#idk I’m just talking

[6badchickennuggets]

something i adore about the locked tomb (and Tamsyn’s writing) is that no one is just evil. everyone is the main character of their story and is internally justified in their actions. 

g1deon is actively trying to murder our main character throughout all of book two and it is a PERFECTLY understandable choice for him. that is insane, you don’t see a ton of g1deon haters out there. again harrow is OUR GAL. we do not want to see her dead and yet. he understands Harrow to be a threat to the emperor, and therefore must die. of course.

cytherea murdered perfectly innocent children mercilessly and yet it seems a perfectly reasonable conclusion of her life. if she has to kill everyone in canaan house to get john back here and killed, so be it. it is merciful even, in comparison to a universe ruled by john in her eyes.

mercymorn calls ianthe and harrow infants and babies throughout Harrow. this is incredibly infantalising to the intellect and capacity of them both. it causes harrow to be utterly uncared for in a time when she is the most vulnerable she has ever been and ianthe to be utterly underestimated. and still, that is a perfectly reasonable response for mercymorn. she is ten thousand years old and the infants are 20ish. it’s nothing. they are utterly irrelevant to her material reality for ten. thousand. years. and they present very little impact to the job she has put herself to.

even john, as much as we love to hate him, is treated kindly by the narrative. no one can say he didn’t care. he didn’t nuke the world for fun (and didn’t do it alone). he lied about alecto and yet i do not doubt for a minute that he is internally justified. there must be something about perfect lyctorhood that he deemed reproachable enough to keep it a secret.

[diamantposting]

wht do u think is exactly the relationship between yuripilled rosexatlas ?

I do think they start off as friends (pretty much same as canon) but bc they never meet sel or luna they go their own ways to pursue women but again it’s similar to canon in the sense that atlas Likes women but hasn’t found The One and rose is the community strap … this all changes when rose convinces atlas to go to a lesbian bar w him to find a girl … they both end up getting Very Drunk and going to the bathroom together and one thing leads to another … the following day they act like neither of them remember and swear (to themselves) it wouldn’t happen again bc they’re just Besties 🩷 fast forward to the next time they’re at the bar and rose just… cannot stop looking at atlas… something feels Different.. it’s not the way he usually sees atlas.. after a few more rounds of drinks (yet they’re not Nearly as drunk as before) they head to the bathroom again (with rose leading them there……..) and this is when the second comic.. Occurs.. um but I do think atlas is. Like That to rose because it’s almost his way of accepting like. Oh I’m having sx with my best friend rn (AND IM LIKING IT?!) and also he likes feeling very dominant and putting rose down just.. in a much different way now.. LOL I also think rose (to an extent) enjoys atlas being degrading to him ?!!!?,?!.?!.!? Obviously not excessively degrading but negative attention is still attention I fear ………… do they ever start officially dating ? Hmmm

[heartsmi1es]

thinking about what wild grinders could been it makes me so sad because there is probably never going to be a reboot or a suspiciously similar spiritual successor

[ravenpoefan]

Why does Father seem like the kind of guy to fall asleep with his eyes open?

[g-n-c-quoi]

five or six months ago i stopped taking all of my medication, except my testosterone and my stimulants. cold turkey, all of it- i didn’t bother tapering off or telling any of my doctors, i just… stopped. pain medications, antidepressants, supplements, all of it thrown out the metaphorical window. (i do still have them, i promise. they’ve been steadily accumulating dust on the kitchen counter.)

i also no longer attend therapy. or, well, i’m considering no longer doing so. i’ve sort of accidentally-on purpose lost touch with my therapist, and i’ve no call no showed my last two appointments. she doesn’t know i’m not taking my meds, either.

when i told my mom and my friends about it, i was- understandably- met with concern, bordering on abject horror. it was not unexpected, and their care for me was appreciated, but i just… couldn’t make myself do it. i was exhausted, and i couldn’t help but feel a bitter sort of exasperation with the people in my life who were worried sick about me.

i’ve heard it called “care fatigue” before. when being responsible for the health your body and brain becomes so overwhelming that you simply abandon the idea altogether. i suspect that that’s what’s happened here.

the fact of the matter is, i am working two jobs, going to classes as regularly as i can, struggling to maintain what little of a social life i have, and dealing with my family sort of falling apart around me, and all of this in spite of the fact that my body seems to be held together by a loose collection of rubber bands and spite. so waking up every morning to take nine different pills, and scheduling therapy and doctors appointments, and being more than well aware of how much it’s costing, is simply too much of an undertaking.

and you know what the most ridiculous part of it all is? i barely feel different. sure, i have a few more bad pain days a month than i used to, and my emotions may not be as capital-r Regulated as before, but i would argue that in the grand scheme of things, i might actually be doing better than i was while medicated. i feel like a whole person now.

rest assured, this is not me turning to the crunchy, anti-modern medicine, conspiracy theorist you see all over facebook. to be perfectly clear, i do not recommend doing what i did to literally anyone. but, i don’t know, it feels nice to larp as a healthy person for a while.

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

I Need Screen Time at Night to Fall Asleep As an ADHDer

AJ’s Brain

[infamousmonkey-cat]

i actually think it’s so significant that disco elysium is named after an optional side quest. because the heart of the game is in the margins. same way you don’t get the real ending if you don’t do the (let’s face it, sometimes annoying and disincentivised) cryptozoologist quest line. you have to care about the world and its people, not just grinding through the mystery, to ever really understand anything. which is exactly what the game of suzerainty tells you IF you don’t try to “win”

[solarismp3]

The world is so obsessed with young ppl everything is about what the youth is doing. Everyday id mag is releasing an article on what young ppl in Tokyo are wearing what about middle aged ppl or old ppl who have lived long enough to know the patterns of humanity. Are they not interesting or what

[bookalicent]

yeah so this was insane

[oappleofmyeye]

Do you think Bakugou would be instantly hooked on some sass? Like you’re some civilian who’s just really feeling themselves that day? Confident and on top of the world?

“Think you’re some hot shit, eh?”

You flutter your eyelashes. “I am, thank you for noticing.” And you flip your hair around and saunter off. Later when you come back down to earth you may be horrified and extremely embarrassed that you spoke to the number two Pro Hero of Japan like that

But I dunno. I think it would drive him crazy. What do y’all think?

[twinstxrs]

so much happened in this whole episode but i’m still on fig infiltrating ruben’s dream, making it look like the place where his friend was murdered, and then disguising herself as kipperlilly & repeatedly saying different variants of “somebody needs to take the fall for this, and it’s not going to be me. it’s going to be you.” while adaine as the elven oracle shows up next to her. can you imagine waking up from that, the idea of a horrible truth being pinned on you by your friend to save her own skin while the personification of fate and destiny stands there, almost as a promise that this is GOING to happen to you. we don’t even know if this kid is guilty. my god.

[puppppppppy]

Um so. I remembered The Incident while I was hanging out with Odile

[rystiel]

i feel like poolverine easily could’ve been one of those “they’re flirty but it’s mostly unserious” situations, and for most of the movie yeah they were extremely gay, but wade’s been like that with other guys and it was never treated as a serious type of relationship before. they’re willing to die for each other, but even then the romantic aspect of their relationship could be glossed over because it’s a superhero movie, that’s just what they do, and they’re working together to save a whole timeline—it’s not just about them. but then the movie doesn’t end with them saving the day and moving on. i think this’s really the part that sells poolverine as a genuine relationship to me… logan’s leaving, and wade calls for him. he can’t stand to let him go. then he introduces him to his family, and logan stays. he doesn’t really need to stay, but they’ve both decided they’re better off with one another than without

[sgt-tombstone]

I get why everyone loves to draw Ghost with narrowed eyes (be it from anger, exhaustion, etc) but there’s just something about Ghost with wide eyes that gets me every time…

[800db-cloud]

i’ve been wanting to do this since day one

[teaboot]

I’m sending this anonymously but this is NOT anon hate

You are such a good person, i think. Your latest post(as of 4:10pm Arizona, US time) spoke to me really hard. My father is a cop, in the united states, arizona, duh. And he used to be such a good person, he was a security guard and a damn good one too, and later in he became a prison guard because it paid better, and then he joined the police force.

I’d like to think that hes one of the good ones, and for the most part he is. A lot of my delinquent friends over the years who’ve had run-ins with him say that he gets them breaks, he takes care of them, hes a good cop. I’ve even seen body camera footage of him in the field and i’m proud to say that hes my dad. He calls out bad actors where he sees them, and he gets punished for it. He doesnt see the system or how his punishments are by design. And he continues turning in his cog, begrudgingly, and slightly out of time, but he thinks hes making a difference

Sorry for the ramble and essay, i just wanted to say that i really like your blog and i think you are a very nice human being. Thank you for sharing your perspective.

P.s. i’m totally basing an oc off of your outlook on security. You strike me as more of a superhero than a security guard.

-🦕 anon

Oh, that’s a super flattering take and a valuable perspective- so thank you! But I’m a gullible dumbass, and not even an incredibly smart or fit one- I just want people to be happy and safe. That’s all. And I don’t want to BE a cop, I’ve NEVER wanted to be a cop, but every time the request comes around I feel like I’m wearing down.

I keep wondering if I could help MORE in a position like that.

Probably like your dad did.

Here, people know they’re safe with me because I shut down the gunhappy jerks, but I don’t know how long it would take to truly make a difference in public security, or how many of my morals I’d have to compromise to get to that point

I feel objectively like a system so archaic and flawed can’t be changed from the inside, but another part of me says that you don’t need to change an entire system to make a difference where it counts

I believe that so many bad situations and life-changing moments can be diverted or changed by a single person in the right place at the right time- and I figure, if I trust myself to do the right thing and BE the right person, shouldn’t I do my best to put myself in those places?

But good intentions, roads to hell, you know? I don’t WANT to be a cop. But I want to be able to DO SOMETHING about the thinks I dislike seeing in conflicts. SOMEONE has to be willing to do that, right?

I’m not religious, you know? But the devil can be very convincing