#idk if it's genuinely hard or I just suck at drawing

[sosadraws]

"Despite their normally laid-back demeanor, STARs have a strong internal hierarchy [...] STARs will occasionally develop in-group rules involving physical punishments."

Anyways, just a normal day for Powder and company. I should have finished this drawing earlier if not because I wanted to give it better ✨characterization✨ and remade the sketch to push more the poses.

So yeah, the girls shown here are fom left to right: Trigger (leader, often de-escalates conflicts within the group), Striker ("Yes boss" type of character, frequently seen by Trigger's side), Zwanzig (Older unit transferred from another facility. Not a fan of nicknames as you can see, so others just refer to her by her given designaton), Powder (Powder) and Barrel (Newest unit who is still getting adjusted to the cadre dynamics. She has a thing for Storch units).

^^^ ...They're all weird.

[cxlrose]

drawing is kinda nice actually<3

[ringaroundtheroses]

one day im just gonna go "fuck it" and drop a detailed a commission sheet/portfolio for 100 dollars w 20 slots Ever then never be bothered thinking about it again, if it happens it happens if it dont it dont

[normystical]

hi!! you can call me Mystic :3

☆ Multifandom! <3

☆ I ramble like.. wayy too much. idk how to be concise;; (like here ahah)

☆ I like drawing but my motivation's kinda shot lol

☆ I have anxiety (among some other things) so I might overthink small stuff,,

☆ Constant brainrot over Lemon Demon

☆ I'm 18 but I sure don't fuckin feel like it

☆ I find it easier not to think too hard about my gender for some reason. Just assume my pronouns or figure it out.

☆ My blog is kind of a mess. sorry about that. so many reblogs ...

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TAGS

☆ mystic yaps: original posts/rbs that have my thoughts in it lol

☆ normystical's art: most of my art and doodles! not all of it tbh. just most. some of my doodles sucked lol

☆ interactions with mutuals/others: basically reblogs of interactions with other users lol

☆ requests 4 me: others' art that I requested :D

☆ important: more serious posts that I believe to be genuinely important.

☆ queue: posts i put on queue because they're awesome (or important) :3

☆ peak: extremely good content right here

☆ best:

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ART

I have a good handful of OCs, even though I haven't posted most of them yet!! If you want to ask anything about any of them despite that, pls do!!

BOUNDARIES

☆ Use as pfp/banner/etc: Go ahead! :D

☆ Use in other posts: As long as there's other content and you're not just taking all my credit >:T

☆ Use in videos/collages/etc: Yeah! Just as long as it's not critical of it lol I'm sensitive,, (oh and i'd love to see the result if ur willing!)

☆ Criticism: Only with my consent pls

☆ Sexual comments: I take those as a compliment! <3 (so yes!!)

☆ Romantic comments: Same as for sexual comments, but don't be TOO mushy pls;;

☆ Compliments that contribute nothing of value other than mere joy: BETTER THAN LIKES. PLEASSSE DO

☆ Requests (free): I'd be honored to know you like my art enough to request something! Just be verrry patient I'm slow AF,,

☆ Commissions (paid): I don't have any money system thingie attached to my account. No.

[aluria-sevhex]

ToT Bonnie i love you but that is not how it's pronounced

NOW FOR MY NOTES, COPIED FROM MY NOTES APP INSTEAD OF SCREENSHOTTED THIS TIME (edit: put it under a read more because long)

ACT 2

-THE TIPS ON HOW TO PLAY ARE FUCKING DIAGETIC?

-"stardust" are you the starhead bitch from the trailers

-i feel like i'll have to ask the librarian for a book eventually

-THE RUNNING ONE IS CALLING OUT SIF LOL (for running from his problems) (hmmmm Sif what problems r u running from?)

-ugh. it's the starhead bitch

-plot twist the star head is Siffrin and that's why he's depressed :P

-their name is Loop. i don't trust them

-"Yeah, better know this one's pronouns so you can think very clearly in your head that they're getting on your nerves."

-LOOP CAN READ THE PROFILES? WHAT KIND OF META BULLSHIT IS THIS </positive i fucking love meta bullshit>

-hm is Loop some sort of weird representation of the player. or a god.

-learn WHAT?

-hm feel like this game might explore some of the moral iffiness that tends to arise with time loops. is a friendship genuine if one person knows exactly what the other will say?

-"don't eat pineapples. you're allergic" fuck you. i WILL eat pineapples and i WILL enter anaphylaxis and i WILL die stupidly but it will be WORTH IT

-WAIT HOLD UP WHAT WAS THAT DIALOGUE IN THE >> TUTORIAL "don't make the same mistakes i did" I THINK THAT'S WHAT THEY SAID HOLD UP

-maybe Loop was a normal person who got stuck in a time loop for too long and fucked up somehow? and that's why they're like this

-idk if i'll zone out much i don't wanna miss any differences

-altho if there's a difference won't i zone back in?

-then again there's a lot of dialogue

-maybe this will be plot-important somehow?

update after being gone for a bit:

-Tears weewoo

-SIFFRIN SAID NYA

-side note i am so glad i fought that thing that dropped the crest even tho it was hard. fighting it again on future loops is gonna suck tho

-also fun fact right after i died to the Tears i ran ahead and accidentally got crushed by the rock again. which i think is bullshit because I RAN TO THE SIDE OF THE ROOM

-back to more important things. like Siffrin saying nya. or the thyme pun.

-ODILE SAID IT. look she has a phd or whatever equivalent there is here probably, she's like 40, i think she's earned the right to do whatever the fuck she wants

-Isabeau is AOBB (Assigned Omelette By Bonnie)

-"It'd be awful to keep yourself from becoming a person you feel comfortable with just because it would upset someone else."

Breaking news: the game where the protagonist uses he/they, two other major characters use they/them, and there is a conversation explicitly referencing pronouns and giving them, unsurprisingly supports trans rights

-BONNIE DO NOT EAT THE EGG KEYCHAIN

-BONNIE HAS A WOK >:D

-uh... why are the Vaugardians freaking out over crab. does the Change religion ban it?

-Vaugarde is weird. first, they have a VERY SPECIFIC RULE where entering the FIRST ROOM of a house is fine, but any further is rude. second: crabs??? ok i guess???

-an openphrase... ya mean a password?

-fuck it i am fully in "taking gratuitous extensive notes" mode

-hehe protector craft is gullible :P

-oh hey tasteful artistic nudes. so this room's resident is an art student. hopefully their grasp of anatomy was improved :]

-Mira said what the crab instead of what the hell

-"what the CRAB did you let Bonnie do when we said no!!!"

-YOU LET THE PRE-TEEN DRINK VODKA???

-LMAOOOOOOOO IT WAS WATER. I LOVE HOW MUCH OF A LITTLE SHIT SIFFRIN IS

-checked it again. the people are "doing fun things" eh so what if an art student draws porn, that's on me for peeking ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ still hope it improved their grasp of anatomy. if the anatomy was bad and the narration didn't tell me i would be disappointed in it :P

-ooo drawn tarot card. isn't the Six of Swords a bad one? i feel like it's foreshadowing somehow but i don't feel like looking its meaning up

-i fucking hate the triplet Sadnesses they're so annoying

-the reason the Mandela Effect with Berenstein/Berenstain happened is because Sif equipped the e

-OH? saving records party progress if you loop back to that spot :0

-yippee i beat the Sadness boss that changes its type (this is like the first enemy that does that i think)

-Mira are you hungry

-YEAH LET'S FUCKIN' EAT

-this question keeps popping in my head but where the fuck IS Siffrin from plot twist the kid was right and he's from the sky idk i'm saying random shit

-SNACK TIME

[acidrain39]

new pinned AGAIN because i got tired of the last one

hey there! my name is alex. just a blog with the stuff i like with some of my art & thoughts sprinkled into it ^_^

some facts about me! :3

im bigender/nonbinary (idk man labels are weird but i still like using them) & aroace

im autistic so i may post or reblog some stuff relating to it sometimes

im brazilian (MCR COME TO BRAZIL PLEASE ITS BEEN NEARLY 2 DECADES)

im 14 so dont be weird please

im emo but still pretty new to the subculture so any advice/song recs are appreciated!

Interests!!!

𖤐 My Chemical Romance (main special interest)

𖤐 Bandom in general (more casual though)

𖤐 Bats (secondary special interest)

𖤐 Vocal synths (my favorites are miku, luka and ruko!)

𖤐 Drawing (mainly sketching and digital art but im planning on learning how to paint!)

𖤐 Making papercrafts/paperdolls (my hands may be shaky af but im still gluing all those things together)

𖤐 Some anime/manga (lain, evangelion, madoka magica, death note, chainsaw man, tbhk, etc)

𖤐 Some video games (omori, hollow knight, undertale & deltarune, mouthwashing, etc)

𖤐 Books (favorite atm is frankenstein but i also really like fantasy & thriller books. am planning on reading quite a lot of books so i might post about that!)

𖤐 (very basic) Html (am learning it to make a spacehey account :D its kind of hard to code on a tablet though so i might use my grandmas computer to actually code)

𖤐 Shadow the Hedgehog (specifically him. idk why i just think hes cool as fuck)

some info about what ill post

i mainly reblog stuff but i also make some posts myself (either mcr or just random stuff i draw)! i dont really like using the queue so i often end up reblogging like a billion things at once.

im not necessarily an rpf shipper (its complicated) but there might be some stuff kind of bordering that in my blog. most of it is because i think its funny but theres some more genuine stuff too (not really shipping just crazy ass theories because i think theyre fun). if you dislike that than this blog is probably not for you.

uhhhh the tags i use for my posts specifically are “scribbles & scabs” for my art and “yaps & bats” for posts that are just me yapping. if i reblog stuff with blood, flashing lights & etc. i will tag it :3

i also may reclaim slurs and swear a bunch so if thats uncomfortable to you its better to not follow me. your well being is more important than some random stranger online

i dont really have a dni (idk i just feel weird writing them + theres no guarantee that others will actually follow it) but ill block & report people dw

the proship vs anti discourse makes me want to die so ill just say one thing: im neither of those. if you want me to elaborate more then just dm me or something

we can be moots but honestly ill probably be terrible at that (not out of malice i just dont know what to do). also i lowkey suck at responding to vents so ill probably just end up doing nothing or writing the stupidest thing ever

pronouns 𖤐 pinterest 𖤐 youtube (no videos yet but i have some ideas) 𖤐 instagram

debating on having an instagram just for my art but idk yet

hooray! you got to the end of this post! have some blinkies & stamps as a treat XD

[tiddiesoutwhenthetisout]

recent doodles (in between losing our shit in overcooked so we don't actually lose it)

random bulshit incoming

Pyrhhus

context: we have what we call our own "fanon pyrrhus" based on the idea that he is "an achilles without a patroclus". we play this super random game where we make a story, leave blanks for characters, then randomize. the storyteller improvises depending on these, and what happened was... the demon lord hector was being attacked by pyrrhus, took one look and said "yk what, i'll adopt you. i'm done being a demon lord (because the party sucked so hard he didn't think it was worth it). let's go back to my wife and kid."

and for the first time pyrrhus felt genuine love and care and went from the snarling boy (bottom right) to the cutie on the left. and in our succeeding games he has dissociative identity disorder as a running gag. he turns feral when he feels threatened (words said, things seen, etc.) but generally he's a really sweet guy especially when he has granny (thetis), but a father figure whether isolated or not is essential lest he's just feral.

in one story, his father threw him into the dungeon (yes it's achilles) because he didn't want the child. so little pyrrhus had to eat monsters to survive. his grandfather peleus turns out to be the leader of an orc gang hanging out in there so at least he has a sweet side, but they don't live together because pyrrhus is rebellious and defensive with his autonomy and capability. also, this one plot definitely wasn't a crack rework of dungeon meshi lol-

then here's ANOTHER redesign of

Patroclus

because i can't get him right orz. the "looks like heracles" thing was because he resembled my image of heracles before i tried to salvage his hair. i couldn't erase anything bc we did not have an eraser lmao. i think this will finally work, but i just have to tuck that stray lock of hair away from his face next time. also, i'll attempt facial hair again but in smaller amounts (i put stubble on him in the next pic). i'm just incapable of drawing more "masculine" features rn but i'll practice at some point... 💀

that's achilles below patroclus. the dark left eye was an accident, but honestly it *would* be interesting if he had one pitch black iris from his mother and the other green is from wherever the fuck he got it. i took the headband thing from his hades design too hahaha (idk my ancient greek culture okay)

also, yes, they do have matching ear piercings. i might try to digitalize these again later on when i'm in the mood.

i have to learn how to cartoonize stubble oops

also, curly/wavy hair is so fun to draw with these simple shapes, huh : 0 i'm the type of person to draw hair with fine strands except when i'm deliberately aiming for that anime style (i just want to learn how to color like them help).

i was going to yap about the stories we've done so far but i realized maybe i should turn that into an entire new post. or maybe draw stuff for them 🤣

also, like DnD this game would probably be fun with a lot of people. you could do this for any fandom too so that's the best part of it.

[ladyloveandjustice]

2023 Anime Overview: SHY and Migi & Dali

SHY

Premise: In a world where every country has a superhero, 14 year old Teru is Japan's. Her hero name is Shy, and that's exactly what she is-- she's a bit of shrinking violet at times and deals with social anxiety, which makes the public part of being a hero a struggle for her. But with a mysterious boy going around and turning people's hearts and pain against them to make them into dark, painful threats, she and the other heroes are going to have to step things up.

SHY is very much a magical girl show with am American-style-superhero coat of paint, and that's really what draws me to the series. Powers are based on your heart and emotions, the heroes friends and loved ones have their pain and despair manifest as terrible powers when induced by an outside force and then our heroes having to reach out to these people with love and compassion...it is so magical girl core. There's even a magical battle where mother and daughter must reach out to each other!

Also very distinctly magical girl-esque is how a lot of the series is focused on Teru and her cute girl bff having yuri undertones. Said friend calling out her name even activates Teru's "heart" and her powers truly awaken. IDK Teru that's pretty gay.

It does some things that are cool to see in a superhero show- like centering female characters and featuring a disabled superhero. This Anifem article also has an interesting take on one of the fights.

It's also not overly fanservicey so far either, though Teru mentions once that her leotard is skimpier than she's comfortable with (apparently magic assigns them their clothes) which sucks, (and it highlights her rear more than I'm comfortable at times considering her age). Let her have pants! But hey, after dealing with MHA's bullshit, I'll count my blessings that it's a regular leotard.

SHY is often a little silly-- the fact that apparently every country getting a superhero ended ALL WAR somehow is so ridic it wraps around to being endearing. It's also engages in some national stereotypes --for instance the Russian superhero who is Shy's mentor whole schtick being that she's always drunk (but you see it's okay because her alcoholism is based in her childhood love for her parent and she's fine and). There's a weird moment where an adult acts like she's going to kiss a teenager as a prank, and the pacing is a little uneven.

But when it hits, it really hits, and you really root for Teru. Seeing a superheroic take on struggling with social anxiety is fun, and Teru's passion and strength shines through. I'm excited to see more of her adventures, and fortunately a second season is confirmed!

Migi & Dali

Premise: Orphaned twins Migi and Dali perform an amazing con to get adopted by a couple (who mention preferring to adopt only one child)-- they decide to pretend to be only one person, a boy named Hitori, with one of them always just out of sight as school or at home. They go to absurd levels to keep this up because they have an important goal-- their mother was murdered in this town, and they're going to do all they can to find her killer. But what mysteries does this suburban town hold?

It's hard to put Migi & Dali into words, but I'll do my best. It starts out as an utterly absurd show that plays it's "spookiness" so ridiculously that it becomes comedy (Mother's Basement compared it to the potato chip scene from Death Note, and I think that's apt, though it's very much intentional with this show). Seeing the ridiculous lengths the twins go to in order to keep up their con is amazing. Situations like them assuming their foster mother must be scalping children because they don't understand what a wig is or one twin throwing on a wig on so the other twin (who should know what he looks like because he can LOOK IN THE MIRROR) doesn't recognize him are hilarious.

But then the show also becomes a tightly plotted and genuinely tense murder mystery that is incredibly moving at times? WHAT? All while keeping up it's signature brand of goofiness and absurdity! Side characters I did not expect to care about go through great development, Migi and Dali have some great character arcs, there's some genuine commentary on abuse, the damage you can do to children by forcing perfection on them, the struggle of being a foster kid, grief and recovery and more.

There are some things to warn for--parental abuse, rape through deception (def framed as bad, but yep. that happens), general harm to children, a very uncomfortable strip search of a child that involved ass-grabbing, and the weird bits where teen characters are kidnapped and forced to dress up and act like a baby (which turns out to be very thematically important and follows an interesting arc of being played partly for comedy at first then becoming deadly serious later) and of course the murder and stuff you'd expect from a murder mystery. (There's also some stuff involving infertility I think is fraught, but I can't really get into it without spoiling).

I know that's a huge list, but the show is definitely very rewarding--entertaining and full of more incredible twists and turns that one show has any right to be. Including the greatest housekeeper of all time, i would follow her into hell.

I can't get into more without spoiling, but yes, if you can handle this weird, wild ride, you should absolutely go on it. Sano Nami was a true talent.

[themarkofoxin]

still time to delete your post. you were uninformed, that’s fine, but now you know that there is a pattern of racist behavior on dan’s end and we are right to be upset. him outright saying that he won’t tour in ‘third world countries’ like mx and brasil during a WAD show is racist. calling my home a third world country is racist. this is not in the past, you can say logistics all you want but dan outright said that he will not tour in our ‘third world countries’. it is not logistics. it is racism.

if i'm remembering correctly, dan did not "outright" say he just wouldn't tour in mexico & brasil. he made a tasteless, dismissive joke, sure, with the fans as the butt of the joke in the same way fans were the butt of the joke in many wad segments; it was insensitive and dismissive because the fans he was poking fun at weren't actually there and, obviously, have real frustrations with his behavior. but the meaning and implication of the joke was never that he actively avoided those places and would never go there--hell, they have been to brasil, to show a recorded version of ii and do a q&a. they had a mexico date for ii but it fell through, right? claiming he "outright [said] that he won't tour in 'third world countries'" is a mischaracterization as much as it would be to say "he outright said he hates phil" because he's said it in competitive gaming videos before. the key difference is he has failed to build a rapport with latam fans so it was insensitive and hurtful.

also, it is very much influenced by logistics. as much as it sucks, we absolutely cannot dismiss that. i was too sarcastic and dismissive in my additions to the post, and i've deleted those, but i stand by the original paragraph. regardless their (but especially dan's) racist comments, booking venues in countries where

1) english is not the predominant language,

2) they are not widely known,

3) once the venue learns about them they figure out they may be well past their peak in popularity and,

4) in some cases, it is relevant that they're gay and much more open about it than ii,

DOES actually make it significantly more difficult to convince a venue that it will be profitable for the venue to put on your show. most of the time, that is all venues are worried about. will people actually show up, or will these two faggots who peaked ten years ago draw in an audience of like, 20 people, and the venue will lose money when they could have booked a more profitable show? if the venue manager had to google them, are they really that popular anyways? the venue managers don't care unless they are certain they will not only break even but profit from dnp more than they would profit from literally anyone else they could book that night. why do you think they were able to do locations in asia for ii, but don't have them now (yet)? in 2018, they could reasonably argue their profitability, and even that wasn't enough in manila.

i am hoping, genuinely and from the bottom of my soul, that they will use the speed at which most of their shows sold out when the tickets went up to prove to venue managers in places other than the US and europe and commonwealth oceania that it is worth it. i hope they try very hard, and that they're able to add more dates. it certainly seems like they want to. i think it's also likely--whether it's right of them or not--that their experiences in MX & manila have led them to believe it's better to stay entirely quiet before they're absolutely sure they can announce a date and it will work, which makes it look like they're not communicating at all, but they may see it as them saving people from getting their hopes up if it doesn't work out. idk which is better, honestly. it at least seems to me like they're telegraphing that they're trying to book in other regions

[catwalkvivi]

well hey, since hardly anyone's looking at this corner of the website anyway I might as well take the opportunity to vent (it's annoying to do it on twitter with the character cap)

Man, social media is hard.

I see so many people posting regular content consistently for years and years without even seemingly breaking a sweat, while it's always been so difficult for me... Calculating engagement, deciding the best times to post, or, hell, even just sharing what they think/feel/made/fucking ate that day just seems, like, so easy and second nature for pretty much everyone around me. It's genuinely incredible to me that somebody can share what they've learned about idk shitty impractical tanks made in WW1 on this website and make it such an interesting read that hundreds of people engage with it!

But I've tried keeping social media accounts for art and stuff so many times now, on here, on Instagram, on Artstation, on Xitter, and eventually it just- kinda- fades away, it just feels so exhausting to keep track of all the things necessary to Chase the Algorhythm™ if you wanna have any relevancy. Is it a charisma thing??? Where do I grind to get a stat boost on my Cha???

I'd love to say it doesn't matter to me, since I've been drawing shit for myself for years now, but unfortunately artists do need social media presence if they wanna get work. Not to mention, well, I wanna reach people with the stuff I do! I want people to react to what I made, to say what they liked about it, or how it made them feel, and then when I post something I worked on for hours only to get, like, almost zero visibility? idk, man, it just kinda hurts. It's probably selfish and immature for me to say it, I know that it takes time and effort to build an audience and all that, but damn I get happy when people show me that something I've made has affected them positively. I like the connection, I like the conversations, I like meeting people who enjoy the same nerdy trash that I do!

(I was very fortunate to have an art post of mine reach a lot of notes here years ago, which was amazing, but it's such a rare thing)

God, and, like, there's all these weird unspoken rules about interacting on social media too.

The other day a friend of mine came up to our friend group and was like "oh my god this girl liked my stories on instagram it means something does she like me" and I was SO confused and then they were like "well, when somebody not on your friends list likes your stories, it means they're interested in you"

Then some time later another friend was telling me that somebody stopped liking her posts and unfriended her and how that is a horrible offense and my fucking brain hurt, like- okay I get the unfriend part kinda but there could be a hundred reasons for it??? it's not like you have a deep personal connection to all 300 friends you have on your account???

Then I see so many people out there simply sharing something they think or did only to have some rando twist what they said and come at them like they're the shittiest person on the planet that deserves everything bad in life actually (except the ones that are willingly spouting/promoting hateful shit to begin with. Those can rot in hell and I shall not mourn their demise)

Like??? It might be the Power of Autism™ in me but it always feels like I'm one step away from either making a fool of myself or offending twenty different people or both. It's both the fear of having hundreds of thousands of eyes on me and the fear of having none at all. And that makes it really difficult to share anything on the internet for me. I already have to deal with my entire existence as a trans woman making some cunts around the world mad, it sucks that I have to risk it in places where I just wanna post dumb drawings and talk about dumb things that make me happy with others.

I dunno. Word vomit I guess. Social media is hard. Interacting with humans is hard. Sharing stuff is hard. I prefer Pokémon

[resident-gay-bitch]

Hello there, I’m in genuine need of more fandom / online friends so like, if you also want more friends, here’s some info about me and maybe we can be friends? <3

My names Jay, I’ve recently picked it for myself (and then realised I could have possibly had an even cooler name Bo which is the shortened of my middle name and now im cursing myself for not realising it sooner and questioning weather or not to do a switch cause idk if Bo or Jay suits me better?!!). I’m 20 and FtM, and I go by he/they pronouns primarily but I also don’t mind if you use any others :)

I’m also Australian so yeah idk if that’s a selling point or not

Oh and I’m labelled as queer, I guess, but dude sexuality is confusing. I’ve recently been going down the aromantic / asexual spiral of questioning but I’m so unsure of everything I really suck at telling the difference between platonic and romantic feelings. I’m also somewhere in the sapphic spectrum I believe. So if you can relate to this mindfuck in any way that would also be rad.

I write fan fic for the Marauders Fandom (sirius is my everything and I’m also a tall sirius truther) and also Stranger Things but primarily Steddie for that tbh.

I’m also in the Good Omens fandom, as well as a few others more casually and don’t write fic for them :) recently I’ve been starting to watch JJK cause my best friend is really into it

My favorite two movies of all time are Rocky Horror Picture Show and Cars. That probably tells you a lot about me to be honest so do with that as you will :)

My favorite musicians are David Bowie at No. 1 (my lord and saviour), Maya Hawke, Hozier, Radiohead (im not a red flag I promise), Conan (I’m seeing him on fri wtf), ooo and I’ll add SOAD cause I’m really into them this month. But it’s ever changing really and there are too many to choose from, I’d say they’re my most listened to though :) I am chronically listening.

Uh I’m gonna spitball some more facts about me this is kinda hard:

I’m the eldest of 4 kids 💀 one of them is 5 years younger than me 💀💀 the other two are 6 years younger 💀💀💀 (I love them sm the annoying shitstarters)

I love to draw and make art but I suck at anatomy and colour theory it makes me want to rip my hair out (and I wanna be a fan artist so bad)

I’m attempting to learn bass but I also cannot commit to learning the bass (I blame my sibling for keeping it in their wardrobe so I forgoet it exists)

I am 90% sure I’m neurodivergent I just cannot really afford to get that diagnosis rn ya know?!

I did ballet & dance most of my life 🤯🤯 (now I’m a bartender and my old ballet teacher is a regular at the sailing club I work and now I look queer and cunty as hell and every time she sees me she just stares in disbelief and fake smiles it’s hilarious)

I still sleep with my childhood teddy :( I love her she is my one thing I would save in a fire. Her name is charlotte and she’s probably 3 years overdue for a bath but I love her

I’m fucking weird about stars - the shape not the astrology - like I love them. I see them and I get very excited and I draw them everywhere (you can probably tell off all my master lists, they all have stars drawn on the title strips 😭) I just really love them they’re so cute. I almost named myself Star actually

I’m a sagittarius. I don’t know what that means but I know it means a lot of things to people so hopefully it’s good things!

My favorite colour is green but more so earthy and cool greens. I love a good scrumptious yummy green, something mossy something sagey. I have a green wall in my room and it’s very nice to look at.

I lived abroad for a little bit as a teen in Vietnam which was amazing and I’m planning to move somewhere abroad again next year hopefully (seriously get me the hell out of SA)

My biggest dream / goal / career choice for most of my life was to be an actor but now I’m just kinda existing with no real drive or purpose in life. But I might pick acting back up now I’m becoming more comfy with myself and my gender :) my dream role is to play Frank from Rocky.

Uuuuuh that’s all I can think of :)

So yes, I hope I have appealed to your interests in one way or another. And if you’d maybe like to be friends please don’t hesitate to send me a message!

Maybe tell me a cool fact about yourself?

Or if you’re too shy to message first you could just add a random comment here or say something in the tags? I’ll message you! <3

Also if you have anymore questions I am trying to be a bit more of an open book, I love when people dive in with the nitty gritty so if you have strange questions I’ll probably be very excited to answer them lmao

Anyway, I hope you have a lovely day random people in my phone I hope to befriend <333

[doctorsiren]

delicious, finally some good fricken food (your art in general, as well as your winged lawyers and split Phoenix and Miles AUs) /genuine

Your style is so gooood I love it keep up the good work :0 (but take breaks as you need them, of course. As an anon who does art, burnout and art block suck T_T)

Hehe thank youuuu 😁😁

I’ve never experienced art block or burnout that’s lasted more than say, like, a day? But I think it’s because there’s always so much going on in my brain and the ADHD makes it hard to focus on those ?? Idk how to describe it

Because sometimes I’ll just not be in the mood to draw, so I’ll do other creative things like music or writing, or I might play video games or watch a movie

But sometimes I want to draw, but idk what to draw and that usually results in me doing doodle pages or redrawing old art or asking for suggestions on tumblr

Lmao even when I needed to wear a wrist brace at the end of last summer, I figured out how to draw with it on because nothing can stop my silly

I mean, it’s probably not the best way to go about things but I genuinely just always want to create and want to draw and I’m not sure why those things don’t affect me the same way I’ve seen and heard it affect other artists, but I am very thankful that they don’t

Art is my break haha but when I do have projects, I make sure to know when to work and when to not

[kcd2]

Hello! I just saw your meet the fob artist drawing and noticed you have the deaf flag on there, so I was just curious, if you don’t mind me asking, is your hearing worse than the average person’s but you can still hear some? or are you completely deaf? I’m just really curious seeing as the fob fandom is like. band-centered? and I’m wondering how that affects you listening to their music, or if it doesn’t affect it at all,, idk sorry if this seems rude or anything at all I’m genuinely just very curious about it! ^ ^’ and if you don’t want to answer that’s completely fine, absolutely don’t feel the need to!

this is totally fine to ask and honestly really sweet of you i love people that are just genuinely curious but to answer your question yeah i’m technically hard of hearing !!! my right ear has about 80% hearing loss and my left has about 20%ish!!! so Technically i’d fall under HoH but because i have to wear hearing aids, know (scottish) sign language and my mother is deaf it’s kinda just. more fitting for me personally to say deaf and i like it more tbh :-3 and to answer the Second part yeah it does affect my experience as A Music Enjoyer(tm) but in particular i’m just gonna say fob. for example for years really before phones had wifi and real time lyrics like spotify does now i honestly couldn’t hear much of what patrick sang if i didn’t already know the lyrics, and if i knew the lyrics i would less hear what he was singing fully and instead kinda? feel? half hear? know/feel the beat the word came on? and then place the known lyric there and it’d make sense in my brain then and id “hear” it? but also i wouldn’t necessarily Hear it and more know it was there. it’s weird to explain sorry BFKSBDJ but !!! hearing is so weird because Now that i’ve wore my hearing aids often, thats gotten my brain used to deciphering esp words easier and thanks to some surgeries, i Can hear and decipher way better than i could when i was younger and tbh just like. audio clarity and tech advancing definitely Helped. but i can now hear the music Fully but way quieter (my volumes are usually never below 70% volume) than your average person and i Do still miss some intricacies that others may find obvious, like another example would be i didn’t at first hear the slight echo on the final chorus of the kids aren’t alright when patrick sings “i’ll be yours (yours) when it rains it pours (pours)” that sorta thing until Very recently cause i got new audiophile headphones!!! so honestly even tho it does suck that i have to have my brain and ears work on overdrive to listen to fob/music in general it also is kinda cool to almost constantly experience songs i’ve listened to for years anew because i finally hear smth i havent before or got new headphones that let me hear an instrument i had no idea was even in the arrangement

[octoxicash]

abandoning down all my twt accs for the forseeable future for real now, wiping my public accs art too sometime today

some thoughts on it bc i feel a bit emotional abt it? is that stupid? over twt?? . idk give me better things to think abt or draw in my inbox or smthn

my OctoXicAsh twt acc was literally my first acc under that name, ig besides my Splatoon 2 acc where i adopted it. like before that it was shit like. CattyKat or smthn. i know ShadowKat or UltimateKat was one at some point. that user is probably still out there somewhere on League or smthn. stupid shit shit like that but not ME yknow?. OctoXic / OtoXicAsh was like my first For Real Me usernames ever and obviously i still use it to this day. so that acc feels special to me ig

it was my first social media platform too (not counting Pinterest bc i didnt use it as a social thing and still dont) and i met my bestest of friends and my now boyfriend too thru the dsmp/mcyt boom in 2021. id say that was my first truely interactive fandom which is an cringeass shit to say at my grown age but my families were too poor to afford a phone for me til i was like 16/17 and before that i just,, wasnt a very adventurous kid on the computer. 2021 jump into twt and fanart was my first step outside of my own bubble, and during the pandemic it became a lifeline. and like. Elon buying twt sealed its grave, there was no doubt abt it but i was def one of those "i go down w my ship" people bc thats STILL my biggest acc by a LONG SHOT and i had made WAY too many great memories and friends to let it go. up until literally today, my priv twt OctoIsYelling is STILL essentially a massive groupchat for me an my friends in an acc form, interactive and communicative while still letting me be in my own page. its better than insta or tumblr in that sense and it was PERFECT before it went to shit

but now the site genuinely barely functions man. its slow and laggy and reloads constantly and eats my battery worse than SKY COTL. AN ACHEIVEMENT. the app just refuses to work at all if i have my phone plugged in for whatever reason and idk how to fix it. i thought it was a me problem for so long until 1 post talking abt it changed everything. like it GENUINELY DOESNT WORK. and it SUCKS. its plauged with adds for a subscription that no one reasonable would pay for and straight up hard alt-right politics. the bots are outrageous like its sooo bad its so bad i havent opened my dms on public acc in at least a yr. sorry if anyone tried to get ahold of me. the algorithm that used to be like at least half decent is now ALL doom and bait and SHIT, its not even rlly worth it to try n cultivate ur spaces now bc no matter what shit u dont want is being pushed in ur face. the transphobia is so unbelievably bad, and while ive done my best to fix my tl its still so ass. THEY TOOK AWAY TWT CIRCLES MY BEST FRIEND 💔💔💔💔 I USED TO USE THAT FOR SHOWING OFF ART FOR MY FRIENDS TO MY OTHER FRIENDS WITHOUT THE ONE WHO ITS FOR SEEING💔💔💔💔💔💔

despite all that keeps going wrong or being fucked over i still held on for so long but i just CANT in right mind stay on the site any longer when its actively feeding its generative ai. ive been small enough and lucky enough to where no one has targeted me and used my shit (that i know of) but now its completely unavoidable and its UPSETTING

i want my big friend gc that was my web of oomfs and moots back. bluesky has hope for me but theres no priv accs and im not comfortable enough to air out every thought i have publicly. idk when privs r coming there but i hope its soon :( i miss old twt so much and i only caught glimpses of it before it was bought out. im so thankful for my time there but i cant help but feel hurt yknow?

idk if anyone else understands me rlly bc ppl have just been so frustrated w the site/app and the cons have def been outweighing the pros, but i still loved my time there. i hope im making sense. it sucks. it feels too personal. thats THE OctoXicAsh and OctoIsYelling accs. that was essentially my journal. :(

i dont have the heart to deactivate my accs esp w the load of history i have on them i RLLY dont want it gone, but ill be wiping my art from my art acc and ceasing all activity on them indefinitely. probably forever. hell.

thank u for reading all that if u did. im feeling sooo fine abt everything in my life rn. everything is falling to peices lately but were sooo fine. we ball so hard

[genderjourneyjournal]

Gender Journal Day #71

Date 10/30/2024

This is a personal journal about my gender journey my therapist recommended I make. Mostly about gender stuff but also anything else. Feel free to keep reading but keep in mind it’s going to be my unfiltered, personal thoughts.

I’m almost certainly going to get a new therapist. I’m going to play out this anxiety thing he’s trying to do but unless he turns it around by then I think I’m going to try someone else.

I feel guilty. I don’t want him to feel like he failed me. He’s a trans guy himself and I thought that would’ve allowed us to really get each other. But it just didn’t happen. Plus therapists specializing in this are few and far between. So it feels a little entitled to be so picky. But even when I’m telling him “I don’t feel like you’re giving me what I need”. And it sucks because sometimes I wish he’d ask me more stuff directly but when he does that I have so much trouble answering because feelings feel so hard. I wish I at least felt like I was getting some genuine insight from his side. Like I know the session is supposed to be about me but sometimes it feels like I’m talking to a wall that responds in motivational posters.

IN NEW NEWS there’s this guy I like. He was a model in my figure drawing class back in the spring semester. I didn’t try to get too familiar because it felt unprofessional in that context (especially when he’s a model posing for us in the near nude). But I found out he works at my local comics shop. He actually recognized me. But I’m hesitant to make a move. Being in the middle of all this gender stuff, it feels like lying about who I am in a way. Right now, I’m still presenting masculine in public, so I’d have to hope he’s queer and into guys. But if it really does turn out that I’m not a guy (which I almost certainly am not but idk what else I am yet) then I have to hope he is into that too. It also feels like a lot to dump on to a person if you’re just starting to date them. But at the same time I’d really like to have a relationship.

I think I’m going to hope to run into him a few more times before trying to ask him out though. That feels reasonable.

Halloween is tomorrow. I hope my parents are going to be away from the house because then I can put on some makeup when passing candy out. And it’s not weird because it’s Halloween.

[arch-nemesis-of-our-own]

haiii, could h pls match me up w a pjo character (male) ?

Im Indian n have pretty dark skin, dark brown eyes n black wavy/straight sometimes hair. I have like 3 freckles total on my face and chicken pox scars from like 3 years ago that refuse to go away 😭 i have bony hands that look lowk creepy in the shadows and im 5’7!

my likes: music 24/7, occasionally drawing, doodling, reading (fantasy !!) arts n crafts even if im bad at them, cozy games

dislikes: being left out, rude judgey people, slimy n icky stuff, sports/athletics

my personality type is enfp-t n it seems accurate enough, im in the hypnos cabin n i love making fake scenarios (i need them to sleep 😭😭) i’d say im pretty nice but i hate having to be in charge but also if im js overlooked ill cry ykwim? Im kinda clumsy n i have scars on my legs to prove it 😞 i have a nail biting problem n im a master procrastinator and if i like a certain food ill eat in non stop for a week n forget abt it (repeat cycle)

N idk what else to add!

hi thi!! thx for the request!! (check the tags pls pls)

Your PJO/HOO match is...

Percy Jackson!

He's literally the best guy ever.

He thinks you're so fucking pretty. He is genuinely so down bad for you.

Percy may not be a huge reader himself but it's crazy how he is so interested in what you have to say about the book you're currently reading.

He absolutely loves to do arts and crafts with you. If you think you suck, get ready for this guy. He's just goofing off and laughing the whole time.

Trust me, you will not feel left out when Percy's around.

He always makes sure you feel included in everything and listens to your opinion on whatever. If you're ever feeling overwhelmed with decisions, he'll definitely help you out.

I can imagine you guys vibing to your music. Music is super important to both of you so I'm sure it's always playing. Your music tastes sort of rubs off on each other and soon you might randomly realize you added one of Percy's favorite songs to a playlist even though you've never really listened to it on your own.

If you're a cuddler you're in luck.

Percy likes to play with your hands, for sure.

He's a procrastinator himself, but you both try your best to help the other actually get shit done. But he knows how hard it can be to start something, which can be a breath of fresh air. Since he also has the same experiences, his reminders can feel genuine and probably less annoying than it might from some other people. He just really cares.