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Ignore how this is my first hc in like…awhile
IM A LIL RUSTY PLS HAVE MERCY
So hi <33 it’s nearing Valentine’s Day which means “omg what would the ts lis do for Valentine’s Day??”
These are far from perfect but I hope you enjoy !! :D
Valentine’s Day In Eridia
Warnings: Rustyyy, a lil suggestive in some of them but nothing too bad, Ais is mentioned to be a lil depressed,and Probably ooc !!
Notes: Gn reader, fluff!
Mhin
Starting with my favorite hshshshs
Mhin isn’t one that usually celebrates things—they don’t see the point. They’re living in an apocalyptic world they need to survive not waste time on chocolates and the stress of making the perfect evening.
But then there’s you…and they end up doing a lot of ‘unnecessary’ things for you even subconsciously.
Despite their grumblings, they do end up finding out how to celebrate.
STAR GAZING !!!! Duh !!
Simple and sweet, just putting aside time for you two to be close and gaze at the night sky.
Butbutbut !! I had an idea !! That may be just utterly silly but I’ll try to make it coherent.
Imagine this okay !
Mhin goes to visit you, shoulders hunched as they try to avoid getting pushed around by the massive crowd. The music is loud, boisterous, too much.
And you realize that when you find them trying to withhold murderous rage in a dark corner.
You had wanted to try out dancing, but you know the crowd in the Wet Wick is going to make that impossible to enjoy. For either just Mhin or both of you if you also don’t like crowds.
So you go to your favorite spot instead. the place you usually watch stars at.
And idk ?? I always pictured that happening on a freaking roof because I personally want to hang out on a roof but you can imagine something different if you want.
The music can still be heard from below, but it’s far more muffled and bearable.
SO !!! okay if this is cringey spare me please LOOK AWAY !
Hem hem…dancing on the roof !!
The music is loud enough for it to not be awkward hshsh-and the moon is out, the stars are clearer than you’ve ever seen them
And it may be silly but it’s the good type of silly okay. The 3 am sleepover type goofy.
You’re having pointless fun. Dancing in a world that’s dying more each day. You’re both cursed beyond a known cure. But you, and surprisingly even Mhin, forget that for a night.
OKAY THAT WAS SUPER LONG MY BAD
Can you tell who my favorite is
Leander
the absolute OPPOSITE of Mhin
He goes ALL out. This is not everyone’s holiday anymore. This is YOUR holiday. His and yours. This day is about only YOU two now.
You open your door and his stupid face is already there with arms holding a mountain of presents.
“Omg how did you afford all this??”
HES RICH !!! STUPID RICH BOY
The presents range from chocolates to a new wardrobe. Especially couple outfits. Especially VALENTINES DAY SPECIFIC couple outfits.
If you’re not comfy with that tho he’d be okay with that too. “As long as people know ur mine it’s fine with me ☺️” *smacks him*
After presents he wants to carry you downstairs. (If ur taller than him you can carry him downstairs. Actually if ur smaller you should still do it. Leander scarf.)
The bloodhounds withhold their dread for the day ahead because he is DOWN SO BAD
Heart shaped breakfast
Pink drinks (don’t drink them)
Love poems
KISSES !
When it’s evening the bloodhounds bust out the violins and candlelight. (When someone goes out of key Leander smiles at them like: 🙂” and they get pulled from the stage.)
Then to finish it all off, he shows off his magic by conjuring a trail of rose petals that lead upstairs.
You wake up the next morning and Leander is like “): you still love me right? Even tho it’s not Valentine’s Day anymore right?”
Ais
Ooooo this is tricky
Ais is very emotion-driven, but he’s not great at expressing those emotions.
He may try to do something classy for you (by Ocudeus’s command because I love that vision)
But it’s obvious he’s uncomfortable and unsure, so you have to tell him you’ll figure out how to celebrate (if you even want to) this day your own way and not what is socially expected.
He mainly just wants you. He wants time with you, to feel you, to hear you and most importantly, relax with you.
You quiet his mind, and so all he really wants is your presence.
Mainly all you do is cuddle, eat together, have a romantic sparing match 🥰✨ and maybe even take a nice bath together.
He loves having his hair washed by you—maybe he even forgets to do it sometimes due to those unseen battles you know he has—and ahh frick I forgot we have cursed hands.
Maybe you wash his hair with your toes idk.
Or wear like those !! Rubber gloves !!
Point is
It’s way more natural with you guys. A domestic routine that you slip so easily into.
It’s a day without any stress, and focused solely on the two of you taking care of each other.
And of course, you don’t forget to get Valentine’s Day treats for all the soulless <33 (especially for Princess because duh)
Kuras
Another toughie!
I can’t decide if he has a hard time because he busies himself with work or since he’s had so many relationships since he’s immortal he knows to set aside that time
To make it easier for me let’s just say he busies himself.
He’s extremely hard on himself so I can picture him thinking he’s undeserving of even celebrating in the first place. (If we’re ignoring him making a cake for Mhin shshsh)
And maybe his heart is just tired.
He’s had lovers, he’s watched them go, and with you? You’re different to him somehow.
He doesn’t know if he should indulge in these feelings. If he can handle the heartbreak again.
Luckily you know Kuras well enough by now to see the guilt and doubt before it digs itself too deep.
With help from Ais, Mhin, and Leander (he inserted himself but also he’s a peacemaker between Ais and Mhin lmaohshs) you manage to convince Kuras to leave the clinic in those there’s hands and just focus on you two.
I like to think Kuras starts out more somber. He’s quiet. Only a small twitch to his brow warns of any building anxieties.
To set the scene more I kinda picture him like ?? As a calmer Julian Devorak in this situation ahshshs just in the way he’s like ‘do I deserve this?’
At one point you take his hands, “Kuras, Talk to me.”
He tries to deny it, to hide it gently and inconspicuously. But you know him. And the Angel can no longer hide his fear from you.
You take him somewhere quiet, where you can sit down and just enjoy each other’s company. Maybe you watch the sunset and like ?? You remind him that you aren’t going anywhere. Not now.
He spends more time just kinda cupping your cheeks, memorizing your face with caresses and soft touches.
When you get home, he wishes to memorize the rest of you too. If you have to become a memory one day, he wants it to be one that consumes him.
Vere
Thought this was gonna be tricky because vere is my ENEMY when it comes to these but !! I actually have a few ideas !!
Doesn’t see the point in sappy old VALENTINE’S DAY
What? You expect him ? A GOD a DEITY to lower himself to a pointless little human tradition?
“You can celebrate me everyday 🙄 why wait ?”
But you know it’s really just because he’s uncomfortable with the idea.
Similar to Ais, he’s more of ‘actions instead of emotions’ and this is a sign of commitment! And he’s still very unsure how to proceed with that sincerely.
And maybe even the day hits some sore spots—if the theory he had a past lover is correct —
He’s just scared. And hiding it by being snarky.
So just give him time to adjust. He does come around. Especially when you don’t start with anything too deep.
You write him small notes. Nothing too sappy but loving. Maybe you add a few puns you know he’ll laugh at.
But then…*evil laugh* after he’s been used to this, and is more comfortable in the relationship—
He spoils you soooo bad
Maybe he even goes overboard with it lmaoshshs.
He turns it into a whole week of just celebrating you. (Not as loudly as Leander, though. He wants to keep it secret so ya know—the Senobium doesn’t ruin it)
Spa day but inside, he wants to see you with any part of his clothes on. He’s far more touchy—he rubs his face on you like a cat HSHSH
And just a looot of time in bed. Doesn’t even need to be sexual, he just wants you close. His treasure. His his his his.
Im becoming a vere girlie and I’m so unwell
OKAY WE’VE REACHED THE END WOOO !!
I hope you enjoyed <33 if this was cringey….🥺 pls don’t murder me I’ll give you ten dollars
#touchstarved game#touchstarved x reader#touchstarved headcanons#touchstarved fanfic#touchstarved#touchstarved mhin#touchstarved vere#Touchstarved Kuras#Touchstarved Leander#Touchstarved Ais#mhin#Ais#vere#Kuras#Leander
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TICCI TOBY WITH A THING FOR KNUCKLE RUBBING LORD I BEG THAT IS THE REQUEST
𝐀𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐥𝐲
(𝗮𝗱𝘃.) 𝗜𝗻 𝗮 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝗿 𝗿𝗼𝗺𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗰 𝘄𝗮𝘆
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˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Toby relationship knacks
note: i actually just got done with a full sobbing breakdown so this ask genuinely made me giggle i love you😭😂
Warning(s): GN!Reader, fluff nothing else<3 kinda..
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No cause Anon you’re so right, like idk about anyone else but I LOVE knuckle rubs just in general and Toby 100% rubs your knuckles. All of them!!
Especially that little knuckle bone on your wrist tho I guess that’s a wrist bone.. what the difference..
But omg Toby LOVES hands; he loves holding your hand, kissing your fingers, your palms, EVERYTHING!
Toby is a very very touchy grabby feely person like 98.99% of the time. Of course he has his moments where that depression or anxiety hits all of us and he just,.. cannot handle any human interaction
But trust! He is holding your hands, thumb rubbing your knuckles, occasionally bringing your hand up to kiss.
And Toby is actually very open about PDA. Toby doesn’t really care about other people’s opinions or feelings if it isn’t you.. Tim.. Brian.. and Kate. So. Like. Ya know.
He keeps it more PG around them but 100% expect that if Toby ever does wiggle his way into town with you to go shopping he will slap your ass no care
So yeah no one is like shocked by just HOW often he kisses your knuckles. And it’s a lot
Toby pretty much is always with you, sure he heads off for house chores and maintenance and food but other that Toby is with you the whole 24HRS.
So he just… holds your hand. It’s really great actually. Toby doesn’t sweat, and he’s pretty chill not necessarily cold. So like it’s weirdly comfortable and satisfying to hold his hand
Sometimes he’ll hold your hand in his mouth if he’s doing something but still wants some body part of yours
We love the little cutie patootie
Toby 100% is the kinda guy that holds your hand when you guys have sex. I mean it, he loves it. He craves it. It’s just so.. close and intimate like those sappy old adult movies
*sobs*
Not to mention if YOU kiss his knuckles? Yeah he feels his heart tingle; back flipping, doing the tango. Toby is a very big emotion feeler. He feels rather intensely a majority of the time
Like he will break down crying holding your face telling you how much he loves you…
Me with my dog
But he is just a sucker for love. Don’t get me wrong, yes Toby has his moments, and his flaws, and lingering issues. But at the end of the day it genuinely is.. exhausting. And Toby isn’t just some emotionally stupid person he’s stupidly smart if anything lol
Especially canonically
And sometimes after eating a family of five, with your weird demon friend and masked adoptive mom you just wanna go home to your beloved and hold hands
Nothing wrong with that..
Omg going on dates Toby 100% holds your hand across the table. I don’t make the rules
(Ok sure your dates are always at home or the picnic table he built for you but it still counts)
He also LOVEEES how your hands feel, especially that soft skin one your knuckles. He had very very worked hands and just lovessss the differences in textures it itches something in his brain
Ride him, hold his hands as you bounce he will get you pregnant. Sucks if your a guy or mtf he don’t give a fuck. m!preg bitch take that
All in all. While Toby is 99.98% of the time a chaotic bundle of cannibalism, weird morals, demon possession and neurodivergence when he’s with you his only the neurodivergent and chaos LMAO
someone draw Toby kissing some hands<3
: ̗̀➛ Thank you again for this ask I have actually been so stupidly stressed today and this made me feel better. I promise Deer anon and other anon I am working on your requests too!! Just well tumblr decided not to save half the progress LMAO deer anon yours should come out tomorrow! — Ace
#creepypasta headcanons#creepypasta x reader#ticci toby x reader#creepypasta ticci toby#ticci toby#creepypasta#ticci toby x you#ticci toby headcanons#toby rogers
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discuss perfume i want to hear this
ghghgh. i was just griping because i had been reading through some fanfics where there was an inordinate focus on the perfume of a character. and i do get that it's a nice thing to throw in for saying "hey this guy smells good!" there is a limit to the immersion one can retain while doing so
basically the age-old adage of "less is more" goes a long way when dealing with how a character smells... keeping it broad (such as "floral" or "smoky") is a really good way to give a loose idea, but the second you do something like "floral and smoky and woody" okay, you've lost me. that's too much. it's conflicting.
you can also get specific! "strawberries" or "the rain", which are still pretty broad and immediately recognizable by most people. but i don't think that your average reader understands the olfactory palette of "sandalwood, patchouli, and oakmoss" <-- too specific. idk what some of this is and i certainly couldn't tell you how it smells in a vacuum.
that isn't to say there isn't nuance... "i recognized the smell of sandalwood from a candle my grandfather burned growing up" THAT'S a believable recall. but idk how much bloodhound your POV character has in them to be pulling distinct notes if they're not a perfumer.
(also in fanfic i will be judging on whether i not i think your scent palette matches the blorbo you've assigned it to but that's way more subjective). actually this whole response is subjective i just wanted to vent that it annoys me ALSDKJ.
there's a balance to be had, basically. i think if you introduce someone's perfume it should tell me something either about the POV character and how they respond, OR about the other character and why they would be wearing it ("subtle, and expensive, and could only be detected when they got close").
also as an aside: a lot of high fantasy settings like lotr/dragon age/whatever the fuck else probably don't have the technology for perfumes that aren't oils, so it's already going to stick close to the skin. so if im catching a waft halfway across the room that is either an interesting tidbit or the author was envisioning a can of axe body spray idk.
#askbox#clavicuss-vile#yapping#this is a vent. kind of#i am open to discussion on this but i reserve the right to not be. LMAO.
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man i thought the difference between pilot and show alastor couldnt be that bad but GOOD GOD. ots like night and day. i love pilot alastor and i miss him what did viv DO to this man. i cant believe im using this word to describe fucking ALASTOR, but pilot!alastor is so……. chill? he basically never gets evem mildly annoyed or angry, hes got a fun energy… idk, pilot!alastor would not care if people noticed he was missing. he’d show up to the overlord meeting after 7 years with a casserole like it was a potluck. he likes lame ass jokes thats so endearing i love powerful characters wih loser humor.
also interesting to note, it seems the contract between husk and alastor didnt like… exist? in the pilot? its mostly the way things are phrased. alastor just says hes “calling in another favor” and bribes husk to do it, and husks response suggests that he could have turned the offer down if he wanted to. and his specific conversation feels more like vitriolic friends- like he thinks alastor is annoying and thoughtless, but also knows him well enough to feel like he can yell at him and alastor wont hurt him over it. i like the dynamic they have in the pilot its actually very charming.
putting up missing person posters for pilot alastor.
The difference is completely night and day. Anon, you also have to factor in that Ken draws and Dave played a big part in the pilot. They made him goofy, fun, mysterious, and unpredictable. Pilot Alastor didn’t care about status (I still need to find that livestream where Vivziepop says but the pilot does illustrate that aspect very well).
Then once episode one official came out (which was written by Vivziepop) Alastor is shown not to take constructive criticism and acts more sarcastic. In the later episodes, Alastor is all about power, status, and his image. He wants to show off any chance he gets, gets petty/pissy when no one acknowledges his existence, and he is very egotistical.
I personally believe that’s how Vivziepop wanted to portray Alastor: a sarcastic, petty, egotistical radio man who craves power and status. But also has a mysterious side to him that no one should know about.
Regarding pilot husk and Alastor:
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Honestly, I did like pilot husk and Alastor’s dynamic and shipped them.
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who is the one that summoned Yuu?
very crack theory shitpost it’s 1 in the morning…. Idk if I should put spoilers or not but hey… I guess spoilers for book 7?
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So Malleus dad is Ravene? (I forgot how to spell his name) and I know there’s a theory of him being Crowley but.. what if Ravene summoned us instead of who we assumed summoned us, Crowley. Like what if somehow, someway, Ravene secretly went awol during the war and pretended to be dead. What if he had a vision where a major catastrophe would happen in the future. I believe in the game art where malleus is coming out of the coffin that the hand in the mirror is actually Ravene.
Several factors can easily be placed that it was Crowley, especially when we look at things like voice and in the manga, the color of the lips seem to be Crowley shade, but yet people have said that the voice that calls upon Yuu does not sound exactly the same like Crowley (the speech pattern seems similar but not entirely the same)
What if and this is a pure crack idea, Crowley and Ravene are actually siblings (Crowley being malleus uncle). We have seen family members in Twst share similar speech patterns, key notes would be Sebek and Baul, Ortho and Chief of Engineering (but these are grandparents and parents).
the other part of this theory would be the fact in the opening we do get the decent look at the hand in the mirror. It lacks Crowley gloves, claw ring accessories, and appears to be wearing a white shirt with large draping (or fitting) black coat sleeves. The hand shares a similar palette to Crowley and to Malleus (in the official art). I highly doubt Crowley changed into that outfit while summoning Yuu before going off to change into his normal outfit, then go back to the mirror hall just for the entrance ceremony.
Crowley does seem mysterious and unknown still to this day, but so is Ravene. We don’t know the full extent of Crowley powers either and don’t know if it was just the dark mirror or a mix of magic from the person that summoned Yuu. I could believe Ravene summoned the player as it would make sense just a tiny bit that Ravene had a good amount of magical abilities, he is malleus father, and malleus could have gotten his extreme power from both his parents (majority being Malenor).
Like I said, very crack and shitpost thought, by all means I do love the headcanon that Crowley is Malleus dad as it would lead to some silly and chaotic interactions, and I do believe that Crowley summoned us as the voice in the opening and the lips in the manga do match up to Crowley.
#idk how to tag this#twisted wonderland#disney twst#disney twisted wonderland#twst shitpost#twst crack#twst theory#twst thoughts#shitpost#what the hell am i doing#am i onto something#or am i crazy
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he'd have the strangest convos with the trans eliatropes guys (yes based off of that one mp100 post)
bonus of the eliatrope on the left, her name is amura! :]
#wakfu#wakfu yugo#wakfu spoilers#wakfu season 4#wakfu oc#yugo the eliatrope#yugo casually has a horrendously trans coded experience and we should talk abt it more methinks#pinpin has the autism experience#there was a post i rb'ed abt this#but like imagine being a trans eliatrope asking shit of ur king and he describes EXACTLY what ur going thru. but then u learn hes cis???#like what do u MEAN you were stuck in a body that didn't reflect you at all on the inside and everyone could never see you properly because#of it. and despite it all you tried to move past it and stay true to who you know u are on the inside#LIKE DID U JUST GO THRU A TRANS SIMULATOR???? WHAT#on a slightly related note i think yugo is demi!!! he might be straight he might be bi idfk- but that man is not alloromantic/sexual#yk the only times yugo has expressed interest in romance was with amalia in the ovas and in the bellaphone island ep. idk if that counts#cause yk sirens. they mess with u or smth#like hes shown no interest in romance as a whole. sure he gets embarrassed when that girl hit on him (hilarious)#but like no interest. hes developed a close relationship with amalia and only shows interest to her later#very hilarious because pinpin spends all of s1 going after women. ruel also hits on people. yugos just vibing. tho. tot. doesnt know how#to write women so. yeahhhh#ANYWAYS YUGO DEMI <3333#amaura is there too idk anything abt her shes inspired by a hat i have
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Passing from shadow territory to arcane was not an easy journey.
Nestled between the two god's domains was the land of plague. The Scarred Wasteland and it's pestulant heart that beats kn the middle was not a place for the weak, it's denizens reveling in strength gained through strife. Disease and death was celebrated, at least in the sense that it uplifted those who survived the trials Plaguebringer inflicted on the land.
On the bright side, the skies had a consistent weather. Dry and warm, with no storms to contend with.
On the downside, being skybound did not save you from the constant wars that further scarred the wasteland. Beast on beast, dragon on dragon, leaving the sanctuary of a clan meant placing yourself on the forefront of an all out war. It truly was survival of the fittest, where wings of monstrous beings could easily blot out the sky as they descended on you. Indeed, brigands hungry for resources and plague ridden avians were constant threats to skyfairing ships.
Stars Aligned was by no means a fragile ship. She was sturdy, perhaps ready for war in another life, outfitted with a hard metal shell and a steel cage around her air balloons. Wing shredder ballistas lined the sides, ready for use against those who dared enter a dog fight with her. The weakness, Though, is her heavy set made her slower than lighter ships and slower yet compared to rogue dragons. She must be prepared.
The Sanctum of the Outcasts was the only stop for weeks around, and was one Rataskorn was fond of. In her days running wild with mirror packs, she could remember nipping at the heels of it's defenders when she was a spry pup, and recalled it's location well. Most would discredit the mirror's intelligence, but her memory was unmatched: she stood on the balcony of the ship, excitedly pointing every which way as she recalled even the smallest details of her life in the abiding boneyard.
So much fighting. So much blood. Good times.
The great airship touched down not far from the Sanctum, finding no trouble for parking in the endless space that stretched around it. Rataskorn bounded off, the voices of her peers making their to-do lists sounding like distant static to her. Her mind was long set. She knows what she must do!
She must find a suitable gift of the wastes for her beloved mate! This is more important than life itself. Yes, Hraes loved her sparklies and shinies. Shadow dragons enjoyed trinkets and curios, like the strange black birds that pecked at bodies. Yes, just like them! Like a strange black bird…
With dreams of Hraes wearing raven's wings, the mirror sped off across the arid land, the faraway cry of someone telling her to wait falling on deaf ears. Merchants of the Bazaar beware: a bull was coming for your glass shops.
#noodle doodles#Adventures of Stars Aligned#worldbuilding wednesday#idk if i should @ people when i do this like what if they get note spammed
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(genderly) chill as hell if i was only ever glimpsed / detected like this
#Shrouded In A Rectangle neither sleeves nor an open front to be besieged with? yes#just doing whatever else like doesn't matter. tee cargo shorts which is my best guess rn of my ideal outfit. + sandals Absolutely#unfortunately my hair could never do that. somehow neither am i yet like forties fifties? have i not been at this for eons?#i Can be like uh let's just nobody talk to me i'm busy pensively perceiving truths that you don't ever actually wanna hear about#just the other day it was like hey....a [way Having To Talk could be a difficulty / problem] was under my nose in this lifelong pattern#certainly noticing the Verbal Exchange Demand heaped upon burnout as like [delay delay delay struggle weariness stress]#but also who knows like spent plenty of time just probably indeed Not having to have such exchanges while burned out. not noting them#anyway like this isn't even [dysphoric Ideal Outfit until i could [whatever supposed even more ideal than that gender euphoria]]#though shoutout to that but like nah get shrouded anyway. the only [how do i look] im motivated to consider is: when it's a costume#when it's just me it's like. i guess whatever pants and a comfortable enough tee. need glasses. hair's w/e so cut quite short ig#might accessorize w/things that are fun to me like hey yeah yknow i might want a calculator watch#[yea as a kid it was like :( im actively appreciating the animals supposedly Gross or Bad] if i had hated little friends Sure yaay#if i had disorienting light effects like a pelagic creature. but you don't even need that. like hey i'm nd in real life. i got it#chat i'm in the walls too bestie lmao. if only my bigfoot pose reference Step was this good#tl;dr long rephrasing of my being like; now the gender slay....#& nodding & Noting when [worksheet exercise: what's your gender euphoria look?] is like shrug idk. but this is serving maximally to me; so#going Chat how can i up my uncanny stats. looking up ''isn't it like Uncanny knowledge e.g. so like why not....canny''#but i think the un canny is the Uncanniness Accuser's perspective. not of My ken. your literal weird one maybe#so again apt to be like jk i'm just autistic & shit; i got it....horror shit challenge impossible: Don't have sm typical mundane#[disability moment] as like Unsettling danger/malice cues. challenge impossible; again#subverted here like as [horror holding hands touching foreheads w/comedy] w/o Rescinding just casual disabled behavior/qualities#just remembered like three witches weird sisters etc macbeth. weird uncanny soothsaying gendering. word#anyway i should be shrouded (made no any connection whenever i put the blanket now over my head & shoulders in place min ago)#perhaps the real Ideal Look insight: i do not have any way i wish to be observed by people. secret passages / removed room anytime
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#coworkers decided to do an impromptu happy hour today and must have made this decision while i was away from my desk at lunch.#bc i got back and they were just. all gone. and i only found out bc our boss swung by my desk before he left and told me.#and i know it wasnt intentional (at least i don't think it was) but idk man! just feels kinda shitty! yall could've left a note or something#but anyways. boss was like you should come! but i. did not go. partially bc im kind of a little sore about that actually?#but also they went to a beer place and i. dont drink beer. and like yeah yeah go for the people not the place but also. idk just.#it's cold and rainy and today has kind of sucked too so like. im not really in the mood#(which HONESTLY was probably the point of going out bc NO ONE is in the mood)#but. ugh.#now im going to spend the whole weekend trying to think of what im going to say when someone inevitably asks me why i wasn't there#and they all probably think im antisocial or whatever#esp bc like. im pretty quiet at work too. like. i feel awkward just jumping into conversations sometimes bc like.#im still the newbie on the team. like i just got moved to this one at the end of august#but these people have been working together for like years now.#so like they all know each other!!! theyre all super comfortable with each other!!!!#but im still new im still getting to know them all!!! and like idk. just feels awkward to insert myself into those conversations#even if im probably allowed to. so i just. dont.#and ugh. its a vicious cycle i know. 😔#but anyways.#wow that was so much oversharing how embarrassing#whatever. what is the internet for if not embarrassing amounts of oversharing 🤷♀️#N E WAYS.
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I'll be honest the whole argument about it being imperative that the gang never "wins" is still so fucking stupid to me. did you watch 3x01 with your eyes closed. dennis has "won" before, and it ruled, actually. why do we need broad ass arguments like this trying to pin down sunny when there's like. countless examples to the contrary to show it's been like this the whole time.
#i swear its only an issue when people want to use it to justify their opinion but its always so easily countered by just. watching the show#ada speaks#is dee day not an issue to y'all because dee 'deserves' her win#its such a weird fucking thing to be mad about#i agree there should be consequences when the gang do something shitty. BUT#what the fuck did dennis do wrong in dtamhd that he needs to be punished for#personal victories are not uncommon for the gang?#do you think mac coming out shoukd have netted him a punishment#do you have a problem with the note s15 ended on when the gang came together for charlie#there are so many examples like. not EVERYTHING has to come back around and bite them in the ass#when they do something awful. yes. sure. but its ridiculous to expect some twist for everything#they get off scot free constantly and that's. kind of the point. money and privilege and the art of not giving a fuck#idk. idk. but its so stupid to me that this is a complaint going around NOW like we don't have 15 prev seasons
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rant but im a bit scared im going to get attacked
#so im hiding in the tags and book tok is the subject today#psa: skip past the fourth wing rant to see what im actually talking about#so. the abomination that is FOURTH WING#(my review on it was the longest i have ever written lmfao)#dont get me wrong there are good parts to the book!#most of them are plagiarised from like at least 10 other books tho#the one good thing is the dragon worldbuilding (if u could call it that) but honestly. that's probably plagiarised from smt idk#the pacing is horrible#and yes it was weirdly gripping but in the way you are gripped by a nightmare when u cant get yourself to wake up#anyways i havent even got onto the characters yet. fmc has no personality and mmc is tall and dark and brooding#supposedly enemies to lovers and it should have been given unsolved family business but nope they just want to shag UGH#anyways this was triggered by me talking to my friend's friend who is currently reading it and i was honestly gobsmacked#do book tok readers have no critical thinking (not generalisation im just mad)#like she said six of crows was worse than fourth wing#and it just pissed me off because people just read bad literature from book tok just for the smut when there is GOOD SMUT FOR FREE#FANFIC EXISTS BUT THE STIGMA IS TOO MUCH#and so there are authors who are writing terrible plagiarised shit and profiting off it#and then there are the valiant fanfic writers#like pls im so mad rn especially bc there are so many problems w book tok books (gender roles + pick me stuff etc etc)#one thing that really bothers me is the willingness to just ignore how toxic mmcs are just because they're hot or whatever#it's so problematic (also ppl excusing irl people just bc they're funny)#im so angry because book tok (aside from specific few books) is just a den of plagiarism and capitalism#and im also mad because when did the actual appreciation of good writing (not even literature) just GOOD writing die#and it died because of all things people want to read smut like you can have both and free from fanfic#note that this is not a personal attack this is more of a frustration rant and i do not mean to point fingers at all book tok readers#i just want to highlight the problems w it (mainly plagiarism and excusing weird things and normalising other stuff)#space boo screams into the void#book tok#literature#fanfiction
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One thing that I will never get over was the influx of people in the Sims community who actively rallyed against disabilities being included in the sims because it was "too sad"
Like jesus fucking christ
#ableism#i think#note i am like able bodied so like i wasn't like the psrt disabled community who was directly blasted by this#but like thats still gross man#like seeing people being like “its too sad to see disabled people in game because what if they are helpless little babys#like they didn't want to see blind people to like burn alive in their own homes which????? like thats suchs a wild like claim its bizarre#which like i understand its sad but like being trans is sad- being lbgt+ is sad but that doesn't mean the sims should exclude them#like even if the sims gets something as simple as a trait that makes it harder to communicate as the speech disability rep#then i would love it of how like non visable speaking difficultys are in media#like it doesn't even have to be like a big like single trait#i do think making one big trait to repressent all disabitys would be bad#but even if its more “mini traits” like the trouble speaking then i think they could pull it off#(also did we forget the insane trait existence and how they basically did a whole fuck you when insane was still in the game)#idk this is a rant sorry#sims 4
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it's probably the sunnier weather that's doing stuff to my brain to make me more optimistic but it's so interesting having a brain that craves a lot of self-fulfillment to the point where I can move past some hang-ups around perfection by going "oh I really wanna do that though" and then I do it well because researching how to do it right is also a rewarding part of the process
#it comes with the double edged sword of dropping projects as soon as they become a bit more involved/difficult#or when they don't feel fulfilling#but maybe it's better to take a break and come back to something with new knowledge ?#maybe it's good that my brain has a built in 'if it sucks hit da bricks' function ?#i just wish that i had more stamina for these things when they start lacking intrinsic rewards#it just feels like compared to my other family members i lose steam very very quickly and since we all have the same disorder i should be-#- 'just as capable'... but honest to god my under-activity feels SO severe#it honestly feels like compared to others my threshold for mental exhaustion is half the normal benchmark it should be#you know how there were studies done that found that 4 hours is the maximum amount of time people can work before a decline in efficiency?#i swear to god when the activity is something i have no internal reward for it takes 1-2 hours for that decline to start. and my brain -#- crashes HARD. my eyes start to glaze over. i start forgetting how to speak. my brain starts acting like it's 2-3 am and that i need to -#- sleep. i don't push myself not because i coddle myself but because i perform WAY worse. my work becomes unintelligible#or if it's some other kind of task (such as cleaning) my brain desperately tries to take shortcuts in order to get it done#i am trying to avoid a situation where i have to fix up the shitty job i did after the fact!#it's just kind of crazy to me how this is viewed as laziness LOL 'you did a bad job!' because i was pushed past my limit!#not to mention... i get burned out for DAYS if i push myself too hard. i am trying to conserve my efficiency#if you want me to do a better job... i need more time. and trust me: i'll do an excellent job if you let me rest#i am a very smart and capable person who cares about doing a good job - and i have a fine eye for smaller details as well#the trade-off here is i'll need some time to find joy and fulfillment somewhere else for a little bit while i rest. let me excel ok?#idk where this high self esteem came from other than like. realizing i wrote an entire research proposal in such short time#while receiving positive feedback with very few notes for improvement. i just sat down an added another section today based on -#-feedback and realized like 'wait. i know what i'm doing and i probably care about this far more than the average classmate'#i've been having a lot of thoughts lately and i sort of want to get to the bottom of how i have a difficult time coping w/ burnout#and i also want to figure out how to offset the costs of the stuff i need to do... it's a process
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i'm so glad i won't be working with my pi after this month. i think i've reached my limit. i just can't deal with her anymore
#she said 'oh idk if i can make it to your thesis'#SHE IS ON MY THESIS COMMITTEE. SHE'S KNOWN ABOUT THIS FOR A YEARRRRRR#she said she might be on vacation w her bf... instead of going to my fucking thesis defense.#there was a special vote just so she could be on my committee. wdym you have to go on vacation#ALSO i've been asking her to check my calculations for a thing for MONTHS#and she still hasn't. but she made me present on it in front of a bunch of people.#i'd like to note that this calculation is like. the point of my thesis. and she hasn't even bothered to look at it#she forced the interns to work 50 hours last week. they're only being paid for 40.#she hasn't read any part of my thesis... others have but they don't know the details like she does#i told her to read my fucking thesis and she said she had and that it 'looked good'#what does that mean. WHAT does that mean. how do you have no comments. on my thesis. that determines whether i graduate#and then she said i'm ''irresponsible'' bc i went to a concert???#like it didn't affect anything. i showed up to work on time. i completed everything i meant to.#but i guess going to one concert is like. unacceptable.#i'm sooooo sorry i decided to go have fun for one night instead of agonizing about my thesis (that again. she hasn't read)#she asked if i want to give a talk at the new place she got hired at but she now works for fus#which is a incredibly conservative homophobic private catholic university. i've never heard anything positive about it#like they're legally allowed to discriminate against lgbt people... does she know what i fucking look like????#she's so so conservative but she only interacts with other conservative catholics#and doesn't understand how fucking vile her views are. and she wonders why people don't like her#like maybe she should shut the fuck up about how she thinks abortion is a sin at work!!#she once said 'the only time i feel uncomfortable in my skin is when i talk about being a conservative catholic at work'#AND THEN SHE SAID 'it really makes me understand how hijabis feel'#IN FRONT OF MY HIJABI COLLEAGUE. HELLO???? like she is not persecuted for being a conservative catholic#i literally started laughing when she said that. i think i said 'please get real'. and she's still mad#anyway. my colleague decided to no longer work with my pi. idk if it was bc of that comment#she mentioned that once i leave there won't be anyone who understands the data on the project anymore#like yeah. maybe you should've looked at the data. like at all#and not had an unpaid master's student do literally all the work for you
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Hello hello! Just wanted to say I spotted the James Naremore minibook analyzing "Sweet Smell of Success" at the BFI shop last week and obviously had to get it because you have indoctrinated me into having this movie on permanent standby in my brain (many thanks for this). Have you read it before?
i haven’t read in depth any of naremore’s scholarship or listened to his commentary track - i’ve skimmed it enough to get the crux of his interpretations. to be fully honest, i don’t engage with most scholarship surrounding the film these days. my opinion/analysis is pretty fully formed by this point and unwavering. but i think it’s a good document to have for people who are interested!
#asks#to be fully honest. most scholars i go back and forth on with regards to this movie. there’s interpretations i really don’t agree with#and instead of get into the nitty gritty of all that bullshit i’ve instead focused almost exclusively on THE text to form my own interp.#idk i think people praise naremore for the access he had to the early versions of the scripts#but i think it’s important to note that critics like him and david thomson are not like. experts. they’re just critics forming their own#interpretations. and i think a lot of people cite them as utmost authorities when they should steer away from doing so#lol sorry this is a really long winded way of dancing around what i’m too polite to say LMAO#didn’t mean to get into that. it’s a good resource and i hope you enjoy it!
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transfem furries hornyposting online about the relatively niche/"out there" things they're into have inadvertently helped me accept myself more than the body positivity movement of the 2010s ever did
#this will not be rebloggable because i don't want people to get transmisogynistic in the notes#it's just something i've been thinking about lately#i hope i'm not like out of line for saying this please let me know if i say anything disrespectful#i just have a lot of love in my heart for transfems; especially those who log on to this website to be gay on my dash and do their thing#trans wlw being proud of their identities helped me come to terms with my own in a way. idk how to properly explain it but#idk. our experiences are very different - you have to fight to be seen as a woman and i have to fight not to#(though that is part of my identity in most cases people would use it to negate the rest)#(and of course none of us should Have to fight that but. i hope it's clear what i mean lol)#and idk like. womanhood is not achieved painlessly for you and yet so many of you embrace it so beautifully and in so many ways#it makes me want to accept that part of myself i thought i had to kill for so long#i am not entirely a woman but i love being a woman and loving other women-#platonically romantically sexually it doesn't matter#i'm so grateful i get to share a community with you all and read/hear/watch your thoughts and experiences and such#which goes beyond sex stuff but sex stuff is a particular personal struggle of mine and it's something i've been trying to cultivate a more#healthy relationship to lately. and i also know that unfortunately transfems get treated even worse than everyone else when it comes to#kinks or whatever. i don't mean to imply that everyone has to be open about that stuff. i just mean that i'm grateful for those who bravely#and proudly are. anyway i'm losing my train of thought bc i'm packing for a trip and i'm a little scattered atm but the point is#transfem wlw i love you dearly thank you for existing#[oh also this post isn't meant to bash body positivity stuff and i know it's not all the same. it just often felt too sanitized and forced#for me to relate to. ok bye]#finielspeaks
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