#idk just felt. wrong.
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superbat-lmao Ā· 4 months ago
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Jason travels to an alternate universe where Bruce only cares about being Batman. He took in each of his kids to serve the mission, not be his children.
Now, faced with alternate versions of his family, Jason has to grapple with the fact that his Bruce does care, that he is his father. Because the man in front of him now, trying to send him home, isn’t even close.
#batman#jason todd#bruce wayne#redhood#batfam#batfamily#this bruce went one of two ways 1) running his kids into the ground and they’re basically unrecognizable to jason or 2) worked them so hard#they couldn’t take it and left the business entirely and he’s completely alone except the JL which doesn’t like him but he is necessary#sure crime is down but bruce’s crusade is just that an actual crusade because he treats his sons like soldiers and everything comes second#to the mission. i don’t even know if damian exists in this universe because the idea of bruce having romantic relationships is laughable#although here he might be more closely aligned to talia because they’re both mission oriented and having a legal heir for their literal#legacy might appeal to him idk. just that jason shows up and it’s like his brothers have military ranks instead of names. none of them have#real jobs or even friends because they eat sleep work live at the manor and would never leave the batcave if it weren’t for public#appearances. it’s insane to see dick without his personality or tim who really does act like a robot and not a person. i don’t know if steph#cass and duke would stick around for this (or alfred for that matter i’m 50/50)#but when jason does get back everyone is shocked that he sticks around the cave and manor for a couple weeks checking in on everyone and#making the effort to do things unrelated to mask business. he has to write a report about the incident and he struggles to even put into#words how wrong it felt. his arguments with bruce also skew slightly because he can’t claim bruce doesn’t care in general just that he#doesn’t care about him or express it enough or in the right way. a far cry from the usual spiel and bruce is concerned so they talk it out
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ohrade Ā· 23 days ago
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flowers for jigen
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crystallizsch Ā· 1 month ago
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is this what you call subtly flirting. do they even know they’re subtly flirting.
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jamil i think u forgot ur ( parentheses )
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nanihirunkits Ā· 1 year ago
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WE ARE | EP16
#we are#we are the series#we are series#tanfang#aou thanaboon#aouboom#boom tharatorn#my edits#weareedit#AOUBOOM MAIN LEADS WHEN???#i do appreciate them and the way they’ve been portraying tanfang#i know tan was a bit over the top 99% of the time#but every scene and touch felt so genuine#and i’m not gonna credit that to new#bc he wasn’t able to direct ppw in a way that didn’t make their kisses look a bit awkward#i know scenes have to look aesthetically pleasing in some way#and that’s why we keep having to deal the ā€˜no one would kiss with this much space for jesus between each other’ complaints#but like look at aouboom here#this is mostly them and their acting choices in my humble opinion#and don’t get me started on the pecks#ppw BARELY touched the other one’s lips when they had to do a peck kiss#like cmon the difference between ppw and aouboom pecks is insane#i’m sorry for picking on ppw but i’m a bit sad that some of their romantic scenes were a bit lackluster#especially that very last kiss which tbh i rather wouldn’t have seen bc it felt a bit awkward to me#but that may be just me#i need new to get a bit more frisky with kiss scenes when it comes to his directing#bc i feel like friskier kiss scenes only happen when the actors mostly do their thing after finding out what the director wants#(maybe i’m completely wrong about new but tkdkfdkddkdk)#and don’t get me wrong idgaf if there are kisses or not but if there’s a kiss scene you should commit instead of holding yourself back idk#and ppw definitely need a better director to help them achieve that bc jojo was definitely better at directing them
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sophaeros Ā· 7 months ago
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the last shadow puppets - everything you've come to expect: 2016 tour outfits — almost all clothes custom made by ray brown sources
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charlietheepicwriter7 Ā· 1 year ago
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Dick Grayson V Gotham
Chapter 1 - AO3 - Constantine Jr. AU
There were a few minutes every morning, in the dark before dawn when his alarm hadn’t yet rung, where Dick Grayson felt most at peace. Despite the ache in his body the night out as Nightwing, he felt refreshed and content to just rest his eyes until his phone rang and it was time to get ready for the day.Ā 
Unfortunately, peace was never meant to last.Ā 
With a loud crash that definitely woke the neighbors, a little body kicked his door in. A switch was flipped and blinding light filled the room. Dick squinted in the general direction of the intruder. ā€œGet up already!ā€ Danny, his ward, snapped, rushing forward to rip the blankets off his bed. Dick let him. ā€œThere’s a case ready for us at the precinct!ā€Ā 
Dick checked his phone. No missed calls, and Danny didn’t have a phone yet. ā€œIs this another psychic thing?ā€ he asked.Ā 
Danny rolled his eyes. ā€œIf I say yes, will you get your ass out of bed already?ā€
ā€œLanguage,ā€ he chided absentmindedly, but still got out of bed. Danny glared up at him, still not satisfied, and dragged him to the bathroom with a surprising amount of strength for an 8-year-old. ā€œHuh! You’re really in a hurry today.ā€
ā€œNo, you’re just super slow!ā€
Dick pulled back against Danny, slowing their progress considerably. ā€œOh, it’s the age!ā€ Dick bemoaned, draping himself dramatically against the wall. ā€œNow that I have a kid of my own to look after, the years have started to take their toll—Ow!ā€
Danny glared up at him like he hadn’t just kicked Dick in the shin. Brat. ā€œBe dramatic in your own time! We have a case, Dick, we need to go!ā€
ā€œAlright, alright, I’m going!ā€ Dick complied and got in the bathroom, saying just before he closed the door, ā€œMake sure you’re dressed in clothes you can afford to lose! I don’t want you to get blood on your favorite jeans again!ā€ Danny shouted back his agreement and finally, Dick was alone.Ā 
As Dick washed his face and did his business, he contemplated how he got there. Honestly, he didn’t get what Bruce was always complaining about; this guardianship thing was going great! It was three weeks since he’d wrangled Danny home, but he’d been preparing for this for months, ever since he learned that the little brat trying to solve murders was homeless. It took months of classes, meetings with CPS, and interviews with friends and family, but Dick was now the proud foster parent of Danny Smith!
Fortunately, Dick had managed to convince Bruce that the foster license was precautionary, like if he needed to protect a minor. Which was what he was doing! So not technically a lie!
Although, Bruce had his hands full already. Some new crime lord had taken up the Joker’s old alias and it was driving the old man up the wall. Bruce had even asked Dick for help on the case last night! He’d said no, of course; he wasn’t just going to abandon Danny in Bludhaven for days while they hunted down Red Hood, and he wasn’t going to spring Danny on Bruce, nor Bruce on Danny. Danny was a flight risk and had expressed disdain for millionaires in the past, and Bruce was… worse than he used to be. Tim had managed to resurrect some of the dad Bruce used to be, but ever since Jason… 
Well, it was good that they wouldn’t be seeing each other any time soon. Maybe by then Tim will have convinced Bruce to go to therapy!
Coming out of the bathroom, Dick started at Danny, dressed in jeans and a Digimon t-shirt, standing on the counter and getting Dick’s lunch bag off the shelf. He cocked an eyebrow. ā€œWhat are you doing?ā€
ā€œPacking breakfast to-go!ā€ Danny said, jumping off the counter. Dick’s heart skipped a beat and he lunged forward, but Danny landed before Dick could reach him. He glared at Dick. ā€œWhat are you doing?ā€
ā€œNothing.ā€ He straightened up, playing it cool. He observed what Danny had laid out for breakfast as he started the coffee machine. A banana, two yogurts, and a handful of granola just poured out onto the table. ā€œYou know, you absorb more nutrients when you sit down and actually enjoy your food. And we don’t need lunch to-go. Remember, we talked about this? We have to wait for someone to report the crime first.ā€
ā€œHow do you know no one hasn’t yet?ā€ Danny challenged.Ā 
ā€œHave they?ā€
ā€œ...No. We could report the crime though,ā€ Danny grumbled, but opened a yogurt cup.Ā 
They really couldn’t. If they reported the crime, they’d still have to wait for other officers and CSI before investigating, and that’s even if they were given the case! But more importantly… Dick was the only officer in the department who believed Danny could see ghosts.Ā 
Sure, Commissioner Gonzalez believed Danny, but that was just one woman. As much as he appreciated the Commissioner’s work helping get Danny off the streets and processing the paperwork to ensure the boy got recognition as an official BPD consultant… well, Dick knew she had ties to the gangs in town, he just couldn’t prove it. Just because she liked him and Danny doesn’t make her good.Ā 
The fact that she promoted him to detective was evidence enough. Dick was an amazing detective—like everyone trained by Batman—but normally you’d need a certain number of years and successful cases for that level of promotion, both of which Dick didn’t have. Hell, he’d only been working as a cop for two years! But Danny was only willing to work with Dick… so Dick became the youngest detective in the city.Ā 
The coffee machine sang a little robotic song and Dick placed a Nightwing mug under the spout just in time to catch the stream. As Danny finished his breakfast, Dick shooed him off to go brush his teeth and turned on the TV. He still had thirty minutes before they had to leave for work—
ā€œā€”taking after his father!ā€ Jack Rider’s voice rang through the apartment. Dick frowned; why was this trash on? ā€œAlthough I have to say, I don’t think anyone ever expected Richard Grayson to adopt a child of his own!ā€
Dick froze. What? No, he’d worked so hard to ensure that no one would find out—
A picture flashed on screen of Dick and Danny. Dick recognized it immediately; he’d taken Danny out to eat to celebrate Danny officially becoming his foster child. But that was weeks ago! They’d been sitting on the story for that long?
They didn’t even bother to blur Danny’s face.Ā 
ā€œNow, Jack,ā€ the co-host chided, ā€œLet’s not get too hasty. Our source at Bludhaven PD—who will be unnamed to protect their privacy—said it was only a foster, not an adoption.ā€
Jack waved her concern away. ā€œYes, a foster. For now. Don’t you remember how long Richard was Brucie’s ward? Sure, the kid might only be a foster for now, but with this family, adoption is always on the table!ā€
Turning away from the TV, Dick checked their security cameras on his phone. When he’d first moved in, Babs had hacked into all the cameras in the apartment, piggy-backing off their feeds. There, outside the building’s main entrance, were multiple reporters. Some had even gotten into the building, although their aimless wandering told him that their apartment number hadn’t been leaked yet.Ā 
ā€œStill, another street kid in the family,ā€ Jack continued to muse. ā€œThat’s two now for the Waynes, right? Are they going to take off with an entire orphanage next?ā€
ā€œDick?ā€
He locked eyes with Danny, who gave the TV a worried look. But Danny didn’t get worried; he was a cocky, grumpy brat who’d given Dick a heart attack when he dared a gang member to shoot him in the face. But a news story scared him?
Smart kid. Dick was feeling scared too. So, he made the executive decision.Ā 
Dick knelt down to Danny’s height, gently grasping his shoulders. ā€œOkay. Here’s what we’re going to do. I’m going to call out of workā€”ā€
ā€œBut Mrs. Bennett’s murder!ā€ came the immediate protest.Ā 
Dick took note of the name, but held up a hand to stop him. ā€œI know, I know. But it’s not safe for us to go to the precinct right now.ā€ Someone at BPD had told the reporters about them. One of his colleagues, pissed that he’d gotten his promotion unfairly? Someone who hated that a little kid solved murders better than them? Or anyone looking to make a quick buck? The possibilities were endless.Ā 
He continued, ā€œCommissioner Gonzalez will understand and help us consult with the case from online, okay? We’ll get sent pictures of the crime scene and you can talk to Mrs. Bennett and we’ll consult from Gotham just to be safe.ā€ He had some PTO he could use, right? If not… Gonzalez could just fire him. He’d already known his co-workers were corrupt assholes, but to willingly put a child in danger was a step too far. If Gonzalez wanted to keep Dick—and therefore, Danny—she’d better clean house.Ā 
Danny made a face. ā€œWhy Gotham?ā€
ā€œThat’s where my family lives! While we wait for the story to die down, I’ll introduce you to my grandfather, Alfred, and my brother Tim, and my friend, Barbra! I’ll show you around to all the fun spots, it’ll be fun! So go get packed, buddy.ā€
Hesitating in the doorway, Danny said, ā€œThey won’t listen to me. The other officers aren’t like you.ā€
ā€œThey will listen to you. I’ll make them,ā€ Dick promised. He’d gathered enough blackmail on his fellow detectives to force the issue, if needs be. He ruffled Danny’s hair. ā€œDon’t worry, Danny. It’ll just be for a week or two and then everything will be back to normal. I promise.ā€
Danny glared at him, batting his hand away. ā€œI’ll keep you to that promise, old man.ā€
As Danny retreated to his room—Dick’s former workout room—to pack, Dick went to his own, closing and locking the door behind him. The call to Gonzalez went about as well as he was expecting: first her anger at him taking time off, then his anger about being sold out to the media, then Gonzalez swearing as she found the news online, until finally agreement.Ā 
As they talked, Dick methodically packed away his Nightwing gear. After last night, where a slime meta had unceremoniously caked his suit in gunk that would not come out, he had two functioning suits: his back-up and his original that he kept for sentimental value. He packed all three, along with his gear. Maybe Alfred would be able to get the gunk out? But he couldn’t leave his things here. Their location was already compromised. If reporters decided the risk was worth it, they could break into his apartment and turn the whole place upside down looking for a story.Ā 
So, Dick had to take the story with him.Ā 
With all his gear packed, there was little room for personal belongings, so he did the best he could and only took the important things. His room at the manor still had a few changes of clothes. Fortunately Danny wasn’t a nosy kid, otherwise he’d never be able to get away with carrying his Nightwing gear in a normal duffel bag like this.Ā 
Now, the hard part.Ā 
The phone rang three times before it was picked up. ā€œMaster Richard.ā€ Alfred’s icy tone made him wince. Oh, he already knew. ā€œTo what do I owe the pleasure?ā€
ā€œHey, Alfieā€¦ā€ Dick rubbed the back of his neck. ā€œI just wanted to say that I decided I can help Bruce on that Red Hood case after all?ā€
ā€œI see.ā€ No matter how angry Alfred was, he was frighteningly polite. ā€œAnd shall I prepare a second bedroom for your ward?ā€
Dick winced. ā€œThat would be great, Alfred. Thank you.ā€
ā€œThen I will see you soon. And please inform the young master that I look forward to meeting him when you both arrive.ā€
ā€œI’ll tell him. He’s been looking forward to meeting you; I’ve been talking up your cooking for months now.ā€
ā€œMonths?ā€ Oh no. ā€œHow kind of you, Master Grayson.ā€ It got worse. Alfred was pissed now. Why did he have to say months? It wasn’t like Dick had intentionally hidden Danny from his family; he was just hiding him from Bruce! He wanted some privacy and to figure things out himself! But now Alfie was mad and suddenly that privacy didn’t seem so important anymore. ā€œShall I assume you’ll be arriving soon then?ā€
ā€œIn around an hour.ā€ Leaving his room, he checked on Danny. He was trying to back everything he owned into the suitcase Dick had bought him. ā€œMaybe a little longer? I’ll call when we’re ten minutes away.ā€Ā 
ā€œThen I will see you soon, Master Grayson.ā€
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cyanide-sippy-cup Ā· 4 months ago
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Been avoiding the show because FUCK Amazon but. I said I'd post it so I'm postin it.
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weaverofink Ā· 10 months ago
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punk douxie redesign!!! i just think he should have had an undercut tbh
+ bonus doodle:
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i feel like they for sure wouldn't let him wear his whole punk getup at his cafe job so i put him in a uniform. for fun.
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boy-eclipse Ā· 1 month ago
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i like to believe seb doesn’t swear. not that he can’t, but due to his aesthetic he chooses not to. its mostly to appear formal, proper, and in control of himself at all times; but it’s a little bit to mock ciel for being young, implying ciel needs sebastian to set a good example for him when it comes to swearing (even though in my heart ciel swears whenever he wants to, with only light scolding from seb — he mostly finds it funny).
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that-satireguy Ā· 3 months ago
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Ok, love this. Um.
What do you think the name for the societal force which oppresses trans people for being trans is?
What do you think the name for the societal force which oppresses women for being women is?
???
bruh rewording it to obfuscate what you're saying isn't fooling anyone. you're literally saying 'transmisogyny is the intersectional oppression that results from being victim to both TRANSPHOBIA and MISOGYNY'
but, as the person you were arguing with rightly pointed out, transmascs are also victim to BOTH.
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dreadfuldevotee Ā· 1 year ago
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I'd like to discuss the elephant in the room. Why did we get zero Loumand sex scenes? We got hints and implications, but season 1 was pretty explicit. Do we think that that's a creative choice or something else is happening?
I'm glad I ended up ruminating on this for about a week because episode 7 & 8 really solidified my opinion on it.
I do wanna start by saying that it's very clear to me that there was supposed to be more explicit scenes between them. There has been some thoughts tossed around that censorship happened with the 9 pm timeslot (as opposed to the 10 pm timeslot of S1). I believed this hearing Assad and Jacob talk about the BDSM dynamic between Louis and Armand, but what really sold me on this was Production Designer Mara LePere-Schloop talking about the bedroom set and more specifically about their beautifully carved custom headboard. (If you're a production nerd like me or just want to know more about the design philosophy of IWTV I recommend giving the entire thing a listen!).
I think there are several reasons I think as to why they decided to leave any more explicit scenes on the cutting room floor but above them all is: you cannot separate Armand's sexuality from his abuse. I am really against pulling a "well if you read the books" card but reading just the first couple chapters of "The Vampire Armand" makes me understand so much about not only Armand as a character, but the care being taken to his adaptation. It's clear to me that alongside Rolin & Co.'s commitment to not watering him down to a one-dimensional villain they are also trying to not fall into Anne Rice's tendency to romanticize his trauma.
Sex and sexuality is not the same pillar of Louis and Armand's relationship it was in Louis and Lestat's and so I don't believe their story suffers from the lack of on-screen sex. But I also firmly believe that maybe we don't need to be slutting out the character who we literally just watched talk about how he doesn't remember his life before being sex trafficked. And even when he was "freed" he was still being repeatedly assaulted at the hands of, and under the eye Marius de Romanus. Like it is extremely important to remember that Armand's craving for dominion in his relationships is a manifestation of trauma that deserves the same level of care and depth given to every other trauma portrayed in this show.
I think people have gotten too comfortable calling IWTV a romance when it has always been Gothic Horror. Romance and sex are pivotal to the story but I have found the demands for sex scenes this season a bit absurd and also? unfounded? Loustat share more kisses on screen but there are two sex scenes and both are very plot relevant. I truly figured we were all in agreement that the eroticism of this show is found in the various displays of power, and the dynamics it creates and not the actual clapping of ass-cheeks...which also wasn't happening in S1 either. S2 does not suffer because of the lack of sex-scenes, but the likelihood if it suffering trying to make one work is
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gorgynei Ā· 6 months ago
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throws this person at you. and what if i said the tattoo is actually a deeply important part of the magic system of the world theyre from. hmm?
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itadooori Ā· 3 months ago
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yea i rewatched the s1 finale. did a lil doodle about it
#GODDD I NEED MORE PPL TO TALK ABOUT IL-NAM AND GI-HUN'S FINAL CONVERSATION#and i need them to like actually pay attention this time#stg its one of the more misunderstood scenes of the series#ive seen some people seeing it as a clash of two totally valid ideologies when like#no one of these things is clearly wrong. characters can have flawed logic even if they SOUND convincing#il-nams so fuckin good at manipulating that hes manipulated the audience NOOOO#people got too convinced that il-nam was in the right when he said 'well people came back on their own accord'#as if we didnt have an episode explicitly showing us the characters very shitty lives outside of the games#that forced them back into them#as if we werent explicitly shown gi-huns situation in great detail in e1 that landed him in the games in the first place#also i do NOT agree with any kinda sentiment that gi-hun is 'just as bad as the VIPs' for playing that game w/ il-nam#i mean. the dude was clearly reeling from the fucking BETRAYAL HES EXPERIENCING>??#and also il-nam is very manipulative as i said before. i think he was good at redirecting their interaction so that in the moment gi-hun >#> kinda forgets could ditch il-nam and go outside n save the homeless man himself#<- not really perfectly worded but i hope yall get what i mean#plus in s1 it was shown that gi-hun could sometimes not think ahead or clearly#especially when his emotions are running high#like. idk. when he realizes the man hes grieved and felt immense guilt over for a year is actually an evil ass rich dude who orchestrates >#> the mass murder of people in debt#god i am one PETTY ASS BITCH cuz i will NOT LET THIS GO#anyways. i just think that il-nams betrayal is just so so fucked because i was really Thinking about it as i rewatched the ep and#gi-hun likely grieved il-nam the same way he grieved the other friends he had in the games. he probably saw him in his nightmares too.#remembered how he'd hugged him even though gi-hun had been tricking him#(SIDE NOTE. ITS FUCKED THAT ONLY THE EVIL OLD MAN HAS HUGGED GI-HUN. CAN SOMEONE WHO ISNT EVIL BE NICEYS TO HIM.)#all of that. all of that grief and all of that love. what does it even mean now.#gi-hun is embarrassed hes been made a fool of hes angry hes heartbroken#squid game#seong gi hun#my art#doodle
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candyheartedchy Ā· 2 months ago
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I think I just discovered a repressed fictional crush and I’m not sure how I should feel about it.
#writing the rest in the tags and gonna be vague as hell for my own sanity because I’m feeling very conflicted rn#so the other day I just realized that I’ve been apparently in DEEP DENIAL of a crush on a character for years#and this goes way back#WAY before I even made this blog#now I use to have an active f/o from the same source material that this repressed crush is from as well#where I shared ship art and everything#I even redesigned my self insert for the one ship because she kept feeling off to me#like no matter what I drew for this self ship it just felt off#and I think it was because I was self shipping with the wrong character#where I still enjoyed that old f/o but my feelings never felt as intense as how I felt when the other character showed up#and the thing is that I originally had an oc x canon ship I drew out in an old sketch book for this crush#but for some reason I ended up shipping with the other character#hell I even had folks comment on how this character was my type and how they thought I was gonna self ship with him#but i didn’t#and idk if it was out of fear due to how well known and popular the character was that I just pushed those feelings away#but now I’m hesitant to say who this character is because I have mutuals who ship with him that I’m TERRIFIED of making them uncomfortable#so atm this character is going to be a secret f/o#and I guess in a way I writing this out to vent#and the fact that I have/had other f/os who shared the same vibes as him felt very obvious#because there was SO MANY DAMN SIGNS!!!#but now all my attention on my other f/os kinda halted and I feel stuck#I just need to think this crush over#or at least rewatch some episodes just to see exactly what I’m feeling now that I know this crush was repressed this whole time#like I’m not stressed (not like usual) but I feel almost like I got hit with a brick#so if I’m not as talkative or interactive I promise I’m fine#just mostly confused#also if anyone asks or try to guess I’m not gonna reveal this character (at least not until I figure this out) so please don’t ask#šŸ’¬ chy chatter šŸ’¬#ventish I guess
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anghraine Ā· 5 months ago
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One of the weirder parts of being formally tested for autism as an adult—apart from the hellscape of hours of math hell—was that they kept asking me for my conclusions or opinions about things I had very little knowledge of. These weren't basic facts you'd expect someone to pick up in the course of a standard US education, and I kept repeating that I would have to do actual research to form opinions on subjects I had no significant information about.
Obviously, "not opinionated" isn't a major problem for me when I do have a reasonable amount of information, but my eventual diagnosis specifically mentioned that I kept repeating that I would have to do more research to acquire the necessary baseline of data for forming opinions on [whatever], and that the phrasing of my various refusals tended to be identical or very similar (I didn't see any need to alter my wording when I was simply repeating the same position over and over).
*cough*
Anyway this is also about Star Trek. (Surprise.) I knew Spock would be relatable before we started the grand TOS watch, but did not expect him to be the most relatable character on television ever, and his continual refusals to deliver opinions without enough data for informed theories was actually a big part of this.
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femslashspuffy Ā· 4 months ago
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I love how the marks finally got to talk to each other and they're doing great figuring out a plan and then they get too Mark about it.
I literally said ohhhhh goddamnittttttt they have the same conflicting personality traits 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
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