#idk this year was hard
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having good & true friends will literally save and protect you in a million unfathomable ways. like okay we have written so many times about lovers. but the way a platonic friend laughs and cries with you. the way they hold your hand at 14 years old and at 34. the way they keep a little silver tie to you, touching base over and over and over. how you can go years without talking, only to re-meet and discover: oh shit! you're still cool!
there are people who have been in my life for more than half of it, and i have loved every version of them. do you know how fucking beautiful that is. yeah love will save the world. but the way friends love you is gonna save the you.
#and before one of u is like '' i have no friends :(" i used to be there too actually#abusive partner cut me off from ALL of 'em. i didn't think i was lovable#it made me EXCEPTIONALLY shy. i still am actually!!!!#i just ... started saying ''yes.''#i would take pictures of flyers in my library and go to whatever events they had#i started taking community classes#if someone mentioned like ''i am gonna start x group'' i actually took a deep breath#and approached them to be like . okay i want in.#i started making the first move with new people - a small compliment#a smile or a little joke. just to share the space with them.#i have MASSIVE social anxiety. bad parent and bad relationship will do that to ya.#but i just... kept going. and going. and going. to each of these little things. and then...#like. .... idk i just am very blessed. i have a STUPID number of friends#a lot of which i reconnected with. bc it turns out love is never wasted. adult life just.#like. gets in the way. but also... i loved u as a weird little kid. i love u now as a weird big adult.#i promise i PROMISE ur friends are out there. u just have 2 find them. and btw#i didn't make friends with everyone. but i did get a lot of people to smile or laugh.#aint that something.#this process took me something like 2 years. it was HARD!!!!!!!!!!#i love u!!! hard things are often worth it!!!
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i'm so, so excited to share this painting with you. i have officially been making art for 20 years, and i thought it would be fun to repaint the first digital work i ever made.
i have wanted to give up art so many times over the years. i'm tremendously proud of myself for sticking with it and improving as much as i have. i hope you're proud of me too! please be sure to zoom in to see all those details i worked so hard on (especially the rhinestones!!). thank you for being with me during my art journey. 20 years, 20 more 🖤
#my art#art#painting#digital art#realism#photorealism#anime#self portrait#angel#art improvement#2024 art improvement#idk like my painting i spent a hundred years on it and also cried because it was so hard
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so like basically i have to have hope. and then pretty much i’ll be primed to notice it more when those hopes come true, simply because i was thinking about it.
so this year we’re doing cbt. essentially
happy new year mwah
#idk this year was hard#and as more adverse events kept happening i started counting them#like keeping a mental list#and whenever a new bad thing happened i added it to the list#so that each bad event was not just that bad event. it was also a heavy accumulation of every bad event#and that made me feel depressed and victimized#and i made some selfish choices as a result. in addition to just feeling horrible#i don’t want to have that list anymore i want a better list#i want to feel overwhelmed by the accumulation of HAPPY things that happen to me (including little ones#cuz like of fucking course hard things will happen in 2024 that’s how life works!!!#and of COURSE if i consider every adverse experience a pattern or pileup. rather than a random occurrence of life. i will feel hopeless#and i cannot rely on No Adverse Events to feel better i have to change my goddamn brain#maybe i’ll do something stupid and therapist-approved like literally listing nice things every day idk#anyway#thanks so much for coming to this tumblr therapy session#i love you#new years#rambling#mental health#depression
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a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)
#i realised too late that it has been more than a fuking year (august 9)#and for context: ive had 3 different intagram art accounts and i deleted all 3 of them a few months before creating them. anxiety amiright#here it has been so different bc people are so nice??? it has been a pretty plesant experience here w all of u really#im so glad to have found myself in such a wonderful part of the fandom and amazing mutuals that i never talk to bc im shit w texting#the atention has been overwhelming ngl. i have over 2000 followers which. holy fuck???#it doesnt feel like a real number and for my own sake im nnot gonna treat it as one#like i apreciate the support and ppl liking what i do but im not here to make number go big yk? im here to connect w other humans#and yall have been amazing humans ^^ thank u for all the wonderful tags and comments and the support overall#it has been so cool sharing my art and finding other artist whom i respect oh so very much. some of them even follow me back wtf#i hope to continue being here for as long as i can and keep growing as an artist and sharing that process with other without fear#also my amy redesign actually goes so hard idk why i forgot about it nxnfbcncb#sth#sonic fanart#sonic#amy rose#nov.aart#nov.junk
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I uh, started this as a little wholesome thing but it QUICKLY got out of hand, anyway part 2 here.
#my art#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rottmnt future leo#rottmnt casey jr#rottmnt casey jones#idk am i a couple years late to be drawing rottmnt stuff?#maybe#but i have the casey jones jr brainrot rn so#be subjected#this is SPECIFICALLY for one person but i thought id share it outside of discord anyway#anyway lizzie im dedicating this angst to you#peepaw leo is about to have a very hard conversation with his kid#casey jones jr#casey jones
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Zelda goes mushroom girl
#tloz#a link to the past#zelda#link#my art#I was happy with that first one but for some reason decided it still needed a companion piece so I spent way too long on that second one...#I don't think there was any time during the progress where I was happy with it but hfduhdfu at least I got to Attempt drawing moss hell yea#I also at some point sat in Pyu's art stream and said I enjoy drawing legs As I was being murdered by the infamously impossibe (imo) squat.#it's ok I had fun !! but I need to learn how to let doodles be doodles or I'll never finish stuff at this rate dfsuhfd#if everything in my tloz tag looks like it was drawn by different people uuuh 2023 was art crisis year ngl......#I'm falling back into my old ways rn though#anyway I think about these two a lot I think they're both stone faced and awkward ppl in different ways but they try rly hard to be friends#like I like to think it starts out so incredibly awkward and a bit sad bc they keep stepping over each other's toes accidentally the harder#they try but idk they find comfy middle ground idk in my brain they have a very interesting friendship I wanna get around to drawing it#in a proper way that might make sense....#if I don't write 200 tags I will die maybe it's bc I grew up on dA or smth#and yes I know how to find 1 (one) type of mushroom /I/ am not mushroom girl unfortunately smh
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step into the light
what do you see?
my sun,
my stars
shining on me
#narumitsu#wrightworth#phoenix wright#miles edgeworth#ace attorney#can you BELIEVE i made it through that without a big ole smackeroo? amazing#anyway… dont think too hard abt what this is. theyre just in a magical place. dream world. idk. theyre in love does it even matter#shoutout to the anon that requested the kisses on the corners of the eyes…. my friend you spoke to a part of me that needed to awaken#the mush in this was brought to you by my maple tree of romance and a lifetime of boiling over with a need to channel it somewhere#they taste like a sunrise and syrup and i’m choking up#i hope the last page being colored isn’t too jarring it just looked like that in my head#that last panel of pg 2…. boys i’m printing that and sending it to all my friends bc wth i was FEVERISH with nrmts holy fuck#last art of 2023 AND first art of 2024. let it be a year of multi-track drifting#fan art#aa#rendevok#fan comic
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cool guy with a sword
#RUEBIS BACK#RUEBIS BACK..#hai smiling like this isnt my first finished half decent drawing in like 6 months#a lot has been going on mb bffs#but i hope u like.. i love this drawing it was very fun and im cheesin so hard … tried some new thangs and i hope thats ok#yeeaaayyyyyy yeaaasyy#raiden my buddy bro i love mgs4 raiden with my soul#mgs#fanart#mgs4#raiden#raiden mgs#lalala idk what other tags to put#oh ive had this page for 4 years now.. very cool.. thank you for allthe support
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Imagine if he started getting scared of bridges too
#idk man these are so half-assed but i spent way too much time for it to only rot in my gallery#and i literally have 0 energy to finish this or like add more sketches for context#aa#ace attorney#aa4#seven year gap#ace attorney fanart#I THREW THE CONTEXT IN THE TRASH BIN FIGURE IT OUT YOURSELVES UEFHHHHH#the bridge didnt snapped if you cant tell#he was just reminiscing the fall after it creaked#anyways#fml#fanart#art#ace attorney art#aa art#phoenix wright#miles edgeworth#this is hurt/comfort but i threw the comfort as well#i hate this#DELETING IF IT FLOPS IM GONNAKMS#“we as a community should make him cry more” i have never nodded so hard ever in my life
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little doodle to celebrate going into 2024!!! 🎉 idk what's coming but may we make the best of it :D
#idk about you guys but i'm Exhausted... i'm gonna go sleep.... zzzz#the amazing digital circus#tadc#pomni#my art#okay hiding sappy stuff in the tags#thank you guys for the warm reception over here!! idk if you know my 'lore' but i hadn't drawn much the last couple years#tadc and you lovely folks have helped me get back in touch with this passion of mine and it feels great to be actively making stuff again#okay enough emotions look at this cat partying hard 🍾🐱🎉
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i love how this blog called "badly drawn" while like some of these doodles are better than my finished sketches lol
HEY
NO SELF DEPRECATION ABOUT YOUR ART SKILLS IN THIS HOUSE
ANGIE ATTACK
#admin post#also like i obviously dunno who you are anon but like. ive been drawing for years#and i still meet people who are obviously more skilled than me#but even then#like. we all learn at a different pace#if you see some of the old posts on this blog and compare them to the newer ones theres improvement on THOSE too#and they're all scribbles to me#like!!!!!!! idk if im making any sense!!!!!!#art is hard it sucks but we're creating and we're on a journey#and you'll always be better than the ai crowd#kissing your forehead. mwah. dont stop creating#also this angie is fully colored because i was insane doing just lineart these days BYE
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sasuke wants his new year's kiss :kissing_heart:
#sasunaru#narusasu#naruto#sasuke#my art#my comic#round fox baby#naruto's boyfriend#JKHAJDFKASDFADF FUCKING HELL IM SO TIRED#ASDHAHAHAHAHA I BEEN WORKING ON THIS FO#WHAT??? 10 GODDAMN HOURS IM SO DONE IM SO TIRED#ok tbh its my fault for starting late i literally had 3 days off#AND I DID NOTHING ASJKDFHAHSDFADSF FUCKKK#it took an extra hour bC SASUKE#IDK HOW TO DRAW HIS FUCKIN HAIR#NOR HIS FACE WHYS HE SO HARD TO DRAW IM GONNA CRY#anyway hahaha HAPPY NEW YEAR BABES HAHAHAHAHA FUCK
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i'm sending this endless melody to a nameless you
#SKELETON ORCHESTRA AND LILIA I NEED YOU#project sekai#emunene#emu otori#nene kusanagi#pjsk#prsk#proseka#wxs cover wishlist copium.. 2!!#i have lots more of them i wanna draw but ill do st least one duet for each pair i think. maybe nnks next ive had one for them forever#Gyaaaa#Crying i have szks lunar new years art that idk how to render im missing the holiday. lord in heaven#Ik every leaker or whatever says this is going to mmj snd it probably will and i'll love the cover but still. emunene save me#wxs gets songs with nonsense lyrics its possible right Right right#i also wanted setsuna trip to go to emu in any duet but i looove the mnai cover so i won anways#Kind of too sleepy to do my usual. Sorry viewers who like reading theough my insane tags. Dont get covid it makes you sleep 13 hours a day#For the next month.#my friends saw me going nuts over this drawing actually and i gave up hard on nenes dress i just wanted to be done.. love how emus looks..#wait i actually can be insane in the tags THE WXS WORLDLINK SONG SJHDDYDJKYMY TGYAYDHUA!!! HAGSGYAAH!!!!! GY6;$;$;$;$;$ WHEHEHEHEHEH#WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH. Its so good please help. Wxs tetrad that illuminates the world save me.#why does the 2dmv have all of them under a WEDDING AROOOR WHY IS THERE A WEDDING BELL. CONGRATS ON POLYSHO MARRIAGE. HWATEVVRR!!!!!#wonderlands x showtime killing me taking damage augh Auughg akk akcghj
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<3 abby is the type of gf to open a jar for you even when you’re mad at each-other
🫙🥒
◦ imagine you guys got into a argument for whatever reason and are now giving eachother the silent treatment
◦ it’s so childish and silly, refusing to leave the same room yet acting as if the other doesn’t exist pls
◦ lets say you’re trying to open a jar of pickles (those big fat dill ones that aren’t sliced just bc they’re my fav)
◦ and you already know from past experience there’s no way in hell you can open that jar
◦yet you’re stubborn about it, really trying, refusing to ask abby like you’ve done every other time
◦ you get into it, making little puffing noises, getting flushed from exertion, hurting your hands
◦abby’s sitting close by just frowing at your back. she knows you’ll keep going until you break the jar or something
◦ so while doing so you don’t hear abby come up beside you, looking down at you like 🫥
◦ she just. holds her hand out without a word, letting you decide if you want her help or not (but is it rlly a choice if you can’t open it without her)
◦ you let out a quite little sigh before handing her the jar also without a word, not even looking at her
◦ and you definitely don’t pout at how quickly and easily she gets it open
◦ like seriously? you were slaving over it for 5 minutes
◦ she offers the jar to you and you take it, turning your back on her and placing it on the counter
◦ she bites the inside of her cheek but says nothing, heading back into the dining room, until a gentle tug on her arm stops her
◦ she turns back around to see you offering her a pickle in your outreached hand, one already shoved in ur mouth, the jar reclosed on the counter (much less tighter then it was before, probably barely closed tbh)
◦ and when she takes your offering she definitely doesn’t have to hold back a amused grin at the way you still refuse to look at her, cheeks warming in embarrassment
◦ she takes a bite, making sure it makes a obnoxious loud crunch sound, and then quickly leans down to kiss your cheek with pickle juice wet lips
◦ “abs, that’s gross…” you whine lowly, dragging out the s, pouting up at her while wiping your cheek with the hem of your shirt
◦ “aww, sorry baby” she mocks your pout and whiney voice back to you, using her own hand to rub ur cheek with a playful eyeroll
◦ you take a bite and quickly place your own pickle scented kiss on her chin before ducking under her arm and scurrying away with a giggle
◦abby chuckles to herself and follows after you <3
#ೀbunsdreams#idk what possessed me to write this bc i haven’t had a pickle in like. a year#point is abby is opening all my jars#that is something i actually struggle with it’s hard for us out here …#tlou abby anderson#abby anderson x reader#abby anderson imagine#abby anderson x you#abby anderson drabble
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Fave Kabru panel redraw woohoo
#kabru#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#delicious in dungeon#kabru of utaya#fanart#dunmesh#cant wait for the anime onlys to get to the arc this is from in one million years#idk how to render armor and chainmail i gave up if you cant tell#worked hard on his face and then got to the rest and was like hm.....dont feel like it#his face still looks kinda silly imo but WHATEVER#scopophobia
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cant stop thinkin bout charles and erik readin together on the couch but instead of reading with him charles is listening to eriks thoughts while he reads. Live mind commentary ……..
#xmen#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#snap chats#the rare time i post an idea of mine only because i really cant think of a way id draw this#usually i hoard my ideas cause i like surprising you guys but this aint really one i feel like drawing so. For You my friends#like i COULD but. idk just isnt particularly something im itching to draw it just seems cute#but anyways no chat let me cook alright hear me out cause i talk in my brain all the time while i read#sometimes i stop reading just to think about a bit i read yeah#i want charles to listen in on all of eriks side comments or observations he makes while reading something#like if he wanted to charles could read the whole book in less than five minutes- maybe shorter than that#and that aint fun that aint cool …. so time for Audible: Husband Edition. With Commentary#ITD BE SO COZY just hangin out by the fireplace …. maybe its snowin outisde … if snow even exists anymore atp#a light fire cracklin and the study SEEMS totally quiet otherwise and yet…..#charles has been locked in to erik’s off-the-cuff literary analysis and mild comments for the past twenty minutes. its simple but its bliss#charles doesnt have to worry about being seen as invasive .. he doesnt have to suppress his powers …#the rare occasion erik lets charles into his mind for somethin so innocent .. ive made myself sick i fear#see now i wanna try writing a fic but 1.) have written in years 2.) id have to really think hard on how erik would commentate on a book#hm…… actually i do wonder what erik’s commentary on The Fable of the Bees would be …..#IN ANY CASE. maybe - at the very least- i can draw cherik by the fireplce someday ….#thatd be cute … hm …. depends on if i get in the mood for it down the line#anyways i have to drive back to my dorm !!! boo !!!! so good night everyone !!!!!
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