#idk how people are getting it so twisted but it's driving me insane

[wizardsix]

people are so weird about why they don't like gale. like ive never seen anyone who has played through his entire story share actual critiques, it's always people meeting him once and deciding his entire backstory, personality, and motivations right there. "he's full of himself/manipulative/incompetent/etc" i am taking psychic damage from how stupid these takes are. if I poured my heart and soul into writing a character and people gave up on them after their introduction you'd see me on the national news

[crescentrivers]

*sighs* time to be autistic on main again

So I remembered the existence of the rockabye musical, which is a musical involving eldritch horror free to watch on YouTube, that sound familiar? Yeah the venn diagram between Hatchetfield fans and Rockabye fans should be a circle and I’m disappointed it’s not. (Here’s the link btw go watch it)

A more detailed explanation of the plot is that this band gets hired to write a lullaby to put an eldritch god to sleep so it wont wake up and end the world in the process (I believe the musical uses the lovecraft mythos or some parts of it? Idk im rewatching it tomorrow it’s late at night rn) the musical has a diverse cast and some pretty good songs.

Anyway the point is that I’m picturing a post TGWDLM Paulkins animatic to the song Crazy for You from Rockabye (link to the song) so here’s me going through the lyrics, explaining why they fit and a bit about how I picture this animatic (under the cut because this is about to be a long post) also Rockabye spoilers under the cut

Okay so the song’s a duet between two characters named Xander and Simon, Xander’s lyrics will be used for Paul and be in blue, Simon’s lyrics will be used for Emma and be in green. Lyrics they both sing will be in purple (not because of lord in black associations I just needed some colors). In Rockabye this song takes place when the characters have entered some Black and White like dimension, I’m comparing it to the Black and White because I genuinely don’t remember the name right now. Being in the dimension is driving the characters a little crazy, this is why Xander is falling for Simon. Simon seems unaffected by the dimension but it’s kind of implied he’s actually gained the ability to see the audience. Now onto me being insane

Some love can be so mundane / enthralling can fade to plain / simple romance is so easy to obtain

This to me could be infected!Paul/Pokey calling Emma and Paul’s relationship boring/plain/simple, Paul is known as the normal tm man afterall.

I’ll change your perspective dear / my love is infectious here / what was once so very cloudy will be clear

I feel like this is pretty self explanatory. A lot of it is reminiscent of how the hive describes infection, changing someone’s perspective and making reality clear feel like actual things a hive member could say in the show. Also infected!Paul calling his love infectious, do I even have to explain that.

I’ll bleed you dry / I will cut you down to the middle with my own teeth / you’ll see in time / inescapable is the monster that lies beneath

What cute things to say to your significant other 🥰 I mostly want to talk about the last two lines, “you’ll see in time” as in it being inevitable and then “the monster that lies beneath” referring to Pokey. Maybe Paul breaks a little when he says that last bit, mainly to lead into the next verse

I can feel you crawling under my skin / my composure is running thin / pain is pleasure if your willing to give in

First line Paul is freaking out a little, maybe he’s not fully infected and kind of snaps out of it. While I think in the actual musical “you” refers to Simon I think Paul would be talking about Pokey here and not Emma for obvious reasons. Next line Emma starts to sing and immediately panics realizing she’s being taken over, Paul is back to infected mode says the next line as some twisted way to comfort her. (Also it’s worth noting in the cast recording Xander’s actor laughs after saying that line which I feel like Pokey would do in that situation)

I’ll bleed you dry / I will cut you down to the middle with my own teeth / you’ll see in time / inescapable is the monster that lies

Chorus again. Emma is singing with Paul now but she isn’t fully infected yet. Paul doesn’t snap out of it temporarily this time. I should mention that now “monster that lies” could have a double meaning in this situation cause Pokey tricked people in order to infect them.

After this Xander asks Simon to dance with him and there’s an instrumental part. Back to the lyrics

This is hopeless, how am I to fix this now (your blood pumping through my veins) / show is over take your bow (my skin plastered to your face) / we’re screwed we’re dead (the beating organs we discarded turned to waste)

The two sing different lyrics overlapping, lot to unpack with this one. In the original musical Simon is talking to the audience here. Emma is processing that the infected have won and that things are over, “show is over take your bow” is A. A really fitting thing to say in a musical apocalypse. And B. Would fit the fact that Emma starts to see the audience at the end of TGWDLM much like Simon does in Rockabye. Then for Paul “your blood pumping through my veins” could be referring to how they become one through the hive mind or how Pokey is taking over their bodies “the beating organs we discarded turned to waste” is how when they are apothesized into the hive mind they die, discarding their beating organs, and how the infection literally replaces your organs and blood with blue ones. I picture at the last line Emma is panicking and Paul snaps out again for a second looking kind of horrified about what’s happening before becoming all smiley again

I’ll bleed you dry / I will cut you down to the middle with my own teeth / you’ll see in time / inescapable is the monster that lies

Final chorus, song end. Maybe Emma gives into the hive here

[fleshwerks]

another issue i have, and by the way i have it with how a subset of players are treating veilguard too:

"if i'm not having fun, you shouldn't be having it, either."

fuck outta here with that. your grievances are your own. for the past 7 years and even longer, it's gotten insane. maybe i got old. but it almost seems like people have gotten more rude? more aggressive with not just airing their own grievances, but being openly hostile towards others who don't share them?

i get that it's always been like this to an extent. but to this level? like, not just a 'i disagree and here's why, but in the end, you do you, i do me, i'm willing to discuss.' now it's like 'i disagree and you're a fucking chump high on copium, and i'm gonna follow you across the internet and sic my friends on you too if you dare like what i don't like, loserino.'

like folk just can't help but personally go after individuals now, and do so with impunity. and not just fellow players, but absolutely mobbing the devs and the writers personally. no blog posts that don't come up when you google because your blog's so irrelevant. no. have to get up close and personal to make dead sure that they feel the blade twisting while you watch.

there has to be something fucking wrong with you to engage personally and drive a fucking mob for posterity. like... you're not even upset that the game didn't deliver, you're furious that the devs aren't getting what you think they 'deserve' for failing to deliver.

kind of makes me wonder what game devs really feel. like, unless you deliver utter perfection, you're going to get slagged personally and aggressively, and like... you're no longer sharing the fruits of your labour with fans, you're afraid of them because they will come after you personally on your social media accounts like you spat in their mother's eye and stomped on your dog's tail. and over what? luxury goods known as 'video games'?

just stay out of devs' personal social media accounts. and idk, start a blog. you don't need to start a fight in the fan community just because you want to hurt someone personally for not getting the kind of candy you wanted. get a refund. or better yet, and this one's important:

WAIT UNTIL THE REVIEWS ARE OUT and make your purchase decision based on that.

i get what it's like to be a disappointed hardcore fan. but engaging with devs personally and openly personally attacking people who don't share your disappointment is beyond the pale*

*voicing unhappiness with a video game does not count as a targeted, personal attack, by the way. calling someone a chump for disagreeing with you on a vidya game, however, does. like, if you tell someone off for liking something, ask yourself why you do it. you're not doing it for the sake of a lively discussion, you're doing it because you want to make someone very uncomfortable. it has nothing to do with the game at all anymore, it's all about you looking for a shield to cover your own desire to pick a fight with a rando.

in the end you just really want to watch someone squirm. you think someone needs to be punished, and so you single out a person, and punish them, even if it's just some bystander.

[pigeonsareevil]

Idk about all of you but it never sat right with me when people portrayed Dutch as evil, manipulative and money driven ever since begining. I mean pre-canon pre-gang begining.

I think if it really was that way there would be no way the gang would trust him that much and that blindly after making so many bad and dangerous decisions. I know from expierience that emotional manipulation can go far but not that far. I simply cant see the younger him as the giant asshole that he becomes during the second game. I believe that, in order to achieve this level of trust and loyalty he mustve really loved all of them.

In a way, i think he also loves them during the course of the second game in his own, twisted way. I think he truly wanted to get them out of the trouble he caused, but had no idea how, and with his own paranoia and whispers about traitor in the gang, he kept making desperate decisions that in the end, resulted in even more trouble and suffering.

Now, i know there were no traitors in the gang (not counting Micah) and if he got his head out of his ass he would probably realise that but sometimes i think about how he mustve felt, thinking that someone that he loved, raised and gave so much to, would turn back on him and the rest of their family, let them die for a pile of cash, not even realising he himself was doing exactly that, but that feeling alone would be enough to drive someone crazy.

Combine this with the grief he mustve felt for the fallen members and the fact that none of this has ever happened before Blackwater, he must have thought that him failing and showing weakness would be the reason someone would betray him and it would explain his insane plans and attempts at regaining control over the situation, only realising just how wrong he had been when he saw Arthur dying at his feet.

Im not apologising him and DEFINETELY not trying to paint him as innocent. He did manipulate Arthur and many others during the game but i think it came from a different place then just wanting money. And of course he wanted the money, his greed was one of the many reasons the gang ended the way it did but there were deeper reasons as to why he wanted them so desperately, besides just for the sake having them and i choose to believe it was because he really wanted to provide and have enough for his family to live comfortably.

I just think the way he acted during the second game was, as tragic as that sounds, mostly out of fear of losing the people he saw as his family. Not even realising it would be that fear that would eventually kill them all off.

[ikoarts]

October 2023 Art

for some reason i wrote a novel under the cut, for those of u actually reading, thank u for being so patient x

vvv dates + info under the cut vvv

1 - 03/10/2023 : another of my faves of last year, was trying to get better at drawing trainz, so just Edward and Toby hanging out, displaying the duality of old men x

2 - 04/10/2023 : got a new puter! one of the first things i set to doing after getting set up was to draw a Ru, of course, it was also just me trying to get used to the new MS paint..... it feels very odd

3, 4, 5 - 06/10/2023 : part 1 of redrawing random pics i have of Edward on my phone with my human version of him, this was really fun tbh, and the third here is one of my fave drawings of the year probs.. like sir.. those look heavy... what big uhh.. Glasses.. you have

6, 7, 8 - 07/10/2023 : part 2! i think i just like drawing his face... dare i say this train is cunty or will that get me exiled

9 - 08/10/2023 : something stupid i thought of and couldn't get out of my head for days so had to draw it..... little johnny from oingo boingo's only a lad, doing what he does best, fantasising about radios he wants oh so bad and running people down with a boyish craving for blood.. based on that 1 meme of the guy driving and thinking of a thing then making that insane face

10 - 09/10/2023 : based on that 1 silly vargskelethor song (that could not be less specific), had Shed 17 on the brain and was reminded of the milk song where the skeleton comes out.. thomarse dank 2 much milk and died..

11, 12 - 10/10/2023 : chooshada again :333 first a little doodle on my phone bc i was wondering about her livery, i do think she'd have originally been NER apple green but then painted NWR colours, butttt with a twist... coz i can do whatever i like... the twist is just that she's painted dark blue rather than a sky blue, coz its more her colour x

ALSO MS paint shada, wanted to draw her more uh, idk, detailed ig, idk i love this one, it also served as more train practice

13 - 13/10/2023 : previous one, but with COLOUR!! not much 2 say other than that shes very cute

14 - 18/10/2023 : saw a tweet abt old photos of engine crews posing with their crashed locos and how the NWR crews would do that, made me think of how, if Toni was (choo)shada's driver, she'd do that.. probably x .. very like her to slay in the midst of a terrible accident

15 - 22/10/2023 : predictably, i have some playlists for the ttte engines, one for Diesel which is notable here, so uhh, i have the scrapped song from the lorax "biggering" in there, bc i see it as like a Duck vs Diesel song, ik im surpassing several layers of cringe here but hear me out ok... i drew this at 2am coz i couldn't stop thinking of Duck lecturing Diesel

16, 17, 18 - 25/10/2023 : speaking of playlists, think i was listening to my Robin one here, and felt like drawing him, i have "the land of make believe" in there, which ive always found to be an oddly haunting song, so this is semi based on that, though that wouldn't be apparent if i hadn't just told u x .. this looks like vent art but tis not i was just having fun

also tiny chooshada, i was in the middle of writing something which i have literally Just remembered now and i was writing a scene where Ru is stuck between some characters who shes not looking forward to working with bc they're about to bicker the whole fuckin time and one of them thinks shes a dick, so i drew her being sad that shes forced to work with morons..... and speak of the devil, 3rd drawing is here with 2 of the aforementioned morons :D i think D+D take a liking to her, they're just a little obnoxious (love them for that)

19 - 27/10/2023 : a quick(ish) digital thing of Chooshada again that i did on the side of another project, more engine drawing practice he he, she'll be out of proportion and lacking detail but really it was just to not be too hard on myself about that, it did help i think to understand how to draw her more, plus just look at her lil face... also she has a number here, doesn't mean much other than 8 being her lucky number, other than 11, like those are just her numbers, suppose i could have it be 1188 to ref her bday, idfk x

[millysastroblog]

What I think about ur zodiac placements / ~PT 1~

Hello this is my first astrology observation post pls take what I write here with a grain of 🧂.

It’s just for fun 🙃!

Sooooooo let’s dive into the 12 zodiac signs and my personal experience with them personally:)

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Aries 😌: You guys are some of the most intense fire crackers out there, like they have a lot of energy and determination with like literally all aspects of life. I honstley respect u for being energetic and always on the go. I mostly have a good time with these people because they are entertaining,funny and easy to be around with but the bad side of them is just that they can sometimes be all little bit to impatient and self centered and bad mouthed.Also Aries people are sooooo fucking stubborn like a Taurus placements. Like can u even listen for one second. Anyway I personally like Aries placenta bc I don’t get bored with them that much .

Taurus 🤩: I personally really like Taurus placement bc first of all I am one and second of all we are very chill relaxed people. No time to stress no time to argue Taurus people don’t like to be in rush or stress they just like peace and want to relaxxxxxxxx 🫠. They have an immaculate taste when it comes to how they dress, and they style their hair and what the eat .They want the best out of the matierial world and through being patient and consistent they achieve these goals. Taurus is a beautiful but sometimes lazy sign 🌺. They play by their action not their words. Taurus people like also things that smell and look good on others ( When I see a man or woman that smells bomb 1000 x that passes me by I tend to look their direction and want to ask them where they got that fragrance or perfume from bc Taurus people get highhhhh from that shit 🍃🌸 ahahahaah ).The bad side about Taurus people is the most well know fact that is their stubbornness like we don’t give a fuck about what u have to say If we feel like it’s not valuable or important in any kind of way. Well …. it’s going to dismissed. Taurus people are also very slow with their actions sometimes toooo slow. And the last point is their possessiveness they know exactly that they can be really focused and stingy with people or material items these are the kids in kindergarten that refuse to share shit or take things from other because the know want they want and once they know what they want their mind turn into a ROCK 🪨. ( Side note: Also don’t provoke them or make these people angry unless u want a visit from the devil 👿)

Gemini😕: Chille Gemini the twin twin twinsssss idk what to write but the fact that u guys are fake!Sorry not sorry I have always had that opinion about y’all and it probably will never change. u guys are not that bad but I find most of u kinda annoying the to much of talking and gossiping drives me insane like can y’all stf up for a minute I need a BREEAAAAaak 🤯. But I can appreciate ur intellect and observations about certain things. One thing about Gemini is that they can be funny and crack the most out of nowhere jokes. I have seen a lot of Geminis being two sided or twisted bc of indecisiveness u guys don’t know what y’all want because there are so many options, thoughts, ideas, opinions about things so u get confused and confuse others. So I can give u guys some compassion for that .but all in all I find u still (annoying & F A K E 😘).

Cancer 🥺🌸:

Awwwweeeeeweee my babies I am about two cry writing bc u are my soul sisters and brothers 🥲. I loveeeeeeeeeee u guys so much bc u are one of the most loyal people on this universe . The way u care about people that don’t give two fucks about y’all it’s sadddd 😖. I love that I can sit with u in silence and everything is good and calm and chill. I appreciate the fact that I can vent or tell things to you that deeply impact me and there is not judgement. Cancers have really kind hearts and souls ONLY FOR PEOPLE THEY CARE ABOUT. that’s why it takes some time for them to open up and be themselves.But once u have seen their family / brother, sisters, mama, Dady, sons, daughters, even fucking ancestors then let me tell you … u are in their life permanent 🤫 or for a very long time because once they love u they will be family to u or u to them. So positive side is that they are caring, good listeners, respectful, homebodies, chill people and loyal!!! NOW ITS NOT ALL SWEET LIKE CANDY WITH CANCERS BC they can be the complete opposite when they don’t like u or u have hurt them. Cancers tend to have a hard time expressing anger. So once they are fed up with u the are ready to literally attack u like a crab 🦀. So yeah them being passive aggressive is a huge bad side and a victim complex after u dumbed them they will pull out the fact that the took care of u and this and that so . Treat them nicely and everything shall be good 👍 ( I guess??😬)

Like for Part 2 ❤️👍

[streamdotpng]

A few months pass, Enid has been released from her time in the JPD.

She gets confronted and her mind is messy, since I'm on phone Idk how to edit in the line break so beware for gore!

Or also known, wtf is up with Enid's head

Sharp claws caught Enid, grasping at her and pulling her into nothing… but Enid had to keep moving.

"I really am okay!" Enid laughs before shrugging. "I'm not saying I was okay but who wouldn't be if they went through what I did?"

The shock of Enid pulling her leg out of its socket was too much for Enid, and she kept moving.

"Shifting in such stressful conditions must’ve done something, especially since it would be considered your second time," Divina cautiously mentions. "I don’t want this to come off as me thinking you’re lying…"

Slumped onto Enid’s back, Enid dug onto Enid’s neck with her teeth, and she kept moving.

"-But even if you're okay, will that still continue?"

Enid brought the hilt back before slamming it into Enid's skull with a sickening crunch. Enid kept slamming and slamming until all that was left was a mashed pile. Then, she keeps moving.

"I feel like you’re trying to say something," Enid teased. "But I'm okay, a few screws loose but I'm sane!-" she hears sharp sardonic laughter, jeering and cold. She switches up her words immediately. "Clinically! Doc said so and everything."

With each pierce of a blade, Enid screams. Left to wheeze and bleed out on the floor, Enid dies and then she keeps moving.

Divina lets out a breath. "... I'm not really sure if that's reassuring, if I'm being honest."

Piece by piece, Enid tore Enid apart, laughing as the walls dripped with the remains of her soon to be dead body. When she was satisfied with her work, Enid left Enid on the ground to die, because she needed to keep moving.

"I have the occasional dream but what can you do?" calling them dreams feels wrong but it's the best description for people who couldn’t understand. "Sometimes it feels like they’re trying to give a sign," she hints and it is! It's not its fault that violence was the only way it knew how to talk and the only reply it knew how to give.

Enid hated it months before, but now?

She’s accepted it.

It's in the ground that Enid fought the best fight of her life. It wasn't enough, and so she left Enid’s corpse smeared across the floor as she kept moving.

It's in that cell, months left with practically all the time in word did they come with an understanding. It inched closer and closer until it practically curled up onto her as the days went by. How could she not experience kinship? 

It could be seen as twisted but Enid has long since accepted the warmth of a being similar. Sure she wasn't drowning in the stain of sin but she definitely dips her toes between the lines. 

It was nice to be hugged once again even if it wasn't from Wednesday. 

Enid strapped Enid in a silver cage of sins and grudges, but even that wasn't enough to keep her from moving.

"... Enid." 

The werewolf let out a breath. Looking at her like that wasn't fair.

Even when her blood, flesh, tendons and bones were as much a part of the walls as her captors were, Enid kept moving.

"They hurt me and my body still remembers it like it was yesterday sometimes but-" Enid shakes her head, her fingers curling into a fist. "but… pain fades."

The holy metal burned and blinded until there was nothing of Enid left, and even then, Enid kept moving.

"...okay, if you're sure. But don't forget that you can seek us out, Enid."

Suffering and suffocating in slick flesh and blood; Enid dragged along her broken body with her declawed fingers, back to the place she was meant to be. No matter how agonising it was, no matter how it threatened to drive her insane, Enid kept moving.

It was just pain. It wasn't anything new.

And when she reached her destination, then, and only then, did Enid stop moving.

If they were fine, then so was she.

-

It did not, could not understand.

Its goal was done.

They had risen from its slumber and done its duty. it had achieved its mission, and yet-

"There's more to life than this, outside of this empty walls. "

And yet they dreamed through her eyes.

It dreamed of a warm, vast sky of a colour it had never learned the name for, and of a peace that was not death.

It dreamed the strange dreams she shared and cherished every single one.

[forsakenwitchery]

Finished Veilguard the other day and I need you to see my Rook. xD idk I tried to create something similar to my face, but then it hit me I had Tallis on my hands. 😂

In case someone's interested in my thoughts (no spoilers): it was kind of a mixed bag experience for me. I couldn't agree more with the sentiment that the game's too sanitized, but I did have some fun with it and I did grow to like the companions after all. ALSO MANFRED NEEDS TO BE PROTECTED AT ALL COSTS! And Lucanis reminds me of Gale so much, guess that's my new type. xD Men cooking is the hottest trait ever, legit a dealbreaker no griffon or sentient skeleton can beat.

More rambling under the cut & adding all the critical tags I could think of.

I do think they sort of shot themselves in the foot by calling it Dragon Age, because I kept thinking it reminds me of Guardians of the Galaxy A LOT which was a good & imho underrated game!!! but it's not the best comparison for a DA game. I didn't like Bellara at first, but then it hit me she reminds me of Mantis. SO. MUCH. And I loved Mantis! So Bellara just felt so out of place in DA. I have a lot of thoughts, yet my main takeaway is that it should have been a new IP. Literally had it been called anything else 70% of my beef with this game wouldn't exist, and I think it's true for most people who are critical about it. Like, I played as a Crow, and literally all the Crows in the game are good(TM). My Rook told Harding she did some bad things, but nothing too bad! Literally no Crow in this game is willing to kill anyone. The banter about Grey Warden contracts... Was wild. What's the point of even having assassins who are so uwu goody two-shoes. :( Legit had they made a game in the vein of DA, but not DA, with new not preestablished factions, I wouldn't have this critique. And you can't say or do anything too bad in this game which is wild for DA. I think I was only allowed to be mean about Solas, but even tho I always chose the dialogs akin to 'he can go F himself', the game kept telling me 'he's just a poor sad little meow meow' by legit every character around me. WHICH GIVEN THE FINAL TWIST OF WHAT HE DID. FUCKING FUCK. There are not nearly enough mean things this game lets you say about him, and it's mind-blowing why half the characters would toot his horn so much. Sorry, I hate Solas' guts, I didn't think it was possible to hate him even more, but holy shit was I not prepared...

But like, had it been a new IP, my only critique would be all the handholding, especially the constant 'pointing out the obvious' at the start of the game. The first hours were driving me insane with it. Like guys, I'm not stupid, I don't need to be told the same thing 3 or 4 times. Or how to proceed in a linear location if I stop for one second. Yeah, it gets better with the obvious part, but not with repeating the same info, which made me wonder what age were they targeting with it. Because I don't think kids like to be talked down to, either.

BUT I expected way worse. It was overall not a bad game. Not a super great 10/10 one, but it had its moments. For me, it was a solid 6/10, maybe even a 7 in some parts. idk why, but I especially loved Evka and Antoine. And the cooking party banters. Super pretty, too, once I got used to the style.

Oh, and I also called my Rook Anthea, and since the Crows had a character called Teia, I got an added bonus of Lucanis actually saying that name a few times. xD

[doodle-pops]

omg!!!!!! i would’ve loved to hear ur thoughts on the angsty mortal x immortal😞 sorry tumblr is being weird for u!!

but to be fair, in my defence!!! i would’ve frozen up and panicked if an elf confessed to me. imagine it’s someone’s as great and respected like glorifindel. like don’t get me wrong, he’s a great statue of a man. but i personally would’ve believed he would be lying to me and playing some sick joke 💀💀 like how can you THEEE balrog slayer like some nothing of a human being 🤔 r u sure you’re not making a mistake here⁉️⁉️

but personal grievances aside, in terms of plot sake, let’s just make it angsty!!! i can see that reader might be coming from great insecurity, as you said, and is not thinking right. imagine being a bystander and watching that go down 😭 omg id cringe so hard, it’s like watching a public proposal and the person being proposed to says no outright and now….everyone is just frozen stiff with awkwardness. now what???

maybe to add another layer and dramatic flare to it, what if it was an enemies to lovers dynamic? maybe that’s why reader would he adamant about being against the confession 🤔 they just fully believe that they won’t be good together—constantly bickering and arguing. there’s no common ground! so why now, of all times, did this elf fall in love with them? for what purpose? some twisted and cruel consequence that is love? (heavy desperation included BTW maybe both sides are mutual, but one is more on extreme denial while the either is just grasping at straws atp)

also side note, if the elf in question was someone insane like IDK faenor during that phase of his, it’d be reasonable that reader would try and run away from them 😞😞 that man is fine…do NOT get me wrong. but he ain’t my damage to carry 😫

Tumblr is being very weird. I also hate that new feature where all the coloured text are underlined. Like??? Ew no, the aesthetic is ruined 😭.

I agreed with that Feanor statement. Like yes Mr made with perfection in mind, body and soul you are fine but I'm not carrying your baggage 🤚. Deal with your issues before stepping to me angry fire boi.

For the whole idea of the elf out of nowhere confessing their undying love for a mere mortal reader, it would be a scary experience. "Who are you and what do you want from me?" Insecurities will be kicking us hard in the head when the comparisons are being made. A great elf courting a mere mortal 😳. "Sir, are your eyes in need of being checked? 20/20 vision?"

This post is so coincidental because last night I was teasing @lamemaster about plotting a Maedhros enemies to lovers angst fic 😈. I like the idea of watching people lose their minds over the back and forth mutual pinning and hating. And I absolutely agree with you on the "suddenly out of nowhere they realised they love me!" Like what do you mean love? When you despised me?? And we were at each other's throats??

Being a bystander leads to secondhand embarrassment. I would be screaming in lowercase for reader to disappear. This leads to another #huh? #cringeworthy #isheforreal? #erupickupyourson

Conversely, I do enjoy the idea of reader and elf enemies to lovers troupe stem from two houses feuding. Generational feuding that transcends through history and they're the ones who decide whether they end it or continue. That's interesting though, an elven house feuding with a mortal house 🤭. Not only insecurities get introduced but superiority and egotism to drive the dislike they contain.

For a plot twist, I would enjoy if reader and elf still didn't end up together. After all the turmoil and biting at each other's throats, they remain neutral #friendzoneforlife 😗👉👈

[minjeelee]

cant help himself : p.sunghoon

warnings : unprotected sex , bathroom sex , kinda public sex idk , oral f receiving , mirror sex + more lmk if i need to add

summary : sunghoon invited you as his plus one to a massive dinner that was hosted for idols and couldent help himself with your temptation of a dress

!established relationship!

sunghoon had invited you as his plus one to an event with him , all was going great , you were at the table with the other boys occasionally moving around to talk to other idols or groups just having fun socialising , you’ve only shared a glass of champagne with sunghoon as you both didn’t really feel like drinking much.

time went on you were now sitting at the stools of the bar with sunghoon whilst talking to beomgyu who had also happened to be there , eventually heeseung called you and hoon back to your table once your food had arrived. you were all sitting down eating , laughing at their shitty dad jokes for a while before sunghoon signalled you to come to the bathroom with him, eying you down and especially at how short your dress was he obviously couldn’t help but have popped a boner.

he grabbed your hand and pulled you into the family bathroom , twisting the lock shut and standing behind you in the mirror.

“look at you dressed like a slut infront of hundreds of other people hm? you really wanna test me huh.”he said smirking as his hands made their way up your sides. you pull him by his collar into a kiss as he lifts you up onto the sink kissing you back with passion as he snakes his hands up to pull down your panties. dropping to his knees as you look at him in confusion but soon come back to a reality when you feel his warm mouth on your pussy. you grasp at his hair as he shoves his tongue into your hole making you let out a whine “mm hoon” you moan out and you completely loose it when you feel his nose graze over your clit. practically grinding on his face whining his name and pulling his hair ,his mouth absolutely devouring your pussy. the second you show any sign of being close he pulls away and stands up. “why did you stop” you whine watching him undo his belt and pull down his pants and boxers.

“cause i want you to cum on my cock is that okay darling?” he says helping you off the counter and bending you right back over it, facing the mirror. you arch your back at him and moan out when you feel him start to push into you. “fuck your so tight for me” he groans and throws his head back. after bottoming out and giving you a couple seconds to adjust he sets out a pace that has you squirming around him and screaming his name and he had barely just started.

leaving the occasional spank to your ass he picked up his pace fucking you roughly into the counter you were bent over. he could now tell you were coming close , moans getting louder and the grip your walls had on him was driving him insane. “oh my god hoon fuck! i’m gonna cum shit i’m gonna cum!” you barely manage to moan out as he pounds you mercilessly your head all fuzzy as you cum around him. he groans and cums a couple of deep thrusts later stilling his movement as he fills you up with his seed.

you whine as he pulls out. you go to grab some toilet paper to clean yourself up as his cum was dripping down your inner thigh , he stops you. “let them see it baby don’t clean it.” he says smoothing your dress out and passing you your panties back.

you both walk back out to the table like nothing had happened. except for the fact his seed was running down your thighs.

the end lmao help another short one cause i have nothing better to do but i have school tmr so i’m sad 😭

[vy-tachibana]

Rough (and I mean rough no blending, colored outside the lines, etc) drawing that I refuse to actually finish by adding details or cleaning it up but figured I might as well share it

(Can you tell I did the bare minimum on the clothes just enough to make it distinctly Pomefiore?)

Name: Yasaymi Wayullu (Twisted from Yzma-Emperor’s New Groove)

Grade: Second-year

From the Scalding Sands

Has a childhood friend, Kunak Zumaraln (Twisted from Kronk) who is part of Savanaclaw (maybe he’s human, maybe he’s a chipmunk beastman idk haven’t decided)

Yes I know the animal Kronk talks to is Bucky the squirrel but he was “a Junior chipmunk”although that is his boy scout rank but liberties apply

May sketch him later idk

Would get along with Jamil because they both had to take care of people like servants and went vastly under appreciated, also from the same place

I reckon that Twisted!Kuzco (who’s a first-year at RSA) ‘s family is wealthy and frequently does business with Kalim’s family. That or maybe Kuzco’s family is a branch of the royal family? (What’s the scalding sands lore? Do they have a sultan or…?)

Side note: Twisted!Kuzco befriend third-year RSA student Twisted!Pacha

But this isn’t about them

Yasaymi is Vil’s favorite underclassman (sorry Epel) since he embraces and even enhances his feminine looks, gets good grades, has a talent for the fine arts, gets what needs to be done done

Honestly like a mini-Vil in a way

But is also just.

If Epel is a feral gremlin, Yasaymi is a free-range menace

His mottos are “if it doesn’t say you can’t then you can” and “everything’s free real estate as long as you don’t get caught”

Causes problems on purpose (takes joy in the fact that there’s no Twisted!Kuzco to take care of so all his repressed childhood inner beastie is unleashed upon Night Raven)

Is that student that doesn’t pay attention in class, crams/pulls an all-nighter the night before (much to Vil’s chagrin) and then aces the test the next day

“You should study in moderation every day so the information sinks into your brain. Not sleeping will ruin your complexion”

“It hasn’t failed me yet, senpai”

“That’s not the point-“

“If it’s not broke, don’t fix it 🤩”

Worst class is probably PE just cuz he doesn’t want to put in all that work and get sweaty

“Yeah but you can’t PROVE I’m not trying my hardest, that’s subjective”

“You’ve hardly worked up a sweat”

“But according to prior attempts, I’ve improved haven’t I? Data doesn’t lie, I must be doing something right to reach a new milestone. Aiming too high without a proper foundation could hurt me in the long-run”

(Totally planned and set the bar low from the beginning so that future goals set would be well within reach without needing to work for it. His stamina is actually really good, had to be to keep up with wrangling Twisted!Kuzco 25/8)

Best class is alchemy but also drives Crewel a little insane because he overcomplicates every recipe where they aren’t even recognizable methods.

Definition of getting the right answer with the wrong formula

“That’s not how you’re supposed to brew this potion. How did you even create this potion using a completely different ingredient make up and brewing method? That shouldn’t be possible”

If there’s anything you’ve taught me Teach, it’s that anything is possible if you put your mind to it :)”

Terrified people in that class because if something goes wrong who knows what kind of monstrosity he’d create

But as long as he’s turning in potions that complete the assignment, no one can say shit to him about it

Would enters into contracts with Azul and purposely breaches them just to mess with him

Of course the actual punishment would have to be reasonable enough for him to do it but Yasaymi is the name and malicious compliance is his game

“Why do I not have access to your unique magic? There’s no way you’re able to negate my own so just how?”

“Contract stated that I’d give you my most prized magical ability, not my unique magic. And what I believe MY most prized magical ability is my talent in potion-brewing”

“YOUR POTION BREWING DOESNT EVEN MAKE SENSE! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO USE SOMETHING I DONT UNDERSTAND”

“That’s rough, buddy”

“Yasaymi, these study guides I ordered you to make are worthless. You’ve barely put more than a single bullet point in some sections and even the facts aren’t even right”

“Hey I obey the letter of the law. You asked for study guides and I delivered. You should have specified that you wanted them to have correct information”

“You were supposed to place it on my desk”

“I did! It just happened that your desk magically relocated itself to the woods behind campus”

“…I asked you to sell these experimental samples at the festival….”

“Yep!”

“…and you returned with zero thaumarks to give me.”

“Well, I did sell them but then I saw this stand with some gorgeous hair accessories that I thought Rook-senpai and Vil-senpai would enjoy and remembered that you never said I couldn’t keep the thaumarks for my own use so I spent them.”

Azul eventually cuts his losses and rips up the contracts himself

“Hey Azul I need a favor, enter into another contract with me 👉👈🥺?”

“NoO”

“Pleeeeease?”

Just to tell me what you need. I’ll do it so just leave me alone, I beg of you. You’re going to ruin my business at this rate.”

All according to keikaku (Plan: long-con Azul into thinking he’d profit but constantly mess everything up for him, but knowing azul he’d be determined to not give up. I can wear him down though I bet, especially if losses outweigh the wins. Became so infamous that he’d dread even being near me which would let me ask him a favor and he’d do it for me for free. The marks of a true friendship. Doing things with no strings attached)

Every day Riddle thanks the Sevens that Yasaymi wasn’t sorted into Heartslabyul

Started the “Awareness” club. Whose main activity is working to raise member’s proficiency with sensing malignant intent around them, as well as being able to positively channel negative emotions to prevent overblot. A self-defense/self-help club.

Actually just a front for a pranking club as pulling tricks on students and faculty based on the premise of the club can be counted as activities supported by the school since it would for other people to “raise their own awareness of their surroundings”

Grim joins and Yuu is an unofficial member.

One of his cards duo magic is with Epel and the line is “Come little Apple, I shall show you the true art of how to get your way” “Let’s prank ‘em Senpai!”

His nickname is probably Miyu/Miyullu courtesy of Cater

I also imagine that when Lilia makes an extremely lethal dish, Silver calls in Yasaymi who has the confounding ability to turn Lilia’s batshit crazy recipes into something edible (and quite tasty)

[clarabowmp3]

A certain brand of my fellow fan drives me insane because they will never dignify anything inconvienient or which makes her look bad with a sincere discussion, to the point of not even engaging with TTPD honestly and how it's mostly about Matty, a solid 80%. Now with Travis and the occasional moment his friends and family and himself act in sexist, racist, ableist, homophobic ways, never mind him doing things occasionally of a lashing out nature which for me at least, made me stop romanticizing their relationship, the still very new relationship, like lots of things have happened since April 2023 in Swiftieland and we're seemingly only allowed to discuss Joe Alwyn for some reason, for 80 something weeks, and it's annoying and almost reality denying. In my honest opinion Taylor probably forgot Joe existed in August last year. *cites TTPD as proof*

Hihi yup, I think most of the matty discussion just skips from he never existed —> he’s a god awful human being, and the few people that actually acknowledge the period when she was actually obsessed with him are all like ‘at least he made her happy!!1!1!’ It just feels so morally reprehensible/irresponsible to prioritise the personal feelings of a singular individual over multiple marginalised groups.

I know a lot of ppl have said this same thing before but the second they break up* some swifties are going to pull out all the instances of travis being aggressive, all the problematic things of the NFL you listed etc as if they didn’t turn a blind eye/make excuses for this at the time. And yup like what you said about reality denying, it’s like they want to twist how certain events happened to create a narrative more favourable for her (almost like how taylor herself rewrote reputation as a gaslighting moment of female rage wtv…) just because they’re so obsessed with her. It’s unhealthy and juvenile.

As for how much taylor thinks about joe, i rlly couldn’t say cuz I could see it go either way. So long London feels rlly cathartic and I could see her getting the closure she needed from writing that song but then again this was a 7 year relationship, so it’s probably complicated and messy and she might oscillate from being over him to missing him etc etc (my point being, she may or may not be thinking abt joe even now but that’s beside the point - there’s no reason to drag him in the mud the way some swifties do even now)

*(in my parasocial opinion I think this might happen once they stop riding this wave of extra extra fame and love from the general public cuz without that idk if there’s much substance in their relationship based on the alchemy and so high school. But if that doesn’t make them break up then I think they’ll prob eventually get married)

[blitz0hno]

posting for attention

i wrote down some stream of consciousness stuff. Maybe someone will relate. Please don't worry, they are only thoughts and feelings we are coping with.

TW// suicdal ideation, awful grammar, prayer (for my religious trauma girlies)

enjoy my suffering /gen

AAAAAAAAAAAAGH WHAT CAN I DO RN 

I CAN”T CALM TF DONW 

I CAN’T CAN’T I CAN’T 

I FEEL SO FAKE AND SO VIOLENT 

AND FUCKING INSANE 

AND LIKE MY LIFE IS FALLING TO PIECES 

NO MATTER WHAT I DO 

BECAUSE I CAN’T SEEM 

TO UNDERSTAND ANYTHING 

OR DO ANYTHING OR ACT ON ANYTHING 

WE WANNA DO BC WE R SO SCARED 

OF POURING OUR HEART INTO SOMETHING 

AND BEING REJECTED

 F U C K IT HURTS IT HURTS THIS HELPED IG

IDK EVERYTHING HURTS

NOT EVERYTHING

UH I AM ACTUALLY PHYSICALLY GOOD

BUT THE FLASGBACKS NEED TO STOP 

THEY NEED TO STOP.

GOD HELP ME WHY AM I SO FUCKED UP 

I WANT TO FUCK UP ANYONE 

WHO WOULD DO THAT SHIT TO A KID 

WHY IS THIS EVER ALLOWED TO HAPPEN 

EVER WHY ARE SO MANY PEOPLE 

SO FUCKING TWISTED 

I JUST WANT IT TO STOP 

I WANT PEOPLE TO STOP 

HURTING EACH OTHER 

I WANT PEOPLE TO STOP

HURTING ME 

NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY TO AVOID IT. 

I AM NOT HERE RN 

I AM DISSOCIATING 

LIFE A MOTHERFUCKER

 AND I CANNOT DO THIS SHIT

 I NEED IT TO STOPPPPP

I WANNA FEEL BETTER

 I DON’T KNOW WHY I HAVE TO CARRY AROUND 

ALL THIS BULLSHIT

PEOPLE WHO HURT PEOPLE 

WILL GET WHAT’S COMING TO THEM 

BUT WHEN, WHEN????? 

I cannot rn, 

how are we gonna get our shit together 

when we’re burning the FUCK out? 

Ugh. 

deep breath, deep breath. 

There’s a hole of grief on my chest. 

My socks are wet. 

I wanna cry in the fuckin library, 

It’s too cold. 

I am scared.

my head hurts. 

I need to complain ig. 

Why do i do this? 

I have everything I could need 

but no matter how grateful 

i try to be, 

instead of getting a break 

i just get more and more piled on 

how tf did this happen 

why did we lose our job 

to some douchebag family member 

of the shittiest manager around 

oh my fucking god the cowardice 

and entitlement 

of all the soft fuckin SHITHEADS i keep meetign 

like PICK A STRUGGLE. 

I keep zoning out dear god 

let me find something to do with this rage 

stop the rain for two minutes 

I don’t want to drive 

i don’t want to think

and the visibility outside is awful 

WHY IS FEBRURARY LONG 

it’s longer this year 

I want spring 

I want sun 

I am sad that it’s getting warmer out 

and weather is getting extreme so 

I wish it was at least weather I like. 

My routine is shot, 

I have none. My phone is dead, 

doordash is too much energy rn. 

I am. 

Killing myself. 

Not really but 

jfc I am so tired 

in a way that weighs on you. 

And I feel survivor’s guilt 

about the whole fucking world. 

Guilt guilt guilt 

that is ALL we ever feel 

everything is our fault somehow and 

we can’t fix anything with that attitude 

I am so upset. 

Fuckin hell. 

Make it stop make it stop 

but don’t let me die 

I’m not ready. 

And I feel guilty for that too, 

because who IS ready? 

It just happens. 

And instead of happening to rapists and serial killers 

it happens to sweet people 

who made the world better. 

Fuck this. 

Where’s the divine punishment 

for the WORLD LEADERS????? 

What’s with the collective 

capitalist punishment? 

I constantly feel like 

I’ve done something wrong or bad. 

Constant. 

Stupid fucking axel, 

screaming in our face and starting this whole mess. 

My life is great overall 

but my heart and mind are fucked up rn.

Are you there god? It’s me.

And me. And me.

Etc..

I don’t wanna kill myself it just sounds really easy (it’s not you will not go out without a fight so it’ll just be a llot of medical bullshit.)

[erwinsvow]

My day was pretty good but college is kicking my ass so badly rn it’s embarrassing…

On another note, just wanted to let you know how I found your blog! It was through another blog (can’t remember which one sorry) recommending their favourite obx writers and that’s a statement I absolutely agree with🫶 You’ve developed a consistent characterization of Rafe that I believe is recognizable and belongs to your blog (idk if that makes sense) I think it’s extremely natural to compare yourself to others but please remember that you’re doing an amazing job!!

Sorry for the word vomit but you’re just so kind every time you interact with anyone and your writing is just SO good I wanted you to know how I feel

Also was curious to know how you feel about dark Rafe because I can’t stop thinking about ghostface (but he could also be sweet in a more twisted and obsessive rafe way)

-💓

omg i remember college like it was yesterday and it kicked my ass too😭😭😭 you got this bae!! it'll be over before you know it but stay focused on the grind 🩵

also stopppp that is so sweet. you are so nice because im so new to writing for obx! n that is so generous of you to say because i really love writing for rafe and bouncing btwn mean n sweet rafe... he's such a tough cookie to write but that makes it so fun! you are so so so nice im gonna cry <3 will remember this everytime i feel iffy :( also i always try to reply to every anon how i would want someone to reply to mine!!!! i remember so vividly being in someones inbox and pouring out ideas or love for like a short reply lol which would hurt my feelings even tho it is not that serious at all haha

but its srs to me now <3 i love replying to ppl on here especially sweet angels like u !!! 💓

ur fucking cooking... you may or may not have seen that my entire blog used to scream themed because its fully one of my favorite movie series EVER<3 ghostface!rafe is SOOOOO yummy. tw murder and a whole bunch of psycho stuff lol

he's soooooo sick n fucking twisted!!!! if he was a true ghostface, he'd be insanely protective over you, telling you it's dangerous to go out alone at night, that you shouldn't even stay at home alone if he's not spending the night. his lil killing spree would start with people trying to break the two of you up, people he knows are actively trying to get into your ear and tell you that rafe is dangerous, that's he's bad for you.

n you defend rafe with all your heart!! your boyfriend is so caring, doesn't even allow you to drive home alone, chauffeurs you around in his car, drops whatever he's doing to come get you if you call.

a couple times he's a lil late.. shows up to your door all sweaty, looking tired n messy, and you ask where he's been all night. doesn't really give you a real answer, just tells you he was with the boys. (he was gutting this boy from some party the other night that wouldn't leave you alone). you hear the news the next day, and when people in town start questioning some of the young men, you valiantly protect rafe, saying he was with you all night (which he was... kind of..) and the way he beams at you when you do this guarantees that you would never voice your suspicions no matter how prominent they become.

ur big friend group tries to figure out what's going on... pretending to be detectives, one of them even questions if youre the killer, saying your sweet personality is the best alibi n that no one would suspect a thing. you laugh, then rafe laughs, so everyone laughs, but the friend who said it is next on his list.

consoles you when ur crying, sick n tired of feeling so scared all the time, wanting life to go back to normal! you love spending time with rafe but everything is getting to be a little bit... overwhelming. you're never alone anymore, never have time or the chance to just be with your friends. it's a lil suffocating but then someone else turns up dead and you retreat into safety, into what you think can protect you: rafe.

the big reveal is the make or break. in the real world youd run screaming for your life. but in shea's world ur just as crazy as he is, still believe he did everything for the right reason, brainwashed enough by him and his charm and his love for you that is so apparent he would kill for you and you let it sway you.

that was a lil dark even for me, but canon rafe is literally a killer n i just be ignoring that part like damn kill me too!! i love u!! biggest fan i'd be ur alibi!!

this getting hella long but rafe with ghostface tendencies is also.... so hot....just lots of overprotectiveness and stalking and if he's part of a duo, just trying to keep you out of everything and protected. doesn't want you anywhere near this stuff, freaks out if you end up hurt or realizing what's going on. but he knows you won't snitch, won't leave or even try to run. he's got you wrapped around his finger <3

and yes he fucks you with the mask on. sneaks into your house while ur leaving him a cute msg saying goodnight. fucks you all crazy and half way through you realize it's rafe. you don't stop tho n beg him to keep going <3

was this too much? maybe. do i care because this is my blog? yes i do care a little. don't want you to judge me LOL

hope this was fun for u to read bc it was fun for me to think!!!!

come again soon!! <3

[authoralexharvey]

❌ and 💗!

Hey there and thanks for the ask!!

❌What WIP do you find the most challenging? Why?

I answered this one here, but I have another one I can mention here (which was also mentioned in that post): In Time for the Wedding.

The basic inspiration for the premise is I have a grandfather that lives in a completely different state. He can be quite stubborn when he wants to be, especially when it comes to his health. In fact, earlier this year, he had to be hospitalized for a time because he let factors of his health get too bad. The man is also 78(?) years old. At this point, a simple cold could be a death sentence if he isn't careful.

"Alex, how is this relevant to your short story?" I'm getting there.

Flash forward to the beginning of May. My dad is getting married. My grandfather was supposed to be there. After getting himself hospitalized, it was evident to everyone (except for him) that he would be unable to make the trek himself. And so I offered to go down to where he is and drive him back up.

He ended up getting hospitalized again, so he was unable to attend in person. C'est la vie. And yet, I think sometimes of that alternate reality, one where we would have been able to bring him up in time for the wedding. What we might have talked about. The general,,, topics that come up during a roadtrip, both positive and otherwise. Even now, months from the wedding and this situation at all (he's doing a lot better now, before you ask), I can't help but think of that alternate reality. And I still want to write about it.

But since it's also so personable and related to real-life or almost-real-life events, it's been a challenge to actually... plot out and conceptualize. And who knows, maybe it will never see the light of day. If it ever did, it would probably the most "open" and personable short story I'd ever produced. So IDK.

Anyway now that I got depressing for a sec uhhh

💗Is there a scene you can’t wait to write for a WIP?

Originally I was gonna say something about ABTB but actually THO

So for those who have been around for a long (long, long) time, you may have seen--on this blog or the decaying husks of my previous tumblrs--me talk about a little story called Those Who Emerge from Ashes. The basic premise is it's the story and ascension of a new godling and the people around her, including her eventual girlfriend, a fantasy Jesus figure, and a scrappy woman who will do anything to gain back the future she had stolen from her. About, mm, halfway through the book (ish. I haven't outlined this bitch much), most of the characters die.

So the godling resets the timeline.

I actually have wrote bits of this scene and the general twist of the plot, and it's supposed to be a reveal of her powers and the pure anguish she experiences. Because, spoilers, this is not the first time she has had to do this. She has reset the timeline, over and over and over again, to the point of near-insanity.

Anyway it's fun because angst and also because I can really explore how weird time is and especially how weird it can be as it manifests to her. Also, fans of Madoka Magica and especially of Homura may like this bit a lot.

But, for now, TWEfA is on indefinite hiatus until I can get this shit done right.

WIP Ask List

[stardustfanfare]

OK i went to sleep after this but now im in the nurses office resting so here we go

es: eye. i mean. duh. although they dont rly have the thirst for knowledge as much like . you know. theyve got a panopticon for lords sake eye is right there. THEY REPRESENT THE AUDIENCE! i like logically cant say anything else even if the vibes arent perfect.

haruka: dark for sure. a childish fear but one that can be all consuming. a reminder. a place to live. its the lack of light the lack of... something. negligence. being alone. its a primal fear.

yuno: ok shes tricky. theres nothing that really leads me to this conclusion but she seems like maybe web? its mostly just the vibes. she doesnt really fit anywhere else, i cant even really see her as a victim. the fact that she's kind of shut off and cold but seems to have a larger motive as her driving force also connect to this as well i think.

fuuta: hunt or desolation. if we're being really accurate hunt works better, considering his hero complex means hes not out to cause pain. i just like desolation cus its more fun. reason a) being the fire theme and reason b) being that kotoko is literally so hunt aligned its not even funny and having more of a variety is more interesting to me.

muu: ok this is based off of how i perceive muu as like a blorbo to me. MAYBE she wouldnt be a corruption girlie but like come ON. shes covered in slime for half her mv. shes a bug girl shes a rot girl shes a decay girl. not projecting at all/s ahshdhd corruption is my favv <33 gross and offputting girls stay winning. if im actually gonna get into it though i do have more reasoning. her crime was based on feeling unloved and alienated. shes not like haruka in the way that she doesnt want to regain their affection necessarily but she still wants love. she turns to the rot and insects that fill her and eat at her and love her, i think.

oh that was a lot. moving on.

shidou: the end. of course hes the end. he hasnt caused just one death but many, he is literally like a harbinger of death come on guys. he sees himself as someone who just brings about death. HE WANTS TO DIE. it fits so well. everything comes to an end. idk doctors and end just feel so fitting. he has an influence over death, he saves people he kills people. you know.

mahiru: so i speculated on this one for a while but ive arrived at buried. with the corruptions whole love and obsession thing that seems like the obvious choice but it just doesnt feel right. i think shes buried for the following reasons. her mv has her and her partner shown in a literal cage as a metaphor for how they feel trapped in the toxic relationship. she also has a very narrow viewpoint, i think, its all about love; shes trapped in the dark enclosure of her own mind. she cant see the bigger picture.

kazui: dude im sorry i dont think about him a lot i dont really have a good answer for this one. if i had to say, hed be a victim rather than an avatar. of the lonely. he and the woman in his mv seem to be growing distant, pushing apart, and assumedly she ends up killing herself, or something of the sort. he has an outward persona of being the adult, the separated one; hes there for the group but doesnt allow himself to get close to them.

amane: victim again. of the spiral i think. i mean its a cult. she is told lies over and over, shes not allowed to see the truth for herself, shes spoonfed information and just has a twisted viewpoint of herself and the outside world. im sure the guilty verdict has even further confused her grasp on right and wrong, real and fake, truth and lie.

mikoto: oh my lord i have no coherent thoughts about this guy. i hate the direction they are taking this so much i dont want him to have DID i want him to be insane and put in a mental institution forever i want to throw him across the room like a wet rag. anyway if we ignore the complications of his situation and the bad quality of writing when it comes to him. id say slaughter. like senseless violence? sign me up i guess. at least that's what id like him to be like <3 stranger is also a candidate but that feels too iffy considering the DID thing. so ill go with slaughter (plus slaughter is just more fun. go crazy bitch!)

kotoko: i don't even need to explain this one. HER THING IS BEING A HUNTER. A WOLF. SHE IS A HUNT AVATAR FOR SURE. theres no questioning at all. she is hunt through and through. savior complex. morally grey. the thrill of the chase. its literally just right there.

:3 sorry i have too much stuff in my brain feel free to dispute with these i would love opinions

worried about my cat and avoiding sleep so who wants to hear my milgram tma entity assignments