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HEHEHGIGUGI ITS ME AGAIN THE SERAPHIM AND THE CAT ONE
Can i request a witch reader with Vil, Rook, Trey, and Malleus!! (I forgot if its 4 limits or 5, whoops but only that) You can write however you like if its headcannon or how you write it!! Also can you do it on Romantic shshshâŒïžâŒïžđ«¶đ«¶
Rook, Trey, Malleus, Vil with a Witch! Reader
hi! thank you for waiting and i hope you like it <3 (also there aren't limits for number of characters)
Rook Hunt
Rook, a true romantic and ever-curious soul, is constantly mesmerized by your craft. He adores watching you work, fascinated by every detail, and often appears just as youâre about to cast a spell, like he knows exactly when something extraordinary is about to happen.
One evening, he surprises you mid-ritual, leaning in to whisper, âAh, the witch at work, casting beauty into the world.â
âRook!â you laugh, a little flustered. âArenât you supposed to give me space to concentrate?â
âOn the contrary,â he says, eyes sparkling. âWatching you brings me closer to the divine. Itâs as if each spell you cast is an invitation to witness your heart.â
As he speaks, he presses a kiss to your hand, his words a spell of their own. You find yourself captivated by the unique magic only Rook can createâa blend of curiosity, charm, and unshakable devotion.
Trey Clover
Trey is both grounded and warm, and he respects your magical abilities without a hint of fear. Whenever you experiment with potion-making, heâs your quiet supporter, ready with any ingredient you need.
One evening, youâre preparing a special love potionâjust for funâand Trey chuckles as you explain the recipe.
âWhat, you donât believe in love potions?â you ask, raising an eyebrow.
âOh, I believe,â he replies, pulling a stray leaf from your hair, âbut I donât think you need one. Youâve already cast your spell on me.â
You feel your face heat up, but Trey simply smiles, his gaze gentle and warm. He reaches for your hand, his fingers intertwining with yours. "Letâs skip the potions,â he says softly. âYou and I donât need magic for this.â
Malleus Draconia
Malleus is captivated by your magic, drawn to you as if heâs known you for centuries. Heâs endlessly curious about your spells, often standing nearby as you perform them, his eyes watching with reverence.
One misty evening, he finds you crafting a charm under the moonlight. As you finish, Malleus steps forward, his expression unusually soft. âYour magic⊠it has a warmth that even my fae spells lack.â
âYou flatter me, Malleus,â you reply, smiling up at him. âIâm honored to have caught the attention of someone so powerful.â
He takes your hand, pressing a kiss to your knuckles with an old-world elegance. âPower means little to me if it cannot protect what is precious.â His gaze is intense, holding yours. âAnd you, my dear witch, are precious indeed.â
Under the stars, Malleusâs words hang in the air, leaving a warmth that feels like it could last an eternity.
Vil Schoenheit
Vil has always been enchanted by beauty in its many forms, but there's something about your magic that captivates him in a way he never expected. He watches you as you work, studying your movements as if each one were part of an intricate dance. One evening, he finds you under the warm glow of candlelight, carefully crafting an enchantment, your hands moving gracefully over the ingredients.
He steps closer, his voice smooth and gentle. âDo you realize the spell youâve woven on me without even trying?â he murmurs, his eyes fixed on you.
You smile, slightly flustered but intrigued. âI could say the same about you, Vil.â
Vil reaches for your hand, brushing his thumb over your knuckles. âThen perhaps Iâve found the magic that surpasses any potion, any spell.â His gaze is intense, unwavering, as if heâs seeing right through to your soul. âStay close to me, wonât you?â he asks softly, the hint of vulnerability in his words surprising but endearing.
With a smile, you nod, finding comfort in his presence. Vil leans in, pressing a lingering kiss to your forehead, his touch gentle and reverent. âYouâre more captivating than any beauty Iâve ever known,â he whispers, his voice filled with a sincerity that leaves your heart racing.
In that quiet moment, itâs clear that he isnât just drawn to your magicâheâs drawn to you.
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#twst x reader#twisted wonderland x reader#twst#twisted wonderland#rook hunt x reader#rook x reader#vil schoenheit x reader#vil x reader#malleus draconia x reader#malleus x reader#trey clover x reader#trey x reader
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What do you think was the breaking point for anakin?
Oooo another WONDERFUL question! Sorry, but this is about to be a long post, because this truly deserves a long answer.
I think Anakin's breaking point comes the moment he discovers that Palpatine is the Sith Lord. In the movies, this plays out rather quickly, but in the Revenge of the Sith novelization by Matthew Stover, Palpatine builds very slowly to his "big reveal" and it is absolutely horrifying and wonderful and terrible.
Anakin goes to the Chancellor, to tell him that Obi-Wan has engaged General Grievous and that the Clone Wars are almost over. However, Palpatine is very direct with Anakin, telling him that Grievous and the Clone Wars are merely "a distraction" at this point. He tells Anakin that the Jedi Council is "about to make its move" and take over the Republic.
Anakin thinks the Chancellor is being a bit dramatic, but Palpatine quickly reminds Anakin that the Council continues to hide things from him, that even Obi-Wan is hiding things from him. And poor, exhausted Anakin (who has not slept in daysâ weeks?â for fear of his nightmares) cannot come up with a good response in defense of the Jedi. He tries, he really does, but this man is exhausted.
Palpatine then admits he is aware of Anakin and Padmé's marriage, that he has only pretended not to know to "spare [him] discomfort."
And this is where Sidious feeds Anakin his poison, this is where he sinks his teeth in and Anakin is too exhausted to notice until it's far too late.
Palpatine asks Anakin to think about what he wants, and once more, Anakin has no idea how to answer.
Anakin plays along, choosing increasingly more expensive things, and each time Palpatine tells him he will grant it to him. Eventually, Anakin gets tired of this "game" and chooses something so ridiculous:
"All right," Anakin said softly. "Corellia. I'll take Corellia." "The planet, or the whole system?" Anakin stared. "Anakin?" "I justâ" He shook his head blankly. "I can't figure out if you're kidding, or completely insane." "I am neither, Anakin. I am trying to impress upon you a fundamental truth of our relationship. A fundamental truth of yourself." "What if I really wanted the Corellian system? The whole Five Brothersâ all of it?" "Then it would be yours. You can have the whole sector, if you like." The twin gleams within the shadow sharpened. "Do you understand, now? I will give you anything you want."
Anakin is not stupid.
Even exhausted and alone, he realizes that nobody would grant such things without getting something in return. Of course, Palpatine only answers by telling him that he only need do what he wants, what he feels is right. Palpatine says:
"You can have every one of your dreams. Turn aside from the lies of the Jedi, and follow the truth of yourself. Leave them. Join me on the path of true power. Be my friend, Anakin. Be my student. My apprentice."
Anakin is too tired and too afraid to really consider his wording, he is so confused and isolated. The scene continues:
"I know what you truly want," the shadow said. "I have only been waiting for you to admit it to yourself. A handâa human hand, warm with compassionâ settled onto his shoulder. "Listen to me: I can help you save her." "Youâ" Anakin blinked blindly. "How can you help?"
And this is where Darth Sidious reveals himself, this is where he admits that Darth Plagueis was real, that Plagueis was his master before he killed him.
"You," he said. Suddenly he was neither dizzy nor tired. Suddenly everything made sense. "It's you. It's been you all along!" In the clean blue light of his blade he stared into the face of a man whose features were as familiar to him as his own, but now seemed as alien as an extragalactic cometâ because now he finally understood that those familiar features were only a mask. He had never seen this man's real face. "I should kill you," he said. "I will kill you!"
Anakin's first reaction is to kill him, because he realizes that this whole time, his friend, someone he looked up to like a mentor, like a father has been lying to him. And not only that, but he is the Sith Lord that the Jedi have been hunting, the Sith Lord that started this war.
As the scene continues, Anakin wishes Obi-Wan were here, he knows Obi-Wan would know what to do, what to say. But he is alone. And while Anakin doesn't know it yet, his isolation is deliberate. Because Palpatine knew, that if were surrounded by those who loved himâ PadmĂ©, Ahsoka, Obi-Wanâ that Anakin might not fall.
And then, Palpatine delivers the final blow:
"Perhaps not. Perhaps it's simply a question of whether you love Obi-Wan Kenobi more than you love your wife."
This, I believe, is Anakin's breaking point.
Though I think there are also very good arguments to be made for other moments as his "breaking point" (when he sits in the Council chambers, staring out and thinking of Padmé as he cries for the choice he is about to make; when he makes the choice to return to the Chancellor's office; when he takes action against Mace Windu and cuts off his hand to stop him from assassinating the Chancellor) THIS is the moment the black poison of the Sith is injected into his mind.
And every moment after this is just a side effect of that poison burning through him.
What do you think? Is this Anakin's breaking point? Do you guys have a better one?
#sorry this was so long#but I loved this question#asks and answers#anakin skywalker#breaking point#shatterpoint#revenge of the sith#sheev palpatine#palpatine#darth sidious#chancellor palpatine#star wars#padme amidala#padmé amidala#obi wan kenobi#darth jess
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Ethereal Tapestry
A fresh resemblance of fate,
Mysteries induce fantasies;
Fantasies float in the past,
And a line once crossed transports me
To serenity-driven solace.
Grasping air in the night,
I am drawn to the foreboding wilderness,
Caught up in the starry sky.
The lights dim as shadows fade,
A reality locked behind
The forbidden entrance to demise.
Bound by invisible chains,
Intertwined with madness,
Offering a sense of security beyond
The anticipatory instruments of my heart.
If I know where to start,
I will cease to falter,
Even if I dance around the altar.
Grey turns to black,
And I feel I will counteract
Every intent, every will, every feat,
Until we no longer meet.
Like a feather moving toward oblivion,
Nothing sharpens my mind
Like the sense of false attachment
To the ground beneath me.
The earth tells me to shift;
An earthquake occurs solely for me.
When I awaken from fantasies adrift in the wind,
They diminish only when I look away;
I will see them another day.
When the earthquake shatters as a possibility,
My future, bright stained glass,
Cuts through my mind, transcending time.
The past no longer paints the sky;
Instead, fire dances, alas,
Trapped in the kaleidoscope of my vision.
There is no longer superstition or collision.
The end of the sea was only in my mind;
I can no longer stay afloat,
Only in escaping fleeting moments
Since our first meeting.
When I touch the sky,
The clouds alter simply for me.
When I ride the waves,
I sink into nothingness,
And hope ties me to the tides,
Ever escaping, ever moving
Toward a fantasy beyond time and space.
Meet me at this place â
Where waves crash
And seasons clash.
Reaching the edge,
I dive deeper into the cave of my soul;
I am no longer whole.
My life encapsulates a hidden truth,
One that mimics inescapable dark valleys
And hidden highways and alleys
Painted white, glistening in the stormy breeze.
Every light that blinks off
Sparks my imagination.
Northern lights tempt me to reconsider,
Or should I let you wither away
With every passing day,
Until the whole world is quiet
And all I hear
Are my feet tapping on the floor,
Moving in a direction, I will no longer explore?
Pink clouds disappear,
My sight laser-focused
On the myth behind them.
Like a hamster on a wheel,
My mind is drawn
Toward the covert intricacies of your soul.
A freshly scented lemon breeze
Puts me at ease.
The endless buzz of people
Pushes me against the wall.
Who is true?
It could only be you.
Behind the wall, you dance.
I cannot take a chance.
Stormy breeze,
I am no longer at ease.
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Albedo Headcanons
A/n: Since I don't have much to post rn, I decided to go back to some of my old headcanons that I didn't publish and expand on them. These ones are all the way back from 2022 even, but I'm still happy with my portrayal of Albedo lol. Hope you all enjoy them too! I did work on these a little more, but I didn't take in consideration all the new events with Albedo after 2022. Keep that in mind.
Contents: General platonic and romantic headcanons, Albedo x GN!Reader, fluff, dash of angst if you squint really hard, self indulgent, possible grammar mistakes
General headcanons:
- Albedo is not a person who really indulges much, or at all, in friendships and relationships. He can understand the appeal, but he simply does not care as much as an average individual. He has his work to get to and his research to keep going, and the continuously taxing process of keeping relationships in general are tiring for him
- He prefers his solitude much more than any other company. He may not be in love with people much, but he is in love with the trees, the branches, the snow falling and the frozen lakes of Dragonspine - every new day means a new love for him, and he cannot wait to do his homework on anything and everything, even things he understands fully now. One thing you can equate this love of his to is the snow of Dragonspine itself, countless snowflakes hugging the lands, buried deep in crevices and cracks, trying to get to the center of the world.
- Since he has researched so much, even the smallest of new discoveries are very exciting for him, itâs those small joys that show his inner being through the smile that lights his eyes and makes the corners of them crinkle.
- Due to his drawn back nature, and his origins, he isn't so well met with emotions, so those are one of his many interests and curiosities. He is well mannered, he knows how to maneuver a situation, but when he looks back at it, he can't help but feel distant and confused - why did they get so excited over such a small thing? Why did she blush so easily? Why did that boy get so scared by some wind? Why did he find himself observing the contours of someoneâs face when he didnât know them? Why did he wish to sketch them?..etcÂ
- He doesn't think he feels sorrow/regret like the others, he isn't like the others that much is certain. Sometimes when he is alone in some comfortable space he will just stare somewhere and wonder.... how would have he turned out if he just...felt more.. What does true happiness without limitations feel like? What is freedom? Does it come without regrets? In those moments he understands what sadness is. All these thoughts make him feel so heavy, his chest is heavy and tight and his heart feels lonely. At times he thinks what would happen if one of his close co workers were to suffer an injury or quit their work for greener pastures, the field of alchemy certainly wasnât any easy one for everyone. He knows heâd miss their presence.
- There are many more complex questions that plague him late at nights, only to shrug them off like a coat in the morning in favor of his Alchemist coatÂ
- This all being said, getting close to him is more on the difficult side. Unless you are willing to pull a little more work than him and frequently check in, he simply wouldn't know how to act. He does his best where he sees he can, though. He isnât emotionless, just a bit clueless.
 - He would gladly help you, and guide you in the field of Alchemy in case you are curious about it, although he would much rather point you in the direction of a "starter mentor" first, before he offers himself as a mentor. It's not that he's underestimating you, but he feels as if giving you a good, solid start with a teacher of an "average" Alchemist would be a much easier way into the field of alchemy. In a way, you could say heâs underestimating himself in handing you the knowledge he has in a way youâll understand.Â
- Klee is one person he feels most close to. Sucrose is a capable lady, smart and close to Albedo, but Klee is someone who simply touches Albedo's heart in more ways than one. He wishes to keep her close and protect her, she feels familiar to him and gives him more sense of grounding to this world even if the responsibility of taking care of her wasnât something he initially took on by choice
- That being mentioned he definitely has great patience with her, and slowly, even if she is not really able to understand, she is teaching him to feel
Romantic:
- Everyone knows the great Alchemist is also a great artist - everyone who has gazed upon his works would say so with 100 percent certainty paired with a couple more flattering words. Yet Albedo would shrug those compliments off and politely counter their words; a simple thank you does it
- He does not really see much of sentiment in those pieces of artwork as much as he does in the art he did of you
- Those are his favorite pieces. He loves to capture every detail of you whenever he can - the way your nose scrunches, the way your brow quirks, the way you lay down after a long day, the way the wind blows through your hair, the way your hands are after having them soaked in water for too long or when theyâre cold..
- He is still quite reluctant about initiating contact, especially the physical one due to his lack of proper experience on the topic. Most information he has was read from books or heard from his fellow Knights, but none worth mentioning or trying in practice in interactions with you
- So it takes much, much for him to warm up to the ideas, you will have to initiate things slowly, so he can warm up to those touches initiated by you as well but he does his own part in reciprocating and returning those small affections
- The best ways of bonding together is babysitting Klee honestly; drawing, searching nature for anything of interest..etc. So that being said his love languages are quality time, after that it would be acts of service and after that words of affirmation.Â
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#Genshin Impact#genshin#genshin x reader#genshin x you#genshin headcanons#genshin impact x reader#genshin albedo#albedo x reader#albedo kreideprinz#albedo kreideprinz x reader#albedo headcanons#albedo fluff#yes i kin albedo how did you know#fluff#headcanons#romantic#platonic#gn reader#albedo imagine
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what if tumblr. did not, in fact, do this.
#damien.txt#a blight upon my innocent notes page#i............. simply feel like this cannot be true#50000 is a lot huh. like a lot.#hmm. that's 50000 times someone has seen my posts and gone 'yeah. this is good'. wack. who are all of you#time to think about my online presence <3<3#this coming right after i saw a post that's like 'the longer you are online the more you realize there's a person out there on the internet#that you've never met that hates your guts' like at this point there has to be someone and i really wanna know who#probably a lot of people lmaooo i've been very annoying on the internet for a very long time#basically my whole life in fact! so. y'know. there have to be enemies somewhere out there.#anyways thanks for validating me on my stupid little blog u guys. means a lot.
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I dont think some people understand how truly awful and hellish withdrawals from some psych medications are.
#I feel like many many people see it as an overreaction when in reality someone actually feels like they are dying from wds#resent the fact that SO many doctors just prescribe shit all over the place nonstop without explaining the full risks n side effects#itâs scary as fuck honestly#I cannot tell yâall how many meds I have been put on that made me feel worse#or how many times Iâve ran out and not been able to pay for the shit#resulting in an absolute living fucking hell that does not let up until taking the substance again#meds are tricky.. itâs hard to have a definitive opinion in either direction (anti vs pro medication) because each individual is unique#sometimes meds save peopleâs lives#sometimes they make people suicidal#sometimes they cause complications that literally kill people#sometimes theyâre exactly what someone needed to be okay#you just canât generalize and say statements like ALL MEDS ARE BAD because that simply isnât true#and you canât assume everyoneâs body/mind will react to a certain medication the same way yours did#oops#accidentally did a tag rant#rant#medical#psychiatry#medication#withdrawal#withdrawals#mental illness#mental health#psych meds#psych medications#medications#prescription medication#prescription medications#american healthcare#healthcare
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Madk's mangaka is one of the few people who truly understands the old adage
Love and hate are two sides of the same coin
#madk#Motsu Akuma to Danshi Koukousei#makoto x jonathan#jonathan x makoto#this was one of the things about the manga that was endlessly beautiful and fascinating to me#often people cannot reconcile the idea of both being true#sure there are exes#people who love or once loved each other while also hating them#but it's not simply about loving and hating someone#and most depictions of this involve hate evolving into love or love evolving into bitter hate#but in madk love and hate are hopelessly intertwined between its main characters#Makoto is driven by his revenge and his hate for J#and yet even as he will not falter in his mission and continues to hate#he recognizes that no one in any realm holds his heart other than J#it's a twisted love#it's a story that admits that this love and this hate cannot be separated#it's a story that says by hating J Makoto has come to love him like no one else#Love and hate equal in obsessio#And it's what makes J's ending so tragic too#This was always going to happen#and it's not only that Makoto was deprived of the perfect resolution of revenge he desired#but it's the realization that after changing so much#after becoming that person you hate and obsessing over them so#they leave you. and now you're all alone. chasing the satisfaction of revenge once more. yearning to be loved and hated and obsessed over to#inflict your pain on someone else so you can feel some semblance of peace#and the cycle continues#Makoto wanted Jonathan dead early on#but when Jonathan died he took Makoto's heart with himđ„Č#i just be ramblin#madk spoilers
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Finished the line art for them!! I have both toned it irl and plan to digitally color it, but I like how this looks too so
Fankid run through under cut
From right to left: Vivienne Schoenheit (Rookvil) Faraja Kingscholar (Leona) Ellie Felmier (Epeldeuce) Samir Al-Asim (Silkali) Nami Ashengrotto (Jamiazu) Neo shroud (Idikei) Emil Schoenheit (rookvil) Tamaki Leech (Treyjade) Mallerie and Malick Draconia (Malleyuu)
#It feels so weird to see white faraja#Nami too.#Samir only somewhat. He kinda just looks like silver#Ellies name may change to Macie though. Iâve been tossing it around#This is Emilâs true personality though. Shit faced smile. Heâs is a terror with a grappling gun#OH also Neo Samir and Malick are the pop club of this era#And Viv and Nami compete in the vdc (I havenât gotten to this chapter yet in game. But I do generally know what happens (aka I have no clue#How frequently it happens)#Also Tamaki just has shit eye vision#Like my personal headcanon is that Azulâs eye glasses correct his pupil shape so he doesnât go blind from light#So he doesnât need the glasses underwater#But Tamaki needs glasses everywhere#She simply cannot see#Okay actual tags now#Twst#Twisted wonderland#Twst oc#Twisted wonderland oc#Vivienne Schoenheit#Faraja Kingscholar#Ellie Felmier#Samir Al-Asim#Nami Ashengrotto#Neo shroud#Emil Schoenheit#Tamaki Leech#Mallerie Draconia#Malick Draconia#OH THAT WORKED THANK GOD#typing those out each time is pain
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Google how to make peace with the fact that you will always be vaguely to extremely uncomfortable (depending on the day) with your body and how others perceive it until the day you die and nothing you do will ever change that
#I almost wish I was much more masc leaning than I am#so the answer would just simply be âgo on tâ#I keep seeing so many posts that are like hrt is good! this is your sign to go on hrt if youâve ever wanted to!#GOD I wish I were that simple#(those arenât bad posts thatâs not the point theyâre just not applicable to me and seeing the sentiment makes me sad and a bit frustrated)#(cuz for me itâs not that easy)#like are there some things T would do to my body that I would like?#yes absolutely. I would LOVE a deeper voice and fat redistribution#but like. thatâs it#I would not want it to do anything else#in fact that idea of anything else and potentially âpassingâ as a man makes me VISCERALLY uncomfortable#I do not want to be a man and I do not want ppl to perceive me as a man#but the same is true for being a woman#I do not like a lot of feminine traits but I do not want to strictly trade them for masculine ones#UNFORTINATELY you cannot pick and choose the affects of hrt#there is no way to âlook androgynousâ (which is what I want)#(yes ik you can use shapewear and makeup and contour and that can do SOME)#(but itâs A LOT of work and effort I donât have time or energy to do every day)#(and thereâs still some things about my body I wouldnât be able to alter doing stuff like that)#and itâs like sure I could go on T. but Iâd still have this problem just the opposite direction#and it. sucks#it sucks so hard knowing thereâs literally no conceivable way I will ever just have a body#that correlates to how I feel gender wise and will get people to âgender me correctlyâ#just based on how I look#and itâs something Iâve been thinking about recently a lot and itâs making me FHDJDKKSSKKSKS in a bad way#I know itâs cuz itâs pride month and I follow A LOT of trans ppl#who are posting trans pride and hrt and surgery info and stuff#(and obviously these are all very good things as I said)#itâs just. because of my particular situation they make me feel⊠bad#because I wonât ever have an option to be comfortable and happy with how I look lol
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that's literally nicki my best friend nicki
#all the people on reddit like 'ugh nicki is insufferable and is destroying the family' how does it feel to be wrong stupid and also sexist#if you dont understand that nicki is the most interesting character and the true protagonist of big love i simply cannot help you
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give me more horrorkiller content i say as i proceed to post solely about full mtt/mttpoly. i cant I CANT i cant just SOLELY post about one of the duos...... i cant JUST post about 2/3 of them it upsets me. everything MUST be in a trio of else i merge into my bed and rip my skin off when i try to get up
#it physically upsets me when i make 2/3 mtt content#i literally feel EMPTY like.... THIS IS NOT COMPLETE!!!! THEYRE NOT COMPLETE!!!! I NEED THE THIRD OF THE SET OF THREE DOLLS!!!!!!#maybe its just because i have a tendency to want completed things. royale high back in the day was terrible for me the collector#me at miniso opening blindboxes until i get the very specific 3 that represent the mtt idc how much it costs#i just choked on spit while typing this thats how i know that mtt content without the third is a curse#even if i did make just solely a horrorkiller post id just bring dust up in tags đđđ it would just end up being mtt poly in the end anyways#horrordust but i physically cant resist the urge to type out killer in tags#the dynamic just doesnt feel complete and im being so fucking serious about this#there is something MISSING from horrordust. horrorkiller. kist. something very wrong missing#the ship hits because its mtt but it doesnt feel SATISFYING without all three#i just cant explain it but there is an inexplicable whole in my soul that cannot be filled unless its with full trio#like just..... theres an aspect to the perfect group that each of the trio satisfies#this is absolutely an old thought but one that will never leave my mind#when youve become so inlove with the mtt that you simply like the concept of three now on its own and cant fathom one or god forbid TWO#3 is my favorite number now..... bc of mtt....... ermmmm...........#orange is my favorite BUT like.... red blue and purple as a group are tied for it in my heart#a lot of my favorite things have shifted because of the mtt#so when you (me) ask me to do anything BUT in threes i ask you......................... do you want me to kill mysel#i pat my dog 3 times on the head to signal im done petting her#ive trained my hands to be able to shuffle between âïžđ€đ€ on instinct now. its routine#god i make everything about the mtt its not even funny. only true mtt fans have made a song cover singing as them#i demoted myself to number 3 fan in my bio during my little mental break i had a couple days ago#but 3 is still high for the sheer amount of mtt fans that they are so i really dont care..... someone else can have spot 1 and 2 but 3#tricule rant
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#a friend announced they are pre-engaged#which#as someone who has been pre-engaged i simply cannot recommend#but also if you're so pumped as to tell the whole musical cast you're probably in a good spot with it where i really wasn't#but anyway this came right on the heels of me reflecting on that relationship#and i was like#i would not have immediately pegged those two as dating i don't pick up Chemistry#but i can see a deep deep care between them#and i thought to myself that feels like a permanent relationship#so to hear news of pre-engagement i was like haha another validation in my prophesy pocket#and i told my bf#and it made him a little sad bc i can confidently say other people have permanent vibes#but i cannot confidently say that about us#and it's fuckin true but it's a bummer#and like suicidal ideation that makes planning difficult aside#i realized this evening#i don't think i have ever seen a long-term relationship that i would like to emulate#at least nothing close up#so many patterns in the western het world that i sincerely do not want any part of#and it's not any blatant lack of trust it's just that we're normal enough people#it would be easy enough to fall into those inequitable patterns#go read that essay 'i want a wife' you know we all know#and this is dangerous to say on the tumblr dot com#but it's one of the reasons i have felt so connected to queerness as i grow up#never has the husband-wife dynamic held any appeal whatsoever#and it's so scary to be told and told thru church and media#here's the pattern here's the aspiration you want this right? good cool cool good
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Genuinely fucking batshit how some people will act as though the bare minimum level of care + respect for the people around them with different problems is like, an insurmountable fucking bar
#red rambles#ok yes yes i do actually have relatively severe brain problems that sometimes desperately need to be accommodated in person or i flip out#so maybe my perspective is different. but i think if you cannot even make a lip service attempt to accomodate your friends and peers when#they ask you not to talk about something with them or to try to avoid bringing up certain topics this is like not hard. there are many#harder things i like. id say i ask of people but that's not true since i know i never get it so i just self isolate . lol#but you see the point right#'ohhhh how could i do that' its not hard you simply think with your brain#'ohhh but what if it's annoying' well you just suck. like as a person#dont talk to them then. you don't get to have it both ways#eta. if you think this is specifically talking about you you are categorically wrong. this post was inspired by a really annoying#character i made up in a dream who was a dick to my friends so i killed them with a hammer. this is not like. a person i know irl#however if you feel like this is about you it is possible you're doing wrong by the people around you in which case like. like i said. bare#minimum is not to take people you are in active conversation with on subjects they don't want to talk about and def not to do it repeatedly.
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forgive me pls for importing even the barest shadow of twitter art discourse but i genuinely kinda love the âfanart is the lazy way to build a following! youâre taking the easy way out!!â takes.
like first of all: hell yeah i sure hope it does. and second of all we both know if it was actually easy you would have created fanart instead of this tweet
#like without fail the thing that pisses me off the most about every variation of âyouâre not a true artist ifâŠâ twitter discourse#is the assumption that i care about being considered a Real Artist#and then itâs the sheer presumptuousness of thinking i will defend myself to youâ some random guyâ#really my biggest weakness is how fighty i get whenever someone tries to take potshots at my ego#frankly if anything iâm offended that you think i have one#but also wow what an asshole. if i was someone else that could have really hurt my feelings. and that would have been so mean#i simply cannot allow that kind of hypothetical cruelty to go unchallenged#mumbling
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I read someone say: âMike projected his misery over his fight with Will onto the roller skate incidentâ and it was honestly one of the smartest things anyone has ever said. This mightâve been obvious but seeing it written down really opened my third eye. Unfortunately I canât remember who said it ://
read the tags for a little but more elaboration and another smart thing I said lmao
#mike was never that mad about the roller skate incident#he wasnât mad at el for it#it still shocked him but the true thing he was mad about was his fight with will#but he transferred that misery over their fight to el smacking angela in the face#because that was the ânormalâ thing to feel mad about atm#thatâs why he said âshe didnât look fineâ during dinner#itâs not that he was actually that invested in it#but he simply projected all his misery onto it#so he said that because he tricked himself to believe that heâs really riled up about what happened with El and Angela#even though thatâs not actually the case#i think his comment at the dinner table also has another meaning#the roller skate incident is paralleling what happened with the upside down over the years#and it shows that while everyone somehow manages to drown it out and pretend that everythingâs fine#mike canât do that#mike cannot simply pretend that everythingâs fine because itâs not#heâs still deeply traumatized by what happened and he canât cope#heâs living through all the consequences of the ud [like his deteriorating mental health] and thatâs clear evidence that nothing is fine!#mike isnât fine#and itâs probably very frustrating that everyone else seems to be content with pretending it is#byler#stranger things#mike wheeler#will byers#rink o mania#rink o mania fight
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i have a feeling that one of my... friends? doesn't like me anymore and it fucking sucks
#idk if i can even call her friend anymore lol#but idk i've felt like our relationshio hasn't been the same for a long time now n i know i should ask but the answer terrifies me lmao#but also. if i she did consider me her friend and i did smth to bother her unknowingly then it's her job to tell me. not me to find out#i've noticed that lots of my relationships is full of ppl who simply don't tell me stuff. don't tell me when i fuck up and it sucks!!!!#bcs sure sometimes i realize i did smth but most of the time i don't so then i'm left wondering if i'm overthinking it or if this person#stopped considering me their friend long ago!!!!!!!!#idk man i'm tired of always feeling a shift in my relationships and wondering if i did smth wrong and what it was. bcs i start to overthink#every single thing. and it also sucks bcs i feel like smth changed in out relationship but it's either true or i'm doubting my relationship#with the person bcs i'm never 100% sure abt how ppl feel abt me and it sucks!!!!!!! is it real or is my head just making things up#but im always terrified to ask so im just gonna torture myself until it is undeniable that out relationship cannot be saved and i couldn't#do anything bcs i was never told a single thing#it sucks that lots of my friendships have ended with me wondering if smth happened to it and the answer always being yes#idk im just tired of that. it gets so tiring to having to guess if i did smth or not. of guessing what position i have in their lives#anyways peace and love rtc etc#jo.txt
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