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something i adore about the locked tomb (and Tamsyn’s writing) is that no one is just evil. everyone is the main character of their story and is internally justified in their actions.
g1deon is actively trying to murder our main character throughout all of book two and it is a PERFECTLY understandable choice for him. that is insane, you don’t see a ton of g1deon haters out there. again harrow is OUR GAL. we do not want to see her dead and yet. he understands Harrow to be a threat to the emperor, and therefore must die. of course.
cytherea murdered perfectly innocent children mercilessly and yet it seems a perfectly reasonable conclusion of her life. if she has to kill everyone in canaan house to get john back here and killed, so be it. it is merciful even, in comparison to a universe ruled by john in her eyes.
mercymorn calls ianthe and harrow infants and babies throughout Harrow. this is incredibly infantalising to the intellect and capacity of them both. it causes harrow to be utterly uncared for in a time when she is the most vulnerable she has ever been and ianthe to be utterly underestimated. and still, that is a perfectly reasonable response for mercymorn. she is ten thousand years old and the infants are 20ish. it’s nothing. they are utterly irrelevant to her material reality for ten. thousand. years. and they present very little impact to the job she has put herself to.
even john, as much as we love to hate him, is treated kindly by the narrative. no one can say he didn’t care. he didn’t nuke the world for fun (and didn’t do it alone). he lied about alecto and yet i do not doubt for a minute that he is internally justified. there must be something about perfect lyctorhood that he deemed reproachable enough to keep it a secret.
#idk i’m just talking#the locked tomb#fucked up people doing fucked up things#cytherea#mercymorn#john gaius#ianthe tridentarius
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thinking about what wild grinders could been it makes me so sad because there is probably never going to be a reboot or a suspiciously similar spiritual successor
#I will come back to this with thoughts on what I would want and what I think of the canons#I hHave ideas because it’s a silly fun show but imagine a better silly fun unserious show like lucky star or smth#idk I’m just talking#wild grinders
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Why does Father seem like the kind of guy to fall asleep with his eyes open?
#father knd#benedict uno#knd villains#knd father#idk I’m just talking#but he seems like he would do that#omg the delightfuls thinking he’s dead and start freaking out#but he wakes up and is like ‘why are you 5 crying? What’s wrong?’#and they just stare at him shocked and confused
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five or six months ago i stopped taking all of my medication, except my testosterone and my stimulants. cold turkey, all of it- i didn’t bother tapering off or telling any of my doctors, i just… stopped. pain medications, antidepressants, supplements, all of it thrown out the metaphorical window. (i do still have them, i promise. they’ve been steadily accumulating dust on the kitchen counter.)
i also no longer attend therapy. or, well, i’m considering no longer doing so. i’ve sort of accidentally-on purpose lost touch with my therapist, and i’ve no call no showed my last two appointments. she doesn’t know i’m not taking my meds, either.
when i told my mom and my friends about it, i was- understandably- met with concern, bordering on abject horror. it was not unexpected, and their care for me was appreciated, but i just… couldn’t make myself do it. i was exhausted, and i couldn’t help but feel a bitter sort of exasperation with the people in my life who were worried sick about me.
i’ve heard it called “care fatigue” before. when being responsible for the health your body and brain becomes so overwhelming that you simply abandon the idea altogether. i suspect that that’s what’s happened here.
the fact of the matter is, i am working two jobs, going to classes as regularly as i can, struggling to maintain what little of a social life i have, and dealing with my family sort of falling apart around me, and all of this in spite of the fact that my body seems to be held together by a loose collection of rubber bands and spite. so waking up every morning to take nine different pills, and scheduling therapy and doctors appointments, and being more than well aware of how much it’s costing, is simply too much of an undertaking.
and you know what the most ridiculous part of it all is? i barely feel different. sure, i have a few more bad pain days a month than i used to, and my emotions may not be as capital-r Regulated as before, but i would argue that in the grand scheme of things, i might actually be doing better than i was while medicated. i feel like a whole person now.
rest assured, this is not me turning to the crunchy, anti-modern medicine, conspiracy theorist you see all over facebook. to be perfectly clear, i do not recommend doing what i did to literally anyone. but, i don’t know, it feels nice to larp as a healthy person for a while.
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I Need Screen Time at Night to Fall Asleep As an ADHDer
AJ’s Brain
#adhd#adhd post#screen time at night#this really helps me sleep#idk why but listening to someone talk just helps for some reason#I’m sure some of you can relate#neurodivergence#neurodiversity#actually neurodivergent#feel free to share/reblog#AJ’s Brain (Facebook)
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yeah so this was insane
#i feel like too many people reduce this interaction to jason being like ‘lol same’#but idk :/#this chapter is from jason’s pov#and leading up to it he’s like ‘people keep walking on eggshells around me bc of the the michael varus stab wound’#and he hates it so when he goes on deck to help out with the storm#everyone’s like wtf except for percy#and jason states how much he appreciated percy not treating him like a sick kid#and i feel like it’s echoed in this sentiment where jason could say so many things like#‘you should never feel that way’ ‘im here if you need anything’#but he doesn’t make percy feel alone in his desire to just…. end it all#which ik for some people that doesn’t work but you’re not a character in hoo and percy is dealing with so much guilt#and he can’t tell annabeth bc she’s a main aspect of that guilt#and he doesn’t wanna guilt her more and he feels ashamed and when he describes this he feels weird for feeling it#so having jason this tough guy be like ‘yo i understand it bc i felt the same way#that’s gotta mean a lot to percy#also insane how jason who also struggles to display vulnerability#allows it in one of few times in this moment just so percy this guy he’s supposed to be jealous about#feels comforted and not alone in his guilt and shame#and also it’s just insane how jason’s wanting to kay em ess does not get talked about AT ALL#and just seeing his mom and the pressure of new rome getting to him#like this scene is insane and i’ll never shut up about it#also ignore me i’m just finishing my reread of hoo that took all summer#jason grace#percy jackson#pjo#ashla.txt
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i actually think it’s so significant that disco elysium is named after an optional side quest. because the heart of the game is in the margins. same way you don’t get the real ending if you don’t do the (let’s face it, sometimes annoying and disincentivised) cryptozoologist quest line. you have to care about the world and its people, not just grinding through the mystery, to ever really understand anything. which is exactly what the game of suzerainty tells you IF you don’t try to “win”
#disco elysium#sometimes i get insecure talking about this game bc people have such strong opinions about it#and they proclaim them as fact without pointing to specific textual evidence#and i’m like okay did i miss something or was that not revealed in my playthrough or is this person just a blowhard idk#but anyway
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Do you think Bakugou would be instantly hooked on some sass? Like you’re some civilian who’s just really feeling themselves that day? Confident and on top of the world?
“Think you’re some hot shit, eh?”
You flutter your eyelashes. “I am, thank you for noticing.” And you flip your hair around and saunter off. Later when you come back down to earth you may be horrified and extremely embarrassed that you spoke to the number two Pro Hero of Japan like that
But I dunno. I think it would drive him crazy. What do y’all think?
#this probably sounds super dumb#but i’m in a great mood today#and i was just wondering how he’d react#idk#and i’m talking confidence not arrogance#you’re amazing and you know it and you’re going to seize the fucking day#fucking ruin him and all he can think of is you#kore blabs#bakugou katsuki#rambling
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so much happened in this whole episode but i’m still on fig infiltrating ruben’s dream, making it look like the place where his friend was murdered, and then disguising herself as kipperlilly & repeatedly saying different variants of “somebody needs to take the fall for this, and it’s not going to be me. it’s going to be you.” while adaine as the elven oracle shows up next to her. can you imagine waking up from that, the idea of a horrible truth being pinned on you by your friend to save her own skin while the personification of fate and destiny stands there, almost as a promise that this is GOING to happen to you. we don’t even know if this kid is guilty. my god.
#fantasy high#dimension 20#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#fantasy high junior year#fig faeth#ruben hopclap#lucy frostblade#the rat grinders#adaine abernant#kipperlilly copperkettle#watching fig terrorize him like girl!!! we don’t even know if he’s guilty!!!!#this might just be for me but i do not think 5 teenagers willingly brutally killed their friend idk#like there just has to be some other element to it and i am very scared to find out what that was#what if they were put in a position where they felt there was/there was no other choice… like oh my god#my comedy brain is having fun but my ‘this is a teenager’ brain is in such deep distress all the time this season#the rat grinders i trust brennan to not make u cartoonishly evil so i am holding u as gently as i can in my confused shaky hands#also with the devil’s nectar i’ve been wondering why they all seem so well-adjusted & now i’m curious if they’ve been intentionally-#changing their memories in a way so that either the trauma is lesser or they think they aren’t guilty. idk#but it seems like from how gertie was talking she was making it more recently so the well adjustedness from early jy doesn’t quite add up#they could have another source maybe??? idk i’m just low stakes 4 a.m. spitballing here#there’s also the strong possibility that they’re aware of what happened but they weren’t the ones who killed lucy. idk who knows#the way you could probably devil’s nectar yourself into believing it wasn’t your fault someone died… CRAZY IMPLICATIONS!!! CRAZY IDEA!!!#anyways the bad kids & the rat grinders don’t ever have to like each other but i do wonder if at least some of those kids deserve a chance
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Um so. I remembered The Incident while I was hanging out with Odile
#IT WAS BY COMPLETE COINCIDENCE TOO. I JUST PULLED OUT THE COIN TO SEE IF ITD TRIGGER ANY SPECIAL DIALOGUE#AND IT. WELL IT TECHNICALLY DID. I GUESS. I FUCKING GUESS#it wouldve surprised me if odile DID have dialogue for this but the chances of it happening are so low to begin with#and its a one time event on top of that. chipper did tell to me talk to loop afterwards but I forgot to in the same loop#I did trigger their dialogue by pulling out the coin in front of them and it was REALLY TENSE#I’m not sure if it’s the same dialogue I would have gotten if I went to talk to them immediately after since I was hanging out with odile#and I just got Bonnie’s friend quest event too Its just blow after blow. I’m gonna frow up#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#isat act 3 spoilers#isat act 3#actually idk if the coin thing is limited to any specific act but I’m currently on act 3 when it happened#isat siffrin#Siffrin#isat odile#odile#my art#myart#gif#puppy plays isat#GAH
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i feel like poolverine easily could’ve been one of those “they’re flirty but it’s mostly unserious” situations, and for most of the movie yeah they were extremely gay, but wade’s been like that with other guys and it was never treated as a serious type of relationship before. they’re willing to die for each other, but even then the romantic aspect of their relationship could be glossed over because it’s a superhero movie, that’s just what they do, and they’re working together to save a whole timeline—it’s not just about them. but then the movie doesn’t end with them saving the day and moving on. i think this’s really the part that sells poolverine as a genuine relationship to me… logan’s leaving, and wade calls for him. he can’t stand to let him go. then he introduces him to his family, and logan stays. he doesn’t really need to stay, but they’ve both decided they’re better off with one another than without
#don’t get me wrong#wade and vanessa are going to end up back together again if there’s ever another deadpool movie#and then he’ll lose her again for whatever reason#because that’s just how it goes#ignore the fact that logan tells wade to talk to vanessa and i’d be convinced that the ending was supposed to imply them being canon tbh#not gonna delude myself into believing poolverine will ever be genuinely and seriously canon#but shippingwise#i think this’s why i’ve latched onto poolverine despite some of the similarities between cable & logan#with cable it was never gonna be serious#despite it being fun to ship them and enjoy their dynamic#but#with logan… storywise… it makes so much sense for them to be endgame#they both were at terrible points in their lives and really needed each other#not just to fix each other’s problems. but they needed someone who was so on their own level that they could fix each other#not in a healthy way. but#yknow#anyway#idk i’m kinda rambling about nothing here#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool#wolverine#wade wilson#logan#um#logan howlett#<- ….i guess#poolverine#deadclaws
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I get why everyone loves to draw Ghost with narrowed eyes (be it from anger, exhaustion, etc) but there’s just something about Ghost with wide eyes that gets me every time…
#and not necessarily in a comedic way either#let that man be excited and happy and curious#give him plenty of sleep and a boyfriend who loves him and a team who respects him and a job he loves doing#and watch how wide his eyes can get in happiness l#idk i’m just rambling#love wide happy-eyed Simon Riley#call of duty#cod#simon ghost riley#tombstone's epitaphs#tombstone talks
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i’ve been wanting to do this since day one
#team fortress 2#tf2#era.png#idk if i’ll.. tag the characters? its just a silly little meme#i’ll think on it#anyway i guess i’ll ramble a bit in the tags then#mains: i’ve always played sniper but recently picked up engie! i love avoiding conflict forever#fav character: hmm this aussie that i hate (affectionate)#relate to: i relate to the both of them at the exact same time. autistic AND adhd#learn to play: i’m a dedicated healer class player but medic is soo difficult for me for some reason? one day. one day#fav ship: hmmm these bozos that i hate (AFFECTIONATE)#like to draw: spy is just fun to draw :) ignore sniper this isnt about him#NO ID SORRY :( this feels very difficult to write an id for. i am very sory#REQUESTS R STILL BEING WORKED ON BTW i’ll get to posting those soon. thank you. i will stop talking now
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I just want it known that sydney adamu is a person. a human. with human feelings which now more than ever will be annoyed. angry. frustrated. regretful. and she has every reason to be. she shouldn’t need to be defended with every argument as to why she is allowed this room for her feelings. what she is, is a human, not the obedient little girl so many people seem to think she should be. where as her white male counterparts can scream and yell and nearly tear the place apart, she can’t even be mad about it without being called “annoying” or “ungrateful”. she may scream for the first time. she may yell. she may decide that she’s fucking over it and she may have to be convinced this is still worth her time. carmy may have to fucking convince her that HE is worth her time. she cares about him, and about every other person in that damn restaurant but that doesn’t mean she has to smile about it 24/7. I don’t want to fucking hear your stupid reasons as to why a young black woman isn’t allowed to be overwhelmed into making decisions you might not personally make. literally shut the fuck up.
#I just thought about how ANNOYING some people are gonna be about her this season#and I’m already fed up#like people still talk about s1 as an excuse as to why they don’t like her it’s so weird!!#like if that’s all you have maybe… maybe it’s you idk#like if someone says they don’t like syd then immediately I don’t care about anything else they say#phew had to get that off my chest lol#the bear#I’ll tag#sydcarmy#just bc y’all always make sense#sydney adamu
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I genuinely love not having a crush like I’m not over here feeling physically sick over some mid guy being dry to me I’m literally chilling
#Spring semester of last year was so bad bc I was unironically into 3 guys at once and they were all#Being dry and cryptic to me#And then before that in 2022 I had my horrid situationship#I had a mini obsession arc in dec 2023 over someone but now there hasn’t been anyone since#And my palette is so cleansed#When a girl is like I miss having a crush I’m like you’re literally a masochist#There was very briefly a girl I thought I had a crush on when I realized I’m bicurious but#I haven’t put effort into talking to her bc the idea of pursuing anyone makes me wanna claw my eyes out#I’m pretty sure I ghosted her by like just not responding to her last messsge actually#Not on purpose but more so bc I realized I was feeling the same anxiety I felt whenever I had a crush so I was like#Yeah I’m dropping this for now#I’m also always the most present for my friends when I don’t have a crush so idk#Like I don’t wanna be consumed by anyone I just wanna chill#The solution to not having normal attraction to people is just to not be attracted to anyone at all#I fr cracked it#I always just crave the butterflies out of it and never an actual relationship anyway#But they’re so not worth it#Which is why I always get bored of guys who’re forthright like oh ok you actually WANT something…. U don’t wanna just have fun#Not for me#I think the guys I’m into and I typically diverge in the sense that neither of us wants a relationship but they just wanna fuck me#And I more so just want the butterflies experience / to playact couple for like a couple months but nothing too serious#Which is why it never works#Like it’s not that it doesn’t work bc either of us wants a relationship it’s more that what we want out of the situationship is different#So lame#Ok this was a lot but I literally came to this epiphany while writing these tags
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It was Maid Day today yesterday a week ago so I got struck by inspiration to draw the worsties, and it ran away from me into a whole AU where they’re coworkers at a maid cafe. She’s a med student & this is just a part time job, and this is his depression job while he gets his life back together. He needs something he can be workaholic about to forget what it’s like having a personal life and personal issues. He’s actually the accountant, but the new hire janitor (Izutsumi) doesn’t show up for half her shifts and is a sloppy worker, so he gets the extra work of doing her job on top of his because he’s undervalued and overworked. Of course, janitors also have an uniform to keep the aesthetic cohesion as they go about cleaning the place, of course.
Senshi’s the part time cook you only see slivers off, he’s kind and warm when you do see him and have a chat but most shifts he’s in and out the kitchen without a trace. Laios and Falin are regulars because Falin and Marcille are besties & in the same med school, Laios accompanies Falin as she visits her friend at work and gets hooked on the food. Chilchuck has to remind Marcille to work instead of chatting with Falin for an hour, and next thing he knows she’s distracting him from work too. That’s it that’s the AU. Inspired by this idol AU fanart a bit <3
This was not meant to be birthday gift but well…… Happy bday Chil!!!
Read from left to right
#Dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#Chilchuck tims#marcille donato#spoilers#dunmeshi au#Maid cafe au#Marchil#Workwife marchil save me. Kabuholm in the background bc i said so lmao#i think people forget marci n chil are coworker worsties first and foremost. Ppl should capitalize on it more#The orange hair swag that makes him look like a marketable idol more#You can tell idk how to draw maid outfits. I hate those hats sm I will miku miku beam them out of existence#Marcille does change her hairstyle everyday btw#they don’t get back together btw she goes you haven’t talked to me in 4 years and he immediately goes YOU haven’t talked to ME in 4–#i mean ehem i’m sorry haha… while Marcille is like 4 years?! 4 years…#Mei only did it bc Fler has been getting jittery again kept sighing#I wanted to draw Chil with a car key at his belt but it wasn’t meant to be#idk if marchil ever gets together in this one it’s an eternal summer coworker with tension situationship au#romance is when you slowly deteriorate his work ethics so he starts skipping on his worktime to spend it at the front messing around w you#once he’s blessedly in the office and he hears this huge crash and the Marci just goes ‘…… Chiiiiiil?’ cue sigh and having to repair#the coffee machine. So many lil comics i couldn’t indulge myself to draw save me#shoutout to the time as a cashier in training at a convenience store I was left by my coworker who was supposed to wash the greasy chicken#oven but didn’t so I had to clean it for the first time myself while I was alone in the store and was also supposed to man the front#Shoutout to my convenience store’s accountant helping us with cashier duties often when there was less job to do ty ty#Understaffed struggles are so real#People also call Chil a manager because the boss is most often away so he just does everything#There’s no union but maybe one day he’ll get to overthrow the boss idk#The pay IS good at least#Modern au
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