw sh vent#vent#personal vent#sh vent#self harm vent#self-harm#vent post#that should be enough#probably#sorry I’m venting so much y’all#idk why I’m apologizing#it’s not like anyone sees my posts anyways#the amount of times I’ve left cuts uncovered#like even deeper ones#not to say that I go deep at all#but like#I’ll just go to bed with an open wound#like it’s nothing#I hate the sensory feel#but I’m not gonna use a bandaid for one measly cut#like idk how much is enough even#but I need to make them worth it
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#when people say they hate the later seasons#lol why?#because they’ve grown a narrative for their characters?#cool take man#hashtag no hate#just high talking#idk like#you don’t write and play a character for 18 years and not fall in love with them yk#my cat literally just shit on the floor as i was typing this#my life is hard lol#stopped to carry him to the stupid litter box#if anyone has any advice for that..#i guess this is what i get for naming a cat after a sunny character#i’m already charlie coded why wouldn’t i have a roommate who shits on the floor#okay anyway what i was saying#obviously something shifted later on#these are their guys like these are. ofc the show is gonna get a little softer#it’s the shift from awful guy to pathetic old man#what am i even saying lmfaoooo#but. yk#i think 16 is gonna be so good#tired of pretending i haven’t rewatched 14 more than any other season#12-14 are so sexy to me lmfao#they’re just like gender and quirky and gay losers#still in ireland is also really top tier for me#i don’t like the kelly last name problem#but i love what we got for charlie out of all of that#real fucking emotion and trauma .. the frank breakup kinda all poetic#covid dennis is so peak#and just like gay mac guys he’s a sex obsessed white gay alcoholic with few braincells and even fewer morals it’s peak
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being trans is so hard and confusing but sometimes you get called the right name and the right pronoun and it feels so right and sometimes it’s by a group of guys discussing how they’re old enough to remember when TV’s had dials that switched to one of three channels, and they’re still respecting your pronouns and maybe you can be okay
#I’ve been having a crisis cause basically if you say my irl name is boomerang#I’ve been going by just boom more#and these theatre posters came out and they had the directors name and my name on them#no other names—not even the other professor who led the other class#and that poster said boomerang cause that’s my full name that’s normal#but it just looked WRONG which I’ve never felt before (like even tho I primarily go by boom now I still sign all my emails boomerang.#so it’s not like it’s a deadname or anything. it’s literally just a nickname that happens to feel more gender) but since boom felt better I#asked them to put boom in the program and they did!!#and sometimes I look at it and go 🥰that looks right#and sometimes I look at it and go 😡that looks unprofessional you should’ve kept HOLY SHIT I ALMOST TYPED MY NAME WHOOPS you should’ve kept#boomerang cause that’s what people with nicknames do and it’s more professional bla bla bla#but like#potentially I want to not use it so much as a nickname but a name name#because of gender#but idk yet#boom is significantly less formal of a name and does have the connotations of a nickname unfortunately#but that’s also why I think it feels so fun to be called it#cause they say boom and I’m like 😁me whereas they say boomerang and I’m like 🫣why so serious#anyway i hope this made sense im not actually talking about boom versus boomerang I just didn’t want to use my irl name lol#OH BUT THE POINT OF THE POST WAS REGARDLESS OF MY NAME IRL I GET CALLED BOOM AND TWO PROFESSORS AND A PROFESSOR’S HUSBAND WERE IN THIS MANLY#CIRCLE AND I JUST JOINED AND WAS IN THE CONVERSATION AND I DEFINITELY WAS AWKWARD BUT IDK I FELT APPRECIATED ESPECIALLY WHEN I WAS GENDERED#boom blogs high#i still want to take a bath or at least change into comfy clothes and just haven’t moved whoops#it’s cold and my blanket is warm
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i do have problems unfortunately. and issues. plights, even
#sorry for my rant about zines i’m embarrassed about it i won’t delete it though. probably. i might#i’m a known deleter#i’m just mentally ill idk i actually do have a lot to say about a lot of things but i’m just majorly depressed these days.#don’t have energy to say stuff. then ill get some energy to say stuff and it’s like. talking abt zines at 9am. why this#and when the low hits again i’m like why did i even bother🧎#i miss not caring i miss being on twitter and typing out every thought entering my brain i hate being mentally ill lol#anyway!#delete later#devin.txt
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back to the dating app 🚶
#got inspired to try it again 🙄#i have a date semi planned now and all of the women in portland are obsessed w me or whatever#bc i like love and dating ppl but i keep falling in love with friends and it HAS NOT ENDED WELL ONCE so maybe stop it you dumbass#(this may be caused by the fact i’ve gotten my hopes up a bit abt a friend of mine but i should NOT… unless…)#i crave companionship#and am#also so scared all the time i’m soooooososcaredddd rn#why can’t everyone just love me all the time#must be my personality bc i’m like really hot rn#also me swiping on ppl just looking for hookups them matching and just 😳 i do not know if i’m at a point in my life where i am confident eno#ugh to do that 😳#as previously stated i’m so so scared#idk i’m conflicted and need to over share about it#idk will continue flirting w that one friend tho#even though flirting with eachother is an ongoing joke in this friend group so i don’t think she would take it seriously lmao#was telling my dear good pal to come over and suck my fingers yesterday like that’s just how it is#anyway she’s cool and makes childrens books and stories and loves dinasours and is tall and can jump really high#we got drunk together at my friends bday and bonded and it was SO CUTE#also she cries a lot when she’s high but doesn’t notice (she’s not even sad there’s just tears lol)#ruh roh just typed that all out and realized it seems like i’m obsessed w her 😳#going to hit my head on a wall okay goodnight
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Me purposely switching accents in certain phrases bc it just sounds more superior to say that particular word in that particular accent LOL
#dora daily#my default is a mix of veryyyyyyygyyy light Australian (barely Australian tbh) and a mix of no accent and a bit of British every once in a#while like if I’m happy (which rarely happens now) I suddenly turn British LOL ITS SO FREAKING FUNNY idk why whenever I’m not depressed I ju#just suddenly get an accent ?? I’ve not even once in my life among all the countries I’ve ever been to EVER went to England#idk how I picked up that accent ?? anyways#but in some OTHER accents words just sound soooo cute so I just adopt it like sprinkling it#like yk APT by rosé and Bruno ? when they’re like “’don’t you need me when I need you NOW’#THE NOW PART I COMPLETELY ACCENT SWITCH#that being said I’d never ever do an American accent nobody hates on America like I do#honestly idek how to do an American accent nor do I want to try even tho ik I’d do it well#hmmm if I knew the locations of England and their specific dialects I’d have told you which type of British I’m referring to#I think it’s like the queens type of British accent idk what that one’s called#posh rich British ? HELP
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#so that was it huh? my birthday is over. turned 30 and it’s basically just been another day#I wonder if it’s always going to hurt so much#and I mean in the sense of not being as included as others or treated like everyone else#so many other birthdays that happen in the ER are very well acknowledged and everyone says happy birthday and people order food or treats#hell even one of the housekeepers had dinner ordered for her from med surg despite not being super liked by most in the hospital#and I’ve just… gotten none of that really#like yeah some coworkers have said happy birthday and one has very pointedly avoided saying anything like that at all#but it’s not like I’m getting offered dinner or treats or whatever else#and it sounds so stupid and selfish because I don’t necessarily expect those things#it’s more like when you’re treated very differently than everyone else you start to wonder why that is#what’s wrong with me that I’m so left out of what’s given freely to everyone else?#I thought I had a lot of friends here but it’s more like people I can politely pass the time with most often it seems#everyone acts so nice and wants to talk to me but then now it’s my birthday and you’d never know it around here#I have to wear my own silly pins and headband to show off otherwise nobody would know or notice at all#I think it hurts more because we’re such a small town and small place of business and everyone acts so close and like family you know?#so I’m being outcasted again but it feels bigger and worse because it’s so much more obvious in this type of setting#in Cali I expected this sort of thing because big companies with lots of employees suck but here things are supposed to be different#or that’s how it feels anyway idk#that’s why I’m wondering if this is always going to hurt and I’m always going to be bothered by it#wish I could turn it off and just enjoy my own space and time but these things just always get to me#guess I also wish that my 30th birthday could have been more special and important too#it’s a big deal for me to get this far but it feels like no one cares but me#wish I could just crawl in bed and let this day be over with already#personal
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fan is on three feet away from me and I can still hear the fizz of the energy drink like a foot and a half away from me
#mm#woke up with an allergy headache#bc I forgot to take my meds last night#and allergy headaches are the ones that usually make me the most irritated and sensory sensitive#idk why lol#anyway#went to see my new doctor the other day#he’s the type to preach about a good diet 🫠#sir…#i literally told him that I’m a very picky eater#he also used cheetos and mountain dew as an example of ‘bad’ foods#I don’t even like those things!!!#given all the factors that hinder me from eating well and often#I eat as healthily as I can lmao#and that’s not very healthy I’ll be honest#but it’s not exactly a bunch of processed foods#it’s mostly carbs tbh#like we don’t have the money to waste on snacks lmao#they last like a day before they’re gone#we can’t eat fruits and veggies bc adhd/chronic conditions/etc etc#and we can’t afford to waste the money bc they rot away in the fridge#our only sustainable options are carbs#bread noodles rice potatoes etc#and then butter and cheese to give those things something more#or to like make sandwiches or whatever idk#and like obviously my diet isn’t as bad as you say it is#bc my blood work is perfect#so maybe quit fucking lecturing me about shit that I already know#especially when I know damn well you’re not gonna listen to any of the barriers I have to that#uggghhhhhhh I miss the doctor I had a few years ago like bro please come out of retirement
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