#idk I’m just talking

[6badchickennuggets]

something i adore about the locked tomb (and Tamsyn’s writing) is that no one is just evil. everyone is the main character of their story and is internally justified in their actions. 

g1deon is actively trying to murder our main character throughout all of book two and it is a PERFECTLY understandable choice for him. that is insane, you don’t see a ton of g1deon haters out there. again harrow is OUR GAL. we do not want to see her dead and yet. he understands Harrow to be a threat to the emperor, and therefore must die. of course.

cytherea murdered perfectly innocent children mercilessly and yet it seems a perfectly reasonable conclusion of her life. if she has to kill everyone in canaan house to get john back here and killed, so be it. it is merciful even, in comparison to a universe ruled by john in her eyes.

mercymorn calls ianthe and harrow infants and babies throughout Harrow. this is incredibly infantalising to the intellect and capacity of them both. it causes harrow to be utterly uncared for in a time when she is the most vulnerable she has ever been and ianthe to be utterly underestimated. and still, that is a perfectly reasonable response for mercymorn. she is ten thousand years old and the infants are 20ish. it’s nothing. they are utterly irrelevant to her material reality for ten. thousand. years. and they present very little impact to the job she has put herself to.

even john, as much as we love to hate him, is treated kindly by the narrative. no one can say he didn’t care. he didn’t nuke the world for fun (and didn’t do it alone). he lied about alecto and yet i do not doubt for a minute that he is internally justified. there must be something about perfect lyctorhood that he deemed reproachable enough to keep it a secret.

[diamantposting]

wht do u think is exactly the relationship between yuripilled rosexatlas ?

I do think they start off as friends (pretty much same as canon) but bc they never meet sel or luna they go their own ways to pursue women but again it’s similar to canon in the sense that atlas Likes women but hasn’t found The One and rose is the community strap … this all changes when rose convinces atlas to go to a lesbian bar w him to find a girl … they both end up getting Very Drunk and going to the bathroom together and one thing leads to another … the following day they act like neither of them remember and swear (to themselves) it wouldn’t happen again bc they’re just Besties 🩷 fast forward to the next time they’re at the bar and rose just… cannot stop looking at atlas… something feels Different.. it’s not the way he usually sees atlas.. after a few more rounds of drinks (yet they’re not Nearly as drunk as before) they head to the bathroom again (with rose leading them there……..) and this is when the second comic.. Occurs.. um but I do think atlas is. Like That to rose because it’s almost his way of accepting like. Oh I’m having sx with my best friend rn (AND IM LIKING IT?!) and also he likes feeling very dominant and putting rose down just.. in a much different way now.. LOL I also think rose (to an extent) enjoys atlas being degrading to him ?!!!?,?!.?!.!? Obviously not excessively degrading but negative attention is still attention I fear ………… do they ever start officially dating ? Hmmm

[heartsmi1es]

thinking about what wild grinders could been it makes me so sad because there is probably never going to be a reboot or a suspiciously similar spiritual successor

[ravenpoefan]

Why does Father seem like the kind of guy to fall asleep with his eyes open?

[g-n-c-quoi]

five or six months ago i stopped taking all of my medication, except my testosterone and my stimulants. cold turkey, all of it- i didn’t bother tapering off or telling any of my doctors, i just… stopped. pain medications, antidepressants, supplements, all of it thrown out the metaphorical window. (i do still have them, i promise. they’ve been steadily accumulating dust on the kitchen counter.)

i also no longer attend therapy. or, well, i’m considering no longer doing so. i’ve sort of accidentally-on purpose lost touch with my therapist, and i’ve no call no showed my last two appointments. she doesn’t know i’m not taking my meds, either.

when i told my mom and my friends about it, i was- understandably- met with concern, bordering on abject horror. it was not unexpected, and their care for me was appreciated, but i just… couldn’t make myself do it. i was exhausted, and i couldn’t help but feel a bitter sort of exasperation with the people in my life who were worried sick about me.

i’ve heard it called “care fatigue” before. when being responsible for the health your body and brain becomes so overwhelming that you simply abandon the idea altogether. i suspect that that’s what’s happened here.

the fact of the matter is, i am working two jobs, going to classes as regularly as i can, struggling to maintain what little of a social life i have, and dealing with my family sort of falling apart around me, and all of this in spite of the fact that my body seems to be held together by a loose collection of rubber bands and spite. so waking up every morning to take nine different pills, and scheduling therapy and doctors appointments, and being more than well aware of how much it’s costing, is simply too much of an undertaking.

and you know what the most ridiculous part of it all is? i barely feel different. sure, i have a few more bad pain days a month than i used to, and my emotions may not be as capital-r Regulated as before, but i would argue that in the grand scheme of things, i might actually be doing better than i was while medicated. i feel like a whole person now.

rest assured, this is not me turning to the crunchy, anti-modern medicine, conspiracy theorist you see all over facebook. to be perfectly clear, i do not recommend doing what i did to literally anyone. but, i don’t know, it feels nice to larp as a healthy person for a while.

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

I Need Screen Time at Night to Fall Asleep As an ADHDer

AJ’s Brain

[infamousmonkey-cat]

i actually think it’s so significant that disco elysium is named after an optional side quest. because the heart of the game is in the margins. same way you don’t get the real ending if you don’t do the (let’s face it, sometimes annoying and disincentivised) cryptozoologist quest line. you have to care about the world and its people, not just grinding through the mystery, to ever really understand anything. which is exactly what the game of suzerainty tells you IF you don’t try to “win”

[merlins-art]

Pathetic podcast protagonist is such a male dominated industry

Petition for more women to be pathetic podcast protagonists. Like yes queen, experience the horrors

[solarismp3]

The world is so obsessed with young ppl everything is about what the youth is doing. Everyday id mag is releasing an article on what young ppl in Tokyo are wearing what about middle aged ppl or old ppl who have lived long enough to know the patterns of humanity. Are they not interesting or what

[bookalicent]

yeah so this was insane

[fight-nights-at-freddys]

i am. so tired of people acting like the internet is made for kids, or is in any way kid-friendly, bc it’s just not. are there sites that are more catered to kids? yes, but that does not make the entire internet *for* kids.

social media sites in particular are not for children. just because an app says “13+” does not mean that A) 13 yr olds should be on the app, or B) that you suddenly don’t have to monitor your kids online experience, or block/filter certain things.

i’m also tired of pretending that the “you can look up anything on google and find explicit content” is a valid argument bc that has nothing to do with the creators of the content, but everything to do with the algorithm (and i’m tired of ppl acting like safe search doesn’t work. half of the time it censors perfectly normal content).

just. watch your damn kids on the internet. it ain’t my responsibility to do it for you, and i’m so over nsfw artists being blamed for, god forbid, putting what they want on their own pages.

[crazymecjc]

look at yourself… you’re the true puppet.

[who-always-pays-their-taxes]

and he only lasted ten seconds ;-;

do not click on the image for better quality, because then you will better see my mistakes <3

This was actually made using an app i’ve never used before, i’ve always been a procreate truther but now I’m trying something new!! plz enjoy my art meme redraw, i am bad at art but i am crazy about this one leather jacket wearing loser!!

[housecow]

seeing you outright mention you have death feedism tendencies is like a shotgun to the chest (positive)

i have a medical phobia that’s somehow twisted itself into death feedism ngl. also, evil feeders. 😳

someone hellbent on keeping me as fat as possible for as long as they can—knowing what cocktail of drugs keeps my heart pumping, dumbing me down and keeping me pliant with edibles hidden in my food, waking me up every few hours for feedings and funnel sessions instead of letting me sleep so the weight piles on faster than it should..

somewhere deep down i know it’s not good for me. maybe my feeder tells me about all the health problems i have while the feeding tube is in my mouth and i can barely think, but i can’t focus on what they’re saying without getting overwhelmed. if i don’t remember later, it doesn’t really matter, right?

maybe occasionally i’d “come to my senses,” during a lull in the feedings. when my feeder is busy and away for a while, after i’ve made my way through a small mountain of snacks and the mini fridge (full of shakes laced with THC to keep me docile) is just out of reach. maybe i’d try to get up, only to collapse back down because my knee problems finally caught up to me and fuck, it hurts to even try to walk. maybe then i’d finally take a look at where i am, how i’ve given up my life for someone’s (and my own, let’s be real) sick pleasure.

i’d have to deal with that realization for a while. maybe i’d start to cry, unable to handle the reality. eventually, though, my feeder would come back. they’d find me in this state and console me, getting the funnel ready because they can hear my stomach rumbling and it’s been too long since i’ve eaten. they’ll coo into my ear about how it’s all okay, how i asked for this and it’s what we both want.

they’d give my belly a shake, grasping the lowest roll in their hands and enjoying the way it makes my entire body wobble. they’d press a kiss onto the vast expanse of fat above my belly button, an area they were so excited to see expand under their care. they’d struggle a bit to lift one of my tits, eager to see how my breath hitches at the thought of their mouth on me. these are all distractions. they’ve mastered this game of manipulation and there’s no way i’d be able to find my way out of their control. their touch, the food they offer me, even those moments when i’m not high or in a haze of fullness and pleasure, were meant to further ensnare me and ensure i’m theirs for as long as i live.

my health, my life, is in my feeder’s hands. they know what’s best. as long as i keep eating, keep taking the pills they hand me, keep ignoring how hard it is to move and breathe, it will all be fine. or, that’s what i’d tell myself.

[talisthighs]

I’m crying at the idea of Viktor just storming up to Jayce with his “visions.” Girl You Need Help. You Require Medical Attention

This is literally how Jayvik is talking to each other in the lab

[oappleofmyeye]

Do you think Bakugou would be instantly hooked on some sass? Like you’re some civilian who’s just really feeling themselves that day? Confident and on top of the world?

“Think you’re some hot shit, eh?”

You flutter your eyelashes. “I am, thank you for noticing.” And you flip your hair around and saunter off. Later when you come back down to earth you may be horrified and extremely embarrassed that you spoke to the number two Pro Hero of Japan like that

But I dunno. I think it would drive him crazy. What do y’all think?