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crescentmoonhotel · 1 year ago

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starting to realize that me going "oh, im not going to bring it up and im going to hide that im into this thing because my friend doesnt like it, its just common sense" is actually just a bit of a coverup for me being just afraid to share interests, to share things, with my bestie in general, which is kind of heartbreaking to me since we have been like inseparable for 6 years

#im really glad that 2 of my friends know though-- i think its like #weird to talk about because its kind of a weird juxtaposition #between it and everything else i like #but yeah its just like #idk its just sad to me #when she talks abt her friends i feel like im not included which is insane #we're both on our alt blogs hiding things from each other #like she linked a blog and i dont know if im supposed to see it #idk maybe its just my insecurity #anyway im really glad my other 2 friends have been chill about it #one especially so like im always in her dms talking about it. god bless #anyway idk where i stand with said bestie in the post but i am trying my best

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h20milk · 3 months ago

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in conjunction with this [ post ] please read i want to hold aono-kun so badly i could die!

#aceyuu #twisted wonderland #ace trappola #ace trappola x yuu #twst #disney twst #twst ace #deuce spade #twst deuce #minor azul mention but im not gonna tag it LOL #my art #aono kun ni sawaritai kara shinitai #pupheart #octopup #2025 #this is all so scribbly and not goodsrryyyyy but i needed to redraw this soo bad like. its so ace. its SO ace.#you can replace azuls name with anyone else i just threw him in cuz my yuu is defaulted to azul sorry.#i need to see ace sooo terribly insecure like all the time idk. i like it when hes upset LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #maybe its cuz hes a bastard <- cares abt him with all my heart)#also im a big unrequited love ace x yuu advocate. its so delicious when he gets jealous and upset abt yuu dating someone technically 'bette #than him' . he is not immune to it. i loveeee it so bad. anyway aceyuu 5ever

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puppppppppy · 1 year ago

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i wanna post my skip to loafer art but i cant do it knowing ppl are gonna put it on tiktok and pinterest bc itd be like. bringing an invasive species ykwim

#my meds just kicked in so im feeling talkative but truly idk how to explain it #its like. with anything else id be more than happy to introduce it to ppl like monkie kid and mp100. witch hat maybe but its personal to me #but skip to loafer is special to me. and i feel bad for saying this bc other ppl do deserve to watch smth they will enjoy #hell the reason i got into it was bc my friend was kind enough to lend me her copy and i got hooked #its so ironic im saying this esp given how insecure i am abt depicting characters wrong. but i really dont want to look thru the tags #and see them on a 'can i copy your homework' tier list. or ppl getting mad abt why egashira mitsumi and shima cant just be a throuple #its just!! i wont stop you if thats how you like to engage with the show or how you interpret it bc ill just ignore it and leave u alone!!#and theres no objective wrong way of doing it!! and i know that interacting with the work is what forms a community after all!!#but keeping it tight knit is just easier for me bc nobody has to worry abt making each other laugh and we can enjoy it for what it is #fully aware im saying this as someone whos drawn monkie kid art with text post memes and owl house draw the squad templates #but at the same time i just. dont want to explain myself or give ppl reasons why shima and mitsumi are ace coded just bc it 'feels right'#fandom is a communal thing and it feels so hypocritical thinking this. too many conflictng thoughts that idk what to act on #yapping

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mira0000000-blog · 11 months ago

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Silly teen wanting to look cool

#eee #tired..even if im not doing that much...ughhhhh #wanted to try drawin something for him :)#my oc #nerine the hedgehog #wee my art i gues #thinking about changing his name i just gave this name to him cos i didnt want to keep him unnamed #but i don have ideas so this going to be his name for now :)#maybe like...strawberry in another language.. was thinking about fragola but its not very good as name #also fun fact! he does have 2 ears lol but they are mismatched #one of them is the ear of a hedgehog (visible) and the other is a funky little tenrec ear #cos u know.. sur/gamy #not tagging the ship cos it really isnt happening here so idk #he feels a bit insecure about it so he covers it (he cares a lot about what people think of him).#ALSO I MADE HIS QUILLS A BIT TOO BIG HERE LMAO they arent usually this big...

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cryptosexologist · 9 months ago

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the misbegotten are sooo underrated its insane

#elden ring #i’m one of maybe two people i’ve seen who have a misbegotten oc #so much art i’ve managed to find of ‘em on like. sites (havent actually checked tumblr lol) is like. just treating them like monsters OR jus #just drawing them completely off model as Generic Muscular Furries #(i haven’t posted anything of my oc here since i’m still putting her together and am shy and stuff.#she was adopted by nobility as a baby and trained in Fundamentalism. eventually ‘banished’ / ‘evacuated’ to the lands between when her #adopter’s social stability was threatened. eventually -like six or seven ‘story arcs’ in - ends up joining forces with a #finger maiden who went rogue over the whole kindling idea and ended up joining the bloody fingers of all fuckin groups.#varre let her join as a laugh. she nearly died getting the blood for the fuckin induction ritual lol)#(i just find the idea of an insecure as shit finger maiden who ends up straying from the wierd groomed selflessness path and ends up joining #a strange blood-fertility cult whose primary activities include murdering finger maidens to be neat. she eventually breaks off from them too #though. still holds a spiritual loyalty to them but not an ideological or practical one djtjhktkjgg.)#she & the as of yet unnamed misbegotten fundamentalist -who ends up going more towards Miriel-esque omnism bc i’m bias- do get gay)#oh also i think misbegotten lay eggs probably. it just makes sense. idk maybe they don’t or it like varies between them #maybe its a kangaroo situation where they do give live birth but its extreeeemely premature #do they have enough room for pouches? hm

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anonymous-scapegoat · 2 months ago

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i’ve been fiddling w high bar vs low bar squats and stance width and struggling w hitting depth w/o hip pain for AGES esp after i sprained my SI joint back in november(?) but 2days Setup was so fuckign IMMACULATE like. no pain. full depth. glute engagement. SOLID brace. i think we’ve finally got it boys!!!! this is the one!!! i’m so happy squats and me can be friends again and i can finally fucking PROGRESS so that my goddamn bench press doesn’t overtake my SQUAT BFFR

#crepes n stuff #whAT is my lifting tag. idk #rea lifts #maybe.#that feels wrong tho #anyway yeah bc i’m Obsessive abt this. i’d found some newer mental cues 2 try out 2 promote Appropriate Muscle Engagement And Bar Path #and they worked so fuckin good dude #we’re finally over 200lbs for triples again which like. thank christ #the stereotype that like ‘women’ have insane leg days has only Contributed 2 my insecurity re: my mid-at-best max squat #but perhaps now it will finally improve #I JUST CHECKED AND I WAS WRONG ITS #rea gets strong #also not that anyone asked but i think im gonna make the switch from pl 2 oly weightlifting p soon here #or try it out anyway #i think it’s a very sexy sport and i’ve been wanting 2 try for years(!!) but i’ve been 2 nervous #but now that i have some Confidence In The Gym i feel like it’s time #i’m sure i’ll keep y’all posted lmao we’ll see how it goes #long tags long tags bc i have. no Gym Friends lmao

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xxplastic-cubexx · 6 months ago

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Am I the only one who likes the costume Magneto has at the end of First Class? I mean I get it looks cheap, but the helmet looks GREAT. Wish it wasn't just discarded in Days of Future Past

i agree with you pretty much to a T: i LOVE the helmet it's PHENOMENAL, but the costume itself just isn't it...

#snap chats #the objectively sexiest magneto suit will always be apocalypse you cant sway my opinion on this but dofp IS better than fc for sure #i love apocalypse's knight approach so much ..... FIRE as hell. he also looks bulkier which is great for the whole 'power' thing going on #with dofp im like. mixed on it. i dont hate it- dont love it- its ok #i love the uneven cape though- the slanted cape. thats cute #see idk now ... i keep lookign at it and im flip flopping. i still think its fine all around tho #with fc i think what makes it fail- what makes it cheap- is just. the coat. everything about it #i think going for a coat in general was not the best move either esp if it's going to be a small coat #cause How I Feel is that there's not. presence? there's no attention. its just a simple red coat #ik the mcu gets joshed on for 'complicated design' but SOMMEE accents might have helped the coat #but again picking a coat just.. doesnt do it for me. i dont feel power looking at it #maybe if it were an open coat ? having it closed feels insecure idk #im done rambling about this its late and ive decided im not working anymore tonight jvELVKJAL

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pixelatedraindrops · 1 year ago

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Sorry to sound weird or negative here, but after spilling my inner emotions on a discord server I kinda wanna know.

Do you all enjoy what I do here?

Or do you find it repetitive and boring?

#pixel txt.#personal #vent #kinda????#rain code #tagging for the fandom #since its the fandom im in…#sorry to be weird but yeah idk #got this feeling of insecurity that what I do is annoying #or too weird and maybe I should do something else #idk I worry me being focused on one thing makes me boring #probably delete later idk #my thoughts are being mean to me #I think I'm just a little tired today...

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bare1ythere · 7 months ago

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GOD University makes me so depressed

#shut up me #nothing is even going wrong things have been pretty pleasant tbh but im just so. ugh #nothing is eliciting as much joy as normal and I just want to lay down and never get up #therefore i am concluding that it is the fact that im here at all that is making me so down #or maybe its just the state of my brain and i need further intervention. idk #hard to tell when all you do is uni #not to mention I have been feeling so Extra insecure lately which is making me irritable to other people and I HATE IT #Ill get these thoughts and internally pause and just be like. well it looks like SOMEBODYS feeling insecure #intense toko fukawa style insecurity. You think youre so much better than me!! You hate me!! You think im worthless!!#and really the only one who thinks that. is me #but alas. the shame is endless ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#vent

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sundial-bee-scribbles · 9 months ago

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anyone else ever have this random fear of being accused of copying other people unintentionally? like

>be me >see another artist post something cool >"ooh funky i had a really similar idea once!" >get inspired to possibly draw something >"wait but what if their fans or they themselves notice and think i copied their idea and start drama (;;;*_*)" >end up not doing anything

#delete later #LMAO sorry for the 4chan greentext but i thought it would be really funny to format it like that #but yeah. aside from the whole thing of 'yeah yeah all art is technically derivative' or whatever if you wanna go there #(because if we bring that up im gonna start getting insecure abt my ability to tell good stories at all and man its too early for that)#I JUST FEEL BAD?? idk if this is reasonable 😭 like i really swear im not intentionally trying to copy #its like seeing someone eat cookies and then remembering 'oh i have cookies too. i also should go eat them i kinda want cookies now'#and in general the ideas while maybe like visually similar in the real intricacies its VERY different b/c my stuff is always. wack #in other news. i think i got hacked?????????????? explains why weird things have been happening

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cerbreus · 11 days ago

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Literally nothing makes me more irritated than some guy I hardly know being fucking passive aggressive with me over trivial stuff. What the hell is up with these Minnesotans being knee jerk passive aggressive the second you aren't the most enthusiastic excited person alive..... 🙄🙄😮‍💨

#i was genuinely interested in just being friends with s couple of them but they just keep saying stuff that irritates me #bc its passive aggressive #its not cute #ive had an exhausting week and going to the first family function ive been to in like 7 years kinda wiped me out #i told these dudes as much as a heads up bc im just. not as high energy i need recuperating time.#yeah i wasnt thinking of canceling on you but now ghat you said that you #'hope this isnt your way of preparing to cancel on me this weekend 😅'#bro #and the other guy... i forgot to message for a couple days because it was a holiday weekend...... i was busy.......#and he busted out the 'oh I thought you just werent interested anymore so i didnt want to bother you at all'#i have only talked to you guys respectively for like a month. we only went on a couple dates. wtf makes u think its cute to talk like this?#genuinely really irritated about it #i hope im not passive aggressive this is the most annoying shit in the world #also i guess maybe this doesnt read to others as passive aggressive but in the context of the rest of the messages and how theyve talked #its a new addition 🙄#personal stuff #everybody and their mother is like oh im a super straightforward person!!#no they just dont filter their insecure thoughts. tbh. and they dont believe that *i am* straightforward #even though ive only ever been completely up front with where i stand #🙄🙄😖😮‍💨 im so tired #already went into the week tired #at least the one dude im still going on dates with is being nice about it. i think (i hope....) if i told him i needed a weekend off #hed probably be chill about it. as he SHOULD...... after only a month or so jfc.#i think genuinely i am done on these apps. ill see through the next few dates w the one guy #and talking abt friendship stuff with the others #but frankly i want my time back. im tired. going on dates has been fun #made me feel good ngl. i had a good time. having casual sex has been nice too.#but yeah idk i dont think this is how I'll find somebody im bonkers over #i dont think im the person right now to casually and patiently work through somebody elses mountain of baggage when i dont know them

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your-average-gay-dork · 9 months ago

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trislosherfan25 · 10 months ago

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I feel so much more tormented than my other trans friends ngl

#I think maybe I feel alienated because a lot of my trans friends with confidence pride themselves on a sense of attractiveness #its not attractive in the normative sense but moreso within their idea of attractiveness #there’s not really anything wrong with this that I can put my finger on #I think it’s more that I just don’t value myself that way at all #I can’t overcome my dysphoria or insecurity by thinking that I’m hot. like I just don’t aspire to that #I remember telling some friends that I wished I could just be ugly #like ugly as in a state of not trying or having to try #not ugly as in any specific image #and I told them I didn’t care about being hot like it didn’t appeal #and they said ‘maybe being ugly is your way of feeling hot’#like no you guys missed the point #but idk how to express my point #I feel like if I transitioned I could just chill for once idk #I’d rather be an ugly boy than a pretty girl #family is always telling me I’m such a pretty girl despite everything I do #I’m gonna break their hearts

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oynonrings · 2 months ago

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lets see if tumblr is going to let me send asks with links but here is the vladrey propaganda

https://www.tumblr.com/meirimerens/663617520905879552/patronage?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/meirimerens/693569992868986880/sent-from-his-nokia-3310?source=share

also here are two nsft ones so be aware. penis warning

https://x.com/ratdisposalbunk/status/1581379886509264899?t=j0hcP_rLs-l354n3bAuQOA&s=19

https://x.com/ratdisposalbunk/status/1677775058746458114?t=KmUzCC353ABhkSrjS7ISwA&s=19

scurries away again

(context) okay on second thought fucking yeah man. andrey having a pet loser guy is kind of great ill support that. loser4loser love

#i take so little convincing LOL #i dont want to perpetuate bi stereotypes as a bi myself but also andrey being a manwhore is a need. and an integral part of his character #him being suave and charismatic (but not. Really. more in a coarse or asshole-y way. hes still a hot tempered dickhead) is so fun to me #especially with characters who have no defense to it whatsoever. case in point #(but also daniil (moreso in uni) or whoever else you feasibly ship him with)#i also am a sucker for like. and idk if this is an actual trope. but a player-type character whos super experienced and suave etc who #pursues an absolute loser. and then just flatters and seduces the loser and it works so well that theyre like awww...wait fuck i like them #idk where else ive encountered that dynamic (maybe just in my head i guess?) but its a very good one and a very interesting power imbalance #that could have been said as a metaphor #i ramble too much sorry #send another ask and i can try to write more specific things about them if youd like..........i do love me a character with daddy issues #(<-NOT IN A WEIRD WAY. IN A THEY MAKE FOR A COMPELLING NARRATIVE WAY. THAT SPECIFIC FLAVOR OF INSECURITY. ESPECIALLY IN MEN)

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seeyouguyslater · 1 year ago

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Losing followers on twitter is honestly.. a relief ill be honest

#ehh idk i think just mutual artist follows were sort of a hit or miss... i sorta wonder if they even liked my art at all #maybe thats my own insecurities peeking its head but i just eh...glad its over

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