#idk more ramblin

[deripmaver]

i think one of my hottest berserk takes is that, while both were being influenced by outside forces, both femto (including when he rapes casca) and the beast of darkness are fundamentally still griffith and guts, respectively. griffith and guts brought to the absolute brink & lashing out in ways they typically never would, but neither femto nor BoD are separate entities.

[opioidbandit]

I miss the aura kaitoukid had in the earlier episodes

[hadesknockedupintheunderworld]

I'm just going off of your posts, but is Sonine your favourite version of Sontails?

Hmmm

If I had to pick a favorite version, I guess I would say them. Their dynamic was the first Sontails related ship I admitted to myself I liked, and the first I found myself obsessed over (and dedicating so many waking hours to)

To be honest, although Sonine counts as a ship under the umbrella of Sontails, it's special enough to me and special enough a case personally that I kind of give it a degree of separation from Sontails. It's why you may see me say that my Sonic the Hedgehog (franchise) otp is Sonine and Sontails

For pretty much 99% of the Sontails dynamics and depictions across the sonic media, I lump them under the umbrella of "Sontails" as one of my otps. This one is a specific depiction of the two in the games and adjacent to that. Even though interpretations of their setting, personalities, etc vary, there are many threads between the pairing you can gather between the games, archie sonic, idw sonic, the ova, the sonic movies, etc. And while I can easily lump my ships between Sonic and the Prime Tails variants under that umbrella in my mind, my obsession with Sontails as an otp largely extends to this best friend relationship between them as it persists across the Sonic media.

Sonine on the other hand, while the two did consider each other best friends, has a different start to their relationship, a bit of a different dynamic, and a different appeal to me.

While with Sontails I'm sticking my grabby hands into sonic comics and tv shows and games and movies for many crumbs of this unbreakable bond, with Sonine I am looking into their specific relationship and dynamic (and the ways in which they compare, contrast, and relate to Sontails)

So to conclude, my answer is both yes and no. Yes, if I had to say so, Sonine is technically my favorite version of Sontails. But under the Sontails shipping umbrella (of ships I actually tag as sontails in my posts/reblogs), it's much harder to pick a favorite, since there are many good moments across the media

Thanks for the ask!!😊💖

[tfdtreasurer]

hi sooo i have very very VERYYY intense eridan x yn brainrot happening and its all i can post about and think about, can you please tell me how the actual fuck do i cope with the ampora brainrot TEACH ME UR SECRETS /hj (funnily enough i found ur blog through you liking one of my eridan posts, soo yk)

It is not a total exaggeration to say that Eridan brainrot has taken over the entirety of my creative thinking capabilities. Some would see this as a negative, but I believe I have achieved zen mastery over my brainrot, which I think is the best case scenario, very possibly enlightenment. So in short, embrace the Eridan and channel it creatively. This also applies to literally any character that you form brain rot over, so I hope the rest of this ask may be universal to other people too.

The long and universal answer is that you have to start by forming an in depth interpretation of the character that you can creatively work with. Research everything you possibly can about them and when you're done research more until you're so wrapped up in thoughts and ideas you want to spin into yarns you're not sure what are spurious connections or load bearing columns. Link your thoughts about the character to your own personal philosophy on nothing less grand than life itself. From there, anything you will want to say will steadily become clearer, and you'll be better equipped to express it in artistic and creative medium.

For me with Eridan I can spend hours in Wiki holes and esoteric and specialist websites for the strangest things. I know the symbolism of the water carrier and the shoulder yoke. I know the myth of Ganymede, cup bearing and drinking poison. I know the exact names and manufacturers of 1800s whaling equipment, their mechanisms and specifications. I know that Starbuck is the name of a significant whaling dynasty. I know the scents of lightning. I know the instruments of the apocalypse and armies. I know the complicated etymology of romance. I know emperors and conquerors. I know of biblically wicked kings. Think of nothing that you research or notice shallowly. Look for deeper meaning because even if you determine it's not intended in that case, you can create something with it where it is. Do that and your repertoire of symbols and devices will become infinite.

At every step and revelation about Eridan as a character I related it to my own worldview and practiced endless self inquiry like a fucked up fandom fueled Socratic dialogue. And as my worldview refined, without meaning to sound ridiculous, I came to view things through the lens of Eridan goddamn Ampora. Does that sound ridiculous? Yes, absolutely. Would I admit in person? Maybe on my deathbed or in a criminal confession. Is it the truth? Yeah. Sorry to get all hippie communist all of a sudden but I can seriously link Eridan to my thoughts on capitalism and class struggle, on anarchism and anti-authoritarianism, the status quo and revolution, on psychology and how to relate to our fellow human beings. Not because she's instrumental in getting to those beliefs, but because the art I want to create to express myself and consequently the beliefs that form myself will inexorably use my ultra brairot powers to do so. Even if you don't seek to create art, training yourself to look deeper and analyze at that level about anything will help you consuming art in a way that will give you so much satisfaction in the long run.

For me personally, I have written works of art that are just channels for all my complicated thoughts on Eridan. I've written my own version of orphaners, of kids that wanted different lives than the one they ended up with, allegories of the Aquarius zodiac, magicians and scientists, punks and soldiers, bespectacled and pinstripe-wearing villains. I've entered them into contests and to literary journals. On small scales, I've won money and gotten published.

Yes I realize that it's mostly plain ol brain rot but at the same time a part of me is always wondering if this is just the nature of how we're influenced by art. The way that Homestuck is written feels like it's somebody's own experience with an obsession with something in particular that spiraled outward into all these esoteric sources that were then synthesized into a singular creative work. Gnosticism and genetics and Internet culture and video games and music, but also little its and bits of things like lovecraftian horror, anime, chess, Peter Pan. To borrow the words of a recently relevant political figure,

"You think you just fell out of a coconut tree? [...] You exist in the context of all in which you live and what came before you.”

It's the same thing with art. I came to understand at some point in my life that I am less merely effected by my influences, and more possessed by them. In writing, I find myself acting irrationally, random impulses to include depths of symbolic comparison that nobody but myself could possibly hope to understand. I try to tame these impulses when they arise, make them more accessible, but my subconscious psyche is a pair of invisible hands perpetually at the wheel. So, I really just wish that someone eventually reads into my writing and is just as possessed by my words as I was by something else writing them. Even if it's not what I intended or the ghosts possessing me even intended, because writing is strange like that, in how we leave so much in the hands of the audience to interpret their own way. Like, I don't know if the cup-bearer-zodiac-Eridan drinking something later linked to an allusion of poison was intentional, but it will be for my own art. I don't know if Eridan's scare-everyone-away personality was connected to the skunk stripe-like hair, but for the characters I write it will. And I hope my legacy is like a legion of weird eridan-like ghosts haunting others' writing everlasting into eternity.

So, yeah, how do you cope with Eridan Ampora brainrot? Learn to love it, and learn to use it. Most of all, learn to love using it.

[strawberry-clownie]

Okay why I’m in a hyper mood and its on the mind, there’s something I wanted to discuss. So as I got into the second movie, something bothered me from it that I haven’t really found, probably because TBT is everywhere currently and I am late, but, every other species of Trolls were different with mythological elements. Classical Cherubs, Country Centaurs, Techno Mermaids……Llama Funk? Yeah idk about them but moving forward, the Rocks being so much like the Pop Trolls bothered me. Like yeah I get that wasn’t even in the minds of the guys making the first movie when they did, but like…. :( I hate it. So there’s one I thought would be interesting in concept that fits with Rock to me; Vampires. But more specifically, vampire bats. I mean they had Ozzy and he bit the head off of a bat COME ON.

I have a Barb redesign in the works with that concept but like, its there. They were what looks like in a cave at the Rock concert at the end, and imagine the cool gem aesthetics that go in caves? How different they could look? Its mostly tying into my adopted Branch au, but like. Whats more rock then being winged bat vampires?

[lens-guy-art]

After seeing No More Movie Thief, the popcorn guy and the drink guy are def married

The 2014 version at the end, they're both just chilling in the couch and both of their mugs has hearts on it. Just a happy couple chilling at home :))

Until Drink guy phucking illegally downloaded a movie and got his ass arrested and now his husband had to bail him out of jail

[sunlightfeeling]

I genuinely feel like I dont have a right at all to complain or talk negative about Japanese fans but like……..the evident cliqueish-ness of honestly what looks like a very unfortunate larger chunk of them ……😮‍💨

like i gotta be honest the concert was a lot more isolating than it actually already was in itself because of the vibes at least a couple of clusters of fans gave me

[itslilacmoon]

i feel like i havent drawn anuything in forever (ive been posting a lot of backlogged stuff) but i hadf this idea yesterday and tonight i just sat down and drew it and,,,, i didnt hate it,,, i was able to draw (almost) everything w/o much struuggle,,, the lineart turned out niced first try,,,, i had fun coloring and shading the piece and im actually happy with it :0 its like. idk its something i had fun doing and it didnt take me forever to do, i finished it in a night and like. who am i. how did this happen

[spoofyleaf]

MK doesn’t want to be a hero to save the world, he just want to have fun and keep his friends safe. In this essay I will-

[inthismomentyouwereloved]

top 10 milo isat things

the entire dagger thing esp like the group reaction to it + siffrin having to talk about it i eat that shit up hhrhhhfdn

tutorial event

the in this moment he loves you in this momentshe loves you in this moment they love you in this moment she loves you look at them all running towards you in this moment you were loved scene when u get to the end for the second time in act 4 post friendship quests im so normal im os fjjhghhggdsgghhh&$#ynnfbbv (foaming at the mouth) yeah

siffrin star pupil do you know something sprite. yeah. yeah

loop siffrin mirabelle religious issues i also fucking eat it up nom nom nom

mirabelle friendship quest

two hats where would i be without two hats

siffrin forgetting mirabelle’s names and loop talking them through it. fuckimg. throws up and dies

loop being a fake ass idgafer i think there should be one of those video compilations of loop doing that

isabeau asking siffrin if they love him the same way he loves them and siffrin needing time to figure it out

the two hats siffrin comforting loop thing. fucking dies

loop not being able to kill siffrin if they win

loop “why couldn’t it be me?” 10 billion casualties

um

[nameishname]

I understand wheeljack is like an engineer and all that but why does it feel like he's the default choice for when they want a smart nerdy guy?? Perceptor is right there man.

[clownkillsyou]

i think one time i did see someone say mrs wimbleton could be doc in mcla and i think thats rlly funny

[tunabesimpin]

Now why tf do i have to be making 6k a month to get a 1.7k apartment. LITERALLY WTF

Almost all the apartments in my area are 1.5k and up and its like oh ok 👍

[juniperhillpatient]

sorry for making ursa possibly really unlikable to some readers in this au but i think it's interesting to explore her as a person who's just as messy as her kids idk this is a different take on her but i like it

[gurorori]

anyway.. yumemiru architecture & omnia vincit amor..

[sunlightfeeling]

does anyone like the process of creating posts? I don't mean the actual media you're showing off with gifs, artwork, scanning, etc.

I mean, actually drafting up the post to share it?

..Because I'm kind of starting to not like it much

And I lowkey could use help? Its getting more difficult to draft things up and it’s zapping some of my motivation knowing when everything’s ready, I need to now go and queue it up

*Not everything is ready because they're dupes I need to compare or still need editing/deleting, but a good number are “ready”

I've started getting a nice flow with scanning, which is great! But then the idea of making the post pops in my head and I freeze and go "ugh…😞”

Again, its not that I don't want to post. Actually I want to post more (at least for now since I'm at a good scan-pace), but I think I'm annoying enough posting about 4 times a day across two blogs 😂

I just...can't get motivated to upload/manage the pictures, write a caption, write tags...

Usually (practically always, unless it's a clip tbh) I'm not even considering metrics or trying to skew a post a certain way. Some posts are legit just dropping the shoot and captioning with the magazine name but that's still like...too much? right now. I don't want to give you guys crap-effort posts but I also can barely get myself to just add a magazine title and some tags sigh

Basically, I still want the posts going to these blogs, but I'd provide the scans to have the posts queued up? Idk maybe I could open another side-blog (or just use the one I have already?) That's would maybe be easier since it's collaborative......right? lol

Anyway, half rant half actually could use some help? If you want? Idk I really want to share more and I really love scanning and making gifs but…

....also, I kind of would like time to watch things and play Gaiden, while also still rolling out posts