#id and a person Cope

[bloodurged]

autistic gavin and android autistic nines [a.k.a. unfinished prototype without a social module] being the ones to understand each other is something that can be so personal.

[charlotte-family-apologist]

Suchin's Backstory In My AU

Warning: Non-Graphic Addiction and Suicide

Suchin was the only child of a civilian mother and a former criminal father. When she was eight, her mother died in a car accident, causing her father to fall into a depression and relapse into his gambling addiction, taking out several loans from his old employer in the Red Dragon to support it. He lost his job within the year and started drinking, leaving Suchin to take care of him more often than not. He also fell back into old paranoid habits and took to training Suchin in case they went after her first.

Struggling with money, Suchin got a job at a local restaurant at fourteen, where she flourished socially. She even got a boyfriend at seventeen. Due to her always being away from home, she failed to notice her father spiraling further until he raided her savings when she was eighteen. She started to take more hours to build them back up, neglecting her relationships to do so. Because of this, her boyfriend broke up with her.

At nineteen, she came home to find her dad committed suicide. Upon reading the note, she learned all the debts had come to a head, and the Red Dragon was pursuing payment. The trauma of it finally breaking the barrier in her mind to fully activate her “radar” (see notes for explanation) that had been on and off her entire childhood.

Inheriting her father’s debt, Suchin fled and became a traveling vigilante known as Blackbird on a personal mission to destroy the Red Dragon and return to civilian life. She quickly became a notorious figure in Asia’s underworld for her efficiency and only took paid jobs to support her survival.

She swore off personal relationships and dedicated her life to completing her goal, investigating any lead on the Red Dragon she found. One of these investigations led her to Japan, where she met Kenshi for the first time.

And nearly killed him.

Notes:

Suchin’s radar is a danger sense ability she feels, not sees or hears. Despite it being a form of precognition, she can’t tell what is and isn’t a danger and has to identify them herself. She can’t turn it off and it works best when she’s calm and collected. The only time it doesn’t work is when she’s panicking, as it becomes hard to read and quickly overloads her senses and rational thoughts. It can also blank out when she doesn’t know how to process something, often freezing her in place. Because of it, she lives in a constant state of flight or fight and suffers from severe anxiety and paranoia, which is only made worse by her lifestyle.

Suchin’s father wasn’t physically abusive, only laying hands on her during training, even helping her patch any injuries before his addictions fully tanked his psyche. The majority of the trauma Suchin has from her father is from neglect, parentification, and the fallout of his suicide.

The timeline of these events are: 1957: Suchin is born 1965: Suchin’s mother dies in a car accident and her father relapses, taking out loans from the Red Dragon 1976: Suchin’s Father commits suicide, transferring his debt to Suchin (19); Suchin flees from the Red Dragon and eventually becomes Blackbird 1987: Kenshi (28) and Suchin (30) meet

[xremus-is-deadx]

Arcane s2 talk

Ignoring everything that happens in episode 3 except the kiss is my way of coping until next week. Then I can guarantee you my coping mechanism next week will just be being in love with Vi, call it delusional, I call it smart

[mckinlily]

New visualization that has been helpful with my intrusive thoughts recently: I imagine the voice in my head that says the intrusive thoughts is actually the Other Mother from Coraline.

For some reason, just telling myself "nah, don't listen to that" or "that's not true" or "that's not healthy" was never very effective and just felt exhausting. Then I was depressed both by the intrusive thoughts and because I was failing to uproot the intrusive thoughts. So I was just tired and sad and still stuck with intrusive thoughts.

But if I imagine the Other Mother disguising herself as "me" in my head and saying all those things, suddenly it's so much easier to fight back.

"You're unloveable." "It's stupid and foolish to have hope." "Life will never get better." "You should just give up and quit." "You'll only have friends as long as you hide all the essential parts of yourself."

^^ If I think of that as part of my head and me, it's like, well, it could be true couldn't it? I have data to support this. It is probably true, and I would be stupid to ignore it. Should I even fight it?

But if it's the Other Mother saying those things, I'm suddenly like, Wait, no, I know who the Other Mother is! I SEE THE BUTTON EYES! And suddenly it's so much easier to tell myself to crawl out of the Otherworld and stop listening to all of it. There's no hope for my life? Nah, I know you're a creepy spider lady who just wants to trap me in her creepy house. BYE FELICIA.

idk maybe this will help someone else too?

The visualization also helps me to have compassion for myself. Like, yeah, I know why the Otherworld and the Other Mother are appealing and tempting, too. I don't have to be mad about myself for being tempted. But knowing exactly what it is, I also know why I don't want to stay there. I'll pass on the button eyes, thanks.

[nartml]

Now, I know I didn't witness Izuku go through all this shit to get slapped in the face with this typa treatment

[dogboner]

personal growth is crazy because it seems like nothing has changed until you're crying because you don't want to die. you learn something about yourself that ten years ago would have actually killed you, and now you're thinking about what you can do to heal and make peace with it. nothing may have changed to you, but to the person you were however long ago, you are the "it gets better"

[captain-legarde]

It sucks so bad when a band has one (1) amazing album and everything else is garbage. Especially when it's the first album. Like what happened

[emilnikos]

on that note . mitski literally wasn't lying . I DO find that lately I've been crying like a tall child

[bitchassmcgrass]

"he would NOT fucking say that" but instead it's me going "he would NOT have gone to a doctor for an actual diagnosis for that"

[villainartist]

can i be honest and say that the idea of danganronpa being a tv show where the tv actors are legit murdered on live television, and thats just that, never made sense to me.

i know we get vagueries of the world being all rotten and fucked up and its not like i deny this! but i think a big corrupt tv company that has a death grip on the worlds attention would want its actors around after the season ends for contracting shit, merch ads, interviews, etc etc etc.

it just makes more sense to me then actually killing off popular characters and basically never being able to do anything w them again bc you fucking killed the actor playing them. VR au just makes so much sense yknow

[seraphim-soulmate]

when my roommates put things back in the kitchen incorrectly it makes me frustrated and angry. apparently, did you know, this is not a thing all or most humans experience ? some people don't have an intense emotional reaction to things not being stacked in the optimal way, or pans not being put back in their "usual" spot. did you know this. did you.

[kavehater]

I’ll never understand younger siblings whining about their older siblings moving away like I bet yall were nasty and annoying too like wow all those years and you claim to adore the older sibling and post oh woe is me the older sibling abandoned me … girl … the older sibling didn’t have a parental certificate or anything.

[linicat]

heart being satisfied with all the delusions and lies i’ve fed myself / brain knowing it’s all fake and i’ll never have that perfect life 🩷

[amplified-pain-culture-is]

my rheumatologist told me that her treatment plan will "cure" my AMPS, do you think that's true or BS lmfao (i definitely think the treatment could HELP but cure is a strong word,,?)

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[tamagotchikgs]

looking at the scar on my arm everyday feels like a reminder im never going to be ok, im never going to be human i ruined it after all the years i held myself back i finally severed the line i had at any chance of one day belonging

[zarovich]

👉👈👀 self destruction time?? for me???