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to feel unknown/to feel unwanted
#iwtv#the vampire armand#armand#amc interview with the vampire#no one has painted me in over 400 years#armand/amadeo/arun where does the bullshit start#or more accurately where does it end? it ends at rashid bcs thats the first name to break the alliteration pattern#dubai sucks#iwtv fanart#idk what else to tag here fellas#music is very good y'all should listen to it
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arrives 15 min late with a latte
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#yosuke hanamura#persona 4#cool now that its done i can ramble in the tags#fellas im surprised hes here and done#did not think that was gonna happen#fuck i forgot smth#eh ill fix it before i make my print#anywho i might make more i might not who knows not i#yukiko is the next one i have half an idea on but also i have some shining nikki designs rattling around with my sole braincell#i also made a shadow alt for the back but idk if i like the mouth so yall arent gonna see him#also i need to find a gold foil guy that does odd sizes and like moq of 1#bc i wanna do this in gold foil#and its tarot card size bc im dumb as hell#but i want a print for my wall and i know sure as shit no one else will want one hence the moq of 1#my heart wants to make the whole major arcana for p4 but my past completed works says °ââ.ŕłŕż*:シ đđ °ââ.ŕłŕż*:シ#so whatever gets done will get done#also im gonna reblog this a lot bc i put in too many hours to get a singular note by me so like if you dont wanna see it block me lmfao#if you have any hot takes for future cards please share with the class bc i only have ideas for yukiko and a full cast she does not make fr#so uh yeah yeehaw#idk what else to ramble about but like cannot believe yosuke fucking hanamura is the first chara to get a completed piece in 5 years#im not fucking kidding#the rest were all quick graphite or abandoned#hes not even my fave in p4- thats naoto protag chan kou and nanako#boys lucky to hit top 5#he just kinda crawled into my affection like some kind of sad pathetic creature idk how it happened either#maybe hes overprocessed now that im looking at it#nope i looked too long this is it this is how he is#ill do better by the women i promise
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so im watching that one AG episode with that Whiscash right???
and like Ash fails at it and the old guy who is like the fishing god for some reason says like: no one can be a pro in a day or smth like that
MAX PULLED UP AND DID GOOD AND THAT OLD MAN WAS LIKE: IT TOOK ME YEARS, WHY DID IT ONLY TAKE THIS KID A DAY???
new headcanon: max is secretly good at everything he just doesn't know it yet because he's a kid but also because bro is a damn know-it-all who only thinks he's good with pokemon stuff
#pokemon max#pokemon#max pokemon#fellas he is super talented trust#like if anyone else has better examples than the fishing one then my point has been proven#exotic rambles#exotic rambling about ag is a normal thing#i mean he did also carry a munchlax which is canonically heavy but what other feats he got#oh wait he like jumped a dude in movie 9#like idk about yall but there's some hidden talent there#he just doesn't show it cause the writers are cowards and he's also a little kid so there's that#the han jisung genes omg#and yall say that he's not that good bro could win a fist fight or smth#idk how we got off topic in the tags#but lmk if there are any other scenes where max just pulls up with TALENT#ash saying it was luck to the guy is honestly funny because TRUST AND BELIEVE it was not#Norman you have some explaining to do here
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leave the silly guy alone !!
#crk#strawberry crepe cookie#autism#doodle#strawberry crepe crk#cookie run#art#eats you#idk what else to put here#tags#cookie run kingdom#funny little fella#hc#headcanon
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hello and welcome to daily rui kamishiro!!! iâm not explaining this concept you read the url. daily rui. what more do you want from us.
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plushie posting â
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here are our mods!!
mod rui đ
~ hi hello!! (hiding all my rui merch and all my posts on my main) iâm very normal about rui kamishiro!! i prommy!!!
~ i use he/it pronouns mainly
~ iâm a very very big aroace rui (and aroace wxs fan)
~ iâll be signing off with the tag mod đ for my posts, and just đ in the posts themselves
~ i donât know what else i add here. this loser friend loving purple idiot is my everything
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Hi hi hello technically multiple mods in a trenchcoat (plural) but let's not talk about that :3
They/them pronouns since we don't feel comfortable specifying which alter is which here and we all have different genders
There's a decent chance you'll recognize us if you know us from main but thats fine :3
Gonna sign off with mod đŽ in tags and đŽ in the posts themselves. Yes we're copying Rui here dw about it
Uhhh we like the silly clown man who makes robots. Intro done đ
Mod Tsukasa đ
- I very much enjoy the silly purple fella
- she/her pronouns :3
- Very self-indulgent hcs about the silly around these parts, he's incredible and I love him
- I'll sign off with mod đ in the tags and đ on posts because consistency
- Hehe Rui
mod saki :3
⢠hihi!! how do you do an intro please help
⢠they/them, if you feel a little silly u can use star neos but no pressure :D
⢠will be signing off as mod đš in the tags and just đš in the posts
⢠Normalâ˘ď¸ about the he. other favs include the Tenma siblings and the rest of wxs!
⢠everyone else has a 5th dot but idk what to put here uhhh i've been told i act like the mizuki to my friends ruis so take that as u will >:3
â i already draw ruikasa daily so im basically prepared for this
mod honami đĽ
â i use he/him, will sign off with đĽ
â very self indulgent rui design i hope yall dont mind
â thats it really im just an aroace honaruikasa oshi (not ship) (except for ruikasa therye a qpr in my heart) ok bye bye
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I have no idea what I'm doing half the time but I'm trying my best nonetheless. Please be considered of this.
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absolutely hate the purple lad. I have no idea why I'm here. /j
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I will actively showcase this behaviour by creating many different types of posts about him.
#rui kamishiro#pjsk#mod đ#mod đ#mod đŽ#not daily rui â#daily rui â#official stuff posting â#doodle posting â#other posting â#plushie posting â#mod đš#mod đĽ#mod đŹ
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Jack's Big Rambly Nonsense Theory Post About Episode 3 â¨ď¸
I am a merciful fella so the rambles will be contained under the cut.
hey! what's up? this is the only thing I care about for the time being so I'm gonna ramble about it! I don't know what I'm doing! all of this could be wrong! I'm very excited!
Please feel free to reply/reblog or like.. idk, y'all can tag me if you wanna make a separate post jumping off of, responding to, or completely annihilating (in a friendly way!) any of my theories here.
What The Heck Is Antikythera?
i didnt know what this was and it seemed somewhat important since it's in the title (lol) so I looked it up.
one of the first things I found was the wiki article for the Antikythera mechanism, which is basically a computer/calculator from Ancient Greece that predicted astronomical positions and eclipses. It was found in a Roman shipwreck in the Mediterranean in 1901 and might have been constructed as far back as 205 BC. (it had gears and everything! cool!)
Considering this device is related to astronomy and approximately, oh, ALL of our protagonists are interested in and have connections to astronomy, I don't think that's a coinkydink! additionally, since this is fictional and there are no limits, mayhaps the Antikythera mechanism is a part of the story and it can do (and does do) more than predict celestial events...? đ
Now, I admit I read about this one interesting thing and kinda just ran with it, but in case there's anything else about this itty bitty little island, I did look into it more. According to the Wikipedia, Antikythera was settled and abandoned several times throughout history. This is also where the wreck with the mechanism was discovered (hence the name), and apparently lots of birds use the island as a pit stop during migration, but that's about it. It's enough for me to laugh shrug and carry on with my mechanism theories, lol.
The Ellen Austin, The Bermuda Triangle, & Maybe A Ghost Ship
Since our beloved quartet is confirmed to be aboard the Ellen Austin and they're en route through the Bermuda Triangle/Sargossa Sea where the Ellen Austin is said to have encountered a ghost ship, I'm gonna continue with my previously-held theory that we're getting a ghost ship encounter! (In one story about the Ellen Austin, they had some of the crew go onto the ghost ship to bring it back to shore with them, and the crew ~mysteriously vanished~ which is... interesting. đ)
I have a few ideas about what this potential ghost ship might be:
An Ancient Greek vessel straight from Antikythera, with or without a mechanism, but probably with. [squints at map] I mean, the Mediterranean isn't that far from the Sargossa Sea/Bermuda Triangle area. And/or maybe there was some time-and-space nonsense happening that could land it on the other side of the Atlantic. If our quartet could get poofed from a satellite in 1835 back to Earth in 1881(?), then a mysterious ship could plausibly get zapped to another place and/or time. Might be a bit too on the nose but c'mon, the name is in the title, there's gotta be a connection to Antikythera, and who says it can't be this? Could also have ghosts!
A slightly less ancient Roman cargo ship like the (shipwrecked) one that had the Antikythera mechanism. (Please see above for hand-waving about date & location.) Maybe the ship has a mechanism on board, and maybe it's also got ghostsâboth of the Ancient Greek variety via the mechanism, and of the slightly less ancient Roman variety via it's their dang boat. Bonus points if the Greek/Antikytheran(?) ghosties were scaring the daylights out of the Romans and are responsible for the ship becoming a (double) ghost ship. Of course this also hinges on how literal the "ghosts" in The Ghosts of Antikythera are, but I'll ramble about that in a little bit.
A much less ancient ship from whatever eras make it more likely to be in the Sargossa Sea, but it has an Antikythera mechanism somehow. This would take out a lot of fuss about how the ship got here or how it could have survived this long without being wrecked or discovered, AND it would bring up new and fun questions such as "why does this random ship have an Ancient Greek mechanism" and I call that a win-win. Could be a classic pirate ship, could be a newer vessel that'd be more familiar to the crew of the Ellen Austin... idk im not a boat guy but I think there's some fun possibilities.
bonus theory: the ghost ship has "witch" in the name or has a name related to witches, or maybe literally just has "wicked" in the name, purely based off this tweet:
thank you @man-down-in-hatchet-town for being my Twitter scout, lmao
Just 'cause, you know... wicked, witches. The waves could be just part of the water theme since (i assume) the episode takes place predominantly at sea, or perhaps the ghost ship is literally carried "this way" by the waves.
Ghosts â Like, Literally? Or Do You Mean Metaphorically?
We already know that Pulp Musicals will be exploring multiple genresâsci-fi, horror, mystery, adventureâso I'm betting episode three will add some horror to the mix, especially after Matt's delightfully ominous words in the trailer:
In this web of mystery, Margaret has begun to unravel her own... but she is not the only one awakening. And soon, our heroes will find that the light of discovery can bring forth shadows darker than anything they could have ever imagined.
...Yeah, sounds like horror and/or ghosts to me! So maybe the ghosts of Antikythera are real actual spooky scary spirits, in which case I am very excited to pull up a chair and listen to Herschel scoff and try to find a rational, scientific explanation for any spooky happenings. (Idk if he believes in ghosts or not, but in this case I hope he doesn't because that will make it much funnier for me. <3 )
On the other hand, "horror" is incredibly vague, so maybe we won't get jump-out-and-say-boo ghosts at all. Maybe the ghosts of Antikythera are more unsettling because they aren't an active, supernatural force wreaking havoc on the open seaâmaybe they're just an empty vessel, forgotten memories, and the lingering consequences of the actions taken by people who are long since dead. What's scarierâthe dead staying behind to screw with you face to face, or the dead abandoning their troubles & mistakes and leaving clueless strangers to get stuck with the deadly fallout?
Honestly, tho? I'm excited either way, and I'm very curious to see how scary Matt plans to go.
Theories That Don't Have A Ghost Ship, Because You Never Know
I am 100% behind the ghost ship theory, but making theories is fun so why not throw some other ones out there. Full disclosure, I don't think these are that likely, and some are mostly gonna be for laughs.
They find a shipwreck. I'm really only considering this because the Antikythera mechanism was found on a wreck. I don't think the Ellen Austin would stop to investigate a shipwreck if they happened upon one, and I also don't know if they'd even have the equipment to safely or effectively investigate it if they wanted to. Then again, maybe they would stop if they saw the wreck go down, and also who needs to go down in the water if you have a passenger with magic powers? If Margaret could launch the Sagitta, she could probably fish up a wreck easy peasy. Maybe she wouldn't even need the ship to stop, she could just see (or sense?) something in the water and reach out with the Radiance. And if whatever she brought onto the Ellen Austin was haunted, then that could kick off the ghost stuff... huh. I actually kinda like this idea!
Atlantis? I think someone mentioned this in the chat for the trailer's premiere. I'm inclined to say "probably not" though... unless the quartet gets poofed or otherwise summoned closer to Greece. But I think they'll probably be sticking around the Sargossa Sea, since there isn't a lot of time for them to be traveling all around in a ~90 minute episode, and the previous episodes kinda picked a place and stayed there. Doesn't necessarily mean we couldn't get an underwater city (or formerly underwater city), of course. It just probably wouldn't be Atlantis.
...I actually don't have any other ideas right now, lol. I really think it's gonna be a ghost ship. And that the Antikythera mechanism has something to do with it.
Oof okay, for the sake of my eyes and brain, I'm going to stop staring at my phone and thinking for now, lol. I will probably come up with some more thoughts & theories as time goes on, but I think I have used all my batteries for today.
Again, if anybody reads this and wants to contribute or comment, feel free! đŤ
#jack jabbers#oh god my brain is FRIED rn lmao#pulp musicals#pulp musicals episode 3#pulp musicals tgoa#the ghosts of antikythera#pulp musicals theory#pulp musicals theories
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hi im maggie, i dont really care what you call me as long as itâs not something offensive
i like ghosts and stuff but iâm a grass monotype kinda fella (there have been times where iâve decided to get silly though. ghost mono is my second go-to) and i do art n music i guess?? photography is also there but idk i just like to look at the sky. also i live in alola if that says anything?? i like the beach
iâve got 6 stupid goobers (and many more but these are The six) and i love them all dearly. also you know who else i love.
(ooc: iâll try to remember to tag everything with the 3 tags on this post and iâm not entirely sure whether or not iâll filter various posts as like reblogs and stuff, iâll probably just take them from my main)
(pictures and other fun pokemon stuff under the cut)
these are The Goober Nation as they are affectionately called.
- pyrite (chesnaught, m) heâs funny and has some silly friends
- cappy (breloom, f) she eats garbage
- june (decidueye, m) heâs got bird autism
- sol (trevenant, f) sheâs full of christmas
- lucio (ludicolo, m) he respects women
- al(exander) (dhelmise) theyâre just a silly goofy guy and wouldnt hurt a fly (what the hell that rhymes!)
and here are some other guys i have alongside them. i have a trip planned so hau promised to take care of most of them. i do not trust him so we have also enlisted kukui as back up (and lillie as the backup backup because i doubt kukui won't get silly)
some of them ive caught myself and others are originally family members' pokemon but theyre all my silly little children
- bismuth (greninja, m) (hau sends stupid pictures of him all the time)
- jasper (delphox, f) (sheâs not even my pokemon she just likes to hang around bismuth and pyrite?? does anyone know whatâs up with that is that a delphox thing. she gets agressive when any of us are near her)
- king (toucannon, m)
- bloop (drifblim, f) (surprisingly my only ghost type not in my party. i swear i had more where did they all go :()
- punchy (hariyama, f) (i was a kid when i caught the makuhita ok đ˘)
- tesla (vikavolt, m)
- rover (togekiss, m)
- perci (talonflame, m)
- rhine (mudsdale, f)
- tari (altaria, f)
- eden (scolipede, f)
- pagnis (honchkrow, m)
- tacky (skuntank, m)
- lumio (fomantis, m) (i get him mixed up with lucio all the time. he's much smaller however)
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ALRIGHTTT hello fellas welcome to the official ghouse response (â˘) where I laugh at the silliness contained in this post because BOY HOWDY a little birdie told me youâre spouting some actual bullshit and reading this made me laugh a lot SO HERE WE GO FROM THE TOP NOW: Starting at (3) because I donât have much to say about the first 2 â anyway this âmodâ youâre referring to is my fucking daughter LMAO, and she didn't âimmediatelyâ cite you, you started getting pissy because you knew it had to do with you THEN you got cited, and we did correct you, but you made it a very big deal which is how this all started. And honestly you WERE acting pathetic and childish because this entire thing sprouted from you being told to be nice LMAO (4) Why are you talking about killing yourself in a server full of minors that has a rule against heavy venting like suicide and shit? Wasnât that your excuse to just randomly jump into my dms to start vagueposting about everything happening and then refuse to tell me like an actual child? Your response to me asking was literally âIâm not telling youâ yaknow. Like a child?
(5) bridging on from that, why am I the issue exactly? Because Iâm the owner? Sorry but I just run this joint Iâm not going to sit down and take time away from being with my child and work to comfort this person telling me that theyâre suicidal from being told to be nice and of course Iâm going to joke about that because itâs a joke server who makes jokes in a joking manner. And if being told to be nice was this big of an issue for you, then I STAND BY YOU NEEDING TO GET HELP. â and I know nothing of anyone insulting you after the ban? Maybe Iâm just not remembering. (6) this literally isnât even a point, like what do you want me to say? Iâm sorry, you fucked up? IDK (7) these lighthearted comments included insulting me when I got someone's number telling me something along the lines of âwow never thought youâd do itâ and Iâm way too tired to look rn but I 100% remember you saying shit when I vented and no matter what you shouldnât make comments like that period. (8+9) okay cool? Sorry abt the autism LMAO like literally all the server has it too, but anyway how is it out of context when literally all the context is there like Iâm talking hundreds of words back to back like? Ok. And yes, weâre going to smear you in the fandom tag because youâre a bigger creator, and we donât want you hurting other people? Capiche? And boy howdy Iâm excited about this doc LMAO (10) okay now youâre just saying we wanted you to commit LMAO and the reason we were taking it lightly is that we were a fucking payday server who drew catboys and watched shitty movies? Itâs genuinely not that deep you MADE it deep by talking abt NSFW with minors and harassing my daughter, arch, and then me and not only that but pinning the blame on me right after LMAO???? Also, YOU ARE DELUSIONAL LMAOOO you arenât âtoo smart for your own goodâ youâre a fucking abuser and mentally unwell and if youâre supposedly working this âdangerous jobâ the doc should really be sent to them so youâre taken off staff because you cannot be the one handling weapons Iâll tell you that much LMAOOO learn to trust yourself all you want because nobody else will and yes Iâm being harsh because this mf harassed my daughter and someone I see as my kid. And started shit for no reason and ruined a perfectly nice friend group! I can be a little mean. Personal notes: super hyped for this doc! Canât wait to see how OOC it is LMAO anyway this person is an abuser who likes to harass and talk abt NSFW to minors and be really fucking weird to people. And BOY IVE GOT MORE! Tag response: the whole panic room saying sexual things is like? We did crack down on that but of course people say sexual things as jokes but if it went too far it was CRACKED DOWN AND DELETED. AND ACTIVELY SHUNNED. And me responding to a minor like that was continuing a joke? Or if itâs the comment I think it is I was quoting moist fucking critikal so LMAOOOO AND ME HAVING A MINOR âLEAD MY CHARGEâ THAT'S MY KID AND A FRIEND WHO AGREED TO HELP WITH THE SERVER WHAT âCHARGEâ ARE WE TALKING ABOUT AHVSHSVAB if you think this was every purely about you thatâs crazy because it was literally about like 5 people! Thatâs my little response and if Iâm blocked after this you know Iâm right so YEAH hope everyone else got a good laugh out of this just like I did, and I hope despa causes no further harm in the future! Also, the whole "wanting to move in with a minor thing" was never actually said by me. It was said by one of my friends, and it honestly made me uncomfortable. I just have a hard time telling people to stop LMAO I'm moving to Finland on my own if that's what you wanted to hear final thoughts: wowza LMAO also this is prof read by my daughter, and she wanted me to add that her being called just "a mod" was easily the highlight of her week. LMAO -- anyways i will never take this drama seriously cause bro just be nice its not that hard BGAHHABGA original doc for those curious: https://drive.google.com/drive/u/0/folders/16PizooqKvgWXSxqTZx9qjjmjxYaWD68E
I know you all are awaiting my response, and Iâm grateful for your patience. There are some things I have to address here. Never wanted to put everything out thereâI donât like drama on my blog. I have a document thatâs over a thousand words long, but I realized that when people have blocked me and are saying stuff in the main tag, they donât want to listen. They just want to hurt me.
So I guess now there are things I have to clarify⌠itâs heavy, but I tried to keep it short. I didnât have the energy to read everything they were saying about me so I may get things wrong. I didnât really want to post this.
Content warnings for mental illness, suicidal ideation, mentions of abuse.
Letâs get right into it.
1. Iâve always lived with the paranoid delusion that everyone was conspiring against me, that people secretly hated me and would smear me behind my back. I passed these off as negative thoughts, anything that mightâve âconfirmedâ this would set it off. Iâd have an episode I would have to deal with on my own. I thought that nobody would stick with me in a crisis, and I would always be thinking along the lines of, âis it all over?â
I feel liberated, now. Thereâs no need to fight when theyâre true. I am more at peace with myself.
2. I never want to hurt anyone. Not a real level, the angst stuff is fictional pain. I am autisticâthe things youâre hearing me say are the first times Iâve talked to people (other than my family) for my entire life. I always want people to go to me when I do something wrong so I can handle it and learn from my mistakes, thatâs why I have my bio set to what it is.
That, and my memory is so fuzzy that I canât remember too much from even last week. I tend to dissociate and my brain turns into mush.
3. The âminor incidentâ that Ghouse and the others were talking about was one of his mods saying sheâd âtear people apartâ and then immediately citing me as the main cause because I was âbeing rude.â I told her why I was taking a break, as I couldnât handle it, this had happened before and I asked them to correct me if I was wrongâeven confirming multiple times that we were just joking around because I was paranoid.
I suggested they go straight to me for future reference. I was having a mental health episode. She called me crazy and that I was overreacting, implying I was stupid. Another mod told me I was overreacting and that I was acting pathetic and childish. This made point 1 so much worse.
4. The âsuicide baitingâ was something I told the Panic Room server in confidence. I told them I was talking a break. Ghouse said âit wasnât that bad but okay,â as if he were gaslighting me. He said things like this as I was sobbing alone in my room, which he was well aware of.
I have to clarify that it wasnât baiting. Suicidal ideation has been something Iâve been dealing with since I was 9 years old. I have been abused/gaslit for more of my life than I have been safe. I never wanted to say this, but they were brushing me off at a point where I was trying to find a reason to live. I had stupidly thought that they would understand what they were doing to me if I said.
5. That was the first time I had an episode like that. To say that it was baiting is to say I was lying. Letâs play devilâs advocate here.
If I were lying for attention, why would I destroy all my relationships in a single night? Why wouldnât I make art or something along those lines? Theyâre big on art.
If I wasnât, then that would mean that I was having a few bad days and they did nothing to help me⌠beyond condescendingly saying that I need help. I donât blame the minors in the server, Iâm talking about Ghouse, who is older than I am by around 2 years. I told them I called 988 and it didnât really work. He continued to tell me off.
After I was kicked I was made aware that they immediately started insulting me. Whether you believe me or not, purposely attacking someone whoâs mentally ill is⌠too far. I hadnât done anything to them before this incident.
6. The reasons I freaked out was because I was sad that I had unintentionally hurt people, I had started a new, dangerous job, and⌠well, to be honest, I was terrified.
They were making me forget that Iâd been hurt. I was starting to trust them. I had been starting to look forward to tomorrow. And, I was so scared that it would all be over. I didnât know when, just that it would be.
Now, it is.
7. I may very well have been joking around with everything while on the server, but serious topics were serious. I was never âdemeaningâ when Ghouse was venting about something that happened to him beyond a couple of lighthearted comments. I thought theyâd have the same respect for me. Again, I had confirmed multiple times that I was joking.
8. I might not have done much wrong in the Panic Room situation, but the other things that people are saying about me? I had no idea.
That was the first time Iâd ever heard of them.
In the past, my autism had gone completely unchecked. some of those things were from when I was a week into being on my first server⌠ever. I was 17, had no idea how to check for age or even pronouns. Never used anything but tumblr, never interacted with anyone. Never went to school or even had a job at that point. I more tried to figure out everything based off of my own experiences⌠which was, not good. To say the least. The things I did, in my head, I thought they were ânormal.â This doesnât make it less terrible, but I hadnât even remembered some of the incidents until someone pointed it out. It was so mundane to meâI was a messed up child. Iâm sorry for this.
8. I wasnât the best person, I really wasnât. I didnât know how to âmaskâ my traits at that time, I was excited to be able to talk to people. I was protective over my friends (my first friends! ever!) and very clingy. I didnât know that people held characters close to their hearts, either? (When I have a favorite, I only want to hurt them, you see)
So while the doc was deliberately taking things out of context, some of the other accusations are true, unfortunately. I will be posting my DMs between me and the people on the server in my doc.
9. I have explanations for what Iâve seen of the accusations, but I donât really recall anything from that incident over 3 years ago⌠if someone had told me, or even confronted me, Iâd have known what was wrong. But they didnât, and they kept talking to me like everything was normal. I was completely unaware. This is most of the reason I thought people were plotting against meâpeople would be cold to me and I wouldnât know why. The worst part is that I canât apologize. I canât even try to rectify anything. Some of the people in that server still played PAYDAY 2 with me, some would even reply to my DMs. I had⌠no idea.
I have hurt people. Unknowingly, but still. I apologize to anyone Iâve affected. Most of it was not knowing how basic social media functions worked. I hope you understand that my behavior was out of line, and that I didnât mean for any of this to happen. Donât defend me on that, I was entirely wrong. But⌠smearing me in the fandom tag instead of going to me directly means that they want to attack me. They donât want an explanation.
All of my actions were genuine. I never intended to hurt anyone, but thatâs what ended up happening. Iâll put more detail into the doc.
10. I was already going to take a break. I was already doing poorly, and the server knew this. At that point, they want me to go through with it. What else would they be saying when they do all of this? Unless Iâm reading that wrong. Whatever the reason is, they donât want to help me, theyâre deliberately being malicious and they know I wasnât baiting.
Although, I guess I have to thank them. Now, I can say that I wasnât delusional. I can say that I was too smart for my own good. How crazy does it sound to think that everyone was just waiting to betray me? But⌠they were. I can begin to trust myself again, even if itâs accepting some of my ânegative thoughtsâ as reality. I wonât be reaching out to anyone I donât already know, and there is safety in never putting myself out there again.
Thank you to everybody who stuck around. My delusions⌠werenât entirely correct. Just like how most of my former friends blocked me on sight, there were a few people who didnât mind when I wasnât responding. There are some people who believed in me to a point where even if all those accusations were true, they believed that I could change. Thatâs⌠something I never thought Iâd hear, ever, in my life. That is a form of trust I donât deserve, really.
So, I was wrong again. Not everyone wanted me gone. It took all of this for me to realize that there were people who loved me in the truest form of it.
As for everyone who cut me off⌠well, I hope you understand that because of my mental issues, I can never trust you beyond a professional level. It is for my own wellbeing, because Iâm still not doing good. I will still be taking that break. The PAYDAY 2 fandom was a source of reprieve for me, and now itâs not. It wasnât an accident that it turned out that way. All my safe spaces have been taken from me. I donât know why the Panic Room server hated me, so I canât provide any extra insight on that.
The truth is, I havenât been around because Iâve been dealing with depression for a long time. Iâve been passively⌠yknow. Not actively. I havenât had the energy to respond to anything on most days, Iâm sorry for that :(
All of this was just the breaking point, really.
Thank you for reading. I know most people wonât, but I appreciate those who do. I wonât blame the rest of you if you all decide to leave as well, I understand that. I never made the blog for other people, I made it for myself. This whole thing will serve as a reminder that there are more important things than online spaces. Canât get therapy because Iâm broke, but I can enjoy the few things I still can⌠even if Iâm reminded of what Iâve lost. I donât think Iâll really be here anymore, but I will be okay.
#Unfortunate!#payday drama continues...LMAO#sorry were all giggling at this#i genuinely believe they lied abt their age because no sane adult acts like this#anyways people are dying! you can handle being told to be nice#drama tag
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I AM BEGGING YOU. MAKE A POST ABOUT EVERYTHING YOU KNOW ABOUT THE DREAM SMP FROM YOUR DASH. IT WILL BE FUNNY AND YOU WILL GET SO MUCH CLOUT. TRUST ME.
Ok so here are all the things i know about Dream SMP from my dashboard alone:
- Some Philza guy was trending because someone told other people "fuck that guy" and everyone else said "no fuck YOU"??? Â Â - one of those guys was very loud and saying they were going to spill blood for the Phil guy... honestly mood. - The Dream guy himself would probably punch his character??? they're playing characters or somethin??? - there's a black and white lookin fella?? The fanart all gives him a crown and tail... Elfy lookin fella with a tail? 10/10 would hug - also a kid??? had a green shir and is short. dunno who he is but the green shirt is a thing - Ok there's apparently discourse about gatekeeping or something??? Idk i saw a singluar post about watching from only 1 POV and thusly being an "apologist" or somethin??? idk but yall doin ok? - My good omens blog i follow has been super into this shit recently and they said something like "Phil is a dilf"... i have no idea what this means but it's on my dash a lot so i feel like it's important to pick up on. Â Â - Seriously i scrolled for a solid 10 minutes to get past this discussion so it feels very important - I see more of this Crown wearing, black and white elf lookin fella... i am concluding he is baby because all fanart makes him seem soft and he's also wearing a suit. very sharp fella - Somethin bout "bedrock bors"??? Idk but theres a constant pic of these two fellas hugging and i think that's neat - ALso some Wilbur fella??? idk but theres a lot of him too. wears a beanie? - At least one of these fellas is a dad friend and i'm not sure who it is... but one of these fuckers is it... i can feel it. - Someone has or at one point HAD wings?? lots of wingy lookin fellas so i hope those are ok. - there's a lot of screaming??? i mean mood but seriously, thereâs a lot of it??? - I feel like theres a dude with horns somewhere related to this but he's buried deep in my dash and i don't quite understand his importance? Named Shatt or somethin like that? Â - honestly looked like his name was "shit" for a sec and i was like "mood". - Found family trope??? I have seen wing guy hugging people with said wings so i'm gonna say thereâs some kinda found family in there
(Edited note: i am tagging these with thing iâve found in the âdream smpâ tag because i donât know what iâm doing)
#dream smp#mcyt fandom#jschlatt#dsmp#ranboo#wilbur dsmp#technoblade#tommyinnit#tommy and wilbur#philza#mcyt#dream mcyt#i am tagging things as i see them in the dream smp tag because i have only an outsider perspective i apologize
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I posted 23,629 times in 2022
That's 23,489 more posts than 2021!
1,195 posts created (5%)
22,434 posts reblogged (95%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@coffeeandconfusion
@terrence-self-ships
@irummna
@/shinekittenace
@/poormeowmeowcollector
I tagged 12,385 of my posts in 2022
Only 48% of my posts had no tags
#blueycapsules - 1,733 posts
#the lovable bastard <3 - 1,727 posts
#my beloved - 942 posts
#sillies you'll look again - 921 posts
#william afton - 750 posts
#aaaahhh!! :dd - 526 posts
#dave miller - 490 posts
#so true - 459 posts
#irummna answers - 430 posts
#hehe yesss - 404 posts
Longest Tag: 139 characters
#jesse we need to thank me tho for the first time in two weeks and i have a question for the silly little picture above the other hand oh my
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
[Blueycapsules]
Dave Miller x reader
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i got this idea from a small one-shot with Ayano Aishi written by Ck_TvN on Wattpad :D
since our boi Dave is on my mind constantly, i decided to give it a shot and write a small x (gender neutral) reader fanfic with him because yes :D
not to mention, there is almost nothing for/with him out there :(
with Blueycapsules version of Dave/William, i mean
my first time writing something like this, so it might be total shit, but it doesn't matter :D
also, Dave might be a bit ooc since i haven't done anything like this before, so yeah
there is a first time for everything, so here we go-
[tw: small mention of alcohol (wine) | possible typos and/or other small mistakes | also, it's first-person point of view, so no pronouns are used for the reader - idk, though i should mention it | nothing else, only crack | fluff | one-shot]
[word count: 1,050 words | 5,274 characters]
[first published: 14.02.2022]
[slightly edited: 16.02.2022]
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chatter filled the small hotel room, muffling the small TV in front of us. sitting on a pretty comfy, brownish couch, a bottle of wine and two glasses on the table in front of it, me and Dave talk about everything and anything that comes to our minds as we wait for Phil and Jeremy to come back with the-
honestly, i don't even remember what they said they were going after. oh well-
we've grown pretty close to each other in the short period of time we have worked together - it's like we know each other for years. still, as we talk and talk, the time passes, and the conversation starts to die out, we both focused on whatever is playing on the TV; some sort of drama involving a woman and a vampire.
i mostly stare at the screen, lost in thought, not paying attention to what's happening between the two anymore.
bringing the glass to my mouth, i take a small sip of wine. 'it's kinda sweet' i think, then take another sip.
Dave looks towards me
"so... yer single?" he asked out of nowhere, with a playful tone and a small glint of what seemed to be hope in his icy blue eyes - his usual shit-eating grin getting even wider as i choked on my drink. 'why was he asking that out of the sudden?' i thought to myself.
facing away from me, he takes a sip from his drink, eyeing me from the side while waiting for my answer, grin still on.
trying to re-composture myself, i clear my throat a bit, a small grin of my own starts tugging at the corners of my lips
"as a matter of fact, i am not."
i answer with such fake confidence that i am a little surprised he didn't seem to notice it. that, or he decided to play along with my silly game.
"who might the fella be?" he asked, moving his gaze away from me towards the TV, its lights dancing over his features.
my eyes focus on the half-empty glass in my hand as i say quietly "oh... no one, really..." looking over at him, i see his eyes still glued to the TV screen, head resting on his hand, no trace of the previous grin left on it.
"..."
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#4
for my very cool and awesome mutuals
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391 notes - Posted May 10, 2022
#3
i mean-
yESS!!! gimmie!!! >:D
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My #1 post of 2022
sillies look-
found a silly picrew :D
silly tags (no pressure, of course!): @coffeeandconfusion, @terrence-self-ships, @chuuyas--boo, @oc-x-cannon-on-main, @ninasrandomships, @just-slightly-unhinged, @spideygal and whoever whoever wanna join :D
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Late Night
Chris Evans x Female Reader
Summary: You meet Chris working in a bar, before he invites you to his house after closing.
WC: 3,525
Warnings: maybe a quick make out?? idk if I need to warn that, but better safe then sorry. Fluff, fluff, fluffÂ
A/N: Iâm sort of feeling a part two, because Iâve been in such a fluffy turned smutty mood recently. Anyone down?? Lemme Know :)
Tagging the lovelies that wanted this! @maximeevansblog @saltyflowermakertaco
MASTERLIST
Youâve been working in this small bar for years now; it mainly catered to older folks, the owners having fallen in love with the 40s and 50s and themed their bar after that. You quickly fell in love with the decades as well, hearing the old music and seeing all of the older peopleâs faces light up, reliving their glory years. However, usually, there were a couple younger groups there to relish in the theme a bit.
You started as a waitress at 18, trying to work your way through college. Quickly, you moved up to bartender, before one slow night when you randomly decided to sing along to one of the songs that the Thursday night live band always played. They were a pretty good group, and you soon found yourself listening to the songs they played in your free time. After you sang with them, the owners decided to add you to the regular Thursday night entertainment, still bartending on other nights.
You were nearing the end of your set, just two more songs to go before you could take off the heels you had ridiculously decided to wear tonight. They were very 50s and you loved the look, but, carelessly, you hadnât broken them in yet. You thought you would be fine, but your typical little dance during Fly Me to the Moon had suffered greatly. However, they matched your midi-navy-polka-dot dress and your pin-up style curls, so it wasnât a total loss.
âAlright everybody, weâre getting close to that time of the night,â you hummed into the microphone, âfor this next one weâre gonna slow things down a bit. To those of you Iâve been watching sit in your chairs all night, youâve only got two more chances to ask your ladies to dance. Even if you donât know how, ask her anyway, she'll love it.â you joked.
The band started to play Paul Ankaâs Put Your Head on My Shoulder, a personal favorite of yours.
âAnd remember, if anyone needs a partner, Iâm ready and willing,â you joked as the intro played. Quite a few times, older men who no longer had a partner took you for a spin for a song or two and you loved it.
You hummed a bit before you started singing along.
As you were singing, you watched a few of the younger guys in the back finally bring their girls out on the floor. Smiling as you watched them, you swayed back and forth.
You kept going with the song, almost at the end, glad that someone hadnât asked you to dance, because your feet were really killing you.
You finally finished it off, earning a small applause as you twirled with the mic.
âAlright yâall, last song of the night and you know what that means as well,â you spoke to the crowd, âlast call for alcohol,â you sang out.
You pointed back at the bar, and your friend who was tending tonight, before she waved at the group. A few people left the dance floor to get a drink as you continued your end of the night spiel, âfellas still sitting by themselves, last chance to take a spin on the floor. I see you still sitting there in the back! Itâs a short song, I promise,â you chastised the last table you saw still sitting there.
Two couples from that table got up to dance, leaving one man sitting by himself. You felt kind of bad for turning everyoneâs attention to him, but you had offered earlier to dance if anyone needed a partner, so the ball was in his court.
You signaled to the band to start up and spoke, âalright here we go,â into the mic.
Itâs Been a Long, Long Time kicked off, and you instantly swayed. The band didnât usually play this song, but after your Marvel obsession kicked in, you convinced them to add it to the set list.
You sang away, loving life, but your eyes didnât leave the man in the back. He was obscured by shadows - probably purposefully - but you felt drawn to him already. Something about him sent tingles down your spine.
Before you knew it, the song was over. You took a small bow before turning and pointing at your band, getting the audience to applaud them individually.
âThanks everybody, have a good night and drive safe. Hope to see you next week!â you spoke quickly and everyone filed off the dance floor to collect their things.
âThanks, you guys, that was a good show!â you spoke to the band before you rolled up your mic cord and packed it away backstage. As soon as it was safely in its case, you took a seat on one of the saxophone cases and started rubbing your feet.
Soon, the band came back to put their instruments away and you reluctantly gave up your seat. You headed to the bar to sit with your friend while she finished cleaning up; this gave you a chance to rest your feet a little more before attempting to maneuver yourself home.
You glanced around the room quickly and everyone had cleared out except the back table. They were all standing, putting on jackets, and just beginning to file out the door. The couples went first hand-in-hand, followed by the single man. You looked back at your friend and began to make small talk about the next night, seeing as you were off, before you felt a tap on your shoulder.
âThat was a great set,â the man spoke out in a low raspy voice, âI wish I had a dance partner.â
âThank you, but if I remember correctly, I did offer to dance with anyone. Anyone included you, Chris,â you quipped back lightly, chuckling.
âWell, doll, the way you were stumbling about up there, I didnât want to risk it,â he joked back, âand you know who I am?â
âIâm gonna head in the back to finish cleaning up and then we can go,â your friend spoke, gently tapping your forearm. You usually carpool to work because you live a few houses down from each other and it just makes sense.
âAlright, sounds good,â you answered her before turning back to Chris, âwell I did just sing Steve and Peggyâs song. I wouldnât be doing it justice if I didnât know at least its major history. And I donât think I was stumbling.â
âOkay, fair,â he answered, âmaybe stumbling wasnât the right word, but I can tell your feet hurt in those shoes.â
A small silence settled between the two of you as you got lost in his eyes, barely registering what he had said. His lips curled into a small smile as he gazed back. His eyes darted from yours to your lips for only the slightest second, before wandering down to your feet, which you were rolling slightly on the leg of the barstool, attempting to massage them a little. He looked back into your eyes again, his smile growing. The tension in the room rose quickly, and you began to get a little hot under his gaze. You were wondering how you ever got so lucky to have Chris freaking Evans looking at you like that.
âIâd offer to get you a drink, but you did say last call a little while ago,â he spoke slowly.
âThat I did,â you answered, âmaybe next time.â
âOr, I could take you somewhere else,â he offered lightly, his voice raising in pitch.
âHmm, I donât know if my feet are up for it,â you said softly, âand I donât know where else we would go on a Thursday night. Everyone is probably announcing their own last call.â You were surprised by your own confidence in front of him. You had no idea how you were keeping it together, let alone flirting.
âAnother option,â he suggested, âI could offer you a nightcap at my place. Or maybe coffee? A glass of wine?â
âEager there are we?â you quipped.
âWell, what can I say, that last song did it for me,â he chuckled, âbut really, it would be totally casual, no expectations.â
You thought for a moment, weighing the options. He probably wasnât a murderer, or a kidnapper. He was probably one of the gentlest guys you could go home with, and lord knows youâve taken a few risks with others.
âTotally casual doesnât sound too bad.â
âReally?â he asked, âgreat! Do you have a car here?â
âNo, we carpool,â you said, gesturing at your friend who had just walked back into the room.
âReady to go?â she asked.
âActually I was going to head out with Chris,â you said, looking at him while you spoke.
âOh, okay,â she said, her voice dropping slightly, âwell, Iâll lock up the front and we can head out the back together then.â
âGreat,â Chris answered, his eyes never leaving you.
You slipped your shoes back on and stepped down from your stool. You grabbed your purse from next to you and turned to grab your jacket, which was no longer on the back of your chair. You looked up and saw Chris holding it open for you and you slipped your arms in, your heart swooning wildly. You smiled at each other and followed your friend out the back.
You hugged her quickly, whispering âIâll send you my location,â in her ear. After all, a girl canât be too careful.
You followed Chris to his car around the front of the building, where he opened the door for you before jogging around to the driverâs side.
His car was nice, as to be expected, but not flashy and you enjoyed his modesty. It smelled freshly cleaned - a big plus - but also rode incredibly smoothly. You were more than content to drive around with him, listening to pop songs and belting out musicals, but before you knew it, he was pulling into his driveway.
He got out first, stepping out quickly. You waited half a second, sending your location to your friend quickly. As you were reaching for the door handle, it was being pulled from the outside. Always a gentleman, he is.
Chris flashed you a charming smile as you stepped out, swinging your purse over your shoulder.
âThis way, darlinâ,â he spoke lowly, shutting the car door. His hand was quick to find a home on your lower back, gently guiding you towards the front door.
Once up the stairs, he crossed in front of you, unlocking the door and slowly pushing it open. The alarm on the wall chirped, signaling the opening of the front door. Chris quickly bent down with his hands in front of his knees, preparing for the impact. Dodger came flying around the corner having heard the chirp, and slammed right into his dadâs hands before jumping onto his dadâs legs begging for pets.
âHey bubba, how you doinâ?â Chris spoke to his best friend, rubbing his ears, âthis here is Y/N, be nice to her buddy, no jumping.â
Dodger quickly took notice of you and immediately tried to jump onto your legs, a greeting you werenât necessarily against, but since Chris said no, you quickly pushed your hand down and met him on the ground. He sat at your feet, immediately accepting your presence.
âHe never does that!â Chris spoke, shocked at how quickly Dodger took to you.
âWhat can I say? I must be magic,â you joked and shrugged at him, making him laugh.
âWell letâs move out of the doorway, yeah?â Chris asked before closing the front door behind you.
Chris moved to the side of the hallway quickly; he kicked off his shoes and encouraged you to do the same. You happily followed suit, aching to get those damn heels off again. You sighed in contentment once your bare feet hit the cool hardwood floor, throwing your head back slightly, closing your eyes, and breathing deeply.
âThat bad, huh?â Chris chuckled, waiting for you at the end of the hall.
âOh yeah, I definitely have to get used to those before I try to wear them again,â you answered back.
âWell, follow me and weâll figure out that drink I offered.â
You set your purse on the bench next to your shoes before following him into the kitchen. He strolled around the island, resting his forearms on the island.
âTake a seat, doll,â he encouraged you, gesturing to the barstools on the other side.
Usually you wouldnât have obliged so quickly, offering to help him make whatever, but given the state of your feet, you hopped up quickly.
âAlright, so you have a lot of options, water as always, coffee, beer - my personal favorite - tequila, a slew of other liquor, juice, soda, milk, - which would be weird but whatever - wine, take your pick,â he said smiling at you.
âCoffee sounds good to me, to be honest,â you answered quietly. You wouldâve chosen beer simply because it was his favorite, but you werenât a big fan if youâre being honest.
âCoffee it is, gorgeous,â he answered, filling the pot with water and loading in the grounds, âmilk, creamer, sugar, black? What do you like?â
âMilk and sugar would be good.â
âYou sure? Iâve got peppermint creamer,â he coaxed you.
âOn second thought...â you chuckled, taking him up on his offer.
âAlright, doll, peppermint it is,â he laughed.
Soon the coffee was ready and as excited to try the peppermint creamer as you were, you couldâve watched him flutter around the kitchen for days. He handed you a sleek navy blue mug, taking a red one himself.
âShall we head to the living room?â
âWhatever you want, itâs your house,â you laughed.
âAlright, follow me,â he said, leading the way, âyou too, Dodge,â he called over the island. Dodger had been sitting at his feet the whole time, watching his dad.
He settled into one arm of the couch, pulling the coffee table closer to rest your mugs on. He placed his mug down and gestured for you to join him. You sat on the other end of the sofa, gently, looking over at him. He threw an arm over the back of the couch, kicked his feet out in front of him, and turned his body towards yours. Dodger watched you sit down and looked at you, almost saying âyouâre in my spot,â before turning around and going over to his bed by the fireplace.
âHowâre your feet doing now?â he asked you.
âTheyâre okay, it may take a few days to recover,â you laughed back, turning to face him as well. You held your mug in one hand, bringing the other to your foot as you swung your legs up at your side.
Chris reached over towards your feet, pulling them into his lap, âhere let me,â he spoke.
You blushed lightly at the very domestic action, but who would say no to a beautiful man rubbing their feet? He massaged them gently and you let out a little groan.
âYou really donât have to do that, but youâre so good at it I donât want you to stop,â you told him.
âWell then I wonât stop, darlinâ.â
He looked at you from across the couch, making your heart swoon again. You let out the quietest moan, enjoying the work of his hands, and closed your eyes.
Chris laughed lightly, whispering something to himself under his breath. You were a little lost in the moment, so you didnât hear him.
âSorry, what was that?â you asked him.
âOh, nothing, just talking to myself,â he answered. You knew that wasnât the case, but let it rest anyway; it couldnât have been too important.
Chris started asking you about your work and friends and family, what kind of movies you liked, and music preference of course. You asked him as well, really getting to know each other. He had stopped rubbing your feet a long time ago, but kept them in his lap, an arm thrown across them, rubbing your shins and ankles lightly. Dodger was snoring loudly across the room, and had been for quite a long time. The both of you were so lost in the conversation, that you didnât realize how late it had gotten. You glanced out the window behind him, beginning to see the sunrise.
âOh my goodness, what time is it?â you asked him, chuckling.
He glanced at his phone quickly, âalmost 5:00,â he said with wide eyes, âI didnât realize it had gotten so late.â
âIâm so sorry,â you said a little embarrassed, âIâve stayed way too long, Iâll just get out of your hair.â You began to pull your legs out of his lap, but he locked them down.
âYou donât have to leave if you donât want to,â he spoke quietly, âIâve really enjoyed your company.â
âAre you sure? I donât want to overstay my welcomeâŚâ you trailed off.
âPositive, sweetheart. Please, stay.â
âOkay, if youâre sure,â you asked him, raising an eyebrow. He nodded slightly at you. âThen I'll stay,â you said, settling back into the couch.
âCan I get you another cup?â he asked, gesturing to your mug.
âSure,â you answered lightly, handing it to him. He got up and trailed into the kitchen. You waited half a second before following him.
Chris heard you walk into the kitchen, turning around to look at you quickly, âsorry, can I get you something else?â
âNo, Iâm fine,â you answered.
âOh, well, uh⌠I wouldâve brought your mug back to you,â he chuckled.
âOh thatâs okay, I felt weird just sitting there,â you laughed lightly.
âOh, okay,â he chuckled back, âwell, since youâre here now, can I offer you breakfast?â
You didnât realize how hungry youâd gotten until he offered, âonly if I can help,â you responded.
âOh well, thatâs a deal breaker, darlinâ,â he answered, almost seductively.
âWell then no breakfast for me,â you laughed.
He was starving too, only having had a small dinner before he went to the bar last night. He didnât know when youâd eaten last, so you must be hungry as well.
âWell, maybe there is one way, you can help,â he said in a high pitched voice.
âWhat can I do?â you asked quickly.
âCome here,â he said.
You walked around the island you had been leaning on, joining him between it and the cabinets on the wall. Chris extended a hand towards you. You took it quickly and allowed him to guide you closer to him. Once you were fully in front of him, he dropped your hand and grabbed both of your hips. He picked you up quickly, surprising you, before setting you on the counter.
You laughed lightly at him, âokay, now what?â
âNow, you sit there and look pretty while I make breakfast,â he chuckled out, standing between your knees, keeping a little distance between the two of you.
âChrissssss,â you whine out at him.
âWhat, doll?â he asks, taking a step closer to you as you wrap your hands around his shoulders.
âI can do more than just sit here.â
âOh, really?â he asks, taking another step towards you, now standing between your thighs, almost flush to the counter.
âYeah, I can,â you breathe out, barely able to contain yourself now that heâs slotted between your legs.
âNope, darlinâ, this is enough help. Promise,â he says quietly.
Chris glanced down at your lips quickly before looking back into your eyes. He ran his hands up your thighs, starting at your knees, before settling onto your hips again. The temperature in the room seemed to rise at an unbelievable rate as you stared into each othersâ eyes. You could feel his breath on your lips, you were sure he could feel yours as well, the smell of coffee and peppermint radiated between you. He slowly leaned in and connected your lips.
It was like time stood still. He moved one of his hands around to your lower back, pulling your body to the very edge of the counter and flush against his chest. The other hand stayed firmly on your hip, digging in just a little. You wrapped your arms around his neck even tighter as you molded your lips together. He licked your bottom lip slightly, asking for entrance, which you granted. He explored your mouth just a little bit before pulling back, breathless, and resting his forehead against yours.
âWell, that was, uhâŚâ he spoke.
âYeah,â you answered, breathless as well.
You held his gaze for another second before moving forward and kissing him once again. You pecked him sweetly, before mumbling against his lips.
âIâll let you cook, as long as you let me clean up,â you laughed a little before connecting your lips again.
Chris let the kiss hang just a little longer than a peck before pulling back completely. He pecked your forehead quickly, before answering.
âNo,â he said firmly, turning around and letting out a loud laugh, one you knew so well.
You laughed right back at him, watching him start to cook and shaking your head to yourself. How did you get so lucky?
#chris evans#chris evans fluff#chris evans imagine#chris evans x reader#chris evans x female reader#chris evans x fem reader#chris evans fanfiction#Chris Evans fanfic#chris evans one shot#violetwrites
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A GO fic rec list! (3)
In no particular order, hereâs a (nowhere near exhaustive) list of fics that kept me alive while I struggled through the horrors of my final exams.
Hozier Missed A Trick When He Called It 'Real People' Instead Of 'Joe Bloggs Snogs'Â (E) by indieninja92 @indieninja92 - Crowley and Aziraphale having a wonderfully hilarious conversation about what they would be like if they were human. The banter is off the charts. I live for sneaky references to The Secret Garden. Iâve read this one five times the past two days alone and every time I read it something else jumps out at me and makes me laugh. Absolutely gorgeous.
Storms We Cannot Weather (G) by quiltedspacemittens @theseedsofdoom - Crowley anxiously waiting for a storm to hit the South Downs cottage. YOU GUYS. Holy crap, this fic shook me to the core in just a little over a thousand words. Beautiful, beautiful imagery and language. Left me devastated in the best way possible.Â
Comfort and Joy (M) by musegnome @musegnome - This fic!!! Itâs a human AU where Aziraphale and Crowley are classmates. I yelled about it for a year and a day. So many incredibly soft moments that made me smile so wide. It may interest you to know that I am, in fact, the Grinch, but this is a Christmas fic that I would read at any time of year.
The Saint of Lost Things (E) by jessthereckless - Look, I love rare pairs. I love them even more when Iâve never thought about them before and then I read a fic that makes me go, oh. Anyway. Hereâs a fic that utilizes the Crowley/Leonardo da Vinci pairing in a way that shattered my entire being. This pair is going to live in my mind rent-free forever.Â
Circumstances of Distinction (M) by MrsCaulfield - Idk sometimes you just want to read a fluffy Regency fic with zero homophobia!! Glorious footnotes that both cracked me up and taught me quite a bit of historical detail too. I was absolutely sucked into this fic. Highly recommend this for Austen fans.
The Curve of Old Bones (E) by jenanigans1207Â @jenanigans1207 - What do you mean, you arenât reading this fic yet? Hereâs a wonderfully written human AU where Aziraphale and Crowley end up pretending to be married for the sake of Crowleyâs job. The pining is *chefâs kiss*, the banter is hilarious, and the angst is DELICIOUS. A whole rollercoaster of the best emotions imaginable.
Itâs Never Quite As It Seems (T) by ZehWulf @zehwulf - Crowley walks Aziraphale through the mechanics of sleep. Omg, this fic. I read it and lay down and stared at the ceiling for a while and thought about love and repression and the inherent softness of sleep. A tag I loved: âfellas is it gay to make your hereditary enemy a bespoke bed?âÂ
like lightning (E) by darcylindbergh @forineffablereasons - Hell doesnât send rude notes. They send ouija boards instead. AUGH. I drop everything Iâm doing the moment I see this fic has updated, and I feel like Iâm holding my breath the entire time Iâm reading it. Agonizing and spectacular and mindblowing beyond belief.Â
#thank you to everyone on this list#kept me going through such an awful time#law school in the time of covid-19#not fun#fic writers are the best istg THANK YOU#fic rec#good omens fanfiction
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alright. ask and you shall receive (also i saw ur tags, dw abt carbon monoxide. we got a carbon monoxide detector and it works perfectly fine)
honestly im not really sure where to start so i guess ill just list off some of the weird shit weâve seen entity wise (not counting the mimics bc i think we already talked abt them)
glow in the dark baby: my personal favorite tbh. either manifests as an orb or a floating baby that glows blue. weâve only seen this fella once or twice
furnace room man: fuckin. forgot what we named him so weâll just go with that for now. anyways heâs like⌠some dude with some really bad burns and melty flesh. generally harmless, he just hangs out. the more friendly cousin of whatever else lives in there (we know nothing about them other than the fact they only tolerate our cats but absolutely HATE everyone else. the other things living in there, not furnace man)
chase: lives in our bedroom closet. creepy. weâve never seen him fully, all we know is that heâs short and has a lot of hair covering his face. we always keep our closet closed so we never really hear much of him, but one night we accidentally left it open and the ENTIRE night he just kept saying âhey. hey come here. come into the closetâ and we just. rolled over and went back to sleep because what the fuck else are you supposed in that kind of situation?? woke up a few hours later to see both of our cats on our bad hissing at the closet so thereâs that
the observers: what their name suggests. they just watch people and follow them around. they donât hurt people but when they pull up in numbers itâs SCARY. one time we got up late to get some water and there were 5 or 6 of them sitting around the coffee table. they donât have any facial features or any defining characteristics besides being really tall and just being.. walking shadows, but i could see their heads move towards us so we BOOKED it back to our room. few seconds later they were outside our door justâŚ.. Staring.
weird guy: we think he might be a mimic but heâs actually come out during the day so im giving him his own category. anyways one time we were putting the dishes away and felt something fucking MASSIVE and soft brush against our leg. thought it was one of the cats but it reached too high on our leg to be one of them so we just went. ok whatever this might as well happen. continued putting the dishes away and we could see something huge running down the hall in the reflection of a knife we were holding and nearly damn dropped the thing on our foot. he looks like some weird⌠man bat wolf thing? idk. very physical entity. very vocal also, he can mimic our cats meows and also giggles a lot
victoria: awful. if i remember correctly sheâs extremely pale, has long hair, and the rest of her body from the torso down is. gone?? anyways she likes to hang out in dark rooms. whenever weâre home alone at night sheâll try to get us to come into one of the rooms with her. i dont think sheâs been around that much lately? but when she used to be, if we ignored her weâd wake up with some pretty nasty scratches on our arms and legs
michael: MAN FUCK THIS GUY. he just looks like a tall malnourished blonde man w no eyes or lips. heâs bound to the bathroom for whatever reason, but god fucking FORBID you cross paths with him when heâs in a bad mood. he pushes people, pulls their hair, grabs their arms or waists. heâs awful. we can deal w victoria but michael 2 are straight noâs from us
michaelâŚ. 2 i fucking guess: donât have a name for her but basically she does the same thing as michael except she just kicks anyoneâs ass that goes in the basement. most thing she does is stare at you, but if you look into her eyes you feel sick as shit out of nowhere
thatâs⌠all i can think of off the top of my head. im not even sure if were rambling about these for shits and giggles trying to assign entities to them or finally letting this all out for our sanity and confronting it on a serious note but. well. itâs certainly there ig
The long awaited sequel to this ask! Long awaited mostly because it took me two days to get to it in the pile of statements, but still.
Well thereâs⌠stuff going on here for sure. The mimics you talked about previously sound like the Stranger type, which could apply to Weird Guy and possibly Chase as well? The weird disappearing room in the first part of your statement could be Spiral, and frankly so could your whole closets-lined basement - I wouldnât be surprised if opening those doors at just the right/wrong time lead to interesting developments. Victoria sounds like sheâs got an affinity for the Dark, and so do the Observers just from their description as shadow beings but the fact that you described them as constantly watching points to the Beholding. Glowing Baby sounds like the light at the tip of an anglerfishâs lure, so do with that what you will. The Michaels seem to have some Slaughter in them but tame enough that you live to tell the tale, and Michael 2âs sickening stare could fall under the Corruption, or maybe the Spiral or the Vast if itâs more like vertigo/the nausea from a rollercoaster? Furnace man sounds like he got Got by the Desolation, but seems too chill to be Of it, though the same might not be said for his âcousinsâ.
Final diagnosis: you live at Hilltop Road. Or rather, a place of similar level of Bullshit, though you seem to be alive and⌠well? So whateverâs going on there probably isnât as dangerous. Probably. Good luck?
#Iâll go ahead and assume youâre taking steps re: hallucinations because once again weâre having fun here but none of this is real#I know I give that warning often but like. last thing I want to do is accidentally mess with someoneâs head with my silly little tma blog#statements
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@underture & @cobraking tagged me in this forever ago, thank you guys!! & thanks for your patience lol. Also sorry I turned this into a lawrusso mixtape -_-
1. favorite song at the moment
not favorites but currently stuck in my head: Vitamin C - CAN Waste of Paint - Bright Eyes Wish You Were Here - Pink Floyd
2. a song you associate with your favorite ship
Rock Me Tonite - Billy Squier
Life's never easy - we can make it if we try Takin' our chances - face 'em side by side Live for the moment - on that we can agree Come and take me where I long to be
Ain't That a Kick in the Head - Dean Martin
I've sunshine enough to spread It's just like the fella said Tell me quick Ain't love a kick in the head?
Old Haunts - Gaslight Anthem
And don't sing me your songs about the good times Those days are gone and you should just let them go And god help the man who says "If you'd have known me when..." God help this man, oh babe if you'd have known me then Old haunts are all we've ever known
The Good That Won't Come Out - Rilo Kiley
I do this thing where I think I'm real sick But I won't go to the doctor to find out about it 'Cause they make you stand real still in a real small place As they chart up your insides and put them on display They'd see all of it, all of me, all of it All of the good that won't come out of me And all the stupid lies I hide behind It's such a big mistake, lying here in your warm embrace
Boxer - Gaslight Anthem
You took it all gracefully on the chin Knowing that the beatings had to someday end You found the bandages inside the band And the stitches on the radio
Dark Doo Wop - MS MR
If we're gonna die, bury us alive If you're searching for us you'll find us side by side That's my, that's my man
Twilight Galaxy - Metric
I'm alright, c'mon baby I've seen all the demons that you've got. If you're not alright, now c'mon baby I'll pick you up and take you where you want Anywhere you want
Portions for Foxes - Rilo Kiley
There's blood in my mouth 'cause I've been biting my tongue all week I keep on talkin' trash but I never say anything And the talkin' leads to touchin' And the touchin' leads to sex And it's bad news. Baby, I'm bad news I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you But just being around you offers me another form of relief And you're bad news. My friends tell me to leave you That you're bad news, bad news, bad news I don't care, I like you
Charity - Courtney Barnett
You must be having so much fun Everything's amazing You're so subservient I make myself sick Are you listening? You don't have to pretend you're not scared Everyone else is just as terrified as you Medication just makes you more upset I bet you got a lot to prove I know you're still the same Still the same
Ambling Alp - Yeasayer
Now the world can be an unfair place at times But your lows will have their complement of highs And if anyone should cheat you Take advantage of or beat you, raise your head And wear your wounds with pride You must stick up for yourself, son Never mind what anybody else done
I'm On Fire - Bruce Springsteen
At night I wake up with the sheets soaking wet And a freight train running through the middle of my head Only you can cool my desire Oh oh oh, I'm on fire
honorable mention to Music is My Hot Hot Sex by CSS bc I think of Johnny Lawrence every time that comes on and obv In The Air Tonight for again obvious reasons
3. a song that could be about you
Fineshrine - Purity Ring
Too Much - Carly Rae Jepsen
The Reeling - Passion Pit
Y Control - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Trust Nobody - King Princess
4. a song you think is overrated
idk, music is about yourself and your own memories so stuff that I get tired of isn't like - inherently tiring.
Oh, I do think it's funny that Ralph and Billy are always like omg it's so great that kids are getting exposed to 80s music when it's like guys. 80s music - ESP the flavor on the show - is hardly some deep cut. This is literally all just music half the radio stations/any store not aimed to teens or hipsters will play. Still not overrated, just funny. Reminds me of when I was a teen and a teacher got so excited I knew JOHN LENNON'S IMAGINE of all the songs in the world. come on.
5. a song that reminds you of a good memory
Your Legs Grow - Nada Surf
I Shot the Sheriff - Eric Clapton
Cut to the Feeling - Carly Rae Jepsen
Sugar, Sugar - The Archies
American Honey - Lady A
The Middle - Jimmy Eat World
Calle Ocho - Pitbull
The Book of Love - The Magnetic Fields
Starships - Nicki Minaj
No Sleep Till Brooklyn - Beastie Boys
Josie - Blink-182
6. the last song you listened to
Wild World - Cat Stevens
7. a song that makes you laugh
Agreed re: Flight of the Concords, also: Let's Do Everything For the First Time - of Montreal
8. a song you want your mutuals to listen to
uhh Yola - Ride Out To the Country is my Song of the Summer right now.
Tagging: @iamtheremin @an-sceal @rvspberryjvm @morethanonepage @deputychairman @chwheeler @freetobegrace @theoldmaroon @shrinkthisviolet @mysticalsadgirl @kellmeo @jknip3 @mariacallous @bobakick anyone who'd enjoy this!
#i know neither of those guys would listen to any of those songs but#the lyrics fit so well#not my fault they're out here listening to ratt -_-#4#5#6#7#8#9#1#11#12#13#14#15#16#17#18#19#20#lawrusso for ts
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sorry this is really petty but like. this drama is so funny bc ultimately ppl are being accused of liking w*ncest just for like. being mildly dean critical. babes you know you can just block people for disagreeing with you. it doesnât have to be that deep. in fact itâs literally the only way to survive fandom with more than a quarter of your brain cells left. anyway Iâm a dean stan bc I imprinted on him as a child but when I see posts about how he sucks I either agree, disagree and ignore it (and sometimes just unfollow bc Iâm curating the most fun online experience for myself as I should), or just say âthat makes a lot of sense but it makes me sad so Iâm just writing it out of my personal secret good spnâ. Itâs not that hard.
also like. fellas is not wanting to talk about incest on the blog you run for fun the same as supporting incest /s
also also. the cycle of destiel shippers being annoying and condescending to non destiel shippers -> non destiel shippers understandably deciding they dislike destiel shippers -> destiel shippers being offended for being called annoying is SO funny. tony you CHOSE to do that- like I ship destiel and even I think youâre annoying lmao
Okay I don't plan on talking about this too much anymore but I'll take this as an opportunity to address some things
It is wild how lightly people are treating very awful accusations here. I understand being suspiscious before following someone, because I have accidentally followed people who put that content on my dash (untagged too! because i do have it blacklisted) and it felt so gross. But people are just taking anything they don't like as "sus behavior"
Here are things I've seen people honestly mention that makes you suspicious: obviously being mainly a Sam blog, being "dean critical", being too intense about liking seasons 1-3, shipping sastiel (????), posting mainly about the brothers and not about Cas, criticizing an actor, being reblogged by one of them (even though we also hate when that happens! but it's not something we can control because i don't know every single one of them in order to block) and of course being associated with someone else that's sus.
And here's where I completely agree with what you said: people could just block others for all those things without throwing accusations around! You can just say "most of Sam blogs, or all Sam blogs who don't post destiel, are annoying as hell and i'll block them all" and that's fine! Or, better yet, don't say anything, you don't need to publically announce when you block someone.
Also yeah, a lot of people don't add banners on every post or post nonstop about how gross the wincest shit is because we prefer to avoid it and not be constantly thinking about it. I have the tag blacklisted but I don't do a deep investigation of OP of every post that makes into my dash, and that's kind of a wild expectation.
Quick note on the "dean critical" thing, I've never seen a fandom so weird about people critizing a character. The whole reason people started using the tag was exactly so we could still hang out with people like you, who love him and maybe don't wish to see negative analysis on him, so you could have a tag to blacklist instead of unfollowing! And although it's the bare minimum, I respect the honest attitude of "I know this happened in the show, but personally it's not an aspect I want to read/write meta about" instead of straight up denying stuff.
It is a wild cycle, with so many people (including myself) rejoining the fandom recently it's like you could see us going from "this is fun! i'm gonna follow a bunch of spn blogs" to "this is mildly annoying" to "i hate all of you, blocking spree". Not to be a hypocrite, I was onboard with destiel for most of my time in the fandom, I think I fell out of love with the ship partially because of my rewatch (and it shouldn't be that weird that rewatching something as an adult your perception on it changes!) and partially because of the fandom being so very Like That about it. And the whole fandom experience once you leave that ship is just very different. The bitterfication of the sam girl or whatever.
I do still have destiel mutuals who I appreciate very much, I don't even blacklist the tag because y'all have some amazing artists and I'm always up for fanart, even of things I don't ship (of course with the exception of gross ships).
Anyways yeah it is so infortunate that all of this happened but we move on, idk if anyone took the time to read all of this because it turned more into me venting than anything else but I also appreciate the support iâve been getting from some of yâall
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hi idk why i cant change which blog im using to ask so heres my sdv one JGHFKIDJDN but!!! my skrim blog is coleenofthemoon so u can tag me if u like!!!!!
ANYWAY i just wanted to talk about miraak now that i am free from no simp september after i failed like an hour after sep 1
btw this has soulmate stuff in it....
so my oc is this shifty little half-bosmer, half-breton conwoman with a lot....of names so basically she goes by arpina sun-stealer but her real name is a nord name (heehee lore) and she's the guildmaster of the thieves' guild and the listener of the dark brotherhood!! in terms of backstory this totally fits in but on a moral level it gets kinda fun because she's very soft and patient and exudes big Robin Hood energy THOUGH it is very clear that she Can and Always Will Be A Ratty Bastard despite her very fancy upbringing!!
all her life she's had a strange scar on her arm and when she meets the greybeards they read the name for her and they recognize it, but they can't tell her much bc soulmates are a dragon thing, not a human thing. eventually she meets miraak after getting harassed by his cultists and she is FURIOUS and HORRIFIED and naturally she's very upset but when she meets him she feels genuine sympathy for his plight and just can't bring herself to kill her soulmate.
miraak for his part is justifiably very angry abput being transferred over from one jailor to another, but he doesn't know that arpina's his soulmate until they go and take down alduin, but from his freedom from apocrypha to their entry to sovngarde he learns to get along and eventually starts enjoying their time together.
ANYWAY THATS ALL AJDHSKJS if i said anymore i'd spoil the fic......
thank u ur so cool<3333
ask game: send me some info about your tes oc and their love interest (incl. mods) and i'll send you a song about them!
@coleenofthemoon THANK U FOR THIS, I WAS HOPING SOMEONE WOULD ASK FOR MIRAAK BC I LOVE HIM AJAKSKKD also i rly would love to hear more abt arpina if u wanna dm me â¤â¤ i think she'd get along with my girlie alexandria !! (shifty ratty bastard with robin hood energy and a fancy upbringing?? literally same hat)
anyway disclaimer that there is NO consistent genre here. there's like some old jazz and some pop, it's all over so im sorry about that đ i wanted to include some oldies in there because miraak is an old ass man and he'd vibe to it /j
i don't want to set the world on fire by the ink spots | spotify. youtube.
"i've lost all ambition for worldly acclaim; i just want to be the one you love"
i was an island by a.w. | spotify. youtube.
"i can't do this alone anymore 'cause i'm no good on my own anymore. what did I do to deserve this? what did you do to me?"
killing me softly by the fugees (cover by joseph vincent) | spotify. youtube.
"strumming my pain with her fingers. singing my life with her words. killing me softly with this song"
livewire by oh wonder | spotify. youtube.
"oh won't you be my livewire? make me feel like i'm set on fire? your love will take me higher and higher"
past lives by BĂRN | spotify. youtube.
"here's to our past lives, our mothers, and fathers. our love is deeper than the oceans of water"
guillotine by jon bellion | spotify. youtube.
"There's bones in my closet, but you hang stuff anyway"
where you let it go by i the mighty | spotify. youtube.
"i will love you even if we're just energy out in the universe"
under my skin by jukebox the ghost | spotify. youtube.
"i can feel you laughing under my skin and the happy palpitations are making me grin. you know it fills my heart with music"
i love you, i love you. it's disgusting by broadside | spotify. youtube.
"you rescued me when my mind was in a prison. you set me free when no one else would listen"
"murder" he said by betty hutton (cover by dinah shore) | spotify. youtube.
"finally found a fella almost completely divine, but his vocabulary is killin this romance of mine"
(ok this one is 100% a joke, i just can't imagine miraak who spent gods know how long in literal oblivion even remembers what it's like to feel the touch of a woman, he a lil lost on how to romance arpina đ¤đ)
#tes#tesblr#cozy answers#hopefully i didn't mess up the links ajsksks i had to type this on my phone bc i havent unpacked my laptop charger yet#oh also PS tumblr only let's you send asks through your main blog that's why u can't switch!! its kinda irritating sjsksksk#miraak#other's ocs
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