#idk i just wish i could be consistent w things

[throes-of-warm-tornadoes]

if i can get quite vulnerable and real again i feel like i am making no impact on the world + people around me. which would be fine if i didn’t really care about doing that, but i do. i haven’t done volunteer work since high school. i haven’t given back to the community in any way since i started college. and there’s not even any excuse for it. there are so many on campus resources and so many opportunities to take advantage of and i’m just. not doing anything about it. and every time im like that changes NOW it only lasts a couple days and then i slip back into being an absolute bum

also, i just feel so lost!! i’ve known from a very young age that i wanted to be financially independent and now that i have a Big Girl Job opportunity im so scared!! bc on paper it should be everything i want but with any profession its so flawed and i feel like im just gonna be so bogged down by the reality of it all! even though i know i dont have to do it for the rest of my life and even though i know it could be a good stepping stone for ACTUALLY doing what i want, its so terrifying to confront the reality of it all. like this is it. this is the thing you’re gonna spend your 20s doing. and if you decide to do something else then. well. good luck, babe!

[harrylights]

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[starreyblueberry]

Tbh I fully think that if fairy odd parents (the og one) was less episodic and had more character development and longer lasting archs impacting the characters it could have gone down has one of the best shows ever. As much as the show ran itself dry it would come up with plots that were amazing ideas, like the fairy Olympics, the musical, Hell even the cross overs with jimmy. I understand that it’s a kids show so like I shouldn’t be expecting anything and also butch Hartman sucks ass but I wish we had more of a development to Timmy’s character, as well as cosmo and Wanda. It would have made a lot of things easier to to actually progress and get attached too what’s actually going on. They set up the show with this theme of found family, and learning with the people around you, but they never stuck with it. They consistently always ignored what happened in the past and just make Timmy’s life miserable over and over and turn him more into a bratty kid for the sake of the show running, rather then turn it into an actual lesson of growth and maturity and how you can learn it from anywhere.

Timmy just in general deserves a lot better in show terms/writing terms cause he had so much potential to actually be an amazing representation of how you can grow out of your bio family, and tbh a whole like “people shouldn’t forget their fairys” ending would also be nice. Idk there’s alot of missed potential with the og show, especially with how much they worked on our little godparent family w Timmy :(

[hxltic]

Im not sure how to request cause this is like my first time doing it but would u write anything w iwazumis timeskip? like how hes an athletic trainer.. YK DO UR MAGIC idek how to request also x reader if thats ok. THANK U

Hey ofc!! You can be as vulgar and straightforward as you want, this is a safe space😘 (idk if you wanted nsfw or not so if not I’m sorry! I just made it suggestive because I was unsure :P)

The ass crack of dawn peeks through your window, enough to have your body twisting and turning until you’re inevitably forced awake.

Of course you drag yourself to the bathroom and check yourself out a bit, admiring how your new waist training is going and your puffy lips of the morning before brushing your teeth to start the day. Some argue you’re a morning person, but you aren’t. And you feel no kind of guilt admitting that.

You only get up because you have to—to remain consistent, especially with allowing yourself to grow not only physically, but emotionally, finally feeling free from the weights of stress by exercising and feeling good about your figure.

Also, the routine is great for you. It makes you feel productive in the morning, so now when you reflect before, there was this emptiness that came with sitting at home with the same three things you have to do on repeat.

And then of course, the motivation of going to the gym for a man you’ve been seeing around recently. He recognizes you now, probably casually assuming the relationship is nothing more than a mutual gym buddy.

And it’s likewise; you wouldn’t call it a crush. The both of you are grown, just two adults with the same hobby even though you are relatively newer to the activity.

So you pack up your bag and tip your head back for a swig of the protein smoothie you prepared and head out the door.

The gym doesn’t smell anything like how you imagined it would when you first cluelessly walked in. It actually smells clean (mainly from the overwhelming scent of chlorine in the pool water), and it wasn’t super busy around this time. If there were people, they definitely weren’t teenagers coming for their afternoon rounds. The receptionist waves back at you as you pass.

Today was legs. You recognize how far you’ve come, because initially, no day was your favorite, each as long and tortuous as the last. But this has got to be what it means to become accustomed to the pain. Does that make all gym-goers masochists?

If so, Iwaizumi has got to be the worst, because the only other person insane enough—that even remotely looks like he does anything other than train—to be here before you, is him.

“Morning,” you chime. His headphones are off, so the switch that usually tells you when people don’t wish to be spoken to doesn’t go off.

To your delight, he responds with just as much pleasure without turning around, currently sitting on the Lax machine and tugging the resistant handles. “Good morning,” he grunts.

He eventually does, even as he attempts to convince himself to stay focused on his set, but even the discipline he’s built over the years couldn’t prevent him from catching a glimpse of you. You were sitting your stuff down nearby, relocating to the floor to stretch.

He’s been watching you. Not in a creepy way, he justifies, but it becomes a habit when you’re working how he does.

Your progress is a miracle. He could count on one hand the amount of people that come in fresh and immediately get to working, just to return consistently, and cycle through this process until they reach their desired figure and continue after that. You, however, stepped in with a determination on your face he’d never seen before.

You hadn’t requested a trainer, and by what he sees, didn’t need one either. He remembers when you came in talking about how badly you wanted to rid of your little tummy, as well as slim down your plush thighs, pleading someone to teach you how. Of course he knew how; he keeps his work strictly professional with the women who come in asking for the same thing.

He’d always found the little pudge attractive, but it’s your body. It’s just somehow, he wasn’t on the verge of telling them how good it looks or the pure desire he has to press on the fat while his head is between their thighs like he was you. Someone must have heard his prayers though, because instead of slimming your legs down, you became comfortable with the idea of them getting stronger, ultimately making them slightly thicker.

The man was close to finishing the set, but that one glimpse of you had him do five extra for good measure since he lost count. How could he focus?

As you split your legs and tilt to one side, you watch him not too far. The black compression shirt he wears hugs his carved body perfectly, only cementing this fact as his back and arm muscles flex with every controlled pull of the bar. Everything about him was sharp from his shape to the hair on his head.

It was no doubt he was attractive, and since having graduated high school, attention wasn’t just found anywhere. Maybe some small talk will help?

“What are you doing today?” He hears you call. He almost flinches with what he thinks you’re asking until you add, “Workouts I mean.”

Iwaizumi chuckles at your mishap, more for himself, but it flushes your cheeks nonetheless. It’s a genuine, gentle sound. “Arms. Tomorrow is core,” he says coolly.

“I hate arms. I should probably do them more often, but lifting is only fun if you’re already strong.”

“I see where you’re coming from,” he pulls off the machine, rotating himself on the seat to face you. You’re in a lunge now, oversized t-shirt covering half of the skin tight shorts desperately trying to contain the glutes you’ve grown. He makes sure to force his emerald green eyes to yours. “You won’t get stronger if you don’t give it a try.”

You scoff, “You sound like my old therapist.”

The humor you two shared was nothing more than the surface level awkward kind so this unexpected comment from you had him laughing. Actually laughing. “And you sound like an old friend of mine.”

Smiling at this, you get one more good stretch in and come to your feet. You stand proudly with your hands on your hips, staring at him.

He blinks around happily, “What?”

“You said to give it a try right? Show me the way."

—•—

“I can’t do this,” you say, already struggling just with the form part of the exercise. You switched positions with him since it was closest machine. “How do I pull it if I can’t move my back?”

“Well, that’s the workout part,” he walks around the seat while inspecting you, waiting for you to figure it out with his advice. “Sit up completely straight and slightly lean back. Stay in that position the entire time, but try to pull the bar down to you instead of pulling yourself up to it.”

You try to replicate what you saw him doing. By this point, you had gotten majority of the positioning right, even keeping your back straight, but the damned bar wouldn’t move an inch. “Are you sure the setting on this thing is right?”

“Oh shit—” He pauses at this, then renders that you’re completely right. You’re trying to pull his weight.

As he shuffles over to the side of the machine to adjust it, you watch him with a smug expression and your arms crossed. I’m not just that weak, I knew it, it reads.

Moments later he comes back around, “That’s my bad, try it now.”

And you’re finally able to do it, but your form falters when you successfully pull the bar to your chest. He knows you know, you’re a smart girl, so he gives you a few more tries to correct it. “I feel like I’m about to fall,” you say finally.

“Here, that means you’re leaning too far.” He comes and presses a hand to your back, pushing you forward. “Don’t think about it too much. I’ll hold you right here for a few until you can support yourself.”

He was already hovering beside you, lurking and seeping into all your senses, making the air warmer than it usually is in the gym. With his palm on your back too, you’re starting to think this little affection of yours is getting out of hand. You don’t even look to see how much it has helped.

Somehow, you do eventually get through the sets, but you hadn’t realized that during that time he would actually train you. It was progressive overload, and he brought the weight up to what he thought you could handle each time. You were on the last few.

“C’mon, you got it.”

“I don’t,” you grunt while somewhat laughing, still pulling it to your chest. His voice is more declarative now. You deem it as his professional tone. You also wonder which voice he tends to use in—

“You do. It’s one more—make it your best.”

And you do just that, slumping on the seat in victory.

“Good girl,” he praises, clapping, and he changes the weight on the machine to just five before twisting around and holding a hand out. He helps you up when you take it, but you’re really trying to figure out if what he said was professional if it made you clench your thighs.

“Ready for the next?” His lips stretch into a smile, already predicting your answer.

You bend and get your smoothie, popping the top and drinking, “There’s a next? What’s next?”

“Pull ups of course.”

Truthfully, doing pull ups right after lax for someone who doesn’t really train arms is a death wish. It’s just this once though, and your arms will already be sore, so he might as well make the most of it while the adrenaline is there.

“Oh dear God,” you sigh.

“I’ll do them with you,” he reassures, chuckling.

—•—

And he stands on his word, because after walking over to the bar, he clips the belt attached to weight around his hips. The bar was relatively high, even he can admit, so he isn’t surprised when you ask how the hell you’re supposed to get up there.

And you weren’t even necessarily short, it’s just the bar was made for six-feet-and-over men and athletes. So people like you were left out, hence the stacked boxes meant for help beside it.

Iwaizumi makes sure the belt is secure around himself before walking over to you, taking a stance directly behind.

He commands, “Arms up, sweetheart.” And it must be the proximity, because you do just that without a fight. The pet name contributed too, you’re sure.

But when he lifts you, he first drags his hands from your shoulder blades, to your ribs, and into the small of the your back. So smooth you’re questioning if he did it on purpose.

He couldn’t help it. Not when he’s hovering behind you, almost a foot taller. With one small nudge of his hips forward, he’d rest comfortably right between your ass, smelling the coconut shampoo of your hair. Though instead of being a pervert, he’d stick to the nicknames and the gentle touches until you get the damn hint.

Sometime later he’s effortlessly hauling himself up, counting one by one with you. He says you’ll only do 3 sets of ten as if it was easy. Either way, it was burning by the ninth.

—•—

Finally you’re done. The only reason your arms aren’t completely limp is your heightened senses from being around the attractive man next to you. He literally regulates your blood flow.

And you for damn sure regulate his.

“Okay, now you have to do my workouts,” you perk up.

He unclips the belt, turning to face you, amused. “I have to do your workouts?”

Your arms come to a cross offensively. “What does that mean? Yes. I did your arm day, now you have to do my leg day.”

He throws his hands in the air defensively, the curl of his lips threatening to break his character, “I’m just saying it won’t be the sa—”

“This way!”

—•—

This was a horrible idea.

He’s situated on the angled leg press machine at a diagonal, now gripping onto the handle bars. The amount of circular plates you usually have on it are already there. You’re standing beside him.

“Are you sure you don’t want to add weight? I usually go more than this,” he challenges.

“Fuck you— no.”

His laughter intensifies at your irritation. Then he brings his legs down slow and controlled, somehow still managing to appear like he could do it with his fucking finger if he tried. You’re not surprised, he’s extremely fit; though you had already catered to this by changing the weight to whatever your highest weight was.

He guffaws again at your blank expression. “Fine. How much more do you need?” You sigh.

He appears to think for a moment. Instead of calculating the math like he should be, he’s actually doing nothing of the sort. “Get up there.”

He bends his legs as if confirming he’s dead serious by allowing you to actually step foot on the back of the plate. You stand there still, having not even realized what he’s asking you to do. “What?”

“Get your sweet ass up there and that should be about what my usual weight is.” He shoots a nonchalant glance to the machine. “You won’t fall, if that’s what’s bothering you.”

After a few moments, with an incredulous look painted on your face, you slowly step to the lowered machine, and push yourself up and on to the back, past the weighted plates, to sit not-very-comfortably in the middle. “Uhm…”

“Perfect.”

This time, it didn’t look as easy, but he very much did an entire press to extend his legs out. You watch in wonder over the plate as he carried your weight and plus some just in his legs.

It was his arm day, and you didn’t get to fully watch him do the pull ups since the focus was keeping yourself on the bar. But you got a glimpse when he finished, biceps flexing and pulling extra weight then too. He was strong. You wonder if he puts it to use with his partner?

With his partner. What if he does have a partner? You shake your head, no, he wouldn’t have asked you to do what you’re doing if he did.

His grunts were a nice addition too.

Counting for him aloud, and not completely sure if you didn’t skip a number even though you’re only going to ten, you helped him through the set. It had been a while since there was someone to cheer him on. He was always doing the cheering.

“Okay okay,” you wait for him to finish the set, then get off. It feels so good to have your feet on the ground, sure that you won’t be yelled at by the gym staff to remove yourself from the equipment. “You’ve proved yourself, muscleman.”

“Great, I’ll take you out Saturday then?” He asks, pressing up the remaining weight easy and locking up the machine so he can leave it.

A flush runs across your cheeks, driving you to pick up your drink and sip to hide it. “You don’t know me. What if I have a husband and kids at home?”

You were projecting, you know that. It was fresh on your mind since you slightly wanted to ask him the same question. He stalks over to you.

“I don’t see a ring on your finger,” he observes, nodding to your right hand, making you look as if you didn’t know it was bare. He only stops walking until you’re face to face, way too close to just be a professional interaction. It only worsens when his thumb and index finger pinches your chin, his eyes sending flames through yours. “And let’s both be honest— if there was someone waiting for you at home, you wouldn’t be here with me.”

Let alone at the gym at all, he wanted to add. Whatever pussy was letting you come here to workout instead of telling you how good it feels to have your thick thighs ricocheting off his skin or how good your stretch marks look after being swollen with a child for nine months, doesn’t deserve you anyway.

He doesn’t kiss you, but he swipes your lips with his finger and retreats. The heat doesn’t dissipate.

“Saturday at 7?” You speak softly. So softly and breathless you aren’t even sure if he heard it as he walks away.

“My number’s in your bag, beautiful,” he winks, and then he’s turning the corner, back to where you met earlier in the morning.

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[nqueso-emergency]

''Eddie leans on Buck because he's not going to give it to him blunt like the others need to.''

This!! I could never fully place my finger on how or why I felt like eddie like needed (thats not the right word but its the only one that comes to mind) buck but buck never seemed to need him back in the same capacity if that makes sense?

I'm a relatively new viewer! like bucktommy new lol I hope you dont hate that 🙏 but watching all the seasons SOOO CLOSE together rrly allowed me to ig see how their relationship progressed in a really clear light and consistently throughout the seasons buck goes to other ppl confides in other ppl seeks comfort and advice from other ppl he has sooooo many different interactions his cup is full yk? well rounded eg his main advice person? bobby! his comfort person (most of the time) maddie! u get me but for eddie its always been buck? for everything advice comfort etc its never sat right with me bc

I rmbr being young and like 15-16 maybe? and legit relaying on one friend for everything but like this is gonna make me sound like a bitch bc ofc everyone has a best friend! and is different etc but i realised I could not go to her for everything like she was shit at comforting she did not do a good job but shes the absolute best advice giver ik - and anyway I got so off track here what I'm trying to say is that eddie needs to expand his circle and i really really hope w/ buck spending more time with tommy he does! I did initially start watching the show for them but i srsly fell in love w all the characters and i rrly want eddie to hv an arc abt making some friends! and anyway im so off topic the thing I wanted to say is you hit the nail on the head of how I felt abt their friendship- buck is too kind and soft (idk the right words those dont fit) but hes too loving? to tell eddie how it is blunt as fuck as he should bc i swear to u sometimes while watching I just wish someone would hit eddie with like ALL OF IT!!! the man needs to hear it sometimes 😭

i start yelling at the tv 'wheres frank! someone get frank!' tbh frank needs to be like on speed dial anyway! i got so off course ty for listening to my rant u dont hv to respond i went WAYYYY off course 😭 sending u lots of love and less anon hate in ur box always darling 🫶

Is this Lou?? Lmao!! You're good, anon!!!

But yes. Buck sugarcoats shit for Eddie. Eddie doesn't need that right now.

[straykids-97]

Just had a thought… 💭

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Rating Ateez/Stray kids on a scale from 1-10 on who would be a dom.

Starting off w Ateez 🫶🏻🖤

Kim Hongjoong

9/10

He would have been a solid 10, but because of his introverted personality and ability to be soft, I give him a 9. But, still, don’t disobey him cuz he’ll keep track… 👀 If I had to say what kind of Dom Hongjoong would be, I would have to say he's a HEAVY pleasure leaning. Though, I also feel like he'd tease and like to make fun of his subs, calling them 'dumb' or things like that. I also feel like because of his creative nature, he'd have very interesting ways to discipline his subs as well.

Park Seonghwa

6.5/10

I feel like he’s Dom leaning but he’s gentle with everyone around him. He was almost a 7, but he’s too soft to be demanding enough. But, he can be stern, so I feel like Hwa can definitely be at least a soft dom, pleasure-leaning. Also, feel like he'd be really kinky. IDK why. Hwa would be so into teasing, just watching his sub be whiny and needy would melt him.

Jeong Yunho

10/10

Solid 10. NEVER TRUST AN EXTROVERT GOLDEN RETRIEVER. Like c’mon PEOPLE. He ain’t got no business being the way he is. And that’s a damn MENACE TO SOCIETY. Like, gaw damn. I'm too down bad for this man. He's not even my ult bias LMFAO. Whew. Let's just say, when he gives you this look, just pray either you're on the way home or that there is somewhere mostly private because it is OVER for you. Also, he's an Aries, enough said.

Kang Yeosang

5/10

He’s waaaay too squishy. I feel if you pushed enough he’d start to bite back, if you catch my drift. Poor baby is so clueless most of the time so I don’t know if he’d be able to keep up with a sub. But, he can easily switch when needed. I feel like he'd be more a soft dom, letting you know who's really in charge when needed. I feel like he'd want to be dominant in whatever relationship he seeks out, just because NEVER trust the quiet ones. They tend to be freaky. That's why Yeo get's a 5.

Choi San

5.5/10

(I feel like this one is going to be controversial lol) I feel like he has the potential to be a Dom, if anything, a pleasure Dom. He’s not someone who’s into brat-taming or anything like that. He spanks you, but only does it playfully, never as a punishment. If he ever were to punish you, it would be the silent treatment, consisting of him being pouty until you apologize. It's not typical of him to be dom leaning, he even insists you acting bratty, it amuses him more than anything. But, GOD FORBID you make him look a fool... Not even Satan can help you.

Song Mingi

5/10

I wish. WISH this man were more Dom, but he’s not 😭. He’s definitely a switch, if he were to Dom, it would be more pleasure than anything. Ugh ;-; I don’t think y’all understand how bad I wanted to rate him higher, but I can’t. Princess Mingi is evidence that he is not fully Dom 💔 though I could totally see him embracing the punishment side for mostly his pleasure, I don't see him being a dom most of the time. I feel like if he were to Dom, it would be mostly to entertain his 'sub'. He would definitely be into dummification, get off on making fun and calling you names.

Jung Wooyoung

6.5/10

Soft Dom Central ‼️ my man Woo can take the bratty out of a brat by using their weapons against them. Though, once he’s fed up, he’d fed up. Best not to make him too mad. I also feel like he’d definitely have unique punishments as well. Not the typical sexual punishments that you might expect, it might be something like, oh, you want to read, should have thought about that before you flirted with that guy at the coffee shop. (You didn't actually, but because his possessive and gets jealous easily, he thought so).

Choi Jongho

10/10

10. Why? Tell me that this man isn’t a Dom, when he gives you one of these. My man EXUDES Dom energy. Like meanie, laugh in your face while you cry, edging, overstimulating, spit in your open mouth, smack your face while fucking you 1000% Hard Dom. Don't trust a quiet man, never. Them introverts sometimes will getcha. And Jongho doesn't seem to fuck around. He's more of a 'fuck around and find out'. I feel like he'd tie up his sub and tease you, an unbothered King, as his sub literally cries. Meanie :(

And NOW for Stray Kids 🫶🏻

Bang 'Christopher' Chan

9.5/10

I don't even want to talk about it. He would be a 10 but he's too squishy and cute to be so. But, he definitely is a 9.5 because gaw damn. Chan is definitely a brat tamer. He likes to watch you acting 'silly' and 'dumb'. He thinks it's adorable when you try to make him mad, cuz damn he's got the patience of a saint. But he wait until Chan gets you alone... He let's his sub do whatever they want in public, even making a fool of themselves. And then when they get home, LAWD TAKE THE WHEEL.

Lee Minho

8/10

Lee Know let me tell you something, *scoots closer* is a meanie. He would laugh in his sub's face while calling them dumb, or something slanderous like 'whore'. Or both. Depends on how mad they make him. Also likes to tease and edge his sub, and laugh at them. :(: You cannot tell me the Lee Minho is not a meanie when he doms. He would laugh at his sub and make them shake and just keep teasing until they're sobbing. But they never say their safe word, so he doesn't stop.

Seo Changbin

7/10

I give Changbin a 7 because I feel like mans is too soft to be more stern. But, rest assured, he'll put his foot down if you get a little too handsy with someone other than him. Probably a soft Dom, tbh. He'll make you feel all gooey while telling you horrendous things... (Go wild w that heh.) I feel like he'd tie up his subs and suspend them just so he can move them around however he pleases.

Hwang Hyunjin

5.5/10

I don't think Hyunjin would dom, if he would, then he'd definitely be a soft dom, and only when his sub asked. HOWEVER. Don't push his buttons because I feel like he's all about orgasm denial... Just because he wants the session to last longer, and he also likes to watch his sub writhe around and loves to hear their moans. He would definitely be so into food play or even paint play (wrote a fic about this). He's just so artsy, and I feel like that would stem into his sexual life as well.

Han Jisung

3/10

Poor Hannie. Tsk. If anything, Han would be a switch, more sub-leaning. He's too soft and doughy to be rough or mean with anyone. That doesn't mean he won't occasionally try just for you though... I feel like he would be more into making his significant other orgasm rather than orgasm himself. A definite giver for sure.

Lee 'Felix' Yongbok

1/10

I can't give him a zero, so I give him a one. The only thing dominant about this man would be his deep voice, which he would use to his advantage. But, if he had a Dom bone in his body, it would be like, his pinkie toe. His skzoo is literally a chick, like, c'mon. Personally, I don't feel like Felix could be mean enough while being a Dom, he'd be constantly worried about his sub, too worried about their well being rather than if they're enjoying themselves.

Kim Seungmin

8.5/10

I feel like Seungmin gets slept on. NEVER trust the quiet ones. They're reserved for a reason. It's because they have secrets. Seungmin has proved he can intimate his older band members, so I'm sure this man could easily do this to anyone, regardless of age. That being said, I feel like Seungmin is too rough to be a soft dom but too nice to be a hard dom. So, he's in the middle somewhere heh. I feel like he has the potential of being a hard/ meanie dom when needed, so it's entirely up to the sub how he'll act for them.

Yang 'I.N.' Jeongin

8/10

Like Seungmin, I.N. get's SLEPT on. He's often not seen as someone who can be a dom because he's seen as the 'baby' of the group. But, as I have said before. NEVER TRUST A QUIET MAN! Quiet men are ALWAYS freaky. They be shy for a reason. This man has a point to prove, he ain't a baby. And I feel like he'd definitely be a hard/pleasure dom. And like Seungmin, his sub chooses how he'll treat them. Be a good sub, and you'll have endless pleasure. Be bad and well, he's got plenty of ways to discipline them.

I hope you all liked this! It's all personal thoughts based on what I have seen of them. THIS IS IN NO WAY how they really are. This is me simply rating them on a scale if they would/ could ever dom.

Anyway, enjoy! Posting a poll for the second part of The Red Saga soon!

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[t1oui]

been feeling kind of frustrated w life lately

idk how many people know this on here but i’m aroace

ik there’s a lot of discussion on tumblr and the internet etc. about aspec people not really being recognized within the lgbtq+ community but if i’m being honest the aro/aroace community is actually the one i feel most isolated by

i’d say i’m a very romance- & sex-positive person. do i want to have sex? no. do i want to have a romantic relationship? absolutely not. but a lot of times when i see aro content in fandom it’s complaining about how everything is about romance (which is totally valid!!!) and i can’t help but feel weird for not having the same problem.

i even feel alienated from one of my good friends, who is also an aroace writer. she is constantly talking about headcanoning favorite characters as aroace and making all of her own characters aroace too. she’s just so excited by her identity, and i wish i was the same.

tbf, this friend has known she’s aroace for less than a year while i have known for about 3 years now. but while she has embraced being aroace, i find myself consistently wishing that i was alloromantic. not allosexual - i’ve never had a problem with being ace - but alloromantic.

if i wasn’t aro, by inability to like someone back wouldn’t have ruined our friendship. if i wasn’t aro, i could talk about crushes with my friend and not just feel weird about him bringing up romance. but i am aro. and being isolated from my own community just makes it so hard to accept that.

there’s a difference between reading, watching, and writing romance and being told by the outside world (usually allo people) that i have to feel all those things myself. but i also feel like a fraud when i’m not trying to build a fandom community that doesn’t revolve around romance.

idk. it’s just annoying that we’re all saying “it’s a spectrum” but i can’t seem to find people on that spectrum who are like me.

[thegnomelord]

Chomp

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(Alright Brainrot time! Lets shake some stuff up a tad.I spun a wheel and it landed on gaz, (thats i lie he needs more love) This is a bit long so get ready! A song i listen too was breakfast by half alive. It was so good.

Gaz always loved the night sky, despite how much his mother caws at him that it's dangerous to be out flying in the dark. What if you hit a skyscraper, you cant tell where the coulds are, what if you fly into a jet engine or out to sea?!

Gaz would try and calm his mother from lossing her feathers. "Its fine ma! Everything has lights now!" He would coo, giving her a good hug before taking off. As true as it is, he dosent tell the whole truth of where he flyes off too.

The forest pitch dark and void of any light, perfect for the stars to shine without any pollution made by humans. Night after night he'd always love the feeling of flying on his back and just gazing at the stars.

He knows that there's a possiblity that theyre dead, but isnt it just the more beautiful. You're witnising the efforts, the energy of a giant ball of pure flaming gas long after its been gone. It gives him the hope there's always something after the life he lives. That there's always more then just the void.

And the void adores him for it. He dosent know the stars stare back at him. Twinkling, blinking and cooing, burning as much as their mass as they can, to alluminate the tricks the happy harpy would make in the night.

The void always reaches out to him, wishing to just pluck him from the earths atmosphere and craddle him in the cold vaccume of their arms.

The closest they could ever get to them were their dreams. Lucid and fragile, if Gaz were to ever focus and try to remember their face, they'd poof and wake up drenched in sweat that he'd have to clean from his feathers.

He'd beg. Whenever he'd be just a bit concious. To tell them anything, anyway they'd could meet up. To see each other and actually be there to hug him, to love him.

The void tries, with all they have, to tell him. Their rituals, their cults, their practices, anything. But after being forgotten into the times of the past, it was hard to hold a conversation that gaz could actually remember.

So the only word, that he void knew gaz could recall was their name, one that mortals could utter.

It nearly drove Gaz mad when he couldn't find anything. Not a word of their exsitence. Seriously! He studied latin for this?!

One thing that keeps him going, keeps him sane, is his dreams.

He'd meet people he felt were real, people who were just as smitten with the void as him.

A werewolf that would have the funkiest mowhawk even when he'd bring along his wolf soul. They'd tustle and play in the fields of tall grass their void would create for them just to playi in.

A dragon-born with the prettiest wings. Snarky and daredevil attitude, challenging gaz to th stupidest ideas. Where they'd challenge each other to races, practice arial performances and get tossed around by the void.

A human, with a horrendous home life. That the void was his only safe space away from all the horrors. Gaz would tell him stories and recipies his family would cook, in attempts to share the love. Their void would craddle them in better warmth then when his mother would wrap him in a hug before he grew in his plumage.

He knew these people were real, they held coversations he could remember, their face grew with the passage of time they knew of each other, their faces and their names, their likes and personalities. They were all consistent.

He just hoped that one day, they could meet.)

FUCK SHARKY THAT"S SO GOODXDDDXDXD

IDK why but this reminds me of that one post on here where the earth is wrapped around the wings of a giant raven and the moon is it's eye. And the raven is absolutely in love with the world and the little people on it, but most of all it loves the beings that stare up at it's star speckled wings with adoration.

oh oh, what if it's not the first time Gaz has met them? What if they all fell for the void beyond their world countless millennia ago, meeting up when they all inevitably died to be cradled by the thing they loved most.

But eternal life is boring for those who weren't made to be eternal, so after hearing their wishes you let them return to earth, casting their souls to be reborn and live and die and reborn again just like the moon waxes and wanes. Sometimes they meet to fall in love all over again, sometimes they live in times of peace, sometimes they're born on opposing sides of the same conflict, never sure why the face of their enemy feels so intimately familiar until death reminds them of everything.

And you're there, watching, waiting, seeing that same love in their eyes be born over and over and over again.

[astraldrake]

tfs thoughts beneath the readmore note: contains spoilers for the entire campaign

the opening vision we get when we enter the traveler... i ended up watching it multiple times (computer issues ;-;) but MAN was it cool the inside of the traveler in general looks super funky, im going to have to do a no hud run at some point just for screenshots. shoutout to bungie for giving us a sparkly pink rainbow subclass, just in time for pride month lol weapon unsunsetting means i get to pull all sorts of old friends out of the vault. (python, the vow, steelfeather repeater, perfect paradox, etc...) i'm pretty ambivalent abt cayde generally but they did a good job w/ his characterization. i was worried he'd end up being kind of grating but so far he's been okay i was (initially) delighted to see targe. i was not anticipating that they were introducing him just so they could kill him off 5 minutes later. i have mixed feelings on zavala's characterization but it's been a minute since i buried my face into the ishtar collective lore vault so maybe it's just my memory being unreliable. for him to just lose it and start acting irrationally like that felt odd. maybe it's bcs we havent seen him in a while? idk it just felt off. (tbf you could point out that it's probably a byproduct of being forced to relive one of the most unpleasant moments of his entire life so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ fear and desperation can make people do strange things) ikora was cool, idk she didn't read as ooc or anything to me, her reunion with cayde was very sweet, though in hindsight i wish they'd given her a little more to do. seasonal stuff has struggled to give consistency to crow but i appreciate this expansion's efforts to tie up some of those threads more neatly. (i lost it when he pulled out an iron battleaxe, i did not expect that plot point to get touched on!! also it was cool!) i am still irritated that they fridged amanda ( i ignored that part of canon so hard it kinda smacked me in the face when they mentioned her.) i love luzaku, and i would kill for luzaku. ( finally! friendly hive!) i did like the emphasis on ghost and guardian relationships throughout the expansion's story. (also ghost as the location vendor!!!! having regular chats with him while we go through the story!!! the fact he becomes increasingly damaged and wounded throughout the campaign giving me the distinct dread that he might die!!!)

the fact the traveler is letting out intermittent shrieks of pain... MAN... the return of the glowing bird as our guide! (also the fact that the grenade projectile for song of flame looks like a bird... i dont think they're actually connected but it is giving me Ideas.) speaking of song of flame, i kind of expected it to be more underwhelming than it is?? it's actually pretty fun! prismatic is a lot of fun to mess around with! nothing like throwing a storm grenade at an enemy to simultaneously proc devour and amplify. the speaker mask exotic is also giving me Ideas >:) i lost my shit when they mentioned Micah-10. she's one of the last lore characters i expected them to pull out of the hat but i am delighted to see her in game, and seemingly as more than just a cameo too, as far as i can tell. pretty ambivalent abt the whole "player character is the most powertful being in the universe and the chosen one" thing. it's kinda where i figured they'd take it and i dont hate the trope so eh whatever. im glad they actually gave me cover for some of these story missions. i did not super enjoy lightfall's strategy of throwing me in a room with one million guys and a few tiny scraps of cover. ( the radial mast double tank fight... *shudders* ) difficulty wise legendary wasn't all that painful, there were a few fights i struggled with, but a change of loadout, or a little trial and error was pretty much all i needed. i def understand why they've saved the witness fight for the raid, but if my raiding history is anything to got by im certainly not doing day one, but that doesn't mean ill never touch it. (ive missed most of the newer raids, im just not that much of a people person.) ill try and take some day 1 screenshots of the opening area at least. also wrt post campaign!! i loved playing projectile tennis with savathun. all the two queens stuff was great tbh sav is such a fun villian. like yes!! you do owe us nothing and are only going to swoop in to help us bcs we have a bigger threat to deal with!! we can go back to trying to outscheme eachother once this is over!! ( also hey, they brought back adventures! i thought they'd never do that!) also what ive played of the crode camping trip (i forgot the mission name) has been fun. just me and the bois, out exploding screebs. ( then the game crashed so i guess i gotta go play that again lmao) overall i think this expansion is pretty good! i havent even gotten to the seasonal stuff yet, much less some of the regular patrol stuff for the pale heart.

[throwingmuses]

may I ask what your hair texture is like if that drying method works for you 👀 mine is 2C-ish with dry ends, and my products aren’t always consistent so your way sounds like a dream. Does it ever make your curls stringy? How often do you wash it? Tysm if you answer, I’m desperate to escape the hold my hair routine has on my life lol

no problem at all and i hope i can help somehow!!! tbh im not super involved in the hair care world beyond what ive figured out via experimentation when it comes to managing my own hair; and thru further research i'd say my hair is somewhere between 2b and 2c, but i'll still share my "routine" (if u can even call it that lol) if it helps!! i wash + condition my hair every 2-3 days, and i try to avoid leave-in products as much as possible due to sensory issues (also they tend to be costly as FUUUUCK). I shaved my head about 2 years ago and since then have challenged myself to see how it grows w/o any interference from products and heat tools mostly from a point of curiosity. it's been going pretty well though i could definitely use a little trim at this point cuz ive been seeing a decent amount of split ends recently lol. if i'm honest i have a hard time gauging what ""good"" hair looks like because im perfectly happy with having a buncha fly-aways and inconsistent hair texture and whatnot. i just use whatever shampoo/conditioner is affordable at the time without making my hair feel like coarse straw, which i've found is pretty individual so it takes a lotta trial-and-error til ya find what works best for your hair, and from there i towel/air dry. in terms of products my preference is either tresemme or aussie if ive got a choice, but it definitely depends on whats available to you within your price bracket. i also havent used any heat tools whatsoever on my hair since i shaved my head, so that might also impact things... idk i wish i could be of more help!! hair care can be so tricky and misleading as well... i wish you the best and hope this was at least somewhat helpful!!

[kuromi-hoemie]

i wish the fast reblog bubbles were consistent >.> like... I Know i shouldn't develop a muscle memory for them but i DO and i end up putting stuff on the wrong blog p often bc they get shuffled around.

what if instead of floating random bubbles it just had like a popup list u could slide ur finger to - and depending on how many side-blogs u had u could scroll down to share to one of the other ones too by letting go over it.

on that note too just like, having zero control over which specific blogs do(n't) appear in the fast rb bubbles.. i feel like there r actually GOOD useful updates that could be pursued over having a snooze button for live no one asked for and pushing the TumblrTV UI to be applied to all images and videos on the regular dash (that again, no one asked for).

they could also have a much better feature testing/reception workflow than how they currently do things, like maybe ppl who have tumblr labs enabled can do beta testing and give feedback instead of pushing features onto a much larger scale of people and rolling it back, maybe, because of all the backlash over it.

idk. I'm just thinking about the direction of things and how it's been going on here 😐 like The Good Thing about tumblr is its community and wherever we are in the long run we'll make it work, but these days I think A LOT about the thermocline of trust thread and wonder:

how much longer until tumblr hits it bc tbh i can tell the user base is becoming more n more fed up over each change and

what that next platform we're gonna move to will be.

I know tumblr is kind of an anomaly for even lasting as long as it has but i think that's all the more reason to be aware of how fickle things probably are ykwim? i almost wish they WOULD pass that threshold out of spite but also 😬 i love hanging w y'all on here and what we share together so idk. these are just fleeting thoughts.

The trust thermocline thread ↓

[jack-kellys]

Charlie for the ask game??

YES YES yes. yes.

send me a fandom/ship/character and i’ll tell you some stuff!!

him him nothing but him miles and piles of him <3

How I feel about this character:

i’ll admit it. crutchie was not my main man in the past. he felt like a bit of a shoehorn based on the content i had, like ok of course they get rid of the disabled best friend for most of the show. like wtf. but i’ve evolved, i now am like ok that’s bad writing but it doesn’t make crutchie a bad character. and this is just. matthew duckett alone is a crutchie dissertation LMAO!! i LOVE CRUTCHIE!! i love his position with jack, i love his standings with the newsies, i love his resilience, his new more jaded take vs. the sunshine naive one of THE PAST (it’s of the past bc i personally killed it and stabbed it to death so that it would die. you’re welcome), he’s so sarcastic and dedicated to the strike and to jack. mans keeps his chin up and i am obsessed with him for it. he’s just SO COOL now like not only is he a good character he is genuinely a cool fucking character. fuck yeah. only took ten years (or. oh my god. thirty? 1992 is… thirty years ago?)

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character:

um! fuck it i’ll be controversial— i honestly have no issues with jackcrutchie! all the newsies call each other brothers through the whole show and this fandom ships them anyway, and the 15 year old crutchie is now. a myth. thank god. because a revival has happened that has purposefully not taken jackshit from bway and there’s no way they got matthew duckett playing a FIFTEEN YEAR OLD LMAOO.. so jackcrutchie is valid and their relationship is interesting and complicated w/ refuge stuff to do i think there’s a lot of pull from! more than. uh. most ships in this fandom.

also crutchie is almost never paired with anyone romantically and i wish it was a mystery as to why. so if he wants to kiss jack kelly… who am i to tell a fic writer what to do. but also… crutchie and davey. i could have thoughts if they were dropped in my inbox.

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character:

OKAY WELL YEAH it is jack and crutchie. i can be a jackcrutchie ally and not ship it consistently. their history together is the longest in the show’s context and i love how clear it is… i think crutchie’s love for new york and jack’s growing distaste of it is REALLY fascinating given the fact crutchie is the one thrown in jail and he is still like. but this is my city. like wow. idk that’s so… so fascinating for them two

My unpopular opinion about this character:

my unpopular opinion is that the hashtag ‘let crutchie say fuck’ agenda is still rooted in like a quirky infantilism. like when the child learns a bad word. what

anyway hashtag crutchie does say fuck

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

i wish crutchie got to talk to jack about the strike. because one minute they’re talking about santa fe, the next prices are raised and crutchie is saying how they should just buy their papers and keep surviving, and then suddenly we are on strike. i want a like. “what happened to leaving new york, mr. president?” kind of conversation between them especially since crutchie is IN OPPOSITION of jack. fuck me i’ll do it myself if i have to

Favorite friendship for this character:

DAVID JACOBSDSNDND!!! i think there’s this weird kind of recognition that crutchie has with davey, like this knowledge that jack needs someone like this to bring him down to earth. like. this Approval crutchie has of davey is fucking awesome, very clear in uksies. also they’re shown talking together a lot, after WWK they r at the center table like Deeply discussing something before davey says his line. ugh<3

also the way crutchie gives davey (yes not the other way around. davey like comes over to him and crutchie invites him in for a hug) is so personal to me oh my god!!

THANKS CAM!!

[whatudowhennooneseesyou]

Hey, your local ace is back! I honestly come looking for comfort or idk cuz being demisexual/asexual in today’s society is HARD. I have always been confused to what ‘being good in bed’ consists of. I understand it involves the whole communication thing but people say ‘sex is like any other skill, you have to do it a lot in order to be good’ and I am like ‘okay but what if casual sex is not my thing? Do I just stay an ‘awkward virgin’ forever?’. It almost feels like I need to be promiscuous in order to be enough. I am demi so I want to do it with someone I plan to live the rest of my life with but all the discussion of being good at sex makes me feel so self conscious, I want to do good for my future bf but the thought of not being attractive enough makes me want to shrivel up lolol. Even though I got an hourglass body, big boobs, wide hips and good butt (thank you parents!) all of this makes me feel so…Unattractive and ugly. I also feel like if my bf told me I wasn’t pleasuring him I would break up with him and run for the hills out of embarrassment 🤸‍♂️🤸‍♂️🤸‍♂️. So my question to the class is: is the emotional connection not enough for sex? Cuz I always thought it would be for me. How do you get ‘good at sex’ without having a hoe era or whatever? Lolol I am a nerd so even if I wasn’t ace i don’t think I would be much good at sex either

Hey! @xiuminswifeforever

I haven't been ignoring you but I just have been trying to figure out a way to reply to this because my feelings and experience are very similar to yours.

It's rough, it's really fucking rough out here.

It's like you either have to forfeit emotional intimacy to have a semblance of a sex life or you remain emotionally abstinent/celibate permanently.

It's like the idea of wanting a sexual relationship with emotionally intimacy is just something you shouldn't even consider now.

I don't know if this will help you but what's helped me with gaining 'experience' w/o necessarily being with someone is through self-exploration.

Honestly, reading smut, having a pretty collection of toys and listening to nsfw bf audios has helped me learn and feel more confident in what I enjoy and don't enjoy.

My response to 'is the emotional connection not enough for sex?' is...I don't know, it would depend on the other person really.

My romantic and hopeful side says:

'yes, the emotional connection should be enough for sex because if you really desire to be in a long-term and healthy relationship, then physical intimacy would be something that you would work through together'.

My cynical and realistic side says:

'Most people ie men in their 20s don't want to wait for an emotional connection to form before physical intimacy happens.'

I've listened to a lot of experts about relationship and physical intimacy where they say it takes 3 months for men to form an emotional connection with their partner so you should wait 3 months before having sex so there's that foundation of emotional nurture and care.

But realistically, what guy is going to want to wait 3 months?

I wish I could say something more happy but my view is quite bleak right now, I feel your pain and loneliness, it's awful and I get it.

What I am going to do is tag a few moots of mine who I feel would help with this question and they can respond if they would like and give you a different perspective:

@saintfool @anyamaris @hipster-shiz @creativechaoticloner @muselin @wooyoungmybelovedhusband @ja3hwa @lyramundana @daddysspecialdollyworld and everyone else who feels like they can contribute to this!

[loserchildhotpants]

I’ve got a neuropsychological evaluation next week, and I’m having anxiety about how badly I feel I’m going to perform.

And I mean, that’s largely the point — w the problems I’ve been having in the last year, I know they’re assessing for a lot of things, even signs of degenerative diseases and stuff, like, the reason for the evaluation is more about narrowing down what *precisely* isn’t working well (or at all), and to rule out anything terrifying like early onset Alzheimer’s.

The reason I’m being evaluated is *bc* im likely to perform poorly. I’m still anxious abt a bad performance of normalcy. Like I’m scared of someone seeing plainly that I am, to some extent, disabled. Which is true. Idk why I still push back on this so much.

Wishing I were neurotypical is a useless fantasy that can’t come true bc of who I am genetically and how informed my brain and spine are by complex trauma, but nights like tonight I can’t help idly wishing I could just Be Normal.

I feel like everyone else has such an easy time of basic executive functions and I can excel in academia or arts but as soon as I’m in some structured setting where routine, executive functions are required to just get by, I consistently fail.

Idk I’m tired and feeling v sorry for myself tonight

[angeltism]

meh ok posting the "is this 2 much focused on mental health 2 nawt be tagged as a vent or something" thing. under the cut bc it may be a little bit of a downer and also it ended up being a bit wordy n long.

fun fact I cannawt have notifs on for literally anybun I'd normally have notifs on for because if I do then I'll obsess over each time they post ++ purrobably develop an unhealthy attachment. I'm nawt. really. that upset. or idk. nawt upset at all. I'm used to it. I had notifs on for literally one being ++ would tackle-grab my phone whenever they posted, because liking every single post I see from somebun I like is the only way I can really show them I care to some degree. and I do care. I care so much sometimes I wish I could be anybun else so purrhaps I could appropriately express it. and I knew that wasn't healthy, to care and think about somebun so much, but didn't want 2 detach myself so I just kinda had 2 deal w turning em off. aaaand nyeow sometimes I feel bad because I miss posts, because I can't consistently do the one thing that makes me feel like "hey, maybe these beings won't forget my existence" ++ "hey, maybe they'll like me since they see how much I care via liking every single post" !!! or seeing when others are upset, and oh great that post was an hour ago n it's kinda weird 2 talk to them about something they posted an hour ago since they've also been talking 2 others n nyeow their mood has changed n blah blah blah. it's. somewhat annoying. but I'm used to it. yeah.

[copepods]

ok so with like

the au yk.

it isn't just the dsmp. when i say mcyt, i mean literally just tons of different corners of it. hermitcraft, the life smps/series shit, aphmau, qsmp, etc etc

it is kind of dsmp centric bcuz i don't know much abt the other smps, but that's pretty fixable since i have several friends who are on various spectrums of mcyt special interest brainrot who collaborate w/ me.

in simple terms,

no specific smp or group is just on the bad or good side? like it isn't "oh dsmp is good" and "hermitcraft is all the galra", it's very mixed up just because i went with what i thought would fit the characters + i wanted interactions that weren't just between members of their groups.

i want ethoslab and quackity to be silly creatures. i want grian to interact with tommy, wilbur and techno and see them as family, i want luzu and philza to chat about the simple things that remain in their intergalactic lives !

the plot really kicks off when awesamdude (one of phil's top military men idfk) and tommy get separated from everyone else upon some sort of attack on their home, and their escape pod drifts through space until it lands somewhere- earth, ofc. (for some context they r altean royalty bcuz i just fucking love slapping them into royally fucked situations!!!)

idk exactly the Details . however tommy and sam meet some goofies, which likely consists of

tubbo, for tommy, he's GOTTA have his bestie

travis, zane and nana from aphmau

they somehow . god knows how. get a lion, and before anyone can interject or leave the lion (they all got into it like idiots) They fucking Blast Off uh oh where will they go. Uh oh

some shit happens idk, they find themselves at what seems to be a pretty empty planet in terms of civilisation, they find some other alteans who'd been isolated from the rest, so they had been under the assumption that all other alteans had died.

the other alteans are grian, who is the green lion pilot, lizzie (LDshadowlady) and oli orionsound

blah blah blah they become the paladins.

sam, black lion

tommy, red lion

travis (from aphmau), yellow lion

nana, blue lion

and as previously mentioned, grian pilots the green lion

they all train. yk. as paladins Do.

in some other part of space, wilbur soot is losing his mind because his brother is missing and might be Dead somewhere where they could never find his bodyyy ^_^ so he's stressed. plus basically ruling an insane amount of people despite being just a prince. phil is busy battle planning and shit so wil has to deal with political stuff

sorry this is very long. i have to go do laundry. i shall be Back. to explain more, if you so wish

oooh inchresting!!! gotta love crossover content. reminds me of the childrens rebellion (dsmp scifi fic with literally every yuoutuber ever in it)