#idk if i'll delete this

[variousqueerthings]

as someone who was working as a live-in au pair for an only somewhat well-known performer (as in, not internationally famous multi-millionaire, but has sway in a certain sphere and whom i looked up to when i first went to work there in my early 20s and who promised to help me out with various things) who went from calling me a friend and a peer (so we didnt need a contract) to becoming verbally and emotionally abusive and got me into a situation of being briefly homeless

the whole gaiman and palmer thing really is. yeah. i can see how that could have happened to me if i'd been less lucky and that person had been even worse. all the behaviours those women are talking about in themselves, the not knowing how to approach the situation, the wanting to smooth things over/feeling guilt for causing a fuss, the worrying about money and what to do without this person, not knowing even what was real and not being able to frame it in the way it really was at the time they were living it (i had a sheet of paper i carried around for years where i had started documenting what my employer was saying and doing, because i felt genuinely mad, both at the time and looking back at it without that anchor)

and i was waaay less affected. and this person had waaay less power overall. and i had much better support structures. i can only imagine how intense it's been for them having to try to remember it, having to figure out what the contexts for their own decisions were in order to survive it, making sense of any of it might be, because it took 8 years or so for me to sift through all of my stuff

all these women's decisions make perfect sense to me, who only lived through something fractionally as bad, and i hope that people won't try to say that this has anything to do with bdsm or that they'd be above this, because it's not at all difficult to see how this happened, and how it happens to many people in many different ways (not all of them including sexual assault)

i hope people will be able to protect themselves when famous/people in the fields they want to work in/people with power over them make these overtures of "friendship" (especially in relation to you working for them in exchange for them helping you with... ???, but you're still definitely friends!!!) because really, it can happen so easily. soooooo so easily

[springysprongy]

Genuine question- Do any of ya like my Jack n Dave designs??

I've been seeing so many cool designs, I'm growing unhappy n insecure of mine

But...maybe I'm being too harsh on myself?

Or maybe my designs are just too bland?? Too..not interesting?? Ugg...brain is overthinking

I think I should mess with their haircuts more. And perhaps the head n body shapes more too

I'm terrified of overthinking so much I'll get burnout of drawing these weird colored fucks, cuz I'll be so focused on making the designs perfect, the joy may die...ugh!!

Thoughts are hard! I may delete this later?? I apologize for so many vent posts, I'm trying my best to survive my stupid silly brain!

I may try to look at y'alls designs into mind...study them and see what works n doesn't w what I'm going for...y'all are too talented its hard to keep up!!

[domino-on-the-marathon]

*Sigh* Just what I knew would happen. If this specific group of content creators end up splitting up it is not going to be the fault of the so called "weirdo parasocial ficwriter" fans, but because of those who call themselves "true-hardcore" fans.

"Oh, the whimsy one threw in this board game and let the try-hard win again, what a dumbfuck r-word he is!"

"Oh, the toxic one does not want to be represented by an animal anymore, fuck him, we are going to keep doing it and if it hurts him then that's a he problem!"

"Oh, the chaotic one doesn't wanna see win tallies and statistics anymore. That's because he can't stop losing and he's butthurt. Grow tf up!"

"Oh, the try-hard is tired and has lost some games. That means he's a fraud and sould Keep Himself Safe."

But the problematic fans are those in their own bubbles writing stories about the whimsy one and the toxic one holding hands (romantically). Of course it is.

[aphel1on]

AuDHD is so funny sometimes like what do you mean my hyperfixations/special interests will last for years on end or possibly forever but they will cycle out every month or two with absolutely no transitional period or warning. like i will think about the same topic every day obsessively for 46 days in a row and on the 47th day with no visible cause adhd brain goes "ok! bored of that now" and autism brain goes "dw i got something queued up for ya" and i blast into full blown obsession on some other topic whose mental file folders haven't opened in 9 months. brain's out here treating hyperfixations like a crop rotation. once the dopamine runs out it cycles in another one but once something's in the rotation it never ever leaves. last summer we brought in one from when i was 11. it's so funny to me but frustrating too bc like. i cannot stress enough my inability to predict or control this. or how completely abrupt and random it can be

[lotus-pear]

ace detective more like ace DEFECTIVE

[dude-standin]

harry. sitting comfortably. enjoying life

[dovewingkinnie]

will redo this shot hatsune miku and teto animation maybe

[bixels]

brb, locking the fuck in for my art final.

[dailytogachako]

It may seem weird, but last night I was thinking a lot about the difference between Ochako and Himiko's hands. Ochako has thicker hands and rounder fingers, probably because she needs to pick up heavy things using her quirk. The little pink buttons make it look like cat paws...

Himiko has thinnest, skinniest, and longest fingers. Her nails also seem to be long, or at least she takes good care of them

I think about what it would be like if they compared their hands. I think Himiko would like to touch and caress the calluses on Ochako's hands and force her to apply hand cream every time before she leaves to work.....

[lesbianherald]

I’m going to phrase this delicately because I’m so deeply grateful and awed by the support I’ve received.

But I will say it is a little anxiety inducing how many people feel they can talk about coming home whatever way they want openly and publicly because it has “numbers” or whatever (referring to my own work like this makes me want to claw my eyes out because they baffle me and I don’t necessarily feel I deserve them but it’s important for context).

This is Especially true for the way people speak under things I very much see. Art of the fic. My Twitter mutuals posts. Things I will very obviously interact with. It feels like someone is walking into my back yard and talking shit as if I'm literally not standing in said yard like this 🧍

You make something for a community for free as an act of passion and then the community in turn becomes something that isn’t quite accessible to you anymore. I’ve seen this happen to a lot of fic writers in my previous fandoms and idk man it’s just kind of a bummer.

Like. Fanfic and fanart is made by people in the fandom for the fandom. It’s not work being produced by some distant people in Hollywood who shouldn’t be in the fandom space in the first place.

Idk, it’s actually pretty rare that this happens to me but I wanted to mention I am a human who can very much read the things you say guys 😭 like if you reblog art related to my work and call it a bunch of petty names and say you had to dnf I can see that. It’s totally ok to feel whatever way you want. But maybe don't feel that way in my back yard.

Again. I’m so grateful for everything I really am. You absolutely do not have to fuck with my work. Fuck I don't fuck with my work sometimes DKLFJSDHF. This is probably the last time I’ll talk about this because the last thing I want to do is come off like I can’t take criticism and I’m ungrateful. But sometimes I really am chewing at my enclosure like IM RIGHT HERE MAN IM LITERALLY BEHIND YOU HOW DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THAT.

[shima-draws]

Worst feeling ever is when you go to reread a fic you really like and find out it's been deleted. Even WORSE worst feeling ever is checking the author's profile and finding out they've deleted all of their fics entirely

[isaacz]

FAIR WARNING THESE DRAWINGS ARE MILDLY SUGGESTIVE! Do not worry it's not anything TOO far for anyone's comfort, but i still wanted to warn abt it anyway! this is a headcanon i had that choosen rescues dark after the big fight, and for several days he continues to take care of dark while they get to slowly bound with each other again, however dark wasn't that accepting in the beginning-

they are exes that are still atracted to each other me thinks.

[sainz100]

2024 Abu Dhabi GP

[lghockey]

This a PSA for everyone...

BE NICE TO WRITERS ON HERE

DONT FUCKING REPOST THEIR WORK ON OTHER SITES

They had the confidence to post original works on here and we need to respect them

If you don't like what they wrote, don't read

If you don't like them, don't follow or just block them so you don't see them

BE KIND TO FANFIC WRITERS YOU FILTHY ANIMALS (lovingly)

[deoidesign]

Well here's an Art vs artist meme with some art from this year!

I don't think I've ever done one of these before, but I really like this jacket. It's a marlboro jacket but I don't smoke and I already feel bad telling people I don't have a light and that will be bad x100 when I'm literally wearing a cigarette jacket so I tried to cover the patch up with one I made. cause I really like this jacket