#idk who's actually following this acct

[tchaikovskaya]

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[chengfagshi]

a minor got dogpiled by 1.2k people on twitter because they said bring pro self ship would be considered being proship

another minor got made fun of by an account with 70k followers over their “proshipper art style”

I thought antis cared about children /sarcasm

Omfg, I know what you're talking about. The minor even went private and someone screenshot their acct and called them a coward. I actually ended up quoting that, telling them to leave him tf alone. So that person ended up blocking me after the ratio and I'm just thinking "who's the god damn coward now?" Like ppl even told this minor "I hope a gun explores your body" THAT IS A DEATH THREAT. Minors sending other minors death threats OVER FICTIONAL BS. But they act like they're in the right all the fucking time. Like I'm sorry, if you're getting pissed off that a 16 yr old said selfship is proshipping, maybe go outside.

And also, idk about this one (I don't think) but it made me think of M1das. I have that asshole blocked but they were saying proshippers have the ugliest art styles while also calling someone else out for making fun of someone's art. And then they said "it's fine to make fun of people's art if they're a proshipper." .....no person's art should be made fun of omfg. Like if you have a problem with proshippers, fine. You're just dumb. But why make fun of peoples' art? Even 5 year olds have better manners than that asshole.

[66sharkteeth]

HIIII omg i am a H U G E fan of you and cob! cob is literally my favorite webtoon ever.... its not enough to just read it, i feel like i need to be enveloped in it (if that even makes sense 😭) every episode literally leaves me shaking with adrenilineeeEEEEE!! (side note i dont have a question i j wanted some way to communicate to you and im sorta new to tumblr so idk any other way lmfao) i literally talk about cob atleast once a day. at this point its an addiction lmfaoo

ive noticed that your tumblr posts are so sad and frustrated recently and i wish there was some way i could help :( if you ever wanted to share ocs or just talk im here and im sure all of your fans would appreciate your art too! maybe you could make another tumblr acct devoted to ocs - ik id definitely follow it immediately :D

also if you decided to take a mental health hiatus your fans wouldnt mind and would in fact encourage it! (ok sure wed be upset cause cob is SO GOOD but overall health is more important!!!) and youd also have more time to work on ocs and to just relax and think about yourslef for once (AND TO NOT LOOK AT THE MEAN COMMENTS ON UR POSTS FROM JEALOUS MEAN PEOPLE WHO HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO THAN CRITICIZE PEOPLE WHO ARE BETTER THAN THEM >:( )

also side note but the more popular you are the more haters you have...its just statistics! so in some twisted overly optimistic way its actually a positive 😉 anyway those ppl r just jealous and have terrible taste.

anyway idk where this is going im j rambling at this point but idk i obviously know barely anything about you but what i can inference from ur posts is that you seriously need a break!!!!! we love cob ofc but we love the health of the creater (YOU) more!!! and if you ever want to talk to anyone or to share ocs youre exited about you can always reach out to me or anything :DDDDD or like anyone you know in real life too lmfaooo--

so uh idk how to end this....so BYE YOURE AWESOME YOURE SLAYING <3333333333

lol you're too sweet! i appreciate every word.

tho unfortunately, taking breaks aren't that easy, since when i don't make episodes, i just don't make money. besides, i actually don't mind the workload that much? it's everything...outside of working that seems to bum me out haha. i kind of like turning off my brain for 10 hours each day to draw episodes. usually when i'm sad, it's after work when that distraction is gone.

also, i do post more freely here already as is! i tend to be a bit more selective about what i share on twitter and IG, but since like 20 people follow me here, i'm a bit more open and share more things, both personal and CoB/OC related lol. i just haven't had a ton to share lately outside of text essays and answering asks.

[mysteriousdoll]

I admit I have been stalking your page for a put 30 minutes AND OMG YOUR WORK IS SO COOL I LOVE IT SO MUCH AND I LOVE ALL YOUR ART AND HEADCANONS OMG-

Anyway, I was reading the HCs you and somebody else came up with and I have one but I'm not 100% sure on it. Like my mind is debating it intensely.

In ishimondo which one can cook?

THIS IS A KIND OF LONG ONE SORRY-

My thought:

. Due to official art they can both cook?

. Or one is teaching the other to cook?

. Mondo seems like the guy who can't cook (just based on appearance tbh) but with his backstory he's had to fend for himself, so can he cook???

. And with Ishimaru, he seems like the person who knows how to cook, and maybe his father is out so often that he's self taught?

. But on the other hand he's spent all his time studying he hasnt taught himself those kind of skills.. sure he can make two minute noodles, or cook an egg or make some toast. But nothing fancy?

. Or maybe breakfast is the most important meal of the day to him?!?!?! Maybe it's in his routine to cook every morning?!?! Maybe he makes food for his father when he comes home from late shifts, or has bacon and egg on Sundays???

. Or he's terrible in the kitchen, and mondo taught him.

Can they both cook? Have you ever thought about this?! Sorry for the long ramble of options but I've thought about this for a week and have no idea.😭

Uhm yeah I'm going to put this on anon in case it's silly or something, but you probably know who I am based on the notes and notifications and stuff👍

Also idk if shadow banning works on tumblr like it does tiktok but if you want me to stop spam liking your posts I will, I just love your content 😭

One: screaming rn I feel so happy I’ve never had my posts stalked /pos (except for my Ben 10 acct which is bad bc I’m making an ishimondo Ben 10 au)

Two: No need to stop!! Idm!! Tbh the thing that makes me happiest is seeing people go wild in the tags, so I’m v honored.

Three: I agree! I think Mondo isn’t the beeest cook, but if it comes to Italian meals (thanks to my own hc’s and my Oowada mom oc), he’s not that bad! Although he has a bad habit of letting things overcook… he’s the type to burn popcorn and insist it’s better that way.

As for Taka, I think he’s actually quite the skilled cook—but only with more basic options. Taka’s very rigid, so if he is able to cook something more extravagant, he’ll follow it by the book, and maybe even ask Teruteru for his input. (Ignoring comments Teruteru makes and Gundham glaring Teruteru down)

The only issue with Taka cooking is… he forgets to eat a lot. (And thanks to his grandad, he sometimes chooses not to eat because he dare take one extra minute of free time) That, and his food is either bland, or so spicy no one but him can eat it. A hot while back I saw @mickules mention in a post that Taka would be a spice fiend, and I. Live for that.

Also also—regarding system Taka bc I’m always gonna mention system Taka /j, Akira (aka Ishida) is actually an extremely talented baker! They aren’t super big on sweet food ironically, but they can make really good baked goods even with limited ingredients… though they prefer crunchier foods)

Additionally; Mondo can’t fucking make ramen. He just takes someone else’s. Taka can also make insanely good omurice. Proof for Taka bc I can’t find the anthology comic with Mondo:

[akookminsupporter]

Idk how much you agree with this but you are in the fandom longer than me so maybe you might have noticed this that the fandom definitely treats jikook different than other pairs. If i have to give recent example then it's when jm said "i miss you" and jk commented under it "me too" now everyone thought it's for armys then jk just went live and watched that cover then went with watching jm's content like he watched toughly around 90 mins of jimin's content. Now if this was jk watching nj content or any other member it would have been so much like "omg he's missing xyz", "omg he's so in love with xyz", "jk can't even be away from xyz for too long" and i saw only one big (not that big but like follower around 10k+) ot7 army acct saying that "i think jk is missing nd another one which is kind of jim biased acct saying"i think that miss you wasn't for us". Although armys were saying that"who's he exactly missing" under jk's me too translation post but yeah others were like he went live so he's missing amrys. Now I'm not stating that jk was missing jm but i do kind of think he was missing jm. Cause he didn't have to say that me too. He also said that "why you guys are commenting I'm not even reading" nd he actually didn't read any comments that time. Also saying that he has watched that pixid episode of jimin (mind u even i didn't watch it even the suchwita ep, he watched both before me) He didn't even talk much he was only paying attention to whatever he was watching.

Another one is everyone talking about jk changing colours during nj's part in gcfh but literally in the same video he changed colour for jm's part too. And let's not even start with gcft cause literally ONLY jkkrs talks about it and no big accts. U know initially i thought maybe they don't want to get into this jkk n tkk shipwars so they stay away from mentioning it but nahh i was hella wrong big accounts do talk about taekook like "boyfriends" this that type alot even when moment is nothing much. And u can always compare the likes to tkk post and jkk post by any big ot7 it will tell u alot. Every time any acct gets exposed they turned out to be tkkrs. It's like a record n clockwork at the point. We all know that tkk is the most popular ship and the fandom is filled with it and there's no denying it.

Sometimes i think they might be used to jkk doing these kind of things alot that they're at a point where nothing makes them feel it's out of the blue or if it's "boyfriend-ish" but every single compliment any other duo throw at e/o and they starts with their "they're flirting", "they're dating" bs. Them turning every normal interaction of any duo into this mess is very frustrating to me. And i actually don't even follow big accts Cause of many reasons but they still end up on my tl and i can still see their hypocrisy. It's like jikook have to do some extreme stuff and only then they'll ever talk about them in a sentence...

Oh Anon, are you a new army or jikooker? Because believe, we have been saying this since ever. You are literally preaching to the choir. What you described is nowadays call the jikook oti7icacion.

[endcant]

tw for mentioning transmisogyny and suicidal ideation, but this is mostly a long uninteresting wall of text about my evening of browsing the dying internet

fascinated by this twitter scam thing using bought profiles all pretending to be twoc from the UK. i know this sounds like just completely run of the mill dead internet shit. everything is scammers and bots and no real people. but i’m interested and it’s my blog so whatever.

i got dmed by a profile (pretty unassuming hello message but i have no mutual connections so i was like ok time to see if there’s any likelihood this person would actually have any business messaging me) and noticed a clone in her followers. identical profile except for the name.

here’s the bio: ✨ one day your entire life will flash in front of your eyes; make sure it is worth watching. ✨ | 23 | UK (unfortunately) | cat 🐈 lady | she/her ⚧️ |

that’s a pretty specific description for two different women to have

i was like ok time to look up this description. unfortunately all major sites are trash now, so the IDENTICAL DESCRIPTIONS turned up no useful results, but searching just the first part of the url linked in each of their identical bios turned up more twitter profiles. (not sharing that url yet for reasons youll see later)

all were accounts set up in the 2010s with random retweets, seemingly left to sit since 2018, but they were activated on election day to retweet like 1 woke post a day.

what disturbs me is that all of them have a pinned tweet that’s some variation on the sentiment of “idk why conservatives think being gay is a choice i’ve been suicidal my whole life”. this is the non-identical part of the accounts, the pin expressing internalized transmisogyny and homophobia to the degree of suicidal ideation. either someone is using a completely non-moderated AI for this, they’re copying tweets made by real LGBT people, or they’re coming up with their own suicidal lgbt people posts.

the one post on the internet about it is a reddit post that says in the google result that it’s an “amazon scam” and it was deleted, so the content of the post is not visible. but ppl in the comments shared screenshots of other accounts like this that have been deleted, though the accounts in this post were activated and dming people 6 months ago rather than in the election. before the election their pinned posts were about how lucky lgbt kids are these days to receive so much love and support. one comment posted DMs and the bot/scammer was asking for $10 to help with rent.

ultimately the actual actions are not unusual at all. lazy scammers making identical accounts to dm from, relying on the brokenness of most search sites (including the built in search on twitter) to cover their tracks.

however, the interest to me comes from the fact that all of them link to a seemingly possibly real blog owned by a cis white male professional in the UK who i found on linkedin. i’m wondering if the scammers link to his blog because it’s not obviously connected to a specific personality and because the url for it seems nebulously woke. but all of it could be fake, right?

in which case, i’m amazed by the idea that a person set up a fake DEI blog, published a book on amazon linking to it, and linked it to a (his?) linkedin account belonging to an imaginary DEI trainer with the same name as the book author. and then they set up a bunch of at first envious and now weirdly self-hating twitter accts to get money from sympathetic people. i would consider this to be a low effort AI grift if the blog didn’t have posts from the 2010s as well that have innocuous writing. i remember waves of regular markov chain text bot generated fake content back then, and that was certainly not this. but even as a low effort AI grift to sell a low effort DEI book on amazon it’s just an absolutely insane set of tactics. anyway, why not make the fake linkedin account match the literally identical twitter accounts?

but the most interesting scenario in my mind is that this scam is completely unrelated to this guy and they just chose his blog to make it seem like their dozens of identical suicidal woke OCs were writers for a real site with a woke sounding name. and it’s entirely possible this guy is a real DEI worker who did real trainings for the real NHS thru the 2010s and he is selling his real book on his real expertise thru amazon. and his real actual DEI training blog is being linked to again and again by scammers who like to spend a good amount of time roleplaying as suicidal twoc from the UK. in which case, holy shit, i wonder if he knows.

anyway i’m gonna message him on linkedin.

[starryjkoo]

https://www.tumblr.com/starryjkoo/764070968826200064/why-did-you-delete-your-post-about-the-protect?source=share

Nah you don't even post that much about Fandom stuff so no idt you're being chronically online for saying that in fact these kinda things don't see light if people don't comment on it. One actually doesn't even need to be chronically online to see how things work in fandom. I was actually going to reply to it cause i agreed but when i tried to find it later it was already gone. so just Letting you know that i agreed with your post.

They have suspended Multiple tae antis but all jm antis are getting more followers and engagements. If these accounts can suspend dispatch account I'm pretty sure they can get rid off jm antis too but it comes to the will to do it and seems like there isn't much in that protect GC when it comes to jimin. Just saw how they didn't ask to report solos on a tweet regarding jm and Sabrina where Tkkrs and KTHs were dragging jm and the post was up for 4 days but they made one immediately for tae when same happened with him (posts regarding both solos should have been made but it came ONLY after op made tweet for Sabrina and tae), then yesterday all tkkrs were dragging jm because jin wished him happy bday and because he mentioned jkk calling him together but all this acct did first was post all jm solos who were dragging jm and Only made post for Tkkr after multiple ppl tagging them regarding Tkkrs dragging jm.

Few days ago an admin for the FB acct @Bts_beyond_army or something like that was the name got exposed for being a Tkkr who follows vile jm antis, interacts with all NSFW tkkrs even asked if humanlouvre needs any help because one of her account got suspended and then people wonder why humanlouvre ain't getting suspended like why would she when most of her followers are in fact armys? Like imagine running a BTS FB that makes tags and helps in other projects for boys, who's in a group with 200+ FBS or something being a vile tkkr as well?

A few days ago everyone was like"They're painting tae as villain" when jimin called the guest but as soon as jin teased jimin yesterday it's "Solos don't understand jokes" but no one said the same thing for jm. Even armys made tweets Saying how they're making tae look like he's unwanted and let everyone drag jm.

This is what goes on in Fandom but when you try to voice it out all you get in return is lectures about how those people are not armys those are antis lol. Idk when people are going to be upfront about what goes on in Fandom like every single time when there's a hate campaign against jm it always comes to light because his solo fans report on it. I never got any reports regarding jm first from armys it's always his solo FB (the 3-4 i follow) and then hrs or days later armys make tweet regarding it.

Won't lie but as a jimin bias it definitely feels suffocating in the Fandom. it feels the same as how you always have to trend tags or tag hybe to give jimim bare minimum when he releases music while hybe gives them easily to others. Same with armys you always have to ask them again and again, tag them and then once in a while you'll get them move for jm

Sorry for my rant as well but it really feels helpless there 😔

Helpless is exactly how I feel too, that’s the perfect way to put it. It’s just so frustrating because I tried REALLY hard to be involved in the ARMY community and just ended up being filled with so much bitterness and resentment. I have no idea how any Jimin biased can stand it there. And I agree with everything you said 100%, always feel free to send me long paragraphs or fandom vents 😭 Going to apologize for this whole essay, but yeah, this last year especially has really killed most of the goodwill I felt towards this fandom.

The last BTS report account was run by a group of TH biased tkkrs and that YoongiPD account who is a YG-diet and JM anti (they “left” being admin at one point, but they were involved) that “Bocia” person if you know who I’m talking about was also involved and they’re a JK-diet and tkkr (idk if they’re still around tbh). This report page followed like seven or so focused report accounts for TH, several for YG and other members and NONE for JM. They ended up setting JM up from info they got from tkkrs on IG and doubled down (after initially apologizing) and all the shooter accounts got super defensive and were backing up this fake info too, it was ridiculous.

I politely asked why they weren’t following any JM protect pages and I got blocked by several of these people and I promise you my account was fully ARMY, no shippers, no diets, no weird victimization posts. It really ticked me off. They had posted who some of the admins were before this and they were literally all just TH diets/tkkrs so it was easy to tell what was going on.

One of them was in a GC where someone was bragging about getting people to drop all the charting songs except for THs and JH’s, they insulted CTT, and were complaining about LC in the US. Again, an admin of that report account was in this GC, but their friends didn’t cancel them. These people always defend each other while being the first to point their fingers at JM biased and jkkrs.

They were all friends with that random tkkr account too who was called out for following a bunch of JM antis and then they were like, “using a unit name doesn’t make you a shipper!” and they and their moots proceeded to spam tkk moments and joke about it. Meanwhile they were spouting tkk narratives and reading tkk fanfic and following actual shippers, making a thousand defense posts for tkk (ofc none for jkk), following and interacting with JM antis, but apparently they’re not a shipper?

This group runs report accounts, shooter accounts, big accounts, chart accounts, meme accounts, update accounts, just whatever, they’re everywhere. And when one of them gets called out they just back each other up. And THAT’S why JM related accounts always face the most scrutiny, because who gets called out is just based on whichever faction is currently running most of the shooter/report accounts and it’s never jkkrs/JM biased.

IDK what happened to that account, it got suspended by boycotters and they remade but I never kept up with them (I just blocked most of those people and moved on tbh). But I KNOW these same people are all over that current protect accounts GCs because if you notice ANY time they call out a tkkr they HAVE to make a report on jkkrs even if it doesn’t make sense, and they always add shady captions. Like what is this lmao???? 😭

They just made up a whole new sentence, the shady admin note, the “TH snatching JK from JM” which is a tkkrs wet dream, pretending that jkkrs are threatened by tkk or something. They deleted the post, and this isn’t the first time they’ve done something super weird like this. And if you want my conspiracy on this, I think it’s because that account had several hit tweets on “why I believe jkk are real” and I fully believe that’s why they were targeted lol. Because choosing that account was so random?

I talked about this in another post but the best way to gain a bunch of followers quickly on ARMYtwt is to get very involved in whatever fandom crisis/drama is going on at the time, such as MHJ/the cult stuff/YG situation/boycott situation. That’s exactly what this report account did, they’re clearly YG biased and suddenly gained 20k followers in a month because they were providing helpful info about that situation. I don’t think they ever revealed their main account and that’s why I’ll never trust these accounts that pop up out of nowhere and suddenly gain mass followings (and they were constantly interacting with a well known problematic YG biased account too). IDK if that account admin is entirely bad or anything, and I appreciated some of their helpful stuff for YG, but I know what their GC is full of at the very least.

Anyways, I sat and watched especially the last few weeks leading up to AYS (and after the first two eps) how the hate for Jimin and Jikook just got SO out of control, just insane, and there were hardly ANY ARMY report tweets for it. The Jimin hate is just so normalized in this fandom, they never move, they’re never surprised or outraged by it anymore. Suddenly TH joins the show and is getting hated on by jkkrs and it was ALL over ARMY twitter. Like my moots who never talk about shipping drama were ratio-ing jkkrs (some of whom were just being shady about him being a guest which is hardly as bad as what they were saying about JM/Jikook). And the fact they were freaking out about flop jkkr tweets with like 500 likes while ignoring all the tkk tweets that had thousands of likes? It was just really frustrating to see the different responses.

And omg yes, the fact that “ARMYs” were literally talking about BH editing the show to be shady towards TH and make him look unwanted was INSANE! They were literally backing up tkk narratives, narratives that have done untold damage towards Jimin for years, and these weren’t tkkrs, these were ARMY accounts! Some that are very active in the community. Why weren’t ARMYs clocking these people? Do they ACTUALLY buy into the whole BH pushes Jikook thing? It’s just so tiring, you’re right. I see BS like this allllllll the time.

But it’s why I just got so mad when ARMYs a few months ago were talking about being BTS’s shield and how they have to protect BTS. It’s this obsession with MHJ or other fandoms, going on and on about how ARMYs are their shield and all this self-righteousness. But the audacity to claim that when the call is coming from inside the house, when the rot and the worst damage has come from INSIDE the fandom for years now?

If they protected BTS then tk-lives wouldn’t have 500k followers. The massive platforms tkkrs have are INSANE and they were just left to grow that big while spewing insane things about Jimin/Jikook (JK too, even TH) for years and years and ARMYs didn’t want to do anything about it, even when their insanity has actually impacted offline, real life stuff. That is the BIGGEST source of danger and damage to the fandom and to the BTS members, not MHJ, not kmedia, not Tokki’s! It’s akgaes and shippers (especially tkkrs). But ARMYs have literally just ignored it for years now?

One example is just straight up how they ignored the role that akages and shippers played in the way Jimin was harassed during FACE era and how all the drags that now get regularly thrown around (SA insults, sleeping with PDs for remixes, tagging Spotify etc) came from SOLOS during FACE era, because they just wanted to blame it entirely on kpop stans. They acted like it came out of nowhere during Seven era and not just that PJMs were parroting exactly what JJKs were saying about JM during FACE era (and I’m NOT justifying PJMs being vile back towards JK. It's just bizarre how many ARMYs were entirely oblivious during FACE era).

Then there’s the whole situation with Jimin’s dad. Literally akgaes and tkkrs started spreading that whole narrative attacking him because of AYS and Who. Kmedia picked up on it, and maybe because of the ongoing smear campaign on BTS they were looking for things to write about, but WHERE do they think that journalist got that info? The way that ARMYs were getting hit tweets blaming it ENTIRELY on MHJ was insanity. They LOVE themselves an easy villain they can rally against, but it almost feels like they straight up cover up for tkkrs and solos sometimes?

If they actually cared about protecting Jimin, wouldn’t they want to go after the original source of that? But no, just wanted hit tweets on MHJ and sensationalizing that because they are OBSESSED with her right now (don’t get me wrong, I obviously hate her too). They’re just so drama addicted, but they never actually care about the BTS members or they would do something about a HUGE source of hurt that’s been there for years. They don’t want to put in the hard work to clean up our fandom, they just want to fight with other fandoms or be loud and feel important, or bury their heads in the sand because they don’t want to deal with this mess.

And you’re right, it pisses me off so bad when you call this out and they’re like “they’re not part of our fandom!”. That's SUCH BS 😭 they ARE part of our fandom, you can’t just wash your hands from the things you don’t like. Literally most of those tkkrs have little sevens, or a lot of solos are ex-ARMYs, or ARMYS follow and interact with them or are diets. How many ARMYs are shippers and read fanfic and AUs and follow duo accounts that are clearly run by shippers? It was ARMYs in line buying that tk fanfiction in Paris. ARMYs make up the following for most of these accounts too. I mean, damn, a big shooter account I saw was exposed for interacting with that Jay/Mina person last year, someone we’ve been asking to report NONSTOP, but no, shippers are totally not part of our fandom right?

I swear I’m not even THAT chronically online lol 😭 but it’s just… hard not to witness this stuff if you’re active in the fandom at all? I mean, maybe it’s just my algorithm on my priv, but it doesn’t take much to see all this going on ESPECIALLY if you’re Jimin biased or a jkkr, if you follow any report accounts at all, so I’ll never understand how some of them are so content in this fandom when to me it’s mostly trash 😭

There are a handful of ARMY accounts I super respect, and I know the twt community and all of this is not always representative of the majority, but pretty much any fandom space you walk into is just full of this kind of stuff and it’s exhausting. You can build yourself a nice little community to have fun and retain your sanity, but if you want to be part of the larger ARMY fanbase? It’s just so toxic and biased. And I’m not even getting into the drama about their solo releases because that is ANOTHER whole thing 😭 there’s also probably a thousand more examples of ARMYs being hypocritical on top of everything you listed too (just remembered the whole situation with that k-fanbase ugh).

Sorry this is so long, just going to quickly throw out that I know ARMYs can be weird to ALL the members, every bias has something legit to complain about, but I just firmly believe that for a few reasons (some of which I’ve talked about here before, like seeing JM as a goalpost, shippers and so on) the fandom has the weirdest attitude towards Jimin. And that’s not to say I don’t call out when ARMYs are being awful to the others either, like it was actually insane and very sad how they treated JK over that post about NewJean’s, the way they hyped up those dating “rumors” about Namjoon and gave hit tweets on that while not supporting his music and so on.

I try not to let all this get to me TOO often because these people spend all their time being manipulative in stan spaces and trying to cosplay and whatever, but look at the actual charts 😭 Jimin has a LOT of support and a LOT of people who love him. Jimin lovers might not be great at cosplaying and manipulating and running ARMY big accounts, but damn they are at least good at streaming and supporting music, and that’s about a thousand times more valuable at the end of the day. Lots of ARMYs just passively interact with fandom and don't see any of this either. And all this stuff just kind of disappears when you logoff, sometimes I give it more importance than it actually holds, but I do find it annoying lol.

It’s definitely exhausting and suffocating though, and it does feel just super helpless in this fandom sometimes like you said. I definitely do not feel any loyalty towards ARMYs at this point. I’m here for Jimin, JK, BTS on my own terms and just follow who I like, I don’t really care about what the fandom at large thinks or any of their projects, and I’m beyond caring about backlash and I’ll just say what I think if people ask. It’s obvious to see why the fandom has deteriorated the way it has and ARMYs have no one to blame but themselves honestly. I just hope things improve when BTS returns.

[mrs-monaghan]

Do you have any opinions on the angryjikooker acct? Obviously, theres nothing wrong with them sharing their opinions (i mean that’s what we are all doing here), but sometimes, i read their posts and im just like what are you even doing here? Their recent posts just seem to be centered on disproving jikook and policing jikook shippers, as opposed idk enjoying the potential moments. I get being skeptical and i understand how bias works, but idk, it just annoys me when jikookers(?) give fuel to tkkrs.

Interesting. She's definitely interesting. I don't agree with alot of things she says, of course. But I like reading her takes because even though she's not a Jikooker at least she gets why we think Jikook could be together.

I also like reading from people who don't believe but give opinions without hating on any member, u know? Coz I like to understand different people and where their heads are at. If I knew of a logical tkkr out there i would genuinely love to have a mature conversation. Just to understand why they feel how they feel.

So... yeah. I actually follow the angry Jikooker. I know many people who definitely don't like her and I get it but I'm not bothered by her.

Insecure Jikookers are shit heads anyway and they will be insecure no matter what. So let her blog on her blog in peace 😁😁

[funkpoppos]

anyways updates for anyone who’s still here from the good ol days

I have become vtuber brain rotted and I’m goin to school for 3D animation 👍🏽

I lowkey made a lil vtuber model but I’m too busy to actually do anything with it ;;;

Also witch hat atelier is loml and qifrey is my everything

Considering giving my twt moots this acct to follow in case the bird site goes down fr but idk

[struggle-but-its-all-ocean-floor]

I'd simply say it's the difference in timeline cause i have seen ALOT of tweets during seven as well as Golden as well as fri(end)s as well as rpwp and during HOTS too. it's the same accts tweeting. Most difference would come from solos and ppl who has biases. For example i follow this one acct on twitter and they seems to be rl bias. During rl's music i saw them tweeting so many times about everything regarding the album like streaming, records, achivements, sales, analysis etc etc. but now during MUSE release i have seen just two tweets from them. one was "I love when jm dances" and another was "I want the acoustic version now" that's it nothing else at all. they talk more about what's going on in k-pop than the current album at hand. I see more tweets of mhj nd hybe drama from them than anything related to jm but as long as U're not hating on the I'm fine.

That's one of the reason in many others.

One thing i have also noticed is the more you make records the more tweets are there on the tl. in past i used to interact with big army accts so i used to see them on my tl alot but now i don't nd i hardly see them on my tl and I'm pretty fine with it. idk if they're talking about muse or not even lol.

About the treating jm underrated artist so pushing him more then I'll say all this time armys have underestimated jm. despite knowing he's atleast 3rd popular member all i have seen during face is how great and big jungkook and taehyung's solo albums are going to do. i have seen comments under jm's achivements as "This is just jm now imagine how jk and Tae's albums will do, oh they gonna EAT" from literally army chart update accounts and I'm swearing on whatever god i belive i have seen those comments from big accts as wel as other armys. None of them were expecting jm to do well and be that first korean soloist to get #1 on Spotify, #1 on hot100, #1 billboard artists. i remember this one pjm getting dragged in their qts by again update accts when that pjm said let's get jm #1 on hot100 and all armys up in their qts were laughing at them saying it's impossible for solo members to get it. i have seen one update+ shooter acct saying "girl it's good to aim high but let's be realistic now but do you know who can give us that #1 hot 100 ? jk x jb" lol these were the comments i have seen during face and i won't forget how everyone undermined jm's chart success despite him always doing the best chart wise among all members. Armys goal for jm was never #1 but it was top 60 on hot 100, it's only when they saw prediction acct's prediction they thought we have chance so I'll always give a big chunk of success of that #1 to jm's solos than armys. Not saying armys didn't help of course they did.

About jkk then there's nothing more for me to add cause what you're saying is what it is, has always been. wished it would change along the years but it never did and after chapt2 it's never going to change but has fuelled more hatred towards jm and jk together is all.

It might be my timeline. I follow Jikook and that one famous Jimin dance accounts so my "For You" page actually has a surprising number of Jimin solos. But I'm not fully convinced about your point. The members do not all get the same attention. ML and Yoongi get more support and enthusiasm for sure. People are not mass buying and streaming at the same level. Obviously, the most popular members have stronger solo fanbases, but even ot7 Armys are biased and there is a lot more enthusiasm for releases Armys know can break records vs. those that have no shot.

About underestimating Jimin, you're right, because his fanbase (solos + Jimin biased) is much stronger than I thought. But I disagree with some of your points. It's natural that Armys didn't expect that #1, but they moved fast when they realized there was a shot. They wouldn't have aimed for a #1 with JK either had he released Golden first. And after Face did so well, it's also kind of natural to expect that Golden and Layover could do better, because the fandom generally improves and achieves more with each win (at least for ml). Golden did do better than Face and Layover did pretty well for that kind of album tbh. The company also more or less improves with each cb.

But thanks for sharing your opinion. I still don't know what's real or not because it depends a lot on what you see on Twitter, but it's true that I misjudged the power of a strong solo (+Jimin biased) fanbase.

[cardboardboxcomplex]

ok since i’m awake and useless, might as well

it’s 4AM on a monday at this point and i do *not* want to go to work. but i have to hhrghshfd HAAAAAA ok breathe . i skipped last week’s shift that i was supposed to go to the lab. i completely disappeared for the *third* time during my two-week wfh shift before that. when we were supposed to do the third quarter report, and the proposal. which are the hardest reports to do, bc they’ll be the basis for renewal next year. but i just ... disappeared again and did not open my emails or messages. again. after i did that twice before. and i had to go through the process of like apologizing to everyone for my absence, and i even decided to tell everyone that i have depression cos i dont know how to explain it ! why am i like this ! and i know it’s not an excuse, and i told them that too. but i just hate everything . okay i think im getting to word dump now. how many times am i going to be so incapable and incompetent? i hate myself so much cos my brain is so fried and i dont want to deal with anything . when was the last time i actually thought deeply or whatever or like read a journal article. and i dont even know what im supposed to be doing anymore.  i feel so sad. oh im crying ok. like im thinking of myself and how do i go on with life, what am i supposed to be doing, what kind of path should i be making. i hate this because i lost years of my life and i keep losing more time. and omfg right the paper. man i didnt even reply to sir’s emails either, and i know ate yana and josh had talked and i was supposed to be there too because im supposed to be the main one to finish her thesis for publication, and it’s already been a year? since she left the lab. had i done anything? i did not

and tomorrow is nov 10, and im supposed to do thesis updates ......... how the fuck am i gonna do that. and i had already missed the first time i was scheduled, bc well the same thing happening now. i was wfh (supposedly) and ate isay had to say my internet connection isnt stable. which wasnt a lie, but it was bc i didn’t do anything. i dont know what im supposed to come up with tomorrow. or if i can postpone it again. SEE THIS IS EXACTLY IT HOW MANY TIMES AM I GONG TO BE INCAPABLE AND INCOMPETENT

i dont know like im scared of being in the lab too and all i wanna do is stay in my room 

but you know what i dont even like my room. i miss my old room, i miss all my books, i miss all the memories i left there as in the physical things i’ve kept because i keep everything. full on bawling now. i miss having everything i’ve kept near me, with me. i miss my desk, i miss having one. and i hate my room because i haven’t cleaned my room in MONTHS. idk since march, since quarantine started? i can barely see the floor and i have to walk around all the bags with all stuff thrown in them. and honestly im just desensitizing (?) myself bc if i think too much if i look too closely im gonna throw up and i hate it i hate it . on that note i’ve been thinking i might in a constant state of dissociation, or at least a shallow one? i never thought i really dissociated bc i didnt really get the feeling of being apart from your body. but because it’s been going on for so long it didn’t even register to me that i’m dissociating because it feels normal or the baseline. and my memory recall is so bad, i don’t remember what happened the previous day. why? because i’m not even doing anything. or idk. also my attention span is non-existent. but the memory thing bothers me because i dont even know if i remember things from before before, in the past, not recently

before i forgot about the room, i was supposed to have pest control last oct 20? and it was scheduled like first week of october so i knew it was coming. but did i clean my room? in those weeks between? i didnt. i’d been putting it off exactly because my room is a mess and id ont want anyone to come in like this. so i had to postpone that too, and the next one is tomorrow. did i clean my room since then? no. what have i been doing? i dont know either. literally rotting away. and i feel so bad cos i m not even doing anything. i dont even know what. i cant get myself to do anything

what if someone helps me clean? i don’t want anyone to help me clean because i dont want anyone to see my room. ate isay was supposed to help me on that sunday or monday before oct 20 but the plan was i was going to start cleaning saturday so at least if she comes up to help, it wouldnt be so disgusting. but yeah i did not clean. and now it’s november. you know the last time i ironed my clothes? september. last year. september 1, 2019. i remember because that was jungkook’s birthday, but also i was ironing when i got the messages from someone when they were leaving me and didnt want (?) to be friends with me anymore. and that broke me really bad. but not the point rn. 

i dont know what else im thinking. oh i miss my friends. kosestream, if you’re reading this, yes i’m thinking of you too, and i’m really sorry. im so sorry ive kept disappearing on you guys for months. i’ve missed you and so many parts of your life, and im really really i wasnt there. and bc i don’t talk with you often, and with my awful memory, i also forget what’s been going on and it makes me feel awful because like i miss all these things about you? i always thought that i had kept tabs on everyone well, paying attention to what you’re doing, ask how things are with you, and now i dont. and im sorry. i always miss you so much, and i love you, and i dont know if that still means anything to you, but it’s still there. so thank you for inviting me to play among us, i liked hearing your voices. and i know you were worried about me (if im wrong this is embarrassing please ignore this) and were trying to cheer me up / offering your support/presence/love/shoulder/hug idk. so thank you. it meant a lot to me (but im sorry my internet was awful. honestly that stressed me out so much and i was gonna give up because i felt annoying and like a huge bother) but okay thank you 

and it’s the same with irl friends, missing things. i thought of it once as everything passing (by) me. like when neos had left for germany, i wasnt there. why? because i was rotting away at home doing nothing. i didnt even get to say goodbye. and just the same with everyone, i havent been talking with anyone. there are so many messages i’ve gotten i haven’t (didn’t) replied to, and it’s like god how are they. 

what else. ah there’s another thing i’ve thought of. but idk i’ll write that next time 

it’s monday, and it’s almost 5am now, i’m supposed to go to work. i have to text ate isay if she’s gonna pass by and pick me up. but i havent slept because i completely fucked up my sleeping schedule. and my room is still a mess. no i did not even try cleaning it even though i had been thinking about it literally every single day. should i just not sleep or should i try getting like an hour of sleep , and hope i wake up (actually, would love to not wake up, ever)

09 Nov 2020, M, 05:02 BTS – Butterfly (Alternative Mix) 

[landofgay]

the mentally ill urge to remove people from your follower list on instagram

[puppyluvstummies]

hey fatties !! 💕💕

idk what’s up with tumblr’s algorithm where ur acct can just grow and grow and grow even if you hardly use it, but just last night this blog passed 2k followers!!

again, i don’t know HOW this happened but thank you to everyone who hit follow. it really means a lot to me bc of course this kink isn’t super accepted everywhere or by everyone and there’s so many misconceptions about it that it’s definitely hard to express this kink without being ridiculed for one reason or another. when i first realized i had this kink i was worried i was the only non-man in the world who liked it, or that i’d never find anyone to talk about this stuff with. it’s amazing that i can share my fantasies with you guys and you actually agree, and i see so much cool content from y’all as well. i love this community despite its flaws and i can’t wait to interact with y’all more! my asks are always open and feel free to dm me (as long as ur age is in ur bio) if you just wanna chat, you guys are really amazing and i hope you get to eat a bunch of doughnuts today (or fill someone else up with doughnuts) 💕

[shyampyari]

hi so um im just gonna say this

people started a skull emoji thing where they would go i don't like t user so and so

you didn't do it so sorry but i want to say this

i don't like vee, tee, alima, kansha/cunsha whichever it is, jugn00's new blog who something

now people are saying that my reason (they don't answer asks same as anon sent to ravememcoi [not exact url]) isn't valid cause they don't owe me anything and they don't have to reply to asks

but 1. its annoying to send people asks and not have them answered when you know they are receiving them and it's just compliments and also 2. they go around writing all this love poetry and aren't willing to drop a topic that came up ages ago (can't remember url but vee something url started this again for no reason)

now you'll say BUT THEY DON'T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING TO PLEASE YOU WHY DON'T YOU GET IT

but understand that i am not obligated to like or not dislike them either and since you didn't mention it i am not obliged to you to not mention that i dislike your mutuals

also people are saying you need to deactivate your acct cause your personality is bad and just 1. she doesn't need to do anything to please you same as vee, tee, mirrorvid etc 2. press block and stfu

also i don't care much for the people that started this again

they started it knowing that this would happen and if they had just chosen to not answer the anons starting this again it wouldn't have happened and again, their chioce to post abt whatever they want but my choice to not love you

i remember trying to send one of them anons for a while because i wanted to be friends and when she finally replied to my ask she just basically insulted me and started correcting my grammar

it was not a mean or hate anon these people just want excuses to prove they are better than everyone else and if someone get's their hands on this they will for sure start correcting this ask like an english answer script

i am actually glad they started their mutuals only blogs

at least the rest of the world now knows that they shouldn't interact with them or they will be treated badly

DAMN ANON PREACH.

But I actually have more to say lmao fjfnnxn

This has to be the shittiest ask game that has happened in a while and tbh i didn't want to interact with this game for the same reason.

I wouldn't want to post about blogs that i have never interacted with because idk what they are really like to hate on them and if my moots were being attacked, id take that very personally. Because I wouldn't disregard an anon with a valid point even if its against my own moot. There are people we dislike and people we can't stand and what should we do? Walk awayeyaeya and avoid drama instead of causing it :/

im literally just trying to vibe here 🧍🏻‍♀️

people need to stop being obsessed with me fr fr

Yk whats the worst part about these asks tho? This was a chance to actually consider your own mutuals and their internet and social presence and validate or question their actions. But what happened? 'Not my mutuals 😭😭😭😭' ig it's time you consider your mutuals are toxic sis

Ik some mutuals (mine) that have been around interacting with posts and blogs that are very vocal about hating and getting me off the internet lmao but here's my take from this: this is a social platform and what I do with it is my fucking business. It was, at a point, ok for people to make hate comments about someone because they thought only their circle of clowns was seeing it so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

nonynom beloved would you believe me if i said ive been there? I actually wanted to be moots with someone and we followed each other a day before the discourse happened and BOOM no words exchanged they blocked me and then a mutual of mine sent me an ss of something they said about me, so bestie just consider it a bullet dodged, at least now you know you don't want to interact with someone.

Bro if they really did that, thats pretty sticky smh 2/10 would not recommend such an interaction

again, im not a part of this 'skull anon' bs, im answering this ask as an ask because id respect anyone that would take out time to talk to me tbh

[bisluthq]

Like your ass is DRUNK and arguing on behalf of people who search up a D- list celebrity regularly hoping he breaks up with his girlfriend like either you are also weird (your job wouldn’t preclude you from being weird) or you’re drunk //

okay girly but like your blog is BUILT on the “weirdos” who do this shit. the ppl who track socials and track jets. and may I say that tracking jets is soooo much fucking weirder than searching a name on a public insta acct but u seem to never have a prob w the jet tracking anons. like yes im grateful for the anons that do this because it gives us tea to talk about and content for your literal fucking blog!

Jet tracking Taylor Swift’s jets is much less weird imo than looking up who Eanna Hardwicke follows off his unverified fucking Insta, dude. Taylor Swift is a MAJOR fucking celebrity. She is one of the most famous people in the world. All popular public figures with private jets - KarJenners, Elon, Drake, Bey and Jay, etc - have the jets tracked because it’s actually of public interest where they go.

People set up alerts to track to know where these public figures are. It’s literally not even a lot of work.

Going onto Eanna’s page, when you don’t follow it ergo are clearly not a big enough fan of Alison to take an interest in her boyfriend or anything and when you don’t know anything about him, and to then search whether or not he is still with his girlfriend when we KNOW that last week they were together so NOTHING suggests drama, is fucking DUMB dude. Like it *is* idk what to tell you.

Again, I’m being nice because I feel like I’ve had weirder hills I’ve died on while drunk but like *this was strange* I’m sorry but it is. As I’ve said, you AGREE. You’re like “obviously I don’t do this normally” and like ⭐️ have a gold star congrats for being kinda normal within the parameters of us all being weird. Why are you dying on a hill for people who are regularly obsessing over a D- Irish celeb they actively do not give a shit about and who also don’t have the critical thinking to search/sleuth properly and stop at the clickbait of “HERE’S THE TEA!!!”

That’s bad sleuthing and a weird premise for an investigation to begin with.

[bearmustard]

Hi Clare! I've been listening to your podcast and I love that there's a lot of talk about the bears there so I thought I'd ask you, right now there's a lot of accs on Twitter trying to be like them and make people think is all happening again and I know I know is all fake but like idk how to explain why?? Like why can we trust the bears but not all these accs?? My actual question is what was the one thing that made you realize the bears were actually Louis and Harry and not someone random??

Oh nonnie, you really know how to fire me up! Welcome to my favourite topic in all of Larrie fandom. Not the bears, per say, (though I love them with my entire being and they are the thing that kept me a larrie when shit got really hard and confusing) but about thinking critically about how communication is happening, what that looks like, and how we can separate the wheat from the chaff, so to speak, when it comes to weighing up evidence. 

A quick note - I am wary of the phrase ‘do your research’, especially since it’s become the catch-cry of conspiracy groups like Q etc etc. I believe that you should research, and consider the expert opinions (in this case, a combination of expert evidence, veteran larries’ experience, information from H & L themselves) but human beings are pattern seekers, and there is only so much ‘research’ will tell you, before your brain starts looking for patterns in the smallest things to create a narrative, and that’s not always how real life works. So you have to kind of hold two things in your mind - the first is that we will never know the full story, or even a fraction of it. (Maybe one day we’ll get a tell all, but I’m not holding my breath). The second thing to keep in mind is that real life is messy as fuck, and often stranger than fiction, and things that are TOO neat are things you want to investigate/think critically about/maintain a healthy suspicion about. 

So to your first question - how do you know all of those accts are fake in your gut? Often it’s because they are TOO neat. They line up too well with the story people are telling, which is rarely what the story is. It gets a lot of clout at the time, but long term it doesn’t make sense. I arrived in this fandom at the tail-end of the @goodbyeadulthood phenom, where anybody making any kind of sensible, evidence based theory was called a plant (mostly jokingly) (mostly) so I guess being able to see that this has all happened before gives me a bit of perspective when it comes to excitement about “insider accounts”. Accts like CBO and hscox94 have very clear patterns - they are ridiculously vague, they almost never predict (always following, not leading, events), and they conveniently change/adapt their story to the prevailing winds of fandom opinion. 

How we know the bears were the real deal then? I mean, honest answer is we really can’t ever know, but there is compelling evidence that they were. @tellmethisisnotlove has an excellent masterpost (that I just realised feature some of my own theories, lol) on how the bears link to 1D, and specifically to Harry and Louis. 

What people forget, though, because it’s been accepted fandom lore for so long, but many larries were not convinced that it was Harry and Louis themselves at the time. It’s only with hindsight that the majority agree. We knew they were connected to the band. RBB definitely started from (probably) Josh Devine, probably as a joke, because he created the first twitter acct, but it was very different in tone from what the bears would become. 

RBB really was just considered a cute tour mascot, and that only started to change in the Europe leg of the OTRA tour. Coincidently, this was after the 2 month break where BG was set up, H & L were separated, and L had a bunch of behind the scenes stuff going on with Sony and SYCO. Prior to this, H & L had been less cryptic in their resistance (big gay war of 2014 anyone?) and had paid a heavy, heavy price. 

So in Europe, RBB gets a pal, and all of a sudden, they’re being dressed up, usually in the same costume (this is why he was called Teddy Mercury to start) and was just a fun thing to watch out for. They were linked to the band (any roadie you talk to says there’s no fucking way they wouldn’t be signed off by the band) but not in a tangible way. 

It got really nuts in July (which, in my head, is when Louis takes over the bears fully, with Harry) for the US leg. This is when big money starts being spent, the scenes get way more elaborate, they start using the blue and green (and red) stickers, and they start featuring props about closeted gay artists, or famous people who had to hide a secret, or sony flip phones (you get the gist). My recollection is that it wasn’t until Vancouver, and the KD Lang book, that the fandom started thinking the Bears were telling us anything, and then we went back and with hindsight realised there were small references to events. 

Even then, there was extremely healthy skepticism in the fandom about the bears being directly from Louis and Harry until much later, when in London they had the blue and green spotlights and the ‘Love Larry’ picture. You can hear in the podcast ep the week we finally feel like we can say for sure it’s Louis (and we are hysterical about it) and that’s the week of Belfast, the countdown, the newcastle gay bar, and the reflection of Louis’ shirt in RBB’s sunglasses. That’s in OCTOBER. Nearly FIVE MONTHS of RBB and SBB leaving us cryptic clues and getting more and more elaborate. Five months of people (including die hard RBB fans like myself) constantly doubting themselves as to whether it really meant something. Moreover, the interview where they are asked about it was December, and so for many that was the final piece of the puzzle, so we forget now that there was so much uncertainty about how much we could trust it. 

Even now, there are things that we haven’t figured out about the bears, that suddenly make sense when something from the time is revealed, and that has been happening since hiatus. 

And that’s my answer - TLDR - that hindsight, critical thinking/understanding, and context are what tells us the bears are the real deal, and were orchestrated by Louis and Harry in response to events and pressures behind the scenes. That they found a way to support and encourage their LGBT fans (and allies) in a year where a lot of things were awful. Those bears were the goddamn light in the tunnel, showing us a way to understand.