#I JUST FEEL BAD?? idk if this is reasonable 😭 like i really swear im not intentionally trying to copy

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anyone else ever have this random fear of being accused of copying other people unintentionally? like

>be me >see another artist post something cool >"ooh funky i had a really similar idea once!" >get inspired to possibly draw something >"wait but what if their fans or they themselves notice and think i copied their idea and start drama (;;;*_*)" >end up not doing anything

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AHHHHH- IM SO SICK OF THE BS I SWEAR-

FIRST OF ALL-

He doesn't "act naturally" or "normal" because HE'S AUTISTIC-

Will Roland portrays him as AUTISTIC so he's gonna act AUTISTIC-

ALSOOOO- IT'S BROADWAY, BABE- THEY NEED TO BE OVERDRAMATIC AND VERY EXPRESSIVE OTHERWISE THE PREFORMANCE DOESN'T CARRY THROUGH THE WHOLE THEATRE-

AND ANOTHER THING- Jeremy is supposed to be a "loser"-

he gets bullied and is misunderstood by his peers because he is, well, NOT CHILL-

HE'S "CHALANT" AS HELL-

He gets bullied because he cares about things too much, he's anxious, he's loud-

And in regards to the "can't hold a note for too long"- have you heard Loser, Geek, Whatever? Or More Than Survive? Or Two Player Game??? Song where he holds notes for quite a long time- ALSO- to say that Will Roland can't reach the same notes as Will Connolly is just... not true.

And one of the reasons I think some people think Will Roland is "a worse singer" is because, sometimes, stylistically, Will Roland will use a sort of falsetto/head voice (which I LOVE BTW AND IM SICK OF PEOPLE CALLING OTHER PEOPLE BAD SINGERS BECAUSE THEY USE HEAD VOICE- IT'S BEAUTIFUL, IMPRESSIVE, AND REQUIRES GOOD BREATH CONTROL TO MAKE IT NOT SOUND CRAPPY AND WILL ROLAND DOES IT AMAZINGLY) like when he says "hero" and "Rob Dinero" (idk if that's how you spell it 😭) in More Than Survive.

It's not that he's a bad singer, he is taking the brunt of his voice during those parts and also, given that it's this little solo/soliloquy moment for Jeremy, I think that Will Roland's choice to use a light head voice there is perfectly well-placed. It feels kinda personal, I guess. And I love it <3

Not to say that Will Connolly's way of singing it isn't also great. It's awesome! But like, guys, we can't keep getting pissed when a new actor in a show doesn't have the exact same singing voice as the original 😭 That's just silly, guys. 😭

(LIKE WHEN PEOPLE GOT PISSED AT ELIZABETH TEETER'S LYDIA FOR SOUNDING TOO MUSICAL THEATRE-Y?? LIKE. HUH?!? GUYS, IT'S BROADWAY- WHAT DO YOU MEANNN??? Sorry, I have feelings- Also, Shoutout to Elizabeth Teeter, btw, cuz' she slayed <3)

Anywaysss- back to Will Roland's voice- he is very much capable of hitting the notes that Will Conolly hits- if not higher (IT'S NOT A COMPETION THO, GUYS- PLS DONT COME FOR ME). For example, the acoustic version of Loser, Geek, Whatever on Spotify which, I believe, is a key higher than usual!! This man can belt some high notes when the situation calls for it! And also, (these are not really bmc related but whatever) during the harmony or whatever at the end of "Sincerely, Me", that is none other than WiLL RoLaND (!!!) hitting that high E (I'm pretty sure it's an E. I hope it's an E. But regardless, it's still a SUPER HIGH NOTE) at the end! And in "Amphibian" on Joe Iconis' album titled, well, "Album", Will Roland hits some insanely high notes!!! ( EVEN IF THEY ARE HEAD VOICE. I REPEAT, HEAD VOICE DOES NOT MEAN BAD SINGER!!)

Also, as a little additional statement to my "Jeremy is autistic/ autistic-coded so Will Roland played him as autistic"; this is not to say that Will Conolly didn't add some "autistic flare", if you will, to Jeremy. I mean, just yesterday I was freaking out with my friend about a gif of Will Conolly's Jeremy doing the autistic flappy hands :))). And I think that he was a good baseline for other Jeremy's to build off of!

Also, I feel like the people that are saying that Will Roland's portrayal of autism/neurodiversity is "ableist" or "incorrect" or "too dramatic" are sorta failing to understand/acknowledge that autism/neurodiversity is a spectrum. Not every person with autism or another kind of Neurodiversity is gonna act the same. And I think that's something really beautiful that we should all cherish. It is GREAT that we are all different but also, in many ways, the same!

And to see myself and my uncontrolled speaking voice and weird noises and such represented by Will Roland on stage is such a beautiful thing that I think 'ought to be cherished.

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pls do chan tea session how he views his teammates? thanks very much!

Omg y'all THIS has been the reading we've all been waiting for😭🙌🏻🙌🏻😂 i swear i couldn't stop gasping and tacking a moment after each card to gather myself cuz WTF IS ALL THIS😂😳🫣 yk i did a tea/vent reading with changbin a few weeks ago and i thought its gonna be a banger but we couldn't get one "bad word" out of his mouth - he wasn't serving AT ALL😤 and i got a bit discouraged to continue the series but im so happy i did and did it with CHAN cuz my guys's spilling so much😂 tbh idk what i think of it all and if i agree, in fact i was quite shocked at a few cuz i really did bot expect such answers and i pulled several cards as confirmation and it all pointed painfully obvious to what the first card was already showing. So im just gonna start and ya'll are gonna see foe yourselfs😂

Oh also my tea series was initially not really meant to be focused on the group but more in general but at least with the last reading with changbin i found it difficult to take such a vast field of topics and distill it so if you have suggestions on what else they could have things to vent about or tea to spill send ask. Please be specific tho about something specific that interests you / preferably with a specific member:) ok moving on

Ok not really i forgot to mention that i asked about his opinion on the members WITHOUT FILTER and leaning more on the tea side. So, very important - this is not Chan's absolute opinion on the members, but a small, "scandalous" fraction if the opinion he has build on them over the years. It doesn't mean that this is all he thinks of them - remember humans are complex beings and can have conflicting thoughts and feelings:)

Tea Series: Chan's opinion on the members

Lee Know

I was SHOCKED but he kinda thinks of him as a bit of a dumbo. Not in the sense that he really is stupid but to Chan it looks like he's just a bit out of it and there's a vibe of a whole geoup laughing about a joke that lee know doesn't get, and not necessarily cuz he's stupid, its just he doesn't care to get it😂😭 this baffles him and im actually seeing a similar energy with him regarding lee know as i did with changbin in the previous reading where Chan just feels a bit weirded out by lee know at times and just sometimes gets annoyed cuz he just doesn't understand him. Yk how people are disgusted/scared by spider no reason? This is something similar, it just icks him how he cant understand lee know. He accepts it tho, more than changbin for sure. And im feeling that its actually even charming to him sometimes. Im hearing "a genius dumbo". So yeah, they're very different apparently, and to chan lee know just seems way waaayyy out of the circle, way above it all, way to out of it and he doesn't even want to get in and that BAFFLES him so much!

Changbin

This one's not hot at all, im seeing this pile along with felix's being the most melow ones. So I see that chan really sees changbin as his equal, possibly the only guy in the group he sees as one. Not in the way that others are below him but rather he's to the same level of matureness, toughness, headspace etc according to him (not that i agree😂). He views him as a bro and really enjoys spending time with him and "talking like men" or whatever its called😂 im actually seeing them going out for drinks or having late night talks with some strong alcohol (although im not really seeing chan drinking very hard i think the alcohol's more for changbin to loosen his tongue and for both of them to feel like adult men😂🙌🏻) Also another thing thats coming up which made me laugh is that chan thinks changbins bad at love and always has bad luck in it (and is kinda a simp) and he(cb) should learn a thing or two from him(chan). This gives me such huge sleepover vibes i live it so much - all of chans readings have that feeling to it and im always giggling when reading his energy😂💗 So yeah im also seeing them having lots of chats about women too🌝 and...sex👀👀👀 but for that i think it needs to be a bit deeper in the night and the bottle should be close to empty for that conversation to open. But it does, pretty often (not often like every other day but often only within their "meetings" so if they have a hangout every other months, and have had 6 this year, in 4 out of 6 this conversation happens - thats what i mean by often).

Hyunjin

Fo hyunjin he thinks he's very impulsive and very pushy but on the inside(?). He also thinks he's very appreciation hungry and attention greedy. Not attention whore-y tho (contrary to han), but rather ifjgkkf like someone who lives for the applause. Someone who's a performer. Not only on stage but also in private. I think he thinks that hyunjin's actually a bit insecure (not the kind of looks-insecurity, but the primal one like having security in your own being and the person who you are, having trust that you got ur own back) and that he's compensating that insecurity with others validation and admiration. And if he doesn't get that or feels like he doesn't he gets spiky/prickly. And thats where his impulsivity comes up and where this pushy energy happens. He may behave normal on the outside but on the inside he's going crazy and thinking of all the ways he can fix that and if you spend time with him long enough you begin to see that eagerness and spikiness - according to chan.

Han

According to chan he's pretty isolated and a tad bit odd. Probably thats why he gets along with lee know the best. He's also a bit infantile in chans eyes, like an annoying 12 year old fortnite little cousing that spits when he speaks and knows now personal space. Not saying hans like that - just creating a vibe to describe how he feels to chan sometimes😂 idk if nuisance is the right word but im getting the feeling that when 3racha's doing their thing, hans kind of the odd one out and he can see that han wants to belong and tries to but chan feels like he's that little cousin that wants to hang out with the cool old bros and, yeah sometimes feels liek a bit of a nuisance i would say. Cuz chan does include him, when he maybe would not. I could see that being a theme during their time in the 4/4 dorms. And here's the part i mentioned above - i think chan might view han sometimes like an attention-wh*re, making a clown of himself, and embarrassing himself quite offten to appeal to them or maybe others he fancies and wants to impress. Another thing is, that as i said he might be a bit odd and at times overexcert his boundaries? Or have weird boundaries? Like he hates when people touch his blanket or he only has to wear orange socks and if someone put the laundry and forgot one of his sock and now only one's clean he gets really pissed over nothing - stuff of that sort.

Felix

I would say thats the only pile where he had nothing "bad" to say about him and i pulled 4 cards for him cuz there had to be something - but there wasn't so i guess chan really really likes Felix and holds him in very high regards☺️ he thinks that he is muchs tronger than he looks and can defend himself and his loved ones very well. In fact i believe when chan saw this side of him he was really shocked because felix seems really sweet but when it comes to protecting what he loves he gets very fierce and that was very shocking to witness. Theres just admiration, admiration and more admiration in this reading he thinks felix has that royalty vibe to himself and really just has it all. Im getting a slight whiff of jealousy, but a friendly type of jealousy. Like he just thinks he's so amazing and sometime she wishes he were like that. He wishes he were as cool as him, as lighthearted as him, as bright and positive as him, he were as liked by him and i also feel like chan feels that stuff may often be just very effortless for felix and even if he's bad at something its still with grace. Theres this aura to felix that he can never do anything wrong and he just sometimes feels that felix has it too easy and must be really lucky or like gods favourite and thinks he must have really good karma for that.

Seungmin

He thinks seungmins too sharp and that his words hurt. Im also seeing lots of bickering...no actually fights. So either chan often gets the urge to just throw it all and start a fight with him or drop the manners and just tell him off - or they actually do that often. I do get the feeling that this is exaggerated in his head and that maybe to seungmin their fights aren't nearly as bad but once again i feel like chan might be holding back a lot and seungmin might'be much sharper and meaner for others than he thinks he is.

I.N

Finally the last one😮‍💨 he thinks he's a mamas boy and sees him still as a kid. That one's pretty obvious but to be honest i expected something else cuz im getting a much maturer energy from him, the other guys have said that too but still, here im getting that he's just a kid and doesnt know "of the real world", relies too much on mom and dad etc. Tbh i don't think thats the case😂 but rather that chans having a bit of a parent syndrom where he actaully feels like i.ns big bro or some sort of a parent figure or whatever and he literary watched him grow from a child to a man so i think that image of him from a few years back has stayed with chan and maybe its difficult for him to let go of that impression if i.n being still just a little kid being full of wonder, innocent and still dependant.

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tged webtoon ep 168 spoilers and thoughts that IM NOT LATE WITH FOR ONCE! KIND OF! YAY! and more below the cut

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OKAY. OKAY CAN WE TALK ABOUT THESE TWO PANELS WITH LLOYD AND JAVIER REALLY REALLY QUICK. i would save this for the end of the post since its closer to the end but im super impatient okay what else can i say. LOOK AT THE WAY JAVIER IS LOOKING AT HIM

HE IS LOOKING AT HIM SO DAMN FONDLY. WHAT THE FUCK. THERE IS WARMTH IN THAT GAZE I SWEAR TO GOD IM NOT CRAZY. "you're such a terrible person" AND HES LOOKING AT HIM LIKE THAT. WHAT. WHAT. WHAT. crazy. CRAZY.

the adaptor knew what they were doing . i swear it . like "yeah thats MY evil boyf. he's back to being evil and lively and his perfect bastard self." I SWEAR IT I SWEAR IM NOT CRAZY

this is proof of llovier. im so serious dont even joke lads

back to the top!

not much to say here lloyds expression is just so real sobs yeah . yeah,,, older gens having goofy ass back and forths over things that really arent the main issue here is universal

like i dont quite remember what season theyre in now but its past winter by this point and based on the two panels showing the time of day they had to have been arguing about this for AT LEAST FOUR HOURS 😭 LIKE WHAT THE FUCK (idk how accurate that estimate is im notoriously bad at time but still. a long fucking time) these BUFFOONS

also lloyd being dramatic as hell is so fucking silly HAHAHAHAHHAA

AND THEN THE LORDS FUCKING STARING AT HIM WHEN HE BRINGS UP THAT HE HAS AN IDEA. HELPPP all eyes on lloyd now !!! what brilliant idea do u have next thats absolutely totally not secured through lowkey social engineering!

so so SO happy w how confident he looks here heehee :3 whats with the pose tho lol is that a reference? maybe?

anyway they plan to make a train thru the pantara mountains? vantara? pan,,, idk what the correct translation is ive seen vantara and pantara

also lloyd just knowing exactly how to talk to those old ass political lords and understanding how to string them along idk what it is but i really really like that, it makes sense to me personally

i figure that thats probably something suho just Had to pay attention to back in korea, idk how korean politics works exactly but i imagine the principle of "person in charge can make or break a lot of things" still stands

so like it'd make sense that he pays attention to whoevers in charge of the finance stuff, which political figures care about money, and where that money goes, bc if they fuck with the funds for education thatll directly screw him over. idk if korea has financial aid but whatever equivalent that is that allows suho to get scholarships n stuff so he can stay afloat, if someone comes into power that will negatively affect his odds of getting that funding, he'll need to know and prepare! though maybe this is reaching a little too deep it might not be That Serious lmfao

again i really like how many of these confident / plotting expressions have been showing up IM SOO SO SO HAPPYYYY my schemer my little scheming guy he's BACK HES BACK

the two of them also look really really nice here in these two panels for some reason. i think im going crazy. i dont know why i like these panels its just. !??!?!?!?!??! like javiers hair is completely messy but idk i just ?!?!?!?!? im completely aro so its not like an attraction or anything but idk!?!??!?!?!

finally our first look at the overworld demons!!! these two kiddos seem super cute i really hope they dont . misunderstand or anything and that lloyd and javier can have some fun and heartwarming moments with them,,,, more sillies and soft fluff please!!!!! thats all i ask!!!!

okay that's all! not much to say this episode is just really really cozy to me. ok well as cozy as "lloyd frontera making evil expressions" can get LMFAO it feels like build up into the next section and im really excited to see what he's gonna do with this train idea and with the overworld demons...!!!!!

there was a notice at the end of the ep that the artist is taking a small break for their health so no ep next week, but there'll be one the week after i believe. we must be patient!!! rest well artist!!!!

that's it ill see yall in. two weeks? ill probably have some other yap post for the hiatus week idk, it depends on how my schoolwork goes. see yall then!!!!

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hi!

tell me your favourite writers on this app and what you love about their writing!

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Aww thank you for this question🌷♡♡. Here's the list <3

@hoshifighting :

I love her writing. When when I say it I really mean it. Her writing really portrays her creativity and style. They can be slow paced but they'll keep you hooked till the end (if you are patience). I love her slow burn fics as well. They are just so well written, like so very well written. And what really amuses me was her being so active from the start. Trust me I really want that being consistent about my writing but I just can't. And it's actually really tough to be consistent. And her smuts- hmmmmmmmmmmm imma be straight forward- they make me blush real bad also wet sometimes 🫶. 🌷

@pan-de-seungcheol :

Soo I've read many of her smuts before actually following her in this new blog i created after deleting my previous one. I may not read the angst fics (there's a reason behind it. Everyone have there own reasons) but I love love the smuts written by her. Pan your polyamory representation something I really loved because usually I see a negative representation of that. Your smuts make me wet, to state it quite straight forwardly. Your writing really does things to me (now why does this sounds like confession letter 😭). They are really well crafted. 🌷

@tomodachiii :

I discovered her fics recently and I'm in love. I love domestic scenarios especially when it has a really Asian household setting (because I live in one+ I'm the oldest daughter 🚶🏻‍♀️). And see if anything I feel seen but I really love the comforting feeling it gives me while reading them. Sure it leaves me with a bittersweet moment where I really do sit and think "wow it would be great if I actually experienced that kinda affection" but honestly that's how good writing is supposed to make you feel. I really admire her writing style. 🌷

@diorkyeom :

I love her writing style, her ideas, her fics, the plot everything literally. Her Seoksoo fics made me giggle, blush, bury my face and scream to the pillow and what not. I just lovee her way of portraying soft fluffy affectionate moments. I'll cry. I've even read her fics staying up late at night because Im fucking invested 😭. They are just so nice and sweet and soft. And the literature references she uses at times as well it makes me feel seen and happy. (Ps - I'm an English major who's first ever written fanfic was a Minwon fan fiction. It is not finished yet)🌷

Some more mentions for fluff writers (who may also post nsfw fics in their blogs too):

@seokminded : her writing style is simple yet very effective. Her fluff scenarios are so fucking cute I might cry😭🌷.

@wifeyoozi : your consistency in posting I swear🛐 . Im a big fan of your imaginess😩🌷. (Especially the nsfw ones they are like very very, idk I've lost words, they feel very real)

@onlyhaos : Liddy I'm soft for your writing. Your fluffs are so cuteeeeeee. AHHHHHJHHHHHHHHHHH okayyy take love😩🌷

@nonuify : I literally followed you few minutes ago and I have reblogged one of your nsfw imagine before. I really love them. Take love 🌷😩.

MAKE SURE TO CHECK THEM ALLL OUT Or I'll haunt you in your nightmares 😀.

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Hiya!

I’m curious, what do you think uknighted dream would argue about and how would they apologise to each other?

Cause I personally think Cass hates apologising, Eugene’s not used to it, and Rapunzel according to the show can do no wrong!

Oh, and if you don’t mind me asking, are you planning on updating Children of the moon soon? Sorry, it’s just one of my favourite fics for this ship!

Thank you x

God ive been so bad about that fic i swear i have so many ideas for it but this year has been SOOO busy for me 😭😭 most of my free time has been dedicated to drawing and playing games cuz writing doesn’t come as naturally to me ngl….BUT SOON ENOUGH I WILL LOCK IN I PROMISE!!!! its been crossing my mind a lot more recently snd ive started a little bit of the next chapter…Ur guys’ support means the world to me im so happy to know people enjoy it as much as i do 🥹 and i desperately wish i had more time to dedicate to all my projects

as for your first question though….LMAO yeah the show did rapunzel DIRTY….Honestly it really depends for me, but i think you’re definitely right about cass and eugene. and rapunzel definitely struggles i think to apologize Genuinely, because she can get really overwhelmed with her guilt and anxiety to the point that she loses sight of the actual problem. its kind of a rough spot for all of them

I honestly haven’t thought abt it a lot so idk if i know what they’d fight about Specifically, but what i can come up with off the top of my head is ummm

rapunzel is a chronic Fixer. whenever someone expresses a problem to her shes quicker to try and “solve” it than she is to just. Listen because she kind of has grown up with the idea that everything is Her fault and She needs to fix everything. I think cass and eugene can end up feeling really unheard because of this. Usually it’s just something they can quickly talk through but when put on top of other conflicts it exacerbates things a LOT.

Raps, cass and eugene can all be INCREDIBLY stubborn and set in their ways and they sometimes struggle to hear each other out. rapunzel i think has her moments, but generally she isn’t too bad about it; eugene has a temper and he can be VERY petty but i think unless he REALLY has a reason to hold a grudge against you, he usually just needs about a week to cool down- but Queen of Anxious Attachment Cassandra Tangled (tm) can end up going AGES holding a grudge and just refusing to check in with anyone. as you probably can imagine it does not go well

i think bc rapunzel has such a strong belief that love is transactional she sometimes gets trapped in a cycle where she basically attempts to min-max her time with eugene and cass respectively because she worries if she isn’t spending “equal” amounts of time with them then it means she must not love them enough. as you might imagine this causes a lot more harm than good….

cass is REALLY REALLY bad at asking for help and being vulnerable and especially admitting when someone does something that hurts her. i think this causes a LOT of really stupid miscommunications between them. eugene or rapunzel are both usually able to talk her through it depending on who shes upset at…and it really helps to have a third party there who she trusts because otherwise it could easily just spiral out of control and cause her to grow bitter and distant (As seen in canon LOL)

Ummm….To be completely honest i cant really see a lot of situations where cass and eugene like, Genuinely fight after they get with rapunzel. they obviously still bicker a lot but like, frankly after they’ve both figured their shit out i just don’t think they have much of a reason to fight anymore. Their whole rivalry has always been really childish and most of the more serious stressors have already been taken care of by the time the series ends. i think most of their fights are just over stupid shit and get resolved within the hour. i think they’d have to both go through a MAJOR traumatic event to actually get as bad as they were in season 1 again LMAOOO

How they apologize definitely depends a lot on the situation (go figure) but i genuinely dont think they get into Big fights very often…so when it does happen it takes a toll on all of them.

eugene i imagine is a little extra but sincere. doesn’t do Too much because he doesn’t want to overwhelm the girls, but probably just picks a quiet night and orders takeout or makes a small dinner to talk over. sometimes it can take eugene a while to realize when he’s fucked up but when he DOES realize it, it hits him like a TRUCK and he IMMEDIATELY jumps to do everything in his power to rectify it. he’s a big softie <3

cass is a lot more prideful than raps and eugene whether she realizes it or not, so its a lot harder for her to admit her faults, even when she knows she was wrong. she doesn’t like to make a big deal of when she apologizes because it’s really embarrassing for her. she’s the kind of person to send the apology text to the group chat and have to like physically put her phone down and start pacing around the room. To me.

rapunzel, like i said struggles to genuinely apologize because her anxiety and guilt can just become so overwhelming….she usually has to spend a bit of time away before shes ready to Really talk things out. When she is she definitely shows it quietly but clearly, she writes little notes with a paper bouquet and leaves them around where the other two will find them. they leave her little notes back and let her come to them when she’s ready.

admittedly i’m Not good with thinking of character conflicts off the top of my head, they have to come to me in Visions, and i just don’t end up thinking about a lot of ukd conflicts so hopefully this is okay LOL…..I would love to hear other ppls thoughts….. :3

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HELLO OOMF I HAVE COME TO BE OBNOXIOUS AND ANNOYING I HOPE YOU ENJOY

I use text effects here so. guide is . Bold and italic are the lyrics. Orange text is just text im highlighting and Red text is additional voices that arent from the singers perspective. This makes sense i swear

OKAY THIS SONG IS SO MIGO. and her thoughts about lunia when she was starting to corrupt herself. I'm going to explain why trust me on this

So just to overview, the songs meaning is the seeing the worlds inhumanity of violence and feeling like a lone monster for despising it. The world needs to be purged and the singer will commit the killings that have to happen for it. The "you" referred to in the song is someone the singer cares for and the only one who can be salvaged from their deeds. this song is so me core (im unwell) !! Just want to get that out the way because it maybe influences my thoughts a bit idk

"Somethings terrorized my psyche to get even/ Lately you're the only human I believe in/ I try to understand his logic but there's just no pattern there / No sympathetic voices anywhere, there's blood in my hair" The highlighted lyrics Are repeated multiple times throughout the song… I'll get deeper into it in the next verse

"I'm considered ugly from every angle" THIS LINE IS FOR ALL OF YALL WHO CALL MIGO AN UGLY LITTLE SHIT!!! LEAVE HER ALONEE 😭 Okay but slightly more seriously but still half joking This line is about how everyone sees migo as just lunias dream creature yah 🔥 (I'm making shit up to be able to mention this line I just like it)

"You're the only beauty I don't wanna strangle" Going in hand with the previous line, how being a dream creature makes her 'lesser'(ugly), either that's how people view her or how she feels people view her SO That would make Lunia the beautiful one in comparison. Migo started holding a grudge against dreamers but Lunia was the only one she thought was okay

"Cant you hear me crying out for guidance? "Yes we hear but we dont care"" I think this line is like. I think it could be Migos goal really is just to spend more time with Lunia despite her fucked up way of going about it .yk? Lunia made Migo because she was lonely, and when Lunia no longer needed migo she left her at the castle by herself. Shes like an emotional support dog that gets abandoned when theyre no longer needed. Thats kinda how i see her and why shes sorta crying out for Lunia to come back and spend more time together like they used to before she became a dreamkeeper

"No sympathetic victims anywhere, Theres blood in my hair" YIPEE I can talk about this now !! I think. this line is very much a lot of the reason why i think this song fits migoo. The line seems like the singer is crying for help to their own victims, thus being sad that none of them feel any sympathy for them. "theres blood in my hair" represents the violence theyve caused. So here it shows how migo wants the children she takes the imagination from to make grimspawn to Feel bad for her, for Lunia to feel bad for how she left her and to go back to her. Migo acknowledges the violence theyve caused and the intensity in which the line is sung (especially at the end of the song) Makes it feel like shes starting to understand theres no coming back from this, but does it even matter? Whats done is done

Okay i COULD analyze nearly every line but i feel like passing out so i will only do the important onesss

"When I die, i want you to die too not trying to stay in this dimension without you, spit on this planet without you" This is like showing migos want to be with lunia to an unhealthy degree !She jsut wants to be with her always and forever and I think the abondment she felt made her angry at lunia but migo doesnt truly hate her, shes just mad. Like. idk if this is making sense .. Like migo is saying wherever She goes herself whether that be to glory or to death she wants lunia to be there tooo

"..Lament our descent into some ancient reptilian form like an agnostic transubstantiation/ You wanna know what that is? Use your imagination"

Yaeh i just think this line is silly because. saying Use your imagination To a person who can actually dreamcraftt. while she cant. envy. also cause night hunter says that line in ep 2 and idk its sily

"They paralyze my psyche to get even / Lately youre the only dancer I believe in/ Im a butcher now with blood in my hair / No sympathetic voices anywhere, theres blood in my hair/ Anti-human armies spring from every angle/ Youre the only soldier I dont wanna strangle"

'Anti human armies' is the Night Bureau, and once again saying that the only agent migo will spare is Lunia herself

"I can see its a dolorous fate/ "So dont expect us to cooperate"/ Anyway, its five lives too late and theres blood in my hair"

I had to google this but Dolorous means sorrowful. The Night bureau will probably never forgive her, "five lives too late" as in shes already commited violence. Shes doomed herself to a bad end where no one will be happy so its like the Night Bureau telling her Yeah dont expect forgiveness from us 👍

"My head is a most obliging harbor for this illusion/ Will these Irish eyes be stung by tears of confusion/ Will you meet the common end to your odd shaped mission, hope it isnt true/ I dont believe in that kind of god but still I pray for you" I think this passage can be sung from Lunias perspective !! Shes worried and shes scared but she holds out hope that migo will come back around. The Odd shaped mission being her violent way of getting what she wants but Lunia hopes they can comprimise and all of the nightmares will stop.

"We will produce vanity holocausts / We will commit acts of misery/ We will weaponize sightless innocents/ Then we will forget" Basically what the nightmare king has done and what she will continue to do. Acts of misery. Theres no stopping this

NOW THE SECOND BIGGEST REASON WHY I THINK THIS SONG IS SO HER, THIS LINE

"I suffered pompous death to find her kingdom razed" The rediscovering of Castle Nocturnia and the hope that Lunia may still be there. When the Nightmare King gets to it he sees the state of distruction and knows that after migos own self death that she experienced being stuck in the guardian for quite a while, that Lunia was also truly gone. Revalation.

"Cherub corpses in the vapor, Martyrs wrapped in butcher paper" Its at this point where she sees all the damage shes caused to get here, the death and the tragedy. Shes most definetly responsible for many deaths for those who fought till the end to protect the dream world from her. But at this point of so much what is the point of stopping? The blood has been spilt already and its not like she feels bad about it . "There's no sympathetic voices anywhere, there's blood in my hair"

Now the end of the song, I love this part because it sounds like a final breakdown after everything in the song. so so cool

"I saw you laughing but tomorrow you'll say you were there" No one takes her seriously beofre she becomes the nightmare king 😎

"You looked at me in disgust, girl, Why should I care? Theres blood in my hair... Fuck!"

After migo tries to trap Lunia, she knows she now sees her with fear in her eyes so at this point there is no going back. Full force into violence! To do all that she will do and cause all the pain she will cause

SOOO THATS MY ANALYSIS I HOPE YOU ENJOYED. im normal about this song and about migo. !

OH MY GOSH OOMF THIS IS INSANE 🔥🔥 I’m gonna do a live breakdown cause I think I would forget what I’m gonna say if I go back and forth.

First things first the text guide that’s how you know it’s gonna be fire.

Sorry oomf I was one of the ones who called Migo ugly SORRY 😓

Lunia really did do all that now that you think of it tbh 😭😭 she really made a whole dream creature (which probably takes a lot of energy) just to leave it as soon as she didn’t need it GIRL THAT IS BASICALLY YOUR CHILD WHAT ARE YOU DOING

Migo wanting to spend every single second with Lunia only to be left alone abandoned by her TRAPPED BY HER OWN CREATION?? I wouldn’t recover actually I guess nightmare king had some right to act like that

“You’re the only solider I don’t wanna strangle” OKAY WOW

“Five lives too late” yeah buddy no one’s forgiving you now 😭 i can see a timeline where lunia somehow got her to calm down and for the bureau to be maybe somewhat understanding of the situation (especially with the old nice grand inspector in charge) but with Lunia being the only one who knew the full side of the story (other than NK herself) disappearing all chances of the story being told and some sympathy being brought up is gone

Lunia holding hope for Migo I feel sick

GOING TO CASTLE NOCTURNIA HOPING SHE WOULD BE THERE YOU SERIOUSLY WANT TO KILL ME

Sooo glad you brought up all the deaths she’s caused. No one really talks about it?? Even though it’s such a real possibility to everyone, imagine dreamers CHILD dreamers going to sleep one night and never waking up again because a night terror got them.

Also a big issue with the bureau in general cause why are you employing everyone of every age to fight and become either child soldiers or soldiers past their age 😭 Dawg Royce should be in retirement NOT the grand inspector!!!

SO PEAK OOMF. PLEAAASE I UNDERSTAND SO DEEPLY THIS IS SO GOOD. Oh my god I think you should also be the number one Migo/NK fan THIS IS INSANE!!!

If you have any more…please…share… this is so peak

[tojiscrack]

Omg lol this is my first time interacting with anyone on Tumblr since I just joined, but I've been a BIG fan of liar liar since chapter...5? Not as in I didn't like the first ones, just that I also only joined ao3 kinda recently :)

I am ABSELOUTY OBSESSED with LL, like the way that the chatacters have bits of canon in them? Their relationships with yn? Porcupines relationship with yn?! Mercupine?! Amazing. Chefs kiss.

It's my literal favourite fanfic buuuut it's tying with a few others because I'm really bad at deciding. BUT ITS SO GOOD AHDKSKJSKDK.

Is it bad that I kinda ship mermotionless 😑🧜‍♀️? Obviously it's not better than mercupine, but kamo with Eren Jaegers hair?! 😍🤤 100% would date. But he's getting in the way of mercupine so...😡

Gah I've spent wayyy too long wondering what's going to happen wen the angst starts angsting but I'm a BIT of a delulu girly so my theories end up spiralling out of control. 😅

Ok but I feel like as kamo and yn spend more time together, yn gradually likes him, and they date. And our lovely little porcupine isn't exactly great woth figuring out his feelings until now (except for that one chapter where (correct me if I'm wrong) he hugs yn and gojo teases him about it? Idk) but obviously he does NOT like kamo, and mermotionless?! He would go into a coma.

SO then porcupine(yes that's all I refer to him as) is like 'ohhh I like yn. Damn.' and he hates kamo even MORE and because yn is dating kamo, it gets a bit awkward between porcupine and her 😭😢. So theyr gradually stop being friends but I feel like yn would NOT do that she'd be acting normal while porcupine is all awkward and moody and angry whatever. And THIS IS WHERE OT GETS DELULU OK. Ok maybe not that delulu bit still.

THEN yn confronts porcupine because he's acting weirdly, even for him. And ofc she doesn't know why she's way too clueless 😮‍💨. And porcupine gets all angry because she doesn't realise why, and they get into a fight and stop being friends😭😭😭😭😭. BUT mermotionless BREAKUP for reasons I have not come up with yet and then ✨MERCUPINE✨

aha anyways stop I literally love Malakai (kai) so much argh I just wanna put him in the pocket of my black jumper and give him a little black blanket and run away he's so cute 🥰. The Malakai (kai) ships are interesting 🤔 but funny nonetheless.

And gojo fathering? I literally die laughing anytime I imagine yn on gojos shoulders with the faceapp on porcupine on her poster😭😂😂.

Urgh I would totally draw some LL related stuff but I need to study for my test tmr (I'm cooked) and I have a big drawing project. I probably won't start with mercupine tho, I'm a bit afraid of messing up their personalities 😅. But I just have the overwhelming urge to draw maki and Mai when they were kids in their little puffer jackets (pls tell me this actually happened and I'm not schitzofrenic) and I CANT FIND THAT SCENE I'm genuinely concerned that I'm just making things up in my mind

Also lol, im a big c.ai user (not on a freaky way) but would it be ok if I made some bots from LL? I think I'll keep them on private or only used with the link, but I just really love all the characters. I wouldn't copy paste ofc but I'd probably keep the dialogue the same :) and if I do decide to make them available with the like I'll probably (definitely) share with you:)

I swear I had more to talk about... let me think 😖 nvm I can't think of it 😭 OH WAIT I REMEMBER ahhhh good luck with your uh, uh, whatever exams you were studying for i can't remember 😭

I'll be waiting for the next chapter good luck 🤞🙂🧜‍♀️🦔😈😈

i lowkey have a headache so i’m reading and responding to this as fast as i can, i apologise if i sound like i’m slowly desiccating 💀

i’m glad you’re enjoying the story so far! <3 mercupine’s relationship is one i took great care to get down as accurately as i could imagine megumi being in an almost-relationship, kinda 😭

it is nawtttt bad that you lowkey ship mermotionless. you’re not with the 2% of the LL readers who like them together 😀

being delulu is literally the solulu in this area 😋 nothing is impossible here we literally have 100% of the characters living their best lives in this verse

i read that whole prediction/theory with a blank face 😭 no one’s gone that far in their prediction before! like usually it’s a small scene they predict, or a small prompt, not an entire storyline hahaaa

we’ll see how right or wrong you are tho 👀

you’re also the second kai lover i’ve seen 😋

putting him in a pocket would be difficult ‘cause he’d put up a dramatic fight about it. the black blanket might work tho… good thinking 😭👍🏽

gojo fathering is my fav thing in the world tooooo, like i love that man sm and i love his canon-relationships with his students. i just tweaked it so he’s more like a father to them than just a teacher, but we won’t rinse the idea out, otherwise it’ll just get overbearing and that is the LAST thing we want 😭

girl study for ur examssss, don’t stay up reading LL. i’d die inside if someone failed ‘cause of me 😤

and you can absolutely make bots on c.ai from LL! i think that’d be super cool!

you’re not schizophrenic, there was a scene with maki and mai as kids in their puffer jackets. check elementary school, the scene where mc’s mum is taking them and megumi and y/n to school <3

[allflowersin-time]

DR related dreams ^_^ r u serious

omg so idk if anyone knows wtf these types of dreams are like, im aware if my thoughts, feelings and etc and it's almost lucid BUT ITS NOT. I have so many of these especially about my DRs. I've been using lots of loa for shifting recently but like yeah it might’ve been my beliefs or something as why I didn't shift last night but I had tons of dreams.

IM SO MAD AT THEO. I ACTUALLY HATE THIS GUY SO MUCH LIKE HES SO STUPID. in my dream me and my dr friends were for some reason at my grandparents house (😭??) and i was already in a bad mood. i was complaining to my friends how much i wanted to see my bf yada yada and i remember thinking wtf like i shifted and i can't even see my man 💔. whatever, i'm in a mad mood talking to my friends inside the house, theos gone which was good since he was being annoying anyways. i was talking to blaise and pansy for ages then theo walks into the room nonchalantly holding a bunch of gifts like it was fucking christmas ?? he looked so clueless and dumb wth 😭😭. it was someone in my families birthday, but there were like 4 gifts as there were like snacks or wtv for my friends. theo hands me this small box saying it was from mattheo. i asked him where he was and he told me he was just outside. i swear to god this man is joking i had been complaining the whole evening about where mattheo was AND HE HAD BEEN OUTSIDE AND GAVE THEO THE GIFT TELLING HIM TO GIVE IT TO ME IF HE SAW ME. HOW THE FUCK DID THEO NOT TELL HIM I WAS INSIDE. THEYRE DUMB AND DUMBER MATTHEO COULDVE USED HIS THREE BRAINCELLS TO CHECK IF I WAS INSIDE. OH MY GOD.

sigh whatever i'll be nonchalant about this i guess but at least mattheo bought me a really pretty necklace and wrote a really cute letter

[youremyheaven]

HEYYYY [insert whatever pet name u like] it's ur venus stellium anon from last month.. do u remember me? sorry life happened 🤩 n i've been pretty low energy so i didn't get around to bothering u. I've been looking at yt vids of some of my chart placements lately and i've discovered something funny (along with other developments like me. I've been looking at ur blog the past one or two days a little and I obvs haven't made my way through the whole "backlog" but some silly thoughts:

I didn't know u were bi! For some reason I felt a little awkward talking about this because I didn't want to be That Person lol (aka everyone was talking about guys and I didn't wanna weird anyone out 😔) but my exes were women 😂 supposedly I gave them daddy energy lmfao I hate it because I wanted that from someone. I talked about them a bit vaguely but it might've sounded worse under the assumption of it being a man. (Unless I didn't say much and just forgot)

I've been reading celebrity gossip and only now realised how people - even the most successful - can have it so truly bad when it comes to romance and idk it made me a little apathetic and allergic to it. Not in a "im swearing off of it" way but in a "im no longer going to expect it in my life. If I get surprised, yay for me. Otherwise eh." (my mind's at a weird place though so it'll probably change when other things calm down, don't worry about me 🫶 this is all about the hypothetical future anyway because I'm not looking for a relationship rn)

Sorry u got hate about ur blog. I can understand anon got upset but the unkind language was uncalled for.

I came across the ask about nodes conjuncting big 3 and one of mine does; i can assure u (and the hate anon) that yes, this particular example (me) DOES happen to be cray cray 😭

This is related to the yt vids and point 2: My charts basically say I'll have an okay enough career, but the romance department would be dodgy because I will never be satisfied by anything anyone does for me (to put it shortly) 😂😂 that had me a little shocked at first but then I was like u know what we kinda knew this.. let's just focus on that career instead LMFAO

HARD AGREE WITH U ON THE FLIRTING IN NON-ENGLISH. I gotta be honest I cringe if I hear flirting in anything other than English (I've only ever been exposed to it in that language) but I read a fic (english) once where this man called his lover "meri jaan" and it had me in a DAZE FOR DAYS (excuse the lame pun pls) SO YES I AGREE W U. I've been collecting other little terms (just 1 so far) that I've seen people around me using affectionately and they're sooo sweet.

I HOPE U'VE BEEN WELLLLLL. I'm away from tumblr lately so I probably won't be able to send u asks in the near future but I hope u stay safe and take care of urself 💖💖 BYEEEEE

HEYYY bbg 🥺

I thought this was going to be astrology related but you're just checking in on me 😭😭😭😭and I feel so touched 🥺🥺🥺

1. About being bisexual

I feel like there are definitely different dynamics at play bc I do attract more butch leaning women who want to be my daddy 🫣🙈 but whenever it's a femme x femme dynamic, I always feel like I become the more dominant one and I do kinda hate it 😭😭

It just wears me out to be the giver tbh 🙃 especially because I already assume that role in so many other areas in my life, I just want to sit back and be babygirled 😭😭 this is why despite being attracted to women , relationships with women don't really work out for me 😭😭

it's all a matter of luck when it comes to love and relationships and sometimes things find us unexpectedly.

what I've learnt from some of my recent experiences is that someone can do all the right things, give you princess treatment and all that yet not make you feel anything 😭 so to be physically attracted to someone, emotionally in- sync with them, AND have a healthy relationship,, it's all down to luck 😭

2. not u calling yourself cray cray 😭😭

majority of people in this world are not living happy lives, be it with regard to love, career or family. To even have one of these things going well is a huge blessing ✨and while it's possible to have all of them, it's okay to not beat yourself up for achieving all 3 in one go.

One of my dad's childhood friends, remained unmarried into her late 40s. This is veryyyy unusual in India and she's not from a bougie artsy family where such things are chill or anything either. She, however, had a brilliant career and is a civil servant and rn she's in a veryyy high ranking position because she's worked her way up. Everybody around her pitied her (for being single and childless) but she was just out there making $$$ by the time she hit her late 40s people stopped pestering her because by that point, it's kinda "too late" to settle down. BUT GUESS WHAT HAPPENED??? she met a reallyyyyy cute Swiss-German man who was visiting our state/city and she happened to be the one showing him around?? (someone linked them up basically) and that wonderful meet-cute led them to marriage in like 2 months lol ,,, this lady who had been single for 47+ years found the right guy and married him in less than 2 months???? Isn't that sooooo romantic??? It's all about timing 💛💛 and now they've been together for a decade and spend most of their year travelling the world ✨and are very much in love

So different eras of our life will have us focusing on different things. Rn it's probably best to make that $$$ and focus on yourself. Love will find you when it needs to 💛✨💛

3. About flirting in non-English

JAJAJSJ yess I used to cringe 😬 hearing Desi flirting across languages 😭but now I feel like I've finally decolonised my mind to find it cute 😭

My ex was Tamil and he used to call me "bomma" which means "doll" in Tamil ,, I had a flop talking stage with another Tamil guy who used to call me "Kitty kutty" ("little kitty") and idk if it's a Tamil guy thing but they go hardddd with their affection through terms of endearment

Flirting in Hindi is always fun bc it's all "aapka this, aapka that" (using honorifics) and respect turns me on i guess lmao 🤭🥵 Idk if this is just a Desi thing but yk how men start calling you madam and ma'am 😌yeah I live for that shit 🤭🤭 they'll be like "madam is still getting ready" and I'll be like 😍yes the hell I am 😍😜

4. Thank you so much for checking in with me angel 🥺🥺 I appreciate it and you soooo much 💛💛💛 you're the sweetest

I'll take care of myself 😜 😌and I hope you do as well!!! 💛💛 May the rest of July be wonderful for you ✨

[h5eavenly]

omg i literally sent you an ask like two hours ago thinking "well this can't get any worse now we're gonna be so up from here on" AND IT SOMEHOW GOT WORSE?????? AGAIN I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START WOAH yeji having it out for y/n over something that happened years ago and that hyune obviously got over is just soooo.. like she has so many reasons to give y/n a piece of her mind for and she chooses /this/ hill to die on?? AND not addressing her directly???? babyyyy this ain't it!! i think this is also a way of evidencing how distanced yeji and hyune have grown more than the distaste that she has towards y/n, like she doesn't know about hyune and her's connection and where they stand as much as the others do bc yeosang drove her away from them all which is so sad :-( sometimes she frustrates me a bit but i have a lot of sympathy towards yeji especially in this situation bc i know how hurtful it is to feel ostracised from your close friendships due to a toxic relationship and trying to hold on to the things you knew about them while not realising that they've changed bc you haven't been there enough to witness those changes :-( idk if this was your intention when you wrote it but it's really accurate. i know there's a lot of bad blood between yeji and y/n, now more than ever with the yeosang situation 💀 but i really do wish they can have a heart to heart sometime bc both of them have been so wronged and hurt by evil men and idk if a friendship between them is possible tbh but i feel like they can find a support system in each other even if they aren't friends. i just want my girls to be happy and i know there's a long way to go but they both deserve healing smsm :-(

now WDYM MFS RAIDED HYUNE'S HOUSE OH MY GOD????? this is y/n's fuckass father FOR SURE his ass wants to play gangster so bad HE AIN'T SHIT!!!!!!! i'm so flabbergasted i swear i never saw this coming??? i never thought that bum would ever go to this length to try to impose control on his daughter like that man's crazyyyyy. at first i thought the raid was bc of yeosang but you know that man ain't got no friends and is a coward he could never pull up like this 😭 so that's why i think it's y/n's father who's behind this bc he wants to have his godfather moment for some reason 💀 yk how weird men go crazy once they realise they can't control the women they feel entitled to so i think y/n moving out made him feel some kind of way. i can't wait for that asshole's downfall i swear i'm praying on it im going to church over it im manifesting it 🙏🏻 unless hyune is onto something that we're not aware of??? which idk im not sure about that honestly but i didn't see like half the things that ended up happening coming either so you knowww im seated, hyune and hannie living with y/n will be so cute too!! we love to see domestic hyune+y/n content we used to pray for times like this 🥹 so we might be kinda up after all maybe

thank you sm for the update so soon!! you're working overtime for this and it's sooo appreciated you deserve the world fr 🫂🩷🩷

genuinely curious what made you think "its only up from here" cus... 🫡efuhhfihw fyi anon i take my angst tag VERY seriously 🧐 some may say i'm not trust worthy but i just like being unpredictable

about the whole yeji situation it is intentional yes! im so glad you noticed its kinda hard to write such subtle things in smau without it being in your face because it's one of those things that i want ppl to notice but sometimes im like ahh idk if anyone would notice, i think for her she obviously views y/n as a rival but because she's left out (hence jinnie growing more distance ever since yeo came into her life) she tries to attack y/n with the only available card she has which is "you did smth bad to my friend" bc she doesn't know anything else and she wasn't even there when it all happened she only got snippets from the story and from jinnie's side when he was still feeling resentful towards y/n and you see the difference in this specific subject between her and lix (bc lix was there) he gets their bond sm more and it's so much easier for him to not hold it against y/n

listen y/n's dad might be a little worse than her mom idk they're competing for that title rn, ty for being so kind baby as alwayys i enjoyed reading and im sorry for talking sm i just get excited about my characters🥰🥰💞💞

[1d1195]

Happy Valentine’s Day bestie💕💌 sending you so much love💕hopefully you’ll see it on when it’s still the day lol

I think if I had to endure kids like that almost everyday I would probably be a bit mean sometimes lol and that’s okay like I’m sure your definition of mean is probably not that mean at all lol but I do understand your frustrations honestly!

I understand what you mean about your friendships or past friendships! Honestly I think some friendships/people are just meant to be part of a certain time in your life for a reason. And it doesn’t mean things ended badly, life just happens sometimes. I use to feel the need to keep up with a lot of people but now I kinda just work on maintaining relationships that i deeply care for right now. But also accepting the fact that it’s okay and that not all of them need or deserve the effort! Anyways lol sometimes it’s just hard to navigate adult friendships but you’re not the only one who thinks/feels this!

I hope you can get that pedicure during your break!! I’m sure it will be worth it, you deserve the pampering! Also that 12 hour flu thing is so crazy?!? I hope your sore throat goes away soon and that you won’t experience that weird 12 hour flu thing again!

I LIVE for when you go beyond your original 1 part idea! It’s so fun to see how the story develops and with Pucking Rookie(I sadly still read it as punching pookie idk why😭) their world and the dynamics in it is so cute! Like idk what I would do if we didn’t get such cute banter between the team!

I swear my professor just has it out for me! Liek idgaf about the research we are doing but at least I’m doing my work and being polite UNLIKE OTHERS!! Anyways I will be writing the most passionate review at the end of the quarter lol oh and I’m pretty sure I’m getting a repeat of two midterms in a day in about 2 weeks 😭

Your cliffhangers always hurt so much and while you say you never really know how to end things, I think you do!! And honestly not surprised AI came up with his fuck ass name like he’s just so AHHH AND NOT IN A GOOD WAY!!

Not the trauma bonding😭 but so real lol I was sad too when I couldn’t read them right away! Life has just been insane and I’m pretty sure I’m losing motivation for a lot of things lol but im hoping to be a bit more productive this weekend like self care but we shall see!

How was your week?! Anything fun planned this weekend? Miss you loads! Hope you’re doing better Sam, ily!!-💜

Happy Valentine's Day to you as well! Sorry it is late, I did see it when you sent it but I was not in a condition where I could answer 🤦‍♀️ (You'll see in a moment). Hope you had a lovely day filled with love as well! 💕

My co-teacher and I are like mom and dad (the roles switch back and forth) good cop bad cop kind of situation. It's so fun though honestly. They're obnoxious most of the time but they do make me laugh. My co-teacher is also a mom to two tweens and she says I'm NOT mean even when I feel I am mean so I have that going for me.

It's on my New Year's Resolution list to reach out to my friends monthly if I can help it (when I remember). But even sending a text seems like a lot of upkeep sometimes. I feel like I need to make it personal. Which is insane because it's not like they've reached out to say hi to me 🤷‍♀️ idk it's probs the over-thinker in me. I know what you mean about maintaining the relationships that I care most for. I should heed your advice 😊

I made my appointment for tomorrow morning so no backing out now. The tax refund hit my bank account so it's happening!!

I read Pookie most of the time I post and I have to like quadruple check I didn't mess up 😂 I think I probably knew it would be more than one part, but I think I never know how long it's going to last. In theory if Sun-Kissed could have been four parts, I probs would have done that instead of two. But I wrote it all in one sitting so the cut-off points seemed arbitrary at that point.

PASSIONATE REVIEW!!! Tell everyone bestie!!! Ughhhhh almost there though, which is so crazy! Time is flying. I hope the next time you have two exams in one day it goes a lot smoother and I will get out my voodoo doll for your professor 💕

I struggle with names. Everyone would be named Liam (unironically) lol I usually use names from TV shows and spread them out throughout different pieces I'm writing (I used Jack and Rebecca from This Is Us in Ding and Green Skies, Pink Grass). I've been using AI and baby bump to create names for me so I don't have to think as much about it lol

Don't feel bad about not reading! I just almost feel like my new updates are incomplete without your thoughts. Like I felt bad posting the 4th part before I heard what you thought of the 3rd 😭 But you're right: life is truly insane right now.

If I had known that the 12-hour flu and sore throat I had on Monday was going to be the BETTER part of my week I wouldn't have even mentioned it to you. I had a headache so bad yesterday I seriously thought I was having an aneurysm. It was so splitting and pounding. My whole face was rebelling against me I thought I was DYING. I don't remember ever feeling this shitty. (Still went to my student's game (before I felt TERRIBLE) because I found out a little more about his home life and basically I just want him to know I adore him even if he feels like no one else does). But yeah, I thought I had pink-eye. Thought I had the flu or Covid (both negative). The whole bit. I went to the minute-clinic this morning and I have a sinus infection. We should all continue to thank modern medicine because I'm pretty sure I would be dead right now if it wasn't for anti-biotics. So this weekend was a wash. BUT it's February break here in MA so I'm good to go for the week. Lots of plans to relax, catch up on some things, see friends and the fam. It will most likely be too busy but whatever.

I am doing MUCH better now, bestie. Like within hours. The infection had to be infectioning because I was not my best self the last thirty six hours and I feel SO much better. I hope you have a good start to your week. Love and miss you!! 💕

xoxo

[andi-is-bored]

omg don’t apologize for responding late because i’m literally so bad at sending these on a usual schedule too 😭

last thing on the grammys i promise but i totally understand what you said about billie!! i really really really love hmhas so it does suck that she didn’t win anything for that album at all

mike wheeler is my favorite stranger things character so don’t worry you are soooo valid for that he is sooooo interesting and i agree despite all the other unfortunate shit that’s arisen with certain cast members, i will be pirating that fifth season because i just HAVE to know what they’re going to do or not do with byler

and lowkey i haven’t seen the star wars sequel trilogy in so long but i can completely understand getting so sucked into star wars because it’s such an interesting universe and there are truly so many characters and adventures that everyone can have their own little corner to enjoy, which i think is super cool!! all that being said, i’m also just trying to say i barely remember anything beyond the basics of rey and kylo apologies sjdjsj

but anyway i hope you’re having a good start to your weekend! are you doing anything for the super bowl 😭 (feels like a stupid question to ask someone on tumblr dot com but you never know)

actual random questions though: are there any concerts/tours that have already been announced that you want to go to this year? do you have a favorite tumblr post?? if you could learn a skill instantly without actually having to learn it, what would it be?

- 💌

lolll thank you <333

right?!? like i get that people don’t like him cause he’s an asshole, but he’s an interesting asshole! there’s just so much with his character and why he acts the way he does that i wanna know, im so nervous for season 5 for no reason, like i don’t really care but i care yk?

no no apologies i get it, i haven’t watched the movies in a good few years but every once in a bit i get back into the fandom and read as much fanfic i can in the span of 48 hours 😂 i swear if i had the time and patience for it id be writing reylo fanfic cause i have ideas id want to explore but actually writing them is not agreeing with me loll.

definitely not a stupid question. we’re not doing anything big? just watching the game and eating sandwiches for dinner (sandwich is a strong word it’s basically garlic cheese bread but with ham, but it’s amazing)

yeah there’s a few but idk if i’ll actually go or get tickets. i do kinda want to see daisy grenade with honey revenge in june, but may is gonna be really busy for me so idk. and ricky montgomery is going on tour AGAIN BUT HES NOT COMING ANYWHERE NEAR ME 😭 SO IS ASHE LIKE, WHY ARE MY FAVS NOT TOURING ANYWHERE NEAR ME?!?? anyways 😂

i like the one tumblr post where it looks like it’s an endless black void or like, an endless skyline going down. so it’s one of those or one of the countless reylo artworks i’ve liked in the past week 😭

I WANT TO LEARN GUITAR BUT I CANT MY HANDS DONT WORK SO I CHOOSE THAT!bb

thank you again for the questions you’re wonderful <333

[reggies-eyeliner]

it really is a blessing yk? ah no worries! LETS DO IT! 3 2 HAPPY NEW YEAR!! (hugs) Ah it really depends yk on how everything works out. life is mysterious. MAAM PLEASE GIVE ME SOMETHING TO TEXT YOU ON haha. you're right you're right that's the right mindset THAT UNFORTUNATELY DOES NOT GET ME READS AHHHHH. I'm glad it was good ! omg what was your favorite thing you ate? do you have dishes that you only eat on special days?

oh no! seasonal depression is no fun. i saw the post you reblogged about friends leaving and I was like :( oh no! ellie is going through it. but hey, yes the grieving has to happen but there are people who are still here and guess what? you haven't met everyone who will love you! (I get that feeling whenever I read old messages between friends that we just drifted apart from each other and i smile sadly and wish them well... obvi puts me in a sad mood for the rest of the day but such is life, I've realized. and maybe there was a reason it needed to happen? like yeah we probably vibed the entire time but maybe they were just a that season friend or that place friend that was needed to help you out yk? that's how I've been trying to see it because God knows the number of friends I've lost that i vibed with but just ghosted me or who were so dry that i had to keep asking qs to hold the convo and it was so draining) MAAM THAT GOES TO YOU TOO!! IF YOU NEED TO TALK, IM HERE!

that's good that you love your classes tho! it would be so hard if you didn't (especially with the workload you mentioned). and OMG SATs?? AHHHHH THE STRESS! but hey by this time next year, no more worries about those exams. do you have ideas of where you want to apply and stuff? What's your favorite class you're taking? are you still doing theatre?

ugh dont even get me started. like dont get me wrong- I'm so blessed to get an education but the stuff that has happened to me has made me question if this education and loss of sanity is worth it. i swear its just... how do I put this? professors literally publically humiliate me by saying the absolute worst things to me about me in front of everyone and omg! i always thought it would be fellow classmates who would backstab you (like be nice to you but talk ill behind your back) BUT GUESS WHAT ELLIE? HAHA ITS NOT JUST THE STUDENTS!!! Its also the lovely PROFESSORS!!! I LOVE THAT THANK YOU!! haha but dw about me! i guess this is prepping me for corporate life? haha. but I'm currently being strategic because they're in positions of power and they decide if I graduate or not. but after this, I will choose my peace and sanity.

3 2 1 HAPPY NEW YEAR ‼️‼️omg do you have any resolutions this year or is it just get through the year because sometimes that's what we gotta do BWJHSA AND AHHH ILL AEND YOU MY DISCORD WHEN I HAVE THE TIME does that work?? AND AHH. OKAY BUT DON'T PRESSURE YOURSELF TO WRITE ON AO3 YOU CAN just write something for fun and post it if you feel like it ykyk AND I FORGOT WHAT I ATE NGL but I had really nice dumplings those are my fave 😭 AND WE HAD LIKE TTEOK GUK idk what it is in English but it is very banger 10/10

AND IT IS OKAY my seasonal depression isn't too bad DWDW TEEHEE AHH AND AHSHDHUE THANK YOUUU FOR YOUR WORDS ABOUT SCHOOL I RLY APPRECIATE IT😭💓 and omg the PROFESSORS. WHAT. I HATE THEM IF YOU DO TOO BECAUSE WHAT IS WRONG WITH THEM?? THEY'RE TEACHERS TEACHING STUDENTS IDK WHY THEY'RE MEAN TO STUDENTS IF STUDENTS ARE THE REASON WHY THEY DO THEIR JOBS?? AND IM NOT sure about what schools I want to apply for yet but my favorite class I'm currently taking is AP Bio!! the work load is crazy but I love learning about it RAHHH and girl sry I can't get over it but the professors man :((( I hope they will figure out that treating people kindly is an expectation and the bare minimum!!!!!! YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS AND YOU WILL YOU GOT THIS U INDEPENDENT AMAZING WRITER WOMAN ILY CERY MUCH!!

[miracleqmusical]

weeks pass by like days now

theres only 4 days till christmas, how?? i swear yesterday was 12/1. time goes by extremely fast as well when i dont have school. and now that i dont have school i just .. idk. i dont feel real at times, too. being separated from the world and isolated in a house with a ten year old (😭) surely isnt what id like to be spending my time doing. i love talking to my online friends! however.. they get most active past 12am.. like fnaf.. lol

i love staying up late talking to them but i hate the consequences that follow. im tired all day and i risk getting caught! if i get caught being up late especially talking to online friends ohhh my ass is grass.

i uh

i think they are getting like tired of me tho, maybe they are just changing, like friendships do. but i dont want them to change, i dont want us to change. i dont handle loss very well so change always makes me feel its gonna turn into a loss

im nervous

i try to talk to people as much as i can but no response , is it me or the other person ⁉️ i need to make more friends. but at the same time i dont think i could ever build the same bond or relationship (/p) with anyone else the same way i have with my other friends. they hold a special place in my heart. but idk if i have that place in theirs 😰😰

it’ll pass

tomorrow is friday. the next day is saturday. i get to see my cousin! and maybe get stoned . dont ask :3

my dog is supposed to have puppies anytime now. shes been having contractions all day and its stressin me out. i wish she’d just hurry and pop these pups out already. december 22nd sounds like a pretty birthday

i blocked him on twitter today. and now imessage. i dont really have a reason.. i just dont wanna talk to him. at all. ive lost the love i thought i had for him. he wasnt a bad boyfriend i guess but he was a bad friend. well maybe its the other way around… or maybe hes just bad all around. he wasnt the one and i knew it from the start

theres only one guy ive been certain about but i gave up on him a while ago. i also recently thought i liked a friend of mine.. but i think its better if we stay friends :’| love is hard. i dont know how to wait and let it come naturally. well. maybe i do wait.. at least i have been for the past week. but past relationships ive been in felt so rushed!! i dont think i’ll ever be able to love again if i keep loving and loving then getting my heart broke

ive started liking a kids movie franchise. trolls. is that embarrassing? should i be embarrassed? ashamed? im not rlly.. but i feel like if i express it to certain people i’ll get bullied LOL

ive been asking for music recommendations far and wide bc i feel like when someone asks me for recommendations i have nothing to offer. i get a lot of my favorites from tiktok. well.. actually.. most of them are from my friends! i absolutely love listening to the music they give me and thinking abt them the whole time. my friends are how i found laufey, tyler, lord huron, lil peep, and some others. music is probably my favorite thing. ever.

well i think im done yapping. for now. goodbye

[ishikawayukis]

(hi!! I was pretty busy but I’m finally on vacation and came to my home country to visit my family last week!! hope you’re doing well<3)

Fr, I feel awkward when that happens bc I never know if I should be the one switching languages or waiting for the other person to do so, but I might change between both bc atp I’m just as bad talking in both JAJAJAJA pero no me sale el video:’) I’ve tried to click it but I think the link is missing lol

Okay idk if these are the flashbacks you were referring to, but now when I was finishing skypeia arc (my favorite so far!!) I did skip the whole Nolan backstory 😂😭 I’m sorry but I really needed to see Luffy go kick that electric ass ://

There’s more we can learn about the crew’s past?? That I don’t mind JAJAJA (es que si es lindo<3 him and Iñaki are so precious) so far I only know Sanji said he’s from the North Blue👀

NO WAY??? I mean I can see it if these episodes aired during 2001 but that’s not the reason I was expecting for Pell’s miraculous survival JAJAJ

SHUT UP IM DOWN BAD FOR HIM!!!!! Skypeia Zoro is everything to me I swear, he didn’t give a sh*t for that god act and he cared so much for everyone in the crew :c oh and I’m watching it in japanese!! I don’t really like watching anime dubbed lol Y SI BIEN LINDO JAJAJAJA I need more Luffy singing moments<3

OKAY I might reach it then bc I’m on the Enies Lobby arc rn (which is so freaking cool abilities-wise bc damn todos han tenido un upgrade increíble + el plot está tenso y emocionante JAJAJ) AND HELLO?? SANJI’S LEG JUST CAUGHT FIRE?? ZORO SUMMONED A FREAKING DEMON SPIRIT?? LUFFY HAS TWO NEW ABILITIES ON HIS SLEEVES??? (metaphorically at least lol) but yeah idk how much I’ll be able to watch while I’m home BUT I really want to know how this ends JAJAJAJ (y gracias por no dar spoilers<3 veremos como nos va con el timeskip JAJAJ)

Oh no you’re totally right, if it was zombie that would be a cry for help LOL when I heard the song for the first time, although I did like it, it felt too heavy for me if I were to listen to it on my bad days:’)

OH ALSO I GOT THAT THIRD PIERCING JAJAJAJAJ

have fun on vacation!! love that you were able to visit your home country too <333

(me dí cuenta q el video no estaba cuando se lo quería mostrar a una amiga y dije ay jesú la tecnología me ganó AAJJAJA) but it honestly was just dumb it was a video fo ace singing propuesta indecente to sanji and zoro being like i Will kick your ass it just had me giggling so much LMAO

those are exactly the flashbacks i'm refering to LMAO if you thought nolan's was bad...... i am so sorry they're gonna get worse LDSGKHL much love to those characters tho nolan's story was very fun i just did not care. and yeah there's more you're gonna learn about the crew, sanji being from the north blue is a huge huge hint tbh i honestly can't wait for you to get there

skypiea zoro truly is top tier 10/10 can you believe there's people that say you can skip thsi arc like are you stupid. and nice i can't watch things dubbed either unless they're things i watched dubbed as a kid LMAO otherwise i'm like what the Hell is going on man

ennies lobby is SO GOOOOOOOD they all go insane like we can see how much they've grown and just everything about that arc is so good, i'm usually not a big fan of the fights because they uuuuh pq las prolongan mucho AJJAAJ (se me olvidó el inglés) but the fights in ennies lobby? amazing 10/10 kaku i don't care that you're a bad guy i love you please be good man

AJAJAJAJ AMOOOOOO next time i'm about and about with my friends i will most likely get it as well because who am i kidding i don't have any self control LMAO