#idek how i made him
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i may or may not be questioning a whole new ahh religion like how are poeple this dumb but like not dumb because human survival instincts i just dont feel human as a whole but like not in a nonhuman way i just cant explain the major crowd herding happening right now and nobody noticing exept me
idk man its hard for me to put it into words
anyways have a lil speculative dude meant for changing gravity lolol
#goofy goof#doodle#i know this is just my insane declining mental health but#it just feels so real to me#and makes so much sense#i dont want to say too much#i cant even say too much because of the lack of english human words#im just 14 man why do i know this#im supposed to like lisa frank and gossip in highschool and shit#not lay in bed for hours at a time left alone with the horrors my mind comes up with#i like speculative evolution guy#hes cool#idek how i made him#i just thought#like#different things#i wanna go back in time#earth is so small#life is so small to me#i want bigger#but i know i will never get that#no human will ever get the exitement of discovering a new animal#because we have discovered it all already#our space rock is too small for me#i want to go out and see things the human mind and eyes cant even comprehend#im so tired of animal parts#i need more#so much more#never ending more
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(OC) boyfriends..... 🤭🧡💜
#my art#OC#baek siwon#(is the honey blonde one)#PURPLE EYES DOES NOT HAVE A NAME YET....#(idek where to start tbh lol like... HOW DO U NAME A WEREWOLF FOX MONSTER-#thats his default human form but yeah hes not human#siwon is human tho! just to confirm KDJDK#anyway im kicking my feet n giggling#HOPE U GUYS LIKE THEM TOO#also im laughing bc its so obv i have a visual type when it comes to ships#LIKE U CAN SEE THE SIMILARITIES W CEDJESS... (droopy eyes x sharp eyes... height diff...#OH ALSO BLONDE/BLACK HAIR YAOI ALWAYS WINS#I FINALLY MADE ONE OF MY OWN LMFAOOA#giving 💜 two-toned hair was a good decision tbh#bc i had been stuck on whether to give him dark or light hair... until i realized i could combine him <3#*combine them#O BTW... i mean the chibi confirms it but#can u tell that siwon is the bigger/taller one...🫣#golden retriever coded...#OH BTW CLOTHES R PLACEHOLDER!!!#SRRY IDK HOW TO DESIGN FASHION EXCUSE THE GOOFY ASS OUTFIT#ITS JUST A PLACEHOLDER TO SHOW THAT HE DRESSES GOTH...#i feel like maybe he has a cool assassin-like uniform normally#but if he were to dress casually... hed go for goth/emo/punk-like clothes FLDNDJ#could picture him playing guitar or bass or smth
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💥Loud and Proud💥
#TMNT#TMNT 2012#rottmnt#Casey jones 2012#rise April O’neil#love these two#I doubt Nickelodeon would ever do a crossover with their two shows#idek if josh peck would return#but I’d love for them to meet one day#on opposing sides screaming their name and swinging their sports equipment#they’d maybe have a personality clash idk but Casey would tell April how amazing her life if her best friends are mutants and yokais#shed think it was cool he went to space and turned into a vampire#all the good stuff#confidence and positivity radiates off these two#need it in my life#also humans are too hard and i tried to not take Casey’s gear off him sooo instead i made them chibi#im building up to drawing his full gear one day i Pwomise#saveRiseOfTheTMNT#also btw if you couldnt tell i love casey jones and this versions not my favourite but they are#and then this april is the best april no question i dont take feedback your wrong
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I WANNA GET HIS NUMBER
#sou's thoughts#hi here to give context down here#i've been going to this badminton club#and there's this super sweet guy who i admire sm#bc i don't speak chinese at all and people keep assuming i do but never remember that i don't#BUT HE REMEMBERED I DON'T and even goes as far as speaking english for me and translating#like this lady started speaking to me in chinese and i was so lost BUT HE WAS NEARBY AND TRANSLATED FOR ME#school starts soon so tomorrow's my last day#since wechat won't work (mf won't let me sign up) i'm gonna ask for his number#also i wanna try do more small talk !!#idek his age yet and what he does i just know how long he's played#but he's super fun to play with so i want to invite him if i ever book courts during the term#he's literally my role model#i wanna make someone feel that welcome bc before i spoke to him i felt so left out#and kept telling myself that i should just push through and make use of being able to play with new people#now i've been so excited to go and speak to new people#anyways long ass ramble but wish me luck !!#ngl last time i made friends outside of school i did it by trading parent numbers#SO LIIIIIKE#i'm nervous
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re: "good girl" i think they say it once randomly as a joke and its just one of those things that gets him wayyy more than they expected it would. so now its their secret weapon and they use it very sparingly and every single time he gets super embarrassed about it but it works ill tell you what.
#HES MY PRINCESS IDEK.#i dont think it happens naturally all that much because theyre usually in the business of calling each other names and being mean#so i think this would just be a random night where theyre on top and just think it would be really funny. to yank on his leash and call him#a good girl after bullying him into doing something. and well i just think it would get him is all i dont knowwwwwwwwwwwwww#i havr a lot of thoughts on the matter but i will stop for now#but the tldr is that with each other they tend to switch frequently and are always fighting#so i think itd take someone else being in the picture for hog to even realize how much he likes being a good boy :3#and i also dont think fish would be good at straightforward domming in the way he would want and they both know that#so its something he keeps between him and rat mostly. please dont ask me questions abt jrs sex life i have too many opinions on it#anyways. i think even tho fish knows theyd be bad at that they still feel left out so sometimes they go watch. they dont get anything out of#doing that theyre just sort of taking mental notes#all of this circles back to i think fish has always been the more sexually experienced of the two. and romantically.#i dont rlly think hog is a guy who dates i dont think hes ever been that and i dont think he made much time for hookups#(i think its cute if hes a virgin when they meet but 🤷 im not solid on it)#but i think for him hes just only ever fucked this one person and they do a LOT of stuff and it gets the job done so hes just never really#tried anything else. but. and again i have too many opinions on this but i think rat wouldnt be into their usual shteeze#i think hes a bit of a freak in his own way but the blood and weird anger issues is just not doing it for him most of the time#but i do think if given the opportunity he would LOVE to be The Boss for a little bit so i think he and hog can explore that together and it#will work out beautifully for them. this is great because i am not into strict d/s dynamics like that but i know in my heart that hoggy#would be. and i cant do that for him#again i think fish would be butthurt about this. mostly in a 'why didnt u tell me so we could try this :(' and he would go#'because you would suck at it and wouldnt like it' and they go oh. right. well im still mad#ANYWAYS. circling back. i think the good girl thing would be something fish knows that rat doesnt. and idk if theyd tell him or not#because i do think if they tell him he is using that for evil hog is going to be a good girl forever and ever. rat doesnt have the patience#to space it out the way fish does. which idk maybe thatd be good for hog he could work through some stuff...#but on the other hand i think its fun if they DONT tell him and just bust it out sometime when all 3 of them are doing the deed. or whatever#because again they mostly like how embarrassed he gets about it and i think he would be reallyyyy flustered by it#^ this is essentially part of my fantasy about spitroasting my beautiful wife until he cries just so everyone knows#idk i just think when he lets go of himself hed be a very cute and kind of needy subby bottom and i think hed be really easy to fluster#about it and i want it so bad
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Tim has ALWAYS been a mirror. to anyone and everyone who needed it or who he needed. he reflects those around him and you have to figure out what's at the heart of it all by looking through all those bright, conflicting, broken and warped mirror pieces. as Robin he wanted to be like Dick, yes, but he always wanted to live up to Jason. he formed himself into what Bruce needed, a Robin just enough like both his sons to be accepted despite pain and circumstances pushing back against the both of them, who doesn't realize that in the end he's loved for who he is, not who he reflects. some cameras are made up of mirrors. is the image they capture the same that was alive and in the world, or a reflection, or both? do those mirrors go dark when the shutter clicks or do they light up with flashing fragmentary light? if the Robin is reflected enough times, is it still the same Robin? if the Robin acts as a mirror enough, what does he see when he looks at himself in one?
#love how my meta posts always start out in my conversational typing tone and end up in my HEAVIEST poetic writing voice wow#anyway idk what this is i just like metaphors and thinking about tim drake#idek if this makes sense even to ME shdjxhskfjsldjfks#idk i just read a fic that briefly mentioned tim being a mirror to bruce and I'm constantly talking about how he and jason are alike#and i made that one post about him and dick being two sides of a coin. lots of thoughts.#Lu rambles#meta finding tag#batfam#tim drake
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oh. oh I forgot you guys don't know this. in my game, Ireena's the older sibling.
#curse of strahd#dungeons and dragons#cos ireena#cos ismark#curse of strahd ismark#ismark kolyanovich#ismark the lesser#ireena kolyana#curse of strahd ireena#idek why i made that choice it was just one of those ones that felt immediately true.#but there's something about Ireena being older and the one who is supposed to care for her little brother#but because of the cruelty of Barovia that natural order has been messed up and now ismark has to defend his older sister and care for her#ireena wants to be the strong older sibling but the reality is that she is really powerless in her situation and is forced to rely on him#idk man it just makes my heart hurt to think about how unfair it all is to both of them
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What do you mean I should be doing something productive and not sketching F1 Driver Carlos Sainz Jr. ?! 🤔
#carlos sainz jr#carlos sainz#carlos sainz jr.#f1#idek how this happened#first time ever that i draw him and that's probably why the more i look at this the more he looks cross-eyed#proportions and anatomy we don't know them#not in this house#made by me#tag:f1#tag:art#and yes it's cropped because i didn't finish the rest of his body and believe me you don't wanna see that part
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the gavi recovery documentary was so much better than the new gen one damn 😭😭
#i have so many thoughts but that had me overwhelmed as hell#first of all#hearing gavi talk about it just OUCHHHH#also him saying how he wasn’t always positive but his physios were bc of that#also i loved the physios i really loved their inclusion in it bc clearly theyve had the biggest role to play alongside his friends family#and teammates#the way they talk about him SOOOO fondly#pablo merino constantly mentioning how intelligent he is#and his emotional intelligence#my poor baby though the scenes of him in pain had me so upset#also the shot that made me the most upset was him slowly pedalling on the bike next to his teammates#who were doing it normally idek why#also he’s so strong and mature the psg thing being a thing to look forward to#ALSO THE WAY HE DIDNT TOUCH A BALL EVEN ONCE MY BABYY#the playlist thing had me DYING#the lana del rey mention pffftt#i think the second part will be later in the year no after he comes back a little#either way im so excited#for tonight and for the rest of this season#our heart is back <3
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I have such an important interview tomorrow and instead of trying to prepare, I'm obsessing over She Kills Monsters. Like a responsible person.
#idek why i remembered skm. like what made me remember it#i was just scrolling tumblr and all of a sudden remembered the best play ever created#and had to obsess over it. instead of preparing#idek how to prepare tho tbh#the interview is for an office position at the aummer camp ive worked at for six years#the director gave us all a question to rhink on so i need to think on that#and i guess also what i want the position to look like because theyre changing it up this year#and why im good for the position and why i want it#okay i have a solid starting point now#i also might reach out to the guy that did that position the last three years and ask him if he remembers any of his interview questions#idk. idk if ill get the position but i really want it. but unfortunately the other applicant is a really good friend#thats the tough part of working at a summer camp for awhile. you go for positions against aome of your best friends#last year i got an area director position over one of my close friends and i felt so bad when i got the news#idk im tired. maybe ill just wow the interviewer with my knowledge of skm and hope thats enough#i want to watch a bootleg tonight but i dont want to cry. but it would be the pefect thing to watch while i knit my dragon wing shawl#anyway. i shiuld go. maybe prepare. maybe just knit and think about skm
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柄本 佑 || 「光る君へ」 (2024) · 第三十八回 「まぶしき闇」
#柄本佑#tasuku emoto#光る君へ#hikaru kimi e#1x38#made by me#fujiwara no michinaga#藤原道長#this ep's so good idek where to begin with#okay kaneie it is#I feel like part of michinaga still consciously does not want to admit he's doing everything kaneie's way#but it's the other part that scares me#he's thinking bigger than kaneie (in a bad way) bc he's already too deep in the darkness#and he's automatically justifying his greed by using all kinds of excuses#either his daughter. or for the country. it's good for ichijo. it's good for korechika. it's good for mahiro's daughter. it's good for you#deeply he knew he didnt believe it himself but that's what dairi life does to a man in that position#half the episode I'm mahiro watching him from the other side of the corridor. thinking 'who da hell is that???'#the only 2 scenes we got to breathe a little from the pressure of his darkness#is the night talk with tomoko and the mahiro scene#thank you Oishi sensei for giving us a break and reminding us that saburo did not fully die#speaking of mahiro I'm sorry but kikyo sucks#I find it funny that these two women are strong and independent and everything and I think Oishi sensei did a good job writing both#but it gets me every time that Kikyo is so dedicated of being a slave of sadako's#mahiro too I mean she was tricked by michinaga and she needs to provide the family yes.#but she initially thought she's writing this to serve a royal member#it became self-catharsis later but the motive is -#idk she used to teach farmer kids to read & write and care about normal people during some natural disasters#she never believed in hierarchy but ended up serving one of the highest royal families#k enough whining. lastly can I say that I'm just glad that no matter how dark michinaga gets#there's always a yukinari promising to investigate the horror curses & insisting capital sentence on people who are mean to michinaga
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HEADCANONS - G.ALLAGHER & SIOBHAN
as always, these are simply my opinions on the subject, and i don't expect everyone to agree with them (particularly not any writers of said characters). however, there is one thing i will not budge on when it comes to this dynamic for a very specific reason, which i will highlight at the end for extra clarification. until then-
HISTORIC RELATIONSHIP
and no, i don't mean romantic-
of everyone we speak to in p.enacony with regards to g.allagher, only siobhan seems to actually... know him. most people haven't heard of him at all (understandably, given who/what he is), but not only does siobhan know of him, she knows him. he's not just a name or someone she's met in passing, he's someone that shares a certain degree of history with her.
when we first meet siobhan, it's obvious they're already familiar with each other. they talk like old friends (though i would concede to acquaintances at a push), there's a degree of banter between them ("you're not over the hill yet"), and she speaks like she has experience around him:
siobhan: and let me tell you, don't underestimate the bartenders of p.enacony, especially not g.allagher. this guy is pure magic... he can satisfy even the pickiest of customers. siobhan: don't go easy on this old man. give him a real challenge.
she also honours his memory specifically in farewell, p.enacony, as one might say a final farewell to a lost friend. so i believe siobhan is one of the few people within p.enacony that g.allagher has actively forged connections with. on the surface, he has no obvious reason to do so-
A SLIVER OF THE TRUTH
-except for the fact that i believe siobhan knows more about g.allagher than one might assume.
just as a reminder, my main verse for g.allagher has him being the 'human' form of dormancy, aka, something unto death. both forms were created specifically for p.enacony, and he can be both g.allagher & dormancy at the same time to further conceal the truth of his identity.
with that being said, given siobhan's knowledge and experience with the dreamjolt troupe, i hc that she sensed something different about g.allagher from the start, though she never pried. what did it matter if he wasn't completely human, as she suspected? monsters are welcome in her bar, after all. it makes no difference to her.
because of this, i believe g.allagher trusted her enough to let a little of the truth slip. whilst he couldn't reveal his actual identity, surely it could only benefit him to have someone know he is tied to dormancy - and not in the way most believe. how siobhan came to learn that he is dormancy and not simply in control of it, i leave open for now - did g.allagher tell her outright, or did he simply leave enough clues for her to work it out for herself? if so, did she approach him about it, or simply acknowledge it silently?
regardless, revealing this "truth" is a deliberate act: both as one of trust for one of the few people he has forged a bond with, and to further cover the actual truth to ensure he could continue to carry out the plan as intended.
IMPORTANT NOTE
as i mentioned at the start, there is an aspect to this dynamic that i will not budge on, and that this is for a very good reason. and that is:
siobhan cannot know that g.allagher, in either form, is an avatar of the e.nigmata.
and the reason should be fairly obvious: if she knows, his identity is discovered, and he will cease to exist. he says it himself: "once something fictional is seen through, it ceases to exist" - therefore, she cannot know anything more than what he has allowed her to know / believe, otherwise it would disrupt everything.
to that extent, she also only knows the g.allagher that exists in p.enacony. whether or not she comes to know the g.allagher that comes after (as per my verse), or the original pathstrider who created him... well, that's another story.
#( personals DNI )#( i've talked about their dynamic in bits and pieces before so it was time i made a proper post )#( but also that last bit? super fckn important )#( literally no one can know the truth about g.allagher without him *ceasing to exist* )#( idek how it would work with other f.ictionologists bc there's like. so little info out there )#( literally all anyone in p.enacony can ever know about him (pre-end of quest. obviously) is that he is also dormancy )#;what do they call me? lapdog? (headcanons; gallagher)
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#had to listen to ttpd out of plain curiosity because everyone was saying how much it didn't deliver and well they weren't lying#they weren't lying about the lana comparisons either! who's afraid of little old me sounds like born to die in the verses#it's very flat tbh like you're listening to the same songs over and over#it's very hollow like the album was just made just to be made in order to keep her name afloat and relevant#not because she had something to actually say and express. her song delivery is very flat and unemotional idek how to properly express what#i mean. like she sings with no actual emotion behind the words no nerve no nothing. like she can't actually convince me that she's feeling#all that she's singing. also like the music is all the same and the way she sings them. there's no fluctuations no diversity. it's the same#song over and over. also sometimes i feel like the lyrics and the delivery don't really go together with the music#like they don't compliment each other#But Daddy I Love Him is supposedly over her fans trying to dictate her life (i have all sorts of opinions on that but it's a diff convo) an#it had 0 nerve and anger in it. i needed a little more intense a little more angry. i liked down bad and Florida (thank god for Florence 😭)#and all the breathy low vocals are not it either. it kind of makes the album flatter. there's no tension no passion in the album#definitely feels like she's trying to recreate 1989 and maybe folklore/evermore and it's not working#also people comparing this album to midnights are not wrong either#it feels like her last few releases all sound the same with no creativity or bringing something new and amazing#she really needs a break and to take a step back re-evaluate and try to create something more inspiring and fun instead of trying to#recreate the same sound over and over again. releasing album after album in such a short period of time is bound to hinder creativity and#the quality of someone's work. and maybe she does need new people to work with that will push her creatively#also i feel like she doesn't need to create such long albums. especially if you're using the same sound in every song. like one song morpths#into the other and it gets boring! especially if there's little to no build up and tension holding the song and having breathy vocals that#lead to nowhere during each song! anyway it could've been a whole lot better and she has better songs than this
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wait so how actually did andrew not win that tony?
#like did the voters just watch his performance and go ‘yeah let’s not give him the award’?#idek how that’s possible#did we watch the same show????#(yes i know how tony voting works and all the politics etc but let me rant for a sec)#i mean the 2017 tony’s made bad decisions all around so that could explain it#andrew rannells#falsettos#the tony awards#2017 tony awards#tony awards#falsettos revival#broadway#musicals#falsettos 2016
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ritsu and/or reigen for character bingo 👀
ritsu left, reigen right <3 did both cuz im ill hope this helps
#qktalks#fexiled#OKAY LISTEN . HEAR ME OUT#the only reason i say reigen's design is rly good is bc his gay little pink tie Completes him#and it's also the fact that he's like Always in a suit and i just think it's rly funny#idk it's prolly not meant to be. the other characters wear other shit;#but he has One suit‚ an ugly pair of pajamas‚ and one More suit#and also a coat that makes him look homeless#reigen just ceases to amaze me in every aspect. truly an enigma of a man#and also the fact that he's literally risked his life several times for mob but if i go there we'll be here for the next 18 hours#and also separation arc#and also the one ep where mob doesn't wanna exorcise innocent spirits and reigen chooses mob over his clients#and als. ill stop#ritsu also makes me ill for several different reasons#he's the one i relate to the most for sure#idek how to describe my love for ritsu man i literally cannot articulate the emotions i feel#he's just very good. very good character#and the changes they made for the anime versus the manga r rly rly good and build a lot
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#like…. yeah you should have lmao. i’m not looking for a pen pal#it’s actually crazy how quickly these men fumble like if that were me i’d be so embarrassed#we went out on tuesday and even though we started talking about where to go for our second date he still never inquired abt my availability#so of course i had to be the one to tell him when i was free. which i did#and lo and behold! our schedules this upcoming week don’t line up. because he waited too long so of course i made other plans#and i’m sure as shit not rescheduling those plans just to pencil HIM in. you snooze you lose buddy#honestly at this point i’m feeling kinda icked out and idek if i want to go out with him again lol
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