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i was born today
#genuinely idk what to think right now#its just a number and im not sad im getting old#im sad that i feel like i wasted my 20s being too sad and too scared doing anything and im still scared and sad#and i thought i would be dead sooner lmao#so uh... yea#if u wanna give me a gift uhh buy from my etsy! or donate on my kofi or buy off my itchio idk#money is kind of the best gift for me right now#but never feel obligated to do so#a simple happy birthday is enough for me :)
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ummmmmmm guys this dungeons looking a little dark here..........................ummmm..... hello??? guys??
#quirinahdraws#darkest dungeon#darkest dungeon 2#IVE BEEN IN THE TRENCHES SO I NEED 2 POST MY EARLY APRIL DRAWINGS FROM WHEN I WAS (am) PLAYING THIS GAME TERMINALLY....#try to guess my favorite character (very difficult impossible /j)#notable moments include reynauld and dismas kicking the bucket in my first year to which i thought after the latter. ok at least theyre#together in death or watever. anyways i got a beyond the grave a week later with both of them and i could only revive one of them and my#first thought was wow! this would make great angst fodder! i should make a comic (and then i didnt)#but dismas is dead so i can never get the achievement but he basically carried me thru vvulf bc i didnt have any legend lvl frontliners and#i didnt know u could just sacrifice a hero to retreat. or that you had to destroy the bomb barrel HAHAHAHAH but we defeated vvulf SOMEHOW#sketchdump#digital#dd plague doctor#dd jester#dd shieldbreaker#dd arbalest#dd abomination#SORRY FOR YAOIFYING BIGBY THAT BADLY IDK WHAT HAPPENED...ETTO.......#my favorite builds are damage over time <3 number one blight buddy supporter#but marked for death r also my pookies....i just find marked builds a little awkward to use imo. but bh is like my blorbo#i find it funny drawing any of the charas bc i feel like i always draw characters a little too cutesy/colorful but its shrimpresting
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fionna's world being represented by a dandelion makes so much sense ... they're weeds. yet people make wishes through them, changing their whole meaning from something meant to be destroyed to something hopeful.
dandelions are also resilient and it makes sense that something associated with them would. you know. perservere despite the destruction caused by the scarab.
but ultimately i think what REALLY made me tear up over this is that dandelions are really boring plants. when you're a kid you blow on them and make your wish but they're not eyecatching or anything but still, fionna's final wish was for her old world to still exist as it was when she left it (> plain and simple. boring even).
like the moment she realized she would lose her friends, and that her friends might forget each other if the world got its magic back, she immediately decided she didn't want it and I think that ties back to the dandelion metaphor so well... like, do you really need magic to be real to find it everywhere? or can you turn something boring into something magical?
#remi rambles#fionna and cake#f&c spoilers#sorry i have many Not Silly thoughts about the finale#i looove fionna she was such a wonderful character .. so well written and real TO ME#shes my best friend shes my everything shes silly she makes me so emotional#like even when simon told her he was gonna wear the crown to get the magic back to her world#< the moment she realized he would go crazy she started to think about it#like she wont sacrifice a friend just to get what she really wants#i really loved her journey through the show idk#going from being so over her routine > finding out magic can be dark too > making her own magical world just by loving her friends#like its so much more than 'the power of friendship will save us!!'#yes she saved the world thanks to the love she had for her friends but it was backed up by a full journey beforehand#i think. the line about having functional toilets (while still being a p good joke) makes the point so much clearer#we have been to the end of the universe and back but we have functioning toilets !!!#like do u get it. do i sound crazy#< crazy person voice#anyway yes im done sorry#live laugh love fionna and cake
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oh god stupid thought: diluc willingly disowning kaeya that day bc he knew he was going to go after the past that caught up with Crepus and if anything happens to him, he doesn't want Kaeya to follow too or get involved. (The cryo vision being the thing that 'saved' kaeya in the end in their fight? felt like a sign)
Turns out, it went better than hoped bc he's alive but mondstadt had changed so much since he's been gone and he still doesn't know if he'll also end up like his father again so he doesn't even try to amend things (smthng smthng bc he doesn't feel he deserves it either). Kaeya never learns what Diluc learned about Crepus, just that he went on a rampage in snezhnaya.
#hs rambles#ragbros#kaeya#diluc#genshin impact#devastating this one if diluc really did take advantage of what kaeya was sharing#they both knew. kaeya knew he would be angry. diluc knew and amp'd it up for his own plans#these stupid bitches ugh i hate them (affectionate) i wish i had concrete stories abt what happened and who they were and crepus but alas#its just sometimes i look at their stories and it clearly states they were close as twins#it just never sat right with me how the fight wouldve went and their connection turning 180#maybe kaeya learns he might be also getting protected by being turned away from the family. they speak distant in the letters but like#u can see they both give a shit#what if this was all a ploy guys are we getting duped to think theyre not good with each other. theyre just playin so neither get caught up#in case shit hits the fan??? UGH IDK THEY MAKE ME THINK TOO HARD#im gonna put both of thwm in a box and shake them gRAAAAA
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ok ive been thinking about this since like chapter 12 and chapter 16 is just around the corner so:
here’s my theory about how clan member contracts work + the contract powerscale 📝
so huey signs a contract with someone and they each have to fulfill it. simple enough. in return for fulfilling the contract, huey gives them a fraction of his essence (which culminates in a gemstone on their body) and they go on a roadtrip to fix the altars every once in a while
each original clan member signed their contract for a reason. we have pretty good guesses for some of them quincy: to protect the tribe/tribe’s land (pretty much confirmed as of razor’s edge) olivine’s ancestor: to assist(?) the church dante’s ancestor: to protect the solaria yakumo’s ancestor: to protect his loved ones (see: misty vale) what happens when someone doesn’t fulfill their contract? based on rei’s flashback in ch. 12, i’m guessing that the body part their gemstone is connected to + their essence begins to go haywire. rei mentions he ‘never chose to enter any damn contract’ while his gem huey also mentions that rei must learn to ‘harness the power’ he was given. it seems like part of that ‘harnessing’ is using huey’s power in service to the original contract.
rei, it seems, was not doing that. this is in contrast to someone like quincy who spends a great deal of time protecting and aiding the forest tribe and, likewise, possesses an incredible amount of power.
i think olivine is in a similar position (though he doesn’t know it). he’s got a lot of control and power and, unlike yakumo and edmond, his gem wasn’t cloudy when eiden met him (although, his sr also covers his gem with a decorative gem so?) (at any rate, iirc, eiden doesn't notice anything wrong with his gem). (EDIT: i have been informed that eiden does comment on olivine's gem in his h-story room when he sees his real gem and he says it’s clear (healthy gem = good essence health). OLIVINE WIN.) olivine's ancestor (likely) asked for power to care for/protect the church and olivine has been doing that (monster semen not withstanding. we’ll get to that.📌) + regulating with the altar. the more a clan member ‘fulfills the purpose of their contract’, the more power they reap from it. it’s hard to say this definitively because some of the original contracts are very ambiguous.
this puts quincy + olivine + kuya(?) in the upper tiers edmond + yakumo + g/karu(?) are in mid tier
the familiars + blade are N/A (never signed a contract)
and then bottom tier are rei and dante. who also happen to be the only main clan members who have been conspicuously sick as part of their character rei, we know spent an ample amount of time doing something outside of klein (i.e. not fulfilling his ancestor’s contract). so, we know where his dysregulation came from and it likely didn’t occur while he was a kid based on the few childhood flashbacks we get from him. his problem was mostly getting megabullied 😔✊ but what about dante? how did he fail his contract as infant, straight from the womb??? (assuming that was the cause of his sickness)
well. when he was born, solaria wasn’t doing very well. and, honestly, his parents weren’t doing a great job running the show. it also probably didn’t help that he was stopped from doing anything that could help solaria since he was isolated to palace grounds.
that is until the night of the riot when he ran and sought out the elemental spirit of fire's trial.
we don’t know exactly when dante ‘stopped being sick’ but i’d hazard a guess that it was after his trial with the elemental spirit of fire. the essence + power he gained from the contract with the elemental spirit of fire (i.e. his agreement to protect the fire territory) stabilized his essence and thus, his health. his newfound health (plus a lot of training) gave him the strength to improve solaria and become what he is today. (as an aside, similar to how kuya provides a lot of insight on huey, dante provides a lot of insight on contracts and communication with the elemental spirits. his contract is directly compared to the contract scrolls used by huey (by blade in chapter 10 part 1). in that chapter we learn that failure to fulfill his contract will result in his death. otherwise, we see that he gains power and favor from the spirits.)
even though solaria has improved a lot, i think dante's essence from huey might be permanently effected given that in sunburst fever, he can’t use magic w/o the elemental spirits. in general, he seems to struggle with outputting essence compared to other clan members.
tl;dr: huey’s contracts make you more powerful if you do what you said you’d do (or your ancestor said that they’d do) and, if you don’t, wuh oh… 📌 so olivine and the monster semen. yes, he did try to sabotage the church, so why didn’t he face some kind of huge consequence for breaking the contract? well… he also protected the church and, despite trying to harm it, he did his best to maintain it. so, what might seem like a huge breach of contract, is actually alright. the church didn’t face any major harm and it was protected. bada-bing-badaboom also, a possible question might be ‘so what about the mid-tier guys?’. so, yakumo and edmond don’t appear(?) to be actively fulfilling their contracts (though yakumo is well on his way).
what’s important is that they aren’t violating their contract. from when we meet them, it seems like ‘neglect of a contract’ does lead to degradation of one’s gem (cloudiness of the gem, poor condition in general) and would eventually lead to illness (like rei), but it’s a much slower process. it’s a good thing eiden regulated with them when he did.
#nu carnival#nukani#yakumo is kind of an outlier in the mid tier but thats because he's the descendant of a hugely powerful yokai#if i had to guess edmond's ancestor's contract#i imagine it would be similar to rei's#something relating to nobility#it also seems a little silly that dante's ancestor potentially doubledipped in becoming a clan member and being a bearer of trial markings#but if they were in charge of solaria#gaining a contract for 'protecting solaria' in addition to maintaining the fire altar would be kinda like a freebie#those are things already in their responsibility#why not get a little extra power?#as a treat#fivesposting#metabox#for kuya's contract#i feel like it would be something about self-interest?#to fulfill his contract would be to do all the things he wants to do#unfortunately there's nothing left that he would like to do#so :P#idk what garukaru's ancestor wanted lmao... ancient wolf yokai... u are a mystery to me.......#this was written in a very excited haze please look away from the typos + grammar
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Okay, you like both Undertale and Transformers, so maybe you can see my vision.
Crossover au where transformers and monsters simultaneously exist. Not an undertale characters as transformers au, or vice-versa. An au where post true-pacifist, the monsters leave the underground only to find a new sapient species has arrived on the planet.
“Humans couldn't share the Earth with us, but they can with giant alien robots?!!! ...Wtf.”
An earthspark-like setup would work best for this, honestly. Just the “How dare” vibes on the monsters’ side, and the “You humans did WHAT?!” On the transformers’ side, with humans in the middle.
Also, the humans, whether through time or magic, completely forgot about the monsters. It would be such a spectacular shit-show! 😈
And don't get me started on the lore implications!
This idea has been rotating in my head for weeks, and I actually want to talk about it with people. So I entrust it to you to spread, 'cause I have like 10 actual followers, and I don't think there's enough overlap there for this to gain traction on my blog. (I'm asking on anon because I'm nervous)
Thanks for reading! :D
oh that is a really fun idea!!!! like. hey not only do giant alien robots exist but so do MONSTERS. also MAGIC exists too. what a revelation.
i have not watched ES as of yet so i dont have much more to add in that respect but. really really fun to think about. did monsters know abt cybertronians before they surfaced... did the news spread that far........
im putting this out into the world like sending a little paper boat out into open water. GO FORTH AND GATHER OTHER UNDERTALE/TRANSFORMERS FANS...
#also ur so valid anon#🤝 on being nervous this is me frequently on other peoples blogs#also i feel itd also be very funny in a universe where tfs are more hidden#because having a monster tell u “hey i think your car has a soul???” is VERY funny to me#undertale#transformers#macaddam#crossover#ut x tf#IDK WHAT OTHER TAGS TO USE ANON IM SORRY#also. thank you for sharing your idea#but i dont think i feel comfortable with being the centerpoint of smth like this#and would prefer to pass it back to you if there is more interest ^^!#(/nm at all but i figured i should just say as much from the get go)#i used to host other people's aus on another blog i had and while it was fun id rather not do it again ^^“
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after two years i finally draw the favorite
#my art#still learning honestly. idk how to explain it but some medias youre so fixated on and obsessed with u instantly want to draw everyone#for me dunmeshi has always been the opposite. series and characters i enjoy sm i cannot bring myself to pick up a pencil#for some reason. it got a lot worse once the anime started airing idk. simply forcing myself to get some of my energy out. in a way#dunmeshi#dungeon meshi#thistle#dunmeshi thistle#thistle dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#>_< series i was into since late 2021. yet u wouldnt know that unless u follow my side twitter account. sowwy ig#i do this with a lot of franchises honestly. cannot bring myself to draw even if i think abt the characters constantly. ie skip to loafer#u will nvr catch me calling this guy sissel sorry. save that name for Mr. Ghost Trick. another thing i. also. dnt talk abt. which i adore#i need to get better at talking abt and expressing myself for the things that i enjoy. ive been wanting to draw laios for a good#while too but im scared. for some reason. u-u should nvr let a white man do that to me honestly.#for now i'll thistle tho. maybe we will get kabru namari or mithrun next from me >_< i have to talk myself into it#i think the closest way i can explain why i cannot bring myself to draw for some series is that i dnt want to mess up somehow#like 'ilu so much [character] what if i cnt draw u the way u deserve even tho i love u sm what if its not enough.' <- leaves it to sm1 else#tbh [scratches head] i prefer the version with less coloring ^-^ but i realize the one thats more colored would get more eyes on it... hm
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lalalalaa
#still not 100% on my redstoner design but its an improvement!!!#i think he runs his hands on his tail getting rid of it#when hes not.....licking off his fingers#i think the redstone smeared around also hides his red sun burnmark better so its less off putting 2 his friends#ANWYAYSSSSSS I LOVE U INSANE SQUIRREL MAN <33333#also team mullet plush used as a referance bc i didnt know what 2 do lmao#also i wanted a referance & like....this is as good as any ok? ok#idk how i would draw his bowtie skin tbh#uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#i would like 2 thank jay from nin jaaaa go 4 forcing me 2 draw goggles a lot#ok im done rambling byeeeee#redstoner#yourpalross#but not rlly i just....tags yk?#anwyayssssssss#mcyt#puppee art
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Thinking about them…


#Dungeon meshi#laios touden#touden family#Toudad and momden#The laifam. The touuu… tou… toudamily? Help idk#Laios holding onto his dad like that after a near death experience after he ran away from his warnings gets to me so bad.#Dad does care dad was so worried and he WOULD stick with u thick and thin he just thinks about ur sake#w momden i also almost put the exorcising Falin thing instead but that wasn’t Laios centric enough#I’ve been writing a laios pov family angst fic lately i’ll be posting it real soon#Gonna be called Push the deciduous out of my gums you’ll know it when u see it#Sigh. Isn’t it neat how the Toudens are scandinavians but Toudad has an interest in myths so he gave his dogs and Laios greek names#That “he never told me anything” panel is prob my fave touden family moment like god what good framing what good hollowness in the delivery#Momden having debilitating anxiety but caring so so much and being overprotective and overdoing it my beloved. Peeking in on them eating#Dad too busy and mom too bedridden to share meals :(#Is the mama reading book pic very tiny and blurry? Yes. Do I have a better resolution of it? No#Could that be a servant peeking in and not their mom? Yes. Do I believe so? No
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i think sebastian would’ve grown up to be either a curse-breaker, healer, or professor. he came way too close to azkaban for him to realistically become an auror imo. my hc though is that he became the hogwarts dada professor and one of his students was dumbledore
#the age kind of works? every student in their fifth year during the game was born 1874-1875#dumbledore was born 1881#realistically dumbledore would have attended hogwarts with sebastian and everyone else#if he’s 6-7 years younger then he would’ve been either a 1st year when seb + everyone was in 7th#or he would’ve started attending the year after we all graduated#afaik there’s not much you need to do to become a hogwarts prof#like as far as i can tell if you get a job offer you could come back the year after you graduate to teach. i mean probably not but there’s#no confirmation so likeee. but i think he realistically could’ve graduated and then gone and taught when dumbledore was in 3rd or 4th year#idk i just think it’s a fun headcanon. partially bc i’m thinking what if seb + mc (+ ominis?) time travelled to when hp & friends were in#their 5th year. which i started thinking about bc phineas black has a portrait in the headmasters office and also at grimmauld place#and i thought that’d be funny. imagine being a portrait for like 80 yrs and suddenly ur students from 100 yrs ago when u were alive appear#ur most troublemaking students at that (minus ominis he’s not that troublemaking)#but the idea of sebastian teaching dumbledore would also be kind of interesting for this time travel scenario. at the very least it’d be#kind of funny. to me. also picturing sebastian and mc meeting the whole gaggle of weasleys. that’s also really funny to me#surrounded by garreth clones basically#anyway. this just turned into me rambling about sebastian and time travel. LOL#just to be clear btw (if anyone reads this far anyway) i’m not shaming anyone who enjoys auror sebastian or whatever#this is fiction do whatever you want. make him minister of magic for all i care. i was just mentioning it bc that’s why i don’t really enjoy#it. that and i just prefer him in a more research oriented career#although i can see the logic behind all of them yk? my hc is that he is a gringotts curse breaker for a few years#but he doesnt like it that much bc he wants more freedom. so he becomes hogwarts dada prof & does freelance cursebreaking on the side#he can cast a mean episkey though. maybe he fills in for the hogwarts nurse if needed. who knows 🤷♀️ def has saved some students a trip to#hospital wing though#hogwarts legacy#sebastian sallow#hp#mecore
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i am sending this ask to a bunch of people. the reason is that i am curious. here it is.
what is your favorite thing about Papyrus in undertale?
do you think Papyrus will be important in deltarune?
what do you think will be Papyrus' role in deltarune?
what do you think of the "Papyrus is the Knight" theory?
what do you think his age will be? adult or teenager? (kid is not an option cus it would be stupid and no fun)
in what chapter do you think he will show up?
if Papyrus is the Knight do you think he will be nice or evil?
if Papyrus is the Knight do you think he knows what the Roaring is?
you are the fourth person i am sending this to.
well lucky you, you caught me in a rambling mood!
i talked more about this a lil while ago now, but to me the biggest appeal of papyrus is that i relate to him a whole lot, lol. his specific form of loneliness where he's very clearly trying really fucking hard and clearly doing all the things people say you're "supposed" to do to try to make friends, but it's just. not working, for whatever reason. it's a pretty hard-hitting feeling for me and it hits deep, and while it's not necessarrily a good feeling, it's definitely my favorite part of Papyrus if only for how well communicated and "real" it is.
putting the rest under a cut because it's gonna get long lol
when it comes to deltarune, my biggest thought towards it since way back in 2018 has been "i don't have any way of knowing what the hell is going on in that dog's brain." so i don't tend to speculate on the game very much outside of fun hypotheticals! i've honestly never been much of a theorist, i prefer letting everybody else be crazy while i'm just sitting back and letting things play out in their own time.
personally, i'd say it'd be nice for papyrus to have a big important role, but in full honesty i do have some doubts about how likely that actually is. for one, he's very much rooted in being a comic-relief character, so he very rarely seems to be written seriously in general, and for two, i don't think he would have much actual weight?
like, we know him as a character from undertale, and papyrus fans might know how mysterious he is, but most of the fandom doesn't see him as mysterious at all. on top of that, the characters in deltarune have no connection to him whatsoever. he's not one of their classmates, or neighbors they grew up with, or anything like that- he's just the grocery store clerk's shut-in little brother who nobody has ever met.
but, again, that brings me back around to "i don't know what's happening in that dog's brain." maybe they'll finally get to hang out with him & he'll become more involved in the story, or maybe he won't ever show up at all! idk!
naturally, all of that applies to my opinion on knight papyrus, too- it would be awesome and so so so so cool if it turns out to be real, but with the issue of nobody knowing him except sans, my faith in it gets a little dimmed. i do think the amount of hints that could connect him to it have been crazy, though, since most of them genuinely don't even feel like that much of a reach. i'll still be pulling out my cork board and red string whenever i possibly see a chance, rest assured
i really want him to be college-aged, ideally the same age as Asriel. one, so they can be besties obviously, and two, because if he suddenly becomes an underage character after ten years of papyrus fans fighting back against rampant infantilization i am going to fucking lose it
my own headcanon until we get to actually see him is that he's much more nervous, borderline agoraphobic, and much more awkward since he hasn't met any of the people that he very likely gained a lot of his personality from in undertale. considering he spends all his time in a dark undecorated house, the angst-loving part of me genuinely really hopes he's not just gonna be written the same as we're used to, lol
and sadly- judging from the previews we've seen of chapters 3-4, and the fact that they'll most likely take place in kris's house and then the church, i have some doubts that we'll see papyrus on june 5th :(. then again, the light world sections are apparently long enough to need their own save points, so maybe that's a good sign too! i'm personally not getting my hopes up, but it'd be a very nice surprise if we see him at all before chapters 5-7, even if it's just a really quick cameo or something :>
and finally, as for what he would be like as the knight & if he would know about the roaring, i actually thought about this some time ago too! i think he could know about the roaring and even actively be trying to cause it, but i don't think that makes him evil, per se. he doesn't know anyone in this town except his brother, making him even more desperately lonely than he was in undertale, and he's not even trying to overcome it this time around.
so, i think he'd get too attached to the fact that darkners literally have to like lightners and want to be their friends, and he'd want to cause the roaring either to be able to live in a world like that forever, or to then stop it himself and make friends by becoming a "hero." i can imagine him being not evil, and honestly not even all that bad (if you ignore the "casting the world into darkness to maybe make some friends" part), just really, really desperate.
#trousled rambles#emphasis on rambles#being a papyrus fan and trying to get hyped for deltarune is a little weird rn ngl#because i do have FULL faith in toby's ability to write a good story. i know deltarune is gonna be something entirely different from-#-anything we've ever seen before (except homestuck probably)#but like. toby is also the guy who said that papyrus wouldn't know what sex is. and it was a while ago obviously and not actually canon#but it still shows that papyrus is very much a comic relief “sheltered” kind of character the very large majority of the time#so much emphasis is put on alphys telling the truth and stopping with the lies but undyne never tells papyrus she's been lying to him#he has his own more serious moments but the ones that aren't the geno run tend to still have a good bit of comedy in them yknow#and idk how well that'd work if he has a bigger role in deltarune- especially as an antagonist- since it has a very different tone overall#if i'm right and he's not in 3-4 either that would be an odd element to put in just the final 3 chapters imo#so all in all i also think there's a good chance he could just be Very in the background and hardly changed personality-wise#which i Would be disappointed about but eh!! it's not like undertale's gonna disappear forever when DR is finished#if i want papyrus as a bigger main character i'll just go play the game where he's a bigger main character lmao#blaugh rambling rambling rambling u get my points..........good beye
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it’s truly what warhammer is missing the most re: primarchs. it’s boring if they all like each other, and it’s boring if they all hate each other; there should be an extremely complicated system of primarch relationships in which at least two of them fucking hate each other but sometimes have to tolerate each other because they all have a bestie in common
#astartes should be keeping relationship flowcharts in their quarters so they can be appropriately bitchy to the right legions when they#next are on campaign together because that legion is mutuals with someone their primarch cant sttttand#enough of perturabo has no friends. perturabo and the lion are beeeesties. mostly bc perturabo says purposefully needling things at him#and lion’el jonson just. does not notice. but lion’el jonson and rogal dorn should get on decently via an autism to autism communication#wavelength. and guilliman & rogal dorn should be administration besties. but guilliman and the lion should hate each other#we are looking at potentially the funniest 'our legions are fighting a campaign together so i guess we have to meet up and have dinner#together for morale :/' meet-ups imaginable#please. we can elevate the horus heresy. just let someone who has worked in the worst inter-office drama imaginable write it#ferrus manus should noooot like horus at all but like. puts on the most blank expression imaginable when fulgrim talks about him bc#one time he criticised him even just a little bit and fulgrim didn't speak to him for weeks.#fulgrim & sanguinius should NOOT like each other. who is that other dog in the mirror#i dont care whats canon. im rewriting this in my head.#in my deepest imagination lorgar and angron are friends so long as they literally never talk about the emperor. like i actually think it#would be an interesting relationship if they both liked one another EXCEPT for that one big thing thats the biggest thing in both their#lives. & idk. angron if he was given more characterisation could be friends with sanguinius i think. sanguinius literally dealing with#murderous ragebeasts all the time as a given anyway. but lorgar fucking HATES sanguinius having angel theming so bad cos hes soooo jealous#oh. and furthermore: Luther likes everyone that the lion hates (guilliman) but hates everyone he likes (perturabo) and its truly#like from the lion's pov having ur dad disapprove of ur best friends and want u to hang out with his friend's kid who's totally lame.#luther's pov: my brotherson won't hang out with the normal kids only the kids who give each other piercings at parties and huff aerosols#its 4am so u can see why im spiralling but. idk. the primarch relationships are so underutilised imo
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never underestimate a cheye's ability to think "what if this is as good as it gets" about any situation
#talkys#during my week away from home and especially after meeting that server our age i was like#yes ok. a life for me is possible. qhen i get home ill work on my resume and look for interview and work clothes#and ive gotten home now and its like. why bother. i dont think it can get better than this#my life would be largely the same except now I have to struggle even more to survive#especially since im still finding it so difficult to get used to Having to drive to do anything#i dont know. i dont know#i rly am the stayer#qhats that post about finally getting what u want and being scared.#i have a potential not even 100% certain opportunity here and im too afraid.#what if it goes wrong. what if it goes Right. idk if i can handle either. i dont think im meant to be here or anywhere#i keep getting scared. i need change but i fear change and I just want a Home
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“Hello! You there, in the cot. I know you’re feeling sleepy, but I wonder if you’d mind taking a brief survey. I’m sure it will make you feel right as rain. Five questions.”
There’s a crackling over the speaker. Or maybe it’s in his head. Everything feels at once itchy and gloopy. He tries to sit up as the speaker fizzes, there’s mumbling on the other side but it’s indistinguishable as language.
“Where am I?” The man asks, pushing up from the bare cot, looking around the room which seems to be made up of concrete walls and little else.
“Close, the first question is actually: who are you?”
Where was it coming from? The voice seemed to echo off all of the walls, its source at the moment unknowable. The man jumps off the cot, barely that - it’s only some green canvas stretched over a metal frame, an intense prickling filling his brain and sinking down his spine. What was that called? Anxiety. This wasn’t right.
“What is this place, where am I?” He asks again, pacing the room. There’s one exit. A metal door set into the concrete walls. Beside it a black panel with dozens of tiny holes. The speaker. Beside the cot he woke up on there’s a chair made of metal. Florescent lights beam from the ceiling causing the man to squint as he zeros in on the speaker grill. He nearly trips over his feet reaching for the door. He tries the handle, it doesn’t budge. He pulls. Nothing. Pushes. More of the same. Not even any give in the hinges or lock. Whatever was holding it in place wasn’t something he could get past.
“Who are you?”
Calm down, breathe. The man tries to order his thoughts into rationality, fighting the building rage and stress that's filling his entire body. Find out what they want, if you can give it to them then you may make it out alive. If you can’t… convince them you can. The man analyses the voice. Young, most likely male, tone what could be called chipper. It doesn’t seem threatening, or deceptive. Still best to be cautious.
“Who are you?” The voice comes once more, some of the cheerful edge is dulled this time, like it expected an answer by now and doesn’t know why it’s not getting a response. Like turning on the radio and expecting a song but only getting static when everything seems to be in working order.
Play along for now, the man thinks. He goes to answer, only to find out he can’t. Nothing’s physically stopping him, there’s air in his lungs and his lips are free to move. But he can’t answer. The simplest of questions, he reaches for the information in his brain and it’s just- gone. He clamps his jaw shut, teeth clicking together. His veins turn to ice.
What the hell is going on here.
“If you can’t answer, feel free to say unknown.”
He needs to get out. He needs to get to- Make sure- Is safe- It’s his job to- Home is-
There’s only one way out of this room, built of concrete and smelling of freshly printed pages and antiseptic (how does he know that?) and it’s through that door. Whoever is talking through the speaker can open it. He picks up his hat and runs a hand through his sandy blonde hair.
“I don’t know.” The man says, voice floating out of him like it doesn’t even belong to him. Maybe it doesn’t, how would he know?
“Unknown. Okay. Second question, in which US state or territory were you born?” He reaches for it. Nothing again. The ice in his veins spreads again, as the anxiety builds. His breath speeds up and his fists clench. He takes a step back from the door. Stay calm. He shakes his head. They must be watching him because the voice goes on.
“Unknown! Great.” Some of the chipperness has returned. He didn’t notice the round black bump above the door before, like a beady eye staring him down. How does he know that it’s a camera? He’s never seen one before, but he knows exactly what it is and what it does. The urge to run begins to overwhelm him the longer this goes on. His stomach twists with nausea. Commonly caused by motion sickness, intense pain, early pregnancy, food poisoning, various enteroviruses or in this case emotional distress.
“Question three, please name any US state or territory.”
“Uh- I don’t know… Delaware.” Delaware? Where did that come from? What else? Georgia. Iowa. Alaska.
“Delaware.”
New York, California, Virginia, New Mexico.
“Question four, what is Mr. Eagan’s favourite breakfast?”
Illinois, Rhode Island, Texas, Idaho. There’s another voice in the background, one he hasn’t heard up until now. It’s deeper, exasperated. God, he thinks it says. The chipper voice ignores it. So there’s someone else there. Maybe someone higher up, someone in charge?
“I don’t know who that is.” He reaches for the handle of the door again and jiggles it futilely. “Maybe we can have a conversation and you can tell me face to face.”
“I’d love to chat with you, after we finish the survey.”
He lets out a terse laugh, a smile tightening his lips - but not with amusement. The action feels familiar.
“And would you look at that, we’re on the final question! To the best of your memory, what is or was the colour of your mother’s eyes?” Does he even have a mother? He must. Everyone has a mother. The nausea threatens to take over and the man turns around looking for a bucket or a trash can. There’s nothing but the cot and the chair. He stumbles towards them.
“I don’t remember.”
“Unknown! Wow!”
“What the hell is this?”
“Unknown, unknown, Delaware, unknown and unknown right?”
“Look if you don’t tell me what the hell I’m doing here I-“
The door swings open and out of it comes a kid who can’t be older than 17, holding a clipboard and grinning behind large circular glasses.
“Gee sir, you got a perfect score! And quicker than most too, that first question is usually what really trips people up but you done it just swell.”
#mash#fanfiction#severance#bj hunnicutt#radar o'reilly#ah okay so i know i did a poll and the creepy creature is winning but i just wanted to get a bit of this down so i dont forget#and yes if you didnt know the man in this is BJ#i can only write mash fic from his perspective for some reason idk hawkeye scares me lmao#this is i guess the first part of what would be the first chapter? idk maybe it will be nothing but enjoy it anyway#it would be eventual hunnihawk bc i cant not have a romantic angle but i think it would mostly be a bj character study in a severance au#anyway enjoy this bit and let me know if u want more#also if you have something that would work better for the mr eagan breakfast question#im gonna change that bit anyway i just couldnt come up with anything yet#mine
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It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry
( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)
(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)
#I just realized I can call him dad easier than my real dad and now I understand why am I so damn attached to him#I always knew he was a parental figure for me#but now I connected the dots#How when u have an absent dad and a d34d mom a guy shows up in ur life#that tells u life advice that both of ur parents failed to do so#and makes u feel safe the first time in ur life#ofc ud become attached#i know for sure its unhealthy how much i love and miss him#he occupies most of my thoughts honestly#But how could i not cling to him so much when he was the only one who gave me hope in life#i try to keep going and even tho he is not here i keep telling myself whatever he taught me. i keep reminding myself he wants us to live an#bloom and be free#and that's what ill try to do#but you know somedays i wish i could just disappear and be wrapped in eternal happiness#its so fucking hard to pull yourself out of the slump man im so fucking tired im so so tired#somedays i wish id have the courage to off myself but i know that deep down i want to live and ive always wanted to live but i have no idea#how to live. i feel like i finally found a purpose and someone i love. but at the same time im always doubting myself and im scared of losi#g this little hope again and i know i should cherish and use it instead but each day i have this anxiety because rn i have nothing else if#lose this i seriously will lose everything atp. but ill still try bc rn its this or death so i should try im just damn tired yes anyways#sorry for being depressing some days just dont work out but thats okay#yes at the same time i want to get out of my head and try to find some friends but i cant deny that im highkey fucked up and i just cant le#go of my past and i still feel like that helpless unloved kid and idk how to form relationships this way. i dont trust myself at all so idk#how to trust others. and i feel like in order to find ppl that would love me i have to overshare abt my whole lifestory bc it still dictate#my life heavily. and since i met this band its better cuz im learning to deal w it and i want to heal from everything but yes at the same t#me who would wqnt to be friends w. someone that has like a year of life experience and 18 years of depression lol#so yes its complicated. bc i have friends but im like the funny friend. the one that is as shallow as puddle and has no problems but honest#y im genuinely sufferint qnd have been sufferinz all my life so i want to come out of my funny friend role. but that wojld mean i have to t#ll the shit i went through to all my friends but tbh it would be so random so ye. i do have a plan though. how it could work. But yes im ti#ed have been tired for 7 years now. But this time around i hope i can successfully get out of this torture cycle lol.#ok sorry this is what happens after puberty guys i could beva research case for a damn mental institute atp xdd
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hiiii ummmm leaving this up for a while but
#polls#virgil vents#txt#i like the idea of hosting it all on a sideblog so it looks more like a portfolio/doesnt get lost in the sauce/stays clean#but also like. idk i enjoy having just my primary blog too?#ive had this acc for a hot min now and gathering any traction is soo slow moving it feels#plus like. i feel bad if folks follow me n i cant follow back from a sideblog#& they think im ignoring them or something like AUGH ill die inside#but idk maybe its the more professional/proper way of posting & doing this?#i can always do both too ig but#idk yall lmk what u think. what would u do in my shoes. or in yr own shoes
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