#i. have Not been doing good lately hdgsbsh? like. uhhh. like ive been feeling passively suicidal sorta
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calamarispider ยท 4 years ago
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#vent#vent tw#rape m#just. in the tags hgsbshs#i. have Not been doing good lately hdgsbsh? like. uhhh. like ive been feeling passively suicidal sorta#im not gonna. do anything? i just. theres the thoughts yknow. and like a bunch of intrusive thoughts hit me sometimes which rlly doesnt help#ive been having. a concerning number of dreams where i get raped lately?? and its. upsetting. i dont rlly know why either#theyre just. there. B:(#i feel a little like im going insane hgdbdh??? i keep forgetting stuff and dissociating super hard and i think my memories getting worse B:(#and i just. nothing feels right in my head. i have no idea where im going or where i want to be and i just feel like a mess#and like. i know this is true but im worried noone cares abt me? or at least. noone cares about if something happens to me#i know thats not true. its just been pounding in my head for ages and it. sucks to be thinking that#i cant even make the things i want to make. or do things i want to do. i just..cant do it. theres no energy for it. i havent been eating or#drinking enough. or sleeping well. which is probably why. i just. wish there was something i could pinpoint that could fix everything#but it feels like the problem is my brain. and it sucks. i still cant even cry??? i cant. remember the last time i cried#i feel like i did at some point recently but i have no idea when. it was...a While ago. B:(#idk its all just. B:( sucks and hurts and bad. and i have no idea what to do about it. other people i know are busy or asleep or going#through their own stuff too. so. idk hdbdgdb. i just want to lie down in a soft void and sleep forever and never dream
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